LORD OF THE VAMPIRES
LORD OF THE VAMPIRES
DIARIES OF THE FAMILY DRACUL
JEANNE KALOGRIDIS
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For my mother, Geraldine Marie Pulver August 8, 1923-July 27, 1995
And sister, Nancy Ellen Dillard September 23, 1952-February 1, 1994
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
Heartfelt thanks are due the following august personages:
First and foremost, to Dell editor Jacob Hoye for his exceptional patience
and kindness. The book you now hold in your hands arrived on his desk terribly
late, and he, as well as copy editors and publicists, worked at an insane pace
to get it onto the shelves. On behalf of him and all the other brave souls at
Dell, I offer up humblest apologies, plus the offer to inflict upon myself
thirty lashes with a cat-o‘-nine-tails at the time and place of their choosing.
To Elizabeth Miller, Ph.D., one of the world’s premier Dracula experts and
all-round nice person. Not only did she provide me with research materials and
information about Mad Bad Vlad for the prologue, she also wrote the marvelous
foreword included here.
To Sherry Gottlieb, fellow novelist, for her (and Bunny’s) friendship and her
wonderfully wicked suggestion concerning the ending of this book. (Go out and
buy Sherry’s fabulous police procedural with fangs,
Love Bite, right
now.)
To my brother, Kurt Rumler, for starting this whole damned vampire thing. You
see, it was Kurt who, some twenty-eight years ago at the Mariner Hotel in St.
Petersburg, shoved a paperback of
Dracula into my hands and said:
“Here, kid. Read
this…”
Absolutely to my agent, Russ Galen. My God, Russ, what would I
do
without you? (I mean, other than make a whole lot less money and have a lot more
stress in my life…)
And now, the best for last: To our beloved consort of eighteen years, with
whom we are well pleased. George, I honestly could not have finished this book
without your emotional and literary help. (Okay, so I steal your suggestions all
the time—but, hey, I share the money, don’t I?) I love you madly—for your
Grecian good looks, your intelligence, your twisted wit, your warmth, your
charm, your generosity and delightful desire to spoil me—but mostly because no
one else has ever made me feel so thoroughly loved.
—
Jeanne Kalogridis e-mail: jkalo@opa.com web page: http://www.opa.com/vampire
Author’s note: Let me blow Dr. Elizabeth Miller’s horn here, since she ‘s
too modest to do so herself. President of the Canadian chapter of the
Transylvanian Society of Dracula, she is one of the most knowledgeable experts
on Vlad Tepes and Dracula around, having written and presented numerous
scholarly papers on the subject. At the 1995 World Dracula Congress, she was
honored by the Romanian people with the title “Baroness of the House of Dracula
”; and she is also one of the organizers of the Dracula Centennial, to be held
in Los Angeles in August 1997.

FOREWORDS
The trilogy The Diaries of the Family Dracul, of which
Lord of the
Vampires is the third book, draws from history, legend, and fiction. But it
is primarily a work that expands on the text of
Dracula, by providing a
“prequel” to Stoker’s narrative, which overlaps with
Dracula in this
present book. The trilogy introduces innovative twists in the familiar plot that
serve to fill in what some readers perceive as gaps in the original: Why was
Abraham Van Helsing so obsessive about tracking down Dracula? What really
happened to the good professor’s wife and son? What were the origins of the
female vampires in Dracula’s Transylvanian castle? Who was the elusive Arminius?
But most significantly, the trilogy creates a prehistory for Count Dracula
himself, drawing on the connection between Stoker’s vampire and the
fifteenth-century Wallachian prince Vlad the Impaler (also known as Dracula). As
this is not the first (and certainly will not be the last) time that the count
and the
voivode have been fused in fiction (and film), I thought it
might be useful to delineate just what the nature of this intriguing connection
actually is.
In spite of the attention paid to Vlad by historians both in Romania and the
West, he is still to some extent an enigma. Even the name by which he is called
is a matter of disagreement. While there is ample evidence that he himself used
the sobriquet “Dracula” (or variations thereof) and was referred to as such in
several fifteenth-and sixteenth-century sources, many Romanian historians still
insist on using the name “Tepes” (meaning “Impaler”), a hardly flattering
nickname first assigned to him by Turkish chroniclers. Historians attempting to
reconstruct his life have had to sift through numerous printed accounts of his
atrocities, many of which are clearly biased, as well as equally biased Romanian
oral narratives and legends that paint him as a heroic patriot. There are also
conflicting versions about key events, most notably how he was killed and where
his remains are buried. But one fact does emerge from all of this material:
Whatever Vlad might have been, nowhere is it stated that he was (or was believed
to have been) a vampire. That association is clearly the result of the fact that
Bram Stoker decided to appropriate the name “Dracula” for his villainous
count—much to the chagrin of many Romanians, who see the novel as a denigration
of one of their national heroes.
But this raises a key question. To what extent did Bram Stoker actually
base his Count Dracula on Vlad the Impaler? Although for many people today
the two have become almost synonymous, the nature of the connection is highly
speculative. There is no longer any doubt where Stoker found the name “Dracula.”
We know from his working papers (housed at the Rosenbach Museum in Philadelphia)
that by March 1890 he had already started work on the novel, and had even
selected a name for his vampire—Count Wampyr. We also know that, in the summer
of the same year while vacationing at Whitby, he came across the name “Dracula”
in a book that he borrowed from the Whitby Public Library. William Wilkinson’s
An Account of the Principalities of Wallachia and Moldavia (1820)
contains a few brief references to a “Voivode Dracula” (never referred to as “Vlad”)
who crossed the Danube and attacked Turkish troops. But what seems to have
attracted Stoker was a footnote in which Wilkinson states that
“Dracula
in the Wallachian language means ‘Devil.”“ Stoker supplemented this with scraps
of Romanian history from other sources (which he carefully listed in his notes)
and fleshed out a history for his Count Dracula. Wilkinson is Stoker’s only
known source for information on the historical namesake. Everything else is
speculation.
And there is plenty, some of it rather far-fetched. For example, it has been
suggested that Stoker drew the concept of the staking of a vampire from his
knowledge of Vlad’s penchant for impaling his enemies on stakes; that Renfield’s
fondness for insects and small animals is a reenactment of Vlad’s habit of
torturing small animals while he was held prisoner in Hungary; or that Count
Dracula is repelled by holy symbols because Vlad betrayed the Orthodox Church by
converting to Roman Catholicism. Such speculation has arisen from a basic
assumption (yet to be proved conclusively) that Stoker knew much more about Vlad
than what he read in Wilkinson; that his other major sources were the Hungarian
professor Arminius Vambery, and his own readings in the British Museum (both of
which are indirectly alluded to in the novel).
Much has been written of what Stoker may have learned from Vambery. Claims
have been made that Vambery supplied Stoker with information on Transylvania,
vampire lore, and Vlad himself; some suggest that Vambery may even have
introduced Stoker to some of the fifteenth-century materials about Vlad. But all
of this is speculation based on circumstantial evidence. We do know that the two
met at least twice. While we do have a record of these meetings (Stoker refers
to both in his 1906 book
Personal Reminiscences of Henry Irving), there
is nothing to indicate that the conversation included Vlad, vampires, or even
Transylvania. Furthermore, there is no record of any other correspondence
between Stoker and Vambery, nor is Vambery mentioned in Stoker’s notes for
Dracula. As for the theory that what Van Helsing in the novel learns from
Arminius (the character is generally seen as a tribute to Vambery) parallels
what Stoker himself gleaned from the Hungarian, just about every scrap of this
material can readily be traced to Stoker’s known sources.
While Stoker did conduct some research at the British Museum, there is no
evidence to indicate that he discovered further material about the historical
Dracula. Much speculation surrounds the possibility that he may have gained
access to one of the fifteenth-century German pamphlets about Vlad the Impaler
featuring a woodcut portrait accompanied by the caption “A wondrous and
frightening story about a great bloodthirsty berserker called Dracula.” This has
led some to conclude that Stoker’s physical description of Count Dracula is
actually based on this portrait of Vlad. But again, the concrete evidence just
is not there. It is much more likely that Stoker drew the description of Count
Dracula from earlier villains in Gothic literature, or even from his own
employer, Henry Icving.
Count Dracula, as Van Helsing tells us, “must have been that Voivode Dracula
who won his name against the Turk.” Indeed he was! But it is significant that
nowhere in Stoker’s novel is Dracula referred to as “Vlad,” nor is there any
reference to Vlad’s famous atrocities, in particular his use of impalement as
his favorite means of execution. Why would Stoker—a writer who meticulously
included detail after detail (some very insignificant and obscure) from his
known sources—ignore something that would have added so much to the delineation
of his villain? Either he knew more and chose not to use it, or he used what he
knew. Pending much more concrete evidence than has to date been unearthed, I
would accept the latter. All we know for certain is that Stoker found the name
“Dracula” in Wilkinson, obviously liked it, and decided to use it.
The fusing of fact and fiction, while of questionable merit in reconstructing
history, is a superb tool in the hands of an imaginative writer. As we today
know much more than Stoker about Vlad the Impaler (thanks primarily to the work
of Radu Florescu and Raymond McNally), it is hardly surprising that the count
and the
voivode have merged. The most noted occurrence in film is in
Francis Ford Coppola’s 1992 rendition
Bram Stoker’s Dracula, though a
connection between the vampire count and his historical namesake had been made
almost twenty years earlier in the Dan Curtis production of
Dracula
with Jack Palance. Examples of the fusion in fiction are numerous, including
such novels as
Anno Dracula and
The Bloody Red Baron (Kim
Newman),
Children of the Night (Dan Simmons), the trilogy Dracula
Lives! (Peter Tremayne),
Drakulya (Earl Lee), and this present trilogy.
Fiction has made Vlad what he never was in life—a vampire— and has thus granted
him, like his fictional counterpart, immortality.
Elizabeth Miller
Professor of English
Memorial University of Newfoundland
PROLOGUE
Memorandum of Vlad III, Prince of Wallachia
Bucharest, Curtea Domneasca, 28 December 1476.
Outside, the promise of snow; the weather has turned bitter and the sky
leaden, cloaking the overhead sun. Yet the air tingles, as if with unhurled
lightning. It dances upon my skin.
We wait.
He comes… Basarab is coming…
I smile up from parchment, ink, and quill at my trusted aide Gregor’s face,
draped with shadows from the torchlight. Child of
boiers, the Roumanian
nobility, his features are mine—sharp, hawkish nose and chin, large heavy-lidded
eyes, raven hair falling to his shoulders. No doubt we are related by blood,
distant cousins at the least; he is at most half a thumb taller, so close are we
in height.
The resemblance ends there, for the intelligence possessed by our forebears
flows in my veins alone. Look at him: The fool cannot resist peering from time
to time through the curtains, at the city spreading out below us, at the high,
fortified walls built at my command. At what lies —what
will lie
soon—beyond those walls. He thinks I do not know.
Laiota Basarab with an army of four thousand Turks, come to murder me inside
these stone walls and steal my throne, so recently reclaimed. And I with but
half as many men, and my champions returned to their northern kingdoms.
The traitor comes…
You know all that can be known of treachery, do you not, Gregor? Oh yes, you
return my glance with the most fawning of courtesies, but I see your heart; I
hear your very thoughts. You swear fealty to me, the
voivode, but your
loyalties lie with the inconstant
boier, the nobles who will again
deliver their country into the hands of Basarab, lover of Turks, for the sake of
a mercenary peace.
All this did the Dark One reveal to me last night within the Circle. I doubt
it not, for I have of late acquired further talents unknown to common mortals:
the reading of the thoughts and hearts. As Gregor paces uneasily before the
curtain, I see now his guilt as clearly as I see the words scrawled here before
me.
I know treachery myself too well, having been often betrayed. Betrayed by my
father, when he surrendered my brother and myself, both of tender age, to be the
sultan’s hostages. Betrayed by my fair brother, Radu, lover of women and men and
the sultan Mehmed, on whose account Radu seized my throne from me. .
(And you are dead now, are you not, my dear younger brother? Killed at last
by the womanish acts that won you Mehmed’s heart and army—and thus my kingdom.
Those beautiful eyes the colour of blue-green sea are closed forever; those full
red lips, which sought the breasts of women with the same fervour that they
suckled at the sultan’s lap, shall never kiss again. May your syphilitic Turkish
lovers follow you soon!)
Betrayed even by my one trusted friend, Stefan eel Mare, whose kingdom I
helped him win. (You play the friend once more, my Stefan, now that it falls to
your advantage. But I will not forget or forgive your maneuvers that put Basarab
in my place. I take your help now that regret overtakes you; but the time for
recompense will come.)
Still quiet. No cries from the watch tower, just the hiss of the fire, the
scratch of the quill against parchment, the silence of imminent snow. And the
scuffle of Gregor’s boots against stone as he paces; I am far too entertained by
his anxiety to give him leave to sit. An hour ago, I bade him: “Send to the
stable for horses, one for each of us, and a day’s provisions.”
Ah, the look of ill-concealed terror in his eye, at the thought the
boiers scheme might go awry! “Where shall we go, my lord?”
Had I been in my usual humour, I would not have deigned to reply with more
than a scowl (nor would Gregor have dared to ask, had his desperation not been
so great). As it was, my amusement was such that I answered, “Riding.”
And, as he backed away, bowing, towards the door, his expression one of
comical dubiousness, I added—loudly so that those standing watch at the entry
would hear: “And send in two guards. I am not of a mind to wait alone.”
They heard and entered without waiting for Gregor’s relay—two fine strong
Moldavians, one dark and the other golden, both tall and armed with swords, both
left behind as tokens of Stefan’s guilt over past infidelities. This I did so
that Gregor might not, should he arm himself in his absence, return and indulge
his anxiousness to see me destroyed.
Later, when he returned, cheeks and nose reddened and glistening from the
cold, to report that the horses should be ready within the hour, I sent him
straightway on another errand: “Fetch clothing for me and yourself and bring it
here, to my private chambers. We shall go disguised as Turks.”
This gave him great alarm, which he barely stifled. Did I know of the
boier plot to send Basarab and the Turks to slay me and my army? Did I
suspect him?
In his veiled eyes I saw the machinations of a traitorous mind. I had given
no clear sign of suspicion yet; certainly I could have easily ordered the
bodyguards to dispatch him had I discovered the truth. Was this one of the
fearsome
voivodes fatal games—was I delaying his execution in order to
savour it—or was it chance that I had chosen this moment to leave my stronghold
disguised, alongside the man who would play my Judas?
He left, and in moments returned with clothing: a peaked cap, tunic and wool
cloak to shield against the cold. He assisted me with my dress under the
attentive eye of the Moldavians, watched as I wound the turban round my head,
and looked askance when I asked him:
“Olmeye hazirmisin?” Are you prepared to die?, for I am as fluent in
the speech of my enemies as I am my own tongue, having spent my youth as the
sultan’s prisoner. I know their dress, their mannerisms, and can pass for one of
them. And I laughed, for though he is their minion—he who serves the
boiers
serves the Turks—he understood not one word I had uttered. He laughed also,
yellowed teeth flashing beneath the drooping mustache so like mine, thinking my
mirth sprang from my successful impersonation.
Then I went over to the wall and lifted down from its place of honour a great
scimitar, gleaming in the firelight, and with it a curving sheath. This I
fastened to my belt, then said:
“Dress.”
He did so, and I looked on in silent approval at a body small in stature, but
muscular, broad of chest and shoulder. His scars are fewer—he has not been
tested in battle as often as I—and he lacks half a front tooth, but the
similarities are enough.
After a time, a boy ran up to say the mounts were ready. But I would not be
rushed. I had begun this entry and was obliged to finish it—for this will be my
last remembrance as a mortal. I had learned from the Dark Lord in Circle the
hour of Basarab’s coming and knew I was still safe, and further, I was not
inclined to end Gregor’s anxiety. Let him wait! Let him suffer in
uncertainty—which he does to this very moment, pacing in his Turkish robes,
praying that I will change my mind and remain here, to be slaughtered.
Were the guards not here, he would risk killing me now. I know that the
moment we are alone on horseback, he will seek the first opportunity; for that,
I am ready.
I must not die now! Not so close to the touch of the Dark Lord, and Eternity…
* * *
Snagov Monastery, 28 December.
To the north we rode upon black stallions, first along the banks of the
Dimbovita, then across the frozen ground into the bare-limbed Vlasia Forest,
tinged with evergreen. The air was grey with smoke and the approaching storm,
and laden with a strange, fleeting smell: of lightning spent, of iron wielded;
of blood and snow.
I galloped at full speed, wind stinging my eyes, keeping Gregor well behind
me—a danger, perhaps, but I had seen him dress and knew he carried no weapon
save the sword at his waist. If he wished to kill me at that moment (and he
did), then he would have to overtake me, throw me from my horse, slay me before
I could draw my own sword. Perhaps the singular intent in my eyes frightened
him; if so, he was wise to fear. He might have turned and hastened away to the
south, returned to his beloved Basarab, and warned them of my escape to the
north—but that action would have alerted me at once to treachery and bettered my
chance of survival.
So we continued apace over hard earth and rocks and dead crackling leaves
until at last we reached the banks of a great lake, frozen solidly, its surface
opaque grey-white dirtied by swirls of dark suspended flotsam. At its center
stood the island fortress of Snagov, the spires of the Chapel of the
Annunciation emerging from behind high walls at the water’s very edge.
I dismounted and unsheathed my sword—with a smile to ease Gregor’s growing
trepidation—and led my horse onto the ice. “No need to draw your arms,” I told
my uncertain companion. “Mine are sufficient to protect us.” I nodded for him to
precede me across the river to the great iron gate.
In his eyes I saw once more the moment of decision: Should he smite me now,
and return to Basarab’s army a hero? Should he hope for an opportunity inside
Snagov’s walls, and venture forth upon the ice? (It was my right as sovereign to
require that someone else test the ice’s strength.) Why had I drawn my sword?
Was this merely another of the prince’s eccentricities, or had I deduced his
deception?
A flicker of fear again crossed his features. I was, after all, Dracula, the
son of the Devil, the passionate fighter whose madness and boldness knew no
limits. I had ridden at night into Mehmed’s very camp and slaughtered a hundred
sleeping Turks with the sword I now grasped. If he drew his weapon now and
openly challenged me, would he be the survivor?
With the softest of sighs he swung down from his horse and led the creature
onto the frozen lake. So we made our way toward sanctuary, the horses’ hooves
ringing hollowly against the ice, displacing small clouds of mist. At last we
arrived at the great stone wall I had built during my reign, which had
transformed the island monastic village into a more suitable fortress for
guarding the treasure of the Wallachian realm. Ringing that wall were trees,
their naked limbs clawing at the stones as if pleading for entry.
A cry came from the watchtower as the sentinel spotted us; I cupped my hands
round my mouth and called a reply which echoed off the stone. We moved toward
the high wooden gate, studded with pales, and waited on the ice uneasily, I
maneuvering myself so that I stood behind Gregor. The indecisiveness, the
tension, the guilt, could easily be read from the cant of the man’s shoulders.
We stood without speaking and watched the first snowflakes sail silently down,
stinging my cheeks like cold tears.
At last the great gate creaked open on its rusting hinges and we were
received by two armed guards, who immediately bowed low when they confirmed that
their guest was, indeed, the Prince of Wallachia. I ordered one to take our
horses to the stable and have food brought; the other I bade accompany us,
ostensibly to build a fire. The three of us walked together on the ice-and-mud
road past the high watchtower, the beautiful chapel, the great monastery, up
towards the beautiful palace I had erected in better days. The thought evoked a
flare of anger: Gregor did not deserve to set foot in this place built by the
blood of loyal subjects, a sanctuary dear to my heart and which I would never
again see after this night.
But I held my temper and walked together with my traitor into the palace’s
private chambers—which, being long unused, were so cold that our breaths still
hung in the air as mist. I moved into my private dining-room, which looked onto
a small cell with an Orthodox shrine to the Virgin Mary. The accompanying
soldier, a strong young man, set at once to the task of building a fire.
With a flourish, I removed my cape, belt, and sword, setting them all down on
the floor near the hearth—and the soldier—and motioned for Gregor to do the
same. I saw his swift secretive glance at my weapon, then at the soldier, then
back at me; in his eyes shone the reluctance of the coward. Slay me he could,
but at the cost of his own life.
“Gregor, my friend.” I motioned for the now-tired man to sit across from me
at the ancient dining table. I was cordial, conciliatory. “It is only right that
you know the reason for our swift journey. I have need of… funds, and so I came
here to avail myself of some of my treasure. There are few I can trust with such
a task, even at the castle… and so I did not speak of it to you. We shall be
returning shortly to Bucharest, but in the meantime, rest, and eat.”
I saw the mercenary light in his eye which I had hoped to evoke. He could
wait until the treasure was in our hands, and once he and I were alone in the
Vlasia Forest…
After a time the fire grew, and the room began to warm. I bade the soldier
stay with us and stand guard. A white-bearded monk with fewer teeth than I have
fingers entered with a tray of food—a cold roasted chicken, a flask of wine,
bread, cheese. He served us most capably, reaching out to refill our goblets
with a hand so gnarled by age —blue veins standing out in bas relief beneath a
parchment-thin layer of pale yellow skin—that I was astonished it did not
tremble. Even more laudably, he showed no fear, no cringing, before the great
prince, only silent dignity. This I found agreeable, for I am usually tended by
fawning fools, but his singular self-possession may well have been sparked by
disdain for my heresy. (I had spent years under house arrest in Hungary; the
only way to gain King Matthias’ trust—and regain my throne—was to convert to
Catholicism. It was a political move, nothing more—in Turkey I was forced to
kneel upon prayer rugs facing Mecca and pray to Allah—but an unfortunate one,
for it has earned me the contempt of my own people.)
Should I have chosen death instead?
No. There is nothing noble about death, even that of a martyr.
Yet the old monk feels I have betrayed God, and therefore deserve His
punishment, just as Gregor deserves mine.
Perhaps the monk would be surprised to know that I indeed fear God. Fear Him
because I know His heart is like mine—blackened by power, thrilling at the
ability to dictate the hour and fashion of men’s deaths; reveling in their
suffering.
Nay—His heart is more evil than mine, and more pitiless. He strikes down
young, old, man, woman, child, without regard for their loyalty, their wit,
their circumstance. I spare the innocent and kill only those who betray me; I
kill to instruct the survivors through spectacle.
God has no such qualms. He slays believer and infidel alike, and the degree
of suffering He inflicts bears no relation to the victim’s piety. Nor does He
concern Himself with justice—He has permitted usurper after usurper to steal my
rightful kingdom, and now that I have reclaimed it after years of arduous
struggle, He will not help me maintain it. Thus I could never ally myself with
Him, especially since He is too jealous to impart the immortality I seek.
Enough of God; I speak now of Gregor. He and I shared our Last Supper in
silence, and when he had eaten to his satisfaction and pushed away from the
table with a sigh, I told him:
“My friend. My heart is heavy of late, for I know that support for my reign
is uncertain. The boiers have turned against me”—and when he began a
supposedly innocent protest, I raised my hand. “Do not think I do not know it!
And now that Stefan has withdrawn his forces, the situation is more precarious.”
This he could not disavow. After all, to spare them danger, I had not permitted
my wife and sons to join me at my Bucharest court. I paused and, in a tone of
utmost earnestness, asked, “Gregor. Will you pray for me? For your prince’s
safety and success? I know you are a man of faith, and I am deemed by some a
heretic…” And here I paused to steal a sidewise glance at the grizzled monk, who
stood in readiness to serve (albeit closer to the fire, to warm his old bones).
But the brother’s gaze was hooded, his expression unreadable; perhaps he was
deaf, I thought, and had not heard. Or perhaps he was simply too wise a man to
make open his contempt, knowing that I would not forgive it. “Beseech God and
the Virgin on my behalf.”
Of course Gregor could do no else. He nodded, and with solemnity, I rose from
the table and led him to the monastic little cell, whose door lay ajar so that
its interior was entirely visible from our dinner table. I crossed myself (in
good Orthodox fashion, which I had no doubt the old monk noticed) and, stopping
at the doorway, gestured for my aide to enter and kneel on the small rug in
front of the solitary shrine to the Mother of Christ.
He sank down with a groan and creaking knees; like me, he is no longer young.
“Pray for us,” I said tenderly, and gestured to the young soldier by the fire to
take up Gregor’s own weapon and stand in my place. I could see my kneeling
Judas’ face in profile—how like my own it was! He might have been my brother; my
own backstabbing brother. I watched that sun-weathered face, with its sharp but
delicate nose and chin, its thin, trembling lips beneath the dark drooping
mustache. I savoured the charming slow dawn of terror in those large eyes, black
as mine were green, as the soldier lifted the sword. Then I returned to my place
at the dinner table—the tableau was entirely visible from my seat, according to
my own design (it was not the first time I had made use of the cell, though I
suspect it will be the last)—and lifted my glass to drink deep of sweet,
stinging wine ere I spoke again.
“Pray, my friend. Pray for my long life… and death to those who would betray
me.”
He let go a wrenching sob and pressed his palms together in earnest
supplication, turning on his knees to face me. The little rug moved with him,
rippling. “My lord, I swear that I have not deceived you!”
I let a long, tortured moment pass for him before I replied, my voice soft,
curious. “Did I accuse you?”
His eyes widened; then he blinked, and pressed his quivering lips together.
In truth, had he been able to think of a compelling reply, and had I trusted my
magic any less, I might have spared him then. But I was certain of the vision
that had come to me in Circle, and my own divinations. Even were I not, the look
of stricken self-incrimination which descended at that instant upon Gregor’s
features would have convinced me. A single shining drop slid down his cheek.
“Oho!” I exulted. “Is this a tear?”
“My lord, I beg—”
“Turn!” I cried, gesturing for the soldier to brandish the sword. His
cravenness so fuelled my rage that it would no longer be submerged. “Turn, and
pray to the Virgin! Pray that she might grant you mercy, and me victory over
Basarab!”
He knit his hands together fervently and once more faced Mary’s shrine;
beneath his knees, the small rug bunched up further to reveal a seam in the
wooden floor. Yet my would-be deceiver never noticed; his attention had become
sincerely fixed on the icon of the Virgin Mother, and he began to babble,
knuckles pressed to the bridge of his nose, eyes squeezed shut.
“Have mercy! God and Holy Mother—have mercy! Grant my sovereign long life,
and victory, and convince him that I have not betrayed him…”
“Yes,” I whispered. “Perhaps God will be merciful to you—but He has never
been thus to me, and so I will not bargain with Him.”
“My Lord,” he cried, still facing the shrine with his eyes closed so that I
was uncertain whether he addressed God or me. “My Lord, I am innocent of any
crime against you! What can I say, what can I do, to prove my perfect loyalty?”
“Die with bravery,” said I. “Your life is already forfeit, Gregor. Make your
peace, and quickly. I shall not die outside Bucharest as my father did, struck
down by an assassin.”
He raised his face towards Heaven, then opened his praying hands as one might
a book and pressed them to his eyes, weeping. I studied his reaction to the
revelation that all hope was lost: noted the electric agony, the utter
desperation, reflected in each aspect of his body, his voice (for his sobs grew
resoundingly loud and shrill). I have been my whole life a student of the Death,
staring into Its face in hopes that I might understand and be able to accept my
own end. How many men have I killed in my life—a thousand? No, it must be more,
many more. I know the face of Death; I watched more than a hundred
Turks meet their slow deaths in the Forest of the Impaled alone. I have heard
men’s sobs and screams, and the slow sighing sound made by a body pulled down
onto the stake by its own weight.
And in each instance I have looked into their eyes and tried to understand
the Secret hidden there as they passed from life into the Abyss.
But as I contemplated Death—and came to see that God was not just, and that
there was no meaning there, only indignity and suffering—I came to know
that I could never accept it. I had been cheated of too much that was rightfully
mine in this life; I had ruled my father’s, my grandfather’s, kingdom for only a
handful of years before I was ousted unjustly. I am royalty by birthright; but I
spent my whole youth as a Turkish prisoner, and eight of my middle years as a
prisoner of the Hungarian king. My kingdom has been stolen from me twice, once
by my own brother: if I relinquish it a third time, I shall have recompense—I
who am shrewder, more cunning, more deserving of my people’s adoration, than
Matthias, than Mehmed, than Radu or Basarab.
Death is surely closer to me now than at any other time. Yet God and the
angels would not grant me my desire: immortality. There is only One other
capable.
* * *
As Gregor wept and prayed in vain, the soldier in the doorway turned his
hopeful young face (with its thin, patchy boy’s beard on tender pink cheeks and
chin) towards me and motioned with his sword, his gaze a question. He will make
a fine assassin, that one, for his eyes were bright with eagerness and yearning,
much as mine.
I gave a single small shake of my head; not yet. Instead, I rose and walked
over to stand beside my cheerful young killer, taking care that my boots struck
the floor solidly. As I’d planned, Gregor heard. His back tensed; I knew he
expected Death to come up behind him, in the form of the sword gripped in the
young soldier’s hand. And though he dared not turn his head completely round to
look straight at me—he had witnessed my sensitivity to the smallest presumption
in these situations many times, and feared provoking a burst of rage—he inclined
it slightly over its shoulder, and swiveled his eyes in an effort to look behind
him.
Wild eyes those were, with more white in them than I had ever seen. I was
reminded strongly of the bulging, frantic eyes of cattle at the slaughter.
“My lord, my lord, my lord, you kill an innocent man!”
“Indeed?” I asked, my voice once again calm. “Gregor…” And here I affected
the utmost sincerity. “I am a hard man and cannot tolerate any degree of
duplicity. I am cruel to those who betray me, but just to the loyal. Can you
swear before God that you have acted with naught but total faithfulness towards
me, your sovereign?”
“I swear it before God, my lord!”
I paused for a moment to watch his expression, and the wild swing there
between hope and doom. After a time, I said, “Very well, my friend. These are
dangerous times for me; I have no choice but to test the loyalty of those in my
inner circle. I believe you.”
Oh, the joy upon his face! And once again tears, but these were tinged with
happy relief instead of fear.
“But,” said I, for he had begun to struggle to his feet.
At that word, he sank at once back down. “You have passed only narrowly. Pray
now for my victory over all enemies—and thank God for your deliverance.”
He began to do so, and his exultant smile broadened when I motioned for the
soldier—now bitterly disap pointed—to retreat back to the fireplace, to stand
beside the grimly silent old monk. But I remained within the doorway.
And when I deemed the time right—and could no longer restrain my fury at
Gregor’s betrayal and his cow ardice—I reached for a wooden lever set within the
wall just outside the cell. With vehement effort, I pulled.
The sliding sound of wood against wood. Arms flung into the air, a piteous
cry of disappointment and fear. And upon his face animal terror again, a sight
rapid yet indelible in the swift second before he disappeared down to Hell.
Then the sharper screams of pain as I ran forward towards the gaping trapdoor
to observe my handiwork.
This is how God feels when He looks on the faces of the dead: a sense of
power and accomplishment far, far sweeter and more intoxicating than love.
Gregor had fallen into the shallow pit upon his knees, and thus, kneeling,
would he die. For the keenly sharp iron pales were fastened in the ground at
regular intervals, to ensure death, and the pit so placed that he could not fall
forward—only back, despite his flailing, onto the spikes. (This so I might
better see his face.) One had caught his long dark hair and grazed the back of
his skull, leaving his head tilted slightly forward; another emerged bloodied
from his right breast. Yet others protruded from the crook of his right arm,
from the center of his left palm (in Christlike fashion), while others sight
unseen no doubt pierced his lower legs and held him fast.
His eyes were open wide, in blank astonishment which was slowly fading. I
think he was not quite dead, and so I squatted on my haunches and called softly
down:
“May God send your faithless soul straight to Hell. You shall die, and
Basarab shall die, but I shall live for ever.”
And I bent forward, turning so that the two living men behind me could not
see, and lifted up Gregor’s limp right hand. Upon this I put my own ring.
Then I rose and sent the young soldier just outside the room, to guard us,
and took the old monk aside. Him I gave a mission: that he should take whatever
strong young brothers he needed, and take the body across the lake into the
Vlasia Forest, and there behead it. As for the head, they would cut a hole in
the ice and throw it into the freezing waters.
Fear was in the old man, too, after what he had seen; he listened in silence
and uttered no protest, even though I was asking him to do the unthinkable—to
leave a body without proper burial for the carrion birds in the forest.
And when I had sent him away to do his work, I called my eager young assassin
into my chambers and said, “The old monk will return with some brothers to fetch
the body for burial outside Snagov. When they return from across the water, I
want you to be waiting for them in the watchtower; do not let them back inside,
but meet them at the gate and kill them.”
This he agreed to eagerly. Then I bade him send an other trustworthy soldier
to stand outside the door and guard my private chambers throughout the night, so
that no one should be permitted in.
But first, I helped him to remove Gregor’s still bleed ing, warm body (did he
still breathe? I could not decide) from its bed of stakes and wrap it in the
traitor’s cloak and the now-tattered rug, to spare the floor from stain. Then
the soldier dragged Gregor by the heels out into the hallway, and there they
remained to await the brothers.
As for me, I bolted the door behind them, as I required privacy in order to
properly cast a Circle. Now that I had made my escape from Basarab and my Judas,
it was time to make my escape from Death. For it was clear to me that my success
as an earthly prince was not to be, and that if I remained as I was, my death
was assured. Thus I sought another realm, one that was deathless yet still
allowed me power over mortals.
And so I turned, thinking to go back to the small shrine where so many have
met death, and fetch from another hidden trapdoor my magical tools, that I might
cast a Circle and summon again the Dark Lord for the consummation of our
bargain.
Yet as I turned, I espied before the fireplace a ragged servant child
stirring the fire with a poker. The sight so startled me that I cried out: “You!
Boy! How and when did you come in here?” For I wanted to know whether the child
had had opportunity to overhear my plan to leave Gregor’s decapitated body in
the forest, then have the monks killed. From the child’s size, he surely was no
more than in his sixth year, and most likely had understood little of what he
had heard; but children are parrots, and I would not risk even the frailest
chance of failure.
At my shout, the tiny creature did not so much as quiver, but continued
tending the fire with preternatural calm. Infuriated, I strode up behind it,
snatched up my sword, and drew it from its sheath, thinking to cleave that small
body in two.
But in the instant ere I struck, the child turned to me and smiled.
Boy? Girl? I could not have said. I only knew in that instant that I gazed
upon the most exquisitely beautiful creature I had ever seen. Its long, curling
hair shone like gold in sunlight, its skin gleamed like polished nacre, its lips
bloomed like the tenderest pink rose around the perfect pearls of its teeth. The
wool cape round its frail shoulders was tattered almost to shreds, frayed, worn,
and so smudged with grime that the fabric’s original colour was impossible to
guess. Yet the filth did not dim the wearer’s glory, but served to enhance it by
the contrast.
Surely there was nothing in this world lovelier or more delicate than this
small creature. Yet it was not until I gazed into its eyes—eyes bluer than sea
or sky or sapphire, framed by fine golden lashes and pale downy brows—that I saw
the infinite intelligence there, the wisdom and knowledge greater than any man
could ever possess… and at the same time, an innocence deeper and more genuine
than any human infant could possess. I thought, These are the eyes of the
Christ.
My weapon clattered to the floor. Despite myself, I shuddered, but through
sheer strength of will did not fall to my knees; pride would not permit me so
soon to echo Gregor. But—how difficult to be honest—I was filled with awe and
fear.
For I knew I looked upon the Dark Lord, come to me for the first time without
my summoning Him in Circle. Always He had come at my urging; I had been
the one in control of my fate, of my contract with Him. The Circle gave me power
over Him, made me His lord, made Him subject to my command—so long as I
was willing to make the appropriate sacrifice.
Now, it seemed, He was no longer mine to control. The thought provoked bitter
horror.
“You are the Dark One,” I told Him, though in truth I had never seen anything
so bright and shining as this smiling little pauper. He had come to me many
times in the form of darkness, as the featureless shadow of a man blacker than
midnight; twice, he had come to me as a bearded man more ancient and wizened
than the old monk, with eyes as innocent and wise as these.
Innocent as a dove, yet wise as a serpent…
“I am He,” said the little beauty pleasantly. “I have read your intent and
have saved you the need for a formal summons. What do you offer in exchange for
my gift, O Prince?” He spoke with a soft, lisping child’s voice, yet his words
and demeanour were those of a sage.
“If you have read my intent, then you already know.”
He laughed, sweet and high. “Let us affirm the contract by your stating it.”
I paused. I had never had great regard for any of my family, because of my
betrayal at the hands of my own father and brother. And I had no love for my
second wife, the Hungarian noblewoman Ilona; she had been like my conversion to
Catholicism, or the raid on Srebrenica, one part of a long-term plan to win King
Matthias’ favor and thus my freedom and kingdom. She had given me two sons: my
namesake Vlad, for the moment heir to the Wallachian throne (though
unfortunately not to my intelligence), and Mircea, who even in his youth clearly
resembles my treacherous brother, Radu, in both appearance and feminine
affectation.
But of all my family, I possessed—still possess—some paternal interest in my
eldest son, Mihnea, given me by my beloved dead Ana. He alone shares my
shrewdness and ambition; were I to choose one person on earth I should least
wish to sacrifice, it would be he.
Yet I was a keen and ambitious child, eager to learn from my father and
fulfill my duties as his heir, and he betrayed me without hesitation to the
Turks.
So it was I answered, “In return for immortality, I offer up the soul of my
eldest son.”
“Not enough,” replied He sternly, to my astonishment. “Not enough; for
immortality lasts forever, but my pleasure at receiving Mihnea’s soul is
temporary. We must have a continuing bargain. The soul of the eldest
son of each generation. And you shall bear the responsibility for delivering it
to me.”
I paused only a heartbeat at the thought of such a responsibility’s cost.
“Very well. Each generation, I shall deliver into your power the eldest son. But
at what moment shall I become immortal?”
“The change shall begin this night, once the sun has set, and be accomplished
by the dawn. One warning: In the morning you must closet yourself away to rest
undisturbed. You will no longer be a man, but an altogether different creature.”
“How shall I be changed?”
The child smiled, but there was no contempt, no condescension, in His eyes.
“That depends upon your own heart and mind. For each one it is different. You
shall become more powerful, but there will be conditions upon that power. There
are always conditions. I leave you to discover them yourself.”
“Conditions?” I savoured this new information, and experienced a sudden
revelation which restored a shred of my former confidence that I should be able
to control this entity, and thus my ultimate fate. “And have you no
conditions upon your own power?”
Another laugh, sweet and tinkling, then silence. The child regarded me with
abrupt solemnity. “There remains only one thing to be done to complete our
exchange.”
As he spoke, the flesh upon my arms and nape prickled. This was the moment I
had long awaited, the moment which had sustained me during these last bitter
days of knowing my earthly kingdom and my life would soon be forfeit: the moment
I stepped over the threshold into immortality.
“A kiss,” the Dark One said. “Only a kiss.” And He stepped from the hearth
and rose on tiptoe, arms at His sides, the pink petals of His lips pursed in
anticipation.
I moved towards Him, at last understanding as I sank down why He had appeared
as a child: that I should have to bow to Him to accept His gift. The thought
rankled, as I have bowed to no one but my father and Matthias, and then only
with reluctance. It also filled me with foreboding, for it underscored the fact
that the Dark Lord was no longer mine to control, and summon when I wished; I
was now under His control.
But I could not accept death, and so I bowed and kissed Him. And at the
moment my lips touched that infinitely tender and immortal flesh, I felt a surge
of power, of exhilaration, move from Him into me.
I stared into His eyes and saw them deepen from sky-blue to indigo, the
colour of night. Dark and shining they were, and magnificent, eyes that made a
man want to do nothing but stare into them for eternity. I could not resist. As
I looked deep into those eyes, I saw in them the gaze of the Beloved, the gaze
of the dead. The gaze of the only female I had permitted myself to love, my dead
Ana; the seductive, beautiful, treacherous gaze of Radu; the shrewd, calculating
gaze of my father, Vlad, and behind it, infinite Darkness…
So deep did I fall into that Darkness that when I came to myself some
moments—or was it hours?—later, I opened my eyes to find myself kneeling before
the hearth. The child had vanished, and the fire had gone out, leaving only ash
and glowing embers. Yet I felt no chill; my limbs, my head, my chest, were
atingle with strange sensation. Not the tingle of limbs gone numb, but rather an
odd sense of internal movement, as though my body had been emptied of its
contents, then refilled with humming bees. I felt strangely light. And when I
rose to my feet, I did so easily, without the pains of age and creaking bones
that have afflicted me these past years.
Even my vision was enhanced; the glow from the ashes in the fireplace seemed
impossibly bright and kissed by rainbow colours. Indeed, as I gazed around the
room, I saw each object more sharply and in more detail than I ever had as a
youth; each was imbued with a startling depth of colour and texture. I turned
slowly, taking in each sight with a child’s sense of wonder and laughing aloud
at the sheer pleasure of it. I could see every sparkling grain of sand that
comprised each stone in the hearth, every hair-fine crack in the mortar.
Yet the light from the tapers (which were still burning, though half consumed
and standing in pools of wax) dazzled my eyes so painfully that I blew out each
but one. That meagre light proved more than sufficient, for the colour and
detail faded not at all, even though a swift glance through the window showed
darkness and swirling snow. The sun had set, and the storm come at last.
I hurried to the mirror, eager to inspect my face for changes—but alas! When
I peered into the polished metal surface, my visage was paler and indistinct,
fading away as one might imagine a ghost dissolves into night. I had feared such
might happen, for I had heard tales from my nursemaid and other servants about
the faces of the dead not reflecting in mirrors. Was the undisclosed cost of my
bargain invisibility?
A discreet knock at the door: I called out and heard in reply the polite
voice of my young assassin. The monks had returned from the forest and had been
killed according to my instructions.
As a test to see whether I remained visible to mortals, I opened the door and
peered out at the scraggly-bearded soldier. “Excellent,” said I, expecting him
to scream at my disembodied voice, or instead to walk past me and peer beyond
me, searching for me inside the room.
At the very least, I expected him to see what I saw: a disappearing man. Yet
he gazed directly at my face, and bowed, giving no sign of distress or
amazement. “Very good, my lord,” said he, and I told him to ready my horse and
bring it to the palace, for I would be leaving the monastery shortly.
“But the snow has come, my lord. It is not safe for travel.”
I laughed in disdain, then repeated my request and gave him leave to go. I no
longer possess any fear of cold or snow or Basarab. I fear but one thing: the
Dark Lord.
The horse stands ready now, but I am obliged to write the story of my
transformation down first, for surely over the coming centuries I shall forget
the circumstances and the wonder of it. One day soon the announcement shall be
made that the Wallachian prince is dead, for it is only a matter of time before
Gregor’s headless body is discovered in the forest. I have no doubt that Basarab
has laid waste to my army and my castle at Bucharest, but I have my victory. In
a generation, he shall be dead, whilst I shall live forever. I have sent a
courier with a message for Ilona and my sons to meet me at our new estate in the
Carpathians.
And now I ride north, to become Legend.
Chapter 1
Letter from Vlad Dracula, Bistritsa, to E. Bathory, Vienna:
15 April 1893
Dearest Cousin:
It seems like centuries since last we corresponded, and longer still
since you and I met in the flesh. Much has happened since that time; I have
encountered difficulties of a grave nature—
so grave, in fact, that I
know not whom to call upon for aid save you, my shrewd and talented cousin.
Will you come, Elisabeth? Unfortunately, I find myself too compromised to
travel at present, or I would have gone to Vienna to make my request in person,
to spare you the journey here. I promise you sweet reward, and the delight of
meeting my charming niece Zsuzsanna and her maidservant Dunya, who have both
become my eternal companions. I promise also that I shall be as beholden to you
as I was to your ancestor Stefan of Bathory, who so long ago fought by the side
of a certain Prince Vlad Dracula to help him reclaim his throne. Once again, I
rely on your family’s loyalty and kindness.
Come quickly, for time is of the essence. Any guest you might bring would
be truly welcomed.
Your grateful servant, V.
Chapter 2
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
(Translated from the Dutch)
2 May 1893. EVENING.
So quiet here at home, and so sad. The student nurse, Katya, was still here
when I arrived home from my lecture at the hospital, and so I took my dinner and
went in to sit with Gerda for a time. As usual, no change, though I told her the
simple details of my day and the neighbors’ news in as cheerful a tone as I
could command. It is becoming increasingly difficult, for she is becoming a
skeleton. I fear she will die before Zsuzsanna is destroyed.
Now I sit watching Mama as she sleeps. I am glad again to stand the night
watch over her, and always restless when I must be away after sunset. (Gerda I
am not so concerned about; the mark on her throat means that little further harm
can be done her.) Katya stays the night when I must be away, and was able to
come this evening during my lecture. She is young but responsible and
levelheaded and can handle any medical emergency—though it is not those I fear
so much now that Mama nears the Abyss. I have sworn to my mother that I will see
her safely to the other life—not that her poor diseased brain comprehended what
I told her, though I know her spirit understands. I will let no vampire deprive
her of an honest death.
But it is so hard to watch her die.
She looks a bit worse tonight, with her once-beautiful silver hair spread
brittle and tangled upon the pillow, her face sallow and haggard and pinched
from constant pain.
It is hard to see her thus—she who had been my one comfort and strength
during all these difficult years. Since little Jan died so many years ago (can
it truly be twenty-two now? The pain is so fresh), leaving my poor dear Gerda
quite mad, Mama and I have depended so upon each other. We were all that
remained of our little family. She was uncomplaining and brave, even all those
many nights when I would travel and be gone for days—or rather, nights—at a
time, ridding the world of Vlad’s evil spawn. At times, I feel guilt at leaving
her to accomplish my grisly work, but I know she would have it no other way. How
else shall I avenge the death of her little grandson and of her first and truest
love, my father, Arkady? How else shall I give them and all my victims peace?
What a blessing it would be to have my father here now, to have his
knowledgeable help (yet how strange to write this of one who was a vampire).
Remembering back to the first days after I had met him, and my unkindness to
him, my repulsion and mistrust, I am ashamed. For—from what Mama has told me and
what I learned from her diary and from my interaction with the man himself—he
was clearly the noblest of souls, and died in an heroic effort to save us all
from evil. Even the curse of vampirism could not sully his good heart.
Mama’s cheeks and eyes seem more sunken tonight as well, no doubt because of
dehydration; Katya said she vomited her supper and would take no more, not even
water. She had also been moaning in agony—damnable tumours!—so I administered an
injection of morphia and now she sleeps peacefully. (I would take the drug
myself if I did not fear its addictive properties, or the fuzzy-headedness it
causes; I must always remain as alert as possible. As for Mama, I cannot deny
her. What does it matter if she dies addicted, so long as she is not in pain?)
I yearn for peaceful sleep myself; mine has been uneasy of late, and filled
with dreams which disturb me. I am convinced they contain some cryptic message I
might decipher, and so I have brought my journal into Mama’s room to write as I
sit in the old rocking-chair where she had so often comforted me in my
childhood.
So here is the dream: I am running with boyish glee through a great evergreen
forest. The air is fresh and cool, scented with pine and recent rain; the tall
trees’ limbs and needles sparkle with droplets of moisture. I run and run,
gasping and laughing, keeping my arm up so that the lower boughs do not slap my
face.
But soon my glee turns to panic, for I hear footsteps behind me. Someone
pursues me; I glance over my shoulder and catch a glimpse through the glistening
boughs of Gerda, my wife. But it is Gerda monstrously Changed: her dark, dark
eyes slant like the vampiress Zsuzsanna’s, and her teeth are just as long and
sharp. Like a wolf she growls low in her throat as she gives chase, her long
brown hair streaming.
I cry out and run faster, faster, for I know she means to destroy me.
Of a sudden, I stumble over a fallen tree trunk— slowly, ever so slowly, with
the great detail one experiences only in dreams. My forward foot becomes trapped
between the damp earth and the heavy limb; my arms go flying forward as they
scribe an arc in the air on their descent. My other leg goes up in the air also,
following its own arc as I go down, down, my palms finally sinking into a thick
carpet of wet twigs and pine needles.
My face strikes the fragrant earth. When I lift it at last, pushing up with
my arms against the yielding ground, I see…
(Why is this image so disturbing? Why does my pulse accelerate even now as I
write?)
I see a great dark creature—dark in the sense of pitch blackness, of an
absence of light so intense it seemed someone had taken scissors and cut away
that small portion of the world. A wolf, I think in fear; but no, it is no wolf.
A bear? No.
And, at a distance, my angelic mentor, Arminius, looks on dispassionately—as
shining and white as the hideous creature is black. His face is pink and unlined
as a child’s beneath his snowy beard, and his pure unsullied raiment gleams
blinding in the sun. Like Moses, he holds a tall wooden staff, and beside him
stands his familiar, Archangel, the tame white wolf.
“Arminius, help me!” I scream, and continue screaming until I am hoarse. But
he gives no sign of recognition or acknowledgment, nor does Archangel; and he
and the wolf remain detached onlookers.
Hopeless, horrified, I watch as the black silhouette metamorphoses from
animal predator into human, shrinking first to a child, then ballooning swiftly
to the shape of a man.
“Who are you?” I demand, trembling; despite my bravado, my cheeks are wet
with tears.
No answer. An interminable length of time follows, during which the
creature’s outline gradually enlarges. I know it means to surround and absorb
me—to devour me utterly—and I am afraid.
“Who are you?” I demand again, and after a heart-stopping pause, I hear the
answer whispered in my own mind, in my Gerda’s voice:
The Dark Lord…
I am engulfed, and swoon from pure nocturnal terror. Abruptly I wake, heart
pounding against my ribs like a captive demanding freedom.
My occult research has proven to me beyond doubt that such dreams are omens.
Yet, try as I might, I cannot ascertain its meaning. Does the Devil Himself
approach me? I do not even believe strictly in the concept, though I know there
are a plentitude of entities in this world and elsewhere which are not human,
yet are possessed of equal or greater intelligence.
I yearn for the comfort and help of Arkady’s presence, though I know he is
dead and cannot help me. But there is one who can.
Arminius! Arminius, my friend and teacher, you who guided me in the most
difficult times during my past, you who trained me as the slayer of the undead.
So many years ago you abandoned me, and I do not even know how to summon you.
You who are immortal are surely still alive.
Arminius, help me…
Zsuzsanna Dracul’s Diary
2 MAY 1893.
For an interminable succession of years I have been trapped inside this
castle watching the disintegration of my benefactor, Vlad, from strong, handsome
immortal to the most piteously gruesome husk of a selfish monster. Worse, I know
the same horrible change has overtaken me; when I braid my hair, I am forced to
acknowledge a preponderance of silver where once there was only jet. And my
hands! I see them now as I dip my pen. They are such poor, frail, withered
things, pale parchment over bone. If they are this hideous, what has become of
my once-beautiful face?
It has been more than I can bear, in part because of my helplessness, and
Vlad’s. We have both come to hate each other because of our misery—and it is all
the fault of that bastard Stefan! (Bastard I shall call him, though he is the
legitimate heir of my dead brother, Arkady. He deserves to be called by fouler
terms than that!) Or shall I call him by his alias, Van Helsing? He has
discovered somehow that the covenant works both ways: that each time he destroys
Vlad’s spawn—those few we failed to properly dispose of ourselves (we dislike
creating competitors) and all
their many offspring—we are weakened. Our
doom seemed inevitable, for we had no choice over these two long decades but to
languish here, especially now that we are too weak even to hunt nourishment.
Last evening Vlad came to me—his skin grey as a corpse’s, his eyes sunken and
red, his hair and eyebrows stark, brittle white. And yet his pale lips were
curved in a smile, and his voice oddly animated with excitement as he said:
“Zsuzsanna. If we take no action, we shall soon be so weak that Van Helsing will
come and easily destroy us. But no—do not weep on our account, for I have good
news!”
For I had broken into sobs, so perfect was my misery; and now to think that I
who had been filled with such power, such happiness, such hope, could only wait
helplessly for final, eternal oblivion…
But he waved me silent, and said vehemently, “Do not cry because of
him.
He thinks he is powerful enough to defeat us, but he will soon see his error. He
will not escape me; I shall soon see him delivered into my hands. But here is
the news: A mortal visitor will soon arrive at the castle, a healthy young man…
Do not sigh, for that is not the extent of it. I have received a letter, child,
from my cousin Elisabeth.”
“Elisabeth?” I had never before heard him utter the name, and in any case did
not understand why this should be such a glorious thing, for his voice rose
exultantly, as if he had announced our deliverance.
“An immortal like us. She is powerful and canny, shrewd enough to defeat your
brother’s son. And she
will do so. But first, she will come to us from
Vienna, and restore us to strength.”
“How is this possible?” I asked, and at once realised my question was a
foolish one. Of course this Elisabeth would be able to bring us an even larger
amount of fresh, vital blood than one lone man could supply. That would at least
ease the weakness that came from hunger, but certainly we could not recapture
our full vigour until Van Helsing’s rampage was ended.
The instant my question was stated, Vlad drew back, and his eyes grew wider,
redder, with a rage I did not understand. “That is not your concern!” he
snapped, and in an instant was gone again from my room.
Clearly this Elisabeth is a
most powerful woman— more powerful than
Vlad himself, else I would not have detected the clear note of jealousy in his
voice. Yes, he brought me into this existence, and for that I must be always
grateful. At the same time, I have come to despise him—despise him for his
cruelty, his arrogance, his lies. To him, I am nothing more than chattel, at
best an occasional companion, to be treated however he desires and dismissed
without concern for my feelings when he tires of me. He gave me the dark kiss
all those fifty years ago because in life I was timid, grateful, grovelling,
smitten with love for him. And now that I am transformed into the strong,
confident creature I was meant to be, he grows bored, even annoyed. When last he
went out of the castle to hunt many months ago (for all of us are too weak for
the long ride through the pass to Bistritsa, to post mail and thus invite guests
to our castle, as we did in the old days—or so I had thought), I voiced a
protest: Why was I required to remain behind like a prisoner of this castle,
waiting for whatever small gift he chose to bring back, after he had supped to
his content? For his custom was to bring me only an infant or a pale, anaemic
child—to keep me weaker than he, I realise now, so that he should always be the
one in control.
Had I possessed any physical strength, I should have defied him; but the
first time he offered to hunt for us all, I honestly thought it was out of
kindness, and so I accepted gratefully. And when he returned with only a tiny
newborn for me to share with Dunya, he was full of profuse apologies and
excuses. So it was that the second time he went out, I foolishly believed he
would bring us something grand: a strapping youth or strong peasant woman.
But no; he returned with a single sickly infant. And I drank from it out of
pure necessity, as I was faint with hunger, and shared what I could bear with
Dunya. Afterwards, I was as he had hoped—far too weak even to protest when he
went to hunt again.
Just as I am weak tonight; after Vlad left, I lay down. Night used to bring
such sweet exhilaration; now it only brings consciousness and misery. There have
been times (like tonight) when exhaustion has made me refuse to rise from my
coffin—which used to lie beside his, but now is confined to Dunya’s servant’s
quarters because he grew annoyed at my proximity. I lie here and weep and
consider that I should close my eyes and greet true death here, that this might
indeed become my final resting place.
Poor Dunya! I look over at her, lying motionless in her coffin. I fear she
will greet the Absolute before me, for she is the weakest of us all; she rarely
emerges from her slumber, but lies with pale, pale lids drawn down over dark
eyes. Years ago, when I was strong and beautiful, I took pity upon her,
thinking,
Why must she remain an anguished mortal, under our control,
neither alive nor dead? And so I led her gently through death into the dark
life. Vlad was furious, of course—“How shall we accomplish those things which
can only be done during the light of day if we have no mortal servant?” he
roared, and for weeks would speak to neither of us.
I did not care; Dunya has been as sweet and constant a companion as she ever
was. Her suffering was replaced by a marvellous delight, and we two have shared
all joys as sisters might. It was Dunya who suggested I commission a portrait of
myself, which I could use in place of the looking-glass, that I might not have
to rely on her descriptions. So it was done—by a mortal artist whose trembling
hands happily did not impede his skill—and out of gratitude, I commissioned a
separate, smaller portrait of Dunya.
Now my dear companion is only a pitiful, aged shadow of the beauty that hangs
upon the wall (as I must be also). In her coffin she lies with arms crossed over
her breast like a corpse, and looks for all the world like a dead crone, her
face worn and withered and waxen, her thin lips drawn back tightly over sharp
yellowed teeth. How I miss all those nights when we would hold hands and whisper
our dreams into each other’s ear! I cannot bear to see her so…
But the promise of Elisabeth has brought hope, and thus for the first time in
many years I have risen and written in my journal. Can I truly reclaim my beauty
and exuberance?
* * *
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
3 May 1893.
How strange life is. We make our plans and expect everything to go according
to them—and then, in a single instant, everything is changed.
It had been a long, tiring night. News had come from The Hague of strange
nocturnal attacks on the citizens by a sharp-toothed predator, possibly a wolf.
And so after investigating, I travelled there and spent the darkness waiting
outside a grand mausoleum for the return of a wealthy, well-respected
businessman who had died of apoplexy after a Hungarian holiday. More grisly
work, but I am happy to state that he is now at peace.
I returned home as quickly as possible from the task, as Gerda had begun to
worsen terribly over the past two days. Early this morning I went to see her, as
is my custom before retiring. Usually I make a vain attempt to hypnotise her, to
see what news I can learn of Zsuzsanna and thus Vlad. But this morning when I
went in, she was not staring at the ceiling as she always does. No, her eyes
were closed, and her breathing laboured. I sat with her a long time, checking
her breath and pulse and aura and trying to ascertain the cause of her decline.
There is no physical reason for it, other than her psychic connexion with
Zsuzsanna. Of that I am certain. If she was weakening and near death, it meant
Zsuzsanna was the same.
The day I had so diligently been working towards for a quarter-century was
now here. As Arminius had said so long ago, the covenant works both ways: by
destroying Vlad’s evil children, I weaken him—and strengthen myself. And at last
the moment had come when I was the stronger, and could deliver Vlad his
long-overdue fate.
So after I left her I did not go to bed; instead, I began to pack my trunk
and checked the timetables to see which trains were headed east, and when. My
hope was that, if I could arrive in Transylvania and dispatch both Vlad and
Zsuzsanna in time, Gerda might be spared both death and a dark resurrection.
But I also knew that if I failed, it would not be safe for her to remain in
this house with Mama and Katya, nor for the mortician who kept her body for
burial. She could not stay here without the keen scrutiny of one who can
perceive the symptoms of encroaching vampirism, and knows how to keep the undead
at bay. As I packed, I puzzled upon this for some time, since there is no one in
Amsterdam I can trust with such a task.
But there is such an one in London: my friend John, with his lunatic asylum.
He does not know, about the details of my wife’s illness, but he is much
interested in occultism and possesses an open mind. If I instruct him as to
Gerda’s confinement and care, he will follow my orders to the letter.
I was composing a telegram to him in my own mind when the bell rang. I
answered it to find a stout German lady somewhat past middle age, with
iron-streaked brown hair, broad jaw, and a ruddy complexion laced with spidery
broken veins. (And, I admit, a vast, intimidating bosom; when she leaned from
the waist to bow, I quite expected her to topple forward.)
“Herr Van Helsing?” She smiled most pleasantly, and I knew at once that she
would make a suitable day nurse for Mama, for she projected both dependability
and kindness. I had no need for psychic protection around her—she even wore a
crucifix, hidden beneath her black widow’s weeds—and so I relaxed and smiled as
I motioned her inside.
“And you must be Frau Koehler,” I answered in German, and at the sound of her
native tongue, she positively beamed.
As I led her upstairs to Mama’s room, we made pleasant small talk about the
ease with which she had located my house, and about how I had been referred to
her by a colleague.
Once we’d entered Mama’s bedroom, she fell silent and gazed with reverence
upon her prospective patient, then crossed herself at the sight of the crucifix
hanging over the bed.
“Ah,” she said with forthright sympathy. “She is dying, yes?”
“Yes.”
“How sad for you!” Her tone was that of one who had been through the same
terrible experience closehand. “And are you alone? I see no wife, no children…”
I sensed a glimmer of marital hope in the widow Koehler’s eyes and aspect. “I
have a wife,” I said at once, suddenly overwhelmed by bitterness at the
recollection of how she had been taken from me in spirit; and by the
recollection of my little Jan, taken in body by the vampires —by Zsuzsanna, the
vile demoness for whom I can find no forgiveness in my heart. “But Gerda, too,
is ill—”
“How doubly sad! God has given you a heavy burden.” She tilted her wide,
strong-jawed face towards me and studied me with at least as much pity as she
had directed towards Mama. “Then there shall be two patients?”
“No. I am taking my wife with me to London, to consult a specialist. My
mother has an excellent nurse who relieves me during the night; but now that I
must be gone, I need someone to care for her by day.”
“Ah. And what is your wife’s difficulty?”
“Shock,” said I. At the horror of being bitten, and finding that the attacker
had stolen her firstborn son.
“And our patient?” she asked gently, turning her kind gaze once again upon
Mama.
“Tumours of the breast and now, I think, the brain and elsewhere. She is not
altogether lucid; usually she sleeps because of the morphia. There is pain.”
She clicked her tongue softly. “And what is her name, sir, if I might ask?”
Van Helsing, the same as mine, I almost replied. But her demeanour
was so much that of a trusted family friend that I answered, “Mary.”
“Mary.” She savoured the word with loving approval. “The Mother of God. Such
a good name…” And she went over to sit in the rocking-chair beside the bed. “And
I am Helga,” she said, lifting Mama’s hand from beneath the sheets and pressing
it gently between her own, as if she were introducing herself and exchanging
information. I doubt the woman was aware of what she was doing, but it was clear
to me that she was a natural psychic.
After a time, she confirmed this by looking over her shoulder at me and
saying: “You are a good man, sir, and very brave. I also know in my heart that
your mother is a good woman. I shall be happy to give her excellent care.
And if God wills that she should die while you are gone, do not think that
she died alone or with a stranger, for I shall care and pray for her as if she
were my own sister.“
I turned away, clumsily pretending to gaze out the window at that moment, for
her compassion quite touched me. And when I am moved, suppressed grief wells
within me and shatters my defenses like floodwaters breaking a dam; I could not
prevent tears from spilling, but I moved quickly to wipe them away and recover
myself.
“Weep, sir,” she said behind me, and I heard the soft sound of her patting
Mama’s hand—as if Mama were fully conscious and aware of my tears, and Frau
Koehler wished to comfort her. “You have a right to.”
I feigned a cough so that I could withdraw my kerchief and wipe nose and
eyes, then turned apologetically towards the two women and nodded at Mama, whose
eyelids had begun to flicker. “Not so much right as she. She is the one
who is suffering, not I.”
“Untrue, sir. Because you love her, all her suffering has become yours. And
because you are more able to keenly observe it, you are even more aware of its
extent than she. Is it not more painful to see someone you love suffer than to
endure that suffering yourself?”
I wanted to protest, for a part of me was incensed to think that I
suffered more than Mama. Yet I could not deny that because I was conscious,
lucid, and still graced with adequate eyesight, I could look upon my mother’s
face and see the wasting there, see the lines traced by years of grief, see the
sunken cheeks and slightly jaundiced skin. See, also, the raw bleeding bedsores
devour her flesh while she screamed in anguish in a futile effort to void. Her
whole life has been pain: the loss of two husbands, a son, a grandson, terror of
a fate truly worse than death. All this she has borne cheerfully,
courageously—and for what purpose? To die in agony after an unhappy existence?
To lose all her dignity and beauty—
I must not continue, or I shall break down weeping again. Enough, enough!
It took me some time to compose myself sufficiently to answer Frau Koehler:
“It is difficult, indeed. But I am some judge of character myself, and I
perceive that you will give my mother such wonderful and compassionate care that
I need have no worry.” And I shook off all grief and tried to change my tone to
that of the brisk businessman. “Is it true that you can start this morning? For
my trip cannot wait; the sooner I and my wife leave, the better. I should like
to have you stay now, if you can, while I pack and make arrangements.”
“I would be pleased to stay,” she said, rising, and gently replacing Mama’s
hand upon the covers.
“Excellent!”
I showed her where all the medical necessities were kept in the bedroom: the
syringe, the morphia, the bedpan and paregoric, the salve and bandages for the
bedsores. She was well trained and quite intelligent, and we soon swiftly
dispensed with the details of the patient’s care. The time then came to escort
her down to my office so that I might pay her an advance portion of her salary.
But as I led her back towards the staircase, a sudden cry—muted, so that I
could not judge whether it was joyous or agonised—pricked the small hairs at the
nape of my neck. For an instant, I feared it was Mama, calling out in pain; but
then realisation dawned, so forcefully, so fearfully, that the gooseflesh on my
neck branched downward to my spine and arms.
Twenty-two years had passed since I had last heard my wife’s voice; thus I
had not recognised it at once.
With neither explanation nor apology to Frau Koehler, I turned and ran at
once down the hallway and into Gerda’s room.
And there she sat in the bed—eyes open, shining, all signs of weakness
vanished. My heart felt as though it had flipped over in my chest, and for a
fleeting instant I dared hope that she was returned to me, that Zsuzsanna and
Vlad had both been destroyed and that my darling was now freed.
Alas! Her eyes, though open, remained fixed upon a distant and invisible
vision. But she was strong, radiant, her skin no longer pale but slightly
flushed, as though she had recently taken sun, and her hair—her hair! Still
dishevelled above the long, neat braid Katya faithfully tended each night… but
every streak of silver had departed from her sable-brown locks.
I peered again at her face, unable to believe what my own eyes perceived, but
there it was: she had grown younger since the early morning. Every grey hair,
every wrinkle and fold of sagging flesh, had disappeared.
“Gerda!” I breathed, then louder: “Gerda, my darling, can you hear me?”
She gave no sign of either hearing or seeing me, but something she regarded
in the invisible distance made her face brighten with pure joy. “She has come!”
she said, and laughed aloud. “She has come…”
“Who?” I urged, as Frau Koehler came and stood in the doorway, watching in
silent amazement. “Who has come, darling?”
She replied not a word, but began gradually to calm as I watched her in
silence. After a time, her lips curved upward in a brilliant smile, revealing
slightly elongated eyeteeth.
“Amazing,” the nurse whispered behind me. “What shall I do, sir? Do you still
intend to take your wife to London?”
“I—I do not know.” I stared at Gerda, stricken. Her joyous cry had made me
dare hope, but now I saw that all was lost. For Gerda’s moods and health had,
for the last twenty-two years, been tied to those of Zsuzsanna. If Gerda was now
young and strong and healthy, it meant that Zsuzsanna was too—and Vlad.
And Gerda was beginning to Change.
What had the vampire done to strengthen himself and his consort?
I promised the good Frau Koehler that I should be in touch with her directly
once a decision had been made, and quickly dismissed her so that I could return
to Gerda’s bedside.
Efforts to rouse my wife from trance failed, as did all attempts at hypnosis
(which I knew would probably be futile, given the time of day). Yet I was
determined to sit with her and learn what I could; so I locked the windows and
rose, thinking to lock the door behind me—from the outside, so that Gerda could
not escape. There was little chance she would, since I had fastened crucifixes
and the Host over the lintel of door and window, but. the extra safeguard
reassured me.
Yet before I had passed over the threshold, she whispered a single phrase:
“The Dark Lord…”
It seemed at once a question and an admission of fear, voiced in an
apprehensive yet curious tremolo.
I froze in the doorway, overtaken by terror at the abrupt mental image of the
dark, devouring creature in my dream.
Who is this creature, and why are even the undead afraid of his name?
Arminius! Arminius, my rescuer of times past, do not remain silent any
longer. Help me!
Chapter 3
Zsuzsanna Dracul’s Diary
3 May 1893.
She has come!
I was lying in my casket, having awakened hours before but too overwhelmed
with exhaustion to rouse myself; there seemed no purpose in doing so, at any
rate. I felt like a dying woman who, at God’s insistence, was forced to live
beyond my time. I desired nothing more than to be released from my suffering.
And as I lay, I detected voices within the castle. At first they were only
barely audible murmurs, and in my self-pitying weakness, I paid no heed. (Once I
would have heard them distinctly, but my ability had faded to the degree that I
could distinguish only the voice and the cadence, but not the words.) They
continued for some time, and then they neared, so that I could recognise one of
them: Vlad spoke with the tone of a cordial host, which thus far I have only
heard him use to welcome victims.
And then I heard another voice—one that, for a moment, I mistook for a man’s,
for it was deep and throaty and so utterly, confidently sensual that I thought,
I am in love… Thus I naturally assumed that the visitor he had
been expecting had arrived, but the thought evoked only pale joy. I knew that
Vlad would tend first to his own hunger, leaving only the dregs for me and Dunya.
If, in hopes of getting more, I dared interrupt him as he fed, his rage might
very well prompt him to deny me so much as a single drop.
Then came silence; or so I think, for I drowsed a time.
But I came to myself at once when suddenly this other laughed, an utterly
joyous sound which for an instant rose so high that I realised I was hearing
instead the voice of a woman.
Elisabeth…
Why did the knowledge of her arrival fill me with excitement? I cannot say,
for certainly I found in her far, far more than I could have anticipated; and I
am damned, therefore I dare not trust in the kindly interventions of God or
fate. I only know that I rose from my resting place at once and hurried down the
corridor and up the stairs to Vlad’s private chambers, from whence the laughter
had originated.
And when I arrived, I flung open the door without so much as a knock.
There before a burning fireplace stood Vlad, still ancient and white-haired,
but clearly more vigorous than he had been of late. His lips had taken on a rosy
hue, his shoulders were no longer stooped but straight and square, and for the
first time in years, he was in an excellent humour. But his smile faded
instantly at the sight of me, and his eyes flared red. I knew at once that I
would bear the brunt of his wrath again for my interruption.
But I cared not, for my gaze had fallen upon Elisabeth.
To say that she was comely is to slight her.
I am lovely beyond any
mortal—this I know from looking at Dunya, and from the portrait that hangs upon
my wall (though Dunya says oils cannot do justice to the shimmering
phosphorescence of my skin, or the molten golden gleam in my eyes).
But Elisabeth! She was beyond beauty: regal as a queen in a modern plumed cap
and fitted satin gown of pewter-blue, with sapphire eyes to match, and skin as
fine and white as an infant child’s, save where the tenderest pink bloomed upon
her cheeks and lips. Her hair was tied at the nape of her neck—a delicate
porcelain swan’s neck, with the most bewitching hollow at the collarbone—and the
curls brought forward onto one shoulder, where in the fire’s glow they shone
pale golden as the sun.
She was as fair as I am dark, and at that instant, had she been a man, I
would have fallen utterly in love. Even so, I believe I cried out weakly in awe;
and when she turned her brilliant, omniscient gaze on me, I feared I would
faint.
“Vlad, Vlad,” said she, in a voice deep as Lake Hermannstadt and soft as
smoke. “Will you not grant me the pleasure of introducing me to this lovely
lady?”
The question brought tears to my eyes, for I knew that I looked a walking
corpse and far from lovely. Her kindness touched me, and I managed a wavering
smile as Vlad —without protest, to my surprise—at once bowed and said:
“Countess Elisabeth Bathory of Csejthe. May I have the honour of presenting
to you my niece, Zsuzsanna Dracul.”
Elisabeth held out a hand, gloved in powder-blue and marvellously
perfumed—and, to my utter astonishment, warm. I took it and made with difficulty
a small courtesy as she said to Vlad, “And not Tsepesh? Have you discarded the
name entirely, then?”
He gave a solemn nod. His anger seemed to have entirely evaporated, as if he
was actually hesitant to berate me in front of this woman, seeing as my presence
pleased her. “While living, I was famed as the Impaler, the
tsepesh.
But now that I am immortal, I have other interests, and am more pleased to be
known as Dracula—the son of the Devil.”
“So the Dragon is indeed a Devil?” she asked cockily, then laughed—a sound as
sweet as her perfume. But she fell silent and turned her attention to me the
instant I murmured: “Your hand. It is warm—are you vampire or living? But you
are far too beautiful to be mortal…”
At that, her pink lips curved slyly, and she peered sidewise at Vlad from
beneath a fringe of golden lashes, with an expression that said,
Shall I
tell her? But he lowered his gaze with a grave expression—and I felt she
withheld something from me as she laughed ruefully and replied, “I am neither
young nor mortal, my dear, but I suppose that, compared to Vlad, I am still a
girl; I died a mere two hundred and eighty years ago.”
As she spoke, the sensation of swooning overtook me again, and I would have
fallen backward had she not caught my arms.
“Why, my dear Zsuzsanna, you are so weak! And how thoughtless we are to
insist you remain on your feet.” And she favoured Vlad with another enigmatic
glance, saying, “I should like to be alone with her for a time.”
Reluctance flitted over his features, but it was soon replaced by a look of
maliciously smug understanding, as if some wicked revelation had just come to
him. “Ah. Of course… She can lead you to her chambers. There is another one
there too—the serving-girl…”
“Even better,” answered she, and coiled a satiny arm round my waist. “Lead
on, Zsuzsanna.” Her aspect was one of helpfulness, as I was still unsteady on my
feet; and so I permitted myself to lean my cheek against her shoulder that I
might study that magnificent porcelain neck and breathe in her perfume. It had
been so long since I’d laid eyes upon immortal beauty that her striking
appearance quite overwhelmed me.
We made our way down the winding stairs while I listened to the music of
Elisabeth’s cello voice. She chattered on about her home in Vienna, of how
wonderful that city was, and I whispered in reply that I had travelled to that
city once and fallen in love with it.
“Well, then! You
will come to my house there, and enjoy all that I
have at your leisure. You are exhausted now for lack of power, but I can see
beneath this premature aging. You are far too beautiful a creature to languish
here in this desolate ruin of a castle.” She glanced over her shoulder as if in
recognition of Vlad’s keener hearing—but I said:
“Do not worry. He can no longer hear so well as—”
“I know precisely how well he can hear, and he cannot detect us at this
distance. Perhaps you were too weak to notice, but I did restore a modicum of
his former strength to him tonight.” She paused and turned her delicate features
towards me, the long gold-gleaming curls falling forward from her shoulder onto
an ample mother-of-pearl bosom. “We can speak in confidence now. My dear—did you
know that he directed me not to restore your power to you?”
My lips drew back in an angry grimace; I managed to press them together, but
still they quivered with rage. “He has been so cruel and heartless—you cannot
imagine! I have only been good to him, and obedient—”
“
Obedient.” She spat it out like the most onerous curse.
“—but he has tricked me, starved me until I was too weak even to hunt. For
half a century I have trusted him, thinking that he had honest concern, even
love, for me. He is my own uncle, whom I adored without reserve during my life,
and he has preyed upon my affection in order to deceive me.”
As I spoke, she came to a stop and listened intently to my words, her full
lips compressing gradually into a thin line. I told her of his “generous” offer
to hunt for us all, and of his cruelty to me and to poor Dunya. And when I had
ended, she said slowly, “It is as I thought. The stupid mediaeval bastard!” And
she took off again at full speed, dragging me along.
I broke into explosive laughter despite my weakness, and though I gasped, I
could not catch my breath—or stop my giggles—to reply. I had never heard anyone
refer to him without awe or fear, and to hear him so bluntly described startled
and pleased me without end.
“Ah, the term amuses you,” she said, her perfect forehead marred by the
crease of a frown. “But think: Is my term for him so inaccurate? The year is
1893, but Vlad thinks it is still 1476. He treats women like chattel; I would
not be surprised to hear that he has kept his serfs.”
Still grinning, I confided, “No, they fled fifty years ago, out of fear when
he broke the covenant…”
She drew her head sharply up and back, her gaze keen and searching. “The
covenant? His agreement with the Dark Lord? Is
this why I was called?”
“This has nothing to do with the Devil,” I said, and paused to gesture at my
chamber door, for we had arrived at our destination. “He had broken his vow not
to share immortality with one of his family, and the villagers all feared that
he might begin to feed on them. Why do you laugh?”
For she had pressed a hand to her white bosom, spreading the blue-gloved
fingers there, and begun to laugh without reserve. Indeed, she flung back her
head, causing the cascade of golden curls to fall behind her shoulder and spill
down her back. I drew my face close to hers and peered, mildly insulted that she
should find mirth in such a serious thing.
But injury soon changed to amazement, for at that proximity my weakened
vision could clearly detect her teeth: small, blindingly white, and even. And
precisely like a mortal’s, without the sharp, elongated eyeteeth.
“You are not a vampire,” I marvelled.
She sobered then, though her lips still curved in a half-moon crescent; and
keeping one arm round my waist, with her other hand she clasped mine, infusing
me with her warmth. “Zsuzsanna darling, I am what I wish to be. As for my
laughter—it is directed not at you but at Vlad, who obviously has infected you
with his mediaeval idiocy. My dear, there is no Devil.”
“Then what of the Dark Lord?” I had never encountered Him myself—in truth, I
would be afraid to do so— but I had overheard many of His encounters with Vlad.
Her lips twitched with faint amusement, but she restrained her merriment out
of consideration for me. “He is called the Dark Lord because that is what He
prefers to be called. And He is not necessarily a he.”
I stared at her, confounded, as she pushed open my chamber door and drew me
across the threshhold. “Come, my darling. You have much to learn.”
* * *
3 MAY 1893, CONTINUED.
Returned, returned—all my strength, all my power, all my joy and beauty,
returned!
Elisabeth led me inside my own chamber (which, appropriately, were now the
old servants’ quarters), where my polished black casket lay open beside Dunya’s.
Again she worked to repress a grin at the sight of the coffins, and was not
entirely successful. At my questioning glance, she murmured, “How very dramatic…
and how like Vlad. He has always been more obsessed with death than life.” She
turned to me. “Zsuzsanna—are you able to keep a stunning secret from Vlad?”
“I am. My thoughts are my own; he is not privy to them.”
“I did not mean that, my darling. I could protect your thoughts from
him—though this is indeed better, for it will not provoke his suspicion. I
meant: Can you keep patiently silent, even in the face of the most thrilling
revelation?”
The diamond brilliant gleam of anticipation in her eyes quickened my own
excitement. “Yes, of course—if silence is to my benefit.”
“Oh, it shall be. I have returned only a portion of Vlad’s power to him—I
lied and told him I could only accomplish it in increments, for I wished to know
his true intent before I restored him completely. I do not trust him. But I can
see that you, Zsuzsanna, are possessed of a good, honest nature; therefore, I
shall restore you to full vigour this very hour.”
I clapped my hands together in eagerness, though the act took a great deal of
effort. “And Dunya too?”
“As you wish. I have no doubt that she, too, must be deserving, if she has
won the affection and loyalty of one so worthy as you. But here is the
condition: You both shall perceive your restored beauty, and your
strength—though to Vlad you will both appear as you are now. But you are neither
to speak of your restoration, nor indulge your reclaimed powers in front of him.
Do you swear to this?”
“I do,” I answered, smiling for pure joy. I knew it would be difficult to
keep from striking Vlad a mighty blow, or flaunting my greater abilities before
him; but I was desperate to regain the life I had known. I would have sworn to
anything.
“Excellent,” she breathed, then glanced round the vast, cold room. “Darling,
lie down.”
I moved obediently towards the casket, but she shook her head. “No, not
there. That is too gruesome a place, and we want no reminders of death! On the
bed, Zsuzsanna.”
Together we moved to the room’s far end, where a narrow, long-unused bed
stood near a window. I drew back the heavy curtain surrounding the bed, and lay
down upon the grey homespun blanket covering an ancient, lumpy mattress of
straw.
Elisabeth followed and knelt beside me, then patted the unyielding mattress
with a groan of pure indignation. “Zsuzsanna, this is a servant’s bed!” She
looked round the chamber with dawning realisation. “He has put you in the
servant’s quarters!”
I sighed. “I know…”
“No more for you, my darling! When you come with me, you shall sleep on pure
down, in silks and satins and grandeur befitting a queen!”
When you come with me…
Had I a heart, it would have begun to beat faster then, for the notion that I
should live with one who truly cared for me—and was so exquisite to
behold—evoked a thrill of anticipation. Had I understood her aright? Was she
truly suggesting that I break away from Vlad, and go to live with her?
Was such a thing possible? I had always believed that Vlad’s fate and his
power were inextricably bound to mine; that if he perished, I should too. At
least, that is what Vlad himself had told me—and I had always believed him. Had
I suffered here needlessly in this desolate castle because he had lied?
Any anger I felt at Vlad was eclipsed by hope: perhaps he bad lied
to me, but that fact was actually more comforting than the thought that he had
not. If I could break away from him, abandon this grim castle without fear and
go with this amazing immortal woman to enjoy all that the grand cities of Europe
have to offer…
“Do you mean,” I whispered, “that I am not obliged to remain with him? He has
told me that my existence depends upon his; is it—”
Before I could utter the word true, Elisabeth countered angrily,
“Believe nothing he has told you! There is no Devil—but the Prince of Lies
lives, and his name is Vlad. My dear, I have known him almost three centuries,
and I know his selfish mind: he made you as you are not because he was lonely or
because he loved you, but because you flattered him, appealed to his masculine
pride. And if he has told you that his destruction will bring about your own, it
was only because he wishes to keep you enslaved by loyalty.”
At this notion, I began to weep, for the truth was that I had
worshipped him slavishly when I was alive, and there were still remnants of
girlish adoration in my heart. To think that his motive in Changing me had not
been love—
“Ah, sweet child, don’t waste your tears over the likes of him.”
Still kneeling, she pulled off the powder-blue gloves and carelessly cast them
onto the floor; then she reached forward and took my hands into hers. Her flesh—
softer than a child’s, and finer—possessed a febrile warmth, as though she had
just held her palms over the fire for an hour to capture the heat. At the touch
of it, I sighed. “You shall be returned to your former glory—perhaps more—and
will have no further need of him.” She leaned forward until the entire world
consisted of nothing but her glittering diamond-and-sapphire gaze.
Brilliant as diamonds and just as cold, I thought, and shivered,
abruptly seized by strange and irrational fear. “What shall you do to me?”
“A kiss,” she whispered, bringing her face so close to mine that her sweet
breath warmed my cheeks. “Only a kiss…” And she bent down until at last those
soft, soft lips pressed against mine.
How shall I describe it? How does one describe infinity or bliss to those who
have not experienced them?
I remember the night of my Change, after Vlad had left me to die—the sweet
sensuality of it, the euphoria, the intriguing sharpening of all faculties:
sight, sound, touch. The memory of those moments has stayed with me these five
decades of undeath. Nothing, I thought, could supplant them; ah, but that was
before Elisabeth’s kiss!
So intense was that pleasure, so consuming, that for an unknown period I lost
myself—lost all sense of my surroundings, of Elisabeth, of time, of anything at
all in the world, save darkness and bliss. There was no I, no thing separate
from this union with eternity.
Given a choice, I would never have left it, for beside it even the attraction
of immortality dimmed. But all too soon, I discovered that I had returned to my
body, and that I lay upon the uncomfortable straw mattress and rough blanket
staring up into Elisabeth’s delighted eyes.
“Oh,” she breathed, putting a hand to her heart in amazement. “My Zsuzsanna…
How beautiful you are!
And with the other hand, she drew me up to my feet. I rose easily,
gracefully, and laughed aloud at the infinite strength that suddenly flowed into
my limbs. Still holding my hand, she stepped back a pace to study me, then
abruptly grasped a lock of my long hair and said gleefully:
“Look, my darling, look!”
I looked—and saw that the silver was once again coal-black, and imbued with a
sparkling indigo sheen.
“A mirror!” she cried, pacing about the spartan chamber, scanning its grey
stone walls. “Where is the mirror? You must see!”
“There are no mirrors,” I told her sadly. “Vlad destroyed them all long ago.
Even if there were, I could not see my own reflection.”
“Bah!” And she pulled my hand and dragged me out into the hall. “To my
chambers at once!”
And together we ran up and down staircases; this time, I had no difficulty
remaining by her side. When we had at last come to her room—on the eastern side
of the castle, where we house guests—she flung the door open, revealing
countless suitcases and trunks, and a stout, surly-faced young woman, as plain
as Elisabeth was fair.
She gestured at the woman. “This is my attendant, Dorka; she is utterly
discreet. Dorka, this is Vlad’s niece, the Princess Zsuzsanna. You must treat
her with the utmost respect.”
Dorka gave a half-hearted, unsmiling curtsy.
“Fetch my mirror at once,” Elisabeth ordered, her admiring gaze on me as she
held out an impatient hand to her servant. When Dorka had moved from the
sitting-room where we stood to the bedchamber, her mistress said, “So, Zsuzsanna,
have you never seen yourself as an immortal?”
“Never.”
“Well, you shall,” she replied, just as Dorka came running and huffing back
into the room with a lovely handheld mirror encased in fine gold and inlaid with
pearls and diamonds. The servant placed it in Elisabeth’s waiting hand, then
withdrew to give us our privacy. “Look, Zsuzsanna. Look at what you have
become.”
I took the glass. And cried out in pleased amazement at the woman I saw
there. Nay, woman is too unflattering a word. Angel, vision—these
are words that better describe what I saw. Dunya had been right that my portrait
did not give proper tribute to my beauty.
For fifty years I had not seen the woman in the mirror: a raven-haired young
beauty, black tresses agleam with electric indigo, sharp teeth of pearl, lips of
ruby, brown eyes asparkle with molten gold. My skin was as delicate and
porcelain as Elisabeth’s, and shimmering with mother-of-pearl glints of colour:
rose, turquoise, seafoam-green. Even the sharp features I had inherited from
Vlad—the thin hawkish nose, the pointed chin, the thick black brows —were
softened now to delicate perfection.
I gazed up from this wonderment to see Elisabeth grinning broadly in
approval, like an artist greatly pleased with her creation. She reached for the
mirror, but I would not let it go; at that, she laughed softly.
“I was tempted to change the teeth,” said she. “But I left it to your
discretion, in case you found them aesthetically pleasing.”
“But I must have them! How else shall I feed?”
Her voice lowered as though she were indulging a dark secret, and feared that
someone might overhear. “My dear. There are as many different ways of feeding,
as you call it, as there are those brave enough to attain immortality.“
“But Vlad created me,” I protested. “And a vampire’s bite begets another
vampire. How else can it be?”
“It can be however you desire it, Zsuzsanna.”
“But how?”
“Vlad’s pact with the Dark Lord need not control you.”
The thought of that mysterious creature, Devil or no, terrified me; I lowered
the looking-glass and recoiled, whispering, “The Dark Lord…”
To distract me, she took my free hand and pressed the palm to my own cheek.
“Tell me what you feel, my darling. Tell me what you feel.”
For a full minute I was too overwhelmed to speak. At last, I sighed,
“Warmth.” My eyes had filled with tears; one at last spilled onto my cheek, my
fingers. A hot tear.
“Is that not more pleasant than being cold as a corpse? Vlad is so obsessed
with the ghoulish.”
“You must revive Dunya!” I cried, grasping her arm and pulling her towards
the closed casket. I returned her mirror to her and flung open the lid to reveal
the sleeping occupant—so withered and frail.
Elisabeth approached and peered inside. “Ah… A sweet young peasant girl.” She
gazed up at me. “You must be patient. I have restored you in full and Vlad in
part; my reserves of strength are diminished. I shall have to rest now, but I
promise you I will deal with her tomorrow.”
“But dawn is only a few hours away,” I protested, eager to remain in her
company. “And then you can rest all day…”
“No, I shall be up in time to enjoy the sunrise. I only require two hours’
rest as a rule, more when I have exerted myself as I have tonight. Dear me,
child, Vlad’s silly notion that you are restricted to the night hours has taken
quite a toll on your enjoyment.”
“But it is true—the sun pains me horribly. Yes, I can venture out if I must,
but it weakens me and is dreadfully unpleasant.”
“It need not be. Why should you not be able to enjoy both night and day?”
The question gave me pause. I remembered my one journey to Vienna a
quarter-century before, and the disappointment I felt at not being able to ever
go into the Konditorei and sample the buttery pastries, or enter the
dress shops, with their glorious new fashions. The one dress I purchased in
Vienna—from a trembling old tailor, near blind, the only one who would venture
out at midnight to a hotel to fit me—is now two decades outdated. I looked at
Elisabeth’s gown, with its more modest decolletage, fitted hips, and
narrower skirt—and a flounce of gathered fabric at the derriere, which
I had never before seen.
“But how—” I began.
She shook her head. “We have much to talk about. Don’t worry, darling”—for my
disappointment was no doubt visible—“we will meet again tomorrow night. Until
then…”
And she took my hand, bent down, and kissed it as a man might; a disturbing
and undeniable thrill passed through me as she did so.
Dear God, I am in love!
* * *
4 May 1893.
I woke at sunset to find Elisabeth sitting in a chair beside my open casket—a
sight that quickened my hope and excitement. To my further delight (and
surprise), a smiling and beautiful young Dunya stood beside her.
“Dunya!” I sprang from my slumbering place with a single graceful leap. We
embraced like sisters, laughing and weeping, and I kissed her cheek—warm like
mine now, like her strong, strong arms. “My sweet! How beautiful you look!”
“Not so beautiful as you, doamna!” she cried. In truth, she looked
faintly like me—with the thin chiselled nose and long dark hair (though hers was
kissed with Russian red), and the soulful dark Roumanian eyes beneath arching
brows.
“How do you know?” I teased her.
Smiling, Elisabeth held up the golden mirror.
I slid an arm round Dunya’s tiny waist and turned to proffer my other hand to
our benefactor, who rose and clasped it at once. “Elisabeth. You have been so
kind to us, so good! Surely there must be some gift we can bestow upon you, some
kindness which can serve as a pitiful attempt at repayment.”
“Your happiness is sufficient joy for me.” And she turned over my hand to
reveal my palm, and kissed it.
Such an electric thrill coursed through my renewed body that I released Dunya
and pressed a hand to my heart, lest I gasp aloud.
At that moment, the chamber door flew open; in the doorway stood Vlad. For a
fleeting moment, I expected him to scream in fury to see Dunya and me fully
restored. I tried to pull my hand from Elisabeth’s grasp, recoiling as if ready
to flee—but she held it fast, and gave me a reassuring glance that said, He
does not know.
To my amazement, Vlad remained at the threshold, his expression one of
benevolent courtesy.
“Ah, Cousin! I see you have taken pity upon our frail ladies. Please: I have
prepared a banquet for your pleasure. It awaits you in the great dining hall,
where I shall join you in but a few moments. Go there now. I need to consult
with Zsuzsanna briefly in private.”
I felt a fresh surge of dismay as Elisabeth gave a half-curtsy and left the
room; even more dismay when I heard her footsteps echo down the hall, then the
staircase.
He remained in the doorway peering after her, his eyes squinting with the
strain. (Clearly, neither his vision nor his hearing could match mine.) And when
she was what he believed a safe distance removed from us, he stepped inside and
shut the heavy door behind him. I studied his expression, trying to judge from
it whether he saw me as crone or beauty, and could find no astonishment, no
rage, there— only cunning.
Such an old, ugly husk of a man. I had been mad all these decades: what use
had I for him?
Abruptly he demanded, “Zsuzsanna, do you love me?”
I hesitated but an instant. In that brief time, he understood my silence too
well; his expression darkened as he continued:
“It is Elisabeth. She has told you lies, put you under her spell, to make you
fall in love with her. She has promised to restore you, has she not? I warn
you—conspire with her, and you will embark on a dangerous path which can only
end in your destruction.”
I protested, my cheeks flaming hotly (such a long-forgotten sensation!). “Do
you threaten me?”
But he thundered on, oblivious to my beauty or my words. “Do you know who she
is? Surely she hasn’t told you. She is the Tigress of Csejthe, the slaughterer
of virgins… During her lifetime, she tortured six hundred and fifty maidens to
their deaths, and bathed,, in their blood; no doubt the figure has increased
tenfold since her movement into undeath. You can trust nothing she says!”
“You are a liar,” I said—then marvelled in silence at my own boldness. Never
have I dared speak to him thus; I knew it would have meant my ruin, for I had
always believed that he alone controlled my life and death. But I knew that, at
last, /was stronger than he. Had he struck me at that moment, I would have
killed him.
Such freedom! I laughed, drunk with the power of fearlessness.
He did in fact swing his arm to strike—but halted abruptly in midair in front
of my face, prevented by an invisible force (ah, Elisabeth, my powerful saviour!).
His eyes reddened with rage, and he parted his lips and released a low lupine
growl, his face contorted into a Medusan mask.
“Stay away from her, Zsuzsanna. Stay away, or I shall be forced to
retaliate!”
I said nothing, only watched him spin on his heel and storm out, slamming the
door behind him with such force that it rattled for several seconds.
Dunya stepped up to stand beside me; I think she had been cowering behind me
all this time. She put a soft hand upon my shoulder and whispered, “Doamna.
Do you think he can really hurt us if we see Elisabeth again? She is so kindly…”
Again I slipped an arm round her waist, but stared ahead at the trembling
wooden door.
“To hell with him,” I said slowly. “To hell with him.”
Chapter 4
The Diary of Zsuzsanna Dracul
5 May 1893.
I woke from a sweet dream to the sound of my dear dead mother’s voice calling
softly:
Wake up, Zsuzsanna. Wake up, child, it’s almost midday…
I opened my eyes, not to my mother’s worn face, but to the exquisite and
youthful countenance of Elisabeth. This time she wore a fetching gown of cream-coloured
moire, with a narrow standup collar of stiff lace that fringed a more daring
decolletage.
I smiled at the sight of her; but then my expression turned to wide-eyed awe
at the realisation that beyond her, a yellow shaft of sunlight was streaming in
through the unshuttered window.
And it did not pain me. Nor did I feel in any way weakened by it.
Those revelations widened my eyes even further, and I emerged once
more from my grim resting-place with a bound and hurried over to the window to
gaze unblinking out at the beautiful day. Above, in a blue, blue sky, the sun
blazed.
“It
is mid-day!” I cried, and whirled round, slack-jawed yet
smiling, to stare in tearful gratefulness at Elisabeth. “How is this possible?”
She returned my gaping grin and, rather than reply to the posed question,
said instead: “Will you accompany me for some fresh air?” At my hesitance, she
added, “Vlad is sleeping, as you know. I have made sure he will hear nothing. We
can meet now during the day—every day, if you wish—and he shall never know.”
I believed her gladly, for I remembered that yesterday night, he had not
perceived my beauty. In answer, I grabbed her arm and together we ran giggling
down the winding staircase through the grand hall and out the great spiked door
into the blessed outdoors.
Elisabeth slowed upon the steps and let go my hand. I scrambled down them
onto the grounds and pulled off my slippers. The instant my bare feet touched
the soft, cool grass, I could no longer resist: I spread my arms like wings and
spun round in circles like a frenzied child who has been closeted for a long
bleak winter.
Such an intoxicating spring! The plum trees were fragrant with blossom, and
the open lawn was scattered with wildflowers: bluebells, crimson poppies,
daisies, snowy alyssum. The air echoed with the cheerful calls of birds— larks
and robins, not the melancholy song of the nightingale nor the mournful cry of
the owl, the only birdsong I have heard for half a century.
And as I spun in joyful delirium, I closed my eyes and lifted my face to the
sky—to the sun, whose warm, soothing light upon my face seemed at that moment
more delicious, more precious, than anything I had experienced as an immortal.
When at last I fell, dizzy and laughing, onto the cool ground beside a patch
of intricately delicate Jack-in-the-pulpit, I rolled over onto my back to stare
at the clouds in the turquoise sky, and called out to my benefactress:
“Elisabeth! You have been so good to me! You have returned my beauty, my
strength—and now you have returned to me the whole world!” For that is how I
felt: that I had been confined to the night, living only half an existence. And
now the other half of life had been restored to me. “Can I do nothing for you in
return?”
“You can share with me the young gentleman guest.”
“A guest?” I sat suddenly, pressing my fingers behind me into the grass, into
the damp soil, and stared at her. She had sat upon a step, as heedless of
propriety as a young boy—knees spread wide, an elbow resting atop one of them,
chin supported by a palm. Caressed by the warm breeze, the shining cream skirt
billowed out onto the dirty stone, its wearer apparently fearless of its being
soiled. Her expression signalled that she did not share my wild enthusiasm for
the scenery; to her, it was something commonplace. What entertained her was my
joy, for her gaze was fixed solely on me, and she wore the slight, delighted
smile of an owner watching her puppy gambol unawares.
All this I perceived in an instant before I demanded, “When did a guest
arrive?” The thought provoked a thrill of desire, and the realisation that I was
indeed hungry, very hungry.
“Last evening.”
“And how did we fail to hear them?”
Elisabeth sighed. “My fault, I’m afraid. Vlad must have put a glamour upon us
so that we heard nothing when he arrived with his visitor; I confess I was so
intoxicated by your beauty yesterday night that my vigilance lapsed, else I
would have detected his pitiful attempt at sorcery and neutralised it at once.
But there is indeed a guest, my darling: he lies snoring within his chambers
now. I heard the noise and went to investigate. He is rather handsome, and quite
healthy and strong. Shall we visit him?“ Her tone turned coy and teasing. ”I see
appetite in your eyes, Zsuzsanna.“
My desire warred with fear. “Vlad would never forgive it! He would destroy me
if he found my mark upon his guest’s neck!”
“Then he shall not find it. Regardless, I would not permit him to harm you.”
“How is either possible?”
She gestured smugly at me amidst the springtime glory. “How can
this
be possible? All things are, my darling, if you trust me.”
I drew in a long, yearning breath as I rose to my feet. “Then let us go greet
our young guest at once!”
I picked up my slippers and hurried barefoot up the steps, where she, too,
had risen and awaited me. We linked arms and once again ran laughing like
mischievous schoolgirls through the great hallway, up a different set of winding
stairs until at last we arrived in front of the carved wooden door that led to
one of the guest chambers.
Elisabeth was right: from within emerged the sound of stertorous snoring, so
loud that I was surprised the heavy door did not rattle. I clapped a hand over
my mouth to suppress a giggle and, when I could manage to speak, whispered to my
companion: “His poor wife!”
“You need not be so quiet,” she replied, in a normal voice. “As you can hear,
he is sleeping soundly.” And at that, we both laughed softly as she swung open
the door. “He is yours, my darling; take him as you wish. I shall watch, and
indulge myself a bit afterwards. One caveat only: that you leave him alive and
strong enough so neither he nor Vlad will be able to detect a change. I will
take care that he has no wound; you must take care that he is not pale enough to
arouse suspicion.“
Had I been thinking clearly, I would have asked her why she could not deal
with the problem of his colour, if she could cause the wound to instantly heal.
At that moment, I was too intrigued by what her “indulgence” might be—and then,
instantly, all thought was blotted out when my nose caught the gentleman’s
scent.
I smelled warm blood and skin, overlaid by the cloying smell of two or three
days’ sweat. Elisabeth must have detected it, too, for she whispered to me: “He
has obviously been travelling for some time,” and held her nose.
Smelly or not, the young man lying on his back, arms and legs spread wide in
imitation of da Vinci’s naked man, was a handsome sight—if one ignored his
gaping, drooling mouth and the way it sputtered each time he released a
window-pane-rattling snore.
But snoring or not, he had neatly hung a wool suit and hat upon a nearby
chair; their quality indicated the owner was an up-and-coming, if drab, young
gentleman. And he himself was of sufficient quality to suit me, for his
uncovered arms (flung out atop the blankets at a ninety-degree angle to his
torso) and upper chest were strong and muscular enough, neither too fat nor too
thin. His brown curls were a perfect match for his face, which had slightly
plump pink cheeks and a short turned-up nose; overall, the impression was that
of a man whose boyish features would always make him appear five years younger
than his actual age.
“He needs a bath,” whispered Elisabeth; but in truth, I did not care. So
great was my hunger and eagerness to press my lips to the man’s throat—but
first, to take advantage of other attributes, so that his blood might taste all
the sweeter—that I would not have cared had he been wallowing in fresh manure.
Indeed, I scarcely noticed when Elisabeth crept away, and felt no concern over
it. My attention was riveted on the man; and slowly, delicately, that I might
not rouse him, I lifted sheet and blankets from his chest. He wore a plain white
nightshirt, but had left the top three buttons undone so that it gaped open to
reveal more of his chest and its thick pelt of more brown curls. Carefully, I
drew the bedclothes downward to his feet, to disclose further delights—for the
nightshirt had ridden up and become twisted, entirely exposing him and another
cluster of chestnut hair… from whence emerged an undeniably erect member.
Now, I have long believed myself damned; and early in my immortalhood, I
vowed that I would deny myself no pleasure now, in case I should ever be
destroyed and have to endure the eternal agonies of Hell. For I had lived life
as a crippled, homely spinster, doomed never to experience the attentions of a
lover. Very soon after my Change, I discovered the most wonderful of secrets:
that the blood of a man in the throes of passionate release tastes more heavenly
than any nectar, and that my pleasuring him increases my own ecstasy (from the
act and from drinking his affected blood) tenfold.
And so I crawled beside him on the bed, using my ability to hypnotise to keep
him from waking. I intended to take him at once, swiftly, before Elisabeth
returned, for the truth was that I felt oddly shy at doing so in front of her.
It had never slowed me before—I had never been shy in front of Vlad or Dunya or
my poor dead brother—and I had taken two and three men at a time, upon occasion.
But in Elisabeth’s case, I felt oddly guilty… as though I were being somehow
unfaithful.
But before I could lift my skirts and roll onto my beloved victim, Elisabeth
hurried back into the room.
“Come, bring him,” she whispered, gesturing, her sapphire eyes aglitter with
anticipation. “Dorka is preparing a bath.”
“You need not whisper,” I told her. “He is entranced.” I opened my mouth to
tell her that I did not believe myself patient enough to wait for him to bathe;
I was resolved at that point to simply drink his blood. But ere I could speak,
she interrupted:
“A pity.” Her features suddenly resolved themselves into an impish grin. “Let
us have a bit of fun with him first, shall we?”
She simply stared at the sleeping man, and inclined her chin towards him. He
groaned and at once stirred; immediately, I leapt up from the bed.
He opened his eyes—kindly, light brown eyes they were—and for a moment,
clearly could not remember where he was. But then memory dawned, and he emerged
more fully from slumber; at that point, his gaze fell upon us two women, and he
pushed himself up to a sitting position with a start. At first those kindly
brown eyes registered wild surprise at the sight of strangers in his room; and
then he looked down at his exposed privates, and that surprise metamorphosed
into such intense and pitiful dismay that I thought I should explode with
contained laughter.
“Dear God!” he swore in a cultured English, baritone and, moving
swift as the undead, pulled the blankets up to his chin and held them there,
eyes bulging, face and ears flushed impossibly scarlet. “Ladies, you have me at
a
dreadful disadvantage!”
I could bear no more; I clapped my hand over my mouth and shuddered with soft
laughter. Before I could recover enough to reply, Elisabeth said, in excellent
English (which should not have surprised me any more than her facility with
Roumanian, for the mortal Hungarians routinely master ten or twenty languages
before they are grown):
“Our apologies, good sir, for the intrusion!” And she gave a sweeping curtsy,
her expression as solemn as mine was gleeful. “But we tried to rouse you by
knocking, and could not. The master”—and here I shot her a gaze both astounded
and merry, which she utterly ignored—“gave us strict orders yesterday that we
were to draw you a bath no later than one o’clock this afternoon, and see that
you enjoyed it. I have come to tell you that it is ready. The water will not
remain hot for long. Will you kindly come with us, sir?”
He hesitated, glancing from me to Elisabeth, unlikely servants, either of us:
me with my dark hair flowing unbound to my waist, in my grey Viennese gown of
watered silk, twenty years outdated and worn nearly to tatters, and Elisabeth in
the beautiful cream gown.
And both of us unworldly beautiful.
I saw that he was on the verge of refusing, but Elisabeth detected his
reluctance and said at once: “Please, good sir! Our master is stern, and given
to outbursts of temper; if he finds that you have refused, he will surely beat
us both until we bleed!”
That caused him to blink rapidly and stammer, desperately searching for an
appropriate excuse; but all he could think to say was “How barbaric!”
Elisabeth grew bolder now, and gave a gentle tug upon his wool-sleeved arm,
her voice distraught with feigned terror (whilst I bit both my lips and
struggled to maintain a sober expression; this was becoming easier, as my glee
was quickly being overwhelmed by hunger). “Please, sir. Come with me!”
His discomfort was complete, but the kindness reflected in his eyes won out.
“Very well, miss,” said he. “But please wait outside the door until I fetch my
smoking-jacket.”
To this she acquiesced, and we both withdrew to give the man his privacy; but
behind the closed door, we grabbed each other’s arms and rested our head each
upon the other’s shoulder, and shook hard with silent laughter.
Presently, we heard the stranger approach the door; by the time he opened it,
we were once again poker-faced servants. He was dressed discreetly now, in long
pants, leather slippers, and the smoking-jacket of plum wool with a black velvet
collar and velvet belt at the waist. The brown curls were damp and neatly
combed, but his cheeks were still flushed bright as he told Elisabeth and me,
“Very well, ladies. Lead on to the bath.”
We did so, walking towards Elisabeth’s quarters in silence until at last our
mortal companion spoke.
“I must confess, ladies—you are hardly dressed like serving-girls.”
At that, I smiled, but Elisabeth said quite seriously, “Well, sir, our master
can be quite cruel at times; but he can also be quite generous.” Again, I had to
swallow my laughter.
The gentleman accepted this with a nod, and we continued on without further
conversation until we arrived at Elisabeth’s room.
Dorka waited within with several large towels draped over her arm, and told
her mistress in Hungarian: “I have prepared the bath.”
Elisabeth nodded as she took the towels, then turned to gesture at the guest.
“In here, if you would, sir.”
He followed, his expression one of increasing awkwardness, and when we
arrived inside the bedchamber—in whose center awaited a round, claw-footed iron
tub filled with steaming water—he called us to a stop. “Ladies, I thank you for
your help. That will be all, please.” He nodded in dismissal.
Elisabeth gazed at him, stricken. “But, sir—if I do not follow my master’s
orders exactly… He told us that we should make sure of your enjoyment.”
With wicked glee, I picked up her cue, and moved over to him; with a single
pull, I loosed the belt of his smoking jacket, which opened to reveal the long
nightshirt, tucked into his pants.
Are all men of this era such prudes? He scrambled to pull the jacket closed
and said huffily, “See here! This is quite improper, and I am engaged to be
married!”
Then Elisabeth moved in and, over his indignant protests, pulled off the
jacket the instant I pried it open again. The jacketless Englishman struggled to
free himself, but we were stronger and held him fast.
“Do not be so modest, sir!” Elisabeth told him, with such sincerity that
I
was almost convinced she was a servant, acting on Vlad’s orders. “It is the
custom in our country for women to assist men in bathing.”
And as she pinned his arms behind him, he yelping softly in dismay, I knelt,
unbuttoned his trousers, and pulled them off. Beneath was a knee-length pair of
men’s silk under-trousers. These I pulled off swiftly while the Englishman
shrieked in horror; then off came the leather slippers, one at a time.
But a final challenge remained: the long nightshirt. Elisabeth released first
one arm, then the next, as I quickly pulled the nightshirt up over his now-aubergine
face to reveal at last his nakedness. At once he doubled over with embarrassment
and dismay in a pathetic attempt to hide his body from our view; had his hands
been free, he would undoubtedly have shielded his privates.
Elisabeth clicked her tongue in disapproval and addressed me in Roumanian.
“These Victorians. Too many clothes. It’s unhealthy.” To the guest, she said in
English, “Into the tub with you, sir!”
He made no move to comply. And so, still grasping his arms behind him, she
lifted him straight up off his feet and deposited him into the steaming water.
He entered it with a small cry at the scalding heat, and at first remained
standing tiptoe in water up to his thighs. But propriety soon overcame fear, and
he let go a gasp as he squatted low in the tub. Soon water covered all but his
head and neck; these were veiled by rising steam. He moved close to the side
near us, which effectively hid the rest of him from our view.
From the tub’s rim, Elisabeth lifted a cake of soap— fine, French-milled soap
redolent with her perfume—and pointedly handed it to him. “Wash yourself, sir.”
Still squatting, he extended a dripping arm and took it. A comical moment of
indecision followed, one in which his expression telegraphed every thought: How
should he accomplish the task in front of these feminine guards? Common sense
dictated that he should rise in order to make best use of the soap—but once
again, modesty prevailed. He remained squatting in water up to his neck, and
thus ran the soap over his entirety.
“I am finished,” he announced. “I should like a towel.”
“You are not quite done,” I told him, as I began to unfasten my bodice. The
pewter silk parted to reveal my white breasts—unfettered by Victorian
undergarments.
He gasped and averted his eyes in dutiful and gentlemanly fashion, his
expression warring between horror and furtive desire. As the silk rustled to a
heap on the stone and I stepped forward from it in my naked glory, lovelier than
any vision of Venus emerging from the sea, he peered sly and sidewise at me.
I climbed into the great iron tub and knelt beside him, the liquid catching
my waist-length indigo hair and setting it afloat like lazily drifting seaweed.
Beneath the wavering water, my skin shimmered, phosphorescent white beside his
darker, drabber skin. The warmth was delightful.
Behind me, I heard Elisabeth’s voice, edged now with unmistakable excitement;
and I knew then that I would be capable of doing what I wished in her presence
without shame. “Do not be alarmed, sir,” she said. “It is simply our custom to
let the women bathe after the men. It is considered quite proper…”
But the Englishman hovered near the tub’s edge, knees and shins pressed
against the hot iron, fingers gripping the rim. “Please, miss—a towel! I am
rather uncomfortable, for in my country, the custom is decidedly different.”
I moved closer until our legs touched; he recoiled at once, splashing water
everywhere in his desperation. I knew then that his decision to be faithful to
his betrothed was unfortunately a sincere one and backed by great determination,
so I reached out with a dripping hand and turned his stubbled chin towards me.
His will was strong, but not unduly so; the instant his gaze met mine, he
fell under my glamour and sighed, content to be relieved of all troubling
inhibitions.
“You are the most exquisitely beautiful creature I have ever seen,” he
whispered, and reached for me.
We kissed, pressing our lips together feverishly—he with passion enough to
meet mine, as though he, too, had been denied the experience of love for two
decades. I thought I should go mad, so great was my yearning for his body and
blood; my hungry kisses turned quickly to tiny, rapid nips upon his neck and
shoulders. He rose, groaning, and lifted me with him so that his kisses might
travel downward from my face to neck to breasts.
I moved backward then, to his dismay (for he reached after me in
desperation), and leaned against the tub’s side, beckoning him to come to me.
This he did and, even under trance, experienced a temporary confusion at what
precisely should transpire next: my Englishman, it seemed, was a virgin. But
when he pressed next to me, I hopped up to sit upon the tub’s rim, and wound my
knees round his hips.
Intent on showing him how it was done, I had quite forgotten about
Elisabeth’s presence until she appeared beside us—now incandescently naked, and
more gloriously so than I. I found myself gazing deep into her electric-blue
eyes, simply astonished by her beauty. As taken as I was with our houseguest, I
was even more taken by her bare flesh, aglitter like fresh snow in the sunlight.
And, I confess, by her breasts—large and full, yet firm as a young maiden’s,
their milky whiteness crowned by nipples as delicately pink as cameo. I yearned
to reach out and touch them, but was so startled to find myself lusting after a
woman that I held back, and instead watched as she assisted the Englishman in
his efforts to explore new territory.
As, her fingers tightly encircling him, she guided him towards me, I tilted
my hips to permit him entry; at the instant it occurred, he gasped in astonished
joy, the purely grateful sound of one who at last knows:
Ah, so this
is what I have so long been denied!
He began to thrust—wildly, urgently, filled with such unbearable desire that
he could hold back not at all; I, too, could not restrain myself, but clung to
him in desperation, crying out with each movement. In my delirium, I was but
faintly aware of Elisabeth’s arm between us, her thumb and forefinger a tight
ring grasping his member at its base, that its increased firmness might grant my
lover and me more pleasure.
But too soon, too soon, he arched against me, crying out as I was flooded
with internal warmth. At that instant, my urgent desire gave way to an even more
urgent hunger: I bit savagely into the warm, wet skin at the juncture of his
neck and shoulder and drank blood sweeter, more ambrosial, than any I have ever
drunk, for the taste was enhanced by the Englishman’s intense virginal ecstasy
and by my own hungry longing.
He moaned, arching now with a victim’s delight, for to receive the dark kiss
is an infinitely sensual pleasure.
“Tear him!” Elisabeth cried beside me. “Tear him, make him bleed—Vlad will
not know!”
I tore with teeth sunk tight into his flesh (taking care to stay clear of the
neck, lest I inadvertently kill him), shaking my head as a dog does when it has
caught a rat. My lover groaned again, for pain was joy to him now. Strong dark
blood spattered upon my cheeks, my eyelids, my chest and hands; I drank. Drank
until I was drunk, until I was blind, until I forgot myself and my surroundings
utterly, deaf to all save the slow throb of the Englishman’s heart.
I would have continued mindlessly until its beating stopped—but strong arms
pulled me away. I looked up, blinking like an owl in the lantern’s glare, and
saw Elisabeth, catching the young man as he fell, lifting him from the water,
laying him upon a linen towel spread on the floor.
Beautiful Elisabeth, her face spattered with English blood.
No angel, no goddess, could dare aspire to such loveliness. And then she put
those strong hands round my shoulders, beneath my knees, and lifted me from the
red-tinged water. I clasped her neck, Psyche rescued by Eros.
And when she had set me down beside my lover with infinite gentleness and
proffered me a towel, she knelt between me and my fainted victim and with relish
rubbed cheeks and tongue, breasts and belly, against his wound, covering herself
in his blood. Then she dipped her fingers into his wounds and reached, dripping,
to paint my smiling lips, my belly, my breasts. The latter she approached with
great delicacy and a feathery touch, spiralling slowly inward from the outside
of one breast until she reached its centre. There she lingered, tracing ever
smaller and more inward circles until I could bear it no longer and shuddered in
delicious anticipation, my legs writhing against the cold stone as if they
yearned to escape.
But my heart would not let me.
It was already a contented captive, even before Elisabeth bent down to
embrace me. I was sated with blood, dreamy and dazed by the thrill of feeding.
But when she pressed her mouth against mine and I felt her tongue work hard
against my lips, savouring the blood there, I realised that my hunger had been
appeased—but not my physical desire.
Was it the forbiddenness of our love that filled me with a hotter fire than I
have ever known? I reached up to press a palm against her back, another against
the nape of her neck, and pulled her down upon me. It was then I experienced
another revelation: that today, for the first time in my eighty years of
existence, I had experienced love as it was meant—-warm flesh against warm
flesh.
She kissed my face, my breasts, my belly, using her tongue to clean each area
with sensual, deliberate grace. Then she rose and reached for the Englishman’s
wound again; once more, she dipped her fingers in his blood.
I cried out softly as she (my hands tremble so at the memory, I can scarce
write) put those bloodied fingers betwixt my legs, and wiped the blood at the
place where the Englishman had so recently been. Then with those fingers she
entered me, and bent low again to lick away the blood.
I remember little else except for the instant I fell out of the world into
that great and glorious abyss of pleasure, so distantly aware of my own screams
it seemed as though someone else had made them.
Yet as I lay, eyes closed, undone by delight, I
did hear the
sensuous cries of another: Elisabeth, my darling Elisabeth, who lay beside me. I
smoothed damp curls back from her forehead until she recovered and opened blue,
blue eyes to smile at me.
I leaned down and kissed her tenderly. Then we two entwined our arms and held
each other for a long silence.
At last, I have what Vlad long ago promised me but never gave: an eternal
lover.
When finally we rose, I looked down at the sleeping Englishman, and saw that
the wounds inflicted upon his shoulder had entirely healed.
Elisabeth took me out into the sitting-room, where a half-dozen large trunks
sat beside another half-dozen suitcases, and opened one. For herself, she took
out a stunning silk dressing-gown of pale yellow edged with broad eggshell lace;
for me, a dressing-gown of electric-blue satin trimmed with black velvet.
Together we returned to my chambers. At the open door, I stopped, and exclaimed
in dismay:
“But Dunya! We have forgotten about poor Dunya!”
Elisabeth patted my shoulder reassuringly. “She will have many more chances;
as long as I am here, she cannot starve into oblivion, regardless of what Vlad
might do. But for now, my darling, it is best that no one else know about our
secret meetings.”
I sighed in reluctant acquiescence, though in fact I felt it utterly selfish
to deny my trustworthy little servant a chance to feed.
At the unhappiness in my downcast eyes, Elisabeth put a finger beneath my
chin and tenderly lifted it until our gazes met.
“Go and rest now,” she said soothingly, “and when night comes, you will rise
again so that Vlad does not suspect. I doubt he will let us meet then, but I
promise you that I shall do everything possible to convince him that you and
Dunya
must feed. And if he agrees, then you can give your supper
entirely to her.” Pausing, she brushed my lips with the lightest of kisses.
