"The night she got lucky" - читать интересную книгу автора (Donovan Susan)

CHAPTER 17

Ginger pushed her chair away and began to clear the dishes from the outdoor table.

Absolutely not, Piers said, placing a large pale hand over hers. This has been such a wonderful evening and you've already done so much to make me feel welcome. Let me do this, please.

Her eyes shot to Lucio, who produced a warm smile. You know, it's funny, she said to Piers. Lucio made that same offer the first night he ate dinner with us. Are all European men this gallant?

Piers and Lucio looked briefly at each other and then howled with laughter.

The short answer would be no, guapa, Lucio said, coming over to her chair and kissing the top of her head. And just you waittwenty years from now I will have forgotten all of my manners. I will be throwing my drawers around and picking my teeth with twigs.

Josh and Jason thought that was hilarious, but Ginger didn't believe it for a minute. Lucio was the most conscientious personman or womanshe'd ever known. And his good habits had most definitely rubbed off on her boys, who, at that very moment, were helping to clear the table without being asked. But what resonated most in Lucio's joke was the reference to twenty years in the future. The idea of a lifetime with him at her side sent a shiver of pleasure through her.

Do you need a sweater, my love? Lucio asked.

I'll get it, but thank you. She placed a tender kiss on Lucio's lips before she headed for the patio door. The boys had become used to their kisses and caresses, though she and Lucio had been careful to create a PG-13 environment around the housethe last thing they wanted to do was turn the place into a replica of Larry's Barely Legal Love Emporium three blocks away.

But one look at Piers and Ginger knew he'd been surprised by the kiss. Piers stopped stacking dishes and stared at her and Lucio, his mouth slightly open.

She smiled at him, and he smiled back, clearly embarrassed.

Piers was an odd bird, she had to say. As Ginger walked upstairs she thought of how awkward he seemed when he first arrived with Lucio that evening. Shy and stammering, he needed some time before he relaxed, but once he did, he had the boys enthralled with stories of his mishaps and misadventures. He and Lucio got into a rhythm with their storytelling, and Ginger had been charmed by how Piers sometimes finished Lucio's sentences when his friend struggled to find the correct English, just as she and the boys sometimes did.

She could see how close they were. She understood that they knew each other well and respected each other immensely. Ginger knew all about their past, how Lucio left the heartbroken Sylvie in London for Piers to deal with. She knew how sad Piers had been after she passed away. It had been Ginger who suggested Lucio invite him over.

It was nice of Piers to offer to pick up Jason after school tomorrow and show him his work.

Jason asked specifically to see his passport. Is yours as sloppy and overstuffed as Lucio's? he asked.

Piers had laughed. His is tidy compared to mine.

Ginger had almost reached the top of the stairs when her head suddenly felt funny. She had to brace herself against the banister. She stumbled up the last two steps and kept a hand on the wall as she ran toward the master bathroom, not sure she'd get there in time. The sickness hit her with almost no warning, and it left her weak and dizzy.

After a few moments, Ginger made it to the sink. She washed her face with cold water and rinsed out her mouth, staring at her reflection in the mirror.

No way, she whispered, examining the rosy flush of her skin. There is absolutely no way this can be happening.

Ginger's hands gripped the bathroom counter. She needed to calm down. It didn't have to be that. It could be a virus, or something she'd eaten. It could be menopause! Of course!

But what else did she need to consider?

Well, how about the fact that the condom broke the night of the earthquake?

How many weeks ago was that?

But she'd had her period.

She'd had two periods, even!

But they'd both been lighter than usual, and shorter, with the spotting in between. And there were days when she was just bone-deep exhausted for no reason.

Oh, God! She knew if she weren't careful she'd start to hyperventilate. She didn't want Lucio to find her passed out on the bathroom floor, now did she?

Oh, crap. Lucio! He'd been so glad she wasn't pregnant!

