The Lords of Wyrd do not make a man’s life as neatly as a
master potter turns out bowls, each perfectly shaped and suitable
to its purpose. In the ebb and flow of birth and death are strange
currents, eddies, and vortices, most of which are beyond the power
of the Great Ones to control.
—The Secret Book of Cadwallon the Druid
ONE
The sound of rain drumming on the ward outside echoed pleasantly
in the great hall. In her chair by the fire, Aunt Gwerna was
drowsing over her needlework. Occasionally she would look up and
answer a dutiful “true-spoken” to one of her
husband’s rhetorical questions. Perryn’s uncle, Benoic,
Tieryn Pren Cludan, was in one of his expostulatory moods. He sat
straight in his chair, one heavy hand gripping a tankard, the other
emphasizing his points by slamming the chair arm. Benoic was going
quite heavily gray, but he was still as strong-muscled as many a
younger man, and as strong in the lungs, too.
“It’s these worm-riddled pikemen,” he
bellowed. “Battle’s not the same with common-born men
fighting in it. They should be guarding the carts and naught else.
Cursed near blasphemous, if you ask me.
“True-spoken,” Perryn said dutifully.
“Hah! More of this wretched courtly mincing around,
that’s all it is. Trust the blasted southerners to come up
with somewhat like this. It’s no wonder the kingdom’s
not what it was.”
While Benoic soothed his feelings with a long swallow of ale,
Perryn tried to unravel the connection between spearing a man off
his horse and the fine manners of the king’s court.
“You young lads nowadays!” his uncle went on.
“Now, if you’d only ridden in some of the battles I did
at your age, then you’d understand what life here in
Cerrgonney means. Look at you, lad, riding around without a copper
to your name. Ye gods! You should be getting yourself a place in a
warband and working at rising to captain.”
“Now here, Perro,” Gwerna broke in.
“You’re welcome at our table anytime you pass
by.”
“Course he is, woman!” Benoic snapped.
“That’s not the point. He should be making somewhat of
himself, that’s all. I don’t know what’s wrong
with you, lad, and your cursed cousin Nedd is even worse. At least
there’s some excuse for you.”
“Oh, er, my thanks.”
“But Nedd’s got dun and demesne both, and all he
does is ride around hunting all day. By the Lord of Hell’s
balls!”
“Now, my love,” Gwerna interceded again. “He
and Perryn are both young yet.”
“Twenty, both of them! Old enough to marry and settle
down.”
“Well, here, Uncle, I can hardly take a wife when I
don’t even have a house to put her in.”
“That’s what I mean. There’s some excuse for
you.”
Perryn smiled feebly. Although he was a member of the northern
branch of the ancient and conjoint Wolf clan and was thus entitled
to be called a lord, he was also the fifth son of a land-poor
family, which meant that he owned naught but the title and a long
string of relatives to play unwilling host when he turned up
at their gates.
“Are you riding Nedd’s way when you leave us?”
Benoic asked.
“I am. On the morrow, I was thinking.”
“Then tell him I want to hear of him marrying,
and soon.”
The next morning, Perryn rose at dawn and went to the stable
long before the dun came awake, He brought out his dapple-gray
gelding, a fine horse with some Western Hunter blood in him, and
began saddling up. On his travels he packed an amazing
amount of gear: two pairs of saddlebags, a bulging bedroll, a small
iron kettle, and at his saddle peak a woodcutter’s ax slung
where most lords carried a shield. Just as he was finishing,
Benoic came out to look the laden horse over.
“By the asses of the gods, you look like a misbegotten
peddler! Why don’t you take a pack horse if you’re
going to live on the roads this way?”
“Oh er, good idea.”
With a snort, Benoic ran his hand down the gray’s
neck.
“Splendid creature. Where did a young cub like you
scrape up the coin for him?”
“Oh, er, ah, well.” Perryn needed a lie
fast, “Won him in a dice game.”
“Might have known! Ye gods, you, and your blasted
cousin are going to drive me to the Otherlands before my
time.”
When he left the dun, Perryn set off down the
west-running road in search of a pack horse. Around him stretched
the fields of Benoic’s demesne, pale green with young
barley. Here and, there farmers trotted through the crops to
shoo away the crows, who rose with indignant caws and a clatter of
wings. Soon, though, the fields gave way as the road rose into the
rocky hills, dark with pines. Perryn turned off the muddy track
that passed for a road and worked his way through the widely spaced
silent trees. Once he was in wild country, he had no need of roads
to find his way.
Early in the afternoon, he reached his goal, a mountain meadow
in a long valley that belonged to a certain Lord Nertyn, one of his
uncle’s vassals but a man Perryn particularly disliked. Out
in the tall grass twenty head of Nertyn’s horses grazed
peacefully, guarded by the stallion of the herd, a sturdy chestnut
who stood a good sixteen hands high. When Perryn walked toward the
herd, the stallion swung his way with a vicious snort, and the
others threw up their heads and watched, poised to run. Perryn
began talking to the stallion, a soft clucking noise, a little
murmur of meaningless sound until the horse relaxed and allowed
Perryn to stroke his neck. At that, the rest of the herd returned
to their feed.
“I need to borrow one of your friends,” Perryn said.
“I hope you don’t mind. I’ll take splendid care
of him.”
As if he agreed, the stallion tossed his head, then ambled away.
Perryn picked out a bay gelding and began patting its neck and
combing its mane with his fingers.
“Aren’t you sick of that fat lord who owns you? Come
along and see somewhat of the road.”
When the gelding turned its head, Perryn smiled at it in a
particular way he had, a deep smile that made him feel slightly
cool, as some of his warmth was flowing out to the recipient of the
smile. With a soft snort, the bay leaned its head against his
chest. He patted it for a few more minutes, then walked away, the
bay following close behind. Although Perryn honestly didn’t
understand why, once he got a few minutes alone with a horse, the
animal would follow him anywhere without halter or rope. It was a
useful trick. Whenever his coin ran low, he would simply take a
horse from someone he disliked and sell it to one of the dishonest
traders he knew. Because of his noble blood, no one ever suspected
him of being the worst horse thief in the northern provinces.
He’d often stolen a horse from a cousin one week, then ridden
back the next to express surprise and sympathy at the loss.
Only Benoic and Nedd were safe from his raiding.
That night, Perryn and the two horses made a comfortable camp
in a forest clearing, but the next day they had to return to
the road or go miles out of their way around a steep hill.
They had barely reached the track when it began to rain. Perryn
kept riding until the mud made traveling difficult for the horses, then turned a
little way into the forest and dismounted. In the imperfect shelter
of the pines he crouched down between the horses and waited for the
storm to slack. It was uncomfortable, of course, with his clothes
stuck to him and water running into his boots, but he ignored the
discomfort, the way forest deer ignored the rain, browsing in the
wet when they were hungry. If someone had asked him what he thought
about during those two cold hours, he wouldn’t have been able
to say. He was merely aware of things: the rain, the smell of pine,
the slick-wet trunks and pale green ferns. Every sound brought a
message: a squirrel scuttling into its hole, a deer moving
cautiously far away, a stream running close by. Eventually the rain
stopped. By the time he reached Nedd’s dun, he was dry again.
Indeed, he’d quite forgotten that he’d been caught by
the storm.
The dun stood on a muddy hillock behind a crumbling stone wall
and a pair of rusty iron-bound gates that squeaked like a demon
when Perryn shoved them open. Instead of a broch, Nedd had a stone
round house with a roof that leaked all round the edge and two
hearths that smoked badly. Although there were the usual barracks
over the stables for a warband, the roof there was so bad that Nedd
had simply moved his ten men into the half round of a room that
passed for his great hall. They slept on straw mattresses, laid any
which way in the dry spots out in the middle of the room. Nedd, as
befitted his rank, had an actual bed by one hearth. Scattered
through this disorder of moldy straw were also two tables, benches,
a collection of leather buckets for drips, and one elegant chair,
carved with the Wolf blazon. When Perryn came in after stabling his
horses, he found his cousin sitting in the chair with his feet on
one of the tables.
“By the gods,” Nedd said with a grin.
“You’ve come like an omen, cousin. Here, fetch yourself
some ale. There’s an open barrel by the other
hearth.”
Since their mothers were sisters, the cousins looked much alike.
They both had flaming red hair, freckles, and bright blue eyes, but
while Nedd was a good-looking man, the most charitable description
of Perryn would have been “nondescript.” Tankard in
hand, he joined Nedd at his table. At the other, the warband were
drinking and dicing.
“Why have I come like an omen?”
“You’re just in time to ride to war with me.”
Nedd smiled as if he offering a splendid gift “I’ve got this ally to the
west, Tieryn Graemyn—you’ve met him, haven’t you—and
he’s sent out a call for aid. I’m supposed to bring him twelve
men, but I’ve only got so I’ve got to scrape up the
other two somewhere. Come along, cousin! It’ll be good sport, and you can spare me
the cost of a silver dagger.”
Seeing no way out of it, Perryn sighed. Nedd had fed him for any
a winter, and besides, a noble lord was supposed to respond
joyously to the call for war. He forced out a smile.
“Oh, gladly,” he said. “And what’s the
war about?”
“Cursed if I know. I just got the message
today.”
“Can you spare me a shield?”
“Of course. Ye gods, Perro, don’t tell me you ride
without one?”
“Er, ah, well, I do at that. They take up too much space
on your saddle.”
“You should have been born a woodcutter, I swear
it!”
Perryn rubbed his chin and considered the suggestion.
“Just jesting,” Nedd said hurriedly. “Well, I
hope a silver dagger turns up soon. There’s always a lot of
them in Cerrgonney. We’ll wait a couple of days, then ride,
even if we’re one short. Better that than riding in after the
fighting’s over.”
The gods, however, apparently decided that if Lord Nedd was
going to march to war, it might as well be straightaway. On the
morrow, not long after breakfast, the kitchen gardener ambled in to
announce that there was a silver dagger at the gates.
“And he’s got a woman with him, too,” the old
man said. “I feel cursed sorry for her kin.”
“Is she pretty?” Nedd said.
“She is.”
Nedd and Perryn shared a small smile.
“Splendid,” Nedd said. “Send them in, will
you?”
In a few minutes the silver dagger and his woman came in,
both travel-stained and roughly dressed, the lass in men’s
clothing with a sword and silver dagger of her own. Although
her blond hair was cropped short like a lad’s, she
was not merely pretty but beautiful, with wide blue eyes and a delicate mouth.
“Good
morrow, my lords.” The silver dagger made them a courtly bow.
“My name’s Rhodry of Aberwyn, and I heard in your village that you’ve got a hire for the likes of me.”
“I do,” Nedd said. I can’t offer you more than a silver
piece a week, but if you serve me well in the war, I’ll shelter you and
your lass all winter.”
Rhodry glanced up at the roof, where sunlight broke through in
long shafts, then down at the floor, where Nedd’s dogs snored
in mildewed straw.
“Winter’s a long way away, my lord. We’ll be
riding on.”
“Oh well,” Nedd said hastily. “I can squeeze out two
silver pieces a week, and there’ll be battle loot,
too.”
“Done then. His lordship is to be praised for his
generosity.”
For Jill’s sake, Lord Nedd gave his silver dagger an
actual chamber to sleep in instead of a mattress out in the great
hall, Although the wickerwork walls were filthy, it did have
a door. Rather than sit on the straw of the floor, which seemed to
be inhabited, Jill perched on top of an unsteady wooden chest and
watched as Rhodry cleaned his chain mail. As he ran an old rag
through the rings, to wipe away the rust, he was frowning in the
candlelight.
“What are you thinking
about?” she said.
“That old saying: as
poor as a Cerrgonney lord.”
”Lord Nedd’s a marvel and a half, isn’t he? Are we actually
going to stay here all summer and the winter,
too?”
“Of course not. I’d rather sleep beside the roads.
Are you sure you’ll fare well enough when I leave you
behind?”
“Oh no doubt the kennel will be
comfortable enough when the dogs are all out of it. How
long do you think the war will last?”
“War?” He looked up with a grin.
“I wouldn’t dignify it with the word, my love.
If Nedd’s allies are anything like him, no doubt
there’ll be a lot of shouting and skirmishing, and
then an end to it.”
“I hope you’re right. I feel danger coming in
this.”’
His smile gone, he laid the mail aside.
“More of your wretched dweomer?”
“Just that, but it’s not battle danger, exactly.
I’m not even sure what I do mean. Forgive me. I
shouldn’t have said anything at all.”
“I wish you hadn’t,
truly.” He hesitated, for a long moment,
staring down at the straw. “I . . . ah, by the black ass of the Lord of Hell, let’s just
forget it.”
“I know what you want to know. I don’t see your
death coming. Ah, ye gods, if ever I did, don’t you think
I’d beg you not to ride to war?”
“And,
what good would that do? When my Wyrd comes, upon, me I’ll die as easily from a fever or a fall from a horse as
from a sword. Let me beg a boon from you, my love. If ever you see
my death, say not a word about it.”
“I won’t, then. I promise.”
With a nod of thanks, he got up, stretching, and looked down at
the mail glittering in the candlelight. He was so beautiful that
she felt like weeping, that he would have to risk his life in the
petty feuds of men like Lord Nedd. As she always did on the nights
before he was about to ride to war, she wondered if he would live
to ride back to her.
“Let’s lie down together, my love,” he said.
“It’s going to be a long while before I sleep in your
bed again.”
Once she was lying in his arms, Jill felt the wondering grow to
a cold stab, closer and closer to fear. She held him tight and let
his kisses drown it away.
Early on the morrow, the warband made a sloppy muster out in the
ward. Jill stood in the doorway and watched as the men drew their
horses up in a straggling line behind the two lords. The four men
at the rear, including Rhodry, led pack horses laden with
provisions because Nedd didn’t own an oxcart and
couldn’t have spared the farmers to drive it if he had. Just
as it seemed the line was finally formed, someone would yell that
he’d forgotten something and dash back to the house or the
stables. At the very last moment, Nedd discovered that Perryn
didn’t own a pot helm. A servant was dispatched to the
stables, which apparently did double duty as an armory, to look for
one.
Perryn stood rubbing the back of his neck with one hand while
Nedd berated him for a woodcutter and worse. When Jill caught
Rhodry’s eye, he sighed and glanced heavenward to call the gods to
witness Perryn’s eccentricity. She had never seen a noble
lord like Perryn, and she didn’t know whether to laugh or cry
over him. He was tall, but slender and ill proportioned, with
narrow shoulders, long arms, and big, heavy hands out of scale to
the rest of him. Although his face wasn’t truly ugly, his
eyes were enormous, his mouth thin, and his nose on the flat side. When
he walked, he all the grace of a stork strutting.
When the servant
came back with a rusty helm, Nedd announced that if anyone had
forgotten anything else, he’d cursed well have to do without
it. Jill gave Rhodry one last kiss, then ran to the gates to wave the
warband out. In a disorderly line they trotted down the hill, then
into the road, disappearing to the west in a spatter of mud. With a prayer to the Goddess to keep her
man safe, Jill turned back to the dun and the long tedium of
waiting for news.
The small demesne of Tieryn Graemyn lay three days’ ride
to the west of Nedd’s dun. The road ran narrow through sharp
hills and scrubby pine, mostly uninhabited, until some ten miles
from the tieryn’s dun the warband came to a small village,
Spaebrwn, one of three that paid Graemyn allegiance. As the warband
watered their horses at the village well, Perryn noticed the
townsfolk watching with frightened eyes. A Cerrgonney war was like
a Cerrgonney storm, blowing the thatch from cottage and
lord’s manor alike.
Late in the afternoon they reached Graemyn’s dun, set up
on a low hill out in the middle of a stretch of fairly flat
pastureland bordered by trees. The big gates swung open to admit
them into a ward crowded with men and horses. As Nedd’s
warband dismounted, stableboys ran to take their horses and lead
them away into the general confusion. The tieryn himself strolled
out to greet these reinforcements. A grizzled dark-haired man, he
bulged with muscles under his linen shirt.
“I’m truly glad to see you, Nedd,” he
remarked. “Your twelve brings us up to what strength
we’re going to have.”
Under the tieryn’s firm voice there was an anxious edge
that made Perryn apprehensive, and for good reason, as it turned
out at the council of war in the great hall. Even with Nedd and
three other allies, Graemyn had only some two hundred men. Ranged
against them were Tieryn Naddryc and his allies with close to three
hundred. The dispute concerned two square miles of borderland
between their demesnes, but it had grown far beyond the land at
stake. Although Graemyn was willing to submit the matter to the
arbitration of the high king, Naddryc had refused the offer some
weeks past. In a subsequent skirmish between mounted patrols,
Naddryc’s only son had been killed.
“So he wants my blood,” Graemyn finished up.
“I’ve stripped the countryside to provision the dun.
You never know what’s going to happen when a man gets it into
his head to start a blood feud.”
The other lords all nodded sagely, while Perryn devoutly wished
that he had been born a woodcutter. A feud could rage for years,
and here he was, honor-bound to ride in it for Nedd’s
sake.
After the meal, the lords gathered round the honor table and studied a rough map of eastern Cerrgonney. They drank over it,
argued over it, and yelled at each other while Perryn merely listened. He
was part of the council only by courtesy to his birth; he had no
warband, he had no right of decision. He stayed until the lords adopted
Nedd’s plan of making a surprise attack on enemy’s line
of march, then slipped away, getting a candle lantern from a page
and taking it out to the stables. When he found his dapple gray, he
hung the lantern on a nail in the wall of the stall and sat up on
the manger. The gray leaned his face into Perryn’s chest with
a small snort. He gently scratched its ears.
“Well, my
friend, I wonder if I’ll live to see the winter, I truly
do.”
Blissfully unaware that there was such a thing as a future to
consider, the gray nibbled on his shirt.
“At least
you’ll be safe and out of it. That’s somewhat to be
glad about.”
If Cerrgonney men had fought on horseback, as warriors did in
most of Deverry, no amount of honor or obligation would have
induced Perryn to ride to war, but since up in that grain-poor
province horses were too valuable to slaughter, Cerrgonney men rode
to battle but dismounted to fight. Yet even though he knew his
friend would be safe, Perryn’s heart ached at the thought of
battle. As he did every time he was forced to ride to war, he
wondered if he were simply a coward. Doubtless every lord in the
province would have considered him one if they’d discovered
his true feelings about honor and battle glory, which seemed far
less important to him than fishing in a mountain stream or sitting
in a meadow and watching the deer graze. At times like these, the
old proverb haunted him: what does a man have worth having but his
honor? A good bit more, to Perryn’s way of thinking, but he
could never voice that thought to anyone, not even Nedd, no matter
how much he simply wanted to ride away from killing men he
didn’t know in a war that never should have happened in the first
place.
“Well, my friend, my Wyrd will come when it comes, I suppose. I
wonder if horses have Wyrds? It’s a pity you can’t
talk. We could have a splendid chat about that, couldn’t
we?”
Suddenly he fell silent, hearing someone open the stable door.
His silver dagger gleaming in the lantern light, Rhodry strode briskly down the line of stalls.
“Oh, it’s you, my lord.
The tieryn’s captain detailed me to keep an eye on the stables, you see, and I heard someone talking.” Rhodry
glanced around puzzled. “Isn’t someone else
here?”
“Oh, er, ah, well, I was just talking to my
horse.”
Rhodry’s eyes glazed with a suppressed mockery that
Perry was used to seeing on men’s faces.
“I see. My lord, can I ask you if we’re riding out
tomorrow?”
“We are. Going to make a flank attack, give them a bit of
a surprise.”
Rhodry smiled in honest pleasure at the news. He was handsome,
strong, and eager for battle, just the sort of man that Perryn, was
supposed to be and the type who always despised him. Perryn
wasn’t sure if he envied or hated the silver dagger—both, he decided later.
On the morrow, the army mustered before dawn in a ward bright
with iaring torchlight. The men were silent, the lords grim, the
horses restless, stamping, tossing their heads at every wink of
light on helm and sword. As usual, Nedd’s warband was the
last to take their place in line, shouting at each other
and squabbling over who would ride with whom. As he took his place
beside his cousin, Perryn noticed Rhodry, smiling to himself
as if he were gloating over a beautiful woman.
“We’re going to cut straight across country, Nedd
said. “We’ll need you to scout,
Perro.”
“No doubt. None of you could find your way through a copse
to a mountain, I swear it.”
“Even woodcutters have their uses.”
Perryn merely shrugged. The restlessness of the horses was
making him wonder if disaster lay ahead of them; sometimes animals
could tell such things, in his experience. At last Graemyn blew
his silver horn. As the first dawn silvered the sky, the gates
swung open. With his sword raised high, the tieryn rode out, his
personal warband clattering behind him, four abreast, the line
snaking out and down the hill. Suddenly Perryn heard distant war
cries, as if someone were racing to meet Graemyn beyond the walls.
The men nearest the gates screamed in rage; the horns rang out
to arm and charge. Naddryc had prepared a surprise of his
own.
The ward turned into a shoving, shouting chaos as men
dismounted, grabbing shields and helms, and rushed out the
gates. Perryn swung down, then gave the gray one last pat.
“Farewell, and pray to Epona that we meet
again.”
Then he ran after Nedd and out the gates. The battle was
sweeping halfway up the hill, a raging, ragged swirl of men and
riderless horses as Naddryc’s men struggled up while
Graemyn’s tried to shove them back. In the dust pluming
upward Perryn lost sight of Nedd almost at once. A burly fellow
with an enemy blazon of blue and yellow on his shield charged him
and swung in hard from the right. Perryn flung up his shield,
caught the blow and thrust it away, then swung back, slapping his
opponent hard on the thigh. Cursing, the man stumbled; Perryn got a
hard cut on his sword arm. Bleeding, the man withdrew, feinting,
parrying more than he swung. As he followed, Perryn realized that
the enemy tide was ebbing back down the hill. Screaming war cries,
Graemyn’s men swept after. We should hold this higher ground,
Perryn thought. But it was too late, and no one would have taken
orders from him, even if he’d tried to give them.
Down on the flat the battle re-formed itself into random knots
and mobs of fighting. As Perryn ran toward the closest one, he
suddenly heard laughter off to one side, a bubbling sort of chuckle
that rose now and then to a howl over the smack and clang of swords
striking shield and mail. It was such an eerie sound that for a
moment he paused, looking this way and that to try to find the
source. That brief curiosity cost him dear. At a shout behind him
he turned to see three men running straight for him, and they all
carried the blue-and-yellow shield. With a yelp of terror, Perryn
flung up his shield and sword barely in time to parry the two hard
blows that swung in on him.
Although the third man dodged past and ran on, the other two
enemies closed in for a quick if dishonorable kill. As he
desperately dodged and parried, Perryn heard the laughter again,
shrieking, sobbing, ever louder, until all at once Rhodry lunged at
the man attacking from the right and killed him with two quick
slashes, back and forth with a gesture like waving away a fly.
Gasping for breath, Perryn took a wild swing at the other
blue-and-yellow, missed, nearly tripped, and regained his balance
just in time to see the man fall, spitted in the back through the
joining rf his mail. Rhodry jerked his sword free with a shake
to scatter drops of blood.
“My thanks, silver dagger,” Penyn gasped.
For an answer Rhodry merely laughed, and his eyes were so
glittering-wild that for a moment Perryn was afraid he’d turn on him.
Yelling at the top of their lungs, five men from Nedd’s
warband ran up and swept Rhodry and Perryn along toward a hard knot
of fighting around Graemyn himself. Although Perryn tried to keep
up, the entire line was swirling and breaking, falling back around
him as Naddryc’s superior numbers began to tell. He got cut
off as two of his allies shoved past him, running for their lives.
When he ran for a man he thought was one of Nedd’s, the
fellow swung his way and raised a shield marked with the red acorns
of another enemy warband. Swearing, Perryn charged, but something
struck him from behind.
Fire stabbed, then spread down his shoulder. All at once, his
fingers were loosening on the sword’s hilt of their own will.
He swirled around and caught a strike on his shield, but when he
tried to raise his right arm, his fingers dropped the sword,
Then he felt the blood, sheeting down his arm and pouring into his
gauntlet. As the enemy pressed in, Perryn brought up the shield
like a weapon and swung hard, as he dodged back, stumbling
over uncertain ground. Yet there were enemies behind him.
With a shout of desperation, Perryn charged and rammed the
shield full strength into the enemy in front of him. Taken utterly
off guard by this suicidal manoeuvre, the man slipped and fell
backward. A startled Perryn fell on top of him, with his shield
caught between them and his whole weight slamming it down. The
enemy’s head jerked back, and he lay still, whether dead or
merely stunned Perryn neither knew nor cared. He scrambled up,
shamelessly threw his shield, and ran for the dun—but only
for a few yards. Suddenly he realized that the battle was lost,
that the field belonged to the enemy, that the last of his
comrades were fleeing through the gates just ahead of a line of
blue-and-yellow shields. He fell to his knees and watched as the
gates swung shut. Enemies ran past, shouting to one another.
“They’re going to stand a
siege—whoreson bastards—get to the postern!”
No one even looked at the half-dead warrior slumped on the
ground, It occurred to Perryn that without his shield, no one
would even recognize him as an enemy in this
confusion . . . His head spinning, he staggered to his feet and grabbed a sword
with his left hand from a nearby corpse, then took off, trotting
after the others and yelling, “To the postern!” While
he didn’t give a pig’s fart about Graemyn, Nedd was
trapped in the dun in a half-provisioned siege with no one to lift
it. Graemyn had called in every ally he had for this battle.
In the dust-smeared, milling mob, the ruse worked well. He kept
with them for about twenty yards, then fell back and ran for the
trees edging the battlefield. If anyone even saw him go, they had no
time to chase after. Among the pines, neatly tethered, were
Waddryc’s horses with only a couple of servants to guard
them. Perryn charged the nearest horse handler, who promptly broke
and ran. In one smooth slash Perryn cut a tether rope, threw the
sword away, and grabbed the reins of a solid chestnut gelding.
“Good horse. Please help me.”
The chestnut stood patiently as Perryn hauled himself into the
saddle. Keeping to the trees, he rode away from the battle.
Although every step the horse took made the world swim in front of
him and his dangling right arm throb, he bit his lower lip until it
bled and kept riding. He had to get news to Benoic. That was the
only thought he allowed himself to have. When he reached the road,
he kicked the horse to a gallop and stayed on by sheer force of
will. Gallop, trot, gallop, trot, walk—on and on he went,
reminding himself that he could get help in Spaebrwn. Although he
wondered at times if he’d live to reach the village, the
blood was drying on his arm, not welling up fresh.
Just before noon, he crested the last hill above Spaebrwn and
pulled the horse to a halt. For a long time he stared down at the
glowing spread of ashes and charred timbers, half hidden under a
drift of smoke. The breeze brought with it a sickening smell, too
much like roasted pork. Some of the villagers had waited too long
to flee.
“Ah ye gods, our Naddryc takes his revenge a bit too
seriously, if you ask me.”
The gelding snorted and tossed its head, spooked by the smell of
burning. Perryn urged him on, skirted the ruins, and turned back
into the pine forest. Even though he could neither raise his arm nor
move his fingers, he was going to have to try to ride back to
Nedd’s dun on his own. By taking side trails through wild
country, he could shorten the distance to some forty miles.
Once they were well among the trees, he paused the horse again and
thought of the dun, pictured it clearly in his mind, and remembered all
the safe times he’d enjoyed Nedd’s company there.