“As for you, my darling… Tomorrow, if it pleases you, we can watch the sun
rise together.”
The thought so gladdened me that I cried out, “Oh, Elisabeth! I shall love
you forever!”
And at that, she smiled.
* * *
9 MAY 1893.
Once more, I woke to the sound of Elisabeth’s voice, and to the sight of her
glorious face.
Last night I can scarcely remember, save that I was happy to see that, as
Elisabeth had said, Dunya was still looking and feeling strong. This was a
comfort to me, as I still felt guilt over not having invited her to yesterday’s
feeding.
Ah, but yesterday noon I remembered then and remember now, and each time I
do, I blush. Last night I did not see Elisabeth; I suspect Vlad felt obliged to
keep her in his presence for lack of trust, and for my sake, she would not
disobey his order to eschew my company.
It is just as well I did not see her then; for even in Vlad’s presence, I
would not have been able to restrain my joy at the sight of her.
“My darling,” Elisabeth said softly, and reached down into my casket to
smoothe a hand across my forehead and cheek, as tenderly as a mother would
caress her child. “It pains me so to see you sleeping in this—this contraption.
Vlad’s limitations are not yours, though he might wish you to believe
so. Will you not stay in my bed?”
“I will do whatever pleases you.” I took her hand from my cheek and kissed
it.
“It will please me to have you with me.”
Her statement pleased me, but in truth I listened to it with but half my
attention—for I was gazing beyond her at the unfettered window, and seeing there
the first rosy rays of dawn streaming through pearl-grey clouds.
Eager as a child, I turned to her. “Can we go outside? Now? I want to see
it!”
“It’s drizzling, I fear, and at any moment will begin to rain harder.” She
touched a hand to her carefully arranged golden curls as if the mere mention of
the weather might ruin them.
“I don’t care! You can stay here—I just want to be out in it.”
At the first three words, she tossed back her head and laughed indulgently,
and remained smiling as I finished. “I’ll go with you, my dear. I had no inkling
you felt so strongly. But if you wish it, then it shall be done!”
And so I took her hand and climbed from my ghoulish resting-place, and
together we walked the same path we had taken the day before. Her yellow silk
dressing-gown and the dark blue satin dressing-gown she had given me rustled
softly against the floor. As we walked, she turned to me, her expression one of
unmistakable appreciation of my body, and said:
“That looks quite beautiful on you, darling. You may keep it, and I want you
to pick out some of my dresses for you to wear; Dorka can do any needed
alterations.”
“You are so kind, Elisabeth!” I felt literally aglow with love, as though my
heart were a great furnace, kindled at last.
“And you are so beautiful, my Zsuzsanna…”
At last we arrived at the great wood-and-iron door and pushed it open. I drew
in a breath at once of the damp fresh air, and marvelled at the fine misting
drizzle. Beyond lay a grey landscape, and a grey, clouded sky.
True, I was disappointed—how beautiful the drizzle would have looked,
asparkle like diamonds in the sunshine. Even so, I was so glad just to be
out-of-doors in the day that I stepped forward, wanting only to stand in it, to
feel the cool water against my face, my skin.
But when I tried to run over the threshold and skip down the stairs, I cried
out in even deeper disappointment; for, try as I might, I could not move farther
than the doorway, held back by an invisible force.
I could not go outside. In bewildered desperation, I looked to Elisabeth for
help.
What I saw quite surprised me.
She, too, stood in the doorway and, with a vehement Hungarian curse, stomped
her small slippered foot. As I watched, the whites of her eyes reddened to
scarlet, ruby against sapphire, the contrast eerily pronounced against the
paleness of her skin. It was the only time I have seen her look unlovely, and it
quite startled me.
Indignant, she wheeled to face me. “He fears us! And so he has taken to
this pitiful magic…” She waved in disgust at the doorway.
But I had utter faith in her abilities; had she commanded me to walk upon
water, I should have. I waited for her to stride past me, to step boldly
outside, then permit me to do the same.
She did not; she lingered beside me upon the threshold, her expression
indignant. She could go outside no more than I. My disappointment was complete,
for I had honestly believed her omnipotent.
Because of the doorway’s angle, I could not see the sun rising in the rosy
clouds, nor the snow on the distant mountains; with these, I should have to
content myself by gazing through the window. But I leaned forward as far as I
could, extended my arm through the doorway, and turned my palm to the sky.
There I felt sweet, soft rain, cool and gentle upon my upturned palm; the
drops splashed upon black velvet— upon which they beaded—and deep blue satin,
which they darkened. There is something soothing about rain during the day, and
something mournful about it in the dead of night.
At last, I slowly lowered my arm and turned sadly to Elisabeth. “We are
trapped.”
Her expression was one of poorly repressed outrage, though the red in her
eyes had faded somewhat. “Indeed not!”
“Then why can we not go outside?”
She frowned, as if my question had been highly impertinent, and with
exasperation explained: “Because Vlad has pulled an unexpected trick. Don’t
worry, Zsuzsanna. I shall soon set it right. But for now, come. Let us amuse
ourselves in other ways.”
She led me back to the Englishman’s room, from whence, once again, the sound
of snoring emerged. Elisabeth turned towards me, a cream goddess in sunny silk,
and reached forward to lightly trace the outline of my collar with her
fingertip. I shuddered slightly at her feathery touch against the skin of my
collarbone, my breast, and was at once on fire.
“He is not so strong today,” she said, with a coquettish tilt to her head,
and the shine of pure desire in her eyes. “But perhaps you could enjoy a small
drink…”
I wanted her more than him, and was about to say, No, let us go to your
chambers, and spend the day in your bed. But she had already pushed open
the door and entered.
I followed with only partial reluctance; the thought of dining again was not
altogether disagreeable, as yesterday I had not been able to drink my fill. Even
so, I was by no means overwhelmed by hunger. Thus I entered without haste, but
with mild curiosity: who was this Englishman, and how had he come to be here?
Obviously, on the nights Vlad went to hunt for us, he had gone instead to
Bistritz to post letters to this man…
Rather than go at once to the bed to claim my sleeping victim, I instead
passed by the armoire, where a number of papers were neatly arranged in stacks.
I glanced at the top letter, which was apparently a legal document of some type,
prepared by a certain Peter Hawkins, Esquire— and signed by “Count” V. Dracula.
“So!” I said, with a glance at the man snoring beneath the. canopy—once again,
with the bed curtains left open. I took no care to keep my voice low, for
Elisabeth had shown me how to prevent others (including Vlad) from hearing me.
“Our young Englishman is a solicitor employed by a man named Hawkins. And he has
been transacting legal business on behalf of a certain V. Dracula.”
Elisabeth’s eyes narrowed with intrigue; she at once moved away from the bed
to stand beside me. Whilst I riffled through one stack of papers, she examined
another, then picked up a small leather-bound diary and began to read.
“What language or code he writes in, I cannot say,” she said after a time.
“But he has written his name here; Harker. Jonathan Harker, Esquire.”
I scarce heard her, for I had more carefully examined the legal document and
scanned the stack of correspondence. I was stricken like Saul on the road to
Damascus with a blinding revelation; and now, I felt my eyes blaze with the same
red fury I had earlier seen in Elisabeth’s.
For I suddenly understood that this man was not here simply as a houseguest,
to quench Vlad’s thirst. No, he was here for a far more sinister purpose: to
assist Vlad in moving to England.
A half century ago, Vlad had sworn to me that he would take me from this
dreary country to an exciting life in London. Only our difficulties with my
brother, Arkady, and his son, the accursed Van Helsing, have prevented us from
escape.
Now he was going at last—whilst I would remain behind to starve. Why else had
he prevented me from leaving the castle?
I turned to her, waving a paper in my hand. “This!” I hissed. “ This
is a title deed—to property Vlad has purchased in secrecy!”
She stopped reading the paper in her hand, and faced me, one golden brow
arched in an extreme inverted V as she peered at the document I clutched.
“London, it seems,” she said, thoughtful, remaining calm despite my rage.
“Purfleet is outside London.” And she held up to my gaze another signed paper,
this a bill of sale for another estate. “Piccadilly. In London proper.”
Overwhelmed by rage, I sat abruptly in a faded brocade chair.
“Has he spoken to you of this?” Elisabeth stepped behind me and put a
comforting hand upon my shoulder.
I shook my head, and she sighed. “My darling Zsuzsanna… I think he means to
abandon you here.”
“The bastard!” I swore, seething. “He means to leave us here to starve! He
means to destroy us—we who have only helped him!”
She knelt beside me, her expression one of utter sympathy, and wound an arm
about my knees, as if to comfort me. “Zsuzsanna, I swear to you that he will not
succeed! I have expected this all along, and made plans for it.”
“Then why did you come here, if you knew he would betray you?”
“He told me of you in his letter. I did not come to help him. I came to free
you.”
At that, I leaned down and embraced her, pressing her face to my shoulder,
and felt hot tears sting my eyes. “My sweet Elisabeth, you have been so good to
me!”
She held me so tightly, and I her, that when we let go, we both gasped. “I
shall be even better,” she said, with a look of infinite resolve. “I only ask
that you trust me.”
“There is no question of that. But what shall we do? We cannot leave the
castle.”
“Wait, my sweet. Only wait. When the time is right, we shall leave.”
“I cannot wait!” I cried, and struck my heel against the floor like an angry
child. “Why can we not kill him now?. You are so powerful, Elisabeth.
Why haven’t you yet destroyed him, and freed us from this castle?”
At that she sighed and remained quiet a time, staring beyond me at some
distant, invisible sight. Finally, she met my gaze again. “When another century,
perhaps two, have passed, Zsuzsanna, then you will understand. Immortality
carries with it one unavoidable burden, that of ennui. It pleases me to
have a new sport—to avenge your suffering by destroying Vlad.
“But it would be far too simple to destroy him here; and, I confess, it would
be difficult, because his power is greater here than anywhere. And it would be
far too swift —for he has inflicted far too much suffering in both life and
undeath to die quickly, without anguish.” She straightened, suddenly infused
with excitement. “Let us give chase! Let us pursue him to London and torment him
there, unravel his plans. And when he is utterly confounded, only then we will
reveal that we are the source of his suffering.”
She clasped my waist and drew me closer to her, then planted upon my lips a
fervent kiss. “Let me take you to London, Zsuzsanna! Let us conquer both Vlad
and the city. I will dress you in the finest satins and silks, and adorn you
with jewels; you will be so beautiful that the entire country will fall at your
feet and worship you.” And she stroked my cheek with her hand and gazed so
lovingly at me that I was mollified.
In silence, she rose and drew me to my feet, then led me over to the young
man. It pleased me to let him sleep this time. I ever so delicately pierced the
unblemished skin of his throat, and just as delicately drank.
And when, lips smeared with Mr. Harker’s dark blood, I lifted my face, there
was Elisabeth beside me— gasping with lust, her eyes as desirous as those of any
man who has gazed upon my beauty. At once she lunged against me, tore open my
robe, and licked clean my lips. And again she dipped her fingers in his
wound—small this time and not so bloody—and smeared the blood upon my bared
breasts.
I yielded, giggling as I fell backward on the bed, against Harker’s legs
(who, because of my doing, never woke nor even stirred). There I let her take me
as she had before, licking away the blood and applying more to the most tender
area until I again fell screaming into the blissful void…
I did the same for her, although I confess it was not entirely to my taste.
Nor did she seem to enjoy it as much as I; she clearly preferred to be the one
giving rather than receiving, and once the Englishman’s small wound ceased
bleeding, her desire appeared to ebb. Yet I managed to bring her into the void,
and afterwards, we lay flushed and warm in each other’s arms atop the snoring
solicitor.
“Now,” she said softly, “come with me to my room. I will have Dorka tailor
some of my dresses for you, so that you can wear them when we go to London. And
when we are there, you shall buy all the new frocks and jewelry you desire, and
then you shall buy more.”
I went with her to her chambers, and tried on frock after frock, peering into
a larger mirror which Dorka held. Such delight! The gowns were all brand-new,
the latest fashion with a “bustle” in the back, and all exquisite (although they
were slightly too long, and too generous in the bosom and waist). Dorka is
taking them all in now.
And then Elisabeth took me into her bedchambers, where I slipped naked
between the most marvellously fine cotton sheets, and pulled the great down
comforter, covered in satin, up to my neck. (Now I see the reason for all the
trunks: There are no such elegant bedclothes in all of Roumania! She has brought
her own linens.)
She lay down beside me, and I quickly fell into a marvellous cosy sleep.
When I woke, it was sunset again, and Elisabeth was gone, no doubt in Vlad’s
company. I had slept most of the day, but was not disappointed, as I felt
greatly refreshed. So I returned to the chambers I share with Dunya—had
shared with Dunya—and gathered my diary and portrait and brought diem back here,
to Elisabeth’s room. I shall never sleep in that casket again.
And now, as I write this, nestled again in Elisabeth’s sumptuous, comfortable
bed, my thoughts return to Vlad’s betrayal and Elisabeth’s insistence that we
should not harm him now, but follow him to England.
In truth, the thought of going with her to London— to London at
last!—thrilled me beyond words, and to take revenge upon Vlad with her by my
side seemed sweet. But how long must I wait? How long?
Chapter 5
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
9 May.
Gerda has become more animated during both day and night. I have shifted my
routine to accommodate her, rising shortly after noon rather than the hour
before sunset. To my surprise, she is hypnotisable most often during the late
afternoon—but at times, the hour of her vulnerability shifts. Some days, she
will not enter trance at all. Today when I rose and unlocked the door to her
room (poor thing, I am forced now to keep her under lock and chain, lest
Zsuzsanna at a distance bid her to harm herself or, God forbid, Mama), she was
amazingly animated. She sat cross-legged on her bed, long white nightgown
carelessly bunched about her upper thighs as she gestured smiling at an
invisible visitor and chattered away like a little girl at an imaginary tea
party. I could not decipher what she was saying, though the lilting cadence and
whistling sibilants clearly marked the language as Roumanian—a language which
she does not speak, and with which I have some limited facility. But the words
were not completely formed, so that the effect was rather like listening to a
young parrot who has captured the rhythm and intonation of his master’s speech,
but is yet unable to enunciate clearly.
For the space of a minute, perhaps two, I stood in silence observing this odd
babbling pantomime. Gerda gave me no notice—until, abruptly, she turned to cast
me a sidelong glance, snorting to her invisible companion: “
Him!” This
time she enunciated the word in clear, precise Roumanian.
But as she peered at me from beneath half-lowered lids, her eyes widened
slowly, and both smile and derisiveness faded from her face. For the most
fleeting of seconds, she knew me and I her. For I beheld the face of my tortured
beloved, my wife, a prisoner held not by locks and bars but by that infinitely
cruder jailor, madness. This was Gerda as she had appeared almost a quarter
century ago, with the pale, dainty face of a gentlewoman and the dark suffering
eyes of a lunatic—eyes so troubled and despairing that, when they looked out at
me from behind a dishevelled curtain of long sable hair (Katya had washed and
brushed it out), tears of compassion filled my own.
“Gerda,” I whispered longingly, and reached to touch her hand. But she turned
away, slack-faced, all animation and expression just as swiftly gone, replaced
by the blank-ness that I have come to despise so.
Nothing I said could rouse her, so I surrendered and tended to Mama a few
hours before checking on Gerda again.
This time, my efforts came to fruition. Gerda quite easily and naturally
slipped into hypnotic trance, though at some points she fell stubbornly silent
(most notably at the questions “How is Vlad? Is he strong or weak?” and “Are you
and he still trapped within the castle?”).
Yet while she would not divulge information about Vlad, at the query “And how
are you? Are you strong?.”
she cried out with girlish enthusiasm: “Ever so strong, and happier than I
have ever been in my life!” At this, my heart sank; yet my dismay was quickly
submerged by curiosity when she added, “It is all because of Elisabeth…”
“Elisabeth? Who is she?” No doubt,
she of
she who has come,
but I waited for a more specific description.
She grew silent and pressed her lips together, as if resolved not to answer;
I feared our session had come to a premature halt. But then she replied softly,
“My dearest friend…” And would say no more on the subject, not even whether
Elisabeth was mortal or no. (She cannot be, of course, if she is capable of so
easily restoring Zsuzsanna’s strength. In all frankness, this terrifies me. What
manner of immortal is this, who is more powerful than even the Impaler? And how
could I ever hope to defeat such a creature?)
I pressed further. “And are you able now to leave the castle?”
At once—to my relief—her expression darkened. “No,” she said, with clear
anger. “But I shall soon, when we go to London.”
London! My heart began to pound against my breastbone as if fervently
demanding escape. My father, Arkady, had told me that Vlad had expressed a
desire to go to England as long as fifty years ago—to London, where he is
unknown and unfeared, and has vastly greater i’tumbers of potential victims.
I asked a few other questions, but in truth, I do not remember the answers
she gave, for I was too shaken by the knowledge that Vlad and Zsuzsanna—and
whoever this Elisabeth might be—would soon make their escape.
Thus tonight I performed a formal ritual for guidance and aid and, for the
first time, attempted to evoke Arminius as one might a god or demon. To my
disappointment, he failed to appear, and so I performed in Circle a divination
to guide me.
Clearly, I am intended to leave for London—but not at once. I shall wait and
watch alertly for the signal to go.
But two cards from the reading trouble me still: the Devil and the High
Priestess. Meditation instructs me that they speak somehow of this mysterious
Elisabeth.
My anxious mind was focussed on these symbols as I dozed at Mama’s bedside,
where the dream of the Dark Creature in the woods betook me. Once again, there
stood my teacher, Arminius, gleaming and white in his purity and kindness,
attended by his familiar, Archangel the wolf. Again I screamed, and again, no
reply, no comfort, from him who had so helped me in the past.
Then came the time when the Great Darkness loomed nearer, and began to change
shape…
But no more did it shift from wolf to child to man. No, this time it
transformed directly from animal to woman. And the darkness brightened slowly
until the black silhouette had become instead filled with colour.
Speechless, I stared at the vision before me—that of an impossibly beautiful
woman, her long waving hair catching the daylight like spun gold, her eyes the
deep, deep blue of the sea. Her skin was alabaster kissed with the delicate pink
of eternal youth—the preternatural glow so often seen upon the countenances of
vampires eager to lure prey. Yes, hers was a loveliness to make the beholder
weep in admiration at such glory, yet I felt no such joy, only the purest dread.
At my terror, she laughed, throwing her head back and tossing the golden
waves so that they sparkled in the sun— sparkled like her small, unnaturally
white teeth. The canines were not sharp, as I had expected, but of perfectly
ordinary size; that realisation served only to heighten my fear until,
overwhelmed, I cried out.
I woke perspiring to the sight of Mama watching me, and feebly picking at the
covers as if in a confused effort to reach out and comfort me.
“Bram?” Her voice, frail and broken, seemed a parody of what it had been
before her illness, but I was touched to see the look of recognition and worry
in her exhausted eyes. Such radiant, gentle, loving orbs they are, the colour of
cornflowers—the absolute moral opposite of those belonging to the woman in my
dream, for Mama’s shine with pure goodness. But lately, it has grown difficult
for me to gaze long into them, for they look at me and do not see me, as though
they are looking beyond at Infinity.
“Child, are you all right?” She spoke in her native English, for in recent
months she seems to find it difficult to recall her Dutch.
I took her cold, thin hand and pressed it between mine to warm it, answering
also in English. “I’m fine, Mama. I was just dreaming.”
Her face suddenly contorted with pain, and beneath the covers, her legs
writhed; though she bit her lip in an effort to keep from crying out, a groan
escaped her nonetheless. I realised then that it had been
her cry, not
my own, that had wakened me. Yet she was more concerned about my mental distress
than her own physical anguish.
Another round of morphia would have been dangerous; I had dosed her only an
hour before. So, with profuse apologies, I followed the wise old medical adage
concerning the elderly and the dying: When in doubt, check bowels and bladder. I
did so quickly, grateful for the fact that both illness and sedation eased any
overt sense of embarrassment—for her (she was quite too exhausted to care), if
not for me. Examining a patient is one thing; examining one’s mother is quite
another.
What I found made my heart sink, for I knew I should have to cause her
further agony. “Mama,” I said gently, “I’m afraid I will have to help you again.
There is a great deal of stool lodged here against your bedsores; I shall have
to extract it for you.”
With almost lucid resignation, she released a disappointed breath, then made
a pitiful effort to roll onto one hip. “Do what you must.”
So I fetched bedpan and salve, and helped her to turn onto her side—that
alone was excruciating for her. Then I performed what was necessary, praying the
whole time that God or whoever had the power would see fit to make my thick
fingers as thin and small as Katya’s. Mama screamed in a way that broke my
heart, and struggled feebly to push me away. Fighting tears, I said, “I am so
sorry to inflict this indignity, Mama; but you will become terribly infected if
I do not remove this stool.”
At once she cried out, “No, no! Don’t remove it, dear, or you shall certainly
fall!”
For one moment, I was confused; the next, I struggled to contain sad laughter
at her darkly comical and entirely unwitting remark. “Don’t worry, I shan’t
fall,” I soothed her. “It is quite steady.”
She seemed to take some comfort from that, and cried out only twice
afterwards. Soon I was done, and elected to give her a very small extra dose of
morphia; now she sleeps soundly and well, her expression the lax, unfurrowed one
of deep, painless sleep.
I checked on Gerda quickly—no change—then returned to Mama’s bedside to watch
that her breathing remained strong and steady.
And here I sit again in the rocking-chair at Mama’s bedside, listening to her
soft snoring and knowing that the familiar sound is one I soon will never hear
again. Yet I feel as though I have always sat here and always will, and that her
suffering will never end.
Clearly, I must go to London soon and take Gerda with me, so that I will be
waiting there when the vampires arrive. They cannot be permitted free rein in
England-dear God, victims are so plentiful there that they would never be
detected… not until the whole country was changed into vampires! My
responsibility there outweighs all others, even that to my family. This I know
in my brain; but my heart knows that it would be a crime to leave Mama alone in
this house to die in the presence of strangers.
Golden Elisabeth, what are you?
And what chance do I have against one so powerful, without Arminius’
intervention?
* * *
Zsuzsanna Tsepesh’s Diary
May.
No entry for a time; things had settled into a pleasurable enough
monotony—but a monotony all the same. Day after day, our routine has been to
enjoy ourselves freely during the sun’s heavenly reign, nibbling upon the
Englishman at our leisure, then straightway enjoying a sensual interlude.
Afterwards, Elisabeth takes me back to her chambers and picks clothing from her
numerous trunks and suitcases, and Dorka alters it for me; or Dorka grooms my
hair in a fashionable style (though my poor locks refuse to hold the slightest
curl, despite her heroic efforts); or Elisabeth educates me in the cosmetic
arts. Lipstick, powder, kohl—I would never have thought these silly things could
enhance even further my immortal glory, but they do indeed. I am not only more
beautiful than ever, I look like what the British call the New Woman:
sophisticated, modern, fashionable… and soon, I pray, independent.
In the afternoon, we sleep together beneath Elisabeth’s sumptuous linens for
a handful of hours, then rise again at sunset. Elisabeth dutifully repairs to
Vlad’s chambers to “visit,” for apparently he wants to be sure that she spends
little time with me (although he sometimes releases her a few hours before the
dawn). No doubt he fears that she will tell me too much of the truth—little does
he know that it is too late!
Nights are the hardest time, for without Elisabeth or our Englishman, little
awaits me save boredom—and poor Dunya, who is not returned to full vigour. She
sleeps all day still, and clearly needs to feed. But each time I broach the
topic, Elisabeth tells me that it is better to simply let the poor girl rest
until the time comes for us all to leave the castle. I suspect that restoring
Dunya would tax Elisabeth’s powers too greatly, though she will not admit to it.
She likes to maintain an aura of omnipotence—and indeed, she very nearly is
omnipotent.
And if she is, why can we not leave? It is anguish to remain here
upon this ruined, deserted estate, thinking of the glories of London! Each dawn,
I go to the open window and stretch my arm forth, yearning for the warm,
delicious kiss of sunlight upon it.
How long must I wait?
I sigh, impatient, as I write this while Elisabeth and Dunya still lie
sleeping in the great bed. I sigh, and write: Enough! I must maintain my sanity;
dwelling upon my captivity will only serve to torment me. And so, now that
restlessness has come upon me, I write…
Yesterday I woke at morning’s first blush (how strange to write these words
again, after so many years) in Elisabeth’s arms, and stared for a time out the
unshuttered window as the grey light warmed to pale rose. (We had missed our
afternoon nap, and so used the darkest morning hours for rest.) After a time my
darling stirred and gazed up at me with a sleepy smile, her long sunny curls
spilling with delightful haphazardness over her ivory shoulders, back, breasts.
The warmth of her body was pleasant, the morning cool; I therefore remained
beside her, and we indulged ourselves in languid conversation beneath the
covers. I, as always, asked: How long? How long? And Elisabeth, as
always, replied, Soon, soon…
Presently our conversation turned to Vlad, and her demeanour became markedly
curious. She sat up suddenly, letting the covers drop away (though the early
morning air was cool)—and, knees bent with long, slender arms wrapped round
them, she demanded:
“You have spoken before of the covenant Vlad had with your family, and with
the villagers. But I have not heard yet of the covenant he surely has with the
Dark Lord. What do you know of it?”
At the sound of that entity’s name-—and at the diamond-hard,
diamond-brilliant intensity in herveyes, focussed keenly on mine—I shuddered.
Yet I answered honestly and in full: that Vlad had offered up to the Dark One
the eldest son of each generation of his family. That a sacrifice was required
each generation in order to purchase Vlad’s renewed immortality. That in 1842,
my brother Arkady had (as both mortal and subsequent vampire) resisted being
pressed into Vlad’s evil service. Arkady’s second death—as a vampire—should have
brought Vlad’s immediate destruction, but did not because my brother had left
behind an heir, which his wife, Mary, took into hiding. So long as the heir
lived and there remained a chance that Vlad could deliver his soul to the Dark
Lord in place of Arkady’s, Vlad survived.
But Vlad’s weakness had come about because this heir —whose name had been
deceitfully changed from Stefan Tsepesh to Abraham Van Helsing by his mother
when she fled with him to Holland—was told by his father, Arkady, the truth of
his heritage. And so Arkady instructed Van Helsing in the foul art of killing
vampires.
Yet Van Helsing, a mere mortal, was no match for Vlad’s strength, and his
efforts to destroy the Prince of Wallachia met with utter failure… and my dear
brother’s death.
However, the wicked Van Helsing soon discovered another terrible truth—that
by destroying other vampires (those of Vlad’s victims who died, were not
properly destroyed, and subsequently rose), Vlad’s powers were gradually sapped.
Thus, over the past two decades of Van Helsing’s killing spree, Vlad and I had
grown weaker and weaker, until we had become the pathetic remnants Elisabeth
greeted upon her arrival.
She listened with fascination and care and, when I had finished, added,
“Clearly Van Helsing was preparing to come here and dispatch you both. Vlad is
too suspicious to trust anyone, least of all me; for him to beg for my aid means
that he was in terror of death… But here, my darling! Why this sudden unhappy
shower?”
For I was quite overcome with grief at the memories that assailed me at the
telling of this sad history; and I cried harder still when she lifted her hand
and tenderly brushed away my tears. Sobbing, I said, “Because, those twenty
years ago, I was lonely, dreadfully lonely, because Vlad had emotionally
forsaken me. And so I took Van Helsing’s little boy, Jan, as my own immortal
companion. Just a baby, he was, barely able to walk and talk, and so sweetly
innocent—and Van Helsing murdered him!“
She held me, patting my back as if soothing a wailing infant, then withdrew
and gently held my arms. “And did this beast also murder your poor brother?”
I shook my head. “No. Arkady died in an encounter with Vlad… He is here in
the castle. Would you like to see him?”
Her lips, pink and glowing as the dawn, parted abruptly in unmasked
amazement. “His body has survived all this time? Zsuzsanna, that is impossible!”
“Possible or no, do you wish to see him?”
“At once!” she cried, springing gracefully from the bed and pulling on her
dressing-gown with such alacrity that, before I could myself rise, she was
already holding out my gown to me.
I led her down the stairs and through a rotting and rusted oaken trapdoor
bound with iron, to the cellar—a subterranean cavern beneath the castle’s stone
foundation, a place I have come to think of as the first circle of Hell. Years
ago, I wept as I carried my poor brother’s body there —a dark, mildewed womb of
earth laced with spiderwebs, sprinkled with dust and the faeces of rodents. Oh,
yes, the bones of martyrs rest in the catacombs of that grotto; the bones of so
many hundreds of unfortunates who served as Vlad’s supper that the servants had
no more room—and came to dispose of later victims in the forest.
And chief of those martyrs is my brother.
To spare myself the need to tread upon too much Death and suffering, I had
laid Arkady’s body in one of the first empty catacombs, those which were not
enclosed by heavy rusted iron bars hung with chains and disintegrating padlocks.
I had constructed for him a catafalque of stone, surrounded him with tapers, and
draped a banner of black silk upon the rough earthen wall.
There we found him, lying just as I had left him on that terrible day:
impaled through his bloodless heart by a stake so thick I cannot encircle it
with one hand. And so handsome at rest, with his narrow but prominent nose, his
severe black brows and hair, his long-lashed eyelids closed forever over the
gentlest hazel eyes I ever knew.
At the sight of him, I wept openly. For though his last desire was to see me
and Vlad destroyed—as he put it, to free our souls (as if we could ascend to
Heaven instead of fall straight to Hell)—he still loved me, and I him. The bonds
of mortal siblings are not easily broken, even by the afterlife or differing
loyalties. So overwhelmed by grief was I when I first laid him to rest that, had
I been capable, I would have offered up my own existence gladly if he could
return. Given the chance, I might do so even now…
My compliments concerning his physical appearance are not due to sisterly
bias; even Elisabeth gasped at the sight of his perfect and beautiful corpse,
and could not extinguish the gleam of lust in her eye quickly enough to hide it.
“Zsuzsanna!” she exclaimed softly. “How can this be? He should have crumbled
to dust, or at the very least decomposed in some fashion…”
I kept my gaze fastened upon my younger brother, my sweet little Kasha, as I
replied, “The stake killed him, a vampire. But the regenerative powers of the
undead are so great that, because his head was never separated from the body, he
has maintained his form. I suspect the instant they are twain, the physical form
will dissolve.” Again, the burn of tears as the images returned to me. “Just as
Van Helsing no doubt accomplished with my baby, my poor little Jan!“
Elisabeth put her arms round me, and stroked my hair as I rested my cheek
upon her shoulder. “What sort of bastard is capable of murdering his own child?”
she fumed. “Don’t cry, my darling. I shall see that he meets his long-deserved
fate. You shall be doubly avenged, for should Van Helsing die, then Vlad himself
shall do the same—or rather, descend into the arms of the Dark Lord—shall he
not?”
“Yes,” I murmured into her soft, silk-clad shoulder.
“Then that is what we will do, dear Zsuzsa. We need only kill Van Helsing to
see Vlad destroyed.”
* * *
Reassured but sad, we walked together back up the stairs. I felt a small
gnawing hunger and should have liked to visit our gentleman, but Elisabeth
became very stern: I had been taxing poor Harker of late, and if we did not
allow him another day’s rest, Vlad would certainly notice and take action
against us. (Him again! Sometimes I become annoyed with Elisabeth; she possesses
such amazing powers, but tiptoes round Vlad as though secretly afraid. Oh, yes,
she says she does it out of her own hunger for the chase to come, that without
such games she would grow bored of existence—but I grow madder with boredom each
hour I remain here!)
I yielded to her reluctantly, and together we returned to our chambers.
Though she tried valiantly to cheer me with more of the usual gown fittings and
hairstyles, I remained restless. At last she made to me the presentation of a
small velvet box, a gift that she had meant to save for our first night in
London.
I opened it with as much show of delight as I could manage, and was truly
moved and delighted to find nestled within a pair of striking earrings—large
round diamonds from which hung suspended even larger sapphire tears— and to
match, a gold necklace from which hung a great pendant of the same design, a
diamond weeping sapphires.
I was enormously honoured and flattered to receive such an expensive token of
Elisabeth’s affection, even more so when I asked her when and how she had
managed to purchase such a gift, and she replied:
“They were mine, given to me in marriage as a token of esteem. So I give them
to you with the same meaning.”
I rose and kissed her upon each cheek, and she solemnly returned the gesture.
And so she began to speak of London again, and the different places she intended
to take me shopping—to Piccadilly and Hyde Park, and Savile Row, but I could not
feign interest for long. My frustration at being trapped inside these stone
walls would not ease, so at last she tore off my clothes and carried me to the
bed, where she attempted to relieve my anxiety in a more sensual fashion.
As I write this, it occurs to me that this was the first time we had made
love without blood smeared upon our bodies, and without my having recently fed.
Elisabeth was determined to better my mood, but her efforts were curiously
lacking in passion. When even her pale enthusiasm began clearly to wane, I waved
her away. Offended, she stormed off—where, I cannot say, for even with my
preternatural hearing, I could detect not a sound anywhere in the castle. I did
not see her again until after dusk.
By then the full moon had risen, large and yellow and ringed with a radiant
halo of mist in a starry indigo sky. It was a warm, beautiful night—even more
beautiful because I sensed that Vlad had departed the castle, leaving behind an
atmosphere of ease—and unbearably romantic, especially now that my Elisabeth was
gone. Before I met her, the full moonglow used to pain my eyes so that I avoided
hunting then; but tonight, it seemed delicious, inviting, and the moon’s
incandescent whiteness, rippled through with pale gold, reminded me of my
lover’s skin and hair.
Fortunately, by that time, Dunya had risen from her coffin and I distracted
myself from my loneliness by talking to her; she was too sweet-natured to show
it, but I know she is becoming jealous of Elisabeth’s obvious favouritism
towards me. Here I sit in new gowns and jewels, marvellously coiffed, and Dunya
still spends the day in the worn (but fetching) dress I bought her twenty years
ago in Vienna, with her dark reddish hair braided and coiled in the same fashion
Vlad’s serfs wore four centuries ago. Since she joined us undead, I have tried
consciously to treat her less as a servant and more as an equal, but there is a
clear class distinction which cannot be violated. I think when she is reminded
of it, it hurts her feelings. What Hell to know one is doomed to remain a
serving-girl for all eternity! But there is nothing to be done.
At any rate, I did my best to reassure her. I had, I told her, demanded that
Vlad bring us food, which was bound to arrive very soon. This heartened her a
bit; for although she is slightly stronger than she was, hunger has again
weakened her to the point where she cannot hunt for herself. (Even if she could,
thanks to Vlad’s foulx magic she probably would find herself trapped inside the
castle, same as I.)
But just as I finished my tale, Dunya sat up in her chair, and lifted her
nose to savour the air.
“Warm blood!” She rose at once and hurried to the door of her bedchamber,
following the scent. “Doamna, there is a mortal here!”
She projected herself with blurring speed out into the sitting-room. I
followed, and heard her release a small gasp as our gazes beheld, at the same
time, the Englishman.
He was sitting at the desk, pen in hand, writing furiously in a pocket-sized
diary in the glow of lamp and moon. We both had rushed into the room with such
haste that his mortal eyes could not possibly have perceived our entry, but he
is clearly a sensitive, for he glanced frowning in our direction.
“Sleep,” I said. Straightway, he rose, pen and diary in one hand, and
clumsily pulled the long couch into a bright pane of moonlight in front of the
grand window—the one which looks down onto the great chasm and the forested
valley far below, and the mountains far beyond. At once he lay down—on his side,
fortunately, so that the snoring which immediately commenced was less stertorous
than usual. (If he is indeed engaged, I pity his poor wife-to-be.)
Dunya clapped her hands and giggled, gleeful as a child introduced to a new
present. “How handsome he is!”
“Vlad’s visitor,” I murmured, as I silently agreed with Dunya’s comment.
Awake and dressed and neatly groomed, he looked even more attractive and
gentlemanly in vest and shirt and trousers, and brown curls sternly pomaded. He
also had the beginnings of a dark beard, which gave his boyish features an
agreeable severity, and made his jaw and cheeks appear thinner and more
sculpted.
So deeply did he fall into trance that the diary and pen, which he heretofore
had jealously clutched, dropped from his now-relaxed fingers onto the couch.
Before I could react, the nib fell directly onto the centuries-old brocade and
the ink was immediately absorbed, leaving a small black starburst that could
never be washed out.
“Thoughtless guests!” I exclaimed. “Really, have they no concern for others’
property?” And I slipped the pen into his vest pocket—nib down. The diary,
however, I took into my hands, hoping to fool Dunya into believing I had never
before met the genteel Mr. Harker.
“Hmph! What sort of chicken scratchings are these? Why does he not write in
English?” I peered up from the small book to address the sleeping man. “Well,
you shall, sir, from now on,” I commanded, in the voice of a mesmerist. “You may
think you are writing in this bizarre scrawl, but you shall in truth
write everything down in proper English. How else shall I indulge my curiosity?”
And I bent low and slipped the diary next to the pen.
When I rose, I glanced over to see poor Dunya transfixed—staring down at
Harker with lips parted, sharp, shining teeth bared, and eyes filled with a wild
hunger that was painful to see. And yet she was restrained by an invisible wall
of fear.
“I must not!” she whispered—to neither me nor Harker, but to herself. “I must
not! He would destroy me…”
He meaning Vlad, of course, and I opened my mouth to say, There
is no more reason to fear Vlad anymore, dear companion. The man is yours. Take
him!.
But ere I could speak, I sensed rather than heard the rustle of soft skirts
against stone, and the click of hard, tiny heels. And there in the arched
entryway stood Elisabeth. How had I failed to sense her approach… unless she had
intentionally kept her movements silent?
To my relief, she was no longer angry; indeed, she was smiling and cheerful,
and glanced at Harker with amusement as she entered briskly, skirts in her
hands. “Ah! Our Englishman seems to have wandered astray.”
I left Dunya slavering over our unexpected visitor and sidled up to
Elisabeth, who put her hand upon my waist and kissed my cheek as though her
furious departure had never occurred. Thus I dared ask her—in English, which to
the uneducated Dunya might as well have been Chinese: “I cannot bear to see her
suffer so any longer, or to fear Vlad’s wrath needlessly. For my sake, let her
drink safely, as you have let me…”
I half expected more anger from her, or at least an annoyed repetition of how
it would be better not to overtax her powers until the time came for us to
leave.
But she was in as jolly a temper as I have seen her, and she merely sighed
with affectionate annoyance and stroked my cheek with her hand. One corner of
her red mouth quirked up to reveal a deep dimple beside it as she turned to face
Harker and his desperate admirer.
“Dunya, my darling. Take the visitor; he is yours. Only mark that you do not
drain him to death, else I will not be able to protect you from Vlad’s anger.”
Atremble with desire and terror, the little servant glanced up at Elisabeth
with wide, confused dark eyes. “But, doamna, if I do, then the prince
shall see the mark!”
I stepped forward. “He won’t. Elisabeth can cause the marks to disappear.”
On her face, darkness warred with light: darkness, as she wondered how I
should know such a thing unless Elisabeth had done it for me—which meant that I
had withheld from my loyal companion nourishing blood, this visitor’s blood.
Light, as she tried to repress doubt and anger and focus instead on this
hope-restoring marvel, that she could drink deep at Harker’s well without danger
of retaliation.
As always, rage succumbed to hunger. She bent low over the Englishman, whose
eyelids fluttered; clearly, he was watching her with the same delicious
anticipation she directed towards him, for as she neared, his lips parted
sensually to draw in and release air more quickly. His sighs caused a warm,
rapid thrill to course down my spine, at whose termination I felt as though I
had burst into flame.
Closer she drew to him, and closer, with the most erotic reverence I have
ever witnessed, until her mouth opened wide and her teeth pressed ever so gently
against his flesh—not piercing, merely touching. I do not think I had ever seen
her appear quite so classically beautiful as she did at that moment: her eyelids
half lowered with desire, her profile pale and fragile against Harker’s more
rounded ruddy one. A single lock of her hair had escaped the long braid and fell
straight onto Harker’s cheek, where it coiled, a red-black serpent.
In that pose she lingered, and slowly closed her eyes, savouring the ecstasy
induced by waiting.
And I was hungry, hungry, hungrier than I had ever been, yet aware that my
yearning could not be sated by blood alone. I pressed a hand to my heaving
breast and looked at my beloved, my Elisabeth.
She, too, was drunk with anticipation, for her mouth had fallen open and,
like Harker, she panted. Unlike Harker, her blue eyes were open wide and frankly
ablaze with lust.
But not for me, not for me. And not for our Englishman.
Jealousy abruptly replaced my arousal:. How could she look at Dunya as she
looks at me? How dare anyone else be the object of her passion!
Yet that emotion was just as swiftly replaced by surprise. Bony spine arched
in a delicate curve, Dunya lifted her shoulders in a gesture I have come to know
well, for it is that of the vampire preparing to strike.
At the same time, there came a sound like the rushing of a great wind, and
its slamming into the motionless air of the sitting-room.
“Leave him!” Vlad thundered, and Dunya cried out in horrified alarm as he
flung down a large burlap sack and rushed towards her. Before either Elisabeth
or I could intervene, Vlad caught her neck between his thumb and forefinger and
lifted her from her knees, then hurled her backward with such great force that
she struck the wall.
She was, of course, unhurt (though she remained cowering in the corner), but
the cruel disrespect of the gesture filled me with fury. What if it had been I
or Elisabeth instead of a serving-girl? Would he have dared lay a hand on as?
My anger rose as he turned his wrath upon us two, shouting: “How dare you
touch him, any of you! How dare you cast eyes on him when I had forbidden it!
This man belongs to me!”
Able to bear it no longer, I cried, “But we do not belong to you,
and we are hungry! What sort of tyrant starves his own family, then
strikes us when the opportunity to save ourselves appears? You say he belongs to
you, but he wandered into our rooms—we did not bring him here. Fate has decreed
that we shall be fed!”
His eyes reddened with fury at my impudence, as I knew they would; I do think
if Elisabeth had not been there, he would have killed me if he could. He glanced
from me to her; she said nothing at all, but merely gazed back at him with an
enigmatic half-smile and eyes hard, cold, deadly fierce.
I think she frightened him, for he remained silent a moment before answering
slowly, “Harker shall be yours after a time, when I am done with him. Until
then”—he nodded at the brown bundle on the floor; a shrill animal cry, similar
to that of a cat, emerged from within, but the smell was definitely that of warm
human blood—“let that suffice.”
And he lifted the swooning Englishman into his arms and departed as quickly
as he had come. Immediately relieved, Dunya scrambled over to the bag and
loosened the drawstring; wet burlap fell away in folds to reveal a filthy, naked
male child of perhaps a year, its smudged cheeks wet with tears. It gazed up at
Dunya and immediately calmed, though its little torso spasmed comically with
hiccups.
Elisabeth sniffed the air, her porcelain features contorted with disgust, and
raised a lace handkerchief to her mouth. “It smells.”
“Ah, no.” I wagged a finger at her. “Remember Alexander Pope: You
smell. It stinks.”
“I think it peed in the bag,” Dunya said, and grinned at it, relieved to find
that she had not only escaped punishment, but would have her dinner after all.
(The sense of smell, apparently, is first to fade when hunger overwhelms.) The
child returned the smile sweetly, and reached for her with chubby fingers. “A
baby,” she said, and scooped it up at once, whirling round and round and
tickling its fat stomach until it crowed atonally with delight. She snapped her
fingers beside its ear, then added, “I think it’s deaf.”
Another prize from our oh-so-generous Vlad: a dirty, piss-soaked deaf boy
whose own parents had probably offered it up gladly. “And he is all yours,” I
told Dunya.
She neither questioned my abstinence nor protested the gift, but immediately
pressed her lips to its neck in a hungry kiss; the child giggled, writhing as if
tickled. But its laughter turned at once to a terrified scream as Dunya opened
wide her mouth and struck. The cry soon faded; the boy grew glassy-eyed and
still as the muscles in Dunya’s jaw worked, and soon he was limp in her arms.
She cradled him then, lifting high the elbow beneath his head so that she could
drink comfortably without bending too far down—the mother suckling the child.
The tableau seemed both strangely tender and erotic; I found myself yearning
to join her in that gently passionate embrace. A glance at Elisabeth confirmed
that she felt the same, for she stared at the two with the same intent lust she
had directed at Dunya and Harker.
Was I again jealous? Yes, as I am now, watching Dunya as she sleeps enfolded
in Elisabeth’s arms in the great bed. But that verdant emotion did not stay with
me for long. For this time, Elisabeth felt my gaze upon her, and favoured me
with a faint, seductive smile. Oddly, that small gesture caused all jealousy to
lift, and filled me instead with fire. So I did not resist when Elisabeth took
my hand and, laying it upon her breast and her own hand atop mine, drew me with
her to Dunya’s side.
What possessed me then I cannot say, nor can I remember clearly what
transpired afterwards. I only know that we indulged ourselves in an orgy of
blood and sexual excess, and that I violated each woman just as each one
violated me. Only one image remains with me clearly— that of Elisabeth naked and
kneeling upon the stone, crying out More, morel as Dunya and I each
held one of the dying child’s heels and shook him so that the dregs of his blood
spattered down upon Elisabeth’s breast and face. This she frenziedly rubbed into
her skin, as if somehow she might absorb some good from it.
When it was over, Dunya was too sated to move, and all three of us were
sticky with the remnants of the child’s blood. Elisabeth carried her and I
trailed behind as we three made our way to Elisabeth’s chamber. There we piled
into the big bed, where I slept until the dawn.
How strange this all is, and how confused I have become. I am jealous of
Dunya and angry at Elisabeth—and yet I am not. I know but one thing for certain:
that I shall convince her to wait no longer, but to take me to London at once.
Chapter 6
Szuzsanna Dracul’s Diary
May.
When I went alone to Harker’s chambers this morning—Elisabeth had gone off
again, without explanation—I found, to my delight, that my hypnotic suggestion
to him had worked, after a fashion. He was still writing in shorthand in his
diary, but he had taken to transcribing the whole thing into English on some
parchment he had apparently brought with him in order to post letters. He had
begun with the most recent entry, the sixteenth, and I was amused to see
his
perspective of what had happened the night of 15 May.
Clearly, he was quite fixated upon Elisabeth, for he spoke of nothing but the
“fair girl” and her wavy masses of golden hair. She had taken the place of Dunya
in his shoddy memory, and he spent an inordinate amount of time describing her
and overstating the “count’s” show of anger. Quite insulting, really, and where
did he get this business about “you never love”? All fantasy.
But the worst insult came in the previous day’s entry —the entry he must have
been writing when Dunya and I caught him in our sitting-room. I was so
infuriated that I committed it to memory: “Here I am, sitting at a little oak
table where in old times possibly some fair lady sat to pen, with much thought
and many blushes, her ill-spelt love-letter…”
Ill-spelt?
Ill-spelt? Sir, I have avoided insulting
your
pitiful attempts at poetic prose, nor have I chided you in
my diary for
your faulty spelling. I resent the implication that the Tsepesh (or Dracul, or
Roumanian, for that matter) women were ill-educated, or that they wasted their
time blushing over silly love-letters. My mother was a renowned poetess, sir,
and I alone possess more literary skills than you and all your future heirs
together dare ever hope to have. I have never misspelt a word in all my life.
Ill-spelt, indeed!
As for the misspoken Mr. Harker, I gave him a small nip, and took just enough
blood to stave off hunger; this time, I skipped any sexual encounter, for I had
little of that sort of appetite after the long, strange night with Elisabeth,
Dunya, and the deaf child.
When I had drunk (much less than my fill), I left Harker and wandered out
into the hallway. I was filled with restlessness, as I had wanted badly to tell
Elisabeth that I could no longer wait to go to London. Yet I could find her
nowhere in the castle—save for the one place I feared to look, Vlad’s chambers.
And if she refused again to leave this prison, I had resolved to attempt what
heretofore I had never dared even to think: kill Vlad with the stake. Yes, he
had told me that vampires could not directly kill each other, but he had managed
to kill my brother by hurling a stake at him.
Why should I not do the same to him? For with Elisabeth here, I had come to
realise that I
was strong enough to face even the Impaler. “If I am
destroyed, you are destroyed,” he has always told me, but I know now in my heart
that is a lie.
Yet before I could enter his inner sanctum, I needed to render myself
invisible, soundless—for even hard at rest, Vlad was capable of sensing danger,
and retaliating. Thus I carefully performed the necessary mental machinations
and chant, and when I felt confident that he could never detect me, I set off.
Up the stairs I went, moving so swift and light that my feet literally never
touched the stone. Soon I arrived at the great oak-and-iron door to find it
closed and bolted from the inside; from within came no sound. Rather than
dramatically break the bolt and fling the door open—which I could manage easily
now, but which would also alert Vlad to my increased strength—I instead opted
for stealth, and narrowed my body in order to slip through the crack into the
vast chamber, which was modelled upon the Prince of Wallachia’s private throne
room.
There to the west stood the Theatre of Death, where black manacles graced a
bloodstained wall, and the wicked chains of the strappado (from whence a victim
might struggle, suspended in midair) hung from the ceiling. Beneath them both
lay a large wooden tub, of oaken exterior but an interior the colour of red
mahogany, a legacy left by its former contents. And beyond them both stood a
large butcher’s table, its surface worn and scored by the bite of countless
blades. This in turn was flanked by a rack of knives of different sizes and
shapes, and a stand of sharpened wooden stakes—some broad as a strong man’s arm
and taller than I, others shorter and thinner, destined for more delicate uses.
In the halcyon days before Van Helsing’s birth, all these were used to dispose
of dead guests in a manner which prevented them from becoming competition.
These devices had long lain unused; but I had no doubt they represented the
fate intended for our Englishman, no matter what false claims of generosity Vlad
had uttered.
I approached them, tempted to arm myself at once and enter the small door to
my left wherein my uncle slept (this I sensed beyond doubt), in hopes of
achieving the brazen deed before my resolve fled entirely. But a slight, barely
perceptible movement at the chamber’s opposite wall caught my notice.
Elisabeth, I was convinced, though when I stared intently in the direction of
the movement I saw and heard nothing—nothing save the Impaler’s throne, and the
wooden platform on which it rested, and the three stairs inlaid in gold with the
motto JUSTUS ET Pius. Yet I knew she was there—as invisible and undetectable as
I; but even the strongest magic is not so powerful as love.
And with loving eyes I looked as I slowly crossed the Impaler’s great
chamber, nearing inch by inch until I discovered the boundaries of her spell.
One instant, I stood several arm’s lengths from the platform, and saw nothing
save what I have above described. But one step more—a single hesitant step—and
the air began to shimmer and roil like clouds caught up in a fierce storm; then,
like a veil, it lifted to reveal my Elisabeth.
In front of the great throne, she had erected a polished onyx double cube as
an altar. Around this she had inscribed a circle, on whose boundaries I had
encroached, thus opening this secret ritual to my eyes.
Dressed in the simple black robe of a priestess, golden hair streaming freely
down her back, Elisabeth raised her arms in a V before the altar, on which
rested the same implements I have seen on Vlad’s: pantacle, dagger, cup, and
candle.
And a dead, bloody boy child lying beside locks of indigo hair.
Locks of
my hair, I realised with an abrupt thrill of horror. Locks
of my hair—and Dunya’s, for I recognised my jet colour, kissed with blue, and
Dunya’s, kissed with red. What manner of evil did she intend to work against us?
And what had we to do with the dead child?
This I could not determine, for as she faced west— faced me—she intoned words
in a bizarre language that sounded like no earthly tongue I knew; but regardless
of the language, I can recognise my own name, and that of my serving-girl. And
those I heard.
Had I not been frightened of her powers and her anger, I would have broken
the circle and stepped forward to demand explanation at once, instead I lingered
on the perimeter and watched, hoping that I could ascertain the purpose of this
ritual and knowing that I could not. But something—perhaps someone—compelled me
to remain.
And then I saw Him.
Elisabeth had completed her chanting and now waited, hands crossed upon her
chest like a penitent, head bowed. Unbeknownst to her, standing behind her back,
towering over her like a titan stood…
How shall I describe Him? He was entirely dark, like a huge shadow cast by a
lamp, yet He seemed quite solid. I could not see His face or features, yet He
had both, for I saw Him smile at me. Neither had He eyes, but I gazed
into them just the same.
He knew me. He smiled at me, and knew me. And I —I knew at that moment that I
had always known Him, and felt no fear, no fear at all, for looking into His
eyes I saw acceptance and compassion, and indeed love.
Such love that I was swept away into it, pulled as if by the tide into the
infinite blackness, the infinite light, in His eyes. For He and I were Nothing
and All Things, existence and annihilation, thought and mindlessness, all
together, and all things and no thing the same. This was an ecstasy far beyond
any physical satisfaction and desire, and as I reflect upon it now, I can
honestly say that if Death is such a state, I would gladly kill myself now.
Then all awareness passed away, and I fell into an unconscious state and woke
a short time later to find Elisabeth and the altar and—could it have been the
Dark Lord? No! An archangel, at the very least, capable of only the whitest
magic, for when I have heard of the Dark Lord or heard Vlad in session with Him,
it brings only fear. But this creature… this dark, good creature…
I can only speculate. I fled to my room and have written this all down, lest
time cause my memory of that powerful encounter to fade. As for now, I have not
seen Elisabeth yet, and am fearful; if she detected me after my swooning, then
she will no doubt be furious again.
But
I must know what she is about. If she means to betray me, then
my death is assured anyway, and I might as well face it swiftly rather than
linger in an agony of doubt.
19 MAY.
She is dead, she is dead! How can this be? How can any immortal be murdered,
save by the hand of the living?
My hand trembles so, I fear I shall drop the pen, for I realise that
I
am no longer safe myself.
I went to her coffin today, filled with concern because the morning after the
deaf boy’s death—the sixteenth— Dunya, still sated and sleepy, crawled from
Elisabeth’s bed to her little casket in the servant’s quarters and closed the
lid with a weary
thump.
It is not uncommon for a vampire who has had her fill after a long
deprivation to sleep a day, a night, and another day, then rise refreshed and
invigourated; I have done it myself many times. So when Dunya did not rise at
all on the night of the sixteenth, I was unconcerned. And when she did not
emerge on the seventeeth, I told myself:
She is enjoying a long, deep rest,
and when I see her tomorrow, she will appear younger and stronger than she has
for decades.
She did not arise on the eighteenth. “Have no fear,” Elisabeth said, trying
to comfort me. (She has never mentioned my appearance at her ritual; I can only
surmise that my invisibility spell was successful, that I was not detected, for
she has only been kind to me since.) “Dunya is immortal. Who can harm her?”
Who, indeed?
This morning I left Elisabeth sleeping and crept in the hour before sunrise
to Dunya’s quiet chambers. How dark it seemed there, and how melancholy; from
outside came the sweet, high song of a solitary lark, but that morning it seemed
peculiarly mournful.
I lingered for a moment in the sitting-room where we had encountered Jonathan
Harker, Esquire; my fears held me back from proceeding directly into the
bedchamber. The couch still stood where the Englishman had placed it —in front
of the large window. There I stood, gazing out at forest and mountains and
fierce ravine as they slowly emerged from darkness into the pale grey light of
dawn.
Then I steeled myself and moved into the inner room where Dunya lay inside
her closed casket. And in the instant I stepped across that threshold, a
startling revelation seized me: Dunya was not here, not here at all! I had
always been able to sense her gentle presence, as she was entirely ignorant of
magic and the methods of self-protection (this at Vlad’s insistence).
For a fleeting moment, I felt overcome by the wild hope that Elisabeth had at
last empowered her, that she had somehow managed to escape the castle; this was
accompanied by an equally wild but vague terror—vague because my mind would not
permit the admission of what I feared I might find. Consumed by those two
incompatible emotions together, I approached the little casket and flung open
the lid.
Bone and dust!
Bone and dust: her small, delicate skull was palest ivory, cleaned of any
remnant of eye or skin, though a long, liquefying strand of reddish dark hair
stuck to the white satin beneath, from neck to waist. It was as though she had
truly died as a mortal those twenty years before, and her corpse left to the
elements under a pitiless sun. The skull had fallen off the bones of the neck
and stood on the bones of the upper jaw (the lower had collapsed), somewhat
perpendicular to the dry yellowed bones of the limbs and torso. Her arms were
crossed over the breastbone and ribs as neatly as if she had been arranged for
burial, but the leg bones had detached and lay scattered in disarray.
I suppose I screamed; I must have screamed, though how loud and long I cannot
say, for all fear fled and I knew only hysterical grief. And as I cried out, my
breath stirred the dust in the coffin—truly her final resting-place now—causing
it to scatter upward into the air and float like the white-hot ash of burning
parchment.
I breathed in that ash, choked on it, wept for it; indeed, I crawled into the
coffin and clutched the bones, kissed them, baptised them with my tears.
Sweet servant and friend! Loyal and unquestioning companion! I remember with
pain each thoughtless act I ever committed against you, and know that now, I
have failed in my obligation to protect you…
I did not mourn alone long; in the midst of my sobs, I felt a warm hand touch
my shoulder. Above me stood Elisabeth, her own eyes aglisten with tears, her
expression one of horrified shock and pity. She was naked, her hair in streaming
tangles; apparently she had heard my wailing and hurled herself from bed.
“Zsuzsanna, my darling!” Her voice was low, softer and more tender than ever
I had heard it—oh, but I was too full of grief and fury to believe her. “My
dear, what has
happened? Oh, this cannot—is this poor Dunya?” At once
she fell to her knees beside the coffin and swore: “Damn him!
Damn
him!”
I whirled round and sat up at once, filled with an anger pure enough, grand
enough, to consume the entire world. I cared not whether I offended her, or Vlad,
or the Dark Lord, even if He be the Devil Himself; I cared not if in the next
instant I, too, was reduced to a heap of bones and dust. I lashed out, wanting
only for her to suffer as I suffered at that moment.
“You know it is.
You are the one who has killed her! I trusted you—
trusted
you, but now—”
A flash of rage on her face, but only a flash; she controlled herself
immediately and replied, with an expression of infinite hurt and sadness,
“Zsuzsa, sweet Zsuzsa, how can you say this to
me? How can you think
that I would ever want to harm your friend and cause you such suffering? You are
first in my heart, and I would never betray you… This is all Vlad’s doing!”
I would have none of it; all an act, all an act, one I had been foolish to
believe. “You killed her, as you intend to kill me! I saw you perform the
ritual; I saw Dunya’s hair, and mine, upon your altar. I saw the Dark Lord…”
At those last two words, her eyebrows lifted sharply, and her gaze became
intense, ferocious, diamond-bright; she had not known. Then slowly, the golden
brows lowered; her forehead smoothed and her entire expression grew composed.
When at last she spoke, her words were measured and deliberate.
“If you saw, then surely you understood the ritual’s purpose: to protect you
and Dunya from harm. My darling, there is much I have not revealed for fear of
frightening you. Vlad intends to destroy us all, and it has taken all my
reserves of strength and wit simply to protect you. I admit, I have failed you
in terms of Dunya, your good servant, whose death has clearly broken your heart.
For my mistake has been to put especial protection round her whom I love
most”—and here she kissed my hand, leaning down so that her hot tears spilled
onto my flesh—“and to leave only a modicum for myself and Dunya.”
What could I say to such a confession? I struggled onto my knees,
inadvertently cracking dry, brittle bones, and reached for her. Sobbing, we
embraced.
“Ah, my Zsuzsanna, my Zsuzsa, I am sorry I misled you, but I did so out of
concern that you should not be afraid. Vlad is weak, yes, and I am the more
powerful— except that he has studied magic some two centuries longer than I. His
father and grandfather both ascended the throne with the Dark Lord’s aid, and I
believe he has invoked that powerful entity yet again in hopes of defeating us.
For he fears us and anything, anyone,, stronger than he—and that which he fears,
he is bound to destroy. This is how he repays me, who have come to offer him
help… and you, who remained his loyal companion for fifty years, despite his
despicable treatment of you.”
So gentle was her gaze, so wounded yet full of compassionate sorrow, that my
heart was pierced by a fresh grief, that of the realisation I had hurt her
unjustly. “I am sorry, I am sorry,” I murmured, with renewed weeping, and
pressed harder against her warm ivory flesh, against the soft perfumed hair that
cascaded like Godiva’s over her shoulder, breast, and belly. “I understand… you
had invoked the Dark Lord for protection for us all. But you
must have
the same protection I have, for if I rise and find you so destroyed”—here I
gestured at the pitiful heap of bones beneath me—“I truly will die of
unhappiness. What shall I do to save you? Teach me, and I will bargain with the
Devil Himself!”
A hint of wryness crept into her expression, and she chided quickly beneath
her breath, “Do not call Him the Devil, Zsuzsanna; that is so superstitious and
mediaeval!” Immediately after, she straightened and said more loudly, “I will
not have you bargaining with Him, dear one. It is too unsafe, even for those of
us long practiced in the black arts. He is a treacherous negotiator, and He
deals only in lives and afterlives; He would all too quickly possess your soul.”
“My soul? What would He want with it, if He is not the Devil?”
She lowered her eyelids and, in an obvious effort to distract me, said, “Come
away from those bones, darling —it is too gruesome!” And she lifted me up by the
waist as easily as if I had been a babe, and set me down beside her to brush
away dust and bits of crumbled bone from my dressing-gown. Shattered,
frightened, I clung to her as she led me out into the hallway and back towards
the chamber we had come to share.
But still I contemplated her odd statement about her Master; if He was not
the Devil, was He then God? Surely God would not stoop to bargaining for souls!
As sorrow had removed all my courteous restraint, I demanded again, “Why my
soul?”
“A matter of speech,” she said, but her gaze was focussed straight ahead, on
her destination, rather than on me; I could not help feeling that she wished
desperately to avoid the subject altogether, as if it were too unpleasant even
to contemplate. “You would be absorbed. Annihilated. Devoured.”
Is this what Vlad has done to Dunya? Has her soul been eaten by the Dark One
with the loving eyes?
Yet if that is what I felt in His presence—that ecstatic sense of No Thing
and All Things—then I cannot, as Elisabeth does, fear Him. If that is where
Dunya is, then I shall dry my still-streaming tears…
And yearn to join her.
Elisabeth will not teach me any of the needed knowledge to contact Him
directly—to seek revenge on Vlad, and safe passage for us both from this castle.
But I will find Him.
I will find Him…
* * *
29 JUNE.
No entry in all this time; grief has caused my strength and inclination to
wane. I think often of the dead: my good mother and father, my brothers Arkady
and little Stefan, and dear Dunya. Sometimes I even think of all the poor souls
whose bodies and bones lie corrupting in this castle and the vast encircling
forest. So much death and suffering everywhere I turn! The magnitude of it
overwhelms, permeates, my mind and heart… _
But so many things have happened that I must record them before the details
fade from memory. Tonight, for the first time in months, my mind is directed
towards something other than mortality—towards a distant land I have always
yearned to see, but came to think I never would.
A month or so ago, tsigani men drove their wagons into the castle
courtyard and camped there. It was a warm day, and hotter still for the gypsies,
as they had decided to cook their noonday meal—a kid—and so built a large fire
and spit and sat round it half-naked, their bare chests and backs exposed and
glistening with sweat.
Their presence was resounding evidence (although I had never doubted) that
Vlad did indeed mean to desert me here, for when Elisabeth and I tried to signal
the group’s apparent leader from the windows, the men laughed derisively and
ignored us—just as they ignored Mr. Harker, who also cried out from his window.
(Obviously, he is just as much a prisoner as we; though certainly ignorant of
dealing with gypsies. The fool threw them money—which of course they pocketed
before turning away.)
“Shut him up!” Elisabeth ordered, her eyes narrowed in frustration at the
smirking ruffians beneath us; like an obedient slave, I hurried at once up to
Harker’s chambers and entranced him. When I returned, I found Elisabeth a
feminine parody of the men; leaning seductively out the unfettered window, her
gown and camisole both unfastened and pulled down to the waist, baring her
breasts, she sang a patently bawdy song in Romany to the captivated onlookers
below. My first reaction was to be slightly jealous at her brazen display in
front of those vile, untrustworthy creatures; but the jealousy was swiftly
replaced by humour at Elisabeth’s audacity, and the comically smitten
expressions on the gypsy men’s faces. This was the first time since Dunya’s
death that I had been graced by laughter, and that made it all the more
powerful: I shut my mouth and bit my tongue in an effort to quell the chuckling
that bubbled up within me, but all for naught. The laughter came regardless;
thus I stood somewhat back from the window so that I could not be seen, but I
could see both Elisabeth and her adoring audience.
Her little performance achieved her intent; the tsigani chief
immediately ran from his place in front of the campfire—shouting an order to the
other men to remain—and arrived at the castle entrance. This was apparently
bolted from the outside, for as we rushed to welcome him in, I heard the scrape
of wood against metal, then the hollow clank of a wooden bolt striking stone.
Although we were forced to remain inside, he had no difficulty crossing that
threshold; like a lovestruck bull, he flung aside the heavy door and rushed
straight for Elisabeth and her bared bosom. He grasped her breasts, one with
each hand, and, with alarming disregard for civility, pushed her backward to the
cold floor.
To my astonishment, she did not resist (though she could easily have held her
ground, causing him to fall back as though he had collided with a
mountain). No, she fell back, laughing, and when he threw back her skirts and
petticoats, she laughed harder still, as if it were all the most amusing sport,
and let her bare legs sprawl wide.
He was not an unhandsome man—in fact, his shining coal-coloured hair and
strong beak of a nose reminded me somewhat of my brother—but there was a
crudeness to his broad face and plump, barrel-chested body, and to his oily
olive skin and ridiculously long waxed mustache that I found supremely
distasteful.
And when he quickly unfastened his trousers and fell atop her, piercing her,
bellowing, still clutching her soft breasts with his thick, inelegant fingers,
the whole scene struck me as nauseous, and I turned away, thinking to leave
before I was called upon next.
But at that moment, Elisabeth framed the tsigani‘% face with her
hands (so white and delicate in contrast to his sun-darkened cheeks) and
mightily pulled him down into a kiss. At first he resisted—such silly feminine
desires were clearly not to be indulged, not by a whore who had so blatantly
lured him here for one thing, and one thing alone! But I saw, in profile,
Elisabeth open her eyes as she pressed her lips passionately to his, and I saw
his flutter open in surprise, then slowly grow dull and dreamy as all his
volition fled.
Throughout, his desperate thrusting never ceased, for this transpired in the
space of a few seconds.
“Zsuzsanna!” Elisabeth gasped, in the clear unyielding tone that signalled
she would accept no refusal.
I stepped back towards her and looked down: her glorious hair had been swept
up so that it spilled above her onto the stone, encircling her head like a
halo—or the pale golden crescent of the half moon. The big tsigani
still flailed wildly, his face now pressed into the sweetly scented pillow of
hair half an arm’s length above the top of her skull. All the while, she pressed
her palms into his chest, easily holding him up. He would have crushed and
suffocated a mortal woman.
“I can’t, Elisabeth. I—I have no heart for this.”
“I don’t care if you fuck him or not, dearest. But bite him! For me, please!”
“I have no appetite…”
“You needn’t drink! Just bite him—don’t kill him— and let the blood run down
upon my face…”
With a sigh I obeyed, moving behind her impaler’s sweat-streaming back and
bending down to strike the front of his shoulder. At this, he stiffened and
emitted a strangled cry of terror and ecstatic release.
Sweet blood, but I was too grief-stricken, too troubled, too bored with life
in this castle, to savour it. I withdrew, unhappily pleased to deny myself,
unhappily pleased to suffer at the hands of hunger; and I sat back on my
haunches and watched as Elisabeth licked the gypsy’s small, streaming wound and
rubbed her cheeks against it as a cat rubs its face against its mistress’ legs.
“You are mine,” Elisabeth whispered into his ear. “You shall obey Vlad’s
orders so long as they do not harm us, but you are mine. And so, after you have
taken the prince from this castle, you shall return for us—and you will secretly
tell your closest friend, and make him swear that if you should mysteriously
die, he must come and rescue us poor, helpless women. All within a day…”
Within a day. And now that the time is almost here, I think, Will they
really come?
But there were further signs to convince me that Vlad would indeed be soon
gone. For within a matter of days, he had stolen all of Harker’s papers and
clothes—this we learned when we paid our customary morning visit to the guest
chambers. These forays have become most enlightening now that Harker carefully
transcribes the bizarre scribblings of his diary into English on separate
parchment. He has written the entire journal out for us, and I know it will
serve us well in England, for it is laden with the consummate details befitting
a lawyer’s diary.
“He shall be our spy in London,” Elisabeth told me that day, “and before Vlad
rises, I shall do a private ritual to ensure that Mr. Harker survives long
enough to be of service to us. But first, a more pragmatic bit of protection…”
As she spoke, she moved to the night-stand and picked . up a crucifix lying
there, or rather the gold chain attached to it, and let it dangle in front of
her face.
I confessed I gasped aloud, for I had been quite aware of its presence all
along, and rendered ill-at-ease. She saw my discomfort (or rather, frankly,
terror)—and laughed, tilting her face skyward whilst bringing the tiny impaled.
Christ overhead until it rested just above her unmarred, porcelain features.
“Do not be cruel,” I begged her in a trembling voice, for I was at once on
the precipice of weeping. “Do not toy with me so, for I cannot bear it… You will
scar your precious skin!”
Still she ignored me, laughing, as though holding a red-hot poker above such
a perfect and beautiful countenance was delightful sport. I surrendered to tears
and covered my eyes.
And when I looked again, she had pressed the golden cross to her lips and
kissed it.
I screamed, and began to faint; at once, she rushed over and caught me in her
arms, saying:
“My dear, my dear, I did not mean to alarm you so! I merely meant to prove a
point. Here…” She immediately carried me to the sofa and sat beside me, gently
patting my cheeks until I at last dared open my eyes.
She held a closed fist up to my face, then slowly opened it to reveal the
crucifix upon her white palm. Again I recoiled and began to cover my face, but
she commanded urgently: “Look at me, Zsuzsanna. Look…”
I looked. And saw that the flesh beneath the shining golden object was
perfect, untouched. Awed, I raised trembling fingers to her ruby mouth and found
it entirely unblemished and beautiful.
But when she clasped my wrist and turned my hand palm-upward, intent on
handing me the cross, I cried out again. “I can’t! It will burn me… I know,
because it has happened.”
“Zsuzsanna.” Her tone grew stern. “It’s like the sunlight. It can only hurt
you if you are afraid of it. These are Vlad’s fears, not your own; why have you
carried them so long?” And, too swiftly for me to resist, she pushed the object
into my outstretched palm and curled my ringers tight about it.
I was too startled to scream, to react—to do anything, really, except gape at
the gleaming image in my hand. And a few seconds after, the revelation came: The
cross was cold and sharp in my palm, but it did not burn my skin, nor did its
presence evoke the expected agony.
“You see?” Elisabeth said, smiling again. “It is a bit of metal,
nothing more. But Vlad does not believe that; and so, let us employ his
superstitions against him. Go on, Zsuzsanna… put it round Mr. Harker’s sleepy
little head.”
I did so, marvelling at my own imperviousness, my own power.
“And now, dear Jonathan,” Elisabeth intoned softly at the snoring solicitor,
“you are to wear this necklace wherever you go, and if the chain should break,
you must always carry the cross upon your person. If Vlad—the count”—and here
she glanced at me, grinning at her intentional repetition of Harker’s
misinformation—“should threaten, shove this pendant in his face.”
Thus did Mr. Harker become our agent.
A fortnight later, the tsigani contingent returned with great
wagons, and the pattern of Vlad’s scheme more clearly emerged. There can be no
question: He is indeed abandoning this place, if not forever, then for a very
long time. At that time, Elisabeth’s gypsy lover returned—but their second
meeting was limited to travel arrangements, both ours and Vlad’s. He is taking
the safest way for him —boat—but we are not so constrained, and will be waiting
for him when he finally arrives.
When I saw the big uncovered wagons, each large enough to hold several
caskets of earth (another of Vlad’s ridiculous superstitions, to believe that he
cannot leave Transylvania without taking a bit of it with him), my anger at
being abandoned again flared, and I begged Elisabeth to do everything in her
power to destroy him now. She insisted that such an effort would most
likely fail at this time (what is she not telling me now in order to spare me
worry?); nevertheless she would try, by recruiting our Englishman to attempt the
deed.
And this she did, sending Mr. Harker on a diurnal mission to kill Vlad (which
he very nearly did)—but the fool quailed.
And so I sit, equally overcome by excitement and fear. Tonight, Vlad finally
came to me—I have not seen him for almost a month, but was not surprised to find
him further rejuvenated, with hair no longer white but pewter, and complexion
faintly rosy. His expression was one of exultation mixed with condescending
generosity.
“Tomorrow night,” said he, smiling. “He is yours tomorrow.”
I feigned an expression of hopelessness and said sullenly, “You are
abandoning me here to starve. Do not tiunk ‘t do not Vnovj.”
His brows arched in mock innocence; he placed a spread palm upon his lifeless
heart. “Me? Zsuzsanna, have you in your crush for Elisabeth come to realise that
/, not she, have been your benefactor all these years? No, my dear, I must go
and see to the details of some very special property… in England. At long last,
I have found a way to free us both. And I do not do so without first thinking of
you: I shall leave you the English guest for your very own! When all is ready,
long before you are hungry again, I shall return for you.”
I would not meet his gaze, but kept my own fixed upon the window… and the
freedom beyond. In a low, hostile voice, I slowly proclaimed: “Arkady is gone.”
So consummate was his deceit that his expression of abject surprise, limned
with fear, was quite convincing; but I was not fooled. “What?” “It is true.”
Too terribly true. Knowing that the time would soon arrive when I would leave
this castle for good—either through the vehicle of death, or the carriage that
would bear me across the continent—I had gone down this morning to the
subterranean vault, to bid my dear brother’s body farewell.
Gone; vanished. (I am too heartsick even to weep about it now.) No trace of
the corpse, though the bloodless stake lay atop the bare earthen catafalque
where he had lain. At the discovery, I had fallen upon the damp mouldering
ground and sobbed to think of my sweet Kasha’s remains defiled in some evil
attempt at magic by that monster. And like the Marys at the unsealed tomb, I
demanded of Vlad now: “Where have you taken him?”
His grey brows knit together like rushing thunderclouds, and his colour grew
livid as he shouted: “This is some new treachery, is it not? Some new plot for
misguided revenge! You have been listening to Elisabeth’s lies —and I will give
you no further warnings, since you have not believed the first. My only
satisfaction comes from the knowledge that soon you will see your own stupidity
in having trusted her and abandoned me… And then all your pleas for
help will be too late!”
He turned on his heel and stormed away, slamming the door behind him with
such force that, with the ear-stunning sound of a pistol shot, the wood cracked
in a lightning-bolt diagonal.
Through it all, I kept my silence. My revenge shall consist not of words or
arguments, but of deeds which shall see him hurled down to Hell in agony.
So at last, we have parted—forever. I feel no sadness, no melancholy
gratitude to him who gave me the immortal kiss. He has taken from me my mother,
my father, my brother, my friend, my dignity; he has turned all my love to
vengeful wrath.
Bastard! We shall meet again in England—England! It seems an unattainable
dream, a mirage which beckons in the distance; and I worry that when I at last
draw near, it will waver and dissolve into dust.
No. No fear, no doubt. I will find you in London. And there 1 will
strike you down…
Chapter 7
Telegram, Abraham Van Helsing, M.D., D.Ph., D. Lit., Etc., Etc.,
Amsterdam, to John Seward, M.D., Purfleet, England
28 June Dear and trusted friend,
Apologies in advance for the imposition: Need your help and discretion,
and unpardonably soon. Am bringing psychiatric patient to Purfleet afternoon of
1 July and require lodging for us both—
but need for secrecy paramount.
No one else must know we are in the city.
My companion requires a barred and padlocked cell; I request same for
myself
Destroy this document at once.
* * *
Dr. Seward’s Diary
1 JULY.
The professor has come.
He arrived as expected in the afternoon, dressed in black with a
broad-brimmed straw hat and looking for all the world like a village priest. I
stood in the entryway and watched him step from the cab, then turn and reach out
as the driver handed down a small, frail woman. She, too, wore all black,
including a veil which obscured her features.
He carried her easily in his arms down the flower-lined path, as if he were
long accustomed to doing so. When he spotted me on the porch, he grinned
broadly, his blue eyes brightening at once. I strode forward and clapped his
shoulder; the impulse to shake hands occurred to us both, but was rendered
impossible because of the mysterious patient in his arms.
“Professor Van Helsing!” I called heartily, while behind him, the driver set
two large suitcases upon the ground. I hurried over and took care of the tip at
once; my mentor is not very well off financially, from what I can gather. I
believe he routinely undercharges his patients or charges them not at all, and I
would be a gentleman of leisure now were it not for my “hobby,” the asylum.
At my greeting, the professor’s grin faded and some of the light left his
eyes. He pursed his lips as if to hush me into silence; had he not borne such a
burden, he would have also raised a finger to them. I heeded the warning and
immediately lowered my voice to a whisper.
“It is good to see you again.”
The smile and brightness returned immediately. “And you, friend John. Though
you are looking rather pale and underfed. We shall have to find a young lady to
fatten you up and lure you out for walks in the sunshine!”
I averted my gaze briefly down at the riot of yellow and crimson zinnias
edging our path, but maintained a pleasant expression. Anything that evoked
thoughts of Lucy was still painful, so I did not reply.
At once his tone softened with compassion. “Ah…
I see I have blundered directly onto the problem’s source. Forgive me, my
friend; I am a blind and foolish old man.“
I believe I blushed, which only increased my discomfort, as it is for me an
uncommon reaction. Then I glanced shyly at the silent patient, wondering hew
lucid she might be, and whether she had registered the exchange. How could I
manage a dignified introduction now?
Once again, Van Helsing seemed to have read my thoughts. “Have no worry,
John. She suffers from catatonia; her mind is far from us. Even if it were not,
she would be unable to divulge your troubles, for she does not speak.”
“You are far from old, and most certainly not blind,” I told him. “Frankly,
you are the most perceptive person I know.” Indeed, he has been this way since I
first met him. Sometimes, his ability to guess what I—or another person —am
thinking is astounding. It is not simply that he knows me well; I have seen him
do the same with strangers. Over time, I have developed two theories: one, that
he has honed his observation skills to preternatural perfection; or two, that he
is psychic.
The latter is difficult to prove, though of late I have become keenly
interested in occult phenomena and the teachings of a local organisation known
as the Golden Dawn. (My readings have led me to conclude that the professor is
privy to much, or all, of their knowledge. This is based on countless comments
he has made during our close eight-year friendship. Esoteric phrases such as
As above, so below—a quote from our mutual acquaintance Hermes Trismegistus.
And dozens more such opaque—at the time, anyway—remarks.)
More than that, the professor radiates an aura of power—not so much the
physical sort as the mental. Like me, he was a wunderkind, but I do not
speak of intelligence here, which he has in abundance; I speak of the
metaphysical. In public—except when he lectures—he takes on the persona
of the good-natured bumbler, the clown. I have even heard him affect the most
outrageously comical foreign accent, even though his English is quite excellent.
It is as if he wants to prevent the world from seeing the true man: the scholar,
the genius, the philosopher.
Yet when alone in my presence, he sometimes permits me glimpses of an
immensely brilliant and knowledgeable occultist beneath the fool’s mask. He has
never labelled it as occultism, of course; this is what I have gleaned. But now
I remember a long-ago holiday in Amsterdam, when I inadvertently wandered into
his private library and discovered inside a closed cabinet a treasure-trove of
treatises on magic—The Greater Key of Solomon, The Goetia, the
Sepher Yetzirah, and A True and Faithful Relation of What Passed for
Many Years Between Doctor Dee and Some Spirits.
This is the man I met again today, though he had successfully adopted the
guise of a not-so-educated country priest. But I saw beneath the simple
guilelessness that veiled the wide blue eyes, beneath the cheerful expression.
He looks older than when I last saw him; more of the red-gold hairs have faded
to white, and he, like me, has lost weight and looks drawn about the cheeks and
jaw. Despite it all, he radiates even more of that impressive internal strength,
that deep sense of wisdom and calm even the fiercest tempest cannot
shake—paradoxically making him —the real, interior man beneath the
costume of flesh— seem far younger than when we last met.
“But here,” I continued, gesturing towards the entry. We both headed for the
open door, I reaching as if to take the motionless woman in his arms. As
expected, he refused any aid. “Let’s go inside at once and relieve you of your
burden. I will call the attendant to carry her—”
“No!” The sharpness of his reply made me jerk my head to stare at him at
once. More mildly, he added, “No attendants yet. The time may come when she
requires one, but today, let us maintain as much privacy as we can.”
I agreed, and told him I would wait to ring Thomas to fetch the bags until
both he and his patient were settled into their rooms, then have the bags left
outside the cell doors to guarantee their anonymity. Once we had stepped over
the threshold, I convinced him to let go of his jealously guarded prize and
deposit her in a high-backed wheelchair. It is the newest model, specially
equipped with restraints for the more violent patients. As he tucked her with
tender solicitousness into the chair and paused to regard the straps, I
commented softly, “I doubt she will need those.”
“Not at the moment.” The jovial mask slipped again for an instant, no more.
This time I saw a darkly troubled man, one who bore the weight of all the world
upon his soul. “But the time may come soon. We must remain alert.”
He insisted upon pushing the chair himself. I led him directly to the lift (a
necessity here; dragging a violent patient upstairs or down is dangerous work).
In the absolute privacy of the lift, I awaited an explanation of his “secret
mission,” but none came. So I made small talk and inquired after his mother, a
true English gentlewoman whom I have met and come to fondly admire.
“She is dying,” he said, in his blunt, matter-of-fact Dutch manner.
“Ulcerated tumour of the right breast. She has had it more than a year, but her
time is short now; it affects her brain. My concern is that she might die while
I am away.”
I put a hand upon his shoulder. I have rarely touched him other than to shake
his hand in greeting or parting, and he acknowledged the gesture with a grateful
glance. (Does anyone like to shake hands more than his countrymen?) “I am
sorrier than words can say. She was so very kind to me when you both came to
visit; I came to think of her as my own grandmother, since I never knew either
of mine.”
At that last comment, he let out a soft gasp as if struck in the stomach, and
looked away; I think emotion had finally overwhelmed him. After a moment of
silence, he said, “I do not mean to burden you, friend John, with my own
difficulties. You have borne more than your share in your brief life. You are
too young to have experienced so much loss; too young. At my age, it is to be
expected.”
He referred, of course, to the death of my father some sixteen years ago, and
my mother three years ago this fall. The family estate is too vast and lonely
for a single heir to occupy, so now 1 share it with my patients.
At last we arrived at the two cells closest to my own bedchamber, which I
prefer to keep unoccupied unless the asylum is filled to capacity. As we have
only three resident patients at present, one of whom I expect to release
shortly, the closest inmate was a good half-dozen cells away. Van Helsing will
have his privacy.
“Here we are,” I said, unlocking and then flinging open the doors to each
room so that the professor could peer in. One cell was windowless and contained
the standard furnishings: bed, night-stand, and a gas lamp mounted so high upon
the wall that it could be turned on or off only by an attendant with a special
contrivance attached to a long broom handle. The other I had personally prepared
for the professor. The barred window looked directly down into the flower garden
(which is particularly bright and lush this summer), and I had covered the bed
with a quilt sewn by Mother. I had added, too, a writing-table and comfortable
chair which faced the window, and beside the unreachable gas lamp had left a
long pole so that the professor could control the light as he wished.
I removed two keys from the jailer’s ring on my belt and handed them to him.
“This is yours… and this is the key to the lady’s chamber.”
“Ah,” he said, gazing down at them and then back up at the rooms. “This”—and
he gestured at the sunnier, more cheerful room I had fixed for him—“I will let
her have. The other is suitable for me.” And before I could protest, he wheeled
her past me into the cell, lifted her from the wheel-chair, and deposited her in
the more comfortable seat looking out onto the garden. It was rather
frustrating, for if the lady was indeed catatonic, the view would be quite
wasted, and I was not at all happy leaving Mother’s heirloom quilt in the
safekeeping of a madwoman.
I followed them inside, wondering whether it would be too rude to speak up,
when the professor reached down and removed his patient’s hat and veil.
I drew in a breath. The woman was absolute skin and bones, but at the same
time young and unnaturally pretty, with huge dark eyes and full dark hair coiled
at the nape of her neck. And yet…
I blinked, and for a heartbeat found myself looking at a woman Van Helsing’s
age, one with streaks of grey in her hair and crow’s-feet framing her eyes.
Another blink, and the lady was again young and beautiful, her hair a rich
brown-black without a trace of silver. It was as if her youth was a veil which
had lifted for an instant, then quickly lowered, masking the real woman beneath.
The dreadful soulless vacancy in those half-closed, downcast eyes could not be
hidden; yet beneath it I sensed a fathomless grief.
I looked up at last to find the professor studying me, his gold-and-silver
brows furrowed intently. When our gazes met—his knowing, mine questioning—he
said, “You are a sensitive, John. You see beneath the facade, yes?”
I was too taken aback to do anything but gesture my assent. Did I understand
him aright? Was this a metaphysical case he had brought me, this strange, sad
woman with the aged yet ageless face? The notion in itself was compelling
enough. Still, there was more that drew me to her, some odd sense of kinship—a
feeling that perhaps we two shared some secret sorrow.
To my disappointment, he revealed no more, but said, “And now we leave her to
rest. I shall require some time alone with her at sunset.” At once he bent down
onto one knee at her feet, like a gentleman proposing to a lady (the painful
memory of Lucy again!). Gently, he lifted her limp gloved hand from her lap;
this he pressed to his lips with such pure, loving devotion that I was honestly
shocked. Their relationship was clearly more than doctor and patient.
So piqued was my curiosity that when we exited and the professor shut and
locked the thick door behind us, I demanded outright: “Who is she?”
He looked ahead into the distance and sighed. “Gerda Van Helsing. My wife.”
I could not have been more astonished. I had known the professor for more
than seven years, since I first arrived at university at the tender age of
fifteen. A difficult situation: my first time away from home, and I so much
younger than the other lads that I was constantly the butt of jokes and
taunting. (Nor did it help that I looked far younger than my actual age.) Only
the professor looked beyond my immaturity, at my talents, and took me under his
paternal and professional wing.
We were very close, perhaps because I had lost Papa early on, and I was
grateful to find a father-substitute; of course, there was also the fact that we
shared a passion for medicine, and that he saw much of himself in me. He, too,
was a boy genius who had taken his medical degree at a very early age; thus he
encouraged me greatly to pursue my medical studies, though I was surrounded by
men almost ten years my senior. (The professor is also licensed to practice law
in Holland, but he ruefully admits that was a mistake.)
Yet during our years of association—and during my brief one-day visit to his
home—I have never heard him (or his mother, for that matter) speak of family or
wife. In fact, I had always assumed he was a bachelor. I had never asked for a
tour of his bedchamber.
“Professor,” I said, in a low voice, although we were quite alone and beyond
anyone’s earshot, “what is going on? I get the perception that your wife’s
malady is more than mere catatonia. Something else is involved; am I wrong to
think it is metaphysical? Mrs. Van Helsing seems so young… yet I believe that
she is not, that it is all illusion.”
He released a sigh of infinite weariness, and all his cheeriness fled for
good. “We are both men of science, John, trained to rely on our eyes and our
logic to explain how the world operates. But there are instances where modern
science fails utterly. We must adapt and, like Democritus when he postulated the
atom, must accept that there is more to this universe than eye can see or brain
can fathom.” He paused, and seemed to consider whether or not to tell me
everything all at once. To my disappointment, he apparently opted for the
latter. “In time, I will explain more. But sunset will come in less than two
hours; before that time, I must tend to Gerda.”
“First,” I said, “you must have a proper tea.” And so I led him off and we
ate together. He seemed deeply preoccupied, and spoke no more of his wife or
mother, so I did not press. Afterwards, he disappeared into the garden cell and
did not emerge until supper. Again, he was uncharacteristically tight-lipped
about his purpose in being here.
Cannot sleep tonight, and so I have risen to record this: My mind keeps
returning to the image of Mrs. Van Helsing’s face. Why does it haunt me so?
* * *
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
2 JULY.
An uneventful journey, and both Gerda and I passed a quiet night.
Unfortunately, I missed my opportunity yesterday for a successful hypnotic
session with her— we were both travelling at the time she was most receptive,
and when I returned to her later in the afternoon, she would not speak.
How strange to indulge in the luxury of sleeping at night! First, I carefully
secured each cell—put a crucifix over each door, and one over Gerda’s window, in
addition to a small medallion of Saint George. And of course, there is the cross
around her neck—on a thick chain like mine, that neither she nor an attacker can
easily break.
For the first time in many nights, I slept soundly. The realisation that the
worst had already happened—that Vlad and Zsuzsanna had grown suddenly stronger
and escaped the castle—was oddly calming. I had nothing more to worry about.
Except for John; he has always been like his mother, a sensitive psychic.
When he stared at her face-to-face for the first time yesterday, I feared that
he had indeed surmised the truth—and that I had made a fatal mistake in bringing
Gerda here.
For I have worked all my life to spare the boy pain, to protect him from the
Impaler’s attentions. I wanted him to have a normal life, the life I and all my
ancestors could not have, the life our sweet little Jan was so cruelly denied.
(And how horrified and moved I was to hear that his adoptive parents bestowed
on him the English version of his dead brother’s name: John.)
No one knows but me—and Mama, who took the infant with her to London and gave
it to the best and kindest people she knew, who had long been denied children.
They were never told the truth of the child’s origin. Even poor Gerda does not
know of his existence, for during her pregnancy and delivery she was quite
unaware of her body’s condition, and I worked hard to keep this knowledge from
Zsuzsanna and Vlad.
Have I succeeded? I do not know; the question will be answered soon. I
agonised long over whether to come here and expose him to danger—but not
to come and watch over him might be even more perilous. He is too close to
London now that Vlad is headed here. My only link to the vampires is through my
poor wife, who tells me little; how else can I be sure that John is safe, and
that Vlad and Zsuzsanna have not learned somehow of his existence?
But yesterday, when I saw him peer profile-to-profile into his mother’s face,
I was horrified: How stupid I have been to think that John, psychically
sensitive, would not know he was staring directly into a genetic mirror? The
resemblance between them is that marked: same nose, same eyes and chin, same
colouring. Yet in my desperate haste I had failed to consider this problem.
Any harm that comes to him is entirely my fault. I am contemplating
departure—for his sake.
At dawn this morning, an ominous sign from Gerda. Under hypnosis, her mood
was gay and chatty. To the question “Where are you now?” she replied, “Moving.”
This confused me; the day before, she had radiated passionate fury and had
sworn, “He has left! The bastard has left!” Of this she would say no more,
except to describe the sight of large, sturdy wagons outside the castle. I took
this to mean that Vlad had abandoned Zsuzsanna.
But today, the news is changed. “Moving,” Gerda says. “I hear rattling and
the snorts of horses.” Zsuzsanna was riding in her coffin in one of the large
wagons, I assumed. Yet, to my surprise, there followed: “A bright, sunny
morning; I had forgotten how beautiful the countryside is in summer. I am sad to
leave my home forever, but at the same time, I am overjoyed!”
Impossible, of course, for Zsuzsanna to be peeking out at the sunshine. I do
not understand the report; has she realised that Gerda endures my questions each
day, and is she intentionally attempting to confuse me with false information?
I have taken such precautions that I strongly doubt it. The vampires are
indeed on their way. I can only surmise that Zsuzsanna thought she was being
left behind—but that Vlad decided, perhaps at the last moment, to take her on
the journey. The rapturous description of morning I cannot explain.
If they travel by land, they will arrive here within a week; if by sea (which
poses fewer risks) I have a month to prepare. I will assume the former, in order
to be ready.
Thus I must make my choice concerning John quickly. Do I leave him, and pray
that he will remain safe without my interventions? Or do I remain?
* * *
Dr. Seward’s Diary
3 JULY.
As sole proprietor of a lunatic asylum, I am accustomed to the strange; yet
today, I believe, has featured the strangest events I have ever encountered,
here or elsewhere.
It began in the wee hours of morning. I had lain awake for some hours, unable
to return to sleep after another bout of what I’ve come to call my “disturbing
dream.” I have been reluctant to record it—until today— because I had credited
it to a combination of anxiety and hero worship. And, frankly, to a submerged
bit of mania within myself which glorified the professor and me as two brave
occult knights fighting against a great Evil that wished to overwhelm the world.
The dream is rather simple, consisting of an image of myself and the professor
wielding silver swords against a vast encroaching Darkness. That part of it is
rather pleasant (and, in full consciousness, embarrassing). But the “disturbing”
part comes when the professor disappears abruptly from view, and I am left alone
in the struggle. The Darkness quickly enlarges and engulfs me, devouring me in
the same way an amoeba does its dinner. This I have dreamt several times since
receiving Van Helsing’s telegram.
Enough of that! Silly as it seems to say the words aloud, it still terrifies
me—especially after my encounter with the professor this morning.
So I lay awake for some time in bed, reluctant to return to sleep (perchance
to dream), reluctant to rise and accept fatigue as my lot. At last, when the
darkness had lightened to grey, I rose, made my toilet and dressed, and went out
into the corridor to see if the professor was awake. My intent was to invite him
to a hearty breakfast, for he has missed supper and breakfast both days, leaving
me concerned.
His cell door was closed and locked. I gave up hope and had just turned to
head for the staircase when I caught a sidewise glimpse of his wife’s
door—slightly ajar. I moved to it, thinking to knock, but instead remained
silent a moment, listening. From within came the professor’s voice; its tone
reassured me that the conversation taking place was not an intimate one.
And, in reply, there came a second voice—a woman’s, no doubt that of his
“catatonic” patient. My physician’s curiosity got the better of me, I confess; I
knocked lightly, swiftly, then pushed open the door with such care that it made
no sound.
Van Helsing was far too intent to pay me notice. His gaze was fixed fast upon
his wife, who sat up in the chair, which had been turned away from the window to
face the professor.
She wore such an animated expression that for an instant, I thought I was
looking upon a different woman. Her dark eyes were open wide and brimming with
mirth and charm, her lips curved upward in a dimpling grin. She was dressed like
a matron in a sedate black dress and shawl, with her hair pulled back into a
severe, unflattering bun— but her demeanour was that of a giggling debutante.
This morning, the illusion of youthful beauty was so strong that I caught no
glimpse of the older woman beneath.
“Looking through the window,” she said prettily, chin resting atop her
knuckles. And, indeed, she had turned her head and seemed to be looking out a
window (whilst the real one was at her back), as if she were sitting on a train
staring out at the scenery.
“Is Vlad with you?” the professor asked, with such intensity that I realised
I had stumbled onto a hypnotic session. I remained absolutely still, lest I
disturb either of them and cause Mrs. Van Helsing to emerge too swiftly from
trance.
She tossed her head and gave a disparaging laugh. “Not him. I’m with
my lover.” She sighed. “The sunlight on the mountains is so beautiful…”
At this, Van Helsing’s thick blond brows rushed together in alarm. “Sunlight!
Are you in your coffin? Sleeping?”
Again, a playful laugh; astoundingly, it was not directed at the
preposterousness of the question. “No, no, I’m awake. The scenery is so
delightful, I wouldn’t want to—” A fresh burst of giggles. “Elisabeth, stop!
Someone will see…”
“Who is Elisabeth? Mortal or vampire? Is she someone you have bitten?”
At this, I could not repress a small gasp. Despite his earlier inattention,
Van Helsing glanced up sharply; all animation left his wife with the terrible
abruptness pf a house of cards collapsing, leaving her once more the dull-eyed,
slack-jawed creature.
As for the professor, he rose with the speed and mindless determination of a
whirlwind. With startling brusqueness, he seized my arm and pulled me from the
room. Still clutching me as if to prevent my escape, he closed and locked the
cell door; then at last released me and whispered fiercely:
“Never do that again! Never! Do you realise how much harm you might come to,
listening to such things?”
For a moment, I was too astonished to reply; I had never seen the professor
so red-faced with rage. And what did he mean, I might come to harm? Was he
threatening me? When at last I found my tongue, I managed, “I—I merely wanted to
invite you to early breakfast, seeing that you were awake so early. I apologise
for any inconvenience, but because the door was slightly ajar and I could hear
you speaking, I took the liberty… I did knock, but you were too intent
to hear me.”
“Then it is my fault!” he thundered—I say thundered even though he
still whispered, for the anger still shook his voice. “You have heard things
which you should not have heard—”
“About mortals and vampires,” I said, unable to entirely restrain my amused
skepticism. I was interested, to be sure, in occult phenomena, and solid
evidence might persuade me of the existence of vampires… of a psychic variety.
But a vampire who bites with sharp teeth —this was a topic straight
from the pages of a penny dreadful. I looked askance at him, inviting a rational
explanation for such an irrational question, an explanation that would set me at
ease and provoke from us both a smile. Indeed, I had in my own mind volunteered
one for him: that he was indulging for some reason his wife’s delusion, in order
to learn enough about it to help her.
But the fierce intensity in his blue eyes did not abate, nor did he reply; he
merely averted his gaze and folded his arms, still troubled. Or rather, troubled
afresh by his inability to provide the answer I so yearned to hear. Had there
been a chair in the corridor, I should have collapsed into it, for I was
suddenly overwhelmed by the sickening and unmistakable realisation that the
professor had posed the question in all seriousness.
I released a short, gasping laugh of disbelief; the grin on my face began to
metamorphose into a frown. All these years, I had believed my mentor to be the
possessor of the deepest occult secrets. Could the secret instead be that he was
a deluded madman? “Surely, Dr. Van Helsing, you do not be—”
In reply, he again seized my arm with such force that 1 broke off, startled
into silence, as he pulled me along into his own grim chamber.
Once there, he shut the door behind us, then turned to face me. “John. I have
indeed done a great disservice to you by coming here. I will stay no longer, but
make immediate arrangements for myself and my wife to depart.”
His mood was somewhat calmer but no less determined, no less angry—though I
could see now that his anger was becoming entirely turned towards himself. And
for some reason, that annoyed me more than his abrupt and inexcusable behaviour
towards me.
“See here,” I protested, trying to match his vehemence with some of my own.
Although what I had heard remained unbelievable, it was becoming increasingly
clear— just as Mrs. Van Helsing’s true visage had peeked out from behind the
youthful veil—that the professor was acting out of grave concern, not lunacy. As
odd and inexplicable as the situation seemed, I knew at that moment (with the
most purely unscientific instinct) that I had not misjudged my most trusted
mentor all these years; that I could still trust him. “Whatever misunderstanding
or embarrassment has just occurred here, I will not see you rushing off. You are
my guest and my dearest friend, Professor, and the fault is mine, not yours. I
swear to you that I will never so intrude upon you again; it was an enormously
thoughtless act, for which I apologise utterly.“
He sighed, and the determined anger on his features softened to sorrow. “Ah,
my good friend, if only apologies could negate any harm done.”
“How have I harmed you? Tell me, and I shall right things at once!” Even as I
spoke boldly, I shuddered with a sudden chill, for the image of the encroaching
Darkness came upon me with swift, distressing force. This is the meaning of
the dream, I thought involuntarily. This is why I am called now, to
help the professor defeat It…
All too similar to my madman’s delusions, and even more disturbing to find
myself persuaded by such a compelling mania. As I looked at the professor, my
attention shifted to the lintel behind him. Just above it, he had hung a carved
wooden crucifix, so large that I could see clearly the expression of agony upon
Christ’s face. From his many comments, I have always taken the professor to be
an agnostic, or at the very most, a Deist. What was happening to us supposed men
of science? I struggled, I fought to disengage myself from my delusion.
And yet, I could not disbelieve.
Van Helsing did not notice my swift internal dilemma; he had averted his gaze
to shake his head. In the yellow lamplight, his expression once again composed
itself into the calm, wise face of the professor I had always known. “It is not
you who have harmed me, John, nor you who must make amends. I
have no concern for myself, but you have heard too much. And in this case, too
much knowledge can lead to danger. How can I right this, other than to be sure
that you are never again exposed to such opportunities?”
“Professor,” I said, with such determination that he looked at me with frank
curiosity. But words fled me again ISO as I flailed on the precipice of
commitment. I could not help but believe what I was about to tell him; but if I
did confess my most secret thoughts, would I be exposing myself to ridicule—or
worse, to the diagnosis that I belong among those I profess to treat?
I drew a breath and continued in a rush, before my will left me. I told him
of the troubling dream, of my overwhelming sense that he had come here rightly
because I have always been fated to help him in some secret struggle.
I blushed as I spoke, for it is not easy to confess such private and
irrational beliefs, especially to the one around whom those beliefs cluster. But
he listened quietly, respectfully, and gave not the slightest sign of
skepticism. 1 do think he accepted everything I presented.
I finished by saying, “I have always believed it all to be a silly, boyish
notion that would leave me as I matured; but it has only grown stronger through
the years. And as you noticed when I first met your wife, Professor: when I look
at people, I know their hearts. Yours is the purest and most trustworthy I have
found. If there is any way, no matter how dangerous, that I can help you, I
would be honoured to do so.”
I fell silent, and for a time, neither of us spoke; Van Helsing’s expression
revealed that he was both touched and deeply troubled. At last he said solemnly,
“I must consider carefully all you have said, my friend. Rest assured, I shall
not leave tonight, but will give you my decision in the morning.” He paused then
and went over to his suitcase, from which he retrieved a shining golden object.
“In the meantime, would you do me the kindness of wearing this at all times?”
A necklace dangled from his fingers; I held out my cupped hand, and flinched
ever so slightly as it dropped, cold and hard, into my palm.
A crucifix, this one on a long chain. I studied it, then looked up at him,
intending to question. But I feared the answer—and so I pulled the necklace over
my head, and let the pendant slip down beneath my jacket, where no one could see
it.
From his demeanour, I judged it time to take my leave —after first inviting
him down to breakfast. As I walked to the door, though, curiosity overwhelmed
me, and I spun about, demanding:
“Professor! Do you really believe in vampires, the sort that go round biting
people’s necks in the night?”
He studied me unhappily before replying with a question of his own. “Friend
John. Do you believe in lunatics?”
“It is not a question of belief,” I retorted thoughtlessly, without pausing
to consider his meaning. “Lunatics exist.”
“Just so.” And he would say no more.
Chapter 8
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
4 JULY.
He knows, poor John knows. Not details, perhaps, but he has been sent the
same dream as I; it can only mean that Fate or God or whatever Power that works
to protect the good is trying to warn both of us.
And such warnings must be heeded, for they indicate danger’s approach.
Despite all my efforts to spare him his heritage, he is drawn to it all the
same. Perhaps the Buddhists are right after all; he is biologically and
psychically linked to Vlad, and it is his “karma” to help his father free the
family from its centuries-long curse.
So my original instinct in coming here was justified. I dare not leave him
now; I dare not.
* * *
Zsuzsanna Dracul’s Diary
13 JULY.
A week in London, and I have never felt so gloriously alive!
Elisabeth is apparently infinitely wealthy, and she has indulged my whims like a
parent indulging a dreadfully spoiled child. And that is what I feel like—a
child on holiday—when I visit the pretty dress shops, the cobblers, and sample
all the new fashions. In the course of my entire existence, living or undead, I
have never owned so many dresses or hats or slippers or gloves as I have bought
this week.
And in the process, I am tended to like a real lady, embraced into the social
bosom of those who are my prey. Nay, not a real lady but the princess that I am,
for Elisabeth and I go by our titles, the Countess Nadasdy and the Princess
Dracul. How everyone fawns over us!
We have even bought a house, a great French chateau in the most
affluent part of the city, which Elisabeth has rilled with servants. I have a
wonderfully handsome coachman, Antonio, offspring of a black African mother and
Italian father. For sport, I engage with him in what he believes to be a most
scandalous affair… Little does he know just how strange it is for a
lowly coachman to be dallying with this particular princess.
But the house, the house, the house is beautiful. There are cut crystal panes
in the windows which refract sunlight into rainbows and fine Turkish carpets,
and peacocks strutting on the grounds, and flowers and gushing fountains and
statues of Bacchus and Pan and Aphrodite…
We are the exotic new darlings of society, the Hungarian and Roumanian
representatives of royalty. People call on us, and we serve (and eat!) the
finest French pastries—the tiny decorated ones, of the type I had seen in
Vienna’s Konditorei but could not savour.
I devour it all. And I suckle on the city’s rich and powerful elite—mostly
men, who contrive to get me alone. How cheerfully I let them… and then, how
cheerfully I drink.
But a pall is cast upon this bliss when I contemplate Vlad’s arrival. He will
try to find someone to try to kill us, just as we have enlisted Mr. Harker’s
aid. We left our Englishman in Buda-Pesth, raving in delirium. It will make for
a nice excuse, especially since he will remember nothing of us women but
everything of Vlad. His people will think him sick all this time with madness or
brain-fever, no doubt, so that when he does resurface in his Exeter, no one will
be suspicious.
And we will find a way to bring him to London.
But I have waited so many years to enjoy my freedom in this fair (but dirty)
city that I dread the interruption of my happiness. I feel like saying to
Elisabeth: You go, and wage your metaphysical war against Vlad; leave me
here!
She seems happy, but has been preoccupied the past two days. She has enjoyed
our socialising and indulging in sexual peccadilloes with those upon whom I
dine; but yesterday and to-day, she closeted herself away beyond my reach, using
a magic so strong I cannot detect where she has gone. I assume she is preparing
for the confrontation with Vlad, or enlisting the Dark Lord’s aid. But when she
emerged yesterday, she was grim-faced and silent, and sent me out to shop alone.
Today she did so again. When I arrived home late, I found her down in the
cellar, where she had unwrapped packages sent from her home. The contents?
Dear God, the contents… A woman-sized Iron Maiden—naked, the nipples on its
hard breasts painted gaudy red, its wide leer filled with human teeth of various
sizes and shades of white, yellow, brown. From its head flowed long golden hair;
upon its pubes was coiled the same.
Nearby stood another obscene creation: a narrow cylindrical cage—again, just
large enough to hold a woman’s body. From its iron bars emerged long, sharp
spikes… turned inward, so that any prisoner who struggled or tried to
flee would soon find herself impaled. I stood and watched in silent horror as
Elisabeth directed Dorka and a manservant upon a ladder as they suspended it
from the ceiling, then threaded the rope through a pulley.
“What is this?” I asked, in a low voice that trembled. I knew the answer
already; the devices’ purposes were patently clear. But I had to hear
Elisabeth’s explanation.
She whirled smiling to face me, her eyes bright with predatory anticipation.
“Zsuzsanna, darling! Welcome to our little dungeon.” Her sulkiness was entirely
gone, replaced by great good cheer; she reached for my hand and pulled me to
her, then planted a fervent kiss upon my lips.
I stood stiff and unyielding, for I was quite distraught: I could only think
of how desperately I had always hated Vlad’s Theatre of Death, where it pleased
him to torment his poor prey without mercy. I have dined on the blood of
strangers too long to feel any remorse for it—but vampire or no, I have never
shared Vlad’s predilection for torture. Bad enough the poor fools should die, so
I long ago vowed that I would send them to Hades on clouds of ecstasy.
Most times, I have managed to do so. But when I saw Elisabeth’s horrific
devices, I panicked. I had judged her to be like me, a woman of generosity and
kindness, capable of sympathy towards her supper; had I run from the Impaler’s
arms into the embrace of another as secretly cruel as he?
At my coldness, Elisabeth merely laughed, and jovially pulled me to her side
so that she could wind an arm round my waist. “Silly Zsuzsa! Don’t be frightened
of them! They’re merely… tools. Means to an end.” Then she pressed her lips to
my ear and whispered, so that neither Dorka nor the manservant could hear: “In
time, dearest. In time, you will understand. Do not judge before you see for
yourself…”
“I do not want to see,” I said stubbornly, and pulled away.
That was the extent of it; neither she nor I have spoken of the secrets in
the cellar since. Frankly, I do not wish even to think of them, for when I do it
spoils the sublime happiness of being here in London with the one I love.
Tonight we met a group at a restaurant—a baronet and his wife, and a lord and
lady!—and dined on a fine British supper of champagne, oysters, beef Wellington,
and trifle. Food is such a delight!
I will do my best not to judge Elisabeth until I see what she intends with
these implements. I cannot imagine anything good, but I must trust her…
* * *
Dr. Seward’s Diary
21 July.
After speaking to Van Helsing about Renfield, a patient, I have granted his
request to privately interview our life-eater in his cell. I suspect the
professor believes— dare I say it?—vampires are involved. Since he decided to
remain here, he has spoken to me of his “mission” here only twice, and then in
the vaguest terms. My belief still wavers from time to time; I suppose I will
never be convinced until I have irrefutable physical evidence of the existence
of such creatures.
Last night’s musings about our zoophagous patient affected me more than I had
realised. Upon retiring quite late, I fell at once asleep, into vivid,
gruesomely detailed dreams of Renfield regurgitating the bloodied, half-digested
corpses of sparrows, cats, large dogs—even a horse, which emerged from his
gullet impossibly whole. And everywhere floated feathers, painted with blood in
more delicate, intricate designs than could ever be wrought by the hand of
Nature.
Abruptly, over this nauseous spectacle fell a great darkness—the
all-consuming evil void from the recurring nightmare I had relayed to Professor
Van Helsing. It spread like a shadow over the vomiting man until he was entirely
eclipsed. That sight evoked again in me an intense terror, a terror that grew to
unbearable proportions when, even in the midst of my dream, I understood its
meaning:
The Darkness is like Renfield—an Eater of Souls, desperate to consume life
after life after life after life. And it means to devour Van Helsing… and me.
* * *
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
24 JULY.
Dracula draws near. This instinct and evidence tell me; in fact, I took the
liberty of hypnotising John’s “zoophage,” Renfield, and am convinced that his
newfound obsession with consuming “life” is in some way a sinister influence of
the vampire’s approach.
In fact, Vlad should have arrived in London a fortnight ago. Thus far,
however, Gerda will not corroborate this. In Zsuzsanna’s voice, she speaks only
of one other— the mysterious Elisabeth, who seems to be neither mortal nor
vampire. Of Vlad she says: “Hmph! Who cares about him?. We shall see
him soon enough…”
I can think of one possible explanation: that Vlad and Zsuzsanna have had a
falling-out, and took separate routes. For a moment this notion caused me some
terror, as it could mean that Vlad is headed elsewhere in England, or to another
country altogether.
But no; Zsuzsanna says that she will “see him soon enough.” And I know that
she is here in London. Where, I do not know; but I must learn soon and find her,
before she finds me.
* * *
8 AUGUST.
At last, at last! Word from Gerda: “He is come,” she said this afternoon—and
that is all I could coax from her. Then, like a little girl, she drew up her
knees and hugged them to her chest; and turned her face from me and pouted. I
confess that despite the chill I felt knowing that Vlad had arrived (and with
him, great danger), I smiled. Not at my poor wife, but at the perfect mental
image I had of the immature Zsuzsanna sulking. Everything Gerda has told me so
far fits: all the condescending references to Vlad and to her freedom, and now
this unhappy reaction at the arrival of him whom she had once adored. My guess
is right; they have had a falling-out.
But will Vlad join Zsuzsanna here? His arrival took more than a month, which
means he must have come by sea. I had pressed Gerda on this, asking, “Where is
he now? London?”
She would say nothing, merely shook her head.
I can only hope that he makes amends and returns to Zsuzsanna—else my task
will prove much more difficult, indeed. Without Gerda as my compass, I am lost.
* * *
24 AUGUST.
From the small bits of information I have gleaned from Gerda, I believe I can
triangulate the area where Zsuzsanna must be hiding: near the East End, or
Piccadilly. I have scouted the area extensively both by cab and on foot and, so
far, have failed to locate any properties suitable for vampires. The
neighbourhoods there are havens for the wealthy upper-class; they contain no
cemeteries, no crumbling chapels, nothing sufficiently gloomy to suit Vlad’s
taste.
I have no further word, however, regarding whether he will rendezvous with
his consort. It may well be that I have a double task—to hunt down both him
and Zsuzsanna separately. I pray that will not come to pass.
I think it will not; for last night, we had quite a scare at the asylum which
has convinced me that he is indeed come to London. John’s “zoophage,” Renfield,
became so grievously obsessed that he scaled the asylum wall and ran onto the
neighbouring property. (Fortunately, he did not get so far as to alarm the
residents.) The disturbance drew me from my room, and when John returned
(huffing and puffing), he told me all that had transpired.
What caught my attention most was a comment the patient had made in his
delirium, that the Master had come and he, Renfield, would do this Master’s
bidding. As John reports it: “I have worshipped You long and afar off. Now that
You are near, I await Your commands…”
Renfield is, as I have always suspected, exceptionally sensitive. (Madmen
usually are—forgive me, dear Gerda, but it is true of you as well.) He feels the
vampire’s evil presence nearing, and has incorporated it into his madness. But
we must take especial care with him, for he has offered himself up to Vlad’s
service. He is therefore of great potential danger to us.
Vlad is indeed in the area; my guess is London, with Zsuzsanna. Tomorrow,
when Gerda is able, I will see if that guess is right.
* * *
30 AUGUST.
Everything points to a separation between Vlad and Zsuzsanna. When I question
Gerda, she still refuses to say much about him; clearly, Zsuzsanna lives
somewhere in the city with this Elisabeth, and no one else. But if she despises
Vlad as greatly as her speech and demeanour suggest, why did she also choose to
come here? Why not some other great European city, rather than share London with
one she so hates?
This makes my work doubly difficult, for I had meant to rely on Gerda’s
knowledge of Vlad’s movements. It torments me to think that the vampire is
nearby, feeding on innocent victims, while I am unable to find him, much less
stop him.
I see only one choice: to utilise Renfield as much as possible, in hopes that
he possesses, somewhere in his troubled brain, information which can help.
* * *
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
1 SEPTEMBER.
A slight change in Gerda. Under hypnosis, she seems crestfallen. Apparently
Zsuzsanna has had some sort of falling-out with her friend Elisabeth; any
mention of same, or of Vlad, elicits the vilest curses. But where Zsuzsanna is
now, Gerda will not say.
One interesting piece of information: At the same time she curses Vlad, she
also speaks of a “manuscript” or “parchment.” This she does not elaborate upon,
but from her expression and tone of voice, I gather she wants badly to obtain
it—if only for the purpose of getting it away from Vlad.
* * *
Dr. Seward’s Diary
3 SEPTEMBER.
Van Helsing and I paid Lucy Westenra a professional visit at Hillingham today
(at his insistence, though I told Art Holmwood that I wanted to bring in an
expert). Poor girl! It breaks my heart to see her in such a state. She has lost
a good deal of weight and is now too thin, and her pallour suggests severe
anaemia of the sort that often costs young people their lives. Still, she was as
pretty as ever, sitting in her bedchamber near an open window through which
streamed warm sunlight; it saddened me to see that she was too weak to properly
enjoy one of the last days of summer. She wore a white frock embroidered with
white satin thread, and her hair was tied back with a great white bow like a
schoolgirl’s. In the sun, hints of gold in her dark ash hair gleamed becomingly.
But she was clearly exhausted, lying upon a chaise longue against a plethora
of pillows. Despite the day’s warmth, one wool blanket was tucked around her
legs, and another draped about her shoulders. When the maid brought us to her,
she did not lift her head, but with great effort raised her arm that we might
take her hand. Weak or no, she managed to thoroughly charm Van Helsing… and me,
of course.
And I do believe he charmed her, though he again took on the persona
of the witless foreigner, the slayer of English grammar and syntax. I wish he
would not do it— at least, not when I am around. It embarrasses me for his sake
(it makes him, one of the world’s most intelligent and educated men, seem a
bumbling fool), and sometimes his more outrageous locutions make me grin at the
most inappropriate times.
Nonetheless, as much as it troubled me, Lucy was clearly taken with him. And
when the time came for him to examine her, I gratefully took the excuse to
stroll about the grounds, that I might be spared further intentional barbarisms.
When he had made his examination and we took our leave and headed for the
station in the fly, his jovial mood disintegrated at once. In his troubled blue
eyes I. saw confirmation of my worst fear: that Lucy was in mortal danger.
“It is serious, then?” I asked, as the driver steered the horse into the
park. It was indeed a glorious summer’s day, full of sun and kissed with a
delightful, cooling breeze; above our heads, birds sang in the lush, swaying
boughs of trees.
Yet to me, there was nothing of pleasure in that moment. I remember only the
sense of horror that chilled me to the bone, despite the warm golden pool of
light that bathed us both. For I had only imagined that the worst would be that
Lucy was ill with pernicious anaemia; but the answer he gave was even more
terrible to contemplate.
He glanced at the back of the driver’s head an instant, as if making a
decision. Then he said, “It is. She has been bitten.”
