"Джек Керуак. Big Sur (engl)" - читать интересную книгу автораknees in foggy doorways in the goopy eerie city night I've got to escape or
die, and into the bus station In a half hour into a bus seat, the bus says "Monterey" and off we go down the clean neon hiway and I sleep all the way, waking up amazed and well again smelling sea air the bus driver shaking me "End of the line, Monterey. " - And by God it is Monterey, I stand sleepy in the 2 A. M. seeing vague little fishing masts across the street from the bus driveway. Now all I've got to do to complete my escape is get 14 miles down the coast to the Raton Canyon bridge and hike in. 3 "One fast move or I'm gone" so I blow $8 on a cab to drive me down that coast, it's foggy night tho sometimes you can see stars in the sky to the right where the sea is, tho you cant see the sea you can only hear about it from the cabdriver - "What kinda country is it around here? I've never seen it. " 'Well, you cant see it tonight - Raton Canyon you say, you better be careful walkin around there in the dark. " 'Why? " "Well, just use your lamp like you say... " And sure enough when he lets me off at the Raton Canyon bridge and counts the money I sense something wrong somehow, there's an awful roar of surf but it isnt coming from the right place, like you'd expect it to come from "over there" but it's coming from "under there" - I can see the bridge but I can see nothing below it - The bridge continues the coast highway from one bluff to another, it's a nice white bridge with white rails and there's a white line runnin down the middle familiar and highway like but few bushes into empty space in the direction where the canyon's supposed to be, it feels like being up in the air somewhere tho I can see the dirt road at our feet and the dirt overhang on the side "What in the hell is this? " - I've got the directions all memorized from a little map Monsanto's mailed me but in my imagination dreaming about this big retreat back home there'd been something larkish, bucolic, all homely woods and gladness instead of all this aerial roaring mystery in the dark - When the cab leaves I therefore turn on my railroad lantern for a timid peek but its beam gets lost just like the car lights in a void and in fact the battery is fairly weak and I can hardly see the bluff at my left - As for the bridge I cant see it anymore except for graduating series of luminous shoulder buttons going off further into the low sea roar... The sea roar is bad enough except it keeps bashing and barking at me like a dog in the fog down there, sometimes it booms the earth but my God where is the earth and how can the sea be underground! - "The only thing to do, " I gulp, "is to put this lantern shinin right in front of your feet, kiddo, and follow that lantern and make sure it's shinin on the road rut and hope and pray it's shinin on the ground that's gonna be there when it's shinin, " in other words I actually fear that even my lamp will carry me astray if I dare to raise it for a minute from the ruts in the dirt road - The only satisfaction I can glean from this roaring high horror of darkness is that the lamp wobbles huge dark shadows of its little rim stays on the overhanging bluff at the left of the road, because to the right (where the bushes are wiggling in the wind from the sea) there aint no shadows because |
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