"Brock" - читать интересную книгу автора (Lackey Mercedes)BROCK by
Tanya Huff Tanya
Huff lives and writes in rural Ontario with her partner, six cats,
and a chihuahua who refuses to acknowledge her existence. Her latest
book, out for DAW in May of 2003, was the third in the Keeper
Chronicles called Long Hot Summoning and she's currently
working on the first of three books spinning the character Tony off
from her Blood series (DAW spring 2004). In her spare time she
gardens and complains about the weather. "Id's
just a code." Trying
not to smile at the same protest he'd heard for the last two days,
Jors set the empty mug on a small table. "Healer Lorrin says
it's more, Isabel. She says you're spending the next two days in
bed." The
older Herald tried to snort, but her nose had filled past the point
it was possible, and she had to settle for an avalanche of coughing
instead. "She cud heal me," she muttered when she could
finally breathe again. "She
seems to think that a couple of days in bed and a couple of hundred
cups of tea will heal you just fine."
"Gibbing
children their Greens..." That
was half a protest at best and, as Jors watched, Isabel's eyes
closed, the lines exhaustion had etched around them beginning to
ease. Leaning forward, he blew out the lamp, then quietly slipped
from the room. "Oh,
she's sick," the Healer assured him, exasperation edging her
voice. "What could have possessed her to ride courier at her
age, at this time of the year? Yes, the package and information she
brought from the Healer's Collegium will save lives this winter, but
surely there had to have been younger Heralds around to deliver it?" Jors
opened his mouth to answer. Lorrin
gave him no chance. "If she hadn't run into your riding sector,
she might not have made it this far. She needs rest and I'm keeping
her in bed until I think she's had enough of it." Jors
didn't argue. He wouldn't have minded an actual conversation—Lorrin
was young and pretty—but unfortunately, she seemed too
determined to run this new House of Healing the way she felt a House
of Healing should be run to waste time in dalliance with the
healthy. *
* * "Have
you good as new. You see. Good as new. Soft and clean." Jors
stopped just inside the stable door and stared in astonishment at the
young man grooming his Companion. The stubby fingers that held the
brush, the bulky body, the round face, angled eyes, and full mouth
told the Herald that this unexpected groom was one of those the
country people called Moonlings. He wore patched homespun; the pants
too large, the shirt too small, both washed out to a grimy gray. His
boots had seen at least one other pair of feet. He'd
already groomed the chirras and Isabel's Companion, Calida—the
sleeping mare all but glowed in the dim stable light. :Gervis?: :His
name is Brock.: The stallion's mental voice sounded sleepy and
sated. :Can we take him with us?: :No.
And how do you know what his name is?: :He
talks to us and he knows exactly—oh, yes—where to rub.: Companions
were not in the habit of allowing themselves to be groomed by other
than Heralds' hands. Jors found it hard to believe that they'd not
only allowed Brock's ministrations but were actually reveling in
them. He stepped forward and, at the sound of his footfall, Brock
turned. His
face broke into a broad smile radiating welcome. Arms spread, he
rushed at the Herald and wrapped him in a tight hug. Staring up at
Jors, their faces barely inches apart, he joyfully repeated "Brother
Herald!" over and over while a large gray dog leaped around them
barking. :Gervis?: :The
dog's name is Rock. He's harmless.: :Glad
to hear that.: "Brock...I
can't breathe ..." "Sorry!
Sorry." Releasing him so quickly Jors stumbled and had to grab
the edge of a hay rack, Brock shuffled back, still smiling. "Sorry.
I brushed." One short-fingered hand gestured back at the
Companions. "Good as new. Soft and clean." "You
did a very good job." Jors stepped around the dog, now lying
panting on the floor and ran his fingers down Gervis' side. There
wasn't a bit of straw, a speck of dust, a hair out of place on either
Companion. :Better
than very good,: Gervis sighed. Jors
smiled and repeated the compliment. :Did you say thank you, you
fuzzy hedonist?: In
answer, the Companion stretched out his neck and gently nuzzled
Brock's cheek, receiving a loud, smacking kiss in return. "Okay.
We go now." Brock bent and picked a ragged, gray sweater out of
the straw and wrestled it over his head. "We go now," he
repeated, placing both hands in the small of Jors' back and pushing
him toward the stable door. "Or we come late and Mister Mayor is
mad and yells." "Late
for...?" :The
petitions.: Gervis' mental voice sounded more than a little
amused and Jors remembered he'd intended to merely look in on the
Companions on his way to the town hall. Heading
out into the square, he realized Brock was trotting to keep up, and
he shortened his stride. "Does the mayor yell a lot?" "Yes.
A lot." "Do
you know why?" Brock
sighed deeply, one hand dropping to fondle the ears of the dog
walking beside him. "Mister Mayor wears the town," he said
very seriously after a moment. "The town swings heavy heavy." Okay;
that made no sense. Maybe we should try something less complex. "Is
Rock your dog?" "He's
my friend. They were hurting him. I...Wait!" Uncertain
of just who had been told to wait, Jors watched Brock and the dog run
across to the town well where a pair of women argued over who'd draw
their water first. Ignored in the midst of the argument, Brock began
to draw water for them. He had no trouble with the winch, but while
pouring from bucket to bucket, he splashed the older woman's skirt.
Suddenly united, they turned on him. By the time Jors arrived, Brock
had filled another bucket in spite of the shouting—although his
shoulders were hunched forward and he didn't look happy. The
older woman saw him first, shoved the other, and the shouting
stopped. "Ladies." "Herald,"
they said in ragged unison. "Let
me give you a hand with that, Brock. You bring the water up, and I'll
pour." "Pouring
is hard," Brock warned. "Herald,
you don't have to," one of the women protested. "We never
asked this..." When Jors turned a bland stare in her direction,
she reconsidered her next word. "...boy to help." "I
know." His tone cut off any further protests and neither woman
said anything until all the buckets had been filled, then they
thanked him far more than the work he'd done required. He'd turned to
go when at the edge of his vision he saw one woman lean forward and
pinch Brock on the arm, hissing, "Now that's a real Herald." "HERALD
JORS!" Across
the square, the mayor stood on the steps of the town hall, chain of
office glinting in the pale autumn sunlight, both hands urging him to
hurry. Well, he'll just have to wait! Lips pressed into a thin
line, Jors turned back toward the well, had his elbow firmly grabbed,
and found himself facing the mayor again. "Mister
Mayor is yelling," Brock explained, moving Jors across the
square. "Let
him. I saw what happened back there. I saw that woman pinch you." "Yes."
He turned a satisfied smile toward Jors, never lessening their
forward motion. "I made them stop fighting. Heralds do that." "Yes,
they do." They'd almost reached the hall and Jors had a strong
suspicion that digging his heels in would have had no effect on their
forward motion. "You're stronger than you look." "Have
to be." I'll
bet, Jors thought as he caught sight of the mayor's expression. "Brock!
Get your filthy hands off that Herald!"
"Hands
are clean." "I
don't care! He doesn't need you hanging around him!" "I
don't mind." Jors swept through the door, Brock caught up in his
wake, both moving too quickly for the mayor to do anything but fall
in behind. "Heralds
work together," Brock announced proudly. He clapped his hands as
heads began to turn. "Be in a good line now. Heralds are here." "Heralds?"
a male voice jeered from the crowd. "I see only one Herald,
Moonling." "Heralds!"
Brock repeated, throwing his arms around Jors' waist in another hug.
"Me and him."
Oh,
Havens. :Trouble,
Heart-brother?: :I
just realized something that should have been obvious—Brock
believes he's a Herald.: :So?
You'd rather he believed he was a pickpocket?:
:That's
not the point.: But
he couldn't let the townspeople chase Brock from the hall as they
clearly wanted to do and Brock wouldn't leave because it was time for
the Heralds to hear petitions, so Jors ended up sitting him at the
table and hoping for the best. He
realized his mistake early on. Brock had a loudly expressed opinion
on everything, up to and including calling one of the petitioners a
big fat liar—which turned out to be true; on all points.
Unfortunately, short of having him physically carried out of the
hall, Jors could think of no way to get him to leave.
:Have
him check on Isabel.: :How...
?" :You're
worried. You're projecting. And I'm only across the square. If he
wants to be with a Herald, send him to check on Isabel. She's sick
and she needs company.: :That's
a terrific idea.: Gervis'
mental voice sounded distinctly smug. :I know.: It
worked. Jors only wished the Companion had thought of it sooner. A
Herald's office protected him or her from the repercussions of a
judgment—no matter how disgruntled the losing petitioner might
be, few would risk the grave penalties attached to attacking a
Herald. Brock didn't have that protection. Good thing he's safely
tucked away with Isabel. *
* * "No,
Brock's not here." Healer Lorrin continued rolling strips of
soft linen. "He left at sunset for the tavern." "The
tavern?" "He's
there every evening. He fills their wood box and they feed him—him
and Rock." "He
works there?" Lorrin
nodded. "There, and the blacksmith's whenever there's a nervy
horse in to be shoed—animals trust him. I tried to have him
deliver teas to patients, but if he's carrying something, there's
always troublemakers who try to take it from him." "I'm
surprised." Jors rubbed his elbow at the memory. "He's
quite strong." "Is
he?" She set the finished roll with the others and picked up a
new strip of cloth. "He's bullied all the time, but I've never
seen him defend himself. Did you know that poorer mothers have him
watch their infants if they have to leave them? I'll tell you
something, Herald. When I came here a year ago, I was amazed to
discover this town has almost none of those horrible accidents that
happen when a baby just starting to creep is left alone and burns to
death or drowns—that's because of Brock." "Where
does he sleep?" This far north, the nights were already cold. "In
various stables when the weather's good. By someone's hearth when it
isn't." "Has
he no family?" "His
parents were old when he was born, old and poor. They died about
three yeas ago and left him nothing." "Why
doesn't someone take him in?" "He
doesn't want to be taken," the Healer snapped. "He's not a
stray cat, and for all he can be childlike, he's not a child. He's a
grown man, probably not much younger than you and he has the same
right as you do to choose his life." "But..." She
sighed and her tone softened. "There are those who try to make
sure he doesn't suffer for those choices, but that's all anyone has a
right to do. Besides..." One corner of her mouth quirked up.
"...he tells me that Heralds never stay in one place so no one
thinks they like some people more than others." Simpler
language but pretty much the official reason, Jors allowed. "How
long has he believed himself to be a Herald?" "As
long as I've been here. I'm surprised you haven't heard about him
from other Heralds. You can't be the first he's latched on to." "He
wasn't in the reports I read and I..." About to say he doubted
Brock would come up in casual conversation between Heralds, he
frowned at a distinct feeling of unease. "I should go now." "There's
no need to go to the Waystation tonight, I've plenty of room."
Her smile edged toward invitation. "I doubt anyone will accuse
you of favoritism if you stay here." "No.
Thank you. I need to..." The feeling was growing stronger.
"...um, go." He
doubted she'd be smiling that way at him again, but personal problems
were unimportant next to his growing certainty that something was
wrong. Taking the steps two at a time, he hit the ground floor
running and headed for the stables. :Gervis?: :We
can feel it, too. Calida says it's close.: It
wasn't in the stables or the corral, but when Jors opened the small
door, a pair of huddled figures tumbled inside. Brock
lifted a tear-drenched face up from matted gray fur and wailed,
"Heralds don't cry." "Says
who?" Jors demanded, dropping to one knee.
"People.