“Bitten?” I was honestly confused, thinking along strictly medical lines in
terms of a diagnosis. “But how could that—” I was going to say, But how
could that cause such a great blood loss? It would have been such a massive
wound that neither Lucy nor any of us could have missed it. In my concern for
her, I had not allowed the professor’s obsession with vampires to enter my mind.
But ere I had finished my question, I realised from his intense, unhappy gaze
that that was exactly what he meant: a fanged creature had been suckling at
Lucy’s sweet neck.
Van Helsing no doubt detected my dismay, for a look of compassion came over
his face and he asked softly, “You cannot yet believe, can you, John? Cannot
believe with your whole heart?”
The bright blue sky, the wind-rippled leaves, the sweet birdsong—all of it
took on a hideously sinister hue. Nothing was as it seemed; all the beauty
surrounding us was corrupt, a cheerful facade built to disguise evil.
How long ago had it been—a fortnight, a month— since he had first spoken to
me of vampires? I contemplated all that he had said, of course; contemplated it,
yet found it so horrid and impossible that I could not mentally commit myself to
it.
And still, the dream of Darkness and my very instinct did not permit me to
entirely z&believe. Should I flee from my friend, reject his diagnosis, and
direct him to other lodgings? Or should I distance myself from my own fears and
skepticism? If I were to tell any other of my medical colleagues that I sensed
people’s “auras,” they would deem me mad; therefore, I determined at that moment
not to do the same to the professor, who in all other matters has proven himself
to be a reliable source of information.
But to accept his claim was to open the mind to indescribable horror.
“Yes, I have difficulty in believing. But I trust you, Doctor. And if what
you say is true: what shall we do, then, to help her?” I finally said, with such
desperation and anguish that I could not repress them.
He tapped the side of an index finger against his lips and shot a pointed
look at the cabbie; we two rode back to the station in weighty silence.
The train was not overly crowded, and we managed to get a compartment all to
ourselves, where we could speak more freely.
“I must closet myself away,” the professor said the moment we were alone. “I
need at least three days’ time where I can be guaranteed no disturbance.”
“I have such a place—a cottage out in the country which is quite remote. Not
a soul would bother you.”
He brightened at once. “Excellent!”
“But before I send you off with the key, you must answer a question for me
first.”
At that he grew silent and uncomfortable, but waited to hear it so that he
could decide whether he could comply.
“Why?” I asked. “Why are you so sure Lucy has been bitten by a vampire, and
why must you go off by yourself?” Impertinent questions, to be sure, but if in
fact we were truly dealing with such legendary evil, courtesy was our least
concern.
He sighed, looking like a man who knows that his answers will not, cannot, be
entirely trusted or even comprehended. “To the first, I can only say that
instinct tells me so. To the second—I must take some measures that will allow me
to save Miss Westenra’s life, if need be. And I must try again to recruit one
who can help me track Vlad.”
“Vlad… ?” I had overheard the name before, when he had queried Mrs. Van
Helsing. “This is the vampire?”
“One of them. There is also Zsuzsanna, and possibly an Elisabeth.” He frowned
suddenly at the occurrence of a fresh idea. “Before I go—might I have your
assistance with Mr. Renfield? I should like to hypnotise him again, and would
prefer someone trustworthy nearby. Let me speak openly: I believe he is so
strongly drawn by evil that he has established a psychic link with Vlad. Perhaps
I can get from him the information I need, and my excursion to the country will
be unnecessary.”
To this I agreed. When we arrived in Purfleet and returned to the asylum, I
checked at once on Renfield to gauge his mood. Unfortunately, he was in
something of an agitated state, so we decided to postpone our session. The
professor has asked me to call for him no later than fifteen minutes before
sunset.
In the meantime, I have dispatched a letter to Art giving a mostly fictional
account of what Dr. Van Helsing, the great specialist from Amsterdam, has to say
after examining Lucy. I’m afraid I told him so little that he might be alarmed;
and I certainly could not lie to him about her symptoms or the professor’s
reaction to them. So there was a kernel of truth in my epistle, enough that one
looking for evidence of vampires might find it there. (When guilt rears its
disparaging head, I remind myself that to have confessed the whole truth would
have troubled Art even more —for he would think his old friend Jack and the
great Dutch diagnostician had gone quite insane, and would not have known where
next to turn.) As jealous as I may be of him, I cannot be so cruel to my old
friend. For his sake, I would have withheld Van Helsing’s opinion even if the
professor had not insisted I tell Art nothing.
Of course, the professor insisted in looking over my letter, and seemed to
take perverse pleasure in garbling all the quotes attributed to him. Our plan is
to pretend slowly to discover the signs of vampirism in order to make the others
come to the same conclusion on their own initiative. Perhaps even I—if I one day
do encounter solid physical evidence—might be convinced.
All I can say is this: If ever I have felt an attraction for things psychical
in nature, the events of today have cured it. I feel as though I am trapped in a
strange and fantastical dream, one every bit as disturbing as the one about the
great Darkness…
* * *
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
3 SEPTEMBER.
Whitby! The lovely Miss Westenra reported that the beginning of her strange
malaise began around mid-August, when she was on holiday at the seaside—at
Whitby, during the time when a “ghost ship” appeared! From what she said briefly
about it, I have no doubt: that is where he came ashore. Her responses indicate
he remained there a week before continuing on… to London, where he was drawn
again to his victim.
As for John’s Miss Lucy (he thinks I do not know, but it was plain on both
their faces that this was the young lady who had rebuffed him), I left her with
what protections I could—a tiny silver crucifix which I had charged. She is
clearly not of a religious bent, so I gave up any hope of convincing her to wear
it; what logical reason could I give? When the garlic blooms come from
Amsterdam, I will at least be able to cite the medicinal power of the herb.
So I did something rash, which strikes me now as amusing, though at the time
humour was the farthest thing from my mind. With her permission, I put Miss Lucy
deep into hypnotic trance, for as I explained it, it would permit her to give me
far greater detail than she could remember consciously.
After I had asked all the questions regarding Whitby and the “large bird
flapping at the window” and gotten satisfactory replies, I let her remain in
trance, with her eyes closed. Meantime, I performed a mental exercise—a spell,
if you will—which permits me to move about unheard by others. And with a little
crucifix in hand, I climbed upon the radiator; standing on tiptoe, I wedged the
protective amulet between the wooden window frame and the wall. (For all her
answers pointed plainly to the window as the place he had entered.) In addition,
I produced some small cloves of garlic and carefully laid them atop the narrow
lintel.
Whilst I was in that ever-so-precarious position, it occurred to me that Lucy
might suddenly emerge from trance and open her eyes, or that the maid might
fling open the door—and then how would I explain why I was standing
tiptoe upon the radiator? I should have done a spell for invisibility first, I
thought, but too late…
It makes me laugh now, but at the time I was quite frightened. At any rate, I
managed to finish my simple efforts in privacy, and now I pray they will be
sufficient for a time. As soon as possible, I will notify Vanderpool in Haarlem
to coax some garlic into bloom; he is entirely trustworthy, and it will save me
the trouble of explaining myself to an English farmer.
It is unfortunate that Miss Lucy is not completely accessible; knowing that
the maid was just outside the door (no doubt ready to burst in at the first sign
of impropriety), I dared not ask directly about Vlad and his whereabouts. But
perhaps the time will come… Until then, we will use John’s Mr. Renfield.
* * *
Dr. Seward’s Diary
4 SEPTEMBER.
A terrible day all round. Dismissed the attendant just before sunrise so that
I could take the professor in to see Renfield without anyone else knowing. Van
Helsing thinks that our zoophagous patient is sensitive to the vampire’s
movements and may be of some help in tracking it.
The patient remained quite calm when I entered, so I signalled Van Helsing to
come in. He did and, to my surprise, had Renfield in a hypnotic state in less
than a minute.
“Where are you?” the professor asked him, with admirable authority.
“I do not know,” Renfield replied, in a tone of surprising dignity; when he
is calm, he looks quite the cultured gentleman—except for the unkempt hair and
beard. (We dare not trust him with a razor or even a comb, and he hasn’t the
patience to let the attendant groom him.) But comb the silver hair and shave the
salt-and-pepper beard, and beneath them is a man with strong aristocratic
features and intelligent ice-blue eyes beneath severe black brows. According to
his wife, he is fifty-nine years old, but extremely well-muscled and fit for his
age. (The attendant— and now Van Helsing and I—can confirm that!) “I think I am
in a closed box. There is only darkness, and quiet— except for birds singing.”
As if on cue, a robin just outside the window burst into song; the professor
and I both smiled at the coincidence.
“Are you in London?” Van Helsing asked.
The question seemed to confuse Renfield. Eyes still closed, he frowned deeply
and hesitated. “No… yes… I don’t know. What do you mean by London?”
It was the professor’s turn to be confused. “The city. London, the largest
city in England.”
“Yes, yes,” our madman replied irritably. “I know what London is! I simply
don’t know—”
A cock crowed in the distance; abruptly, Renfield sprang to his feet and
rushed the professor with alarming speed. Before I could move, he had his broad
hands around Van Helsing’s neck and was throttling him, whilst the professor
gripped his attacker’s wrists and tried to break free.
But already the professor’s face had turned bright apoplectic red; he could
take in no air at all, could only emit the most dreadful strangled gasps. I rang
for the attendant at once, then leapt into the fray, grasping Renfield’s
forearms just above Van Helsing’s white-knuckled hands.
In a matter of seconds (I suppose, though it seemed hours), the attendant
raced in and threw the whole of his massive bulk against Renfield, smashing him
back against the wall. Soon the patient was restrained in a strait-jacket, while
I tended to Van Helsing, who gulped down air while gently massaging his violated
neck. I was concerned that there had been real damage done, for beneath his
fingers there were dark red marks upon the skin that would soon turn to bruises.
But he waved me away, and soon recovered enough to speak.
He is headed today for the country cottage. I am concerned about him being
alone there; if his theory that Renfield is controlled by the vampires is
correct, he is in grave danger indeed.
Chapter 9
Zsuzsanna Dracul’s Diary
13 AUGUST.
I write this on the boat, on my way back to London after a brief visit to
Amsterdam. (The Dutch public transportation is so clean.) It was Elisabeth’s
idea at first forme to go. We had both been out of sorts for some time; I have
felt my own strength slipping, despite the fact that I have had my fill of
“blue” blood. Elisabeth, too, seems paler, weaker, and so irritable that I have
started avoiding her. It frightens me; I worry that Vlad has cast some sort of
spell on us. London is still full of myriad marvels, but I begin to lose
interest in what previously delighted me. How many new frocks can one have? I
have a closetful. They are
all lovely and I enjoy wearing them—but my
desire for them is now sated, and I grow restless…
Vlad has no doubt arrived at the English coast, but still he has not appeared
at any of his properties—Carfax, Mile End, Bermondsey, Piccadilly. We visit them
every day, hoping to find him; and every day, our hopes are crushed.
Some evenings ago, Elisabeth approached me smiling for the first time in many
days, with a look of determination on her face. “Vlad is delayed,” she said,
“and we are both growing terribly anxious waiting. But why must we.“ You say
that you know where Van Helsing lives. Why not surprise him there during the
daytime, and bring him here? For if Vlad knows we have Van Helsing, he will be
forced to deal with us.”
“Why not simply kill the doctor?” I countered, for 1 was eager to do so, and
have my revenge upon little Jan’s murderer.
She clicked her tongue in disapproval. “But what fun is that, Zsuzsanna? If
Van Helsing dies, Vlad merely crumbles to dust. No, we must use Van Helsing to
draw him to us. I, for one, intend to witness both their deaths, and to inflict
as much suffering upon them as they have upon you!”
“Very well,” I agreed—though I was secretly determined to kill him anyway.
“When shall we leave?”
“Not both of us, my pet. You go; you alone know Van Helsing and his house. I
know Vlad, and so I will wait here for him; someone must check his houses every
day.”
The idea of leaving her alone gnawed at me. From Dunya, I knew that she was
capable of infidelity; even more distressing was the thought of the
torture-chamber beneath the house. Was her irritation due to her eagerness to
test it? She had sworn to me that she would not, that she merely “collected”
such horrific devices for amusement; and certainly, I had yet to find them used.
Still, I did not trust her.
Trust or no, logic won out. Within a day, I found myself standing at Van
Helsing’s door. I did not disguise myself, merely wore a hat with a bit of a
veil, so that if he peered out, he would not immediately recognise me. All I
needed was for him to open the door a crack—no more— and I would easily strike a
killing blow.
I rang, and a full minute later, the door swung open;
the woman who answered was steel-haired and square of jaw.
Mary? I
almost asked, but this could not be she; this woman was far too heavy and tall.
For an instant, confusion reigned: Had I come to the wrong house? Or had the Van
Helsings moved?
No; this was the house, and the brass nameplate on the door proclaimed A. VAN
HELSING, M.D., with a phrase in Dutch I could not decipher.
“I am looking for Dr. Van Helsing,” I said tentatively in English; the woman
frowned sternly at me and shook her head. I then translated the phrase into
French, without success; but my German evoked a warm smile.
“Ah,” she said, with a native accent and obvious relish to hear her own
tongue spoken, “your German is excellent! But I am afraid the doctor is not
taking appointments at this time.” And she pointed to the brass plate above the
bell, then laughed at herself. “But of course, you do not speak Dutch!”
I smiled prettily and drew back my veil a bit to expose her to both my beauty
and entrancing eyes. “I am not a patient, but a relative, here to visit.”
She clicked her tongue. “Ah, poor dear! I hope you have not come a long way—”
“From Vienna.” I knew before she told me that the professor was not here; my
heart sank at the realisation.
“He has gone”—she paused, and seemed to catch herself. I tried my best to put
her in a trance, but she kept glancing away uncooperatively. This was a very
willful woman—‘ ’abroad.
I did not hide my bitter disappointment. “May I ask where?”
She averted her eyes—lying, of course. “Many places. I do not have an
itinerary.” And then when she glanced back at me, I detected a sudden spark of
suspicion in her gaze. “You are a relative? How so?”
“His sister-in-law.”
Her eyes narrowed. “I have lived in Amsterdam many years, and have known of
the doctor for some time. He has no siblings.”
I sighed in honest frustration, deciding that if she did not let me in within
a matter of seconds, I would break her thick neck. “I know it sounds strange—but
I am actually his mother’s sister-in-law. You see, Mary’s brother was much
younger than she, and—”
The ice melted away, leaving her with a more welcoming but oddly tragic
expression. “Ah, poor Mary…
I feigned alarmed interest. “Has she died? Bram is such a dreadful
correspondent; he never tells me anything. I wrote him weeks ago telling him I
was coming, but he never replied—”
“My poor dear! How dreadful for you to learn this way. No, poor Mrs. Van
Helsing—Madam Mary, as I call her—is not dead. But I am afraid she is not far
from it. She is mortally ill with a cancer.”
I put my lacy-gloved hand to my mouth and gasped in horror. “So she is here?”
“Yes, yes, would you like to see her?”
I kept my lips covered an instant longer, lest she should see them curve
slightly upward in a smile. “Very much. I am sad to miss Bram, but…”
But I could learn a great deal from his mother, who was no doubt privy to
where he had gone. This nurse was clearly operating under basic orders, and
probably had no idea of our beloved Bram’s true vocation.
So she swung the door open and let me inside, where she squeezed my hand with
Germanic force, and vigorously pumped it while introducing herself as Frau
Koehler.
The shadowed foyer was lined with bookshelves, all filled beyond capacity,
some tomes lying atop rows of other volumes. The good Frau led me back through
another dusty, book-lined room to the staircase, where she hesitated.
“Let me go and tell Madam Mary you are here.” She blinked at me for a moment
before I realised she was awaiting a response from me.
“Tell her”—I paused, searching my memory for my sister-in-law’s maiden
name—“tell her Mrs. Windham has come to visit.”
Frau Koehler nodded, then lifted her skirts and climbed heavily up the
groaning stairs. I heard her move across the creaking wooden floor, then pause
to murmur a soft question to her charge.
But I detected no reply. As I waited, I espied between all the shelves a
closed door, and felt inexplicably drawn. I slipped through the crack and found
myself in the good doctor’s study, surrounded by more books—these all esoteric
in nature. Our brave vampire-killer, it seemed, had made an extensive study of
magic in order to better accomplish his work. There was also a large oaken desk,
with a number of papers and telegrams in the cubicles; I longed to look through
them all to gain some clue as to Van Helsing’s whereabouts, but above my head
came more creaks, and the frau’s heavy footfall.
I immediately slipped through the door again and by the time she smiled down
from the top of the stairs, I was in the exact spot she had left me.
“Madam Mary is awake and will see you.” Whilst I dashed up the stairs to join
her, she added: “I cannot promise you that she will entirely understand who you
are. She speaks little, and when she does, she is generally confused; I gave her
an injection of morphia for the pain not long ago, so she is sleepy as well. Be
patient.”
“I shall,” I answered warmly, though at the moment I was thinking of Mary not
at all, but rather how I might convince Frau Koehler to leave. I was quite sated
from the night before, to the point that the thought of dining upon her stalwart
German blood made me queasy. So I was not inclined to use supernatural force
upon the Frau; one quick drink from Mary, that was all I could manage, and then
I would be gone.
My cavalier attitude vanished once I stepped into the room and was greeted by
the duelling smells of piss and foul shit. Frau Koehler had done what she could
to minimise it: the window was open, a candle flickered in the slight breeze,
and a bedpan soaked in a tub full of soapy water.
It was all I could do to keep from covering my nose with my kerchief; but
Frau Koehler seemed to notice it not at all. She stepped over to the bed, smiled
with genuine affection, and took her patient’s thin, limp hand. “Mary. Here is
your sister.”
I moved forward to take the German nurse’s place, and clasped the dying
woman’s cold, bony hand. Her eyes had been closed, but at the sound of Koehler’s
voice, they fluttered open and gazed upon me. I was prepared at once to put a
glamour upon her, and make her see an entirely different woman, so that she
would not cry out in fear and alert the nurse—
Oh, Mary! When last I saw you, you were strong and young and beautiful, with
shining gold hair and smooth skin, and your little son Bram in your belly. I
loved you then; loved you even after my Change, for you had been so good to me
in my life. I have come to realise that you and Kasha and Papa were the only
ones who truly ever loved
me—me, the homely cripple, the spindly
spinster who evoked from men nothing but pity.
Now you are struck down by cruel Time. I have killed many in my strange
existence, and stared often into the eyes of Death Herself; but I had never
before seen Her linger so long.
This would be me, I thought,
had I not received the gift of
immortality. An unlovely old woman, dying. I looked upon the crone in the
bed and did not recognise her, she with her coarse white hair knitted into a
long braid that lay from shoulder to waist; the hair on the scalp, however, was
broken off in places and had come partially undone, giving her a wild, unkempt
air. The image came to me of a delicate bird perishing from starvation. Her
smooth skin was sallow, sunken skeletally at the cheeks, pinched at the nose,
and lined with wrinkles, especially beneath the eyes—eyes still blue as the sea,
though the whites were jaundiced.
Eyes dulled by pain and suffering, eyes that recognised me.
I intended to silence her before Frau Koehler was alerted, to put her under
my spell so that she would forget that she knew me, so that she would see
another woman altogether. But I was too stricken by the sight of her to react
immediately, and too distracted as the nurse slid a rocking-chair bedside and
bade me sit.
I sat, and cast my gaze again upon the old woman who had once been Mary,
ready to do my supernatural work. But those blue eyes—they looked back at me not
with fear, not with hatred or revulsion, but such honest warm affection that
tears of gratitude stung my eyes. This was not the fleeting love evoked by
sexual passion or mutual need or convenience; this was love for its own sake.
“Mary?” I asked softly, and to my utter surprise, tears fell hot onto my
cheeks—I, a hundred, a thousand times a murderess, so callous that I thought I
would never know untainted compassion again. “Do you really know me? It is j__”
“Zsuzsanna,” she breathed, in a trembling, reedy voice that broke my heart;
never for an instant did the sweetness in her gaze waver. “How beautiful you
are…”
I lowered my face into my lace-covered hands and wept. She was adrift in the
past and remembered only the mortal Zsuzsanna, I realised, and had forgotten my
Change; even so, I was touched by her welcome. But I had another reason for
allowing myself the outburst. Pathos aside, I was compelled to achieve my
objective: knowledge of Bram.
Frau Koehler stepped up behind me and laid a broad hand upon my shoulder. “My
dear… I know how difficult this must be for you,” she murmured. “May I bring you
a glass of sherry?”
I lifted my head and wiped away the tears with my kerchief. “Thank you. But…
may I have a cup of tea instead?” That would allow me the time I needed.
The Frau’s swift acquiescence cheered me at once; she departed down the
stairs for the kitchen, while I leaned closer to Mary and took her hand in both
of mine.
“My darling,” I whispered. “I cannot bear to see you suffer so. But I can
take all your pain away—forever.”
I moved forward and down, and pressed my lips against the soft, loose folds
at her neck; the ammonia-sharp odour of urine was overwhelming there, as were
the strong sensations of Mary’s goodness, her fear of dying, her sincere love
for those who had gone before her and those who would be left behind. Death’s
approach had stripped away all else, until only the essence of the woman
remained.
But something held me back. Perhaps it was the knowledge of the woman she had
been, or the powerful sense of goodness and tragic suffering emanating from her;
I knew that the true Mary would rather die than turn to evil.
Indeed, she drew her hand from mine and, with heartrending weakness, put her
palms against my shoulders and tried in vain to push me away. “Please, no… I
have lost two sons and a husband. Is that not enough?” She said it dreamily,
calmly, without a trace of fear.
I drew back. “Mary… do you
want to suffer? Do you
want to
die?”
She held my gaze directly; at the same time, she seemed to look past me, at
something far distant and glorious, and her wizened face took on a radiant,
wasted beauty. “My suffering is nothing compared to yours,” she whispered. “Mine
will not last forever.”
I fell back into the chair, stricken by a pain sharp as a needle piercing my
melting heart. I tried to protest: How could she say that
I suffered? I
who enjoy the best life offers, I who endure no physical pain, I who inflict
suffering and death upon others?
But I could not deny it. In a flash, I saw my current existence as she would
see it: the prettiest clothes, the finest champagne, the handsomest men, the
beautiful and cruel Elisabeth. The vanity, the hollowness. Century after century
without meaning.
I rose and again took her hands, massaging them a bit to warm them. This time
when I bent over her, I gently pressed my lips to hers. “God bless you, Mary.”
“And may He bless you.” She sighed, and closed her eyes.
I heard downstairs the rattling of china upon a tray, and muted steps; Frau
Koehler was returning with the tea. I settled into the rocking chair and waited,
trying to determine the best way to return to the study, when Mary herself
provided the answer.
Abruptly, she emitted a howl of pain, with the unbearable abandon of a
wounded animal; I admit, I jumped a bit in the chair (and it is not an easy
thing to startle a vampire). Again and again she cried out, and I called to her
to ask what was the matter, but she seemed quite unaware of my presence. I felt
enormous helplessness—and embarrassment when she suddenly clutched the blanket
between her legs.
“Frau Koehler!” I cried, as the nurse thundered and rattled up the stairs;
she appeared red-faced and gasping, and at once thrust the tea-tray upon a low
armoire and went to the bedside of her charge.
“Ah,” she said, relieved. “It is merely time for the bedpan again. I shall
help her, madam. If you like, you may take your cup of tea and sit downstairs,
where the noise will not disturb you.”
“The noise?”
“It is all painful for her now; she drinks so little that it burns like fire,
especially with her open bedsores. But I will help her feel better. Off with
you, madam.”
So this is a lingering death: piss and shit and helpless pain, the crudest
indignity.
She moved towards the soapy bedpan in the basin, and I made good my escape
before I saw anything more. Abandoning the tea, I sailed down the stairs and
again slipped through the door to the doctor’s study. With immortal speed, I
riffled through the papers on his desk—to little avail, for almost all of them
were in Dutch and quite incomprehensible.
But stored neatly inside a cubby-hole were three telegrams, sent from A. Van
Helsing, Purfleet, England, to Frau Helga Koehler, Amsterdam. The first was
dated 8 July, the second 16 July, the third 4 August.
And all of them from Purfleet.
Purfleet. Where Elisabeth and I went
every morning to check on Vlad’s arrival!
I would have sat down on the floor and quietly laughed—here I had come all
this way to find someone back in London!—had the chilling realisation not come:
Dr. Van Helsing was mortal, but he still was a force to be reckoned with. For he
had somehow discovered Vlad’s new location.
How could I be sure he had not also discovered mine?
I skimmed through them all, for they were blessedly written in German, with
which I have intimate acquaintance. They all thanked Frau Koehler for her
reports on his mother’s condition, and volunteered the information that “Mrs.
Van Helsing is unfortunately still the same.” The most recent one stated that he
would have to remain in Purfleet awhile longer, but that the Frau should notify
him at once should she judge Mary to be dying.
Mrs. Van Helsing; the phrase filled me with trepidation, though I
did not immediately understand or remember. Had there been a Mrs. Van Helsing? I
had come to this house twenty years before, to take sweet little Jan with me and
to steal Bram’s brother away…
Of course, of course. There had been a woman; a timid, large-eyed mousy
little thing. I had bitten but not killed her, as she had been an obstacle in my
way. She had one of those forgettable Dutch names that began with a
G,
that strongly aspirated sound like the Hebrew
ch, repeated twice in the
name “van Gogh.”
For some reason, it had not even occurred to me that she was still alive. But
the revelation that she was—and that she was in England with Van Helsing—filled
me with horror.
What if he were using his wife to get information about me? For vampire and
victim are linked together so long as both survive; and so this wild-eyed woman
was linked to me, even though her personality was so timid, so cringing, that
over the years I had become blithely unaware of her. I, who had been such an
idiot that I had not thought to turn the tables and get information about
him.
I have corrected my oversight.
Through all this, I had been listening to footfalls and terrible screams
overhead, and Frau Koehler’s soft, comforting murmurs. The screams had ceased,
followed by the sound of pouring water. I slipped out of the study, and waited
at the bottom of the stairs again until the nurse appeared.
She did not invite me up, but came down the stairs to stand beside me;
perspiration shone on her forehead and upper lip. She raised her apron to her
face and wiped it.
“I think she will sleep now,” she said in a low voice. “She is very tired;
she has had a very difficult day so far. Will you be back soon, Mrs. Windham?”
I shook my head, eager to leave this sad house, and troubled by what Mary had
told me. “No. It’s time for me to leave. I have my own family to take care of;
and I have already given her my good-bye.”
Her broad, square face grew genuinely sad. “I am sorry you must leave after
such a short visit, madam. I can see Mary loves you very much, and you her.”
I turned away before she saw my tears, and she led me back to the front
entrance. When she opened the door, I paused and faced her, then lightly touched
my fingers to her cheek.
As I’d hoped, she met my gaze, and fell at once into trance. “You will
remember none of this,” I told her. “Not me, not my name, not my appearance, and
if Mary speaks of it, you will take her to be delirious. Most important, you
will not, so long as you live, mention this to Dr. Van Helsing.“
“Of course not,” she said, and I smiled, breaking the fell.
“Thank you, Frau Koehler.” I kissed her on the cheek as I would a sister.
“Godspeed, Mrs. Windham.”
* * *
Now I am on the boat home, where I’ve found myself a secluded spot down below
(it is a beautiful day and everyone is taking sun up on the deck). Here, I let
myself go deep into trance and found my connexion with Mrs. Van Helsing. The
threads tying us are rather weak, though with practice they will strengthen.
This is what I saw, only moments ago:
A small, plain room with white walls, a window with black iron bars marring
the view of a flower garden below. Over the window, a small gold crucifix.
Behind me, the sound of a door opening; a man’s soft, deep voice calling:
“Gerda, dearest…”
Gerda, yes! That was her name.
The view swings one hundred eighty degrees; I now find myself looking at an
older man with white speckling his golden hair and thick eyebrows, and a smile
meant to mask the worry in his blue eyes. He has not recently shaved, and the
sunlight pouring in through the window catches the silver hairs on his chin and
ignites them. There is such an air of heaviness about him, as if he were like
Atlas, bearing the world’s weight upon his shoulders. At the same time, there is
an air of goodness, too, reflected in his eyes and the simple, rounded features
on his face.
There is something familiar here, something disturbing: I look at him and
think of my dead brother, though they look nothing physically alike. I know this
man, but for an instant, I am stymied, for he is almost a quarter-century older
than the last time we met, and the years and tragedy have aged him.
Bram, Gerda thinks, but the deep sorrow within her holds her tongue
so that she cannot speak—and I at once remember. This kindly older man is my
nemesis, Van Helsing, the murderer of my little Jan, who would still be beside
me today had Van Helsing not killed my immortal adopted child.
So. Van Helsing is with Gerda—in an asylum, I think; how else to explain the
bars? And at that very moment, he begins to ask her questions:
What do you see now?
“I’m not sure. I see water, a great deal of green water —and disappearing
behind me, a coastline with tiny windm—”
I pull her up short before she can utter the word windmills,
although damage has already been done. He will know now that I have gone to
Amsterdam—but damned if he will know when or if I have returned to London.
He asks other questions, but she remains steadfastly silent, until he
surrenders and leaves.
When I emerged from the connexion, I wrote this all down at once, lest I
forget any detail. I will tejl Elisabeth about the fact that Van Helsing is in
Purfleet, somewhere near Vlad. She will be angry enough at the wasted time-so I
must never tell her about my terrible error in forgetting about Gerda; she will
never forgive me.
And if we fail, I will never forgive myself.
At the same time, I am deeply troubled. Whenever I think of Mary, it is as
though my icy heart is gently warmed by a small internal flame—a flame she has
rekindied; and I remember what it is to feel human compassion, human love. Shall
I kill her only son?
Enough! Enough! Such thoughts are too dangerous. I will have my
revenge…
Chapter 10
Zsuzsanna Dracul’s Diary
20 AUGUST.
No further clues from Gerda about Bram Van Helsing; I suspect she said or did
something which alerted him to my interference, and he in turn has performed
some powerful magic to prevent my repeating it. We have been going through the
city bit by bit, looking for an iron-barred window that looks down onto a flower
garden, and we did find two possibilities, including a madhouse adjacent to
Carfax—but no Van Helsing, no wife. Is it possible that he is adept enough to
make them both invisible?
It is my own fault that I could be so disgracefully outdone by a mere mortal;
Vlad taught me only the most cursory exercises in mesmerism, invisibility, and
self-protection, but I never pressed him for more information. (I know now he
would not have given it even if asked, but there were times when I could have
got hold of some very enlightening ancient tomes, and did not.) I honestly had
no interest in such “boring” things… now comes the time for regret.
Elisabeth’s welcome was sweeter than I’d expected it would be when I returned
from Amsterdam; I never confessed to her about Gerda, but lied and said I had
bitten Mary and learned that the good doctor is actually somewhere near London.
This surprised and pleased her, and we spent some agreeable hours together over
the following days. Yet as generous as her mood was, she seemed to grow somewhat
haggard and irritable. I thought it was out of frustration over our vain search
for Van Helsing, and that she was struggling to hide it out of concern for me.
Now I know better; she was dissembling for my sake, all right— not out of
kindness, but out of a wish to deceive.
Tonight I am beginning to see just how much she has kept from me. And what
she
has told me: are those, too, all lies?
It began mid-morning. We had been going mad awaiting Vlad’s arrival, but
today I had an overwhelming hunch that
this was to be the day. So
Elisabeth and I at once hurried to Carfax. (What a vision she was, dressed in
palest pink and cream satin, her long curls pinned up beneath a matching cap; it
was as if she had intentionally made herself more beautiful in an attempt to
extinguish my anger and doubt.)
Safely cloaked in our invisibility, we stood a distance from the dismal old
house, beneath a copse of large, gloomy oaks—Elisabeth would go no farther—and
watched workmen deliver the same wooden boxes I had seen the
tsigani
load onto their wagons and carry away. Fifty boxes in all—and one unquestionably
containing Vlad! I recognised it by the enveloping elliptical glow—
midnight-blue speckled with gold, like a starlit sky, larger than any aura I had
ever seen him cast (mind that my abilities in this regard have always been less
than remarkable).
I know Elisabeth saw it, too, for she gasped aloud—then caught my arm and
hissed into my ear, “We must leave at once!”
Confused, I turned to frown at her—and my confusion increased at the poorly
masked fear upon her face. “What do you mean, leave? He has arrived; it is day…
Now is the time. When the workmen are gone, we must go in and destroy him!”
“Then you will go alone. Can you not see how powerful he has become?” She
gestured at the glowing box, her expression and posture—with one impatiently
tapping cream slipper—revealing intense anxiety. She turned and began to move
away, but I grasped her arm and held it.
“You’re afraid of him,” I marvelled. “You who claim to be unconquerable, you
who swear that you avoided confronting him only because you wish to relish your
little cat-and-mouse game… You are afraid. Can it be that
he is now the
cat, and
you the mouse?”
“Let me
go’t” She surrendered all pretense then, and uttered a
Hungarian epithet as she swung at me with a pink-and-cream-striped arm. I have
never seen her features so grotesquely contorted with anger; in an instant, she
was transformed from porcelain doll to Medusa. “Don’t be a fool—if we argue, he
will sense us. Zsuzsanna, you have no idea what danger you’re putting us in!”
I would have said more, would have asked,
And are you afraid, too, of Van
Helsing, whom you refuse to kill? Is he, too, the stronger? She broke free
from my grip, and transformed herself directly into a golden butterfly that
sailed away upon the late summer breeze.
I controlled my anger and rode upon the sunbeams, but I did not follow her
back in the direction of the house in London. Instead, I left Carfax estate and
made my way into Purfleet proper, where, beneath the cloak of invisibility, I
slipped into a silversmith’s shop and made off with a shining dagger and
long-handled sword.
Then it was back to Carfax, for my fury at Elisabeth’s deceit made me ever
the more determined to destroy Vlad, and to destroy him at once. Why else had we
been waiting all these weeks? I would show
her what true courage meant,
and then, having destroyed him, would leave her to her vanity, her decadence,
her vile dungeon waiting silently for its first victim. As for myself, I needed
neither the protection of man or woman, nor their love; the two I had dared love
had both betrayed me, and I would never again permit myself so to suffer.
Perhaps I should go to Vienna, or Paris…
When I arrived, the workmen were still hard at their task. The anger wavered
only once as I waited beneath the dying oaks, when I reflected that perhaps I
had been hasty in thinking that Vlad’s belief that no vampire could ever destroy
another in traditional fashion, with stake and knife, was simply another of his
mediaeval superstitions. What if it was true?
Then I shall leave and bring a mortal to do the task, I told myself.
I would not be swayed, nor would I permit myself to believe I was in as terrible
a danger as Elisabeth insisted.
The workers (a small group of lower-class cockney “blokes,” as they would
call themselves) took the boxes in through the front entrance, at a maddeningly
slow pace, one box at a time. This, with several pauses for bawdy jokes,
conversation, and laughter, left me so impatient for the hour and a half it took
them to finish that I was tempted to appear to them in my most ferocious
fang-toothed guise and send the lot of them running.
The sun was straight overhead when finally they left— mid-day, which
realisation cheered me, as this was the hour Vlad was weakest. Even so, I took
care to strengthen the veil of invisibility around myself and my silver weapons
before entering, and with them slipped through the crack in the weathered front
door, which the “blokes” had relocked.
Inside, the floor was carpeted with a layer of dust inches thick (how like
Vlad!), leaving the workmen’s every step visible. Making no footprints myself, I
followed the trail through the corridor, until it ended at an arching oaken door
bound with iron.
There was a sizable gap between the door’s base and the dust-padded floor, as
well as between its arched top and the curving lintel. One might expect to see
rays of sunshine streaming through, illuminating errant airborne dust; but in
place of brightness shone that ominous and sparkling indigo aura, darkness which
was not an absence of light, but an equal and opposite force that could displace
it.
For a brief moment, I quailed—then summoned all my anger and courage and
again reduced myself and my burden to a hair-thin sliver which slipped easily
beneath the gap at the door’s base, through the radiant darkness which seemed to
permeate my being. I emerged on the other side full of trepidation, for though
the room (once a chapel, as the far wall bore the marks of a .large crucifix
which had been recently removed, above the ro.tting remains of a wooden altar)
was vast and high-ceilinged, it was filled with the sparkling deep blue radiance
that marked Vlad’s presence.
I steeled myself and with my weapons moved forward, towards the box from
whence the indigo non-light emanated. And here I can only describe the sensation
in mortal terms, for immortal experience fails me here: It was rather like
attempting to walk into and through a swarm of very annoyed bees, or to swim
against a raging current; I felt myself being buffeted backward by a hostile,
buzzing force, whilst the skin on my entire body stung as if pricked.
Excelsior.
I moved onward, struggling to submerge my fear. No matter how powerful Vlad
might have become, I trusted in my own invisibility, and my plan: to reach the
box in which he lay, fling open the cover, and, in the instant of surprise,
pierce both heart and neck with silver.
At last I arrived at my goal, and there paused to gather my nerve even as I
reached for the wooden lid—nailed shut, though I could tear it free with but a
modicum of effort.
My fingers curled round the edge; I pulled. The lid did not move, but
remained steadfastly bound.
Again I pulled, harder, silently cursing. Again, no result at all. I paused,
infuriated and perplexed, wondering what immortal skill I might use to pry open
the impossibly stuck lid.
Or was this a trick of Vlad’s?
The lid in front of me suddenly exploded into a mighty whirlwind, hurling me
back against the door in a flurry of splintered wood and dust; had I been
mortal, I would have certainly been killed at once. As it was, I listened with
pure astonishment at the sound of the door and my own immortal bones cracking…
and at the ear-splitting clang of my weapons driven into the stone wall an inch
from my head.
And when the storm eased, causing the dust and bits of wood to drop to the
filthy ground with the abruptness of a funnel cloud belching out a tree or a
terrified sheep, I sat and looked through the glimmering darkness to see that
the box was open—and within it lay Vlad.
Not asleep, yet utterly still as a corpse, with his arms crossed upon his
chest, his malachite eyes opened wide, and a sneer upon his lips. He was a young
man now, no longer ghastly but handsome, with flowing coal-coloured hair and
mustache. I looked upon him and was at once smitten and horrified.
And desperately curious about the piece of iridescent white parchment pressed
between his hands and chest, as if it were a great treasure that must remain
close to his heart.
The sensuous lips moved. “Zsuzsanna, my dear,” he said, in a voice beautiful,
strong, godlike. “Surely you are not so stupid or foolhardy as to want to do me
harm. Perhaps you have merely returned after realising that you have sided with
the loser.”
I was too stunned to flee. Clearly, Elisabeth had been right to fear; I knew
that he would destroy me now, despite any lie I might think to tell him. The
keen understanding that I was utterly lost filled me with numbness and an odd
calm. If I was to die, then I should at least learn the truth that had been kept
from me.
“Loser?” I asked. “Do you mean Elisabeth?”
“The same,” he replied, all but his lips still motionless. “You are her pawn,
my dear. She is too cowardly to confront me herself, and so she uses you. Ask
her, Zsuzsanna; I know you will believe nothing I say. Ask
her about
the terms of her own covenant with the Dark Lord. Ask her what they have to do
with
you.”
A sickening surge of dread overwhelmed me, for he spoke with the calm
confidence of truth. “Why are you so powerful now? And what is
that?” I
pointed at the shining paper in his hands, leaning forward just enough to see a
few lines of text written in pure, gleaming gold.
He smiled, but ignored the question. “Ask
her what it is; ask her
what she would do to you in order to get it. You must destroy her, Zsuzsanna.
Destroy her before she destroys you. If you do not, I shall have no choice but
to inflict upon you both the same grievous
end. Take heed: I will not
warn you again. And remember that I could have destroyed you here and now,
but chose instead to take pity.“
Immediately, the door behind me swung open, and another mighty gale pushed
me—furious and frightened and spitting dust—out into the corridor and out of the
house altogether, as easily as if I had been a feather and not an angry
immortal.
Outside, I dusted myself off and travelled upon sunbeams into the city, to
the beautiful house where Elisabeth sat waiting upon the sofa, golden curls
freed and swept all to one side so that they spilled down onto her bosom. She
sat with uncharacteristic stiffness, spine straight and unsupported, hands
folded primly upon her knees. To test myself—and her—I entered the house with
aura still retracted, maintaining my invisibility.
She did not see me at all—or if she did, she belongs onstage with Ellen
Terry, for she kept sighing and frowning and glancing out the window as a
concerned lover ought; one cream satin slipper tapped relentlessly against a
Turkish carpet the colour of blood. When I materialised hastily in front of her,
she rose, clapping her hands, and cried out:
“Zsuzsanna! My sweet Zsuzsa! I have been so terribly worried! Did you go
inside? Did you see him? How did you ever escape?”
She flung her arms about me and repeatedly kissed my cheeks and lips. But I
did not return the embrace; I stood still as Vlad had lain in his coffin, and
said, “You are right; he is powerful, fearsomely powerful. I cannot defeat him
alone.”
At this she drew back, confused by my physical coldness yet approving of my
words, and clasped my hands, waiting for some sign which might explain this
contradiction.
I kept my expression solemn, my hands limp, my gaze direct. “He says that I
must ask you about your covenant. Your… contract with the Dark One, and what it
has to do with me.”
The judgement? Guilty. Conflicting emotions rippled subtly over her features
like ocean waves spilling onto the shore, only to be pulled back and swiftly
replaced by others: rage, hatred, fear, cunning—and the last, indignance.
“Zsuzsa! Can’t you see what he is trying to do to you? To make you hate me,
to make you return to him. And what do you think will happen to you then?”
“I have seen the manuscript,” I said quickly; she recoiled as if she had been
slapped. Indeed, she turned away, clearly overwhelmed and unable to respond to
this new development, whilst I affected a knowing expression. The intimation was
that I had read and understood its value to Vlad (and clearly, now, to her)—a
lie embedded in a truthful statement.
With her back still to me, she wrapped an arm round her ribs—clutching
herself, really, though she tried to make the gesture seem casual. Her other
hand quickly massaged her forehead, then her neck, just above the sweet,
sculpted bone beneath milky skin. With utter—and unbelievable—calmness, she
asked: “What did he tell you about it?”
“Enough. Enough to know that you have lied to me.” She whirled about, setting
pink and cream satin skirts aswirl, and began to protest, but I raised my voice
and would not hear her. “At the very, very least, you have constantly kept the
truth from me.”
At once the porcelain face crumpled, and diamond tears spilled from her
sapphire eyes. “Zsuzsanna—do you think I did so simply to torment you? Yes, he
is stronger than both of us together at the moment, but I have not given up
hope. We will find a way to defeat him, but until then, we must use all our wits
and caution.” She reached forward and took my hand once more, pressing it
between her own and bending down to kiss it, baptising it with her tears. “Have
I been cruel to you in any way, my darling? Have I hurt you? Tell me, and I
shall make amends at once. I did not bring you to London to make you unhappy!”
I wavered. She sensed it, and pressed her case with increased vigour. “You
know Vlad, Zsuzsa. In all the decades you were with him, did he ever treat you
with respect or genuine affection? No! He treated you as his own slave, to do
with as he would; he gave you immortality, but not out of concern for you—only
for himself! You know you cannot trust him; you know that he is a liar. I beg
you—do not let him drive a wedge between us! He is telling you these hideous
prevarications in order to achieve just that! And if he succeeds, then we all
are lost, indeed. We must work together, darling, to defeat him. And our best
hope, I tell you, is Van Helsing. With him as our pawn, we can succeed.”
In truth, I was swayed—by her beauty, her tears, her words. Still, Vlad’s
charges gnawed at me. “If I am to help you, then, in such a difficult task, you
must explain everything to me. What
is your covenant with the Dark
Lord? And what is this manuscript that Vlad clearly prizes?”
She sighed. “As to my covenant—that is not the sort of thing one discusses;
if you had your own, you would understand. As for the manuscript, I cannot say.
Please trust me, dear Zsuzsa. I, too, am trying to solve all these mysteries;
perhaps we two can discuss them today, and come up with a proper strategy.“
Then she put her arms round me and kissed me, and cajoled me until I yielded,
smiling. For the rest of the day and night, she was as kind to me as anyone has
ever been.
But I cannot do as she has asked: I can trust her no longer. I remain with
her now only because I have nowhere else to go. Bad enough that I have attracted
Vlad’s wrath; I do not want hers as well.
I must find a way to destroy them both.
* * *
26 AUGUST.
The delay grows maddening. No Van Helsing thus far; Elisabeth and I have
agreed that he is our best hope in conquering Vlad. Kill the Dutch doctor and
Vlad will be destroyed as well.
I am convinced now that the lone lunatic asylum in Purfleet contains the view
I saw through Gerda’s eyes, for the flower garden looks just the same. Yet there
we can find no trace of either Van Helsing, and my fear is that they were
there for a brief time, but have since left. Either that, or the doctor is as
powerful a mortal man as I am a vampire, and knows how to render himself and his
wife invisible for days at a time. The second possibility is indubitably worse.
So we check the asylum almost daily, and. we keep searching the city… And
each day, I grow more restless.
Yesterday evening I could wait for action no longer; so, some hours after the
sun had set, I went out into the foggy night alone whilst Elisabeth took her
rest. She and I are getting along together well enough on the surface, but I
still possess a great deal of wariness around her, as she does around me. She
scrutinises me for signs of disbelief or disaffection (which I have in
abundance, but try hard to mask); upon finding them, she reacts not with anger
but with great concern and sweetness. It is as if she is courting me anew, for
she showers me with presents. Yesterday, she indulged my penchant for dogs and
birds (she cannot abide either) by presenting me with a full-grown
white Afghan with a diamond collar, and a great white cockatoo with a diamond
bracelet round its ankle (to elegantly chain it to its perch).
The dog and bird are sweet enough and I adore them, but my presence terrifies
them; so I keep them closeted in the sitting-room, and let the young downstairs
maid give them the affection they deserve. In the meantime, Elisabeth showers me
with white roses, precious jewelry, outrageous and exquisite ball gowns, and
promises of social engagements. More delightful things, and, oh, how
they bore me!
So last night when I slipped out into damp darkness softened by fog, I felt a
sense of relief to be free of Elisabeth and all my beautiful gifts, to at last
be doing something of worth. I sailed upon moonbeams across the city some twenty
miles to the east, where Purfleet lay upon the north bank of the Thames.
I returned straight to the cheerless gloom of Carfax. No light emanated from
behind the filth-encrusted windows—only the ominous, glittering blue-black mist,
darker than the night.
This disappointed me, as I had expected him to go out hunting the very
instant the sun slipped beneath the horizon; why would he linger in that vile
and dusty prison when there were thousands upon thousands of warm, red-cheeked
souls awaiting him in the city; when, for the first time in centuries, he could
feed to his heart’s content?
Alas, my plan had been to search the premises during his absence for the
mysterious white parchment. Instinct said its discovery would lead to the truth
that neither Elisabeth nor Vlad would reveal, and perhaps even to my own
liberation.
Fuming, I retreated at once to the property’s edge. Now that I was sensitised
to it, I could see the deadly aura’s faint glow even from that distance; and I
was tempted to keep my distance, for I knew that this time, Vlad would have no
mercy. I lingered quite a time near the black iron gate, with its tall spikes,
every few minutes deciding in disgust that I could not wait an instant longer—
and every time, remaining. All the while, I prayed that my frail efforts at
invisibility would permit me to escape detection.
After no more than half an hour, the blue-black aura abruptly vanished, like
someone extinguishing a lamp that shed darkness rather than light. I turned my
gaze skyward and saw a large bat flapping silently through the air—a beautiful
creature with vast wings of bone and sinew covered by gossamer grey skin, and
the whole of it veiled in sheer, shimmering indigo.
I took to the air and followed at quite a distance, taking care not to be
discovered. He sailed along the Thames’ north bank over regal estates and green
bits of farmland, until the landscape grew dotted with buildings closer and
closer together; and then we were in the city.
He knew precisely where he was going, for never did he slow or swoop down to
inspect the area or search for victims. Not until we were in the heart of London
proper did he gradually ease the flapping of his wings. Lower and lower he sank
through the undulating white mist, until at last he hovered just outside a
respectable-sized house of brick, set behind a gated stone wall bearing the sign
HILLINGHAM.
Again, I kept a respectable length between us, and strengthened my
invisibility as best I could. What I now report I saw from beneath a great
sycamore a whole rolling grassy lawn away. From there, I put my immortally keen
vision to good use and witnessed the following:
The bat hovered at a dark second-story window, the sash raised to
let in the cool, damp air and release the day’s heat. There the handsome
creature lingered but a moment before transforming itself into the handsome,
dark-haired Vlad, who slipped easily through the gap without awaiting an
invitation to enter. This was a house he had visited before.
Though the room was dark, I could see inside with ease. Upon a white, lacy
(and no doubt virginal) bed lay a young lady with waving sand-coloured hair and
a pretty enough face. Apparently her sleep had been unrelentingly restless, for
she had kicked off her coverlet and lay so tangled in the twisted sheets that
one could not judge where they ended and her frilly white night-gown began; from
beneath them both a pale, curving thigh peeked scandalously.
As Vlad approached the bed, she wakened drowsily and, upon recognising him,
sat up and opened her arms to him, as the biblical man must have welcomed his
prodigal son. He stepped into the embrace and held her, golden-brown waves
cascading over his arms—and drank. (Almost fifty years ago, he did the same for
me—and how well I remember the sweetness of it still!)
At the moment his lips found her tender neck, I turned and fled back to
Carfax at the highest possible speed. I had seen what I needed, and knew the way
back to Hillingham; now I was obliged to conduct a swift search of Vlad’s new
and dreary home.
What did I find? Dust, dust, and dust, and scores of inhospitable rats—but
certainly no gleaming parchment with golden script. I looked inside the box
where he had lain and found nothing within but mouldering earth that I suspected
had been dug from the chapel floor in Transylvania. (Elisabeth is right on one
account—his superstitions are strange indeed!) All fifty of the boxes had been
recently pried open, and I looked into every one.
Dust and vile-smelling dirt. I searched a few places elsewhere—in a cabinet
built into the wall, and the lone table that stood near the entryway—without
success. Yet I dared not linger; thus I made a swift tour of the house and the
grounds, and departed for home, fearful of being discovered.
Now I am home, and although Elisabeth is solicitous to an annoying degree, I
have stolen a moment of privacy to sit with my beautiful hound and cockatoo (the
poor things, how they tremble at my very nearness, and when I speak tenderly to
them, they are undone by confusion). I must write this all down and think hard
in terms of strategy. I am alone in this and can trust neither Elisabeth nor
Vlad; Van Helsing I might believe, for though he means me harm, he is not given
to deceit. If I could only find him, I would question him first and kill later.
As for tomorrow, I can see no way around it: I must take a deadly risk.
* * *
26 AUGUST.
Elisabeth was very moody today, and though she tried to master herself, she
snapped at me irritably. Then she pressed a wad of pound notes into my hand in
lieu of apology, and bade me go shopping.
So I and my handsome coachman drove through the city, and at one point, I
ordered him to wait for me outside a fine dress-shop. Once inside, I made myself
invisible and rode the wind the short distance to Hillingham.
It being shortly after mid-day, I was altogether unsure that I would catch
Vlad’s victim alone; but I knew that she would be too weak to stray far from
home. Daylight gave the estate at Hillingham a far cheerier air; the gabled
stone house no longer seemed grim and sterile, but quite cheerful with its red
door and eaves and white lace curtains. Upon the deep green lawn, black and tan
terrier pups gambolled whilst their weary mother watched beneath the shade of a
tall ash; nearby, a servant tended a perfumed garden of roses.
Gone, too, was the dark blue miasma that marked Vlad’s presence, and that was
perhaps the most cheerful sign of all.
I located at once the window where Vlad had entered, and peered inside. The
sash was closed today, despite the glorious warm breeze, but the young lady was
exactly where I had expected to find her—in bed, propped up upon pillows,
reading, with the covers drawn up as far as possible, as if she feared a chill
on this, one of the warmest days of the year. She was quite a pretty girl,
really, with light green upward-slanting eyes, sculpted cheekbones, and a small,
thin nose, all of which gave her a rather feline look; and she wore a lovely
dressing-gown of embroidered linen eyelet, pale sea-green to enhance her eyes.
Whilst she tead, a chambermaid stood beside the bed, devotedly brushing out the
lady’s long, waving hair—which, in the dappled sunlight, looked the colour of
sand gilded here and there with gold. Lying against the pale-green gown, it
looked like a shimmering shore beside the great ocean.
As I watched, a kitchen maid entered with a tray bearing a modest luncheon
and tea; her young mistress sighed and shook her head, but the servant pressed
her case, and left the tray on the table beside the bed in case the young lady’s
appetite improved.
The instant the servants had gone, closing the door behind her, I drew nearer
to the window and materialised just enough so that I could tap my fingernails
against the glass. As I had hoped, the girl looked up from her reading, and
tilted her head, curious; I drummed harder, harder, projecting my aura outward
as a fisherman casts a net, luring her until she could resist no more. She
pulled back the covers and rose languidly; slowly (pausing once to close her
eyes and press a hand to her forehead as if dizzied) she made her way to the
window, and with great effort pulled up the sash.
This was my invitation. I lunged forward, thinking to leap through the open
window into the bedroom, as Vlad had done the night before.
But something held me back at the instant I ducked my head beneath the glass.
A talisman, something fastened above or below the window which made my skin
tingle, then sting, then burn fiercely, as if I were attempting to swim through
water which had been infused with ever-increasing amounts of acid until it was
pure vitriol. I cried out at the pain, recoiling; my invisibility should have
prevented the girl from hearing any sound, but she must have sensed something,
for she frowned in puzzlement and peered farther out before shutting the glass.
This was Vlad’s doing, I decided, and silently swore to him that I would not
be so easily discouraged. Thus I went round to other windows until I found one
unencumbered by any spell—the dining room, where I found the same serving-girl
setting a long table for only one. Again, I tapped upon the window and
mesmerised her quite easily; she pulled open the window without an instant’s
hesitation.
I wasted no time with her, but made my way directly upstairs to her young
mistress’ room. There I knocked, and was obligingly admitted entry by her call:
“Come in…”
There is one moment when we vampires lose our ability to hide ourselves: at
the moment of feeding, not because of any limitation imposed on us by the Dark
Lord’s bargain, but because the act of drinking blood overwhelms us as utterly
as it does our victim. Thus our mental concentration, so necessary for
manipulating the aura, fails, and we are visible to those who nourish us.
So it was that when I stepped over the threshold into her chamber, I saw no
point in veiling my presence; she would see me soon enough in any case.
When I appeared all at once in the entryway, pulled the door shut behind me,
and locked it, she sat straight up in the bed and lifted a pale hand to pale
lips with a look of intense curiosity tempered by gentle fear. She might well
have cried out for one of the maids, but she was a gentlewoman, schooled in
civility, and so she asked, with as much courtesy as she could summon in the
face of such a surprise:
“Who are you?”
I smiled, and within me felt immortal beauty rise up and flower; felt, too,
my magnetism instinctively increase and surge out through my eyes to the young
lady’s, drawing her irrevocably to me. Deep, deep behind the green ocean of her
gaze, I saw the faint glimmer of indigo. I would have to strike quickly; I would
have to keep my own mind as blank as possible. Even so, the danger to me was
still great. Who knew the limits of Vlad’s power? How could I be sure that even
during the day, he would not reach out through this lethargic young creature and
smite me?
“A friend, come to help in time of need,” I said, crossing over to stand
beside the bed. At once I became keenly aware of diluted vitriol tingling upon
my skin, and glanced up to find over the single window a tiny silver crucifix.
Impossible that I should be affected by it anymore, now that Elisabeth had shown
me the truth… unless, of course, it had been charged by a powerful and educated
magician: Vlad.
The young lady distracted me then from that miserable thought; she sighed and
pressed a hand to her heart— whether to protect it or bring it forth to offer up
to me, I cannot say, but her startled gaze became one of ecstatic love, and her
lips parted in sensual recognition of the event to come. “You are so beautiful,”
she whispered, tilting her face upward towards mine, revealing a long white neck
partially covered by a velvet band.
My smile grew ironic. Mary had uttered the very same compliment, but hers had
been sincere (if not altogether lucid), and had touched me to the core; the
girl’s came as a result of her being thoroughly mesmerised, and so held no
pleasure for me.
I bent for the kiss, and pushed the band of velvet down until I found the
marks. I put my lips to her neck there, and licked the skin, feeling the tiny
punctures with my tongue so that I might place my eyeteeth exactly upon them.
There I briefly hovered—not from a desjre to savour the moment, but from
trepidation.
Knowledge is ofttimes carried on the blood; to drink is also to learn of the
victim. But at such moments, it is impossible for us to hold back; our auras
surge forth to mingle with those of our prey. This is generally of no concern,
for when the victim is thoroughly entranced, all she learns is forgotten upon
waking, while the psychic tie to the vampire remains.
Thus Vlad can know her thoughts, her feelings, her images, to a limited
degree (unless he more thoroughly ties her to him by an exchange of blood, at
which point he can know almost anything he desires). And if I joined with her
when she was mesmerised, and most open to his thoughts, I would know them.
But would he also know mine?
The reward outweighed the risk. I closed my eyes as my teeth sank slowly into
the path already cleared for them, and tried to focus my mind solely on the
sound of the girl’s breathing and her beating heart.
The blood rose up to meet me, and I drank.
Image of a plump, buxom woman—all breasts and belly, with no neck, thin
greying hair swept into a scanty pompadour. Mother is looking ill these
days, poor thing.
Am I dying? Arthur…
A young man with a riot of golden curls and a long, distinctly equine face.
The lines are six, the keys are two. The damned key! It must be
here…
Image of the shining parchment, emblazoned with gold beneath Vlad’s youthful
hands; I could decipher the letters now.
To the east of the metropolis lies the crossroads. There lies buried
treasure, the first key.
A burst of searing force—a force more blinding than lightning, more deafening
than thunder, more powerful than the deadliest whirlwind, a force that
apparently originated from Miss Lucy Westenra herself—smashed me backward into
the wall. I reeled, impossibly dazed by the blow; only when I heard the maids
crying out, “Miss Lucy! Miss Lucy!” and running up the stairs did I come to
myself and gain control of my aura. By the time the maids arrived, discovered
the door was locked, and began to bang frantically on it, I was invisible; by
the time the aforesaid “Miss Lucy” opened aforesaid door, I had already slipped
through it and was fleeing the way I came.
I returned to the prim dress shop, where Antonio still waited with the
carriage. From there, we returned to the relative security of Elisabeth’s house;
I was grateful she did not see me enter, as I was too exhausted after the
strange attack to shield myself a minute longer from the gaze of others. Nor was
I in a mood to hide my dishevelment or my shaking hands. I went straightway to
my private sitting-room (private because Elisabeth so despised animals she would
not enter it), where my white, bejewelled prisoners cringed at the sight of me.
The cockatoo raised its crest and recoiled as I approached, and the Afghan
retracted its tail and tried to slink away—but I was in too great a need of
honest comfort. I picked the poor dog up and set it beside me on the sofa, then
buried my face in its soft fur and we two trembled together.
Vlad had become acutely aware of my interference with Lucy Westenra. Indeed,
he had very nearly killed me —an impossible thing for one vampire to do to
another, yet the shock that had surged through my supposedly impervious
body had nearly torn me apart. Even now, as I write this, I am so shaken my hand
can scarce hold the pen. What has made him so strong—and why is Elisabeth now so
weak?
Speaking softly to the hound, I raised my face to his— his, I say
now, not it, for despite his dreadful innate fear, he sensed my own,
and looked back at me with dark eyes so full of compassion for my own suffering
that I could not hold back tears. They coursed down my cheeks, and that blessed
creature gently licked them away with his tongue— which only made me cry all the
harder. God Himself cannot convince me that this animal has no soul; indeed, his
is infinitely worthier than mine.
After a time, we both calmed and ceased our shivering, and I think he
honestly came to enjoy my caresses. I leaned my head against his thin shoulder,
listening to the rapid beating of his heart, and wound my arm round him where he
sat; when at last I grew too engrossed in my own concerns and ceased stroking
him with my free hand, he nuzzled it tenderly.
I had never even thought to give him a name, for I had seen him only as a
pretty ornament instead of a living, feeling being; but now I call him Friend.
Indeed, he is my truest. Through my entire existence as an immortal, I have
never met with such unbiased and unconditional acceptance and love.
As I sat and petted him, my mind grew steady enough to return to all that I
had learned from Lucy Westenra, and thus Vlad.
The manuscript; the manuscript. I had no logical reason to believe it, but my
instinct was adamant: its very possession must confer power. Had Elisabeth once
possessed it, only to lose it to Vlad when we were all still in Transylvania? He
seems far stronger now, however, than she was then.
The lines are six; the keys are three. To the east of the metropolis lies
the crossroads. There lies buried treasure, the first key…
Lines and keys: of them and their number I could derive no sense, only the
obvious deduction that treasure lay buried at a particular crossroads, perhaps
east of London. It was clearly a riddle—but to what end?
The damned key! It must be here…
Most assuredly not Lucy’s thoughts, but Vlad’s, who intervention. So the
treasure at the crossroads—the first key, whatever meaning that might have—had
not yet been discovered. Yet Vlad was desperate to find it.
A horrible thought seized me: If the manuscript itself conferred astonishing
power, then what would possession of the first key confer? And the second?
And Elisabeth had followed him in hopes of regaining the parchment.
By this time, Friend had grown bold enough to lie down with his chin upon my
lap; I sat stroking him for a long time, thinking of how the world would be if
Vlad retained his amazing strength—or if Elisabeth took it from him.
At the moment, I could remember only Vlad’s cruelties and Elisabeth’s
kindnesses. Yes, she had kept the truth from me, but not for any malicious
purpose; her worst crime appeared to have been a lack of faith in my
trustworthiness, but she had not known me long enough to understand that I am
interested not in power, but in peace and pleasure. So I rose and bade Friend
remain, and went in search of Elisabeth, prepared to reveal all that I had
learned that day.
She was not in any of her habitual places: the great drawing-room, the
bedchamber we shared, her favourite sitting-room, the formal French garden. I
went back to Antonio’s quarters on the main floor to see if he was there; he was
not, which made me think that perhaps he had taken her on some social errand.
But if she had seen Antonio, she would know that I had returned, and it was
most unusual for her not to greet me and praise whatever I had bought,
especially since she seemed so desperate to stay in my good graces.
So I continued my search of the house, until at last only one room was left:
the cellar, which Elisabeth so affectionately referred to as the “dungeon.” An
odd sense of dread overcame me the moment I set foot upon the landing leading
downward, and touched the handle upon the iron-bound door; my reaction was to
veil myself from all detection, for I think now I instinctively knew what I
should find.
So I walked in silence down the stairs, and when I arrived upon the bottom
step, I saw what I had always seen: the dirt floor, the long-unused fireplace,
the terrible blond Iron Maiden, and the great hanging iron cage, with long sharp
spikes directed inward. And surrounding it all, vast, empty darkness.
Yet I thought I espied upon the Iron Maiden’s lip a drop of blood, and so I
moved over the cold ground, forward one deliberate step, then another, then
another…
Until at last I caught a flash of feeble indigo, and a glimpse into the
circle—Elisabeth’s circle, from whence emanated screams so fierce, so hoarse, so
hopeless in their abandoned agony, that I knew not whether they came from male
or female, adult or child, human or animal throat.
And in the centre of the vast dungeon, the fireplace blazed brightly, while
nearby, the iron cage swung suspended the height of two women from the ground.
At the pulley stood Antonio, chest bared and glistening with perspiration from
the fire’s heat; at the sight of me, he grinned, baring teeth—the Devil’s own
inviting smile.
Nearby, between the fire and the swinging cage, Dorka stood heating a long
poker in the flames, her sweat-shining face reflecting fireglow and transformed
from its usual sour expression to one of pure ecstatic transcendence. And when
the metal grew white-hot, she hoisted it by the attached broom handle and jabbed
it up into the black cage.
Or rather, at the prisoner within: a young, naked girl whose spiralling
auburn curls spilled to her thighs and mingled with the blood streaming there.
She was a lovely creature, slender, tall, and long of limb, with small and
beautiful breasts, but in her death-agony, she had been reduced to a graceless,
shrieking thing. She was far too beside herself to notice my entrance; her only
concern was the approaching poker. It found the tender skin of her leg, and her
screams grew impossibly shriller as she flailed, recoiling. Alas, her efforts to
avoid pain only increased it: she had already been gored by two long metal
spikes inside the cage, and her movements only served to drive them deeper into
her tender flesh, and enlarge her terrible wound. The spikes pierced the length
of muscle between her right ribs and hip, and held her fast. In a pitiful effort
to free herself and avoid further impalement, she had wedged herself sideways
between the row that pierced her and the row in front of her; the latter’s
spikes she gripped with her hands and pushed against.
But before she could free herself, Dorka jabbed again; I winced at the
hissing sound of searing flesh and the accompanying howl. The girl struck out
valiantly at the poker with her hands until, inevitably, one of them became
impaled; then she began to kick as if there were still a remote chance of
survival. But there could be no hope; blood streamed from the mortal wound at
her side, from the singed puncture upon her strong white thigh, from a cut upon
her otherwise perfect forehead. At the sight of her, I felt bitter pity—and also
a strange pride that she who was so clearly defeated would not yield to her
enemies until the very moment of death. She could not be far from it, for she
had lost an impossible amount of blood; it streamed down her thighs, her legs,
her feet, onto the floor of the cage. Had she not been held fast by the spikes,
she would certainly have slipped.
I had never before taken notice of the cage floor’s special design; it was
flat everywhere and rimmed—except for one place where it slanted downward into a
spout, forcing the blood to spill in a narrow stream.
Beneath that stream sat my erstwhile lover, her face tilted upward to greet
the gentle crimson rain. I have seen Elisabeth enflamed with passion; I have
seen her in the moment of sexual release. But never had I seen her wear an
expression of such infinite bliss, infinite satisfaction—indeed, she looked up
at her unwilling benefactress with all the adoration and love I had long
searched for in her eyes, yet never found. Upon her lap she reverently held her
victim’s clothing: a plain grey gown with white cotton apron, a servant’s humble
frock.
As for the blood that dripped down upon her face, her hair, her bosom—she
rubbed it into her skin with abandoned relish, her excitement mounting so
quickly that I expected her to cry out any moment in ecstasy.
All this I watched with such keen revulsion that for some time, I could not
quite believe what I saw; and then, when I believed, I could not think, could
not move, could not intervene. What should I have said? What should I have done?
Should I have freed the poor dying girl and killed her to stop her pain? The
only death I could offer brought no true rest.
She would die honestly soon enough, without the loveless torment that undeath
brought; so I did nothing, nothing at all.
Nothing at all save let a single tear of horror and pity spill down my cheek,
for both the dying girl and Elisabeth. And at the surge of emotion, my control
flickered; too stricken to struggle, I simply let it go, and stood unprotected
and unveiled before the actors in that hellish tableau.
The girl was too far gone to detect my presence. But at last, Elisabeth
sensed a change in her surroundings, and looked down to see me. “Zsuzsanna!
Darling!” Her voice was shocked, exasperated, annoyed—and finally, terrified;
her blood-painted face was a ghoulish mask darkening rapidly to violet-brown.
She held out scarlet-spattered arms to me, beseeching, beckoning. “Do not judge
me harshly, dearest. What I have done, I do for you. Come to me, and let me
teach you the truest sweetness; come to me, and trust that this is all for the
good.”
I said not a word. I merely stood motionless and returned her gaze without
hatred, without anger; but the revulsion in my eyes was its own rebuke.
I lingered upon that vile, unconsecrated ground no longer than the span
between two beats of a human heart. Then I went upstairs, gathered Friend into
my arms, and left forever.
Chapter 11
Dr. Seward’s Diary
7 SEPTEMBER.
For the past five days, I have sat up through the nights with
Lucy;
never have I performed a more bittersweet task. During the whole time, I heard
nothing from the professor, but each day sent him the requested telegrams on
Lucy’s condition—to a “Mr. Windham” at the parents’ old cottage in Shropshire.
The covertness of it all makes me feel rather sheepish, even though I understand
the necessity for it.
For four days and nights, Lucy got along quite well, and began to markedly
improve; the professor’s “magic” was working. But on the fifth night, exhaustion
took its toll on me; and Lucy (who was feeling more her merry self) insisted
that, rather than continue my vigil, I sleep in the adjacent room upon a
comfortable old sofa. I refused, but as I could not altogether resist Morpheus’
lure, and since Van Helsing’s unnoticed silver crucifix was still safely in
place above the window, I allowed myself a “brief nap” in the chair.
So it was that I fell into the sleep of the dead and did not wake until late
morning, when I heard the anxious voices of the chambermaids:
“Oh, my poor Miss Lucy!”
“The doctor! Wake the doctor!”
I heard the words through the veil of a dream, but their content brought me
to full alertness, just as an infant’s shrill cry provokes an immediate response
from the sleeping mother. I leapt to my feet at once and followed the horrified
servants’ gazes to the woman on the bed.
There lay my sweet Lucy, golden hair fanned behind her on the pillow, her
skin and lips a dreadful ashen grey, her breath coming in gasps. The poor girl
could barely speak. I rushed to her and took her hand, which was quite cool,
then instructed one of the servants to bring a glass of port at once, but to say
nothing to Mrs. Westenra should they encounter her
en route. The other
I sent off to the telegraph office, to send a message off to “Mr. Windham,”
asking him to return to Hillingham at once. Lucy herself I ordered to remain
silent, in part because I could not bear to watch her struggle so.
The next thing I did was to glance surreptitiously at the lintel over the
window, as I completely expected that the small crucifix had somehow come loose
from its place, fallen, and been swept up by one of the maids.
But no; I saw the glint of silver in the same place it had been the night
before, and panicked. How could this be? I had trusted Van Helsing’s
explanations utterly, but now one piece of the puzzle no longer fit. And if he
was wrong about the security ensured by a talisman, might he be wrong about
everything else?
There was nothing more to be done than sit by Lucy’s side and await the port,
and, when it came, to put the glass tenderly to her lips and help her drink—she
looking up at me with an expression of such sweet apology that it pricked my
broken heart. She did her best with the port, which was not much; and then she
sank wearily back upon the pillow, sighed, and slept.
The maid brought me a piece of stationery from Lucy’s desk, and so I hastily
penned a note to Art telling of his betrothed’s setback, and had it sent out by
mid-morning post.
The hours awaiting Van Helsing seemed to drag on forever, especially when
night again fell and he had still not arrived. The worst of it was the fact that
there simply was nothing more I could do for Lucy. In my desperation I
considered attempting a very novel and experimental procedure, the blood
transfusion—but since there was no one at Hillingham except myself, Mrs.
Westenra, and three young housemaids, there seemed no one suitable to donate the
blood except myself. Even if I had the equipment (which I did not), it would
have been impossible to perform the procedure upon myself, as I might faint and
thus lose both doctor and patient.
By early evening, we received a reply from “Mr. Windham” that he would be
arriving on the early morning train. Even though my confidence regarding the
crucifix talisman had been sorely shaken, I was nonetheless greatly relieved to
hear the professor was well and was indeed on his way.
Thank God we passed an unremarkable night; this time, I allowed myself not a
second’s sleep. The guilt I felt over failing my patient—the very one whom I
most loved —negated all fatigue.
So it was that the professor at last arrived. He was in a somber mood—so
somber that, in spite of Lucy’s terrible situation, I suspected that he had even
greater sorrows on his mind. The first thing he whispered to me after Lucy’s
mother (who seemed grateful to be kept in the dark concerning her daughter’s
health) welcomed him into the house was:
“The crucifix. Did one of the maids remove it?”
“No,” I replied, as we began to ascend the stairs. “You will see. It is
precisely as you left it.”
“Then someone else must have invited him in,” he said gravely. “Not Mrs.
Westenra—”
“No,” I seconded, surprising myself. “Not she…”
Despite the situation, Van Helsing gave a faint, grim smile. “You are quite
the psychic talent, friend John. Most assuredly you do not take after me; what
paltry abilities I possess came only after the greatest effort.” The smile faded
at once into a thin-lipped expression of unhappy determination. “You are right
about Mrs. Westenra. She has not been touched by those we fight; such things
invariably show first in the aura, if only to the tiniest degree. But we must
interview each one who slept in this house last night, even those who visited
here after sunset. There we will find our answer to the mystery.”
He fell silent as we two approached Lucy’s room, and the little chambermaid
opened the door with a slight curtsy. We requested privacy for our examination,
which the girl grudgingly yielded; a good thing, for when Van Helsing stepped
inside and saw Lucy sleeping, he whispered:
“My God!”
For a time, neither of us spoke, and as we both stood studying Lucy in the
early morning light, I saw that she looked even worse than she had the day
before. Her cheeks had sunken so that her face appeared skeletal. She was that
close to death, perhaps only minutes away—and the realisation struck so hard
that I came close to weeping, and actually stumbled.
The professor put an amazingly strong hand on my arm and steadied me. “She
can be saved, John, but we must act swiftly; there is one thing I can do, but
there is no time for explanation—”
“Yes, yes,” I answered, eager to focus on something other than my own grief.
“I thought the same! A transfusion—”
He sighed and shook his head. “No; such is too risky. I have seen the
operation perform miracles—but I have more often seen it bring death. I do not
know how to explain what it is I propose, except to say that it
is a
transfusion… of sorts. But it is not on a physical level.”
I was far too overwhelmed with emotion and confused by his words to reply. I
merely blinked at him, waiting.
“I must have complete privacy; tell Mrs. Westenra and the servants—no one is
to come near. Tell them—tell them that we
are performing a transfusion
of blood, and that the delicacy of the surgery is such that any interruption
would endanger Miss Lucy’s life.” He paused, apparently struggling to make a
decision as I turned towards the door; his hesitation made me linger. “John… I
hesitate to ask such a favour, but the ‘operation’ I wish to perform does, in
fact, require a donor.”
“Then I am he,” I answered at once.
“You should be aware, then, that this will drain some of the aura’s strength,
and thus your ability to protect yourself, for some hours.”
“Doctor, I care not whether the cost is my own soul.”
He nodded, clearly relieved. “It is not impossible for me to use myself—but
it will likely be far less effective for our patient. Very well; I will go into
the other room to prepare myself. Could you also fetch my medical bag from
downstairs? It will enhance the illusion that we are indeed performing the act
we claim.”
I nodded, and we moved away from each other—I towards the hallway and stairs,
he towards Lucy’s sitting-room. But sounds coming from downstairs—the sound of
knocking, and the maid’s high-pitched reply—caught our attention. The professor
shot me a look, and said, “I suspect Miss Lucy has a visitor.”
So it was he followed me quickly down the stairs, and just as we arrived in
the hall, we saw Art Holmwood stepping in. At the sight of me, Art rushed up and
took my hand, professing that anxiety over my letter had brought him here. “Is
not that gentleman Dr. Van Helsing?” he asked politely, for the professor stood
by my side, rather guardedly studying this young intruder. “I am so thankful to
you, Doctor, for coming.”
I knew that Van Helsing had no reason to trust Art, and was examining him on
a psychic level to see if he posed a threat to us or Lucy. But I was confident
my friend would pass inspection, and so he did. I saw a flicker of relief on Van
Helsing’s face, followed quickly by an honest look of admiration and satisfied
approval. At once he took Arthur’s hand and, to my surprise, told him that we
needed a donor for a blood transfusion—to which Art of course quickly
volunteered.
Van Helsing sternly informed the servants then of our requirement for
privacy, and found his black bag (which was larger and heavier than the typical
physician’s bag; I cannot imagine what was hidden in it).
We three proceeded up to Lucy’s room. Art was, of course, stricken to see her
so ghastly weak, and out of kindness, the professor permitted him a kiss before
the “operation.” I was rather curious how he intended to pull it off with an
outsider present, and Lucy now awake (though too exhausted even to speak).
He went into the other room, telling them both that he must prepare for the
operation. He was gone no more than a handful of minutes, and when he returned,
he bore in his hand a glass. This he said was a sleeping-draught for Lucy, and
slipped an arm beneath her shoulders, lifting her up that she might drink it.
Perhaps it was indeed what he claimed, but I saw his gaze catch hers for an
instant—and swear now that a distinctly bluish glow surged forth from his eyes
into hers. At the conclusion of this, she promptly fell asleep. He then moved
over to Arthur (who sat beside the bed in the same chair where I had so often
sat vigil), and, bringing forth a long bit of tubing from his bag, pretended to
affix it to his patient’s arm. First, though, he stared into Holmwood’s eyes
with the same intensity he had used with Lucy, and within a matter of seconds,
Art, too, was soundly unconscious.
I watched in fascination, scarcely breathing, as abruptly an egg-shaped glow
enveloped the entire body of each patient—Lucy’s a feeble pale green, Arthur’s a
strong, virile orange. Van Helsing moved first to Holmwood, whose head had
lolled back against the high-backed chair. I was still so amazed by the
brightness of the patients’ auras that I did not realise, until the professor
approached Art and reached a hand out towards the deep tiger-lily glow, that Van
Helsing himself was surrounded by a larger and even more intense, brilliant blue
shimmer.
The professor reached forth into the sparkling orange and withdrew a large
globe-shaped portion of it from over Holmwood’s heart. I could see the dark
vacancy it left, and how the psychic wound immediately rushed to close itself
and fill the void with shimmering orange; but the effect was that the entire
aura paled and dimmed, as if diluted.
This orange “globe” the professor held between his hands for a moment. It did
not mingle with Van Helsing’s bright blue, but instead seemed to grow ever
stronger, ever deeper in hue, as he gazed calmly down upon it. And then, when he
judged the moment to be right, he stepped over to where Lucy lay, and tenderly
placed it upon her heart.
The reaction was fascinating to see: her feeble green aura at once surged
forth like a hungry amoeba and “consumed” the orange glow, enveloping it until
its distinctive colour disappeared completely. The union of the two did not
yield a third hue; to the contrary, the pale green brightened to bold emerald,
and its borders noticeably enlarged.
“We are done now,” Van Helsing said, and I looked up at him to see the blue
aura quite gone. A quick glance back at the sleeping patients showed no trace of
orange or green—only Art’s now wan-looking complexion, and Lucy’s cheeks kissed
with a subtle trace of pink. It was as if I had been abruptly wakened from a
strange dream, indeed.
When Art revived, we sent him home with instructions to sleep and eat as much
as possible (though how he could with such worries about his ailing father and
his fiancee, I cannot fathom). Lucy wakened vastly improved, which relieved me
almost to public tears, for if she had died, her blood would have been on my
head.
The professor then took me aside, and we two agreed that the best course of
action would be for me to sit with Lucy the next few nights. Van Helsing himself
will during the day keep to his cell at the asylum, and continue the “research,”
as he calls it, that he began during his stay in the country cottage. By night,
he will come in invisible guise to Hillingham, and remain here to see if he can
unravel the mystery of how the vampire entered despite the protective talisman.
He will also take steps to increase the “security” here, sealing off
all
windows and doors, and ordering blossoms of fresh garlic, which he says are more
powerful repellents than the heads.
* * *
10 SEPTEMBER.
A terrible, terrible day. I had spent the entire night of 8 September keeping
watch over Lucy; when morning came, I was quite done in. But there was work to
be accomplished at the asylum, and a new patient to be admitted. By the time I
had attended to it all, dusk was approaching, and once again, I hastened to
Hillingham for another all-night vigil.
Happily, Lucy was up when I arrived, and in fine spirits. Her mother reported
proudly that she had dressed for an early supper, come downstairs, and eaten
heartily. This was the best news I had had in some several months, yet my
cheerfulness could not entirely mask my exhaustion. Lucy noticed it, and
insisted that I rest upon the couch in the room adjacent to hers, within
earshot. In case of any trouble, she promised to call for me.
Such was my fatigue that I agreed, telling myself that my sweet charge’s
improvement was due to the added measures the professor had taken against the
vampire, and that we were now completely safe. And at any rate, the professor
himself would also be silently and invisibly patrolling the rest of the house.
So I crawled upon the couch, fell fast asleep, and did not wake until a palm
pressed against the crown of my head. I sat up with a start, and saw Van Helsing
staring down at me with a faint smile.
“You are well-rested, I trust,” said he indulgently, then lifted a hand for
silence as I began to make apology; I had certainly not intended to sleep
through the night. “No, John, explanation is not needed. You were tired and had
earned the right. At any rate, I remained on watch around the servants’ quarters
and Mrs. Westenra’s room. No disturbance there last night, nor on the main floor
below. Shall we go see how our patient is faring?“
I assented eagerly, and together we stole into Lucy’s room.
I (and the professor, I am sure) was confident that this would be a cheerful
visit, that we would find Lucy ever more restored and blooming with health. The
room was quite dark, so I moved to the window and opened the blind, letting the
morning sunlight stream into the room.
“God in Heaven,” Van Helsing whispered. At the abject horror in his tone, a
thrill of unutterable fear shot through me. I closed my eyes and remained facing
the window, for I knew what I would see the instant I turned.
Alas, I could not remain so forever. So I faced at last the heartrending
sight upon the bed: Lucy unconscious, grey as Hillingham’s stone walls and just
as lifeless. For a sickening instant, I honestly thought her dead.
And then, blessedly, her chest rose as she struggled for breath. Van Helsing
addressed me at once. “Friend John, now is the time to make your sacrifice. Lock
the door, then sit; I shall go into the other room but a moment, and then when I
return, I will do it swiftly.”
I replied not a word, but moved directly to the door and locked it fast
whilst the professor went into the adjacent room. Then I sat and tried to
breathe slowly, evenly, in hopes of slowing my furiously racing heart. A
miserable sense of failure washed over me, along with the irrational conviction
that if Lucy died, I alone was to blame.
Directly Van Helsing came out, encompassed once again by the egg-shaped
brilliant blue shield of his powerful aura. I glanced beside me to see that Lucy
herself was radiating the pitifully dim emerald glow; as for myself, I spread my
hand before me, curious to see what colour I might find there—but found nothing.
(Van Helsing later reported to me that I have a “very healthy” blue aura with
areas of gold.)
Beyond that, I remember virtually nothing of the exchange, except that it
seemed over almost instantly, and the professor was directing me to the couch in
the next room. I slept a time, then had a hearty breakfast; even so, the
experience left me noticeably weakened.
As for poor Lucy, she was improved, though not as much as she had been by the
“operation” with Arthur. When I returned to the professor, who was himself
resting in the sitting-room, he confessed that he had not taken so much
“life-force,” or prana, from me. “After all,” he said, “Mr. Holmwood is
not attempting to fight the vampire, and you are.”
Then he sighed, and stared disconsolately into the cold fireplace which faced
the sofa; in his blue eyes was a deep anguish that was painful to see.
“I am wrong, I think, to involve you in this any further, John. I thought I knew
the danger we faced—but now I realise I know nothing at all. Until now, Vlad has
been limited in how and where he can work his evil; yet in Miss Lucy’s case, the
talismans which once repelled him now slow him not at all. And if he can come
and go as he pleases, then Miss Lucy—and all else whom he wishes—have no hope.
Nor you and I, John. You, the one person on earth whom I had wanted to protect
from him…”
An abrupt spasm of grief crossed his features; he carelessly tore off his
spectacles and tossed them aside, then put his great square face into his hands
and wept hoarsely.
The sight of his despair pulled at my heart as much as the sight of Lucy had,
as did his profession of concern for my sake (though I wondered why he should
feel more protective of me than of his own wife). I set a comforting hand upon
his thick shoulder. “Professor,” I said gently. “You are yourself exhausted, and
the whole situation seems to you quite hopeless. But you have again saved Lucy
today. Remember that, then sleep and eat well yourself, for neither one of us is
any use if we do not tend ourselves.”
At that, he looked up and said haggardly, “I will rest and eat today, John.
And this evening I will come and sit with Miss Lucy myself during the night
while you go home.” When I began to protest, he raised a hand. “No— no
objections. Remember, you have been weakened in a most dangerous manner; by
tomorrow, though, you will be fit again for duty, and then I will rest.”
“Very well,” I agreed, and rose to go. But before I could take a step towards
the door, he added softly:
“In the country and at the asylum, I have sent out urgent call after urgent
call for help—this even before I knew how desperate was our case. Now I know
that all the knowledge, all the power, I have acquired over the past
quarter-century has been in vain. If that help does not come soon, my son, then
you and I both are lost.”
* * *
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
18 SEPTEMBER.
Miss Lucy will soon leave us. This I know from looking down at her sweet
face, still pale and drawn after the “emergency transfusion” Jack and I
performed with an American, Mr. Quincey Morris, as donor. It is not so much the
physical signs of anaemia—her bloodless complexion, the terrible blue-grey of
her lips and gums, her weak, rapid breath—that convince me of her impending
death. These alone are painful enough to see, but far worse are the signs of an
imminent, insidious transformation: the elongated canines, the look of sinister
voluptuousness which comes over her in sleep, and the subtle gleam of indigo I
see behind her green gaze.
After last night’s events, I am shaken to the core. I, who arrogantly
believed myself powerful enough to take on the Impaler—I have learned that I am
nothing, of no use to anyone. I, the vampire “expert,” could not even save dear
Miss Lucy after weeks of effort! What advice shall I offer them all now, except
to flee their native land and live the rest of their lives in dread of
discovery?
Here is the sad story: The garlic blossoms arrived on the eleventh, after
which Miss Lucy seemed to rally. I dared to hope that, although my talismans had
failed, the delicate white blossoms themselves possessed a natural and therefore
stronger magic which would repel the Impaler. At any rate, our patient declared
that they permitted her to sleep peacefully.
For the past week, I had again closeted myself in my asylum cell during the
day to repeat the Abramelin ritual —praying for a response from my mentor or
indeed any quarter. As always, no reply. Hopeless as it all seems now,
I would sell my soul to the vampire’s “Dark Lord” Himself if I could be
guaranteed no deceit and a certain outcome of Vlad and Zsuzsanna destroyed and
all mortals protected. And, of course, no transformation of myself into a
vampire…
Most evenings I went to Hillingham and sat watch over our patient; some
nights, John would relieve me after midnight. Again, I do not know what we
expected to accomplish, as Vlad had already entered Lucy’s room without
detection; but it is a difficult thing to give up all hope and surrender to
inaction.
Last night’s plan was for John to sit vigil; I would remain the entire day
and night in my cell, trying both to elicit help and further charge a special
Solomon’s Seal, which talisman represented our last hope. As I would be
indisposed, John had told the Westenra ladies the day before that I had returned
to Amsterdam and would be back in approximately twenty-four hours.
But that afternoon, John suffered a rather serious cut on his wrist, courtesy
of Mr. Renfield, who had escaped his cell. Vlad at work again! Clearly, the
vampire was planning something nefarious at Hillingham that night and did not
wish Seward’s interference; the safest thing was for John to remain at the
asylum. This deduction I kept to myself, and merely told John that he was too
weak to sit vigil at all, that he should go to his bed and sleep the night. I
would keep watch all night at Hillingham. He had lost quite a bit of blood from
the cut, and so readily agreed.
Thus yesterday I went to the Westenra estate alone and invisible, and knocked
upon the door some ten minutes before sunset. The downstairs maid (a timid brown
mouse of a girl, with large, gentle eyes) opened the door a crack—then wider,
wider, until she stood upon the porch hands on hips, frowning, looking all about
for the prankster who had summoned her then fled. I slipped past her easily,
made my examination of the windows to be sure all the little crosses were in
place (instinct was at work here, not logic), and finally went upstairs to Miss
Lucy’s room.
Even before I entered, the pungent smell in the corridor told me that the
blossoms were still in place. The door to the patient’s room was half-ajar. I
slipped through easily —though tentatively, as I did not wish to compromise her
modesty; as luck had it, she was in her night-dress, sitting in bed frowning
down at Plutarch’s Lives, with a tray of half-eaten food upon the
night-stand. She was still wan, but much improved after her most recent setback;
there was a hint of colour in her cheeks and lips.
I sat in the cushioned chair beside Lucy’s bed, and a terrible sense of
familiarity overcame me, what the French call deja vu. I was stricken
with the same hopeless sadness I felt in the rocking-chair beside Mama’s
deathbed; and even to the same degree, for though a month ago this charming
young woman was a stranger to me, I had grown paternally fond of her. Now I
could not shake the sense that she was as doomed as poor Mama—even more so,
because her ultimate fate would be far more hideous than the sweet repose of
death.
With such grim thoughts circling my tired brain, I sat, righting to maintain
keen alertness for all those signs of Vlad’s approach that, the last time, I had
completely missed. And I took out the Solomon’s Seal from my vest pocket and
held it in my hand, contemplating its shining silver surface and the geometric
designs and Hebrew letters inscribed thereon. The sight of it gave comfort and a
faint hope that perhaps it and the fresh garlic blossoms, shipped daily from
Haarlem, would be sufficient to repel Vlad.
Hours passed. Lucy reached for a pear from the supper tray, took a
half-hearted bite, and tossed it back; then she closed the book and set it, too,
aside. I was hopeful sleep would come soon for her, but she gave another
restless sigh and rummaged through the night-stand drawer for a little diary and
pen. With these in hand she sat back, opened the diary, and raised the pen,
poised to write.
That inspiration, too, failed her, and with a small noise of disgust, she
replaced them, extinguished the lamp, and fell back into the bed.
At last the shift in her breathing that signalled sleep came. I rose and went
to the window ledge, and there gently placed the Seal, the most powerful of
magical protections I could offer up on her behalf.
Then I returned to my familiar post and sat in the chair watching her sleep.
After a time, a soft flapping came at the window; I did not rise to peer out,
for there was nothing to see—no aura, no animal disguise. But the hairs that
rose, prickling, on my nape and arms told me that the vampire had indeed
arrived. The flapping grew louder until it woke Lucy. Even in the dark, I could
see her fearful expression, and wished that I had created a new lie saying that
my Amsterdam “trip” had been cancelled, so that I might speak to her now and
take her hand, and offer what paltry comfort I could. For some minutes, she
clearly struggled to remain awake; at last, her anxiety grew so that she rose
and opened the bedroom door, calling out:
“Is there anybody there?”
The hall remained dark and silent, and so she closed the door again. By this
time, the sound of nearby howling accompanied the flapping, which sent her to
the window. She lifted the edge of the blind and peeked out; I caught a glimpse
of a black bat’s wing in the instant before she screamed softly, then ran back
to the bed.
There she huddled pitifully, eyes wide and terror-struck. My desire to
comfort her grew so overwhelming that I decided to exit the room, become
visible, then knock softly at her door, saying that I had returned early from
Amsterdam and was overwhelmed by the sense that she needed my help.
Indeed, I rose to do just that—but at that instant, a knock came at the door,
and Mrs. Westenra appeared in her dressing-gown; apparently she had
been overwhelmed by maternal instinct for her child. I was grateful, for she
climbed into bed with her daughter, and the two lay in each other’s arms, and
found a moment of peace.
Yet again, the flapping sound came again at the window, alarming Mrs.
Westenra; she struggled to sit, crying: “What is that?” Now it was the
daughter’s turn to offer reassurance with pats and soft words. Soon the mother
sighed and settled back against the pillow, and, for an all-too-fleeting moment,
found rest.
A howl—this one nearer, as if the animal responsible now stood directly below
the window. If confrontation were to come, it would be soon; I calmed my mind
and focussed on the Solomon’s Seal at the window, and its radiant golden “wall”
of power which only god or devil could penetrate.
The next instant: the sweet, high crescendo of breaking glass, the screams of
the ladies Westenra, a shower of razor-sharp diamonds spraying forth from
Solomon’s wall of gold, borne upon a gust so powerful that the blind snapped up,
spinning. I squeezed my eyes tightly shut and felt the sting of tiny shards
against my face and hands. Invisible or no, protected or no, I was slammed at
once against the far wall.
Abruptly, the maelstrom ceased; I opened my eyes. An inky mist a hundred, a
thousand, times blacker than the night streamed slowly over the remaining jagged
panes, unaffected by the Solomon’s Seal, whose golden gleam had been abruptly
extinguished. I knew not then what horror Mrs. Westenra saw; she flailed in an
hysterical effort to sit, pulling the wreath of blooming garlic from Lucy’s neck
in the process, then pointed in stark terror at the window.
And with a strangled gurgle, fell over dead.
Her head struck Lucy’s full force; I struggled to rise, to help my patient,
to place myself between the girl and the vampire, to offer myself up in her
stead. But I could not move—could do nothing, in fact, save stare in helpless
horror and fury at what transpired.
And as I watched, the mist completed its entry and formed a tall column just
inside the broken window; a blink, and the column had transformed itself into
Vlad. Vlad as I had never seen him: dressed like a virile and dapper young
nobleman in a tailoured black silk suit, white skin and white teeth gleaming
like pearl, onyx hair aglisten with sparks of indigo. So much life
seemed to emanate from him that he no longer seemed undead— only gloriously,
magnificently powerful.
Smiling, he stepped gracefully over to the night-stand, entirely ignoring the
two women (one dead, one swooning), and bent down to pick up an object from the
floor: the Solomon’s Seal, now dull and lifeless. This he tossed at me,
sneering: “I believe this is yours, Dr. Van Helsing?”
I could say nothing; the facility of speech had left me, and my legs and back
seemed quite pinned to the glass-strewn carpet. But my hands and arms were now
functional, so I caught the talisman and held it reverently. My greatest fear at
that moment was not death, nor even his bite, but that I could no longer stop
him from performing the blood ritual—the ritual by which he had linked my
ancestors to him, the ritual by which he renewed his immortality, that he might
not perish. If he performed it upon me now, he would know my every thought… and
I would be his mortal slave, to accomplish the evil that he could not.
He must have seen my thoughts in my face, for his mocking grin widened. “How
you flatter yourself, sir, to think that I might need you. I need no one
anymore, do you understand? The world belongs to me, not to you silly
mortals. I can go wherever, do whatever, I list!” And he spread his arms in a
grandiose gesture, then lowered them and raised a warning finger at me. “But you
would be wise, now, to come to me of your own accord. Why struggle, when it is
clear you can do nothing to stop me?”
“Then kill me,” I said. It was not merely a dare; my grief at being unable to
save Lucy left me in an agony of hopelessness. “Kill me honestly, and deliver me
to Death uncorrupted, if indeed I am of no worth to you.”
A spasm of fury contorted his features. He swept the air with his arm as
though dealing a back-handed blow; my head and upper torso smashed against the
floor again so violently that the air was forced from my lungs, leaving me for
an agonising minute unable to draw a breath.
In the midst of my struggle, the maids rushed in crying out as their bare
feet found the scattered glass. When one of them managed to light the lamp, they
began to shriek in earnest. Lucy miraculously revived and, once they had freed
her from beneath her mother’s weighty body and wrapped it in a sheet, tried to
calm them. When that failed, she sent them all away to have a glass of wine once
Mrs. Westenra’s corpse was laid out on the bed, for they were weeping with
hysterical abandon. All this took place without any of the women noticing either
intruder in Miss Lucy’s bedchamber; nor did they notice when Vlad abruptly
disappeared.
Yet I know he remained nearby, I lay in anguished helplessness on the floor,
unable to move, and though I could speak, my cries went unheard. Mental
concentration? I had none, and therefore my own efforts to remain invisible had
lapsed when Vlad appeared. Yet he had apparently power enough to spare in that
regard, for poor Miss Lucy could neither see nor hear me. Weeping silently, she
put on the slippers beside her bed, then gathered up all the garlic blossoms
strewn upon the floor and window ledge, and even the crushed ones her mother had
pulled from around her neck. These she laid with heartbreaking tenderness upon
her dead mother’s shrouded bosom.
I tried to cry out a warning to her then, but caught myself: there was no
point in trying to pierce the veil Vlad had erected between us. Even if I could,
what good would the blossoms do her? They had not held the vampire back any
better than the Solomon’s Seal.
This was all that was left to her now—this one moment of loving and dignified
grief. Beyond that lay the grave, and even worse horrors, none of which I could
help her escape.
She stood with head bowed before her mother’s corpse for some time. Then she
lifted her face and stared curiously out at the doorway, for it was clear that
the maids were lingering overlong at their wine. Worse, the sound of their
voices had faded away into total silence. I knew all too well what evil had
befallen them, but Miss Lucy did not; even so, the look of fright in her wide
eyes indicated that she had some instinctual sense of what had occurred —and was
yet to come—that night.
She stepped to the open door and called for them, only to receive no
response; thus she left the room and searched them down. I waited in the most
horrid suspense, thinking that I might next hear her scream. But all without was
silence until she crept back into the room, wearing a look of such helpless
terror upon her pale face that I felt the sting of tears.
She went straight to her night-stand and took out the little diary and pen;
this time she wrote, swiftly and in earnest. I expected Vlad to arrive any
moment and interrupt her chronicle, but it was as though he were allowing her
this time as a last gift. At length she finished, and tore this final testament
page from her diary; then she folded it, and slipped it between her breasts.
Grief crushed me. For whose sake I struggled to hold back my tears, I cannot
say; perhaps I did not want my enemy to gloat. I did not yield to them until I
saw her final gesture of surrender: she lay down on the bed and carefully
arranged her nightgown and hair, then folded her arms over her breast—as if she
were already a corpse like her mother, who lay beside her.
Thus she was when Vlad came to her. By that time, I could bear no more, but
closed my eyes, and would not open them, even when he mocked me and impugned
Miss Lucy’s honour in ways too vile to set down on paper. His verbal slings I
could ignore, but when I heard the sounds of his suckling and poor Lucy’s sharp
little cries, I understood too well why Gerda had surrendered to madness.
* * *
In the early morning, Seward came—in quite a rush, as if he sensed that
disaster had befallen us. By then, I was the only conscious soul at Hillingham;
I had wakened moments before from a deep vampire-induced sleep to find Lucy near
death, almost as cold and gaunt as her mother’s corpse. I attempted an emergency
transfer of psychic energy from myself to her, but the previous night’s events
had left me curiously drained; not only was I unable to complete the exercise, I
became faint and nearly fell upon the poor child.
Soon I heard knocking upon the door, and John’s voice calling out. I
staggered downstairs and let him in; from my dishevelled appearance, he knew
that the worst had indeed happened, and took immediate action. He found the four
maids asleep in the dining-room; to my great relief, they had not been bitten or
killed, but were merely drugged with laudanum. He managed to rouse three, and
they in turn set to work, preparing a warm bath and fetching brandy to revive
Miss Lucy.
Of course, such measures were of little use; we needed a transfusion of
energy, but I could see that John was still weak from Renfield’s attack, and so
refused to let him risk himself. But one was sent to us, as if from the gods: a
good friend of both John’s and Arthur Holmwood’s, Mr. Quincey Morris from
America.
I had thought that Arthur was John’s best friend, but clearly Mr. Morris is
just as close to the two of them. When he arrived, I saw a flicker of honest joy
for the first time in weeks upon John’s haggard face, and the two men grabbed
each other’s arms, then happily thumped each other’s shoulders almost to the
point of injury. This Quincey is a very tall, thin fellow, mostly gangly arms
and legs, with thinning red hair and ubiquitous freckles. And a beak for a nose!
When he stands sideways, the effect is comical (I can write so cruelly here
because he is jovial and would be first to laugh at himself): first there is the
great white boat of a hat called the Stetson, then the great beak of a nose,
then a huge lump of an Adam’s apple, all set atop a body slumped in an effort to
reduce the great height.
It is a sad story I must tell, and Quincey Morris was the only bright spot in
it.
Once the violent thumping of the shoulders and greetings were done, John
explained the need for a.“transfusion.” Mr. Morris agreed, with the same
unhesitating vehemence John had, which made me think that he, too, shares an
unrequited love for Lucy.
So it was done—-in Mrs. Westenra’s bedroom, as the dead woman still lay in
Lucy’s bed.
John and Mr. Morris now sit talking at the breakfast table, whilst I remain
upstairs to watch Miss Lucy, and write this record. As robust a man as the
American is, the transfusion of his energy to her has had little effect. Her
breathing is a bit less rapid, and her pulse a bit stronger, but it is not
enough.
I have not spoken aloud to John of our hopeless situation in terms of Miss
Lucy or ourselves, nor explained in detail last night’s events. But when he saw
Lucy’s room with the corpse and the shattered window, some of the grim helpless
fury I had felt only hours before came over his face. He knows; he knows.
It will not be long now.
Chapter 12
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
20 SEPTEMBER.
A day of the blackest sorrow and despair; yet in the midst of gloom shines a
ray of love and valour. My heart vacillates so between the two extremes that I
grow wearied and confused—but I must make sense of it all, as there are
decisions to be made and lives in the balance. So I write, for writing ofttimes
brings illumination.
For two days and two nights John and I sat with Miss Lucy, never leaving her
an instant without one of us at her side—though I knew there was no hope of
protecting her from her murderer, or from an unthinkable fate. The most we could
provide her was the comfort of our presence. It was the hardest of tasks; but my
own grief at failing this sweet child, who had so trusted me, was nothing
compared to John’s. Many times I went in to relieve him to find him with silent
tears streaming down his cheeks as, tenderly, he clasped her hand whilst she lay
sleeping. It is a bitter thing for him; he is still deeply in love with her, but
cannot mourn her openly—cannot even profess his love a final time before she
dies. That right is Arthur’s, whom I have come to learn is one of his dearest
and oldest friends.
And she was dying indeed. That final transfusion never restored to her any
vigour, only prolonged the inevitable, which was clearly devastating to her
donor, Quincey. (I cannot refer to him as “Mr. Morris,” for he is, like most
Americans, charmingly casual, and refreshingly forthright in stating his
thoughts and feelings in his musical Texan accent.) But there is one feeling
that he does try to hide— his own unrequited love for Miss Lucy. I have seen the
flicker of pain in his dark eyes when he looks down at her; he cannot bear to
linger in the sickroom lest his love should show, and cause John or Arthur any
unhappiness. Thus he busies himself with various ways of helping: he has been
our errand-boy, and when I said that Arthur should be notified at once, it was
he who went to send the telegram. John tells me that Quincey would not sleep
last night, but instead patrolled the grounds with pistol in hand. (John also
ruefully confessed that Quincey has convinced himself the culprit is a large
“vampire bat,” of the sort found in South America. Apparently he once lost a
beloved horse to such cause, and says he has seen a big grey bat flapping around
the house. He is closer to the truth than I thought!)
As for Arthur: His father, Lord Godalming, had taken a turn for the worse on
Sunday—the day after Lucy’s final encounter with the vampire.
So the
poor boy had remained the whole day and night at the elder man’s deathbed. His
father died shortly before dawn Monday, leaving Arthur—or, I should say, the new
Lord Godalming—with little time to grieve that loss before he received our
telegram saying that Lucy was failing and had asked for him. Quincey picked him
up at the station, and he arrived here so red-eyed, grim, and exhausted that it
pained me to lead him into Lucy’s sickroom and see his sorrow multiplied. (Quincey
himself disappeared, I think because he feared breaking down in the sickroom and
further upsetting Arthur.) As it happened, the new Lord Godalming arrived at
precisely six o’clock, when I was coming to relieve John from his vigil; so
Arthur sat with me the whole of my watch, until midnight.
As overwhelmed as the poor man must have been, he was cheerful with Lucy in a
way that rallied her a bit—and she, too, affected such cheerfulness that I could
not bear to watch them both be so brave for the other’s sake. But weakness
overcame her soon, and she went back to her pattern of lapsing into frequent
periods of unconsciousness; other times, she gave up struggling to speak and
just lay in silence. Through it all, Arthur sat beside her, holding her hand and
gazing down at her with the same expression of despairing adoration I had seen
John wear. Despite his privileged upbringing, Lord Godalming is a strong, strong
man.
In thirty years of medical practice, I have visited many families who cared
for a mortally ill member. All are different, of course—some loving, some not;
but all share one constant, especially when death draws nigh. The experience
causes formality and pretense to fall away, not only for the dying member, but
for those who tend him, so that only the truest essence of all persons remains.
In some cases, this is a sad thing, for anger, regret, or sorrow might be
revealed, or inner weakness wherein the individual lapses into morbid despair
from which he cannot recover.
In other cases, the experience melts away the more superficial aspects of the
personality, revealing a golden core of strength and compassion. This is what I
saw in him and his friends Quincey and Arthur, and in Miss Lucy herself; and
despite great sadness, I felt warmed and privileged to be among them.
At last the hour struck twelve, and John appeared in the doorway. I rose,
patted Arthur’s shoulder, and bade him come to rest, as he had not done so in
almost two days. He resisted heartily until John vowed that, should Lucy’s
condition take a change for the worse, however slight, he would wake his friend
immediately. At last he came, and we went into the drawing-room, where two
comfortable sofas faced a blazing hearth.
There I rested, but did not sleep, as my thoughts were anxious and many;
blessedly, Arthur fell almost at once into a doze. I listened to the clock chime
hour after hour, until at last it was sunrise again—six o’clock. Arthur was
still sleeping soundly, so I stole away, back into Lucy’s sickroom, where John
sat writing in the dimmed gaslight.
The blind was pulled, and the room shadowed. I could not see the patient’s
face, but above her heart and head hovered a fatal telltale sign: the glittering
indigo aura that marked a vampire. At once, I ordered John to raise the blind.
The pale dawn sunlight streamed in, illuminating Miss Lucy’s face—which caused
me to gasp, for at first I thought I was looking upon a corpse. But she still
breathed, and so I hurriedly untied the black silk scarf I had fastened about
the puncture wounds.
It was as I had feared; the vampire’s mark had vanished, leaving the milky
skin there smooth and flawless.
John saw, too, and, even before I told him, seemed to know that she was
dying. He went and woke Arthur—for in truth, I could not bear to break the news
to the lad myself. Instead, I busied myself with straightening Lucy’s pillows,
and quickly removing all signs of sickness from the night-stand—the laudanum
bottle, the morphia, the chamber-pot. Then I brushed out her hair so that it lay
in becoming waves upon the pillows, for I knew that Lucy should have liked to
look her best for this last moment shared with her fiance.
So the stricken lover came—or should I say, her
two stricken lovers,
for John, his expression and posture one of the utmost resolve, came in with his
arm firmly wound about Arthur’s shoulders in a gesture of unreserved support.
Yet his eyes, as much as Arthur’s, shone with unspilled tears; he felt the
coming loss just as keenly, but Fate had not dealt him the right to show it.
As the two approached the deathbed, John let go his grip, and let his friend
rush at once to Lucy’s side. I do not mention my pity for my son in order to
make light of Arthur’s suffering—far from it, I think it shows how good a man
Holmwood (that is, Lord Godalming) must be, to inspire such deep loyalty in a
friend. And John, too, for many lesser men have broken off long friendships over
their shared love for one woman.
As for Arthur, having come from the deathbed of his father to that of the
woman he loved, he entered the room pale and trembling, with fresh tears upon
his cheeks. But the closer he drew to Lucy, the more firmly he put aside his
double grief, wiping his eyes and running his fingers through his dishevelled
curls that he might present to her his best. He is a strong man, that one. I
remembered how stricken I had been when my little son Jan died, and Gerda went
mad; certainly I could never have put up as stolid a front as Arthur did.
It was then that he ran to her side, and bent low to kiss her—but I had seen
the growing indigo aura surrounding her; were he to consummate his intent, she
might well mesmerise him to the degree that after death, she could influence him
for ill. Thus I moved between them, and gently warned, “Not yet. Take her hand;
it will comfort her more.”
He was perplexed, but sorrow had stripped him of any defiance, so he did as
told. It was a difficult thing, to tell a man that he could not kiss his dying
lover, but I knew no other way to protect him.
Miss Lucy took great comfort in his presence and his touch, and sank back
into sleep with a sigh. But after a time, honest sleep turned to trance, and a
veil of illusory beauty such as the vampire can produce enveloped her. John saw
it, I know, for he gave me a sharp, knowing glance. Lucy then opened her eyes—or
rather, a demoness’ eyes—and begged him to kiss her, in a seductive, wicked
parody of her own sweet voice.
So swiftly did Arthur bend down to oblige her that, abandoning all civility,
I caught hold of his neck and flung him away, shouting, “Not for your life!”
Remembering it now causes fresh pain, for I know how unspeakably
cruel—indeed, mad—my act must have seemed to him. In fact, a gleam of violence
came into his eye. But almost immediately it passed, and he merely stood,
awaiting explanation.
I did not give it, for very shortly thereafter, Lucy came to herself, and
took my great coarse hand in her fine small one and kissed it. This in itself
was sufficient to summon my tears; but then she gazed up at me with beseeching,
loving eyes, and said in a breathless whisper: “My true friend, and his! Guard
him, and give me peace!”
Atremble with emotion, I sank to my knees beside the bed. These were
difficult, perhaps impossible, things she had asked of me—if Vlad was now so
powerful, so impervious, how could I know that she, his offspring, would not
also become so?
Yet for love’s sake, I answered solemnly, “I swear!”
I
do swear, Lucy. I swear it with every fibre of my being, with all
my strength and soul. Impossible it may be, but I shall accomplish it, or die in
the effort…
Her breathing became more of a struggle, until I heard the faint rattle in
her throat. I rose and turned to Arthur, who no longer fought to hold back the
tears that streamed down his wan cheeks. The end had come, and so I bade him
take her hand and kiss her only once, upon the forehead.
This he did, and then she slowly closed her eyes. The death-rattle grew
louder then, and so I took Arthur’s arm and drew him away. Yet before we reached
the door, the sound stopped abruptly; our sweet Miss Lucy had died.
I returned to her side, and let John take his sobbing friend away. There I
sat some time, gazing in grief and horror as Lucy’s worn, wasted face began at
once to bloom with life—or rather, undeath.
For more than twenty years, I have hunted vampires all over the European
continent, and in every case, I prevailed: the vampire was destroyed, and his
progenitor, Vlad, weakened. Again and again was the same scenario repeated—the
hunt, the capture, the destruction, always according to the same rules. The
vampire’s abilities and limitations never varied, the cross and the garlic never
failed. In time I grew more powerful, and my task easier; so strong was my aura
that I could move in complete confidence of invisibility around the undead. They
could neither mesmerise nor overpower me. But now…
As I bitterly contemplated my failure, John returned and stood beside me in
silence, both of us contemplating the corpse. For a time, neither of us spoke;
and then John asked:
“Professor. Does a dying man have the right to know he is dying?”
His tone was so calm and conversational that I believed he was trying to
distract himself, perhaps by trying to decide whether Lucy herself had been
so aware; thus, I answered in the same manner. “Of course. If he does not
know, how can he properly prepare himself?”
He spoke again, and this time I noted a faint but growing anger behind his
words. “And does a man engaged in battle—even a battle he cannot possibly win—
have the right to know who it is he fights?”
A slight chill seized me, for I suddenly understood where his line of
questioning led—yet I could not bring myself to reply. Instead, I gazed up at
him, and saw that he was struggling terribly to hold in a powerful tide of
emotion.
When he realised no answer would come, he said heatedly, “Professor, you
cannot bear this terrible burden alone any longer. You have seen Arthur and
Quincey and, I hope, come to know them as the brave, honourable men they are.
They have—”
“What do you suggest, John? That I tell them the truth? Even if they believed
it, what good would come of it? Only that they would be endangered—”
“Lucy was ignorant,” he cried, with a sudden vehemence that flushed his
cheeks scarlet. “What good came of
thatr
For this I had no answer, so I stood mutely as he continued to release grief
in the form of anger. He shook, lie raged, he lifted his fist and shook it in my
face.
“They have as much right as I to know the cause of Lucy’s death so that they
might avenge it—and wipe this terrible scourge from the earth! They are my
dearest friends, and I will not stand by and see them die of ignorance! Good
God, Quince could very well have been bitten himself, wandering around outside
in the night, trying to make himself useful in some small way!“
And at that, the storm of tears finally came, with such fury that he sank to
his knees beside Miss Lucy and buried his face in the bed, one fist helplessly
pounding against the mattress.
I said nothing; I let him cry. But his words pricked me, and evoked within me
a different sort of tempest.
After some moments, he raised his damp, flushed face and rose to leave.
Before he reached the door he turned, and said with calm, quiet dignity so that
I would know he’d meant every word, despite the accompanying emotional display:
“Dr. Van Helsing, you have long put your trust in secrecy and science, in
magical protections and rituals. Now all those things have failed you. But there
is one thing which will never fail, one thing which will always be stronger than
any evil: the human heart. I offer you mine and those of my two closest friends
in the coming battle, for their sake as well as your own.”
* * *
26 SEPTEMBER.
Lucy was buried in a double service with her mother on the twenty-second; a
bitter affair for all, especially those two who knew she had not gone to a
peaceful end.
Intense contemplation has not permitted the truth of John’s angry words to
fade; indeed, the more I savour them, the more I come to believe that he is
right. We have agreed that when Miss Lucy is truly set to rest, it shall be
Arthur’s hand which performs the deed, and John, Quincey, and I will all be in
attendance. I have written Arthur and Quincey letters, asking them to accompany
me to the gravesite. Beyond that, I offered no explanation; words cannot
convince as thoroughly as physical evidence.
In the meantime, the last few days have been busy ones for several reasons.
As there were no surviving kin, Mrs. Westenra left her estate to Arthur. He in
turn asked John and me for assistance in sifting through papers and making
burial arrangements, as he was already quite overwhelmed by similar obligations
in connexion with his father’s death. I asked him for leave to examine Lucy’s
personal papers and diary for more insight as to “the nature of her disease.”
This he granted, being too distracted even to question my request.
In going through those papers, I discovered a thick bundle of letters from a
Wilhelmina Murray, whom Lucy also mentioned constantly in her diary as “Mina.”
It seems these two women were the best of friends; in fact, Lucy often summered
with Madam—that is, Miss—Mina at the Westenra cottage at Whitby. Lucy did not
keep a diary at the time (upon returning to London, however, she succumbed to
Miss Mina’s journalistic influence and began one), so we have no record of what
precisely occurred. But I know it was there she was first bitten.
Mina’s letters, some of which were sadly never opened, reflected a lady of
great kindness and intelligence. Upon reading them, I felt at once as if I had
already met and befriended her; so I was even more fearful to learn of her time
at Whitby with Lucy. For if Lucy had been bitten, why not her friend?
Two days after the Westenra funeral, I wrote Miss Mina Murray (now Mrs. Mina
Harker) asking if I might interview her, as I had been Lucy Westenra’s physician
and was investigating the cause of her death. She responded promptly and most
warmly, inviting me to her home in Exeter the very next day.
With some trepidation, I went. My heart was still sore after the terrible
defeat with Lucy, and I dreaded finding yet another kind gentlewoman stricken
with the vampire’s curse.
Fortunately, when I arrived in Exeter and stepped into Mrs. Harker’s
drawing-room, I saw a young lady blooming with health: the rosy cheeks and lips
were a welcome and beautiful sight after poor Lucy’s pallor. Even lovelier was
the sight of her long neck rising pure and unmarked from a collarless gown. Yet
Madam Mina (I could not resist calling her so at once, for it was clear that
Lucy’s death had already united us in friendship) looked nothing like what I had
expected. Her letters indicated a woman of such great maturity and wisdom that I
had imagined her as older than Lucy, taller, and more solidly built.
But she was a good head shorter than her late friend, a tiny, fragile-looking
creature hardly larger than the schoolchildren she had taught before her recent
marriage to Mr. Harker. Her face, too, was that of a child—heart-shaped beneath
a dark brown pompadour, with great hazel eyes, small nose, and rosebud mouth—so
innocent and ingenuous that she would go through life always looking far younger
than her years. Ah, but those eyes… They reminded me of John’s, for they were
sensitive, intelligent, quick to absorb every detail—and blessedly free from any
trace of treacherous glittering indigo. Indeed, even in the bright daylight
streaming through the open shutters, a definite violet glow could be detected
surrounding her: a strong aura for a strong woman.
She had apparently been hard at work when I arrived, for I heard clacking out
in the hallway, which ceased the instant the maid knocked to announce my
arrival. When the door swung open wide, I saw that one corner of the
drawing-room had been converted into a study. Behind her stood a desk upon which
rested stacked newspapers, a small black diary, white paper stacked in a wire
basket, and a large typewriter with a sheet of paper inserted.
And in that second’s pause when we two faced each other and I verified that
she was indeed Mrs. Harker, nee Mina Murray, those intelligent eyes
scrutinised me most intently, yet swiftly enough that courtesy was not breached.
Apparently I impressed her as favourably as she had me, for a look of subtle
warmth came over her cherubic features.
She approached with a gracious smile, and held out a delicate, pale hand one
third the size of my large, callused brown one. I took it, grateful to sense by
touch that my visual appraisal of her had been accurate: she was uncursed,
unmarked. Thus the smile I returned to her was the first genuine one in many
days.
“Madam Mina,” I said, instinctively using the less formal form of address,
which seemed to please her. “It is on account of the dead that I come.”