Then he went on, heading straight for it. Every time he started
drifting from the most direct path, he felt a deep discomfort,
something like a fear or anxiety, pricking at him. As soon as he
turned the right way, the discomfort vanished. Although he
didn’t understand it in the least, this trick had led him
back to places he thought of as home many a time in the past.
Perryn picked his way through the forest until sundown, then
dismounted and led his horse through the dark for a few miles more,
stumbling only to force himself up again, until they reached a
small stream. Slacking the horse’s bit with his left hand
seemed to take an eternity. Finally he got it free and let the
gelding drink.
“My apologies, but there’s no oats.”
In a golden mist the forest was spinning slowly around him. He
sat down just before he fainted.
Like sheep in a snowstorm, the remains of the army huddled in
Graemyn’s great hall that night, eighty-odd men in decent
shape, twenty-some badly wounded. Rhodry sat on the floor with the
last six men of Nedd’s warband. No one spoke as they
watched the table of honor across the hall, where Graemyn
and his allies talked, heads together, faces drawn and
tight-lipped in the torchlight. Frightened serving lasses crept
through the warband and doled out scant rations of watered ale. By
the servants’ hearth, a young page sat weeping, wondering,
most like, if he’d ever see his mother again. Finally Nedd
left the honor table and limped, back, to his own men. He slid
down the wall rather than sat until, he could slump half upright in
the straw.
“You should be lying down, my lord,” Rhodry
said.
“The blasted cut’s not that
bad.” Nedd laid his hand on his thigh, as if
trying to hide the bloody bandage.
“My apologies, my lord.”
“Oh, and you have mine. We’re all going
to have to watch our cursed tempers.”
Everyone nodded, looking at the floor, out into space,
anywhere rather than at each other.
“We’ve got provisions for a good six
weeks,” the lord went on. “Longer if we
start eating horses.”
“Is there any chance for a parley?” Rhodry
asked.
“There’s always a chance. Graemyn’s sending a
herald out on the morrow.”
Rhodry watched the parley from a distance, because at dawn
he drew a turn on guard up on the ramparts. Outside,
Naddryc’s men had cleared the battlefield of corpses,
leaving a torn, bloodstained stretch of bare ground for about
three hundred yards. Beyond that were the tents and horses of the
besiegers. Around the dun, beyond javelin range, trotted a mounted patrol. In a rough
count, Rhodry estimated that Naddryc had at least a hundred and
thirty men left. When the sun was about an hour’s worth up in
the sky, the gates opened, and Graemyn’s chamberlain,
carrying a long staff wound with red ribbons, slipped out. The
patrol trotted over to him, made honorable half-bows from their
saddles, then escorted him over to the camp. Rhodry leaned onto the
ramparts and waited. When a flutter of crows flew past cawing and
dodging, he envied them their wings.
Although the herald returned in about half an hour, Rhodry had
lo wait to hear the news until he was relieved from watch. He
scrambled down the ladder and hurried into the great hall, where
the warbands were eating in an ominous silence. Although the other
lords were gone, Nedd was eating with his men. Rhodry sat down and
helped himself to a chunk of bread from a basket, but he looked
expectantly at the lord.
“Naddryc won’t parley,” Nedd said quietly.
“He’s made Graemyn one offer. If we surrender without a
fight, he’ll spare the women and children. Otherwise,
he’ll raze the dun and kill every living thing in
it.”
When Rhodry swore under his breath, the other men nodded in
stunned agreement.
“He’s a hard man, Naddryc,” Nedd went on.
“And he’s sworn a vow of blood feud.”
“And if we surrender, what then?” Rhodry said.
“Will he hang every man in the dun?”
“Just that, silver dagger.”
Rhodry laid the chunk of bread back down. For a moment he wished
that they’d sally, die fighting, die clean, instead of
swinging like a horse thief, but there was the tieryn’s lady,
her serving women, his daughters and little son.
“Ah well,” Rhodry said. “A rope’s a
better death than a fever. They say you jerk once and there’s
an end to it.”
“For all your silver dagger, you’re a decent man, Rhodry of
Aberwyn. I only hope that my noble allies are as honorable as
you.”
“Oh, here, my lord! You don’t mean they’re
arguing about it?”
“They are. Well, by the hells, we’ll
hold out for a while before we do anything at all. The bastard can
wait for a few days while he savors his piss-poor victory.”
“Why not wait
until he starves us out?”
“What if he changes his terms? I wouldn’t put it
past the whoreson to demand prompt surrender if we’re going
to save one woman’s life.”
Perryn woke to sunlight streaming down between the trees, like
golden spears of light to his dazed sight. When he sat up, he
shrieked at the pulse of pain in his arm. On his knees he crawled
to the stream and drank, cupping the water in his left hand,
Then he realized that his horse was gone. He staggered up,
took a few steps, and knew that he would never be able to walk the
remaining twenty miles to the dun. Fortunately, there was no
reason that he’d have to. He walked another couple of
yards, then went very still, waiting, barely thinking, until he
felt the odd sensation, a quivering alertness, a certain
knowledge that somewhere close was, if not that horse, then
another. Following its lead, he angled away, ignoring the
discomfort that told him he was no longer heading straight for the
dun, and worked his slow way through the trees until at last he
saw the brightening light ahead that meant a mountain meadow. The
pull of a horse was so strong that he forgot himself, hurried,
and banged his injured arm against a tree. When he yelped aloud,
he heard an answering whicker just ahead. More cautiously this
time he went on and broke free of the forest
into a little grassy valley, where the chestnut was grazing,
the reins tangling in the grass. When Perryn staggered over, the
horse raised its head and nuzzled his good arm.
“Let’s get that bridle off, my friend. If I die
along the way, you’ll starve if you get those
reins, wrapped around a bush or suchlike.”
Taking the bridle off with only one hand was a long agony of
effort, but at last he got it done. Leaning against the gelding
for support, he went through the saddlebags and found the
horse’s previous owner’s spare shirt and a chunk of
venison jerky. He managed to tear the shirt into strips by
using his teeth and made himself a rough sling, then ate
the jerky while he rode on, guiding the horse with his knees.
All afternoon they rode slowly, dodging through the widely spaced
trees, climbing up and down the hills, until by sunset
they’d made another ten miles. When they found
another meadow, he let the horse graze and envied him the
grass with his stomach clenching in hunger. Although he was only
intending to rest for a few moments, as soon as he sat down
sleep took him.
When he woke, moonlight flooded the meadow.
Nearby the chestnut stood, head down and asleep. The night was
unnaturally silent. Not the cry of an owl, not the song of a cricket,
nothing. As sat up, wondering at the silence, he saw something—someone—standing at the edge of the meadow. With a
whispered oath, he rose, wishing for the sword
he’d left behind on the battlefield. The figure took one step
forward, tall, towering in the moonlight—or it moonlight?
He seemed to drip pale light as palpable as water running down the
strong naked arms, glittering on the gold torc around his neck,
shimmering on the massive antlers that sprang from a head mostly
cervine, though human eyes looked out of it. Perryn began to weep
in a fierce, aching joy.
“Kerun,” he whispered.
“My most holy lord.”
The great head swung his way. The
liquid dark eyes considered him not unkindly, but merely distantly;
the god raised his hands in blessing to the man who was perhaps his
last true worshipper in all of Deverry. Then he vanished, leaving
Perryn wrapped in a shuddering awe that wiped all his pain and
exhaustion away. With tears running down his face, he went to the
place where the god had appeared and knelt on the grass, now
god-touched and holy. Eventually the chestnut raised its head with
a drowsy nicker and broke the spell. Perryn mounted and rode on,
guiding the horse instinctively through the dark forest. Although
he rode for the rest of the night and on into the morning, he felt
no hunger, no pain, his wound only a distant ache like a bee sting.
About an hour after dawn, they came out of the trees just a mile
from Nedd’s dun. He trotted up to the hill, then dismounted
and led the tired horse up to the gates. He heard shouts and people
running, but all at once, it was very hard to see. He concentrated
on keeping his feet as Jill raced toward him.
“Lord Perryn! Are they all lost, then?”
“Cursed near.
Besieged.” he fainted into a merciful darkness, where it
seemed a stag came to meet him.
Between them Jill and a servant named
Saebyn got Perryn up on a table in the great hall. As she soaked
the blood-crusted shirt away from his wound, Jill found herself
trying to remember everything Nevyn, had ever told her
about herbcraft, but the memories did her little good, because
she had no proper tools and precious few herbs. The only thing
Saebyn could turn up for a vulnerary was rosemary from the kitchen
garden. At least Nevyn had always said that any green herb was better than none. When she
finally loosened the shirt from the wound, she sent Saebyn off for
more hot water and some mead, then carefully peeled the crusted
linen away. Her gray gnome popped into reality and hunkered down on
the table for a look.
“It’s not as bad as I feared,” Jill said to
him. “See? It just sliced the muscle and missed those big
blood vessels in the armpit.”
With a solemn nod, the gnome tilted his head to one side and
considered the unconscious man. All at once it leapt up and hissed
like a cat, its skinny mouth gaping to show every fang, its arms
extended and its hands curled like claws. Jill was so surprised at
hearing it make a sound that she caught it barely in time when it
launched itself at Perryn and tried to bite him.
“Stop that!” She gave the gnome a little shake.
“What’s so wrong?”
Its face screwed up in hatred, the gnome went limp in her
hands.
“You can’t bite Lord Perryn. He’s ill already,
and he’s never done anything to you, either.”
The gnome shook its head yes as if to say he had.
“What? Here, little brother, why don’t you come back
later, and try to explain.”
It vanished just as Saebyn returned with the stableboy behind
him. Jill washed the wound with water, then had Saebyn hold
Perryn’s arms down and the stableboy his feet. Gritting her
teeth, she poured the mead directly into the open wound. With a
howl of pain, Perryn roused from his faint and twisted round. It
was all the two men could do to keep him lying there.
“My apologies, my lord,” Jill said firmly.
“But we’ve got to disperse the foul humors in this
wound.”
For a moment he merely gasped for breath; then he turned his
head to look at her.
“Forgot where I was,” he mumbled. “Go
ahead.”
Jill wadded up a bit of rag and made him bite on it, then washed
the wound again. He trembled once, then lay so still that she
thought he’d fainted again, but his eyes were open in a
stubborn resistance to pain that she had to admire. Mercifully, the
worst was over. She made a poultice of the rosemary leaves, laid
it in the wound, then bound it up with clean linen.
“Benoic,” he said at last. “I’ve got to ride to
Benoic.”
“You can’t. You could bleed to death if you try.
Tell me the message, and I’ll take it on.”
“Ride to my uncle. Tell him Nedd’s trapped in
Graemyn’s dun.” His voice fell into a whisper.
“Your Rhodry was still alive, last I saw of him.”
“My thanks.” Although she nearly broke, she forced her
voice steady. “I’ll pray that he still is.”
While Saebyn told her who Benoic was and what road to take to
Pren Cludan, Jill cut one of the embroidered wolves from
Perryn’s bloody shirt to take as a token. When she rode out,
she took two horses. By switching her weight back and forth, she
would be able to ride at close to a courier’s speed. As soon
as she was well away from the dun, she called to her gnome, which
promptly appeared on the saddle peak.
“Can you find Rhodry? Can you tell me if he’s still
alive?”
It nodded yes, patted her hand, then disappeared. Out
on the road, where no one could see her, Jill allowed herself to
cry.
A little after dawn on the next day Rhodry climbed the ramparts
and looked out over the dun wall. In the misty morning the enemy
camp was coming awake; cooking fires blossomed among the dirty
canvas tents, and men strolled around, yawning as they tended their
horses. Just beyond the camp was the beginning of a circle of
earthworks, about twenty feet, so far, of packed mound edged with a
ditch that would soon close them round and block any attempts at
escape. It was also an unnecessary effort on Naddryc’s part.
The decision had been made. Soon the lords would surrender and hang
to spare the women and children. All that Rhodry wanted was for it
to be very soon to end the waiting. When he was fourteen years old,
he’d begun learning how to live prepared to die; at
twenty-three, he was a master at that part of the warrior’s
craft. Now the day was upon him, but his Wyrd would come at the end
of a rope.
To die by hanging, to be thrown into a ditch with a hundred men
who’d met the same priest-cursed end, to lie far from
Eldidd, unmarked, unmourned, nothing but a silver dagger
who’d had the ill luck to take the wrong hire—that was his
Wyrd, was it? Rhodry his head in sheer disbelief, that all his
berserk battle glory, strange dweomer prophecies and magical
battles had led him to this, a thing so numbing that he felt no fear
and very little grief, only a dark hiraedd that he’d never see
Jill again. What if he’d only ridden east instead of west and been hired by
Naddryc instead of Nedd? That would have been worse, he decided, to
be party to this dishonorable scheme. He would die and Naddryc
live, but at least he would have his honor, while the lord had
thrown his away for hatred’s sake.
Rhodry was so wrapped in his brooding that when something
tweaked his sleeve, he spun around, his sword out of its scabbard
before he was aware of drawing. Jill’s gray gnome stood on
the rampart, grinning at him while it jigged up and down in
excitement. Rhodry felt a flare of hope. If only he could make the
little creature understand, if only it could tell Jill—but
what was she supposed to do then? Run to some great lord and say
that the Wildfolk had told her the tale? The hope
died again.
“It’s cursed good to see you, little brother, but do
you realize what kind of evil has befallen me?”
Much to his surprise it nodded yes, then held up one long finger
as a sign, to pay attention. Suddenly there were Wildfolk all
around it, little blue sprites, fat yellow gnomes, strange gray
fellows, and parti-colored ugly little lasses. Never had Rhodry
seen so many, a vast crowd, along the rampart.
“What is all this?’”
When the gray gnome snapped his fingers, the Wildfolk lined up
in pairs, then began to bob up and down with a rhythmic motion,
each with one hand held out before it. The gray gnome
stood at the head of the line with one hand out like the others,
but the left raised as if holding a sword. Rhodry finally
understood.
“An army! Oh, by great Bel himself, do
you mean that someone’s riding to relieve this
siege?”
The gnome leapt up and danced, while it nodded yes. With a rushy
sound, the rest of the pack disappeared. When Rhodry’s eyes
filled with tears he wiped them away, swallowing hard before
he could speak.
“Did you tell Jill I was trapped here?
This time the answer was no. The gnome sucked one finger for a
moment, then began to walk back, and forth, while it imitated a
stiff, clumsy, bowlegged gait.
“Lord Perryn? He escaped the battle?”
Although the gnome nodded yes, its expression was peculiarly
sour. It shrugged, as if dismissing something, then leapt to
Rhodry’s shoulder and kissed him on the cheek before it vanished.
Rhodry tossed his head back and laughed—until it
occurred to that now he had to convince the noble lords that rescue was on the
way, that there was no need to surrender, without, of course, mentioning the Wildfolk.
“Oh, horsedung and a pile of it!”
All morning, while he watched the mounted patrols ride round and
round the dun, he went over and over the problem, trying out
phrases, rejecting them, trying some more. Eventually Lord Nedd
climbed awkwardly up the ladder onto the catwalk and limped over.
“Just thought I’d have a look at the bastards.”
Nedd leaned onto the wall and stared down, his red hair oddly dull
in the sunlight, as if he were ill. “Ah well, at least
we’ll hang soon and get it over with.”
“Er, well, my lord, I was just thinking about that, and . . . ”
“At least I don’t have a widow to mourn me.”
The lord went on as if he hadn’t heard Rhodry’s
tentative words. “By the Lord of Hell’s balls,
I’d always wanted my land to revert to Perryn if I died, and
now he’s died before me.”
Nedd was close to tears over his cousin’s death, a
surprising thing to Rhodry, who considered him no great loss. Or
had considered him lost, until just a few hours ago.
“Here, my lord, what if he escaped from the
field?”
“Oh, indeed! What if a crow sang like a little finch, too?
Perryn wasn’t much of a swordsman, silver dagger, and
Naddryc’s bastards were slaughtering the wounded after the
battle.”
“True-spoken, but . . . ”
“I know what you’re thinking,” Nedd snarled.
“Why mourn poor Perryn? He’s better off
dead.”
“I wasn’t, my lord. Naught of the sort!”
“My apologies. I forget you didn’t know him well. By
the asses of the gods, I got so blasted sick of all the chatter. What’s
wrong with your wretched cousin, how can you stand him in your dun,
he’s daft, he’s a half-wit, he’s this or
he’s that. He wasn’t daft at all, by the hells! A little . . . well, eccentric, maybe, but not
daft.” He sighed heavily. “Well, it doesn’t matter,
anyway. I’ll see him in the Otherlands tomorrow morn.”
“My lord, he’s not dead.”
Nedd looked at him as if he were thinking that Rhodry was daft.
Here was the crux, and Rhodry steadied himself with a
breath before he went on.
“My lord, you must have heard the old saw,
that Eldidd men often have a touch of the second sight? It’s true, and
I’ll swear to you that I know deep in my heart that
Perryn’s alive, and that he’s bringing an army back to
relieve the siege.”
The lord’s eyes narrowed.
“Look at me, a misbegotten silver dagger. I’ve been
in more battles and tavern brawls than most men even hear of.
I’ve faced hanging before, too, for that matter. Am I the
kind of man to turn to fancies because he can’t face death?
Didn’t you praise me for my courage on the field?”
“So I did.” The lord looked away, thinking.
“I’ve seen you go berserk, too. Why wouldn’t you
have a touch of the sight as well, for all I know?
But—”
“I know it sounds daft, but I beg you, believe me. I know
it’s true. It comes to me in dreams, like. I know
there’s a relieving army on the way.”
“But who—oh ye gods, my uncle!” Suddenly
Nedd grinned. “Of course Perryn would ride straight to Benoic—well, if he’s truly alive.”
“I know he is, my lord. I’ll swear it to you on my
silver dagger.”
“And that’s the holiest oath a man, like you
can swear. Ah, by the black hairy ass of the Lord of Hell, what
does it matter if we hang tomorrow or in an eight night, anyway?
Come along, silver dagger. We’ve got to convince my allies
of this, but I’ll wager they’ll grab at any shred of
hope they can see.”
Four days after she left Nedd’s dun, Jill rode back with
an army of two hundred twenty men, every last rider that
Tieryn Benoic could scrape up, whether by calling in old alliances
or by outright threats. As the warband filed into the ward,
Saebyn ran out, clutched the tieryn’s stirrup as a sign of
fealty, and began telling the lord everything that Perryn had told
him, over the past few days. Jill threw her reins to the
stableboy and hurried into the great hall, where Perryn lay
propped up on Nedd’s bed with a pair of boarhounds on either
side of him and, three of those sleek little hounds known
as gwertraeion at his feet. She shoved a dog to one side and
perched on the edge of the bed to look over her patient, whose
eyes were clear and alert, and his cheeks unfevered.
“Is the wound healing well?” she said.
“It is. You must have brought my uncle with
you from, all the noise outside. I knew he’d come. If
he didn’t have me and Nedd to complain about, his life would
be cursed dull.”
At that, Benoic himself strode in, slapping his pair of
gauntlets impatiently against his thigh.
“You dolt, Perro! And Nedd’s twice a dolt! But
Naddryc’s a whoreson bastard, having the gall to besiege my
kin. Well and good, we’ll wipe him off the battlefield for
it. Are you riding with us?”’
“I am. A wolf can run on three legs.”
“Now wait a moment, my lord,” Jill broke in.
“If you ride, that cut could start bleeding again.”
“Let it. I’ve got to go with them. I can lead the
army through the forest, you see. We’ll save twenty miles and
a night that way.”
“Splendid,” Benoic said. “Glad to see
you’re finally showing some spirit, lad. Don’t worry,
Jill. We’ll have your man out of that worm-riddled dun as
fast as ever we can.”
“Your Grace is most honorable and gracious. If I were a
bard I’d praise your name for this.”
With a small bow she retired and left them alone. Out in the
ward a pair of Benoic’s vassals were conferring with their
captains while the men unsaddled and tethered their horses outside
for want of room in the stables. She went out the gates and walked
about halfway down the hill, then sat down where she could be alone
and called to the gray gnome, who appeared promptly.
“Is Rhodry still all right?”
It nodded yes, then hunkered down in front of her and began
picking its teeth with one fingernail.
“You still haven’t told me why you hate Lord
Perryn.”
It paused to screw its face up in irritation, then went on
picking until it’d finally gotten its fangs clean enough to
suit it.
“Come on now, little brother. You could at least tell me
why. Or is it too hard to explain?”
Rather reluctantly, he nodded his agreement to this last.
“Well, let’s see. Did he hurt you or some other
Wildfolk?”
No, he hadn’t done that.
“Can he even see you?”
Apparently not, since it nodded a no.
“Is he an evil man?”
Frowning in concentration, the gnome
waggled its hands as if to say: not exactly that, either.
“You know, I’m having a hard time thinking up more
questions.”
It smiled, pressed its hands to its temples as if it had a
headache, then disappeared. Jill supposed that she’d never
find out the reason, but as long as the gnome behaved itself and didn’t
pinch the lord or tie knots in his hair, it didn’t
particularly matter at the moment, not when she had Rhodry’s
safety to worry about. She decided that she couldn’t bear to
sit here in Nedd’s moldering dun and wait for news.
Since she had a mail shirt and a shield of her own, on the
morrow Jill rose and armed when the warband did. Once the army was
mustered outside the gates, she led her horse into line at the very
rear. Since these men had been hastily assembled from
Benoic’s various allies and vassals, everyone who noticed
her at all seemed to assume that she was a silver dagger hired by
some other lord. All that counted to them, truly, was that she was
another sword.
By keeping strictly to herself and speaking to no one, Jill
escaped discovery all that day, because Perryn led the army off the
road into the forest on a track so narrow that they had to ride
single file. All day they wound around hills and through the trees
by such confusing paths that she prayed Perryn actually knew what
he was doing. She also understood why all the provisions were on
pack mules, not in carts; apparently Benoic knew his nephew’s
daft ways very well. That night, however, they made camp in a
mountain meadow, and there Jill was caught out. Like the excellent
commander he was, Benoic made a point of walking through the camp
and speaking to his men personally. When he came to Jill, he stared
for a moment, then, roared with laughter.
“Have all my men gone blind? Mail or no, Jill, you
don’t look like a lad to me. What are you doing with the
army?”
“Well, Your Grace, my man’s all I have in the
world. I’ve got to see him with my own eyes as soon as
ever I can.”
“Huh. Well, we can’t be sending you back.
now. You’d only get lost trying to follow Perm’s
wretched deer trails. You’d best come camp with me.
You can keep your eye on Perryn’s wound, and everyone will
know you’re under my protection.”
When Jill shifted her gear over to the tieryn’s campfire,
she found Perryn there, slumped against his saddle. Although
he was pale with exhaustion, he looked up and smiled at her.
“I thought you’d find a way to come along,” he
said.
“Why, my lord?”
“Oh, er ah, just rather thought you were that sort
of lass. I hope Rhodry’s worthy of you.”
“I hold him so, my lord.”
Nodding absently, he stared into the fire. She was struck by
how he looked, a perpetual melancholy that was beginning to wear lines
a face too young to have them, rather as if he were in exile from
some far country rather than among his kin. A puzzle, that one, she
thought to herself.
On the morrow, Jill saw yet another puzzling thing about the
lord. Since she was riding right behind him, she could watch how he
managed his leading. When they came to a spot where two trails
joined or one petered out, he would wave the army to a halt, then
ride a few steps ahead to sit on his horse and stare blankly around
him, his head tilted as if sniffing the wind. For a moment he would
look profoundly uncomfortable, then suddenly smile and lead the men
on with perfect confidence. She was also impressed with his riding.
Most of the time he left the reins wrapped around the saddle peak
and guided the horse with his knees, while he swayed in a perfect
balance in spite of having one arm in a sling. On horseback he
looked much more graceful, as if his peculiar proportions had been
designed to make him and a horse fit together in an artistic
whole.
About two hours before sunset, Perryn found the army a large
meadow in which to camp and announced that they were a scant six
miles from Graemyn’s dun. After the horses were tended, Jill
put a clean bandage on Perryn’s wound, which was oozing blood
and lymph, and tied up his sling again. Although he pleaded that he
was too weary to eat, she badgered him into downing some
cheese.
“We’ll reach the dun tomorrow,” he
remarked. “I can rest then, after the battle, I
mean.”
“Now listen, my lord. You can’t fight. Trying to
swing a sword would open that wound up again.”
“Oh, don’t trouble your heart about that. I’ll
just trot around the edge of things. See what I can see.”
It was such a daft remark that Jill couldn’t answer.
“Oh,
er, ah, well, I heard my uncle talking with the other lords,
they’re thinking of riding right into battle.” He
looked sincerely distressed. “There’s bound to be
wounded horses, and maybe I can get them to safety.”
“Oh. I keep forgetting how valuable horses are up
here.”
“I cursed well hope that Nedd and Rhodry are still
alive.”
Although she knew that they were, she had no way of telling
him.
“So do I,” she said instead. “You seem to
honor your cousin highly, my lord.”
“I don’t, because he’s not truly honorable.
But I love him. We were pages together in Benoic’s dun. I
think I would have gone mad if it weren’t for
Nedd.”
“Was the tieryn as harsh as all that?”
“He wasn’t, not truly. It was me, you see. I just . . . well, oh ah er.”
As she waited for him to finish, Jill wondered if Nedd’s
efforts to keep him sane had all gone for naught. Finally he got up
and went to his blankets without another word.
“You’re certain it will be today?” Graemyn
said.
“As certain as the sun is shining,” Rhodry said.
“Your Grace, I know it sounds daft, but I swear to you that
the relief army’s close by. We’d best be ready to arm
and sally. If they don’t come, then Your Grace will know
I’m daft, and we can all surrender and be done with
it.”
For a long moment Graemyn considered him with an expression that
wavered between doubt and awe. Perched on Rhodry’s shoulder,
the gray gnome squirmed impatiently until at last the tieryn nodded
his agreement.
“True enough, silver dagger.” He turned to his
captain. “Have the men arm. One way or another, today sees
the end of this.”
The gnome grabbed Rhodry’s hair and gave it a tug, then
vanished.
The warband drew up behind the gates; watchmen climbed to the ramparts. As the waiting dragged on in the hot sun, the
men ended up sitting down on the cobbles. No one spoke; every
now and then someone would look Rhodry’s way with a puzzled
frown, as if thinking they were daft to trust this silver
dagger’s words. All at once, a watchman yelled with a whoop of joy.
“Horsemen coming out of the forest! I see the Wolf blazon!
It’s Benoic, by the gods!”
Laughing, cheering, the men leapt to their feet. Nedd threw an
arm around Rhodry’s shoulders and hugged him; half a
dozen men slapped him on the back. At the tieryn’s order, two
servants lifted down the latch beam at the gates and rushed to man
the winches. From outside, the battle noise broke over them; men
yelling, horns blowing, horses neighing in panic, and through it
all was the strike of sword on shield and mail. Rhodry started to
laugh, a little cold mutter under his breath; he felt so light on
his feet that it seemed he hovered over the cobbles.
“Remember!” Nedd hissed. “We’re going
after Naddryc.”
Although he nodded agreement, Rhodry went on laughing.
With a groan and creak the gates swung back. Screaming and
jostling, the warband rushed out, just as when leaves and sticks
dam a stream, which worries at them, nudges them, and at last
breaks free in a churn of white water. Down the hill, the enemy
camp was a screaming, shoving, bloody madness. Half of
Naddryc’s men had had no time to arm; those wearing mail
were trying to hold the breach in the earthworks against a full
cavalry charge, and they were doing it with swords, not pikes.