When I cry." "People
are wrong. I'm a Herald and I cry." He stretched out a hand,
keeping half his attention on the big dog who watched him warily.
Herald's Whites meant nothing to Rock, and he didn't lower his
hackles until Gervis whickered a warning of his own. "What
happened? Did someone hurt you?" "Heralds
don't tattle!" His
various tormentors had probably been telling him that for years. "If
someone does something bad, we do." "No." "Yes.
If we can't make it right on our own, we tell someone who can. Bad
things should never be hidden. It makes them worse." Brock
drew in a long shuddering breath and slowly held out his arm. Below
the ragged cuff of his sweater was a dark bruise where a large hand
had gripped his wrist. "Is
that all?" "Rock
came. The man ran away." "Who
was it?" "A
bad man." No
argument there. "Do you know his name?"
"A
bad man," Brock repeated, wiping his nose against the dog's
shoulder. :You
catch him and I'll kick him.: The Companion's mental voice was a
near growl. :Calida says she'll help.: *
* * "It's
a bad bruise, but it is just a bruise. Healer Lorrin wrapped it in an
herb pack and she says he'll be fine. He won't stay, says he's not
sick enough, but I can't just let him wander off into the night." "Coors
you cand." "And
I can't take him to the Waystation and I can't stay with him because
that would be seen as losing impartiality. So, do you mind if he
spends the night with Calida?" Isabel
managed a truncated snort. "Fine wid me, bud you'd bezd ask
her." Leading
Gervis and the chirras out of the stable, Jors turned for one last
look at Brock curled up against Calida's side. The elderly mare had
been pleased to have the company and had positioned herself in such a
way that Brock could pillow his head against her flank. Rock had
snuggled up on the young man's other side and although his face was
still blotchy, Jors had never seen anyone look so completely at
peace. :Why
do you two care about him so much?: he asked as he mounted. :He
believes he is a Herald.:
:Yes,
but...: :And
he acts accordingly.: *
* * The
next day during petitions, the mayor tripped over Rock sprawled by
the table. Jerking his chain of office down into place, he snarled,
"That dog is vicious and ought to be destroyed." Jors
pushed Brock back into his chair. "Who says this dog is
vicious?" The
mayor's lip curled. "I heard he attacked a man last night." "I
heard that, too, Herald," called out one of the waiting
petitioners. "Brock,
show everyone your arm." The bruises were dark and ugly against
the pale skin. "The man Rock attacked did that and would have
done more had the dog not come to his master's defense. This dog is
no more vicious than I am." "We've
only your word on that, Herald. You can't truth-spell a dog." "No,
but I can truth-spell the man who made the accusation if he's
willing to come forward." No
one was surprised when he didn't. Mid
afternoon, as Jors was returning to the hall after a privy break, the
town clerk fell into step beside him and apologized for the mayor's
earlier behavior. "It's just he feels responsible for the whole
town, and it weighs on him and makes him short-tempered. Believe me,
Herald, he's a whole different man when he can take that chain off." "Mister
Mayor wears the town. The town swings heavy heavy." Brock's
explanation suddenly made perfect sense. *
* * It
had been arranged that Brock would spend another night with Calida. "Companions
need Heralds. Lady Herald is sick. I am not sick. I am here." He
threw his arms around Jors. "I see you tomorrow, Brother
Herald." "No,
not tomorrow, Brock. Tomorrow, I'm going to see the tanners."
Tanning was a smelly business, tanners set up their pits downwind of
towns, far enough away they could work without complaint but not so
far they couldn't get skins or find buyers for their hides. These
particular tanners had chosen distance over convenience and had
settled nearly a full day's travel away. The townspeople he'd spoken
to about them had made it quite clear that the animosity was mutual.
No one went near the place unless they had to. "I'll stay
overnight, then go back to the Waystation the next day. The day after
that, I'll be back in town. That's why I brought my chirras in today,
so he won't be left alone at the station." "No." "It's
okay. Gervis travels very fast, I won't be gone long." "No!"
Brock released him, stepping back just far enough to meet Jors' eyes.
"Don't go!" Pulling the hair back off his face with one
hand, he grabbed the Herald's wrist with the other. "See?"
An old scar ran diagonally from the edge of a thick eyebrow up into
his hairline. "The
tanners did that?" "I
bumped mean lady's cart. Don't go." His eyes welled over. "Mean
lady is there." Jors
pulled free of Brock's grip and squeezed his shoulder. "I'll be
fine. Really. The mean lady won't do anything to me." The sort
of people who'd strike a frightened Moonling were unlikely to be the
sort who'd strike a healthy young man in Herald's Whites. "But I
have to go and check on them. They haven't been into town for a long
time and it's almost winter." "Not
alone." "Don't
worry, I'll have Gervis." He gave the trembling shoulder another
squeeze, then swung himself up into the saddle. "You stay with
Calida, and I'll see you in two days." He
supposed he'd been half expecting it. When Jors came out of the
Waystation early the next morning there sat Brock—which was the
half he supposed he'd been expecting—on Calida—which was
a total surprise. It wasn't often a Companion would choose to bear
anyone but her Chosen—and those exceptions were almost always
Heralds. "Good
morning, Brother Herald!" Actual
Heralds. "Brock, what are you doing here?" The young man's
crestfallen expression insisted on better manners. Jors rubbed a hand
over his face and sighed. "Good morning, Brock." The
smile returned. "It's early!" "Yes,
it is. What are you doing here so early?"
"I
go with you. To tanners." "No,
you don't." "Yes,
I go with you." "No." "Yes." Jors
hated to do it, but... "What about the mean lady?" The
smile faltered as Brock sucked in his lower lip. "You don't want
to see the mean lady." "Don't
want you to see mean lady alone." He took a deep breath and
squared his shoulders. "I go with you." "That's
very brave of you." And he meant that. Courage was only courage
in the face of fear. "But even though I know you mean well, you
can't just take a Companion." Brock's
eyes widened indignantly. "Didn't take!" :Calida
says if she hadn't wanted him to ride her, he wouldn't be here.:
Gervis scratched his cheek on a post and added thoughtfully.
:He's very bad at it.: :At
what?: :Riding.: :No
doubt. What does Isabel say about this?:
:Herald
Isabel trusts her Companion.: :That's
not very helpful.: :It
should be.: One
more try. "Brock, by taking her Companion, you've left Herald
Isabel alone." "No."
He leaned carefully forward in the saddle and stroked Calida's neck.
"Left Rock." Jors
reached for Calida's bridle, but the Companion tossed her head,
moving it away from his hand. "Calida, you have to take him
back." The
mare gave him a flat, uncompromising stare.
:She
says, "make me.": Gervis translated helpfully.
:Yeah.
I got that. What do you think I should do?:
:Help
him down.: :You
think this is funny, don't you?: Jors demanded doing as the
Companion suggested. :I
think this is inevitable, Chosen. You might as well make the best of
it.: Even
with Jors' help, Brock stumbled as he hit the ground, fell, rolled,
and bounced up, declaring, "I'm okay!" :Now,
get ready. : Gervis shoved at Jors' bare shoulder. :We'll be
moving slowly and Calida says it's going to rain.: :And
won't that make this a perfect day?: :No.
She says it's going to rain hard and I don't like to get wet. I want
to be there before it rains.: That
began to look more and more unlikely as the morning passed and the
clouds grew darker. Brock managed to stay in the saddle at a fast
walk and Calida refused to go faster. Once or twice, Jors was
positive he was going to fall off, but at the last instant he'd shift
weight and somehow stay mounted. :His
balance is bad. But Calida's helping.: :Why
is Calida doing this?: One
ear flicked back. :So he won't fall off: :No,
I mean why is Calida allowing any of this? Why is she allowing Brock
to ride her? Why is she allowing—insisting—he come along
today?: :She
has her reasons.: Jors
sighed. He knew that tone. :And you're not going to tell me what
those reasons are, are you?:
:He's
very happy.: :I
can see that.: Happy
was an understatement. For all he held the pommel in a death grip,
Brock looked ecstatic. This is really not helping his delusion
that he's a Herald, Jors realized. Something would have to be
done about that and since the two of them were spending what was
likely to be a full day traveling together, now would be the time to
do it. Maybe that was why Calida had brought him. There'd
be no point in bluntly saying, "Brock, you're not a Herald."
The townspeople said that all the time, shaded in every possible
emotion from amusement to rage, and it had no effect. "Brock,
do you know what makes a person a Herald?" "Heralds
help people. Heralds can cry. Heralds tell when bad things happen."
He beamed proudly. "I remember the new things." "Yes,
all those things make a Herald, but..." "I'm
a good Herald." "...but
there's other things." Brock
twisted in the saddle to look at him and Calida adjusted her gait to
prevent a fall. "Heralds wear shiny white."
"Yes..." He
looked down at his gray sweater, then looked back at Jors smiling
broadly. "Clothes are on the outside." :And
a Herald is on the inside.: :I
get it.: A
sapphire eye rolled back at him, distinctly amused. :Just trying
to help.: "Brock,
all those things are part of being a Herald, but the most important
part is being Chosen by a Companion. You don't have to be a Herald to
be a really good person but you do have to be Chosen. Do you
understand?" Brock
nodded. "Companions have Heralds." "You
don't have a Companion." "Yes!"
He bounced indignantly, lost a stirrup, and nearly went off. "Have
Calida," he continued when he was secure in the saddle again. "But
she's Herald Isabel's Companion. Herald Isabel is letting you ride
her." "No.
Calida is letting." :He's
got you there.: Jors
sighed. "Riding a Companion isn't the point, Brock. You're not
Calida's Herald." "Not
her Herald," Brock agreed, his smile lighting up his whole face.
"A Herald." Between
the less than successful conversation and the glowering sky, Jors had
picked up a pounding headache. They rode without speaking for a
while, Brock humming tunelessly to himself. Finally, more to put an
end to the humming than for any real desire to know, Jors turned in
the saddle and said, "So, you were going to tell me how you
saved Rock." "Kids
were hurting him." Brock's placid expression turned fierce at
the memory. "I made them stop." Although he wouldn't defend
himself, he seemed quite capable of defending the helpless. "He
was hungry. I counted his bones. One, two, three, four..." "Where
did he come from?" Jors interrupted, unsure of how high the
other man could count and not really wanting to find out. "Don't
know. Now, he is my friend." The broad brow furrowed as he
searched for words. "Some mean people aren't mean now because he
is my friend." That
was hardly surprising. Rock was a big dog. Probably a hunting dog of
some kind who'd gotten separated from his pack and managed to finally
find his way back to people. "Why did you call him Rock?" "So
when kids are mean, it doesn't matter."
"I
don't understand." Brock
stared down between Calida's ears and chanted, "Brock, Brock,
dumb as a rock." Then he grinned and turned just far enough in
the saddle to meet Jors' gaze. "Rock isn't dumb. I fooled them." He
looked so proud, Jors found himself grinning in return. "Yes,
you did. That was very smart." "I
am a smart Herald." It
was a good thing he didn't need affirmation because Jors had no idea
of what to say. :And now,: he sighed quietly as large drops of
cold water began splashing against his leathers, :it's raining.: :I
know. I'm getting wet.: :So
am I.: :I'm
bigger. There's more of me, so I'm more wet.: In
a very short time all four of them were so drenched there was little
point in comparisons. Fortunately, as they crested a rise in the
trail, the tanners' holding came into sight on the other side of a
small valley. Neither Companion needed urging toward the river
running through the valley center although they both stopped well
back from the bank. The water was brown and running fast, the log
bridge nearly awash. :What
do you think? Is it safe?: Gervis
stepped cautiously out onto the edge of the logs. :If we move
quickly.: But
Calida hesitated. :What
is it?: :Calida
says the river's already undermining the bridge supports. That the
bridge is going to wash away.: :Tell
her that if it does, better we're all on the side with shelter. I'm
half drowned and half frozen and Brock's got to be colder still.