Her gaze was refreshingly intense and direct (as we Dutch prefer), without
the averted glances and eyelash-fluttering so favoured by Englishwomen. And I
saw in it love for her dead friend and honest gratitude towards me; and when she
spoke, I knew she did so directly from the heart. “Sir,” replied she, in a
strong, mature voice that belied her juvenile appearance, “you have no better
claim on me than that you were a friend and helper of Lucy Westenra.”
The moment of introduction over, she asked as to precisely what information I
desired from her, and I explained my need for certain information about Whitby—
as much as she could remember.
“Why, I can tell you everything about it,” she said, gesturing for me to sit
upon a nearby sofa. “I have written it all down. Would you like to see it?”
Of course. So she retrieved the black diary from the desk, and handed it to
me with a sudden impish glint in her eye; Madam Mina, it seems, has a wry sense
of humour.
I opened the diary, intending to begin reading at once —but upon the page
were neat but totally incomprehensible squiggles and curls and lines. “Mr.
Jonathan Harker is a lucky man,” I said, handing it back to her, “to have such a
talented wife. But alas; I do not know shorthand. Would you be so kind as to
read it for me?”
The child blushed as she took the diary, and at once retrieved a stack of
papers from the wire basket. “Forgive me. Here: when you told me you wished to
inquire about Lucy, I went ahead and wrote all the Whitby entries out on the
typewriter for you.”
I thanked her most sincerely for her labour, and asked whether I might read
it then; she agreed and excused herself, saying that she would check on lunch.
Enclosed in the privacy of the drawing-room, I read swiftly through the
entries. They spoke of Whitby and Lucy and several sleepwalking incidents; in
one place, it was clear that she had rescued Miss Lucy from the vampire’s very
grasp without knowing it. The diary had obviously been intended to be private,
for it mentioned her extreme anxiety over her then-fiance, Jonathan, who was
apparently abroad and had not written in some time. I thought nothing of this at
all, focusing all my attention on the events where Vlad was most clearly
involved. Until, that is, I read the entry of 26 July, when Madam Mina had just
received the long-awaited letter from Jonathan, forwarded by his employer. One
sentence seemed to leap from the very page:
“It is only a line dated from Castle Dracula, and says that he is just
starting for home.”
I was glad then that she had left me alone, for I swore aloud and struck the
sofa with my fist at the sight of the name. Jonathan at Castle Dracula! And here
this sweet lady, by whom I was immediately smitten, was not safe at all—she was
in the very heart of danger! The vampire’s evil had touched her not just once,
through the death of her dearest friend, but through her poor husband as well.
I read further, and learned that Jonathan had suffered from “brain fever,”
for he had raved wildly at the station-master in Klausenburgh for a “ticket
home.” Though he was penniless, his violent demeanour terrified the locals so
that they gave him a ticket for the train’s westernmost destination, Buda-Pesth.
There he was of such a mental state that he was promptly taken to a sanitorium,
and the good nuns there notified Madam Mina, who came and brought him home to
England. (It was at the Buda-Pesth sanitorium that they were married.)
After I had read it all, I set the papers aside and began to think. The
decision had already been made to bring Quincey and Arthur into our (that is,
John’s and my) confidence concerning the vampire, as it only seemed right that
they take part in avenging the death of the woman they loved.
Did not Madam Mina, too, have the same right? Even were Jonathan not bitten,
he had already suffered great mental torment. I remembered John’s bitter
statement: Lucy had been ignorant about the vampire, yet that had not
protected her in the least. I suppose it is true, then— knowledge is
power, even if, in this case, it is only the power to surrender… or flee.
In any event, it was too late; I had already opened my heart to this young
woman, and cared about her welfare the same as I had cared about Lucy’s. I could
not simply go and leave her here to make the dreadful discovery about her
husband alone, or become the victim of his or Dracula’s attack.
Therefore, when Madam Mina returned, I thanked her roundly for her
illuminating manuscript—though she would have been horrified to know what I had
discovered in its light. As casually as I could, I remarked upon her husband’s
brain fever and asked whether he had recovered completely.
At once a shadow came over her expression, and a deep crease appeared between
her dark, delicate brows; she paused, and said carefully, “He was almost
recovered… but he has been greatly upset by his employer’s death. Mr. Hawkins
took Jonathan under his wing and has been like a father to him for many years.”
I nodded and, with a few sympathetic comments, urged her to speak a bit more
of it.
This increased her discomfort until the crease was joined by others on her
brow, and the full rosebud lips thinned to a flat line. “He had a—a bit of a
shock last Thursday, when we were in town, strolling in Piccadilly.”
Again I coaxed her to reveal more and more, until I learned that the sight of
a man (ha! No mortal man, I suspect!) had upset him, a man who clearly had had
something to do with his brain disease.
Of a sudden, she was on her knees. Not in tears or hysteria, but so
overwhelmed by fear and concern for her husband that she lifted her arms to me
and beseeched me to help him, to make him well again. Though she did not say it,
I knew she feared her Jonathan was going mad.
I gently took Madam Mina’s imploring hands in mine and helped her to her
feet. As I led her to the sofa and sat down beside her, I said—with the utmost
sincerity:
“My dear Madam Mina, since I have come to London in answer to my friend John
Seward’s call, I have found a number of people—including Arthur (that is, Lord
Godalming) and our Miss Lucy—whose strength in the face of despair and whose
compassion have touched me deeply. I am honoured to call them friend, and to
know that they would think of me as one. From your writings and your mere
presence, I know that you are as good and deserving as they. Please think of me
as your friend, Madam Mina, and know that I will help you and your husband in
any way.
“But first—you must calm yourself, and when lunch is ready, you must eat.
Afterwards, you can tell me the details about his troubles.”
As I spoke, she had already grown calm, and the shadow had lifted from her
face, leaving her subdued but hopeful. We went down to lunch, and afterwards, we
retired to the drawing-room, and I urged her to speak of Jonathan.
She lowered her gaze—in fact, seemed to look within herself for the solution
to some dilemma. “Dr. Van Helsing”—and here she looked up at me again with that
frank, honest gaze—“what I have to tell you is so queer that even I am not sure
whether I believe it. It all sounds like madness; so you must promise that you
will not laugh at what I confide in you.”
My pulse quickened; I knew we were about to speak of Dracula and his doings.
Mrs. Harker was no madwoman, of that I was certain. And so I smiled ruefully as
I confessed, “My dear, if you only knew how strange is the reason for which I am
here—it would be you who would laugh. I have learned over time never to
dismiss anyone’s belief without investigation, regardless of how bizarre or
impossible it may seem.”
She watched me intently as she spoke, and I think it was the understanding in
my gaze more than the meaning of my words that convinced her. She relaxed and
nodded, reassured. “Thank you, Dr. Van Helsing.” She rose, went to the desk, and
took again from the basket another stack of paper, which she presented to me.
“This is the diary which my husband kept whilst in Transylvania. It is long,
but I have typewritten it out; it will explain better than I can in a few words
the extent of his trouble. To tell the truth, when I read it—only recently, and
for the first time—the details were so intricate and consistent that I
half-believed it. Even now, I am in a fever of doubt. I can say no more: Will
you take it, read it, and judge? I will wait to hear from you.”
“I shall read it tonight,” I promised, for I was just as eager to read it as
she was to hear my opinion concerning it. “I will stay in Exeter tonight so that
I can let you know my thoughts at once. May I come again in the morning to see
both you and your husband?”
The great relief upon her face was wonderful to behold; so our meeting was
arranged. She of course assumed I desired it so as to make a subtle examination
of Jonathan’s mind, but in truth, I wanted to see for myself whether the
vampire’s mark was on him.
Thus I spent that night in a quiet hotel room, reading the private journal of
a man who had lived through hell and emerged somewhat intact. He had been
entrapped in the castle by Dracula for two months, poor devil. And if his
impressions can be trusted, he was never bitten by Vlad, but was intended as
food to be left behind for three vampiresses he christens the “three brides.” I
might have thought that, in his fear, he miscalculated the number— for Zsuszanna
clearly features in that entry, as does Dunya, and when last I had been to the
castle, those were the only two “women” there. But to hear one distinctly
described as “golden-haired” and “sapphire-eyed”—this could be neither of them.
My hypothesis: that this was Zsuzsanna’s “Elisabeth”; if so, she must be here in
London too.
Another disturbing thought came to me as I read the manuscript—might Jonathan
have been bitten without his knowledge by Vlad or one of the women? At any rate,
I was determined to find out during my next visit to the Harker home.
But along with my fear for both Madam Mina and her new husband came a growing
sense of admiration for him. Here was a young and far-from-worldly young
solicitor who found himself abruptly in the most harrowing of circumstances—in
Dracula’s castle, confronted by disappearing vampiresses and Vlad’s sadistic
hints at his eventual demise, the realisation that the prince (that is, the
“count,” for so it amused Dracula to present himself to his Exeter-based
solicitors) cast no reflection in mirrors, commanded wolves, captured small
children and gave them to the evil women for sustenance; and worst of all, the
fact that he, Harker, was locked inside the castle with no means of escape.
Did he surrender? Did he yield to his immortal seductresses? No. Instead,
knowing himself dead if he took no action, Jonathan crawled from his window some
several hundred feet above the rocky ground, and through sheer will clung with
feet and fingers to the stones and crevices on the castle wall. Thus he made his
way down and escaped on foot—an almost impossible task.
And before he fled, he encountered Vlad asleep in his coffin—not once, but
twice. Most men would have run in terror at the first sight; but Harker sensed
that the “count” was a monster to be destroyed at all costs. Thus he returned
willingly to Vlad’s resting place, and attempted to murder the vampire
with nothing more than a common shovel. A solicitor he might be, but a brave and
true one, and if he had passed from the vampires’ lair unbitten (though surely
not unscathed), he deserved more than any to join in the battle that now faced
our little group.
Upon finishing his amazing tale, I wrote to Madam Mina that her husband’s
diary was entirely true, as was his brain and heart, and that her concern about
his sanity was warrantless. I sent a courier from the hotel, that she might
receive this news (can we really call it good or bad? Nay, it was both) at once.
Within an hour I received a letter from the same messenger; Madam Mina had
penned an immediate reply, asking me to come not for lunch the following day,
but for breakfast.
* * *
At precisely twenty minutes to eight this morning, I answered the knock at my
hotel-room door and found myself face-to-face with the courageous Mr. Jonathan
Harker, who had come to pick me up. He was, like his wife, far younger-looking
than his years, with light brown curling hair and a business-like demeanour; one
would never have thought him capable of the amazing physical feats and courage
professed in his journal. I at once invited him inside, under the pretext that
it would take me a moment to fetch my coat; but my real motive was to have him
to myself a few moments unobserved.
When he entered, closing the door after him, I at once approached and held
his gaze. He was an easy subject and fell into trance almost instantly.
There was no immediate sign of the indigo aura, but I wasted not a moment; I
unfastened his collar and pulled it away, then unbuttoned the top of his shirt
in order to thoroughly examine the neck and collarbone.
No mark. I released a sigh so deep I scarce could stand, and with silent
apology righted Jonathan’s clothing as best I could. Then I went to waken
him—but something subtle in his gaze and aura (scholarly orange, like Arthur’s)
troubled me. It was bright, vibrant, gleaming wherever I looked; yet in the
periphery of my vision, I sensed a hint of encroaching indigo.
I did not know what it portended. In all my hunting years, I had seen traces
of the dark aura only in those the vampire had bitten. And in such cases, it
always showed up obviously, directly—first in the victim’s gaze, then swirling
throughout his own, brighter aura.
Never had I sensed it like this: hovering nearby, just out of sight.
Perhaps, I thought, it was only the lingering psychological effects of his
imprisonment in the tower; but I could not be sure. Therefore, I deemed it
wisest not to reveal all that I knew to Mr. and Mrs. Harker, lest the Impaler be
privy to our plans.
The decision made, I gently released Jonathan from his trance. He came to
consciousness easily, without any notice of a change. Waking, he seemed entirely
free of any trace of the vampire’s hold. I at once took his shoulder and turned
his face towards the light coming through the window, studying it carefully as I
said, “But Madam Mina said you were ill, that you had had a shock.”
To which he smiled, and replied that he had been ill and had
had a shock, but that I had cured him of it by my letter. He was an honest,
pleasant fellow—he must be, to have won a wife so good as Madam Mina—and we had
a pleasant ride over to his home. On the way, he told me that he wanted to
provide whatever help he could against the “count.” In his eyes shone a burning
desire (perhaps, even, as great as mine) to see the monster destroyed.
Masking my disquiet, I told him that I indeed needed his help, and
immediately: my work would be greatly eased if he could provide information
concerning all business transacted with “Count Dracula” before his, Jonathan’s,
trip to Transylvania.
This he promised to provide before I left Exeter later that morning—and in
fact, after we two had returned to his house and breakfasted with Miss Mina, he
handed me a bundle of papers so that I might read them on the train back to
London.
He and his wife are good, kind people, and when I see what they have already
suffered at Vlad’s hands, I can only think of myself and Gerda when we were
young—before our small family was destroyed by the vampire. Here in London, for
the first time in many years, I have begun to feel myself surrounded by a family
again, of brave and loving souls united by a common evil. I could not bear to
think of Harker and sweet Madam Mina torn apart, or turned into vile undead
parodies of themselves.
Yet how could I protect them, without possibly exposing John and the others
to more danger if Jonathan was Vlad’s unwitting spy?
I did not know. But as Jonathan drove me back to the station, I asked softly,
“If, in the future, I were to, call both you and Madam Mina to London, would you
come?”
“Call us when you will,” he said, “and we will come.”
I have spoken with John frankly about the Harkers. He agrees that we must do
what we can to help both Madam Mina and her husband, but, same as I, is
perplexed about what Jonathan’s oblique indigo taint might mean. Therefore we
have decided that, when the Harkers come to London (and I have no doubt they
shall), they will stay here at the asylum. They shall not know that /am here—I
shall maintain invisibility for myself and Gerda in our respective cells—and
this will assist me in keeping surreptitious watch over Jonathan until we
establish whether he is Vlad’s agent or no. Until then, we will assume that he
is, and will secretly use such precautions as I already do with Gerda. This will
be safest for Mrs. Harker.
John has agreed that he will reveal no information to the Harkers that will
alert them to the full depth of our knowledge; rather, we are to seem as
bumbling fools who know nothing of Vlad’s new strength. Thus, if Vlad is privy
to Jonathan’s thoughts, he shall discover little of our plans. I have also
warned John that Madam Mina has copied her and her husband’s journals out, and
offered them to me; the time may come when he will be called upon to surrender
his. As for myself, I can easily say that I have no diary, for the
Harkers will see no evidence of it—or me— on the asylum grounds. But John
records upon his phonograph daily, sometimes several times a day, and his
equipment is too difficult to hide. I have asked him not to record any details
he does not wish everyone to hear—or at the very least, to record them secretly
by pen, so that he might not be overheard and the diary might be hidden away. He
has agreed; and will also go back and listen to what he has already recorded.
Any cylinders containing entries which reveal too much will be hidden in my
cell, and he shall re-record them to make them consistent with what we want the
Harkers—and by default, Arthur and Quincey—to know. We have agreed that John
shall play the sceptic, who knows nothing of the vampire and is slow to believe.
I have another reason for dissembling, one which perhaps is foolish: If Madam
Mina, that brave and stalwart soul, were to learn the extent of Vlad’s powers,
she might lose hope. And that I could not bear to see.
Chapter 13
Dr. Seward’s Diary
29 SEPTEMBER.
How strange to write this by pen, and in my bedroom rather than the office.
It goes against the grain to agree to deceit, especially one that might affect
my two finest friends, Art and Quince; but I understand the reason for it, and
must take comfort in the fact that by doing so, I protect them.
So here is the truth—I must record it somehow, lest I forget all and begin to
believe my own lies.
Today, shortly after noon, the
professor took me back to Lucy’s
tomb. Our plan for gaining entry to the cemetery was quite simple: We would wait
for a funeral, which could be counted on to take place at mid-day, then hide
ourselves when the mourners left. (There seems little point in arousing
suspicion by climbing over the wall in broad daylight.) The sexton, thinking all
had gone, would lock the iron gate behind him. Then we would be free to do as we
wished, for Van Helsing confided to me that he has retained the key to the
Westenra tomb, which the mortician had given him to give to Arthur.
I admit, I accompanied Van Helsing with a great deal of trepidation. My grief
over Lucy’s death, though no longer raw, was still fresh, and to finally witness
the reality of vampirism with
her as example seemed too painful. I
think I agreed in something of a daze, for I could scarcely believe her dead,
much less transformed into a monster. Part of me hoped that the professor was a
deluded madman, and that all this talk of blood-sucking and Vlad Dracula was but
a dream from which I soon would wake. So I went only half believing that I would
see the proof of Van Helsing’s claims.
Our plan proceeded like clockwork. We went to the churchyard and waited until
the gate was unlocked and mourners had arrived. Then we, too, entered—dressed in
black, to better fit in. The professor had brought his medical bag, which caused
me some consternation, for I felt it would draw attention to us; luckily, he was
right that no one would notice or think anything of it if they did.
It was a chill, grey day, bleak and damp with mist; an appropriate day for
our task. Throughout the burial, we stood quietly at the fringes of the crowd.
And when it was done, and the crowd began to scatter, we moved behind the
farthest tomb and waited until we heard the clang of the sexton closing the
gate.
Finally, when all was clear, Van Helsing led me back to the small, square
stone building at whose entry was carved the legend:
WESTENRA
I had been too distracted during Lucy’s funeral to remember where the tomb
lay; my gaze had been focussed on her casket, draped in linen and strewn with
white flowers, whilst I tried to picture how she would appear as undead. Would
she still be beautiful, or even recognisable as the sweet girl she had been?
Would she have long, slavering fangs and inhuman strength, bursting through the
lead lining intended to hold in the stench of putrefying remains?
The professor clearly sensed my growing reluctance, for he briefly laid a
warm hand upon my shoulder that conveyed both comfort and encouragement. Then he
set upon the lock with the key. The former was ancient and somewhat rusted,
requiring him to play with it several seconds before, at last, the large metal
door gave a mournful screech and came open.
It took us both some effort to push it open—I all the while wondering how
Lucy would ever be able to manage it. The professor motioned me to enter; a
darkly chivalrous gesture if ever there was one. I did, and started as a
squeaking black rat skittered over my foot. Inside, the air was cold but stale,
and heavy with the scent of mouldering flowers. It was, I rhink, the most
hopeless place I have ever stood, for within a week’s time, the spiderwebs had
grown heavy, and numerous shiny-coated beetles crawled before my feet. The whole
of it—high octagonal windows, bleak walls, crawling shadows—was coated with a
very fine layer of dust that seemed to absorb all light. I suppose the grimness
distracted me, for the professor touched my shoulder to bring me to myself.
Once more I started, to my embarrassment, then began to follow Van Helsing,
who had moved past me with a sense of purpose, out of the narrow entryway into a
wider room where a good twenty coffins lay upon marble catafalques. It was easy
to guess which were Mrs. Westenra’s and Lucy’s, as the others were all shrouded
with such a thick film of dust (which demonstrated how long it had been since
any had visited here) that neither the coffin’s colour nor the nameplate could
be seen.
To the cleaner coffins the professor went at once, bag in hand, and squinted
down at the silver nameplates to ascertain which was Lucy’s. That decided, he
set down the bag and retrieved from it a turnscrew and fretsaw, both of which he
rather callously set upon Mrs. Westenra’s nearby casket.
I must say here that I was altogether amazed by his incredible calm and
matter-of-factness. Being a trained physician, I had long ago lost my
squeamishness around the dead; but this was no ordinary corpse we were
approaching now, nor ordinary circumstances. Yet Van Helsing behaved as if it
were something he had done his whole life.
Without fanfare or even a hint of reverence, he raised the coffin lid, so
swiftly that I barely managed to keep from drawing back. It was foolish of me to
do so, for my brain knew well that we would only see the lead lining; but my
heart had apparently caused me to forget for an instant. The dead flowers which
had rested atop Lucy’s casket—one of which I had laid there myself a week
before— scattered with a rustling whisper to the ground, a cruel reminder that
even grief itself was not everlasting.
The professor paid them no heed but, with the cool detachment I have seen him
wear in surgery, picked up the turnscrew. With a sudden savage movement, he made
a hammer of his fist and struck the turnscrew’s handle so that its tip tore open
the thin lead casing.
This time, I recoiled in earnest, and drew out my handkerchief, fully
prepared to protect myself from the ensuing rush of noxious gas that would come
from the week-old corpse. But no stench came. I permitted myself to draw a
breath, and stood fascinated by what came next.
Van Helsing set down the turnscrew and picked up the tiny fretsaw. After
working it into the gap left by the puncture, he sawed some few feet down one
side of the coffin, then across the top, then down the other side. Both fretsaw
and turnscrew he replaced in his bag. Then he grasped the tongue of metal at the
top and pulled down to the foot, as a mother might pull back a too-warm blanket
so as not to wake a sleeping child.
But there was nothing of tenderness in the professor’s movements; when he
drew back the lead casing to reveal the corpse beneath, his expression was
colder and harder than I have ever seen it.
“Friend John,” he called, with a voice so deep and stern none would have
dared disobey it. “Look away from her! Look away!”
Actually, I had not yet steeled myself to gaze down at her, so his warning
came in time. He stepped between me and the coffin and said urgently, “I have
done you a disservice in not warning you first. No, look up at me, not at her
—yes! And now listen: Sense your own aura, and withdraw it inward, towards your
heart. Strengthen it there. This protects you from her pull, now and in the
future. Yes, yes!” he cried in approval; apparently my features had changed as I
put into practice his lesson. Indeed, I found the result was that I had
“hardened my heart.” The emotional strain of the painful encounter was abruptly
eased, and I found myself possessed of some measure of the professor’s calm
concentration.
I let go a sigh as my equilibrium returned.
“Very good!” the professor said. “Very good. If you wish to look down at her
now, you may; if I see that you have trouble, I shall help. I apologise that I
had not schooled you in this technique earlier. I was foolish enough to hope
that the talismans I had left with her would remain, and keep her in the tomb
until we could send her to a more honourable rest. Before she was placed in her
coffin, I had left them upon her lips and breast—but see? Someone has taken
them.” He sighed. “I had set them upon her at her wake, but someone in the house
stole them then—two crucifixes of gold. So before her burial, I paid the
mortician and set two more upon her before I watched them seal her fast beneath
the lead. Now someone else has cheated us again—but no mortal, I fear, or the
lead would already have been rolled away.“
I listened to him with only half an ear, for at his permission I had at once
looked down at Lucy. To say that she was beautiful would have been an insult; in
undeath, she was beyond beauty, beyond radiance. Indeed, it was as if the sun
itself had been wrapped in white cerements, revealing only in places—head and
hands—its full blazing glory. Her hair, which had been dark ash bleached to
blond in places by the summer sun, was now a glorious and shimmering bronze
streaked with molten gold. Her lips were the delicate, iridescent pink of
mother-of-pearl, just as her eyes—her open eyes, which gazed sightlessly at a
point beyond the ceiling—were the seafoam-green of polished nacre. And her face
was that of the full moon, possessed of an internal radiance.
One thought—one small thought, Dear God, she is beautiful!—and one
fleeting and subtle desire to give up on all that was moral and right, to join
her in eternal ecstasy, and I felt my heart go out to her as the tide seeks the
moon. I was lost, smitten.
Once more, a touch of the professor’s hand brought me from my dangerous
reverie. I looked up, and caught a gulp of air; staring into Van Helsing’s dark
blue eyes, I focussed myself and again took control of my heart and emotions.
“I am all right,” I said. “I shall look at her no longer.” And to show my
determination, I stepped away from the corpse and faced the entry.
He was there only a few seconds longer in order to leave more talismans and
roll the lead lining back over her, then close the casket lid. “For Arthur’s
sake,” he said grimly as we left, “and the fact that I was too arrogant to bring
with me stake and knife, thinking that my pale magic would hold her here—I do
not kill her now. But if we do not succeed in doing so tonight, when Arthur and
Quincey come, there will be much blood upon my head; much blood.”
It is evening now, and Arthur and Quince will arrive in a few hours in
response to the professor’s letters. Thoughts of what is to come leave me too
restless to eat supper.
* * *
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
29 SEPTEMBER.
Arthur and Quincey arrived last night at ten o’clock, both of them wearing
expressions of confusion. As agreed, John herded the lot of us into his study
and locked the door, which only added to the mysterious sense of secrecy.
Once the others had taken seats upon the long sofa, I stood before them to
address them, and they all three looked up at me with curiosity and even faint
hope—as if there might be something good in the midst of all this sorrow. Arthur
himself looked dreadful; he had aged fifteen years in the course of a week. His
formerly smooth forehead was creased with wrinkles, and his eyes were still
dazed; in them, I saw thoughts of sadness enter and leave like passing clouds.
He was at that terrible early stage of mourning where any sight, any sound, any
memory, might touch him and reignite his grief.
Quincey, too, was suffering in his own quiet way. His already thin lips had
grown noticeably thinner, and shadows had gathered beneath his tired eyes;
beneath the freckles that so perfectly matched his dark red hair, his skin had
grown pale. He sat with his big white Stetson in his bony fingers, and toyed
with the rim so that the hat slowly revolved round and round. Yet despite his
suffering, he maintained a forced brightness for his friends’ sake.
It was for me a difficult moment, staring at these good but troubled souls; I
had contemplated long about this meeting, and had come to the unhappy conclusion
that there was simply no kind way to do it. So I began by saying that I had
finally learned what had killed Lucy, and that she was now in such a state that
we had one last task to perform, for her sake.
Arthur stiffened with horror. “Dr. Van Helsing, do you mean to tell me she
was buried alive?”
I shook my head: no, no. “Dear Arthur, dear friend; do you trust me? Do you
believe that I honestly cared for Miss Lucy, and that I wanted, and still want,
only the best for her?”
“Yes, of course,” he said, but his eyes remained tormented.
“Then let me take you to her tomb, for there lies the only physical evidence
necessary to explain what we must do. If you will only trust, and come with me—”
The look of confusion and pain on Arthur’s face pulled at me, but I remained
cold and resolute. “First,” Arthur replied, clearly struggling to contain his
feelings, “I must know why we need to go to the tomb. What terrible
mystery can it be, that you cannot tell me plainly as a friend?”
“I can only tell you that it is for Miss Lucy’s sake that we go,” I told him.
“There is something that remains to be done for her, that she might rest
peacefully in death.”
Quincey Morris set his hat upon his lap and leaned forward to say, in a
heated tone, “Now, see here, Professor! Going back to the tomb for mysterious
reasons is a cruel thing to do to Arthur, don’t you think? Can’t you see how
difficult this is for him?”
I held my tongue but thought: Ah, poor Quincey, I know it is no easier
for you!
He continued, scowling, “If the poor girl’s dead, she’s dead; what more can
be done for her?”
Quite calmly I answered, “We must cut off her head, pur a stake through
her heart, and fill her mouth with garlic.”
John’s eyes widened at once with pure dismay at this blunt and heartless
outburst. Quincey, on the other hand, leaned even farther forward and rested
fingers upon the pistol worn on his belt.
As for poor Arthur, he turned livid and rose in a burst of fury, bending his
right arm at the elbow and pulling it back in preparation for the blow aimed
squarely at my jaw. And before John could rise to restrain him, he struck out
with his fist. I was prepared for such a blow; before it could land, I had
already taken a step backward and withdrawn my aura, rendering myself quite
invisible.
Arthur swung at the air, then drew back in utter amazement and gaped down at
his fist, as if expecting to find there some defect. Finding none, he stared
open-mouthed at the room surrounding him.
Our friend Quincey slowly sank back into the cushions and quietly replaced
his hands in his lap. I watched as the big freckled Adam’s apple slowly bobbed
down once, then rose back up. Beside him sat John, whose expression was a
curious mixture of sorrow, wry disapproval and mounting hilarity.
For the space of several seconds, no one uttered a sound.
Duly satisfied that I had made an impression, I walked behind the sofa where
the two men were sitting, materialised, and said quietly, “Gentlemen.”
They all snapped their heads round to stare at me. Arthur was so utterly
stymied that he began to sway on his feet; I quickly stepped around the sofa and
back to him. He clutched my shoulders, wide-eyed and mute, and let himself be
led to the sofa, where he sat between John and Quincey.
“Gentlemen,” I continued, “what you have just seen could be the result of the
three of you having simultaneously gone quite insane. Or there could be another
explanation, one not acceptable according to our current understanding of
science. I must swear you to silence concerning it; if you choose instead to
speak of it, be aware that I will deny it and label you mad.”
Again, not a word of reply.
“Miss Lucy has been bitten by a vampire—” I began. At this, Quincey grew
excited and opened his mouth to speak, but I silenced him with a look. “Not the
bat, as friend Quincey suggests, but an actual man who has been transformed into
a creature neither dead nor alive; the undead, which the Roumanians call
nosferatu. In English, a vampire; one who sucks the blood of the living,
who in turn become vampires after their death.”
“What are you saying?” asked Arthur slowly; there was no anger, only pain, in
his voice. “That Lucy died from the bite of one of these?”
I nodded, hardening my heart at the sight of this terrible revelation’s
effect upon him.
Quincey tossed his hat aside and ran his hand over thinning hair. “Professor,
I respect you,” he said, clearly troubled. “Maybe even more so since your little
demonstration here tonight.” At that, we two gave a faint smile. “And even if I
hadn’t seen it, I would still believe you to be an honest man of the very best
intentions. But… this isn’t something that I—that Arthur—can readily accept.
Because what you’re saying is that Miss Lucy is—is…” His voice trailed into
silence.
“I do not expect you to believe me without seeing the proof. So I have asked
you to come with me tonight to the Kingstead churchyard.” Here I addressed
Arthur, who was still dazed. “And if you believe it, Lord Godalming, to permit
me to destroy the creature so the true Miss Lucy an rest.”
* * *
We arrived in Kingstead shortly before midnight, and made short work of the
low stone fence (Quincey, with his long, thin legs, could simply step over). It
was a chill, windy night, and though the moon was still radiant, jagged
fast-moving clouds at times obscured the light. I had brought my medical bag
with the few necessary items, and an unlit lantern. John and Quincey flanked
Arthur, forming a barrier between their friend and the terrible experience to
come. John was grim but resolved; Quincey remained silent, but kept casting
solicitous glances at Arthur as if determined to stop the proceedings the moment
his friend registered distress.
As for Arthur himself, he bore up admirably well. His expression showed the
strain of returning to this place of grief, but only subtly; and it did not
change the nearer we drew to the tomb.
Once there, I quickly unlocked the door, then turned to John and said: “You
were with me yesterday; was Miss Lucy’s body in her coffin?”
“It was,” he affirmed solemnly.
I pushed the heavy iron door open, to the tune of metal scraping against
stone; seeing that the other three men lingered, hesitant, I walked in first,
then lit the lantern. The light it cast was dim; I wanted to draw as little
attention to our entry as possible.
Once I was inside, the others entered, and I directed them over to Miss
Lucy’s coffin. Once more I set down my bag and retrieved the turnscrew, and with
it unscrewed the lid, then removed it. The lead casing I had drawn back over the
corpse; when Arthur saw how it had been rent, he blanched, but still remained
silent, waiting.
I pulled down the leaden flange to reveal a dark, empty coffin. It was as I
expected, for I had come before sundown that evening to remove the talismans. I
knew Arthur’s heart, and realised that to reveal her asleep and beautiful would
do no good. Tonight would have been their wedding-night; thus I had to show her
as the monster she had become, without any trace of beauty or romance.
“Tell them,” I commanded John.
So John spoke—most eloquently—of our earlier visit to the tomb. Man of
medicine that he is, he explained— averting his own gaze when he saw the flicker
of pain and disgust in Arthur’s—the decay process, and , what one could expect
of a corpse in a week’s time. Yet there had lain Lucy, unspoiled and perfect,
more beautiful than ever she had been in life.
Quincey’s eyes narrowed above his long waxed mustache; Arthur’s strained
expression never changed, though his pallour grew.
“And now outside,” I said, and led them out into the sweet, cold air. My
three companions remained silent—
Arthur clearly deep in thought in an effort to decipher the mystery of the
disappeared corpse, John anxious at what he knew he would soon see. And Quincey—he
is as pragmatic and open-minded a man as I have ever met. He had given up trying
to make sense of the empty casket, and so now waited patiently to see what would
come next before arriving at any conclusions. With remarkable casualness, he
took a roll of tobacco from his jacket, cut a plug, then began to chew.
In the meantime, I had taken two more items from my bag: the sacred Host
(charged with as much power as I could inject into an object) and a mass of
putty. The Host I crumbled into the putty, kneaded it, and rolled the mixture
into strips. These I used to to seal off the crevices around the door.
Then I directed the others to hide near the tomb where they would not be seen
by one approaching. So we remained, silent, for an eternity: fifteen, perhaps
twenty minutes.
Abruptly, I spotted a swift-moving white figure advancing through the yew
trees—a white figure that clutched something dark to its breast. I signalled the
others, and pointed.
At that instant, the white figure stopped, and bent down over the dark
object; there came a child’s sharp cry, then silence.
John, Quincey, and Arthur all three started at the sound; John made to move
forward to rescue the child (as did Quincey instinctively, though he could not
have known the depth of the danger the child was in). But I motioned them back,
and they obeyed reluctandy.
Soon the mysterious figure grew closer, closer, and in an errant shaft of
moonlight, Lucy Westenra’s features became clearly visible.
Her features, I say, but all else was different. There were Lucy’s eyes grown
hard and seductive and cold; and Lucy’s lips, no longer tender and sweetly
smiling, but sensuous and mocking, pulled back to reveal long, sharp teeth. And
from those lips dripped blood—fresh and crimson, dribbling in a thin line down
her chin and onto the virginal linen of her burial clothes.
I moved out at once from behind the tomb, with my three companions close
behind me. At the sight of us, she hissed like a threatened feline; and then,
upon recognising Arthur, threw the poor child to the ground with infernal
indifference.
“Arthur,” she said, her voice soft and languid as a purring cat’s. “My sweet
husband, come!”
I glanced sidewise to see Arthur advance towards her, his arms outstretched,
his formerly grief-dazed eyes now dulled by trance. He saw her, yes, but not as
she truly was.
I leapt between the two lovers, taking a small golden crucifix from my coat
pocket and lifting it high in front of her face. This I did with some anxiety,
for I had no way of knowing whether she would be impervious to the talisman or
not. Certainly, she was young and inexperienced, and therefore far, far weaker a
foe than Vlad himself; but she was the first spawn of the new vampire, of
Dracula the All-Powerful.
Through some inexplicable grace, the latter held true. She proved
susceptible. At the sight of the cross, she snarled, then recoiled. I stepped
sideways, forcing her into a narrow opportunity, which she took. With
preternatural speed, she dashed towards the door of the tomb, intent on finding
shelter there (indeed she was a neophyte, for any I experienced vampire would
have simply disappeared, then fled to another hiding-place, far from threatening
mortals).
I signalled my companions to surround me, and the four of us approached the
tomb door in a half-circle, effectively capturing her between cross and Host.
She hesitated, a trapped animal trying to size up her options: should she yield,
fight, or flee?
Fury contorted her features. So she turned upon us, eyes narrowed but ablaze
with hell-fire, mouth pulled into a square rictus lined with sharp triangular
teeth. It was the face of a she-demon from the Pit, and at the sight of it,
Arthur let go a horrified gasp.
Without turning my face away from the monster, I ailed out: “Lord Godalming!
Friend Arthur! Do you give me permission now to proceed in my work?”
I did not need to see his expression to know it was tortured; the pain in his
voice was enough. “Do as you will,” he said with a groan. “Do as you will. There
can be no horroi such as this ever again!”
I set my lantern down, and moved towards the hissing vampiress; my intent was
to dig away from the chinks some of the sacred mixture, so that Lucy might
enter, then be resealed. But before I could accomplish this, there came a sudden
burst of wind—so strong that it knocked me away from Miss Lucy onto my back in
the cold, damp grass.
The whirlwind grew so forceful that it pinned me to the ground, so loud that
I could hear nothing of my companions behind me. I struggled to lift my head and
saw before me Miss Lucy, grinning sultrily—locked in an embrace with Vlad.
It was the most horrid of sights, for she looked up at him with violent
adoration, whilst he stood behind her, one arm wound tight around her waist, one
hand upon her breast. I could not imagine how Arthur bore such a sight; I
believe it would have shattered me, were I in his place. As he looked down at
her, such a passionate gaze passed between them that I was surprised they did
not couple there and then.
Then he raised his face to me; it was livid, full of a madman’s fury, a
madman’s hate. Yet young and vital beneath its full, wavy crown of blue-black
hair, drooping mustache, and goatee—and so unnaturally handsome that even I felt
its magnetic pull.
“How dare you think to harm her, our beloved!” he thundered, in a voice three
times louder than the wind. “How dare you—!”
Abruptly the wind ceased. He cast Lucy aside as cruelly as she had dispensed
with the child, and reached out with a sculpted alabaster hand for my neck.
And John—John, who of all of them knew what a deadly risk he was
taking—dashed between us, and struck out at the Impaler with bare mortal hands.
The blows annoyed Vlad no more than a fly might a man. As John swung harder,
harder, the vampire laughed, revealing dimples in the porcelain skin that framed
his mustache; laughed, as he picked John up by leg and arm and held him
overhead—then turned, facing the unyielding white marble of the tomb.
Arthur began to shout, and moved in closer, threatening; Quincey merely drew
his pistol from his coat, and fired once, twice, thrice—each time striking Vlad
directly in the chest. But the bullets merely exited his undead body without
causing harm, and the perplexed Texan looked down at his gun, then back up at
his target with wide, wide eyes.
Even with his former strength, the vampire could easily have dashed out the
man’s brains with such a move. As it was, I had no hope for John’s survival, and
with a father’s desperate, unthinking love, I cried out:
“Stop! Stop! It is my son you hold in your arms! Kill him and you
kill yourself!”
I had worked so many years to protect my only heir by hiding the truth; now
the truth was my only hope of saving him. Vlad paused, then frowned up at John
and said, “You lie! He does not think he is your son!” But an instant
later, a subtle doubt came over his features—reflecting, perhaps, John’s own
mental wavering on the subject.
That instant was seized by us three mortals—Arthur, Quincey, myself. We
hurled ourselves bodily at Vlad and John; the vampire, of course, was unmoved,
but the attack evoked within him such fury that he loosened his grip on my son
and instead caught hold of me, whilst the others pulled John to safety. Even in
the midst of my relief, a horrifying thought occurred: Where was Lucy? And would
all her lovers be able to resist her without my help?
Yet I could see nothing but the Impaler’s face, for he had grabbed my throat
with his cold, cold hands and stared so close into my eyes that I could smell
his fetid breath—the stench of the rotting dead—ere he spoke.
Vlad’s countenance gleamed so brilliant, so white-hot with fury, that I
closed my eyes bedazzled, but the image still remained. “I am tired of you and
your games, old man!” he roared. “For things have come full circle. Not so long
ago, you were strong and sure and invincible, and I decrepit, aged, hopeless; I
needed you for my very survival. But now you are the old, feeble man
without a hope, and I am the one invincible! Bow down and worship
me—for now it is you who need me to live.”
I croaked, opened my eyes, and moved my head, indicating that I wished to
answer. And when he eased his crushing grip upon my neck, I did not hesitate,
did not waver. I said simply, “Kill me.”
At that he let go a scream of frustration that left me near deaf. And when he
recovered, he sneered:
“You are so arrogant, so self-assured! You think I cannot kill you, that I am
afraid because of the covenant! But hear this: I need it no longer to survive.
I am the maker of covenants! And you and your friends are
dead.”
The world swung suddenly sideways as he lifted me high above his head, hands
still round my throat so tightly that I could scarce draw a breath, and was too
dizzied to see what had become of my friends. I prayed that they had fled—not
only for their own safety, but that they might be spared the horror of seeing
their only “vampire expert” done in by the object of his hunt.
I blinked, and the world swung round again, and became a dim white wall of
marble. This was to be my fate, then—to have my brains dashed out against the
Westenra tomb. It was not so terrible a fate (considering the horrendous
alternatives), but in the exceptional detachment brought about by mortal fear, I
regretted leaving my friends, including Miss Lucy, in such a hopeless situation.
And even, curiously, the terrible mess I would leave behind, which some poor
working-class soul would be forced to clean up.
The hands holding me drew back, then propelled me like a slingshot at the
marble. I must have been in flight no more than the merest fraction of a second,
as we were no more than twenty feet away from the wall. Yet I remember it as
clearly as if it had taken several minutes, for I was aware of many things: of
the cold wind whistling past my stinging ears, of my regret at leaving Gerda
(though I knew John would care properly for her), of my regret at not living to
hold my mother’s hand upon her deathbed, of my regret at not having freed Miss
Lucy from the curse, of my regret that John should always wonder whether I had
lied when I claimed him as son.
Of my regret, of my regret, of my regret.
And of the marble looming, and even in the dim light, my noting every swirl
within the stone with morbid fascination. How should my blood look there? My
brain?
Look, Bram, here is Death coming: close your eyes, and be grateful that you
have died uncursed.
So I did and was, and tensed my body, waiting for impact—which, God willing,
would be too swift to inflict unbearable pain.
Impact did not come.
Oh, I was still in midair and waiting, heart hammering like a prisoner bent
on release. But I seemed to have been gently and impossibly stopped by an
invisible cushion of some sort—both soft and firm, and infinitely comfortable,
and holding me aloft without effort. Was this death? Was this an after-life
wherein I sweated and feared and listened to my pulse pounding in my veins?
I opened my eyes and saw white marble, a mere inch from my nose.
Behind me, an enraged Roumanian curse, and from the Lucy-demon’s throat, a
shrill, frightened cry. Then the night grew suddenly calm, and I felt within the
great sense of peace that comes when the vampire has fled.
And as I stared, relieved, into the swirling marble, I felt and saw a change.
The soft cushion of air surrounding me hardened, until I felt skin and sinew and
bone supporting rne. Slowly I came to realise that my chin was resting upon a
hard, bony shoulder—and that not a tall one; and in the periphery of my vision,
I saw black cloth, upon which lay hair of radiant white.
I began to weep. And by the time small, strong hands had set me upright on
the ground, I was laughing and weeping together. I could not stand, but sank
down upon the earth and looked up into eyes so depthless I could not have named
their colour, for they contained them all— eyes infinitely young and infinitely
ancient, infinitely severe and infinitely loving, infinitely sorrowful and
infinitely amused.
“Arminius!” I cried, in reproach and joy. “Arminius, why did you not come
sooner?”
Chapter 14
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
29 SEPTEMBER, CONTINUED.
He looked precisely the same as the last time I’d seen him, twenty-two years
before: small and wiry, yet strong of shoulder and straight of spine beneath an
unadorned black wool robe. Beneath a black wool cap reminiscent of those an
Orthodox priest might wear, his hair fell in thick curls almost to his waist.
Like his long mustache and beard, it was shining white—which made the glowing,
child-soft skin of his face and ears seem even rosier by contrast. But priest he
was not, nor even Christian; his face was that of a Hebrew mystic, an eagle’s,
with prominent, downward-curving nose and large, heavy-lidded eyes. A Jew, yes,
by blood—but far from orthodox in his beliefs. Whether he even believed in God,
I could not say, for during my education as vampire-slayer, he always explained
things in the most pragmatic terms. Perhaps he, like his student, believed not
in religious formulae or particular names or titles, but in those things which
endured, those things which transcended religion and science and touched all men
too deeply to deny: Love. Compassion. Kindness.
His hair and bearing were those of an ancient; his demeanour and movements
were those of a robust youth. At my question, he squatted down to the level
where I sat, that we might speak eye-to-eye, and loosely folded his arms atop
his legs.
“Abraham, Abraham,” said he. grinning to reveal intensely pink gums and white
straight teeth even a young man might envy. There was no cunning or reproach in
that smile, only the bright, hilarious joy of a lunatic, a simpleton, a mage.
“If I did not come, it was because you did not need me. Now, I am here.” And he
spread his arms (amazingly, without his legs wavering an inch).
“Here” had changed dramatically in the instant he had appeared. I squinted at
my surroundings to find myself and my mentor enveloped in a circle of gentle
radiance that brightened the night. Beyond its circumference, John, Arthur,
Quincey, all sat upon the ground—frozen and still as statues, their eyes open
yet unseeing, unblinking, their chests moving not a whit. Yet safe and
alive—this I knew instinctively, even though I could not resist looking beyond
and around them for Vlad and the Lucy-vampire.
But the night was quiet and sweet, free from the taint of indigo; both
monsters had vanished, and Arminius and I sat safe within the borders of a
different reality. This filled my heart with hope. For though Arminius had
taught me many things—how to protect myself-from the vampire, how to weaken Vlad
and myself gain power to defeat him—I had never seen him in the presence of any
vampire, and thus had not known the extent of his abilities beyond what he had
told me.
Clearly, he was powerful indeed, to have saved me and caused Vlad and Lucy to
vanish. And for the first time in many terrible days, I began to think Vlad
could be overcome after all.
He saw me staring at my three companions and said:
“Your friends are well, but they cannot see us. And if you wish, they will
not remember.”
I was too curious, too exhilarated, too desperate, to respond to his
statement; instead, I asked a question of my own. “What has happened to Vlad? I
had done as you said —had destroyed vampire after vampire these twenty-two
years, in order to weaken him. And so he
didweaken—but now he has
regained his strength, and more. He would have killed me—
me, whose
death would have brought about his own, according to the covenant. What has
happened to him… and to the covenant?”
“Ah,” he said; the sound was in part a sigh. “The covenant…” Rather than look
at me, he lowered his gaze to the ground, his lips still curved upward in a
mysterious crescent, and began to inscribe with his ringer strange legends in a
patch of mud. “In order to answer your question, Abraham, I must first tell you
a story.”
“A story?”
“Of a manuscript—a very special manuscript which some claim Lucifer himself
wrote. It was stolen from the Scholomance, the Devil’s school for the mantic
arts, by one of the
sholomonari, the alchemists who studied there. Thus
says the legend. Its purpose is reflected in its title:
To Him Who Would
Become the Eater of Souls.”
I shuddered, suddenly overwhelmed by the terrifying image from a dream: a
great Darkness that engulfed me, devoured me. Clutching my upper arms, I
demanded, “But is that not the Devil’s domain? To consume souls?”
He looked up, still smiling faintly, his eyes undimmed by the darkness of
which he spoke. “It is, if that is the name you wish to use for the entity. And
to answer your next question—yes, the manuscript does give instructions as to
how others might become as he.”
“But it is insane—why would he want to share his power?”
At this, the faint grin became a full-fledged smile. “Who can say? In time,
all things will become clear.” He paused. “At some point after the theft, the
manuscript was acquired by one of the wickedest and most power-hungry immortals:
the Countess Elisabeth of Bathory. It has gone through many hands, in part
because the manuscript itself cannot be protected by even the most powerful
magic—”
I interrupted. “Why not?”
Patiently, he replied, “Because the truth cannot be hidden, Abraham. Not
realising this, the countess attempted to hide it with a spell—which, because of
her newfound strength, she assumed would be sufficient. And because she had
destroyed its previous owner, no one knew it had come into her possession, and
no one attempted to take it from her. But when she went to the Castle Dracula,
Vlad discovered it and stole it from her very quickly.
“As to why he has become increasingly powerful, now that it is in his
possession, I must explain the manuscript itself. It is a riddle of sorts,
consisting of six lines, or clues. The first line appears once the manuscript
falls into someone’s possession. Other lines appear only after the owner has
understood the first and followed its direction; and with each step, the owner’s
power and abilities increase.
“I have done some small bit of research and discovered the first line:
In
the land beyond the forest, the quest for godhood begins. The lines are six; the
keys are two. ”
“Keys?” I asked.
“This is something of a mystery still; Elisabeth had solved only the first
line, and though Vlad has gone farther, he has yet to discover the first key. No
immortal ever has—except, of course, for the Dark Lord Himself.”
With fear in my heart, I asked, “How many lines has Vlad solved? Do you know
what these say?”
He did. He seemed to look past me, and the ghost of a smile faded entirely,
leaving him solemn for the first time since we had met. “The second:
Do not
linger. Cross the deep waters to the great island in the northwest.
Immediately, he made plans to leave for England, at which time a third line
appeared:
To the east of the metropolis lies the crossroads.”
“East of London,” I murmured, calling to mind the myriad locations. “A
crossroads… Is it the actual intersection of two streets, or something else? And
how
far east? Just outside the city, or in Purfleet or Dartford, or
Grays… or as far east as Southend-on-Sea or Sheerness?”
“That I cannot tell you,” he said, with mild regret. “But I can say that
after Vlad purchased properties surrounding the city, the fourth line appeared:
There lies buried treasure, the first key.”
Four lines solved; a shiver passed through me as I asked, “And has he
discovered it?” And the fifth line, and the sixth…
He shook his head. “But it is only a matter of time. Once he obtains the
first key, he has only to find the second, and put them both in such a way as to
solve the riddle. And while Elisabeth was privy only to the first line, I
suspect she has found or will find a way to discover all that Vlad has learned.
Then she, too, will join the search for the first key; for she is as cruel and
ambitious as he— perhaps more so. At the earliest opportunity, she will seize
the manuscript.”
“Why has she not done so already?” I asked. “If she had it, and knew the
first line, then she must have retained some of her newfound powers—”
“No.” He tilted his head, and looked at me with utter understanding and
compassion, as if he felt my sorrowful desperation as keenly as I. “When the
manuscript is lost, the power is lost, only to be gained by the next owner. She
is not strong enough to defeat him directly now—but if, through skill or
cunning, she obtains it again, then
she will be the powerful one, and
he the weak. Believe me, Elisabeth is nearby, awaiting her chance—and that is
something to be greatly feared, for she is one of the strongest and wickedest of
all the
sholomonari.”
“And what of Zsuzsanna? Does she not know of the manuscript?”
His expression became curiously veiled. “She knows. She knows almost as much
as Vlad, now; and she, too, seeks the first key.”
“And if she—or Vlad, or Elisabeth—solves the sixth line, and the riddle of
the first and second key…” I could not bring myself to finish the statement, for
the thought was too terrible to give voice.
But Arminius did. “… she will become as the Dark Lord: omniscient and
omnipresent, so powerful that she controls all evil upon the earth. And if Vlad
succeeds, he will have no need of covenants to prolong his immortality —and
therefore, no need of your soul to buy him another generation of life. He will
be as a god, able to do whatever pleases him. But until he solves the mystery,
he might lose the manuscript—just as Elisabeth lost it to him. Were that to
occur, he would most assuredly depend upon the covenant, and your continued
existence, so that he can corrupt you before your death, and thus buy himself
life.
“What he did to you tonight, in choosing to kill you, was the most arrogant
of errors. He is already coming to think of himself as an immortal, invincible…
and that, I think, will lead to his failure.”
He fell silent at last, and gazed calmly at me whilst I considered his story.
His last words gave me hope; but the entire tale had filled me with foreboding.
My task was harder now than ever I had imagined during all those difficult years
spent hunting down and destroying Vlad’s evil spawn upon the European continent.
For now I had not only to kill a powerful vampire and his mate, Zsuzsanna— I had
to prevent them from becoming as gods. And not only them, but the fearsome
Countess of Bathory, as well.
“Arminius,” I said, “you have relayed to me a disturbing tale; my duty, it
seems, has grown harder than ever I imagined. Will you stay with me, and help
me? And not only me”—here I gestured at the three men sitting motionless outside
our sphere—“but my friends, who also are sworn to destroy Vlad?”
Again, the idiot’s smile beneath the sage’s eyes. “I promise you, Abraham,
that I will come when I am again needed. But not before. Remember: Your task is
to redeem your family from its curse; and part of that job is the difficult
journey itself.”
“Can you at least honour one request?”
He lifted his eyebrows, so thin and translucent white that the bright pink of
his baby-skin showed beneath the hairs.
I stood up and held his gaze, intent on convincing him of this one thing.
“Will you keep Miss Lucy in her tomb until morning? Vlad can no longer be
restrained by talismans, and has removed them that we might not destroy her.”
He said nothing; only held me with that marvellous and knowing gaze, then
rose in one graceful movement to stand beside me. As I looked into his eyes, the
edges of his body seemed to grow indistinct, then fade away into shadows as the
sphere of light containing us suddenly dimmed.
Paler and paler he grew, until at last I stood staring at the great iron door
of the Westenra tomb.
Beside me, the vile Lucy-creature hissed, spewing blood-flecked spittle, in
the ellipse of light cast by my lantern. It sat on the ground where I had laid
it an eternity— or only minutes—before. I sensed, rather than saw, my three
friends standing behind me in a semicircle; John, I knew, was nearest, holding
aloft his own silver crucifix to hold his undead beloved at bay.
Oddly, the sudden shift in time did not disorient me; perhaps the
recollection of my tutelage under Arminius had prepared me, for it was a trick
he had often used in those long-past days. I took it as silent confirmation that
he would grant me my one wish, and began at once to remove chinks of
Host-infused putty from the tomb door.
When I had pulled out a sufficient amount, I stepped aside and let the
vampiress rush unhindered past me. Whilst the others gasped, she became
two-dimensionally flat, then collapsed into a needle-thin line like a lady
folding a fan. This moved through the air as an eel travels through water,
though infinitely faster; in less than the blink of an eye, she had disappeared
through a crack as thick as a piece of paper and no wider than my thumb.
Immediately I replaced the putty in the crevice, sealing her inside. And then
I turned to my friends—all just as they had been before the Impaler’s
appearance, Arthur pale and trembling at the sight of his sweet Lucy so defiled,
and Quincey tight-lipped and drawn, with his big freckled hand gripping Arthur’s
arm in support. Neither was in the least bit dishevelled, as if Vlad’s attack
had never happened, as if my work at the tomb door had never been interrupted.
As if Arminius had never appeared.
Nor was so much as a single one of John’s hairs out of place, and his
expression was darkly grim and troubled, as befitted the situation. Yet when I
glanced at him, he caught my gaze, so sharply and pointedly and with such
poignant confusion that I knew he recollected at least some of what had passed.
But Arthur and Quincey clearly did not. So I nodded to my companions, took my
lantern, and walked over to the child she had dropped beneath the yews. He was a
little street urchin, his golden hair and thin face crusted with dirt—and his
neck with blood. Fortunately, we had encountered Miss Lucy just as she was
beginning to drink, and so he still had some colour on his sallow little face.
He had fallen from trance into a sound sleep upon the dying grass—in such cold,
poor thing. I took him into my arms and said to the others, who had followed:
“Let us leave him someplace warm for the police to find. He is not badly off,
and by tomorrow night will be entirely well.”
And so we went away. Arthur and Quincey were headed to the asylum with John,
so I made the pretense of going to the hotel instead, for we had been keeping
the lie that I was staying elsewhere. From there, I returned instead to Purfleet,
and crept to my lonely cell under the guise of invisibility.
* * *
Dr. Seward’s Diary
29 SEPTEMBER, MORNING.
It is aggravating to have to keep writing this by hand, as it takes forever
and makes me feel like Neddy Ludd; I had thought to keep a separate cylinder
with my “private” entries, but the chance is too great that I might make a
mistake and let the wrong ears listen to information they ought not to know.
Still, I must unburden myself this morning, or go mad as poor
Renfield. Too many revelations, too many heartrending emotions…
It was enough, last night, to see the dead woman that I loved turned into a
slavering she-devil; that alone was more than any man could bear without going
insane. And then, to see Vlad himself—far younger and stronger than described,
ablaze with wicked glory—hurl my beloved professor to his death—
More than I could bear, more than I could bear. And yet I bore it.
But when I saw the angelic figure save him less than a split second before
his demise, I told myself: There it is, Jack; after all this time, you’ve
finally achieved total lunacy. How convenient that home is already an asylum…
And I listened to them speak together like long-lost friends, or rather,
long-lost teacher and student, with Van Helsing in my role, and the
shining angel in his. Oh, it is one thing to read of the occult and toy with
auras and discuss theories of vampires and other noncorporeal entities and how
might one deal with one, but—
Well, it is another thing altogether to jee such beings. And to then
find time itself interrupted, ancj an event dispensed with. In this case, it was
as though Vlad had never appeared, and I and the professor never been
endangered; worse, when we had finished at the graveyard, I knew from Art and
Quincey’s expressions and speech that they had not seen the same impossible
events as I. That was a dreadful instant, for I was convinced for the space of a
few seconds that I had truly gone insane. Until, that is, I looked into
the professor’s eyes, and saw that he knew too.
So then, it really had happened. Fortunately, neither Quince nor Art was in
the mood for idle chatter after such a horribly painful evening; after I had the
maid set them up in guest quarters in the private part of the house, they both
went directly to their rooms.
Though by then it was almost three o’clock in the morning, I knew sleep would
be quite impossible until I had answers to some troubling questions. I had no
way of knowing whether the professor had returned, but I was desperate; so after
a bit, when I was sure that Art, Quince, and the maid had all settled into their
beds, I crept back to the asylum and went directly to the professor’s cell. I
knocked softly, calling: “It’s John. I must speak to you.”
The door swung slowly open. I could see no one inside though the lamp was
dimly lit, but a soft veil of blue wavered in the air just inside the threshold.
Boldly, I entered and stepped through the cerulean glimmer to find the room just
the same—except that now the professor was sitting cross-legged upon the floor
in his stocking feet.
He had removed his spectacles and set them upon his lap, so that his dark
blue eyes seemed somehow unclothed, and the greying red-gold hair was
dishevelled, as if he had been worriedly running his fingers through it. At the
sight of me he sighed, replaced the spectacles, and in a weary but kindly voice,
said: “Hello, John. I suspected you might come.”
I could not help being somewhat cool with him, for I felt at best very
awkward, and at worst, very betrayed. “And do you also suspect what I am about
to ask?”
He sighed again. As the air escaped his lungs, all his cheer, all his
strength, all his bravery, seemed to leave with it, until I realised, to my
discomfort and dismay, that I was looking upon a frail, heartbroken man with
shadows beneath his myopic eyes. “I do not suspect; 1 know. And the answer to
your question is yes, John.”
“I am your son,” I said, my tone flat with disbelief, as I thought: Then
he is mistaken; he has forgotten all about what he shouted to Vlad, and he
thinks I have come to ask about something else.
“You are my son,” he said, with such quiet conviction, such tenderness, such
heartfelt apology, that 1 believed him at once. Conflicting emotions assailed
me: doubt, rage, love, relief. It seemed horribly, horribly wrong; it seemed
horribly, horribly right.
At my distress, his expression grew concerned. “You did know, John, that you
were adopted?”
“Yes,” I said, my voice strained almost to breaking; to my embarrassment, I
was wavering on the precipice of tears. “Yes, but that’s not it. I want to know
why—” And at that point, my voice did break; I could say no
more.
“Why I have been your friend and teacher all these years and have not told
you.”
I nodded blindly, blinking back tears, as he motioned me to sit.
I sat upon the cold floor. And he began to tell me a story which began long
ago, when a prince named Vlad, who came to be known much later as the Impaler (Tsepesh)
or the son of the Dragon (Dracula), made a bargain with the Dark Lord. Every
generation that his family continued, he would offer up the soul of the eldest
surviving son in exchange for continued immortality. But before that soul was
offered, its owner had to have been willingly corrupted. If the
sacrificial lamb died a good, honest man, then Vlad himself would lose his
immortality, age, and die.
“My father, Arkady, was the eldest son of his generation; he died
uncorrupted, but in desperation, Vlad bit him, to trap his soul between heaven
and earth. Then Arkady was destroyed… and Vlad grew weaker, and older—but for
some reason, did not die.“
I stared at him as a revelatory thunderbolt struck; I knew the professor had
only one sibling, a brother who had long ago died. “Then you—”
“I am Dracula’s heir,” he said bitterly. “And the eldest surviving son of my
generation. You heard, I think, Arminius speak of the manuscript?”
I nodded, once again dumbstruck.
He looked away. “Only because of it did Vlad dare threaten me. John,” he
said, turning back to me abruptly and seizing my arms in desperation. “I swear
by everything good that I would never have come here had I known of Vlad’s
increased powers. He was weak, failing; I was far more powerful than
he, and believed my mission would be accomplished months before now. I would
never have endangered you so…”
I signalled my acceptance by clasping his arms in return, but my mind had
moved ahead, and was struggling to understand my own past, and my own destiny.
“I—I am your eldest son, am I not? You had a little boy, who died…”
He stared down at the floor and, for the first time since I have known him,
spoke in a voice thick with tears. “A little boy, whom I killed,” he said, and a
spasm of such intense and violent grief crossed his face that I looked away. “My
Jan. My little Jan…” And he broke into such raw, wrenching sobs that I could do
nothing but stare down at my lap and watch my own tears spill.
After a time, we both collected ourselves, and he continued hoarsely,
“Zsuzsanna—Vlad’s niece and vampire mate—bit him, turned him into a tiny
monster. I had no choice but to free him.”
“So when you had another son, you sent him away,” I said. “Far away, and told
no one who he was.”
“To protect him. But see, John”—and he spread his hands in despair—“see what
has become of all my efforts to spare you the grief I have known. As the
Buddhists say, it is your karma to suffer at Vlad’s hands; without the vampire
even knowing of your existence, he sought out and murdered your lady love.”
“But your… friend, Arminius, is here to help.”
“Yes.” He gave a glum nod. “He is here to help. And he will help us, I think,
make sure Miss Lucy is freed from the curse. But he comes when he lists, and I
cannot predict when help will come again.”
“Let us not worry any further until tomorrow’s work is done.” I pushed myself
to my feet, and helped him up. By then I felt nothing for him but compassion and
gratitude, for I saw what a dreadful burden he has carried all his life, and
carries now; I wanted nothing more at that moment than to ease it for him. I put
my arms round him and said, “You know, I trust, that I have always looked upon
you as a father; and now, my affection for you is doubly justified. I realise
that all you have done, you have done out of love.”
He was too choked to speak with words, and so returned the embrace with a
squeeze. We parted in silence, with tears in our eyes, and even deeper grief in
our hearts.
For a long time, as I lay in bed, sleep would not come; and in the midst of
my restless turning, the bittersweet thought seized me: Dear God! That poor
mad woman is my mother!
I woke to the sunlight this morning a different man; more troubled, yes, but
even more resolved to rid the world of the evil that is my heritage. We are off
to Lucy’s tomb at mid-day, and so my first effort is almost begun.
* * *
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
29 SEPTEMBER, NIGHT.
It is done, thank God; dear Miss Lucy is at peace. John was right to make me
let the three men who so loved Miss Lucy be present, and Arthur strike the blow
that freed her. He did so with a resolve and courage—despite the gushing blood
and shrieking of the vile creature in the coffin—that made us all proud, and
gave me hope for the coming battle. I can see they are all the better for having
aided me, and surely they are worthy. Our brave little group is expanding;
before John took me to the station, he received a telegram from Madam Mina
saying that she would arrive shortly to stay at the asylum, and that her husband
would follow the next day.
I only pray Arminius does not desert us again.
I write this on the train. I told the others that I was bound for Amsterdam,
and for once, I truly am. Arminius’ assistance notwithstanding, I know the most
dangerous task is to come; so I go to spend a few hours at Mama’s bedside, lest
she survive me.
Chapter 15
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
1 OCTOBER.
Returned from Amsterdam yesterday, late afternoon, to find both the Harkers,
and Arthur and Quincey, moved in. It makes little sense to continue the charade
that I am staying at a hotel, so I declared that I was moving in as well (but
when I sleep, Jonathan and the others will be hard-pressed to find me).
Everyone, it seems, has fallen quite in love with Madam Mina—including, I
confess, myself. She has taken on the role of lady of the house, bringing us
cups of tea and seeing to our comfort; this is all our fault, of course, because
we have all lived as bachelors so long that such behaviour is irresistibly
endearing. It makes John’s gloomy house, filled at times with the groans and
shrieks of his patients’ mental anguish, seem like a cheerful home—and we the
family.
As for Amsterdam: Poor Mama was no longer lucid, and barely able to sit up to
eat. Most of the time she merely lies with eyes closed, and rarely converses,
according to Frau Koehler. But she had been well cared for, as she had been
freshly bathed, and her bedsores lovingly cleaned and salved. The good Frau has
done the impossible in preventing their spread. I thanked her most sincerely for
her marvellous care—thanked her as though I might never see her again, and I
think she somehow sensed it, for her eyes filled with tears. She has clearly
come to love Mama, and I think it will grieve her greatly when her patient
finally dies.
As I was leaving, Frau Koehler showed to me the accumulated mail, including a
package which had arrived that very day from Buda-Pesth from an “A. Vambery.” I
could not imagine what it might contain, and so I took it to my study and opened
it in private.
The contents were wrapped within several layers of black silk; this both
intrigued and troubled me, for I knew that only an educated occultist would take
such particular care in order to prevent a magical charge from escaping the
contents. Could this have been a trick of Vlad’s—to expose me to some noxious
spell? I decided not, for despite the protective layers, I felt a strong sense
that the contents were intended not to harm, but to help.
And indeed they were: The instant I unfolded the last layer of silk, a burst
of power from the contents filled the room with such pure white radiance that I
actually stood and breathed deeply, feeling as though the very act cleansed
lungs, body, soul.
The
A. stood for “Arminius,” I decided, and though he had not
appeared personally, he had again provided me with help. For within lay some
twenty small silver crucifixes, and an equal number of sacred wafers wrapped
within a thick padding of tissue. The heavy sorrow of seeing Mama so
incapacitated lifted a bit, and indeed, as I took within my hand one of the
crosses and felt its power surge tingling down my arm, I felt honest joy.
Arminius must have personally charged each one, for these, I knew, would be
sufficient to protect my friends from harm, and to keep the Impaler at bay.
I took them with me to England, and arrived in London much more confident
than I had been in many months. On the way to Purfleet in the carriage, I gave
John three of the talismans: one to wear always upon his person, one to put over
his bedroom window, and one over the window in Renfield’s room. It was a deep
relief to be able to provide protection for my friends.
That evening, the six of us met in John’s study and I told the others what I
wished them to know about the vampire, bearing in mind that Jonathan’s loyalties
were questionable. However, I am coming to think less and less that he is under
Vlad’s control, for he relayed the outcome of his “research”: He had tracked the
fifty boxes of earth spoken of in his Transylvania diary right here to Purfleet—
and the estate
next door, Carfax!
The truth is sometimes too strange to believe; but when I learned of Vlad’s
proximity, I was gladder than ever to have Arminius’ talismans in hand. Without
explaining their origin or speaking of their special charge, I gave two each of
the little crucifixes to Arthur and Quincey, bidding the men to hang one over
their bedroom windows and wear one. I tried to do the same with the Harkers—one
for the window, two for each person—but they both demurred, revealing that they
were already wearing crosses round their necks. Still, I managed to press one
upon them for the window, and noted with interest that Harker waited for his
wife to pick it up. (Was it a vampire’s influence, or merely chance?) The act
did me a world of good, knowing that all would be protected—especially now that
we knew Dracula was so close at hand.
By the end of our meeting, it was decided that we would rise in the wee hours
next morning, and go at once to Carfax to inspect the boxes whilst Dracula was,
hopefully, still prowling in the night. However, all the men were of one mind
regarding Madam Mina: after Lucy’s recent death, none of them could bear the
thought of her endangerment, and so pressed her to remain at the house, where
she would be unquestionably safe, for the front and rear doors and every window
of every occupied room would be sealed with a talisman. So before we discussed
our plan of attack, we dismissed her, on the grounds that we were protecting her
and the less she knew, the safer she would be. This she reluctantly agreed to,
especially since her husband was quite adamant, though I was of two minds about
it. I did not wish to see her endangered, but also was sorry to lose one of our
best minds; frankly, of all of us, Madam Mina is made of the strongest mettle.
And, as John said in his angry grief, what good had ignorance done poor Miss
Lucy?
Nonetheless, Madam Mina left before we made our plans for Carfax; with her
gone, we agreed to leave at four the next morning. When our gathering dispersed,
I went off with John for a private conversation, for during our discussion I had
noticed his especial excitement in mid-meeting, sometime after Jonathan revealed
the information about Carfax.
So it was that we took our leave of the others and stole to my cell, where we
could be assured of remaining unseen and unheard.
The moment I had stepped inside and closed the door, John, who had entered
before me, exclaimed, “Carfax! Don’t you see, Professor? It’s the crossroads!”
“What?” I neared him, frowning with curiosity.
“
Quatre face,” he said, and when I continued to look at him askance,
added, “Ah, I suppose you do not speak much French.
Quatre face, the
Old French for ‘crossroads.“ That’s where the name ’Carfax‘ comes from!”
We stared at each other as the revelation overtook me; the smile which
gradually spread over my face was mirrored in John’s own. “The crossroads,” I
said softly, “where buried treasure lies. The first key!”
He joined with me on the last three words, and we laughed with
delight—gently, though, and not overlong, for Dracula had been residing there
some time. What if he had already found it?
John and I agreed at once that we would both look carefully for signs whether
this had happened—and in case it had not, for places where the first key might
be buried. Thus we went early to bed, for I was quite exhausted (not having had
a sound sleep in the past two days, as I was either in a boat, train, or
carriage).
So I slept deeply but woke intensely alert around three; I dressed and made
my way to John’s office. He, too, rose early and met me there. By three
forty-five, both Quincey and Arthur had joined us, so we waited for Harker.
Before he arrived, the attendant rushed in to tell John that Renfield was
pleading to see him. I frowned, thinking that this clearly was the result of
Dracula interfering with our plans, and John caught my gaze and began to tell
the young man that Renfield should have to wait. But the attendant persisted:
“He is more desperate than I have ever seen him, sir, and if you do not come, he
will throw one of his violent fits.”
So John went; and I and Quincey and Arthur joined him. To everyone’s
surprise, Mr. Renfield seemed not only sane but positively elegant, making a
very persuasive case that he had come to his senses at last, and begged to be
let go. And he honestly seemed sane to us all, and most sincere—but John, who
has dealt long with madmen, decided to observe him a period longer; and I, of
course, trusted him not at all, and attributed his desperation to Dracula’s
influence… and the fact that the stronger talisman was indeed prevailing. Why
should we free him that he might be used against us?
We left, whereupon most of Mr. Renfield’s newfound composure deserted him,
and he began to beg piteously for release.
By five o’clock we were at the door of the old Carfax estate, each of us with
a small electric lamp affixed to his breast, and sporting one of Arminius’
crucifixes—except for Mr. Harker, who wore his own. And all of us—except for
Harker, whom we were all reluctant to trust—bore in our pockets pieces of
Arminius’ sacred Host in order to make the boxes uninhabitable to our foe. (In
this way, even if Dracula were privy to Jonathan’s thoughts, he would not be
warned in advance of our real intention.) In addition, Arthur wore a silver
whistle about his neck to call on canine assistance, if need be, for none of us
doubted the old building was crawling with rats.
John utilised his surgical skill and an old skeleton key to get us in the
front entry, and we moved quickly inside, and soon discovered a table in the
hallway containing a ring of keys. These I gave to Jonathan, and bade him lead
us to the chapel, as he was familiar enough with it to find the way. In my life,
I have never seen so much dust collected in one place; in fact, the floor was
buried under a carpet of dust and dirt some several inches thick, so that I
could not tell whether I was walking on earth or stone or wood. Despite our
desire to be as quiet as possible, lest the Impaler had abandoned his hunting
early, both Arthur and John burst into a paroxysm of coughing at the
throat-tickling clouds stirred up by our footsteps. The walls, too, were covered
with a grey film and laced with thick, ancient spiderwebs, many of which hung
low and swayed languidly in our wake, broken by the weight of the dust collected
thereon.
I felt secure the Impaler had gone, for his aura had become so intense and
large of late that I would have sensed it very near the entry. This notion was
reinforced when we arrived at the arching wooden door to the chapel. After some
false starts, Jonathan found the right key and unlocked the door.
When it swung open, the vile stench of the vampire’s lair wafted out. I was
inured to it after so many years, and proceeded directly in, but the others
behind me had not expected it, and so were overwhelmed. Nevertheless, they
forced themselves to follow.
Within was a pathetic ruin of what had once been a vast, high-ceilinged place
of family worship: a few rotting timbers left of what had once been pews and an
altar, and, on the filthy wall beneath a veil of spiderwebs, the outline of what
had once been a large cross. Perhaps it had been a beautiful place, for there
were two large arching windows —perhaps of stained glass, but long ago covered,
as always, with the thick film of dust.
The room spoke strongly of gloom, decay, impermanence. This in itself was
discouraging enough to see—but far worse was the realisation, after some sileni
counting, that the wooden boxes set out in careful rows were not fifty in
number, but twenty-nine.
Twenty-one missing! I sidled over to John, and whispered for him to quickly
tell Quincey and Arthur
not to seal the boxes off with the Host. Doing
so would only alert the vampire to our plan, so that he might more cleverly hide
the remaining boxes. John managed to tell the other two men whilst Harker was
distracted counting and looking about for some other place the crates might be
hidden. I then instructed all the others to sift through the dirt and dust and
come up with any clue that might lead us to where the other boxes had been
moved; of course, John knew well that he was meant to search for traces of the
manuscript or first key.
As we all searched, I sensed an abrupt change in the room—a glimmering hint
of indigo which disturbed me… and yet did not. At that same instant, Arthur and
Jonathan both reacted to something in the shadows. “I thought I saw a face,”
Arthur said apologetically.
I said nothing, but crouched down to open boxes and sift through dust and
cobwebs for any clue as to the manuscript or key. As I was doing so, one of the
men moved over and stood beside me, waiting to confer about something—or so I
thought, for in my peripheral vision appeared a pair of trouser legs and boots.
I glanced up, mouth open to ask,
Yes? But the question died upon my
lips as my eyes focussed upon a tall man dressed in black, with flowing
silver-and-jet hair and mustache; a man—nay, a vampire—whose skin gleamed
immortal, mother-of-pearl white.
* * *
Vlad, I thought, staring up at the intruder, but said
nothing—surprise had taken my voice. Disappointment washed over me like the
bitterest sea; so even Arminius’ help had come to naught. If his talismans could
not even discourage the vampire in his lair, then none of us were safe, and poor
Madam Mina, left alone in the asylum…
But as I stared, my dismay began to ease. For the eyes were not the deep
evergreen of the Impaler’s, but hazel, and soft; and the nose not so sharp, nor
the lips so cruel.
Indeed, the face bore no wickedness nor wanton sensuality, but gentleness
mixed with sorrowful joy.
“Dear God,” I whispered, unaware that I’d had any intention of speaking; the
words seemed to spill from me without the intervention of brain or teeth or
tongue or lips. “Dearest God…”
I looked about me to see the others busily at work, quite unaware of the
immortal standing near them. The vampire was invisible, but I was not; when he
turned and motioned me to follow round a corner, I did so, doing my best to seem
as if I had just thought of a new place to search.
Once we were both out of sight, he opened his arms to me, and we two
embraced.
“Bram. You have made me proud,” he whispered into my ear. “Very proud…”
“Arkady,” I breathed, and drew back to better look at him. “Father… How can
this be? Twenty years ago, I left you dead in Castle Dracula, a stake piercing
your heart.”
He patted his now-whole chest and smiled. “I do not quite understand it
myself, but somehow I was resuscitated —by whom, I do not know. Perhaps it was
possible because I was never decapitated.” His smile faded and he looked
intensely into my eyes. “I would speak more of it, but we have little time
before the sun rises, Bram. And there is something that must be found, and
quickly, else Vlad will grow so powerful that no one, not even the Devil
Himself, will be able to stop him.”
“Yes, I know—the manuscript.”
He was taken rather aback. “Who told you of it?”
“Arminius.”
A ghost of the smile returned. “I am glad, then, that he still helps you.”
And again more seriously: “Vlad has not yet found the first key—of that I am
sure. If he does, he will gain even more strength than he has now. It is here,
somewhere; I search for it when I am able, but I am no match for him these days.
Hardly, probably, a match even for you now.“
I smiled as I shook my head.
“Now I shall return to invisibility, and join your search. But we must work
quickly, for there is not much time left before he returns.” He stepped away
from me, and began to fade—but ere his disappearance was complete, he paused,
and with a wistful expression asked:
“Is Mary still alive?”
I am not a man given to tears; but I have shed many of late. And at the
question, my eyes filled with them again. “She is safe, and in Amsterdam.”
At my reaction, his expression became one of anguished concern. “But she is
not well?”
“She is dying.”
“Ah,” he groaned, coming to full visibility, and turned away. “Were it not
for Vlad, I would see her one last time…” He gathered himself again, then asked,
“And your little boy, Jan—I know it is a difficult thing, but did you—”
“I killed him,” I replied bitterly. “And, yes, Gerda is still quite mad from
it all.”
“He rests,” Arkady said, and wound a cold arm about me. “He rests sweetly and
at peace, because of you. Soon Gerda will have respite from her sorrow; the time
will come. You must believe…”
And he put his face against my neck and wept cold, cold tears. John would
have been terror-struck, I know, to have seen me permit a vampire such access to
veins; but with Arkady, I had no fear. My one concern was not to yield to my
grief—not here, in front of the others; not here, when there was work to be
done.
Soon he straightened, and said, sighing, “Always sorrow with us Tsepesh.
Always sorrow… I had wanted so to spare you the pain Vlad can inflict…”
“Just as I wanted to spare him,” I said, pointing at John, who had
moved to our periphery. He was working with his back to us, but even so, Arkady
studied him with sad fondness.
“Another son,” he marveled; it was not quite a question.
“Your grandson,” I confirmed.
He looked back at me. “Then we must find a way to spare him, Bram.
Your life and mine destroyed, and the lives of those we love… That is enough.”
And as I gazed back at him, he took on a gossamer appearance; before he had
completely faded, I whispered, “Come to me again. The asylum on the very next
property…”
As I composed myself and returned to the others, I heard his voice whisper in
my ear: I have left them with a little distraction…
Indeed he had. I found myself ankle-deep in dust and squirming rats; in fact,
the boxes and floor and walls were covered in the black crawling creatures, and
their tiny eyes reflected the glow from our little lamps with an eerie
phosphorescence. Almost immediately, Arthur blew his whistle; soon three
terriers appeared, and after some reluctance (no doubt they sensed Arkady’s
presence), the dogs grew bold and dispatched the writhing lot.
By then sunlight was approaching, and it seemed that we had done as much as
possible for the time. We left relieved that none of us were harmed, but quite
concerned about the missing boxes. Any delay is to be feared, but at least
Harker is out tracking down the other boxes.
* * *
3 OCTOBER.
The worst of all days since we lost poor Lucy.
Until last night, all had been going well, and I dared hope. I am glad we
permitted Harker to join our party, as he has been an invaluable source of
information as to where Vlad moved the boxes. The “count,” it seems, has
acquired other properties in east and south London—in New Town, where
Whitechapel Road becomes Mile End; and Jamaica Lane, Bermondsey. He has also
purchased a house in the city’s very heart, at Piccadilly. Today we shall go
there, and search for titles to other properties, and kjys to them. And perhaps,
Fate willing, we shall come across a very different “key.”
By yesterday, Jonathan had completed his research, and we were in possession
of the necessary addresses; Arthur and Quincey spent the day rounding up horses
so that we could all move quickly from destination to destination. Tomorrow,
I told myself, the vampire will be ours! I was filled again with
optimism: but alas! In my foolish desire to protect Madam Mina from harm, and
from knowledge of the evil, I have spent little time with her— and so did not
see the obvious.
In the predawn hours, John came running to my cell, so distraught that I
immediately emerged from my shelter to see what had so frightened him.
“Professor!” he shouted, without any concern that someone might overhear and
learn my actual location in the house. “Renfield is dying…”
Bag in hand, I ran back with him to see whether I could be of any medical
help. The door to Renfield’s cell was wide open, and the attendant squatted
beside him with an expression of anguished helplessness.
The first glance proved that John had not overstated the situation in the
least, for the poor man lay on his side, with his face turned upward, and his
head and shoulders surrounded by an ever-enlarging dark halo of blood.
Examination revealed a broken back and fractured skull, with pieces of bone
pushed down into the brain; he would die soon if no action were taken to relieve
the pressure of blood pooling inside the cranium.
Instinctively, I looked up from where I knelt beside the dying man, and
squinted at the barred window, where only recently John had put one of Arminius’
crosses.
Gone. In a terse voice I demanded of the attendant: “The crucifix above the
window—where is it?”
He must have thought me mad or heartless, or both, to ask such an apparently
unrelated question, with poor Renfield suffering at my knees. Sheepishly, the
burly young man handed it to John, saying: “I removed it because this evening he
just went wild trying to jump up and grab it; I was afraid he’d hurt himself, so
I went in and took it down. He tried to snatch it from me, and begged me for it,
but as it was sharp—”
“That’s enough,” John said, quite angrily; I suppose the attendant thought we
suspected him of wanting to steal it, and were more concerned about Seward’s
property than our suffering patient, for he drew back with a hurt expression.
“Send him away,” I ordered; and at the attendant’s scandalised glance at me,
then at John, explained: “We shall have to drill a hole in his skull to relieve
the pressure. If you wish to stay—”
But he was already out the door, closing it behind him. To John I said, as I
took instruments from my bag,
“Trephination is indicated. I do not think we will save him, but at best, he
can spend his last moments conscious and more comfortable.”
As I spoke, a soft knock came at the door, and both Arthur and Quincey peered
inside. John gave them entrance; no explanation beyond the pool of blood and our
horribly injured patient was required.
They stood by in silent dismay whilst I performed the operation, drilling
just above the patient’s ear. We were, for the moment, successful; after a few
moments, the pressure was relieved. Renfield opened his eyes, and quite lucidly
asked that the strait-jacket be removed. There was little point in obliging him,
however, as movement would only increase his pain and speed up his demise;
though death was not far off, I sensed he wished to speak, and “confess his
sins,” as it were. I was not reluctant to hear them, as the unsecured window
spoke of danger for us all.
He spoke rationally, even kindly, in a way that evoked my pity—but never have
I heard words that so sickened my heart. Our Renfield had indeed been under the
vampire’s sway, and quite adoring of his “Lord and Master”; but he had also been
quite taken with Madam Mina, who had twice visited him out of kindness—the
second time, that very afternoon. She had grown too pale to suit him, he said;
“and it made me mad to know that He had been taking the life out of her.”
Horrible moment! None of us could repress a shudder as he said it.
And Dracula, smelling of Mina, had come to him only moments earlier that
night, entering easily once the talisman had been removed. And this man—this
poor deranged lunatic—took the vampire in his hands and fought, fought to
protect Madam Mina the only way he knew how.
When he had finished speaking and sighed as he lapsed again into
unconsciousness, the air was electric: we four men said not a word, but left the
valiant madman where he lay dying, and ran to our rooms to collect our
talismans. Within seconds we had all arrived at the door to the Harkers’
room—locked from within.
All together, we threw ourselves against it, and came crashing through. I
fell forward, and the others surged past me, then abruptly stopped. Falling, I
had the sense that I was passing through a cloud of glittering indigo—strong and
cold, though not so strong as when I had last seen the vampire, and touched
within by a hint of radiant white and the merest gleam of gold. Yet it was not
Vlad—no, it was not Vlad who brushed by me, but something else entirely evil,
and entirely feminine.
It passed, and quickly; the door banged shut behind me as it went. And as I
struggled to my hands and knees (oh, and had I been standing, I would have
dropped to them!), I saw:
Harker, snoring on the bed close to the window, and on the mattress’ outer
edge his wife—her face pressed fast against the bared chest of the Impaler,
whose eyes were closed in deepest ecstasy. She turned her head, gagging,
revealing in the moonlight mouth and cheeks dark and dripping with vampiric
blood. The sight .pierced like a jagged blade: this was the crudest version of
the blood ritual, a sanguinary exchange which tied victim most thoroughly to
predator. If he had also drunk from her, then she was his.
But in the midst of my horror, the thought seized me: He did not hear us
come. He did not hear us come. He has changed…
I scrambled to my feet as the vampire at last became aware of his enemies’
presence; with one swift, powerful move, he thrust his victim back upon the bed
and sprang towards us. By then I had raised high the envelope which contained
the sacred Host, and felt a surge like lightning travel from heart to fingers.
Even without the infusion of Arminius’ strength, never had I been more
determined, more focussed, more confident, in my life; I think I could have
driven him away by my will alone.
At the sight of the envelope he cowered—cowered in abject agony, as though
the power emanating from it were searing his skin!—and I collected myself enough
to find my second sight, whereby I saw his aura: shrunken, depleted, dimmed.
These both seemed even to him a revelation, for an expression of disbelieving
and hellish rage contorted his features and reddened his green eyes to flame. He
was confused; he had been so swept away by his deed that he was surprised by
this sudden lapse! Had it only recently happened?
Whilst Jonathan still snored, I moved between the Harkers and the monster,
advancing steadily with the Host aloft until Vlad gathered his wits and
transformed himself to dark mist. Thus he moved past four armed guardians, and
disappeared beneath the door—for the little silver cross above the window cast a
barrier he could not cross.
At once, Madam Mina drew a rasping breath and let go a scream that pierced
the very veil of Heaven.
Words cannot express the horror that followed, when poor Harker woke and saw
the blood smeared upon her face and gown, and realised what had happened; we
scarce could restrain him from grabbing his knife—the broad, curving blade known
in India as the kukri—and pursuing the vampire on foot. As for brave Madam Mina,
she was undone—not by fear for herself, but that she might be used to harm those
she loved. For Vlad, in his arrogance, had tormented her cruelly, saying that
she was now his to command, and that the time would come when she would become
his vampire companion and helper—and infect each of the five men who were
righting now against him.
Gently I calmed her, and coaxed her to tell all that had happened, whilst
John lit the lamp. Even with its light, I could not judge whether she had been
freshly bitten and the rite completed, for she leaned against her husband’s
breast so that her long dark hair fell forward, veiling face and neck.
When she was sufficiently composed, she revealed the worst, in a brave voice
that faltered rarely: the vampire had bitten her and she had been forced to
swallow some of his blood. The exchange was complete, and our efforts to protect
Madam Mina had resulted in her being lost to us.
Thank God Vlad is weaker! Even so, we are bound more than ever to destroy
him, before he can fulfill his promise to poor Madam Mina.
And if he is weaker—as John and I discussed privately —it can mean only one
thing: that another immortal has stolen the manuscript from him. But who?
By the time Madam Mina had finished her terrible story, the dawn was
breaking. We all agreed to dress and meet shortly afterwards, to discuss what
was to be done.
First, of course, John and I went again to check on Renfield—dead, poor
fellow. Lunatic or no, he died bravely and for Madam Mina’s sake, and for that,
I shall always honour his memory. I pressed the talisman from his window into
his cold hand, and said a silent prayer for the dead.
Once we had all dressed and assembled, our plan became clear: We will go to
each of the four locations— Carfax, where twenty-nine boxes reside; Mile End and
Bermondsey, which each hold six; and Piccadilly, where nine remain. These we
will seal off with the Host, and so force a confrontation. I am hopeful of
victory—but even if the Impaler succumbs to us, we must then face an even more
powerful foe…
Chapter 16
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
3 OCTOBER, NIGHT.
To continue with today’s adventure: We had gone at six-thirty this morning to
meet for breakfast, since it was agreed that all needed to take in substantial
nourishment for the day’s events. So we trooped into the dining-room and
breakfasted on scones and bangers and tea. Though everyone felt exhausted and
beaten, we worked hard to maintain a front of good cheer; Mina was as bright and
smiling as ever, and Arthur and Quincey joked with her quite a bit and made her
laugh. I drank coffee, like a good Dutchman, and smiled as best I could as I
sipped from my cup, watching them. Jonathan clearly was having the most
difficulty. From time to time, as he turned to gaze upon his charming wife, his
eyes filled with tears; and he would look away swiftly, lest she see his worry
and lose heart herself.
In the midst of all, while everyone else was distracted by witty
conversation, the doorbell chimed. A moment later, the housekeeper sidled up to
me and said softly, “Dr. Van Helsing? There’s a lady at the door who wishes to
speak with you.”
This quiet announcement left me—and John, who sat beside me—stunned. We
shared a dark glance. Who else could know that I was here? I fingered the
talisman in my pocket as I rose, wondering whether this was some trick of Vlad’s…
Or had Frau Koehler taken it upon herself to announce Mama’s death in person,
rather than send a telegram?
I left, and John silently followed; the others were talking away, Mina
laughing with false gaiety at something Quincey had said.
By the time I reached the foyer, however, John had moved in front of me,
stride-for-stride with the housekeeper, who reassured him: “They’re waiting
outside, Doctor; I know you’ve asked me not to let anyone inside the house
without your approval…”
She moved off as John cracked open the door a mere finger’s breadth. From
where I stood, I could not see past him, but his profile was easily visible; the
movement of his eyes revealed that there was one person standing upon the porch,
and one standing slightly farther back. Apparently, he did not know them, for he
demanded sternly, “I’m Dr. Seward. May I help you?”
I heard a voice first, one distantly, oddly familiar— that of a lady, with a
vaguely Slavic accent, but excellent command of English:
“I pray you can, Doctor; but first, let me say that it is more of a pleasure
than you know for me to see you. I have heard of you from… roundabout sources.”
John lifted his head in puzzled surprise, and his eyes narrowed in that
peculiar way which indicates that he is uncertain about whether to trust what he
has seen.
The lady continued, in a voice that now was maddeningly familiar, but somehow
changed so that I could not place it. “I wish to speak to Abraham Van Helsing,
and as quickly as possible. Tell him I have information which can aid him in
his… search.“
At this, I pushed my way beside John, able to resist no longer. “I am Abraham
Van Helsing.”
In the doorway stood a woman—not beautiful, but handsome in a severe way, and
pale, with strong, sharp chin and nose, and high, sculpted cheeks. Her
silver-streaked raven hair was pulled tightly into a thick coil at the base of
her neck, without thought for fashion or flattery. Likewise, she was dressed in
a plain black gown— against which a thin, tall white dog pressed—and veil, which
she had drawn back to speak. Beneath heavy coal-coloured brows, her brown eyes
were somber, subdued, and when she saw me, they brightened slightly; but she did
not smile.
Some several feet behind her stood a man, also dressed in mourning. My
peripheral vision detected his presence, but I could not take my gaze from the
woman’s face, for I knew her—and yet I did not.
Her aura was not strong, merely adequate; most curiously, while it came close
to the indigo shade of the vampire (though not so much black as a deep, deep
blue), it was sprinkled with the gold of spiritual advancement. I could think
only of a dark blue sky littered with stars.
If John had seen this, he had good reason to be confused.
“Bram,” she said kindly, “who was born my nephew, Stefan George Tsepesh. It
is I, Zsuzsanna Tsepesh. I have come to ask your forgiveness, and offer my
help.”
For some seconds I could not speak—could only stare at her with lips parted
in amazement. For this lady
was Zsuzsanna, the destroyer of my little
Jan, tormentor of my poor Gerda… but Zsuzsanna without any trace of vampiric
glamour, Zsuzsanna without any effort to mesmerise. I hesitated on the
threshold; her sincerity seemed genuine, but to invite her into the house could
mean disaster for all… especially if
she had stolen the manuscript.
“Indeed, you need my forgiveness,” I said bitterly. “But I am not sure I can
give it. Because of you, my little son is dead, and my wife irretrievably mad.”
The memory evoked hatred within me, and a desire to be cruel; I lifted the
talisman from my pocket and held it at chest level.
Her eyes narrowed with pain, and she stiffened, but made no movement to run
away or strike out against me; instead, she held her ground. I knew not what to
make of it all, for the more I looked upon her, the more grief and anger
overwhelmed me. I wished only to slam the door and forget her face as quickly as
I could—and made a move to do just that. But ere I succeeded, the man behind her
called out: “Bram! Wait!”
And Arkady mounted the stairs and moved beside her; a single sunlit tear
spilled onto her cheek as he put a comforting arm about her shoulder. “My son,”
he said gently, “with your weapons”—he nodded at the cross in my hand —“you have
us both at a considerable disadvantage. I would never endanger you, and I ask
you now: Will you hear her out?”
In reply, I glanced pointedly at John. He stared at the two with a profoundly
perplexed expression, then back at me, and asked: “He is really your father?”
“He is,” I replied, and Arkady smiled at his grandson, saying:
“And you are John. I saw you last night at Carfax; your father pointed you
out to me. My name is Arkady; but, please, call me whatever you wish.”
The colour drained from John’s face, and his expression grew slack; the
strangeness of it all, coupled with last night’s terrible events, left him
utterly dazed. He had come to see the vampire as our deadliest foe—and now we
were contemplating welcoming two into the house. But he looked askance again at
me—and, seeing affirmation, opened wide the door and said: “Please. Come in.”
* * *
They could not, of course, pass over the threshold until John had removed the
crucifix that hung above it. (The dog, perhaps, could have, but stayed close to
Zsuzsanna’s side and would not leave her.) Once they had passed, he immediately
replaced the talisman. This caused them some unease, but they reassured us that
what they had to say was important enough to merit temporary discomfort.
I led them into John’s office, so that the others would not hear, and bade
them all sit. They did, and after a reassuring glance from Arkady, Zsuzsanna
said, her voice wavering:
“First and foremost, please know that I honestly regret all the harm I have
caused you, your wife, and your first son. Will you forgive me?”
I nodded solemnly, for I was too pained to reply; in fact, merely to indicate
assent was a difficult enough act of will, for my feelings were those of hatred
and fury. But I swallowed them—a bitter-enough pill—and watched relief spread
over her features.
“Thank you,” she sighed, then gathered herself. “There are many things I must
tell you before you continue in your efforts against Vlad. The first—”
“Excuse me,” I interrupted, perhaps a bit too harshly, “but you must
first answer a question for me before you continue. Why this abrupt
change of loyalties? When last I saw you, you swore to kill me.”
Zsuzsanna laughed—not an altogether happy sound, but one which caused the
dog, who lay at her feet, to glance up at his mistress. She leaned forward to
stroke his head with distracted affection as she replied:
“It has not been as abrupt as it might appear. Remember, Bram, that I have
spent five decades with Vlad and, as time passes, have come more and more to see
that he has misled me. He is not the honourable misunderstood hero he initially
portrayed himself to be; he is a cold, vile creature, completely incapable of
any kind or affectionate impulse. As he was in life, so he is in undeath. And I
have grown to hate him”—she lowered her face—“and myself. I was at Carfax, too,
last night—where I came upon Kasha.” She glanced affectionately at Arkady. “I
watched your encounter—how you both mourned Jan, and Gerda, and Mary”—again she
bowed her head, and rapidly blinked to stave off tears—“and I knew that I
had been a source of sorrow to all five of you.”
I signalled the dog, which rose and came shyly over, head down, tail
tentatively wagging. I stroked its head and ears, and gazed deep into its
sensitive dark eyes; it was a common, mortal dog, nothing more—and that
impressed me more greatly than the speech she had made. Dogs are noble souls and
instinctively fear evil and the vampire; yet this one doted on his mistress, and
she on him.
“Very well. That shall be sufficient—for the time. Go on.” The dog settled
comfortably upon my feet, and I was forced to continue stroking it or suffer
repeated wet, cold nudges.
Her head lifted, and an impish glint came into her eye as she saw the dog
lying upon my feet. “Friend likes you. He loves me dearly, but is always so
relieved to find a nice, warm mortal.” And then the sprite vanished, and her
expression grew somber once again as she said:
“There is another immortal involved here, a woman, Countess Elisabeth of
Bathory—who, during her life, brutally tortured more than six hundred fifty
young women to death, then bathed in their blood. Have you heard of her?”
“I have.”
“She is a vampire—and yet not, for she eschews sharp teeth and prefers to
inflict the wounds on her victims with torture devices before drinking and
bathing in the blood. She has always been a more powerful magician than Vlad,
and more of a scientist; her pact with the Dark Lord is free from the
superstitious trappings that mark Vlad’s. She can move about during the day or
night, sleeps when she pleases in a bed, and does not fear religious
symbols—only those powerfully charged as talismans, such as yours.” She nodded
at my pocket, wherein I had replaced the crucifix; then she drew a deep breath.
“I know, because I was her companion for some time. And I can say without
reservation that, given a choice between Vlad and Elisabeth, I should fear
Elisabeth more.”
On instinct, I asked, “Was it Elisabeth who stole the manuscript from Vlad
last night?”
“It was,” Arkady volunteered, before his sister could reply. “When he was…
quite distracted. Feeding, and doing the blood ritual with”—his expression grew
mildly surprised—“someone here, wasn’t it, Zsuzsa?”
She nodded, but was too intent on her mission to react. “Elisabeth’s
abilities are increasing rapidly; soon she will be as strong as Vlad was, as she
comes to understand the riddle more and more. We have much to fear if she finds
the first key, which will lead to the appearance of the fifth line.”
At this John seemed to come out of his daze enough to speak. “She may already
have found it.”
“No,” Zsuzsanna said, leaning towards him—then recoiling a bit, which told me
that John had taken my instruction to heart, and still wore Arminius’ crucifix
on his person. “She has not. I know it.”
“How?” My son’s expression was that of the sceptical scientist, a trait I had
encouraged.
“Jonathan Harker,” she replied, and both John and I immediately sat forward.
“When he was at Castle Dracula, I bit him. And Elisabeth drank his blood, which
put him under her control, as well. One of her tricks is that she can heal
wounds, so I left no mark upon him. He is both my agent… and hers. This causes
some difficulty now, for we can sense each other’s thoughts to some extent. As
she is the more powerful, I dare only read him briefly, at odd hours. That is
one of the things I wanted to warn you of; tell Harker nothing that you do not
wish Elisabeth to know!”
She paused, then continued, “I regret it did not occur to me earlier to use
Harker until I became suspicious of Elisabeth, and left her; it was then I
discovered that”—she lowered her gaze, embarrassed—“that she was kind to me and
pretended to love me in order that I might love her; for the terms of her
covenant were that she should win a lover, and keep that love constant for six
months… at which point, her victim would become the property of the Dark Lord. I
believe that /was the incentive for her coming to Castle Dracula.”
An awkward silence fell over us all. John and I both blushed, and lowered our
gazes; Arkady again put a protective, reassuring arm around his sister’s
shoulders.
It was John who spoke up first. He tilted his face, intrigued; I could see
that he had begun to trust her (a good sign, for I am coming to think he will
soon become more adept at reading persons and auras than I). “Tell me… what is
Harker doing now?”
The muscles in her face relaxed slightly, and her dark eyes took on a distant
look—for an instant, no more. She shifted and said matter-of-factly, “Chewing a
sausage, though he is too heartbroken to taste it. What has happened to his
wife?” And as the realisation struck home, she lifted a gloved hand to her lips.
“Oh! I am so sorry…”
Again, there was a strained lapse in the conversation; this time, Zsuzsanna
reinitiated it herself by rising. “That is all I have come to tell you: that,
and that we must all try again to find the first key before Elisabeth or Vlad
does. We shall give aid and information to you whenever we can.”
The rest of us rose, as gentlemen will. “Now I must tell you one
last thing,” I said, quite solemn myself. “For I want no deception, no secrets,
between us. I am bound to destroy Vlad… and all vampires. If you help
me, Zsuzsanna, do so with the realisation that, if we succeed, I will not permit
you or my father to live.”
She reached out to take Arkady’s hand, and a look of understanding passed
between them. “I know. I’m prepared for that now.”
Arkady looked back at us both and said, “We will be at Carfax this morning—if
Elisabeth permits.”
“As will we,” I said. “We go ostensibly to seal off Vlad’s boxes; but John
and I will be looking for the manuscript and key. The others know nothing of
either; we thought it safest, as we suspected Harker was somehow… vampirically
connected.”
Arkady nodded. “Then we will stay out of sight, and not interrupt you except
in an emergency.”
So the two visitors turned to leave—Zsuzsanna hesitating at first, for I
think she wished to embrace me, or to say something more to convince me of her
heartfelt regret. I wanted nothing of it, for the deep pain she had inflicted on
me and my family could not be erased by a mere confession. Thus I turned away
from her, and she sighed reluctantly and began to leave.
But as John put his hand upon the door to open it for her, I called out:
“Why?”
The two men frowned back at me in puzzlement, unsure of both my question’s
meaning and target; but Zsuzsanna understood.
“Why?” I asked again. “The full truth.” She looked over her shoulder at me,
and on her lips played a bitter smile.
“Because I grew bored, Abraham. In half a century of undeath, I have achieved
the heights of pleasure and the depths of depravity; I have known unlimited
wealth, unlimited beauty, unlimited power over men. I collected about me all the
exquisite things of the world: jewels, clothing, creatures. But the loveliness I
sought could not mask the ugliness of what I had become, nor hide the fact that
my existence had become a weary attempt to repeat pleasure after pleasure
throughout eternity. Nor could it ever win me a moment’s honest affection from
another.” And here she again took her brother’s hand and squeezed it; and he
smiled, eyes bright, down at her.
Gazing up at him, she said softly, “Without death or compassion, life has no
meaning. And so 1 have returned to the only one who truly loves me. For his
sake, I would sacrifice all. What else was left to me? Should I become like Vlad
and Elisabeth—bored predators who have staked their continued immortality on
games, with mortal pawns?” She faced me, eyes flashing. “Ask your father,
Bram—ask Kasha how Vlad toyed with him, slowly trapping him in a web where he
could do naught but be accomplice to the crudest murders! It was the only way
Vlad kept the centuries exciting: every twenty years, another eldest son,
another gradual conquest, thrilling only because his undeath depended on it.“
Her voice rang with a passion and fire I had seen twenty years ago, in the
vampiress—now I know it belonged to the woman herself. “I will not become as he!
I will not fear Death so much that I care not what suffering I inflict! I have
inflicted enough anyway—and if I can make some small amends, I will.”
* * *
So she and Arkady left to precede us to our destination. John and I returned
to the others, and, with Jonathan, Quincey, and Arthur—and several of the
consecrated Hosts—went to Carfax. By then, it was half past seven in the
morning, and though morning made the old house seem somewhat less gloomy than
the night before, it accentuated more than ever the dismal degree of filth.
Certainly the chapel seemed less daunting; pale shafts of sunlight streamed
through the dust-covered eastern windows, dappling the wall where the cross had
once hung.
At once I produced wrench and turnscrew, and, with these in hand, proceeded
to unscrew the lid from the first of the heavy boxes. The others assisted me by
lifting away the lid, and setting inside a piece of the Host. So we went one by
one, treating each box the same—difficult work, and at one point I gave the
turnscrew to John and asked him to continue, as my back had grown tired of
bending and I wished to stretch it. It was the truth, though in part, I also
wanted to surreptitiously wander a bit in search of the first key.
Before starting, however, I wandered over to the wall and stretched a bit in
the sunlight—for the day was chill and the old house cold as the tomb it was, so
any bit of warmth was welcome. As I stood there, one hand pressed to the filthy
wall for balance, a flash of dark, dark blue appeared in front of my eyes; I
blinked, and when I looked again, there stood Zsuzsanna.
Invisible and silent, I hoped, for her agitation was exceptional; she was
near to wringing her hands as she cried, “See there! The wall! He has taken it!”
She pointed, and I followed the direction with my gaze. To my left, slightly
above my head, a shaft of pale daylight painted the wall—at the very centre of
the now-departed cross. The dust and spiderwebs there had been brushed away to
reveal a hole in the rotting wood, wherein had been placed a small wooden box.
The box’s lid had been sprung open, so that if one stood perpendicular to the
wall, careful examination would show the lid protruding.
I reached up casually and felt its inside with my fingers: emptiness, and
polished wood. An effort to pull the box free failed. “And how do you know it
was Vlad,” I breathed, turning my face to the wall, “and not Elisabeth?”
She glanced at Harker, who, along with Quincey, was lifting the heavy lid of
the third box so Arthur could set inside another piece of sacred wafer. “It
cannot have been she. I do not know where she is, but she is still frustrated,
and now bitterly angry. I think she made this same discovery this morning—which
means that Vlad must have found the key sometime last night.”
“And read the fifth line?” I asked grimly.
“I don’t know. I must hurry—Arkady has gone to try to follow him, and I must
join him!”
Before I could say another word, she had vanished; and so I rejoined
the men and helped them finish their task.
It was long, hard work, and mid-day had arrived before we were finished. The
others seemed cheered by our early success, whilst I struggled to hide my own
disappointment; John alone noticed. As we could spare no delay, we proceeded
almost immediately to the station and took the train into London.
We located the old mansion at 347 Piccadilly quite easily, though the
bustling neighbourhood in which it was located and the bright light of day
precluded our breaking house as we had at Carfax. Arthur came up with the
excellent notion of pretending to be the owner of the property, and hiring a
locksmith to open the front entry. This he did most successfully, feigning such
casual ease and confidence as he watched the hired man do his job that a
patrolling policeman took no notice of them.
After some wry comments from Quincey as to Lord Godalming’s native talent for
crime, we entered the house. Making a thorough examination of the property, we
found Dracula’s effects upon the dining-room table: a bundle of deeds (thank
God, only to the four properties) and another ring heavy with keys.
But within the same room were the boxes: not nine, but only eight in number!
Nevertheless, with the aid of turnscrew and wrench, we opened each one and
sealed it with the Host. Then the tools were turned over to Arthur and Quincey,
along with the ring of keys; off they went to Bermondsey and Mile End, whilst
Harker, Seward, and I remained at Piccadilly, to lie in wait for the “count,”
should he come.
Come he did—after a wait of many hours, and just after Quincey and Arthur
returned with the report that they had successfully sealed off six boxes at
Bermondsey and six at Mile End; but one box remained unaccounted for!
It was just after that frustrating revelation that we heard the key turn in
the lock, followed by footsteps— sounds that put us all on alert, but also
filled me with bittersweet gladness, for they signalled Vlad’s return to limited
powers in daylight. He could move only in human guise now, until the setting of
the sun—all the better for us!
Even so, he proved a fearsome foe, and sprang through the dining-room door
with feline grace and cunning. Harker wielded his great kukri knife and slashed
out, eyes blazing like those of an avenging angel. Had he been an inch closer,
he would have won the day, for the tip came perilous close to the vampire’s cold
heart. As it was, the huge blade sliced through the breast of his coat, and out
spilled a cascade of gold coins and banknotes.
With speed and skill, the vampire ducked beneath Jonathan’s arm to scoop up
what coins and notes he could, and with them ran off, so swiftly that none could
catch him.
Harker was undone by his failure, for he had sworn to free his darling from
the curse by nightfall; we comforted him as best we could. But secretly, I felt
encouraged by that afternoon’s encounter: Vlad’s hair had been streaked with
silver, his face lined with the first traces of age. He is growing steadily
weaker, key or no! And soon we will obtain it from him…
If Elisabeth does not reach him first.
* * *
4 OCTOBER.
In the hour before dawn, John came to wake me. He and the other men had been
taking turns spending the night outside the Harkers’ room—in part to make Madam
Mina feel protected, and in part, I think, to protect me from Jonathan.
At any rate, Jonathan had come rushing out of the room to wake John, as Madam
Mina had asked me to come hypnotise her at once, before the sun rose.
I wasted no time, but pulled on my dressing-robe and followed John. By then,
both Arthur and Quincey (who, I suspect, were too restless to sleep) had risen
and the whole lot of us made our way to the Harkers’ bedchamber.
The gaslight was burning bright, and Madam Mina was sitting upon a love seat
in her dressing-gown, her long dark hair falling in waves upon her shoulders.
Jonathan sat beside her, holding her hand in both of his with a solicitous air;
his demeanour, too, was cheerful and excited, but his eyes were anxious. At the
sight of me she smiled, looking more her old self than she had in many a day;
but the smile faded almost at once as she said, with an air both businesslike
and excited:
“You must hypnotise me at once, Doctor! Don’t ask me how, but I know
that I am privy to information about Vlad which can help us—”
Before she finished speaking, I lifted a hand, and bade her fix her gaze upon
it—more for the sake of the others watching than Madam Mina. I moved my hand
this way and that, for show, but in the end, it was a mere glance into her eyes
that closed them and sent her deep into trance.
“Where are you?” I asked.
A crease appeared in her smooth forehead, vand her head moved languidly from
side to side as if she were shaking it in refusal. “I don’t know… It’s dark,
very dark, and still as death…”
“What do you hear?”
Here she tilted her head, as though listening. “The lapping of waves…
footsteps overhead, and men talking. The creaking of a chain, and the tinkling
of metal…”
A ship, I realised, and shared a triumphant glance with my three friends.
Fear of Elisabeth, perhaps—or even, dare we think, fear of us and our
determination, now that he was weaker—had driven him from the country!
Inspiration filled me. Leaving Madam Mina entranced, sitting quietly, I
turned at once to Jonathan—and, without hesitating, put him at once into a deep
trance, then signalled John to step forward and put his hands over his ears,
lest Elisabeth should be made privy to any more of the information we were
seeking. Quincey and Arthur looked a bit scandalised at first, but relaxed as
they realised the necessity for it; in fact, both offered up handkerchiefs to
John, which he wadded up and pressed against Harker’s ears, to better muffle
Mina’s murmured replies.
That done, I turned back to my first patient and commanded, “Tell me your
thoughts.”
“To the first return,” she intoned, “and the castle deep within the forest.”
Arthur dashed about the room, found a piece of paper, and scribbled it down.
“Where is the key?” I continued.
“The first? Lying cold against my heart. The second, at my home—though where,
I cannot say.”
She fell silent then, and would say no more; I motioned for Quincey to lift
the blind, which revealed the first pinkish light of dawn.
Immediately I turned towards Jonathan; John at once released his hands so
that I could ask the entranced man:
“Where are you?”
“I follow.”
“Whom do you follow? Van Helsing or Vlad?”
At that, he turned his face stubbornly away, like a spoiled child who refuses
his supper; I tried a different approach.
“What do you see? What do you hear?”
A grimace of the most vicious exasperation came over him. With eyelids still
lowered, but aflutter, he growled in a low but distinctively feminine voice,
“Look here, Van Helsing! You are a stupid bastard, indeed, to tangle with me.
I’ll see you dead—if not with these hands, then a pair of others!”
At once he leapt up from the chair and ran to the bed. From beneath the
mattress, he pulled the fearsome kukri knife and ran towards me with it.
I knew now, without doubt, that Arminius’ talisman would keep him at bay—but
my confidence in it was not total. While it might hold Harker’s person an arm’s
length from my own, the kukri knife could reach much farther— and it was no
respecter of talismans or magical charges. Only the presence of John, Arthur,
and Quincey saved me, for they rushed him from the back and sides, and caught
the arm hoisting the knife. It took the bone-crushing grip of three strong men
upon his wrist before he let go the weapon with a howl; Seward, much accustomed
to dealing with violent outbursts, soon had him back in his chair and pinned
fast.
Of a sudden, he relaxed completely, sagging. I released him from the trance
quickly, then watched as John slowly, carefully, eased his grip.
Jonathan opened his eyes and blinked in confusion for some seconds; then
looked over at his hypnotised wife with avid interest and concern, as if nothing
out of the ordinary had happened.
I picked up the cue and brought Mina out of her trance, as well; she was
bright and cheerful, but completely unaware of what she had said or what else
had transpired. So we left the Harkers, and told them both to rest well, and not
hurry to breakfast. They both were clearly exhausted, and took our advice
gratefully.
* * *
Whilst the Harkers were sleeping, the rest of us discussed the situation.
Dracula was on a sailing ship weighing anchor somewhere in the Port of
London—this we all agreed was a logical assumption, given Madam Mina’s report.
But whither was it bound?
There were hundreds of ships weighing anchor in London on any given day, and
at first glance the task seemed hopeless. But Arthur pulled the scrap of paper
from his pocket and read it to us:
“To the first return, and the castle deep within the forest.”
“The ‘castle deep within the forest’ sounds like Castle Dracula to me,” John
said. “After all, didn’t Mina say that the second key was at ‘home’?”
The other two men nodded agreement, and Quincey said, “It has to be. What
else can you make of ‘to the first return’ except ‘return to the first line’?
And the first line talks about Transylvania.”
So it was agreed: We would try to discover which ships had set sail yesterday
for the Black Sea, the most logical route and the way by which the Impaler had
first come. Madam Mina’s description of the sounds indicated a sailing ship—too
small to be listed in the Times. Fortunately, Arthur knew that at
Lloyd’s we would find a listing of all ships that had set sail.
We went there at once—without disturbing the Harkers, especially as we wished
to avoid any further encounters with Jonathan. There we learned that only one
ship had set sail for the Black Sea on 3 October—the Czarina Catherine,
bound for the port of Varna.
She had sailed from Doolittle’s Wharf, our next destination, where we learned
from the manager that a tall, very strange pale man had come at five o’clock
yesterday afternoon, and insisted that a box be loaded onto the ship.
There can be no doubt: He is headed for home!
Chapter 17
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
15 OCTOBER, NIGHT.
Left London the morning of 12 October and arrived via the
Orient Express
in Varna this afternoon, after travelling day and night. Madam Mina continues to
give the same report at every sunrise: waves lapping, darkness.
After much debate, we decided to let Jonathan come with us. It would have
been cruel not to permit him to come, since we were taking his wife (who has
been of great use thus far). We remain ever-vigilant around him, and wear our
talismans at all times, as my death would be most convenient for Elisabeth. It
would cause Vlad’s immediate destruction, and she would have no more worry from
us; she could merely meet the ship when it docks, and retrieve the first key
from Vlad’s pitiful remains.
According to Zsuzsanna, the fact that Elisabeth is nearby awaiting an
opportunity to attack, means that she has not seen the fifth line; she needs the
first key in order to read it! Apparently, after Vlad discovered the first key
and read the fifth line, it disappeared when Elisabeth stole the manuscript.
This is good news, for it means she will not rush to Vlad’s castle ahead of him
(and us). No, she follows
us (or rather, Harker) because we follow Vlad.
But her proximity is not the best news for me; only Arminius’ talisman upon my
person—even when I bathe—protects me. (Thank God, it is still strong enough to
repel her!) Another hopeful piece of news: Zsuzsanna says that when she
travelled with Elisabeth to London, she noticed that, despite her abilities to
move about freely during the day, she was still limited by the slack of the
tide. Knowing this —and knowing that when Vlad was at his most powerful, he,
too, was still restricted by flowing water (evidenced by his decision to come to
London by boat, and, Zsuzsanna says, the route he chose as bat when she followed
him one night to Hillingham)—we can posit that Elisabeth is still so restricted.
I have finally pressed one of Arminius’ crucifixes upon Madam Mina; I
explained that it was a “specially blessed” piece designed to ward off the
vampire, and would protect her more securely than her own little golden cross.
She now wears both; I suspect it has had more than a little effect upon her and
Jonathan’s private life…
As for Zsuzsanna and Arkady, they have secretly accompanied us the entire
way, and serve as our “spies.” They will be of much use to us if and when we
find it necessary to continue on to the castle. However, before we departed for
Varna, Zsuzsanna announced that she had broken off all psychical contact with
Harker—this so Elisabeth has no means of learning what our little band is up to.
With that assurance, we have taken her into our confidence regarding the fifth
line, and our plan for dispatching Vlad and obtaining guardianship of the first
key.
I still find it difficult to trust her; were it not for Arkady, I do not
think I would even deal with her. So she has come to her senses and is filled
with regret—am
I to pity
her? She has cost me my wife and son.
I do my best to be civil to her, for my father’s sake. Beyond that, I owe her
nothing.
Arthur continues to put his lordly title to good use on our behalf. He has
convinced the shipper of Vlad’s box that it contains something stolen from His
Lordship’s friend; we now have surreptitious permission from them to board the
ship when it docks and open the chest—at our own risk.
29 OCTOBER, NIGHT.
After an agony of waiting—day after day of sitting, reading, contemplating,
conversing, all of us now obsessed with putting an end to this affair— Arthur
received a telegram from Lloyd’s yesterday, saying that the
Czarina had
entered Galatz at one o’clock, 28 October.
Galatz—more than one hundred fifty miles to the north! We had languished in
Varna thirteen days, waiting restlessly, while the Impaler laughed at us all!
Somehow, Madam Mina’s thoughts revealed to Dracula our presence in Varna; now
he has cut her off from his own plans. Zsuzsanna advises me that Vlad cannot do
so without also losing access to Madam Mina’s thoughts as well (just as she,
Zsuzsanna, no longer has access to Jonathan Harker’s thoughts), and Arkady
confirms this. For the time, we are free to use Mina’s great intelligence to
assist us without revealing to Vlad our strategy. I write this on the train to
Galatz.