Horses went down; others screamed and reared; but for every horse
lost, three or four of the enemy were trampled. All at once the cry
went up: the sally to our rear! the sally to our rear!
Rhodry’s laugh rose like a wail as the horsemen drove
through. The defenders broke, swirling and running to face the new
threat as Graemyn led his men downhill.
“There he is!” Nedd shrieked. “With the
trimmed shield.”
A burly man with mail but no helm was racing across the
battlefield in retreat, the silver edging on his shield winking in
the sunlight. At an angle Rhodry went after him, his laugh gone as
he thought only of running, and soon he’d left the wounded
Nedd behind. Naddryc was slowing, panting, gasping for breath. Then
he stumbled, and Rhodry dodged round to cut him off. For a moment
they merely stared at each other, panting while they got their
breath back, Naddryc’s mouth working under his blond
mustache.
“So,” Rhodry said. “Here’s the man who
was going to kill women and children.”
Then the cold, mad chuckle took over his voice. As he lunged,
Naddryc dodged back, flinging up his sword and shield. He parried
gracefully, his shield a little high to protect his bare head, and
made a quick thrust that Rhodry easily turned aside. Suddenly light
flared in a drift of black smoke; someone had fired the tents.
Rhodry feinted in from the side, then struck; Naddryc parried
barely in time, jumped back, and began to circle. As Rhodry swung
to face him, the murk reached them, smoke, dust, thicker than a sea fog. They both checked, coughing for a moment, but
the smell of burning drove Rhodry mad.
With a choking, gasping howl he charged, as wild as an injured
lion, striking, parrying, cursing, and coughing while Naddryc
desperately tried to fend him off, rarely getting in a blow of his
own as he parried with both sword and shield. Yet even in his
madness Rhodry saw that the lord was tiring. He feinted to the side
again, dodged fast to the other, and then back as. Naddryc tried to
follow—too slowly. Rhodry’s blow caught him hard on
the side of the neck. With a ghastly bubbling scream he fell to his
knees, then buckled as his life’s blood pumped out the
artery.
Rhodry’s berserker fit left him, dropped away like a
wind-caught cloak, but he was possessed by an even madder panic.
Somewhere Jill was lying dead or wounded, somewhere in the
burning. He knew it, even as he knew that he was being
irrational. He heard Nedd yell his name, but he turned and ran
toward the blazing tents in the same blind way that he’d
charged Naddryc. All at once he heard hoofbeats and saw a horse
emerging from the murk. Even flecked with soot,
Sunrise’s pale gold coat still shone.
“Rhoddo!” Jill yelled. “Get up behind
me! Naddryc’s horses are about to stampede.”
Rhodry sheathed his sword and swung up behind her. He was barely
settled when she kicked Sunrise to a trot.
“What are you doing here?”
“Rescuing you. I could hear you laughing and rode
straight for the sound. Look behind us. Are they coming?”
When he glanced back, he could, see little in the smoke
and dust, but he did make out an orderly procession of
horselike objects moving away from the burning camp.
“By all the gods! Someone’s gotten them out of
there.”
“It must be Epona herself, then. When I rode by a few
minutes, ago, they were screaming and puling at their
tethers.”’
She paused the horse and turned in the saddle to give him a
puzzled look. He grabbed her and kissed her, remembered his
irrational panic, and kissed her again. With a laugh she pushed
him away.
“You’re breaking my neck, twisted around like this.
Wait til we’re alone, my love.”
At that Rhodry remembered that they were in the middle
of a battle, but as he looked around, somewhat dazed as he always
was when the fit left him, he realized that the fighting
was over. Naddryc been so outnumbered that most of his men had been slaughtered and the
fortunate few remaining taken prisoner. As they dismounted and
walked on, leading the horse over the uncertain ground, he saw Nedd
talking to Graemyn over Naddryc’s corpse.
“Come here,
silver dagger.” Nedd hailed him with a shout. “Your Grace, this is the man who killed this bastard.”
“You’ll be well rewarded for this, silver
dagger,” Graemyn said. “Indeed, well rewarded for
everything you’ve done for me.”
The tieryn knelt beside the corpse, then took his sword
two-handed and severed Naddryc’s neck in one swift blow.
Rhodry’s stomach churned; it was an impious thing that he was
seeing. Graemyn grabbed the head by the hair and stood up, looking
at every man nearby as if challenging them to say one wrong word,
then strode away, the head dangling in his hand. Even though the
priests had long since banned the taking of trophy heads with
mighty curses, the sight of Graemyn with his enemy’s head
touched something deep in Rhodry, as one string of a harp will
sound when another is plucked. Although Jill and Nedd were watching
the tieryn in honest revulsion, he felt a certain dark
satisfaction.
“I’d do no less to a man who threatened my wife and kin,”
Rhodry said.
“Well,” Nedd considered this briefly. “He had
provocation, sure enough.”
Before he went back to the dun, Rhodry knelt beside the headless
corpse and methodically looted it of every small and valuable
thing, coin, ring brooch, a gold-trimmed scabbard, and a silver
belt buckle. This hire had drawn to an end, and a silver dagger had
to think of eating on the long road.
When the fire broke out in the tents, Perryn was riding
around the edge of the actual battle rounding up wounded horses and
leading them to safety outside the earthworks. The meaning of the
spread of smoke didn’t quite register on him until the
chestnut he was riding snorted nervously and danced. Then he
remembered Naddryc’s horses, tethered behind the tents. With an oath he turned the chestnut and
galloped straight for the camp. At first the horse balked, but Perryn
talked to him, patted him, soothed him til at last he picked up
courage and allowed himself to be ridden near to the fire.
Between the burning and the earthwork, horses were rearing,
screaming with that ugly half-human sound a horse makes only in
terror, kicking out at the grooms trying to save them as they
pulled desperately at their tether ropes. Perryn wrapped his reins
around the saddle peak and guided the chestnut with his knees as he
rode right into the panic. Although the chestnut trembled and
threatened now and then to buck, he kept moving as Perryn talked,
pouring out the words, smiling his special smile, reaching out with
his one good hand, patting a horse here, slapping one there, as if
he were the stallion of a herd, who asserts his control with nips
and kicks as much as affectionate nuzzles. The panic began to ebb.
Although the horses were dancing and sweating with gray fear-foam,
they fell in behind and around him in the swirling smoke. At last
the grooms cut the last tether.
“Take them out!” one yelled. “And may the gods
bless you!”
With a wave and a yell, Perryn led the herd forward at a calm
jog. Circling around the inner earthwork, they swept free of the
burning camp just as a rain of sparks and glowing bits of canvas
began to fall. Perryn called out wordlessly, and they galloped out
of the breach to the safety of the meadow beyond. When he looked
back, he could barely see the dun, rising half hidden in the murk.
With the horses huddled around him, he waited for a good half hour
until the smoke diminished to a few wisps. As he was leading the
herd back, Nedd came out on horseback to meet him.
“I was looking for you,” Nedd said. “I figured
that you were the only man on earth who could have saved
Naddryc’s horses.”
“Oh, er, ah, well, they trust me, you see.”
For a moment they merely stared at one another.
“Er, well.” Perryn said at last. “Did you
think me slain in that first scrap?”
“I did, but now I see that I wasn’t so lucky.”
“I’m not rid of you, either.”
Leaning from their saddles, they clasped hands, and they were
both grinning as if they could never stop.
Back at the dun, the cousins turned the horses over to the
servants, then went into the great hail, where a conference of
sorts was in progress at the table of honor. While the lesser lords
and allies merely listened, Benoic and Graemyn were arguing, both
red-faced and shouting.
“Now listen here!” Benoic bellowed
“You’ve made it cursed hard for Naddryc’s brother to settle this peacefully.
What’s he going to when he gets his brother’s body back
in two pieces?”
“Anything he blasted well wants to say! What’s he
going to fight me with? Ghost riders from the
Otherlands?”
“And what about Naddryc’s allies? Were their mothers
all so barren that they only had one son apiece? Don’t they
have uncles to ride to their nephew’s vengeance?”
At that, Graemyn paused and began to stroke his mustache.
“If you want this thing over and done with,” Benoic
went on in a normal tone, “you’d best send messengers
down to Dun Deverry straightaway to plead for the high king’s
intervention. If you do, I’ll back you in this war, for my
misbegotten nephew’s sake if naught else. If you don’t,
I’m pulling my men and Nedd’s out right now.”
Benoic had always had a splendid talent for blackmail.
“Done, then,” Graemyn said. “I’ll get the
messengers on the road today.”
With a nod of satisfaction, Benoic rose and gestured for Nedd
and Perryn to follow.
“Come along, lads. We’ve got wounded men to look in
on and that silver dagger deserves some praise. He’s the one
who slew Naddryc, eh? Hah! Just what the bastard deserved—cut
down by a wretched silver dagger.”
Although his head was swimming with exhaustion, Perryn went
along with them because he was afraid to tell his uncle how weak he
felt. They found Rhodry standing by the door and drinking ale down
like water while Jill smiled at him as if she were thinking
he’d won the battle all by himself. Perryn sighed at the
cruel injustice, that she would honestly love her arrogant
berserker. He found her appealing, a lovely lass, half wild and
wandering, with her golden horse that suited her so well, but she
was also attached to the best swordsman he’d ever seen.
Although he hated to admit it, Perryn was terrified of Rhodry.
“Well, silver dagger,” Benoic said,
“you’ve earned your hire twice over. You always hear
about people with the second sight seeing deaths, or shipwrecks,
that sort of evil thing, but your touch of it has come in cursed
handy.”
“So it has, Your Grace. We Eldidd men can be a peculiar
lot.”
Although the others laughed at the jest, it made Perryn’s
unease deepen. There was something odd about the silver dagger that
he couldn’t put into words but that pricked at him, a
discomfort much like the one that warned him he was straying from a true
path. Rhodry was more than a danger to him; he was a reproach or
part of a curse, or—something. Perryn felt so baffled that he
shook his head, a gesture that was a mistake. All at once the room
seemed to spin around him, and a crackling golden fog rose out of
nowhere. He heard Nedd call out, then fainted. Although he woke
briefly when Nedd and Benoic laid him on a bed, he was asleep
before they left the chamber. All that day he slept, and he dreamt
of Jill.
On the morrow, every unwounded man in the dun rode out with the
noble-born, ostensibly in honorable escort as they returned the
bodies of Naddryc and his allies, but in reality as a warband in
case Naddryc’s kin decided to continue the blood feud. Jill
spent a long morning helping Graemyn’s wife, Camma, tend the
wounded, a job that usually fell to the wives of Cerrgonney lords
for want of enough chirurgeons in the province. When noon came,
they were both glad of the chance for a wash and the time to sit
down over a light meal of bread and cheese.
“My thanks for your aid, Jill. You know quite a bit about
chirurgery.”
“My lady is most welcome. I’ve seen a lot of
bloodshed in my life.”
“So you must have, following your silver dagger around
like this. He’s certainly a handsome man, isn’t he? I
can see how he’d turn the head of a young lass, I truly do,
but do you ever regret riding with him? You must have left a great
deal behind for your Rhodry.”
“I didn’t, my lady. All I’ve ever known in my
life is poverty. Rhodry has never let me starve, and well,
that’s good enough for me.”
Camma stared, caught her rudeness, then gave Jill a small smile
of apology. Jill decided that it was time to change the
subject.
“Lord Perryn’s wound seems to be healing well.
I’m awfully glad. After all, Rhodry owes his life to
him.”
“So do we all.” For a moment Gamma’s face
turned haggard. “Well, his clan breeds stubborn men, the
stubbornest in all Cerrgonney, I swear, and that’s saying a
great deal.”
“It is. Do you know his clan well?”
“I do. His aunt and mother are both cousins of mine, or I
should say, his mother was, poor lamb. She died some years ago, you
see, but Perryn’s Aunt Gwerna and I often meet. Gwerna had the
raising of him, truly. He was the last of seven children, you see,
and his mother was never truly well again after his birth. She had
a hard time carrying him, some bleeding and bad pains, and then he
as in her womb only seven months, not nine.”
“By the
Goddess herself! I’m surprised the babe lived!”
“So were Gwerna and I. He was such a scrawny little thing,
but healthier than any other early babe I’ve ever seen. Since
his mother was so ill, Gwerna found a wet nurse, and she made the
lass carry Perro in a kind of sling right against her breasts and
under her dresses day and night for the warmth, you see, and the
lass sat by the fire all day and slept by it at night, too. I think
that’s what saved him, constantly being kept warm for a
couple of months.” She paused, considering. “Maybe it
was his hard start in life that made him so odd, the poor lad.
Gwerna always called him the changeling. He made you think of all
those old tales where the Wildfolk steal a human babe and leave one
of their own in its stead.”
Jill felt an odd wondering whether, if in Perryn’s case,
the old superstition might be true, but the gray gnome materialized
on the table and gave Camma such a nasty sneer that it seemed to be
heaping scorn on the very thought. It sat down by the trencher of
cheese and rested its chin on its hands to listen as Camma went
on.
“It’s naughty of me to be telling tales on him, now
that he’s a man and grown, but if you’d seen him,
you’d understand, Jill. Such a skinny little lad, and that
red hair of his was always like a thrush’s nest, no matter
how much Gwerna combed it.” Camma smiled, taking a sincere
pleasure in these memories of better times. “And he was
always out in the hills or the woods, every chance he got. He used
to sob every autumn when the snows came, because he’d have to
stay indoors for months. And then, there was the time he ran away.
He couldn’t have been more than eight. Graemyn and I rode to
pay Gwerna and Benoic a visit, and one day Perryn got caught
stealing honey cake from the kitchen. Well, every lad does that now
and again, but Benoic got into one of his tempers. He was going to
beat the lad, but little Nedd begged and begged his uncle to spare
him, so Benoic relented. Well, the next morning, there was no sign
of Perryn. Gwerna had every man in the dun seeching for him, but the
whole two weeks we were there, no one ever found him, and Gwerna was
in tears, sure he was starved or drowned. I thought so myself. But
then, when it was almost winter, Gwerna sent me a message. When the
snows came, Perryn turned up at the gates, dirty and tattered, but
well fed. He’d lived in the hills on his own for three
months.”
“Ye gods! And what did he have to say for
himself?”
“Well, he’d heard everyone calling
him the changeling, and so he got it into his head that he should
go live with the Wildfolk where he belonged. But I never found
any, he says, the poor little lad. Poor Gwerna, she wept over
that, and even Benoic stopped being so hard on
him—well, for a while, anyway.”
Jill would have liked to hear more, but the object of these
reminiscences came strolling over to the table.
The gnome snarled at him, then disappeared.
“Perro, you should be in your bed,” Gamma said.
”One of the servants can bring you a meal.”
“It’s cursed dull, lying abed. I’ll be
fine.”
Cradling his sling-supported arm Perryn sat down across the
table from Jill. Under his eyes were dark shadows like smears of
soot.
“My lord,” Jill said, “you truly
should be resting.”
“I’ll never mend shut up like a hog in a pen. I want to go out
to the woods, sit out there for a while.”
Coupled with Gamma’s tale, his request made an odd
sort of sense. Out of duty to the man who’d saved
Rhodry’s life, Jill saddled up his gray gelding, helped him
mount, then led the horse out of the dun. Out in the
fields, only part of the earthwork still stood; the day before,
Benoic’s men had dumped the bodies of the slain into
the ditch and filled it in, with the mound above. They walked
beyond this grim scar on the earth to the edge of the
forest and found a spot among the scattered pines, where the
ground was cushioned with needles, and the sunlight, came down in,
shafts. With a sigh of pleasure, Perryn sat down, his back to a
tree. He actually did seem stronger now that he was
outside, with color in his face and life in his eyes.
“It’s splendid of you to trouble yourself over me,
Jill.”
“Oh, hardly! I owe you many an honor for saving
Rhodry.”
“You don’t, at that. I made that ride for
Nedd’s sake and my own. What was I to do? Lie there
and let them kill me? I wasn’t even thinking of Rhodry, so
there’s no need for thanks.”
“I’ve never known anyone who thinks like you.
You’re as scrupulous as a priest.”
“Everyone says that. I wanted to be a priest, you know. My
uncle got into a temper over it, and my father just
laughed.”
“Well, I can’t see Benoic allowing one of his
kinsmen to serve Bel instead of the sword.”
“Oh, not Bel. I wanted to be a priest of Kerun, but I
couldn’t even find a temple of his.”
Jill was quite
surprised. She knew little of Kerun’s worship, except that he
was one of the dark gods of the Dawntime who had been displaced as
the temples of Bel and Nudd grew in power. The stag god was lord of
the hunt, while Bel presided over the settled life of the growing
grain. Vaguely she remembered that you were supposed to give the
first deer taken in a new year to Kerun, but she doubted if anyone
bothered anymore.
“He’s a splendid god,” Perryn remarked.
“So are all the gods,” Jill said, in case any were
listening.
“Oh, truly, but Kerun’s the only one
who . . . oh, er,
ah, well, who seemed to suit me, I suppose I mean.” He
thought for a long moment “Or, er, I should say, he’s
the only god that I’m suited for. Or somewhat like that
I’ve always felt that if I prayed to the others, they’d
take it as an affront.”
“What? Oh, come now, don’t be so harsh with
yourself. The Goddess of the Moon is mother of us all, and she and
the Three Mothers will listen to anyone’s prayer.”
“Not to mine. And the Moon’s not my mother,
either.”
Although Jill supposed that this statement bordered on
blasphemy, she neither knew nor cared enough about the worship of
the gods to refute it
“It’s not that I like being this way, mind,”
Perryn went on. “It’s just that I know it in my heart.
Kerun’s the only god who’ll have me. I would have liked
being his priest, living out in the wilderness somewhere and doing
whatever his rites are. I couldn’t even find anyone who knew
much about that, you see.”
“Well, here, maybe you should go to Dun Deverry.
I’ve been told there are ancient temples there where the
priests know everything there is to know. I’ll wager
there’s a book or suchlike, and you could maybe hire someone
to read it to you.”
“Now there’s a thought!” He smiled at her.
“You’re actually taking me seriously, aren’t
you?”
“Of course. My father always said that if a man wants to
be a priest, the gods will favor those who help him.”
“Your
father sounds like a splendid fellow. But it’s just that
no one ever takes me seriously, not even Nedd. I mean, he cares
about me and defends me and suchlike, but he thinks I’m daft,
you see, even though he won’t admit he does.”
“Well, I don’t think you’re daft.”
“Truly?”
“Truly. I’ll be honest with you. I think
you’re a truly eccentric man, but I’ve met stranger
fellows than you along the long road. Compared to some of
them—why, you’re perfectly ordinary.”
With a toss of his head, he laughed. She was surprised at his
laughter, deep, smooth, genuinely humorous, and realized that
she’d been expecting it would be as halting and strange as
his way of speaking.
“Well, then, maybe I should ride to Dun Deverry and see
more of the world,” he said at last. “I could scrape up
some coin from my brothers. They’d probably give me a bit,
you see, just to be rid of me for a while. My thanks, Jill. I never
thought of that. I hate cities, and it never occurred to me that
there’d be anything worth having in one.”
“Well, I like them myself. They stink, but there’s
always so much to see among the smells.”
He smiled, watching her so warmly that she went on her guard,
mindful that they were alone and hidden. Since she could have
bested him easily in any sort of fight, she wasn’t afraid of
him, but she refused to give him the slightest encouragement that
might cause trouble with Rhodry. She had no desire to see poor
Perryn dead at the hands of her jealous man. Aware that her mood
had changed, he sighed and looked away.
“Oh, er, ah, well, I might have made a good priest.
I’m certainly not much of a warrior.”
“Oh, now, don’t smear mud on your name.”
He nodded absently. She waited for him to go on and waited and
waited, until in some twenty minutes she realized that he was
capable of sitting silently for hours. Although she felt no
interest in him as a man, as a puzzle he was fascinating.
That night, the army made camp about twenty miles north and east
of Graemyn’s dun, on the very spot of land that was the cause
of the war, where they would remain while a messenger went ahead to
Naddryc’s brother. Since the weather was warm, the cart
containing the noble remains was stowed a good bit downwind of the
camp itself. As Nedd remarked to Rhodry, it was possible that Aegwyc wouldn’t even unwrap his brother’s corpse to
see how it had been mutilated.
“So we can hope, my lord,” Rhodry said. “How
far away is it to Lord Aegwyc’s dun?”
“Just ten miles. With luck, he’ll come by sunset
tomorrow.”
Together they walked back to the camp, sprawled over a meadow.
Although the dust was thickening to a velvet gray, Rhodry, of
course, could see quite well with his half-elven eyesight. As they
passed a clump of scrubby bushes, he saw something move within it
and stopped for a better look, as it was unlikely that a rabbit or
other animal would come this close to so many human beings.
Cowering among the twisted trunks was one of the Wildfoik, but
he’d never seen one like it: a blackish, deformed gnome with
long fangs, bulging eyes, and red claws. For a moment it stared at
him in terror, then vanished.
“Somewhat wrong?” Nedd said.
“Naught, my lord. It just looked like . . . oh, like someone
had dropped a bit of gear in there, but it was only a
rock.”
Later, as they sat by the campfire, Rhodry had the distinct
feeling that he was being watched, but although he looked carefully
around him, he never caught either man or spirit looking his
way.
“Using the Wildfolk to spy could be cursed
dangerous,” said the man who was calling himself Gwin.
“I know that, but there’s naught else I can do until
I get a look at Rhodry in the flesh.” His companion looked up
from the scrying mirror, laid out on a square of black velvet on
the table in front of him. “At least he’s got out of
that siege. That stinking little feud could have been the ruin of
all our plans.”
Gwin merely nodded, well aware how close they’d come to
losing their prey to a warrior’s Wyrd. The man who was using
the name Merryc carefully wrapped up the mirror and put it back
into the secret pocket of his saddlebags. Although they were both
Bardek men, they’d been chosen for this hunt because there
was Deverry blood in their families. Both had straight, dark brown
hair and skin light enough to go unremarked in the kingdom,
especially in the northern provinces, where men of their homeland
were rarely seen. Gwin’s mother, in fact, had been a Deverry
girl, sold by her impoverished clan to a Bardek merchant as a
concubine. As he vaguely remembered, his father had been
fairly pale by Bardek standards, too, but then he’d only seen
the man a handful of times before they’d sold him off as an
unwanted slave child at the age of four. He knew nothing about
Merryc’s background nor in fact, his true name. Men who were
chosen for the Hawks of the Brotherhood kept their own secrets and
allowed others theirs.
“Do you know where he is
now?”
“I do,” Merryc said, buckling the
saddlebag. “It’s not far. I think it’ll be
perfectly safe for us to ride by on the morrow. We can stop
and gawk at the army for a few minutes. No one will think much of
it. What traveler wouldn’t stop and stare at the doings of
the noble-born?”
“True-spoken. And then?”
“We watch. Naught more. Remember that well. All we do is
watch from a distance until Rhodry and the lass are out on
the road alone. Then we can summon the others and make our
move.”
“Well and good, then, but there’s somewhat about
this plan that vexes me. It’s too complex, all twisted, like
a bit of those interlaced decorations they favor
here.”’
“Well, and I have to admit I feel the same, but who are
we to argue with our officers?”
“No one, of course.”
“That jest wasn’t funny in the
least.”
“I didn’t mean it to be a jest.”
Gwin felt a sudden shudder of fear, as if by saying
the ordinary phrase “nev yn” he might have
summoned Nevyn into their inn chamber like a demon, rising at the
very sound of its name. Then he brushed the irrational thought
aside. It was only a symptom of his unease with the convoluted
scheme which his superiors in the blood guild had laid upon
them. It was all very well for them, safely back in the islands, to
talk of kidnapping Rhodry unharmed without attracting the
attention of the dweomer of light.
“Has anyone told you, what we’re supposed
to do about that lass of his?” Merryc
said.
“They have. Kill her. If there’s time,
we’re allowed to have a bit of sport with her
first.”’
“Splendid. By all accounts, she’s
lovely.”
“But only if it’s safe. She’s not important at
all to whatever the point of all, this is, or so I was told. She
just needs, to be gotten out of the way.”’
Merryc nodded, considering this new bit
of information. They were both too low in, the
Hawks’ guild to have been given more than what they
absolutely needed to know. Although he accepted his ignorance as part of the discipline, privately Gwin wondered
just what the blood guilds intended to do with Rhodry once they had
him safely back in Bardek. Naught that was pleasant, no doubt, but
that was no affair of his. In fact, neither he nor Merryc had any
idea of who had hired their guild and sent them on this errand. The
blood guilds took work from whoever could pay their high price, and
there were men in Deverry as well as Bardek who knew it.
On the morrow they rode out of Bobyr, the village in which
they’d been staying, and headed northeast. Some two hours
after noon, they came to a wide meadow and the army camp, a sprawl
of tents thirty feet off the road, with the horses grazing beyond
them. Although most of the men were sitting on the ground, most of
them dicing, there were guards spaced at regular intervals around
the encampment.
“Let’s hope Rhodry isn’t off beyond the
horses,” Merryc muttered.
In a moment they had worse things to worry about than where
Rhodry might be. As they walked their horses slowly along, stopping
now and then to stare in feigned amazement, they heard someone yell
in the camp. A mounted squad of ten galloped out from behind the
tents, split into two, and surrounded them before they could think
of running. Trying to escape, in any case, would have been a
mistake. The leader of the squad, a gray-haired man in the plaid
brigga of the noble-born, guided his horse up to them.
“No need for trouble, lads,” he said. “I just
want to know who you are, and who you ride for.”
“My name’s Gwin, and this is Merryc, my lord, and we
don’t ride for any noble lord. We work for the merchant guild
down in Lyn Ebon, mostly as caravan guards, but they sent us up
here with letters and suchlike for the new guild in Dun
Pyr.”
“Got some proof of that, lad? There’s a war on, and for all
I know, you’re spies.”
Gwin reached into his shirt and pulled off a thin chain with a
stolen seal ring of the guild in question. The lord examined it,
grunted in approval, and handed it back.
“My apologies, then. Ride on,
but be careful on the road. Most like, you won’t meet any trouble, but it pays a
man to keep his eyes open.”
“It does, my lord, and my thanks.”
The lord waved his arm, the squad parted and let them through, directly by a man who had to be Rhodry from his
description. Luck and twice luck, Gwin thought, but he let nothing
show on his face but a careful indifference as he casually glanced
the silver dagger’s way. With the same indifference, Rhodry
looked back, then turned his horse and followed the squad back to
camp. Neither Gwin nor Merryc spoke until they had gone another
mile or so; then Merryc laughed, a dark chuckle under his
breath.
“Well and good, then. I won’t need to be ordering
the Wildfolk about from now on.”
“Have the others seen him yet?”
“They haven’t. I talked to Briddyn through the fire
last night, and they’re still too far south. They won’t
need to do their own scrying, anyway, unless somewhat happens to
me.”
“It won’t. That’s why I’m
along.”
“Arrogant, aren’t you?” Merryc turned in the
saddle and smiled at him. “But I won’t deny that
you’re the best swordsman in the Brotherhood. Let’s
hope you can best Rhodry if things come to that.”
“Let’s hope they don’t. Remember, they want him
alive.”