She's got to get him out of this weather.: Eyes
wide, the mare stepped up beside Gervis who took her arrival as his
cue to leap forward. One stride, two, three. As Jors watched
anxiously from the other shore, Calida slowly followed, placing each
hoof with care. Wood
screamed a protest as the bridge supports caved. The
huge logs dipped and skewed out from the bank, dragged by the river. Calida
half-reared as her front hooves scrambled for purchase in the mud. Brock
bounced over the cantle and disappeared. "No!"
Jors threw himself to the ground. Stumbling to the Companion's side,
he grabbed the mare's saddle and heaved. Step by step, as she managed
to work her way forward, he worked his way back until, to his
amazement, he saw a very muddy Brock holding on with both hands to
Calida's tail, his feet in the river. A heartbeat later, with solid
ground, beneath all four of them, he dropped to his knees and
gathered Brock up into his arms. "Are
you all right?" He
looked more surprised then frightened and returned the hug with wet
enthusiasm.
"I
fell."
"I
know. The bridge broke." Brock
twisted around to look, and clutched at Jors' arm. "I'm sorry!" "It's
okay. It wasn't your fault." His heart slamming painfully
against his ribs, Jors grabbed a stirrup and hauled himself onto his
feet. "Come on, we're almost there." *
* * The
tanners' holding looked deserted as they stumbled up to the
buildings. Jors called out a greeting, but the wind and rain whipped
the words out of his mouth. Brock
grabbed his arm. "Smoke," he said, pointing to the thin gay
line rising reluctantly from a chimney. "I'm cold." "Me,
too." All
thoughts turned to a warm fire as they made their way over to the
building, the Companions crowding in close under the wide eaves. :We'll
be right back as soon as we find someone.:
:Hurry,
Chosen.: Gervis sounded completely miserable. Covered in mud
almost to his withers, his mane hanging in a tangled, sodden mass, he
looked very little like the gleaming creature who'd left the
Waystation that morning. Calida, if anything, looked worse. Jors
considered leaving Brock with the Companions, but the other man's
breathing sounded unnaturally hoarse so he beckoned him forward as he
tried the door. The sooner he got him inside the better. The
door opened easily. It hadn't even been latched. "Hello?" Stepping
inside wasn't so much a step into warmth as a step into a space less
cold. It looked like they'd found the family's main living quarters
although the room was so dim, it was difficult to tell for sure. The
only light came from a small fire smoldering on the fieldstone hearth
and a tallow lamp on the floor close beside a cradle. "No."
Brock charged across the room, trailing a small river in his wake.
"No fire beside baby!" Remembering
what Lorrin had told him about Brock and babies, Jors held his
position by the door. The younger of two, what he knew about babies
could be inscribed on the head of a pin with room left over for the
lyrics to Kerowyn's Ride. Squatting,
Brock picked up the lamp. "No fire beside baby," he
repeated, began to rise, and paused. "Baby?" Leaning
forward, he peered into the cradle. "Is
it all right?" The lamp and the fire together threw barely
enough light for Jors to see Brock. He couldn't see the baby at all. Setting
the lamp down again, Brock stretched both hands into the cradle. When
he stood and turned, he was holding a limp infant across both palms,
his broad features twisted in sorrow. "Baby is dead." :Jors!:
Jors
spun around as the door slammed open and five people surged into the
room. They froze for an instant, then the man in front howled out a
wordless challenge and charged. Bending,
Jors captured his attacker's momentum then he straightened, throwing
the other man to the floor hard enough to knock him breathless. The
immediate threat removed, he faced the remaining two men and two
women. "I am Herald Jors. Who is in charge here?" "I
am," the older woman snarled. The
hate in her eyes nearly drove Jors back a step. He didn't need
Brock's whispered "mean lady" to know who she was. It took
an effort, but he kept his voice calm and understanding as he said,
"The child was dead when we arrived." "Dory
came to say the babe was sick, not dead," she spat as the
younger woman ran silently forward and snatched the body from Brock's
hands. "The Moonling killed him." "He
did not..." "You're
here and he's there," she sneered. "You can't see what he
did." Spreading
his hands, he added a mild warning to his tone. "And you weren't
even in the building. I understand this is a shock..." "You
understand nothing, Herald." She placed a hand on the backs of
the two remaining men and shoved. "Have the guts to support your
brother!" They
sprang forward, looking like nothing so much as a pair of whipped
dogs. "Jors?" He
ducked an awkward blow. "Outside, Brock. Now!" If anything
happened to him, the Companions would get Brock to safety. "There's
two of you and one of him, you idiots! Don't let him protect the
half-wit!" :Chosen?: :It's
all right.: Fortunately,
neither man was much of a fighter. Jors could have ended it quickly,
but as they'd just suffered a sudden terrible loss and weren't
thinking clearly, he didn't want to do any serious damage. After a
moment, he realized that had it not been for the old woman goading
them on, neither would have been fighting. Maybe I should have Gervis
deal with... He'd
forgotten the first brother. The piece of firewood caught him on the
side of the head. As he started to fall, he felt unfriendly hands
grab his body. "No!" Then
the hands were ripped away, and he hit the floor. Two bodies hit the
floor after him, closely followed by the third. "Never
hit a Herald!" "Get
up, you cowards! That's a Moonling—not a real man!" "But,
Ma..." "He
killed my grandson!" Hers.
Jors thought muzzily. Not grief Anger. Anger at the loss of a
possession. "You
never loved him!" Apparently,
the child's mother agreed. "You
always complained about him! You said if he didn't stop crying you
were going to strangle him! If anyone killed him..." "Don't
you raise your voice to me, you cow. If you were a better..." "ENOUGH!" The
doors slammed open again. Hooves clattering against the floor boards,
the Companions moved to flank Brock. From Jors' position on the
floor, it looked as if there were significantly more than a mere
eight muddy white legs. "Don't
lie there with your idiot mouths open! They're just horses!" "They're
not just horses, you stupid old woman!"
:Gervis?: :I'm
here, Heart-brother.: Jors
felt better about his chance of recovery. Gervis was angry but not
frantic. "A
baby is dead. Is time for crying, not fighting. A Herald is hurt. You
hurt a Herald." :Is
that Brock standing up to the mean lady?:
:It
is.: :Good
for him.: "You
will cry, and you will make the Herald better!"
"I
will not." No
mistaking that hate-filled voice.
"Then
I will." Nor
the voice of the child's mother. For
the first time, Brock sounded confused. "You will cry?" "No.
I will help the Herald."
:Out
of spite...: :You
need help, Heart-brother. Your head is bleeding. Spiteful help is
still help.: Jors
got one arm under him and tried to rise.
:If
you say...: :Chosen!: His
Companion's cry went with him into darkness. *
* * Jors
woke to the familiar and comforting smell of a stable. For a moment
he thought he'd dozed off on foal-watch, then he moved and the pain
in his head brought everything back.
:Gervis! :I'm
here.: A soft nose nuzzled his cheek. :Just open your eyes.: Even
moving his eyelids hurt, but he forced them up. Fortunately, the
stable was dark, the brightest things in it, the two Companions. He
could just barely make out Brock tucked up against Calida's side,
wrapped in a blanket and nearly buried in straw. :How long?: :From
almost dark to just after moonrise. Long enough I was starting to
worry.: He
stretched up a hand and stroked the side of Gervis' face. :Sorry.: :The
young female made tea for your head. There's a closed pot buried in
the straw by your side.: The
tea was still warm and tasted awful, but Gervis made him drink the
whole thing. :I take it we're in the stable because you and Calida
wouldn't leave me?: :The
old woman said the young woman could do as she pleased but not in her
house. I do not want you to be in her house.: The obvious
distaste in the young stallion's mental voice was hardly surprising.
Even on short acquaintance the old woman was as nasty a piece of work
as Jors ever wanted to get close to. :Brock told two of the young
males to carry you here.: :He
just told them what to do and they did it?: :They
are used to being told what to do.: :Good
point,: Jors acknowledged. :And,:
Gervis continued, :I think they were frightened when they
realized they had struck down a Herald.: :They
knew I was a Herald!: :Knowing
and realizing are often different. Had the blow struck by the child's
father been any lower, they would have killed you and that frightened
them, too. They were thankful Brock took charge. He saw you were
tended to, he was assured you would live without damage, he groomed
us both, and then he cried himself to sleep.: :Poor
guy. Good thing he was there. If he hadn't been, I wouldn't have put
it past the mean lady to have finished the job and buried both our
bodies.: :The
Circle would know.: :We'd
still be dead. Is this why Calida insisted on bringing him?: :She
has told her Chosen we need no assistance and convinced her not to
ride to the rescue. The Herald Isabel agreed but only because she
felt the townspeople would lay the blame on Brock.: :That's
ridiculous.: Gervis
sighed, blowing sweet, hay-scented breath over Jors' face. :There
is already much talk against him taking a Companion.: All
of which he needed to know but didn't answer his question. About to
ask it again, he stopped short. :Calida can reach Isabel from
here? I couldn't reach you from here!: :Nor
I you.: He
sounded so put out by it, Jors couldn't prevent a smile. :Never
mind, Heart-brother. Calida and her Chosen have been together for
many years; when we've been together for that long, I'll hear you if
I'm in Sorrows and you're in Sensholding.: :I'd
rather we were never that far apart.: Jors
wrapped one hand in Gervis' silken mane. :Me either : :Sleep
now, Chosen. It will be morning soon enough.: *
* * When
Jors opened his eyes again, weak autumn sunlight filtered into the
stable. An attempt to rise brought Gervis in through the open door.
He pulled himself to his feet with a handful of mane and, throwing an
arm over his Companion's back, managed to get to where he could
relieve himself. :The
old woman made them bury the child this morning.: :They're
only a day's ride from town; they can't wait for a priest?: :The
bridge is gone. The priest cannot come.: He pawed the ground with
a front hoof and added. :I don't think the old woman would send
for a priest even if he could come.: :Do
you know where they are?: :Yes.: Jors
took a deep breath and, holding it, managed to swing himself up on
Gervis' bare back. :Let's go, then.: The
tanners had a graveyard in a small clearing cupped by the surrounding
oak forest. When Jors arrived, the three men had just finished
filling in the tiny hole. As Jors stopped, half hidden by a large
sumach, Brock wiped the tears from his face on Calida's mane and
stepped up to the grave. "There
is no priest. I will say good-bye to the baby." "I'm
not listening to a half-wit say anything," the old woman
snarled. She turned on one heel and started down the hill. "I
only came to see the job was done right. Enric, Kern, Simen; back to
work, there's hides to be sammied." Two
of the three moved to her side, the third looked toward the young
woman and hesitated. "He was my son, Ma." "He
was my son, Ma." She threw it mockingly over her shoulder. "Look
around you, Simen. I've buried a son, two daughters, and a husband
besides, and it don't make hides tan themselves. Stay and listen to
the half-wit if you want." "Dory?" She
lifted stony eyes to Simen's face. "Better do as your ma says,"
she sneered. "'Cause you always do as your ma says." Scarred
hands curled into fists, but they stayed at his side. "Fine.