* * *
30 OCTOBER.
Today we set foot upon the Czarina Catherine at last. As feared, we
had come too late; the box had already been taken, but we managed to speak with
the captain, an amicable and forthcoming Scotsman. The box, he said, had caused
such consternation among his Roumanian crew that it would have been thrown
overboard were it not for his intervention. He cheerfully produced the receipt,
which showed that it had been recovered by an Immanuel Hildesheim,
Burgen-strasse 16.
Blessedly, Hildesheim was in his office and, after a bit of baksheesh,
directed us to a Petrof Skinsky, a businessman involved in shipping from upriver
to the port. Hildesheim had turned the box over to Skinsky—who, unfortunately,
we could not find at his address. As we were leaving, however, one of his
neighbours came running out of a house, crying that Skinsky had been found
murdered, with his throat torn out.
When we returned home this evening, discouraged, Madam Mina looked over our
notes, and in her logical, precise manner wrote down a series of deductions
concerning Vlad’s whereabouts. She then read them to us, and I summarise them
here:
Since Vlad had chosen Skinsky as agent, it only makes sense that he arranged
to have the box shipped upriver, such being Skinsky’s primary business.
Now, the Danube meets two rivers leading to Transylvania, the Pruth and the
Sereth; of these, only the Sereth flows into the Bistritsa River—which runs near
.the Borgo Pass!
Here is our plan: Arthur will obtain a steam launch, and he and Jonathan will
follow the vampire by boat. (In secrecy, we agreed that Harker would not travel
with me, as I would be too imperiled; Lord Godalming is less at risk, and knows
to take precautions around him. At any rate, he will also have Arkady’s
invisible presence to protect him.) Quincey and John will pursue on horseback
along the riverbank, in case Vlad makes a sudden decision to come ashore, whilst
Madam Mina and I take the train to Veresti, and from there travel by land
directly to the castle.
Our hope is that Elisabeth will not follow myself and Mina to the castle (nor
Zsuzsanna, who will guide us through the forest, and knows Vlad’s lair best of
all). As long as Elisabeth does not possess the first key, and thus no knowledge
of the fifth line, she will stay close to Vlad, with the intent of destroying
him and obtaining the second key.
Once we dispatch the Impaler, however, the question arises: How shall we then
destroy her, who is so powerful?
Arminius, be not far!
Chapter 18
Dr. Seward’s Diary
5 NOVEMBER.
Six days riding, in falling snow and bitter cold—and always with a faint
sense that behind us, just beyond my peripheral eyesight, follows a great
darkness, that darkly glittering indigo that I have come to dread. Quince knows
it, too, for late last night when we made camp and were sitting round the fire,
he said softly: “Can you feel it, Jack?”
I nodded, and as quietly as I could said, “Elisabeth.”
At this he gave silent assent, and we have spoken no more of it. It means the
professor’s assumption is right; she is not so powerful yet that she can travel
upon the river, and board Dracula’s boat whenever she lists. I am glad she chose
to follow us, and not the professor. That was my greatest concern, that she
would pursue and kill him, then board the ship and remove the key from a box
filled with Vlad’s rotting remains. Perhaps she fears that we would obtain the
key before her, and with our talismans keep her at bay forever.
She is wise to do so.
Just after dawn now—a grey sky, lightly falling snow. I woke to Quince’s hand
upon my shoulder, and the distant sight of the
tsigani’s big leiter-wagon,
flanked by a small army of gypsies, hurrying away from the shore. Quince has the
horses ready now: we follow!
* * *
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
5 NOVEMBER, MORNING.
In Veresti, I procured a carriage and a fine team of horses, and enough
provisions to last us a minimum of ten days. With our blankets and fur wraps,
Madam Mina and I were quite comfortable, and took turns driving whilst the other
slept; I sensed Zsuzsanna following at a respectable distance, lest she frighten
the horses. Travelling day and night with a few stops to refresh the animals, we
reached the Borgo Pass by dawn, 3 November.
By that time, Madam Mina was becoming more vampiric, sleeping during the day
and becoming lively at night, and giving up altogether her little diary.
By yesterday, we had reached the perimeters of Vlad’s castle—though we camped
a slight distance away. I would not take Madam Mina inside, for the closer she
drew to it, the more she fell under its spell; thus, whilst she rested, I
inscribed round her a magical circle, and sealed it with the Host. This she
could not cross, even when I asked her to do so, so I was satisfied as to her
safety therein.
Last night it was that three vampire children—two boys, and a little
girl—appeared to us; I remembered Jonathan’s diary, and knew they must be the
vile progeny of Zsuzsanna and Elisabeth. (No sign of Zsuzsanna at the time;
perhaps she became distraught at the sight of them, or perhaps she was, in
response to desperate need, out hunting for more sustenance.) Outside the
circle, in the fire’s orange glow, they took form—beautiful, sweet, alluring,
and possessed of a grotesque innocence. Madam Mina and I were safely ensconced
within our circle, and there we remained. I could not bear to look at them,
thinking of my little Jan; I looked instead at Mina’s face, and was deeply
relieved to find there horror and disgust.
At dawn today, I rose, leaving Madam Mina trapped and protected within the
circle, and headed for the castle. (Where Zsuzsanna was, she had not said,
though we had agreed that she would serve as scout, to alert us when Dracula and
Elisabeth approached. The cold morning air was peculiarly electric; this was the
day, I knew. This was the day…)
It was a sad, sad duty that lay before me, in the Impaler’s lair; I had been
inside this castle two decades earlier—once, in a failed and tragic attempt to
rescue my adoptive brother; another time, to murder the foul creature that my
poor little Jan had become. Each dark stone, each decay-scented room, was laden
with anguished memories.
Even so, I had learned many years before, when Arminius taught me the painful
art of vampire-hunting, to harden my heart against emotion and approach the task
with the coolest of heads. This I did when I found the lair of the three
children—two of them nestled together, sweetly asleep in the same overlarge
coffin. No pity did I have; not until I had wielded stake and knife, and saw
their immortal, gleaming bodies pass into merely mortal remains. Only then did I
weep for them and their mothers and fathers.
And when I had mourned them, and whispered over their resting-places a prayer
for the dead as I placed in each coffin a piece of the Host, I called to mind
the fifth line:
To the first return, and the castle deep within the forest.
Here I was, within the castle, but where should I begin to look for the
second key? I wandered a time through each room—Vlad’s vast throne room, with
its Theatre of Death, and the inner keep wherein rested his great, lordly
coffin. This I sealed with a portion of the Host. And again I roamed, examining
each item in each room, looking for clues, for places where something may have
been buried. I spared no one place, not even the dreadful catacombs of earth
deep beneath the castle—more horrible to me even than the Theatre of Death, for
more had met death down in that evil cellar, and more had suffered there a long
imprisonment. And so many hundreds—perhaps thousands—are buried there that I
could hear their bones still crying out in agony.
It was late afternoon when I emerged empty-handed and perplexed, and as I
headed down the slope towards our little encampment, Zsuzsanna appeared before
me, so abruptly that it gave me a start.
Her dark eyes were ablaze, her pale skin aglow—not with any magical glamour,
but with pure anticipation.
“They come,” she said. “They come, and Elisabeth follows!”
Thoughtlessly, I reached out and grasped her arms— dropping my hands only
when she recoiled and winced in pain. “Dracula comes?”
“The tsigani bring his box in their great wagon— many of them,
surrounding it and bearing arms.”
“And of our party?”
“All of them! They follow on horseback… and Elisabeth follows them.“
Just as suddenly, she disappeared.
I ran swiftly down to where Madam Mina stood inside the circle, waving her
arms at me with unabashedly joyous excitement. “Doctor!” she cried. “Dr. Van
Helsing! We must hurry.” And she pointed to the east. “My husband is coming!”
Her words evoked within me similar excitement—and also a certain unease, for
she was mentally linked not to Jonathan, but Vlad; to which was she referring?
But her joy was so innocent, and her eyes so pure—like those of our Madam Mina
of old—that I smiled, and recollected the pieces of Host from the snow, freeing
her.
So we struggled together down the steep slope that faced the east, I carrying
furs and rugs and provisions, until the castle stood high above us against the
clouded sky. I found a hollow worn within a great rock nestled into the
mountainside; this I lined with furs and enclosed within a circle, again sealed
with the Host, and settled Madam Mina comfortably inside.
Beneath us wound the roadway leading upward to the castle. From my pocket, I
produced a pair of field-glasses; though a hard wind had suddenly picked up, and
the light, constant snow began to swirl, I made out the dark figures of the
tsigani riding alongside the leiter-wagon—at such a furious pace that the
wagon swerved dangerously from side to side, coming very close to knocking some
of the accompanying horsemen from the roadway.
Suddenly, from the north, I saw two dark figures on horseback rapidly
approaching the gypsies… and, with a cry of gladness, recognised Quincey Morris’
great Stetson —white, but not so white as the swirling snow. “Thank God!” I
cried, relieved that they and not Jonathan Harker would be first to approach the
wagon, and lowered the field-glasses to pass them to my excited companion.
“Madam Mina, look!”
* * *
Zsuzsanna Tsepesh’s Diary
5 NOVEMBER.
I left Bram and Mrs. Harker upon the hillside, and swept down to where the
fierce tsigani rode beside the great wooden chest. I knew I must stop
them, and quickly, before Elisabeth arrived, for I could sense her nearing,
waiting for the perfect moment to lay claim to the key. Thus I flew down to the
roadway, perfectly invisible, and hovered between the two horses pulling the
wagon. Gently, I set my palms upon dieir muzzles.
The effect was immediate: The poor frightened creatures reared at once,
causing the wagon to rock crazily to one side and very nearly overturn. The
driver swore, and the gypsy army reined in their mounts, who also shied at my
unseen presence.
At that same instant came the thunder of approaching hooves, and a calm,
steely voice shouting: “Halt!” I smiled, for the voice belonged to Quincey
Morris; and he and John Seward came racing up like apocalyptic horsemen bent on
godly vengeance. Once they had the key, their talismans would protect them from
Elisabeth, and we would all escape and formulate a plan against her; I was
overwhelmed with joy, for we were so close, so close to the first victory…
Yet at once those clattering hooves were answered by others, as from the
opposite side came Harker and Lord Godalming. Godalming struggled valiantly to
overtake his companion; I could see the anguished grimace on His Lordship’s face
as he flogged his steed to go faster, faster. But Jonathan rode with a deadly
fury straight from the maw of Hell, at a speed born of immortal desperation.
“Halt!” cried he, with such fervent passion that even the tsigani
looked upon him with fear. Now the gypsies were trapped between our men upon the
narrow passage; and to translate their intent, Seward, Godalming, and Morris
raised their Winchester rifles. (Only I noticed that Godalming’s rifle was
placed so that, with a very slight movement, he could quickly have Harker within
his sights.)
And on the cliff above, Van Helsing stood, pointing his own rifle down at the
colourful army below. Even so, the gypsies drew their knives; and their leader
pointed up at the reddening sun, which now kissed the tops of the mountains.
Again, I stroked the horses’ muzzles in order to create a helpful distraction;
again, they reared.
But only one of our party took advantage of it. In a wink, Harker let go his
rifle so that it hung from its strap, unsheathed his kukri, and, with inhuman
daring, slashed through the wall of armed men guarding the wagon. From the
opposite side, Morris did the same with his Bowie knife in an effort to reach
the chest—but alas! Jonathan reached it first and, with vampiric strength,
lifted the box and flung it down to the ground.
He leapt down and began to pry off the lid with his knife; Morris, who had
come thus far with only a few shallow wounds upon his arms and face, jumped down
as well and attacked the chest’s other end with his Bowie. By this time, I saw
that Van Helsing’s aim had shifted, and Godalming’s, too, in case Jonathan were
to seize the key.
Soon, the lid of the box was pulled off, and there lay Vlad, helpless and
exposed, eyes red with rage and the light of the sinking sun. That rage turned
to triumph as the sun slipped down past the horizon…
But his triumph lasted less than a second. Harker’s curving knife tore
through the Impaler’s throat, while at the same instant, Morris’ weapon plunged
deep into the vampire’s heart.
The frightened tsigani turned their horses and raced away,
abandoning the wagon. I remained and watched with bitter joy as the body
dissolved at once into dust: mere dust, lifted by the swirling wind to expose
beneath a small golden key.
It lay closest to Morris, who swooped down for it; at once, Harker moved
forward and embraced him, as if in celebration. But as he pulled back, I saw the
bright flash of the kukri knife—bloodied, as he drew it from Morris’ chest.
The wounded man groaned, and fell forward, half into the coffin. Callously,
Harker thrust an arm beneath him, groping for the key; fearful of further
harming Morris if they fired upon his attacker, the other two men instead dashed
up behind the pair. Gentle Seward, whom I had judged incapable of the slightest
violence, lifted the butt of his rifle and brought it down with force upon
Harker’s skull. He then bent down to retrieve the key—but I was faster and, in a
swift move, seized the shining object and at once sped towards the castle.
At once the sky deepened—not with night, but a burst of glittering indigo
which reflected darkly off the fallen snow. Elisabeth had appeared, I knew, but
I dared not look behind me. So long as the others did not yet possess the golden
key, she would be too much involved in the search to do them harm.
I hurtled with the key towards the castle, with no plan other than instinct,
no desire but to protect the others. In my heart, I knew I had to find the
second key, and somehow hide it from Elisabeth… but what my heart desired, my
brain could find no way to produce.
Even so, I flew up the mountain towards the castle, key gripped tightly in my
hand. All had grown silent as the men tended to Quincey; I heard nothing save
utter stillness, and one sound that pursued me, echoing off the mountains:
Elisabeth laughing.
Elisabeth laughing…
* * *
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
5 NOVEMBER, CONTINUED.
In horror, Madam Mina and I watched as Jonathan brutally stabbed Quincey; her
horror continued as John came forward and struck her husband a solid blow upon
the head with his rifle, but in truth, I felt only relief. As she wept silently
into her hands, I gently took the field-glasses from her, and again watched.
Yet my hopeful emotion changed again to fear as John and Arthur searched
futilely within the earth-box for the missing key. Had Elisabeth somehow stolen
it—or Arkady, or Zsuzsanna? Or had it never been within the box at all?
As Seward and Arthur gave up the search and knelt to attend their mortally
wounded friend, the snow about them glittered indigo, with such intensity that I
knew it could only herald Elisabeth’s arrival.
So it did. She appeared in radiant glory, brighter than the full moon and
infinitely more compelling, and with the merest sweep of her hand, John and
Arthur fell mute against the snow. The unconscious Harker evoked from her a
shrug of disgust, but when she peered into the empty coffin, she bared her teeth
in feral anger; and then she gazed up in the direction of the castle and began
to laugh.
“Zsuzsanna!” she called, with malicious gaiety. “My foolish love! The mortals
can protect themselves from me —for the moment—with their silly charms. But you,
my darling, cannot. Certainly the key cannot protect you— you have seen the good
it has done Vlad!”
Abruptly, she disappeared, and John and Arthur raised themselves slowly to
their knees. I handed Madam Mina, who was still distraught, the field-glasses,
and, taking her arms reassuringly, said:
“Dear Madam Mina, do not be sorrowful. You are free from the vampire’s
taint—and soon your husband shall be too. Remain here in the circle, which shall
protect you from all harm, and should Jonathan approach, do not heed him, but
stay within!”
And I ran upward towards the castle. What I could accomplish there, I did not
know; but Elisabeth knew Zsuzsanna had gone there with the first key, and thus I
was bound to follow. Yet the deepest panic I have ever known gripped heart and
lungs, so that I struggled to draw in air. I had to find the first key somehow,
and prevent Elisabeth from finding the second—but how?
Over the castle above, a great looming shadow gathered—a darkness blacker
than the depths of night, a sign of the Dark One’s impending arrival. Beneath my
coat, my skin prickled; this was the image I had been warned of in my dream, the
dream where I had been utterly, irrevocably engulfed, devoured by that darkness.
On the way up the hillside, I prayed fervently with each ragged breath:
“Arminius, help us! Arminius, help us…”
* * *
Zsuzsanna Tsepesh’s Diary
5 OCTOBER, CONTINUED.
Key in hand, I entered the castle in desperate flight—though where I would
find refuge, I knew not. So I raced wildly from place to place, searching;
searching, without knowing what it was I sought. To Vlad’s throne room first,
then to the room Dunya and I had shared, and the chambers I had enjoyed with
Elisabeth…
At last I went to the chapel, thinking of Carfax and the “crossroads,”
perhaps, and that there I might find the second key, and deliver both treasures
to Van Helsing’s hands. Yet as I wavered there, standing amid broken coffins and
ruined earth, my eyes were pained by a dazzling, overwhelming radiance—a
brightness that was nonetheless dark.
I recoiled, but too late; Elisabeth stood beside me, more preternaturally
beautiful than I had ever seen her— and cruder. Her lips were fixed in a sneer,
and her eyes— the coldness, the emptiness, the hatred in them, I shall
never forget! I felt I looked upon an exquisite jewelled viper, poised to
strike.
She gripped my wrist, so hard that the bone snapped at once, and I cried out
in pain; at this, her smile widened. “Of the two of us,” she said, “I would say
time has treated me more kindly; you are looking less than lovely, my dear.”
“I have better use for my power,” I retorted, then cried out again as she
twisted my hand completely round, and pulled back each finger one by
one; grinning, she took from me the key.
A sudden brilliance shone from her bosom; she dropped the key within, then
pulled forth from the same spot the gleaming white parchment. As she unfurled
it, beneath the golden text another line of shining letters appeared:
In the keep amidst the bones lies the woman with the golden heart; the
second key.
“The bones!” she demanded, shaking my arm with near-godlike strength. “Where
is the keep? Speak, my darling! You know this place better than I!”
I was powerless in her presence, and ashamed of my helplessness; when she
sank her dull teeth into my shoulder and tore away fabric and flesh, I could not
hold back a shriek. God, I prayed silently, or Dark One, I care not
which! Do as you will—inflict on me the worst torment for all eternity,
only let me stop her…
“The keep!” she shouted again, then fell silent; a look of inspiration eased
the viciousness of her expression. “Yes —the place with the bones, where you
took me to see Arkady… Take me there at once!”
“I will lead you,” I said, “if you answer but one question for me. Who raised
him?”
Her eyes narrowed. “So you have encountered him, I take it… Bah! He was a
waste, a total waste of effort. You lied—you said he was intent on
destroying Vlad. What good has he done me?”
“At the cost of Dunya,” I remarked bitterly. “You killed her to raise him…”
She did not deny it, but cuffed me roughly, saying, “Lead! Take me now—and
know that you’ll pay for this insolence later. For when I become as powerful as
the Dark Lord tonight, I shall treat you to the cage and the Maiden for all
eternity! And you, my darling, shall be the first to witness my transformation,
and my vengeance; this you have earned by your betrayal.“
I knew not what else to do. So I led her back up to the castle’s main
entryway, for it was only by going up that we could make our way farther down to
her destination. And as we passed there, she paused as the great front door flew
open, and smiled at the sight of Bram, gasping, wild-eyed, upon the threshold.
“Dr. Van Helsing,” she said, with mock sweetness. “How kind of you to visit
us. I’m afraid I’m distracted at the moment with one of your relatives; but fear
not! I shall return to you—whether you flee by boat or train or carriage, it
matters not. I will find you, and see you and yours to a disagreeable end.”
And she flicked her hand at him, as a cold lady might motion a servant away;
at once he fell back, mute.
Bram, I told him silently, take the others and flee. You
must find Arminius…
I left him there and led her deep into the castle’s belly, to the dank cellar
dug from earth, now thoroughly laced with the bones of the many who had died
here in torment.
“The woman,” Elisabeth said, her voice muted with anticipation. “Where would
be the woman with the golden heart?”
I honestly knew not. “These are mostly men,” I said, gesturing down at the
bone-strewn earth, “but a few are women. I cannot imagine where—”
My words were swallowed up by a mighty wind, which lifted up the packed
ground and began to rotate it, until the room was filled with stinging, swirling
sand. I covered my face until it had settled, then lowered my hands to see that
my feet were resting upon an uneven platform of stacked skeletons, all so old
that the bones had come apart and lay scattered in disarray. Thousands and
thousands of skeletons, so many that I realised they, and not the earth,
comprised the castle’s foundation.
Only one small spot stood out amidst the ghoulish tangle of yellowed ivory:
the corner where Arkady’s catafalque stood, from which Dunya’s dust and coffin
had now been swept away. The stone catafalque remained, but beneath it—centuries
beneath, surrounded by legs and arms and hands of bone, and fleshless fingers
that clawed its polished surface—was a casket of shining steel.
Still clutching my arm, Elisabeth dragged me to it— then slowly released me
with a sly smile, for she knew I would not, could not, run from her now. With
one hand clutching the manuscript, she used her other to push the solid stone
catafalque aside, as easily as a mortal woman might push away a chair.
The stone toppled onto more bones, crushing them as it fell onto its side. We
both bent over the coffin to read the etching there, in archaic Roumanian:
ANA, BELOVED CONSORT OF VLAD III
With a hiss of triumph, Elisabeth pulled away the lid and threw it aside; it
clanged upon the stone, cracking it.
Within lay a small, fragile skeleton, the jawbone disintegrated so that the
skull had fallen forward onto the neck bones and lay perpendicular to the ribs.
Beneath the head was a long strip of black, liquefying hair; beneath the crossed
arms was a tattered shred of yellowed silk.
And to the left of her breastbone rested a heart-shaped locket of beaten
gold, slightly larger than the real lady’s heart could ever have been. In the
centre was a small keyhole, and above the keyhole, inscribed in Latin, were the
words:
ETERNAL GODHOOD
Elisabeth at once snatched it up; and, with a hand that trembled, withdrew
the small golden key from her bosom and slipped it into the lock.
It fit smoothly, with a click. And as she drew it slowly open, she looked up
at me with a dark, dark smile.
* * *
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
5 NOVEMBER, CONTINUED.
As I staggered gasping into the castle, still overwhelmed by the sense of the
Dark One’s proximity, I chanced to meet Zsuzsanna—cruelly trapped in the
Countess of Bathory’s powerful grip. The sight filled me with even greater
despair; Elisabeth had in her possession the first key! Yet she had not
discovered the second, and solved the mystery, for she appeared no more powerful
than she had out in the snow. But how was I to stop her?
Zsuzsanna’s expression was calm, fearless; she said not a word as Elisabeth
mocked me, threatened me. Struck me down as she had the others with the merest
gesture. But before the countess dragged her captive away, promising to return
to me later, Zsuzsanna caught my gaze.
And her silent words filled my head: Bram, take the others and flee. Find
Arminius…
She was bound, we both knew, to the most unpleasant of dooms, yet seemed
utterly resigned to her fate, as if it were her just due, and showed me naught
but concern. And in that instant, I forgave her all.
Arminius! Damned Arminius! Once they had disappeared, I rose to my knees and
sobbed, shaking my fist at the empty air, demanding that my protector appear and
give us aid.
From somewhere beneath me, in the castle’s very bowels, I heard Zsuzsanna’s
muffled shriek, and rose in anger. I would not sit by. I had seen the direction
they had gone, and followed until I found a trapdoor that clearly led below. Yet
it was stuck fast; I could not open it, could not enter, could do nothing but
moan in helpless frustration. In moments, perhaps sooner, Elisabeth would emerge
again, and no talisman in all the world would stop her.
So I sat upon the floor, head in hands, and, agnostic that I am, prayed to
God.
And in my head, a voice spoke again—the blessed voice of Arminius.
Abraham, my son. We are close to defeat. Only one thing can stop her: to
forge your own pact with the Dark Lord, and purchase our victory.
“No!” I pressed my hands against my skull, to blot the vile words out. “No!”
Again I prayed to God, and again God was silent; but Arminius spoke. God
cannot help you now. Only the Dark Lord can.
The floor rumbled as with an earthquake, and from beneath came the howl of a
mighty storm. I tried to stand, to gain my footing, but lost my balance, and
fell to one knee. In my mind’s eye, I saw the great looming darkness of my
dream, and saw myself devoured by it…
And dien, stillness. Stillness so profound that I was filled with a different
terror, waiting for the sound of Elisabeth’s voice beside me.
“Dark Lord!” I cried out. “Hear me! I, Abraham Van Helsing, will make a pact
with you!”
Scarcely were the words uttered before the terrible darkness did
appear, the great advancing shadow of my dream, and began to swirl: deeper than
indigo, deeper than black; deeper than night or death or eternity.
Yet it was an entity, a being. As it approached, I felt its intelligence, and
rose upon my two feet to greet it as a man. I mastered my fear; I hid my
trembling. And called out sternly: “I will make a pact. My life in exchange for
Elisabeth’s destruction.”
From the centre of the swirling darkness came a small, gentle voice. The
Dark Lord does not exchange life for life. Speak to me of souls. Speak to me of
forever.
“My soul,” I cried, “in exchange for Elisabeth’s destruction!”
I offer only immortality: the vampires curse. What shall you offer me in
exchange?
“I will not become a vampire! I will not prey on living or dead! Why can you
not take me as I am?”
The darkness began to fade, to recede, to withdraw from me; down below, I
heard a woman’s horrified scream. For a terrible instant, I believed I was too
late—that Elisabeth had become the Dark Lord’s equal.
“Very well,” I whispered bitterly. “I shall be a vampire —but one far
stronger than Elisabeth, able to overpower her—in exchange for my soul. In
exchange for any suffering in all the world, if you make me able to defeat her.”
At once, a sense of infinite calm and acceptance flooded through me, and when
the darkness flowed over me like the deepest ocean waters, I felt no fear. As it
engulfed me at last, I whispered, “If I am to be yours, show me your face.”
Within its centre, a small dot of golden light appeared, then began to
grow—brighter and brighter, wider and wider, until its radiance cast off all
darkness. Blinded, I closed my eyes.
And when I opened them again, I saw before me my beloved mentor, Arminius.
“We meet again, Abraham,” said he, smiling. “As I told you so long ago: there
are many types of vampires… and of them, I am chief.”
* * *
Zsuzsanna Tsepesh’s Diary
5 NOVEMBER, CONTINUED.
I watched Elisabeth’s face as she examined the contents of the locket—watched
it carefully for the change that would herald my destruction.
Her expression grew intent, then puzzled; then frustrated, as she muttered,
“There must be more!” She held it up, and turned it round in her hands to
examine it more closely, as if searching for a hidden spring; then once again
produced the manuscript and read it carefully, then waited a bit, as if hoping
another line would appear.
Finally, with a cry of raw anger, she hurled the locket, with key still
attached, down into the piles of bones near my feet. I bent down and struggled
to reach for them, but could not; the key had fallen deep into the layer of
bones, and the locket lay facedown just beyond my reach, so that I could not
even turn it over to see its contents.
Above us, a sudden darkness veiled the vault—a moving darkness, like
the most furiously roiling thunderstorm. It dropped lower and lower until it
stood like a pillar before Elisabeth, coagulating until it was so dense I felt I
could touch it as I would a being.
With a snarl, Elisabeth threw herself to the skeletal ground, scrabbling so
desperately to reach the fallen items that she ignored the manuscript, which
fluttered down beside her.
“You have no right!” she screamed at the darkness. “This moment is mine,
these trinkets are mine, and if you take them from me…” She hesitated
in her sputtering rage, apparently realising that there was no way whatsoever to
threaten this entity. With a fiendish howl, she turned as if to flee.
But she could not. For beside her stood Bram, glowing with an internal light
far brighter than hers. She moved to pass him, and discovered herself entrapped
between the darkness and his light.
I turned back in amazement towards the pillar-—and saw in its stead a
radiantly beautiful child. In his dimpled hands were the manuscript and the
fallen locket, and he offered them both to me.
I took them both reverently, set down the gleaming parchment, and ran my
fingers over the locket’s outer message: eternal godhood. Then, like a book, I
opened the heart—opened it as I did my own—and on the inner leaves read:
ETERNAL LOVE ETERNAL SACRIFICE
I began to weep, for I remembered most poignantly the suffering of my
ancestors, my mother and father, my dear brothers, my nephew and his little son
and wife, and that of all my victims and their families. I wept, and knew most
intimately the cost of fear and greed.
“Zsuzsanna,” the child asked sweetly. “Do you understand, and accept?”
I nodded, too stricken to speak; and the child held out his hands to me, and
helped me rise.
“A kiss, then,” said he. “Only a kiss…”
As I stooped to oblige, he sternly shook his head. I felt his hands grow and
change within my own, and his stature increase; his golden locks turned white
and grew decades in length.
“Arminius,” I whispered, to which he replied, smiling:
“You shall not bow to me.”
And we fell into each other’s arms, and embraced.
Chapter 19
Dr. Seward’s Diary
7 NOVEMBER.
Headed for Paris on the train this morning. Art and I talked a good length
about Quincey’s funeral arrangements, as his body travels with us. It seems
there is no family in America, and so Art is determined to have Quince buried on
his family estate. There is a very large tree there, with a lovely view, and Art
says it will suit Quince just fine.
Mina also was up early, and came into the compartment whilst we were talking.
She is the bravest of souls, that lady. I told her outright that Art and I had
decided on a story about Quince’s death: that one of the gypsies had inflicted
the mortal wound. Poor Harker is back to his pleasant self now and overcome with
joy to see his wife freed from the vampire’s curse. But he has no recollection
whatsoever of the events that occurred after we stopped the leiter-wagon.
She agreed at once that this should be the same story told by all, and I
assured her I would write the professor and let him know. Very bluntly, she
said, even though tears shone in her eyes, “It would break Jonathan’s heart to
think that he had killed your noble friend, and he would turn himself in to the
authorities at once; and that would break
my heart. I think you do
Quincey justice as well, for I know he would insist upon the very same thing.”
And she is right. As he was dying, Quince begged us that, if we survived and
Harker came through unscathed, we should never bring him to justice—for it was
Elisabeth, not Jonathan, who was his murderer. I close my eyes now and can just
see him smiling down upon the Harkers, and us all, for keeping our promise.
The professor (I cannot remember to call him “Father,” and certainly the word
professor has for me come to be a term of endearment) has returned to
Amsterdam. I would have gone with him had it not been for poor Quince; as it is,
I will travel there after this funeral to attend another one very soon.
It is strange to see him so transformed.
* * *
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
7 NOVEMBER.
When I arrived home with my visitors, Frau Koehler hurried down the staircase
at the sound of my footfall and at once burst into tears when she saw it was me.
“Thank God! Oh, Doctor, thank God! She is dying… it could be any moment now,
and for days I have not been able to reach you! I sent telegram after telegram
to Purfleet, but always, no reply!”
I put my arm round her and kissed her on the forehead to comfort her, then
explained I had brought with me Mary’s sister-in-law, Zsuzsanna, and her
brother.
“Ah yes,” she said, voice trembling. “I met the young lady before.”
At this, I shot Zsuzsanna a telling glance, but at the news of Mary’s
impending death, her eyes showed naught but concern. I whispered into the good
Frau’s ear my request for some time for us alone with Mama, then motioned for
Zsuzsanna and Arkady to join me.
I was used to the sight of the last stages of death, and could face it with
composure—but not so with one I so dearly loved, whose former beauty and grace I
knew well. Mama lay curled upon the bed like an unborn child, blind, mute, deaf,
unaware of our presence. Yet even in her unconsciousness, her face was cruelly
twisted with pain.
Arkady at once rushed to her side, knelt upon the floor, and gently lifted
her hand to his lips; and there he kept it whilst Zsuzsanna and I wiped away our
tears and set to the work at hand. Zsuzsanna moved first, her silent gaze
speaking of her need to do so, for it was she who had caused Mary some pain, and
she who therefore had the right to remove it.
She bent low, and gently turned Mama’s contorted face towards her radiant
one; and when she pressed her lips against Mama’s chapped, gaping ones, I
saw.her shudder, then bear up stoically against the agony.
I watched her drink deep and lovingly of pain. And when Mama’s brow yielded
its last furrow, I drew Zsuzsanna aside, and bent down for my own kiss.
Eternal love; eternal sacrifice. Only through these two could Elisabeth’s
goal of omnipotent immortality be achieved. The truth cannot be hidden; but fear
and hate obscure it. One might say that Arminius was cruel to offer immortality
to all who wished it, even the most wicked.
Yet how else could those who most needed it be redeemed, save through
centuries of opportunity, of contemplation, of boredom, which can only lead to
one inevitable conclusion?
The Dark Lord is also the Lord of Light.
For Vlad, there is no more hope; as to Elisabeth, we have given her the gift
of solitude and time. She is trapped forever within the catacombs where she came
so close to understanding, with the golden locket and its message that so
puzzles her. The entrance to that subterranean tomb we have rendered invisible,
so that none can find it.
As I kissed Mama, I shuddered beneath the first round of agony—Zsuzsanna had
drawn away all physical pain, and now bore it, and her own grief, in silence.
But this was suffering of a different sort I encountered; emotional hurt,
perhaps of all anguish, the most difficult to bear.
Still, I bore it, and gladly. “There are many different types of vampires,”
Arminius had said, and I remembered also what that wise alchemist had told me
during my first tutelage: that he was a vampire, of the psychical kind.
It was at first a pleasurable process for me, for I saw the faceted
jewel-like intricacies of each shining soul, the incredible infinite wealth of
knowledge stored in each memory. But over time, the very beauty of what I stole
began to haunt me; and the treasure I accumulated preyed upon my conscience
until I could bear the guilt no more.
“And what did you do?” I had asked him.
I repented. I made amends.
Just as Zsuzsanna and I both have; taking on the suffering of others
willingly—as our food, our nourishment— instead of their life’s blood. We
require their pain to survive—but if we wish to end our sacrificial existence,
we need merely starve.
I shall live forever, long past the time it takes to redeem the collective
suffering of my ancestors.
And when my dying mother’s pain had eased, I rose, and smiled tearfully as
she opened her pale blue eyes. “Bram,” she whispered—and knew me, and
when Arkady rose beside her in excitement, her eyes widened, with such joy and
happiness it broke my heart. She took his cold hand, pressed it to her lips, and
sighed, “Am I in Heaven? Or has God heard my prayer?”
I glanced at Zsuzsanna, and she followed me out into the hall, softly closing
the door behind her. There we stood until Arkady, tears shining upon his cheeks
and falling into the curve of his smiling lips, said:
“It is over. She has died in peace, in my arms.”
We found her, too, smiling faintly where she lay, in peaceful, untainted
death, and Zsuzsanna and I both laid a final kiss upon her smooth brow.
When we left the room, my father took my hand and said, “I am prepared.”
The look of sad and happy acceptance in his eyes wrenched my heart, but this
was a pure and blessed grief, with joy amid the pain. We walked arm in arm down
to my medical office, which had stood so long unused, and he lay down upon the
surgical table and bared his neck to me.
But first, I bent down and pressed my lips to his, and took from him all the
accumulated sorrows of his life and undeath, which were many. At the end, he
smiled up at me, eyes shining, and I gave him peace.
A blessing upon my family, and yours; may God grant us all such peace. Amen.
JEANNE KALOGRIDIS is the author of two other novels in her acclaimed
vampire trilogy,
Covenant with the Vampire and Children of the Vampire.
She has been obsessed with Dracula since childhood and has done extensive
research to write this book. She taught English for eight years at the American
University in Washington, D.C. She now lives in California.
LORD OF THE VAMPIRES
LORD OF THE VAMPIRES
DIARIES OF THE FAMILY DRACUL
JEANNE KALOGRIDIS
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And sister, Nancy Ellen Dillard September 23, 1952-February 1, 1994
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
Heartfelt thanks are due the following august personages:
First and foremost, to Dell editor Jacob Hoye for his exceptional patience
and kindness. The book you now hold in your hands arrived on his desk terribly
late, and he, as well as copy editors and publicists, worked at an insane pace
to get it onto the shelves. On behalf of him and all the other brave souls at
Dell, I offer up humblest apologies, plus the offer to inflict upon myself
thirty lashes with a cat-o‘-nine-tails at the time and place of their choosing.
To Elizabeth Miller, Ph.D., one of the world’s premier Dracula experts and
all-round nice person. Not only did she provide me with research materials and
information about Mad Bad Vlad for the prologue, she also wrote the marvelous
foreword included here.
To Sherry Gottlieb, fellow novelist, for her (and Bunny’s) friendship and her
wonderfully wicked suggestion concerning the ending of this book. (Go out and
buy Sherry’s fabulous police procedural with fangs,
Love Bite, right
now.)
To my brother, Kurt Rumler, for starting this whole damned vampire thing. You
see, it was Kurt who, some twenty-eight years ago at the Mariner Hotel in St.
Petersburg, shoved a paperback of
Dracula into my hands and said:
“Here, kid. Read
this…”
Absolutely to my agent, Russ Galen. My God, Russ, what would I
do
without you? (I mean, other than make a whole lot less money and have a lot more
stress in my life…)
And now, the best for last: To our beloved consort of eighteen years, with
whom we are well pleased. George, I honestly could not have finished this book
without your emotional and literary help. (Okay, so I steal your suggestions all
the time—but, hey, I share the money, don’t I?) I love you madly—for your
Grecian good looks, your intelligence, your twisted wit, your warmth, your
charm, your generosity and delightful desire to spoil me—but mostly because no
one else has ever made me feel so thoroughly loved.
—
Jeanne Kalogridis e-mail: jkalo@opa.com web page: http://www.opa.com/vampire
Author’s note: Let me blow Dr. Elizabeth Miller’s horn here, since she ‘s
too modest to do so herself. President of the Canadian chapter of the
Transylvanian Society of Dracula, she is one of the most knowledgeable experts
on Vlad Tepes and Dracula around, having written and presented numerous
scholarly papers on the subject. At the 1995 World Dracula Congress, she was
honored by the Romanian people with the title “Baroness of the House of Dracula
”; and she is also one of the organizers of the Dracula Centennial, to be held
in Los Angeles in August 1997.

FOREWORDS
The trilogy The Diaries of the Family Dracul, of which
Lord of the
Vampires is the third book, draws from history, legend, and fiction. But it
is primarily a work that expands on the text of
Dracula, by providing a
“prequel” to Stoker’s narrative, which overlaps with
Dracula in this
present book. The trilogy introduces innovative twists in the familiar plot that
serve to fill in what some readers perceive as gaps in the original: Why was
Abraham Van Helsing so obsessive about tracking down Dracula? What really
happened to the good professor’s wife and son? What were the origins of the
female vampires in Dracula’s Transylvanian castle? Who was the elusive Arminius?
But most significantly, the trilogy creates a prehistory for Count Dracula
himself, drawing on the connection between Stoker’s vampire and the
fifteenth-century Wallachian prince Vlad the Impaler (also known as Dracula). As
this is not the first (and certainly will not be the last) time that the count
and the
voivode have been fused in fiction (and film), I thought it
might be useful to delineate just what the nature of this intriguing connection
actually is.
In spite of the attention paid to Vlad by historians both in Romania and the
West, he is still to some extent an enigma. Even the name by which he is called
is a matter of disagreement. While there is ample evidence that he himself used
the sobriquet “Dracula” (or variations thereof) and was referred to as such in
several fifteenth-and sixteenth-century sources, many Romanian historians still
insist on using the name “Tepes” (meaning “Impaler”), a hardly flattering
nickname first assigned to him by Turkish chroniclers. Historians attempting to
reconstruct his life have had to sift through numerous printed accounts of his
atrocities, many of which are clearly biased, as well as equally biased Romanian
oral narratives and legends that paint him as a heroic patriot. There are also
conflicting versions about key events, most notably how he was killed and where
his remains are buried. But one fact does emerge from all of this material:
Whatever Vlad might have been, nowhere is it stated that he was (or was believed
to have been) a vampire. That association is clearly the result of the fact that
Bram Stoker decided to appropriate the name “Dracula” for his villainous
count—much to the chagrin of many Romanians, who see the novel as a denigration
of one of their national heroes.
But this raises a key question. To what extent did Bram Stoker actually
base his Count Dracula on Vlad the Impaler? Although for many people today
the two have become almost synonymous, the nature of the connection is highly
speculative. There is no longer any doubt where Stoker found the name “Dracula.”
We know from his working papers (housed at the Rosenbach Museum in Philadelphia)
that by March 1890 he had already started work on the novel, and had even
selected a name for his vampire—Count Wampyr. We also know that, in the summer
of the same year while vacationing at Whitby, he came across the name “Dracula”
in a book that he borrowed from the Whitby Public Library. William Wilkinson’s
An Account of the Principalities of Wallachia and Moldavia (1820)
contains a few brief references to a “Voivode Dracula” (never referred to as “Vlad”)
who crossed the Danube and attacked Turkish troops. But what seems to have
attracted Stoker was a footnote in which Wilkinson states that
“Dracula
in the Wallachian language means ‘Devil.”“ Stoker supplemented this with scraps
of Romanian history from other sources (which he carefully listed in his notes)
and fleshed out a history for his Count Dracula. Wilkinson is Stoker’s only
known source for information on the historical namesake. Everything else is
speculation.
And there is plenty, some of it rather far-fetched. For example, it has been
suggested that Stoker drew the concept of the staking of a vampire from his
knowledge of Vlad’s penchant for impaling his enemies on stakes; that Renfield’s
fondness for insects and small animals is a reenactment of Vlad’s habit of
torturing small animals while he was held prisoner in Hungary; or that Count
Dracula is repelled by holy symbols because Vlad betrayed the Orthodox Church by
converting to Roman Catholicism. Such speculation has arisen from a basic
assumption (yet to be proved conclusively) that Stoker knew much more about Vlad
than what he read in Wilkinson; that his other major sources were the Hungarian
professor Arminius Vambery, and his own readings in the British Museum (both of
which are indirectly alluded to in the novel).
Much has been written of what Stoker may have learned from Vambery. Claims
have been made that Vambery supplied Stoker with information on Transylvania,
vampire lore, and Vlad himself; some suggest that Vambery may even have
introduced Stoker to some of the fifteenth-century materials about Vlad. But all
of this is speculation based on circumstantial evidence. We do know that the two
met at least twice. While we do have a record of these meetings (Stoker refers
to both in his 1906 book
Personal Reminiscences of Henry Irving), there
is nothing to indicate that the conversation included Vlad, vampires, or even
Transylvania. Furthermore, there is no record of any other correspondence
between Stoker and Vambery, nor is Vambery mentioned in Stoker’s notes for
Dracula. As for the theory that what Van Helsing in the novel learns from
Arminius (the character is generally seen as a tribute to Vambery) parallels
what Stoker himself gleaned from the Hungarian, just about every scrap of this
material can readily be traced to Stoker’s known sources.
While Stoker did conduct some research at the British Museum, there is no
evidence to indicate that he discovered further material about the historical
Dracula. Much speculation surrounds the possibility that he may have gained
access to one of the fifteenth-century German pamphlets about Vlad the Impaler
featuring a woodcut portrait accompanied by the caption “A wondrous and
frightening story about a great bloodthirsty berserker called Dracula.” This has
led some to conclude that Stoker’s physical description of Count Dracula is
actually based on this portrait of Vlad. But again, the concrete evidence just
is not there. It is much more likely that Stoker drew the description of Count
Dracula from earlier villains in Gothic literature, or even from his own
employer, Henry Icving.
Count Dracula, as Van Helsing tells us, “must have been that Voivode Dracula
who won his name against the Turk.” Indeed he was! But it is significant that
nowhere in Stoker’s novel is Dracula referred to as “Vlad,” nor is there any
reference to Vlad’s famous atrocities, in particular his use of impalement as
his favorite means of execution. Why would Stoker—a writer who meticulously
included detail after detail (some very insignificant and obscure) from his
known sources—ignore something that would have added so much to the delineation
of his villain? Either he knew more and chose not to use it, or he used what he
knew. Pending much more concrete evidence than has to date been unearthed, I
would accept the latter. All we know for certain is that Stoker found the name
“Dracula” in Wilkinson, obviously liked it, and decided to use it.
The fusing of fact and fiction, while of questionable merit in reconstructing
history, is a superb tool in the hands of an imaginative writer. As we today
know much more than Stoker about Vlad the Impaler (thanks primarily to the work
of Radu Florescu and Raymond McNally), it is hardly surprising that the count
and the
voivode have merged. The most noted occurrence in film is in
Francis Ford Coppola’s 1992 rendition
Bram Stoker’s Dracula, though a
connection between the vampire count and his historical namesake had been made
almost twenty years earlier in the Dan Curtis production of
Dracula
with Jack Palance. Examples of the fusion in fiction are numerous, including
such novels as
Anno Dracula and
The Bloody Red Baron (Kim
Newman),
Children of the Night (Dan Simmons), the trilogy Dracula
Lives! (Peter Tremayne),
Drakulya (Earl Lee), and this present trilogy.
Fiction has made Vlad what he never was in life—a vampire— and has thus granted
him, like his fictional counterpart, immortality.
Elizabeth Miller
Professor of English
Memorial University of Newfoundland
PROLOGUE
Memorandum of Vlad III, Prince of Wallachia
Bucharest, Curtea Domneasca, 28 December 1476.
Outside, the promise of snow; the weather has turned bitter and the sky
leaden, cloaking the overhead sun. Yet the air tingles, as if with unhurled
lightning. It dances upon my skin.
We wait.
He comes… Basarab is coming…
I smile up from parchment, ink, and quill at my trusted aide Gregor’s face,
draped with shadows from the torchlight. Child of
boiers, the Roumanian
nobility, his features are mine—sharp, hawkish nose and chin, large heavy-lidded
eyes, raven hair falling to his shoulders. No doubt we are related by blood,
distant cousins at the least; he is at most half a thumb taller, so close are we
in height.
The resemblance ends there, for the intelligence possessed by our forebears
flows in my veins alone. Look at him: The fool cannot resist peering from time
to time through the curtains, at the city spreading out below us, at the high,
fortified walls built at my command. At what lies —what
will lie
soon—beyond those walls. He thinks I do not know.
Laiota Basarab with an army of four thousand Turks, come to murder me inside
these stone walls and steal my throne, so recently reclaimed. And I with but
half as many men, and my champions returned to their northern kingdoms.
The traitor comes…
You know all that can be known of treachery, do you not, Gregor? Oh yes, you
return my glance with the most fawning of courtesies, but I see your heart; I
hear your very thoughts. You swear fealty to me, the
voivode, but your
loyalties lie with the inconstant
boier, the nobles who will again
deliver their country into the hands of Basarab, lover of Turks, for the sake of
a mercenary peace.
All this did the Dark One reveal to me last night within the Circle. I doubt
it not, for I have of late acquired further talents unknown to common mortals:
the reading of the thoughts and hearts. As Gregor paces uneasily before the
curtain, I see now his guilt as clearly as I see the words scrawled here before
me.
I know treachery myself too well, having been often betrayed. Betrayed by my
father, when he surrendered my brother and myself, both of tender age, to be the
sultan’s hostages. Betrayed by my fair brother, Radu, lover of women and men and
the sultan Mehmed, on whose account Radu seized my throne from me. .
(And you are dead now, are you not, my dear younger brother? Killed at last
by the womanish acts that won you Mehmed’s heart and army—and thus my kingdom.
Those beautiful eyes the colour of blue-green sea are closed forever; those full
red lips, which sought the breasts of women with the same fervour that they
suckled at the sultan’s lap, shall never kiss again. May your syphilitic Turkish
lovers follow you soon!)
Betrayed even by my one trusted friend, Stefan eel Mare, whose kingdom I
helped him win. (You play the friend once more, my Stefan, now that it falls to
your advantage. But I will not forget or forgive your maneuvers that put Basarab
in my place. I take your help now that regret overtakes you; but the time for
recompense will come.)
Still quiet. No cries from the watch tower, just the hiss of the fire, the
scratch of the quill against parchment, the silence of imminent snow. And the
scuffle of Gregor’s boots against stone as he paces; I am far too entertained by
his anxiety to give him leave to sit. An hour ago, I bade him: “Send to the
stable for horses, one for each of us, and a day’s provisions.”
Ah, the look of ill-concealed terror in his eye, at the thought the
boiers scheme might go awry! “Where shall we go, my lord?”
Had I been in my usual humour, I would not have deigned to reply with more
than a scowl (nor would Gregor have dared to ask, had his desperation not been
so great). As it was, my amusement was such that I answered, “Riding.”
And, as he backed away, bowing, towards the door, his expression one of
comical dubiousness, I added—loudly so that those standing watch at the entry
would hear: “And send in two guards. I am not of a mind to wait alone.”
They heard and entered without waiting for Gregor’s relay—two fine strong
Moldavians, one dark and the other golden, both tall and armed with swords, both
left behind as tokens of Stefan’s guilt over past infidelities. This I did so
that Gregor might not, should he arm himself in his absence, return and indulge
his anxiousness to see me destroyed.
Later, when he returned, cheeks and nose reddened and glistening from the
cold, to report that the horses should be ready within the hour, I sent him
straightway on another errand: “Fetch clothing for me and yourself and bring it
here, to my private chambers. We shall go disguised as Turks.”
This gave him great alarm, which he barely stifled. Did I know of the
boier plot to send Basarab and the Turks to slay me and my army? Did I
suspect him?
In his veiled eyes I saw the machinations of a traitorous mind. I had given
no clear sign of suspicion yet; certainly I could have easily ordered the
bodyguards to dispatch him had I discovered the truth. Was this one of the
fearsome
voivodes fatal games—was I delaying his execution in order to
savour it—or was it chance that I had chosen this moment to leave my stronghold
disguised, alongside the man who would play my Judas?
He left, and in moments returned with clothing: a peaked cap, tunic and wool
cloak to shield against the cold. He assisted me with my dress under the
attentive eye of the Moldavians, watched as I wound the turban round my head,
and looked askance when I asked him:
“Olmeye hazirmisin?” Are you prepared to die?, for I am as fluent in
the speech of my enemies as I am my own tongue, having spent my youth as the
sultan’s prisoner. I know their dress, their mannerisms, and can pass for one of
them. And I laughed, for though he is their minion—he who serves the
boiers
serves the Turks—he understood not one word I had uttered. He laughed also,
yellowed teeth flashing beneath the drooping mustache so like mine, thinking my
mirth sprang from my successful impersonation.
Then I went over to the wall and lifted down from its place of honour a great
scimitar, gleaming in the firelight, and with it a curving sheath. This I
fastened to my belt, then said:
“Dress.”
He did so, and I looked on in silent approval at a body small in stature, but
muscular, broad of chest and shoulder. His scars are fewer—he has not been
tested in battle as often as I—and he lacks half a front tooth, but the
similarities are enough.
After a time, a boy ran up to say the mounts were ready. But I would not be
rushed. I had begun this entry and was obliged to finish it—for this will be my
last remembrance as a mortal. I had learned from the Dark Lord in Circle the
hour of Basarab’s coming and knew I was still safe, and further, I was not
inclined to end Gregor’s anxiety. Let him wait! Let him suffer in
uncertainty—which he does to this very moment, pacing in his Turkish robes,
praying that I will change my mind and remain here, to be slaughtered.
Were the guards not here, he would risk killing me now. I know that the
moment we are alone on horseback, he will seek the first opportunity; for that,
I am ready.
I must not die now! Not so close to the touch of the Dark Lord, and Eternity…
* * *
Snagov Monastery, 28 December.
To the north we rode upon black stallions, first along the banks of the
Dimbovita, then across the frozen ground into the bare-limbed Vlasia Forest,
tinged with evergreen. The air was grey with smoke and the approaching storm,
and laden with a strange, fleeting smell: of lightning spent, of iron wielded;
of blood and snow.
I galloped at full speed, wind stinging my eyes, keeping Gregor well behind
me—a danger, perhaps, but I had seen him dress and knew he carried no weapon
save the sword at his waist. If he wished to kill me at that moment (and he
did), then he would have to overtake me, throw me from my horse, slay me before
I could draw my own sword. Perhaps the singular intent in my eyes frightened
him; if so, he was wise to fear. He might have turned and hastened away to the
south, returned to his beloved Basarab, and warned them of my escape to the
north—but that action would have alerted me at once to treachery and bettered my
chance of survival.
So we continued apace over hard earth and rocks and dead crackling leaves
until at last we reached the banks of a great lake, frozen solidly, its surface
opaque grey-white dirtied by swirls of dark suspended flotsam. At its center
stood the island fortress of Snagov, the spires of the Chapel of the
Annunciation emerging from behind high walls at the water’s very edge.
I dismounted and unsheathed my sword—with a smile to ease Gregor’s growing
trepidation—and led my horse onto the ice. “No need to draw your arms,” I told
my uncertain companion. “Mine are sufficient to protect us.” I nodded for him to
precede me across the river to the great iron gate.
In his eyes I saw once more the moment of decision: Should he smite me now,
and return to Basarab’s army a hero? Should he hope for an opportunity inside
Snagov’s walls, and venture forth upon the ice? (It was my right as sovereign to
require that someone else test the ice’s strength.) Why had I drawn my sword?
Was this merely another of the prince’s eccentricities, or had I deduced his
deception?
A flicker of fear again crossed his features. I was, after all, Dracula, the
son of the Devil, the passionate fighter whose madness and boldness knew no
limits. I had ridden at night into Mehmed’s very camp and slaughtered a hundred
sleeping Turks with the sword I now grasped. If he drew his weapon now and
openly challenged me, would he be the survivor?
With the softest of sighs he swung down from his horse and led the creature
onto the frozen lake. So we made our way toward sanctuary, the horses’ hooves
ringing hollowly against the ice, displacing small clouds of mist. At last we
arrived at the great stone wall I had built during my reign, which had
transformed the island monastic village into a more suitable fortress for
guarding the treasure of the Wallachian realm. Ringing that wall were trees,
their naked limbs clawing at the stones as if pleading for entry.
A cry came from the watchtower as the sentinel spotted us; I cupped my hands
round my mouth and called a reply which echoed off the stone. We moved toward
the high wooden gate, studded with pales, and waited on the ice uneasily, I
maneuvering myself so that I stood behind Gregor. The indecisiveness, the
tension, the guilt, could easily be read from the cant of the man’s shoulders.
We stood without speaking and watched the first snowflakes sail silently down,
stinging my cheeks like cold tears.
At last the great gate creaked open on its rusting hinges and we were
received by two armed guards, who immediately bowed low when they confirmed that
their guest was, indeed, the Prince of Wallachia. I ordered one to take our
horses to the stable and have food brought; the other I bade accompany us,
ostensibly to build a fire. The three of us walked together on the ice-and-mud
road past the high watchtower, the beautiful chapel, the great monastery, up
towards the beautiful palace I had erected in better days. The thought evoked a
flare of anger: Gregor did not deserve to set foot in this place built by the
blood of loyal subjects, a sanctuary dear to my heart and which I would never
again see after this night.
But I held my temper and walked together with my traitor into the palace’s
private chambers—which, being long unused, were so cold that our breaths still
hung in the air as mist. I moved into my private dining-room, which looked onto
a small cell with an Orthodox shrine to the Virgin Mary. The accompanying
soldier, a strong young man, set at once to the task of building a fire.
With a flourish, I removed my cape, belt, and sword, setting them all down on
the floor near the hearth—and the soldier—and motioned for Gregor to do the
same. I saw his swift secretive glance at my weapon, then at the soldier, then
back at me; in his eyes shone the reluctance of the coward. Slay me he could,
but at the cost of his own life.
“Gregor, my friend.” I motioned for the now-tired man to sit across from me
at the ancient dining table. I was cordial, conciliatory. “It is only right that
you know the reason for our swift journey. I have need of… funds, and so I came
here to avail myself of some of my treasure. There are few I can trust with such
a task, even at the castle… and so I did not speak of it to you. We shall be
returning shortly to Bucharest, but in the meantime, rest, and eat.”
I saw the mercenary light in his eye which I had hoped to evoke. He could
wait until the treasure was in our hands, and once he and I were alone in the
Vlasia Forest…
After a time the fire grew, and the room began to warm. I bade the soldier
stay with us and stand guard. A white-bearded monk with fewer teeth than I have
fingers entered with a tray of food—a cold roasted chicken, a flask of wine,
bread, cheese. He served us most capably, reaching out to refill our goblets
with a hand so gnarled by age —blue veins standing out in bas relief beneath a
parchment-thin layer of pale yellow skin—that I was astonished it did not
tremble. Even more laudably, he showed no fear, no cringing, before the great
prince, only silent dignity. This I found agreeable, for I am usually tended by
fawning fools, but his singular self-possession may well have been sparked by
disdain for my heresy. (I had spent years under house arrest in Hungary; the
only way to gain King Matthias’ trust—and regain my throne—was to convert to
Catholicism. It was a political move, nothing more—in Turkey I was forced to
kneel upon prayer rugs facing Mecca and pray to Allah—but an unfortunate one,
for it has earned me the contempt of my own people.)
Should I have chosen death instead?
No. There is nothing noble about death, even that of a martyr.
Yet the old monk feels I have betrayed God, and therefore deserve His
punishment, just as Gregor deserves mine.
Perhaps the monk would be surprised to know that I indeed fear God. Fear Him
because I know His heart is like mine—blackened by power, thrilling at the
ability to dictate the hour and fashion of men’s deaths; reveling in their
suffering.
Nay—His heart is more evil than mine, and more pitiless. He strikes down
young, old, man, woman, child, without regard for their loyalty, their wit,
their circumstance. I spare the innocent and kill only those who betray me; I
kill to instruct the survivors through spectacle.
God has no such qualms. He slays believer and infidel alike, and the degree
of suffering He inflicts bears no relation to the victim’s piety. Nor does He
concern Himself with justice—He has permitted usurper after usurper to steal my
rightful kingdom, and now that I have reclaimed it after years of arduous
struggle, He will not help me maintain it. Thus I could never ally myself with
Him, especially since He is too jealous to impart the immortality I seek.
Enough of God; I speak now of Gregor. He and I shared our Last Supper in
silence, and when he had eaten to his satisfaction and pushed away from the
table with a sigh, I told him:
“My friend. My heart is heavy of late, for I know that support for my reign
is uncertain. The boiers have turned against me”—and when he began a
supposedly innocent protest, I raised my hand. “Do not think I do not know it!
And now that Stefan has withdrawn his forces, the situation is more precarious.”
This he could not disavow. After all, to spare them danger, I had not permitted
my wife and sons to join me at my Bucharest court. I paused and, in a tone of
utmost earnestness, asked, “Gregor. Will you pray for me? For your prince’s
safety and success? I know you are a man of faith, and I am deemed by some a
heretic…” And here I paused to steal a sidewise glance at the grizzled monk, who
stood in readiness to serve (albeit closer to the fire, to warm his old bones).
But the brother’s gaze was hooded, his expression unreadable; perhaps he was
deaf, I thought, and had not heard. Or perhaps he was simply too wise a man to
make open his contempt, knowing that I would not forgive it. “Beseech God and
the Virgin on my behalf.”
Of course Gregor could do no else. He nodded, and with solemnity, I rose from
the table and led him to the monastic little cell, whose door lay ajar so that
its interior was entirely visible from our dinner table. I crossed myself (in
good Orthodox fashion, which I had no doubt the old monk noticed) and, stopping
at the doorway, gestured for my aide to enter and kneel on the small rug in
front of the solitary shrine to the Mother of Christ.
He sank down with a groan and creaking knees; like me, he is no longer young.
“Pray for us,” I said tenderly, and gestured to the young soldier by the fire to
take up Gregor’s own weapon and stand in my place. I could see my kneeling
Judas’ face in profile—how like my own it was! He might have been my brother; my
own backstabbing brother. I watched that sun-weathered face, with its sharp but
delicate nose and chin, its thin, trembling lips beneath the dark drooping
mustache. I savoured the charming slow dawn of terror in those large eyes, black
as mine were green, as the soldier lifted the sword. Then I returned to my place
at the dinner table—the tableau was entirely visible from my seat, according to
my own design (it was not the first time I had made use of the cell, though I
suspect it will be the last)—and lifted my glass to drink deep of sweet,
stinging wine ere I spoke again.
“Pray, my friend. Pray for my long life… and death to those who would betray
me.”
He let go a wrenching sob and pressed his palms together in earnest
supplication, turning on his knees to face me. The little rug moved with him,
rippling. “My lord, I swear that I have not deceived you!”
I let a long, tortured moment pass for him before I replied, my voice soft,
curious. “Did I accuse you?”
His eyes widened; then he blinked, and pressed his quivering lips together.
In truth, had he been able to think of a compelling reply, and had I trusted my
magic any less, I might have spared him then. But I was certain of the vision
that had come to me in Circle, and my own divinations. Even were I not, the look
of stricken self-incrimination which descended at that instant upon Gregor’s
features would have convinced me. A single shining drop slid down his cheek.
“Oho!” I exulted. “Is this a tear?”
“My lord, I beg—”
“Turn!” I cried, gesturing for the soldier to brandish the sword. His
cravenness so fuelled my rage that it would no longer be submerged. “Turn, and
pray to the Virgin! Pray that she might grant you mercy, and me victory over
Basarab!”
He knit his hands together fervently and once more faced Mary’s shrine;
beneath his knees, the small rug bunched up further to reveal a seam in the
wooden floor. Yet my would-be deceiver never noticed; his attention had become
sincerely fixed on the icon of the Virgin Mother, and he began to babble,
knuckles pressed to the bridge of his nose, eyes squeezed shut.
“Have mercy! God and Holy Mother—have mercy! Grant my sovereign long life,
and victory, and convince him that I have not betrayed him…”
“Yes,” I whispered. “Perhaps God will be merciful to you—but He has never
been thus to me, and so I will not bargain with Him.”
“My Lord,” he cried, still facing the shrine with his eyes closed so that I
was uncertain whether he addressed God or me. “My Lord, I am innocent of any
crime against you! What can I say, what can I do, to prove my perfect loyalty?”
“Die with bravery,” said I. “Your life is already forfeit, Gregor. Make your
peace, and quickly. I shall not die outside Bucharest as my father did, struck
down by an assassin.”
He raised his face towards Heaven, then opened his praying hands as one might
a book and pressed them to his eyes, weeping. I studied his reaction to the
revelation that all hope was lost: noted the electric agony, the utter
desperation, reflected in each aspect of his body, his voice (for his sobs grew
resoundingly loud and shrill). I have been my whole life a student of the Death,
staring into Its face in hopes that I might understand and be able to accept my
own end. How many men have I killed in my life—a thousand? No, it must be more,
many more. I know the face of Death; I watched more than a hundred
Turks meet their slow deaths in the Forest of the Impaled alone. I have heard
men’s sobs and screams, and the slow sighing sound made by a body pulled down
onto the stake by its own weight.
And in each instance I have looked into their eyes and tried to understand
the Secret hidden there as they passed from life into the Abyss.
But as I contemplated Death—and came to see that God was not just, and that
there was no meaning there, only indignity and suffering—I came to know
that I could never accept it. I had been cheated of too much that was rightfully
mine in this life; I had ruled my father’s, my grandfather’s, kingdom for only a
handful of years before I was ousted unjustly. I am royalty by birthright; but I
spent my whole youth as a Turkish prisoner, and eight of my middle years as a
prisoner of the Hungarian king. My kingdom has been stolen from me twice, once
by my own brother: if I relinquish it a third time, I shall have recompense—I
who am shrewder, more cunning, more deserving of my people’s adoration, than
Matthias, than Mehmed, than Radu or Basarab.
Death is surely closer to me now than at any other time. Yet God and the
angels would not grant me my desire: immortality. There is only One other
capable.
* * *
As Gregor wept and prayed in vain, the soldier in the doorway turned his
hopeful young face (with its thin, patchy boy’s beard on tender pink cheeks and
chin) towards me and motioned with his sword, his gaze a question. He will make
a fine assassin, that one, for his eyes were bright with eagerness and yearning,
much as mine.
I gave a single small shake of my head; not yet. Instead, I rose and walked
over to stand beside my cheerful young killer, taking care that my boots struck
the floor solidly. As I’d planned, Gregor heard. His back tensed; I knew he
expected Death to come up behind him, in the form of the sword gripped in the
young soldier’s hand. And though he dared not turn his head completely round to
look straight at me—he had witnessed my sensitivity to the smallest presumption
in these situations many times, and feared provoking a burst of rage—he inclined
it slightly over its shoulder, and swiveled his eyes in an effort to look behind
him.
Wild eyes those were, with more white in them than I had ever seen. I was
reminded strongly of the bulging, frantic eyes of cattle at the slaughter.
“My lord, my lord, my lord, you kill an innocent man!”
“Indeed?” I asked, my voice once again calm. “Gregor…” And here I affected
the utmost sincerity. “I am a hard man and cannot tolerate any degree of
duplicity. I am cruel to those who betray me, but just to the loyal. Can you
swear before God that you have acted with naught but total faithfulness towards
me, your sovereign?”
“I swear it before God, my lord!”
I paused for a moment to watch his expression, and the wild swing there
between hope and doom. After a time, I said, “Very well, my friend. These are
dangerous times for me; I have no choice but to test the loyalty of those in my
inner circle. I believe you.”
Oh, the joy upon his face! And once again tears, but these were tinged with
happy relief instead of fear.
“But,” said I, for he had begun to struggle to his feet.
At that word, he sank at once back down. “You have passed only narrowly. Pray
now for my victory over all enemies—and thank God for your deliverance.”
He began to do so, and his exultant smile broadened when I motioned for the
soldier—now bitterly disap pointed—to retreat back to the fireplace, to stand
beside the grimly silent old monk. But I remained within the doorway.
And when I deemed the time right—and could no longer restrain my fury at
Gregor’s betrayal and his cow ardice—I reached for a wooden lever set within the
wall just outside the cell. With vehement effort, I pulled.
The sliding sound of wood against wood. Arms flung into the air, a piteous
cry of disappointment and fear. And upon his face animal terror again, a sight
rapid yet indelible in the swift second before he disappeared down to Hell.
Then the sharper screams of pain as I ran forward towards the gaping trapdoor
to observe my handiwork.
This is how God feels when He looks on the faces of the dead: a sense of
power and accomplishment far, far sweeter and more intoxicating than love.
Gregor had fallen into the shallow pit upon his knees, and thus, kneeling,
would he die. For the keenly sharp iron pales were fastened in the ground at
regular intervals, to ensure death, and the pit so placed that he could not fall
forward—only back, despite his flailing, onto the spikes. (This so I might
better see his face.) One had caught his long dark hair and grazed the back of
his skull, leaving his head tilted slightly forward; another emerged bloodied
from his right breast. Yet others protruded from the crook of his right arm,
from the center of his left palm (in Christlike fashion), while others sight
unseen no doubt pierced his lower legs and held him fast.
His eyes were open wide, in blank astonishment which was slowly fading. I
think he was not quite dead, and so I squatted on my haunches and called softly
down:
“May God send your faithless soul straight to Hell. You shall die, and
Basarab shall die, but I shall live for ever.”
And I bent forward, turning so that the two living men behind me could not
see, and lifted up Gregor’s limp right hand. Upon this I put my own ring.
Then I rose and sent the young soldier just outside the room, to guard us,
and took the old monk aside. Him I gave a mission: that he should take whatever
strong young brothers he needed, and take the body across the lake into the
Vlasia Forest, and there behead it. As for the head, they would cut a hole in
the ice and throw it into the freezing waters.
Fear was in the old man, too, after what he had seen; he listened in silence
and uttered no protest, even though I was asking him to do the unthinkable—to
leave a body without proper burial for the carrion birds in the forest.
And when I had sent him away to do his work, I called my eager young assassin
into my chambers and said, “The old monk will return with some brothers to fetch
the body for burial outside Snagov. When they return from across the water, I
want you to be waiting for them in the watchtower; do not let them back inside,
but meet them at the gate and kill them.”
This he agreed to eagerly. Then I bade him send an other trustworthy soldier
to stand outside the door and guard my private chambers throughout the night, so
that no one should be permitted in.
But first, I helped him to remove Gregor’s still bleed ing, warm body (did he
still breathe? I could not decide) from its bed of stakes and wrap it in the
traitor’s cloak and the now-tattered rug, to spare the floor from stain. Then
the soldier dragged Gregor by the heels out into the hallway, and there they
remained to await the brothers.
As for me, I bolted the door behind them, as I required privacy in order to
properly cast a Circle. Now that I had made my escape from Basarab and my Judas,
it was time to make my escape from Death. For it was clear to me that my success
as an earthly prince was not to be, and that if I remained as I was, my death
was assured. Thus I sought another realm, one that was deathless yet still
allowed me power over mortals.
And so I turned, thinking to go back to the small shrine where so many have
met death, and fetch from another hidden trapdoor my magical tools, that I might
cast a Circle and summon again the Dark Lord for the consummation of our
bargain.
Yet as I turned, I espied before the fireplace a ragged servant child
stirring the fire with a poker. The sight so startled me that I cried out: “You!
Boy! How and when did you come in here?” For I wanted to know whether the child
had had opportunity to overhear my plan to leave Gregor’s decapitated body in
the forest, then have the monks killed. From the child’s size, he surely was no
more than in his sixth year, and most likely had understood little of what he
had heard; but children are parrots, and I would not risk even the frailest
chance of failure.
At my shout, the tiny creature did not so much as quiver, but continued
tending the fire with preternatural calm. Infuriated, I strode up behind it,
snatched up my sword, and drew it from its sheath, thinking to cleave that small
body in two.
But in the instant ere I struck, the child turned to me and smiled.
Boy? Girl? I could not have said. I only knew in that instant that I gazed
upon the most exquisitely beautiful creature I had ever seen. Its long, curling
hair shone like gold in sunlight, its skin gleamed like polished nacre, its lips
bloomed like the tenderest pink rose around the perfect pearls of its teeth. The
wool cape round its frail shoulders was tattered almost to shreds, frayed, worn,
and so smudged with grime that the fabric’s original colour was impossible to
guess. Yet the filth did not dim the wearer’s glory, but served to enhance it by
the contrast.
Surely there was nothing in this world lovelier or more delicate than this
small creature. Yet it was not until I gazed into its eyes—eyes bluer than sea
or sky or sapphire, framed by fine golden lashes and pale downy brows—that I saw
the infinite intelligence there, the wisdom and knowledge greater than any man
could ever possess… and at the same time, an innocence deeper and more genuine
than any human infant could possess. I thought, These are the eyes of the
Christ.
My weapon clattered to the floor. Despite myself, I shuddered, but through
sheer strength of will did not fall to my knees; pride would not permit me so
soon to echo Gregor. But—how difficult to be honest—I was filled with awe and
fear.
For I knew I looked upon the Dark Lord, come to me for the first time without
my summoning Him in Circle. Always He had come at my urging; I had been
the one in control of my fate, of my contract with Him. The Circle gave me power
over Him, made me His lord, made Him subject to my command—so long as I
was willing to make the appropriate sacrifice.
Now, it seemed, He was no longer mine to control. The thought provoked bitter
horror.
“You are the Dark One,” I told Him, though in truth I had never seen anything
so bright and shining as this smiling little pauper. He had come to me many
times in the form of darkness, as the featureless shadow of a man blacker than
midnight; twice, he had come to me as a bearded man more ancient and wizened
than the old monk, with eyes as innocent and wise as these.
Innocent as a dove, yet wise as a serpent…
“I am He,” said the little beauty pleasantly. “I have read your intent and
have saved you the need for a formal summons. What do you offer in exchange for
my gift, O Prince?” He spoke with a soft, lisping child’s voice, yet his words
and demeanour were those of a sage.
“If you have read my intent, then you already know.”
He laughed, sweet and high. “Let us affirm the contract by your stating it.”
I paused. I had never had great regard for any of my family, because of my
betrayal at the hands of my own father and brother. And I had no love for my
second wife, the Hungarian noblewoman Ilona; she had been like my conversion to
Catholicism, or the raid on Srebrenica, one part of a long-term plan to win King
Matthias’ favor and thus my freedom and kingdom. She had given me two sons: my
namesake Vlad, for the moment heir to the Wallachian throne (though
unfortunately not to my intelligence), and Mircea, who even in his youth clearly
resembles my treacherous brother, Radu, in both appearance and feminine
affectation.
But of all my family, I possessed—still possess—some paternal interest in my
eldest son, Mihnea, given me by my beloved dead Ana. He alone shares my
shrewdness and ambition; were I to choose one person on earth I should least
wish to sacrifice, it would be he.
Yet I was a keen and ambitious child, eager to learn from my father and
fulfill my duties as his heir, and he betrayed me without hesitation to the
Turks.
So it was I answered, “In return for immortality, I offer up the soul of my
eldest son.”
“Not enough,” replied He sternly, to my astonishment. “Not enough; for
immortality lasts forever, but my pleasure at receiving Mihnea’s soul is
temporary. We must have a continuing bargain. The soul of the eldest
son of each generation. And you shall bear the responsibility for delivering it
to me.”
I paused only a heartbeat at the thought of such a responsibility’s cost.
“Very well. Each generation, I shall deliver into your power the eldest son. But
at what moment shall I become immortal?”
“The change shall begin this night, once the sun has set, and be accomplished
by the dawn. One warning: In the morning you must closet yourself away to rest
undisturbed. You will no longer be a man, but an altogether different creature.”
“How shall I be changed?”
The child smiled, but there was no contempt, no condescension, in His eyes.
“That depends upon your own heart and mind. For each one it is different. You
shall become more powerful, but there will be conditions upon that power. There
are always conditions. I leave you to discover them yourself.”
“Conditions?” I savoured this new information, and experienced a sudden
revelation which restored a shred of my former confidence that I should be able
to control this entity, and thus my ultimate fate. “And have you no
conditions upon your own power?”
Another laugh, sweet and tinkling, then silence. The child regarded me with
abrupt solemnity. “There remains only one thing to be done to complete our
exchange.”
As he spoke, the flesh upon my arms and nape prickled. This was the moment I
had long awaited, the moment which had sustained me during these last bitter
days of knowing my earthly kingdom and my life would soon be forfeit: the moment
I stepped over the threshold into immortality.
“A kiss,” the Dark One said. “Only a kiss.” And He stepped from the hearth
and rose on tiptoe, arms at His sides, the pink petals of His lips pursed in
anticipation.
I moved towards Him, at last understanding as I sank down why He had appeared
as a child: that I should have to bow to Him to accept His gift. The thought
rankled, as I have bowed to no one but my father and Matthias, and then only
with reluctance. It also filled me with foreboding, for it underscored the fact
that the Dark Lord was no longer mine to control, and summon when I wished; I
was now under His control.
But I could not accept death, and so I bowed and kissed Him. And at the
moment my lips touched that infinitely tender and immortal flesh, I felt a surge
of power, of exhilaration, move from Him into me.
I stared into His eyes and saw them deepen from sky-blue to indigo, the
colour of night. Dark and shining they were, and magnificent, eyes that made a
man want to do nothing but stare into them for eternity. I could not resist. As
I looked deep into those eyes, I saw in them the gaze of the Beloved, the gaze
of the dead. The gaze of the only female I had permitted myself to love, my dead
Ana; the seductive, beautiful, treacherous gaze of Radu; the shrewd, calculating
gaze of my father, Vlad, and behind it, infinite Darkness…
So deep did I fall into that Darkness that when I came to myself some
moments—or was it hours?—later, I opened my eyes to find myself kneeling before
the hearth. The child had vanished, and the fire had gone out, leaving only ash
and glowing embers. Yet I felt no chill; my limbs, my head, my chest, were
atingle with strange sensation. Not the tingle of limbs gone numb, but rather an
odd sense of internal movement, as though my body had been emptied of its
contents, then refilled with humming bees. I felt strangely light. And when I
rose to my feet, I did so easily, without the pains of age and creaking bones
that have afflicted me these past years.
Even my vision was enhanced; the glow from the ashes in the fireplace seemed
impossibly bright and kissed by rainbow colours. Indeed, as I gazed around the
room, I saw each object more sharply and in more detail than I ever had as a
youth; each was imbued with a startling depth of colour and texture. I turned
slowly, taking in each sight with a child’s sense of wonder and laughing aloud
at the sheer pleasure of it. I could see every sparkling grain of sand that
comprised each stone in the hearth, every hair-fine crack in the mortar.
Yet the light from the tapers (which were still burning, though half consumed
and standing in pools of wax) dazzled my eyes so painfully that I blew out each
but one. That meagre light proved more than sufficient, for the colour and
detail faded not at all, even though a swift glance through the window showed
darkness and swirling snow. The sun had set, and the storm come at last.
I hurried to the mirror, eager to inspect my face for changes—but alas! When
I peered into the polished metal surface, my visage was paler and indistinct,
fading away as one might imagine a ghost dissolves into night. I had feared such
might happen, for I had heard tales from my nursemaid and other servants about
the faces of the dead not reflecting in mirrors. Was the undisclosed cost of my
bargain invisibility?
A discreet knock at the door: I called out and heard in reply the polite
voice of my young assassin. The monks had returned from the forest and had been
killed according to my instructions.
As a test to see whether I remained visible to mortals, I opened the door and
peered out at the scraggly-bearded soldier. “Excellent,” said I, expecting him
to scream at my disembodied voice, or instead to walk past me and peer beyond
me, searching for me inside the room.
At the very least, I expected him to see what I saw: a disappearing man. Yet
he gazed directly at my face, and bowed, giving no sign of distress or
amazement. “Very good, my lord,” said he, and I told him to ready my horse and
bring it to the palace, for I would be leaving the monastery shortly.
“But the snow has come, my lord. It is not safe for travel.”
I laughed in disdain, then repeated my request and gave him leave to go. I no
longer possess any fear of cold or snow or Basarab. I fear but one thing: the
Dark Lord.
The horse stands ready now, but I am obliged to write the story of my
transformation down first, for surely over the coming centuries I shall forget
the circumstances and the wonder of it. One day soon the announcement shall be
made that the Wallachian prince is dead, for it is only a matter of time before
Gregor’s headless body is discovered in the forest. I have no doubt that Basarab
has laid waste to my army and my castle at Bucharest, but I have my victory. In
a generation, he shall be dead, whilst I shall live forever. I have sent a
courier with a message for Ilona and my sons to meet me at our new estate in the
Carpathians.
And now I ride north, to become Legend.
Chapter 1
Letter from Vlad Dracula, Bistritsa, to E. Bathory, Vienna:
15 April 1893
Dearest Cousin:
It seems like centuries since last we corresponded, and longer still
since you and I met in the flesh. Much has happened since that time; I have
encountered difficulties of a grave nature—
so grave, in fact, that I
know not whom to call upon for aid save you, my shrewd and talented cousin.
Will you come, Elisabeth? Unfortunately, I find myself too compromised to
travel at present, or I would have gone to Vienna to make my request in person,
to spare you the journey here. I promise you sweet reward, and the delight of
meeting my charming niece Zsuzsanna and her maidservant Dunya, who have both
become my eternal companions. I promise also that I shall be as beholden to you
as I was to your ancestor Stefan of Bathory, who so long ago fought by the side
of a certain Prince Vlad Dracula to help him reclaim his throne. Once again, I
rely on your family’s loyalty and kindness.
Come quickly, for time is of the essence. Any guest you might bring would
be truly welcomed.
Your grateful servant, V.
Chapter 2
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
(Translated from the Dutch)
2 May 1893. EVENING.
So quiet here at home, and so sad. The student nurse, Katya, was still here
when I arrived home from my lecture at the hospital, and so I took my dinner and
went in to sit with Gerda for a time. As usual, no change, though I told her the
simple details of my day and the neighbors’ news in as cheerful a tone as I
could command. It is becoming increasingly difficult, for she is becoming a
skeleton. I fear she will die before Zsuzsanna is destroyed.
Now I sit watching Mama as she sleeps. I am glad again to stand the night
watch over her, and always restless when I must be away after sunset. (Gerda I
am not so concerned about; the mark on her throat means that little further harm
can be done her.) Katya stays the night when I must be away, and was able to
come this evening during my lecture. She is young but responsible and
levelheaded and can handle any medical emergency—though it is not those I fear
so much now that Mama nears the Abyss. I have sworn to my mother that I will see
her safely to the other life—not that her poor diseased brain comprehended what
I told her, though I know her spirit understands. I will let no vampire deprive
her of an honest death.
But it is so hard to watch her die.
She looks a bit worse tonight, with her once-beautiful silver hair spread
brittle and tangled upon the pillow, her face sallow and haggard and pinched
from constant pain.
It is hard to see her thus—she who had been my one comfort and strength
during all these difficult years. Since little Jan died so many years ago (can
it truly be twenty-two now? The pain is so fresh), leaving my poor dear Gerda
quite mad, Mama and I have depended so upon each other. We were all that
remained of our little family. She was uncomplaining and brave, even all those
many nights when I would travel and be gone for days—or rather, nights—at a
time, ridding the world of Vlad’s evil spawn. At times, I feel guilt at leaving
her to accomplish my grisly work, but I know she would have it no other way. How
else shall I avenge the death of her little grandson and of her first and truest
love, my father, Arkady? How else shall I give them and all my victims peace?
What a blessing it would be to have my father here now, to have his
knowledgeable help (yet how strange to write this of one who was a vampire).
Remembering back to the first days after I had met him, and my unkindness to
him, my repulsion and mistrust, I am ashamed. For—from what Mama has told me and
what I learned from her diary and from my interaction with the man himself—he
was clearly the noblest of souls, and died in an heroic effort to save us all
from evil. Even the curse of vampirism could not sully his good heart.
Mama’s cheeks and eyes seem more sunken tonight as well, no doubt because of
dehydration; Katya said she vomited her supper and would take no more, not even
water. She had also been moaning in agony—damnable tumours!—so I administered an
injection of morphia and now she sleeps peacefully. (I would take the drug
myself if I did not fear its addictive properties, or the fuzzy-headedness it
causes; I must always remain as alert as possible. As for Mama, I cannot deny
her. What does it matter if she dies addicted, so long as she is not in pain?)
I yearn for peaceful sleep myself; mine has been uneasy of late, and filled
with dreams which disturb me. I am convinced they contain some cryptic message I
might decipher, and so I have brought my journal into Mama’s room to write as I
sit in the old rocking-chair where she had so often comforted me in my
childhood.
So here is the dream: I am running with boyish glee through a great evergreen
forest. The air is fresh and cool, scented with pine and recent rain; the tall
trees’ limbs and needles sparkle with droplets of moisture. I run and run,
gasping and laughing, keeping my arm up so that the lower boughs do not slap my
face.
But soon my glee turns to panic, for I hear footsteps behind me. Someone
pursues me; I glance over my shoulder and catch a glimpse through the glistening
boughs of Gerda, my wife. But it is Gerda monstrously Changed: her dark, dark
eyes slant like the vampiress Zsuzsanna’s, and her teeth are just as long and
sharp. Like a wolf she growls low in her throat as she gives chase, her long
brown hair streaming.
I cry out and run faster, faster, for I know she means to destroy me.
Of a sudden, I stumble over a fallen tree trunk— slowly, ever so slowly, with
the great detail one experiences only in dreams. My forward foot becomes trapped
between the damp earth and the heavy limb; my arms go flying forward as they
scribe an arc in the air on their descent. My other leg goes up in the air also,
following its own arc as I go down, down, my palms finally sinking into a thick
carpet of wet twigs and pine needles.
My face strikes the fragrant earth. When I lift it at last, pushing up with
my arms against the yielding ground, I see…
(Why is this image so disturbing? Why does my pulse accelerate even now as I
write?)
I see a great dark creature—dark in the sense of pitch blackness, of an
absence of light so intense it seemed someone had taken scissors and cut away
that small portion of the world. A wolf, I think in fear; but no, it is no wolf.
A bear? No.
And, at a distance, my angelic mentor, Arminius, looks on dispassionately—as
shining and white as the hideous creature is black. His face is pink and unlined
as a child’s beneath his snowy beard, and his pure unsullied raiment gleams
blinding in the sun. Like Moses, he holds a tall wooden staff, and beside him
stands his familiar, Archangel, the tame white wolf.
“Arminius, help me!” I scream, and continue screaming until I am hoarse. But
he gives no sign of recognition or acknowledgment, nor does Archangel; and he
and the wolf remain detached onlookers.
Hopeless, horrified, I watch as the black silhouette metamorphoses from
animal predator into human, shrinking first to a child, then ballooning swiftly
to the shape of a man.
“Who are you?” I demand, trembling; despite my bravado, my cheeks are wet
with tears.
No answer. An interminable length of time follows, during which the
creature’s outline gradually enlarges. I know it means to surround and absorb
me—to devour me utterly—and I am afraid.
“Who are you?” I demand again, and after a heart-stopping pause, I hear the
answer whispered in my own mind, in my Gerda’s voice:
The Dark Lord…
I am engulfed, and swoon from pure nocturnal terror. Abruptly I wake, heart
pounding against my ribs like a captive demanding freedom.
My occult research has proven to me beyond doubt that such dreams are omens.
Yet, try as I might, I cannot ascertain its meaning. Does the Devil Himself
approach me? I do not even believe strictly in the concept, though I know there
are a plentitude of entities in this world and elsewhere which are not human,
yet are possessed of equal or greater intelligence.
I yearn for the comfort and help of Arkady’s presence, though I know he is
dead and cannot help me. But there is one who can.
Arminius! Arminius, my friend and teacher, you who guided me in the most
difficult times during my past, you who trained me as the slayer of the undead.
So many years ago you abandoned me, and I do not even know how to summon you.
You who are immortal are surely still alive.
Arminius, help me…
Zsuzsanna Dracul’s Diary
2 MAY 1893.
For an interminable succession of years I have been trapped inside this
castle watching the disintegration of my benefactor, Vlad, from strong, handsome
immortal to the most piteously gruesome husk of a selfish monster. Worse, I know
the same horrible change has overtaken me; when I braid my hair, I am forced to
acknowledge a preponderance of silver where once there was only jet. And my
hands! I see them now as I dip my pen. They are such poor, frail, withered
things, pale parchment over bone. If they are this hideous, what has become of
my once-beautiful face?
It has been more than I can bear, in part because of my helplessness, and
Vlad’s. We have both come to hate each other because of our misery—and it is all
the fault of that bastard Stefan! (Bastard I shall call him, though he is the
legitimate heir of my dead brother, Arkady. He deserves to be called by fouler
terms than that!) Or shall I call him by his alias, Van Helsing? He has
discovered somehow that the covenant works both ways: that each time he destroys
Vlad’s spawn—those few we failed to properly dispose of ourselves (we dislike
creating competitors) and all
their many offspring—we are weakened. Our
doom seemed inevitable, for we had no choice over these two long decades but to
languish here, especially now that we are too weak even to hunt nourishment.
Last evening Vlad came to me—his skin grey as a corpse’s, his eyes sunken and
red, his hair and eyebrows stark, brittle white. And yet his pale lips were
curved in a smile, and his voice oddly animated with excitement as he said:
“Zsuzsanna. If we take no action, we shall soon be so weak that Van Helsing will
come and easily destroy us. But no—do not weep on our account, for I have good
news!”
For I had broken into sobs, so perfect was my misery; and now to think that I
who had been filled with such power, such happiness, such hope, could only wait
helplessly for final, eternal oblivion…
But he waved me silent, and said vehemently, “Do not cry because of
him.
He thinks he is powerful enough to defeat us, but he will soon see his error. He
will not escape me; I shall soon see him delivered into my hands. But here is
the news: A mortal visitor will soon arrive at the castle, a healthy young man…
Do not sigh, for that is not the extent of it. I have received a letter, child,
from my cousin Elisabeth.”
“Elisabeth?” I had never before heard him utter the name, and in any case did
not understand why this should be such a glorious thing, for his voice rose
exultantly, as if he had announced our deliverance.
“An immortal like us. She is powerful and canny, shrewd enough to defeat your
brother’s son. And she
will do so. But first, she will come to us from
Vienna, and restore us to strength.”
“How is this possible?” I asked, and at once realised my question was a
foolish one. Of course this Elisabeth would be able to bring us an even larger
amount of fresh, vital blood than one lone man could supply. That would at least
ease the weakness that came from hunger, but certainly we could not recapture
our full vigour until Van Helsing’s rampage was ended.
The instant my question was stated, Vlad drew back, and his eyes grew wider,
redder, with a rage I did not understand. “That is not your concern!” he
snapped, and in an instant was gone again from my room.
Clearly this Elisabeth is a
most powerful woman— more powerful than
Vlad himself, else I would not have detected the clear note of jealousy in his
voice. Yes, he brought me into this existence, and for that I must be always
grateful. At the same time, I have come to despise him—despise him for his
cruelty, his arrogance, his lies. To him, I am nothing more than chattel, at
best an occasional companion, to be treated however he desires and dismissed
without concern for my feelings when he tires of me. He gave me the dark kiss
all those fifty years ago because in life I was timid, grateful, grovelling,
smitten with love for him. And now that I am transformed into the strong,
confident creature I was meant to be, he grows bored, even annoyed. When last he
went out of the castle to hunt many months ago (for all of us are too weak for
the long ride through the pass to Bistritsa, to post mail and thus invite guests
to our castle, as we did in the old days—or so I had thought), I voiced a
protest: Why was I required to remain behind like a prisoner of this castle,
waiting for whatever small gift he chose to bring back, after he had supped to
his content? For his custom was to bring me only an infant or a pale, anaemic
child—to keep me weaker than he, I realise now, so that he should always be the
one in control.
Had I possessed any physical strength, I should have defied him; but the
first time he offered to hunt for us all, I honestly thought it was out of
kindness, and so I accepted gratefully. And when he returned with only a tiny
newborn for me to share with Dunya, he was full of profuse apologies and
excuses. So it was that the second time he went out, I foolishly believed he
would bring us something grand: a strapping youth or strong peasant woman.
But no; he returned with a single sickly infant. And I drank from it out of
pure necessity, as I was faint with hunger, and shared what I could bear with
Dunya. Afterwards, I was as he had hoped—far too weak even to protest when he
went to hunt again.
Just as I am weak tonight; after Vlad left, I lay down. Night used to bring
such sweet exhilaration; now it only brings consciousness and misery. There have
been times (like tonight) when exhaustion has made me refuse to rise from my
coffin—which used to lie beside his, but now is confined to Dunya’s servant’s
quarters because he grew annoyed at my proximity. I lie here and weep and
consider that I should close my eyes and greet true death here, that this might
indeed become my final resting place.
Poor Dunya! I look over at her, lying motionless in her coffin. I fear she
will greet the Absolute before me, for she is the weakest of us all; she rarely
emerges from her slumber, but lies with pale, pale lids drawn down over dark
eyes. Years ago, when I was strong and beautiful, I took pity upon her,
thinking,
Why must she remain an anguished mortal, under our control,
neither alive nor dead? And so I led her gently through death into the dark
life. Vlad was furious, of course—“How shall we accomplish those things which
can only be done during the light of day if we have no mortal servant?” he
roared, and for weeks would speak to neither of us.
I did not care; Dunya has been as sweet and constant a companion as she ever
was. Her suffering was replaced by a marvellous delight, and we two have shared
all joys as sisters might. It was Dunya who suggested I commission a portrait of
myself, which I could use in place of the looking-glass, that I might not have
to rely on her descriptions. So it was done—by a mortal artist whose trembling
hands happily did not impede his skill—and out of gratitude, I commissioned a
separate, smaller portrait of Dunya.
Now my dear companion is only a pitiful, aged shadow of the beauty that hangs
upon the wall (as I must be also). In her coffin she lies with arms crossed over
her breast like a corpse, and looks for all the world like a dead crone, her
face worn and withered and waxen, her thin lips drawn back tightly over sharp
yellowed teeth. How I miss all those nights when we would hold hands and whisper
our dreams into each other’s ear! I cannot bear to see her so…
But the promise of Elisabeth has brought hope, and thus for the first time in
many years I have risen and written in my journal. Can I truly reclaim my beauty
and exuberance?
* * *
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
3 May 1893.
How strange life is. We make our plans and expect everything to go according
to them—and then, in a single instant, everything is changed.
It had been a long, tiring night. News had come from The Hague of strange
nocturnal attacks on the citizens by a sharp-toothed predator, possibly a wolf.
And so after investigating, I travelled there and spent the darkness waiting
outside a grand mausoleum for the return of a wealthy, well-respected
businessman who had died of apoplexy after a Hungarian holiday. More grisly
work, but I am happy to state that he is now at peace.
I returned home as quickly as possible from the task, as Gerda had begun to
worsen terribly over the past two days. Early this morning I went to see her, as
is my custom before retiring. Usually I make a vain attempt to hypnotise her, to
see what news I can learn of Zsuzsanna and thus Vlad. But this morning when I
went in, she was not staring at the ceiling as she always does. No, her eyes
were closed, and her breathing laboured. I sat with her a long time, checking
her breath and pulse and aura and trying to ascertain the cause of her decline.
There is no physical reason for it, other than her psychic connexion with
Zsuzsanna. Of that I am certain. If she was weakening and near death, it meant
Zsuzsanna was the same.
The day I had so diligently been working towards for a quarter-century was
now here. As Arminius had said so long ago, the covenant works both ways: by
destroying Vlad’s evil children, I weaken him—and strengthen myself. And at last
the moment had come when I was the stronger, and could deliver Vlad his
long-overdue fate.
So after I left her I did not go to bed; instead, I began to pack my trunk
and checked the timetables to see which trains were headed east, and when. My
hope was that, if I could arrive in Transylvania and dispatch both Vlad and
Zsuzsanna in time, Gerda might be spared both death and a dark resurrection.
But I also knew that if I failed, it would not be safe for her to remain in
this house with Mama and Katya, nor for the mortician who kept her body for
burial. She could not stay here without the keen scrutiny of one who can
perceive the symptoms of encroaching vampirism, and knows how to keep the undead
at bay. As I packed, I puzzled upon this for some time, since there is no one in
Amsterdam I can trust with such a task.
But there is such an one in London: my friend John, with his lunatic asylum.
He does not know, about the details of my wife’s illness, but he is much
interested in occultism and possesses an open mind. If I instruct him as to
Gerda’s confinement and care, he will follow my orders to the letter.
I was composing a telegram to him in my own mind when the bell rang. I
answered it to find a stout German lady somewhat past middle age, with
iron-streaked brown hair, broad jaw, and a ruddy complexion laced with spidery
broken veins. (And, I admit, a vast, intimidating bosom; when she leaned from
the waist to bow, I quite expected her to topple forward.)
“Herr Van Helsing?” She smiled most pleasantly, and I knew at once that she
would make a suitable day nurse for Mama, for she projected both dependability
and kindness. I had no need for psychic protection around her—she even wore a
crucifix, hidden beneath her black widow’s weeds—and so I relaxed and smiled as
I motioned her inside.
“And you must be Frau Koehler,” I answered in German, and at the sound of her
native tongue, she positively beamed.
As I led her upstairs to Mama’s room, we made pleasant small talk about the
ease with which she had located my house, and about how I had been referred to
her by a colleague.
Once we’d entered Mama’s bedroom, she fell silent and gazed with reverence
upon her prospective patient, then crossed herself at the sight of the crucifix
hanging over the bed.
“Ah,” she said with forthright sympathy. “She is dying, yes?”
“Yes.”
“How sad for you!” Her tone was that of one who had been through the same
terrible experience closehand. “And are you alone? I see no wife, no children…”
I sensed a glimmer of marital hope in the widow Koehler’s eyes and aspect. “I
have a wife,” I said at once, suddenly overwhelmed by bitterness at the
recollection of how she had been taken from me in spirit; and by the
recollection of my little Jan, taken in body by the vampires —by Zsuzsanna, the
vile demoness for whom I can find no forgiveness in my heart. “But Gerda, too,
is ill—”
“How doubly sad! God has given you a heavy burden.” She tilted her wide,
strong-jawed face towards me and studied me with at least as much pity as she
had directed towards Mama. “Then there shall be two patients?”
“No. I am taking my wife with me to London, to consult a specialist. My
mother has an excellent nurse who relieves me during the night; but now that I
must be gone, I need someone to care for her by day.”
“Ah. And what is your wife’s difficulty?”
“Shock,” said I. At the horror of being bitten, and finding that the attacker
had stolen her firstborn son.
“And our patient?” she asked gently, turning her kind gaze once again upon
Mama.
“Tumours of the breast and now, I think, the brain and elsewhere. She is not
altogether lucid; usually she sleeps because of the morphia. There is pain.”
She clicked her tongue softly. “And what is her name, sir, if I might ask?”
Van Helsing, the same as mine, I almost replied. But her demeanour
was so much that of a trusted family friend that I answered, “Mary.”
“Mary.” She savoured the word with loving approval. “The Mother of God. Such
a good name…” And she went over to sit in the rocking-chair beside the bed. “And
I am Helga,” she said, lifting Mama’s hand from beneath the sheets and pressing
it gently between her own, as if she were introducing herself and exchanging
information. I doubt the woman was aware of what she was doing, but it was clear
to me that she was a natural psychic.
After a time, she confirmed this by looking over her shoulder at me and
saying: “You are a good man, sir, and very brave. I also know in my heart that
your mother is a good woman. I shall be happy to give her excellent care.
And if God wills that she should die while you are gone, do not think that
she died alone or with a stranger, for I shall care and pray for her as if she
were my own sister.“
I turned away, clumsily pretending to gaze out the window at that moment, for
her compassion quite touched me. And when I am moved, suppressed grief wells
within me and shatters my defenses like floodwaters breaking a dam; I could not
prevent tears from spilling, but I moved quickly to wipe them away and recover
myself.
“Weep, sir,” she said behind me, and I heard the soft sound of her patting
Mama’s hand—as if Mama were fully conscious and aware of my tears, and Frau
Koehler wished to comfort her. “You have a right to.”
I feigned a cough so that I could withdraw my kerchief and wipe nose and
eyes, then turned apologetically towards the two women and nodded at Mama, whose
eyelids had begun to flicker. “Not so much right as she. She is the one
who is suffering, not I.”
“Untrue, sir. Because you love her, all her suffering has become yours. And
because you are more able to keenly observe it, you are even more aware of its
extent than she. Is it not more painful to see someone you love suffer than to
endure that suffering yourself?”
I wanted to protest, for a part of me was incensed to think that I
suffered more than Mama. Yet I could not deny that because I was conscious,
lucid, and still graced with adequate eyesight, I could look upon my mother’s
face and see the wasting there, see the lines traced by years of grief, see the
sunken cheeks and slightly jaundiced skin. See, also, the raw bleeding bedsores
devour her flesh while she screamed in anguish in a futile effort to void. Her
whole life has been pain: the loss of two husbands, a son, a grandson, terror of
a fate truly worse than death. All this she has borne cheerfully,
courageously—and for what purpose? To die in agony after an unhappy existence?
To lose all her dignity and beauty—
I must not continue, or I shall break down weeping again. Enough, enough!
It took me some time to compose myself sufficiently to answer Frau Koehler:
“It is difficult, indeed. But I am some judge of character myself, and I
perceive that you will give my mother such wonderful and compassionate care that
I need have no worry.” And I shook off all grief and tried to change my tone to
that of the brisk businessman. “Is it true that you can start this morning? For
my trip cannot wait; the sooner I and my wife leave, the better. I should like
to have you stay now, if you can, while I pack and make arrangements.”
“I would be pleased to stay,” she said, rising, and gently replacing Mama’s
hand upon the covers.
“Excellent!”
I showed her where all the medical necessities were kept in the bedroom: the
syringe, the morphia, the bedpan and paregoric, the salve and bandages for the
bedsores. She was well trained and quite intelligent, and we soon swiftly
dispensed with the details of the patient’s care. The time then came to escort
her down to my office so that I might pay her an advance portion of her salary.
But as I led her back towards the staircase, a sudden cry—muted, so that I
could not judge whether it was joyous or agonised—pricked the small hairs at the
nape of my neck. For an instant, I feared it was Mama, calling out in pain; but
then realisation dawned, so forcefully, so fearfully, that the gooseflesh on my
neck branched downward to my spine and arms.
Twenty-two years had passed since I had last heard my wife’s voice; thus I
had not recognised it at once.
With neither explanation nor apology to Frau Koehler, I turned and ran at
once down the hallway and into Gerda’s room.
And there she sat in the bed—eyes open, shining, all signs of weakness
vanished. My heart felt as though it had flipped over in my chest, and for a
fleeting instant I dared hope that she was returned to me, that Zsuzsanna and
Vlad had both been destroyed and that my darling was now freed.
Alas! Her eyes, though open, remained fixed upon a distant and invisible
vision. But she was strong, radiant, her skin no longer pale but slightly
flushed, as though she had recently taken sun, and her hair—her hair! Still
dishevelled above the long, neat braid Katya faithfully tended each night… but
every streak of silver had departed from her sable-brown locks.
I peered again at her face, unable to believe what my own eyes perceived, but
there it was: she had grown younger since the early morning. Every grey hair,
every wrinkle and fold of sagging flesh, had disappeared.
“Gerda!” I breathed, then louder: “Gerda, my darling, can you hear me?”
She gave no sign of either hearing or seeing me, but something she regarded
in the invisible distance made her face brighten with pure joy. “She has come!”
she said, and laughed aloud. “She has come…”
“Who?” I urged, as Frau Koehler came and stood in the doorway, watching in
silent amazement. “Who has come, darling?”
She replied not a word, but began gradually to calm as I watched her in
silence. After a time, her lips curved upward in a brilliant smile, revealing
slightly elongated eyeteeth.
“Amazing,” the nurse whispered behind me. “What shall I do, sir? Do you still
intend to take your wife to London?”
“I—I do not know.” I stared at Gerda, stricken. Her joyous cry had made me
dare hope, but now I saw that all was lost. For Gerda’s moods and health had,
for the last twenty-two years, been tied to those of Zsuzsanna. If Gerda was now
young and strong and healthy, it meant that Zsuzsanna was too—and Vlad.
And Gerda was beginning to Change.
What had the vampire done to strengthen himself and his consort?
I promised the good Frau Koehler that I should be in touch with her directly
once a decision had been made, and quickly dismissed her so that I could return
to Gerda’s bedside.
Efforts to rouse my wife from trance failed, as did all attempts at hypnosis
(which I knew would probably be futile, given the time of day). Yet I was
determined to sit with her and learn what I could; so I locked the windows and
rose, thinking to lock the door behind me—from the outside, so that Gerda could
not escape. There was little chance she would, since I had fastened crucifixes
and the Host over the lintel of door and window, but. the extra safeguard
reassured me.
Yet before I had passed over the threshold, she whispered a single phrase:
“The Dark Lord…”
It seemed at once a question and an admission of fear, voiced in an
apprehensive yet curious tremolo.
I froze in the doorway, overtaken by terror at the abrupt mental image of the
dark, devouring creature in my dream.
Who is this creature, and why are even the undead afraid of his name?
Arminius! Arminius, my rescuer of times past, do not remain silent any
longer. Help me!
Chapter 3
Zsuzsanna Dracul’s Diary
3 May 1893.
She has come!
I was lying in my casket, having awakened hours before but too overwhelmed
with exhaustion to rouse myself; there seemed no purpose in doing so, at any
rate. I felt like a dying woman who, at God’s insistence, was forced to live
beyond my time. I desired nothing more than to be released from my suffering.
And as I lay, I detected voices within the castle. At first they were only
barely audible murmurs, and in my self-pitying weakness, I paid no heed. (Once I
would have heard them distinctly, but my ability had faded to the degree that I
could distinguish only the voice and the cadence, but not the words.) They
continued for some time, and then they neared, so that I could recognise one of
them: Vlad spoke with the tone of a cordial host, which thus far I have only
heard him use to welcome victims.
And then I heard another voice—one that, for a moment, I mistook for a man’s,
for it was deep and throaty and so utterly, confidently sensual that I thought,
I am in love… Thus I naturally assumed that the visitor he had
been expecting had arrived, but the thought evoked only pale joy. I knew that
Vlad would tend first to his own hunger, leaving only the dregs for me and Dunya.
If, in hopes of getting more, I dared interrupt him as he fed, his rage might
very well prompt him to deny me so much as a single drop.
Then came silence; or so I think, for I drowsed a time.
But I came to myself at once when suddenly this other laughed, an utterly
joyous sound which for an instant rose so high that I realised I was hearing
instead the voice of a woman.
Elisabeth…
Why did the knowledge of her arrival fill me with excitement? I cannot say,
for certainly I found in her far, far more than I could have anticipated; and I
am damned, therefore I dare not trust in the kindly interventions of God or
fate. I only know that I rose from my resting place at once and hurried down the
corridor and up the stairs to Vlad’s private chambers, from whence the laughter
had originated.
And when I arrived, I flung open the door without so much as a knock.
There before a burning fireplace stood Vlad, still ancient and white-haired,
but clearly more vigorous than he had been of late. His lips had taken on a rosy
hue, his shoulders were no longer stooped but straight and square, and for the
first time in years, he was in an excellent humour. But his smile faded
instantly at the sight of me, and his eyes flared red. I knew at once that I
would bear the brunt of his wrath again for my interruption.
But I cared not, for my gaze had fallen upon Elisabeth.
To say that she was comely is to slight her.
I am lovely beyond any
mortal—this I know from looking at Dunya, and from the portrait that hangs upon
my wall (though Dunya says oils cannot do justice to the shimmering
phosphorescence of my skin, or the molten golden gleam in my eyes).
But Elisabeth! She was beyond beauty: regal as a queen in a modern plumed cap
and fitted satin gown of pewter-blue, with sapphire eyes to match, and skin as
fine and white as an infant child’s, save where the tenderest pink bloomed upon
her cheeks and lips. Her hair was tied at the nape of her neck—a delicate
porcelain swan’s neck, with the most bewitching hollow at the collarbone—and the
curls brought forward onto one shoulder, where in the fire’s glow they shone
pale golden as the sun.
She was as fair as I am dark, and at that instant, had she been a man, I
would have fallen utterly in love. Even so, I believe I cried out weakly in awe;
and when she turned her brilliant, omniscient gaze on me, I feared I would
faint.
“Vlad, Vlad,” said she, in a voice deep as Lake Hermannstadt and soft as
smoke. “Will you not grant me the pleasure of introducing me to this lovely
lady?”
The question brought tears to my eyes, for I knew that I looked a walking
corpse and far from lovely. Her kindness touched me, and I managed a wavering
smile as Vlad —without protest, to my surprise—at once bowed and said:
“Countess Elisabeth Bathory of Csejthe. May I have the honour of presenting
to you my niece, Zsuzsanna Dracul.”
Elisabeth held out a hand, gloved in powder-blue and marvellously
perfumed—and, to my utter astonishment, warm. I took it and made with difficulty
a small courtesy as she said to Vlad, “And not Tsepesh? Have you discarded the
name entirely, then?”
He gave a solemn nod. His anger seemed to have entirely evaporated, as if he
was actually hesitant to berate me in front of this woman, seeing as my presence
pleased her. “While living, I was famed as the Impaler, the
tsepesh.
But now that I am immortal, I have other interests, and am more pleased to be
known as Dracula—the son of the Devil.”
“So the Dragon is indeed a Devil?” she asked cockily, then laughed—a sound as
sweet as her perfume. But she fell silent and turned her attention to me the
instant I murmured: “Your hand. It is warm—are you vampire or living? But you
are far too beautiful to be mortal…”
At that, her pink lips curved slyly, and she peered sidewise at Vlad from
beneath a fringe of golden lashes, with an expression that said,
Shall I
tell her? But he lowered his gaze with a grave expression—and I felt she
withheld something from me as she laughed ruefully and replied, “I am neither
young nor mortal, my dear, but I suppose that, compared to Vlad, I am still a
girl; I died a mere two hundred and eighty years ago.”
As she spoke, the sensation of swooning overtook me again, and I would have
fallen backward had she not caught my arms.
“Why, my dear Zsuzsanna, you are so weak! And how thoughtless we are to
insist you remain on your feet.” And she favoured Vlad with another enigmatic
glance, saying, “I should like to be alone with her for a time.”
Reluctance flitted over his features, but it was soon replaced by a look of
maliciously smug understanding, as if some wicked revelation had just come to
him. “Ah. Of course… She can lead you to her chambers. There is another one
there too—the serving-girl…”
“Even better,” answered she, and coiled a satiny arm round my waist. “Lead
on, Zsuzsanna.” Her aspect was one of helpfulness, as I was still unsteady on my
feet; and so I permitted myself to lean my cheek against her shoulder that I
might study that magnificent porcelain neck and breathe in her perfume. It had
been so long since I’d laid eyes upon immortal beauty that her striking
appearance quite overwhelmed me.
We made our way down the winding stairs while I listened to the music of
Elisabeth’s cello voice. She chattered on about her home in Vienna, of how
wonderful that city was, and I whispered in reply that I had travelled to that
city once and fallen in love with it.
“Well, then! You
will come to my house there, and enjoy all that I
have at your leisure. You are exhausted now for lack of power, but I can see
beneath this premature aging. You are far too beautiful a creature to languish
here in this desolate ruin of a castle.” She glanced over her shoulder as if in
recognition of Vlad’s keener hearing—but I said:
“Do not worry. He can no longer hear so well as—”
“I know precisely how well he can hear, and he cannot detect us at this
distance. Perhaps you were too weak to notice, but I did restore a modicum of
his former strength to him tonight.” She paused and turned her delicate features
towards me, the long gold-gleaming curls falling forward from her shoulder onto
an ample mother-of-pearl bosom. “We can speak in confidence now. My dear—did you
know that he directed me not to restore your power to you?”
My lips drew back in an angry grimace; I managed to press them together, but
still they quivered with rage. “He has been so cruel and heartless—you cannot
imagine! I have only been good to him, and obedient—”
“
Obedient.” She spat it out like the most onerous curse.
“—but he has tricked me, starved me until I was too weak even to hunt. For
half a century I have trusted him, thinking that he had honest concern, even
love, for me. He is my own uncle, whom I adored without reserve during my life,
and he has preyed upon my affection in order to deceive me.”
As I spoke, she came to a stop and listened intently to my words, her full
lips compressing gradually into a thin line. I told her of his “generous” offer
to hunt for us all, and of his cruelty to me and to poor Dunya. And when I had
ended, she said slowly, “It is as I thought. The stupid mediaeval bastard!” And
she took off again at full speed, dragging me along.
I broke into explosive laughter despite my weakness, and though I gasped, I
could not catch my breath—or stop my giggles—to reply. I had never heard anyone
refer to him without awe or fear, and to hear him so bluntly described startled
and pleased me without end.
“Ah, the term amuses you,” she said, her perfect forehead marred by the
crease of a frown. “But think: Is my term for him so inaccurate? The year is
1893, but Vlad thinks it is still 1476. He treats women like chattel; I would
not be surprised to hear that he has kept his serfs.”
Still grinning, I confided, “No, they fled fifty years ago, out of fear when
he broke the covenant…”
She drew her head sharply up and back, her gaze keen and searching. “The
covenant? His agreement with the Dark Lord? Is
this why I was called?”
“This has nothing to do with the Devil,” I said, and paused to gesture at my
chamber door, for we had arrived at our destination. “He had broken his vow not
to share immortality with one of his family, and the villagers all feared that
he might begin to feed on them. Why do you laugh?”
For she had pressed a hand to her white bosom, spreading the blue-gloved
fingers there, and begun to laugh without reserve. Indeed, she flung back her
head, causing the cascade of golden curls to fall behind her shoulder and spill
down her back. I drew my face close to hers and peered, mildly insulted that she
should find mirth in such a serious thing.
But injury soon changed to amazement, for at that proximity my weakened
vision could clearly detect her teeth: small, blindingly white, and even. And
precisely like a mortal’s, without the sharp, elongated eyeteeth.
“You are not a vampire,” I marvelled.
She sobered then, though her lips still curved in a half-moon crescent; and
keeping one arm round my waist, with her other hand she clasped mine, infusing
me with her warmth. “Zsuzsanna darling, I am what I wish to be. As for my
laughter—it is directed not at you but at Vlad, who obviously has infected you
with his mediaeval idiocy. My dear, there is no Devil.”
“Then what of the Dark Lord?” I had never encountered Him myself—in truth, I
would be afraid to do so— but I had overheard many of His encounters with Vlad.
Her lips twitched with faint amusement, but she restrained her merriment out
of consideration for me. “He is called the Dark Lord because that is what He
prefers to be called. And He is not necessarily a he.”
I stared at her, confounded, as she pushed open my chamber door and drew me
across the threshhold. “Come, my darling. You have much to learn.”
* * *
3 MAY 1893, CONTINUED.
Returned, returned—all my strength, all my power, all my joy and beauty,
returned!
Elisabeth led me inside my own chamber (which, appropriately, were now the
old servants’ quarters), where my polished black casket lay open beside Dunya’s.
Again she worked to repress a grin at the sight of the coffins, and was not
entirely successful. At my questioning glance, she murmured, “How very dramatic…
and how like Vlad. He has always been more obsessed with death than life.” She
turned to me. “Zsuzsanna—are you able to keep a stunning secret from Vlad?”
“I am. My thoughts are my own; he is not privy to them.”
“I did not mean that, my darling. I could protect your thoughts from
him—though this is indeed better, for it will not provoke his suspicion. I
meant: Can you keep patiently silent, even in the face of the most thrilling
revelation?”
The diamond brilliant gleam of anticipation in her eyes quickened my own
excitement. “Yes, of course—if silence is to my benefit.”
“Oh, it shall be. I have returned only a portion of Vlad’s power to him—I
lied and told him I could only accomplish it in increments, for I wished to know
his true intent before I restored him completely. I do not trust him. But I can
see that you, Zsuzsanna, are possessed of a good, honest nature; therefore, I
shall restore you to full vigour this very hour.”
I clapped my hands together in eagerness, though the act took a great deal of
effort. “And Dunya too?”
“As you wish. I have no doubt that she, too, must be deserving, if she has
won the affection and loyalty of one so worthy as you. But here is the
condition: You both shall perceive your restored beauty, and your
strength—though to Vlad you will both appear as you are now. But you are neither
to speak of your restoration, nor indulge your reclaimed powers in front of him.
Do you swear to this?”
“I do,” I answered, smiling for pure joy. I knew it would be difficult to
keep from striking Vlad a mighty blow, or flaunting my greater abilities before
him; but I was desperate to regain the life I had known. I would have sworn to
anything.
“Excellent,” she breathed, then glanced round the vast, cold room. “Darling,
lie down.”
I moved obediently towards the casket, but she shook her head. “No, not
there. That is too gruesome a place, and we want no reminders of death! On the
bed, Zsuzsanna.”
Together we moved to the room’s far end, where a narrow, long-unused bed
stood near a window. I drew back the heavy curtain surrounding the bed, and lay
down upon the grey homespun blanket covering an ancient, lumpy mattress of
straw.
Elisabeth followed and knelt beside me, then patted the unyielding mattress
with a groan of pure indignation. “Zsuzsanna, this is a servant’s bed!” She
looked round the chamber with dawning realisation. “He has put you in the
servant’s quarters!”
I sighed. “I know…”
“No more for you, my darling! When you come with me, you shall sleep on pure
down, in silks and satins and grandeur befitting a queen!”
When you come with me…
Had I a heart, it would have begun to beat faster then, for the notion that I
should live with one who truly cared for me—and was so exquisite to
behold—evoked a thrill of anticipation. Had I understood her aright? Was she
truly suggesting that I break away from Vlad, and go to live with her?
Was such a thing possible? I had always believed that Vlad’s fate and his
power were inextricably bound to mine; that if he perished, I should too. At
least, that is what Vlad himself had told me—and I had always believed him. Had
I suffered here needlessly in this desolate castle because he had lied?
Any anger I felt at Vlad was eclipsed by hope: perhaps he bad lied
to me, but that fact was actually more comforting than the thought that he had
not. If I could break away from him, abandon this grim castle without fear and
go with this amazing immortal woman to enjoy all that the grand cities of Europe
have to offer…
“Do you mean,” I whispered, “that I am not obliged to remain with him? He has
told me that my existence depends upon his; is it—”
Before I could utter the word true, Elisabeth countered angrily,
“Believe nothing he has told you! There is no Devil—but the Prince of Lies
lives, and his name is Vlad. My dear, I have known him almost three centuries,
and I know his selfish mind: he made you as you are not because he was lonely or
because he loved you, but because you flattered him, appealed to his masculine
pride. And if he has told you that his destruction will bring about your own, it
was only because he wishes to keep you enslaved by loyalty.”
At this notion, I began to weep, for the truth was that I had
worshipped him slavishly when I was alive, and there were still remnants of
girlish adoration in my heart. To think that his motive in Changing me had not
been love—
“Ah, sweet child, don’t waste your tears over the likes of him.”
Still kneeling, she pulled off the powder-blue gloves and carelessly cast them
onto the floor; then she reached forward and took my hands into hers. Her flesh—
softer than a child’s, and finer—possessed a febrile warmth, as though she had
just held her palms over the fire for an hour to capture the heat. At the touch
of it, I sighed. “You shall be returned to your former glory—perhaps more—and
will have no further need of him.” She leaned forward until the entire world
consisted of nothing but her glittering diamond-and-sapphire gaze.
Brilliant as diamonds and just as cold, I thought, and shivered,
abruptly seized by strange and irrational fear. “What shall you do to me?”