During the first days after the army rode out, while the dun
waited tensely for news, Jill spent a fair amount of time with
Perryn, usually out in the woods. The cure, if such it was, of sun
and open air was doing him far more good than bed rest. Soon the
dark circles were gone, and he could spend a whole day awake. Yet
no matter how much time she spent with him, she never felt that she
was getting to know him, because he was as guarded and private as
one of the wild animals he loved so much. After that first day he
never mentioned his longing for Kerun’s priesthood again.
When she tried to talk about his kin or the life of the dun, he
always drifted into saying some daft thing that put an end to the
conversation. Although he seemed to be glad of her company, at
times she wondered if he would prefer to be alone. On the third
day, however, she had a disturbing revelation of his feelings.
In the afternoon they went out for their usual walk, but this
time he told her to lead the horse a little farther into the
forest, where there was a tiny stream bordered by ferns that he
wanted her to see. After she watered his gray, Jill dutifully
admired the ferns, then sat down next to him in the cool shade.
“We should be getting news of the army soon,” he
remarked. “If here was a battle, they’d send
messages.”
“Let’s pray they’re on their way home, and
without another army chasing them.”
“True-spoken. Though . . . ah, er, oh, well . . . ”
Jill waited patiently while he collected his thoughts. She was
beginning to get used to his lapses.
“Er, ah, it’s been splendid sitting out in the woods
with you. No doubt we won’t be able to when Rhodry rides
home.”
“Of course not. Rhodry can turn rotten jealous, even
though he’s got no reason to be.”
“Oh. Er, ah, he doesn’t have any reason to
be?”
“None, my lord.”
She went on guard, waiting to see how he would take her firm
dismissal. For a moment, he considered the ferns sadly.
“None, is it?” he said at last.
“Truly?”
He turned his head and smiled at her, a peculiar sort of smile,
open and intense, that seemed to reach out and wrap round,
troubling her will with a warmth as palpable as a touch of a hand.
When she wrenched her eyes away, he laid a gentle hand on her
cheek. She twisted away and knocked his hand off, but he smiled
again in a way that made him seem to glow. She stared at him,
because for a moment she was incapable of moving. When he kissed
her, his mouth was soft, gentle, but sensual with a thousand
promises.
“You truly are beautiful,” he whispered.
With a wrench of will, she shoved him away.
“Now, here,” she snapped. “There can’t
be any more of this between us.”
“And why not?”
His smile was so disturbing that Jill scrambled up and stepped
back as if he were an enemy with a sword. He made no effort to
follow, merely watched her with his head tilted in a childlike,
questioning way. When she stepped back a few more feet, she felt the
spell break.
“I’m going back to the dun,” she snarled.
“Obviously you’ve got the strength to ride back
alone.”
As she jogged back to the dun, she was debating the problem. He can’t
be dweomer—he must be dweomer—where would he even
have learned it—but what else could that be? Now that she
was away from him, the incident was oddly blurred in her mind, as
if it had never truly been registered in her rational memory. She
decided that, dweomer or not, she was going to avoid being alone
with Perryn from now on. When he returned, late in the afternoon,
she saw him from across the great hall. He was so bland, so vague
and awkward, that she found herself wondering if she’d dreamt
the incident by the stream.
Hunkered down in the middle of the field, the lords were
parleying, Aegwyc with ten of his men for an escort, Graemyn with
ten of his, one of whom, was Rhodry. Since he was the man
who’d killed Aegwyc’s brother, he had to be there to
admit it if the lord demanded. He profoundly hoped that he
wouldn’t, even though Graemyn assured him that he
would pay the lwdd himself. So far Graemyn had had little
chance to say anything, because Benoic was doing most of
the talking.
“So it’s settled then?” Benoic said at
last
“It is.” Aegwyc sounded very tired,
“I’ll abide by the high king’s arbitration—provided I feel it’s fairly run.”
“And I’ll do the same,” Graemyn broke
in before Benoic could agree for him. “I swear it on.
the honor of my clan.”
“And I on mine.” With a sigh, Aegwyc rose,
staring past them to the full army. Rhodry supposed that he was
counting up the odds against the few men, he could muster.
“Send me a herald when the king’s men
arrive.”
“I will.” Benoic got to his feet and waved
the rest of the men up. “You have my hand on
that.”
Solemnly they shook hands. For a moment Aegwyc lingered,
looking over the ten men around the tieryn. He
would know that one of them had to be his brother’s
killer, and he looked each one full in the face, pausing a little
longer when he came to Rhodry. Rhodry looked boldly back and saw
the lord’s mouth tighten in bitterness. There was only
one reason that a silver dagger would be part of this
parley, after all. With a sudden wrench Aegwyc turned and led
his men away. Rhodry let out his breath in a long sigh of
relief.
“Ah, you killed the bastard fairly, silver
dagger,” Benoic said.
“So I did, but still, it’s a hard
thing to look a man’s kin in the face when
you’ve brought him his Wyrd.”
As he mounted his horse for the ride back to camp,
Rhodry had the feeling that someone was staring at
him. He twisted in the saddle to look, but everyone
around him, was busy mounting up. No one would be staring at me,
anyway, he thought, unless Aegwyc can send the evil eye from far away.
Yet the feeling persisted for a moment before it faded. During the
long ride back to Graemyn’s dun, he would feel it every now and
then, that someone, somehow, and for some strange reason, was
spying on him.
“I’m cursed glad to see your arm out of that sling,” Nedd
remarked.
“So am I,” Perryn said.
He picked up a leather ball, hard-packed with straw, and began
squeezing it repeatedly to exercise his hand. Soon he would have to
start working his arm, too, but it ached so much that he wanted to
wait a day or so. Nedd paced back and forth across the small
bedchamber and watched with a worried frown.
“Will that heal up properly?” he said.
“Don’t know yet. I never was much good with a sword
anyway. It’s not like I’ve got fine-honed skills to
lose.”
“Well, the war’s over, if you ask me. Aegwyc
can’t cause much trouble. His brother bled the demesne white
for his war with Graemyn.”
“So is our uncle going to pull out?”
“Not him. He’s having a fine time bullying Graemyn
and doing his talking for him. But I know it aches your heart to be
shut up inside a dun like this. You could just ride on if you
like.”
“My thanks, but I’ll stay. Just in case . . . oh, ah,
er, well, somewhat happens.”
“Even if the fighting did break out again, you
wouldn’t be able to join us with your arm so weak.”
“I know. Not the point, you see.”
“And what is the point?”
“Oh, er, ah, Jill.”
“What? You’re daft! Rhodry could cut you into
shreds, and I mean no insult, because he could do the same to me—easily.”
“No reason it has to come to an open fight, is there?”
“Oh, none at all. There’s no reason that the sun has to
rise every morning, either, but somehow it always does.”
His hands on his hips, Nedd considered Perryn as if he were
thinking of drowning him.
“I wager I can get Jill away from
him,” Perryn said.
“Of course. That’s why I’m so
blasted worried. Ye gods, I’ve never known a man with your luck for the lasses. How do you do
it, anyway?”
“Just smile at them a lot and flatter them. It can’t
be any different than what most men do.”
“Indeed? It’s never worked that well for
me.”
“Oh, you’re probably not smiling the right way.
You’ve got to . . . oh, er, let some warmth flow out with it.
Easy, once you get the knack.”
“Then you’ll have to tell me how. But here, if you
lay a snare for Jill, you’ll likely catch a wolf in
it.”
“The wolf’s going to be following my beloved
cousin’s orders and riding with him all over
Cerrgonney.”
“I can’t do that. It’s
dishonorable.”
“What about all those times I lied to our uncle for your
sake? That was dishonorable, too.”
“So it was. Do you want a night in Jill’s bed as
badly as all this?”
“I’ve never wanted anything in my life as much as I
do her.”
“Ah, curse you, you bastard! Well and good, then. Rhodry
and I will find somewhere to ride together.”
“My thanks, cousin. My most humble thanks.”
They had a long wait ahead of them while the speeded courier
traveled the two hundred-odd miles to Dun Deverry. Although
he could buy a swift passage on one of the many barges that sailed
down from the mountain mines on the Camyn Yraen, he would have to
ride back. In other parts of the kingdom, of course, there
would have been local gwerbrets to bear their appeal, but
the various gwerbrets who had once ruled in Cerrgonney warred so
incessantly among themselves that King Maryn the Second had
abolished the rank in the summer of 962, After a bloody
rebellion, his son, Casyl the Second, made the decree of
abolishment stick in 984. From then on, the kings personally took
the fealty of every Cerrgonney lord and judged the various
squabbles among them.
During the wait, Perryn stalked Jill, but from a wary
distance, always watching for those rare times when Rhodry left
her alone. The moments were hard to catch, because she was doing
her best to avoid him. Since she was the first woman
who’d ever resisted his strange appeal, he was puzzled, but
the resistance only made her the more desirable. Finally his
chance came to make his move. At sunset on the tenth day,
Graemyn’s courier returned, with the news that the king
would most graciously take this matter under his regal judgment. In fact, a herald and a legal councillor
were coming directly behind him on the road.
“Splendid!” Benoic said. “Now, here, Graemyn,
you’ve got to send an honor guard along to meet
them.”
“I was just about to say exactly that. If one of my noble allies
would care to take his warband on this errand, I’d be most
grateful.”
Perryn shot Nedd a pointed glance. Nedd sighed.
“I’ll do it gladly, Your Grace,” Nedd said. “I have
six men left as well as my silver dagger. Will that be the proper
size for the escort?’
“Exactly right. If the warband’s too large, Aegwyc
might claim intimidation. My thanks, Lord Nedd.”
Nedd scowled Perryn’s way with a face as sour as if
he’d bitten into a Bardek citron. Perryn merely smiled in
return.
“Well, my love, we’ll be riding out at
dawn.”
Jill went cold with fear.
“Oh here, what’s so wrong?” Rhodry went on.
“We won’t be in the slightest danger.”
“I know.” She found it very hard to speak.
“It’s just that we’ve been apart so
much.”
“I know, but I’ve got plenty of battle loot, and the reward
from Tieryn Graemyn, so once this hire’s over, we’ll
settle into a decent inn for a while.”
With a nod, she turned away, tempted to tell him the truth, that
she was afraid of being left in the same dun as Perryn, but the
truth might lead to bloodshed. Although she would have been pleased
by the sight of Perryn lying dead, his kin would only cut Rhodry
down in turn. He put his arms around her and drew her close.
“I’ll be back soon, my love.”
“I hope so.” She reached up and kissed him.
“Rhoddo, oh, Rhoddo, I love you more than I love my
life.”
As it turned out, the warband left a good hour after dawn,
because Nedd and his men could never leave a place simply and
easily. When they were finally on their way, Jill stood at the
gates for a long time, wishing she could ride with them, feeling
the dweomer cold run down her back in warning. When she turned
she found Perryn watching her. She brushed past him without so
much as a “good morrow” and hurried to the safe
company of Lady Camma and her serving women. All day she avoided him and
that night she barred her chamber door from the inside.
On the morrow, however, Perryn caught her alone. Jill had gone
down to the stables to tend Sunrise, as she never left him to the
slipshod attentions of stableboys. She was just leading him back to
his clean stall when Perryn strolled over.
“Good morrow,” he said. “I was thinking of
going riding. Won’t you come with me?”
“I won’t, my lord.”
“Please don’t call me ‘lord’ all the
time.”
Then he smiled his warm bewitchment, coiling round her
heart.
“I love you, Jill.”
“I don’t give a pig’s fart. Leave me
alone!”
When she stepped back, she found herself against the stall door.
With another smile, he laid his hand on her cheek, a touch that
flooded her with warmth. Dweomer, she thought, it has to be
dweomer. When he kissed her, she knew in a nightmarish way that she
was weakening, that she was sorely tempted to betray Rhodry for
this skinny, daft, nondescript man.
“We could ride into the meadow,” he whispered.
“It’s lovely out in the sun.”
His words—the very rational act of speaking—broke the spell. She shoved him so hard that he nearly fell and
twisted free.
“Leave me alone!” she snarled. “Love me all
you want, but I belong to Rhodry.”
As soon as she was back in the great hall, her fear turned to
hatred, a blind murderous thing because he’d made her feel
helpless, her, who could fight with the best of men and fend for
herself on the long road. If she could have murdered him and
escaped scot-free, she would have. All day her fury grew as she
watched him stalk her. Finally, early in the evening she noticed
that he’d left the hall. A servant told her that he’d
gone to bed because his wound was bothering him. Good, she thought,
may it burn like fire! As she sipped a last tankard of ale in the
company of the other women, she barely listened to their talk. She
would have to do something about Lord Perryn, she decided, and then
finally thought of the obvious place to turn for help. Nevyn. Of
course! He’d understand, he’d tell her what to do. She
got a candle lantern, then went up to her chamber. Using the candle
flame, she could contact him, wherever he might be.
She went into the chamber, set the lantern down, then barred the door. As she turned round, she saw Perryn, sitting so
quietly in the curve of the wall that she’d never noticed
him, her mind full of dweomer thought. When she swore at him, he
grinned at her, but it was only an ordinary sort of triumphant
smile.
“Get out! Get out right now, or I’ll throw you out
bodily.”
“What a nasty tongue you have, my love.”
“Don’t you call me that.”
“Jill, please.” He gave her one of those entrancing
smiles. “Let me stay with you tonight.”
“I won’t.” But she heard her voice waver.
Smiling, always smiling, he walked toward her. She felt
mead-muddled, her thoughts hard to form, harder yet to voice, and
she tried to move away, she staggered. He caught her by the
shoulders, then kissed her, his mouth so warm and inviting on hers
that she returned the kiss before she could stop herself. Her body
was as out of control as a river in full spate. When he wrapped his
arms around her and kissed her again, she wondered if she’d
ever truly wanted a man before or merely been like a young lass,
flirting without even knowing what she’s offering.
“You know you want me to stay,” he whispered.
“I’ll leave early. No one has to know or see a
thing.”
When she forced herself to think of Rhodry, she had just enough
strength to shove him away, but he caught her wrists and pulled her
back. Although she struggled, her knees seemed to have turned to
lead and her arms to water. Still with his ensorceling smile, he
pulled her back and kissed her. She felt herself give in with one
last muddled thought that Rhodry would never have to know. The
pleasure she felt came from her surrender as much as his caresses.
She could hardly let go of him long enough for them to get into
bed, and once they were lying down, she was trembling. Yet Perryn
himself was in no hurry, kissing her, caressing her, taking off
their clothing one piece at a time, then caressing her for a while
more. When he finally lost his patient reserve, his passion for her
was frightening. She could only surrender to her own, let it match
his and carry her where it willed.
Afterward, she lay in his arms and clung to him while the
candlelight cast a pale, dancing glow on a world gone strange. The
stone walls seemed alive, swelling and shrinking rhythmically as
tthey breathed. The light itself broke up and flared as if it came
from a great fire to fall on shards of glass. If Perryn
hadn’t kissed again, she would have been frightened, but his
lovemaking was too engrossing for her to think of anything else. When they
were finished she fell asleep in his arms.
She woke suddenly a few hours later to find him asleep beside
her. In the lantern the candle stub guttered in a spill of wax. For
a moment she was so confused that she wondered what he was doing
there, but an odd bit at a time, she remembered. She nearly wept in
shame. How could she have betrayed her Rhodry? How could she have
played the slut with a man she hated? She sat up, waking him.
“Get out of here,” Jill said. “I never want to
see you again.”
He merely smiled and reached for her, but the candle went out
with a last dancing flare. A red eye in the dark, the wick slowly
faded. In the darkness she was freed from his smile, and she got up
before he could grab her.
“Get out, or I’ll find my sword and cut you in
pieces.”
Without a word of argument he got up and began searching for his
clothes. She leaned against the wall, because the room seemed to be
spinning around her. Every little scuffle or rustle Perryn made was
unnaturally loud, as if the noise echoed in a chamber ten times the
size. Finally he was done.
“I truly do love you,” he said meekly.
I’d never just trifle with you once and then desert you.”
“Get out! Get out now!”
With a dramatic sigh he slipped out, shutting the door behincd
him. Jill fell onto the bed, clutched her pillow, and sobbed into
it until finally she’d cried herself to sleep. When
she woke, sunlight poured into her chamber window as thickly as
a flood of honey. For a long time she lay there, wondering at
light made solid. The dented pewter candle lantern shone like the
finest silver, and even the gray stone of the walls seemed to
pulse within this splendid light. With some difficulty she dressed,
because the patterns of stains and pulled threads on her clothing
were as engrossing as fine needlework. When she went to the
window, she thought she’d never seen such a fine summer day,
the sky so bright it was like sapphire. Down below in the
ward stableboys were tending horses and the sound of hooves on
cobbles drifted up like the chime of bells. Her gray gnome
appeared on the windowsill.
“Do you know how I’ve shamed myself?”
It gave her a look of utter incomprehension.
“Good. Oh ye gods, I might be able to live with
myself over this, and then again, I might not. Pray
that Rhodry never finds out.”
Puzzled, the little creature hunkered down and began picking its
toes. She realized that its skin, instead of being the uniform gray
she’d always thought it, was made up of colors, many different
ones in minute specks, that merely blended to gray from a distance.
She was so busy examining it that she didn’t hear the door
opening until it was too late. She spun around to find Perryn, his
hands full of wild roses, smiling at her.
“I picked these out in the meadow for you.”
Jill was tempted to throw the lot right in his face, but their
color caught her. She had to take them, to study them, roses more
lovely than she’d ever seen, their petals the color of
iridescent blood, always shifting and gleaming, their centers a
fiery gold.
“We’ve got to talk,” he said, “And we
don’t have much time. We’ve got to make a
plan.”
“What? Plans for what?”
“Well, we can’t be here when Rhodry rides
back.”
“I’m not going anywhere with you. I never want you
in my bed again.”
But he smiled, and this time, after their lovemaking, she felt
the bewitchment a hundredfold. Even as her thoughts grew muddled,
she knew that somehow he’d linked himself to her, that some
strange force was iowing through the link. Then he took her
shoulders and kissed her, the flowers crushed between them with a
waft of scent
“I love you so much,” he said. “I’ll
never let you go. Come with me, my love, come to the hills with me.
That’s where we belong. Well ride free together, all summer
long.”
Jill had one last coherent thought, that he wasn’t daft:
he was downright mad. Then he kissed her again, and it was too
difficult to think.
Lord Nedd’s warband met the king’s herald a day and
a half’s ride from the dun. Rhodry was riding next to his
lordship when they crested a small hill and saw, down below them on
the road, the royal emissaries, all mounted on white horses with
red trappings set with gilded buckles. At the head came the
herald, carrying a polished ebony staff with a gold finial strung
with satin ribbons. Behind him rode an elderly man in the long dark tunic and
gray cloak of a legal councillor, with a page on a white
pony at the man’s side. Bringing up the rear were four of the
king’s own warband, wearing purple cloaks and carrying gold-trimmed
scabbards. Nedd stared slack-mouthed.
“Ye gods,” he said feebly. “I should have made
the men put on clean shirts.”
The two parties met in the road. When Nedd announced himself,
the herald, a blond young man with a long upper lip made longer by
pride, looked him over for a moment stretched to the limit of
courtesy.
“My humble thanks for the honor, Your Lordship,” he
said at last. “It gladdens my heart that Tieryn Graemyn
takes our mission with serious intent and grave heart.”
“Well, of course he does,” Nedd said.
“Why else would he have sent the wretched message in
the first place?”
The herald allowed himself a small, icy smile. Rhodry urged his
horse forward, made a graceful half-bow in the saddle, and
addressed himself to the herald.
“O honored voice of the king, we give you greetings,
and pledge our very lives as surety for your safe
passage.”
The herald bowed, visibly relieved to find someone who knew the
ritual salutations, even, if that someone was a silver dagger.
“My humble thanks,” he said. “And who
are you?”
“A man who loves our liege more than his owe
life.
“Then we shall be honored to ride beside you on our
journey to justice.”
“May the king’s justice live forever in the
land.”
Rhodry had to tell Nedd how to dispose his men: his lordship to
ride with the herald, his warband to fall in behind the
king’s men. Rhodry himself was planning on taking the
humblest place at the very rear, but as he rode down the line,
the councillor caught his eye and beckoned him to fall, in
beside him.
“So Rhodry Maelwaedd,” he said.
“You’re still alive. I’ll tell your honored
mother that when next we meet at court.”
“I’d be most grateful, good sir but have I had the honor
of meeting you? Wretch that I am, I fear me I’ve forgotten
your name.”
“Oh, I doubt if you, ever knew it It’s. Cunvelyn,
and I know your lady mother fairly well.” He
considered Rhodry shrewdly for a moment. “It truly does
gladden my heart to see you alive and well. Doubtless you
haven’t heard the news from Aberwyn.”
“None, good sir, except what scraps the occasional
traveler gives me.”
“Ah. Well, your brother’s second wife appears to be
barren, while his cast-off lady was delivered of a fine healthy
son.”
Rhodry swore under his breath with a most uncourtly oath, but
the councillor merely smiled. It was a moment he’d remember
all his life, a moment as unlikely as the sun rising suddenly in a
midnight sky, changing night magically into day. When Rhys died, he
would be Aberwyn’s heir, and he allowed himself to hope for
the thing that he’d long since given up hoping for: recall.
Aberwyn was such an important rhan that the king himself might well
take a hand in bringing home its heir from the dangers of the long
road.
“I would advise you to keep yourself as safe as
possible,” Cunvelyn said. “Are you short up for
coin?”
“Not in the least.”
“Good. Perhaps then you can avoid hiring out your sword
straightaway.”
“I will, good sir.”
Although Rhodry’s heart ached to ask more, he knew that
the old man’s court training would allow no more answers. For
a few moments they rode in silence; then Cunvelyn turned to
him.
“Your little daughter’s well, by the by. Your lady
mother keeps her always by her side.”
Rhodry had to think for a moment before he remembered the
bastard he’d sired on a common-born lass. How many years ago
was it? he wondered. Three, I think.
“That’s most kind of my lady mother,” he said
hurriedly. “And what is she named?”
“Rhodda, to keep her father’s memory
alive.”
“I see. Mother always did know how to badger
Rhys.”
The councillor allowed himself the briefest of smiles.
Rhodry spent the rest of the journey in a fury of impatience to
tell Jill the councillor’s news. If he were reading the hints
aright, soon they would be back in Eldidd, living in the comfort
and splendor he assumed that she wanted. And this time, she would
be more than just his mistress. He was no longer a spoiled younger
son who needed a strong wife to keep him in rein; he was a man they
needed, a man in a position to make demands. He would get her a
title, settle land upon her as a dower gift, and marry her, no
matter what his mother and the king thought of it.
Late on a splendid sunny day, the herald and his escort rode up
to Graemyn’s dun. As they clattered through the gates, Rhodry
was looking around for Jill. The ward was full of riders, standing
in a reasonable excuse for a formation, while the two tieryns stood
at the door of the broch to greet their honored guest. In the
confusion, he saw no sign of her, nor did she come to meet him
while he stabled his horse and Nedd’s. Although he was rather
hurt, he thought little of it, assuming that Lady Camma had kept
her at her side for some reason, until Nedd came hurrying into the
stable.
“My lord?” Rhodry said. “Is Jill in the great
hall?”
“She’s not. Is Perryn in here?”
“He’s not. Isn’t he with the other
noble-born?”
Nedd went a little pale about the mouth.
“Oh, by the black balls of the Lord of Hell!” Nedd
snarled. “He wouldn’t have—the rotten little
weasel—oh, curse him for a pig’s bollock!”
“My lord, what is all this?”
“I don’t know yet. Come with me.”
Rhodry tagged after as Nedd searched the great hall for Camma,
finally finding her as she gave orders to the servants about the
feast to come. When Nedd caught her arm, she saw Rhodry and gasped,
a little puff of breath.
“Oh, by the gods,” she said. “But you’ve
got to know, and it best be sooner than later, I suppose. Nedd, if
I ever get my hands on your misbegotten wretch of a cousin,
I’ll beat him black and blue.”
“I’ll hold him down while you do it What’s he done
with Jill?”
Camma laid a maternal hand on Rhodry’s arm, her large dark eyes
full of sincere apology.
“Rhodry, your Jill’s gone. All I can think is that
she rode off with Perryn, because he disappeared not an hour after
she did. My heart truly aches for you.”
Rhodry opened his mouth and shut it again, then clasped his
sword hilt so hard that the leather bindings bit into his palm.
Nedd had gone dead white.
“Did you know somewhat about this?” Rhodry
growled.
“Oh, er, ah, well, not truly. I mean, ye gods! I knew he
fancied your lass, but I never thought anything would come of
it.”
With a great effort of will, Rhodry reminded himself that it
would be dishonorable to kill him in front of a lady. Camma gave
his arm a little shake.
“Oh, come now,” she said. “Who in their right
mind would ever have thought that Jill would leave a man like you
for one like Perryn?”
His pride was sopped just enough to make him let go the hilt
“Now, here,” Nedd said to the lady. “Did my
uncle know of this? I can’t believe he’d let Perro do
such a dishonorable thing.”
“And why do you think your wretched cousin slipped out
like a weasel? Benoic chased him with some of his men, but Perryn
went off through the forest. They never found a trace of
him.”
Nedd started to answer, then simply stared at Rhodry. They were
in a terrible position, and they both knew it. If Rhodry swore
bloody vengeance where the lord could hear, he would be honor-bound
to stop Rhodry from riding—if he could. The fear in
Nedd’s eyes was satisfying to see.
“Now, here!” came Benoic’s bellow.
“What’s all this?”
Hands on hips, the tieryn strode over and shoved himself between
them.
“I take it Rhodry’s found out the truth?”
“He has,” Camma said.
“Humph! Now listen, Nedd, your worm-riddled cousin’s
in the wrong, and you know it as well as I do. On the other hand,
silver dagger, she wasn’t legally your wife, so you’ve
no right to kill him. Beat him black and blue, decidedly, but not
to kill him. Will you make me a solemn oath that you won’t
kill or maim him? If you do, you ride out of here with my blessing
and a bit of extra coin. If you won’t, then you’re not
leaving at all.”
Rhodry glanced around at the hall, filled with armed men.
“Now, now, come to your senses, lad,” Benoic went
on. “I know cursed well that the first thing a man thinks of
in times like this is spilling blood. But ask yourself this: if you
cut your Jill’s throat, wouldn’t you be weeping over
her not five minutes later?”
“Well, Your Grace, so I would.”
“Good. I feel the shame my nephew laid upon his clan. Do
you want her back or not? If not, then I’ll pay you a bride
price, just as if she’d been your wife. If you do, then swear
me that vow, and ride with my aid.”
Faced with this scrupulous fairness, Rhodry felt his rage slip
away. In its place came a cold realization that nearly made him
weep: Jill didn’t love him anymore.
“Well, Your Grace, call me a fool if you want, but I do
want her back. I’ve got a thing or two to say to her, and by
every god in the Otherlands, I’ll find her if I search
all summer long.”
“This is a bit of luck,” Merryc said.
“In a
way,” Gwin said. “We won’t have to bother with
the lass, sure enough, but Rhodry’s going to be following her,
not moving in the direction we want him to.”
“Oh, indeed? Think, young one. From everything I’ve
been able to see, this Perryn fellow knows the woods like his
mother’s tit. What does a man like Rhodry know of woodcraft? When he was a
lord, he had foresters and game wardens to worry about such things,
and silver daggers stick to the roads.” He smiled gently. “I’ll
talk to Briddyn through the fire about this, but I think we’ve
found the perfect bait to lure our bird down to the seacoast. The
only clues he’ll find are the ones we throw in his
path.”