I'll go." "I
don't care." "Fine."
But when he turned, Brock was in his way. Jors
tensed to urge Gervis forward, but at the last instant, for no clear
reason, he changed his mind. "Stay
and say good-bye." A heavy shove rocked him in place but didn't
move him. "Stay." And then gently. "Say good-bye to
baby." Simen
stared down into Brock's face, then wordlessly turned back to the
grave. Brock
returned to his place and rubbed his nose on his sleeve. "Sometimes,"
he said, "babies die. Mamas and papas love them, and hug them,
and kiss them, and feed them, and they die. Nobody did anything bad.
Everyone is sorry. The baby wasn't bad. Babies are good. Good-bye,
baby." "His
name," Simen said, so quietly Jors almost missed it, "was
Tamas." Brock
nodded solemnly. "Good-bye, Tamas. Everyone is sorry." He
lifted his head and stared at Tamas' parents standing
hunch-shouldered, carefully apart. "Now, you cry." Dory
shook her head. "Crying is for the weak." "You
have tears." Brock tapped his own chest. "In here. Tears
not cried go bad. Bad tears make you hurt." "You
heard Aysa. She buried a son and two daughters. She never cried." "She
is the mean lady," Brock said sadly. "You can't be the mean
lady." He opened his arms and, before Dory could move, wrapped
her in one of his all-encompassing hugs. Jors
knew from experience that when Brock hugged, he held nothing back. It
was a new experience for Dory. She
blinked twice, drew in a long shuddering breath, then clutched at his
tattered sweater and began to sob. After a moment, Brock reached out
one hand, grabbed Simen and pulled him into the embrace. "Cry
now," he commanded. "I..."
Simen shook his head and tried to pull away. Brock
pulled him closer, pushing Dory into his arms and wrapping himself
around them both. Simen stiffened then made a sound, very like his
son might have made, and gave himself over to grief. All three of
them sank to their knees. :These
people need help.: Gervis
shifted his head. :It seems they're getting it: *
* * With
the funeral over, Jors pulled himself into something resembling
official shape and sought out Aysa. "Your
son attacked a Herald." "His
son just died. He was mad with grief."
"You
goaded his brothers..." "To
stand by him," she sneered triumphantly. "I never told no
one to hit you. And now I'm givin' you and that half-wit food and
shelter. You can't ask for more, Herald." Given
that he and Brock were trapped on her side of the river, he supposed
he'd better not. "About the bridge..." Without
the bridge, there was no way back. The river wasn't particularly
wide, but the water ran deep and fast. "You
come out here to stick your nose in on us, then you're stuck out here
till we head in to town and we ain't headin' nowheres until them
hides is done. We wasted time enough with Dory having that baby. You
want to leave before that, then you and the half-wit can rebuild the
bridge yourself." "That's
fair. I can't expect you to drop everything and assist me." His
next words wiped the triumphant sneer from her face. "I'll have
them send a crew out from town." "You
can't get word to town." He
smiled, hoping he looked a lot more confident of the conversation's
outcome than he felt. "There's a Herald there and I already
have. By this time tomorrow, there'll be a dozen people in the
valley." "Liar." "Heralds
can't lie, Ma." "Shut
up!" Aysa half turned and Kern winced away as though he expected
to be hit. Lip curled, she turned back to Jors. "I don't want a
dozen people in the valley! And it don't take a dozen people anyway.
And the water won't be down enough tomorrow." "Then
I'll have them come when the water goes down." "You
won't have no one come. My boys'll rebuild."
"Then
the townspeople can help." "My
boys don't need help. They ain't got brains for much, but they can do
that. You let them know in town I'm hostin' you and the half-wit till
then." It
was a grudgingly offered truce, but he'd take it. Jors
wasn't surprised that Aysa'd refused help. The last thing she'd want
would be her sons exposed to more people, to people who'd make them
realize they were entitled to be treated with kindness. Over the next
few days, while they waited for the water to recede, she proved that
by keeping him by her side, keeping him from interacting with anyone
else at the holding. Brock,
she considered no threat. Which
was a mistake. Because
Brock treated everyone with kindness. *
* * "You
call that supple?! I could do better chewin' it! How could you be
doin' this all your life and still be no damned good? You're
pathetic." Enric and Kern leaped back as she threw the piece of
finished leather down at their feet. "Pathetic," she
repeated and stomped away. "Mean
lady calls me names, too," Brock sighed, coming out from behind
the fleshing beam and picking up the hide. Enric
ripped it out of his hands. "We ain't half-wits." "Mean
lady calls me half-wit. Not you." "You
are a half-wit!" "Are
you pathetic?" Kern
jerked forward, face flushed. "You callin' us pathetic?" "No.
It hurts when people call names." Brock looked from one to the
other. "Doesn't it hurt?" "If
your half-wit falls in a liming pit," Aysa snarled as Jors
caught up, "my boys'll stand there and laugh."
"You
taught them that." "I'm
all they got." "They're
terrified of you." "Good." "Dory
isn't." "You
think one of my boys is stupid enough to pick up a weakling?"
Aysa nodded toward the garden where Dory heaped cabbage into a
basket. "But she does what I say like the rest. If she doesn't
like it, she can leave any time." While
they watched, Dory lifted the basket, gave a little cry and let it
fall. Aysa
snorted. "'Course that baby left her stupidly weak." Jors
took a step toward the garden but stopped as Simen came out of the
chicken house and hurried across to his wife. "Simen!
You get back to work, you lazy pig." His
mother's voice froze him in his tracks. Then he shook himself, and
began retrieving the spilled cabbages. "Simen!" He
ignored her. "This
is your fault, Herald. Turning a woman's family against her."
Muttering under her breath, she strode toward them. Dory
looked up, saw her coming and stood, hands on hips. "You
think you can face me down, girl? Simen, get up!" He
stood. "Now
get back to work." He
took a step forward and put his hands on Dory's shoulders. "When
I'm finished here, Ma." Aysa's
mouth worked for a moment, but no sound emerged. Finally, she spun on
one heel and stomped away. The
corner of Simen's mouth curled. "You'd best help here, Herald. I
wouldn't follow her right now." *
* * The
river was low enough the next day. The
bridge took only a day longer to rebuild and for the most part
involved fitting the original pieces back into place. Jors
stared the completed bridge in amazement. "That's incredible." "Nothin'
incredible about it, Herald," Enric snorted. "Damned thing
goes out every other season. Easier to build it so it breaks apart
clean." His
bare torso red with cold, Kern shrugged into a sheepskin coat.
"Supports slip out so they don't shatter, logs end up in the
same place, we float 'em back and rebuild. Any idiot can do it." "Trust
me, I've crossed a hundred rivers—or maybe a couple of rivers a
hundred times—but I've never seen anything like this." "Ma
says it's not..." Simen paused, frowned, and looked up at the
Herald. "It's really good?"
"It's
really good." The
brothers exchanged confused looks and Jors had the horrible suspicion
this was the first time they'd ever been praised for anything. *
* * The
next day while Jors was checking Calida's girth strap for the trip
back to town, Dory came out of the house with a bundle. "It's
for Brock," she said, folding back a corner. "I want you to
give it to him for me." At
first Jors thought it was white leather. Made sense; they were
tanners after all. Then he realized the leather had been cut and sewn
into a fair approximation of Herald's whites. Dory had clearly taken
the pattern from his and sized it to fit Brock. "I
saw he didn't have none of his own." Oh,
help. "Dory, you know he's not..."
"Brother
Herald! We go now? What you got?" His hands and Dory's together
closed the bundle. "It's
a surprise," Dory said, her cheeks crimson. "For later." "Not
for now?"
"No." "Okay."
He took Calida's reins and stood waiting patiently while Jors tied
the bundle behind Gervis' saddle. :You seem upset, Chosen.: :I
can't tell her Brock's not an actual Herald while he's standing
there. He'll say he is, I'11 say he isn't, and I'm not sure that in
this place at this time, I'd win the argument.: :You
shouldn't argue.: :Oh,
that's helpful.: :Thank
you.: *
* * The
whole family went with them to the bridge. Jors didn't know why the
rest came, but he was certain Aysa just wanted to make sure they were
off her land. He wanted to say something, something that would
convince them they didn't have to live inside the darkness of an old
woman's anger, but before he could think of the right words, Brock
hugged Dory. And Simen. And Enric. And Kern. Then
he scrambled up into the saddle and, from the safety of Calida's
back, took a deep breath, looked Aysa in the eye, and spoke directly
to her for the first time. "Why don't you love your babies?" Her
lip curled. "I buried my babies, half-wit." He
nodded toward the three young men standing to her right. "Not
them." She
turned, looked at her sons, looked back at Brock
and muttered, "Half-wit." But there was little force behind
it. Jors
had no idea he was going to do what he did until he did it. *
* * "Jors,
you hugged mean lady." "Yeah.
I know." Although he still couldn't believe it. "Everyone
else got hugged, I just..." She'd
pushed him away with such force that he'd slammed back into Gervis'
shoulder. "You
are the bravest Herald. Ever, ever." "Thank
you." Then
she'd snarled something incomprehensible, turned, and stomped away. He'd
probably accomplished nothing at all by it. The bundle Dory had given
him pushed against the small of his back. *
* * The
weather remained clear and cool and just as the sun was setting, they
stopped outside the village. "Gate will close when sun is set,"
Brock warned. "I know. Brock, I think you should go back to
Haven with Isabel." "Lots
of Heralds in Haven?" "Yes." Brock
sighed and shook his head. "No. I have to stay here. I am the
only Herald." "Brock,
you're not..." He couldn't say it. Brock
waited patiently for a moment then smiled. "Is it later?" "Yes..." "What's
Dory's surprise?" "Um...it's
um..." Both
Companions turned their heads to look at him. Their expression said,
this is up to you. :He
believes he is a Herald.: :Yes,
but..: :And
he acts accordingly.: *
* * "I
couldn't do it, Isabel. They're just clothes and I know that but if I
gave Brock those whites, then there'd be fake Heralds showing up all
over the place." "A
bad precedent to be sure," the older Herald agreed. "There
has to be a line and that line has to be the Companions. Sometimes it
seems like we're barely keeping order in chaos now. I couldn't...No
matter how much..." Jors ran both hands back through his air, he
couldn't believe how much the decision, the right decision had felt
like betrayal. "It wouldn't make any difference to Brock. He
knows who and what he is, but for the others in the village, those
who made fun and called him names..." "Come
here, I want to show you something." Isabel took his arm and
pulled him to the window. "What do you see?" Jors
squinted down into the stable yard. "Brock's grooming Gervis
again." "While
you four were gone, I talked to a lot of people. Seems that whenever
a Herald comes into this village, the Companion manages to spend time
with Brock. Even if it's only a moment or two." They watched as
Calida crossed the yard and tried to shoulder Gervis away. Brock
laughed and told her to wait her turn. "You were right not to
give him the Whites," Isabel continued, "but you were also
right when you said it makes no difference. He couldn't be Chosen
because, as Heralds, we have to face dangers he'd never understand,
but the Companions know him. All Brock needs from us is our love and
support. Now, since Healer Lorrin has finally allowed me out of bed,
what do you say you and I go down there and give our brother a hand
with the fourfoots?" Jors
grinned as Brock gamely tried to brush both tails at once. Heralds
wear shiny white. Brock
wore his Whites on the inside.