Ginger ran a brush through her hair, willing the tears to stay put in their ducts. She applied a little lipstick. She took a slow and deep breath, deciding that for the rest of the evening she'd just relax. Maybe she'd skip that second glass of wine, fine, but other than that, it would be business as usual. Then tomorrow, after she got back from her morning walk with the girls, she'd stop by the drugstore and pick up a test kit. She'd make a point of stopping at a pharmacy on the other side of town, where no one knew her.

Oh boy, oh boy, oh boy, she said, turning, taking a moment to catch her side view reflection in the mirror. She smoothed her skirt across her belly. She sucked in and held her breath.

She wondered exactly what she was seeingone too many waffles that morning or a baby?

A baby she'd made with Lucio. A baby growing inside her.

Oh, Lord, what had she done?

This wasn't supposed to happen to her.

For God's sakeshe was forty!

Lucio and Ginger said their final good nights to Piers and shut the front door. The boys retreated to the family room, hoping to catch the end of the game.

All right, Lucio said, leading Ginger to the sofa and gesturing for her to sit. He plopped next to her. Let's have it.

Oh, damn. She thought she'd done an excellent job of pretending she was carefree. Relaxed. Not pregnant. It's nothing, she said. Really.

Genevieve. Lucio shook his head, scolding her. I meant it when I said I want to know everything that's going on with you. Please don't try to hide it from me. I can tell when there's something wrong.

She gave him a halfhearted smile.

You do not like Piers, is that it?

Ha! No. I mean yes. I like him. He's shy but sweet. That's not it.

Lucio frowned at her. You didn't eat much at dinner. No dessert. You were quiet the last part of the evening, too. Is your stomach bothering you again?

A little. I think I'm just tired. Genevieve tried to rise from the couch, but he grabbed her arm, gently pressed her down on her back and stretched out her legs. He got on top of her.

Guapa, he whispered, brushing her hair away from her face so that he could kiss her forehead, her nose, her cheeks, her chin. I worry about you, yes? I think you should see your doctor. It could be something serious.

Ginger was overwhelmed at the concern she saw in his eyes. She truly loved this man. He was everything she could ever hope for. But how would he react if she really was pregnant? He'd been so happy when she told him she wasn't! And later he'd said he might have been open to the idea if he'd met her earlier!

But it wasn't earlier. It was now. And he'd already told her he didn't think he would be a good father now.

Ginger kissed him sweetly on the lips and ran her fingertips down his rough stubble. She knew there was no point in freaking him out tonight. She would tell him when, and if, she had news to tell.

I'll make an appointment, she told him. But please don't worry. It's probably nothing.

The crease between his dark eyebrows deepened. I I love you with all my soul, pelirroja. I have never loved anyone before you. How can I not worry?

I love you, too, Lucio, Ginger said, raising her mouth to his. I know everything's going to be fine.

I'll be damnedit's official. Bea stood at the top of the hill at Dolores Park early the next morning, obviously near tears. She let Martina off the leash as they approached, whipping out the folded newspaper she'd been holding under her arm.

She held it up. A twenty-four-point bold headline ran the width of the front page, just below the masthead. It said simply:

GOOD-BYE, SAN FRANCISCO

Aw, man, that's so incredibly sad, Josie said, scowling. How long have you known?

Bea laughed bitterly. Are you kidding? I didn't know. Nobody did! They didn't bother telling those of us who were still employed.

You're kidding? Roxanne said.

I'm not. I just pulled this out of the newspaper box at the corner of Market and Sixteenth!

It was bound to happen, Ginger said, her voice quiet. At least you were one of the last few people in the newsroom.

Doesn't make it hurt any less, Bea said.

Josie patted her on the arm. Have you been thinking about what you might like to do?

Bea nodded. Actually, I've been thinking about getting into canine agility training as a profession. I'd need to get certified, but that wouldn't take too long.

Hey, and you could use your Petography picture on your business cards! Roxanne suggested.

I could!

Suddenly everyone turned to Ginger, who had been unusually quiet. She looked down at her shoes.