The Lords of Wyrd do not make a man’s life as neatly as a
master potter turns out bowls, each perfectly shaped and suitable
to its purpose. In the ebb and flow of birth and death are strange
currents, eddies, and vortices, most of which are beyond the power
of the Great Ones to control.
—The Secret Book of Cadwallon the Druid
ONE
The sound of rain drumming on the ward outside echoed pleasantly
in the great hall. In her chair by the fire, Aunt Gwerna was
drowsing over her needlework. Occasionally she would look up and
answer a dutiful “true-spoken” to one of her
husband’s rhetorical questions. Perryn’s uncle, Benoic,
Tieryn Pren Cludan, was in one of his expostulatory moods. He sat
straight in his chair, one heavy hand gripping a tankard, the other
emphasizing his points by slamming the chair arm. Benoic was going
quite heavily gray, but he was still as strong-muscled as many a
younger man, and as strong in the lungs, too.
“It’s these worm-riddled pikemen,” he
bellowed. “Battle’s not the same with common-born men
fighting in it. They should be guarding the carts and naught else.
Cursed near blasphemous, if you ask me.
“True-spoken,” Perryn said dutifully.
“Hah! More of this wretched courtly mincing around,
that’s all it is. Trust the blasted southerners to come up
with somewhat like this. It’s no wonder the kingdom’s
not what it was.”
While Benoic soothed his feelings with a long swallow of ale,
Perryn tried to unravel the connection between spearing a man off
his horse and the fine manners of the king’s court.
“You young lads nowadays!” his uncle went on.
“Now, if you’d only ridden in some of the battles I did
at your age, then you’d understand what life here in
Cerrgonney means. Look at you, lad, riding around without a copper
to your name. Ye gods! You should be getting yourself a place in a
warband and working at rising to captain.”
“Now here, Perro,” Gwerna broke in.
“You’re welcome at our table anytime you pass
by.”
“Course he is, woman!” Benoic snapped.
“That’s not the point. He should be making somewhat of
himself, that’s all. I don’t know what’s wrong
with you, lad, and your cursed cousin Nedd is even worse. At least
there’s some excuse for you.”
“Oh, er, my thanks.”
“But Nedd’s got dun and demesne both, and all he
does is ride around hunting all day. By the Lord of Hell’s
balls!”
“Now, my love,” Gwerna interceded again. “He
and Perryn are both young yet.”
“Twenty, both of them! Old enough to marry and settle
down.”
“Well, here, Uncle, I can hardly take a wife when I
don’t even have a house to put her in.”
“That’s what I mean. There’s some excuse for
you.”
Perryn smiled feebly. Although he was a member of the northern
branch of the ancient and conjoint Wolf clan and was thus entitled
to be called a lord, he was also the fifth son of a land-poor
family, which meant that he owned naught but the title and a long
string of relatives to play unwilling host when he turned up
at their gates.
“Are you riding Nedd’s way when you leave us?”
Benoic asked.
“I am. On the morrow, I was thinking.”
“Then tell him I want to hear of him marrying,
and soon.”
The next morning, Perryn rose at dawn and went to the stable
long before the dun came awake, He brought out his dapple-gray
gelding, a fine horse with some Western Hunter blood in him, and
began saddling up. On his travels he packed an amazing
amount of gear: two pairs of saddlebags, a bulging bedroll, a small
iron kettle, and at his saddle peak a woodcutter’s ax slung
where most lords carried a shield. Just as he was finishing,
Benoic came out to look the laden horse over.
“By the asses of the gods, you look like a misbegotten
peddler! Why don’t you take a pack horse if you’re
going to live on the roads this way?”
“Oh er, good idea.”
With a snort, Benoic ran his hand down the gray’s
neck.
“Splendid creature. Where did a young cub like you
scrape up the coin for him?”
“Oh, er, ah, well.” Perryn needed a lie
fast, “Won him in a dice game.”
“Might have known! Ye gods, you, and your blasted
cousin are going to drive me to the Otherlands before my
time.”
When he left the dun, Perryn set off down the
west-running road in search of a pack horse. Around him stretched
the fields of Benoic’s demesne, pale green with young
barley. Here and, there farmers trotted through the crops to
shoo away the crows, who rose with indignant caws and a clatter of
wings. Soon, though, the fields gave way as the road rose into the
rocky hills, dark with pines. Perryn turned off the muddy track
that passed for a road and worked his way through the widely spaced
silent trees. Once he was in wild country, he had no need of roads
to find his way.
Early in the afternoon, he reached his goal, a mountain meadow
in a long valley that belonged to a certain Lord Nertyn, one of his
uncle’s vassals but a man Perryn particularly disliked. Out
in the tall grass twenty head of Nertyn’s horses grazed
peacefully, guarded by the stallion of the herd, a sturdy chestnut
who stood a good sixteen hands high. When Perryn walked toward the
herd, the stallion swung his way with a vicious snort, and the
others threw up their heads and watched, poised to run. Perryn
began talking to the stallion, a soft clucking noise, a little
murmur of meaningless sound until the horse relaxed and allowed
Perryn to stroke his neck. At that, the rest of the herd returned
to their feed.
“I need to borrow one of your friends,” Perryn said.
“I hope you don’t mind. I’ll take splendid care
of him.”
As if he agreed, the stallion tossed his head, then ambled away.
Perryn picked out a bay gelding and began patting its neck and
combing its mane with his fingers.
“Aren’t you sick of that fat lord who owns you? Come
along and see somewhat of the road.”
When the gelding turned its head, Perryn smiled at it in a
particular way he had, a deep smile that made him feel slightly
cool, as some of his warmth was flowing out to the recipient of the
smile. With a soft snort, the bay leaned its head against his
chest. He patted it for a few more minutes, then walked away, the
bay following close behind. Although Perryn honestly didn’t
understand why, once he got a few minutes alone with a horse, the
animal would follow him anywhere without halter or rope. It was a
useful trick. Whenever his coin ran low, he would simply take a
horse from someone he disliked and sell it to one of the dishonest
traders he knew. Because of his noble blood, no one ever suspected
him of being the worst horse thief in the northern provinces.
He’d often stolen a horse from a cousin one week, then ridden
back the next to express surprise and sympathy at the loss.
Only Benoic and Nedd were safe from his raiding.
That night, Perryn and the two horses made a comfortable camp
in a forest clearing, but the next day they had to return to
the road or go miles out of their way around a steep hill.
They had barely reached the track when it began to rain. Perryn
kept riding until the mud made traveling difficult for the horses, then turned a
little way into the forest and dismounted. In the imperfect shelter
of the pines he crouched down between the horses and waited for the
storm to slack. It was uncomfortable, of course, with his clothes
stuck to him and water running into his boots, but he ignored the
discomfort, the way forest deer ignored the rain, browsing in the
wet when they were hungry. If someone had asked him what he thought
about during those two cold hours, he wouldn’t have been able
to say. He was merely aware of things: the rain, the smell of pine,
the slick-wet trunks and pale green ferns. Every sound brought a
message: a squirrel scuttling into its hole, a deer moving
cautiously far away, a stream running close by. Eventually the rain
stopped. By the time he reached Nedd’s dun, he was dry again.
Indeed, he’d quite forgotten that he’d been caught by
the storm.
The dun stood on a muddy hillock behind a crumbling stone wall
and a pair of rusty iron-bound gates that squeaked like a demon
when Perryn shoved them open. Instead of a broch, Nedd had a stone
round house with a roof that leaked all round the edge and two
hearths that smoked badly. Although there were the usual barracks
over the stables for a warband, the roof there was so bad that Nedd
had simply moved his ten men into the half round of a room that
passed for his great hall. They slept on straw mattresses, laid any
which way in the dry spots out in the middle of the room. Nedd, as
befitted his rank, had an actual bed by one hearth. Scattered
through this disorder of moldy straw were also two tables, benches,
a collection of leather buckets for drips, and one elegant chair,
carved with the Wolf blazon. When Perryn came in after stabling his
horses, he found his cousin sitting in the chair with his feet on
one of the tables.
“By the gods,” Nedd said with a grin.
“You’ve come like an omen, cousin. Here, fetch yourself
some ale. There’s an open barrel by the other
hearth.”
Since their mothers were sisters, the cousins looked much alike.
They both had flaming red hair, freckles, and bright blue eyes, but
while Nedd was a good-looking man, the most charitable description
of Perryn would have been “nondescript.” Tankard in
hand, he joined Nedd at his table. At the other, the warband were
drinking and dicing.
“Why have I come like an omen?”
“You’re just in time to ride to war with me.”
Nedd smiled as if he offering a splendid gift “I’ve got this ally to the
west, Tieryn Graemyn—you’ve met him, haven’t you—and
he’s sent out a call for aid. I’m supposed to bring him twelve
men, but I’ve only got so I’ve got to scrape up the
other two somewhere. Come along, cousin! It’ll be good sport, and you can spare me
the cost of a silver dagger.”
Seeing no way out of it, Perryn sighed. Nedd had fed him for any
a winter, and besides, a noble lord was supposed to respond
joyously to the call for war. He forced out a smile.
“Oh, gladly,” he said. “And what’s the
war about?”
“Cursed if I know. I just got the message
today.”
“Can you spare me a shield?”
“Of course. Ye gods, Perro, don’t tell me you ride
without one?”
“Er, ah, well, I do at that. They take up too much space
on your saddle.”
“You should have been born a woodcutter, I swear
it!”
Perryn rubbed his chin and considered the suggestion.
“Just jesting,” Nedd said hurriedly. “Well, I
hope a silver dagger turns up soon. There’s always a lot of
them in Cerrgonney. We’ll wait a couple of days, then ride,
even if we’re one short. Better that than riding in after the
fighting’s over.”
The gods, however, apparently decided that if Lord Nedd was
going to march to war, it might as well be straightaway. On the
morrow, not long after breakfast, the kitchen gardener ambled in to
announce that there was a silver dagger at the gates.
“And he’s got a woman with him, too,” the old
man said. “I feel cursed sorry for her kin.”
“Is she pretty?” Nedd said.
“She is.”
Nedd and Perryn shared a small smile.
“Splendid,” Nedd said. “Send them in, will
you?”
In a few minutes the silver dagger and his woman came in,
both travel-stained and roughly dressed, the lass in men’s
clothing with a sword and silver dagger of her own. Although
her blond hair was cropped short like a lad’s, she
was not merely pretty but beautiful, with wide blue eyes and a delicate mouth.
“Good
morrow, my lords.” The silver dagger made them a courtly bow.
“My name’s Rhodry of Aberwyn, and I heard in your village that you’ve got a hire for the likes of me.”
“I do,” Nedd said. I can’t offer you more than a silver
piece a week, but if you serve me well in the war, I’ll shelter you and
your lass all winter.”
Rhodry glanced up at the roof, where sunlight broke through in
long shafts, then down at the floor, where Nedd’s dogs snored
in mildewed straw.
“Winter’s a long way away, my lord. We’ll be
riding on.”
“Oh well,” Nedd said hastily. “I can squeeze out two
silver pieces a week, and there’ll be battle loot,
too.”
“Done then. His lordship is to be praised for his
generosity.”
For Jill’s sake, Lord Nedd gave his silver dagger an
actual chamber to sleep in instead of a mattress out in the great
hall, Although the wickerwork walls were filthy, it did have
a door. Rather than sit on the straw of the floor, which seemed to
be inhabited, Jill perched on top of an unsteady wooden chest and
watched as Rhodry cleaned his chain mail. As he ran an old rag
through the rings, to wipe away the rust, he was frowning in the
candlelight.
“What are you thinking
about?” she said.
“That old saying: as
poor as a Cerrgonney lord.”
”Lord Nedd’s a marvel and a half, isn’t he? Are we actually
going to stay here all summer and the winter,
too?”
“Of course not. I’d rather sleep beside the roads.
Are you sure you’ll fare well enough when I leave you
behind?”
“Oh no doubt the kennel will be
comfortable enough when the dogs are all out of it. How
long do you think the war will last?”
“War?” He looked up with a grin.
“I wouldn’t dignify it with the word, my love.
If Nedd’s allies are anything like him, no doubt
there’ll be a lot of shouting and skirmishing, and
then an end to it.”
“I hope you’re right. I feel danger coming in
this.”’
His smile gone, he laid the mail aside.
“More of your wretched dweomer?”
“Just that, but it’s not battle danger, exactly.
I’m not even sure what I do mean. Forgive me. I
shouldn’t have said anything at all.”
“I wish you hadn’t,
truly.” He hesitated, for a long moment,
staring down at the straw. “I . . . ah, by the black ass of the Lord of Hell, let’s just
forget it.”
“I know what you want to know. I don’t see your
death coming. Ah, ye gods, if ever I did, don’t you think
I’d beg you not to ride to war?”
“And,
what good would that do? When my Wyrd comes, upon, me I’ll die as easily from a fever or a fall from a horse as
from a sword. Let me beg a boon from you, my love. If ever you see
my death, say not a word about it.”
“I won’t, then. I promise.”
With a nod of thanks, he got up, stretching, and looked down at
the mail glittering in the candlelight. He was so beautiful that
she felt like weeping, that he would have to risk his life in the
petty feuds of men like Lord Nedd. As she always did on the nights
before he was about to ride to war, she wondered if he would live
to ride back to her.
“Let’s lie down together, my love,” he said.
“It’s going to be a long while before I sleep in your
bed again.”
Once she was lying in his arms, Jill felt the wondering grow to
a cold stab, closer and closer to fear. She held him tight and let
his kisses drown it away.
Early on the morrow, the warband made a sloppy muster out in the
ward. Jill stood in the doorway and watched as the men drew their
horses up in a straggling line behind the two lords. The four men
at the rear, including Rhodry, led pack horses laden with
provisions because Nedd didn’t own an oxcart and
couldn’t have spared the farmers to drive it if he had. Just
as it seemed the line was finally formed, someone would yell that
he’d forgotten something and dash back to the house or the
stables. At the very last moment, Nedd discovered that Perryn
didn’t own a pot helm. A servant was dispatched to the
stables, which apparently did double duty as an armory, to look for
one.
Perryn stood rubbing the back of his neck with one hand while
Nedd berated him for a woodcutter and worse. When Jill caught
Rhodry’s eye, he sighed and glanced heavenward to call the gods to
witness Perryn’s eccentricity. She had never seen a noble
lord like Perryn, and she didn’t know whether to laugh or cry
over him. He was tall, but slender and ill proportioned, with
narrow shoulders, long arms, and big, heavy hands out of scale to
the rest of him. Although his face wasn’t truly ugly, his
eyes were enormous, his mouth thin, and his nose on the flat side. When
he walked, he all the grace of a stork strutting.
When the servant
came back with a rusty helm, Nedd announced that if anyone had
forgotten anything else, he’d cursed well have to do without
it. Jill gave Rhodry one last kiss, then ran to the gates to wave the
warband out. In a disorderly line they trotted down the hill, then
into the road, disappearing to the west in a spatter of mud. With a prayer to the Goddess to keep her
man safe, Jill turned back to the dun and the long tedium of
waiting for news.
The small demesne of Tieryn Graemyn lay three days’ ride
to the west of Nedd’s dun. The road ran narrow through sharp
hills and scrubby pine, mostly uninhabited, until some ten miles
from the tieryn’s dun the warband came to a small village,
Spaebrwn, one of three that paid Graemyn allegiance. As the warband
watered their horses at the village well, Perryn noticed the
townsfolk watching with frightened eyes. A Cerrgonney war was like
a Cerrgonney storm, blowing the thatch from cottage and
lord’s manor alike.
Late in the afternoon they reached Graemyn’s dun, set up
on a low hill out in the middle of a stretch of fairly flat
pastureland bordered by trees. The big gates swung open to admit
them into a ward crowded with men and horses. As Nedd’s
warband dismounted, stableboys ran to take their horses and lead
them away into the general confusion. The tieryn himself strolled
out to greet these reinforcements. A grizzled dark-haired man, he
bulged with muscles under his linen shirt.
“I’m truly glad to see you, Nedd,” he
remarked. “Your twelve brings us up to what strength
we’re going to have.”
Under the tieryn’s firm voice there was an anxious edge
that made Perryn apprehensive, and for good reason, as it turned
out at the council of war in the great hall. Even with Nedd and
three other allies, Graemyn had only some two hundred men. Ranged
against them were Tieryn Naddryc and his allies with close to three
hundred. The dispute concerned two square miles of borderland
between their demesnes, but it had grown far beyond the land at
stake. Although Graemyn was willing to submit the matter to the
arbitration of the high king, Naddryc had refused the offer some
weeks past. In a subsequent skirmish between mounted patrols,
Naddryc’s only son had been killed.
“So he wants my blood,” Graemyn finished up.
“I’ve stripped the countryside to provision the dun.
You never know what’s going to happen when a man gets it into
his head to start a blood feud.”
The other lords all nodded sagely, while Perryn devoutly wished
that he had been born a woodcutter. A feud could rage for years,
and here he was, honor-bound to ride in it for Nedd’s
sake.
After the meal, the lords gathered round the honor table and studied a rough map of eastern Cerrgonney. They drank over it,
argued over it, and yelled at each other while Perryn merely listened. He
was part of the council only by courtesy to his birth; he had no
warband, he had no right of decision. He stayed until the lords adopted
Nedd’s plan of making a surprise attack on enemy’s line
of march, then slipped away, getting a candle lantern from a page
and taking it out to the stables. When he found his dapple gray, he
hung the lantern on a nail in the wall of the stall and sat up on
the manger. The gray leaned his face into Perryn’s chest with
a small snort. He gently scratched its ears.
“Well, my
friend, I wonder if I’ll live to see the winter, I truly
do.”
Blissfully unaware that there was such a thing as a future to
consider, the gray nibbled on his shirt.
“At least
you’ll be safe and out of it. That’s somewhat to be
glad about.”
If Cerrgonney men had fought on horseback, as warriors did in
most of Deverry, no amount of honor or obligation would have
induced Perryn to ride to war, but since up in that grain-poor
province horses were too valuable to slaughter, Cerrgonney men rode
to battle but dismounted to fight. Yet even though he knew his
friend would be safe, Perryn’s heart ached at the thought of
battle. As he did every time he was forced to ride to war, he
wondered if he were simply a coward. Doubtless every lord in the
province would have considered him one if they’d discovered
his true feelings about honor and battle glory, which seemed far
less important to him than fishing in a mountain stream or sitting
in a meadow and watching the deer graze. At times like these, the
old proverb haunted him: what does a man have worth having but his
honor? A good bit more, to Perryn’s way of thinking, but he
could never voice that thought to anyone, not even Nedd, no matter
how much he simply wanted to ride away from killing men he
didn’t know in a war that never should have happened in the first
place.
“Well, my friend, my Wyrd will come when it comes, I suppose. I
wonder if horses have Wyrds? It’s a pity you can’t
talk. We could have a splendid chat about that, couldn’t
we?”
Suddenly he fell silent, hearing someone open the stable door.
His silver dagger gleaming in the lantern light, Rhodry strode briskly down the line of stalls.
“Oh, it’s you, my lord.
The tieryn’s captain detailed me to keep an eye on the stables, you see, and I heard someone talking.” Rhodry
glanced around puzzled. “Isn’t someone else
here?”
“Oh, er, ah, well, I was just talking to my
horse.”
Rhodry’s eyes glazed with a suppressed mockery that
Perry was used to seeing on men’s faces.
“I see. My lord, can I ask you if we’re riding out
tomorrow?”
“We are. Going to make a flank attack, give them a bit of
a surprise.”
Rhodry smiled in honest pleasure at the news. He was handsome,
strong, and eager for battle, just the sort of man that Perryn, was
supposed to be and the type who always despised him. Perryn
wasn’t sure if he envied or hated the silver dagger—both, he decided later.
On the morrow, the army mustered before dawn in a ward bright
with iaring torchlight. The men were silent, the lords grim, the
horses restless, stamping, tossing their heads at every wink of
light on helm and sword. As usual, Nedd’s warband was the
last to take their place in line, shouting at each other
and squabbling over who would ride with whom. As he took his place
beside his cousin, Perryn noticed Rhodry, smiling to himself
as if he were gloating over a beautiful woman.
“We’re going to cut straight across country, Nedd
said. “We’ll need you to scout,
Perro.”
“No doubt. None of you could find your way through a copse
to a mountain, I swear it.”
“Even woodcutters have their uses.”
Perryn merely shrugged. The restlessness of the horses was
making him wonder if disaster lay ahead of them; sometimes animals
could tell such things, in his experience. At last Graemyn blew
his silver horn. As the first dawn silvered the sky, the gates
swung open. With his sword raised high, the tieryn rode out, his
personal warband clattering behind him, four abreast, the line
snaking out and down the hill. Suddenly Perryn heard distant war
cries, as if someone were racing to meet Graemyn beyond the walls.
The men nearest the gates screamed in rage; the horns rang out
to arm and charge. Naddryc had prepared a surprise of his
own.
The ward turned into a shoving, shouting chaos as men
dismounted, grabbing shields and helms, and rushed out the
gates. Perryn swung down, then gave the gray one last pat.
“Farewell, and pray to Epona that we meet
again.”
Then he ran after Nedd and out the gates. The battle was
sweeping halfway up the hill, a raging, ragged swirl of men and
riderless horses as Naddryc’s men struggled up while
Graemyn’s tried to shove them back. In the dust pluming
upward Perryn lost sight of Nedd almost at once. A burly fellow
with an enemy blazon of blue and yellow on his shield charged him
and swung in hard from the right. Perryn flung up his shield,
caught the blow and thrust it away, then swung back, slapping his
opponent hard on the thigh. Cursing, the man stumbled; Perryn got a
hard cut on his sword arm. Bleeding, the man withdrew, feinting,
parrying more than he swung. As he followed, Perryn realized that
the enemy tide was ebbing back down the hill. Screaming war cries,
Graemyn’s men swept after. We should hold this higher ground,
Perryn thought. But it was too late, and no one would have taken
orders from him, even if he’d tried to give them.
Down on the flat the battle re-formed itself into random knots
and mobs of fighting. As Perryn ran toward the closest one, he
suddenly heard laughter off to one side, a bubbling sort of chuckle
that rose now and then to a howl over the smack and clang of swords
striking shield and mail. It was such an eerie sound that for a
moment he paused, looking this way and that to try to find the
source. That brief curiosity cost him dear. At a shout behind him
he turned to see three men running straight for him, and they all
carried the blue-and-yellow shield. With a yelp of terror, Perryn
flung up his shield and sword barely in time to parry the two hard
blows that swung in on him.
Although the third man dodged past and ran on, the other two
enemies closed in for a quick if dishonorable kill. As he
desperately dodged and parried, Perryn heard the laughter again,
shrieking, sobbing, ever louder, until all at once Rhodry lunged at
the man attacking from the right and killed him with two quick
slashes, back and forth with a gesture like waving away a fly.
Gasping for breath, Perryn took a wild swing at the other
blue-and-yellow, missed, nearly tripped, and regained his balance
just in time to see the man fall, spitted in the back through the
joining rf his mail. Rhodry jerked his sword free with a shake
to scatter drops of blood.
“My thanks, silver dagger,” Penyn gasped.
For an answer Rhodry merely laughed, and his eyes were so
glittering-wild that for a moment Perryn was afraid he’d turn on him.
Yelling at the top of their lungs, five men from Nedd’s
warband ran up and swept Rhodry and Perryn along toward a hard knot
of fighting around Graemyn himself. Although Perryn tried to keep
up, the entire line was swirling and breaking, falling back around
him as Naddryc’s superior numbers began to tell. He got cut
off as two of his allies shoved past him, running for their lives.
When he ran for a man he thought was one of Nedd’s, the
fellow swung his way and raised a shield marked with the red acorns
of another enemy warband. Swearing, Perryn charged, but something
struck him from behind.
Fire stabbed, then spread down his shoulder. All at once, his
fingers were loosening on the sword’s hilt of their own will.
He swirled around and caught a strike on his shield, but when he
tried to raise his right arm, his fingers dropped the sword,
Then he felt the blood, sheeting down his arm and pouring into his
gauntlet. As the enemy pressed in, Perryn brought up the shield
like a weapon and swung hard, as he dodged back, stumbling
over uncertain ground. Yet there were enemies behind him.
With a shout of desperation, Perryn charged and rammed the
shield full strength into the enemy in front of him. Taken utterly
off guard by this suicidal manoeuvre, the man slipped and fell
backward. A startled Perryn fell on top of him, with his shield
caught between them and his whole weight slamming it down. The
enemy’s head jerked back, and he lay still, whether dead or
merely stunned Perryn neither knew nor cared. He scrambled up,
shamelessly threw his shield, and ran for the dun—but only
for a few yards. Suddenly he realized that the battle was lost,
that the field belonged to the enemy, that the last of his
comrades were fleeing through the gates just ahead of a line of
blue-and-yellow shields. He fell to his knees and watched as the
gates swung shut. Enemies ran past, shouting to one another.
“They’re going to stand a
siege—whoreson bastards—get to the postern!”
No one even looked at the half-dead warrior slumped on the
ground, It occurred to Perryn that without his shield, no one
would even recognize him as an enemy in this
confusion . . . His head spinning, he staggered to his feet and grabbed a sword
with his left hand from a nearby corpse, then took off, trotting
after the others and yelling, “To the postern!” While
he didn’t give a pig’s fart about Graemyn, Nedd was
trapped in the dun in a half-provisioned siege with no one to lift
it. Graemyn had called in every ally he had for this battle.
In the dust-smeared, milling mob, the ruse worked well. He kept
with them for about twenty yards, then fell back and ran for the
trees edging the battlefield. If anyone even saw him go, they had no
time to chase after. Among the pines, neatly tethered, were
Waddryc’s horses with only a couple of servants to guard
them. Perryn charged the nearest horse handler, who promptly broke
and ran. In one smooth slash Perryn cut a tether rope, threw the
sword away, and grabbed the reins of a solid chestnut gelding.
“Good horse. Please help me.”
The chestnut stood patiently as Perryn hauled himself into the
saddle. Keeping to the trees, he rode away from the battle.
Although every step the horse took made the world swim in front of
him and his dangling right arm throb, he bit his lower lip until it
bled and kept riding. He had to get news to Benoic. That was the
only thought he allowed himself to have. When he reached the road,
he kicked the horse to a gallop and stayed on by sheer force of
will. Gallop, trot, gallop, trot, walk—on and on he went,
reminding himself that he could get help in Spaebrwn. Although he
wondered at times if he’d live to reach the village, the
blood was drying on his arm, not welling up fresh.
Just before noon, he crested the last hill above Spaebrwn and
pulled the horse to a halt. For a long time he stared down at the
glowing spread of ashes and charred timbers, half hidden under a
drift of smoke. The breeze brought with it a sickening smell, too
much like roasted pork. Some of the villagers had waited too long
to flee.
“Ah ye gods, our Naddryc takes his revenge a bit too
seriously, if you ask me.”
The gelding snorted and tossed its head, spooked by the smell of
burning. Perryn urged him on, skirted the ruins, and turned back
into the pine forest. Even though he could neither raise his arm nor
move his fingers, he was going to have to try to ride back to
Nedd’s dun on his own. By taking side trails through wild
country, he could shorten the distance to some forty miles.
Once they were well among the trees, he paused the horse again and
thought of the dun, pictured it clearly in his mind, and remembered all
the safe times he’d enjoyed Nedd’s company there.