BROCK by
Tanya Huff Tanya
Huff lives and writes in rural Ontario with her partner, six cats,
and a chihuahua who refuses to acknowledge her existence. Her latest
book, out for DAW in May of 2003, was the third in the Keeper
Chronicles called Long Hot Summoning and she's currently
working on the first of three books spinning the character Tony off
from her Blood series (DAW spring 2004). In her spare time she
gardens and complains about the weather. "Id's
just a code." Trying
not to smile at the same protest he'd heard for the last two days,
Jors set the empty mug on a small table. "Healer Lorrin says
it's more, Isabel. She says you're spending the next two days in
bed." The
older Herald tried to snort, but her nose had filled past the point
it was possible, and she had to settle for an avalanche of coughing
instead. "She cud heal me," she muttered when she could
finally breathe again. "She
seems to think that a couple of days in bed and a couple of hundred
cups of tea will heal you just fine."
"Gibbing
children their Greens..." That
was half a protest at best and, as Jors watched, Isabel's eyes
closed, the lines exhaustion had etched around them beginning to
ease. Leaning forward, he blew out the lamp, then quietly slipped
from the room. "Oh,
she's sick," the Healer assured him, exasperation edging her
voice. "What could have possessed her to ride courier at her
age, at this time of the year? Yes, the package and information she
brought from the Healer's Collegium will save lives this winter, but
surely there had to have been younger Heralds around to deliver it?" Jors
opened his mouth to answer. Lorrin
gave him no chance. "If she hadn't run into your riding sector,
she might not have made it this far. She needs rest and I'm keeping
her in bed until I think she's had enough of it." Jors
didn't argue. He wouldn't have minded an actual conversation—Lorrin
was young and pretty—but unfortunately, she seemed too
determined to run this new House of Healing the way she felt a House
of Healing should be run to waste time in dalliance with the
healthy. *
* * "Have
you good as new. You see. Good as new. Soft and clean." Jors
stopped just inside the stable door and stared in astonishment at the
young man grooming his Companion. The stubby fingers that held the
brush, the bulky body, the round face, angled eyes, and full mouth
told the Herald that this unexpected groom was one of those the
country people called Moonlings. He wore patched homespun; the pants
too large, the shirt too small, both washed out to a grimy gray. His
boots had seen at least one other pair of feet. He'd
already groomed the chirras and Isabel's Companion, Calida—the
sleeping mare all but glowed in the dim stable light. :Gervis?: :His
name is Brock.: The stallion's mental voice sounded sleepy and
sated. :Can we take him with us?: :No.
And how do you know what his name is?: :He
talks to us and he knows exactly—oh, yes—where to rub.: Companions
were not in the habit of allowing themselves to be groomed by other
than Heralds' hands. Jors found it hard to believe that they'd not
only allowed Brock's ministrations but were actually reveling in
them. He stepped forward and, at the sound of his footfall, Brock
turned. His
face broke into a broad smile radiating welcome. Arms spread, he
rushed at the Herald and wrapped him in a tight hug. Staring up at
Jors, their faces barely inches apart, he joyfully repeated "Brother
Herald!" over and over while a large gray dog leaped around them
barking. :Gervis?: :The
dog's name is Rock. He's harmless.: :Glad
to hear that.: "Brock...I
can't breathe ..." "Sorry!
Sorry." Releasing him so quickly Jors stumbled and had to grab
the edge of a hay rack, Brock shuffled back, still smiling. "Sorry.
I brushed." One short-fingered hand gestured back at the
Companions. "Good as new. Soft and clean." "You
did a very good job." Jors stepped around the dog, now lying
panting on the floor and ran his fingers down Gervis' side. There
wasn't a bit of straw, a speck of dust, a hair out of place on either
Companion. :Better
than very good,: Gervis sighed. Jors
smiled and repeated the compliment. :Did you say thank you, you
fuzzy hedonist?: In
answer, the Companion stretched out his neck and gently nuzzled
Brock's cheek, receiving a loud, smacking kiss in return. "Okay.
We go now." Brock bent and picked a ragged, gray sweater out of
the straw and wrestled it over his head. "We go now," he
repeated, placing both hands in the small of Jors' back and pushing
him toward the stable door. "Or we come late and Mister Mayor is
mad and yells." "Late
for...?" :The
petitions.: Gervis' mental voice sounded more than a little
amused and Jors remembered he'd intended to merely look in on the
Companions on his way to the town hall. Heading
out into the square, he realized Brock was trotting to keep up, and
he shortened his stride. "Does the mayor yell a lot?" "Yes.
A lot." "Do
you know why?" Brock
sighed deeply, one hand dropping to fondle the ears of the dog
walking beside him. "Mister Mayor wears the town," he said
very seriously after a moment. "The town swings heavy heavy." Okay;
that made no sense. Maybe we should try something less complex. "Is
Rock your dog?" "He's
my friend. They were hurting him. I...Wait!" Uncertain
of just who had been told to wait, Jors watched Brock and the dog run
across to the town well where a pair of women argued over who'd draw
their water first. Ignored in the midst of the argument, Brock began
to draw water for them. He had no trouble with the winch, but while
pouring from bucket to bucket, he splashed the older woman's skirt.
Suddenly united, they turned on him. By the time Jors arrived, Brock
had filled another bucket in spite of the shouting—although his
shoulders were hunched forward and he didn't look happy. The
older woman saw him first, shoved the other, and the shouting
stopped. "Ladies." "Herald,"
they said in ragged unison. "Let
me give you a hand with that, Brock. You bring the water up, and I'll
pour." "Pouring
is hard," Brock warned. "Herald,
you don't have to," one of the women protested. "We never
asked this..." When Jors turned a bland stare in her direction,
she reconsidered her next word. "...boy to help." "I
know." His tone cut off any further protests and neither woman
said anything until all the buckets had been filled, then they
thanked him far more than the work he'd done required. He'd turned to
go when at the edge of his vision he saw one woman lean forward and
pinch Brock on the arm, hissing, "Now that's a real Herald." "HERALD
JORS!" Across
the square, the mayor stood on the steps of the town hall, chain of
office glinting in the pale autumn sunlight, both hands urging him to
hurry. Well, he'll just have to wait! Lips pressed into a thin
line, Jors turned back toward the well, had his elbow firmly grabbed,
and found himself facing the mayor again. "Mister
Mayor is yelling," Brock explained, moving Jors across the
square. "Let
him. I saw what happened back there. I saw that woman pinch you." "Yes."
He turned a satisfied smile toward Jors, never lessening their
forward motion. "I made them stop fighting. Heralds do that." "Yes,
they do." They'd almost reached the hall and Jors had a strong
suspicion that digging his heels in would have had no effect on their
forward motion. "You're stronger than you look." "Have
to be." I'll
bet, Jors thought as he caught sight of the mayor's expression. "Brock!
Get your filthy hands off that Herald!"
"Hands
are clean." "I
don't care! He doesn't need you hanging around him!" "I
don't mind." Jors swept through the door, Brock caught up in his
wake, both moving too quickly for the mayor to do anything but fall
in behind. "Heralds
work together," Brock announced proudly. He clapped his hands as
heads began to turn. "Be in a good line now. Heralds are here." "Heralds?"
a male voice jeered from the crowd. "I see only one Herald,
Moonling." "Heralds!"
Brock repeated, throwing his arms around Jors' waist in another hug.
"Me and him."
Oh,
Havens. :Trouble,
Heart-brother?: :I
just realized something that should have been obvious—Brock
believes he's a Herald.: :So?
You'd rather he believed he was a pickpocket?:
:That's
not the point.: But
he couldn't let the townspeople chase Brock from the hall as they
clearly wanted to do and Brock wouldn't leave because it was time for
the Heralds to hear petitions, so Jors ended up sitting him at the
table and hoping for the best. He
realized his mistake early on. Brock had a loudly expressed opinion
on everything, up to and including calling one of the petitioners a
big fat liar—which turned out to be true; on all points.
Unfortunately, short of having him physically carried out of the
hall, Jors could think of no way to get him to leave.
:Have
him check on Isabel.: :How...
?" :You're
worried. You're projecting. And I'm only across the square. If he
wants to be with a Herald, send him to check on Isabel. She's sick
and she needs company.: :That's
a terrific idea.: Gervis'
mental voice sounded distinctly smug. :I know.: It
worked. Jors only wished the Companion had thought of it sooner. A
Herald's office protected him or her from the repercussions of a
judgment—no matter how disgruntled the losing petitioner might
be, few would risk the grave penalties attached to attacking a
Herald. Brock didn't have that protection. Good thing he's safely
tucked away with Isabel. *
* * "No,
Brock's not here." Healer Lorrin continued rolling strips of
soft linen. "He left at sunset for the tavern." "The
tavern?" "He's
there every evening. He fills their wood box and they feed him—him
and Rock." "He
works there?" Lorrin
nodded. "There, and the blacksmith's whenever there's a nervy
horse in to be shoed—animals trust him. I tried to have him
deliver teas to patients, but if he's carrying something, there's
always troublemakers who try to take it from him." "I'm
surprised." Jors rubbed his elbow at the memory. "He's
quite strong." "Is
he?" She set the finished roll with the others and picked up a
new strip of cloth. "He's bullied all the time, but I've never
seen him defend himself. Did you know that poorer mothers have him
watch their infants if they have to leave them? I'll tell you
something, Herald. When I came here a year ago, I was amazed to
discover this town has almost none of those horrible accidents that
happen when a baby just starting to creep is left alone and burns to
death or drowns—that's because of Brock." "Where
does he sleep?" This far north, the nights were already cold. "In
various stables when the weather's good. By someone's hearth when it
isn't." "Has
he no family?" "His
parents were old when he was born, old and poor. They died about
three yeas ago and left him nothing." "Why
doesn't someone take him in?" "He
doesn't want to be taken," the Healer snapped. "He's not a
stray cat, and for all he can be childlike, he's not a child. He's a
grown man, probably not much younger than you and he has the same
right as you do to choose his life." "But..." She
sighed and her tone softened. "There are those who try to make
sure he doesn't suffer for those choices, but that's all anyone has a
right to do. Besides..." One corner of her mouth quirked up.
"...he tells me that Heralds never stay in one place so no one
thinks they like some people more than others." Simpler
language but pretty much the official reason, Jors allowed. "How
long has he believed himself to be a Herald?" "As
long as I've been here. I'm surprised you haven't heard about him
from other Heralds. You can't be the first he's latched on to." "He
wasn't in the reports I read and I..." About to say he doubted
Brock would come up in casual conversation between Heralds, he
frowned at a distinct feeling of unease. "I should go now." "There's
no need to go to the Waystation tonight, I've plenty of room."
Her smile edged toward invitation. "I doubt anyone will accuse
you of favoritism if you stay here." "No.
Thank you. I need to..." The feeling was growing stronger.
"...um, go." He
doubted she'd be smiling that way at him again, but personal problems
were unimportant next to his growing certainty that something was
wrong. Taking the steps two at a time, he hit the ground floor
running and headed for the stables. :Gervis?: :We
can feel it, too. Calida says it's close.: It
wasn't in the stables or the corral, but when Jors opened the small
door, a pair of huddled figures tumbled inside. Brock
lifted a tear-drenched face up from matted gray fur and wailed,
"Heralds don't cry." "Says
who?" Jors demanded, dropping to one knee.
"People.