I didn't think you'd take this so hard, Bea said. I know you miss the paper, but you've been enjoying your work with Lucio, right?

Ginger looked up and tried to smile. I'm having more fun than I ever imagined I would.

Bea looked baffled. Then why the long face?

Ginger took a second to look into her friends' eyes, one at a time. This is a little embarrassing to tell you.

Uh-oh, Roxanne said.

What's wrong? Josie asked, stepping close.

Ginger wrapped her arms around her ribs, as if she were trying to prop herself up. Well, it's just that I've got a really bad feeling about something and I was wondering if you guys would let me vent for a minute.

Uh-oh, Roxanne said again.

I might need your help with something this morning, is all I'm saying. Is everyone free?

Bea laughed. Can't get much freer than the four of us. What's going on?

Wait. Let me guess, Roxie said. You think Lucio's going to dump you and you want us to help you spy on him! She pounded her fist on her thigh and shook her head in disgust. That low-down, dirty, no-good, chicken-shit motherfucker!

After a stunned moment of silence, Ginger said, Uh, nooo.

Bea looked impressed. That was a Pulitzer Prize-winning spew of obscenity, Roxhow long you been waiting for the perfect moment to unleash that puppy? Is it on the Web site yet?

Not yet, she answered, smiling big. I came up with it just a couple days ago. It's great, isn't it?

Josie clucked her tongue in annoyance and turned to Ginger. What's wrong? She touched Ginger's shoulder. Is Jason in trouble again?

Ginger smiled. No, in fact, it's the opposite. Since Jason's been helping Lucio, he hasn't had one truancy issue or curfew violation and his grades are getting a lot better.

Bea leaned back and examined Ginger studiously. So did Lucio take off with your credit cards? Steal money from your checking account?

What? Ginger's mouth fell open. God, no!

Savings?

No, Bea! Good Lord! He'd never steal money from me!

You think he's stepping out on you? Josie's eyes were huge.

No, no, no, no, no.

Then it can only be one thing, Roxanne said, reaching for Ginger's hand. He's going away on assignment, isn't he?

He is? Ginger's pulse spiked.

I don't know, I'm asking you! Roxie said, rolling her eyes.

Okay, girls, this is ridiculous. Just cut to the chase, will you, Ginger? Bea's voice suddenly grew soft. You're starting to scare me.

Okay. Okay. Ginger took a deep breath. Look, it could be nothing. It may be that I really am starting menopause. But I've got all this weird spotting going on and nausea and I'm exhausted all the time.

Her three friends said nothing. Roxanne looked like she'd stopped breathing.

Oh my God, Josie said, her hand flying to her mouth.

Yeah, Ginger said with an uncomfortable laugh. That's what I said.

What the fuck? Bea looked frantic. I don't have the slightest idea what you're all so freaked out about. What's going on?

Ginger sighed. I think I'm pregnant.

She's still holed up in the bathroom with Josie, Roxanne said, opening the door to Ginger's home, ushering Bea and Mrs. Needleman inside. Bea transferred the old lady to Roxie's care, and Roxie guided her through the foyer and into the living room.

They've been in there the whole time? Bea asked, incredulous.

Yeah, Roxanne said. She says she's never coming out and she won't let Josie out, either.

Well, this is just hellish, Bea said, throwing her car keys onto the front hall table.

You doing okay, Mrs. Needleman? Roxanne made sure she was seated comfortably on the sofa.

Oh, stop fussing over me. I'm fine. It's Genevieve I'm worried about. Mrs. Needleman set her big square handbag on the floor by her feet. Now, you go up there and tell her enough is enough.

Roxanne's gaze traveled to where Bea stood in the foyer, arms crossed and eyes rolling toward heaven.

Who, me? Roxie asked.

You and/or Bea. It hardly matters, Mrs. Needleman said. Just go up there and tell her that I am an eighty-four-year-old widow and I'm in no position to climb up all those steps, and, since she asked for me, the least she can do is be courteous enough to come downstairs.