“A kiss,” she whispered, bringing her face so close to mine that her sweet
breath warmed my cheeks. “Only a kiss…” And she bent down until at last those
soft, soft lips pressed against mine.
How shall I describe it? How does one describe infinity or bliss to those who
have not experienced them?
I remember the night of my Change, after Vlad had left me to die—the sweet
sensuality of it, the euphoria, the intriguing sharpening of all faculties:
sight, sound, touch. The memory of those moments has stayed with me these five
decades of undeath. Nothing, I thought, could supplant them; ah, but that was
before Elisabeth’s kiss!
So intense was that pleasure, so consuming, that for an unknown period I lost
myself—lost all sense of my surroundings, of Elisabeth, of time, of anything at
all in the world, save darkness and bliss. There was no I, no thing separate
from this union with eternity.
Given a choice, I would never have left it, for beside it even the attraction
of immortality dimmed. But all too soon, I discovered that I had returned to my
body, and that I lay upon the uncomfortable straw mattress and rough blanket
staring up into Elisabeth’s delighted eyes.
“Oh,” she breathed, putting a hand to her heart in amazement. “My Zsuzsanna…
How beautiful you are!
And with the other hand, she drew me up to my feet. I rose easily,
gracefully, and laughed aloud at the infinite strength that suddenly flowed into
my limbs. Still holding my hand, she stepped back a pace to study me, then
abruptly grasped a lock of my long hair and said gleefully:
“Look, my darling, look!”
I looked—and saw that the silver was once again coal-black, and imbued with a
sparkling indigo sheen.
“A mirror!” she cried, pacing about the spartan chamber, scanning its grey
stone walls. “Where is the mirror? You must see!”
“There are no mirrors,” I told her sadly. “Vlad destroyed them all long ago.
Even if there were, I could not see my own reflection.”
“Bah!” And she pulled my hand and dragged me out into the hall. “To my
chambers at once!”
And together we ran up and down staircases; this time, I had no difficulty
remaining by her side. When we had at last come to her room—on the eastern side
of the castle, where we house guests—she flung the door open, revealing
countless suitcases and trunks, and a stout, surly-faced young woman, as plain
as Elisabeth was fair.
She gestured at the woman. “This is my attendant, Dorka; she is utterly
discreet. Dorka, this is Vlad’s niece, the Princess Zsuzsanna. You must treat
her with the utmost respect.”
Dorka gave a half-hearted, unsmiling curtsy.
“Fetch my mirror at once,” Elisabeth ordered, her admiring gaze on me as she
held out an impatient hand to her servant. When Dorka had moved from the
sitting-room where we stood to the bedchamber, her mistress said, “So, Zsuzsanna,
have you never seen yourself as an immortal?”
“Never.”
“Well, you shall,” she replied, just as Dorka came running and huffing back
into the room with a lovely handheld mirror encased in fine gold and inlaid with
pearls and diamonds. The servant placed it in Elisabeth’s waiting hand, then
withdrew to give us our privacy. “Look, Zsuzsanna. Look at what you have
become.”
I took the glass. And cried out in pleased amazement at the woman I saw
there. Nay, woman is too unflattering a word. Angel, vision—these
are words that better describe what I saw. Dunya had been right that my portrait
did not give proper tribute to my beauty.
For fifty years I had not seen the woman in the mirror: a raven-haired young
beauty, black tresses agleam with electric indigo, sharp teeth of pearl, lips of
ruby, brown eyes asparkle with molten gold. My skin was as delicate and
porcelain as Elisabeth’s, and shimmering with mother-of-pearl glints of colour:
rose, turquoise, seafoam-green. Even the sharp features I had inherited from
Vlad—the thin hawkish nose, the pointed chin, the thick black brows —were
softened now to delicate perfection.
I gazed up from this wonderment to see Elisabeth grinning broadly in
approval, like an artist greatly pleased with her creation. She reached for the
mirror, but I would not let it go; at that, she laughed softly.
“I was tempted to change the teeth,” said she. “But I left it to your
discretion, in case you found them aesthetically pleasing.”
“But I must have them! How else shall I feed?”
Her voice lowered as though she were indulging a dark secret, and feared that
someone might overhear. “My dear. There are as many different ways of feeding,
as you call it, as there are those brave enough to attain immortality.“
“But Vlad created me,” I protested. “And a vampire’s bite begets another
vampire. How else can it be?”
“It can be however you desire it, Zsuzsanna.”
“But how?”
“Vlad’s pact with the Dark Lord need not control you.”
The thought of that mysterious creature, Devil or no, terrified me; I lowered
the looking-glass and recoiled, whispering, “The Dark Lord…”
To distract me, she took my free hand and pressed the palm to my own cheek.
“Tell me what you feel, my darling. Tell me what you feel.”
For a full minute I was too overwhelmed to speak. At last, I sighed,
“Warmth.” My eyes had filled with tears; one at last spilled onto my cheek, my
fingers. A hot tear.
“Is that not more pleasant than being cold as a corpse? Vlad is so obsessed
with the ghoulish.”
“You must revive Dunya!” I cried, grasping her arm and pulling her towards
the closed casket. I returned her mirror to her and flung open the lid to reveal
the sleeping occupant—so withered and frail.
Elisabeth approached and peered inside. “Ah… A sweet young peasant girl.” She
gazed up at me. “You must be patient. I have restored you in full and Vlad in
part; my reserves of strength are diminished. I shall have to rest now, but I
promise you I will deal with her tomorrow.”
“But dawn is only a few hours away,” I protested, eager to remain in her
company. “And then you can rest all day…”
“No, I shall be up in time to enjoy the sunrise. I only require two hours’
rest as a rule, more when I have exerted myself as I have tonight. Dear me,
child, Vlad’s silly notion that you are restricted to the night hours has taken
quite a toll on your enjoyment.”
“But it is true—the sun pains me horribly. Yes, I can venture out if I must,
but it weakens me and is dreadfully unpleasant.”
“It need not be. Why should you not be able to enjoy both night and day?”
The question gave me pause. I remembered my one journey to Vienna a
quarter-century before, and the disappointment I felt at not being able to ever
go into the Konditorei and sample the buttery pastries, or enter the
dress shops, with their glorious new fashions. The one dress I purchased in
Vienna—from a trembling old tailor, near blind, the only one who would venture
out at midnight to a hotel to fit me—is now two decades outdated. I looked at
Elisabeth’s gown, with its more modest decolletage, fitted hips, and
narrower skirt—and a flounce of gathered fabric at the derriere, which
I had never before seen.
“But how—” I began.
She shook her head. “We have much to talk about. Don’t worry, darling”—for my
disappointment was no doubt visible—“we will meet again tomorrow night. Until
then…”
And she took my hand, bent down, and kissed it as a man might; a disturbing
and undeniable thrill passed through me as she did so.
Dear God, I am in love!
* * *
4 May 1893.
I woke at sunset to find Elisabeth sitting in a chair beside my open casket—a
sight that quickened my hope and excitement. To my further delight (and
surprise), a smiling and beautiful young Dunya stood beside her.
“Dunya!” I sprang from my slumbering place with a single graceful leap. We
embraced like sisters, laughing and weeping, and I kissed her cheek—warm like
mine now, like her strong, strong arms. “My sweet! How beautiful you look!”
“Not so beautiful as you, doamna!” she cried. In truth, she looked
faintly like me—with the thin chiselled nose and long dark hair (though hers was
kissed with Russian red), and the soulful dark Roumanian eyes beneath arching
brows.
“How do you know?” I teased her.
Smiling, Elisabeth held up the golden mirror.
I slid an arm round Dunya’s tiny waist and turned to proffer my other hand to
our benefactor, who rose and clasped it at once. “Elisabeth. You have been so
kind to us, so good! Surely there must be some gift we can bestow upon you, some
kindness which can serve as a pitiful attempt at repayment.”
“Your happiness is sufficient joy for me.” And she turned over my hand to
reveal my palm, and kissed it.
Such an electric thrill coursed through my renewed body that I released Dunya
and pressed a hand to my heart, lest I gasp aloud.
At that moment, the chamber door flew open; in the doorway stood Vlad. For a
fleeting moment, I expected him to scream in fury to see Dunya and me fully
restored. I tried to pull my hand from Elisabeth’s grasp, recoiling as if ready
to flee—but she held it fast, and gave me a reassuring glance that said, He
does not know.
To my amazement, Vlad remained at the threshold, his expression one of
benevolent courtesy.
“Ah, Cousin! I see you have taken pity upon our frail ladies. Please: I have
prepared a banquet for your pleasure. It awaits you in the great dining hall,
where I shall join you in but a few moments. Go there now. I need to consult
with Zsuzsanna briefly in private.”
I felt a fresh surge of dismay as Elisabeth gave a half-curtsy and left the
room; even more dismay when I heard her footsteps echo down the hall, then the
staircase.
He remained in the doorway peering after her, his eyes squinting with the
strain. (Clearly, neither his vision nor his hearing could match mine.) And when
she was what he believed a safe distance removed from us, he stepped inside and
shut the heavy door behind him. I studied his expression, trying to judge from
it whether he saw me as crone or beauty, and could find no astonishment, no
rage, there— only cunning.
Such an old, ugly husk of a man. I had been mad all these decades: what use
had I for him?
Abruptly he demanded, “Zsuzsanna, do you love me?”
I hesitated but an instant. In that brief time, he understood my silence too
well; his expression darkened as he continued:
“It is Elisabeth. She has told you lies, put you under her spell, to make you
fall in love with her. She has promised to restore you, has she not? I warn
you—conspire with her, and you will embark on a dangerous path which can only
end in your destruction.”
I protested, my cheeks flaming hotly (such a long-forgotten sensation!). “Do
you threaten me?”
But he thundered on, oblivious to my beauty or my words. “Do you know who she
is? Surely she hasn’t told you. She is the Tigress of Csejthe, the slaughterer
of virgins… During her lifetime, she tortured six hundred and fifty maidens to
their deaths, and bathed,, in their blood; no doubt the figure has increased
tenfold since her movement into undeath. You can trust nothing she says!”
“You are a liar,” I said—then marvelled in silence at my own boldness. Never
have I dared speak to him thus; I knew it would have meant my ruin, for I had
always believed that he alone controlled my life and death. But I knew that, at
last, /was stronger than he. Had he struck me at that moment, I would have
killed him.
Such freedom! I laughed, drunk with the power of fearlessness.
He did in fact swing his arm to strike—but halted abruptly in midair in front
of my face, prevented by an invisible force (ah, Elisabeth, my powerful saviour!).
His eyes reddened with rage, and he parted his lips and released a low lupine
growl, his face contorted into a Medusan mask.
“Stay away from her, Zsuzsanna. Stay away, or I shall be forced to
retaliate!”
I said nothing, only watched him spin on his heel and storm out, slamming the
door behind him with such force that it rattled for several seconds.
Dunya stepped up to stand beside me; I think she had been cowering behind me
all this time. She put a soft hand upon my shoulder and whispered, “Doamna.
Do you think he can really hurt us if we see Elisabeth again? She is so kindly…”
Again I slipped an arm round her waist, but stared ahead at the trembling
wooden door.
“To hell with him,” I said slowly. “To hell with him.”
Chapter 4
The Diary of Zsuzsanna Dracul
5 May 1893.
I woke from a sweet dream to the sound of my dear dead mother’s voice calling
softly:
Wake up, Zsuzsanna. Wake up, child, it’s almost midday…
I opened my eyes, not to my mother’s worn face, but to the exquisite and
youthful countenance of Elisabeth. This time she wore a fetching gown of cream-coloured
moire, with a narrow standup collar of stiff lace that fringed a more daring
decolletage.
I smiled at the sight of her; but then my expression turned to wide-eyed awe
at the realisation that beyond her, a yellow shaft of sunlight was streaming in
through the unshuttered window.
And it did not pain me. Nor did I feel in any way weakened by it.
Those revelations widened my eyes even further, and I emerged once
more from my grim resting-place with a bound and hurried over to the window to
gaze unblinking out at the beautiful day. Above, in a blue, blue sky, the sun
blazed.
“It
is mid-day!” I cried, and whirled round, slack-jawed yet
smiling, to stare in tearful gratefulness at Elisabeth. “How is this possible?”
She returned my gaping grin and, rather than reply to the posed question,
said instead: “Will you accompany me for some fresh air?” At my hesitance, she
added, “Vlad is sleeping, as you know. I have made sure he will hear nothing. We
can meet now during the day—every day, if you wish—and he shall never know.”
I believed her gladly, for I remembered that yesterday night, he had not
perceived my beauty. In answer, I grabbed her arm and together we ran giggling
down the winding staircase through the grand hall and out the great spiked door
into the blessed outdoors.
Elisabeth slowed upon the steps and let go my hand. I scrambled down them
onto the grounds and pulled off my slippers. The instant my bare feet touched
the soft, cool grass, I could no longer resist: I spread my arms like wings and
spun round in circles like a frenzied child who has been closeted for a long
bleak winter.
Such an intoxicating spring! The plum trees were fragrant with blossom, and
the open lawn was scattered with wildflowers: bluebells, crimson poppies,
daisies, snowy alyssum. The air echoed with the cheerful calls of birds— larks
and robins, not the melancholy song of the nightingale nor the mournful cry of
the owl, the only birdsong I have heard for half a century.
And as I spun in joyful delirium, I closed my eyes and lifted my face to the
sky—to the sun, whose warm, soothing light upon my face seemed at that moment
more delicious, more precious, than anything I had experienced as an immortal.
When at last I fell, dizzy and laughing, onto the cool ground beside a patch
of intricately delicate Jack-in-the-pulpit, I rolled over onto my back to stare
at the clouds in the turquoise sky, and called out to my benefactress:
“Elisabeth! You have been so good to me! You have returned my beauty, my
strength—and now you have returned to me the whole world!” For that is how I
felt: that I had been confined to the night, living only half an existence. And
now the other half of life had been restored to me. “Can I do nothing for you in
return?”
“You can share with me the young gentleman guest.”
“A guest?” I sat suddenly, pressing my fingers behind me into the grass, into
the damp soil, and stared at her. She had sat upon a step, as heedless of
propriety as a young boy—knees spread wide, an elbow resting atop one of them,
chin supported by a palm. Caressed by the warm breeze, the shining cream skirt
billowed out onto the dirty stone, its wearer apparently fearless of its being
soiled. Her expression signalled that she did not share my wild enthusiasm for
the scenery; to her, it was something commonplace. What entertained her was my
joy, for her gaze was fixed solely on me, and she wore the slight, delighted
smile of an owner watching her puppy gambol unawares.
All this I perceived in an instant before I demanded, “When did a guest
arrive?” The thought provoked a thrill of desire, and the realisation that I was
indeed hungry, very hungry.
“Last evening.”
“And how did we fail to hear them?”
Elisabeth sighed. “My fault, I’m afraid. Vlad must have put a glamour upon us
so that we heard nothing when he arrived with his visitor; I confess I was so
intoxicated by your beauty yesterday night that my vigilance lapsed, else I
would have detected his pitiful attempt at sorcery and neutralised it at once.
But there is indeed a guest, my darling: he lies snoring within his chambers
now. I heard the noise and went to investigate. He is rather handsome, and quite
healthy and strong. Shall we visit him?“ Her tone turned coy and teasing. ”I see
appetite in your eyes, Zsuzsanna.“
My desire warred with fear. “Vlad would never forgive it! He would destroy me
if he found my mark upon his guest’s neck!”
“Then he shall not find it. Regardless, I would not permit him to harm you.”
“How is either possible?”
She gestured smugly at me amidst the springtime glory. “How can
this
be possible? All things are, my darling, if you trust me.”
I drew in a long, yearning breath as I rose to my feet. “Then let us go greet
our young guest at once!”
I picked up my slippers and hurried barefoot up the steps, where she, too,
had risen and awaited me. We linked arms and once again ran laughing like
mischievous schoolgirls through the great hallway, up a different set of winding
stairs until at last we arrived in front of the carved wooden door that led to
one of the guest chambers.
Elisabeth was right: from within emerged the sound of stertorous snoring, so
loud that I was surprised the heavy door did not rattle. I clapped a hand over
my mouth to suppress a giggle and, when I could manage to speak, whispered to my
companion: “His poor wife!”
“You need not be so quiet,” she replied, in a normal voice. “As you can hear,
he is sleeping soundly.” And at that, we both laughed softly as she swung open
the door. “He is yours, my darling; take him as you wish. I shall watch, and
indulge myself a bit afterwards. One caveat only: that you leave him alive and
strong enough so neither he nor Vlad will be able to detect a change. I will
take care that he has no wound; you must take care that he is not pale enough to
arouse suspicion.“
Had I been thinking clearly, I would have asked her why she could not deal
with the problem of his colour, if she could cause the wound to instantly heal.
At that moment, I was too intrigued by what her “indulgence” might be—and then,
instantly, all thought was blotted out when my nose caught the gentleman’s
scent.
I smelled warm blood and skin, overlaid by the cloying smell of two or three
days’ sweat. Elisabeth must have detected it, too, for she whispered to me: “He
has obviously been travelling for some time,” and held her nose.
Smelly or not, the young man lying on his back, arms and legs spread wide in
imitation of da Vinci’s naked man, was a handsome sight—if one ignored his
gaping, drooling mouth and the way it sputtered each time he released a
window-pane-rattling snore.
But snoring or not, he had neatly hung a wool suit and hat upon a nearby
chair; their quality indicated the owner was an up-and-coming, if drab, young
gentleman. And he himself was of sufficient quality to suit me, for his
uncovered arms (flung out atop the blankets at a ninety-degree angle to his
torso) and upper chest were strong and muscular enough, neither too fat nor too
thin. His brown curls were a perfect match for his face, which had slightly
plump pink cheeks and a short turned-up nose; overall, the impression was that
of a man whose boyish features would always make him appear five years younger
than his actual age.
“He needs a bath,” whispered Elisabeth; but in truth, I did not care. So
great was my hunger and eagerness to press my lips to the man’s throat—but
first, to take advantage of other attributes, so that his blood might taste all
the sweeter—that I would not have cared had he been wallowing in fresh manure.
Indeed, I scarcely noticed when Elisabeth crept away, and felt no concern over
it. My attention was riveted on the man; and slowly, delicately, that I might
not rouse him, I lifted sheet and blankets from his chest. He wore a plain white
nightshirt, but had left the top three buttons undone so that it gaped open to
reveal more of his chest and its thick pelt of more brown curls. Carefully, I
drew the bedclothes downward to his feet, to disclose further delights—for the
nightshirt had ridden up and become twisted, entirely exposing him and another
cluster of chestnut hair… from whence emerged an undeniably erect member.
Now, I have long believed myself damned; and early in my immortalhood, I
vowed that I would deny myself no pleasure now, in case I should ever be
destroyed and have to endure the eternal agonies of Hell. For I had lived life
as a crippled, homely spinster, doomed never to experience the attentions of a
lover. Very soon after my Change, I discovered the most wonderful of secrets:
that the blood of a man in the throes of passionate release tastes more heavenly
than any nectar, and that my pleasuring him increases my own ecstasy (from the
act and from drinking his affected blood) tenfold.
And so I crawled beside him on the bed, using my ability to hypnotise to keep
him from waking. I intended to take him at once, swiftly, before Elisabeth
returned, for the truth was that I felt oddly shy at doing so in front of her.
It had never slowed me before—I had never been shy in front of Vlad or Dunya or
my poor dead brother—and I had taken two and three men at a time, upon occasion.
But in Elisabeth’s case, I felt oddly guilty… as though I were being somehow
unfaithful.
But before I could lift my skirts and roll onto my beloved victim, Elisabeth
hurried back into the room.
“Come, bring him,” she whispered, gesturing, her sapphire eyes aglitter with
anticipation. “Dorka is preparing a bath.”
“You need not whisper,” I told her. “He is entranced.” I opened my mouth to
tell her that I did not believe myself patient enough to wait for him to bathe;
I was resolved at that point to simply drink his blood. But ere I could speak,
she interrupted:
“A pity.” Her features suddenly resolved themselves into an impish grin. “Let
us have a bit of fun with him first, shall we?”
She simply stared at the sleeping man, and inclined her chin towards him. He
groaned and at once stirred; immediately, I leapt up from the bed.
He opened his eyes—kindly, light brown eyes they were—and for a moment,
clearly could not remember where he was. But then memory dawned, and he emerged
more fully from slumber; at that point, his gaze fell upon us two women, and he
pushed himself up to a sitting position with a start. At first those kindly
brown eyes registered wild surprise at the sight of strangers in his room; and
then he looked down at his exposed privates, and that surprise metamorphosed
into such intense and pitiful dismay that I thought I should explode with
contained laughter.
“Dear God!” he swore in a cultured English, baritone and, moving
swift as the undead, pulled the blankets up to his chin and held them there,
eyes bulging, face and ears flushed impossibly scarlet. “Ladies, you have me at
a
dreadful disadvantage!”
I could bear no more; I clapped my hand over my mouth and shuddered with soft
laughter. Before I could recover enough to reply, Elisabeth said, in excellent
English (which should not have surprised me any more than her facility with
Roumanian, for the mortal Hungarians routinely master ten or twenty languages
before they are grown):
“Our apologies, good sir, for the intrusion!” And she gave a sweeping curtsy,
her expression as solemn as mine was gleeful. “But we tried to rouse you by
knocking, and could not. The master”—and here I shot her a gaze both astounded
and merry, which she utterly ignored—“gave us strict orders yesterday that we
were to draw you a bath no later than one o’clock this afternoon, and see that
you enjoyed it. I have come to tell you that it is ready. The water will not
remain hot for long. Will you kindly come with us, sir?”
He hesitated, glancing from me to Elisabeth, unlikely servants, either of us:
me with my dark hair flowing unbound to my waist, in my grey Viennese gown of
watered silk, twenty years outdated and worn nearly to tatters, and Elisabeth in
the beautiful cream gown.
And both of us unworldly beautiful.
I saw that he was on the verge of refusing, but Elisabeth detected his
reluctance and said at once: “Please, good sir! Our master is stern, and given
to outbursts of temper; if he finds that you have refused, he will surely beat
us both until we bleed!”
That caused him to blink rapidly and stammer, desperately searching for an
appropriate excuse; but all he could think to say was “How barbaric!”
Elisabeth grew bolder now, and gave a gentle tug upon his wool-sleeved arm,
her voice distraught with feigned terror (whilst I bit both my lips and
struggled to maintain a sober expression; this was becoming easier, as my glee
was quickly being overwhelmed by hunger). “Please, sir. Come with me!”
His discomfort was complete, but the kindness reflected in his eyes won out.
“Very well, miss,” said he. “But please wait outside the door until I fetch my
smoking-jacket.”
To this she acquiesced, and we both withdrew to give the man his privacy; but
behind the closed door, we grabbed each other’s arms and rested our head each
upon the other’s shoulder, and shook hard with silent laughter.
Presently, we heard the stranger approach the door; by the time he opened it,
we were once again poker-faced servants. He was dressed discreetly now, in long
pants, leather slippers, and the smoking-jacket of plum wool with a black velvet
collar and velvet belt at the waist. The brown curls were damp and neatly
combed, but his cheeks were still flushed bright as he told Elisabeth and me,
“Very well, ladies. Lead on to the bath.”
We did so, walking towards Elisabeth’s quarters in silence until at last our
mortal companion spoke.
“I must confess, ladies—you are hardly dressed like serving-girls.”
At that, I smiled, but Elisabeth said quite seriously, “Well, sir, our master
can be quite cruel at times; but he can also be quite generous.” Again, I had to
swallow my laughter.
The gentleman accepted this with a nod, and we continued on without further
conversation until we arrived at Elisabeth’s room.
Dorka waited within with several large towels draped over her arm, and told
her mistress in Hungarian: “I have prepared the bath.”
Elisabeth nodded as she took the towels, then turned to gesture at the guest.
“In here, if you would, sir.”
He followed, his expression one of increasing awkwardness, and when we
arrived inside the bedchamber—in whose center awaited a round, claw-footed iron
tub filled with steaming water—he called us to a stop. “Ladies, I thank you for
your help. That will be all, please.” He nodded in dismissal.
Elisabeth gazed at him, stricken. “But, sir—if I do not follow my master’s
orders exactly… He told us that we should make sure of your enjoyment.”
With wicked glee, I picked up her cue, and moved over to him; with a single
pull, I loosed the belt of his smoking jacket, which opened to reveal the long
nightshirt, tucked into his pants.
Are all men of this era such prudes? He scrambled to pull the jacket closed
and said huffily, “See here! This is quite improper, and I am engaged to be
married!”
Then Elisabeth moved in and, over his indignant protests, pulled off the
jacket the instant I pried it open again. The jacketless Englishman struggled to
free himself, but we were stronger and held him fast.
“Do not be so modest, sir!” Elisabeth told him, with such sincerity that
I
was almost convinced she was a servant, acting on Vlad’s orders. “It is the
custom in our country for women to assist men in bathing.”
And as she pinned his arms behind him, he yelping softly in dismay, I knelt,
unbuttoned his trousers, and pulled them off. Beneath was a knee-length pair of
men’s silk under-trousers. These I pulled off swiftly while the Englishman
shrieked in horror; then off came the leather slippers, one at a time.
But a final challenge remained: the long nightshirt. Elisabeth released first
one arm, then the next, as I quickly pulled the nightshirt up over his now-aubergine
face to reveal at last his nakedness. At once he doubled over with embarrassment
and dismay in a pathetic attempt to hide his body from our view; had his hands
been free, he would undoubtedly have shielded his privates.
Elisabeth clicked her tongue in disapproval and addressed me in Roumanian.
“These Victorians. Too many clothes. It’s unhealthy.” To the guest, she said in
English, “Into the tub with you, sir!”
He made no move to comply. And so, still grasping his arms behind him, she
lifted him straight up off his feet and deposited him into the steaming water.
He entered it with a small cry at the scalding heat, and at first remained
standing tiptoe in water up to his thighs. But propriety soon overcame fear, and
he let go a gasp as he squatted low in the tub. Soon water covered all but his
head and neck; these were veiled by rising steam. He moved close to the side
near us, which effectively hid the rest of him from our view.
From the tub’s rim, Elisabeth lifted a cake of soap— fine, French-milled soap
redolent with her perfume—and pointedly handed it to him. “Wash yourself, sir.”
Still squatting, he extended a dripping arm and took it. A comical moment of
indecision followed, one in which his expression telegraphed every thought: How
should he accomplish the task in front of these feminine guards? Common sense
dictated that he should rise in order to make best use of the soap—but once
again, modesty prevailed. He remained squatting in water up to his neck, and
thus ran the soap over his entirety.
“I am finished,” he announced. “I should like a towel.”
“You are not quite done,” I told him, as I began to unfasten my bodice. The
pewter silk parted to reveal my white breasts—unfettered by Victorian
undergarments.
He gasped and averted his eyes in dutiful and gentlemanly fashion, his
expression warring between horror and furtive desire. As the silk rustled to a
heap on the stone and I stepped forward from it in my naked glory, lovelier than
any vision of Venus emerging from the sea, he peered sly and sidewise at me.
I climbed into the great iron tub and knelt beside him, the liquid catching
my waist-length indigo hair and setting it afloat like lazily drifting seaweed.
Beneath the wavering water, my skin shimmered, phosphorescent white beside his
darker, drabber skin. The warmth was delightful.
Behind me, I heard Elisabeth’s voice, edged now with unmistakable excitement;
and I knew then that I would be capable of doing what I wished in her presence
without shame. “Do not be alarmed, sir,” she said. “It is simply our custom to
let the women bathe after the men. It is considered quite proper…”
But the Englishman hovered near the tub’s edge, knees and shins pressed
against the hot iron, fingers gripping the rim. “Please, miss—a towel! I am
rather uncomfortable, for in my country, the custom is decidedly different.”
I moved closer until our legs touched; he recoiled at once, splashing water
everywhere in his desperation. I knew then that his decision to be faithful to
his betrothed was unfortunately a sincere one and backed by great determination,
so I reached out with a dripping hand and turned his stubbled chin towards me.
His will was strong, but not unduly so; the instant his gaze met mine, he
fell under my glamour and sighed, content to be relieved of all troubling
inhibitions.
“You are the most exquisitely beautiful creature I have ever seen,” he
whispered, and reached for me.
We kissed, pressing our lips together feverishly—he with passion enough to
meet mine, as though he, too, had been denied the experience of love for two
decades. I thought I should go mad, so great was my yearning for his body and
blood; my hungry kisses turned quickly to tiny, rapid nips upon his neck and
shoulders. He rose, groaning, and lifted me with him so that his kisses might
travel downward from my face to neck to breasts.
I moved backward then, to his dismay (for he reached after me in
desperation), and leaned against the tub’s side, beckoning him to come to me.
This he did and, even under trance, experienced a temporary confusion at what
precisely should transpire next: my Englishman, it seemed, was a virgin. But
when he pressed next to me, I hopped up to sit upon the tub’s rim, and wound my
knees round his hips.
Intent on showing him how it was done, I had quite forgotten about
Elisabeth’s presence until she appeared beside us—now incandescently naked, and
more gloriously so than I. I found myself gazing deep into her electric-blue
eyes, simply astonished by her beauty. As taken as I was with our houseguest, I
was even more taken by her bare flesh, aglitter like fresh snow in the sunlight.
And, I confess, by her breasts—large and full, yet firm as a young maiden’s,
their milky whiteness crowned by nipples as delicately pink as cameo. I yearned
to reach out and touch them, but was so startled to find myself lusting after a
woman that I held back, and instead watched as she assisted the Englishman in
his efforts to explore new territory.
As, her fingers tightly encircling him, she guided him towards me, I tilted
my hips to permit him entry; at the instant it occurred, he gasped in astonished
joy, the purely grateful sound of one who at last knows:
Ah, so this
is what I have so long been denied!
He began to thrust—wildly, urgently, filled with such unbearable desire that
he could hold back not at all; I, too, could not restrain myself, but clung to
him in desperation, crying out with each movement. In my delirium, I was but
faintly aware of Elisabeth’s arm between us, her thumb and forefinger a tight
ring grasping his member at its base, that its increased firmness might grant my
lover and me more pleasure.
But too soon, too soon, he arched against me, crying out as I was flooded
with internal warmth. At that instant, my urgent desire gave way to an even more
urgent hunger: I bit savagely into the warm, wet skin at the juncture of his
neck and shoulder and drank blood sweeter, more ambrosial, than any I have ever
drunk, for the taste was enhanced by the Englishman’s intense virginal ecstasy
and by my own hungry longing.
He moaned, arching now with a victim’s delight, for to receive the dark kiss
is an infinitely sensual pleasure.
“Tear him!” Elisabeth cried beside me. “Tear him, make him bleed—Vlad will
not know!”
I tore with teeth sunk tight into his flesh (taking care to stay clear of the
neck, lest I inadvertently kill him), shaking my head as a dog does when it has
caught a rat. My lover groaned again, for pain was joy to him now. Strong dark
blood spattered upon my cheeks, my eyelids, my chest and hands; I drank. Drank
until I was drunk, until I was blind, until I forgot myself and my surroundings
utterly, deaf to all save the slow throb of the Englishman’s heart.
I would have continued mindlessly until its beating stopped—but strong arms
pulled me away. I looked up, blinking like an owl in the lantern’s glare, and
saw Elisabeth, catching the young man as he fell, lifting him from the water,
laying him upon a linen towel spread on the floor.
Beautiful Elisabeth, her face spattered with English blood.
No angel, no goddess, could dare aspire to such loveliness. And then she put
those strong hands round my shoulders, beneath my knees, and lifted me from the
red-tinged water. I clasped her neck, Psyche rescued by Eros.
And when she had set me down beside my lover with infinite gentleness and
proffered me a towel, she knelt between me and my fainted victim and with relish
rubbed cheeks and tongue, breasts and belly, against his wound, covering herself
in his blood. Then she dipped her fingers into his wounds and reached, dripping,
to paint my smiling lips, my belly, my breasts. The latter she approached with
great delicacy and a feathery touch, spiralling slowly inward from the outside
of one breast until she reached its centre. There she lingered, tracing ever
smaller and more inward circles until I could bear it no longer and shuddered in
delicious anticipation, my legs writhing against the cold stone as if they
yearned to escape.
But my heart would not let me.
It was already a contented captive, even before Elisabeth bent down to
embrace me. I was sated with blood, dreamy and dazed by the thrill of feeding.
But when she pressed her mouth against mine and I felt her tongue work hard
against my lips, savouring the blood there, I realised that my hunger had been
appeased—but not my physical desire.
Was it the forbiddenness of our love that filled me with a hotter fire than I
have ever known? I reached up to press a palm against her back, another against
the nape of her neck, and pulled her down upon me. It was then I experienced
another revelation: that today, for the first time in my eighty years of
existence, I had experienced love as it was meant—-warm flesh against warm
flesh.
She kissed my face, my breasts, my belly, using her tongue to clean each area
with sensual, deliberate grace. Then she rose and reached for the Englishman’s
wound again; once more, she dipped her fingers in his blood.
I cried out softly as she (my hands tremble so at the memory, I can scarce
write) put those bloodied fingers betwixt my legs, and wiped the blood at the
place where the Englishman had so recently been. Then with those fingers she
entered me, and bent low again to lick away the blood.
I remember little else except for the instant I fell out of the world into
that great and glorious abyss of pleasure, so distantly aware of my own screams
it seemed as though someone else had made them.
Yet as I lay, eyes closed, undone by delight, I
did hear the
sensuous cries of another: Elisabeth, my darling Elisabeth, who lay beside me. I
smoothed damp curls back from her forehead until she recovered and opened blue,
blue eyes to smile at me.
I leaned down and kissed her tenderly. Then we two entwined our arms and held
each other for a long silence.
At last, I have what Vlad long ago promised me but never gave: an eternal
lover.
When finally we rose, I looked down at the sleeping Englishman, and saw that
the wounds inflicted upon his shoulder had entirely healed.
Elisabeth took me out into the sitting-room, where a half-dozen large trunks
sat beside another half-dozen suitcases, and opened one. For herself, she took
out a stunning silk dressing-gown of pale yellow edged with broad eggshell lace;
for me, a dressing-gown of electric-blue satin trimmed with black velvet.
Together we returned to my chambers. At the open door, I stopped, and exclaimed
in dismay:
“But Dunya! We have forgotten about poor Dunya!”
Elisabeth patted my shoulder reassuringly. “She will have many more chances;
as long as I am here, she cannot starve into oblivion, regardless of what Vlad
might do. But for now, my darling, it is best that no one else know about our
secret meetings.”
I sighed in reluctant acquiescence, though in fact I felt it utterly selfish
to deny my trustworthy little servant a chance to feed.
At the unhappiness in my downcast eyes, Elisabeth put a finger beneath my
chin and tenderly lifted it until our gazes met.
“Go and rest now,” she said soothingly, “and when night comes, you will rise
again so that Vlad does not suspect. I doubt he will let us meet then, but I
promise you that I shall do everything possible to convince him that you and
Dunya
must feed. And if he agrees, then you can give your supper
entirely to her.” Pausing, she brushed my lips with the lightest of kisses.
“As for you, my darling… Tomorrow, if it pleases you, we can watch the sun
rise together.”
The thought so gladdened me that I cried out, “Oh, Elisabeth! I shall love
you forever!”
And at that, she smiled.
* * *
9 MAY 1893.
Once more, I woke to the sound of Elisabeth’s voice, and to the sight of her
glorious face.
Last night I can scarcely remember, save that I was happy to see that, as
Elisabeth had said, Dunya was still looking and feeling strong. This was a
comfort to me, as I still felt guilt over not having invited her to yesterday’s
feeding.
Ah, but yesterday noon I remembered then and remember now, and each time I
do, I blush. Last night I did not see Elisabeth; I suspect Vlad felt obliged to
keep her in his presence for lack of trust, and for my sake, she would not
disobey his order to eschew my company.
It is just as well I did not see her then; for even in Vlad’s presence, I
would not have been able to restrain my joy at the sight of her.
“My darling,” Elisabeth said softly, and reached down into my casket to
smoothe a hand across my forehead and cheek, as tenderly as a mother would
caress her child. “It pains me so to see you sleeping in this—this contraption.
Vlad’s limitations are not yours, though he might wish you to believe
so. Will you not stay in my bed?”
“I will do whatever pleases you.” I took her hand from my cheek and kissed
it.
“It will please me to have you with me.”
Her statement pleased me, but in truth I listened to it with but half my
attention—for I was gazing beyond her at the unfettered window, and seeing there
the first rosy rays of dawn streaming through pearl-grey clouds.
Eager as a child, I turned to her. “Can we go outside? Now? I want to see
it!”
“It’s drizzling, I fear, and at any moment will begin to rain harder.” She
touched a hand to her carefully arranged golden curls as if the mere mention of
the weather might ruin them.
“I don’t care! You can stay here—I just want to be out in it.”
At the first three words, she tossed back her head and laughed indulgently,
and remained smiling as I finished. “I’ll go with you, my dear. I had no inkling
you felt so strongly. But if you wish it, then it shall be done!”
And so I took her hand and climbed from my ghoulish resting-place, and
together we walked the same path we had taken the day before. Her yellow silk
dressing-gown and the dark blue satin dressing-gown she had given me rustled
softly against the floor. As we walked, she turned to me, her expression one of
unmistakable appreciation of my body, and said:
“That looks quite beautiful on you, darling. You may keep it, and I want you
to pick out some of my dresses for you to wear; Dorka can do any needed
alterations.”
“You are so kind, Elisabeth!” I felt literally aglow with love, as though my
heart were a great furnace, kindled at last.
“And you are so beautiful, my Zsuzsanna…”
At last we arrived at the great wood-and-iron door and pushed it open. I drew
in a breath at once of the damp fresh air, and marvelled at the fine misting
drizzle. Beyond lay a grey landscape, and a grey, clouded sky.
True, I was disappointed—how beautiful the drizzle would have looked,
asparkle like diamonds in the sunshine. Even so, I was so glad just to be
out-of-doors in the day that I stepped forward, wanting only to stand in it, to
feel the cool water against my face, my skin.
But when I tried to run over the threshold and skip down the stairs, I cried
out in even deeper disappointment; for, try as I might, I could not move farther
than the doorway, held back by an invisible force.
I could not go outside. In bewildered desperation, I looked to Elisabeth for
help.
What I saw quite surprised me.
She, too, stood in the doorway and, with a vehement Hungarian curse, stomped
her small slippered foot. As I watched, the whites of her eyes reddened to
scarlet, ruby against sapphire, the contrast eerily pronounced against the
paleness of her skin. It was the only time I have seen her look unlovely, and it
quite startled me.
Indignant, she wheeled to face me. “He fears us! And so he has taken to
this pitiful magic…” She waved in disgust at the doorway.
But I had utter faith in her abilities; had she commanded me to walk upon
water, I should have. I waited for her to stride past me, to step boldly
outside, then permit me to do the same.
She did not; she lingered beside me upon the threshold, her expression
indignant. She could go outside no more than I. My disappointment was complete,
for I had honestly believed her omnipotent.
Because of the doorway’s angle, I could not see the sun rising in the rosy
clouds, nor the snow on the distant mountains; with these, I should have to
content myself by gazing through the window. But I leaned forward as far as I
could, extended my arm through the doorway, and turned my palm to the sky.
There I felt sweet, soft rain, cool and gentle upon my upturned palm; the
drops splashed upon black velvet— upon which they beaded—and deep blue satin,
which they darkened. There is something soothing about rain during the day, and
something mournful about it in the dead of night.
At last, I slowly lowered my arm and turned sadly to Elisabeth. “We are
trapped.”
Her expression was one of poorly repressed outrage, though the red in her
eyes had faded somewhat. “Indeed not!”
“Then why can we not go outside?”
She frowned, as if my question had been highly impertinent, and with
exasperation explained: “Because Vlad has pulled an unexpected trick. Don’t
worry, Zsuzsanna. I shall soon set it right. But for now, come. Let us amuse
ourselves in other ways.”
She led me back to the Englishman’s room, from whence, once again, the sound
of snoring emerged. Elisabeth turned towards me, a cream goddess in sunny silk,
and reached forward to lightly trace the outline of my collar with her
fingertip. I shuddered slightly at her feathery touch against the skin of my
collarbone, my breast, and was at once on fire.
“He is not so strong today,” she said, with a coquettish tilt to her head,
and the shine of pure desire in her eyes. “But perhaps you could enjoy a small
drink…”
I wanted her more than him, and was about to say, No, let us go to your
chambers, and spend the day in your bed. But she had already pushed open
the door and entered.
I followed with only partial reluctance; the thought of dining again was not
altogether disagreeable, as yesterday I had not been able to drink my fill. Even
so, I was by no means overwhelmed by hunger. Thus I entered without haste, but
with mild curiosity: who was this Englishman, and how had he come to be here?
Obviously, on the nights Vlad went to hunt for us, he had gone instead to
Bistritz to post letters to this man…
Rather than go at once to the bed to claim my sleeping victim, I instead
passed by the armoire, where a number of papers were neatly arranged in stacks.
I glanced at the top letter, which was apparently a legal document of some type,
prepared by a certain Peter Hawkins, Esquire— and signed by “Count” V. Dracula.
“So!” I said, with a glance at the man snoring beneath the. canopy—once again,
with the bed curtains left open. I took no care to keep my voice low, for
Elisabeth had shown me how to prevent others (including Vlad) from hearing me.
“Our young Englishman is a solicitor employed by a man named Hawkins. And he has
been transacting legal business on behalf of a certain V. Dracula.”
Elisabeth’s eyes narrowed with intrigue; she at once moved away from the bed
to stand beside me. Whilst I riffled through one stack of papers, she examined
another, then picked up a small leather-bound diary and began to read.
“What language or code he writes in, I cannot say,” she said after a time.
“But he has written his name here; Harker. Jonathan Harker, Esquire.”
I scarce heard her, for I had more carefully examined the legal document and
scanned the stack of correspondence. I was stricken like Saul on the road to
Damascus with a blinding revelation; and now, I felt my eyes blaze with the same
red fury I had earlier seen in Elisabeth’s.
For I suddenly understood that this man was not here simply as a houseguest,
to quench Vlad’s thirst. No, he was here for a far more sinister purpose: to
assist Vlad in moving to England.
A half century ago, Vlad had sworn to me that he would take me from this
dreary country to an exciting life in London. Only our difficulties with my
brother, Arkady, and his son, the accursed Van Helsing, have prevented us from
escape.
Now he was going at last—whilst I would remain behind to starve. Why else had
he prevented me from leaving the castle?
I turned to her, waving a paper in my hand. “This!” I hissed. “ This
is a title deed—to property Vlad has purchased in secrecy!”
She stopped reading the paper in her hand, and faced me, one golden brow
arched in an extreme inverted V as she peered at the document I clutched.
“London, it seems,” she said, thoughtful, remaining calm despite my rage.
“Purfleet is outside London.” And she held up to my gaze another signed paper,
this a bill of sale for another estate. “Piccadilly. In London proper.”
Overwhelmed by rage, I sat abruptly in a faded brocade chair.
“Has he spoken to you of this?” Elisabeth stepped behind me and put a
comforting hand upon my shoulder.
I shook my head, and she sighed. “My darling Zsuzsanna… I think he means to
abandon you here.”
“The bastard!” I swore, seething. “He means to leave us here to starve! He
means to destroy us—we who have only helped him!”
She knelt beside me, her expression one of utter sympathy, and wound an arm
about my knees, as if to comfort me. “Zsuzsanna, I swear to you that he will not
succeed! I have expected this all along, and made plans for it.”
“Then why did you come here, if you knew he would betray you?”
“He told me of you in his letter. I did not come to help him. I came to free
you.”
At that, I leaned down and embraced her, pressing her face to my shoulder,
and felt hot tears sting my eyes. “My sweet Elisabeth, you have been so good to
me!”
She held me so tightly, and I her, that when we let go, we both gasped. “I
shall be even better,” she said, with a look of infinite resolve. “I only ask
that you trust me.”
“There is no question of that. But what shall we do? We cannot leave the
castle.”
“Wait, my sweet. Only wait. When the time is right, we shall leave.”
“I cannot wait!” I cried, and struck my heel against the floor like an angry
child. “Why can we not kill him now?. You are so powerful, Elisabeth.
Why haven’t you yet destroyed him, and freed us from this castle?”
At that she sighed and remained quiet a time, staring beyond me at some
distant, invisible sight. Finally, she met my gaze again. “When another century,
perhaps two, have passed, Zsuzsanna, then you will understand. Immortality
carries with it one unavoidable burden, that of ennui. It pleases me to
have a new sport—to avenge your suffering by destroying Vlad.
“But it would be far too simple to destroy him here; and, I confess, it would
be difficult, because his power is greater here than anywhere. And it would be
far too swift —for he has inflicted far too much suffering in both life and
undeath to die quickly, without anguish.” She straightened, suddenly infused
with excitement. “Let us give chase! Let us pursue him to London and torment him
there, unravel his plans. And when he is utterly confounded, only then we will
reveal that we are the source of his suffering.”
She clasped my waist and drew me closer to her, then planted upon my lips a
fervent kiss. “Let me take you to London, Zsuzsanna! Let us conquer both Vlad
and the city. I will dress you in the finest satins and silks, and adorn you
with jewels; you will be so beautiful that the entire country will fall at your
feet and worship you.” And she stroked my cheek with her hand and gazed so
lovingly at me that I was mollified.
In silence, she rose and drew me to my feet, then led me over to the young
man. It pleased me to let him sleep this time. I ever so delicately pierced the
unblemished skin of his throat, and just as delicately drank.
And when, lips smeared with Mr. Harker’s dark blood, I lifted my face, there
was Elisabeth beside me— gasping with lust, her eyes as desirous as those of any
man who has gazed upon my beauty. At once she lunged against me, tore open my
robe, and licked clean my lips. And again she dipped her fingers in his
wound—small this time and not so bloody—and smeared the blood upon my bared
breasts.
I yielded, giggling as I fell backward on the bed, against Harker’s legs
(who, because of my doing, never woke nor even stirred). There I let her take me
as she had before, licking away the blood and applying more to the most tender
area until I again fell screaming into the blissful void…
I did the same for her, although I confess it was not entirely to my taste.
Nor did she seem to enjoy it as much as I; she clearly preferred to be the one
giving rather than receiving, and once the Englishman’s small wound ceased
bleeding, her desire appeared to ebb. Yet I managed to bring her into the void,
and afterwards, we lay flushed and warm in each other’s arms atop the snoring
solicitor.
“Now,” she said softly, “come with me to my room. I will have Dorka tailor
some of my dresses for you, so that you can wear them when we go to London. And
when we are there, you shall buy all the new frocks and jewelry you desire, and
then you shall buy more.”
I went with her to her chambers, and tried on frock after frock, peering into
a larger mirror which Dorka held. Such delight! The gowns were all brand-new,
the latest fashion with a “bustle” in the back, and all exquisite (although they
were slightly too long, and too generous in the bosom and waist). Dorka is
taking them all in now.
And then Elisabeth took me into her bedchambers, where I slipped naked
between the most marvellously fine cotton sheets, and pulled the great down
comforter, covered in satin, up to my neck. (Now I see the reason for all the
trunks: There are no such elegant bedclothes in all of Roumania! She has brought
her own linens.)
She lay down beside me, and I quickly fell into a marvellous cosy sleep.
When I woke, it was sunset again, and Elisabeth was gone, no doubt in Vlad’s
company. I had slept most of the day, but was not disappointed, as I felt
greatly refreshed. So I returned to the chambers I share with Dunya—had
shared with Dunya—and gathered my diary and portrait and brought diem back here,
to Elisabeth’s room. I shall never sleep in that casket again.
And now, as I write this, nestled again in Elisabeth’s sumptuous, comfortable
bed, my thoughts return to Vlad’s betrayal and Elisabeth’s insistence that we
should not harm him now, but follow him to England.
In truth, the thought of going with her to London— to London at
last!—thrilled me beyond words, and to take revenge upon Vlad with her by my
side seemed sweet. But how long must I wait? How long?
Chapter 5
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
9 May.
Gerda has become more animated during both day and night. I have shifted my
routine to accommodate her, rising shortly after noon rather than the hour
before sunset. To my surprise, she is hypnotisable most often during the late
afternoon—but at times, the hour of her vulnerability shifts. Some days, she
will not enter trance at all. Today when I rose and unlocked the door to her
room (poor thing, I am forced now to keep her under lock and chain, lest
Zsuzsanna at a distance bid her to harm herself or, God forbid, Mama), she was
amazingly animated. She sat cross-legged on her bed, long white nightgown
carelessly bunched about her upper thighs as she gestured smiling at an
invisible visitor and chattered away like a little girl at an imaginary tea
party. I could not decipher what she was saying, though the lilting cadence and
whistling sibilants clearly marked the language as Roumanian—a language which
she does not speak, and with which I have some limited facility. But the words
were not completely formed, so that the effect was rather like listening to a
young parrot who has captured the rhythm and intonation of his master’s speech,
but is yet unable to enunciate clearly.
For the space of a minute, perhaps two, I stood in silence observing this odd
babbling pantomime. Gerda gave me no notice—until, abruptly, she turned to cast
me a sidelong glance, snorting to her invisible companion: “
Him!” This
time she enunciated the word in clear, precise Roumanian.
But as she peered at me from beneath half-lowered lids, her eyes widened
slowly, and both smile and derisiveness faded from her face. For the most
fleeting of seconds, she knew me and I her. For I beheld the face of my tortured
beloved, my wife, a prisoner held not by locks and bars but by that infinitely
cruder jailor, madness. This was Gerda as she had appeared almost a quarter
century ago, with the pale, dainty face of a gentlewoman and the dark suffering
eyes of a lunatic—eyes so troubled and despairing that, when they looked out at
me from behind a dishevelled curtain of long sable hair (Katya had washed and
brushed it out), tears of compassion filled my own.
“Gerda,” I whispered longingly, and reached to touch her hand. But she turned
away, slack-faced, all animation and expression just as swiftly gone, replaced
by the blank-ness that I have come to despise so.
Nothing I said could rouse her, so I surrendered and tended to Mama a few
hours before checking on Gerda again.
This time, my efforts came to fruition. Gerda quite easily and naturally
slipped into hypnotic trance, though at some points she fell stubbornly silent
(most notably at the questions “How is Vlad? Is he strong or weak?” and “Are you
and he still trapped within the castle?”).
Yet while she would not divulge information about Vlad, at the query “And how
are you? Are you strong?.”
she cried out with girlish enthusiasm: “Ever so strong, and happier than I
have ever been in my life!” At this, my heart sank; yet my dismay was quickly
submerged by curiosity when she added, “It is all because of Elisabeth…”
“Elisabeth? Who is she?” No doubt,
she of
she who has come,
but I waited for a more specific description.
She grew silent and pressed her lips together, as if resolved not to answer;
I feared our session had come to a premature halt. But then she replied softly,
“My dearest friend…” And would say no more on the subject, not even whether
Elisabeth was mortal or no. (She cannot be, of course, if she is capable of so
easily restoring Zsuzsanna’s strength. In all frankness, this terrifies me. What
manner of immortal is this, who is more powerful than even the Impaler? And how
could I ever hope to defeat such a creature?)
I pressed further. “And are you able now to leave the castle?”
At once—to my relief—her expression darkened. “No,” she said, with clear
anger. “But I shall soon, when we go to London.”
London! My heart began to pound against my breastbone as if fervently
demanding escape. My father, Arkady, had told me that Vlad had expressed a
desire to go to England as long as fifty years ago—to London, where he is
unknown and unfeared, and has vastly greater i’tumbers of potential victims.
I asked a few other questions, but in truth, I do not remember the answers
she gave, for I was too shaken by the knowledge that Vlad and Zsuzsanna—and
whoever this Elisabeth might be—would soon make their escape.
Thus tonight I performed a formal ritual for guidance and aid and, for the
first time, attempted to evoke Arminius as one might a god or demon. To my
disappointment, he failed to appear, and so I performed in Circle a divination
to guide me.
Clearly, I am intended to leave for London—but not at once. I shall wait and
watch alertly for the signal to go.
But two cards from the reading trouble me still: the Devil and the High
Priestess. Meditation instructs me that they speak somehow of this mysterious
Elisabeth.
My anxious mind was focussed on these symbols as I dozed at Mama’s bedside,
where the dream of the Dark Creature in the woods betook me. Once again, there
stood my teacher, Arminius, gleaming and white in his purity and kindness,
attended by his familiar, Archangel the wolf. Again I screamed, and again, no
reply, no comfort, from him who had so helped me in the past.
Then came the time when the Great Darkness loomed nearer, and began to change
shape…
But no more did it shift from wolf to child to man. No, this time it
transformed directly from animal to woman. And the darkness brightened slowly
until the black silhouette had become instead filled with colour.
Speechless, I stared at the vision before me—that of an impossibly beautiful
woman, her long waving hair catching the daylight like spun gold, her eyes the
deep, deep blue of the sea. Her skin was alabaster kissed with the delicate pink
of eternal youth—the preternatural glow so often seen upon the countenances of
vampires eager to lure prey. Yes, hers was a loveliness to make the beholder
weep in admiration at such glory, yet I felt no such joy, only the purest dread.
At my terror, she laughed, throwing her head back and tossing the golden
waves so that they sparkled in the sun— sparkled like her small, unnaturally
white teeth. The canines were not sharp, as I had expected, but of perfectly
ordinary size; that realisation served only to heighten my fear until,
overwhelmed, I cried out.
I woke perspiring to the sight of Mama watching me, and feebly picking at the
covers as if in a confused effort to reach out and comfort me.
“Bram?” Her voice, frail and broken, seemed a parody of what it had been
before her illness, but I was touched to see the look of recognition and worry
in her exhausted eyes. Such radiant, gentle, loving orbs they are, the colour of
cornflowers—the absolute moral opposite of those belonging to the woman in my
dream, for Mama’s shine with pure goodness. But lately, it has grown difficult
for me to gaze long into them, for they look at me and do not see me, as though
they are looking beyond at Infinity.
“Child, are you all right?” She spoke in her native English, for in recent
months she seems to find it difficult to recall her Dutch.
I took her cold, thin hand and pressed it between mine to warm it, answering
also in English. “I’m fine, Mama. I was just dreaming.”
Her face suddenly contorted with pain, and beneath the covers, her legs
writhed; though she bit her lip in an effort to keep from crying out, a groan
escaped her nonetheless. I realised then that it had been
her cry, not
my own, that had wakened me. Yet she was more concerned about my mental distress
than her own physical anguish.
Another round of morphia would have been dangerous; I had dosed her only an
hour before. So, with profuse apologies, I followed the wise old medical adage
concerning the elderly and the dying: When in doubt, check bowels and bladder. I
did so quickly, grateful for the fact that both illness and sedation eased any
overt sense of embarrassment—for her (she was quite too exhausted to care), if
not for me. Examining a patient is one thing; examining one’s mother is quite
another.
What I found made my heart sink, for I knew I should have to cause her
further agony. “Mama,” I said gently, “I’m afraid I will have to help you again.
There is a great deal of stool lodged here against your bedsores; I shall have
to extract it for you.”
With almost lucid resignation, she released a disappointed breath, then made
a pitiful effort to roll onto one hip. “Do what you must.”
So I fetched bedpan and salve, and helped her to turn onto her side—that
alone was excruciating for her. Then I performed what was necessary, praying the
whole time that God or whoever had the power would see fit to make my thick
fingers as thin and small as Katya’s. Mama screamed in a way that broke my
heart, and struggled feebly to push me away. Fighting tears, I said, “I am so
sorry to inflict this indignity, Mama; but you will become terribly infected if
I do not remove this stool.”
At once she cried out, “No, no! Don’t remove it, dear, or you shall certainly
fall!”
For one moment, I was confused; the next, I struggled to contain sad laughter
at her darkly comical and entirely unwitting remark. “Don’t worry, I shan’t
fall,” I soothed her. “It is quite steady.”
She seemed to take some comfort from that, and cried out only twice
afterwards. Soon I was done, and elected to give her a very small extra dose of
morphia; now she sleeps soundly and well, her expression the lax, unfurrowed one
of deep, painless sleep.
I checked on Gerda quickly—no change—then returned to Mama’s bedside to watch
that her breathing remained strong and steady.
And here I sit again in the rocking-chair at Mama’s bedside, listening to her
soft snoring and knowing that the familiar sound is one I soon will never hear
again. Yet I feel as though I have always sat here and always will, and that her
suffering will never end.
Clearly, I must go to London soon and take Gerda with me, so that I will be
waiting there when the vampires arrive. They cannot be permitted free rein in
England-dear God, victims are so plentiful there that they would never be
detected… not until the whole country was changed into vampires! My
responsibility there outweighs all others, even that to my family. This I know
in my brain; but my heart knows that it would be a crime to leave Mama alone in
this house to die in the presence of strangers.
Golden Elisabeth, what are you?
And what chance do I have against one so powerful, without Arminius’
intervention?
* * *
Zsuzsanna Tsepesh’s Diary
May.
No entry for a time; things had settled into a pleasurable enough
monotony—but a monotony all the same. Day after day, our routine has been to
enjoy ourselves freely during the sun’s heavenly reign, nibbling upon the
Englishman at our leisure, then straightway enjoying a sensual interlude.
Afterwards, Elisabeth takes me back to her chambers and picks clothing from her
numerous trunks and suitcases, and Dorka alters it for me; or Dorka grooms my
hair in a fashionable style (though my poor locks refuse to hold the slightest
curl, despite her heroic efforts); or Elisabeth educates me in the cosmetic
arts. Lipstick, powder, kohl—I would never have thought these silly things could
enhance even further my immortal glory, but they do indeed. I am not only more
beautiful than ever, I look like what the British call the New Woman:
sophisticated, modern, fashionable… and soon, I pray, independent.
In the afternoon, we sleep together beneath Elisabeth’s sumptuous linens for
a handful of hours, then rise again at sunset. Elisabeth dutifully repairs to
Vlad’s chambers to “visit,” for apparently he wants to be sure that she spends
little time with me (although he sometimes releases her a few hours before the
dawn). No doubt he fears that she will tell me too much of the truth—little does
he know that it is too late!
Nights are the hardest time, for without Elisabeth or our Englishman, little
awaits me save boredom—and poor Dunya, who is not returned to full vigour. She
sleeps all day still, and clearly needs to feed. But each time I broach the
topic, Elisabeth tells me that it is better to simply let the poor girl rest
until the time comes for us all to leave the castle. I suspect that restoring
Dunya would tax Elisabeth’s powers too greatly, though she will not admit to it.
She likes to maintain an aura of omnipotence—and indeed, she very nearly is
omnipotent.
And if she is, why can we not leave? It is anguish to remain here
upon this ruined, deserted estate, thinking of the glories of London! Each dawn,
I go to the open window and stretch my arm forth, yearning for the warm,
delicious kiss of sunlight upon it.
How long must I wait?
I sigh, impatient, as I write this while Elisabeth and Dunya still lie
sleeping in the great bed. I sigh, and write: Enough! I must maintain my sanity;
dwelling upon my captivity will only serve to torment me. And so, now that
restlessness has come upon me, I write…
Yesterday I woke at morning’s first blush (how strange to write these words
again, after so many years) in Elisabeth’s arms, and stared for a time out the
unshuttered window as the grey light warmed to pale rose. (We had missed our
afternoon nap, and so used the darkest morning hours for rest.) After a time my
darling stirred and gazed up at me with a sleepy smile, her long sunny curls
spilling with delightful haphazardness over her ivory shoulders, back, breasts.
The warmth of her body was pleasant, the morning cool; I therefore remained
beside her, and we indulged ourselves in languid conversation beneath the
covers. I, as always, asked: How long? How long? And Elisabeth, as
always, replied, Soon, soon…
Presently our conversation turned to Vlad, and her demeanour became markedly
curious. She sat up suddenly, letting the covers drop away (though the early
morning air was cool)—and, knees bent with long, slender arms wrapped round
them, she demanded:
“You have spoken before of the covenant Vlad had with your family, and with
the villagers. But I have not heard yet of the covenant he surely has with the
Dark Lord. What do you know of it?”
At the sound of that entity’s name-—and at the diamond-hard,
diamond-brilliant intensity in herveyes, focussed keenly on mine—I shuddered.
Yet I answered honestly and in full: that Vlad had offered up to the Dark One
the eldest son of each generation of his family. That a sacrifice was required
each generation in order to purchase Vlad’s renewed immortality. That in 1842,
my brother Arkady had (as both mortal and subsequent vampire) resisted being
pressed into Vlad’s evil service. Arkady’s second death—as a vampire—should have
brought Vlad’s immediate destruction, but did not because my brother had left
behind an heir, which his wife, Mary, took into hiding. So long as the heir
lived and there remained a chance that Vlad could deliver his soul to the Dark
Lord in place of Arkady’s, Vlad survived.
But Vlad’s weakness had come about because this heir —whose name had been
deceitfully changed from Stefan Tsepesh to Abraham Van Helsing by his mother
when she fled with him to Holland—was told by his father, Arkady, the truth of
his heritage. And so Arkady instructed Van Helsing in the foul art of killing
vampires.
Yet Van Helsing, a mere mortal, was no match for Vlad’s strength, and his
efforts to destroy the Prince of Wallachia met with utter failure… and my dear
brother’s death.
However, the wicked Van Helsing soon discovered another terrible truth—that
by destroying other vampires (those of Vlad’s victims who died, were not
properly destroyed, and subsequently rose), Vlad’s powers were gradually sapped.
Thus, over the past two decades of Van Helsing’s killing spree, Vlad and I had
grown weaker and weaker, until we had become the pathetic remnants Elisabeth
greeted upon her arrival.
She listened with fascination and care and, when I had finished, added,
“Clearly Van Helsing was preparing to come here and dispatch you both. Vlad is
too suspicious to trust anyone, least of all me; for him to beg for my aid means
that he was in terror of death… But here, my darling! Why this sudden unhappy
shower?”
For I was quite overcome with grief at the memories that assailed me at the
telling of this sad history; and I cried harder still when she lifted her hand
and tenderly brushed away my tears. Sobbing, I said, “Because, those twenty
years ago, I was lonely, dreadfully lonely, because Vlad had emotionally
forsaken me. And so I took Van Helsing’s little boy, Jan, as my own immortal
companion. Just a baby, he was, barely able to walk and talk, and so sweetly
innocent—and Van Helsing murdered him!“
She held me, patting my back as if soothing a wailing infant, then withdrew
and gently held my arms. “And did this beast also murder your poor brother?”
I shook my head. “No. Arkady died in an encounter with Vlad… He is here in
the castle. Would you like to see him?”
Her lips, pink and glowing as the dawn, parted abruptly in unmasked
amazement. “His body has survived all this time? Zsuzsanna, that is impossible!”
“Possible or no, do you wish to see him?”
“At once!” she cried, springing gracefully from the bed and pulling on her
dressing-gown with such alacrity that, before I could myself rise, she was
already holding out my gown to me.
I led her down the stairs and through a rotting and rusted oaken trapdoor
bound with iron, to the cellar—a subterranean cavern beneath the castle’s stone
foundation, a place I have come to think of as the first circle of Hell. Years
ago, I wept as I carried my poor brother’s body there —a dark, mildewed womb of
earth laced with spiderwebs, sprinkled with dust and the faeces of rodents. Oh,
yes, the bones of martyrs rest in the catacombs of that grotto; the bones of so
many hundreds of unfortunates who served as Vlad’s supper that the servants had
no more room—and came to dispose of later victims in the forest.
And chief of those martyrs is my brother.
To spare myself the need to tread upon too much Death and suffering, I had
laid Arkady’s body in one of the first empty catacombs, those which were not
enclosed by heavy rusted iron bars hung with chains and disintegrating padlocks.
I had constructed for him a catafalque of stone, surrounded him with tapers, and
draped a banner of black silk upon the rough earthen wall.
There we found him, lying just as I had left him on that terrible day:
impaled through his bloodless heart by a stake so thick I cannot encircle it
with one hand. And so handsome at rest, with his narrow but prominent nose, his
severe black brows and hair, his long-lashed eyelids closed forever over the
gentlest hazel eyes I ever knew.
At the sight of him, I wept openly. For though his last desire was to see me
and Vlad destroyed—as he put it, to free our souls (as if we could ascend to
Heaven instead of fall straight to Hell)—he still loved me, and I him. The bonds
of mortal siblings are not easily broken, even by the afterlife or differing
loyalties. So overwhelmed by grief was I when I first laid him to rest that, had
I been capable, I would have offered up my own existence gladly if he could
return. Given the chance, I might do so even now…
My compliments concerning his physical appearance are not due to sisterly
bias; even Elisabeth gasped at the sight of his perfect and beautiful corpse,
and could not extinguish the gleam of lust in her eye quickly enough to hide it.
“Zsuzsanna!” she exclaimed softly. “How can this be? He should have crumbled
to dust, or at the very least decomposed in some fashion…”
I kept my gaze fastened upon my younger brother, my sweet little Kasha, as I
replied, “The stake killed him, a vampire. But the regenerative powers of the
undead are so great that, because his head was never separated from the body, he
has maintained his form. I suspect the instant they are twain, the physical form
will dissolve.” Again, the burn of tears as the images returned to me. “Just as
Van Helsing no doubt accomplished with my baby, my poor little Jan!“
Elisabeth put her arms round me, and stroked my hair as I rested my cheek
upon her shoulder. “What sort of bastard is capable of murdering his own child?”
she fumed. “Don’t cry, my darling. I shall see that he meets his long-deserved
fate. You shall be doubly avenged, for should Van Helsing die, then Vlad himself
shall do the same—or rather, descend into the arms of the Dark Lord—shall he
not?”
“Yes,” I murmured into her soft, silk-clad shoulder.
“Then that is what we will do, dear Zsuzsa. We need only kill Van Helsing to
see Vlad destroyed.”
* * *
Reassured but sad, we walked together back up the stairs. I felt a small
gnawing hunger and should have liked to visit our gentleman, but Elisabeth
became very stern: I had been taxing poor Harker of late, and if we did not
allow him another day’s rest, Vlad would certainly notice and take action
against us. (Him again! Sometimes I become annoyed with Elisabeth; she possesses
such amazing powers, but tiptoes round Vlad as though secretly afraid. Oh, yes,
she says she does it out of her own hunger for the chase to come, that without
such games she would grow bored of existence—but I grow madder with boredom each
hour I remain here!)
I yielded to her reluctantly, and together we returned to our chambers.
Though she tried valiantly to cheer me with more of the usual gown fittings and
hairstyles, I remained restless. At last she made to me the presentation of a
small velvet box, a gift that she had meant to save for our first night in
London.
I opened it with as much show of delight as I could manage, and was truly
moved and delighted to find nestled within a pair of striking earrings—large
round diamonds from which hung suspended even larger sapphire tears— and to
match, a gold necklace from which hung a great pendant of the same design, a
diamond weeping sapphires.
I was enormously honoured and flattered to receive such an expensive token of
Elisabeth’s affection, even more so when I asked her when and how she had
managed to purchase such a gift, and she replied:
“They were mine, given to me in marriage as a token of esteem. So I give them
to you with the same meaning.”
I rose and kissed her upon each cheek, and she solemnly returned the gesture.
And so she began to speak of London again, and the different places she intended
to take me shopping—to Piccadilly and Hyde Park, and Savile Row, but I could not
feign interest for long. My frustration at being trapped inside these stone
walls would not ease, so at last she tore off my clothes and carried me to the
bed, where she attempted to relieve my anxiety in a more sensual fashion.
As I write this, it occurs to me that this was the first time we had made
love without blood smeared upon our bodies, and without my having recently fed.
Elisabeth was determined to better my mood, but her efforts were curiously
lacking in passion. When even her pale enthusiasm began clearly to wane, I waved
her away. Offended, she stormed off—where, I cannot say, for even with my
preternatural hearing, I could detect not a sound anywhere in the castle. I did
not see her again until after dusk.
By then the full moon had risen, large and yellow and ringed with a radiant
halo of mist in a starry indigo sky. It was a warm, beautiful night—even more
beautiful because I sensed that Vlad had departed the castle, leaving behind an
atmosphere of ease—and unbearably romantic, especially now that my Elisabeth was
gone. Before I met her, the full moonglow used to pain my eyes so that I avoided
hunting then; but tonight, it seemed delicious, inviting, and the moon’s
incandescent whiteness, rippled through with pale gold, reminded me of my
lover’s skin and hair.
Fortunately, by that time, Dunya had risen from her coffin and I distracted
myself from my loneliness by talking to her; she was too sweet-natured to show
it, but I know she is becoming jealous of Elisabeth’s obvious favouritism
towards me. Here I sit in new gowns and jewels, marvellously coiffed, and Dunya
still spends the day in the worn (but fetching) dress I bought her twenty years
ago in Vienna, with her dark reddish hair braided and coiled in the same fashion
Vlad’s serfs wore four centuries ago. Since she joined us undead, I have tried
consciously to treat her less as a servant and more as an equal, but there is a
clear class distinction which cannot be violated. I think when she is reminded
of it, it hurts her feelings. What Hell to know one is doomed to remain a
serving-girl for all eternity! But there is nothing to be done.
At any rate, I did my best to reassure her. I had, I told her, demanded that
Vlad bring us food, which was bound to arrive very soon. This heartened her a
bit; for although she is slightly stronger than she was, hunger has again
weakened her to the point where she cannot hunt for herself. (Even if she could,
thanks to Vlad’s foulx magic she probably would find herself trapped inside the
castle, same as I.)
But just as I finished my tale, Dunya sat up in her chair, and lifted her
nose to savour the air.
“Warm blood!” She rose at once and hurried to the door of her bedchamber,
following the scent. “Doamna, there is a mortal here!”
She projected herself with blurring speed out into the sitting-room. I
followed, and heard her release a small gasp as our gazes beheld, at the same
time, the Englishman.
He was sitting at the desk, pen in hand, writing furiously in a pocket-sized
diary in the glow of lamp and moon. We both had rushed into the room with such
haste that his mortal eyes could not possibly have perceived our entry, but he
is clearly a sensitive, for he glanced frowning in our direction.
“Sleep,” I said. Straightway, he rose, pen and diary in one hand, and
clumsily pulled the long couch into a bright pane of moonlight in front of the
grand window—the one which looks down onto the great chasm and the forested
valley far below, and the mountains far beyond. At once he lay down—on his side,
fortunately, so that the snoring which immediately commenced was less stertorous
than usual. (If he is indeed engaged, I pity his poor wife-to-be.)
Dunya clapped her hands and giggled, gleeful as a child introduced to a new
present. “How handsome he is!”
“Vlad’s visitor,” I murmured, as I silently agreed with Dunya’s comment.
Awake and dressed and neatly groomed, he looked even more attractive and
gentlemanly in vest and shirt and trousers, and brown curls sternly pomaded. He
also had the beginnings of a dark beard, which gave his boyish features an
agreeable severity, and made his jaw and cheeks appear thinner and more
sculpted.
So deeply did he fall into trance that the diary and pen, which he heretofore
had jealously clutched, dropped from his now-relaxed fingers onto the couch.
Before I could react, the nib fell directly onto the centuries-old brocade and
the ink was immediately absorbed, leaving a small black starburst that could
never be washed out.
“Thoughtless guests!” I exclaimed. “Really, have they no concern for others’
property?” And I slipped the pen into his vest pocket—nib down. The diary,
however, I took into my hands, hoping to fool Dunya into believing I had never
before met the genteel Mr. Harker.
“Hmph! What sort of chicken scratchings are these? Why does he not write in
English?” I peered up from the small book to address the sleeping man. “Well,
you shall, sir, from now on,” I commanded, in the voice of a mesmerist. “You may
think you are writing in this bizarre scrawl, but you shall in truth
write everything down in proper English. How else shall I indulge my curiosity?”
And I bent low and slipped the diary next to the pen.
When I rose, I glanced over to see poor Dunya transfixed—staring down at
Harker with lips parted, sharp, shining teeth bared, and eyes filled with a wild
hunger that was painful to see. And yet she was restrained by an invisible wall
of fear.
“I must not!” she whispered—to neither me nor Harker, but to herself. “I must
not! He would destroy me…”
He meaning Vlad, of course, and I opened my mouth to say, There
is no more reason to fear Vlad anymore, dear companion. The man is yours. Take
him!.
But ere I could speak, I sensed rather than heard the rustle of soft skirts
against stone, and the click of hard, tiny heels. And there in the arched
entryway stood Elisabeth. How had I failed to sense her approach… unless she had
intentionally kept her movements silent?
To my relief, she was no longer angry; indeed, she was smiling and cheerful,
and glanced at Harker with amusement as she entered briskly, skirts in her
hands. “Ah! Our Englishman seems to have wandered astray.”
I left Dunya slavering over our unexpected visitor and sidled up to
Elisabeth, who put her hand upon my waist and kissed my cheek as though her
furious departure had never occurred. Thus I dared ask her—in English, which to
the uneducated Dunya might as well have been Chinese: “I cannot bear to see her
suffer so any longer, or to fear Vlad’s wrath needlessly. For my sake, let her
drink safely, as you have let me…”
I half expected more anger from her, or at least an annoyed repetition of how
it would be better not to overtax her powers until the time came for us to
leave.
But she was in as jolly a temper as I have seen her, and she merely sighed
with affectionate annoyance and stroked my cheek with her hand. One corner of
her red mouth quirked up to reveal a deep dimple beside it as she turned to face
Harker and his desperate admirer.
“Dunya, my darling. Take the visitor; he is yours. Only mark that you do not
drain him to death, else I will not be able to protect you from Vlad’s anger.”
Atremble with desire and terror, the little servant glanced up at Elisabeth
with wide, confused dark eyes. “But, doamna, if I do, then the prince
shall see the mark!”
I stepped forward. “He won’t. Elisabeth can cause the marks to disappear.”
On her face, darkness warred with light: darkness, as she wondered how I
should know such a thing unless Elisabeth had done it for me—which meant that I
had withheld from my loyal companion nourishing blood, this visitor’s blood.
Light, as she tried to repress doubt and anger and focus instead on this
hope-restoring marvel, that she could drink deep at Harker’s well without danger
of retaliation.
As always, rage succumbed to hunger. She bent low over the Englishman, whose
eyelids fluttered; clearly, he was watching her with the same delicious
anticipation she directed towards him, for as she neared, his lips parted
sensually to draw in and release air more quickly. His sighs caused a warm,
rapid thrill to course down my spine, at whose termination I felt as though I
had burst into flame.
Closer she drew to him, and closer, with the most erotic reverence I have
ever witnessed, until her mouth opened wide and her teeth pressed ever so gently
against his flesh—not piercing, merely touching. I do not think I had ever seen
her appear quite so classically beautiful as she did at that moment: her eyelids
half lowered with desire, her profile pale and fragile against Harker’s more
rounded ruddy one. A single lock of her hair had escaped the long braid and fell
straight onto Harker’s cheek, where it coiled, a red-black serpent.
In that pose she lingered, and slowly closed her eyes, savouring the ecstasy
induced by waiting.
And I was hungry, hungry, hungrier than I had ever been, yet aware that my
yearning could not be sated by blood alone. I pressed a hand to my heaving
breast and looked at my beloved, my Elisabeth.
She, too, was drunk with anticipation, for her mouth had fallen open and,
like Harker, she panted. Unlike Harker, her blue eyes were open wide and frankly
ablaze with lust.
But not for me, not for me. And not for our Englishman.
Jealousy abruptly replaced my arousal:. How could she look at Dunya as she
looks at me? How dare anyone else be the object of her passion!
Yet that emotion was just as swiftly replaced by surprise. Bony spine arched
in a delicate curve, Dunya lifted her shoulders in a gesture I have come to know
well, for it is that of the vampire preparing to strike.
At the same time, there came a sound like the rushing of a great wind, and
its slamming into the motionless air of the sitting-room.
“Leave him!” Vlad thundered, and Dunya cried out in horrified alarm as he
flung down a large burlap sack and rushed towards her. Before either Elisabeth
or I could intervene, Vlad caught her neck between his thumb and forefinger and
lifted her from her knees, then hurled her backward with such great force that
she struck the wall.
She was, of course, unhurt (though she remained cowering in the corner), but
the cruel disrespect of the gesture filled me with fury. What if it had been I
or Elisabeth instead of a serving-girl? Would he have dared lay a hand on as?
My anger rose as he turned his wrath upon us two, shouting: “How dare you
touch him, any of you! How dare you cast eyes on him when I had forbidden it!
This man belongs to me!”
Able to bear it no longer, I cried, “But we do not belong to you,
and we are hungry! What sort of tyrant starves his own family, then
strikes us when the opportunity to save ourselves appears? You say he belongs to
you, but he wandered into our rooms—we did not bring him here. Fate has decreed
that we shall be fed!”
His eyes reddened with fury at my impudence, as I knew they would; I do think
if Elisabeth had not been there, he would have killed me if he could. He glanced
from me to her; she said nothing at all, but merely gazed back at him with an
enigmatic half-smile and eyes hard, cold, deadly fierce.
I think she frightened him, for he remained silent a moment before answering
slowly, “Harker shall be yours after a time, when I am done with him. Until
then”—he nodded at the brown bundle on the floor; a shrill animal cry, similar
to that of a cat, emerged from within, but the smell was definitely that of warm
human blood—“let that suffice.”
And he lifted the swooning Englishman into his arms and departed as quickly
as he had come. Immediately relieved, Dunya scrambled over to the bag and
loosened the drawstring; wet burlap fell away in folds to reveal a filthy, naked
male child of perhaps a year, its smudged cheeks wet with tears. It gazed up at
Dunya and immediately calmed, though its little torso spasmed comically with
hiccups.
Elisabeth sniffed the air, her porcelain features contorted with disgust, and
raised a lace handkerchief to her mouth. “It smells.”
“Ah, no.” I wagged a finger at her. “Remember Alexander Pope: You
smell. It stinks.”
“I think it peed in the bag,” Dunya said, and grinned at it, relieved to find
that she had not only escaped punishment, but would have her dinner after all.
(The sense of smell, apparently, is first to fade when hunger overwhelms.) The
child returned the smile sweetly, and reached for her with chubby fingers. “A
baby,” she said, and scooped it up at once, whirling round and round and
tickling its fat stomach until it crowed atonally with delight. She snapped her
fingers beside its ear, then added, “I think it’s deaf.”
Another prize from our oh-so-generous Vlad: a dirty, piss-soaked deaf boy
whose own parents had probably offered it up gladly. “And he is all yours,” I
told Dunya.
She neither questioned my abstinence nor protested the gift, but immediately
pressed her lips to its neck in a hungry kiss; the child giggled, writhing as if
tickled. But its laughter turned at once to a terrified scream as Dunya opened
wide her mouth and struck. The cry soon faded; the boy grew glassy-eyed and
still as the muscles in Dunya’s jaw worked, and soon he was limp in her arms.
She cradled him then, lifting high the elbow beneath his head so that she could
drink comfortably without bending too far down—the mother suckling the child.
The tableau seemed both strangely tender and erotic; I found myself yearning
to join her in that gently passionate embrace. A glance at Elisabeth confirmed
that she felt the same, for she stared at the two with the same intent lust she
had directed at Dunya and Harker.
Was I again jealous? Yes, as I am now, watching Dunya as she sleeps enfolded
in Elisabeth’s arms in the great bed. But that verdant emotion did not stay with
me for long. For this time, Elisabeth felt my gaze upon her, and favoured me
with a faint, seductive smile. Oddly, that small gesture caused all jealousy to
lift, and filled me instead with fire. So I did not resist when Elisabeth took
my hand and, laying it upon her breast and her own hand atop mine, drew me with
her to Dunya’s side.
What possessed me then I cannot say, nor can I remember clearly what
transpired afterwards. I only know that we indulged ourselves in an orgy of
blood and sexual excess, and that I violated each woman just as each one
violated me. Only one image remains with me clearly— that of Elisabeth naked and
kneeling upon the stone, crying out More, morel as Dunya and I each
held one of the dying child’s heels and shook him so that the dregs of his blood
spattered down upon Elisabeth’s breast and face. This she frenziedly rubbed into
her skin, as if somehow she might absorb some good from it.
When it was over, Dunya was too sated to move, and all three of us were
sticky with the remnants of the child’s blood. Elisabeth carried her and I
trailed behind as we three made our way to Elisabeth’s chamber. There we piled
into the big bed, where I slept until the dawn.
How strange this all is, and how confused I have become. I am jealous of
Dunya and angry at Elisabeth—and yet I am not. I know but one thing for certain:
that I shall convince her to wait no longer, but to take me to London at once.
Chapter 6
Szuzsanna Dracul’s Diary
May.
When I went alone to Harker’s chambers this morning—Elisabeth had gone off
again, without explanation—I found, to my delight, that my hypnotic suggestion
to him had worked, after a fashion. He was still writing in shorthand in his
diary, but he had taken to transcribing the whole thing into English on some
parchment he had apparently brought with him in order to post letters. He had
begun with the most recent entry, the sixteenth, and I was amused to see
his
perspective of what had happened the night of 15 May.
Clearly, he was quite fixated upon Elisabeth, for he spoke of nothing but the
“fair girl” and her wavy masses of golden hair. She had taken the place of Dunya
in his shoddy memory, and he spent an inordinate amount of time describing her
and overstating the “count’s” show of anger. Quite insulting, really, and where
did he get this business about “you never love”? All fantasy.
But the worst insult came in the previous day’s entry —the entry he must have
been writing when Dunya and I caught him in our sitting-room. I was so
infuriated that I committed it to memory: “Here I am, sitting at a little oak
table where in old times possibly some fair lady sat to pen, with much thought
and many blushes, her ill-spelt love-letter…”
Ill-spelt?
Ill-spelt? Sir, I have avoided insulting
your
pitiful attempts at poetic prose, nor have I chided you in
my diary for
your faulty spelling. I resent the implication that the Tsepesh (or Dracul, or
Roumanian, for that matter) women were ill-educated, or that they wasted their
time blushing over silly love-letters. My mother was a renowned poetess, sir,
and I alone possess more literary skills than you and all your future heirs
together dare ever hope to have. I have never misspelt a word in all my life.
Ill-spelt, indeed!
As for the misspoken Mr. Harker, I gave him a small nip, and took just enough
blood to stave off hunger; this time, I skipped any sexual encounter, for I had
little of that sort of appetite after the long, strange night with Elisabeth,
Dunya, and the deaf child.
When I had drunk (much less than my fill), I left Harker and wandered out
into the hallway. I was filled with restlessness, as I had wanted badly to tell
Elisabeth that I could no longer wait to go to London. Yet I could find her
nowhere in the castle—save for the one place I feared to look, Vlad’s chambers.
And if she refused again to leave this prison, I had resolved to attempt what
heretofore I had never dared even to think: kill Vlad with the stake. Yes, he
had told me that vampires could not directly kill each other, but he had managed
to kill my brother by hurling a stake at him.
Why should I not do the same to him? For with Elisabeth here, I had come to
realise that I
was strong enough to face even the Impaler. “If I am
destroyed, you are destroyed,” he has always told me, but I know now in my heart
that is a lie.
Yet before I could enter his inner sanctum, I needed to render myself
invisible, soundless—for even hard at rest, Vlad was capable of sensing danger,
and retaliating. Thus I carefully performed the necessary mental machinations
and chant, and when I felt confident that he could never detect me, I set off.
Up the stairs I went, moving so swift and light that my feet literally never
touched the stone. Soon I arrived at the great oak-and-iron door to find it
closed and bolted from the inside; from within came no sound. Rather than
dramatically break the bolt and fling the door open—which I could manage easily
now, but which would also alert Vlad to my increased strength—I instead opted
for stealth, and narrowed my body in order to slip through the crack into the
vast chamber, which was modelled upon the Prince of Wallachia’s private throne
room.
There to the west stood the Theatre of Death, where black manacles graced a
bloodstained wall, and the wicked chains of the strappado (from whence a victim
might struggle, suspended in midair) hung from the ceiling. Beneath them both
lay a large wooden tub, of oaken exterior but an interior the colour of red
mahogany, a legacy left by its former contents. And beyond them both stood a
large butcher’s table, its surface worn and scored by the bite of countless
blades. This in turn was flanked by a rack of knives of different sizes and
shapes, and a stand of sharpened wooden stakes—some broad as a strong man’s arm
and taller than I, others shorter and thinner, destined for more delicate uses.
In the halcyon days before Van Helsing’s birth, all these were used to dispose
of dead guests in a manner which prevented them from becoming competition.
These devices had long lain unused; but I had no doubt they represented the
fate intended for our Englishman, no matter what false claims of generosity Vlad
had uttered.
I approached them, tempted to arm myself at once and enter the small door to
my left wherein my uncle slept (this I sensed beyond doubt), in hopes of
achieving the brazen deed before my resolve fled entirely. But a slight, barely
perceptible movement at the chamber’s opposite wall caught my notice.
Elisabeth, I was convinced, though when I stared intently in the direction of
the movement I saw and heard nothing—nothing save the Impaler’s throne, and the
wooden platform on which it rested, and the three stairs inlaid in gold with the
motto JUSTUS ET Pius. Yet I knew she was there—as invisible and undetectable as
I; but even the strongest magic is not so powerful as love.
And with loving eyes I looked as I slowly crossed the Impaler’s great
chamber, nearing inch by inch until I discovered the boundaries of her spell.
One instant, I stood several arm’s lengths from the platform, and saw nothing
save what I have above described. But one step more—a single hesitant step—and
the air began to shimmer and roil like clouds caught up in a fierce storm; then,
like a veil, it lifted to reveal my Elisabeth.
In front of the great throne, she had erected a polished onyx double cube as
an altar. Around this she had inscribed a circle, on whose boundaries I had
encroached, thus opening this secret ritual to my eyes.
Dressed in the simple black robe of a priestess, golden hair streaming freely
down her back, Elisabeth raised her arms in a V before the altar, on which
rested the same implements I have seen on Vlad’s: pantacle, dagger, cup, and
candle.
And a dead, bloody boy child lying beside locks of indigo hair.
Locks of
my hair, I realised with an abrupt thrill of horror. Locks
of my hair—and Dunya’s, for I recognised my jet colour, kissed with blue, and
Dunya’s, kissed with red. What manner of evil did she intend to work against us?
And what had we to do with the dead child?
This I could not determine, for as she faced west— faced me—she intoned words
in a bizarre language that sounded like no earthly tongue I knew; but regardless
of the language, I can recognise my own name, and that of my serving-girl. And
those I heard.
Had I not been frightened of her powers and her anger, I would have broken
the circle and stepped forward to demand explanation at once, instead I lingered
on the perimeter and watched, hoping that I could ascertain the purpose of this
ritual and knowing that I could not. But something—perhaps someone—compelled me
to remain.
And then I saw Him.
Elisabeth had completed her chanting and now waited, hands crossed upon her
chest like a penitent, head bowed. Unbeknownst to her, standing behind her back,
towering over her like a titan stood…
How shall I describe Him? He was entirely dark, like a huge shadow cast by a
lamp, yet He seemed quite solid. I could not see His face or features, yet He
had both, for I saw Him smile at me. Neither had He eyes, but I gazed
into them just the same.
He knew me. He smiled at me, and knew me. And I —I knew at that moment that I
had always known Him, and felt no fear, no fear at all, for looking into His
eyes I saw acceptance and compassion, and indeed love.
Such love that I was swept away into it, pulled as if by the tide into the
infinite blackness, the infinite light, in His eyes. For He and I were Nothing
and All Things, existence and annihilation, thought and mindlessness, all
together, and all things and no thing the same. This was an ecstasy far beyond
any physical satisfaction and desire, and as I reflect upon it now, I can
honestly say that if Death is such a state, I would gladly kill myself now.
Then all awareness passed away, and I fell into an unconscious state and woke
a short time later to find Elisabeth and the altar and—could it have been the
Dark Lord? No! An archangel, at the very least, capable of only the whitest
magic, for when I have heard of the Dark Lord or heard Vlad in session with Him,
it brings only fear. But this creature… this dark, good creature…
I can only speculate. I fled to my room and have written this all down, lest
time cause my memory of that powerful encounter to fade. As for now, I have not
seen Elisabeth yet, and am fearful; if she detected me after my swooning, then
she will no doubt be furious again.
But
I must know what she is about. If she means to betray me, then
my death is assured anyway, and I might as well face it swiftly rather than
linger in an agony of doubt.
19 MAY.
She is dead, she is dead! How can this be? How can any immortal be murdered,
save by the hand of the living?
My hand trembles so, I fear I shall drop the pen, for I realise that
I
am no longer safe myself.
I went to her coffin today, filled with concern because the morning after the
deaf boy’s death—the sixteenth— Dunya, still sated and sleepy, crawled from
Elisabeth’s bed to her little casket in the servant’s quarters and closed the
lid with a weary
thump.
It is not uncommon for a vampire who has had her fill after a long
deprivation to sleep a day, a night, and another day, then rise refreshed and
invigourated; I have done it myself many times. So when Dunya did not rise at
all on the night of the sixteenth, I was unconcerned. And when she did not
emerge on the seventeeth, I told myself:
She is enjoying a long, deep rest,
and when I see her tomorrow, she will appear younger and stronger than she has
for decades.
She did not arise on the eighteenth. “Have no fear,” Elisabeth said, trying
to comfort me. (She has never mentioned my appearance at her ritual; I can only
surmise that my invisibility spell was successful, that I was not detected, for
she has only been kind to me since.) “Dunya is immortal. Who can harm her?”
Who, indeed?
This morning I left Elisabeth sleeping and crept in the hour before sunrise
to Dunya’s quiet chambers. How dark it seemed there, and how melancholy; from
outside came the sweet, high song of a solitary lark, but that morning it seemed
peculiarly mournful.
I lingered for a moment in the sitting-room where we had encountered Jonathan
Harker, Esquire; my fears held me back from proceeding directly into the
bedchamber. The couch still stood where the Englishman had placed it —in front
of the large window. There I stood, gazing out at forest and mountains and
fierce ravine as they slowly emerged from darkness into the pale grey light of
dawn.
Then I steeled myself and moved into the inner room where Dunya lay inside
her closed casket. And in the instant I stepped across that threshold, a
startling revelation seized me: Dunya was not here, not here at all! I had
always been able to sense her gentle presence, as she was entirely ignorant of
magic and the methods of self-protection (this at Vlad’s insistence).
For a fleeting moment, I felt overcome by the wild hope that Elisabeth had at
last empowered her, that she had somehow managed to escape the castle; this was
accompanied by an equally wild but vague terror—vague because my mind would not
permit the admission of what I feared I might find. Consumed by those two
incompatible emotions together, I approached the little casket and flung open
the lid.
Bone and dust!
Bone and dust: her small, delicate skull was palest ivory, cleaned of any
remnant of eye or skin, though a long, liquefying strand of reddish dark hair
stuck to the white satin beneath, from neck to waist. It was as though she had
truly died as a mortal those twenty years before, and her corpse left to the
elements under a pitiless sun. The skull had fallen off the bones of the neck
and stood on the bones of the upper jaw (the lower had collapsed), somewhat
perpendicular to the dry yellowed bones of the limbs and torso. Her arms were
crossed over the breastbone and ribs as neatly as if she had been arranged for
burial, but the leg bones had detached and lay scattered in disarray.
I suppose I screamed; I must have screamed, though how loud and long I cannot
say, for all fear fled and I knew only hysterical grief. And as I cried out, my
breath stirred the dust in the coffin—truly her final resting-place now—causing
it to scatter upward into the air and float like the white-hot ash of burning
parchment.
I breathed in that ash, choked on it, wept for it; indeed, I crawled into the
coffin and clutched the bones, kissed them, baptised them with my tears.
Sweet servant and friend! Loyal and unquestioning companion! I remember with
pain each thoughtless act I ever committed against you, and know that now, I
have failed in my obligation to protect you…
I did not mourn alone long; in the midst of my sobs, I felt a warm hand touch
my shoulder. Above me stood Elisabeth, her own eyes aglisten with tears, her
expression one of horrified shock and pity. She was naked, her hair in streaming
tangles; apparently she had heard my wailing and hurled herself from bed.
“Zsuzsanna, my darling!” Her voice was low, softer and more tender than ever
I had heard it—oh, but I was too full of grief and fury to believe her. “My
dear, what has
happened? Oh, this cannot—is this poor Dunya?” At once
she fell to her knees beside the coffin and swore: “Damn him!
Damn
him!”
I whirled round and sat up at once, filled with an anger pure enough, grand
enough, to consume the entire world. I cared not whether I offended her, or Vlad,
or the Dark Lord, even if He be the Devil Himself; I cared not if in the next
instant I, too, was reduced to a heap of bones and dust. I lashed out, wanting
only for her to suffer as I suffered at that moment.
“You know it is.
You are the one who has killed her! I trusted you—
trusted
you, but now—”
A flash of rage on her face, but only a flash; she controlled herself
immediately and replied, with an expression of infinite hurt and sadness,
“Zsuzsa, sweet Zsuzsa, how can you say this to
me? How can you think
that I would ever want to harm your friend and cause you such suffering? You are
first in my heart, and I would never betray you… This is all Vlad’s doing!”
I would have none of it; all an act, all an act, one I had been foolish to
believe. “You killed her, as you intend to kill me! I saw you perform the
ritual; I saw Dunya’s hair, and mine, upon your altar. I saw the Dark Lord…”
At those last two words, her eyebrows lifted sharply, and her gaze became
intense, ferocious, diamond-bright; she had not known. Then slowly, the golden
brows lowered; her forehead smoothed and her entire expression grew composed.
When at last she spoke, her words were measured and deliberate.
“If you saw, then surely you understood the ritual’s purpose: to protect you
and Dunya from harm. My darling, there is much I have not revealed for fear of
frightening you. Vlad intends to destroy us all, and it has taken all my
reserves of strength and wit simply to protect you. I admit, I have failed you
in terms of Dunya, your good servant, whose death has clearly broken your heart.
For my mistake has been to put especial protection round her whom I love
most”—and here she kissed my hand, leaning down so that her hot tears spilled
onto my flesh—“and to leave only a modicum for myself and Dunya.”
What could I say to such a confession? I struggled onto my knees,
inadvertently cracking dry, brittle bones, and reached for her. Sobbing, we
embraced.
“Ah, my Zsuzsanna, my Zsuzsa, I am sorry I misled you, but I did so out of
concern that you should not be afraid. Vlad is weak, yes, and I am the more
powerful— except that he has studied magic some two centuries longer than I. His
father and grandfather both ascended the throne with the Dark Lord’s aid, and I
believe he has invoked that powerful entity yet again in hopes of defeating us.
For he fears us and anything, anyone,, stronger than he—and that which he fears,
he is bound to destroy. This is how he repays me, who have come to offer him
help… and you, who remained his loyal companion for fifty years, despite his
despicable treatment of you.”
So gentle was her gaze, so wounded yet full of compassionate sorrow, that my
heart was pierced by a fresh grief, that of the realisation I had hurt her
unjustly. “I am sorry, I am sorry,” I murmured, with renewed weeping, and
pressed harder against her warm ivory flesh, against the soft perfumed hair that
cascaded like Godiva’s over her shoulder, breast, and belly. “I understand… you
had invoked the Dark Lord for protection for us all. But you
must have
the same protection I have, for if I rise and find you so destroyed”—here I
gestured at the pitiful heap of bones beneath me—“I truly will die of
unhappiness. What shall I do to save you? Teach me, and I will bargain with the
Devil Himself!”
A hint of wryness crept into her expression, and she chided quickly beneath
her breath, “Do not call Him the Devil, Zsuzsanna; that is so superstitious and
mediaeval!” Immediately after, she straightened and said more loudly, “I will
not have you bargaining with Him, dear one. It is too unsafe, even for those of
us long practiced in the black arts. He is a treacherous negotiator, and He
deals only in lives and afterlives; He would all too quickly possess your soul.”
“My soul? What would He want with it, if He is not the Devil?”
She lowered her eyelids and, in an obvious effort to distract me, said, “Come
away from those bones, darling —it is too gruesome!” And she lifted me up by the
waist as easily as if I had been a babe, and set me down beside her to brush
away dust and bits of crumbled bone from my dressing-gown. Shattered,
frightened, I clung to her as she led me out into the hallway and back towards
the chamber we had come to share.
But still I contemplated her odd statement about her Master; if He was not
the Devil, was He then God? Surely God would not stoop to bargaining for souls!
As sorrow had removed all my courteous restraint, I demanded again, “Why my
soul?”
“A matter of speech,” she said, but her gaze was focussed straight ahead, on
her destination, rather than on me; I could not help feeling that she wished
desperately to avoid the subject altogether, as if it were too unpleasant even
to contemplate. “You would be absorbed. Annihilated. Devoured.”
Is this what Vlad has done to Dunya? Has her soul been eaten by the Dark One
with the loving eyes?
Yet if that is what I felt in His presence—that ecstatic sense of No Thing
and All Things—then I cannot, as Elisabeth does, fear Him. If that is where
Dunya is, then I shall dry my still-streaming tears…
And yearn to join her.
Elisabeth will not teach me any of the needed knowledge to contact Him
directly—to seek revenge on Vlad, and safe passage for us both from this castle.
But I will find Him.
I will find Him…
* * *
29 JUNE.
No entry in all this time; grief has caused my strength and inclination to
wane. I think often of the dead: my good mother and father, my brothers Arkady
and little Stefan, and dear Dunya. Sometimes I even think of all the poor souls
whose bodies and bones lie corrupting in this castle and the vast encircling
forest. So much death and suffering everywhere I turn! The magnitude of it
overwhelms, permeates, my mind and heart… _
But so many things have happened that I must record them before the details
fade from memory. Tonight, for the first time in months, my mind is directed
towards something other than mortality—towards a distant land I have always
yearned to see, but came to think I never would.
A month or so ago, tsigani men drove their wagons into the castle
courtyard and camped there. It was a warm day, and hotter still for the gypsies,
as they had decided to cook their noonday meal—a kid—and so built a large fire
and spit and sat round it half-naked, their bare chests and backs exposed and
glistening with sweat.
Their presence was resounding evidence (although I had never doubted) that
Vlad did indeed mean to desert me here, for when Elisabeth and I tried to signal
the group’s apparent leader from the windows, the men laughed derisively and
ignored us—just as they ignored Mr. Harker, who also cried out from his window.
(Obviously, he is just as much a prisoner as we; though certainly ignorant of
dealing with gypsies. The fool threw them money—which of course they pocketed
before turning away.)
“Shut him up!” Elisabeth ordered, her eyes narrowed in frustration at the
smirking ruffians beneath us; like an obedient slave, I hurried at once up to
Harker’s chambers and entranced him. When I returned, I found Elisabeth a
feminine parody of the men; leaning seductively out the unfettered window, her
gown and camisole both unfastened and pulled down to the waist, baring her
breasts, she sang a patently bawdy song in Romany to the captivated onlookers
below. My first reaction was to be slightly jealous at her brazen display in
front of those vile, untrustworthy creatures; but the jealousy was swiftly
replaced by humour at Elisabeth’s audacity, and the comically smitten
expressions on the gypsy men’s faces. This was the first time since Dunya’s
death that I had been graced by laughter, and that made it all the more
powerful: I shut my mouth and bit my tongue in an effort to quell the chuckling
that bubbled up within me, but all for naught. The laughter came regardless;
thus I stood somewhat back from the window so that I could not be seen, but I
could see both Elisabeth and her adoring audience.
Her little performance achieved her intent; the tsigani chief
immediately ran from his place in front of the campfire—shouting an order to the
other men to remain—and arrived at the castle entrance. This was apparently
bolted from the outside, for as we rushed to welcome him in, I heard the scrape
of wood against metal, then the hollow clank of a wooden bolt striking stone.
Although we were forced to remain inside, he had no difficulty crossing that
threshold; like a lovestruck bull, he flung aside the heavy door and rushed
straight for Elisabeth and her bared bosom. He grasped her breasts, one with
each hand, and, with alarming disregard for civility, pushed her backward to the
cold floor.
To my astonishment, she did not resist (though she could easily have held her
ground, causing him to fall back as though he had collided with a
mountain). No, she fell back, laughing, and when he threw back her skirts and
petticoats, she laughed harder still, as if it were all the most amusing sport,
and let her bare legs sprawl wide.
He was not an unhandsome man—in fact, his shining coal-coloured hair and
strong beak of a nose reminded me somewhat of my brother—but there was a
crudeness to his broad face and plump, barrel-chested body, and to his oily
olive skin and ridiculously long waxed mustache that I found supremely
distasteful.
And when he quickly unfastened his trousers and fell atop her, piercing her,
bellowing, still clutching her soft breasts with his thick, inelegant fingers,
the whole scene struck me as nauseous, and I turned away, thinking to leave
before I was called upon next.
But at that moment, Elisabeth framed the tsigani‘% face with her
hands (so white and delicate in contrast to his sun-darkened cheeks) and
mightily pulled him down into a kiss. At first he resisted—such silly feminine
desires were clearly not to be indulged, not by a whore who had so blatantly
lured him here for one thing, and one thing alone! But I saw, in profile,
Elisabeth open her eyes as she pressed her lips passionately to his, and I saw
his flutter open in surprise, then slowly grow dull and dreamy as all his
volition fled.
Throughout, his desperate thrusting never ceased, for this transpired in the
space of a few seconds.
“Zsuzsanna!” Elisabeth gasped, in the clear unyielding tone that signalled
she would accept no refusal.
I stepped back towards her and looked down: her glorious hair had been swept
up so that it spilled above her onto the stone, encircling her head like a
halo—or the pale golden crescent of the half moon. The big tsigani
still flailed wildly, his face now pressed into the sweetly scented pillow of
hair half an arm’s length above the top of her skull. All the while, she pressed
her palms into his chest, easily holding him up. He would have crushed and
suffocated a mortal woman.
“I can’t, Elisabeth. I—I have no heart for this.”
“I don’t care if you fuck him or not, dearest. But bite him! For me, please!”
“I have no appetite…”
“You needn’t drink! Just bite him—don’t kill him— and let the blood run down
upon my face…”
With a sigh I obeyed, moving behind her impaler’s sweat-streaming back and
bending down to strike the front of his shoulder. At this, he stiffened and
emitted a strangled cry of terror and ecstatic release.
Sweet blood, but I was too grief-stricken, too troubled, too bored with life
in this castle, to savour it. I withdrew, unhappily pleased to deny myself,
unhappily pleased to suffer at the hands of hunger; and I sat back on my
haunches and watched as Elisabeth licked the gypsy’s small, streaming wound and
rubbed her cheeks against it as a cat rubs its face against its mistress’ legs.
“You are mine,” Elisabeth whispered into his ear. “You shall obey Vlad’s
orders so long as they do not harm us, but you are mine. And so, after you have
taken the prince from this castle, you shall return for us—and you will secretly
tell your closest friend, and make him swear that if you should mysteriously
die, he must come and rescue us poor, helpless women. All within a day…”
Within a day. And now that the time is almost here, I think, Will they
really come?
But there were further signs to convince me that Vlad would indeed be soon
gone. For within a matter of days, he had stolen all of Harker’s papers and
clothes—this we learned when we paid our customary morning visit to the guest
chambers. These forays have become most enlightening now that Harker carefully
transcribes the bizarre scribblings of his diary into English on separate
parchment. He has written the entire journal out for us, and I know it will
serve us well in England, for it is laden with the consummate details befitting
a lawyer’s diary.
“He shall be our spy in London,” Elisabeth told me that day, “and before Vlad
rises, I shall do a private ritual to ensure that Mr. Harker survives long
enough to be of service to us. But first, a more pragmatic bit of protection…”
As she spoke, she moved to the night-stand and picked . up a crucifix lying
there, or rather the gold chain attached to it, and let it dangle in front of
her face.
I confessed I gasped aloud, for I had been quite aware of its presence all
along, and rendered ill-at-ease. She saw my discomfort (or rather, frankly,
terror)—and laughed, tilting her face skyward whilst bringing the tiny impaled.
Christ overhead until it rested just above her unmarred, porcelain features.
“Do not be cruel,” I begged her in a trembling voice, for I was at once on
the precipice of weeping. “Do not toy with me so, for I cannot bear it… You will
scar your precious skin!”
Still she ignored me, laughing, as though holding a red-hot poker above such
a perfect and beautiful countenance was delightful sport. I surrendered to tears
and covered my eyes.
And when I looked again, she had pressed the golden cross to her lips and
kissed it.
I screamed, and began to faint; at once, she rushed over and caught me in her
arms, saying:
“My dear, my dear, I did not mean to alarm you so! I merely meant to prove a
point. Here…” She immediately carried me to the sofa and sat beside me, gently
patting my cheeks until I at last dared open my eyes.
She held a closed fist up to my face, then slowly opened it to reveal the
crucifix upon her white palm. Again I recoiled and began to cover my face, but
she commanded urgently: “Look at me, Zsuzsanna. Look…”
I looked. And saw that the flesh beneath the shining golden object was
perfect, untouched. Awed, I raised trembling fingers to her ruby mouth and found
it entirely unblemished and beautiful.
But when she clasped my wrist and turned my hand palm-upward, intent on
handing me the cross, I cried out again. “I can’t! It will burn me… I know,
because it has happened.”
“Zsuzsanna.” Her tone grew stern. “It’s like the sunlight. It can only hurt
you if you are afraid of it. These are Vlad’s fears, not your own; why have you
carried them so long?” And, too swiftly for me to resist, she pushed the object
into my outstretched palm and curled my ringers tight about it.
I was too startled to scream, to react—to do anything, really, except gape at
the gleaming image in my hand. And a few seconds after, the revelation came: The
cross was cold and sharp in my palm, but it did not burn my skin, nor did its
presence evoke the expected agony.
“You see?” Elisabeth said, smiling again. “It is a bit of metal,
nothing more. But Vlad does not believe that; and so, let us employ his
superstitions against him. Go on, Zsuzsanna… put it round Mr. Harker’s sleepy
little head.”
I did so, marvelling at my own imperviousness, my own power.
“And now, dear Jonathan,” Elisabeth intoned softly at the snoring solicitor,
“you are to wear this necklace wherever you go, and if the chain should break,
you must always carry the cross upon your person. If Vlad—the count”—and here
she glanced at me, grinning at her intentional repetition of Harker’s
misinformation—“should threaten, shove this pendant in his face.”
Thus did Mr. Harker become our agent.
A fortnight later, the tsigani contingent returned with great
wagons, and the pattern of Vlad’s scheme more clearly emerged. There can be no
question: He is indeed abandoning this place, if not forever, then for a very
long time. At that time, Elisabeth’s gypsy lover returned—but their second
meeting was limited to travel arrangements, both ours and Vlad’s. He is taking
the safest way for him —boat—but we are not so constrained, and will be waiting
for him when he finally arrives.
When I saw the big uncovered wagons, each large enough to hold several
caskets of earth (another of Vlad’s ridiculous superstitions, to believe that he
cannot leave Transylvania without taking a bit of it with him), my anger at
being abandoned again flared, and I begged Elisabeth to do everything in her
power to destroy him now. She insisted that such an effort would most
likely fail at this time (what is she not telling me now in order to spare me
worry?); nevertheless she would try, by recruiting our Englishman to attempt the
deed.
And this she did, sending Mr. Harker on a diurnal mission to kill Vlad (which
he very nearly did)—but the fool quailed.
And so I sit, equally overcome by excitement and fear. Tonight, Vlad finally
came to me—I have not seen him for almost a month, but was not surprised to find
him further rejuvenated, with hair no longer white but pewter, and complexion
faintly rosy. His expression was one of exultation mixed with condescending
generosity.
“Tomorrow night,” said he, smiling. “He is yours tomorrow.”
I feigned an expression of hopelessness and said sullenly, “You are
abandoning me here to starve. Do not tiunk ‘t do not Vnovj.”
His brows arched in mock innocence; he placed a spread palm upon his lifeless
heart. “Me? Zsuzsanna, have you in your crush for Elisabeth come to realise that
/, not she, have been your benefactor all these years? No, my dear, I must go
and see to the details of some very special property… in England. At long last,
I have found a way to free us both. And I do not do so without first thinking of
you: I shall leave you the English guest for your very own! When all is ready,
long before you are hungry again, I shall return for you.”
I would not meet his gaze, but kept my own fixed upon the window… and the
freedom beyond. In a low, hostile voice, I slowly proclaimed: “Arkady is gone.”
So consummate was his deceit that his expression of abject surprise, limned
with fear, was quite convincing; but I was not fooled. “What?” “It is true.”
Too terribly true. Knowing that the time would soon arrive when I would leave
this castle for good—either through the vehicle of death, or the carriage that
would bear me across the continent—I had gone down this morning to the
subterranean vault, to bid my dear brother’s body farewell.
Gone; vanished. (I am too heartsick even to weep about it now.) No trace of
the corpse, though the bloodless stake lay atop the bare earthen catafalque
where he had lain. At the discovery, I had fallen upon the damp mouldering
ground and sobbed to think of my sweet Kasha’s remains defiled in some evil
attempt at magic by that monster. And like the Marys at the unsealed tomb, I
demanded of Vlad now: “Where have you taken him?”
His grey brows knit together like rushing thunderclouds, and his colour grew
livid as he shouted: “This is some new treachery, is it not? Some new plot for
misguided revenge! You have been listening to Elisabeth’s lies —and I will give
you no further warnings, since you have not believed the first. My only
satisfaction comes from the knowledge that soon you will see your own stupidity
in having trusted her and abandoned me… And then all your pleas for
help will be too late!”
He turned on his heel and stormed away, slamming the door behind him with
such force that, with the ear-stunning sound of a pistol shot, the wood cracked
in a lightning-bolt diagonal.
Through it all, I kept my silence. My revenge shall consist not of words or
arguments, but of deeds which shall see him hurled down to Hell in agony.
So at last, we have parted—forever. I feel no sadness, no melancholy
gratitude to him who gave me the immortal kiss. He has taken from me my mother,
my father, my brother, my friend, my dignity; he has turned all my love to
vengeful wrath.
Bastard! We shall meet again in England—England! It seems an unattainable
dream, a mirage which beckons in the distance; and I worry that when I at last
draw near, it will waver and dissolve into dust.
No. No fear, no doubt. I will find you in London. And there 1 will
strike you down…
Chapter 7
Telegram, Abraham Van Helsing, M.D., D.Ph., D. Lit., Etc., Etc.,
Amsterdam, to John Seward, M.D., Purfleet, England
28 June Dear and trusted friend,
Apologies in advance for the imposition: Need your help and discretion,
and unpardonably soon. Am bringing psychiatric patient to Purfleet afternoon of
1 July and require lodging for us both—
but need for secrecy paramount.
No one else must know we are in the city.
My companion requires a barred and padlocked cell; I request same for
myself
Destroy this document at once.
* * *
Dr. Seward’s Diary
1 JULY.
The professor has come.
He arrived as expected in the afternoon, dressed in black with a
broad-brimmed straw hat and looking for all the world like a village priest. I
stood in the entryway and watched him step from the cab, then turn and reach out
as the driver handed down a small, frail woman. She, too, wore all black,
including a veil which obscured her features.
He carried her easily in his arms down the flower-lined path, as if he were
long accustomed to doing so. When he spotted me on the porch, he grinned
broadly, his blue eyes brightening at once. I strode forward and clapped his
shoulder; the impulse to shake hands occurred to us both, but was rendered
impossible because of the mysterious patient in his arms.
“Professor Van Helsing!” I called heartily, while behind him, the driver set
two large suitcases upon the ground. I hurried over and took care of the tip at
once; my mentor is not very well off financially, from what I can gather. I
believe he routinely undercharges his patients or charges them not at all, and I
would be a gentleman of leisure now were it not for my “hobby,” the asylum.
At my greeting, the professor’s grin faded and some of the light left his
eyes. He pursed his lips as if to hush me into silence; had he not borne such a
burden, he would have also raised a finger to them. I heeded the warning and
immediately lowered my voice to a whisper.
“It is good to see you again.”
The smile and brightness returned immediately. “And you, friend John. Though
you are looking rather pale and underfed. We shall have to find a young lady to
fatten you up and lure you out for walks in the sunshine!”
I averted my gaze briefly down at the riot of yellow and crimson zinnias
edging our path, but maintained a pleasant expression. Anything that evoked
thoughts of Lucy was still painful, so I did not reply.
At once his tone softened with compassion. “Ah…
I see I have blundered directly onto the problem’s source. Forgive me, my
friend; I am a blind and foolish old man.“
I believe I blushed, which only increased my discomfort, as it is for me an
uncommon reaction. Then I glanced shyly at the silent patient, wondering hew
lucid she might be, and whether she had registered the exchange. How could I
manage a dignified introduction now?
Once again, Van Helsing seemed to have read my thoughts. “Have no worry,
John. She suffers from catatonia; her mind is far from us. Even if it were not,
she would be unable to divulge your troubles, for she does not speak.”
“You are far from old, and most certainly not blind,” I told him. “Frankly,
you are the most perceptive person I know.” Indeed, he has been this way since I
first met him. Sometimes, his ability to guess what I—or another person —am
thinking is astounding. It is not simply that he knows me well; I have seen him
do the same with strangers. Over time, I have developed two theories: one, that
he has honed his observation skills to preternatural perfection; or two, that he
is psychic.
The latter is difficult to prove, though of late I have become keenly
interested in occult phenomena and the teachings of a local organisation known
as the Golden Dawn. (My readings have led me to conclude that the professor is
privy to much, or all, of their knowledge. This is based on countless comments
he has made during our close eight-year friendship. Esoteric phrases such as
As above, so below—a quote from our mutual acquaintance Hermes Trismegistus.
And dozens more such opaque—at the time, anyway—remarks.)
More than that, the professor radiates an aura of power—not so much the
physical sort as the mental. Like me, he was a wunderkind, but I do not
speak of intelligence here, which he has in abundance; I speak of the
metaphysical. In public—except when he lectures—he takes on the persona
of the good-natured bumbler, the clown. I have even heard him affect the most
outrageously comical foreign accent, even though his English is quite excellent.
It is as if he wants to prevent the world from seeing the true man: the scholar,
the genius, the philosopher.
Yet when alone in my presence, he sometimes permits me glimpses of an
immensely brilliant and knowledgeable occultist beneath the fool’s mask. He has
never labelled it as occultism, of course; this is what I have gleaned. But now
I remember a long-ago holiday in Amsterdam, when I inadvertently wandered into
his private library and discovered inside a closed cabinet a treasure-trove of
treatises on magic—The Greater Key of Solomon, The Goetia, the
Sepher Yetzirah, and A True and Faithful Relation of What Passed for
Many Years Between Doctor Dee and Some Spirits.
This is the man I met again today, though he had successfully adopted the
guise of a not-so-educated country priest. But I saw beneath the simple
guilelessness that veiled the wide blue eyes, beneath the cheerful expression.
He looks older than when I last saw him; more of the red-gold hairs have faded
to white, and he, like me, has lost weight and looks drawn about the cheeks and
jaw. Despite it all, he radiates even more of that impressive internal strength,
that deep sense of wisdom and calm even the fiercest tempest cannot
shake—paradoxically making him —the real, interior man beneath the
costume of flesh— seem far younger than when we last met.
“But here,” I continued, gesturing towards the entry. We both headed for the
open door, I reaching as if to take the motionless woman in his arms. As
expected, he refused any aid. “Let’s go inside at once and relieve you of your
burden. I will call the attendant to carry her—”
“No!” The sharpness of his reply made me jerk my head to stare at him at
once. More mildly, he added, “No attendants yet. The time may come when she
requires one, but today, let us maintain as much privacy as we can.”
I agreed, and told him I would wait to ring Thomas to fetch the bags until
both he and his patient were settled into their rooms, then have the bags left
outside the cell doors to guarantee their anonymity. Once we had stepped over
the threshold, I convinced him to let go of his jealously guarded prize and
deposit her in a high-backed wheelchair. It is the newest model, specially
equipped with restraints for the more violent patients. As he tucked her with
tender solicitousness into the chair and paused to regard the straps, I
commented softly, “I doubt she will need those.”
“Not at the moment.” The jovial mask slipped again for an instant, no more.
This time I saw a darkly troubled man, one who bore the weight of all the world
upon his soul. “But the time may come soon. We must remain alert.”
He insisted upon pushing the chair himself. I led him directly to the lift (a
necessity here; dragging a violent patient upstairs or down is dangerous work).
In the absolute privacy of the lift, I awaited an explanation of his “secret
mission,” but none came. So I made small talk and inquired after his mother, a
true English gentlewoman whom I have met and come to fondly admire.
“She is dying,” he said, in his blunt, matter-of-fact Dutch manner.
“Ulcerated tumour of the right breast. She has had it more than a year, but her
time is short now; it affects her brain. My concern is that she might die while
I am away.”