When I cry." "People
are wrong. I'm a Herald and I cry." He stretched out a hand,
keeping half his attention on the big dog who watched him warily.
Herald's Whites meant nothing to Rock, and he didn't lower his
hackles until Gervis whickered a warning of his own. "What
happened? Did someone hurt you?" "Heralds
don't tattle!" His
various tormentors had probably been telling him that for years. "If
someone does something bad, we do." "No." "Yes.
If we can't make it right on our own, we tell someone who can. Bad
things should never be hidden. It makes them worse." Brock
drew in a long shuddering breath and slowly held out his arm. Below
the ragged cuff of his sweater was a dark bruise where a large hand
had gripped his wrist. "Is
that all?" "Rock
came. The man ran away." "Who
was it?" "A
bad man." No
argument there. "Do you know his name?"
"A
bad man," Brock repeated, wiping his nose against the dog's
shoulder. :You
catch him and I'll kick him.: The Companion's mental voice was a
near growl. :Calida says she'll help.: *
* * "It's
a bad bruise, but it is just a bruise. Healer Lorrin wrapped it in an
herb pack and she says he'll be fine. He won't stay, says he's not
sick enough, but I can't just let him wander off into the night." "Coors
you cand." "And
I can't take him to the Waystation and I can't stay with him because
that would be seen as losing impartiality. So, do you mind if he
spends the night with Calida?" Isabel
managed a truncated snort. "Fine wid me, bud you'd bezd ask
her." Leading
Gervis and the chirras out of the stable, Jors turned for one last
look at Brock curled up against Calida's side. The elderly mare had
been pleased to have the company and had positioned herself in such a
way that Brock could pillow his head against her flank. Rock had
snuggled up on the young man's other side and although his face was
still blotchy, Jors had never seen anyone look so completely at
peace. :Why
do you two care about him so much?: he asked as he mounted. :He
believes he is a Herald.:
:Yes,
but...: :And
he acts accordingly.: *
* * The
next day during petitions, the mayor tripped over Rock sprawled by
the table. Jerking his chain of office down into place, he snarled,
"That dog is vicious and ought to be destroyed." Jors
pushed Brock back into his chair. "Who says this dog is
vicious?" The
mayor's lip curled. "I heard he attacked a man last night." "I
heard that, too, Herald," called out one of the waiting
petitioners. "Brock,
show everyone your arm." The bruises were dark and ugly against
the pale skin. "The man Rock attacked did that and would have
done more had the dog not come to his master's defense. This dog is
no more vicious than I am." "We've
only your word on that, Herald. You can't truth-spell a dog." "No,
but I can truth-spell the man who made the accusation if he's
willing to come forward." No
one was surprised when he didn't. Mid
afternoon, as Jors was returning to the hall after a privy break, the
town clerk fell into step beside him and apologized for the mayor's
earlier behavior. "It's just he feels responsible for the whole
town, and it weighs on him and makes him short-tempered. Believe me,
Herald, he's a whole different man when he can take that chain off." "Mister
Mayor wears the town. The town swings heavy heavy." Brock's
explanation suddenly made perfect sense. *
* * It
had been arranged that Brock would spend another night with Calida. "Companions
need Heralds. Lady Herald is sick. I am not sick. I am here." He
threw his arms around Jors. "I see you tomorrow, Brother
Herald." "No,
not tomorrow, Brock. Tomorrow, I'm going to see the tanners."
Tanning was a smelly business, tanners set up their pits downwind of
towns, far enough away they could work without complaint but not so
far they couldn't get skins or find buyers for their hides. These
particular tanners had chosen distance over convenience and had
settled nearly a full day's travel away. The townspeople he'd spoken
to about them had made it quite clear that the animosity was mutual.
No one went near the place unless they had to. "I'll stay
overnight, then go back to the Waystation the next day. The day after
that, I'll be back in town. That's why I brought my chirras in today,
so he won't be left alone at the station." "No." "It's
okay. Gervis travels very fast, I won't be gone long." "No!"
Brock released him, stepping back just far enough to meet Jors' eyes.
"Don't go!" Pulling the hair back off his face with one
hand, he grabbed the Herald's wrist with the other. "See?"
An old scar ran diagonally from the edge of a thick eyebrow up into
his hairline. "The
tanners did that?" "I
bumped mean lady's cart. Don't go." His eyes welled over. "Mean
lady is there." Jors
pulled free of Brock's grip and squeezed his shoulder. "I'll be
fine. Really. The mean lady won't do anything to me." The sort
of people who'd strike a frightened Moonling were unlikely to be the
sort who'd strike a healthy young man in Herald's Whites. "But I
have to go and check on them. They haven't been into town for a long
time and it's almost winter." "Not
alone." "Don't
worry, I'll have Gervis." He gave the trembling shoulder another
squeeze, then swung himself up into the saddle. "You stay with
Calida, and I'll see you in two days." He
supposed he'd been half expecting it. When Jors came out of the
Waystation early the next morning there sat Brock—which was the
half he supposed he'd been expecting—on Calida—which was
a total surprise. It wasn't often a Companion would choose to bear
anyone but her Chosen—and those exceptions were almost always
Heralds. "Good
morning, Brother Herald!" Actual
Heralds. "Brock, what are you doing here?" The young man's
crestfallen expression insisted on better manners. Jors rubbed a hand
over his face and sighed. "Good morning, Brock." The
smile returned. "It's early!" "Yes,
it is. What are you doing here so early?"
"I
go with you. To tanners." "No,
you don't." "Yes,
I go with you." "No." "Yes." Jors
hated to do it, but... "What about the mean lady?" The
smile faltered as Brock sucked in his lower lip. "You don't want
to see the mean lady." "Don't
want you to see mean lady alone." He took a deep breath and
squared his shoulders. "I go with you." "That's
very brave of you." And he meant that. Courage was only courage
in the face of fear. "But even though I know you mean well, you
can't just take a Companion." Brock's
eyes widened indignantly. "Didn't take!" :Calida
says if she hadn't wanted him to ride her, he wouldn't be here.:
Gervis scratched his cheek on a post and added thoughtfully.
:He's very bad at it.: :At
what?: :Riding.: :No
doubt. What does Isabel say about this?:
:Herald
Isabel trusts her Companion.: :That's
not very helpful.: :It
should be.: One
more try. "Brock, by taking her Companion, you've left Herald
Isabel alone." "No."
He leaned carefully forward in the saddle and stroked Calida's neck.
"Left Rock." Jors
reached for Calida's bridle, but the Companion tossed her head,
moving it away from his hand. "Calida, you have to take him
back." The
mare gave him a flat, uncompromising stare.
:She
says, "make me.": Gervis translated helpfully.
:Yeah.
I got that. What do you think I should do?:
:Help
him down.: :You
think this is funny, don't you?: Jors demanded doing as the
Companion suggested. :I
think this is inevitable, Chosen. You might as well make the best of
it.: Even
with Jors' help, Brock stumbled as he hit the ground, fell, rolled,
and bounced up, declaring, "I'm okay!" :Now,
get ready. : Gervis shoved at Jors' bare shoulder. :We'll be
moving slowly and Calida says it's going to rain.: :And
won't that make this a perfect day?: :No.
She says it's going to rain hard and I don't like to get wet. I want
to be there before it rains.: That
began to look more and more unlikely as the morning passed and the
clouds grew darker. Brock managed to stay in the saddle at a fast
walk and Calida refused to go faster. Once or twice, Jors was
positive he was going to fall off, but at the last instant he'd shift
weight and somehow stay mounted. :His
balance is bad. But Calida's helping.: :Why
is Calida doing this?: One
ear flicked back. :So he won't fall off: :No,
I mean why is Calida allowing any of this? Why is she allowing Brock
to ride her? Why is she allowing—insisting—he come along
today?: :She
has her reasons.: Jors
sighed. He knew that tone. :And you're not going to tell me what
those reasons are, are you?:
:He's
very happy.: :I
can see that.: Happy
was an understatement. For all he held the pommel in a death grip,
Brock looked ecstatic. This is really not helping his delusion
that he's a Herald, Jors realized. Something would have to be
done about that and since the two of them were spending what was
likely to be a full day traveling together, now would be the time to
do it. Maybe that was why Calida had brought him. There'd
be no point in bluntly saying, "Brock, you're not a Herald."
The townspeople said that all the time, shaded in every possible
emotion from amusement to rage, and it had no effect. "Brock,
do you know what makes a person a Herald?" "Heralds
help people. Heralds can cry. Heralds tell when bad things happen."
He beamed proudly. "I remember the new things." "Yes,
all those things make a Herald, but..." "I'm
a good Herald." "...but
there's other things." Brock
twisted in the saddle to look at him and Calida adjusted her gait to
prevent a fall. "Heralds wear shiny white."
"Yes..." He
looked down at his gray sweater, then looked back at Jors smiling
broadly. "Clothes are on the outside." :And
a Herald is on the inside.: :I
get it.: A
sapphire eye rolled back at him, distinctly amused. :Just trying
to help.: "Brock,
all those things are part of being a Herald, but the most important
part is being Chosen by a Companion. You don't have to be a Herald to
be a really good person but you do have to be Chosen. Do you
understand?" Brock
nodded. "Companions have Heralds." "You
don't have a Companion." "Yes!"
He bounced indignantly, lost a stirrup, and nearly went off. "Have
Calida," he continued when he was secure in the saddle again. "But
she's Herald Isabel's Companion. Herald Isabel is letting you ride
her." "No.
Calida is letting." :He's
got you there.: Jors
sighed. "Riding a Companion isn't the point, Brock. You're not
Calida's Herald." "Not
her Herald," Brock agreed, his smile lighting up his whole face.
"A Herald." Between
the less than successful conversation and the glowering sky, Jors had
picked up a pounding headache. They rode without speaking for a
while, Brock humming tunelessly to himself. Finally, more to put an
end to the humming than for any real desire to know, Jors turned in
the saddle and said, "So, you were going to tell me how you
saved Rock." "Kids
were hurting him." Brock's placid expression turned fierce at
the memory. "I made them stop." Although he wouldn't defend
himself, he seemed quite capable of defending the helpless. "He
was hungry. I counted his bones. One, two, three, four..." "Where
did he come from?" Jors interrupted, unsure of how high the
other man could count and not really wanting to find out. "Don't
know. Now, he is my friend." The broad brow furrowed as he
searched for words. "Some mean people aren't mean now because he
is my friend." That
was hardly surprising. Rock was a big dog. Probably a hunting dog of
some kind who'd gotten separated from his pack and managed to finally
find his way back to people. "Why did you call him Rock?" "So
when kids are mean, it doesn't matter."
"I
don't understand." Brock
stared down between Calida's ears and chanted, "Brock, Brock,
dumb as a rock." Then he grinned and turned just far enough in
the saddle to meet Jors' gaze. "Rock isn't dumb. I fooled them." He
looked so proud, Jors found himself grinning in return. "Yes,
you did. That was very smart." "I
am a smart Herald." It
was a good thing he didn't need affirmation because Jors had no idea
of what to say. :And now,: he sighed quietly as large drops of
cold water began splashing against his leathers, :it's raining.: :I
know. I'm getting wet.: :So
am I.: :I'm
bigger. There's more of me, so I'm more wet.: In
a very short time all four of them were so drenched there was little
point in comparisons. Fortunately, as they crested a rise in the
trail, the tanners' holding came into sight on the other side of a
small valley. Neither Companion needed urging toward the river
running through the valley center although they both stopped well
back from the bank. The water was brown and running fast, the log
bridge nearly awash. :What
do you think? Is it safe?: Gervis
stepped cautiously out onto the edge of the logs. :If we move
quickly.: But
Calida hesitated. :What
is it?: :Calida
says the river's already undermining the bridge supports. That the
bridge is going to wash away.: :Tell
her that if it does, better we're all on the side with shelter. I'm
half drowned and half frozen and Brock's got to be colder still.