Then he went on, heading straight for it. Every time he started
drifting from the most direct path, he felt a deep discomfort,
something like a fear or anxiety, pricking at him. As soon as he
turned the right way, the discomfort vanished. Although he
didn’t understand it in the least, this trick had led him
back to places he thought of as home many a time in the past.
Perryn picked his way through the forest until sundown, then
dismounted and led his horse through the dark for a few miles more,
stumbling only to force himself up again, until they reached a
small stream. Slacking the horse’s bit with his left hand
seemed to take an eternity. Finally he got it free and let the
gelding drink.
“My apologies, but there’s no oats.”
In a golden mist the forest was spinning slowly around him. He
sat down just before he fainted.
Like sheep in a snowstorm, the remains of the army huddled in
Graemyn’s great hall that night, eighty-odd men in decent
shape, twenty-some badly wounded. Rhodry sat on the floor with the
last six men of Nedd’s warband. No one spoke as they
watched the table of honor across the hall, where Graemyn
and his allies talked, heads together, faces drawn and
tight-lipped in the torchlight. Frightened serving lasses crept
through the warband and doled out scant rations of watered ale. By
the servants’ hearth, a young page sat weeping, wondering,
most like, if he’d ever see his mother again. Finally Nedd
left the honor table and limped, back, to his own men. He slid
down the wall rather than sat until, he could slump half upright in
the straw.
“You should be lying down, my lord,” Rhodry
said.
“The blasted cut’s not that
bad.” Nedd laid his hand on his thigh, as if
trying to hide the bloody bandage.
“My apologies, my lord.”
“Oh, and you have mine. We’re all going
to have to watch our cursed tempers.”
Everyone nodded, looking at the floor, out into space,
anywhere rather than at each other.
“We’ve got provisions for a good six
weeks,” the lord went on. “Longer if we
start eating horses.”
“Is there any chance for a parley?” Rhodry
asked.
“There’s always a chance. Graemyn’s sending a
herald out on the morrow.”
Rhodry watched the parley from a distance, because at dawn
he drew a turn on guard up on the ramparts. Outside,
Naddryc’s men had cleared the battlefield of corpses,
leaving a torn, bloodstained stretch of bare ground for about
three hundred yards. Beyond that were the tents and horses of the
besiegers. Around the dun, beyond javelin range, trotted a mounted patrol. In a rough
count, Rhodry estimated that Naddryc had at least a hundred and
thirty men left. When the sun was about an hour’s worth up in
the sky, the gates opened, and Graemyn’s chamberlain,
carrying a long staff wound with red ribbons, slipped out. The
patrol trotted over to him, made honorable half-bows from their
saddles, then escorted him over to the camp. Rhodry leaned onto the
ramparts and waited. When a flutter of crows flew past cawing and
dodging, he envied them their wings.
Although the herald returned in about half an hour, Rhodry had
lo wait to hear the news until he was relieved from watch. He
scrambled down the ladder and hurried into the great hall, where
the warbands were eating in an ominous silence. Although the other
lords were gone, Nedd was eating with his men. Rhodry sat down and
helped himself to a chunk of bread from a basket, but he looked
expectantly at the lord.
“Naddryc won’t parley,” Nedd said quietly.
“He’s made Graemyn one offer. If we surrender without a
fight, he’ll spare the women and children. Otherwise,
he’ll raze the dun and kill every living thing in
it.”
When Rhodry swore under his breath, the other men nodded in
stunned agreement.
“He’s a hard man, Naddryc,” Nedd went on.
“And he’s sworn a vow of blood feud.”
“And if we surrender, what then?” Rhodry said.
“Will he hang every man in the dun?”
“Just that, silver dagger.”
Rhodry laid the chunk of bread back down. For a moment he wished
that they’d sally, die fighting, die clean, instead of
swinging like a horse thief, but there was the tieryn’s lady,
her serving women, his daughters and little son.
“Ah well,” Rhodry said. “A rope’s a
better death than a fever. They say you jerk once and there’s
an end to it.”
“For all your silver dagger, you’re a decent man, Rhodry of
Aberwyn. I only hope that my noble allies are as honorable as
you.”
“Oh, here, my lord! You don’t mean they’re
arguing about it?”
“They are. Well, by the hells, we’ll
hold out for a while before we do anything at all. The bastard can
wait for a few days while he savors his piss-poor victory.”
“Why not wait
until he starves us out?”
“What if he changes his terms? I wouldn’t put it
past the whoreson to demand prompt surrender if we’re going
to save one woman’s life.”
Perryn woke to sunlight streaming down between the trees, like
golden spears of light to his dazed sight. When he sat up, he
shrieked at the pulse of pain in his arm. On his knees he crawled
to the stream and drank, cupping the water in his left hand,
Then he realized that his horse was gone. He staggered up,
took a few steps, and knew that he would never be able to walk the
remaining twenty miles to the dun. Fortunately, there was no
reason that he’d have to. He walked another couple of
yards, then went very still, waiting, barely thinking, until he
felt the odd sensation, a quivering alertness, a certain
knowledge that somewhere close was, if not that horse, then
another. Following its lead, he angled away, ignoring the
discomfort that told him he was no longer heading straight for the
dun, and worked his slow way through the trees until at last he
saw the brightening light ahead that meant a mountain meadow. The
pull of a horse was so strong that he forgot himself, hurried,
and banged his injured arm against a tree. When he yelped aloud,
he heard an answering whicker just ahead. More cautiously this
time he went on and broke free of the forest
into a little grassy valley, where the chestnut was grazing,
the reins tangling in the grass. When Perryn staggered over, the
horse raised its head and nuzzled his good arm.
“Let’s get that bridle off, my friend. If I die
along the way, you’ll starve if you get those
reins, wrapped around a bush or suchlike.”
Taking the bridle off with only one hand was a long agony of
effort, but at last he got it done. Leaning against the gelding
for support, he went through the saddlebags and found the
horse’s previous owner’s spare shirt and a chunk of
venison jerky. He managed to tear the shirt into strips by
using his teeth and made himself a rough sling, then ate
the jerky while he rode on, guiding the horse with his knees.
All afternoon they rode slowly, dodging through the widely spaced
trees, climbing up and down the hills, until by sunset
they’d made another ten miles. When they found
another meadow, he let the horse graze and envied him the
grass with his stomach clenching in hunger. Although he was only
intending to rest for a few moments, as soon as he sat down
sleep took him.
When he woke, moonlight flooded the meadow.
Nearby the chestnut stood, head down and asleep. The night was
unnaturally silent. Not the cry of an owl, not the song of a cricket,
nothing. As sat up, wondering at the silence, he saw something—someone—standing at the edge of the meadow. With a
whispered oath, he rose, wishing for the sword
he’d left behind on the battlefield. The figure took one step
forward, tall, towering in the moonlight—or it moonlight?
He seemed to drip pale light as palpable as water running down the
strong naked arms, glittering on the gold torc around his neck,
shimmering on the massive antlers that sprang from a head mostly
cervine, though human eyes looked out of it. Perryn began to weep
in a fierce, aching joy.
“Kerun,” he whispered.
“My most holy lord.”
The great head swung his way. The
liquid dark eyes considered him not unkindly, but merely distantly;
the god raised his hands in blessing to the man who was perhaps his
last true worshipper in all of Deverry. Then he vanished, leaving
Perryn wrapped in a shuddering awe that wiped all his pain and
exhaustion away. With tears running down his face, he went to the
place where the god had appeared and knelt on the grass, now
god-touched and holy. Eventually the chestnut raised its head with
a drowsy nicker and broke the spell. Perryn mounted and rode on,
guiding the horse instinctively through the dark forest. Although
he rode for the rest of the night and on into the morning, he felt
no hunger, no pain, his wound only a distant ache like a bee sting.
About an hour after dawn, they came out of the trees just a mile
from Nedd’s dun. He trotted up to the hill, then dismounted
and led the tired horse up to the gates. He heard shouts and people
running, but all at once, it was very hard to see. He concentrated
on keeping his feet as Jill raced toward him.
“Lord Perryn! Are they all lost, then?”
“Cursed near.
Besieged.” he fainted into a merciful darkness, where it
seemed a stag came to meet him.
Between them Jill and a servant named
Saebyn got Perryn up on a table in the great hall. As she soaked
the blood-crusted shirt away from his wound, Jill found herself
trying to remember everything Nevyn, had ever told her
about herbcraft, but the memories did her little good, because
she had no proper tools and precious few herbs. The only thing
Saebyn could turn up for a vulnerary was rosemary from the kitchen
garden. At least Nevyn had always said that any green herb was better than none. When she
finally loosened the shirt from the wound, she sent Saebyn off for
more hot water and some mead, then carefully peeled the crusted
linen away. Her gray gnome popped into reality and hunkered down on
the table for a look.
“It’s not as bad as I feared,” Jill said to
him. “See? It just sliced the muscle and missed those big
blood vessels in the armpit.”
With a solemn nod, the gnome tilted his head to one side and
considered the unconscious man. All at once it leapt up and hissed
like a cat, its skinny mouth gaping to show every fang, its arms
extended and its hands curled like claws. Jill was so surprised at
hearing it make a sound that she caught it barely in time when it
launched itself at Perryn and tried to bite him.
“Stop that!” She gave the gnome a little shake.
“What’s so wrong?”
Its face screwed up in hatred, the gnome went limp in her
hands.
“You can’t bite Lord Perryn. He’s ill already,
and he’s never done anything to you, either.”
The gnome shook its head yes as if to say he had.
“What? Here, little brother, why don’t you come back
later, and try to explain.”
It vanished just as Saebyn returned with the stableboy behind
him. Jill washed the wound with water, then had Saebyn hold
Perryn’s arms down and the stableboy his feet. Gritting her
teeth, she poured the mead directly into the open wound. With a
howl of pain, Perryn roused from his faint and twisted round. It
was all the two men could do to keep him lying there.
“My apologies, my lord,” Jill said firmly.
“But we’ve got to disperse the foul humors in this
wound.”
For a moment he merely gasped for breath; then he turned his
head to look at her.
“Forgot where I was,” he mumbled. “Go
ahead.”
Jill wadded up a bit of rag and made him bite on it, then washed
the wound again. He trembled once, then lay so still that she
thought he’d fainted again, but his eyes were open in a
stubborn resistance to pain that she had to admire. Mercifully, the
worst was over. She made a poultice of the rosemary leaves, laid
it in the wound, then bound it up with clean linen.
“Benoic,” he said at last. “I’ve got to ride to
Benoic.”
“You can’t. You could bleed to death if you try.
Tell me the message, and I’ll take it on.”
“Ride to my uncle. Tell him Nedd’s trapped in
Graemyn’s dun.” His voice fell into a whisper.
“Your Rhodry was still alive, last I saw of him.”
“My thanks.” Although she nearly broke, she forced her
voice steady. “I’ll pray that he still is.”
While Saebyn told her who Benoic was and what road to take to
Pren Cludan, Jill cut one of the embroidered wolves from
Perryn’s bloody shirt to take as a token. When she rode out,
she took two horses. By switching her weight back and forth, she
would be able to ride at close to a courier’s speed. As soon
as she was well away from the dun, she called to her gnome, which
promptly appeared on the saddle peak.
“Can you find Rhodry? Can you tell me if he’s still
alive?”
It nodded yes, patted her hand, then disappeared. Out
on the road, where no one could see her, Jill allowed herself to
cry.
A little after dawn on the next day Rhodry climbed the ramparts
and looked out over the dun wall. In the misty morning the enemy
camp was coming awake; cooking fires blossomed among the dirty
canvas tents, and men strolled around, yawning as they tended their
horses. Just beyond the camp was the beginning of a circle of
earthworks, about twenty feet, so far, of packed mound edged with a
ditch that would soon close them round and block any attempts at
escape. It was also an unnecessary effort on Naddryc’s part.
The decision had been made. Soon the lords would surrender and hang
to spare the women and children. All that Rhodry wanted was for it
to be very soon to end the waiting. When he was fourteen years old,
he’d begun learning how to live prepared to die; at
twenty-three, he was a master at that part of the warrior’s
craft. Now the day was upon him, but his Wyrd would come at the end
of a rope.
To die by hanging, to be thrown into a ditch with a hundred men
who’d met the same priest-cursed end, to lie far from
Eldidd, unmarked, unmourned, nothing but a silver dagger
who’d had the ill luck to take the wrong hire—that was his
Wyrd, was it? Rhodry his head in sheer disbelief, that all his
berserk battle glory, strange dweomer prophecies and magical
battles had led him to this, a thing so numbing that he felt no fear
and very little grief, only a dark hiraedd that he’d never see
Jill again. What if he’d only ridden east instead of west and been hired by
Naddryc instead of Nedd? That would have been worse, he decided, to
be party to this dishonorable scheme. He would die and Naddryc
live, but at least he would have his honor, while the lord had
thrown his away for hatred’s sake.
Rhodry was so wrapped in his brooding that when something
tweaked his sleeve, he spun around, his sword out of its scabbard
before he was aware of drawing. Jill’s gray gnome stood on
the rampart, grinning at him while it jigged up and down in
excitement. Rhodry felt a flare of hope. If only he could make the
little creature understand, if only it could tell Jill—but
what was she supposed to do then? Run to some great lord and say
that the Wildfolk had told her the tale? The hope
died again.
“It’s cursed good to see you, little brother, but do
you realize what kind of evil has befallen me?”
Much to his surprise it nodded yes, then held up one long finger
as a sign, to pay attention. Suddenly there were Wildfolk all
around it, little blue sprites, fat yellow gnomes, strange gray
fellows, and parti-colored ugly little lasses. Never had Rhodry
seen so many, a vast crowd, along the rampart.
“What is all this?’”
When the gray gnome snapped his fingers, the Wildfolk lined up
in pairs, then began to bob up and down with a rhythmic motion,
each with one hand held out before it. The gray gnome
stood at the head of the line with one hand out like the others,
but the left raised as if holding a sword. Rhodry finally
understood.
“An army! Oh, by great Bel himself, do
you mean that someone’s riding to relieve this
siege?”
The gnome leapt up and danced, while it nodded yes. With a rushy
sound, the rest of the pack disappeared. When Rhodry’s eyes
filled with tears he wiped them away, swallowing hard before
he could speak.
“Did you tell Jill I was trapped here?
This time the answer was no. The gnome sucked one finger for a
moment, then began to walk back, and forth, while it imitated a
stiff, clumsy, bowlegged gait.
“Lord Perryn? He escaped the battle?”
Although the gnome nodded yes, its expression was peculiarly
sour. It shrugged, as if dismissing something, then leapt to
Rhodry’s shoulder and kissed him on the cheek before it vanished.
Rhodry tossed his head back and laughed—until it
occurred to that now he had to convince the noble lords that rescue was on the
way, that there was no need to surrender, without, of course, mentioning the Wildfolk.
“Oh, horsedung and a pile of it!”
All morning, while he watched the mounted patrols ride round and
round the dun, he went over and over the problem, trying out
phrases, rejecting them, trying some more. Eventually Lord Nedd
climbed awkwardly up the ladder onto the catwalk and limped over.
“Just thought I’d have a look at the bastards.”
Nedd leaned onto the wall and stared down, his red hair oddly dull
in the sunlight, as if he were ill. “Ah well, at least
we’ll hang soon and get it over with.”
“Er, well, my lord, I was just thinking about that, and . . . ”
“At least I don’t have a widow to mourn me.”
The lord went on as if he hadn’t heard Rhodry’s
tentative words. “By the Lord of Hell’s balls,
I’d always wanted my land to revert to Perryn if I died, and
now he’s died before me.”
Nedd was close to tears over his cousin’s death, a
surprising thing to Rhodry, who considered him no great loss. Or
had considered him lost, until just a few hours ago.
“Here, my lord, what if he escaped from the
field?”
“Oh, indeed! What if a crow sang like a little finch, too?
Perryn wasn’t much of a swordsman, silver dagger, and
Naddryc’s bastards were slaughtering the wounded after the
battle.”
“True-spoken, but . . . ”
“I know what you’re thinking,” Nedd snarled.
“Why mourn poor Perryn? He’s better off
dead.”
“I wasn’t, my lord. Naught of the sort!”
“My apologies. I forget you didn’t know him well. By
the asses of the gods, I got so blasted sick of all the chatter. What’s
wrong with your wretched cousin, how can you stand him in your dun,
he’s daft, he’s a half-wit, he’s this or
he’s that. He wasn’t daft at all, by the hells! A little . . . well, eccentric, maybe, but not
daft.” He sighed heavily. “Well, it doesn’t matter,
anyway. I’ll see him in the Otherlands tomorrow morn.”
“My lord, he’s not dead.”
Nedd looked at him as if he were thinking that Rhodry was daft.
Here was the crux, and Rhodry steadied himself with a
breath before he went on.
“My lord, you must have heard the old saw,
that Eldidd men often have a touch of the second sight? It’s true, and
I’ll swear to you that I know deep in my heart that
Perryn’s alive, and that he’s bringing an army back to
relieve the siege.”
The lord’s eyes narrowed.
“Look at me, a misbegotten silver dagger. I’ve been
in more battles and tavern brawls than most men even hear of.
I’ve faced hanging before, too, for that matter. Am I the
kind of man to turn to fancies because he can’t face death?
Didn’t you praise me for my courage on the field?”
“So I did.” The lord looked away, thinking.
“I’ve seen you go berserk, too. Why wouldn’t you
have a touch of the sight as well, for all I know?
But—”
“I know it sounds daft, but I beg you, believe me. I know
it’s true. It comes to me in dreams, like. I know
there’s a relieving army on the way.”
“But who—oh ye gods, my uncle!” Suddenly
Nedd grinned. “Of course Perryn would ride straight to Benoic—well, if he’s truly alive.”
“I know he is, my lord. I’ll swear it to you on my
silver dagger.”
“And that’s the holiest oath a man, like you
can swear. Ah, by the black hairy ass of the Lord of Hell, what
does it matter if we hang tomorrow or in an eight night, anyway?
Come along, silver dagger. We’ve got to convince my allies
of this, but I’ll wager they’ll grab at any shred of
hope they can see.”
Four days after she left Nedd’s dun, Jill rode back with
an army of two hundred twenty men, every last rider that
Tieryn Benoic could scrape up, whether by calling in old alliances
or by outright threats. As the warband filed into the ward,
Saebyn ran out, clutched the tieryn’s stirrup as a sign of
fealty, and began telling the lord everything that Perryn had told
him, over the past few days. Jill threw her reins to the
stableboy and hurried into the great hall, where Perryn lay
propped up on Nedd’s bed with a pair of boarhounds on either
side of him and, three of those sleek little hounds known
as gwertraeion at his feet. She shoved a dog to one side and
perched on the edge of the bed to look over her patient, whose
eyes were clear and alert, and his cheeks unfevered.
“Is the wound healing well?” she said.
“It is. You must have brought my uncle with
you from, all the noise outside. I knew he’d come. If
he didn’t have me and Nedd to complain about, his life would
be cursed dull.”
At that, Benoic himself strode in, slapping his pair of
gauntlets impatiently against his thigh.
“You dolt, Perro! And Nedd’s twice a dolt! But
Naddryc’s a whoreson bastard, having the gall to besiege my
kin. Well and good, we’ll wipe him off the battlefield for
it. Are you riding with us?”’
“I am. A wolf can run on three legs.”
“Now wait a moment, my lord,” Jill broke in.
“If you ride, that cut could start bleeding again.”
“Let it. I’ve got to go with them. I can lead the
army through the forest, you see. We’ll save twenty miles and
a night that way.”
“Splendid,” Benoic said. “Glad to see
you’re finally showing some spirit, lad. Don’t worry,
Jill. We’ll have your man out of that worm-riddled dun as
fast as ever we can.”
“Your Grace is most honorable and gracious. If I were a
bard I’d praise your name for this.”
With a small bow she retired and left them alone. Out in the
ward a pair of Benoic’s vassals were conferring with their
captains while the men unsaddled and tethered their horses outside
for want of room in the stables. She went out the gates and walked
about halfway down the hill, then sat down where she could be alone
and called to the gray gnome, who appeared promptly.
“Is Rhodry still all right?”
It nodded yes, then hunkered down in front of her and began
picking its teeth with one fingernail.
“You still haven’t told me why you hate Lord
Perryn.”
It paused to screw its face up in irritation, then went on
picking until it’d finally gotten its fangs clean enough to
suit it.
“Come on now, little brother. You could at least tell me
why. Or is it too hard to explain?”
Rather reluctantly, he nodded his agreement to this last.
“Well, let’s see. Did he hurt you or some other
Wildfolk?”
No, he hadn’t done that.
“Can he even see you?”
Apparently not, since it nodded a no.
“Is he an evil man?”
Frowning in concentration, the gnome
waggled its hands as if to say: not exactly that, either.
“You know, I’m having a hard time thinking up more
questions.”
It smiled, pressed its hands to its temples as if it had a
headache, then disappeared. Jill supposed that she’d never
find out the reason, but as long as the gnome behaved itself and didn’t
pinch the lord or tie knots in his hair, it didn’t
particularly matter at the moment, not when she had Rhodry’s
safety to worry about. She decided that she couldn’t bear to
sit here in Nedd’s moldering dun and wait for news.
Since she had a mail shirt and a shield of her own, on the
morrow Jill rose and armed when the warband did. Once the army was
mustered outside the gates, she led her horse into line at the very
rear. Since these men had been hastily assembled from
Benoic’s various allies and vassals, everyone who noticed
her at all seemed to assume that she was a silver dagger hired by
some other lord. All that counted to them, truly, was that she was
another sword.
By keeping strictly to herself and speaking to no one, Jill
escaped discovery all that day, because Perryn led the army off the
road into the forest on a track so narrow that they had to ride
single file. All day they wound around hills and through the trees
by such confusing paths that she prayed Perryn actually knew what
he was doing. She also understood why all the provisions were on
pack mules, not in carts; apparently Benoic knew his nephew’s
daft ways very well. That night, however, they made camp in a
mountain meadow, and there Jill was caught out. Like the excellent
commander he was, Benoic made a point of walking through the camp
and speaking to his men personally. When he came to Jill, he stared
for a moment, then, roared with laughter.
“Have all my men gone blind? Mail or no, Jill, you
don’t look like a lad to me. What are you doing with the
army?”
“Well, Your Grace, my man’s all I have in the
world. I’ve got to see him with my own eyes as soon as
ever I can.”
“Huh. Well, we can’t be sending you back.
now. You’d only get lost trying to follow Perm’s
wretched deer trails. You’d best come camp with me.
You can keep your eye on Perryn’s wound, and everyone will
know you’re under my protection.”
When Jill shifted her gear over to the tieryn’s campfire,
she found Perryn there, slumped against his saddle. Although
he was pale with exhaustion, he looked up and smiled at her.
“I thought you’d find a way to come along,” he
said.
“Why, my lord?”
“Oh, er ah, just rather thought you were that sort
of lass. I hope Rhodry’s worthy of you.”
“I hold him so, my lord.”
Nodding absently, he stared into the fire. She was struck by
how he looked, a perpetual melancholy that was beginning to wear lines
a face too young to have them, rather as if he were in exile from
some far country rather than among his kin. A puzzle, that one, she
thought to herself.
On the morrow, Jill saw yet another puzzling thing about the
lord. Since she was riding right behind him, she could watch how he
managed his leading. When they came to a spot where two trails
joined or one petered out, he would wave the army to a halt, then
ride a few steps ahead to sit on his horse and stare blankly around
him, his head tilted as if sniffing the wind. For a moment he would
look profoundly uncomfortable, then suddenly smile and lead the men
on with perfect confidence. She was also impressed with his riding.
Most of the time he left the reins wrapped around the saddle peak
and guided the horse with his knees, while he swayed in a perfect
balance in spite of having one arm in a sling. On horseback he
looked much more graceful, as if his peculiar proportions had been
designed to make him and a horse fit together in an artistic
whole.
About two hours before sunset, Perryn found the army a large
meadow in which to camp and announced that they were a scant six
miles from Graemyn’s dun. After the horses were tended, Jill
put a clean bandage on Perryn’s wound, which was oozing blood
and lymph, and tied up his sling again. Although he pleaded that he
was too weary to eat, she badgered him into downing some
cheese.
“We’ll reach the dun tomorrow,” he
remarked. “I can rest then, after the battle, I
mean.”
“Now listen, my lord. You can’t fight. Trying to
swing a sword would open that wound up again.”
“Oh, don’t trouble your heart about that. I’ll
just trot around the edge of things. See what I can see.”
It was such a daft remark that Jill couldn’t answer.
“Oh,
er, ah, well, I heard my uncle talking with the other lords,
they’re thinking of riding right into battle.” He
looked sincerely distressed. “There’s bound to be
wounded horses, and maybe I can get them to safety.”
“Oh. I keep forgetting how valuable horses are up
here.”
“I cursed well hope that Nedd and Rhodry are still
alive.”
Although she knew that they were, she had no way of telling
him.
“So do I,” she said instead. “You seem to
honor your cousin highly, my lord.”
“I don’t, because he’s not truly honorable.
But I love him. We were pages together in Benoic’s dun. I
think I would have gone mad if it weren’t for
Nedd.”
“Was the tieryn as harsh as all that?”
“He wasn’t, not truly. It was me, you see. I just . . . well, oh ah er.”
As she waited for him to finish, Jill wondered if Nedd’s
efforts to keep him sane had all gone for naught. Finally he got up
and went to his blankets without another word.
“You’re certain it will be today?” Graemyn
said.
“As certain as the sun is shining,” Rhodry said.
“Your Grace, I know it sounds daft, but I swear to you that
the relief army’s close by. We’d best be ready to arm
and sally. If they don’t come, then Your Grace will know
I’m daft, and we can all surrender and be done with
it.”
For a long moment Graemyn considered him with an expression that
wavered between doubt and awe. Perched on Rhodry’s shoulder,
the gray gnome squirmed impatiently until at last the tieryn nodded
his agreement.
“True enough, silver dagger.” He turned to his
captain. “Have the men arm. One way or another, today sees
the end of this.”
The gnome grabbed Rhodry’s hair and gave it a tug, then
vanished.
The warband drew up behind the gates; watchmen climbed to the ramparts. As the waiting dragged on in the hot sun, the
men ended up sitting down on the cobbles. No one spoke; every
now and then someone would look Rhodry’s way with a puzzled
frown, as if thinking they were daft to trust this silver
dagger’s words. All at once, a watchman yelled with a whoop of joy.
“Horsemen coming out of the forest! I see the Wolf blazon!
It’s Benoic, by the gods!”
Laughing, cheering, the men leapt to their feet. Nedd threw an
arm around Rhodry’s shoulders and hugged him; half a
dozen men slapped him on the back. At the tieryn’s order, two
servants lifted down the latch beam at the gates and rushed to man
the winches. From outside, the battle noise broke over them; men
yelling, horns blowing, horses neighing in panic, and through it
all was the strike of sword on shield and mail. Rhodry started to
laugh, a little cold mutter under his breath; he felt so light on
his feet that it seemed he hovered over the cobbles.
“Remember!” Nedd hissed. “We’re going
after Naddryc.”
Although he nodded agreement, Rhodry went on laughing.
With a groan and creak the gates swung back. Screaming and
jostling, the warband rushed out, just as when leaves and sticks
dam a stream, which worries at them, nudges them, and at last
breaks free in a churn of white water. Down the hill, the enemy
camp was a screaming, shoving, bloody madness. Half of
Naddryc’s men had had no time to arm; those wearing mail
were trying to hold the breach in the earthworks against a full
cavalry charge, and they were doing it with swords, not pikes.