I'll do it, Bea said. She ran up the steps, taking two at a time. She called out to Josie and Ginger once she got to the upstairs hallway, not certain which bathroom they'd been using as their positive-pregnancy-test fallout shelter.

We're in here!

Bea followed Josie's voice and stood in front of the door of the master bathroom. She tried the knob. It was locked.

Okay, girls. Open up. Bea listened as Josie tried in vain to get Ginger to agree to leave the bathroom. Bea heard Ginger crying, then the sound of the lock disengaging from the other side of the door.

Josie opened it a crack. Is Mrs. Needleman here? she asked.

Downstairs, Bea answered, poking her head inside to see Ginger huddled on the floor next to the Jacuzzi. And she said she's too old and frail to get up the steps. She said if Ginger didn't put on her big-girl panties and get down there in two minutes, she'll be leaving.

Ginger looked up, her eyes red and swollen, the test stick dangling from her hand. She really said that?

Yes.

Really? Josie asked, looking doubtful.

Okay, not the part about the big-girl panties. That was my contribution. Bea walked toward Ginger and held her hand down. Come on, little mama. You can't spend the next nine months cowering in the bathroom.

Seven months, Ginger said, taking Bea's hand and allowing herself to be pulled up. I'm two months pregnant.

Those tests tell you all that? Bea asked, impressed. I always thought it was just an on/off kind of result.

Ginger shook her head. She ran cool water over a washcloth and dabbed her face. The test doesn't know'I know.

Well, I hate to tell you this, Bea said. You've got a whole lot less than seven months to get your act together, because your boys are going to be home from school in about an hour.

Oh, no, that's right! Ginger straightened up and smoothed out her shirt. And Piers is coming over to pick up Jason at five. I need to get a grip.

Bea steadied Ginger's elbow and led her and Josie into the living room. Bea delivered Ginger to the spot next to Mrs. Needleman on the sofa.

You have a lovely home, dear, the old woman said to Ginger.

Thanks.

Just think how fortunate you are! Think about all you will have to offer this blessed child of yours.

No one said anything. Josie left the room and came back with a handful of paper napkins from the kitchen, shoving them at Ginger.

You have already proven that you are a loving mother, Mrs. Needleman said. You have a man who adores you, two nearly grown sons who will be devoted big brothers, and a thriving business concern.

Ginger blew her nose into a napkin.

Genevieve, do you remember what I told you when you came to my home?

Yeah. You told me I was in for a bumpy ride.

Yes, but what did I say after that?

Ginger took a deep breath and folded the napkins into a neat pile in her lap. You said my little family would come out just fine. But I didn't know you meant I was about to have a new little family member!

Mrs. Needleman patted Ginger's hand. Do any of us ever really know what is around the next bend? She looked at the three women gathered near the sofa.

Josephine, a year ago could you have even imagined where you are now?

Josie laughed. Hell no.

But is your life now better than ever?

Josie's smile was huge. I guess, though some days I really miss Lloyd.

For God's sake, Roxanne said. Everyone else laughed, remembering the last of Josie's ex-boyfriends.

Mrs. Needleman turned to Bea. Do you know where you'll be a year from now, Beatrice?

She chuckled. Collecting cans?

I think you will be pleasantly surprised.

Mrs. Needleman turned to Roxie next. Think back to a year ago, Roxanne. Could you have envisioned your life as it is today?

No, she said, shifting her weight from foot to foot. A year ago I had the job of my dreams and a man I thought was the love of my life.

So it can all change in an instant, can't it? Mrs. Needleman asked.

Absolutely.

Keep that in mind, my dear, she told Roxanne.

And Genevieve, how much has your life changed in, say, the last three years?

Ginger let out a combination groan and laugh.

And looking back, can you say that there was a reason for all these changes?

Ginger peered up from her napkin collection and nodded at Mrs. Needleman.

Tell us about that.