She's got to get him out of this weather.: Eyes
wide, the mare stepped up beside Gervis who took her arrival as his
cue to leap forward. One stride, two, three. As Jors watched
anxiously from the other shore, Calida slowly followed, placing each
hoof with care. Wood
screamed a protest as the bridge supports caved. The
huge logs dipped and skewed out from the bank, dragged by the river. Calida
half-reared as her front hooves scrambled for purchase in the mud. Brock
bounced over the cantle and disappeared. "No!"
Jors threw himself to the ground. Stumbling to the Companion's side,
he grabbed the mare's saddle and heaved. Step by step, as she managed
to work her way forward, he worked his way back until, to his
amazement, he saw a very muddy Brock holding on with both hands to
Calida's tail, his feet in the river. A heartbeat later, with solid
ground, beneath all four of them, he dropped to his knees and
gathered Brock up into his arms. "Are
you all right?" He
looked more surprised then frightened and returned the hug with wet
enthusiasm.
"I
fell."
"I
know. The bridge broke." Brock
twisted around to look, and clutched at Jors' arm. "I'm sorry!" "It's
okay. It wasn't your fault." His heart slamming painfully
against his ribs, Jors grabbed a stirrup and hauled himself onto his
feet. "Come on, we're almost there." *
* * The
tanners' holding looked deserted as they stumbled up to the
buildings. Jors called out a greeting, but the wind and rain whipped
the words out of his mouth. Brock
grabbed his arm. "Smoke," he said, pointing to the thin gay
line rising reluctantly from a chimney. "I'm cold." "Me,
too." All
thoughts turned to a warm fire as they made their way over to the
building, the Companions crowding in close under the wide eaves. :We'll
be right back as soon as we find someone.:
:Hurry,
Chosen.: Gervis sounded completely miserable. Covered in mud
almost to his withers, his mane hanging in a tangled, sodden mass, he
looked very little like the gleaming creature who'd left the
Waystation that morning. Calida, if anything, looked worse. Jors
considered leaving Brock with the Companions, but the other man's
breathing sounded unnaturally hoarse so he beckoned him forward as he
tried the door. The sooner he got him inside the better. The
door opened easily. It hadn't even been latched. "Hello?" Stepping
inside wasn't so much a step into warmth as a step into a space less
cold. It looked like they'd found the family's main living quarters
although the room was so dim, it was difficult to tell for sure. The
only light came from a small fire smoldering on the fieldstone hearth
and a tallow lamp on the floor close beside a cradle. "No."
Brock charged across the room, trailing a small river in his wake.
"No fire beside baby!" Remembering
what Lorrin had told him about Brock and babies, Jors held his
position by the door. The younger of two, what he knew about babies
could be inscribed on the head of a pin with room left over for the
lyrics to Kerowyn's Ride. Squatting,
Brock picked up the lamp. "No fire beside baby," he
repeated, began to rise, and paused. "Baby?" Leaning
forward, he peered into the cradle. "Is
it all right?" The lamp and the fire together threw barely
enough light for Jors to see Brock. He couldn't see the baby at all. Setting
the lamp down again, Brock stretched both hands into the cradle. When
he stood and turned, he was holding a limp infant across both palms,
his broad features twisted in sorrow. "Baby is dead." :Jors!:
Jors
spun around as the door slammed open and five people surged into the
room. They froze for an instant, then the man in front howled out a
wordless challenge and charged. Bending,
Jors captured his attacker's momentum then he straightened, throwing
the other man to the floor hard enough to knock him breathless. The
immediate threat removed, he faced the remaining two men and two
women. "I am Herald Jors. Who is in charge here?" "I
am," the older woman snarled. The
hate in her eyes nearly drove Jors back a step. He didn't need
Brock's whispered "mean lady" to know who she was. It took
an effort, but he kept his voice calm and understanding as he said,
"The child was dead when we arrived." "Dory
came to say the babe was sick, not dead," she spat as the
younger woman ran silently forward and snatched the body from Brock's
hands. "The Moonling killed him." "He
did not..." "You're
here and he's there," she sneered. "You can't see what he
did." Spreading
his hands, he added a mild warning to his tone. "And you weren't
even in the building. I understand this is a shock..." "You
understand nothing, Herald." She placed a hand on the backs of
the two remaining men and shoved. "Have the guts to support your
brother!" They
sprang forward, looking like nothing so much as a pair of whipped
dogs. "Jors?" He
ducked an awkward blow. "Outside, Brock. Now!" If anything
happened to him, the Companions would get Brock to safety. "There's
two of you and one of him, you idiots! Don't let him protect the
half-wit!" :Chosen?: :It's
all right.: Fortunately,
neither man was much of a fighter. Jors could have ended it quickly,
but as they'd just suffered a sudden terrible loss and weren't
thinking clearly, he didn't want to do any serious damage. After a
moment, he realized that had it not been for the old woman goading
them on, neither would have been fighting. Maybe I should have Gervis
deal with... He'd
forgotten the first brother. The piece of firewood caught him on the
side of the head. As he started to fall, he felt unfriendly hands
grab his body. "No!" Then
the hands were ripped away, and he hit the floor. Two bodies hit the
floor after him, closely followed by the third. "Never
hit a Herald!" "Get
up, you cowards! That's a Moonling—not a real man!" "But,
Ma..." "He
killed my grandson!" Hers.
Jors thought muzzily. Not grief Anger. Anger at the loss of a
possession. "You
never loved him!" Apparently,
the child's mother agreed. "You
always complained about him! You said if he didn't stop crying you
were going to strangle him! If anyone killed him..." "Don't
you raise your voice to me, you cow. If you were a better..." "ENOUGH!" The
doors slammed open again. Hooves clattering against the floor boards,
the Companions moved to flank Brock. From Jors' position on the
floor, it looked as if there were significantly more than a mere
eight muddy white legs. "Don't
lie there with your idiot mouths open! They're just horses!" "They're
not just horses, you stupid old woman!"
:Gervis?: :I'm
here, Heart-brother.: Jors
felt better about his chance of recovery. Gervis was angry but not
frantic. "A
baby is dead. Is time for crying, not fighting. A Herald is hurt. You
hurt a Herald." :Is
that Brock standing up to the mean lady?:
:It
is.: :Good
for him.: "You
will cry, and you will make the Herald better!"
"I
will not." No
mistaking that hate-filled voice.
"Then
I will." Nor
the voice of the child's mother. For
the first time, Brock sounded confused. "You will cry?" "No.
I will help the Herald."
:Out
of spite...: :You
need help, Heart-brother. Your head is bleeding. Spiteful help is
still help.: Jors
got one arm under him and tried to rise.
:If
you say...: :Chosen!: His
Companion's cry went with him into darkness. *
* * Jors
woke to the familiar and comforting smell of a stable. For a moment
he thought he'd dozed off on foal-watch, then he moved and the pain
in his head brought everything back.
:Gervis! :I'm
here.: A soft nose nuzzled his cheek. :Just open your eyes.: Even
moving his eyelids hurt, but he forced them up. Fortunately, the
stable was dark, the brightest things in it, the two Companions. He
could just barely make out Brock tucked up against Calida's side,
wrapped in a blanket and nearly buried in straw. :How long?: :From
almost dark to just after moonrise. Long enough I was starting to
worry.: He
stretched up a hand and stroked the side of Gervis' face. :Sorry.: :The
young female made tea for your head. There's a closed pot buried in
the straw by your side.: The
tea was still warm and tasted awful, but Gervis made him drink the
whole thing. :I take it we're in the stable because you and Calida
wouldn't leave me?: :The
old woman said the young woman could do as she pleased but not in her
house. I do not want you to be in her house.: The obvious
distaste in the young stallion's mental voice was hardly surprising.
Even on short acquaintance the old woman was as nasty a piece of work
as Jors ever wanted to get close to. :Brock told two of the young
males to carry you here.: :He
just told them what to do and they did it?: :They
are used to being told what to do.: :Good
point,: Jors acknowledged. :And,:
Gervis continued, :I think they were frightened when they
realized they had struck down a Herald.: :They
knew I was a Herald!: :Knowing
and realizing are often different. Had the blow struck by the child's
father been any lower, they would have killed you and that frightened
them, too. They were thankful Brock took charge. He saw you were
tended to, he was assured you would live without damage, he groomed
us both, and then he cried himself to sleep.: :Poor
guy. Good thing he was there. If he hadn't been, I wouldn't have put
it past the mean lady to have finished the job and buried both our
bodies.: :The
Circle would know.: :We'd
still be dead. Is this why Calida insisted on bringing him?: :She
has told her Chosen we need no assistance and convinced her not to
ride to the rescue. The Herald Isabel agreed but only because she
felt the townspeople would lay the blame on Brock.: :That's
ridiculous.: Gervis
sighed, blowing sweet, hay-scented breath over Jors' face. :There
is already much talk against him taking a Companion.: All
of which he needed to know but didn't answer his question. About to
ask it again, he stopped short. :Calida can reach Isabel from
here? I couldn't reach you from here!: :Nor
I you.: He
sounded so put out by it, Jors couldn't prevent a smile. :Never
mind, Heart-brother. Calida and her Chosen have been together for
many years; when we've been together for that long, I'll hear you if
I'm in Sorrows and you're in Sensholding.: :I'd
rather we were never that far apart.: Jors
wrapped one hand in Gervis' silken mane. :Me either : :Sleep
now, Chosen. It will be morning soon enough.: *
* * When
Jors opened his eyes again, weak autumn sunlight filtered into the
stable. An attempt to rise brought Gervis in through the open door.
He pulled himself to his feet with a handful of mane and, throwing an
arm over his Companion's back, managed to get to where he could
relieve himself. :The
old woman made them bury the child this morning.: :They're
only a day's ride from town; they can't wait for a priest?: :The
bridge is gone. The priest cannot come.: He pawed the ground with
a front hoof and added. :I don't think the old woman would send
for a priest even if he could come.: :Do
you know where they are?: :Yes.: Jors
took a deep breath and, holding it, managed to swing himself up on
Gervis' bare back. :Let's go, then.: The
tanners had a graveyard in a small clearing cupped by the surrounding
oak forest. When Jors arrived, the three men had just finished
filling in the tiny hole. As Jors stopped, half hidden by a large
sumach, Brock wiped the tears from his face on Calida's mane and
stepped up to the grave. "There
is no priest. I will say good-bye to the baby." "I'm
not listening to a half-wit say anything," the old woman
snarled. She turned on one heel and started down the hill. "I
only came to see the job was done right. Enric, Kern, Simen; back to
work, there's hides to be sammied." Two
of the three moved to her side, the third looked toward the young
woman and hesitated. "He was my son, Ma." "He
was my son, Ma." She threw it mockingly over her shoulder. "Look
around you, Simen. I've buried a son, two daughters, and a husband
besides, and it don't make hides tan themselves. Stay and listen to
the half-wit if you want." "Dory?" She
lifted stony eyes to Simen's face. "Better do as your ma says,"
she sneered. "'Cause you always do as your ma says." Scarred
hands curled into fists, but they stayed at his side. "Fine.