Horses went down; others screamed and reared; but for every horse
lost, three or four of the enemy were trampled. All at once the cry
went up: the sally to our rear! the sally to our rear!
Rhodry’s laugh rose like a wail as the horsemen drove
through. The defenders broke, swirling and running to face the new
threat as Graemyn led his men downhill.
“There he is!” Nedd shrieked. “With the
trimmed shield.”
A burly man with mail but no helm was racing across the
battlefield in retreat, the silver edging on his shield winking in
the sunlight. At an angle Rhodry went after him, his laugh gone as
he thought only of running, and soon he’d left the wounded
Nedd behind. Naddryc was slowing, panting, gasping for breath. Then
he stumbled, and Rhodry dodged round to cut him off. For a moment
they merely stared at each other, panting while they got their
breath back, Naddryc’s mouth working under his blond
mustache.
“So,” Rhodry said. “Here’s the man who
was going to kill women and children.”
Then the cold, mad chuckle took over his voice. As he lunged,
Naddryc dodged back, flinging up his sword and shield. He parried
gracefully, his shield a little high to protect his bare head, and
made a quick thrust that Rhodry easily turned aside. Suddenly light
flared in a drift of black smoke; someone had fired the tents.
Rhodry feinted in from the side, then struck; Naddryc parried
barely in time, jumped back, and began to circle. As Rhodry swung
to face him, the murk reached them, smoke, dust, thicker than a sea fog. They both checked, coughing for a moment, but
the smell of burning drove Rhodry mad.
With a choking, gasping howl he charged, as wild as an injured
lion, striking, parrying, cursing, and coughing while Naddryc
desperately tried to fend him off, rarely getting in a blow of his
own as he parried with both sword and shield. Yet even in his
madness Rhodry saw that the lord was tiring. He feinted to the side
again, dodged fast to the other, and then back as. Naddryc tried to
follow—too slowly. Rhodry’s blow caught him hard on
the side of the neck. With a ghastly bubbling scream he fell to his
knees, then buckled as his life’s blood pumped out the
artery.
Rhodry’s berserker fit left him, dropped away like a
wind-caught cloak, but he was possessed by an even madder panic.
Somewhere Jill was lying dead or wounded, somewhere in the
burning. He knew it, even as he knew that he was being
irrational. He heard Nedd yell his name, but he turned and ran
toward the blazing tents in the same blind way that he’d
charged Naddryc. All at once he heard hoofbeats and saw a horse
emerging from the murk. Even flecked with soot,
Sunrise’s pale gold coat still shone.
“Rhoddo!” Jill yelled. “Get up behind
me! Naddryc’s horses are about to stampede.”
Rhodry sheathed his sword and swung up behind her. He was barely
settled when she kicked Sunrise to a trot.
“What are you doing here?”
“Rescuing you. I could hear you laughing and rode
straight for the sound. Look behind us. Are they coming?”
When he glanced back, he could, see little in the smoke
and dust, but he did make out an orderly procession of
horselike objects moving away from the burning camp.
“By all the gods! Someone’s gotten them out of
there.”
“It must be Epona herself, then. When I rode by a few
minutes, ago, they were screaming and puling at their
tethers.”’
She paused the horse and turned in the saddle to give him a
puzzled look. He grabbed her and kissed her, remembered his
irrational panic, and kissed her again. With a laugh she pushed
him away.
“You’re breaking my neck, twisted around like this.
Wait til we’re alone, my love.”
At that Rhodry remembered that they were in the middle
of a battle, but as he looked around, somewhat dazed as he always
was when the fit left him, he realized that the fighting
was over. Naddryc been so outnumbered that most of his men had been slaughtered and the
fortunate few remaining taken prisoner. As they dismounted and
walked on, leading the horse over the uncertain ground, he saw Nedd
talking to Graemyn over Naddryc’s corpse.
“Come here,
silver dagger.” Nedd hailed him with a shout. “Your Grace, this is the man who killed this bastard.”
“You’ll be well rewarded for this, silver
dagger,” Graemyn said. “Indeed, well rewarded for
everything you’ve done for me.”
The tieryn knelt beside the corpse, then took his sword
two-handed and severed Naddryc’s neck in one swift blow.
Rhodry’s stomach churned; it was an impious thing that he was
seeing. Graemyn grabbed the head by the hair and stood up, looking
at every man nearby as if challenging them to say one wrong word,
then strode away, the head dangling in his hand. Even though the
priests had long since banned the taking of trophy heads with
mighty curses, the sight of Graemyn with his enemy’s head
touched something deep in Rhodry, as one string of a harp will
sound when another is plucked. Although Jill and Nedd were watching
the tieryn in honest revulsion, he felt a certain dark
satisfaction.
“I’d do no less to a man who threatened my wife and kin,”
Rhodry said.
“Well,” Nedd considered this briefly. “He had
provocation, sure enough.”
Before he went back to the dun, Rhodry knelt beside the headless
corpse and methodically looted it of every small and valuable
thing, coin, ring brooch, a gold-trimmed scabbard, and a silver
belt buckle. This hire had drawn to an end, and a silver dagger had
to think of eating on the long road.
When the fire broke out in the tents, Perryn was riding
around the edge of the actual battle rounding up wounded horses and
leading them to safety outside the earthworks. The meaning of the
spread of smoke didn’t quite register on him until the
chestnut he was riding snorted nervously and danced. Then he
remembered Naddryc’s horses, tethered behind the tents. With an oath he turned the chestnut and
galloped straight for the camp. At first the horse balked, but Perryn
talked to him, patted him, soothed him til at last he picked up
courage and allowed himself to be ridden near to the fire.
Between the burning and the earthwork, horses were rearing,
screaming with that ugly half-human sound a horse makes only in
terror, kicking out at the grooms trying to save them as they
pulled desperately at their tether ropes. Perryn wrapped his reins
around the saddle peak and guided the chestnut with his knees as he
rode right into the panic. Although the chestnut trembled and
threatened now and then to buck, he kept moving as Perryn talked,
pouring out the words, smiling his special smile, reaching out with
his one good hand, patting a horse here, slapping one there, as if
he were the stallion of a herd, who asserts his control with nips
and kicks as much as affectionate nuzzles. The panic began to ebb.
Although the horses were dancing and sweating with gray fear-foam,
they fell in behind and around him in the swirling smoke. At last
the grooms cut the last tether.
“Take them out!” one yelled. “And may the gods
bless you!”
With a wave and a yell, Perryn led the herd forward at a calm
jog. Circling around the inner earthwork, they swept free of the
burning camp just as a rain of sparks and glowing bits of canvas
began to fall. Perryn called out wordlessly, and they galloped out
of the breach to the safety of the meadow beyond. When he looked
back, he could barely see the dun, rising half hidden in the murk.
With the horses huddled around him, he waited for a good half hour
until the smoke diminished to a few wisps. As he was leading the
herd back, Nedd came out on horseback to meet him.
“I was looking for you,” Nedd said. “I figured
that you were the only man on earth who could have saved
Naddryc’s horses.”
“Oh, er, ah, well, they trust me, you see.”
For a moment they merely stared at one another.
“Er, well.” Perryn said at last. “Did you
think me slain in that first scrap?”
“I did, but now I see that I wasn’t so lucky.”
“I’m not rid of you, either.”
Leaning from their saddles, they clasped hands, and they were
both grinning as if they could never stop.
Back at the dun, the cousins turned the horses over to the
servants, then went into the great hail, where a conference of
sorts was in progress at the table of honor. While the lesser lords
and allies merely listened, Benoic and Graemyn were arguing, both
red-faced and shouting.
“Now listen here!” Benoic bellowed
“You’ve made it cursed hard for Naddryc’s brother to settle this peacefully.
What’s he going to when he gets his brother’s body back
in two pieces?”
“Anything he blasted well wants to say! What’s he
going to fight me with? Ghost riders from the
Otherlands?”
“And what about Naddryc’s allies? Were their mothers
all so barren that they only had one son apiece? Don’t they
have uncles to ride to their nephew’s vengeance?”
At that, Graemyn paused and began to stroke his mustache.
“If you want this thing over and done with,” Benoic
went on in a normal tone, “you’d best send messengers
down to Dun Deverry straightaway to plead for the high king’s
intervention. If you do, I’ll back you in this war, for my
misbegotten nephew’s sake if naught else. If you don’t,
I’m pulling my men and Nedd’s out right now.”
Benoic had always had a splendid talent for blackmail.
“Done, then,” Graemyn said. “I’ll get the
messengers on the road today.”
With a nod of satisfaction, Benoic rose and gestured for Nedd
and Perryn to follow.
“Come along, lads. We’ve got wounded men to look in
on and that silver dagger deserves some praise. He’s the one
who slew Naddryc, eh? Hah! Just what the bastard deserved—cut
down by a wretched silver dagger.”
Although his head was swimming with exhaustion, Perryn went
along with them because he was afraid to tell his uncle how weak he
felt. They found Rhodry standing by the door and drinking ale down
like water while Jill smiled at him as if she were thinking
he’d won the battle all by himself. Perryn sighed at the
cruel injustice, that she would honestly love her arrogant
berserker. He found her appealing, a lovely lass, half wild and
wandering, with her golden horse that suited her so well, but she
was also attached to the best swordsman he’d ever seen.
Although he hated to admit it, Perryn was terrified of Rhodry.
“Well, silver dagger,” Benoic said,
“you’ve earned your hire twice over. You always hear
about people with the second sight seeing deaths, or shipwrecks,
that sort of evil thing, but your touch of it has come in cursed
handy.”
“So it has, Your Grace. We Eldidd men can be a peculiar
lot.”
Although the others laughed at the jest, it made Perryn’s
unease deepen. There was something odd about the silver dagger that
he couldn’t put into words but that pricked at him, a
discomfort much like the one that warned him he was straying from a true
path. Rhodry was more than a danger to him; he was a reproach or
part of a curse, or—something. Perryn felt so baffled that he
shook his head, a gesture that was a mistake. All at once the room
seemed to spin around him, and a crackling golden fog rose out of
nowhere. He heard Nedd call out, then fainted. Although he woke
briefly when Nedd and Benoic laid him on a bed, he was asleep
before they left the chamber. All that day he slept, and he dreamt
of Jill.
On the morrow, every unwounded man in the dun rode out with the
noble-born, ostensibly in honorable escort as they returned the
bodies of Naddryc and his allies, but in reality as a warband in
case Naddryc’s kin decided to continue the blood feud. Jill
spent a long morning helping Graemyn’s wife, Camma, tend the
wounded, a job that usually fell to the wives of Cerrgonney lords
for want of enough chirurgeons in the province. When noon came,
they were both glad of the chance for a wash and the time to sit
down over a light meal of bread and cheese.
“My thanks for your aid, Jill. You know quite a bit about
chirurgery.”
“My lady is most welcome. I’ve seen a lot of
bloodshed in my life.”
“So you must have, following your silver dagger around
like this. He’s certainly a handsome man, isn’t he? I
can see how he’d turn the head of a young lass, I truly do,
but do you ever regret riding with him? You must have left a great
deal behind for your Rhodry.”
“I didn’t, my lady. All I’ve ever known in my
life is poverty. Rhodry has never let me starve, and well,
that’s good enough for me.”
Camma stared, caught her rudeness, then gave Jill a small smile
of apology. Jill decided that it was time to change the
subject.
“Lord Perryn’s wound seems to be healing well.
I’m awfully glad. After all, Rhodry owes his life to
him.”
“So do we all.” For a moment Gamma’s face
turned haggard. “Well, his clan breeds stubborn men, the
stubbornest in all Cerrgonney, I swear, and that’s saying a
great deal.”
“It is. Do you know his clan well?”
“I do. His aunt and mother are both cousins of mine, or I
should say, his mother was, poor lamb. She died some years ago, you
see, but Perryn’s Aunt Gwerna and I often meet. Gwerna had the
raising of him, truly. He was the last of seven children, you see,
and his mother was never truly well again after his birth. She had
a hard time carrying him, some bleeding and bad pains, and then he
as in her womb only seven months, not nine.”
“By the
Goddess herself! I’m surprised the babe lived!”
“So were Gwerna and I. He was such a scrawny little thing,
but healthier than any other early babe I’ve ever seen. Since
his mother was so ill, Gwerna found a wet nurse, and she made the
lass carry Perro in a kind of sling right against her breasts and
under her dresses day and night for the warmth, you see, and the
lass sat by the fire all day and slept by it at night, too. I think
that’s what saved him, constantly being kept warm for a
couple of months.” She paused, considering. “Maybe it
was his hard start in life that made him so odd, the poor lad.
Gwerna always called him the changeling. He made you think of all
those old tales where the Wildfolk steal a human babe and leave one
of their own in its stead.”
Jill felt an odd wondering whether, if in Perryn’s case,
the old superstition might be true, but the gray gnome materialized
on the table and gave Camma such a nasty sneer that it seemed to be
heaping scorn on the very thought. It sat down by the trencher of
cheese and rested its chin on its hands to listen as Camma went
on.
“It’s naughty of me to be telling tales on him, now
that he’s a man and grown, but if you’d seen him,
you’d understand, Jill. Such a skinny little lad, and that
red hair of his was always like a thrush’s nest, no matter
how much Gwerna combed it.” Camma smiled, taking a sincere
pleasure in these memories of better times. “And he was
always out in the hills or the woods, every chance he got. He used
to sob every autumn when the snows came, because he’d have to
stay indoors for months. And then, there was the time he ran away.
He couldn’t have been more than eight. Graemyn and I rode to
pay Gwerna and Benoic a visit, and one day Perryn got caught
stealing honey cake from the kitchen. Well, every lad does that now
and again, but Benoic got into one of his tempers. He was going to
beat the lad, but little Nedd begged and begged his uncle to spare
him, so Benoic relented. Well, the next morning, there was no sign
of Perryn. Gwerna had every man in the dun seeching for him, but the
whole two weeks we were there, no one ever found him, and Gwerna was
in tears, sure he was starved or drowned. I thought so myself. But
then, when it was almost winter, Gwerna sent me a message. When the
snows came, Perryn turned up at the gates, dirty and tattered, but
well fed. He’d lived in the hills on his own for three
months.”
“Ye gods! And what did he have to say for
himself?”
“Well, he’d heard everyone calling
him the changeling, and so he got it into his head that he should
go live with the Wildfolk where he belonged. But I never found
any, he says, the poor little lad. Poor Gwerna, she wept over
that, and even Benoic stopped being so hard on
him—well, for a while, anyway.”
Jill would have liked to hear more, but the object of these
reminiscences came strolling over to the table.
The gnome snarled at him, then disappeared.
“Perro, you should be in your bed,” Gamma said.
”One of the servants can bring you a meal.”
“It’s cursed dull, lying abed. I’ll be
fine.”
Cradling his sling-supported arm Perryn sat down across the
table from Jill. Under his eyes were dark shadows like smears of
soot.
“My lord,” Jill said, “you truly
should be resting.”
“I’ll never mend shut up like a hog in a pen. I want to go out
to the woods, sit out there for a while.”
Coupled with Gamma’s tale, his request made an odd
sort of sense. Out of duty to the man who’d saved
Rhodry’s life, Jill saddled up his gray gelding, helped him
mount, then led the horse out of the dun. Out in the
fields, only part of the earthwork still stood; the day before,
Benoic’s men had dumped the bodies of the slain into
the ditch and filled it in, with the mound above. They walked
beyond this grim scar on the earth to the edge of the
forest and found a spot among the scattered pines, where the
ground was cushioned with needles, and the sunlight, came down in,
shafts. With a sigh of pleasure, Perryn sat down, his back to a
tree. He actually did seem stronger now that he was
outside, with color in his face and life in his eyes.
“It’s splendid of you to trouble yourself over me,
Jill.”
“Oh, hardly! I owe you many an honor for saving
Rhodry.”
“You don’t, at that. I made that ride for
Nedd’s sake and my own. What was I to do? Lie there
and let them kill me? I wasn’t even thinking of Rhodry, so
there’s no need for thanks.”
“I’ve never known anyone who thinks like you.
You’re as scrupulous as a priest.”
“Everyone says that. I wanted to be a priest, you know. My
uncle got into a temper over it, and my father just
laughed.”
“Well, I can’t see Benoic allowing one of his
kinsmen to serve Bel instead of the sword.”
“Oh, not Bel. I wanted to be a priest of Kerun, but I
couldn’t even find a temple of his.”
Jill was quite
surprised. She knew little of Kerun’s worship, except that he
was one of the dark gods of the Dawntime who had been displaced as
the temples of Bel and Nudd grew in power. The stag god was lord of
the hunt, while Bel presided over the settled life of the growing
grain. Vaguely she remembered that you were supposed to give the
first deer taken in a new year to Kerun, but she doubted if anyone
bothered anymore.
“He’s a splendid god,” Perryn remarked.
“So are all the gods,” Jill said, in case any were
listening.
“Oh, truly, but Kerun’s the only one
who . . . oh, er,
ah, well, who seemed to suit me, I suppose I mean.” He
thought for a long moment “Or, er, I should say, he’s
the only god that I’m suited for. Or somewhat like that
I’ve always felt that if I prayed to the others, they’d
take it as an affront.”
“What? Oh, come now, don’t be so harsh with
yourself. The Goddess of the Moon is mother of us all, and she and
the Three Mothers will listen to anyone’s prayer.”
“Not to mine. And the Moon’s not my mother,
either.”
Although Jill supposed that this statement bordered on
blasphemy, she neither knew nor cared enough about the worship of
the gods to refute it
“It’s not that I like being this way, mind,”
Perryn went on. “It’s just that I know it in my heart.
Kerun’s the only god who’ll have me. I would have liked
being his priest, living out in the wilderness somewhere and doing
whatever his rites are. I couldn’t even find anyone who knew
much about that, you see.”
“Well, here, maybe you should go to Dun Deverry.
I’ve been told there are ancient temples there where the
priests know everything there is to know. I’ll wager
there’s a book or suchlike, and you could maybe hire someone
to read it to you.”
“Now there’s a thought!” He smiled at her.
“You’re actually taking me seriously, aren’t
you?”
“Of course. My father always said that if a man wants to
be a priest, the gods will favor those who help him.”
“Your
father sounds like a splendid fellow. But it’s just that
no one ever takes me seriously, not even Nedd. I mean, he cares
about me and defends me and suchlike, but he thinks I’m daft,
you see, even though he won’t admit he does.”
“Well, I don’t think you’re daft.”
“Truly?”
“Truly. I’ll be honest with you. I think
you’re a truly eccentric man, but I’ve met stranger
fellows than you along the long road. Compared to some of
them—why, you’re perfectly ordinary.”
With a toss of his head, he laughed. She was surprised at his
laughter, deep, smooth, genuinely humorous, and realized that
she’d been expecting it would be as halting and strange as
his way of speaking.
“Well, then, maybe I should ride to Dun Deverry and see
more of the world,” he said at last. “I could scrape up
some coin from my brothers. They’d probably give me a bit,
you see, just to be rid of me for a while. My thanks, Jill. I never
thought of that. I hate cities, and it never occurred to me that
there’d be anything worth having in one.”
“Well, I like them myself. They stink, but there’s
always so much to see among the smells.”
He smiled, watching her so warmly that she went on her guard,
mindful that they were alone and hidden. Since she could have
bested him easily in any sort of fight, she wasn’t afraid of
him, but she refused to give him the slightest encouragement that
might cause trouble with Rhodry. She had no desire to see poor
Perryn dead at the hands of her jealous man. Aware that her mood
had changed, he sighed and looked away.
“Oh, er, ah, well, I might have made a good priest.
I’m certainly not much of a warrior.”
“Oh, now, don’t smear mud on your name.”
He nodded absently. She waited for him to go on and waited and
waited, until in some twenty minutes she realized that he was
capable of sitting silently for hours. Although she felt no
interest in him as a man, as a puzzle he was fascinating.
That night, the army made camp about twenty miles north and east
of Graemyn’s dun, on the very spot of land that was the cause
of the war, where they would remain while a messenger went ahead to
Naddryc’s brother. Since the weather was warm, the cart
containing the noble remains was stowed a good bit downwind of the
camp itself. As Nedd remarked to Rhodry, it was possible that Aegwyc wouldn’t even unwrap his brother’s corpse to
see how it had been mutilated.
“So we can hope, my lord,” Rhodry said. “How
far away is it to Lord Aegwyc’s dun?”
“Just ten miles. With luck, he’ll come by sunset
tomorrow.”
Together they walked back to the camp, sprawled over a meadow.
Although the dust was thickening to a velvet gray, Rhodry, of
course, could see quite well with his half-elven eyesight. As they
passed a clump of scrubby bushes, he saw something move within it
and stopped for a better look, as it was unlikely that a rabbit or
other animal would come this close to so many human beings.
Cowering among the twisted trunks was one of the Wildfoik, but
he’d never seen one like it: a blackish, deformed gnome with
long fangs, bulging eyes, and red claws. For a moment it stared at
him in terror, then vanished.
“Somewhat wrong?” Nedd said.
“Naught, my lord. It just looked like . . . oh, like someone
had dropped a bit of gear in there, but it was only a
rock.”
Later, as they sat by the campfire, Rhodry had the distinct
feeling that he was being watched, but although he looked carefully
around him, he never caught either man or spirit looking his
way.
“Using the Wildfolk to spy could be cursed
dangerous,” said the man who was calling himself Gwin.
“I know that, but there’s naught else I can do until
I get a look at Rhodry in the flesh.” His companion looked up
from the scrying mirror, laid out on a square of black velvet on
the table in front of him. “At least he’s got out of
that siege. That stinking little feud could have been the ruin of
all our plans.”
Gwin merely nodded, well aware how close they’d come to
losing their prey to a warrior’s Wyrd. The man who was using
the name Merryc carefully wrapped up the mirror and put it back
into the secret pocket of his saddlebags. Although they were both
Bardek men, they’d been chosen for this hunt because there
was Deverry blood in their families. Both had straight, dark brown
hair and skin light enough to go unremarked in the kingdom,
especially in the northern provinces, where men of their homeland
were rarely seen. Gwin’s mother, in fact, had been a Deverry
girl, sold by her impoverished clan to a Bardek merchant as a
concubine. As he vaguely remembered, his father had been
fairly pale by Bardek standards, too, but then he’d only seen
the man a handful of times before they’d sold him off as an
unwanted slave child at the age of four. He knew nothing about
Merryc’s background nor in fact, his true name. Men who were
chosen for the Hawks of the Brotherhood kept their own secrets and
allowed others theirs.
“Do you know where he is
now?”
“I do,” Merryc said, buckling the
saddlebag. “It’s not far. I think it’ll be
perfectly safe for us to ride by on the morrow. We can stop
and gawk at the army for a few minutes. No one will think much of
it. What traveler wouldn’t stop and stare at the doings of
the noble-born?”
“True-spoken. And then?”
“We watch. Naught more. Remember that well. All we do is
watch from a distance until Rhodry and the lass are out on
the road alone. Then we can summon the others and make our
move.”
“Well and good, then, but there’s somewhat about
this plan that vexes me. It’s too complex, all twisted, like
a bit of those interlaced decorations they favor
here.”’
“Well, and I have to admit I feel the same, but who are
we to argue with our officers?”
“No one, of course.”
“That jest wasn’t funny in the
least.”
“I didn’t mean it to be a jest.”
Gwin felt a sudden shudder of fear, as if by saying
the ordinary phrase “nev yn” he might have
summoned Nevyn into their inn chamber like a demon, rising at the
very sound of its name. Then he brushed the irrational thought
aside. It was only a symptom of his unease with the convoluted
scheme which his superiors in the blood guild had laid upon
them. It was all very well for them, safely back in the islands, to
talk of kidnapping Rhodry unharmed without attracting the
attention of the dweomer of light.
“Has anyone told you, what we’re supposed
to do about that lass of his?” Merryc
said.
“They have. Kill her. If there’s time,
we’re allowed to have a bit of sport with her
first.”’
“Splendid. By all accounts, she’s
lovely.”
“But only if it’s safe. She’s not important at
all to whatever the point of all, this is, or so I was told. She
just needs, to be gotten out of the way.”’
Merryc nodded, considering this new bit
of information. They were both too low in, the
Hawks’ guild to have been given more than what they
absolutely needed to know. Although he accepted his ignorance as part of the discipline, privately Gwin wondered
just what the blood guilds intended to do with Rhodry once they had
him safely back in Bardek. Naught that was pleasant, no doubt, but
that was no affair of his. In fact, neither he nor Merryc had any
idea of who had hired their guild and sent them on this errand. The
blood guilds took work from whoever could pay their high price, and
there were men in Deverry as well as Bardek who knew it.
On the morrow they rode out of Bobyr, the village in which
they’d been staying, and headed northeast. Some two hours
after noon, they came to a wide meadow and the army camp, a sprawl
of tents thirty feet off the road, with the horses grazing beyond
them. Although most of the men were sitting on the ground, most of
them dicing, there were guards spaced at regular intervals around
the encampment.
“Let’s hope Rhodry isn’t off beyond the
horses,” Merryc muttered.
In a moment they had worse things to worry about than where
Rhodry might be. As they walked their horses slowly along, stopping
now and then to stare in feigned amazement, they heard someone yell
in the camp. A mounted squad of ten galloped out from behind the
tents, split into two, and surrounded them before they could think
of running. Trying to escape, in any case, would have been a
mistake. The leader of the squad, a gray-haired man in the plaid
brigga of the noble-born, guided his horse up to them.
“No need for trouble, lads,” he said. “I just
want to know who you are, and who you ride for.”
“My name’s Gwin, and this is Merryc, my lord, and we
don’t ride for any noble lord. We work for the merchant guild
down in Lyn Ebon, mostly as caravan guards, but they sent us up
here with letters and suchlike for the new guild in Dun
Pyr.”
“Got some proof of that, lad? There’s a war on, and for all
I know, you’re spies.”
Gwin reached into his shirt and pulled off a thin chain with a
stolen seal ring of the guild in question. The lord examined it,
grunted in approval, and handed it back.
“My apologies, then. Ride on,
but be careful on the road. Most like, you won’t meet any trouble, but it pays a
man to keep his eyes open.”
“It does, my lord, and my thanks.”
The lord waved his arm, the squad parted and let them through, directly by a man who had to be Rhodry from his
description. Luck and twice luck, Gwin thought, but he let nothing
show on his face but a careful indifference as he casually glanced
the silver dagger’s way. With the same indifference, Rhodry
looked back, then turned his horse and followed the squad back to
camp. Neither Gwin nor Merryc spoke until they had gone another
mile or so; then Merryc laughed, a dark chuckle under his
breath.
“Well and good, then. I won’t need to be ordering
the Wildfolk about from now on.”
“Have the others seen him yet?”
“They haven’t. I talked to Briddyn through the fire
last night, and they’re still too far south. They won’t
need to do their own scrying, anyway, unless somewhat happens to
me.”
“It won’t. That’s why I’m
along.”
“Arrogant, aren’t you?” Merryc turned in the
saddle and smiled at him. “But I won’t deny that
you’re the best swordsman in the Brotherhood. Let’s
hope you can best Rhodry if things come to that.”
“Let’s hope they don’t. Remember, they want him
alive.”