I put a hand upon his shoulder. I have rarely touched him other than to shake
his hand in greeting or parting, and he acknowledged the gesture with a grateful
glance. (Does anyone like to shake hands more than his countrymen?) “I am
sorrier than words can say. She was so very kind to me when you both came to
visit; I came to think of her as my own grandmother, since I never knew either
of mine.”
At that last comment, he let out a soft gasp as if struck in the stomach, and
looked away; I think emotion had finally overwhelmed him. After a moment of
silence, he said, “I do not mean to burden you, friend John, with my own
difficulties. You have borne more than your share in your brief life. You are
too young to have experienced so much loss; too young. At my age, it is to be
expected.”
He referred, of course, to the death of my father some sixteen years ago, and
my mother three years ago this fall. The family estate is too vast and lonely
for a single heir to occupy, so now 1 share it with my patients.
At last we arrived at the two cells closest to my own bedchamber, which I
prefer to keep unoccupied unless the asylum is filled to capacity. As we have
only three resident patients at present, one of whom I expect to release
shortly, the closest inmate was a good half-dozen cells away. Van Helsing will
have his privacy.
“Here we are,” I said, unlocking and then flinging open the doors to each
room so that the professor could peer in. One cell was windowless and contained
the standard furnishings: bed, night-stand, and a gas lamp mounted so high upon
the wall that it could be turned on or off only by an attendant with a special
contrivance attached to a long broom handle. The other I had personally prepared
for the professor. The barred window looked directly down into the flower garden
(which is particularly bright and lush this summer), and I had covered the bed
with a quilt sewn by Mother. I had added, too, a writing-table and comfortable
chair which faced the window, and beside the unreachable gas lamp had left a
long pole so that the professor could control the light as he wished.
I removed two keys from the jailer’s ring on my belt and handed them to him.
“This is yours… and this is the key to the lady’s chamber.”
“Ah,” he said, gazing down at them and then back up at the rooms. “This”—and
he gestured at the sunnier, more cheerful room I had fixed for him—“I will let
her have. The other is suitable for me.” And before I could protest, he wheeled
her past me into the cell, lifted her from the wheel-chair, and deposited her in
the more comfortable seat looking out onto the garden. It was rather
frustrating, for if the lady was indeed catatonic, the view would be quite
wasted, and I was not at all happy leaving Mother’s heirloom quilt in the
safekeeping of a madwoman.
I followed them inside, wondering whether it would be too rude to speak up,
when the professor reached down and removed his patient’s hat and veil.
I drew in a breath. The woman was absolute skin and bones, but at the same
time young and unnaturally pretty, with huge dark eyes and full dark hair coiled
at the nape of her neck. And yet…
I blinked, and for a heartbeat found myself looking at a woman Van Helsing’s
age, one with streaks of grey in her hair and crow’s-feet framing her eyes.
Another blink, and the lady was again young and beautiful, her hair a rich
brown-black without a trace of silver. It was as if her youth was a veil which
had lifted for an instant, then quickly lowered, masking the real woman beneath.
The dreadful soulless vacancy in those half-closed, downcast eyes could not be
hidden; yet beneath it I sensed a fathomless grief.
I looked up at last to find the professor studying me, his gold-and-silver
brows furrowed intently. When our gazes met—his knowing, mine questioning—he
said, “You are a sensitive, John. You see beneath the facade, yes?”
I was too taken aback to do anything but gesture my assent. Did I understand
him aright? Was this a metaphysical case he had brought me, this strange, sad
woman with the aged yet ageless face? The notion in itself was compelling
enough. Still, there was more that drew me to her, some odd sense of kinship—a
feeling that perhaps we two shared some secret sorrow.
To my disappointment, he revealed no more, but said, “And now we leave her to
rest. I shall require some time alone with her at sunset.” At once he bent down
onto one knee at her feet, like a gentleman proposing to a lady (the painful
memory of Lucy again!). Gently, he lifted her limp gloved hand from her lap;
this he pressed to his lips with such pure, loving devotion that I was honestly
shocked. Their relationship was clearly more than doctor and patient.
So piqued was my curiosity that when we exited and the professor shut and
locked the thick door behind us, I demanded outright: “Who is she?”
He looked ahead into the distance and sighed. “Gerda Van Helsing. My wife.”
I could not have been more astonished. I had known the professor for more
than seven years, since I first arrived at university at the tender age of
fifteen. A difficult situation: my first time away from home, and I so much
younger than the other lads that I was constantly the butt of jokes and
taunting. (Nor did it help that I looked far younger than my actual age.) Only
the professor looked beyond my immaturity, at my talents, and took me under his
paternal and professional wing.
We were very close, perhaps because I had lost Papa early on, and I was
grateful to find a father-substitute; of course, there was also the fact that we
shared a passion for medicine, and that he saw much of himself in me. He, too,
was a boy genius who had taken his medical degree at a very early age; thus he
encouraged me greatly to pursue my medical studies, though I was surrounded by
men almost ten years my senior. (The professor is also licensed to practice law
in Holland, but he ruefully admits that was a mistake.)
Yet during our years of association—and during my brief one-day visit to his
home—I have never heard him (or his mother, for that matter) speak of family or
wife. In fact, I had always assumed he was a bachelor. I had never asked for a
tour of his bedchamber.
“Professor,” I said, in a low voice, although we were quite alone and beyond
anyone’s earshot, “what is going on? I get the perception that your wife’s
malady is more than mere catatonia. Something else is involved; am I wrong to
think it is metaphysical? Mrs. Van Helsing seems so young… yet I believe that
she is not, that it is all illusion.”
He released a sigh of infinite weariness, and all his cheeriness fled for
good. “We are both men of science, John, trained to rely on our eyes and our
logic to explain how the world operates. But there are instances where modern
science fails utterly. We must adapt and, like Democritus when he postulated the
atom, must accept that there is more to this universe than eye can see or brain
can fathom.” He paused, and seemed to consider whether or not to tell me
everything all at once. To my disappointment, he apparently opted for the
latter. “In time, I will explain more. But sunset will come in less than two
hours; before that time, I must tend to Gerda.”
“First,” I said, “you must have a proper tea.” And so I led him off and we
ate together. He seemed deeply preoccupied, and spoke no more of his wife or
mother, so I did not press. Afterwards, he disappeared into the garden cell and
did not emerge until supper. Again, he was uncharacteristically tight-lipped
about his purpose in being here.
Cannot sleep tonight, and so I have risen to record this: My mind keeps
returning to the image of Mrs. Van Helsing’s face. Why does it haunt me so?
* * *
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
2 JULY.
An uneventful journey, and both Gerda and I passed a quiet night.
Unfortunately, I missed my opportunity yesterday for a successful hypnotic
session with her— we were both travelling at the time she was most receptive,
and when I returned to her later in the afternoon, she would not speak.
How strange to indulge in the luxury of sleeping at night! First, I carefully
secured each cell—put a crucifix over each door, and one over Gerda’s window, in
addition to a small medallion of Saint George. And of course, there is the cross
around her neck—on a thick chain like mine, that neither she nor an attacker can
easily break.
For the first time in many nights, I slept soundly. The realisation that the
worst had already happened—that Vlad and Zsuzsanna had grown suddenly stronger
and escaped the castle—was oddly calming. I had nothing more to worry about.
Except for John; he has always been like his mother, a sensitive psychic.
When he stared at her face-to-face for the first time yesterday, I feared that
he had indeed surmised the truth—and that I had made a fatal mistake in bringing
Gerda here.
For I have worked all my life to spare the boy pain, to protect him from the
Impaler’s attentions. I wanted him to have a normal life, the life I and all my
ancestors could not have, the life our sweet little Jan was so cruelly denied.
(And how horrified and moved I was to hear that his adoptive parents bestowed
on him the English version of his dead brother’s name: John.)
No one knows but me—and Mama, who took the infant with her to London and gave
it to the best and kindest people she knew, who had long been denied children.
They were never told the truth of the child’s origin. Even poor Gerda does not
know of his existence, for during her pregnancy and delivery she was quite
unaware of her body’s condition, and I worked hard to keep this knowledge from
Zsuzsanna and Vlad.
Have I succeeded? I do not know; the question will be answered soon. I
agonised long over whether to come here and expose him to danger—but not
to come and watch over him might be even more perilous. He is too close to
London now that Vlad is headed here. My only link to the vampires is through my
poor wife, who tells me little; how else can I be sure that John is safe, and
that Vlad and Zsuzsanna have not learned somehow of his existence?
But yesterday, when I saw him peer profile-to-profile into his mother’s face,
I was horrified: How stupid I have been to think that John, psychically
sensitive, would not know he was staring directly into a genetic mirror? The
resemblance between them is that marked: same nose, same eyes and chin, same
colouring. Yet in my desperate haste I had failed to consider this problem.
Any harm that comes to him is entirely my fault. I am contemplating
departure—for his sake.
At dawn this morning, an ominous sign from Gerda. Under hypnosis, her mood
was gay and chatty. To the question “Where are you now?” she replied, “Moving.”
This confused me; the day before, she had radiated passionate fury and had
sworn, “He has left! The bastard has left!” Of this she would say no more,
except to describe the sight of large, sturdy wagons outside the castle. I took
this to mean that Vlad had abandoned Zsuzsanna.
But today, the news is changed. “Moving,” Gerda says. “I hear rattling and
the snorts of horses.” Zsuzsanna was riding in her coffin in one of the large
wagons, I assumed. Yet, to my surprise, there followed: “A bright, sunny
morning; I had forgotten how beautiful the countryside is in summer. I am sad to
leave my home forever, but at the same time, I am overjoyed!”
Impossible, of course, for Zsuzsanna to be peeking out at the sunshine. I do
not understand the report; has she realised that Gerda endures my questions each
day, and is she intentionally attempting to confuse me with false information?
I have taken such precautions that I strongly doubt it. The vampires are
indeed on their way. I can only surmise that Zsuzsanna thought she was being
left behind—but that Vlad decided, perhaps at the last moment, to take her on
the journey. The rapturous description of morning I cannot explain.
If they travel by land, they will arrive here within a week; if by sea (which
poses fewer risks) I have a month to prepare. I will assume the former, in order
to be ready.
Thus I must make my choice concerning John quickly. Do I leave him, and pray
that he will remain safe without my interventions? Or do I remain?
* * *
Dr. Seward’s Diary
3 JULY.
As sole proprietor of a lunatic asylum, I am accustomed to the strange; yet
today, I believe, has featured the strangest events I have ever encountered,
here or elsewhere.
It began in the wee hours of morning. I had lain awake for some hours, unable
to return to sleep after another bout of what I’ve come to call my “disturbing
dream.” I have been reluctant to record it—until today— because I had credited
it to a combination of anxiety and hero worship. And, frankly, to a submerged
bit of mania within myself which glorified the professor and me as two brave
occult knights fighting against a great Evil that wished to overwhelm the world.
The dream is rather simple, consisting of an image of myself and the professor
wielding silver swords against a vast encroaching Darkness. That part of it is
rather pleasant (and, in full consciousness, embarrassing). But the “disturbing”
part comes when the professor disappears abruptly from view, and I am left alone
in the struggle. The Darkness quickly enlarges and engulfs me, devouring me in
the same way an amoeba does its dinner. This I have dreamt several times since
receiving Van Helsing’s telegram.
Enough of that! Silly as it seems to say the words aloud, it still terrifies
me—especially after my encounter with the professor this morning.
So I lay awake for some time in bed, reluctant to return to sleep (perchance
to dream), reluctant to rise and accept fatigue as my lot. At last, when the
darkness had lightened to grey, I rose, made my toilet and dressed, and went out
into the corridor to see if the professor was awake. My intent was to invite him
to a hearty breakfast, for he has missed supper and breakfast both days, leaving
me concerned.
His cell door was closed and locked. I gave up hope and had just turned to
head for the staircase when I caught a sidewise glimpse of his wife’s
door—slightly ajar. I moved to it, thinking to knock, but instead remained
silent a moment, listening. From within came the professor’s voice; its tone
reassured me that the conversation taking place was not an intimate one.
And, in reply, there came a second voice—a woman’s, no doubt that of his
“catatonic” patient. My physician’s curiosity got the better of me, I confess; I
knocked lightly, swiftly, then pushed open the door with such care that it made
no sound.
Van Helsing was far too intent to pay me notice. His gaze was fixed fast upon
his wife, who sat up in the chair, which had been turned away from the window to
face the professor.
She wore such an animated expression that for an instant, I thought I was
looking upon a different woman. Her dark eyes were open wide and brimming with
mirth and charm, her lips curved upward in a dimpling grin. She was dressed like
a matron in a sedate black dress and shawl, with her hair pulled back into a
severe, unflattering bun— but her demeanour was that of a giggling debutante.
This morning, the illusion of youthful beauty was so strong that I caught no
glimpse of the older woman beneath.
“Looking through the window,” she said prettily, chin resting atop her
knuckles. And, indeed, she had turned her head and seemed to be looking out a
window (whilst the real one was at her back), as if she were sitting on a train
staring out at the scenery.
“Is Vlad with you?” the professor asked, with such intensity that I realised
I had stumbled onto a hypnotic session. I remained absolutely still, lest I
disturb either of them and cause Mrs. Van Helsing to emerge too swiftly from
trance.
She tossed her head and gave a disparaging laugh. “Not him. I’m with
my lover.” She sighed. “The sunlight on the mountains is so beautiful…”
At this, Van Helsing’s thick blond brows rushed together in alarm. “Sunlight!
Are you in your coffin? Sleeping?”
Again, a playful laugh; astoundingly, it was not directed at the
preposterousness of the question. “No, no, I’m awake. The scenery is so
delightful, I wouldn’t want to—” A fresh burst of giggles. “Elisabeth, stop!
Someone will see…”
“Who is Elisabeth? Mortal or vampire? Is she someone you have bitten?”
At this, I could not repress a small gasp. Despite his earlier inattention,
Van Helsing glanced up sharply; all animation left his wife with the terrible
abruptness pf a house of cards collapsing, leaving her once more the dull-eyed,
slack-jawed creature.
As for the professor, he rose with the speed and mindless determination of a
whirlwind. With startling brusqueness, he seized my arm and pulled me from the
room. Still clutching me as if to prevent my escape, he closed and locked the
cell door; then at last released me and whispered fiercely:
“Never do that again! Never! Do you realise how much harm you might come to,
listening to such things?”
For a moment, I was too astonished to reply; I had never seen the professor
so red-faced with rage. And what did he mean, I might come to harm? Was he
threatening me? When at last I found my tongue, I managed, “I—I merely wanted to
invite you to early breakfast, seeing that you were awake so early. I apologise
for any inconvenience, but because the door was slightly ajar and I could hear
you speaking, I took the liberty… I did knock, but you were too intent
to hear me.”
“Then it is my fault!” he thundered—I say thundered even though he
still whispered, for the anger still shook his voice. “You have heard things
which you should not have heard—”
“About mortals and vampires,” I said, unable to entirely restrain my amused
skepticism. I was interested, to be sure, in occult phenomena, and solid
evidence might persuade me of the existence of vampires… of a psychic variety.
But a vampire who bites with sharp teeth —this was a topic straight
from the pages of a penny dreadful. I looked askance at him, inviting a rational
explanation for such an irrational question, an explanation that would set me at
ease and provoke from us both a smile. Indeed, I had in my own mind volunteered
one for him: that he was indulging for some reason his wife’s delusion, in order
to learn enough about it to help her.
But the fierce intensity in his blue eyes did not abate, nor did he reply; he
merely averted his gaze and folded his arms, still troubled. Or rather, troubled
afresh by his inability to provide the answer I so yearned to hear. Had there
been a chair in the corridor, I should have collapsed into it, for I was
suddenly overwhelmed by the sickening and unmistakable realisation that the
professor had posed the question in all seriousness.
I released a short, gasping laugh of disbelief; the grin on my face began to
metamorphose into a frown. All these years, I had believed my mentor to be the
possessor of the deepest occult secrets. Could the secret instead be that he was
a deluded madman? “Surely, Dr. Van Helsing, you do not be—”
In reply, he again seized my arm with such force that 1 broke off, startled
into silence, as he pulled me along into his own grim chamber.
Once there, he shut the door behind us, then turned to face me. “John. I have
indeed done a great disservice to you by coming here. I will stay no longer, but
make immediate arrangements for myself and my wife to depart.”
His mood was somewhat calmer but no less determined, no less angry—though I
could see now that his anger was becoming entirely turned towards himself. And
for some reason, that annoyed me more than his abrupt and inexcusable behaviour
towards me.
“See here,” I protested, trying to match his vehemence with some of my own.
Although what I had heard remained unbelievable, it was becoming increasingly
clear— just as Mrs. Van Helsing’s true visage had peeked out from behind the
youthful veil—that the professor was acting out of grave concern, not lunacy. As
odd and inexplicable as the situation seemed, I knew at that moment (with the
most purely unscientific instinct) that I had not misjudged my most trusted
mentor all these years; that I could still trust him. “Whatever misunderstanding
or embarrassment has just occurred here, I will not see you rushing off. You are
my guest and my dearest friend, Professor, and the fault is mine, not yours. I
swear to you that I will never so intrude upon you again; it was an enormously
thoughtless act, for which I apologise utterly.“
He sighed, and the determined anger on his features softened to sorrow. “Ah,
my good friend, if only apologies could negate any harm done.”
“How have I harmed you? Tell me, and I shall right things at once!” Even as I
spoke boldly, I shuddered with a sudden chill, for the image of the encroaching
Darkness came upon me with swift, distressing force. This is the meaning of
the dream, I thought involuntarily. This is why I am called now, to
help the professor defeat It…
All too similar to my madman’s delusions, and even more disturbing to find
myself persuaded by such a compelling mania. As I looked at the professor, my
attention shifted to the lintel behind him. Just above it, he had hung a carved
wooden crucifix, so large that I could see clearly the expression of agony upon
Christ’s face. From his many comments, I have always taken the professor to be
an agnostic, or at the very most, a Deist. What was happening to us supposed men
of science? I struggled, I fought to disengage myself from my delusion.
And yet, I could not disbelieve.
Van Helsing did not notice my swift internal dilemma; he had averted his gaze
to shake his head. In the yellow lamplight, his expression once again composed
itself into the calm, wise face of the professor I had always known. “It is not
you who have harmed me, John, nor you who must make amends. I
have no concern for myself, but you have heard too much. And in this case, too
much knowledge can lead to danger. How can I right this, other than to be sure
that you are never again exposed to such opportunities?”
“Professor,” I said, with such determination that he looked at me with frank
curiosity. But words fled me again ISO as I flailed on the precipice of
commitment. I could not help but believe what I was about to tell him; but if I
did confess my most secret thoughts, would I be exposing myself to ridicule—or
worse, to the diagnosis that I belong among those I profess to treat?
I drew a breath and continued in a rush, before my will left me. I told him
of the troubling dream, of my overwhelming sense that he had come here rightly
because I have always been fated to help him in some secret struggle.
I blushed as I spoke, for it is not easy to confess such private and
irrational beliefs, especially to the one around whom those beliefs cluster. But
he listened quietly, respectfully, and gave not the slightest sign of
skepticism. 1 do think he accepted everything I presented.
I finished by saying, “I have always believed it all to be a silly, boyish
notion that would leave me as I matured; but it has only grown stronger through
the years. And as you noticed when I first met your wife, Professor: when I look
at people, I know their hearts. Yours is the purest and most trustworthy I have
found. If there is any way, no matter how dangerous, that I can help you, I
would be honoured to do so.”
I fell silent, and for a time, neither of us spoke; Van Helsing’s expression
revealed that he was both touched and deeply troubled. At last he said solemnly,
“I must consider carefully all you have said, my friend. Rest assured, I shall
not leave tonight, but will give you my decision in the morning.” He paused then
and went over to his suitcase, from which he retrieved a shining golden object.
“In the meantime, would you do me the kindness of wearing this at all times?”
A necklace dangled from his fingers; I held out my cupped hand, and flinched
ever so slightly as it dropped, cold and hard, into my palm.
A crucifix, this one on a long chain. I studied it, then looked up at him,
intending to question. But I feared the answer—and so I pulled the necklace over
my head, and let the pendant slip down beneath my jacket, where no one could see
it.
From his demeanour, I judged it time to take my leave —after first inviting
him down to breakfast. As I walked to the door, though, curiosity overwhelmed
me, and I spun about, demanding:
“Professor! Do you really believe in vampires, the sort that go round biting
people’s necks in the night?”
He studied me unhappily before replying with a question of his own. “Friend
John. Do you believe in lunatics?”
“It is not a question of belief,” I retorted thoughtlessly, without pausing
to consider his meaning. “Lunatics exist.”
“Just so.” And he would say no more.
Chapter 8
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
4 JULY.
He knows, poor John knows. Not details, perhaps, but he has been sent the
same dream as I; it can only mean that Fate or God or whatever Power that works
to protect the good is trying to warn both of us.
And such warnings must be heeded, for they indicate danger’s approach.
Despite all my efforts to spare him his heritage, he is drawn to it all the
same. Perhaps the Buddhists are right after all; he is biologically and
psychically linked to Vlad, and it is his “karma” to help his father free the
family from its centuries-long curse.
So my original instinct in coming here was justified. I dare not leave him
now; I dare not.
* * *
Zsuzsanna Dracul’s Diary
13 JULY.
A week in London, and I have never felt so gloriously alive!
Elisabeth is apparently infinitely wealthy, and she has indulged my whims like a
parent indulging a dreadfully spoiled child. And that is what I feel like—a
child on holiday—when I visit the pretty dress shops, the cobblers, and sample
all the new fashions. In the course of my entire existence, living or undead, I
have never owned so many dresses or hats or slippers or gloves as I have bought
this week.
And in the process, I am tended to like a real lady, embraced into the social
bosom of those who are my prey. Nay, not a real lady but the princess that I am,
for Elisabeth and I go by our titles, the Countess Nadasdy and the Princess
Dracul. How everyone fawns over us!
We have even bought a house, a great French chateau in the most
affluent part of the city, which Elisabeth has rilled with servants. I have a
wonderfully handsome coachman, Antonio, offspring of a black African mother and
Italian father. For sport, I engage with him in what he believes to be a most
scandalous affair… Little does he know just how strange it is for a
lowly coachman to be dallying with this particular princess.
But the house, the house, the house is beautiful. There are cut crystal panes
in the windows which refract sunlight into rainbows and fine Turkish carpets,
and peacocks strutting on the grounds, and flowers and gushing fountains and
statues of Bacchus and Pan and Aphrodite…
We are the exotic new darlings of society, the Hungarian and Roumanian
representatives of royalty. People call on us, and we serve (and eat!) the
finest French pastries—the tiny decorated ones, of the type I had seen in
Vienna’s Konditorei but could not savour.
I devour it all. And I suckle on the city’s rich and powerful elite—mostly
men, who contrive to get me alone. How cheerfully I let them… and then, how
cheerfully I drink.
But a pall is cast upon this bliss when I contemplate Vlad’s arrival. He will
try to find someone to try to kill us, just as we have enlisted Mr. Harker’s
aid. We left our Englishman in Buda-Pesth, raving in delirium. It will make for
a nice excuse, especially since he will remember nothing of us women but
everything of Vlad. His people will think him sick all this time with madness or
brain-fever, no doubt, so that when he does resurface in his Exeter, no one will
be suspicious.
And we will find a way to bring him to London.
But I have waited so many years to enjoy my freedom in this fair (but dirty)
city that I dread the interruption of my happiness. I feel like saying to
Elisabeth: You go, and wage your metaphysical war against Vlad; leave me
here!
She seems happy, but has been preoccupied the past two days. She has enjoyed
our socialising and indulging in sexual peccadilloes with those upon whom I
dine; but yesterday and to-day, she closeted herself away beyond my reach, using
a magic so strong I cannot detect where she has gone. I assume she is preparing
for the confrontation with Vlad, or enlisting the Dark Lord’s aid. But when she
emerged yesterday, she was grim-faced and silent, and sent me out to shop alone.
Today she did so again. When I arrived home late, I found her down in the
cellar, where she had unwrapped packages sent from her home. The contents?
Dear God, the contents… A woman-sized Iron Maiden—naked, the nipples on its
hard breasts painted gaudy red, its wide leer filled with human teeth of various
sizes and shades of white, yellow, brown. From its head flowed long golden hair;
upon its pubes was coiled the same.
Nearby stood another obscene creation: a narrow cylindrical cage—again, just
large enough to hold a woman’s body. From its iron bars emerged long, sharp
spikes… turned inward, so that any prisoner who struggled or tried to
flee would soon find herself impaled. I stood and watched in silent horror as
Elisabeth directed Dorka and a manservant upon a ladder as they suspended it
from the ceiling, then threaded the rope through a pulley.
“What is this?” I asked, in a low voice that trembled. I knew the answer
already; the devices’ purposes were patently clear. But I had to hear
Elisabeth’s explanation.
She whirled smiling to face me, her eyes bright with predatory anticipation.
“Zsuzsanna, darling! Welcome to our little dungeon.” Her sulkiness was entirely
gone, replaced by great good cheer; she reached for my hand and pulled me to
her, then planted a fervent kiss upon my lips.
I stood stiff and unyielding, for I was quite distraught: I could only think
of how desperately I had always hated Vlad’s Theatre of Death, where it pleased
him to torment his poor prey without mercy. I have dined on the blood of
strangers too long to feel any remorse for it—but vampire or no, I have never
shared Vlad’s predilection for torture. Bad enough the poor fools should die, so
I long ago vowed that I would send them to Hades on clouds of ecstasy.
Most times, I have managed to do so. But when I saw Elisabeth’s horrific
devices, I panicked. I had judged her to be like me, a woman of generosity and
kindness, capable of sympathy towards her supper; had I run from the Impaler’s
arms into the embrace of another as secretly cruel as he?
At my coldness, Elisabeth merely laughed, and jovially pulled me to her side
so that she could wind an arm round my waist. “Silly Zsuzsa! Don’t be frightened
of them! They’re merely… tools. Means to an end.” Then she pressed her lips to
my ear and whispered, so that neither Dorka nor the manservant could hear: “In
time, dearest. In time, you will understand. Do not judge before you see for
yourself…”
“I do not want to see,” I said stubbornly, and pulled away.
That was the extent of it; neither she nor I have spoken of the secrets in
the cellar since. Frankly, I do not wish even to think of them, for when I do it
spoils the sublime happiness of being here in London with the one I love.
Tonight we met a group at a restaurant—a baronet and his wife, and a lord and
lady!—and dined on a fine British supper of champagne, oysters, beef Wellington,
and trifle. Food is such a delight!
I will do my best not to judge Elisabeth until I see what she intends with
these implements. I cannot imagine anything good, but I must trust her…
* * *
Dr. Seward’s Diary
21 July.
After speaking to Van Helsing about Renfield, a patient, I have granted his
request to privately interview our life-eater in his cell. I suspect the
professor believes— dare I say it?—vampires are involved. Since he decided to
remain here, he has spoken to me of his “mission” here only twice, and then in
the vaguest terms. My belief still wavers from time to time; I suppose I will
never be convinced until I have irrefutable physical evidence of the existence
of such creatures.
Last night’s musings about our zoophagous patient affected me more than I had
realised. Upon retiring quite late, I fell at once asleep, into vivid,
gruesomely detailed dreams of Renfield regurgitating the bloodied, half-digested
corpses of sparrows, cats, large dogs—even a horse, which emerged from his
gullet impossibly whole. And everywhere floated feathers, painted with blood in
more delicate, intricate designs than could ever be wrought by the hand of
Nature.
Abruptly, over this nauseous spectacle fell a great darkness—the
all-consuming evil void from the recurring nightmare I had relayed to Professor
Van Helsing. It spread like a shadow over the vomiting man until he was entirely
eclipsed. That sight evoked again in me an intense terror, a terror that grew to
unbearable proportions when, even in the midst of my dream, I understood its
meaning:
The Darkness is like Renfield—an Eater of Souls, desperate to consume life
after life after life after life. And it means to devour Van Helsing… and me.
* * *
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
24 JULY.
Dracula draws near. This instinct and evidence tell me; in fact, I took the
liberty of hypnotising John’s “zoophage,” Renfield, and am convinced that his
newfound obsession with consuming “life” is in some way a sinister influence of
the vampire’s approach.
In fact, Vlad should have arrived in London a fortnight ago. Thus far,
however, Gerda will not corroborate this. In Zsuzsanna’s voice, she speaks only
of one other— the mysterious Elisabeth, who seems to be neither mortal nor
vampire. Of Vlad she says: “Hmph! Who cares about him?. We shall see
him soon enough…”
I can think of one possible explanation: that Vlad and Zsuzsanna have had a
falling-out, and took separate routes. For a moment this notion caused me some
terror, as it could mean that Vlad is headed elsewhere in England, or to another
country altogether.
But no; Zsuzsanna says that she will “see him soon enough.” And I know that
she is here in London. Where, I do not know; but I must learn soon and find her,
before she finds me.
* * *
8 AUGUST.
At last, at last! Word from Gerda: “He is come,” she said this afternoon—and
that is all I could coax from her. Then, like a little girl, she drew up her
knees and hugged them to her chest; and turned her face from me and pouted. I
confess that despite the chill I felt knowing that Vlad had arrived (and with
him, great danger), I smiled. Not at my poor wife, but at the perfect mental
image I had of the immature Zsuzsanna sulking. Everything Gerda has told me so
far fits: all the condescending references to Vlad and to her freedom, and now
this unhappy reaction at the arrival of him whom she had once adored. My guess
is right; they have had a falling-out.
But will Vlad join Zsuzsanna here? His arrival took more than a month, which
means he must have come by sea. I had pressed Gerda on this, asking, “Where is
he now? London?”
She would say nothing, merely shook her head.
I can only hope that he makes amends and returns to Zsuzsanna—else my task
will prove much more difficult, indeed. Without Gerda as my compass, I am lost.
* * *
24 AUGUST.
From the small bits of information I have gleaned from Gerda, I believe I can
triangulate the area where Zsuzsanna must be hiding: near the East End, or
Piccadilly. I have scouted the area extensively both by cab and on foot and, so
far, have failed to locate any properties suitable for vampires. The
neighbourhoods there are havens for the wealthy upper-class; they contain no
cemeteries, no crumbling chapels, nothing sufficiently gloomy to suit Vlad’s
taste.
I have no further word, however, regarding whether he will rendezvous with
his consort. It may well be that I have a double task—to hunt down both him
and Zsuzsanna separately. I pray that will not come to pass.
I think it will not; for last night, we had quite a scare at the asylum which
has convinced me that he is indeed come to London. John’s “zoophage,” Renfield,
became so grievously obsessed that he scaled the asylum wall and ran onto the
neighbouring property. (Fortunately, he did not get so far as to alarm the
residents.) The disturbance drew me from my room, and when John returned
(huffing and puffing), he told me all that had transpired.
What caught my attention most was a comment the patient had made in his
delirium, that the Master had come and he, Renfield, would do this Master’s
bidding. As John reports it: “I have worshipped You long and afar off. Now that
You are near, I await Your commands…”
Renfield is, as I have always suspected, exceptionally sensitive. (Madmen
usually are—forgive me, dear Gerda, but it is true of you as well.) He feels the
vampire’s evil presence nearing, and has incorporated it into his madness. But
we must take especial care with him, for he has offered himself up to Vlad’s
service. He is therefore of great potential danger to us.
Vlad is indeed in the area; my guess is London, with Zsuzsanna. Tomorrow,
when Gerda is able, I will see if that guess is right.
* * *
30 AUGUST.
Everything points to a separation between Vlad and Zsuzsanna. When I question
Gerda, she still refuses to say much about him; clearly, Zsuzsanna lives
somewhere in the city with this Elisabeth, and no one else. But if she despises
Vlad as greatly as her speech and demeanour suggest, why did she also choose to
come here? Why not some other great European city, rather than share London with
one she so hates?
This makes my work doubly difficult, for I had meant to rely on Gerda’s
knowledge of Vlad’s movements. It torments me to think that the vampire is
nearby, feeding on innocent victims, while I am unable to find him, much less
stop him.
I see only one choice: to utilise Renfield as much as possible, in hopes that
he possesses, somewhere in his troubled brain, information which can help.
* * *
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
1 SEPTEMBER.
A slight change in Gerda. Under hypnosis, she seems crestfallen. Apparently
Zsuzsanna has had some sort of falling-out with her friend Elisabeth; any
mention of same, or of Vlad, elicits the vilest curses. But where Zsuzsanna is
now, Gerda will not say.
One interesting piece of information: At the same time she curses Vlad, she
also speaks of a “manuscript” or “parchment.” This she does not elaborate upon,
but from her expression and tone of voice, I gather she wants badly to obtain
it—if only for the purpose of getting it away from Vlad.
* * *
Dr. Seward’s Diary
3 SEPTEMBER.
Van Helsing and I paid Lucy Westenra a professional visit at Hillingham today
(at his insistence, though I told Art Holmwood that I wanted to bring in an
expert). Poor girl! It breaks my heart to see her in such a state. She has lost
a good deal of weight and is now too thin, and her pallour suggests severe
anaemia of the sort that often costs young people their lives. Still, she was as
pretty as ever, sitting in her bedchamber near an open window through which
streamed warm sunlight; it saddened me to see that she was too weak to properly
enjoy one of the last days of summer. She wore a white frock embroidered with
white satin thread, and her hair was tied back with a great white bow like a
schoolgirl’s. In the sun, hints of gold in her dark ash hair gleamed becomingly.
But she was clearly exhausted, lying upon a chaise longue against a plethora
of pillows. Despite the day’s warmth, one wool blanket was tucked around her
legs, and another draped about her shoulders. When the maid brought us to her,
she did not lift her head, but with great effort raised her arm that we might
take her hand. Weak or no, she managed to thoroughly charm Van Helsing… and me,
of course.
And I do believe he charmed her, though he again took on the persona
of the witless foreigner, the slayer of English grammar and syntax. I wish he
would not do it— at least, not when I am around. It embarrasses me for his sake
(it makes him, one of the world’s most intelligent and educated men, seem a
bumbling fool), and sometimes his more outrageous locutions make me grin at the
most inappropriate times.
Nonetheless, as much as it troubled me, Lucy was clearly taken with him. And
when the time came for him to examine her, I gratefully took the excuse to
stroll about the grounds, that I might be spared further intentional barbarisms.
When he had made his examination and we took our leave and headed for the
station in the fly, his jovial mood disintegrated at once. In his troubled blue
eyes I. saw confirmation of my worst fear: that Lucy was in mortal danger.
“It is serious, then?” I asked, as the driver steered the horse into the
park. It was indeed a glorious summer’s day, full of sun and kissed with a
delightful, cooling breeze; above our heads, birds sang in the lush, swaying
boughs of trees.
Yet to me, there was nothing of pleasure in that moment. I remember only the
sense of horror that chilled me to the bone, despite the warm golden pool of
light that bathed us both. For I had only imagined that the worst would be that
Lucy was ill with pernicious anaemia; but the answer he gave was even more
terrible to contemplate.
He glanced at the back of the driver’s head an instant, as if making a
decision. Then he said, “It is. She has been bitten.”
“Bitten?” I was honestly confused, thinking along strictly medical lines in
terms of a diagnosis. “But how could that—” I was going to say, But how
could that cause such a great blood loss? It would have been such a massive
wound that neither Lucy nor any of us could have missed it. In my concern for
her, I had not allowed the professor’s obsession with vampires to enter my mind.
But ere I had finished my question, I realised from his intense, unhappy gaze
that that was exactly what he meant: a fanged creature had been suckling at
Lucy’s sweet neck.
Van Helsing no doubt detected my dismay, for a look of compassion came over
his face and he asked softly, “You cannot yet believe, can you, John? Cannot
believe with your whole heart?”
The bright blue sky, the wind-rippled leaves, the sweet birdsong—all of it
took on a hideously sinister hue. Nothing was as it seemed; all the beauty
surrounding us was corrupt, a cheerful facade built to disguise evil.
How long ago had it been—a fortnight, a month— since he had first spoken to
me of vampires? I contemplated all that he had said, of course; contemplated it,
yet found it so horrid and impossible that I could not mentally commit myself to
it.
And still, the dream of Darkness and my very instinct did not permit me to
entirely z&believe. Should I flee from my friend, reject his diagnosis, and
direct him to other lodgings? Or should I distance myself from my own fears and
skepticism? If I were to tell any other of my medical colleagues that I sensed
people’s “auras,” they would deem me mad; therefore, I determined at that moment
not to do the same to the professor, who in all other matters has proven himself
to be a reliable source of information.
But to accept his claim was to open the mind to indescribable horror.
“Yes, I have difficulty in believing. But I trust you, Doctor. And if what
you say is true: what shall we do, then, to help her?” I finally said, with such
desperation and anguish that I could not repress them.
He tapped the side of an index finger against his lips and shot a pointed
look at the cabbie; we two rode back to the station in weighty silence.
The train was not overly crowded, and we managed to get a compartment all to
ourselves, where we could speak more freely.
“I must closet myself away,” the professor said the moment we were alone. “I
need at least three days’ time where I can be guaranteed no disturbance.”
“I have such a place—a cottage out in the country which is quite remote. Not
a soul would bother you.”
He brightened at once. “Excellent!”
“But before I send you off with the key, you must answer a question for me
first.”
At that he grew silent and uncomfortable, but waited to hear it so that he
could decide whether he could comply.
“Why?” I asked. “Why are you so sure Lucy has been bitten by a vampire, and
why must you go off by yourself?” Impertinent questions, to be sure, but if in
fact we were truly dealing with such legendary evil, courtesy was our least
concern.
He sighed, looking like a man who knows that his answers will not, cannot, be
entirely trusted or even comprehended. “To the first, I can only say that
instinct tells me so. To the second—I must take some measures that will allow me
to save Miss Westenra’s life, if need be. And I must try again to recruit one
who can help me track Vlad.”
“Vlad… ?” I had overheard the name before, when he had queried Mrs. Van
Helsing. “This is the vampire?”
“One of them. There is also Zsuzsanna, and possibly an Elisabeth.” He frowned
suddenly at the occurrence of a fresh idea. “Before I go—might I have your
assistance with Mr. Renfield? I should like to hypnotise him again, and would
prefer someone trustworthy nearby. Let me speak openly: I believe he is so
strongly drawn by evil that he has established a psychic link with Vlad. Perhaps
I can get from him the information I need, and my excursion to the country will
be unnecessary.”
To this I agreed. When we arrived in Purfleet and returned to the asylum, I
checked at once on Renfield to gauge his mood. Unfortunately, he was in
something of an agitated state, so we decided to postpone our session. The
professor has asked me to call for him no later than fifteen minutes before
sunset.
In the meantime, I have dispatched a letter to Art giving a mostly fictional
account of what Dr. Van Helsing, the great specialist from Amsterdam, has to say
after examining Lucy. I’m afraid I told him so little that he might be alarmed;
and I certainly could not lie to him about her symptoms or the professor’s
reaction to them. So there was a kernel of truth in my epistle, enough that one
looking for evidence of vampires might find it there. (When guilt rears its
disparaging head, I remind myself that to have confessed the whole truth would
have troubled Art even more —for he would think his old friend Jack and the
great Dutch diagnostician had gone quite insane, and would not have known where
next to turn.) As jealous as I may be of him, I cannot be so cruel to my old
friend. For his sake, I would have withheld Van Helsing’s opinion even if the
professor had not insisted I tell Art nothing.
Of course, the professor insisted in looking over my letter, and seemed to
take perverse pleasure in garbling all the quotes attributed to him. Our plan is
to pretend slowly to discover the signs of vampirism in order to make the others
come to the same conclusion on their own initiative. Perhaps even I—if I one day
do encounter solid physical evidence—might be convinced.
All I can say is this: If ever I have felt an attraction for things psychical
in nature, the events of today have cured it. I feel as though I am trapped in a
strange and fantastical dream, one every bit as disturbing as the one about the
great Darkness…
* * *
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
3 SEPTEMBER.
Whitby! The lovely Miss Westenra reported that the beginning of her strange
malaise began around mid-August, when she was on holiday at the seaside—at
Whitby, during the time when a “ghost ship” appeared! From what she said briefly
about it, I have no doubt: that is where he came ashore. Her responses indicate
he remained there a week before continuing on… to London, where he was drawn
again to his victim.
As for John’s Miss Lucy (he thinks I do not know, but it was plain on both
their faces that this was the young lady who had rebuffed him), I left her with
what protections I could—a tiny silver crucifix which I had charged. She is
clearly not of a religious bent, so I gave up any hope of convincing her to wear
it; what logical reason could I give? When the garlic blooms come from
Amsterdam, I will at least be able to cite the medicinal power of the herb.
So I did something rash, which strikes me now as amusing, though at the time
humour was the farthest thing from my mind. With her permission, I put Miss Lucy
deep into hypnotic trance, for as I explained it, it would permit her to give me
far greater detail than she could remember consciously.
After I had asked all the questions regarding Whitby and the “large bird
flapping at the window” and gotten satisfactory replies, I let her remain in
trance, with her eyes closed. Meantime, I performed a mental exercise—a spell,
if you will—which permits me to move about unheard by others. And with a little
crucifix in hand, I climbed upon the radiator; standing on tiptoe, I wedged the
protective amulet between the wooden window frame and the wall. (For all her
answers pointed plainly to the window as the place he had entered.) In addition,
I produced some small cloves of garlic and carefully laid them atop the narrow
lintel.
Whilst I was in that ever-so-precarious position, it occurred to me that Lucy
might suddenly emerge from trance and open her eyes, or that the maid might
fling open the door—and then how would I explain why I was standing
tiptoe upon the radiator? I should have done a spell for invisibility first, I
thought, but too late…
It makes me laugh now, but at the time I was quite frightened. At any rate, I
managed to finish my simple efforts in privacy, and now I pray they will be
sufficient for a time. As soon as possible, I will notify Vanderpool in Haarlem
to coax some garlic into bloom; he is entirely trustworthy, and it will save me
the trouble of explaining myself to an English farmer.
It is unfortunate that Miss Lucy is not completely accessible; knowing that
the maid was just outside the door (no doubt ready to burst in at the first sign
of impropriety), I dared not ask directly about Vlad and his whereabouts. But
perhaps the time will come… Until then, we will use John’s Mr. Renfield.
* * *
Dr. Seward’s Diary
4 SEPTEMBER.
A terrible day all round. Dismissed the attendant just before sunrise so that
I could take the professor in to see Renfield without anyone else knowing. Van
Helsing thinks that our zoophagous patient is sensitive to the vampire’s
movements and may be of some help in tracking it.
The patient remained quite calm when I entered, so I signalled Van Helsing to
come in. He did and, to my surprise, had Renfield in a hypnotic state in less
than a minute.
“Where are you?” the professor asked him, with admirable authority.
“I do not know,” Renfield replied, in a tone of surprising dignity; when he
is calm, he looks quite the cultured gentleman—except for the unkempt hair and
beard. (We dare not trust him with a razor or even a comb, and he hasn’t the
patience to let the attendant groom him.) But comb the silver hair and shave the
salt-and-pepper beard, and beneath them is a man with strong aristocratic
features and intelligent ice-blue eyes beneath severe black brows. According to
his wife, he is fifty-nine years old, but extremely well-muscled and fit for his
age. (The attendant— and now Van Helsing and I—can confirm that!) “I think I am
in a closed box. There is only darkness, and quiet— except for birds singing.”
As if on cue, a robin just outside the window burst into song; the professor
and I both smiled at the coincidence.
“Are you in London?” Van Helsing asked.
The question seemed to confuse Renfield. Eyes still closed, he frowned deeply
and hesitated. “No… yes… I don’t know. What do you mean by London?”
It was the professor’s turn to be confused. “The city. London, the largest
city in England.”
“Yes, yes,” our madman replied irritably. “I know what London is! I simply
don’t know—”
A cock crowed in the distance; abruptly, Renfield sprang to his feet and
rushed the professor with alarming speed. Before I could move, he had his broad
hands around Van Helsing’s neck and was throttling him, whilst the professor
gripped his attacker’s wrists and tried to break free.
But already the professor’s face had turned bright apoplectic red; he could
take in no air at all, could only emit the most dreadful strangled gasps. I rang
for the attendant at once, then leapt into the fray, grasping Renfield’s
forearms just above Van Helsing’s white-knuckled hands.
In a matter of seconds (I suppose, though it seemed hours), the attendant
raced in and threw the whole of his massive bulk against Renfield, smashing him
back against the wall. Soon the patient was restrained in a strait-jacket, while
I tended to Van Helsing, who gulped down air while gently massaging his violated
neck. I was concerned that there had been real damage done, for beneath his
fingers there were dark red marks upon the skin that would soon turn to bruises.
But he waved me away, and soon recovered enough to speak.
He is headed today for the country cottage. I am concerned about him being
alone there; if his theory that Renfield is controlled by the vampires is
correct, he is in grave danger indeed.
Chapter 9
Zsuzsanna Dracul’s Diary
13 AUGUST.
I write this on the boat, on my way back to London after a brief visit to
Amsterdam. (The Dutch public transportation is so clean.) It was Elisabeth’s
idea at first forme to go. We had both been out of sorts for some time; I have
felt my own strength slipping, despite the fact that I have had my fill of
“blue” blood. Elisabeth, too, seems paler, weaker, and so irritable that I have
started avoiding her. It frightens me; I worry that Vlad has cast some sort of
spell on us. London is still full of myriad marvels, but I begin to lose
interest in what previously delighted me. How many new frocks can one have? I
have a closetful. They are
all lovely and I enjoy wearing them—but my
desire for them is now sated, and I grow restless…
Vlad has no doubt arrived at the English coast, but still he has not appeared
at any of his properties—Carfax, Mile End, Bermondsey, Piccadilly. We visit them
every day, hoping to find him; and every day, our hopes are crushed.
Some evenings ago, Elisabeth approached me smiling for the first time in many
days, with a look of determination on her face. “Vlad is delayed,” she said,
“and we are both growing terribly anxious waiting. But why must we.“ You say
that you know where Van Helsing lives. Why not surprise him there during the
daytime, and bring him here? For if Vlad knows we have Van Helsing, he will be
forced to deal with us.”
“Why not simply kill the doctor?” I countered, for 1 was eager to do so, and
have my revenge upon little Jan’s murderer.
She clicked her tongue in disapproval. “But what fun is that, Zsuzsanna? If
Van Helsing dies, Vlad merely crumbles to dust. No, we must use Van Helsing to
draw him to us. I, for one, intend to witness both their deaths, and to inflict
as much suffering upon them as they have upon you!”
“Very well,” I agreed—though I was secretly determined to kill him anyway.
“When shall we leave?”
“Not both of us, my pet. You go; you alone know Van Helsing and his house. I
know Vlad, and so I will wait here for him; someone must check his houses every
day.”
The idea of leaving her alone gnawed at me. From Dunya, I knew that she was
capable of infidelity; even more distressing was the thought of the
torture-chamber beneath the house. Was her irritation due to her eagerness to
test it? She had sworn to me that she would not, that she merely “collected”
such horrific devices for amusement; and certainly, I had yet to find them used.
Still, I did not trust her.
Trust or no, logic won out. Within a day, I found myself standing at Van
Helsing’s door. I did not disguise myself, merely wore a hat with a bit of a
veil, so that if he peered out, he would not immediately recognise me. All I
needed was for him to open the door a crack—no more— and I would easily strike a
killing blow.
I rang, and a full minute later, the door swung open;
the woman who answered was steel-haired and square of jaw.
Mary? I
almost asked, but this could not be she; this woman was far too heavy and tall.
For an instant, confusion reigned: Had I come to the wrong house? Or had the Van
Helsings moved?
No; this was the house, and the brass nameplate on the door proclaimed A. VAN
HELSING, M.D., with a phrase in Dutch I could not decipher.
“I am looking for Dr. Van Helsing,” I said tentatively in English; the woman
frowned sternly at me and shook her head. I then translated the phrase into
French, without success; but my German evoked a warm smile.
“Ah,” she said, with a native accent and obvious relish to hear her own
tongue spoken, “your German is excellent! But I am afraid the doctor is not
taking appointments at this time.” And she pointed to the brass plate above the
bell, then laughed at herself. “But of course, you do not speak Dutch!”
I smiled prettily and drew back my veil a bit to expose her to both my beauty
and entrancing eyes. “I am not a patient, but a relative, here to visit.”
She clicked her tongue. “Ah, poor dear! I hope you have not come a long way—”
“From Vienna.” I knew before she told me that the professor was not here; my
heart sank at the realisation.
“He has gone”—she paused, and seemed to catch herself. I tried my best to put
her in a trance, but she kept glancing away uncooperatively. This was a very
willful woman—‘ ’abroad.
I did not hide my bitter disappointment. “May I ask where?”
She averted her eyes—lying, of course. “Many places. I do not have an
itinerary.” And then when she glanced back at me, I detected a sudden spark of
suspicion in her gaze. “You are a relative? How so?”
“His sister-in-law.”
Her eyes narrowed. “I have lived in Amsterdam many years, and have known of
the doctor for some time. He has no siblings.”
I sighed in honest frustration, deciding that if she did not let me in within
a matter of seconds, I would break her thick neck. “I know it sounds strange—but
I am actually his mother’s sister-in-law. You see, Mary’s brother was much
younger than she, and—”
The ice melted away, leaving her with a more welcoming but oddly tragic
expression. “Ah, poor Mary…
I feigned alarmed interest. “Has she died? Bram is such a dreadful
correspondent; he never tells me anything. I wrote him weeks ago telling him I
was coming, but he never replied—”
“My poor dear! How dreadful for you to learn this way. No, poor Mrs. Van
Helsing—Madam Mary, as I call her—is not dead. But I am afraid she is not far
from it. She is mortally ill with a cancer.”
I put my lacy-gloved hand to my mouth and gasped in horror. “So she is here?”
“Yes, yes, would you like to see her?”
I kept my lips covered an instant longer, lest she should see them curve
slightly upward in a smile. “Very much. I am sad to miss Bram, but…”
But I could learn a great deal from his mother, who was no doubt privy to
where he had gone. This nurse was clearly operating under basic orders, and
probably had no idea of our beloved Bram’s true vocation.
So she swung the door open and let me inside, where she squeezed my hand with
Germanic force, and vigorously pumped it while introducing herself as Frau
Koehler.
The shadowed foyer was lined with bookshelves, all filled beyond capacity,
some tomes lying atop rows of other volumes. The good Frau led me back through
another dusty, book-lined room to the staircase, where she hesitated.
“Let me go and tell Madam Mary you are here.” She blinked at me for a moment
before I realised she was awaiting a response from me.
“Tell her”—I paused, searching my memory for my sister-in-law’s maiden
name—“tell her Mrs. Windham has come to visit.”
Frau Koehler nodded, then lifted her skirts and climbed heavily up the
groaning stairs. I heard her move across the creaking wooden floor, then pause
to murmur a soft question to her charge.
But I detected no reply. As I waited, I espied between all the shelves a
closed door, and felt inexplicably drawn. I slipped through the crack and found
myself in the good doctor’s study, surrounded by more books—these all esoteric
in nature. Our brave vampire-killer, it seemed, had made an extensive study of
magic in order to better accomplish his work. There was also a large oaken desk,
with a number of papers and telegrams in the cubicles; I longed to look through
them all to gain some clue as to Van Helsing’s whereabouts, but above my head
came more creaks, and the frau’s heavy footfall.
I immediately slipped through the door again and by the time she smiled down
from the top of the stairs, I was in the exact spot she had left me.
“Madam Mary is awake and will see you.” Whilst I dashed up the stairs to join
her, she added: “I cannot promise you that she will entirely understand who you
are. She speaks little, and when she does, she is generally confused; I gave her
an injection of morphia for the pain not long ago, so she is sleepy as well. Be
patient.”
“I shall,” I answered warmly, though at the moment I was thinking of Mary not
at all, but rather how I might convince Frau Koehler to leave. I was quite sated
from the night before, to the point that the thought of dining upon her stalwart
German blood made me queasy. So I was not inclined to use supernatural force
upon the Frau; one quick drink from Mary, that was all I could manage, and then
I would be gone.
My cavalier attitude vanished once I stepped into the room and was greeted by
the duelling smells of piss and foul shit. Frau Koehler had done what she could
to minimise it: the window was open, a candle flickered in the slight breeze,
and a bedpan soaked in a tub full of soapy water.
It was all I could do to keep from covering my nose with my kerchief; but
Frau Koehler seemed to notice it not at all. She stepped over to the bed, smiled
with genuine affection, and took her patient’s thin, limp hand. “Mary. Here is
your sister.”
I moved forward to take the German nurse’s place, and clasped the dying
woman’s cold, bony hand. Her eyes had been closed, but at the sound of Koehler’s
voice, they fluttered open and gazed upon me. I was prepared at once to put a
glamour upon her, and make her see an entirely different woman, so that she
would not cry out in fear and alert the nurse—
Oh, Mary! When last I saw you, you were strong and young and beautiful, with
shining gold hair and smooth skin, and your little son Bram in your belly. I
loved you then; loved you even after my Change, for you had been so good to me
in my life. I have come to realise that you and Kasha and Papa were the only
ones who truly ever loved
me—me, the homely cripple, the spindly
spinster who evoked from men nothing but pity.
Now you are struck down by cruel Time. I have killed many in my strange
existence, and stared often into the eyes of Death Herself; but I had never
before seen Her linger so long.
This would be me, I thought,
had I not received the gift of
immortality. An unlovely old woman, dying. I looked upon the crone in the
bed and did not recognise her, she with her coarse white hair knitted into a
long braid that lay from shoulder to waist; the hair on the scalp, however, was
broken off in places and had come partially undone, giving her a wild, unkempt
air. The image came to me of a delicate bird perishing from starvation. Her
smooth skin was sallow, sunken skeletally at the cheeks, pinched at the nose,
and lined with wrinkles, especially beneath the eyes—eyes still blue as the sea,
though the whites were jaundiced.
Eyes dulled by pain and suffering, eyes that recognised me.
I intended to silence her before Frau Koehler was alerted, to put her under
my spell so that she would forget that she knew me, so that she would see
another woman altogether. But I was too stricken by the sight of her to react
immediately, and too distracted as the nurse slid a rocking-chair bedside and
bade me sit.
I sat, and cast my gaze again upon the old woman who had once been Mary,
ready to do my supernatural work. But those blue eyes—they looked back at me not
with fear, not with hatred or revulsion, but such honest warm affection that
tears of gratitude stung my eyes. This was not the fleeting love evoked by
sexual passion or mutual need or convenience; this was love for its own sake.
“Mary?” I asked softly, and to my utter surprise, tears fell hot onto my
cheeks—I, a hundred, a thousand times a murderess, so callous that I thought I
would never know untainted compassion again. “Do you really know me? It is j__”
“Zsuzsanna,” she breathed, in a trembling, reedy voice that broke my heart;
never for an instant did the sweetness in her gaze waver. “How beautiful you
are…”
I lowered my face into my lace-covered hands and wept. She was adrift in the
past and remembered only the mortal Zsuzsanna, I realised, and had forgotten my
Change; even so, I was touched by her welcome. But I had another reason for
allowing myself the outburst. Pathos aside, I was compelled to achieve my
objective: knowledge of Bram.
Frau Koehler stepped up behind me and laid a broad hand upon my shoulder. “My
dear… I know how difficult this must be for you,” she murmured. “May I bring you
a glass of sherry?”
I lifted my head and wiped away the tears with my kerchief. “Thank you. But…
may I have a cup of tea instead?” That would allow me the time I needed.
The Frau’s swift acquiescence cheered me at once; she departed down the
stairs for the kitchen, while I leaned closer to Mary and took her hand in both
of mine.
“My darling,” I whispered. “I cannot bear to see you suffer so. But I can
take all your pain away—forever.”
I moved forward and down, and pressed my lips against the soft, loose folds
at her neck; the ammonia-sharp odour of urine was overwhelming there, as were
the strong sensations of Mary’s goodness, her fear of dying, her sincere love
for those who had gone before her and those who would be left behind. Death’s
approach had stripped away all else, until only the essence of the woman
remained.
But something held me back. Perhaps it was the knowledge of the woman she had
been, or the powerful sense of goodness and tragic suffering emanating from her;
I knew that the true Mary would rather die than turn to evil.
Indeed, she drew her hand from mine and, with heartrending weakness, put her
palms against my shoulders and tried in vain to push me away. “Please, no… I
have lost two sons and a husband. Is that not enough?” She said it dreamily,
calmly, without a trace of fear.
I drew back. “Mary… do you
want to suffer? Do you
want to
die?”
She held my gaze directly; at the same time, she seemed to look past me, at
something far distant and glorious, and her wizened face took on a radiant,
wasted beauty. “My suffering is nothing compared to yours,” she whispered. “Mine
will not last forever.”
I fell back into the chair, stricken by a pain sharp as a needle piercing my
melting heart. I tried to protest: How could she say that
I suffered? I
who enjoy the best life offers, I who endure no physical pain, I who inflict
suffering and death upon others?
But I could not deny it. In a flash, I saw my current existence as she would
see it: the prettiest clothes, the finest champagne, the handsomest men, the
beautiful and cruel Elisabeth. The vanity, the hollowness. Century after century
without meaning.
I rose and again took her hands, massaging them a bit to warm them. This time
when I bent over her, I gently pressed my lips to hers. “God bless you, Mary.”
“And may He bless you.” She sighed, and closed her eyes.
I heard downstairs the rattling of china upon a tray, and muted steps; Frau
Koehler was returning with the tea. I settled into the rocking chair and waited,
trying to determine the best way to return to the study, when Mary herself
provided the answer.
Abruptly, she emitted a howl of pain, with the unbearable abandon of a
wounded animal; I admit, I jumped a bit in the chair (and it is not an easy
thing to startle a vampire). Again and again she cried out, and I called to her
to ask what was the matter, but she seemed quite unaware of my presence. I felt
enormous helplessness—and embarrassment when she suddenly clutched the blanket
between her legs.
“Frau Koehler!” I cried, as the nurse thundered and rattled up the stairs;
she appeared red-faced and gasping, and at once thrust the tea-tray upon a low
armoire and went to the bedside of her charge.
“Ah,” she said, relieved. “It is merely time for the bedpan again. I shall
help her, madam. If you like, you may take your cup of tea and sit downstairs,
where the noise will not disturb you.”
“The noise?”
“It is all painful for her now; she drinks so little that it burns like fire,
especially with her open bedsores. But I will help her feel better. Off with
you, madam.”
So this is a lingering death: piss and shit and helpless pain, the crudest
indignity.
She moved towards the soapy bedpan in the basin, and I made good my escape
before I saw anything more. Abandoning the tea, I sailed down the stairs and
again slipped through the door to the doctor’s study. With immortal speed, I
riffled through the papers on his desk—to little avail, for almost all of them
were in Dutch and quite incomprehensible.
But stored neatly inside a cubby-hole were three telegrams, sent from A. Van
Helsing, Purfleet, England, to Frau Helga Koehler, Amsterdam. The first was
dated 8 July, the second 16 July, the third 4 August.
And all of them from Purfleet.
Purfleet. Where Elisabeth and I went
every morning to check on Vlad’s arrival!
I would have sat down on the floor and quietly laughed—here I had come all
this way to find someone back in London!—had the chilling realisation not come:
Dr. Van Helsing was mortal, but he still was a force to be reckoned with. For he
had somehow discovered Vlad’s new location.
How could I be sure he had not also discovered mine?
I skimmed through them all, for they were blessedly written in German, with
which I have intimate acquaintance. They all thanked Frau Koehler for her
reports on his mother’s condition, and volunteered the information that “Mrs.
Van Helsing is unfortunately still the same.” The most recent one stated that he
would have to remain in Purfleet awhile longer, but that the Frau should notify
him at once should she judge Mary to be dying.
Mrs. Van Helsing; the phrase filled me with trepidation, though I
did not immediately understand or remember. Had there been a Mrs. Van Helsing? I
had come to this house twenty years before, to take sweet little Jan with me and
to steal Bram’s brother away…
Of course, of course. There had been a woman; a timid, large-eyed mousy
little thing. I had bitten but not killed her, as she had been an obstacle in my
way. She had one of those forgettable Dutch names that began with a
G,
that strongly aspirated sound like the Hebrew
ch, repeated twice in the
name “van Gogh.”
For some reason, it had not even occurred to me that she was still alive. But
the revelation that she was—and that she was in England with Van Helsing—filled
me with horror.
What if he were using his wife to get information about me? For vampire and
victim are linked together so long as both survive; and so this wild-eyed woman
was linked to me, even though her personality was so timid, so cringing, that
over the years I had become blithely unaware of her. I, who had been such an
idiot that I had not thought to turn the tables and get information about
him.
I have corrected my oversight.
Through all this, I had been listening to footfalls and terrible screams
overhead, and Frau Koehler’s soft, comforting murmurs. The screams had ceased,
followed by the sound of pouring water. I slipped out of the study, and waited
at the bottom of the stairs again until the nurse appeared.
She did not invite me up, but came down the stairs to stand beside me;
perspiration shone on her forehead and upper lip. She raised her apron to her
face and wiped it.
“I think she will sleep now,” she said in a low voice. “She is very tired;
she has had a very difficult day so far. Will you be back soon, Mrs. Windham?”
I shook my head, eager to leave this sad house, and troubled by what Mary had
told me. “No. It’s time for me to leave. I have my own family to take care of;
and I have already given her my good-bye.”
Her broad, square face grew genuinely sad. “I am sorry you must leave after
such a short visit, madam. I can see Mary loves you very much, and you her.”
I turned away before she saw my tears, and she led me back to the front
entrance. When she opened the door, I paused and faced her, then lightly touched
my fingers to her cheek.
As I’d hoped, she met my gaze, and fell at once into trance. “You will
remember none of this,” I told her. “Not me, not my name, not my appearance, and
if Mary speaks of it, you will take her to be delirious. Most important, you
will not, so long as you live, mention this to Dr. Van Helsing.“
“Of course not,” she said, and I smiled, breaking the fell.
“Thank you, Frau Koehler.” I kissed her on the cheek as I would a sister.
“Godspeed, Mrs. Windham.”
* * *
Now I am on the boat home, where I’ve found myself a secluded spot down below
(it is a beautiful day and everyone is taking sun up on the deck). Here, I let
myself go deep into trance and found my connexion with Mrs. Van Helsing. The
threads tying us are rather weak, though with practice they will strengthen.
This is what I saw, only moments ago:
A small, plain room with white walls, a window with black iron bars marring
the view of a flower garden below. Over the window, a small gold crucifix.
Behind me, the sound of a door opening; a man’s soft, deep voice calling:
“Gerda, dearest…”
Gerda, yes! That was her name.
The view swings one hundred eighty degrees; I now find myself looking at an
older man with white speckling his golden hair and thick eyebrows, and a smile
meant to mask the worry in his blue eyes. He has not recently shaved, and the
sunlight pouring in through the window catches the silver hairs on his chin and
ignites them. There is such an air of heaviness about him, as if he were like
Atlas, bearing the world’s weight upon his shoulders. At the same time, there is
an air of goodness, too, reflected in his eyes and the simple, rounded features
on his face.
There is something familiar here, something disturbing: I look at him and
think of my dead brother, though they look nothing physically alike. I know this
man, but for an instant, I am stymied, for he is almost a quarter-century older
than the last time we met, and the years and tragedy have aged him.
Bram, Gerda thinks, but the deep sorrow within her holds her tongue
so that she cannot speak—and I at once remember. This kindly older man is my
nemesis, Van Helsing, the murderer of my little Jan, who would still be beside
me today had Van Helsing not killed my immortal adopted child.
So. Van Helsing is with Gerda—in an asylum, I think; how else to explain the
bars? And at that very moment, he begins to ask her questions:
What do you see now?
“I’m not sure. I see water, a great deal of green water —and disappearing
behind me, a coastline with tiny windm—”
I pull her up short before she can utter the word windmills,
although damage has already been done. He will know now that I have gone to
Amsterdam—but damned if he will know when or if I have returned to London.
He asks other questions, but she remains steadfastly silent, until he
surrenders and leaves.
When I emerged from the connexion, I wrote this all down at once, lest I
forget any detail. I will tejl Elisabeth about the fact that Van Helsing is in
Purfleet, somewhere near Vlad. She will be angry enough at the wasted time-so I
must never tell her about my terrible error in forgetting about Gerda; she will
never forgive me.
And if we fail, I will never forgive myself.
At the same time, I am deeply troubled. Whenever I think of Mary, it is as
though my icy heart is gently warmed by a small internal flame—a flame she has
rekindied; and I remember what it is to feel human compassion, human love. Shall
I kill her only son?
Enough! Enough! Such thoughts are too dangerous. I will have my
revenge…
Chapter 10
Zsuzsanna Dracul’s Diary
20 AUGUST.
No further clues from Gerda about Bram Van Helsing; I suspect she said or did
something which alerted him to my interference, and he in turn has performed
some powerful magic to prevent my repeating it. We have been going through the
city bit by bit, looking for an iron-barred window that looks down onto a flower
garden, and we did find two possibilities, including a madhouse adjacent to
Carfax—but no Van Helsing, no wife. Is it possible that he is adept enough to
make them both invisible?
It is my own fault that I could be so disgracefully outdone by a mere mortal;
Vlad taught me only the most cursory exercises in mesmerism, invisibility, and
self-protection, but I never pressed him for more information. (I know now he
would not have given it even if asked, but there were times when I could have
got hold of some very enlightening ancient tomes, and did not.) I honestly had
no interest in such “boring” things… now comes the time for regret.
Elisabeth’s welcome was sweeter than I’d expected it would be when I returned
from Amsterdam; I never confessed to her about Gerda, but lied and said I had
bitten Mary and learned that the good doctor is actually somewhere near London.
This surprised and pleased her, and we spent some agreeable hours together over
the following days. Yet as generous as her mood was, she seemed to grow somewhat
haggard and irritable. I thought it was out of frustration over our vain search
for Van Helsing, and that she was struggling to hide it out of concern for me.
Now I know better; she was dissembling for my sake, all right— not out of
kindness, but out of a wish to deceive.
Tonight I am beginning to see just how much she has kept from me. And what
she
has told me: are those, too, all lies?
It began mid-morning. We had been going mad awaiting Vlad’s arrival, but
today I had an overwhelming hunch that
this was to be the day. So
Elisabeth and I at once hurried to Carfax. (What a vision she was, dressed in
palest pink and cream satin, her long curls pinned up beneath a matching cap; it
was as if she had intentionally made herself more beautiful in an attempt to
extinguish my anger and doubt.)
Safely cloaked in our invisibility, we stood a distance from the dismal old
house, beneath a copse of large, gloomy oaks—Elisabeth would go no farther—and
watched workmen deliver the same wooden boxes I had seen the
tsigani
load onto their wagons and carry away. Fifty boxes in all—and one unquestionably
containing Vlad! I recognised it by the enveloping elliptical glow—
midnight-blue speckled with gold, like a starlit sky, larger than any aura I had
ever seen him cast (mind that my abilities in this regard have always been less
than remarkable).
I know Elisabeth saw it, too, for she gasped aloud—then caught my arm and
hissed into my ear, “We must leave at once!”
Confused, I turned to frown at her—and my confusion increased at the poorly
masked fear upon her face. “What do you mean, leave? He has arrived; it is day…
Now is the time. When the workmen are gone, we must go in and destroy him!”
“Then you will go alone. Can you not see how powerful he has become?” She
gestured at the glowing box, her expression and posture—with one impatiently
tapping cream slipper—revealing intense anxiety. She turned and began to move
away, but I grasped her arm and held it.
“You’re afraid of him,” I marvelled. “You who claim to be unconquerable, you
who swear that you avoided confronting him only because you wish to relish your
little cat-and-mouse game… You are afraid. Can it be that
he is now the
cat, and
you the mouse?”
“Let me
go’t” She surrendered all pretense then, and uttered a
Hungarian epithet as she swung at me with a pink-and-cream-striped arm. I have
never seen her features so grotesquely contorted with anger; in an instant, she
was transformed from porcelain doll to Medusa. “Don’t be a fool—if we argue, he
will sense us. Zsuzsanna, you have no idea what danger you’re putting us in!”
I would have said more, would have asked,
And are you afraid, too, of Van
Helsing, whom you refuse to kill? Is he, too, the stronger? She broke free
from my grip, and transformed herself directly into a golden butterfly that
sailed away upon the late summer breeze.
I controlled my anger and rode upon the sunbeams, but I did not follow her
back in the direction of the house in London. Instead, I left Carfax estate and
made my way into Purfleet proper, where, beneath the cloak of invisibility, I
slipped into a silversmith’s shop and made off with a shining dagger and
long-handled sword.
Then it was back to Carfax, for my fury at Elisabeth’s deceit made me ever
the more determined to destroy Vlad, and to destroy him at once. Why else had we
been waiting all these weeks? I would show
her what true courage meant,
and then, having destroyed him, would leave her to her vanity, her decadence,
her vile dungeon waiting silently for its first victim. As for myself, I needed
neither the protection of man or woman, nor their love; the two I had dared love
had both betrayed me, and I would never again permit myself so to suffer.
Perhaps I should go to Vienna, or Paris…
When I arrived, the workmen were still hard at their task. The anger wavered
only once as I waited beneath the dying oaks, when I reflected that perhaps I
had been hasty in thinking that Vlad’s belief that no vampire could ever destroy
another in traditional fashion, with stake and knife, was simply another of his
mediaeval superstitions. What if it was true?
Then I shall leave and bring a mortal to do the task, I told myself.
I would not be swayed, nor would I permit myself to believe I was in as terrible
a danger as Elisabeth insisted.
The workers (a small group of lower-class cockney “blokes,” as they would
call themselves) took the boxes in through the front entrance, at a maddeningly
slow pace, one box at a time. This, with several pauses for bawdy jokes,
conversation, and laughter, left me so impatient for the hour and a half it took
them to finish that I was tempted to appear to them in my most ferocious
fang-toothed guise and send the lot of them running.
The sun was straight overhead when finally they left— mid-day, which
realisation cheered me, as this was the hour Vlad was weakest. Even so, I took
care to strengthen the veil of invisibility around myself and my silver weapons
before entering, and with them slipped through the crack in the weathered front
door, which the “blokes” had relocked.
Inside, the floor was carpeted with a layer of dust inches thick (how like
Vlad!), leaving the workmen’s every step visible. Making no footprints myself, I
followed the trail through the corridor, until it ended at an arching oaken door
bound with iron.
There was a sizable gap between the door’s base and the dust-padded floor, as
well as between its arched top and the curving lintel. One might expect to see
rays of sunshine streaming through, illuminating errant airborne dust; but in
place of brightness shone that ominous and sparkling indigo aura, darkness which
was not an absence of light, but an equal and opposite force that could displace
it.
For a brief moment, I quailed—then summoned all my anger and courage and
again reduced myself and my burden to a hair-thin sliver which slipped easily
beneath the gap at the door’s base, through the radiant darkness which seemed to
permeate my being. I emerged on the other side full of trepidation, for though
the room (once a chapel, as the far wall bore the marks of a .large crucifix
which had been recently removed, above the ro.tting remains of a wooden altar)
was vast and high-ceilinged, it was filled with the sparkling deep blue radiance
that marked Vlad’s presence.
I steeled myself and with my weapons moved forward, towards the box from
whence the indigo non-light emanated. And here I can only describe the sensation
in mortal terms, for immortal experience fails me here: It was rather like
attempting to walk into and through a swarm of very annoyed bees, or to swim
against a raging current; I felt myself being buffeted backward by a hostile,
buzzing force, whilst the skin on my entire body stung as if pricked.
Excelsior.
I moved onward, struggling to submerge my fear. No matter how powerful Vlad
might have become, I trusted in my own invisibility, and my plan: to reach the
box in which he lay, fling open the cover, and, in the instant of surprise,
pierce both heart and neck with silver.
At last I arrived at my goal, and there paused to gather my nerve even as I
reached for the wooden lid—nailed shut, though I could tear it free with but a
modicum of effort.
My fingers curled round the edge; I pulled. The lid did not move, but
remained steadfastly bound.
Again I pulled, harder, silently cursing. Again, no result at all. I paused,
infuriated and perplexed, wondering what immortal skill I might use to pry open
the impossibly stuck lid.
Or was this a trick of Vlad’s?
The lid in front of me suddenly exploded into a mighty whirlwind, hurling me
back against the door in a flurry of splintered wood and dust; had I been
mortal, I would have certainly been killed at once. As it was, I listened with
pure astonishment at the sound of the door and my own immortal bones cracking…
and at the ear-splitting clang of my weapons driven into the stone wall an inch
from my head.
And when the storm eased, causing the dust and bits of wood to drop to the
filthy ground with the abruptness of a funnel cloud belching out a tree or a
terrified sheep, I sat and looked through the glimmering darkness to see that
the box was open—and within it lay Vlad.
Not asleep, yet utterly still as a corpse, with his arms crossed upon his
chest, his malachite eyes opened wide, and a sneer upon his lips. He was a young
man now, no longer ghastly but handsome, with flowing coal-coloured hair and
mustache. I looked upon him and was at once smitten and horrified.
And desperately curious about the piece of iridescent white parchment pressed
between his hands and chest, as if it were a great treasure that must remain
close to his heart.
The sensuous lips moved. “Zsuzsanna, my dear,” he said, in a voice beautiful,
strong, godlike. “Surely you are not so stupid or foolhardy as to want to do me
harm. Perhaps you have merely returned after realising that you have sided with
the loser.”
I was too stunned to flee. Clearly, Elisabeth had been right to fear; I knew
that he would destroy me now, despite any lie I might think to tell him. The
keen understanding that I was utterly lost filled me with numbness and an odd
calm. If I was to die, then I should at least learn the truth that had been kept
from me.
“Loser?” I asked. “Do you mean Elisabeth?”
“The same,” he replied, all but his lips still motionless. “You are her pawn,
my dear. She is too cowardly to confront me herself, and so she uses you. Ask
her, Zsuzsanna; I know you will believe nothing I say. Ask
her about
the terms of her own covenant with the Dark Lord. Ask her what they have to do
with
you.”
A sickening surge of dread overwhelmed me, for he spoke with the calm
confidence of truth. “Why are you so powerful now? And what is
that?” I
pointed at the shining paper in his hands, leaning forward just enough to see a
few lines of text written in pure, gleaming gold.
He smiled, but ignored the question. “Ask
her what it is; ask her
what she would do to you in order to get it. You must destroy her, Zsuzsanna.
Destroy her before she destroys you. If you do not, I shall have no choice but
to inflict upon you both the same grievous
end. Take heed: I will not
warn you again. And remember that I could have destroyed you here and now,
but chose instead to take pity.“
Immediately, the door behind me swung open, and another mighty gale pushed
me—furious and frightened and spitting dust—out into the corridor and out of the
house altogether, as easily as if I had been a feather and not an angry
immortal.
Outside, I dusted myself off and travelled upon sunbeams into the city, to
the beautiful house where Elisabeth sat waiting upon the sofa, golden curls
freed and swept all to one side so that they spilled down onto her bosom. She
sat with uncharacteristic stiffness, spine straight and unsupported, hands
folded primly upon her knees. To test myself—and her—I entered the house with
aura still retracted, maintaining my invisibility.
She did not see me at all—or if she did, she belongs onstage with Ellen
Terry, for she kept sighing and frowning and glancing out the window as a
concerned lover ought; one cream satin slipper tapped relentlessly against a
Turkish carpet the colour of blood. When I materialised hastily in front of her,
she rose, clapping her hands, and cried out:
“Zsuzsanna! My sweet Zsuzsa! I have been so terribly worried! Did you go
inside? Did you see him? How did you ever escape?”
She flung her arms about me and repeatedly kissed my cheeks and lips. But I
did not return the embrace; I stood still as Vlad had lain in his coffin, and
said, “You are right; he is powerful, fearsomely powerful. I cannot defeat him
alone.”
At this she drew back, confused by my physical coldness yet approving of my
words, and clasped my hands, waiting for some sign which might explain this
contradiction.
I kept my expression solemn, my hands limp, my gaze direct. “He says that I
must ask you about your covenant. Your… contract with the Dark One, and what it
has to do with me.”
The judgement? Guilty. Conflicting emotions rippled subtly over her features
like ocean waves spilling onto the shore, only to be pulled back and swiftly
replaced by others: rage, hatred, fear, cunning—and the last, indignance.
“Zsuzsa! Can’t you see what he is trying to do to you? To make you hate me,
to make you return to him. And what do you think will happen to you then?”
“I have seen the manuscript,” I said quickly; she recoiled as if she had been
slapped. Indeed, she turned away, clearly overwhelmed and unable to respond to
this new development, whilst I affected a knowing expression. The intimation was
that I had read and understood its value to Vlad (and clearly, now, to her)—a
lie embedded in a truthful statement.
With her back still to me, she wrapped an arm round her ribs—clutching
herself, really, though she tried to make the gesture seem casual. Her other
hand quickly massaged her forehead, then her neck, just above the sweet,
sculpted bone beneath milky skin. With utter—and unbelievable—calmness, she
asked: “What did he tell you about it?”
“Enough. Enough to know that you have lied to me.” She whirled about, setting
pink and cream satin skirts aswirl, and began to protest, but I raised my voice
and would not hear her. “At the very, very least, you have constantly kept the
truth from me.”
At once the porcelain face crumpled, and diamond tears spilled from her
sapphire eyes. “Zsuzsanna—do you think I did so simply to torment you? Yes, he
is stronger than both of us together at the moment, but I have not given up
hope. We will find a way to defeat him, but until then, we must use all our wits
and caution.” She reached forward and took my hand once more, pressing it
between her own and bending down to kiss it, baptising it with her tears. “Have
I been cruel to you in any way, my darling? Have I hurt you? Tell me, and I
shall make amends at once. I did not bring you to London to make you unhappy!”
I wavered. She sensed it, and pressed her case with increased vigour. “You
know Vlad, Zsuzsa. In all the decades you were with him, did he ever treat you
with respect or genuine affection? No! He treated you as his own slave, to do
with as he would; he gave you immortality, but not out of concern for you—only
for himself! You know you cannot trust him; you know that he is a liar. I beg
you—do not let him drive a wedge between us! He is telling you these hideous
prevarications in order to achieve just that! And if he succeeds, then we all
are lost, indeed. We must work together, darling, to defeat him. And our best
hope, I tell you, is Van Helsing. With him as our pawn, we can succeed.”
In truth, I was swayed—by her beauty, her tears, her words. Still, Vlad’s
charges gnawed at me. “If I am to help you, then, in such a difficult task, you
must explain everything to me. What
is your covenant with the Dark
Lord? And what is this manuscript that Vlad clearly prizes?”
She sighed. “As to my covenant—that is not the sort of thing one discusses;
if you had your own, you would understand. As for the manuscript, I cannot say.
Please trust me, dear Zsuzsa. I, too, am trying to solve all these mysteries;
perhaps we two can discuss them today, and come up with a proper strategy.“
Then she put her arms round me and kissed me, and cajoled me until I yielded,
smiling. For the rest of the day and night, she was as kind to me as anyone has
ever been.
But I cannot do as she has asked: I can trust her no longer. I remain with
her now only because I have nowhere else to go. Bad enough that I have attracted
Vlad’s wrath; I do not want hers as well.
I must find a way to destroy them both.
* * *
26 AUGUST.
The delay grows maddening. No Van Helsing thus far; Elisabeth and I have
agreed that he is our best hope in conquering Vlad. Kill the Dutch doctor and
Vlad will be destroyed as well.
I am convinced now that the lone lunatic asylum in Purfleet contains the view
I saw through Gerda’s eyes, for the flower garden looks just the same. Yet there
we can find no trace of either Van Helsing, and my fear is that they were
there for a brief time, but have since left. Either that, or the doctor is as
powerful a mortal man as I am a vampire, and knows how to render himself and his
wife invisible for days at a time. The second possibility is indubitably worse.
So we check the asylum almost daily, and. we keep searching the city… And
each day, I grow more restless.
Yesterday evening I could wait for action no longer; so, some hours after the
sun had set, I went out into the foggy night alone whilst Elisabeth took her
rest. She and I are getting along together well enough on the surface, but I
still possess a great deal of wariness around her, as she does around me. She
scrutinises me for signs of disbelief or disaffection (which I have in
abundance, but try hard to mask); upon finding them, she reacts not with anger
but with great concern and sweetness. It is as if she is courting me anew, for
she showers me with presents. Yesterday, she indulged my penchant for dogs and
birds (she cannot abide either) by presenting me with a full-grown
white Afghan with a diamond collar, and a great white cockatoo with a diamond
bracelet round its ankle (to elegantly chain it to its perch).
The dog and bird are sweet enough and I adore them, but my presence terrifies
them; so I keep them closeted in the sitting-room, and let the young downstairs
maid give them the affection they deserve. In the meantime, Elisabeth showers me
with white roses, precious jewelry, outrageous and exquisite ball gowns, and
promises of social engagements. More delightful things, and, oh, how
they bore me!
So last night when I slipped out into damp darkness softened by fog, I felt a
sense of relief to be free of Elisabeth and all my beautiful gifts, to at last
be doing something of worth. I sailed upon moonbeams across the city some twenty
miles to the east, where Purfleet lay upon the north bank of the Thames.
I returned straight to the cheerless gloom of Carfax. No light emanated from
behind the filth-encrusted windows—only the ominous, glittering blue-black mist,
darker than the night.
This disappointed me, as I had expected him to go out hunting the very
instant the sun slipped beneath the horizon; why would he linger in that vile
and dusty prison when there were thousands upon thousands of warm, red-cheeked
souls awaiting him in the city; when, for the first time in centuries, he could
feed to his heart’s content?
Alas, my plan had been to search the premises during his absence for the
mysterious white parchment. Instinct said its discovery would lead to the truth
that neither Elisabeth nor Vlad would reveal, and perhaps even to my own
liberation.
Fuming, I retreated at once to the property’s edge. Now that I was sensitised
to it, I could see the deadly aura’s faint glow even from that distance; and I
was tempted to keep my distance, for I knew that this time, Vlad would have no
mercy. I lingered quite a time near the black iron gate, with its tall spikes,
every few minutes deciding in disgust that I could not wait an instant longer—
and every time, remaining. All the while, I prayed that my frail efforts at
invisibility would permit me to escape detection.
After no more than half an hour, the blue-black aura abruptly vanished, like
someone extinguishing a lamp that shed darkness rather than light. I turned my
gaze skyward and saw a large bat flapping silently through the air—a beautiful
creature with vast wings of bone and sinew covered by gossamer grey skin, and
the whole of it veiled in sheer, shimmering indigo.
I took to the air and followed at quite a distance, taking care not to be
discovered. He sailed along the Thames’ north bank over regal estates and green
bits of farmland, until the landscape grew dotted with buildings closer and
closer together; and then we were in the city.
He knew precisely where he was going, for never did he slow or swoop down to
inspect the area or search for victims. Not until we were in the heart of London
proper did he gradually ease the flapping of his wings. Lower and lower he sank
through the undulating white mist, until at last he hovered just outside a
respectable-sized house of brick, set behind a gated stone wall bearing the sign
HILLINGHAM.
Again, I kept a respectable length between us, and strengthened my
invisibility as best I could. What I now report I saw from beneath a great
sycamore a whole rolling grassy lawn away. From there, I put my immortally keen
vision to good use and witnessed the following:
The bat hovered at a dark second-story window, the sash raised to
let in the cool, damp air and release the day’s heat. There the handsome
creature lingered but a moment before transforming itself into the handsome,
dark-haired Vlad, who slipped easily through the gap without awaiting an
invitation to enter. This was a house he had visited before.
Though the room was dark, I could see inside with ease. Upon a white, lacy
(and no doubt virginal) bed lay a young lady with waving sand-coloured hair and
a pretty enough face. Apparently her sleep had been unrelentingly restless, for
she had kicked off her coverlet and lay so tangled in the twisted sheets that
one could not judge where they ended and her frilly white night-gown began; from
beneath them both a pale, curving thigh peeked scandalously.
As Vlad approached the bed, she wakened drowsily and, upon recognising him,
sat up and opened her arms to him, as the biblical man must have welcomed his
prodigal son. He stepped into the embrace and held her, golden-brown waves
cascading over his arms—and drank. (Almost fifty years ago, he did the same for
me—and how well I remember the sweetness of it still!)
At the moment his lips found her tender neck, I turned and fled back to
Carfax at the highest possible speed. I had seen what I needed, and knew the way
back to Hillingham; now I was obliged to conduct a swift search of Vlad’s new
and dreary home.
What did I find? Dust, dust, and dust, and scores of inhospitable rats—but
certainly no gleaming parchment with golden script. I looked inside the box
where he had lain and found nothing within but mouldering earth that I suspected
had been dug from the chapel floor in Transylvania. (Elisabeth is right on one
account—his superstitions are strange indeed!) All fifty of the boxes had been
recently pried open, and I looked into every one.
Dust and vile-smelling dirt. I searched a few places elsewhere—in a cabinet
built into the wall, and the lone table that stood near the entryway—without
success. Yet I dared not linger; thus I made a swift tour of the house and the
grounds, and departed for home, fearful of being discovered.
Now I am home, and although Elisabeth is solicitous to an annoying degree, I
have stolen a moment of privacy to sit with my beautiful hound and cockatoo (the
poor things, how they tremble at my very nearness, and when I speak tenderly to
them, they are undone by confusion). I must write this all down and think hard
in terms of strategy. I am alone in this and can trust neither Elisabeth nor
Vlad; Van Helsing I might believe, for though he means me harm, he is not given
to deceit. If I could only find him, I would question him first and kill later.
As for tomorrow, I can see no way around it: I must take a deadly risk.
* * *
26 AUGUST.
Elisabeth was very moody today, and though she tried to master herself, she
snapped at me irritably. Then she pressed a wad of pound notes into my hand in
lieu of apology, and bade me go shopping.
So I and my handsome coachman drove through the city, and at one point, I
ordered him to wait for me outside a fine dress-shop. Once inside, I made myself
invisible and rode the wind the short distance to Hillingham.
It being shortly after mid-day, I was altogether unsure that I would catch
Vlad’s victim alone; but I knew that she would be too weak to stray far from
home. Daylight gave the estate at Hillingham a far cheerier air; the gabled
stone house no longer seemed grim and sterile, but quite cheerful with its red
door and eaves and white lace curtains. Upon the deep green lawn, black and tan
terrier pups gambolled whilst their weary mother watched beneath the shade of a
tall ash; nearby, a servant tended a perfumed garden of roses.
Gone, too, was the dark blue miasma that marked Vlad’s presence, and that was
perhaps the most cheerful sign of all.
I located at once the window where Vlad had entered, and peered inside. The
sash was closed today, despite the glorious warm breeze, but the young lady was
exactly where I had expected to find her—in bed, propped up upon pillows,
reading, with the covers drawn up as far as possible, as if she feared a chill
on this, one of the warmest days of the year. She was quite a pretty girl,
really, with light green upward-slanting eyes, sculpted cheekbones, and a small,
thin nose, all of which gave her a rather feline look; and she wore a lovely
dressing-gown of embroidered linen eyelet, pale sea-green to enhance her eyes.
Whilst she tead, a chambermaid stood beside the bed, devotedly brushing out the
lady’s long, waving hair—which, in the dappled sunlight, looked the colour of
sand gilded here and there with gold. Lying against the pale-green gown, it
looked like a shimmering shore beside the great ocean.
As I watched, a kitchen maid entered with a tray bearing a modest luncheon
and tea; her young mistress sighed and shook her head, but the servant pressed
her case, and left the tray on the table beside the bed in case the young lady’s
appetite improved.
The instant the servants had gone, closing the door behind her, I drew nearer
to the window and materialised just enough so that I could tap my fingernails
against the glass. As I had hoped, the girl looked up from her reading, and
tilted her head, curious; I drummed harder, harder, projecting my aura outward
as a fisherman casts a net, luring her until she could resist no more. She
pulled back the covers and rose languidly; slowly (pausing once to close her
eyes and press a hand to her forehead as if dizzied) she made her way to the
window, and with great effort pulled up the sash.
This was my invitation. I lunged forward, thinking to leap through the open
window into the bedroom, as Vlad had done the night before.
But something held me back at the instant I ducked my head beneath the glass.
A talisman, something fastened above or below the window which made my skin
tingle, then sting, then burn fiercely, as if I were attempting to swim through
water which had been infused with ever-increasing amounts of acid until it was
pure vitriol. I cried out at the pain, recoiling; my invisibility should have
prevented the girl from hearing any sound, but she must have sensed something,
for she frowned in puzzlement and peered farther out before shutting the glass.
This was Vlad’s doing, I decided, and silently swore to him that I would not
be so easily discouraged. Thus I went round to other windows until I found one
unencumbered by any spell—the dining room, where I found the same serving-girl
setting a long table for only one. Again, I tapped upon the window and
mesmerised her quite easily; she pulled open the window without an instant’s
hesitation.
I wasted no time with her, but made my way directly upstairs to her young
mistress’ room. There I knocked, and was obligingly admitted entry by her call:
“Come in…”
There is one moment when we vampires lose our ability to hide ourselves: at
the moment of feeding, not because of any limitation imposed on us by the Dark
Lord’s bargain, but because the act of drinking blood overwhelms us as utterly
as it does our victim. Thus our mental concentration, so necessary for
manipulating the aura, fails, and we are visible to those who nourish us.
So it was that when I stepped over the threshold into her chamber, I saw no
point in veiling my presence; she would see me soon enough in any case.
When I appeared all at once in the entryway, pulled the door shut behind me,
and locked it, she sat straight up in the bed and lifted a pale hand to pale
lips with a look of intense curiosity tempered by gentle fear. She might well
have cried out for one of the maids, but she was a gentlewoman, schooled in
civility, and so she asked, with as much courtesy as she could summon in the
face of such a surprise:
“Who are you?”
I smiled, and within me felt immortal beauty rise up and flower; felt, too,
my magnetism instinctively increase and surge out through my eyes to the young
lady’s, drawing her irrevocably to me. Deep, deep behind the green ocean of her
gaze, I saw the faint glimmer of indigo. I would have to strike quickly; I would
have to keep my own mind as blank as possible. Even so, the danger to me was
still great. Who knew the limits of Vlad’s power? How could I be sure that even
during the day, he would not reach out through this lethargic young creature and
smite me?
“A friend, come to help in time of need,” I said, crossing over to stand
beside the bed. At once I became keenly aware of diluted vitriol tingling upon
my skin, and glanced up to find over the single window a tiny silver crucifix.
Impossible that I should be affected by it anymore, now that Elisabeth had shown
me the truth… unless, of course, it had been charged by a powerful and educated
magician: Vlad.
The young lady distracted me then from that miserable thought; she sighed and
pressed a hand to her heart— whether to protect it or bring it forth to offer up
to me, I cannot say, but her startled gaze became one of ecstatic love, and her
lips parted in sensual recognition of the event to come. “You are so beautiful,”
she whispered, tilting her face upward towards mine, revealing a long white neck
partially covered by a velvet band.
My smile grew ironic. Mary had uttered the very same compliment, but hers had
been sincere (if not altogether lucid), and had touched me to the core; the
girl’s came as a result of her being thoroughly mesmerised, and so held no
pleasure for me.
I bent for the kiss, and pushed the band of velvet down until I found the
marks. I put my lips to her neck there, and licked the skin, feeling the tiny
punctures with my tongue so that I might place my eyeteeth exactly upon them.
There I briefly hovered—not from a desjre to savour the moment, but from
trepidation.
Knowledge is ofttimes carried on the blood; to drink is also to learn of the
victim. But at such moments, it is impossible for us to hold back; our auras
surge forth to mingle with those of our prey. This is generally of no concern,
for when the victim is thoroughly entranced, all she learns is forgotten upon
waking, while the psychic tie to the vampire remains.
Thus Vlad can know her thoughts, her feelings, her images, to a limited
degree (unless he more thoroughly ties her to him by an exchange of blood, at
which point he can know almost anything he desires). And if I joined with her
when she was mesmerised, and most open to his thoughts, I would know them.
But would he also know mine?
The reward outweighed the risk. I closed my eyes as my teeth sank slowly into
the path already cleared for them, and tried to focus my mind solely on the
sound of the girl’s breathing and her beating heart.
The blood rose up to meet me, and I drank.
Image of a plump, buxom woman—all breasts and belly, with no neck, thin
greying hair swept into a scanty pompadour. Mother is looking ill these
days, poor thing.
Am I dying? Arthur…
A young man with a riot of golden curls and a long, distinctly equine face.
The lines are six, the keys are two. The damned key! It must be
here…
Image of the shining parchment, emblazoned with gold beneath Vlad’s youthful
hands; I could decipher the letters now.
To the east of the metropolis lies the crossroads. There lies buried
treasure, the first key.
A burst of searing force—a force more blinding than lightning, more deafening
than thunder, more powerful than the deadliest whirlwind, a force that
apparently originated from Miss Lucy Westenra herself—smashed me backward into
the wall. I reeled, impossibly dazed by the blow; only when I heard the maids
crying out, “Miss Lucy! Miss Lucy!” and running up the stairs did I come to
myself and gain control of my aura. By the time the maids arrived, discovered
the door was locked, and began to bang frantically on it, I was invisible; by
the time the aforesaid “Miss Lucy” opened aforesaid door, I had already slipped
through it and was fleeing the way I came.
I returned to the prim dress shop, where Antonio still waited with the
carriage. From there, we returned to the relative security of Elisabeth’s house;
I was grateful she did not see me enter, as I was too exhausted after the
strange attack to shield myself a minute longer from the gaze of others. Nor was
I in a mood to hide my dishevelment or my shaking hands. I went straightway to
my private sitting-room (private because Elisabeth so despised animals she would
not enter it), where my white, bejewelled prisoners cringed at the sight of me.
The cockatoo raised its crest and recoiled as I approached, and the Afghan
retracted its tail and tried to slink away—but I was in too great a need of
honest comfort. I picked the poor dog up and set it beside me on the sofa, then
buried my face in its soft fur and we two trembled together.
Vlad had become acutely aware of my interference with Lucy Westenra. Indeed,
he had very nearly killed me —an impossible thing for one vampire to do to
another, yet the shock that had surged through my supposedly impervious
body had nearly torn me apart. Even now, as I write this, I am so shaken my hand
can scarce hold the pen. What has made him so strong—and why is Elisabeth now so
weak?
Speaking softly to the hound, I raised my face to his— his, I say
now, not it, for despite his dreadful innate fear, he sensed my own,
and looked back at me with dark eyes so full of compassion for my own suffering
that I could not hold back tears. They coursed down my cheeks, and that blessed
creature gently licked them away with his tongue— which only made me cry all the
harder. God Himself cannot convince me that this animal has no soul; indeed, his
is infinitely worthier than mine.
After a time, we both calmed and ceased our shivering, and I think he
honestly came to enjoy my caresses. I leaned my head against his thin shoulder,
listening to the rapid beating of his heart, and wound my arm round him where he
sat; when at last I grew too engrossed in my own concerns and ceased stroking
him with my free hand, he nuzzled it tenderly.
I had never even thought to give him a name, for I had seen him only as a
pretty ornament instead of a living, feeling being; but now I call him Friend.
Indeed, he is my truest. Through my entire existence as an immortal, I have
never met with such unbiased and unconditional acceptance and love.
As I sat and petted him, my mind grew steady enough to return to all that I
had learned from Lucy Westenra, and thus Vlad.
The manuscript; the manuscript. I had no logical reason to believe it, but my
instinct was adamant: its very possession must confer power. Had Elisabeth once
possessed it, only to lose it to Vlad when we were all still in Transylvania? He
seems far stronger now, however, than she was then.
The lines are six; the keys are three. To the east of the metropolis lies
the crossroads. There lies buried treasure, the first key…
Lines and keys: of them and their number I could derive no sense, only the
obvious deduction that treasure lay buried at a particular crossroads, perhaps
east of London. It was clearly a riddle—but to what end?
The damned key! It must be here…
Most assuredly not Lucy’s thoughts, but Vlad’s, who intervention. So the
treasure at the crossroads—the first key, whatever meaning that might have—had
not yet been discovered. Yet Vlad was desperate to find it.
A horrible thought seized me: If the manuscript itself conferred astonishing
power, then what would possession of the first key confer? And the second?
And Elisabeth had followed him in hopes of regaining the parchment.
By this time, Friend had grown bold enough to lie down with his chin upon my
lap; I sat stroking him for a long time, thinking of how the world would be if
Vlad retained his amazing strength—or if Elisabeth took it from him.
At the moment, I could remember only Vlad’s cruelties and Elisabeth’s
kindnesses. Yes, she had kept the truth from me, but not for any malicious
purpose; her worst crime appeared to have been a lack of faith in my
trustworthiness, but she had not known me long enough to understand that I am
interested not in power, but in peace and pleasure. So I rose and bade Friend
remain, and went in search of Elisabeth, prepared to reveal all that I had
learned that day.
She was not in any of her habitual places: the great drawing-room, the
bedchamber we shared, her favourite sitting-room, the formal French garden. I
went back to Antonio’s quarters on the main floor to see if he was there; he was
not, which made me think that perhaps he had taken her on some social errand.
But if she had seen Antonio, she would know that I had returned, and it was
most unusual for her not to greet me and praise whatever I had bought,
especially since she seemed so desperate to stay in my good graces.
So I continued my search of the house, until at last only one room was left:
the cellar, which Elisabeth so affectionately referred to as the “dungeon.” An
odd sense of dread overcame me the moment I set foot upon the landing leading
downward, and touched the handle upon the iron-bound door; my reaction was to
veil myself from all detection, for I think now I instinctively knew what I
should find.
So I walked in silence down the stairs, and when I arrived upon the bottom
step, I saw what I had always seen: the dirt floor, the long-unused fireplace,
the terrible blond Iron Maiden, and the great hanging iron cage, with long sharp
spikes directed inward. And surrounding it all, vast, empty darkness.
Yet I thought I espied upon the Iron Maiden’s lip a drop of blood, and so I
moved over the cold ground, forward one deliberate step, then another, then
another…
Until at last I caught a flash of feeble indigo, and a glimpse into the
circle—Elisabeth’s circle, from whence emanated screams so fierce, so hoarse, so
hopeless in their abandoned agony, that I knew not whether they came from male
or female, adult or child, human or animal throat.
And in the centre of the vast dungeon, the fireplace blazed brightly, while
nearby, the iron cage swung suspended the height of two women from the ground.
At the pulley stood Antonio, chest bared and glistening with perspiration from
the fire’s heat; at the sight of me, he grinned, baring teeth—the Devil’s own
inviting smile.
Nearby, between the fire and the swinging cage, Dorka stood heating a long
poker in the flames, her sweat-shining face reflecting fireglow and transformed
from its usual sour expression to one of pure ecstatic transcendence. And when
the metal grew white-hot, she hoisted it by the attached broom handle and jabbed
it up into the black cage.
Or rather, at the prisoner within: a young, naked girl whose spiralling
auburn curls spilled to her thighs and mingled with the blood streaming there.
She was a lovely creature, slender, tall, and long of limb, with small and
beautiful breasts, but in her death-agony, she had been reduced to a graceless,
shrieking thing. She was far too beside herself to notice my entrance; her only
concern was the approaching poker. It found the tender skin of her leg, and her
screams grew impossibly shriller as she flailed, recoiling. Alas, her efforts to
avoid pain only increased it: she had already been gored by two long metal
spikes inside the cage, and her movements only served to drive them deeper into
her tender flesh, and enlarge her terrible wound. The spikes pierced the length
of muscle between her right ribs and hip, and held her fast. In a pitiful effort
to free herself and avoid further impalement, she had wedged herself sideways
between the row that pierced her and the row in front of her; the latter’s
spikes she gripped with her hands and pushed against.
But before she could free herself, Dorka jabbed again; I winced at the
hissing sound of searing flesh and the accompanying howl. The girl struck out
valiantly at the poker with her hands until, inevitably, one of them became
impaled; then she began to kick as if there were still a remote chance of
survival. But there could be no hope; blood streamed from the mortal wound at
her side, from the singed puncture upon her strong white thigh, from a cut upon
her otherwise perfect forehead. At the sight of her, I felt bitter pity—and also
a strange pride that she who was so clearly defeated would not yield to her
enemies until the very moment of death. She could not be far from it, for she
had lost an impossible amount of blood; it streamed down her thighs, her legs,
her feet, onto the floor of the cage. Had she not been held fast by the spikes,
she would certainly have slipped.
I had never before taken notice of the cage floor’s special design; it was
flat everywhere and rimmed—except for one place where it slanted downward into a
spout, forcing the blood to spill in a narrow stream.
Beneath that stream sat my erstwhile lover, her face tilted upward to greet
the gentle crimson rain. I have seen Elisabeth enflamed with passion; I have
seen her in the moment of sexual release. But never had I seen her wear an
expression of such infinite bliss, infinite satisfaction—indeed, she looked up
at her unwilling benefactress with all the adoration and love I had long
searched for in her eyes, yet never found. Upon her lap she reverently held her
victim’s clothing: a plain grey gown with white cotton apron, a servant’s humble
frock.
As for the blood that dripped down upon her face, her hair, her bosom—she
rubbed it into her skin with abandoned relish, her excitement mounting so
quickly that I expected her to cry out any moment in ecstasy.
All this I watched with such keen revulsion that for some time, I could not
quite believe what I saw; and then, when I believed, I could not think, could
not move, could not intervene. What should I have said? What should I have done?
Should I have freed the poor dying girl and killed her to stop her pain? The
only death I could offer brought no true rest.
She would die honestly soon enough, without the loveless torment that undeath
brought; so I did nothing, nothing at all.
Nothing at all save let a single tear of horror and pity spill down my cheek,
for both the dying girl and Elisabeth. And at the surge of emotion, my control
flickered; too stricken to struggle, I simply let it go, and stood unprotected
and unveiled before the actors in that hellish tableau.
The girl was too far gone to detect my presence. But at last, Elisabeth
sensed a change in her surroundings, and looked down to see me. “Zsuzsanna!
Darling!” Her voice was shocked, exasperated, annoyed—and finally, terrified;
her blood-painted face was a ghoulish mask darkening rapidly to violet-brown.
She held out scarlet-spattered arms to me, beseeching, beckoning. “Do not judge
me harshly, dearest. What I have done, I do for you. Come to me, and let me
teach you the truest sweetness; come to me, and trust that this is all for the
good.”
I said not a word. I merely stood motionless and returned her gaze without
hatred, without anger; but the revulsion in my eyes was its own rebuke.
I lingered upon that vile, unconsecrated ground no longer than the span
between two beats of a human heart. Then I went upstairs, gathered Friend into
my arms, and left forever.
Chapter 11
Dr. Seward’s Diary
7 SEPTEMBER.
For the past five days, I have sat up through the nights with
Lucy;
never have I performed a more bittersweet task. During the whole time, I heard
nothing from the professor, but each day sent him the requested telegrams on
Lucy’s condition—to a “Mr. Windham” at the parents’ old cottage in Shropshire.
The covertness of it all makes me feel rather sheepish, even though I understand
the necessity for it.
For four days and nights, Lucy got along quite well, and began to markedly
improve; the professor’s “magic” was working. But on the fifth night, exhaustion
took its toll on me; and Lucy (who was feeling more her merry self) insisted
that, rather than continue my vigil, I sleep in the adjacent room upon a
comfortable old sofa. I refused, but as I could not altogether resist Morpheus’
lure, and since Van Helsing’s unnoticed silver crucifix was still safely in
place above the window, I allowed myself a “brief nap” in the chair.
So it was that I fell into the sleep of the dead and did not wake until late
morning, when I heard the anxious voices of the chambermaids:
“Oh, my poor Miss Lucy!”
“The doctor! Wake the doctor!”
I heard the words through the veil of a dream, but their content brought me
to full alertness, just as an infant’s shrill cry provokes an immediate response
from the sleeping mother. I leapt to my feet at once and followed the horrified
servants’ gazes to the woman on the bed.
There lay my sweet Lucy, golden hair fanned behind her on the pillow, her
skin and lips a dreadful ashen grey, her breath coming in gasps. The poor girl
could barely speak. I rushed to her and took her hand, which was quite cool,
then instructed one of the servants to bring a glass of port at once, but to say
nothing to Mrs. Westenra should they encounter her
en route. The other
I sent off to the telegraph office, to send a message off to “Mr. Windham,”
asking him to return to Hillingham at once. Lucy herself I ordered to remain
silent, in part because I could not bear to watch her struggle so.
The next thing I did was to glance surreptitiously at the lintel over the
window, as I completely expected that the small crucifix had somehow come loose
from its place, fallen, and been swept up by one of the maids.
But no; I saw the glint of silver in the same place it had been the night
before, and panicked. How could this be? I had trusted Van Helsing’s
explanations utterly, but now one piece of the puzzle no longer fit. And if he
was wrong about the security ensured by a talisman, might he be wrong about
everything else?
There was nothing more to be done than sit by Lucy’s side and await the port,
and, when it came, to put the glass tenderly to her lips and help her drink—she
looking up at me with an expression of such sweet apology that it pricked my
broken heart. She did her best with the port, which was not much; and then she
sank wearily back upon the pillow, sighed, and slept.
The maid brought me a piece of stationery from Lucy’s desk, and so I hastily
penned a note to Art telling of his betrothed’s setback, and had it sent out by
mid-morning post.
The hours awaiting Van Helsing seemed to drag on forever, especially when
night again fell and he had still not arrived. The worst of it was the fact that
there simply was nothing more I could do for Lucy. In my desperation I
considered attempting a very novel and experimental procedure, the blood
transfusion—but since there was no one at Hillingham except myself, Mrs.
Westenra, and three young housemaids, there seemed no one suitable to donate the
blood except myself. Even if I had the equipment (which I did not), it would
have been impossible to perform the procedure upon myself, as I might faint and
thus lose both doctor and patient.
By early evening, we received a reply from “Mr. Windham” that he would be
arriving on the early morning train. Even though my confidence regarding the
crucifix talisman had been sorely shaken, I was nonetheless greatly relieved to
hear the professor was well and was indeed on his way.
Thank God we passed an unremarkable night; this time, I allowed myself not a
second’s sleep. The guilt I felt over failing my patient—the very one whom I
most loved —negated all fatigue.
So it was that the professor at last arrived. He was in a somber mood—so
somber that, in spite of Lucy’s terrible situation, I suspected that he had even
greater sorrows on his mind. The first thing he whispered to me after Lucy’s
mother (who seemed grateful to be kept in the dark concerning her daughter’s
health) welcomed him into the house was:
“The crucifix. Did one of the maids remove it?”
“No,” I replied, as we began to ascend the stairs. “You will see. It is
precisely as you left it.”
“Then someone else must have invited him in,” he said gravely. “Not Mrs.
Westenra—”
“No,” I seconded, surprising myself. “Not she…”
Despite the situation, Van Helsing gave a faint, grim smile. “You are quite
the psychic talent, friend John. Most assuredly you do not take after me; what
paltry abilities I possess came only after the greatest effort.” The smile faded
at once into a thin-lipped expression of unhappy determination. “You are right
about Mrs. Westenra. She has not been touched by those we fight; such things
invariably show first in the aura, if only to the tiniest degree. But we must
interview each one who slept in this house last night, even those who visited
here after sunset. There we will find our answer to the mystery.”
He fell silent as we two approached Lucy’s room, and the little chambermaid
opened the door with a slight curtsy. We requested privacy for our examination,
which the girl grudgingly yielded; a good thing, for when Van Helsing stepped
inside and saw Lucy sleeping, he whispered:
“My God!”
For a time, neither of us spoke, and as we both stood studying Lucy in the
early morning light, I saw that she looked even worse than she had the day
before. Her cheeks had sunken so that her face appeared skeletal. She was that
close to death, perhaps only minutes away—and the realisation struck so hard
that I came close to weeping, and actually stumbled.
The professor put an amazingly strong hand on my arm and steadied me. “She
can be saved, John, but we must act swiftly; there is one thing I can do, but
there is no time for explanation—”
“Yes, yes,” I answered, eager to focus on something other than my own grief.
“I thought the same! A transfusion—”
He sighed and shook his head. “No; such is too risky. I have seen the
operation perform miracles—but I have more often seen it bring death. I do not
know how to explain what it is I propose, except to say that it
is a
transfusion… of sorts. But it is not on a physical level.”
I was far too overwhelmed with emotion and confused by his words to reply. I
merely blinked at him, waiting.
“I must have complete privacy; tell Mrs. Westenra and the servants—no one is
to come near. Tell them—tell them that we
are performing a transfusion
of blood, and that the delicacy of the surgery is such that any interruption
would endanger Miss Lucy’s life.” He paused, apparently struggling to make a
decision as I turned towards the door; his hesitation made me linger. “John… I
hesitate to ask such a favour, but the ‘operation’ I wish to perform does, in
fact, require a donor.”
“Then I am he,” I answered at once.
“You should be aware, then, that this will drain some of the aura’s strength,
and thus your ability to protect yourself, for some hours.”
“Doctor, I care not whether the cost is my own soul.”
He nodded, clearly relieved. “It is not impossible for me to use myself—but
it will likely be far less effective for our patient. Very well; I will go into
the other room to prepare myself. Could you also fetch my medical bag from
downstairs? It will enhance the illusion that we are indeed performing the act
we claim.”
I nodded, and we moved away from each other—I towards the hallway and stairs,
he towards Lucy’s sitting-room. But sounds coming from downstairs—the sound of
knocking, and the maid’s high-pitched reply—caught our attention. The professor
shot me a look, and said, “I suspect Miss Lucy has a visitor.”
So it was he followed me quickly down the stairs, and just as we arrived in
the hall, we saw Art Holmwood stepping in. At the sight of me, Art rushed up and
took my hand, professing that anxiety over my letter had brought him here. “Is
not that gentleman Dr. Van Helsing?” he asked politely, for the professor stood
by my side, rather guardedly studying this young intruder. “I am so thankful to
you, Doctor, for coming.”
I knew that Van Helsing had no reason to trust Art, and was examining him on
a psychic level to see if he posed a threat to us or Lucy. But I was confident
my friend would pass inspection, and so he did. I saw a flicker of relief on Van
Helsing’s face, followed quickly by an honest look of admiration and satisfied
approval. At once he took Arthur’s hand and, to my surprise, told him that we
needed a donor for a blood transfusion—to which Art of course quickly
volunteered.
Van Helsing sternly informed the servants then of our requirement for
privacy, and found his black bag (which was larger and heavier than the typical
physician’s bag; I cannot imagine what was hidden in it).
We three proceeded up to Lucy’s room. Art was, of course, stricken to see her
so ghastly weak, and out of kindness, the professor permitted him a kiss before
the “operation.” I was rather curious how he intended to pull it off with an
outsider present, and Lucy now awake (though too exhausted even to speak).
He went into the other room, telling them both that he must prepare for the
operation. He was gone no more than a handful of minutes, and when he returned,
he bore in his hand a glass. This he said was a sleeping-draught for Lucy, and
slipped an arm beneath her shoulders, lifting her up that she might drink it.
Perhaps it was indeed what he claimed, but I saw his gaze catch hers for an
instant—and swear now that a distinctly bluish glow surged forth from his eyes
into hers. At the conclusion of this, she promptly fell asleep. He then moved
over to Arthur (who sat beside the bed in the same chair where I had so often
sat vigil), and, bringing forth a long bit of tubing from his bag, pretended to
affix it to his patient’s arm. First, though, he stared into Holmwood’s eyes
with the same intensity he had used with Lucy, and within a matter of seconds,
Art, too, was soundly unconscious.
I watched in fascination, scarcely breathing, as abruptly an egg-shaped glow
enveloped the entire body of each patient—Lucy’s a feeble pale green, Arthur’s a
strong, virile orange. Van Helsing moved first to Holmwood, whose head had
lolled back against the high-backed chair. I was still so amazed by the
brightness of the patients’ auras that I did not realise, until the professor
approached Art and reached a hand out towards the deep tiger-lily glow, that Van
Helsing himself was surrounded by a larger and even more intense, brilliant blue
shimmer.
The professor reached forth into the sparkling orange and withdrew a large
globe-shaped portion of it from over Holmwood’s heart. I could see the dark
vacancy it left, and how the psychic wound immediately rushed to close itself
and fill the void with shimmering orange; but the effect was that the entire
aura paled and dimmed, as if diluted.
This orange “globe” the professor held between his hands for a moment. It did
not mingle with Van Helsing’s bright blue, but instead seemed to grow ever
stronger, ever deeper in hue, as he gazed calmly down upon it. And then, when he
judged the moment to be right, he stepped over to where Lucy lay, and tenderly
placed it upon her heart.
The reaction was fascinating to see: her feeble green aura at once surged
forth like a hungry amoeba and “consumed” the orange glow, enveloping it until
its distinctive colour disappeared completely. The union of the two did not
yield a third hue; to the contrary, the pale green brightened to bold emerald,
and its borders noticeably enlarged.
“We are done now,” Van Helsing said, and I looked up at him to see the blue
aura quite gone. A quick glance back at the sleeping patients showed no trace of
orange or green—only Art’s now wan-looking complexion, and Lucy’s cheeks kissed
with a subtle trace of pink. It was as if I had been abruptly wakened from a
strange dream, indeed.
When Art revived, we sent him home with instructions to sleep and eat as much
as possible (though how he could with such worries about his ailing father and
his fiancee, I cannot fathom). Lucy wakened vastly improved, which relieved me
almost to public tears, for if she had died, her blood would have been on my
head.
The professor then took me aside, and we two agreed that the best course of
action would be for me to sit with Lucy the next few nights. Van Helsing himself
will during the day keep to his cell at the asylum, and continue the “research,”
as he calls it, that he began during his stay in the country cottage. By night,
he will come in invisible guise to Hillingham, and remain here to see if he can
unravel the mystery of how the vampire entered despite the protective talisman.
He will also take steps to increase the “security” here, sealing off
all
windows and doors, and ordering blossoms of fresh garlic, which he says are more
powerful repellents than the heads.
* * *
10 SEPTEMBER.
A terrible, terrible day. I had spent the entire night of 8 September keeping
watch over Lucy; when morning came, I was quite done in. But there was work to
be accomplished at the asylum, and a new patient to be admitted. By the time I
had attended to it all, dusk was approaching, and once again, I hastened to
Hillingham for another all-night vigil.
Happily, Lucy was up when I arrived, and in fine spirits. Her mother reported
proudly that she had dressed for an early supper, come downstairs, and eaten
heartily. This was the best news I had had in some several months, yet my
cheerfulness could not entirely mask my exhaustion. Lucy noticed it, and
insisted that I rest upon the couch in the room adjacent to hers, within
earshot. In case of any trouble, she promised to call for me.
Such was my fatigue that I agreed, telling myself that my sweet charge’s
improvement was due to the added measures the professor had taken against the
vampire, and that we were now completely safe. And at any rate, the professor
himself would also be silently and invisibly patrolling the rest of the house.
So I crawled upon the couch, fell fast asleep, and did not wake until a palm
pressed against the crown of my head. I sat up with a start, and saw Van Helsing
staring down at me with a faint smile.
“You are well-rested, I trust,” said he indulgently, then lifted a hand for
silence as I began to make apology; I had certainly not intended to sleep
through the night. “No, John, explanation is not needed. You were tired and had
earned the right. At any rate, I remained on watch around the servants’ quarters
and Mrs. Westenra’s room. No disturbance there last night, nor on the main floor
below. Shall we go see how our patient is faring?“
I assented eagerly, and together we stole into Lucy’s room.
I (and the professor, I am sure) was confident that this would be a cheerful
visit, that we would find Lucy ever more restored and blooming with health. The
room was quite dark, so I moved to the window and opened the blind, letting the
morning sunlight stream into the room.
“God in Heaven,” Van Helsing whispered. At the abject horror in his tone, a
thrill of unutterable fear shot through me. I closed my eyes and remained facing
the window, for I knew what I would see the instant I turned.
Alas, I could not remain so forever. So I faced at last the heartrending
sight upon the bed: Lucy unconscious, grey as Hillingham’s stone walls and just
as lifeless. For a sickening instant, I honestly thought her dead.
And then, blessedly, her chest rose as she struggled for breath. Van Helsing
addressed me at once. “Friend John, now is the time to make your sacrifice. Lock
the door, then sit; I shall go into the other room but a moment, and then when I
return, I will do it swiftly.”
I replied not a word, but moved directly to the door and locked it fast
whilst the professor went into the adjacent room. Then I sat and tried to
breathe slowly, evenly, in hopes of slowing my furiously racing heart. A
miserable sense of failure washed over me, along with the irrational conviction
that if Lucy died, I alone was to blame.
Directly Van Helsing came out, encompassed once again by the egg-shaped
brilliant blue shield of his powerful aura. I glanced beside me to see that Lucy
herself was radiating the pitifully dim emerald glow; as for myself, I spread my
hand before me, curious to see what colour I might find there—but found nothing.