She looked into the faces of her friends and gave them a sad smile. It's nothing everyone hasn't heard a hundred times.

Refresh our memories, Mrs. Needleman said.

Ginger took a moment to collect her thoughts. Well, I guess you could say I found Larry doing the math tutor in the driveway because I needed to know the truth about my marriage. I guess I wasn't brave enough to see it without, you know, a few audiovisual aids.

Bea snorted.

Nicely put. Mrs. Needleman patted Ginger's hand in delight. Anything else?

Well, I guess you could say I was at Josie's wedding to meet Lucio.

Everyone nodded.

And that Lucio got thrown out of China so that he would be here in San Francisco to take pictures at Rick's wedding, so he could meet me.

More nods.

And I became friends with Josie, Rox, and Bea so that I would be a bridesmaid on that day, Ginger said.

And we became friends because we all had dogs, Bea added.

And we all had dogs because we thought they were more reliable than men, Josie said.

And I was so vain and self-centered that I ordered a size four bridesmaid dress, which cut off my air supply and caused me to faint, which meant Lucio had to carry me to my room and kiss me.

Which means this could go on forever, Roxie said, looking bored.

Mrs. Needleman giggled and her narrow shoulders bobbed up and down. She clapped her hands in delight.

That was your whole point, wasn't it? Bea asked.

Absolutely correct, my brilliant friend. Mrs. Needleman turned her attention to Ginger. Now, with that kind of cosmic context in mind, how in the world can any of us see this baby as a mistake, or a problem? Everything in Genevieve's life has led up to this momentthis child. There is a reason. There is always a reason.

Bea sniffed, wiping a tear from her eye. Josie put her arm around Bea and pulled her close. Roxie cracked her neck.

Well, then, I guess my next step will be to tell Lucio, Ginger said, her voice getting stronger. Then together we'll tell the boys. And I guesswow'we're going to have to tell Larry.

Ooh, ooh! Can I watch? Bea asked, clearly over her moment of sensitivity.

I just hope to hell it's a girl, Roxie said.

I didn't even think of that! Ginger straightened from her slump, suddenly brightening. I'm so used to having boys that I just assumed I had another one in there! But what if it really is a girl?

What would you name her? Josie asked.

HeatherLee? Bea suggested. HannaLynn?

Ginger shook her head, laughing. I'm sure that together we'll all come up with the perfect name.

Hey, Josie said, smiling shyly. Do you think you guys can help me come up with a name, too?

Everyone stared in silence.

My sister named Genghis, so I'm damn sure not asking her for suggestions when it comes to a baby.

What! Roxanne clutched at her heart.

The next five minutes were nothing but screams of happiness and jumping around and Bea letting loose with a few whoop-whoop-whoops of joy.

Does Rick know? Ginger squealed.

No. I'm telling him tonight, Josie said. So nobodyI mean nobodycan say a word to anyone, all right?

Same goes for me, actually, Ginger said. This is all just between the four of us She stopped herself, turning toward Mrs. Needleman. I mean the five of us.

The seven of us, Bea said, pointing at both Josie's and Ginger's bellies.

Mrs. Needleman giggled.

Come on up here, Bea said, walking over to the sofa and helping the older woman to her feet. We have a little ritual that we do. Maybe you'd like to be part of it.

Well, I'll certainly try my best, she said, joining in the circle.

Pile on, girls, Bea said, shoving her hand in the center, palm side down.

Ginger put her hand on top of Bea's. Roxie put hers on Ginger's. Josie took hold of Mrs. Needleman's arthritic hand and placed it gently over Roxie's, then put hers on top.

Josie went first. I pledge to enjoy every moment of this next phase of my life, to be open to all the adventures that lie ahead, no matter what is around the next corner. She winked at Mrs. Needleman.

Bea went next. I vow to provide rides to doctor's appointments or Lamaze classes or run out for pickles and baklava or anything else you girls might need in the coming months. Plus, I will learn everything I can about babysitting. But I won't make a pest of myself. Plus, I swear I won't tell Teeny about any of this.