During the first days after the army rode out, while the dun
waited tensely for news, Jill spent a fair amount of time with
Perryn, usually out in the woods. The cure, if such it was, of sun
and open air was doing him far more good than bed rest. Soon the
dark circles were gone, and he could spend a whole day awake. Yet
no matter how much time she spent with him, she never felt that she
was getting to know him, because he was as guarded and private as
one of the wild animals he loved so much. After that first day he
never mentioned his longing for Kerun’s priesthood again.
When she tried to talk about his kin or the life of the dun, he
always drifted into saying some daft thing that put an end to the
conversation. Although he seemed to be glad of her company, at
times she wondered if he would prefer to be alone. On the third
day, however, she had a disturbing revelation of his feelings.
In the afternoon they went out for their usual walk, but this
time he told her to lead the horse a little farther into the
forest, where there was a tiny stream bordered by ferns that he
wanted her to see. After she watered his gray, Jill dutifully
admired the ferns, then sat down next to him in the cool shade.
“We should be getting news of the army soon,” he
remarked. “If here was a battle, they’d send
messages.”
“Let’s pray they’re on their way home, and
without another army chasing them.”
“True-spoken. Though . . . ah, er, oh, well . . . ”
Jill waited patiently while he collected his thoughts. She was
beginning to get used to his lapses.
“Er, ah, it’s been splendid sitting out in the woods
with you. No doubt we won’t be able to when Rhodry rides
home.”
“Of course not. Rhodry can turn rotten jealous, even
though he’s got no reason to be.”
“Oh. Er, ah, he doesn’t have any reason to
be?”
“None, my lord.”
She went on guard, waiting to see how he would take her firm
dismissal. For a moment, he considered the ferns sadly.
“None, is it?” he said at last.
“Truly?”
He turned his head and smiled at her, a peculiar sort of smile,
open and intense, that seemed to reach out and wrap round,
troubling her will with a warmth as palpable as a touch of a hand.
When she wrenched her eyes away, he laid a gentle hand on her
cheek. She twisted away and knocked his hand off, but he smiled
again in a way that made him seem to glow. She stared at him,
because for a moment she was incapable of moving. When he kissed
her, his mouth was soft, gentle, but sensual with a thousand
promises.
“You truly are beautiful,” he whispered.
With a wrench of will, she shoved him away.
“Now, here,” she snapped. “There can’t
be any more of this between us.”
“And why not?”
His smile was so disturbing that Jill scrambled up and stepped
back as if he were an enemy with a sword. He made no effort to
follow, merely watched her with his head tilted in a childlike,
questioning way. When she stepped back a few more feet, she felt the
spell break.
“I’m going back to the dun,” she snarled.
“Obviously you’ve got the strength to ride back
alone.”
As she jogged back to the dun, she was debating the problem. He can’t
be dweomer—he must be dweomer—where would he even
have learned it—but what else could that be? Now that she
was away from him, the incident was oddly blurred in her mind, as
if it had never truly been registered in her rational memory. She
decided that, dweomer or not, she was going to avoid being alone
with Perryn from now on. When he returned, late in the afternoon,
she saw him from across the great hall. He was so bland, so vague
and awkward, that she found herself wondering if she’d dreamt
the incident by the stream.
Hunkered down in the middle of the field, the lords were
parleying, Aegwyc with ten of his men for an escort, Graemyn with
ten of his, one of whom, was Rhodry. Since he was the man
who’d killed Aegwyc’s brother, he had to be there to
admit it if the lord demanded. He profoundly hoped that he
wouldn’t, even though Graemyn assured him that he
would pay the lwdd himself. So far Graemyn had had little
chance to say anything, because Benoic was doing most of
the talking.
“So it’s settled then?” Benoic said at
last
“It is.” Aegwyc sounded very tired,
“I’ll abide by the high king’s arbitration—provided I feel it’s fairly run.”
“And I’ll do the same,” Graemyn broke
in before Benoic could agree for him. “I swear it on.
the honor of my clan.”
“And I on mine.” With a sigh, Aegwyc rose,
staring past them to the full army. Rhodry supposed that he was
counting up the odds against the few men, he could muster.
“Send me a herald when the king’s men
arrive.”
“I will.” Benoic got to his feet and waved
the rest of the men up. “You have my hand on
that.”
Solemnly they shook hands. For a moment Aegwyc lingered,
looking over the ten men around the tieryn. He
would know that one of them had to be his brother’s
killer, and he looked each one full in the face, pausing a little
longer when he came to Rhodry. Rhodry looked boldly back and saw
the lord’s mouth tighten in bitterness. There was only
one reason that a silver dagger would be part of this
parley, after all. With a sudden wrench Aegwyc turned and led
his men away. Rhodry let out his breath in a long sigh of
relief.
“Ah, you killed the bastard fairly, silver
dagger,” Benoic said.
“So I did, but still, it’s a hard
thing to look a man’s kin in the face when
you’ve brought him his Wyrd.”
As he mounted his horse for the ride back to camp,
Rhodry had the feeling that someone was staring at
him. He twisted in the saddle to look, but everyone
around him, was busy mounting up. No one would be staring at me,
anyway, he thought, unless Aegwyc can send the evil eye from far away.
Yet the feeling persisted for a moment before it faded. During the
long ride back to Graemyn’s dun, he would feel it every now and
then, that someone, somehow, and for some strange reason, was
spying on him.
“I’m cursed glad to see your arm out of that sling,” Nedd
remarked.
“So am I,” Perryn said.
He picked up a leather ball, hard-packed with straw, and began
squeezing it repeatedly to exercise his hand. Soon he would have to
start working his arm, too, but it ached so much that he wanted to
wait a day or so. Nedd paced back and forth across the small
bedchamber and watched with a worried frown.
“Will that heal up properly?” he said.
“Don’t know yet. I never was much good with a sword
anyway. It’s not like I’ve got fine-honed skills to
lose.”
“Well, the war’s over, if you ask me. Aegwyc
can’t cause much trouble. His brother bled the demesne white
for his war with Graemyn.”
“So is our uncle going to pull out?”
“Not him. He’s having a fine time bullying Graemyn
and doing his talking for him. But I know it aches your heart to be
shut up inside a dun like this. You could just ride on if you
like.”
“My thanks, but I’ll stay. Just in case . . . oh, ah,
er, well, somewhat happens.”
“Even if the fighting did break out again, you
wouldn’t be able to join us with your arm so weak.”
“I know. Not the point, you see.”
“And what is the point?”
“Oh, er, ah, Jill.”
“What? You’re daft! Rhodry could cut you into
shreds, and I mean no insult, because he could do the same to me—easily.”
“No reason it has to come to an open fight, is there?”
“Oh, none at all. There’s no reason that the sun has to
rise every morning, either, but somehow it always does.”
His hands on his hips, Nedd considered Perryn as if he were
thinking of drowning him.
“I wager I can get Jill away from
him,” Perryn said.
“Of course. That’s why I’m so
blasted worried. Ye gods, I’ve never known a man with your luck for the lasses. How do you do
it, anyway?”
“Just smile at them a lot and flatter them. It can’t
be any different than what most men do.”
“Indeed? It’s never worked that well for
me.”
“Oh, you’re probably not smiling the right way.
You’ve got to . . . oh, er, let some warmth flow out with it.
Easy, once you get the knack.”
“Then you’ll have to tell me how. But here, if you
lay a snare for Jill, you’ll likely catch a wolf in
it.”
“The wolf’s going to be following my beloved
cousin’s orders and riding with him all over
Cerrgonney.”
“I can’t do that. It’s
dishonorable.”
“What about all those times I lied to our uncle for your
sake? That was dishonorable, too.”
“So it was. Do you want a night in Jill’s bed as
badly as all this?”
“I’ve never wanted anything in my life as much as I
do her.”
“Ah, curse you, you bastard! Well and good, then. Rhodry
and I will find somewhere to ride together.”
“My thanks, cousin. My most humble thanks.”
They had a long wait ahead of them while the speeded courier
traveled the two hundred-odd miles to Dun Deverry. Although
he could buy a swift passage on one of the many barges that sailed
down from the mountain mines on the Camyn Yraen, he would have to
ride back. In other parts of the kingdom, of course, there
would have been local gwerbrets to bear their appeal, but
the various gwerbrets who had once ruled in Cerrgonney warred so
incessantly among themselves that King Maryn the Second had
abolished the rank in the summer of 962, After a bloody
rebellion, his son, Casyl the Second, made the decree of
abolishment stick in 984. From then on, the kings personally took
the fealty of every Cerrgonney lord and judged the various
squabbles among them.
During the wait, Perryn stalked Jill, but from a wary
distance, always watching for those rare times when Rhodry left
her alone. The moments were hard to catch, because she was doing
her best to avoid him. Since she was the first woman
who’d ever resisted his strange appeal, he was puzzled, but
the resistance only made her the more desirable. Finally his
chance came to make his move. At sunset on the tenth day,
Graemyn’s courier returned, with the news that the king
would most graciously take this matter under his regal judgment. In fact, a herald and a legal councillor
were coming directly behind him on the road.
“Splendid!” Benoic said. “Now, here, Graemyn,
you’ve got to send an honor guard along to meet
them.”
“I was just about to say exactly that. If one of my noble allies
would care to take his warband on this errand, I’d be most
grateful.”
Perryn shot Nedd a pointed glance. Nedd sighed.
“I’ll do it gladly, Your Grace,” Nedd said. “I have
six men left as well as my silver dagger. Will that be the proper
size for the escort?’
“Exactly right. If the warband’s too large, Aegwyc
might claim intimidation. My thanks, Lord Nedd.”
Nedd scowled Perryn’s way with a face as sour as if
he’d bitten into a Bardek citron. Perryn merely smiled in
return.
“Well, my love, we’ll be riding out at
dawn.”
Jill went cold with fear.
“Oh here, what’s so wrong?” Rhodry went on.
“We won’t be in the slightest danger.”
“I know.” She found it very hard to speak.
“It’s just that we’ve been apart so
much.”
“I know, but I’ve got plenty of battle loot, and the reward
from Tieryn Graemyn, so once this hire’s over, we’ll
settle into a decent inn for a while.”
With a nod, she turned away, tempted to tell him the truth, that
she was afraid of being left in the same dun as Perryn, but the
truth might lead to bloodshed. Although she would have been pleased
by the sight of Perryn lying dead, his kin would only cut Rhodry
down in turn. He put his arms around her and drew her close.
“I’ll be back soon, my love.”
“I hope so.” She reached up and kissed him.
“Rhoddo, oh, Rhoddo, I love you more than I love my
life.”
As it turned out, the warband left a good hour after dawn,
because Nedd and his men could never leave a place simply and
easily. When they were finally on their way, Jill stood at the
gates for a long time, wishing she could ride with them, feeling
the dweomer cold run down her back in warning. When she turned
she found Perryn watching her. She brushed past him without so
much as a “good morrow” and hurried to the safe
company of Lady Camma and her serving women. All day she avoided him and
that night she barred her chamber door from the inside.
On the morrow, however, Perryn caught her alone. Jill had gone
down to the stables to tend Sunrise, as she never left him to the
slipshod attentions of stableboys. She was just leading him back to
his clean stall when Perryn strolled over.
“Good morrow,” he said. “I was thinking of
going riding. Won’t you come with me?”
“I won’t, my lord.”
“Please don’t call me ‘lord’ all the
time.”
Then he smiled his warm bewitchment, coiling round her
heart.
“I love you, Jill.”
“I don’t give a pig’s fart. Leave me
alone!”
When she stepped back, she found herself against the stall door.
With another smile, he laid his hand on her cheek, a touch that
flooded her with warmth. Dweomer, she thought, it has to be
dweomer. When he kissed her, she knew in a nightmarish way that she
was weakening, that she was sorely tempted to betray Rhodry for
this skinny, daft, nondescript man.
“We could ride into the meadow,” he whispered.
“It’s lovely out in the sun.”
His words—the very rational act of speaking—broke the spell. She shoved him so hard that he nearly fell and
twisted free.
“Leave me alone!” she snarled. “Love me all
you want, but I belong to Rhodry.”
As soon as she was back in the great hall, her fear turned to
hatred, a blind murderous thing because he’d made her feel
helpless, her, who could fight with the best of men and fend for
herself on the long road. If she could have murdered him and
escaped scot-free, she would have. All day her fury grew as she
watched him stalk her. Finally, early in the evening she noticed
that he’d left the hall. A servant told her that he’d
gone to bed because his wound was bothering him. Good, she thought,
may it burn like fire! As she sipped a last tankard of ale in the
company of the other women, she barely listened to their talk. She
would have to do something about Lord Perryn, she decided, and then
finally thought of the obvious place to turn for help. Nevyn. Of
course! He’d understand, he’d tell her what to do. She
got a candle lantern, then went up to her chamber. Using the candle
flame, she could contact him, wherever he might be.
She went into the chamber, set the lantern down, then barred the door. As she turned round, she saw Perryn, sitting so
quietly in the curve of the wall that she’d never noticed
him, her mind full of dweomer thought. When she swore at him, he
grinned at her, but it was only an ordinary sort of triumphant
smile.
“Get out! Get out right now, or I’ll throw you out
bodily.”
“What a nasty tongue you have, my love.”
“Don’t you call me that.”
“Jill, please.” He gave her one of those entrancing
smiles. “Let me stay with you tonight.”
“I won’t.” But she heard her voice waver.
Smiling, always smiling, he walked toward her. She felt
mead-muddled, her thoughts hard to form, harder yet to voice, and
she tried to move away, she staggered. He caught her by the
shoulders, then kissed her, his mouth so warm and inviting on hers
that she returned the kiss before she could stop herself. Her body
was as out of control as a river in full spate. When he wrapped his
arms around her and kissed her again, she wondered if she’d
ever truly wanted a man before or merely been like a young lass,
flirting without even knowing what she’s offering.
“You know you want me to stay,” he whispered.
“I’ll leave early. No one has to know or see a
thing.”
When she forced herself to think of Rhodry, she had just enough
strength to shove him away, but he caught her wrists and pulled her
back. Although she struggled, her knees seemed to have turned to
lead and her arms to water. Still with his ensorceling smile, he
pulled her back and kissed her. She felt herself give in with one
last muddled thought that Rhodry would never have to know. The
pleasure she felt came from her surrender as much as his caresses.
She could hardly let go of him long enough for them to get into
bed, and once they were lying down, she was trembling. Yet Perryn
himself was in no hurry, kissing her, caressing her, taking off
their clothing one piece at a time, then caressing her for a while
more. When he finally lost his patient reserve, his passion for her
was frightening. She could only surrender to her own, let it match
his and carry her where it willed.
Afterward, she lay in his arms and clung to him while the
candlelight cast a pale, dancing glow on a world gone strange. The
stone walls seemed alive, swelling and shrinking rhythmically as
tthey breathed. The light itself broke up and flared as if it came
from a great fire to fall on shards of glass. If Perryn
hadn’t kissed again, she would have been frightened, but his
lovemaking was too engrossing for her to think of anything else. When they
were finished she fell asleep in his arms.
She woke suddenly a few hours later to find him asleep beside
her. In the lantern the candle stub guttered in a spill of wax. For
a moment she was so confused that she wondered what he was doing
there, but an odd bit at a time, she remembered. She nearly wept in
shame. How could she have betrayed her Rhodry? How could she have
played the slut with a man she hated? She sat up, waking him.
“Get out of here,” Jill said. “I never want to
see you again.”
He merely smiled and reached for her, but the candle went out
with a last dancing flare. A red eye in the dark, the wick slowly
faded. In the darkness she was freed from his smile, and she got up
before he could grab her.
“Get out, or I’ll find my sword and cut you in
pieces.”
Without a word of argument he got up and began searching for his
clothes. She leaned against the wall, because the room seemed to be
spinning around her. Every little scuffle or rustle Perryn made was
unnaturally loud, as if the noise echoed in a chamber ten times the
size. Finally he was done.
“I truly do love you,” he said meekly.
I’d never just trifle with you once and then desert you.”
“Get out! Get out now!”
With a dramatic sigh he slipped out, shutting the door behincd
him. Jill fell onto the bed, clutched her pillow, and sobbed into
it until finally she’d cried herself to sleep. When
she woke, sunlight poured into her chamber window as thickly as
a flood of honey. For a long time she lay there, wondering at
light made solid. The dented pewter candle lantern shone like the
finest silver, and even the gray stone of the walls seemed to
pulse within this splendid light. With some difficulty she dressed,
because the patterns of stains and pulled threads on her clothing
were as engrossing as fine needlework. When she went to the
window, she thought she’d never seen such a fine summer day,
the sky so bright it was like sapphire. Down below in the
ward stableboys were tending horses and the sound of hooves on
cobbles drifted up like the chime of bells. Her gray gnome
appeared on the windowsill.
“Do you know how I’ve shamed myself?”
It gave her a look of utter incomprehension.
“Good. Oh ye gods, I might be able to live with
myself over this, and then again, I might not. Pray
that Rhodry never finds out.”
Puzzled, the little creature hunkered down and began picking its
toes. She realized that its skin, instead of being the uniform gray
she’d always thought it, was made up of colors, many different
ones in minute specks, that merely blended to gray from a distance.
She was so busy examining it that she didn’t hear the door
opening until it was too late. She spun around to find Perryn, his
hands full of wild roses, smiling at her.
“I picked these out in the meadow for you.”
Jill was tempted to throw the lot right in his face, but their
color caught her. She had to take them, to study them, roses more
lovely than she’d ever seen, their petals the color of
iridescent blood, always shifting and gleaming, their centers a
fiery gold.
“We’ve got to talk,” he said, “And we
don’t have much time. We’ve got to make a
plan.”
“What? Plans for what?”
“Well, we can’t be here when Rhodry rides
back.”
“I’m not going anywhere with you. I never want you
in my bed again.”
But he smiled, and this time, after their lovemaking, she felt
the bewitchment a hundredfold. Even as her thoughts grew muddled,
she knew that somehow he’d linked himself to her, that some
strange force was iowing through the link. Then he took her
shoulders and kissed her, the flowers crushed between them with a
waft of scent
“I love you so much,” he said. “I’ll
never let you go. Come with me, my love, come to the hills with me.
That’s where we belong. Well ride free together, all summer
long.”
Jill had one last coherent thought, that he wasn’t daft:
he was downright mad. Then he kissed her again, and it was too
difficult to think.
Lord Nedd’s warband met the king’s herald a day and
a half’s ride from the dun. Rhodry was riding next to his
lordship when they crested a small hill and saw, down below them on
the road, the royal emissaries, all mounted on white horses with
red trappings set with gilded buckles. At the head came the
herald, carrying a polished ebony staff with a gold finial strung
with satin ribbons. Behind him rode an elderly man in the long dark tunic and
gray cloak of a legal councillor, with a page on a white
pony at the man’s side. Bringing up the rear were four of the
king’s own warband, wearing purple cloaks and carrying gold-trimmed
scabbards. Nedd stared slack-mouthed.
“Ye gods,” he said feebly. “I should have made
the men put on clean shirts.”
The two parties met in the road. When Nedd announced himself,
the herald, a blond young man with a long upper lip made longer by
pride, looked him over for a moment stretched to the limit of
courtesy.
“My humble thanks for the honor, Your Lordship,” he
said at last. “It gladdens my heart that Tieryn Graemyn
takes our mission with serious intent and grave heart.”
“Well, of course he does,” Nedd said.
“Why else would he have sent the wretched message in
the first place?”
The herald allowed himself a small, icy smile. Rhodry urged his
horse forward, made a graceful half-bow in the saddle, and
addressed himself to the herald.
“O honored voice of the king, we give you greetings,
and pledge our very lives as surety for your safe
passage.”
The herald bowed, visibly relieved to find someone who knew the
ritual salutations, even, if that someone was a silver dagger.
“My humble thanks,” he said. “And who
are you?”
“A man who loves our liege more than his owe
life.
“Then we shall be honored to ride beside you on our
journey to justice.”
“May the king’s justice live forever in the
land.”
Rhodry had to tell Nedd how to dispose his men: his lordship to
ride with the herald, his warband to fall in behind the
king’s men. Rhodry himself was planning on taking the
humblest place at the very rear, but as he rode down the line,
the councillor caught his eye and beckoned him to fall, in
beside him.
“So Rhodry Maelwaedd,” he said.
“You’re still alive. I’ll tell your honored
mother that when next we meet at court.”
“I’d be most grateful, good sir but have I had the honor
of meeting you? Wretch that I am, I fear me I’ve forgotten
your name.”
“Oh, I doubt if you, ever knew it It’s. Cunvelyn,
and I know your lady mother fairly well.” He
considered Rhodry shrewdly for a moment. “It truly does
gladden my heart to see you alive and well. Doubtless you
haven’t heard the news from Aberwyn.”
“None, good sir, except what scraps the occasional
traveler gives me.”
“Ah. Well, your brother’s second wife appears to be
barren, while his cast-off lady was delivered of a fine healthy
son.”
Rhodry swore under his breath with a most uncourtly oath, but
the councillor merely smiled. It was a moment he’d remember
all his life, a moment as unlikely as the sun rising suddenly in a
midnight sky, changing night magically into day. When Rhys died, he
would be Aberwyn’s heir, and he allowed himself to hope for
the thing that he’d long since given up hoping for: recall.
Aberwyn was such an important rhan that the king himself might well
take a hand in bringing home its heir from the dangers of the long
road.
“I would advise you to keep yourself as safe as
possible,” Cunvelyn said. “Are you short up for
coin?”
“Not in the least.”
“Good. Perhaps then you can avoid hiring out your sword
straightaway.”
“I will, good sir.”
Although Rhodry’s heart ached to ask more, he knew that
the old man’s court training would allow no more answers. For
a few moments they rode in silence; then Cunvelyn turned to
him.
“Your little daughter’s well, by the by. Your lady
mother keeps her always by her side.”
Rhodry had to think for a moment before he remembered the
bastard he’d sired on a common-born lass. How many years ago
was it? he wondered. Three, I think.
“That’s most kind of my lady mother,” he said
hurriedly. “And what is she named?”
“Rhodda, to keep her father’s memory
alive.”
“I see. Mother always did know how to badger
Rhys.”
The councillor allowed himself the briefest of smiles.
Rhodry spent the rest of the journey in a fury of impatience to
tell Jill the councillor’s news. If he were reading the hints
aright, soon they would be back in Eldidd, living in the comfort
and splendor he assumed that she wanted. And this time, she would
be more than just his mistress. He was no longer a spoiled younger
son who needed a strong wife to keep him in rein; he was a man they
needed, a man in a position to make demands. He would get her a
title, settle land upon her as a dower gift, and marry her, no
matter what his mother and the king thought of it.
Late on a splendid sunny day, the herald and his escort rode up
to Graemyn’s dun. As they clattered through the gates, Rhodry
was looking around for Jill. The ward was full of riders, standing
in a reasonable excuse for a formation, while the two tieryns stood
at the door of the broch to greet their honored guest. In the
confusion, he saw no sign of her, nor did she come to meet him
while he stabled his horse and Nedd’s. Although he was rather
hurt, he thought little of it, assuming that Lady Camma had kept
her at her side for some reason, until Nedd came hurrying into the
stable.
“My lord?” Rhodry said. “Is Jill in the great
hall?”
“She’s not. Is Perryn in here?”
“He’s not. Isn’t he with the other
noble-born?”
Nedd went a little pale about the mouth.
“Oh, by the black balls of the Lord of Hell!” Nedd
snarled. “He wouldn’t have—the rotten little
weasel—oh, curse him for a pig’s bollock!”
“My lord, what is all this?”
“I don’t know yet. Come with me.”
Rhodry tagged after as Nedd searched the great hall for Camma,
finally finding her as she gave orders to the servants about the
feast to come. When Nedd caught her arm, she saw Rhodry and gasped,
a little puff of breath.
“Oh, by the gods,” she said. “But you’ve
got to know, and it best be sooner than later, I suppose. Nedd, if
I ever get my hands on your misbegotten wretch of a cousin,
I’ll beat him black and blue.”
“I’ll hold him down while you do it What’s he done
with Jill?”
Camma laid a maternal hand on Rhodry’s arm, her large dark eyes
full of sincere apology.
“Rhodry, your Jill’s gone. All I can think is that
she rode off with Perryn, because he disappeared not an hour after
she did. My heart truly aches for you.”
Rhodry opened his mouth and shut it again, then clasped his
sword hilt so hard that the leather bindings bit into his palm.
Nedd had gone dead white.
“Did you know somewhat about this?” Rhodry
growled.
“Oh, er, ah, well, not truly. I mean, ye gods! I knew he
fancied your lass, but I never thought anything would come of
it.”
With a great effort of will, Rhodry reminded himself that it
would be dishonorable to kill him in front of a lady. Camma gave
his arm a little shake.
“Oh, come now,” she said. “Who in their right
mind would ever have thought that Jill would leave a man like you
for one like Perryn?”
His pride was sopped just enough to make him let go the hilt
“Now, here,” Nedd said to the lady. “Did my
uncle know of this? I can’t believe he’d let Perro do
such a dishonorable thing.”
“And why do you think your wretched cousin slipped out
like a weasel? Benoic chased him with some of his men, but Perryn
went off through the forest. They never found a trace of
him.”
Nedd started to answer, then simply stared at Rhodry. They were
in a terrible position, and they both knew it. If Rhodry swore
bloody vengeance where the lord could hear, he would be honor-bound
to stop Rhodry from riding—if he could. The fear in
Nedd’s eyes was satisfying to see.
“Now, here!” came Benoic’s bellow.
“What’s all this?”
Hands on hips, the tieryn strode over and shoved himself between
them.
“I take it Rhodry’s found out the truth?”
“He has,” Camma said.
“Humph! Now listen, Nedd, your worm-riddled cousin’s
in the wrong, and you know it as well as I do. On the other hand,
silver dagger, she wasn’t legally your wife, so you’ve
no right to kill him. Beat him black and blue, decidedly, but not
to kill him. Will you make me a solemn oath that you won’t
kill or maim him? If you do, you ride out of here with my blessing
and a bit of extra coin. If you won’t, then you’re not
leaving at all.”
Rhodry glanced around at the hall, filled with armed men.
“Now, now, come to your senses, lad,” Benoic went
on. “I know cursed well that the first thing a man thinks of
in times like this is spilling blood. But ask yourself this: if you
cut your Jill’s throat, wouldn’t you be weeping over
her not five minutes later?”
“Well, Your Grace, so I would.”
“Good. I feel the shame my nephew laid upon his clan. Do
you want her back or not? If not, then I’ll pay you a bride
price, just as if she’d been your wife. If you do, then swear
me that vow, and ride with my aid.”
Faced with this scrupulous fairness, Rhodry felt his rage slip
away. In its place came a cold realization that nearly made him
weep: Jill didn’t love him anymore.
“Well, Your Grace, call me a fool if you want, but I do
want her back. I’ve got a thing or two to say to her, and by
every god in the Otherlands, I’ll find her if I search
all summer long.”
“This is a bit of luck,” Merryc said.
“In a
way,” Gwin said. “We won’t have to bother with
the lass, sure enough, but Rhodry’s going to be following her,
not moving in the direction we want him to.”
“Oh, indeed? Think, young one. From everything I’ve
been able to see, this Perryn fellow knows the woods like his
mother’s tit. What does a man like Rhodry know of woodcraft? When he was a
lord, he had foresters and game wardens to worry about such things,
and silver daggers stick to the roads.” He smiled gently. “I’ll
talk to Briddyn through the fire about this, but I think we’ve
found the perfect bait to lure our bird down to the seacoast. The
only clues he’ll find are the ones we throw in his
path.”