I'll go." "I
don't care." "Fine."
But when he turned, Brock was in his way. Jors
tensed to urge Gervis forward, but at the last instant, for no clear
reason, he changed his mind. "Stay
and say good-bye." A heavy shove rocked him in place but didn't
move him. "Stay." And then gently. "Say good-bye to
baby." Simen
stared down into Brock's face, then wordlessly turned back to the
grave. Brock
returned to his place and rubbed his nose on his sleeve. "Sometimes,"
he said, "babies die. Mamas and papas love them, and hug them,
and kiss them, and feed them, and they die. Nobody did anything bad.
Everyone is sorry. The baby wasn't bad. Babies are good. Good-bye,
baby." "His
name," Simen said, so quietly Jors almost missed it, "was
Tamas." Brock
nodded solemnly. "Good-bye, Tamas. Everyone is sorry." He
lifted his head and stared at Tamas' parents standing
hunch-shouldered, carefully apart. "Now, you cry." Dory
shook her head. "Crying is for the weak." "You
have tears." Brock tapped his own chest. "In here. Tears
not cried go bad. Bad tears make you hurt." "You
heard Aysa. She buried a son and two daughters. She never cried." "She
is the mean lady," Brock said sadly. "You can't be the mean
lady." He opened his arms and, before Dory could move, wrapped
her in one of his all-encompassing hugs. Jors
knew from experience that when Brock hugged, he held nothing back. It
was a new experience for Dory. She
blinked twice, drew in a long shuddering breath, then clutched at his
tattered sweater and began to sob. After a moment, Brock reached out
one hand, grabbed Simen and pulled him into the embrace. "Cry
now," he commanded. "I..."
Simen shook his head and tried to pull away. Brock
pulled him closer, pushing Dory into his arms and wrapping himself
around them both. Simen stiffened then made a sound, very like his
son might have made, and gave himself over to grief. All three of
them sank to their knees. :These
people need help.: Gervis
shifted his head. :It seems they're getting it: *
* * With
the funeral over, Jors pulled himself into something resembling
official shape and sought out Aysa. "Your
son attacked a Herald." "His
son just died. He was mad with grief."
"You
goaded his brothers..." "To
stand by him," she sneered triumphantly. "I never told no
one to hit you. And now I'm givin' you and that half-wit food and
shelter. You can't ask for more, Herald." Given
that he and Brock were trapped on her side of the river, he supposed
he'd better not. "About the bridge..." Without
the bridge, there was no way back. The river wasn't particularly
wide, but the water ran deep and fast. "You
come out here to stick your nose in on us, then you're stuck out here
till we head in to town and we ain't headin' nowheres until them
hides is done. We wasted time enough with Dory having that baby. You
want to leave before that, then you and the half-wit can rebuild the
bridge yourself." "That's
fair. I can't expect you to drop everything and assist me." His
next words wiped the triumphant sneer from her face. "I'll have
them send a crew out from town." "You
can't get word to town." He
smiled, hoping he looked a lot more confident of the conversation's
outcome than he felt. "There's a Herald there and I already
have. By this time tomorrow, there'll be a dozen people in the
valley." "Liar." "Heralds
can't lie, Ma." "Shut
up!" Aysa half turned and Kern winced away as though he expected
to be hit. Lip curled, she turned back to Jors. "I don't want a
dozen people in the valley! And it don't take a dozen people anyway.
And the water won't be down enough tomorrow." "Then
I'll have them come when the water goes down." "You
won't have no one come. My boys'll rebuild."
"Then
the townspeople can help." "My
boys don't need help. They ain't got brains for much, but they can do
that. You let them know in town I'm hostin' you and the half-wit till
then." It
was a grudgingly offered truce, but he'd take it. Jors
wasn't surprised that Aysa'd refused help. The last thing she'd want
would be her sons exposed to more people, to people who'd make them
realize they were entitled to be treated with kindness. Over the next
few days, while they waited for the water to recede, she proved that
by keeping him by her side, keeping him from interacting with anyone
else at the holding. Brock,
she considered no threat. Which
was a mistake. Because
Brock treated everyone with kindness. *
* * "You
call that supple?! I could do better chewin' it! How could you be
doin' this all your life and still be no damned good? You're
pathetic." Enric and Kern leaped back as she threw the piece of
finished leather down at their feet. "Pathetic," she
repeated and stomped away. "Mean
lady calls me names, too," Brock sighed, coming out from behind
the fleshing beam and picking up the hide. Enric
ripped it out of his hands. "We ain't half-wits." "Mean
lady calls me half-wit. Not you." "You
are a half-wit!" "Are
you pathetic?" Kern
jerked forward, face flushed. "You callin' us pathetic?" "No.
It hurts when people call names." Brock looked from one to the
other. "Doesn't it hurt?" "If
your half-wit falls in a liming pit," Aysa snarled as Jors
caught up, "my boys'll stand there and laugh."
"You
taught them that." "I'm
all they got." "They're
terrified of you." "Good." "Dory
isn't." "You
think one of my boys is stupid enough to pick up a weakling?"
Aysa nodded toward the garden where Dory heaped cabbage into a
basket. "But she does what I say like the rest. If she doesn't
like it, she can leave any time." While
they watched, Dory lifted the basket, gave a little cry and let it
fall. Aysa
snorted. "'Course that baby left her stupidly weak." Jors
took a step toward the garden but stopped as Simen came out of the
chicken house and hurried across to his wife. "Simen!
You get back to work, you lazy pig." His
mother's voice froze him in his tracks. Then he shook himself, and
began retrieving the spilled cabbages. "Simen!" He
ignored her. "This
is your fault, Herald. Turning a woman's family against her."
Muttering under her breath, she strode toward them. Dory
looked up, saw her coming and stood, hands on hips. "You
think you can face me down, girl? Simen, get up!" He
stood. "Now
get back to work." He
took a step forward and put his hands on Dory's shoulders. "When
I'm finished here, Ma." Aysa's
mouth worked for a moment, but no sound emerged. Finally, she spun on
one heel and stomped away. The
corner of Simen's mouth curled. "You'd best help here, Herald. I
wouldn't follow her right now." *
* * The
river was low enough the next day. The
bridge took only a day longer to rebuild and for the most part
involved fitting the original pieces back into place. Jors
stared the completed bridge in amazement. "That's incredible." "Nothin'
incredible about it, Herald," Enric snorted. "Damned thing
goes out every other season. Easier to build it so it breaks apart
clean." His
bare torso red with cold, Kern shrugged into a sheepskin coat.
"Supports slip out so they don't shatter, logs end up in the
same place, we float 'em back and rebuild. Any idiot can do it." "Trust
me, I've crossed a hundred rivers—or maybe a couple of rivers a
hundred times—but I've never seen anything like this." "Ma
says it's not..." Simen paused, frowned, and looked up at the
Herald. "It's really good?"
"It's
really good." The
brothers exchanged confused looks and Jors had the horrible suspicion
this was the first time they'd ever been praised for anything. *
* * The
next day while Jors was checking Calida's girth strap for the trip
back to town, Dory came out of the house with a bundle. "It's
for Brock," she said, folding back a corner. "I want you to
give it to him for me." At
first Jors thought it was white leather. Made sense; they were
tanners after all. Then he realized the leather had been cut and sewn
into a fair approximation of Herald's whites. Dory had clearly taken
the pattern from his and sized it to fit Brock. "I
saw he didn't have none of his own." Oh,
help. "Dory, you know he's not..."
"Brother
Herald! We go now? What you got?" His hands and Dory's together
closed the bundle. "It's
a surprise," Dory said, her cheeks crimson. "For later." "Not
for now?"
"No." "Okay."
He took Calida's reins and stood waiting patiently while Jors tied
the bundle behind Gervis' saddle. :You seem upset, Chosen.: :I
can't tell her Brock's not an actual Herald while he's standing
there. He'll say he is, I'11 say he isn't, and I'm not sure that in
this place at this time, I'd win the argument.: :You
shouldn't argue.: :Oh,
that's helpful.: :Thank
you.: *
* * The
whole family went with them to the bridge. Jors didn't know why the
rest came, but he was certain Aysa just wanted to make sure they were
off her land. He wanted to say something, something that would
convince them they didn't have to live inside the darkness of an old
woman's anger, but before he could think of the right words, Brock
hugged Dory. And Simen. And Enric. And Kern. Then
he scrambled up into the saddle and, from the safety of Calida's
back, took a deep breath, looked Aysa in the eye, and spoke directly
to her for the first time. "Why don't you love your babies?" Her
lip curled. "I buried my babies, half-wit." He
nodded toward the three young men standing to her right. "Not
them." She
turned, looked at her sons, looked back at Brock
and muttered, "Half-wit." But there was little force behind
it. Jors
had no idea he was going to do what he did until he did it. *
* * "Jors,
you hugged mean lady." "Yeah.
I know." Although he still couldn't believe it. "Everyone
else got hugged, I just..." She'd
pushed him away with such force that he'd slammed back into Gervis'
shoulder. "You
are the bravest Herald. Ever, ever." "Thank
you." Then
she'd snarled something incomprehensible, turned, and stomped away. He'd
probably accomplished nothing at all by it. The bundle Dory had given
him pushed against the small of his back. *
* * The
weather remained clear and cool and just as the sun was setting, they
stopped outside the village. "Gate will close when sun is set,"
Brock warned. "I know. Brock, I think you should go back to
Haven with Isabel." "Lots
of Heralds in Haven?" "Yes." Brock
sighed and shook his head. "No. I have to stay here. I am the
only Herald." "Brock,
you're not..." He couldn't say it. Brock
waited patiently for a moment then smiled. "Is it later?" "Yes..." "What's
Dory's surprise?" "Um...it's
um..." Both
Companions turned their heads to look at him. Their expression said,
this is up to you. :He
believes he is a Herald.: :Yes,
but..: :And
he acts accordingly.: *
* * "I
couldn't do it, Isabel. They're just clothes and I know that but if I
gave Brock those whites, then there'd be fake Heralds showing up all
over the place." "A
bad precedent to be sure," the older Herald agreed. "There
has to be a line and that line has to be the Companions. Sometimes it
seems like we're barely keeping order in chaos now. I couldn't...No
matter how much..." Jors ran both hands back through his air, he
couldn't believe how much the decision, the right decision had felt
like betrayal. "It wouldn't make any difference to Brock. He
knows who and what he is, but for the others in the village, those
who made fun and called him names..." "Come
here, I want to show you something." Isabel took his arm and
pulled him to the window. "What do you see?" Jors
squinted down into the stable yard. "Brock's grooming Gervis
again." "While
you four were gone, I talked to a lot of people. Seems that whenever
a Herald comes into this village, the Companion manages to spend time
with Brock. Even if it's only a moment or two." They watched as
Calida crossed the yard and tried to shoulder Gervis away. Brock
laughed and told her to wait her turn. "You were right not to
give him the Whites," Isabel continued, "but you were also
right when you said it makes no difference. He couldn't be Chosen
because, as Heralds, we have to face dangers he'd never understand,
but the Companions know him. All Brock needs from us is our love and
support. Now, since Healer Lorrin has finally allowed me out of bed,
what do you say you and I go down there and give our brother a hand
with the fourfoots?" Jors
grinned as Brock gamely tried to brush both tails at once. Heralds
wear shiny white. Brock
wore his Whites on the inside.
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