You better not! Josie said.

Roxie looked at Mrs. Needleman, who nodded for her to go next. Roxie sighed before she made her contribution. Okay, she said. I give my word to all of you that I'll refrain from bad-mouthing men during your pregnancies because, well, men are how you got that way in the first place.

Everyone snickered.

And if they turn out to be boys I'll love them anyway, she added.

Thank you for that, Rox, Josie said.

They all turned to Mrs. Needleman, who giggled again. Is it my turn? she asked.

Yes! they all said together.

Can I say anything I want?

Of course!

All right, then. She cleared her throat. I promise to watch over each and every one of you, forever. Mrs. Needleman's eyes sparkled. She took her free hand and placed it on Ginger's belly, bending slightly to address whoever lurked inside. And that means you, little one. Then she touched Josie's stomach. And you, too, my dear.

Mrs. Needleman straightened and her eyes filled with happy tears. You have no idea how much joy you've brought to this little old woman, she said. I treasure you all.

By the time the boys got home, Ginger had showered, fixed her hair, got something in her stomach, and made herself presentable.

The boys didn't notice that anything was amiss. Of course, they were distracted by the bag of Doritos, the leftover apple pie, the frozen miniature bagel pizzas, and the half a gallon of orange juice they were hauling out of the refrigerator.

Josh ripped the foil cover off the pie tin, perplexed. Hey, how many pieces of this pie did you eat last night, Fatty McFatface?

Shut up, Faggy McFagtard, Jason said. I had one piece last night, like everyone did.

But there's only one piece left! Who's going to get to eat it? Josh moaned.

Ever heard of fractions, President Pissbrain?

Ginger sat down at the kitchen table, putting her hands in her lap, thinking back to when her boys didn't insult each other twenty-four/seven, to when they didn't have armpit hair, or Facebook accounts.

She remembered when she was pregnant with them. She loved being pregnant. She'd been equal parts thrilled and terrified. She'd read everything she could get her hands on, and knew on any given day what exact stage of development the babies had reached. She remembered feeling as if she were the center of the universe, the only woman who had ever been pregnant. She'd felt more specialand more beautifulthan at any other time in her life.

This time around, she would be less terrified and more knowledgeable. She would savor it instead of wishing the time would race by. She would feel even more special, because this baby wasn't planned. This baby had arrived in her life unexpectedly, just the way his or her father had.

Suddenly it dawned on Ginger that Josh and Jason would be well over sixteen when the baby was born. She gasped. They'd be thirty-four-year-old men by the time the baby graduated from high school! And she'd be fifty-eight!

What are you thinking about, Mumu? Josh asked. You okay?

Yeah, Jason said, putting the pizza bites in the microwave. Dad told us you were going through the change and that we could expect to see you freak out on a regular basis. So is that what you're doing now?

Ginger laughed at the irony. Just a couple months ago she was worried about whether to get a glycolic acid facial. Now she was worried about getting enough folic acid. Back then she was booking appointments with plastic surgeons who could make her look younger. Now she had to book an appointment with an OB who specialized in older moms.

She smiled at her boys. I'm going through a change all right, but not the one your dad thinks.

Jason shoved a wad of Doritos in his mouth and looked at her for a minute, as if he were weighing her last statement. You know, Dad said he didn't appreciate all the time Lucio was spending with me. He said he thought Lucio was just pretending to like me and Josh so you'd let him move in here and sponge off your alimony.

He called him a freeloader, Josh said.

And a gigolo, Jason said.

And Dad said your work at Petography wasn't a real job, Josh said.

And he said he's going to come over here one day and kick Lucio's ass, Jason added.

Ginger began laughing in earnest. It was just too hilarious. Here she was, knocked up with the disingenuous, freeloading gigolo's baby and not even gainfully employed! Was Larry going to have a field day with that, or what?

She was laughing so hard she didn't hear the doorbell.