(Van Helsing later reported to me that I have a “very healthy” blue aura with
areas of gold.)
Beyond that, I remember virtually nothing of the exchange, except that it
seemed over almost instantly, and the professor was directing me to the couch in
the next room. I slept a time, then had a hearty breakfast; even so, the
experience left me noticeably weakened.
As for poor Lucy, she was improved, though not as much as she had been by the
“operation” with Arthur. When I returned to the professor, who was himself
resting in the sitting-room, he confessed that he had not taken so much
“life-force,” or prana, from me. “After all,” he said, “Mr. Holmwood is
not attempting to fight the vampire, and you are.”
Then he sighed, and stared disconsolately into the cold fireplace which faced
the sofa; in his blue eyes was a deep anguish that was painful to see.
“I am wrong, I think, to involve you in this any further, John. I thought I knew
the danger we faced—but now I realise I know nothing at all. Until now, Vlad has
been limited in how and where he can work his evil; yet in Miss Lucy’s case, the
talismans which once repelled him now slow him not at all. And if he can come
and go as he pleases, then Miss Lucy—and all else whom he wishes—have no hope.
Nor you and I, John. You, the one person on earth whom I had wanted to protect
from him…”
An abrupt spasm of grief crossed his features; he carelessly tore off his
spectacles and tossed them aside, then put his great square face into his hands
and wept hoarsely.
The sight of his despair pulled at my heart as much as the sight of Lucy had,
as did his profession of concern for my sake (though I wondered why he should
feel more protective of me than of his own wife). I set a comforting hand upon
his thick shoulder. “Professor,” I said gently. “You are yourself exhausted, and
the whole situation seems to you quite hopeless. But you have again saved Lucy
today. Remember that, then sleep and eat well yourself, for neither one of us is
any use if we do not tend ourselves.”
At that, he looked up and said haggardly, “I will rest and eat today, John.
And this evening I will come and sit with Miss Lucy myself during the night
while you go home.” When I began to protest, he raised a hand. “No— no
objections. Remember, you have been weakened in a most dangerous manner; by
tomorrow, though, you will be fit again for duty, and then I will rest.”
“Very well,” I agreed, and rose to go. But before I could take a step towards
the door, he added softly:
“In the country and at the asylum, I have sent out urgent call after urgent
call for help—this even before I knew how desperate was our case. Now I know
that all the knowledge, all the power, I have acquired over the past
quarter-century has been in vain. If that help does not come soon, my son, then
you and I both are lost.”
* * *
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
18 SEPTEMBER.
Miss Lucy will soon leave us. This I know from looking down at her sweet
face, still pale and drawn after the “emergency transfusion” Jack and I
performed with an American, Mr. Quincey Morris, as donor. It is not so much the
physical signs of anaemia—her bloodless complexion, the terrible blue-grey of
her lips and gums, her weak, rapid breath—that convince me of her impending
death. These alone are painful enough to see, but far worse are the signs of an
imminent, insidious transformation: the elongated canines, the look of sinister
voluptuousness which comes over her in sleep, and the subtle gleam of indigo I
see behind her green gaze.
After last night’s events, I am shaken to the core. I, who arrogantly
believed myself powerful enough to take on the Impaler—I have learned that I am
nothing, of no use to anyone. I, the vampire “expert,” could not even save dear
Miss Lucy after weeks of effort! What advice shall I offer them all now, except
to flee their native land and live the rest of their lives in dread of
discovery?
Here is the sad story: The garlic blossoms arrived on the eleventh, after
which Miss Lucy seemed to rally. I dared to hope that, although my talismans had
failed, the delicate white blossoms themselves possessed a natural and therefore
stronger magic which would repel the Impaler. At any rate, our patient declared
that they permitted her to sleep peacefully.
For the past week, I had again closeted myself in my asylum cell during the
day to repeat the Abramelin ritual —praying for a response from my mentor or
indeed any quarter. As always, no reply. Hopeless as it all seems now,
I would sell my soul to the vampire’s “Dark Lord” Himself if I could be
guaranteed no deceit and a certain outcome of Vlad and Zsuzsanna destroyed and
all mortals protected. And, of course, no transformation of myself into a
vampire…
Most evenings I went to Hillingham and sat watch over our patient; some
nights, John would relieve me after midnight. Again, I do not know what we
expected to accomplish, as Vlad had already entered Lucy’s room without
detection; but it is a difficult thing to give up all hope and surrender to
inaction.
Last night’s plan was for John to sit vigil; I would remain the entire day
and night in my cell, trying both to elicit help and further charge a special
Solomon’s Seal, which talisman represented our last hope. As I would be
indisposed, John had told the Westenra ladies the day before that I had returned
to Amsterdam and would be back in approximately twenty-four hours.
But that afternoon, John suffered a rather serious cut on his wrist, courtesy
of Mr. Renfield, who had escaped his cell. Vlad at work again! Clearly, the
vampire was planning something nefarious at Hillingham that night and did not
wish Seward’s interference; the safest thing was for John to remain at the
asylum. This deduction I kept to myself, and merely told John that he was too
weak to sit vigil at all, that he should go to his bed and sleep the night. I
would keep watch all night at Hillingham. He had lost quite a bit of blood from
the cut, and so readily agreed.
Thus yesterday I went to the Westenra estate alone and invisible, and knocked
upon the door some ten minutes before sunset. The downstairs maid (a timid brown
mouse of a girl, with large, gentle eyes) opened the door a crack—then wider,
wider, until she stood upon the porch hands on hips, frowning, looking all about
for the prankster who had summoned her then fled. I slipped past her easily,
made my examination of the windows to be sure all the little crosses were in
place (instinct was at work here, not logic), and finally went upstairs to Miss
Lucy’s room.
Even before I entered, the pungent smell in the corridor told me that the
blossoms were still in place. The door to the patient’s room was half-ajar. I
slipped through easily —though tentatively, as I did not wish to compromise her
modesty; as luck had it, she was in her night-dress, sitting in bed frowning
down at Plutarch’s Lives, with a tray of half-eaten food upon the
night-stand. She was still wan, but much improved after her most recent setback;
there was a hint of colour in her cheeks and lips.
I sat in the cushioned chair beside Lucy’s bed, and a terrible sense of
familiarity overcame me, what the French call deja vu. I was stricken
with the same hopeless sadness I felt in the rocking-chair beside Mama’s
deathbed; and even to the same degree, for though a month ago this charming
young woman was a stranger to me, I had grown paternally fond of her. Now I
could not shake the sense that she was as doomed as poor Mama—even more so,
because her ultimate fate would be far more hideous than the sweet repose of
death.
With such grim thoughts circling my tired brain, I sat, righting to maintain
keen alertness for all those signs of Vlad’s approach that, the last time, I had
completely missed. And I took out the Solomon’s Seal from my vest pocket and
held it in my hand, contemplating its shining silver surface and the geometric
designs and Hebrew letters inscribed thereon. The sight of it gave comfort and a
faint hope that perhaps it and the fresh garlic blossoms, shipped daily from
Haarlem, would be sufficient to repel Vlad.
Hours passed. Lucy reached for a pear from the supper tray, took a
half-hearted bite, and tossed it back; then she closed the book and set it, too,
aside. I was hopeful sleep would come soon for her, but she gave another
restless sigh and rummaged through the night-stand drawer for a little diary and
pen. With these in hand she sat back, opened the diary, and raised the pen,
poised to write.
That inspiration, too, failed her, and with a small noise of disgust, she
replaced them, extinguished the lamp, and fell back into the bed.
At last the shift in her breathing that signalled sleep came. I rose and went
to the window ledge, and there gently placed the Seal, the most powerful of
magical protections I could offer up on her behalf.
Then I returned to my familiar post and sat in the chair watching her sleep.
After a time, a soft flapping came at the window; I did not rise to peer out,
for there was nothing to see—no aura, no animal disguise. But the hairs that
rose, prickling, on my nape and arms told me that the vampire had indeed
arrived. The flapping grew louder until it woke Lucy. Even in the dark, I could
see her fearful expression, and wished that I had created a new lie saying that
my Amsterdam “trip” had been cancelled, so that I might speak to her now and
take her hand, and offer what paltry comfort I could. For some minutes, she
clearly struggled to remain awake; at last, her anxiety grew so that she rose
and opened the bedroom door, calling out:
“Is there anybody there?”
The hall remained dark and silent, and so she closed the door again. By this
time, the sound of nearby howling accompanied the flapping, which sent her to
the window. She lifted the edge of the blind and peeked out; I caught a glimpse
of a black bat’s wing in the instant before she screamed softly, then ran back
to the bed.
There she huddled pitifully, eyes wide and terror-struck. My desire to
comfort her grew so overwhelming that I decided to exit the room, become
visible, then knock softly at her door, saying that I had returned early from
Amsterdam and was overwhelmed by the sense that she needed my help.
Indeed, I rose to do just that—but at that instant, a knock came at the door,
and Mrs. Westenra appeared in her dressing-gown; apparently she had
been overwhelmed by maternal instinct for her child. I was grateful, for she
climbed into bed with her daughter, and the two lay in each other’s arms, and
found a moment of peace.
Yet again, the flapping sound came again at the window, alarming Mrs.
Westenra; she struggled to sit, crying: “What is that?” Now it was the
daughter’s turn to offer reassurance with pats and soft words. Soon the mother
sighed and settled back against the pillow, and, for an all-too-fleeting moment,
found rest.
A howl—this one nearer, as if the animal responsible now stood directly below
the window. If confrontation were to come, it would be soon; I calmed my mind
and focussed on the Solomon’s Seal at the window, and its radiant golden “wall”
of power which only god or devil could penetrate.
The next instant: the sweet, high crescendo of breaking glass, the screams of
the ladies Westenra, a shower of razor-sharp diamonds spraying forth from
Solomon’s wall of gold, borne upon a gust so powerful that the blind snapped up,
spinning. I squeezed my eyes tightly shut and felt the sting of tiny shards
against my face and hands. Invisible or no, protected or no, I was slammed at
once against the far wall.
Abruptly, the maelstrom ceased; I opened my eyes. An inky mist a hundred, a
thousand, times blacker than the night streamed slowly over the remaining jagged
panes, unaffected by the Solomon’s Seal, whose golden gleam had been abruptly
extinguished. I knew not then what horror Mrs. Westenra saw; she flailed in an
hysterical effort to sit, pulling the wreath of blooming garlic from Lucy’s neck
in the process, then pointed in stark terror at the window.
And with a strangled gurgle, fell over dead.
Her head struck Lucy’s full force; I struggled to rise, to help my patient,
to place myself between the girl and the vampire, to offer myself up in her
stead. But I could not move—could do nothing, in fact, save stare in helpless
horror and fury at what transpired.
And as I watched, the mist completed its entry and formed a tall column just
inside the broken window; a blink, and the column had transformed itself into
Vlad. Vlad as I had never seen him: dressed like a virile and dapper young
nobleman in a tailoured black silk suit, white skin and white teeth gleaming
like pearl, onyx hair aglisten with sparks of indigo. So much life
seemed to emanate from him that he no longer seemed undead— only gloriously,
magnificently powerful.
Smiling, he stepped gracefully over to the night-stand, entirely ignoring the
two women (one dead, one swooning), and bent down to pick up an object from the
floor: the Solomon’s Seal, now dull and lifeless. This he tossed at me,
sneering: “I believe this is yours, Dr. Van Helsing?”
I could say nothing; the facility of speech had left me, and my legs and back
seemed quite pinned to the glass-strewn carpet. But my hands and arms were now
functional, so I caught the talisman and held it reverently. My greatest fear at
that moment was not death, nor even his bite, but that I could no longer stop
him from performing the blood ritual—the ritual by which he had linked my
ancestors to him, the ritual by which he renewed his immortality, that he might
not perish. If he performed it upon me now, he would know my every thought… and
I would be his mortal slave, to accomplish the evil that he could not.
He must have seen my thoughts in my face, for his mocking grin widened. “How
you flatter yourself, sir, to think that I might need you. I need no one
anymore, do you understand? The world belongs to me, not to you silly
mortals. I can go wherever, do whatever, I list!” And he spread his arms in a
grandiose gesture, then lowered them and raised a warning finger at me. “But you
would be wise, now, to come to me of your own accord. Why struggle, when it is
clear you can do nothing to stop me?”
“Then kill me,” I said. It was not merely a dare; my grief at being unable to
save Lucy left me in an agony of hopelessness. “Kill me honestly, and deliver me
to Death uncorrupted, if indeed I am of no worth to you.”
A spasm of fury contorted his features. He swept the air with his arm as
though dealing a back-handed blow; my head and upper torso smashed against the
floor again so violently that the air was forced from my lungs, leaving me for
an agonising minute unable to draw a breath.
In the midst of my struggle, the maids rushed in crying out as their bare
feet found the scattered glass. When one of them managed to light the lamp, they
began to shriek in earnest. Lucy miraculously revived and, once they had freed
her from beneath her mother’s weighty body and wrapped it in a sheet, tried to
calm them. When that failed, she sent them all away to have a glass of wine once
Mrs. Westenra’s corpse was laid out on the bed, for they were weeping with
hysterical abandon. All this took place without any of the women noticing either
intruder in Miss Lucy’s bedchamber; nor did they notice when Vlad abruptly
disappeared.
Yet I know he remained nearby, I lay in anguished helplessness on the floor,
unable to move, and though I could speak, my cries went unheard. Mental
concentration? I had none, and therefore my own efforts to remain invisible had
lapsed when Vlad appeared. Yet he had apparently power enough to spare in that
regard, for poor Miss Lucy could neither see nor hear me. Weeping silently, she
put on the slippers beside her bed, then gathered up all the garlic blossoms
strewn upon the floor and window ledge, and even the crushed ones her mother had
pulled from around her neck. These she laid with heartbreaking tenderness upon
her dead mother’s shrouded bosom.
I tried to cry out a warning to her then, but caught myself: there was no
point in trying to pierce the veil Vlad had erected between us. Even if I could,
what good would the blossoms do her? They had not held the vampire back any
better than the Solomon’s Seal.
This was all that was left to her now—this one moment of loving and dignified
grief. Beyond that lay the grave, and even worse horrors, none of which I could
help her escape.
She stood with head bowed before her mother’s corpse for some time. Then she
lifted her face and stared curiously out at the doorway, for it was clear that
the maids were lingering overlong at their wine. Worse, the sound of their
voices had faded away into total silence. I knew all too well what evil had
befallen them, but Miss Lucy did not; even so, the look of fright in her wide
eyes indicated that she had some instinctual sense of what had occurred —and was
yet to come—that night.
She stepped to the open door and called for them, only to receive no
response; thus she left the room and searched them down. I waited in the most
horrid suspense, thinking that I might next hear her scream. But all without was
silence until she crept back into the room, wearing a look of such helpless
terror upon her pale face that I felt the sting of tears.
She went straight to her night-stand and took out the little diary and pen;
this time she wrote, swiftly and in earnest. I expected Vlad to arrive any
moment and interrupt her chronicle, but it was as though he were allowing her
this time as a last gift. At length she finished, and tore this final testament
page from her diary; then she folded it, and slipped it between her breasts.
Grief crushed me. For whose sake I struggled to hold back my tears, I cannot
say; perhaps I did not want my enemy to gloat. I did not yield to them until I
saw her final gesture of surrender: she lay down on the bed and carefully
arranged her nightgown and hair, then folded her arms over her breast—as if she
were already a corpse like her mother, who lay beside her.
Thus she was when Vlad came to her. By that time, I could bear no more, but
closed my eyes, and would not open them, even when he mocked me and impugned
Miss Lucy’s honour in ways too vile to set down on paper. His verbal slings I
could ignore, but when I heard the sounds of his suckling and poor Lucy’s sharp
little cries, I understood too well why Gerda had surrendered to madness.
* * *
In the early morning, Seward came—in quite a rush, as if he sensed that
disaster had befallen us. By then, I was the only conscious soul at Hillingham;
I had wakened moments before from a deep vampire-induced sleep to find Lucy near
death, almost as cold and gaunt as her mother’s corpse. I attempted an emergency
transfer of psychic energy from myself to her, but the previous night’s events
had left me curiously drained; not only was I unable to complete the exercise, I
became faint and nearly fell upon the poor child.
Soon I heard knocking upon the door, and John’s voice calling out. I
staggered downstairs and let him in; from my dishevelled appearance, he knew
that the worst had indeed happened, and took immediate action. He found the four
maids asleep in the dining-room; to my great relief, they had not been bitten or
killed, but were merely drugged with laudanum. He managed to rouse three, and
they in turn set to work, preparing a warm bath and fetching brandy to revive
Miss Lucy.
Of course, such measures were of little use; we needed a transfusion of
energy, but I could see that John was still weak from Renfield’s attack, and so
refused to let him risk himself. But one was sent to us, as if from the gods: a
good friend of both John’s and Arthur Holmwood’s, Mr. Quincey Morris from
America.
I had thought that Arthur was John’s best friend, but clearly Mr. Morris is
just as close to the two of them. When he arrived, I saw a flicker of honest joy
for the first time in weeks upon John’s haggard face, and the two men grabbed
each other’s arms, then happily thumped each other’s shoulders almost to the
point of injury. This Quincey is a very tall, thin fellow, mostly gangly arms
and legs, with thinning red hair and ubiquitous freckles. And a beak for a nose!
When he stands sideways, the effect is comical (I can write so cruelly here
because he is jovial and would be first to laugh at himself): first there is the
great white boat of a hat called the Stetson, then the great beak of a nose,
then a huge lump of an Adam’s apple, all set atop a body slumped in an effort to
reduce the great height.
It is a sad story I must tell, and Quincey Morris was the only bright spot in
it.
Once the violent thumping of the shoulders and greetings were done, John
explained the need for a.“transfusion.” Mr. Morris agreed, with the same
unhesitating vehemence John had, which made me think that he, too, shares an
unrequited love for Lucy.
So it was done—-in Mrs. Westenra’s bedroom, as the dead woman still lay in
Lucy’s bed.
John and Mr. Morris now sit talking at the breakfast table, whilst I remain
upstairs to watch Miss Lucy, and write this record. As robust a man as the
American is, the transfusion of his energy to her has had little effect. Her
breathing is a bit less rapid, and her pulse a bit stronger, but it is not
enough.
I have not spoken aloud to John of our hopeless situation in terms of Miss
Lucy or ourselves, nor explained in detail last night’s events. But when he saw
Lucy’s room with the corpse and the shattered window, some of the grim helpless
fury I had felt only hours before came over his face. He knows; he knows.
It will not be long now.
Chapter 12
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
20 SEPTEMBER.
A day of the blackest sorrow and despair; yet in the midst of gloom shines a
ray of love and valour. My heart vacillates so between the two extremes that I
grow wearied and confused—but I must make sense of it all, as there are
decisions to be made and lives in the balance. So I write, for writing ofttimes
brings illumination.
For two days and two nights John and I sat with Miss Lucy, never leaving her
an instant without one of us at her side—though I knew there was no hope of
protecting her from her murderer, or from an unthinkable fate. The most we could
provide her was the comfort of our presence. It was the hardest of tasks; but my
own grief at failing this sweet child, who had so trusted me, was nothing
compared to John’s. Many times I went in to relieve him to find him with silent
tears streaming down his cheeks as, tenderly, he clasped her hand whilst she lay
sleeping. It is a bitter thing for him; he is still deeply in love with her, but
cannot mourn her openly—cannot even profess his love a final time before she
dies. That right is Arthur’s, whom I have come to learn is one of his dearest
and oldest friends.
And she was dying indeed. That final transfusion never restored to her any
vigour, only prolonged the inevitable, which was clearly devastating to her
donor, Quincey. (I cannot refer to him as “Mr. Morris,” for he is, like most
Americans, charmingly casual, and refreshingly forthright in stating his
thoughts and feelings in his musical Texan accent.) But there is one feeling
that he does try to hide— his own unrequited love for Miss Lucy. I have seen the
flicker of pain in his dark eyes when he looks down at her; he cannot bear to
linger in the sickroom lest his love should show, and cause John or Arthur any
unhappiness. Thus he busies himself with various ways of helping: he has been
our errand-boy, and when I said that Arthur should be notified at once, it was
he who went to send the telegram. John tells me that Quincey would not sleep
last night, but instead patrolled the grounds with pistol in hand. (John also
ruefully confessed that Quincey has convinced himself the culprit is a large
“vampire bat,” of the sort found in South America. Apparently he once lost a
beloved horse to such cause, and says he has seen a big grey bat flapping around
the house. He is closer to the truth than I thought!)
As for Arthur: His father, Lord Godalming, had taken a turn for the worse on
Sunday—the day after Lucy’s final encounter with the vampire.
So the
poor boy had remained the whole day and night at the elder man’s deathbed. His
father died shortly before dawn Monday, leaving Arthur—or, I should say, the new
Lord Godalming—with little time to grieve that loss before he received our
telegram saying that Lucy was failing and had asked for him. Quincey picked him
up at the station, and he arrived here so red-eyed, grim, and exhausted that it
pained me to lead him into Lucy’s sickroom and see his sorrow multiplied. (Quincey
himself disappeared, I think because he feared breaking down in the sickroom and
further upsetting Arthur.) As it happened, the new Lord Godalming arrived at
precisely six o’clock, when I was coming to relieve John from his vigil; so
Arthur sat with me the whole of my watch, until midnight.
As overwhelmed as the poor man must have been, he was cheerful with Lucy in a
way that rallied her a bit—and she, too, affected such cheerfulness that I could
not bear to watch them both be so brave for the other’s sake. But weakness
overcame her soon, and she went back to her pattern of lapsing into frequent
periods of unconsciousness; other times, she gave up struggling to speak and
just lay in silence. Through it all, Arthur sat beside her, holding her hand and
gazing down at her with the same expression of despairing adoration I had seen
John wear. Despite his privileged upbringing, Lord Godalming is a strong, strong
man.
In thirty years of medical practice, I have visited many families who cared
for a mortally ill member. All are different, of course—some loving, some not;
but all share one constant, especially when death draws nigh. The experience
causes formality and pretense to fall away, not only for the dying member, but
for those who tend him, so that only the truest essence of all persons remains.
In some cases, this is a sad thing, for anger, regret, or sorrow might be
revealed, or inner weakness wherein the individual lapses into morbid despair
from which he cannot recover.
In other cases, the experience melts away the more superficial aspects of the
personality, revealing a golden core of strength and compassion. This is what I
saw in him and his friends Quincey and Arthur, and in Miss Lucy herself; and
despite great sadness, I felt warmed and privileged to be among them.
At last the hour struck twelve, and John appeared in the doorway. I rose,
patted Arthur’s shoulder, and bade him come to rest, as he had not done so in
almost two days. He resisted heartily until John vowed that, should Lucy’s
condition take a change for the worse, however slight, he would wake his friend
immediately. At last he came, and we went into the drawing-room, where two
comfortable sofas faced a blazing hearth.
There I rested, but did not sleep, as my thoughts were anxious and many;
blessedly, Arthur fell almost at once into a doze. I listened to the clock chime
hour after hour, until at last it was sunrise again—six o’clock. Arthur was
still sleeping soundly, so I stole away, back into Lucy’s sickroom, where John
sat writing in the dimmed gaslight.
The blind was pulled, and the room shadowed. I could not see the patient’s
face, but above her heart and head hovered a fatal telltale sign: the glittering
indigo aura that marked a vampire. At once, I ordered John to raise the blind.
The pale dawn sunlight streamed in, illuminating Miss Lucy’s face—which caused
me to gasp, for at first I thought I was looking upon a corpse. But she still
breathed, and so I hurriedly untied the black silk scarf I had fastened about
the puncture wounds.
It was as I had feared; the vampire’s mark had vanished, leaving the milky
skin there smooth and flawless.
John saw, too, and, even before I told him, seemed to know that she was
dying. He went and woke Arthur—for in truth, I could not bear to break the news
to the lad myself. Instead, I busied myself with straightening Lucy’s pillows,
and quickly removing all signs of sickness from the night-stand—the laudanum
bottle, the morphia, the chamber-pot. Then I brushed out her hair so that it lay
in becoming waves upon the pillows, for I knew that Lucy should have liked to
look her best for this last moment shared with her fiance.
So the stricken lover came—or should I say, her
two stricken lovers,
for John, his expression and posture one of the utmost resolve, came in with his
arm firmly wound about Arthur’s shoulders in a gesture of unreserved support.
Yet his eyes, as much as Arthur’s, shone with unspilled tears; he felt the
coming loss just as keenly, but Fate had not dealt him the right to show it.
As the two approached the deathbed, John let go his grip, and let his friend
rush at once to Lucy’s side. I do not mention my pity for my son in order to
make light of Arthur’s suffering—far from it, I think it shows how good a man
Holmwood (that is, Lord Godalming) must be, to inspire such deep loyalty in a
friend. And John, too, for many lesser men have broken off long friendships over
their shared love for one woman.
As for Arthur, having come from the deathbed of his father to that of the
woman he loved, he entered the room pale and trembling, with fresh tears upon
his cheeks. But the closer he drew to Lucy, the more firmly he put aside his
double grief, wiping his eyes and running his fingers through his dishevelled
curls that he might present to her his best. He is a strong man, that one. I
remembered how stricken I had been when my little son Jan died, and Gerda went
mad; certainly I could never have put up as stolid a front as Arthur did.
It was then that he ran to her side, and bent low to kiss her—but I had seen
the growing indigo aura surrounding her; were he to consummate his intent, she
might well mesmerise him to the degree that after death, she could influence him
for ill. Thus I moved between them, and gently warned, “Not yet. Take her hand;
it will comfort her more.”
He was perplexed, but sorrow had stripped him of any defiance, so he did as
told. It was a difficult thing, to tell a man that he could not kiss his dying
lover, but I knew no other way to protect him.
Miss Lucy took great comfort in his presence and his touch, and sank back
into sleep with a sigh. But after a time, honest sleep turned to trance, and a
veil of illusory beauty such as the vampire can produce enveloped her. John saw
it, I know, for he gave me a sharp, knowing glance. Lucy then opened her eyes—or
rather, a demoness’ eyes—and begged him to kiss her, in a seductive, wicked
parody of her own sweet voice.
So swiftly did Arthur bend down to oblige her that, abandoning all civility,
I caught hold of his neck and flung him away, shouting, “Not for your life!”
Remembering it now causes fresh pain, for I know how unspeakably
cruel—indeed, mad—my act must have seemed to him. In fact, a gleam of violence
came into his eye. But almost immediately it passed, and he merely stood,
awaiting explanation.
I did not give it, for very shortly thereafter, Lucy came to herself, and
took my great coarse hand in her fine small one and kissed it. This in itself
was sufficient to summon my tears; but then she gazed up at me with beseeching,
loving eyes, and said in a breathless whisper: “My true friend, and his! Guard
him, and give me peace!”
Atremble with emotion, I sank to my knees beside the bed. These were
difficult, perhaps impossible, things she had asked of me—if Vlad was now so
powerful, so impervious, how could I know that she, his offspring, would not
also become so?
Yet for love’s sake, I answered solemnly, “I swear!”
I
do swear, Lucy. I swear it with every fibre of my being, with all
my strength and soul. Impossible it may be, but I shall accomplish it, or die in
the effort…
Her breathing became more of a struggle, until I heard the faint rattle in
her throat. I rose and turned to Arthur, who no longer fought to hold back the
tears that streamed down his wan cheeks. The end had come, and so I bade him
take her hand and kiss her only once, upon the forehead.
This he did, and then she slowly closed her eyes. The death-rattle grew
louder then, and so I took Arthur’s arm and drew him away. Yet before we reached
the door, the sound stopped abruptly; our sweet Miss Lucy had died.
I returned to her side, and let John take his sobbing friend away. There I
sat some time, gazing in grief and horror as Lucy’s worn, wasted face began at
once to bloom with life—or rather, undeath.
For more than twenty years, I have hunted vampires all over the European
continent, and in every case, I prevailed: the vampire was destroyed, and his
progenitor, Vlad, weakened. Again and again was the same scenario repeated—the
hunt, the capture, the destruction, always according to the same rules. The
vampire’s abilities and limitations never varied, the cross and the garlic never
failed. In time I grew more powerful, and my task easier; so strong was my aura
that I could move in complete confidence of invisibility around the undead. They
could neither mesmerise nor overpower me. But now…
As I bitterly contemplated my failure, John returned and stood beside me in
silence, both of us contemplating the corpse. For a time, neither of us spoke;
and then John asked:
“Professor. Does a dying man have the right to know he is dying?”
His tone was so calm and conversational that I believed he was trying to
distract himself, perhaps by trying to decide whether Lucy herself had been
so aware; thus, I answered in the same manner. “Of course. If he does not
know, how can he properly prepare himself?”
He spoke again, and this time I noted a faint but growing anger behind his
words. “And does a man engaged in battle—even a battle he cannot possibly win—
have the right to know who it is he fights?”
A slight chill seized me, for I suddenly understood where his line of
questioning led—yet I could not bring myself to reply. Instead, I gazed up at
him, and saw that he was struggling terribly to hold in a powerful tide of
emotion.
When he realised no answer would come, he said heatedly, “Professor, you
cannot bear this terrible burden alone any longer. You have seen Arthur and
Quincey and, I hope, come to know them as the brave, honourable men they are.
They have—”
“What do you suggest, John? That I tell them the truth? Even if they believed
it, what good would come of it? Only that they would be endangered—”
“Lucy was ignorant,” he cried, with a sudden vehemence that flushed his
cheeks scarlet. “What good came of
thatr
For this I had no answer, so I stood mutely as he continued to release grief
in the form of anger. He shook, lie raged, he lifted his fist and shook it in my
face.
“They have as much right as I to know the cause of Lucy’s death so that they
might avenge it—and wipe this terrible scourge from the earth! They are my
dearest friends, and I will not stand by and see them die of ignorance! Good
God, Quince could very well have been bitten himself, wandering around outside
in the night, trying to make himself useful in some small way!“
And at that, the storm of tears finally came, with such fury that he sank to
his knees beside Miss Lucy and buried his face in the bed, one fist helplessly
pounding against the mattress.
I said nothing; I let him cry. But his words pricked me, and evoked within me
a different sort of tempest.
After some moments, he raised his damp, flushed face and rose to leave.
Before he reached the door he turned, and said with calm, quiet dignity so that
I would know he’d meant every word, despite the accompanying emotional display:
“Dr. Van Helsing, you have long put your trust in secrecy and science, in
magical protections and rituals. Now all those things have failed you. But there
is one thing which will never fail, one thing which will always be stronger than
any evil: the human heart. I offer you mine and those of my two closest friends
in the coming battle, for their sake as well as your own.”
* * *
26 SEPTEMBER.
Lucy was buried in a double service with her mother on the twenty-second; a
bitter affair for all, especially those two who knew she had not gone to a
peaceful end.
Intense contemplation has not permitted the truth of John’s angry words to
fade; indeed, the more I savour them, the more I come to believe that he is
right. We have agreed that when Miss Lucy is truly set to rest, it shall be
Arthur’s hand which performs the deed, and John, Quincey, and I will all be in
attendance. I have written Arthur and Quincey letters, asking them to accompany
me to the gravesite. Beyond that, I offered no explanation; words cannot
convince as thoroughly as physical evidence.
In the meantime, the last few days have been busy ones for several reasons.
As there were no surviving kin, Mrs. Westenra left her estate to Arthur. He in
turn asked John and me for assistance in sifting through papers and making
burial arrangements, as he was already quite overwhelmed by similar obligations
in connexion with his father’s death. I asked him for leave to examine Lucy’s
personal papers and diary for more insight as to “the nature of her disease.”
This he granted, being too distracted even to question my request.
In going through those papers, I discovered a thick bundle of letters from a
Wilhelmina Murray, whom Lucy also mentioned constantly in her diary as “Mina.”
It seems these two women were the best of friends; in fact, Lucy often summered
with Madam—that is, Miss—Mina at the Westenra cottage at Whitby. Lucy did not
keep a diary at the time (upon returning to London, however, she succumbed to
Miss Mina’s journalistic influence and began one), so we have no record of what
precisely occurred. But I know it was there she was first bitten.
Mina’s letters, some of which were sadly never opened, reflected a lady of
great kindness and intelligence. Upon reading them, I felt at once as if I had
already met and befriended her; so I was even more fearful to learn of her time
at Whitby with Lucy. For if Lucy had been bitten, why not her friend?
Two days after the Westenra funeral, I wrote Miss Mina Murray (now Mrs. Mina
Harker) asking if I might interview her, as I had been Lucy Westenra’s physician
and was investigating the cause of her death. She responded promptly and most
warmly, inviting me to her home in Exeter the very next day.
With some trepidation, I went. My heart was still sore after the terrible
defeat with Lucy, and I dreaded finding yet another kind gentlewoman stricken
with the vampire’s curse.
Fortunately, when I arrived in Exeter and stepped into Mrs. Harker’s
drawing-room, I saw a young lady blooming with health: the rosy cheeks and lips
were a welcome and beautiful sight after poor Lucy’s pallor. Even lovelier was
the sight of her long neck rising pure and unmarked from a collarless gown. Yet
Madam Mina (I could not resist calling her so at once, for it was clear that
Lucy’s death had already united us in friendship) looked nothing like what I had
expected. Her letters indicated a woman of such great maturity and wisdom that I
had imagined her as older than Lucy, taller, and more solidly built.
But she was a good head shorter than her late friend, a tiny, fragile-looking
creature hardly larger than the schoolchildren she had taught before her recent
marriage to Mr. Harker. Her face, too, was that of a child—heart-shaped beneath
a dark brown pompadour, with great hazel eyes, small nose, and rosebud mouth—so
innocent and ingenuous that she would go through life always looking far younger
than her years. Ah, but those eyes… They reminded me of John’s, for they were
sensitive, intelligent, quick to absorb every detail—and blessedly free from any
trace of treacherous glittering indigo. Indeed, even in the bright daylight
streaming through the open shutters, a definite violet glow could be detected
surrounding her: a strong aura for a strong woman.
She had apparently been hard at work when I arrived, for I heard clacking out
in the hallway, which ceased the instant the maid knocked to announce my
arrival. When the door swung open wide, I saw that one corner of the
drawing-room had been converted into a study. Behind her stood a desk upon which
rested stacked newspapers, a small black diary, white paper stacked in a wire
basket, and a large typewriter with a sheet of paper inserted.
And in that second’s pause when we two faced each other and I verified that
she was indeed Mrs. Harker, nee Mina Murray, those intelligent eyes
scrutinised me most intently, yet swiftly enough that courtesy was not breached.
Apparently I impressed her as favourably as she had me, for a look of subtle
warmth came over her cherubic features.
She approached with a gracious smile, and held out a delicate, pale hand one
third the size of my large, callused brown one. I took it, grateful to sense by
touch that my visual appraisal of her had been accurate: she was uncursed,
unmarked. Thus the smile I returned to her was the first genuine one in many
days.
“Madam Mina,” I said, instinctively using the less formal form of address,
which seemed to please her. “It is on account of the dead that I come.”
Her gaze was refreshingly intense and direct (as we Dutch prefer), without
the averted glances and eyelash-fluttering so favoured by Englishwomen. And I
saw in it love for her dead friend and honest gratitude towards me; and when she
spoke, I knew she did so directly from the heart. “Sir,” replied she, in a
strong, mature voice that belied her juvenile appearance, “you have no better
claim on me than that you were a friend and helper of Lucy Westenra.”
The moment of introduction over, she asked as to precisely what information I
desired from her, and I explained my need for certain information about Whitby—
as much as she could remember.
“Why, I can tell you everything about it,” she said, gesturing for me to sit
upon a nearby sofa. “I have written it all down. Would you like to see it?”
Of course. So she retrieved the black diary from the desk, and handed it to
me with a sudden impish glint in her eye; Madam Mina, it seems, has a wry sense
of humour.
I opened the diary, intending to begin reading at once —but upon the page
were neat but totally incomprehensible squiggles and curls and lines. “Mr.
Jonathan Harker is a lucky man,” I said, handing it back to her, “to have such a
talented wife. But alas; I do not know shorthand. Would you be so kind as to
read it for me?”
The child blushed as she took the diary, and at once retrieved a stack of
papers from the wire basket. “Forgive me. Here: when you told me you wished to
inquire about Lucy, I went ahead and wrote all the Whitby entries out on the
typewriter for you.”
I thanked her most sincerely for her labour, and asked whether I might read
it then; she agreed and excused herself, saying that she would check on lunch.
Enclosed in the privacy of the drawing-room, I read swiftly through the
entries. They spoke of Whitby and Lucy and several sleepwalking incidents; in
one place, it was clear that she had rescued Miss Lucy from the vampire’s very
grasp without knowing it. The diary had obviously been intended to be private,
for it mentioned her extreme anxiety over her then-fiance, Jonathan, who was
apparently abroad and had not written in some time. I thought nothing of this at
all, focusing all my attention on the events where Vlad was most clearly
involved. Until, that is, I read the entry of 26 July, when Madam Mina had just
received the long-awaited letter from Jonathan, forwarded by his employer. One
sentence seemed to leap from the very page:
“It is only a line dated from Castle Dracula, and says that he is just
starting for home.”
I was glad then that she had left me alone, for I swore aloud and struck the
sofa with my fist at the sight of the name. Jonathan at Castle Dracula! And here
this sweet lady, by whom I was immediately smitten, was not safe at all—she was
in the very heart of danger! The vampire’s evil had touched her not just once,
through the death of her dearest friend, but through her poor husband as well.
I read further, and learned that Jonathan had suffered from “brain fever,”
for he had raved wildly at the station-master in Klausenburgh for a “ticket
home.” Though he was penniless, his violent demeanour terrified the locals so
that they gave him a ticket for the train’s westernmost destination, Buda-Pesth.
There he was of such a mental state that he was promptly taken to a sanitorium,
and the good nuns there notified Madam Mina, who came and brought him home to
England. (It was at the Buda-Pesth sanitorium that they were married.)
After I had read it all, I set the papers aside and began to think. The
decision had already been made to bring Quincey and Arthur into our (that is,
John’s and my) confidence concerning the vampire, as it only seemed right that
they take part in avenging the death of the woman they loved.
Did not Madam Mina, too, have the same right? Even were Jonathan not bitten,
he had already suffered great mental torment. I remembered John’s bitter
statement: Lucy had been ignorant about the vampire, yet that had not
protected her in the least. I suppose it is true, then— knowledge is
power, even if, in this case, it is only the power to surrender… or flee.
In any event, it was too late; I had already opened my heart to this young
woman, and cared about her welfare the same as I had cared about Lucy’s. I could
not simply go and leave her here to make the dreadful discovery about her
husband alone, or become the victim of his or Dracula’s attack.
Therefore, when Madam Mina returned, I thanked her roundly for her
illuminating manuscript—though she would have been horrified to know what I had
discovered in its light. As casually as I could, I remarked upon her husband’s
brain fever and asked whether he had recovered completely.
At once a shadow came over her expression, and a deep crease appeared between
her dark, delicate brows; she paused, and said carefully, “He was almost
recovered… but he has been greatly upset by his employer’s death. Mr. Hawkins
took Jonathan under his wing and has been like a father to him for many years.”
I nodded and, with a few sympathetic comments, urged her to speak a bit more
of it.
This increased her discomfort until the crease was joined by others on her
brow, and the full rosebud lips thinned to a flat line. “He had a—a bit of a
shock last Thursday, when we were in town, strolling in Piccadilly.”
Again I coaxed her to reveal more and more, until I learned that the sight of
a man (ha! No mortal man, I suspect!) had upset him, a man who clearly had had
something to do with his brain disease.
Of a sudden, she was on her knees. Not in tears or hysteria, but so
overwhelmed by fear and concern for her husband that she lifted her arms to me
and beseeched me to help him, to make him well again. Though she did not say it,
I knew she feared her Jonathan was going mad.
I gently took Madam Mina’s imploring hands in mine and helped her to her
feet. As I led her to the sofa and sat down beside her, I said—with the utmost
sincerity:
“My dear Madam Mina, since I have come to London in answer to my friend John
Seward’s call, I have found a number of people—including Arthur (that is, Lord
Godalming) and our Miss Lucy—whose strength in the face of despair and whose
compassion have touched me deeply. I am honoured to call them friend, and to
know that they would think of me as one. From your writings and your mere
presence, I know that you are as good and deserving as they. Please think of me
as your friend, Madam Mina, and know that I will help you and your husband in
any way.
“But first—you must calm yourself, and when lunch is ready, you must eat.
Afterwards, you can tell me the details about his troubles.”
As I spoke, she had already grown calm, and the shadow had lifted from her
face, leaving her subdued but hopeful. We went down to lunch, and afterwards, we
retired to the drawing-room, and I urged her to speak of Jonathan.
She lowered her gaze—in fact, seemed to look within herself for the solution
to some dilemma. “Dr. Van Helsing”—and here she looked up at me again with that
frank, honest gaze—“what I have to tell you is so queer that even I am not sure
whether I believe it. It all sounds like madness; so you must promise that you
will not laugh at what I confide in you.”
My pulse quickened; I knew we were about to speak of Dracula and his doings.
Mrs. Harker was no madwoman, of that I was certain. And so I smiled ruefully as
I confessed, “My dear, if you only knew how strange is the reason for which I am
here—it would be you who would laugh. I have learned over time never to
dismiss anyone’s belief without investigation, regardless of how bizarre or
impossible it may seem.”
She watched me intently as she spoke, and I think it was the understanding in
my gaze more than the meaning of my words that convinced her. She relaxed and
nodded, reassured. “Thank you, Dr. Van Helsing.” She rose, went to the desk, and
took again from the basket another stack of paper, which she presented to me.
“This is the diary which my husband kept whilst in Transylvania. It is long,
but I have typewritten it out; it will explain better than I can in a few words
the extent of his trouble. To tell the truth, when I read it—only recently, and
for the first time—the details were so intricate and consistent that I
half-believed it. Even now, I am in a fever of doubt. I can say no more: Will
you take it, read it, and judge? I will wait to hear from you.”
“I shall read it tonight,” I promised, for I was just as eager to read it as
she was to hear my opinion concerning it. “I will stay in Exeter tonight so that
I can let you know my thoughts at once. May I come again in the morning to see
both you and your husband?”
The great relief upon her face was wonderful to behold; so our meeting was
arranged. She of course assumed I desired it so as to make a subtle examination
of Jonathan’s mind, but in truth, I wanted to see for myself whether the
vampire’s mark was on him.
Thus I spent that night in a quiet hotel room, reading the private journal of
a man who had lived through hell and emerged somewhat intact. He had been
entrapped in the castle by Dracula for two months, poor devil. And if his
impressions can be trusted, he was never bitten by Vlad, but was intended as
food to be left behind for three vampiresses he christens the “three brides.” I
might have thought that, in his fear, he miscalculated the number— for Zsuszanna
clearly features in that entry, as does Dunya, and when last I had been to the
castle, those were the only two “women” there. But to hear one distinctly
described as “golden-haired” and “sapphire-eyed”—this could be neither of them.
My hypothesis: that this was Zsuzsanna’s “Elisabeth”; if so, she must be here in
London too.
Another disturbing thought came to me as I read the manuscript—might Jonathan
have been bitten without his knowledge by Vlad or one of the women? At any rate,
I was determined to find out during my next visit to the Harker home.
But along with my fear for both Madam Mina and her new husband came a growing
sense of admiration for him. Here was a young and far-from-worldly young
solicitor who found himself abruptly in the most harrowing of circumstances—in
Dracula’s castle, confronted by disappearing vampiresses and Vlad’s sadistic
hints at his eventual demise, the realisation that the prince (that is, the
“count,” for so it amused Dracula to present himself to his Exeter-based
solicitors) cast no reflection in mirrors, commanded wolves, captured small
children and gave them to the evil women for sustenance; and worst of all, the
fact that he, Harker, was locked inside the castle with no means of escape.
Did he surrender? Did he yield to his immortal seductresses? No. Instead,
knowing himself dead if he took no action, Jonathan crawled from his window some
several hundred feet above the rocky ground, and through sheer will clung with
feet and fingers to the stones and crevices on the castle wall. Thus he made his
way down and escaped on foot—an almost impossible task.
And before he fled, he encountered Vlad asleep in his coffin—not once, but
twice. Most men would have run in terror at the first sight; but Harker sensed
that the “count” was a monster to be destroyed at all costs. Thus he returned
willingly to Vlad’s resting place, and attempted to murder the vampire
with nothing more than a common shovel. A solicitor he might be, but a brave and
true one, and if he had passed from the vampires’ lair unbitten (though surely
not unscathed), he deserved more than any to join in the battle that now faced
our little group.
Upon finishing his amazing tale, I wrote to Madam Mina that her husband’s
diary was entirely true, as was his brain and heart, and that her concern about
his sanity was warrantless. I sent a courier from the hotel, that she might
receive this news (can we really call it good or bad? Nay, it was both) at once.
Within an hour I received a letter from the same messenger; Madam Mina had
penned an immediate reply, asking me to come not for lunch the following day,
but for breakfast.
* * *
At precisely twenty minutes to eight this morning, I answered the knock at my
hotel-room door and found myself face-to-face with the courageous Mr. Jonathan
Harker, who had come to pick me up. He was, like his wife, far younger-looking
than his years, with light brown curling hair and a business-like demeanour; one
would never have thought him capable of the amazing physical feats and courage
professed in his journal. I at once invited him inside, under the pretext that
it would take me a moment to fetch my coat; but my real motive was to have him
to myself a few moments unobserved.
When he entered, closing the door after him, I at once approached and held
his gaze. He was an easy subject and fell into trance almost instantly.
There was no immediate sign of the indigo aura, but I wasted not a moment; I
unfastened his collar and pulled it away, then unbuttoned the top of his shirt
in order to thoroughly examine the neck and collarbone.
No mark. I released a sigh so deep I scarce could stand, and with silent
apology righted Jonathan’s clothing as best I could. Then I went to waken
him—but something subtle in his gaze and aura (scholarly orange, like Arthur’s)
troubled me. It was bright, vibrant, gleaming wherever I looked; yet in the
periphery of my vision, I sensed a hint of encroaching indigo.
I did not know what it portended. In all my hunting years, I had seen traces
of the dark aura only in those the vampire had bitten. And in such cases, it
always showed up obviously, directly—first in the victim’s gaze, then swirling
throughout his own, brighter aura.
Never had I sensed it like this: hovering nearby, just out of sight.
Perhaps, I thought, it was only the lingering psychological effects of his
imprisonment in the tower; but I could not be sure. Therefore, I deemed it
wisest not to reveal all that I knew to Mr. and Mrs. Harker, lest the Impaler be
privy to our plans.
The decision made, I gently released Jonathan from his trance. He came to
consciousness easily, without any notice of a change. Waking, he seemed entirely
free of any trace of the vampire’s hold. I at once took his shoulder and turned
his face towards the light coming through the window, studying it carefully as I
said, “But Madam Mina said you were ill, that you had had a shock.”
To which he smiled, and replied that he had been ill and had
had a shock, but that I had cured him of it by my letter. He was an honest,
pleasant fellow—he must be, to have won a wife so good as Madam Mina—and we had
a pleasant ride over to his home. On the way, he told me that he wanted to
provide whatever help he could against the “count.” In his eyes shone a burning
desire (perhaps, even, as great as mine) to see the monster destroyed.
Masking my disquiet, I told him that I indeed needed his help, and
immediately: my work would be greatly eased if he could provide information
concerning all business transacted with “Count Dracula” before his, Jonathan’s,
trip to Transylvania.
This he promised to provide before I left Exeter later that morning—and in
fact, after we two had returned to his house and breakfasted with Miss Mina, he
handed me a bundle of papers so that I might read them on the train back to
London.
He and his wife are good, kind people, and when I see what they have already
suffered at Vlad’s hands, I can only think of myself and Gerda when we were
young—before our small family was destroyed by the vampire. Here in London, for
the first time in many years, I have begun to feel myself surrounded by a family
again, of brave and loving souls united by a common evil. I could not bear to
think of Harker and sweet Madam Mina torn apart, or turned into vile undead
parodies of themselves.
Yet how could I protect them, without possibly exposing John and the others
to more danger if Jonathan was Vlad’s unwitting spy?
I did not know. But as Jonathan drove me back to the station, I asked softly,
“If, in the future, I were to, call both you and Madam Mina to London, would you
come?”
“Call us when you will,” he said, “and we will come.”
I have spoken with John frankly about the Harkers. He agrees that we must do
what we can to help both Madam Mina and her husband, but, same as I, is
perplexed about what Jonathan’s oblique indigo taint might mean. Therefore we
have decided that, when the Harkers come to London (and I have no doubt they
shall), they will stay here at the asylum. They shall not know that /am here—I
shall maintain invisibility for myself and Gerda in our respective cells—and
this will assist me in keeping surreptitious watch over Jonathan until we
establish whether he is Vlad’s agent or no. Until then, we will assume that he
is, and will secretly use such precautions as I already do with Gerda. This will
be safest for Mrs. Harker.
John has agreed that he will reveal no information to the Harkers that will
alert them to the full depth of our knowledge; rather, we are to seem as
bumbling fools who know nothing of Vlad’s new strength. Thus, if Vlad is privy
to Jonathan’s thoughts, he shall discover little of our plans. I have also
warned John that Madam Mina has copied her and her husband’s journals out, and
offered them to me; the time may come when he will be called upon to surrender
his. As for myself, I can easily say that I have no diary, for the
Harkers will see no evidence of it—or me— on the asylum grounds. But John
records upon his phonograph daily, sometimes several times a day, and his
equipment is too difficult to hide. I have asked him not to record any details
he does not wish everyone to hear—or at the very least, to record them secretly
by pen, so that he might not be overheard and the diary might be hidden away. He
has agreed; and will also go back and listen to what he has already recorded.
Any cylinders containing entries which reveal too much will be hidden in my
cell, and he shall re-record them to make them consistent with what we want the
Harkers—and by default, Arthur and Quincey—to know. We have agreed that John
shall play the sceptic, who knows nothing of the vampire and is slow to believe.
I have another reason for dissembling, one which perhaps is foolish: If Madam
Mina, that brave and stalwart soul, were to learn the extent of Vlad’s powers,
she might lose hope. And that I could not bear to see.
Chapter 13
Dr. Seward’s Diary
29 SEPTEMBER.
How strange to write this by pen, and in my bedroom rather than the office.
It goes against the grain to agree to deceit, especially one that might affect
my two finest friends, Art and Quince; but I understand the reason for it, and
must take comfort in the fact that by doing so, I protect them.
So here is the truth—I must record it somehow, lest I forget all and begin to
believe my own lies.
Today, shortly after noon, the
professor took me back to Lucy’s
tomb. Our plan for gaining entry to the cemetery was quite simple: We would wait
for a funeral, which could be counted on to take place at mid-day, then hide
ourselves when the mourners left. (There seems little point in arousing
suspicion by climbing over the wall in broad daylight.) The sexton, thinking all
had gone, would lock the iron gate behind him. Then we would be free to do as we
wished, for Van Helsing confided to me that he has retained the key to the
Westenra tomb, which the mortician had given him to give to Arthur.
I admit, I accompanied Van Helsing with a great deal of trepidation. My grief
over Lucy’s death, though no longer raw, was still fresh, and to finally witness
the reality of vampirism with
her as example seemed too painful. I
think I agreed in something of a daze, for I could scarcely believe her dead,
much less transformed into a monster. Part of me hoped that the professor was a
deluded madman, and that all this talk of blood-sucking and Vlad Dracula was but
a dream from which I soon would wake. So I went only half believing that I would
see the proof of Van Helsing’s claims.
Our plan proceeded like clockwork. We went to the churchyard and waited until
the gate was unlocked and mourners had arrived. Then we, too, entered—dressed in
black, to better fit in. The professor had brought his medical bag, which caused
me some consternation, for I felt it would draw attention to us; luckily, he was
right that no one would notice or think anything of it if they did.
It was a chill, grey day, bleak and damp with mist; an appropriate day for
our task. Throughout the burial, we stood quietly at the fringes of the crowd.
And when it was done, and the crowd began to scatter, we moved behind the
farthest tomb and waited until we heard the clang of the sexton closing the
gate.
Finally, when all was clear, Van Helsing led me back to the small, square
stone building at whose entry was carved the legend:
WESTENRA
I had been too distracted during Lucy’s funeral to remember where the tomb
lay; my gaze had been focussed on her casket, draped in linen and strewn with
white flowers, whilst I tried to picture how she would appear as undead. Would
she still be beautiful, or even recognisable as the sweet girl she had been?
Would she have long, slavering fangs and inhuman strength, bursting through the
lead lining intended to hold in the stench of putrefying remains?
The professor clearly sensed my growing reluctance, for he briefly laid a
warm hand upon my shoulder that conveyed both comfort and encouragement. Then he
set upon the lock with the key. The former was ancient and somewhat rusted,
requiring him to play with it several seconds before, at last, the large metal
door gave a mournful screech and came open.
It took us both some effort to push it open—I all the while wondering how
Lucy would ever be able to manage it. The professor motioned me to enter; a
darkly chivalrous gesture if ever there was one. I did, and started as a
squeaking black rat skittered over my foot. Inside, the air was cold but stale,
and heavy with the scent of mouldering flowers. It was, I rhink, the most
hopeless place I have ever stood, for within a week’s time, the spiderwebs had
grown heavy, and numerous shiny-coated beetles crawled before my feet. The whole
of it—high octagonal windows, bleak walls, crawling shadows—was coated with a
very fine layer of dust that seemed to absorb all light. I suppose the grimness
distracted me, for the professor touched my shoulder to bring me to myself.
Once more I started, to my embarrassment, then began to follow Van Helsing,
who had moved past me with a sense of purpose, out of the narrow entryway into a
wider room where a good twenty coffins lay upon marble catafalques. It was easy
to guess which were Mrs. Westenra’s and Lucy’s, as the others were all shrouded
with such a thick film of dust (which demonstrated how long it had been since
any had visited here) that neither the coffin’s colour nor the nameplate could
be seen.
To the cleaner coffins the professor went at once, bag in hand, and squinted
down at the silver nameplates to ascertain which was Lucy’s. That decided, he
set down the bag and retrieved from it a turnscrew and fretsaw, both of which he
rather callously set upon Mrs. Westenra’s nearby casket.
I must say here that I was altogether amazed by his incredible calm and
matter-of-factness. Being a trained physician, I had long ago lost my
squeamishness around the dead; but this was no ordinary corpse we were
approaching now, nor ordinary circumstances. Yet Van Helsing behaved as if it
were something he had done his whole life.
Without fanfare or even a hint of reverence, he raised the coffin lid, so
swiftly that I barely managed to keep from drawing back. It was foolish of me to
do so, for my brain knew well that we would only see the lead lining; but my
heart had apparently caused me to forget for an instant. The dead flowers which
had rested atop Lucy’s casket—one of which I had laid there myself a week
before— scattered with a rustling whisper to the ground, a cruel reminder that
even grief itself was not everlasting.
The professor paid them no heed but, with the cool detachment I have seen him
wear in surgery, picked up the turnscrew. With a sudden savage movement, he made
a hammer of his fist and struck the turnscrew’s handle so that its tip tore open
the thin lead casing.
This time, I recoiled in earnest, and drew out my handkerchief, fully
prepared to protect myself from the ensuing rush of noxious gas that would come
from the week-old corpse. But no stench came. I permitted myself to draw a
breath, and stood fascinated by what came next.
Van Helsing set down the turnscrew and picked up the tiny fretsaw. After
working it into the gap left by the puncture, he sawed some few feet down one
side of the coffin, then across the top, then down the other side. Both fretsaw
and turnscrew he replaced in his bag. Then he grasped the tongue of metal at the
top and pulled down to the foot, as a mother might pull back a too-warm blanket
so as not to wake a sleeping child.
But there was nothing of tenderness in the professor’s movements; when he
drew back the lead casing to reveal the corpse beneath, his expression was
colder and harder than I have ever seen it.
“Friend John,” he called, with a voice so deep and stern none would have
dared disobey it. “Look away from her! Look away!”
Actually, I had not yet steeled myself to gaze down at her, so his warning
came in time. He stepped between me and the coffin and said urgently, “I have
done you a disservice in not warning you first. No, look up at me, not at her
—yes! And now listen: Sense your own aura, and withdraw it inward, towards your
heart. Strengthen it there. This protects you from her pull, now and in the
future. Yes, yes!” he cried in approval; apparently my features had changed as I
put into practice his lesson. Indeed, I found the result was that I had
“hardened my heart.” The emotional strain of the painful encounter was abruptly
eased, and I found myself possessed of some measure of the professor’s calm
concentration.
I let go a sigh as my equilibrium returned.
“Very good!” the professor said. “Very good. If you wish to look down at her
now, you may; if I see that you have trouble, I shall help. I apologise that I
had not schooled you in this technique earlier. I was foolish enough to hope
that the talismans I had left with her would remain, and keep her in the tomb
until we could send her to a more honourable rest. Before she was placed in her
coffin, I had left them upon her lips and breast—but see? Someone has taken
them.” He sighed. “I had set them upon her at her wake, but someone in the house
stole them then—two crucifixes of gold. So before her burial, I paid the
mortician and set two more upon her before I watched them seal her fast beneath
the lead. Now someone else has cheated us again—but no mortal, I fear, or the
lead would already have been rolled away.“
I listened to him with only half an ear, for at his permission I had at once
looked down at Lucy. To say that she was beautiful would have been an insult; in
undeath, she was beyond beauty, beyond radiance. Indeed, it was as if the sun
itself had been wrapped in white cerements, revealing only in places—head and
hands—its full blazing glory. Her hair, which had been dark ash bleached to
blond in places by the summer sun, was now a glorious and shimmering bronze
streaked with molten gold. Her lips were the delicate, iridescent pink of
mother-of-pearl, just as her eyes—her open eyes, which gazed sightlessly at a
point beyond the ceiling—were the seafoam-green of polished nacre. And her face
was that of the full moon, possessed of an internal radiance.
One thought—one small thought, Dear God, she is beautiful!—and one
fleeting and subtle desire to give up on all that was moral and right, to join
her in eternal ecstasy, and I felt my heart go out to her as the tide seeks the
moon. I was lost, smitten.
Once more, a touch of the professor’s hand brought me from my dangerous
reverie. I looked up, and caught a gulp of air; staring into Van Helsing’s dark
blue eyes, I focussed myself and again took control of my heart and emotions.
“I am all right,” I said. “I shall look at her no longer.” And to show my
determination, I stepped away from the corpse and faced the entry.
He was there only a few seconds longer in order to leave more talismans and
roll the lead lining back over her, then close the casket lid. “For Arthur’s
sake,” he said grimly as we left, “and the fact that I was too arrogant to bring
with me stake and knife, thinking that my pale magic would hold her here—I do
not kill her now. But if we do not succeed in doing so tonight, when Arthur and
Quincey come, there will be much blood upon my head; much blood.”
It is evening now, and Arthur and Quince will arrive in a few hours in
response to the professor’s letters. Thoughts of what is to come leave me too
restless to eat supper.
* * *
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
29 SEPTEMBER.
Arthur and Quincey arrived last night at ten o’clock, both of them wearing
expressions of confusion. As agreed, John herded the lot of us into his study
and locked the door, which only added to the mysterious sense of secrecy.
Once the others had taken seats upon the long sofa, I stood before them to
address them, and they all three looked up at me with curiosity and even faint
hope—as if there might be something good in the midst of all this sorrow. Arthur
himself looked dreadful; he had aged fifteen years in the course of a week. His
formerly smooth forehead was creased with wrinkles, and his eyes were still
dazed; in them, I saw thoughts of sadness enter and leave like passing clouds.
He was at that terrible early stage of mourning where any sight, any sound, any
memory, might touch him and reignite his grief.
Quincey, too, was suffering in his own quiet way. His already thin lips had
grown noticeably thinner, and shadows had gathered beneath his tired eyes;
beneath the freckles that so perfectly matched his dark red hair, his skin had
grown pale. He sat with his big white Stetson in his bony fingers, and toyed
with the rim so that the hat slowly revolved round and round. Yet despite his
suffering, he maintained a forced brightness for his friends’ sake.
It was for me a difficult moment, staring at these good but troubled souls; I
had contemplated long about this meeting, and had come to the unhappy conclusion
that there was simply no kind way to do it. So I began by saying that I had
finally learned what had killed Lucy, and that she was now in such a state that
we had one last task to perform, for her sake.
Arthur stiffened with horror. “Dr. Van Helsing, do you mean to tell me she
was buried alive?”
I shook my head: no, no. “Dear Arthur, dear friend; do you trust me? Do you
believe that I honestly cared for Miss Lucy, and that I wanted, and still want,
only the best for her?”
“Yes, of course,” he said, but his eyes remained tormented.
“Then let me take you to her tomb, for there lies the only physical evidence
necessary to explain what we must do. If you will only trust, and come with me—”
The look of confusion and pain on Arthur’s face pulled at me, but I remained
cold and resolute. “First,” Arthur replied, clearly struggling to contain his
feelings, “I must know why we need to go to the tomb. What terrible
mystery can it be, that you cannot tell me plainly as a friend?”
“I can only tell you that it is for Miss Lucy’s sake that we go,” I told him.
“There is something that remains to be done for her, that she might rest
peacefully in death.”
Quincey Morris set his hat upon his lap and leaned forward to say, in a
heated tone, “Now, see here, Professor! Going back to the tomb for mysterious
reasons is a cruel thing to do to Arthur, don’t you think? Can’t you see how
difficult this is for him?”
I held my tongue but thought: Ah, poor Quincey, I know it is no easier
for you!
He continued, scowling, “If the poor girl’s dead, she’s dead; what more can
be done for her?”
Quite calmly I answered, “We must cut off her head, pur a stake through
her heart, and fill her mouth with garlic.”
John’s eyes widened at once with pure dismay at this blunt and heartless
outburst. Quincey, on the other hand, leaned even farther forward and rested
fingers upon the pistol worn on his belt.
As for poor Arthur, he turned livid and rose in a burst of fury, bending his
right arm at the elbow and pulling it back in preparation for the blow aimed
squarely at my jaw. And before John could rise to restrain him, he struck out
with his fist. I was prepared for such a blow; before it could land, I had
already taken a step backward and withdrawn my aura, rendering myself quite
invisible.
Arthur swung at the air, then drew back in utter amazement and gaped down at
his fist, as if expecting to find there some defect. Finding none, he stared
open-mouthed at the room surrounding him.
Our friend Quincey slowly sank back into the cushions and quietly replaced
his hands in his lap. I watched as the big freckled Adam’s apple slowly bobbed
down once, then rose back up. Beside him sat John, whose expression was a
curious mixture of sorrow, wry disapproval and mounting hilarity.
For the space of several seconds, no one uttered a sound.
Duly satisfied that I had made an impression, I walked behind the sofa where
the two men were sitting, materialised, and said quietly, “Gentlemen.”
They all snapped their heads round to stare at me. Arthur was so utterly
stymied that he began to sway on his feet; I quickly stepped around the sofa and
back to him. He clutched my shoulders, wide-eyed and mute, and let himself be
led to the sofa, where he sat between John and Quincey.
“Gentlemen,” I continued, “what you have just seen could be the result of the
three of you having simultaneously gone quite insane. Or there could be another
explanation, one not acceptable according to our current understanding of
science. I must swear you to silence concerning it; if you choose instead to
speak of it, be aware that I will deny it and label you mad.”
Again, not a word of reply.
“Miss Lucy has been bitten by a vampire—” I began. At this, Quincey grew
excited and opened his mouth to speak, but I silenced him with a look. “Not the
bat, as friend Quincey suggests, but an actual man who has been transformed into
a creature neither dead nor alive; the undead, which the Roumanians call
nosferatu. In English, a vampire; one who sucks the blood of the living,
who in turn become vampires after their death.”
“What are you saying?” asked Arthur slowly; there was no anger, only pain, in
his voice. “That Lucy died from the bite of one of these?”
I nodded, hardening my heart at the sight of this terrible revelation’s
effect upon him.
Quincey tossed his hat aside and ran his hand over thinning hair. “Professor,
I respect you,” he said, clearly troubled. “Maybe even more so since your little
demonstration here tonight.” At that, we two gave a faint smile. “And even if I
hadn’t seen it, I would still believe you to be an honest man of the very best
intentions. But… this isn’t something that I—that Arthur—can readily accept.
Because what you’re saying is that Miss Lucy is—is…” His voice trailed into
silence.
“I do not expect you to believe me without seeing the proof. So I have asked
you to come with me tonight to the Kingstead churchyard.” Here I addressed
Arthur, who was still dazed. “And if you believe it, Lord Godalming, to permit
me to destroy the creature so the true Miss Lucy an rest.”
* * *
We arrived in Kingstead shortly before midnight, and made short work of the
low stone fence (Quincey, with his long, thin legs, could simply step over). It
was a chill, windy night, and though the moon was still radiant, jagged
fast-moving clouds at times obscured the light. I had brought my medical bag
with the few necessary items, and an unlit lantern. John and Quincey flanked
Arthur, forming a barrier between their friend and the terrible experience to
come. John was grim but resolved; Quincey remained silent, but kept casting
solicitous glances at Arthur as if determined to stop the proceedings the moment
his friend registered distress.
As for Arthur himself, he bore up admirably well. His expression showed the
strain of returning to this place of grief, but only subtly; and it did not
change the nearer we drew to the tomb.
Once there, I quickly unlocked the door, then turned to John and said: “You
were with me yesterday; was Miss Lucy’s body in her coffin?”
“It was,” he affirmed solemnly.
I pushed the heavy iron door open, to the tune of metal scraping against
stone; seeing that the other three men lingered, hesitant, I walked in first,
then lit the lantern. The light it cast was dim; I wanted to draw as little
attention to our entry as possible.
Once I was inside, the others entered, and I directed them over to Miss
Lucy’s coffin. Once more I set down my bag and retrieved the turnscrew, and with
it unscrewed the lid, then removed it. The lead casing I had drawn back over the
corpse; when Arthur saw how it had been rent, he blanched, but still remained
silent, waiting.
I pulled down the leaden flange to reveal a dark, empty coffin. It was as I
expected, for I had come before sundown that evening to remove the talismans. I
knew Arthur’s heart, and realised that to reveal her asleep and beautiful would
do no good. Tonight would have been their wedding-night; thus I had to show her
as the monster she had become, without any trace of beauty or romance.
“Tell them,” I commanded John.
So John spoke—most eloquently—of our earlier visit to the tomb. Man of
medicine that he is, he explained— averting his own gaze when he saw the flicker
of pain and disgust in Arthur’s—the decay process, and , what one could expect
of a corpse in a week’s time. Yet there had lain Lucy, unspoiled and perfect,
more beautiful than ever she had been in life.
Quincey’s eyes narrowed above his long waxed mustache; Arthur’s strained
expression never changed, though his pallour grew.
“And now outside,” I said, and led them out into the sweet, cold air. My
three companions remained silent—
Arthur clearly deep in thought in an effort to decipher the mystery of the
disappeared corpse, John anxious at what he knew he would soon see. And Quincey—he
is as pragmatic and open-minded a man as I have ever met. He had given up trying
to make sense of the empty casket, and so now waited patiently to see what would
come next before arriving at any conclusions. With remarkable casualness, he
took a roll of tobacco from his jacket, cut a plug, then began to chew.
In the meantime, I had taken two more items from my bag: the sacred Host
(charged with as much power as I could inject into an object) and a mass of
putty. The Host I crumbled into the putty, kneaded it, and rolled the mixture
into strips. These I used to to seal off the crevices around the door.
Then I directed the others to hide near the tomb where they would not be seen
by one approaching. So we remained, silent, for an eternity: fifteen, perhaps
twenty minutes.
Abruptly, I spotted a swift-moving white figure advancing through the yew
trees—a white figure that clutched something dark to its breast. I signalled the
others, and pointed.
At that instant, the white figure stopped, and bent down over the dark
object; there came a child’s sharp cry, then silence.
John, Quincey, and Arthur all three started at the sound; John made to move
forward to rescue the child (as did Quincey instinctively, though he could not
have known the depth of the danger the child was in). But I motioned them back,
and they obeyed reluctandy.
Soon the mysterious figure grew closer, closer, and in an errant shaft of
moonlight, Lucy Westenra’s features became clearly visible.
Her features, I say, but all else was different. There were Lucy’s eyes grown
hard and seductive and cold; and Lucy’s lips, no longer tender and sweetly
smiling, but sensuous and mocking, pulled back to reveal long, sharp teeth. And
from those lips dripped blood—fresh and crimson, dribbling in a thin line down
her chin and onto the virginal linen of her burial clothes.
I moved out at once from behind the tomb, with my three companions close
behind me. At the sight of us, she hissed like a threatened feline; and then,
upon recognising Arthur, threw the poor child to the ground with infernal
indifference.
“Arthur,” she said, her voice soft and languid as a purring cat’s. “My sweet
husband, come!”
I glanced sidewise to see Arthur advance towards her, his arms outstretched,
his formerly grief-dazed eyes now dulled by trance. He saw her, yes, but not as
she truly was.
I leapt between the two lovers, taking a small golden crucifix from my coat
pocket and lifting it high in front of her face. This I did with some anxiety,
for I had no way of knowing whether she would be impervious to the talisman or
not. Certainly, she was young and inexperienced, and therefore far, far weaker a
foe than Vlad himself; but she was the first spawn of the new vampire, of
Dracula the All-Powerful.
Through some inexplicable grace, the latter held true. She proved
susceptible. At the sight of the cross, she snarled, then recoiled. I stepped
sideways, forcing her into a narrow opportunity, which she took. With
preternatural speed, she dashed towards the door of the tomb, intent on finding
shelter there (indeed she was a neophyte, for any I experienced vampire would
have simply disappeared, then fled to another hiding-place, far from threatening
mortals).
I signalled my companions to surround me, and the four of us approached the
tomb door in a half-circle, effectively capturing her between cross and Host.
She hesitated, a trapped animal trying to size up her options: should she yield,
fight, or flee?
Fury contorted her features. So she turned upon us, eyes narrowed but ablaze
with hell-fire, mouth pulled into a square rictus lined with sharp triangular
teeth. It was the face of a she-demon from the Pit, and at the sight of it,
Arthur let go a horrified gasp.
Without turning my face away from the monster, I ailed out: “Lord Godalming!
Friend Arthur! Do you give me permission now to proceed in my work?”
I did not need to see his expression to know it was tortured; the pain in his
voice was enough. “Do as you will,” he said with a groan. “Do as you will. There
can be no horroi such as this ever again!”
I set my lantern down, and moved towards the hissing vampiress; my intent was
to dig away from the chinks some of the sacred mixture, so that Lucy might
enter, then be resealed. But before I could accomplish this, there came a sudden
burst of wind—so strong that it knocked me away from Miss Lucy onto my back in
the cold, damp grass.
The whirlwind grew so forceful that it pinned me to the ground, so loud that
I could hear nothing of my companions behind me. I struggled to lift my head and
saw before me Miss Lucy, grinning sultrily—locked in an embrace with Vlad.
It was the most horrid of sights, for she looked up at him with violent
adoration, whilst he stood behind her, one arm wound tight around her waist, one
hand upon her breast. I could not imagine how Arthur bore such a sight; I
believe it would have shattered me, were I in his place. As he looked down at
her, such a passionate gaze passed between them that I was surprised they did
not couple there and then.
Then he raised his face to me; it was livid, full of a madman’s fury, a
madman’s hate. Yet young and vital beneath its full, wavy crown of blue-black
hair, drooping mustache, and goatee—and so unnaturally handsome that even I felt
its magnetic pull.
“How dare you think to harm her, our beloved!” he thundered, in a voice three
times louder than the wind. “How dare you—!”
Abruptly the wind ceased. He cast Lucy aside as cruelly as she had dispensed
with the child, and reached out with a sculpted alabaster hand for my neck.
And John—John, who of all of them knew what a deadly risk he was
taking—dashed between us, and struck out at the Impaler with bare mortal hands.
The blows annoyed Vlad no more than a fly might a man. As John swung harder,
harder, the vampire laughed, revealing dimples in the porcelain skin that framed
his mustache; laughed, as he picked John up by leg and arm and held him
overhead—then turned, facing the unyielding white marble of the tomb.
Arthur began to shout, and moved in closer, threatening; Quincey merely drew
his pistol from his coat, and fired once, twice, thrice—each time striking Vlad
directly in the chest. But the bullets merely exited his undead body without
causing harm, and the perplexed Texan looked down at his gun, then back up at
his target with wide, wide eyes.
Even with his former strength, the vampire could easily have dashed out the
man’s brains with such a move. As it was, I had no hope for John’s survival, and
with a father’s desperate, unthinking love, I cried out:
“Stop! Stop! It is my son you hold in your arms! Kill him and you
kill yourself!”
I had worked so many years to protect my only heir by hiding the truth; now
the truth was my only hope of saving him. Vlad paused, then frowned up at John
and said, “You lie! He does not think he is your son!” But an instant
later, a subtle doubt came over his features—reflecting, perhaps, John’s own
mental wavering on the subject.
That instant was seized by us three mortals—Arthur, Quincey, myself. We
hurled ourselves bodily at Vlad and John; the vampire, of course, was unmoved,
but the attack evoked within him such fury that he loosened his grip on my son
and instead caught hold of me, whilst the others pulled John to safety. Even in
the midst of my relief, a horrifying thought occurred: Where was Lucy? And would
all her lovers be able to resist her without my help?
Yet I could see nothing but the Impaler’s face, for he had grabbed my throat
with his cold, cold hands and stared so close into my eyes that I could smell
his fetid breath—the stench of the rotting dead—ere he spoke.
Vlad’s countenance gleamed so brilliant, so white-hot with fury, that I
closed my eyes bedazzled, but the image still remained. “I am tired of you and
your games, old man!” he roared. “For things have come full circle. Not so long
ago, you were strong and sure and invincible, and I decrepit, aged, hopeless; I
needed you for my very survival. But now you are the old, feeble man
without a hope, and I am the one invincible! Bow down and worship
me—for now it is you who need me to live.”
I croaked, opened my eyes, and moved my head, indicating that I wished to
answer. And when he eased his crushing grip upon my neck, I did not hesitate,
did not waver. I said simply, “Kill me.”
At that he let go a scream of frustration that left me near deaf. And when he
recovered, he sneered:
“You are so arrogant, so self-assured! You think I cannot kill you, that I am
afraid because of the covenant! But hear this: I need it no longer to survive.
I am the maker of covenants! And you and your friends are
dead.”
The world swung suddenly sideways as he lifted me high above his head, hands
still round my throat so tightly that I could scarce draw a breath, and was too
dizzied to see what had become of my friends. I prayed that they had fled—not
only for their own safety, but that they might be spared the horror of seeing
their only “vampire expert” done in by the object of his hunt.
I blinked, and the world swung round again, and became a dim white wall of
marble. This was to be my fate, then—to have my brains dashed out against the
Westenra tomb. It was not so terrible a fate (considering the horrendous
alternatives), but in the exceptional detachment brought about by mortal fear, I
regretted leaving my friends, including Miss Lucy, in such a hopeless situation.
And even, curiously, the terrible mess I would leave behind, which some poor
working-class soul would be forced to clean up.
The hands holding me drew back, then propelled me like a slingshot at the
marble. I must have been in flight no more than the merest fraction of a second,
as we were no more than twenty feet away from the wall. Yet I remember it as
clearly as if it had taken several minutes, for I was aware of many things: of
the cold wind whistling past my stinging ears, of my regret at leaving Gerda
(though I knew John would care properly for her), of my regret at not living to
hold my mother’s hand upon her deathbed, of my regret at not having freed Miss
Lucy from the curse, of my regret that John should always wonder whether I had
lied when I claimed him as son.
Of my regret, of my regret, of my regret.
And of the marble looming, and even in the dim light, my noting every swirl
within the stone with morbid fascination. How should my blood look there? My
brain?
Look, Bram, here is Death coming: close your eyes, and be grateful that you
have died uncursed.
So I did and was, and tensed my body, waiting for impact—which, God willing,
would be too swift to inflict unbearable pain.
Impact did not come.
Oh, I was still in midair and waiting, heart hammering like a prisoner bent
on release. But I seemed to have been gently and impossibly stopped by an
invisible cushion of some sort—both soft and firm, and infinitely comfortable,
and holding me aloft without effort. Was this death? Was this an after-life
wherein I sweated and feared and listened to my pulse pounding in my veins?
I opened my eyes and saw white marble, a mere inch from my nose.
Behind me, an enraged Roumanian curse, and from the Lucy-demon’s throat, a
shrill, frightened cry. Then the night grew suddenly calm, and I felt within the
great sense of peace that comes when the vampire has fled.
And as I stared, relieved, into the swirling marble, I felt and saw a change.
The soft cushion of air surrounding me hardened, until I felt skin and sinew and
bone supporting rne. Slowly I came to realise that my chin was resting upon a
hard, bony shoulder—and that not a tall one; and in the periphery of my vision,
I saw black cloth, upon which lay hair of radiant white.
I began to weep. And by the time small, strong hands had set me upright on
the ground, I was laughing and weeping together. I could not stand, but sank
down upon the earth and looked up into eyes so depthless I could not have named
their colour, for they contained them all— eyes infinitely young and infinitely
ancient, infinitely severe and infinitely loving, infinitely sorrowful and
infinitely amused.
“Arminius!” I cried, in reproach and joy. “Arminius, why did you not come
sooner?”
Chapter 14
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
29 SEPTEMBER, CONTINUED.
He looked precisely the same as the last time I’d seen him, twenty-two years
before: small and wiry, yet strong of shoulder and straight of spine beneath an
unadorned black wool robe. Beneath a black wool cap reminiscent of those an
Orthodox priest might wear, his hair fell in thick curls almost to his waist.
Like his long mustache and beard, it was shining white—which made the glowing,
child-soft skin of his face and ears seem even rosier by contrast. But priest he
was not, nor even Christian; his face was that of a Hebrew mystic, an eagle’s,
with prominent, downward-curving nose and large, heavy-lidded eyes. A Jew, yes,
by blood—but far from orthodox in his beliefs. Whether he even believed in God,
I could not say, for during my education as vampire-slayer, he always explained
things in the most pragmatic terms. Perhaps he, like his student, believed not
in religious formulae or particular names or titles, but in those things which
endured, those things which transcended religion and science and touched all men
too deeply to deny: Love. Compassion. Kindness.
His hair and bearing were those of an ancient; his demeanour and movements
were those of a robust youth. At my question, he squatted down to the level
where I sat, that we might speak eye-to-eye, and loosely folded his arms atop
his legs.
“Abraham, Abraham,” said he. grinning to reveal intensely pink gums and white
straight teeth even a young man might envy. There was no cunning or reproach in
that smile, only the bright, hilarious joy of a lunatic, a simpleton, a mage.
“If I did not come, it was because you did not need me. Now, I am here.” And he
spread his arms (amazingly, without his legs wavering an inch).
“Here” had changed dramatically in the instant he had appeared. I squinted at
my surroundings to find myself and my mentor enveloped in a circle of gentle
radiance that brightened the night. Beyond its circumference, John, Arthur,
Quincey, all sat upon the ground—frozen and still as statues, their eyes open
yet unseeing, unblinking, their chests moving not a whit. Yet safe and
alive—this I knew instinctively, even though I could not resist looking beyond
and around them for Vlad and the Lucy-vampire.
But the night was quiet and sweet, free from the taint of indigo; both
monsters had vanished, and Arminius and I sat safe within the borders of a
different reality. This filled my heart with hope. For though Arminius had
taught me many things—how to protect myself-from the vampire, how to weaken Vlad
and myself gain power to defeat him—I had never seen him in the presence of any
vampire, and thus had not known the extent of his abilities beyond what he had
told me.
Clearly, he was powerful indeed, to have saved me and caused Vlad and Lucy to
vanish. And for the first time in many terrible days, I began to think Vlad
could be overcome after all.
He saw me staring at my three companions and said:
“Your friends are well, but they cannot see us. And if you wish, they will
not remember.”
I was too curious, too exhilarated, too desperate, to respond to his
statement; instead, I asked a question of my own. “What has happened to Vlad? I
had done as you said —had destroyed vampire after vampire these twenty-two
years, in order to weaken him. And so he
didweaken—but now he has
regained his strength, and more. He would have killed me—
me, whose
death would have brought about his own, according to the covenant. What has
happened to him… and to the covenant?”
“Ah,” he said; the sound was in part a sigh. “The covenant…” Rather than look
at me, he lowered his gaze to the ground, his lips still curved upward in a
mysterious crescent, and began to inscribe with his ringer strange legends in a
patch of mud. “In order to answer your question, Abraham, I must first tell you
a story.”
“A story?”
“Of a manuscript—a very special manuscript which some claim Lucifer himself
wrote. It was stolen from the Scholomance, the Devil’s school for the mantic
arts, by one of the
sholomonari, the alchemists who studied there. Thus
says the legend. Its purpose is reflected in its title:
To Him Who Would
Become the Eater of Souls.”
I shuddered, suddenly overwhelmed by the terrifying image from a dream: a
great Darkness that engulfed me, devoured me. Clutching my upper arms, I
demanded, “But is that not the Devil’s domain? To consume souls?”
He looked up, still smiling faintly, his eyes undimmed by the darkness of
which he spoke. “It is, if that is the name you wish to use for the entity. And
to answer your next question—yes, the manuscript does give instructions as to
how others might become as he.”
“But it is insane—why would he want to share his power?”
At this, the faint grin became a full-fledged smile. “Who can say? In time,
all things will become clear.” He paused. “At some point after the theft, the
manuscript was acquired by one of the wickedest and most power-hungry immortals:
the Countess Elisabeth of Bathory. It has gone through many hands, in part
because the manuscript itself cannot be protected by even the most powerful
magic—”
I interrupted. “Why not?”
Patiently, he replied, “Because the truth cannot be hidden, Abraham. Not
realising this, the countess attempted to hide it with a spell—which, because of
her newfound strength, she assumed would be sufficient. And because she had
destroyed its previous owner, no one knew it had come into her possession, and
no one attempted to take it from her. But when she went to the Castle Dracula,
Vlad discovered it and stole it from her very quickly.
“As to why he has become increasingly powerful, now that it is in his
possession, I must explain the manuscript itself. It is a riddle of sorts,
consisting of six lines, or clues. The first line appears once the manuscript
falls into someone’s possession. Other lines appear only after the owner has
understood the first and followed its direction; and with each step, the owner’s
power and abilities increase.
“I have done some small bit of research and discovered the first line:
In
the land beyond the forest, the quest for godhood begins. The lines are six; the
keys are two. ”
“Keys?” I asked.
“This is something of a mystery still; Elisabeth had solved only the first
line, and though Vlad has gone farther, he has yet to discover the first key. No
immortal ever has—except, of course, for the Dark Lord Himself.”
With fear in my heart, I asked, “How many lines has Vlad solved? Do you know
what these say?”
He did. He seemed to look past me, and the ghost of a smile faded entirely,
leaving him solemn for the first time since we had met. “The second:
Do not
linger. Cross the deep waters to the great island in the northwest.
Immediately, he made plans to leave for England, at which time a third line
appeared:
To the east of the metropolis lies the crossroads.”
“East of London,” I murmured, calling to mind the myriad locations. “A
crossroads… Is it the actual intersection of two streets, or something else? And
how
far east? Just outside the city, or in Purfleet or Dartford, or
Grays… or as far east as Southend-on-Sea or Sheerness?”
“That I cannot tell you,” he said, with mild regret. “But I can say that
after Vlad purchased properties surrounding the city, the fourth line appeared:
There lies buried treasure, the first key.”
Four lines solved; a shiver passed through me as I asked, “And has he
discovered it?” And the fifth line, and the sixth…
He shook his head. “But it is only a matter of time. Once he obtains the
first key, he has only to find the second, and put them both in such a way as to
solve the riddle. And while Elisabeth was privy only to the first line, I
suspect she has found or will find a way to discover all that Vlad has learned.
Then she, too, will join the search for the first key; for she is as cruel and
ambitious as he— perhaps more so. At the earliest opportunity, she will seize
the manuscript.”
“Why has she not done so already?” I asked. “If she had it, and knew the
first line, then she must have retained some of her newfound powers—”
“No.” He tilted his head, and looked at me with utter understanding and
compassion, as if he felt my sorrowful desperation as keenly as I. “When the
manuscript is lost, the power is lost, only to be gained by the next owner. She
is not strong enough to defeat him directly now—but if, through skill or
cunning, she obtains it again, then
she will be the powerful one, and
he the weak. Believe me, Elisabeth is nearby, awaiting her chance—and that is
something to be greatly feared, for she is one of the strongest and wickedest of
all the
sholomonari.”
“And what of Zsuzsanna? Does she not know of the manuscript?”
His expression became curiously veiled. “She knows. She knows almost as much
as Vlad, now; and she, too, seeks the first key.”
“And if she—or Vlad, or Elisabeth—solves the sixth line, and the riddle of
the first and second key…” I could not bring myself to finish the statement, for
the thought was too terrible to give voice.
But Arminius did. “… she will become as the Dark Lord: omniscient and
omnipresent, so powerful that she controls all evil upon the earth. And if Vlad
succeeds, he will have no need of covenants to prolong his immortality —and
therefore, no need of your soul to buy him another generation of life. He will
be as a god, able to do whatever pleases him. But until he solves the mystery,
he might lose the manuscript—just as Elisabeth lost it to him. Were that to
occur, he would most assuredly depend upon the covenant, and your continued
existence, so that he can corrupt you before your death, and thus buy himself
life.
“What he did to you tonight, in choosing to kill you, was the most arrogant
of errors. He is already coming to think of himself as an immortal, invincible…
and that, I think, will lead to his failure.”
He fell silent at last, and gazed calmly at me whilst I considered his story.
His last words gave me hope; but the entire tale had filled me with foreboding.
My task was harder now than ever I had imagined during all those difficult years
spent hunting down and destroying Vlad’s evil spawn upon the European continent.
For now I had not only to kill a powerful vampire and his mate, Zsuzsanna— I had
to prevent them from becoming as gods. And not only them, but the fearsome
Countess of Bathory, as well.
“Arminius,” I said, “you have relayed to me a disturbing tale; my duty, it
seems, has grown harder than ever I imagined. Will you stay with me, and help
me? And not only me”—here I gestured at the three men sitting motionless outside
our sphere—“but my friends, who also are sworn to destroy Vlad?”
Again, the idiot’s smile beneath the sage’s eyes. “I promise you, Abraham,
that I will come when I am again needed. But not before. Remember: Your task is
to redeem your family from its curse; and part of that job is the difficult
journey itself.”
“Can you at least honour one request?”
He lifted his eyebrows, so thin and translucent white that the bright pink of
his baby-skin showed beneath the hairs.
I stood up and held his gaze, intent on convincing him of this one thing.
“Will you keep Miss Lucy in her tomb until morning? Vlad can no longer be
restrained by talismans, and has removed them that we might not destroy her.”
He said nothing; only held me with that marvellous and knowing gaze, then
rose in one graceful movement to stand beside me. As I looked into his eyes, the
edges of his body seemed to grow indistinct, then fade away into shadows as the
sphere of light containing us suddenly dimmed.
Paler and paler he grew, until at last I stood staring at the great iron door
of the Westenra tomb.
Beside me, the vile Lucy-creature hissed, spewing blood-flecked spittle, in
the ellipse of light cast by my lantern. It sat on the ground where I had laid
it an eternity— or only minutes—before. I sensed, rather than saw, my three
friends standing behind me in a semicircle; John, I knew, was nearest, holding
aloft his own silver crucifix to hold his undead beloved at bay.
Oddly, the sudden shift in time did not disorient me; perhaps the
recollection of my tutelage under Arminius had prepared me, for it was a trick
he had often used in those long-past days. I took it as silent confirmation that
he would grant me my one wish, and began at once to remove chinks of
Host-infused putty from the tomb door.
When I had pulled out a sufficient amount, I stepped aside and let the
vampiress rush unhindered past me. Whilst the others gasped, she became
two-dimensionally flat, then collapsed into a needle-thin line like a lady
folding a fan. This moved through the air as an eel travels through water,
though infinitely faster; in less than the blink of an eye, she had disappeared
through a crack as thick as a piece of paper and no wider than my thumb.
Immediately I replaced the putty in the crevice, sealing her inside. And then
I turned to my friends—all just as they had been before the Impaler’s
appearance, Arthur pale and trembling at the sight of his sweet Lucy so defiled,
and Quincey tight-lipped and drawn, with his big freckled hand gripping Arthur’s
arm in support. Neither was in the least bit dishevelled, as if Vlad’s attack
had never happened, as if my work at the tomb door had never been interrupted.
As if Arminius had never appeared.
Nor was so much as a single one of John’s hairs out of place, and his
expression was darkly grim and troubled, as befitted the situation. Yet when I
glanced at him, he caught my gaze, so sharply and pointedly and with such
poignant confusion that I knew he recollected at least some of what had passed.
But Arthur and Quincey clearly did not. So I nodded to my companions, took my
lantern, and walked over to the child she had dropped beneath the yews. He was a
little street urchin, his golden hair and thin face crusted with dirt—and his
neck with blood. Fortunately, we had encountered Miss Lucy just as she was
beginning to drink, and so he still had some colour on his sallow little face.
He had fallen from trance into a sound sleep upon the dying grass—in such cold,
poor thing. I took him into my arms and said to the others, who had followed:
“Let us leave him someplace warm for the police to find. He is not badly off,
and by tomorrow night will be entirely well.”
And so we went away. Arthur and Quincey were headed to the asylum with John,
so I made the pretense of going to the hotel instead, for we had been keeping
the lie that I was staying elsewhere. From there, I returned instead to Purfleet,
and crept to my lonely cell under the guise of invisibility.
* * *
Dr. Seward’s Diary
29 SEPTEMBER, MORNING.
It is aggravating to have to keep writing this by hand, as it takes forever
and makes me feel like Neddy Ludd; I had thought to keep a separate cylinder
with my “private” entries, but the chance is too great that I might make a
mistake and let the wrong ears listen to information they ought not to know.
Still, I must unburden myself this morning, or go mad as poor
Renfield. Too many revelations, too many heartrending emotions…
It was enough, last night, to see the dead woman that I loved turned into a
slavering she-devil; that alone was more than any man could bear without going
insane. And then, to see Vlad himself—far younger and stronger than described,
ablaze with wicked glory—hurl my beloved professor to his death—
More than I could bear, more than I could bear. And yet I bore it.
But when I saw the angelic figure save him less than a split second before
his demise, I told myself: There it is, Jack; after all this time, you’ve
finally achieved total lunacy. How convenient that home is already an asylum…
And I listened to them speak together like long-lost friends, or rather,
long-lost teacher and student, with Van Helsing in my role, and the
shining angel in his. Oh, it is one thing to read of the occult and toy with
auras and discuss theories of vampires and other noncorporeal entities and how
might one deal with one, but—
Well, it is another thing altogether to jee such beings. And to then
find time itself interrupted, ancj an event dispensed with. In this case, it was
as though Vlad had never appeared, and I and the professor never been
endangered; worse, when we had finished at the graveyard, I knew from Art and
Quincey’s expressions and speech that they had not seen the same impossible
events as I. That was a dreadful instant, for I was convinced for the space of a
few seconds that I had truly gone insane. Until, that is, I looked into
the professor’s eyes, and saw that he knew too.
So then, it really had happened. Fortunately, neither Quince nor Art was in
the mood for idle chatter after such a horribly painful evening; after I had the
maid set them up in guest quarters in the private part of the house, they both
went directly to their rooms.
Though by then it was almost three o’clock in the morning, I knew sleep would
be quite impossible until I had answers to some troubling questions. I had no
way of knowing whether the professor had returned, but I was desperate; so after
a bit, when I was sure that Art, Quince, and the maid had all settled into their
beds, I crept back to the asylum and went directly to the professor’s cell. I
knocked softly, calling: “It’s John. I must speak to you.”
The door swung slowly open. I could see no one inside though the lamp was
dimly lit, but a soft veil of blue wavered in the air just inside the threshold.
Boldly, I entered and stepped through the cerulean glimmer to find the room just
the same—except that now the professor was sitting cross-legged upon the floor
in his stocking feet.
He had removed his spectacles and set them upon his lap, so that his dark
blue eyes seemed somehow unclothed, and the greying red-gold hair was
dishevelled, as if he had been worriedly running his fingers through it. At the
sight of me he sighed, replaced the spectacles, and in a weary but kindly voice,
said: “Hello, John. I suspected you might come.”
I could not help being somewhat cool with him, for I felt at best very
awkward, and at worst, very betrayed. “And do you also suspect what I am about
to ask?”
He sighed again. As the air escaped his lungs, all his cheer, all his
strength, all his bravery, seemed to leave with it, until I realised, to my
discomfort and dismay, that I was looking upon a frail, heartbroken man with
shadows beneath his myopic eyes. “I do not suspect; 1 know. And the answer to
your question is yes, John.”
“I am your son,” I said, my tone flat with disbelief, as I thought: Then
he is mistaken; he has forgotten all about what he shouted to Vlad, and he
thinks I have come to ask about something else.
“You are my son,” he said, with such quiet conviction, such tenderness, such
heartfelt apology, that 1 believed him at once. Conflicting emotions assailed
me: doubt, rage, love, relief. It seemed horribly, horribly wrong; it seemed
horribly, horribly right.
At my distress, his expression grew concerned. “You did know, John, that you
were adopted?”
“Yes,” I said, my voice strained almost to breaking; to my embarrassment, I
was wavering on the precipice of tears. “Yes, but that’s not it. I want to know
why—” And at that point, my voice did break; I could say no
more.
“Why I have been your friend and teacher all these years and have not told
you.”
I nodded blindly, blinking back tears, as he motioned me to sit.
I sat upon the cold floor. And he began to tell me a story which began long
ago, when a prince named Vlad, who came to be known much later as the Impaler (Tsepesh)
or the son of the Dragon (Dracula), made a bargain with the Dark Lord. Every
generation that his family continued, he would offer up the soul of the eldest
surviving son in exchange for continued immortality. But before that soul was
offered, its owner had to have been willingly corrupted. If the
sacrificial lamb died a good, honest man, then Vlad himself would lose his
immortality, age, and die.
“My father, Arkady, was the eldest son of his generation; he died
uncorrupted, but in desperation, Vlad bit him, to trap his soul between heaven
and earth. Then Arkady was destroyed… and Vlad grew weaker, and older—but for
some reason, did not die.“
I stared at him as a revelatory thunderbolt struck; I knew the professor had
only one sibling, a brother who had long ago died. “Then you—”
“I am Dracula’s heir,” he said bitterly. “And the eldest surviving son of my
generation. You heard, I think, Arminius speak of the manuscript?”
I nodded, once again dumbstruck.
He looked away. “Only because of it did Vlad dare threaten me. John,” he
said, turning back to me abruptly and seizing my arms in desperation. “I swear
by everything good that I would never have come here had I known of Vlad’s
increased powers. He was weak, failing; I was far more powerful than
he, and believed my mission would be accomplished months before now. I would
never have endangered you so…”
I signalled my acceptance by clasping his arms in return, but my mind had
moved ahead, and was struggling to understand my own past, and my own destiny.
“I—I am your eldest son, am I not? You had a little boy, who died…”
He stared down at the floor and, for the first time since I have known him,
spoke in a voice thick with tears. “A little boy, whom I killed,” he said, and a
spasm of such intense and violent grief crossed his face that I looked away. “My
Jan. My little Jan…” And he broke into such raw, wrenching sobs that I could do
nothing but stare down at my lap and watch my own tears spill.
After a time, we both collected ourselves, and he continued hoarsely,
“Zsuzsanna—Vlad’s niece and vampire mate—bit him, turned him into a tiny
monster. I had no choice but to free him.”
“So when you had another son, you sent him away,” I said. “Far away, and told
no one who he was.”
“To protect him. But see, John”—and he spread his hands in despair—“see what
has become of all my efforts to spare you the grief I have known. As the
Buddhists say, it is your karma to suffer at Vlad’s hands; without the vampire
even knowing of your existence, he sought out and murdered your lady love.”
“But your… friend, Arminius, is here to help.”
“Yes.” He gave a glum nod. “He is here to help. And he will help us, I think,
make sure Miss Lucy is freed from the curse. But he comes when he lists, and I
cannot predict when help will come again.”
“Let us not worry any further until tomorrow’s work is done.” I pushed myself
to my feet, and helped him up. By then I felt nothing for him but compassion and
gratitude, for I saw what a dreadful burden he has carried all his life, and
carries now; I wanted nothing more at that moment than to ease it for him. I put
my arms round him and said, “You know, I trust, that I have always looked upon
you as a father; and now, my affection for you is doubly justified. I realise
that all you have done, you have done out of love.”
He was too choked to speak with words, and so returned the embrace with a
squeeze. We parted in silence, with tears in our eyes, and even deeper grief in
our hearts.
For a long time, as I lay in bed, sleep would not come; and in the midst of
my restless turning, the bittersweet thought seized me: Dear God! That poor
mad woman is my mother!
I woke to the sunlight this morning a different man; more troubled, yes, but
even more resolved to rid the world of the evil that is my heritage. We are off
to Lucy’s tomb at mid-day, and so my first effort is almost begun.
* * *
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
29 SEPTEMBER, NIGHT.
It is done, thank God; dear Miss Lucy is at peace. John was right to make me
let the three men who so loved Miss Lucy be present, and Arthur strike the blow
that freed her. He did so with a resolve and courage—despite the gushing blood
and shrieking of the vile creature in the coffin—that made us all proud, and
gave me hope for the coming battle. I can see they are all the better for having
aided me, and surely they are worthy. Our brave little group is expanding;
before John took me to the station, he received a telegram from Madam Mina
saying that she would arrive shortly to stay at the asylum, and that her husband
would follow the next day.
I only pray Arminius does not desert us again.
I write this on the train. I told the others that I was bound for Amsterdam,
and for once, I truly am. Arminius’ assistance notwithstanding, I know the most
dangerous task is to come; so I go to spend a few hours at Mama’s bedside, lest
she survive me.
Chapter 15
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
1 OCTOBER.
Returned from Amsterdam yesterday, late afternoon, to find both the Harkers,
and Arthur and Quincey, moved in. It makes little sense to continue the charade
that I am staying at a hotel, so I declared that I was moving in as well (but
when I sleep, Jonathan and the others will be hard-pressed to find me).
Everyone, it seems, has fallen quite in love with Madam Mina—including, I
confess, myself. She has taken on the role of lady of the house, bringing us
cups of tea and seeing to our comfort; this is all our fault, of course, because
we have all lived as bachelors so long that such behaviour is irresistibly
endearing. It makes John’s gloomy house, filled at times with the groans and
shrieks of his patients’ mental anguish, seem like a cheerful home—and we the
family.
As for Amsterdam: Poor Mama was no longer lucid, and barely able to sit up to
eat. Most of the time she merely lies with eyes closed, and rarely converses,
according to Frau Koehler. But she had been well cared for, as she had been
freshly bathed, and her bedsores lovingly cleaned and salved. The good Frau has
done the impossible in preventing their spread. I thanked her most sincerely for
her marvellous care—thanked her as though I might never see her again, and I
think she somehow sensed it, for her eyes filled with tears. She has clearly
come to love Mama, and I think it will grieve her greatly when her patient
finally dies.
As I was leaving, Frau Koehler showed to me the accumulated mail, including a
package which had arrived that very day from Buda-Pesth from an “A. Vambery.” I
could not imagine what it might contain, and so I took it to my study and opened
it in private.
The contents were wrapped within several layers of black silk; this both
intrigued and troubled me, for I knew that only an educated occultist would take
such particular care in order to prevent a magical charge from escaping the
contents. Could this have been a trick of Vlad’s—to expose me to some noxious
spell? I decided not, for despite the protective layers, I felt a strong sense
that the contents were intended not to harm, but to help.
And indeed they were: The instant I unfolded the last layer of silk, a burst
of power from the contents filled the room with such pure white radiance that I
actually stood and breathed deeply, feeling as though the very act cleansed
lungs, body, soul.
The
A. stood for “Arminius,” I decided, and though he had not
appeared personally, he had again provided me with help. For within lay some
twenty small silver crucifixes, and an equal number of sacred wafers wrapped
within a thick padding of tissue. The heavy sorrow of seeing Mama so
incapacitated lifted a bit, and indeed, as I took within my hand one of the
crosses and felt its power surge tingling down my arm, I felt honest joy.
Arminius must have personally charged each one, for these, I knew, would be
sufficient to protect my friends from harm, and to keep the Impaler at bay.
I took them with me to England, and arrived in London much more confident
than I had been in many months. On the way to Purfleet in the carriage, I gave
John three of the talismans: one to wear always upon his person, one to put over
his bedroom window, and one over the window in Renfield’s room. It was a deep
relief to be able to provide protection for my friends.
That evening, the six of us met in John’s study and I told the others what I
wished them to know about the vampire, bearing in mind that Jonathan’s loyalties
were questionable. However, I am coming to think less and less that he is under
Vlad’s control, for he relayed the outcome of his “research”: He had tracked the
fifty boxes of earth spoken of in his Transylvania diary right here to Purfleet—
and the estate
next door, Carfax!
The truth is sometimes too strange to believe; but when I learned of Vlad’s
proximity, I was gladder than ever to have Arminius’ talismans in hand. Without
explaining their origin or speaking of their special charge, I gave two each of
the little crucifixes to Arthur and Quincey, bidding the men to hang one over
their bedroom windows and wear one. I tried to do the same with the Harkers—one
for the window, two for each person—but they both demurred, revealing that they
were already wearing crosses round their necks. Still, I managed to press one
upon them for the window, and noted with interest that Harker waited for his
wife to pick it up. (Was it a vampire’s influence, or merely chance?) The act
did me a world of good, knowing that all would be protected—especially now that
we knew Dracula was so close at hand.
By the end of our meeting, it was decided that we would rise in the wee hours
next morning, and go at once to Carfax to inspect the boxes whilst Dracula was,
hopefully, still prowling in the night. However, all the men were of one mind
regarding Madam Mina: after Lucy’s recent death, none of them could bear the
thought of her endangerment, and so pressed her to remain at the house, where
she would be unquestionably safe, for the front and rear doors and every window
of every occupied room would be sealed with a talisman. So before we discussed
our plan of attack, we dismissed her, on the grounds that we were protecting her
and the less she knew, the safer she would be. This she reluctantly agreed to,
especially since her husband was quite adamant, though I was of two minds about
it. I did not wish to see her endangered, but also was sorry to lose one of our
best minds; frankly, of all of us, Madam Mina is made of the strongest mettle.
And, as John said in his angry grief, what good had ignorance done poor Miss
Lucy?
Nonetheless, Madam Mina left before we made our plans for Carfax; with her
gone, we agreed to leave at four the next morning. When our gathering dispersed,
I went off with John for a private conversation, for during our discussion I had
noticed his especial excitement in mid-meeting, sometime after Jonathan revealed
the information about Carfax.
So it was that we took our leave of the others and stole to my cell, where we
could be assured of remaining unseen and unheard.
The moment I had stepped inside and closed the door, John, who had entered
before me, exclaimed, “Carfax! Don’t you see, Professor? It’s the crossroads!”
“What?” I neared him, frowning with curiosity.
“
Quatre face,” he said, and when I continued to look at him askance,
added, “Ah, I suppose you do not speak much French.
Quatre face, the
Old French for ‘crossroads.“ That’s where the name ’Carfax‘ comes from!”
We stared at each other as the revelation overtook me; the smile which
gradually spread over my face was mirrored in John’s own. “The crossroads,” I
said softly, “where buried treasure lies. The first key!”
He joined with me on the last three words, and we laughed with
delight—gently, though, and not overlong, for Dracula had been residing there
some time. What if he had already found it?
John and I agreed at once that we would both look carefully for signs whether
this had happened—and in case it had not, for places where the first key might
be buried. Thus we went early to bed, for I was quite exhausted (not having had
a sound sleep in the past two days, as I was either in a boat, train, or
carriage).
So I slept deeply but woke intensely alert around three; I dressed and made
my way to John’s office. He, too, rose early and met me there. By three
forty-five, both Quincey and Arthur had joined us, so we waited for Harker.
Before he arrived, the attendant rushed in to tell John that Renfield was
pleading to see him. I frowned, thinking that this clearly was the result of
Dracula interfering with our plans, and John caught my gaze and began to tell
the young man that Renfield should have to wait. But the attendant persisted:
“He is more desperate than I have ever seen him, sir, and if you do not come, he
will throw one of his violent fits.”
So John went; and I and Quincey and Arthur joined him. To everyone’s
surprise, Mr. Renfield seemed not only sane but positively elegant, making a
very persuasive case that he had come to his senses at last, and begged to be
let go. And he honestly seemed sane to us all, and most sincere—but John, who
has dealt long with madmen, decided to observe him a period longer; and I, of
course, trusted him not at all, and attributed his desperation to Dracula’s
influence… and the fact that the stronger talisman was indeed prevailing. Why
should we free him that he might be used against us?
We left, whereupon most of Mr. Renfield’s newfound composure deserted him,
and he began to beg piteously for release.
By five o’clock we were at the door of the old Carfax estate, each of us with
a small electric lamp affixed to his breast, and sporting one of Arminius’
crucifixes—except for Mr. Harker, who wore his own. And all of us—except for
Harker, whom we were all reluctant to trust—bore in our pockets pieces of
Arminius’ sacred Host in order to make the boxes uninhabitable to our foe. (In
this way, even if Dracula were privy to Jonathan’s thoughts, he would not be
warned in advance of our real intention.) In addition, Arthur wore a silver
whistle about his neck to call on canine assistance, if need be, for none of us
doubted the old building was crawling with rats.
John utilised his surgical skill and an old skeleton key to get us in the
front entry, and we moved quickly inside, and soon discovered a table in the
hallway containing a ring of keys. These I gave to Jonathan, and bade him lead
us to the chapel, as he was familiar enough with it to find the way. In my life,
I have never seen so much dust collected in one place; in fact, the floor was
buried under a carpet of dust and dirt some several inches thick, so that I
could not tell whether I was walking on earth or stone or wood. Despite our
desire to be as quiet as possible, lest the Impaler had abandoned his hunting
early, both Arthur and John burst into a paroxysm of coughing at the
throat-tickling clouds stirred up by our footsteps. The walls, too, were covered
with a grey film and laced with thick, ancient spiderwebs, many of which hung
low and swayed languidly in our wake, broken by the weight of the dust collected
thereon.
I felt secure the Impaler had gone, for his aura had become so intense and
large of late that I would have sensed it very near the entry. This notion was
reinforced when we arrived at the arching wooden door to the chapel. After some
false starts, Jonathan found the right key and unlocked the door.
When it swung open, the vile stench of the vampire’s lair wafted out. I was
inured to it after so many years, and proceeded directly in, but the others
behind me had not expected it, and so were overwhelmed. Nevertheless, they
forced themselves to follow.
Within was a pathetic ruin of what had once been a vast, high-ceilinged place
of family worship: a few rotting timbers left of what had once been pews and an
altar, and, on the filthy wall beneath a veil of spiderwebs, the outline of what
had once been a large cross. Perhaps it had been a beautiful place, for there
were two large arching windows —perhaps of stained glass, but long ago covered,
as always, with the thick film of dust.
The room spoke strongly of gloom, decay, impermanence. This in itself was
discouraging enough to see—but far worse was the realisation, after some sileni
counting, that the wooden boxes set out in careful rows were not fifty in
number, but twenty-nine.
Twenty-one missing! I sidled over to John, and whispered for him to quickly
tell Quincey and Arthur
not to seal the boxes off with the Host. Doing
so would only alert the vampire to our plan, so that he might more cleverly hide
the remaining boxes. John managed to tell the other two men whilst Harker was
distracted counting and looking about for some other place the crates might be
hidden. I then instructed all the others to sift through the dirt and dust and
come up with any clue that might lead us to where the other boxes had been
moved; of course, John knew well that he was meant to search for traces of the
manuscript or first key.
As we all searched, I sensed an abrupt change in the room—a glimmering hint
of indigo which disturbed me… and yet did not. At that same instant, Arthur and
Jonathan both reacted to something in the shadows. “I thought I saw a face,”
Arthur said apologetically.
I said nothing, but crouched down to open boxes and sift through dust and
cobwebs for any clue as to the manuscript or key. As I was doing so, one of the
men moved over and stood beside me, waiting to confer about something—or so I
thought, for in my peripheral vision appeared a pair of trouser legs and boots.
I glanced up, mouth open to ask,
Yes? But the question died upon my
lips as my eyes focussed upon a tall man dressed in black, with flowing
silver-and-jet hair and mustache; a man—nay, a vampire—whose skin gleamed
immortal, mother-of-pearl white.
* * *
Vlad, I thought, staring up at the intruder, but said
nothing—surprise had taken my voice. Disappointment washed over me like the
bitterest sea; so even Arminius’ help had come to naught. If his talismans could
not even discourage the vampire in his lair, then none of us were safe, and poor
Madam Mina, left alone in the asylum…
But as I stared, my dismay began to ease. For the eyes were not the deep
evergreen of the Impaler’s, but hazel, and soft; and the nose not so sharp, nor
the lips so cruel.
Indeed, the face bore no wickedness nor wanton sensuality, but gentleness
mixed with sorrowful joy.
“Dear God,” I whispered, unaware that I’d had any intention of speaking; the
words seemed to spill from me without the intervention of brain or teeth or
tongue or lips. “Dearest God…”
I looked about me to see the others busily at work, quite unaware of the
immortal standing near them. The vampire was invisible, but I was not; when he
turned and motioned me to follow round a corner, I did so, doing my best to seem
as if I had just thought of a new place to search.
Once we were both out of sight, he opened his arms to me, and we two
embraced.
“Bram. You have made me proud,” he whispered into my ear. “Very proud…”
“Arkady,” I breathed, and drew back to better look at him. “Father… How can
this be? Twenty years ago, I left you dead in Castle Dracula, a stake piercing
your heart.”
He patted his now-whole chest and smiled. “I do not quite understand it
myself, but somehow I was resuscitated —by whom, I do not know. Perhaps it was
possible because I was never decapitated.” His smile faded and he looked
intensely into my eyes. “I would speak more of it, but we have little time
before the sun rises, Bram. And there is something that must be found, and
quickly, else Vlad will grow so powerful that no one, not even the Devil
Himself, will be able to stop him.”
“Yes, I know—the manuscript.”
He was taken rather aback. “Who told you of it?”
“Arminius.”
A ghost of the smile returned. “I am glad, then, that he still helps you.”
And again more seriously: “Vlad has not yet found the first key—of that I am
sure. If he does, he will gain even more strength than he has now. It is here,
somewhere; I search for it when I am able, but I am no match for him these days.
Hardly, probably, a match even for you now.“
I smiled as I shook my head.
“Now I shall return to invisibility, and join your search. But we must work
quickly, for there is not much time left before he returns.” He stepped away
from me, and began to fade—but ere his disappearance was complete, he paused,
and with a wistful expression asked:
“Is Mary still alive?”
I am not a man given to tears; but I have shed many of late. And at the
question, my eyes filled with them again. “She is safe, and in Amsterdam.”
At my reaction, his expression became one of anguished concern. “But she is
not well?”
“She is dying.”
“Ah,” he groaned, coming to full visibility, and turned away. “Were it not
for Vlad, I would see her one last time…” He gathered himself again, then asked,
“And your little boy, Jan—I know it is a difficult thing, but did you—”
“I killed him,” I replied bitterly. “And, yes, Gerda is still quite mad from
it all.”
“He rests,” Arkady said, and wound a cold arm about me. “He rests sweetly and
at peace, because of you. Soon Gerda will have respite from her sorrow; the time
will come. You must believe…”
And he put his face against my neck and wept cold, cold tears. John would
have been terror-struck, I know, to have seen me permit a vampire such access to
veins; but with Arkady, I had no fear. My one concern was not to yield to my
grief—not here, in front of the others; not here, when there was work to be
done.
Soon he straightened, and said, sighing, “Always sorrow with us Tsepesh.
Always sorrow… I had wanted so to spare you the pain Vlad can inflict…”
“Just as I wanted to spare him,” I said, pointing at John, who had
moved to our periphery. He was working with his back to us, but even so, Arkady
studied him with sad fondness.
“Another son,” he marveled; it was not quite a question.
“Your grandson,” I confirmed.
He looked back at me. “Then we must find a way to spare him, Bram.
Your life and mine destroyed, and the lives of those we love… That is enough.”
And as I gazed back at him, he took on a gossamer appearance; before he had
completely faded, I whispered, “Come to me again. The asylum on the very next
property…”
As I composed myself and returned to the others, I heard his voice whisper in
my ear: I have left them with a little distraction…
Indeed he had. I found myself ankle-deep in dust and squirming rats; in fact,
the boxes and floor and walls were covered in the black crawling creatures, and
their tiny eyes reflected the glow from our little lamps with an eerie
phosphorescence. Almost immediately, Arthur blew his whistle; soon three
terriers appeared, and after some reluctance (no doubt they sensed Arkady’s
presence), the dogs grew bold and dispatched the writhing lot.
By then sunlight was approaching, and it seemed that we had done as much as
possible for the time. We left relieved that none of us were harmed, but quite
concerned about the missing boxes. Any delay is to be feared, but at least
Harker is out tracking down the other boxes.
* * *
3 OCTOBER.
The worst of all days since we lost poor Lucy.
Until last night, all had been going well, and I dared hope. I am glad we
permitted Harker to join our party, as he has been an invaluable source of
information as to where Vlad moved the boxes. The “count,” it seems, has
acquired other properties in east and south London—in New Town, where
Whitechapel Road becomes Mile End; and Jamaica Lane, Bermondsey. He has also
purchased a house in the city’s very heart, at Piccadilly. Today we shall go
there, and search for titles to other properties, and kjys to them. And perhaps,
Fate willing, we shall come across a very different “key.”
By yesterday, Jonathan had completed his research, and we were in possession
of the necessary addresses; Arthur and Quincey spent the day rounding up horses
so that we could all move quickly from destination to destination. Tomorrow,
I told myself, the vampire will be ours! I was filled again with
optimism: but alas! In my foolish desire to protect Madam Mina from harm, and
from knowledge of the evil, I have spent little time with her— and so did not
see the obvious.
In the predawn hours, John came running to my cell, so distraught that I
immediately emerged from my shelter to see what had so frightened him.
“Professor!” he shouted, without any concern that someone might overhear and
learn my actual location in the house. “Renfield is dying…”
Bag in hand, I ran back with him to see whether I could be of any medical
help. The door to Renfield’s cell was wide open, and the attendant squatted
beside him with an expression of anguished helplessness.
The first glance proved that John had not overstated the situation in the
least, for the poor man lay on his side, with his face turned upward, and his
head and shoulders surrounded by an ever-enlarging dark halo of blood.
Examination revealed a broken back and fractured skull, with pieces of bone
pushed down into the brain; he would die soon if no action were taken to relieve
the pressure of blood pooling inside the cranium.
Instinctively, I looked up from where I knelt beside the dying man, and
squinted at the barred window, where only recently John had put one of Arminius’
crosses.
Gone. In a terse voice I demanded of the attendant: “The crucifix above the
window—where is it?”
He must have thought me mad or heartless, or both, to ask such an apparently
unrelated question, with poor Renfield suffering at my knees. Sheepishly, the
burly young man handed it to John, saying: “I removed it because this evening he
just went wild trying to jump up and grab it; I was afraid he’d hurt himself, so
I went in and took it down. He tried to snatch it from me, and begged me for it,
but as it was sharp—”
“That’s enough,” John said, quite angrily; I suppose the attendant thought we
suspected him of wanting to steal it, and were more concerned about Seward’s
property than our suffering patient, for he drew back with a hurt expression.
“Send him away,” I ordered; and at the attendant’s scandalised glance at me,
then at John, explained: “We shall have to drill a hole in his skull to relieve
the pressure. If you wish to stay—”
But he was already out the door, closing it behind him. To John I said, as I
took instruments from my bag,
“Trephination is indicated. I do not think we will save him, but at best, he
can spend his last moments conscious and more comfortable.”
As I spoke, a soft knock came at the door, and both Arthur and Quincey peered
inside. John gave them entrance; no explanation beyond the pool of blood and our
horribly injured patient was required.
They stood by in silent dismay whilst I performed the operation, drilling
just above the patient’s ear. We were, for the moment, successful; after a few
moments, the pressure was relieved. Renfield opened his eyes, and quite lucidly
asked that the strait-jacket be removed. There was little point in obliging him,
however, as movement would only increase his pain and speed up his demise;
though death was not far off, I sensed he wished to speak, and “confess his
sins,” as it were. I was not reluctant to hear them, as the unsecured window
spoke of danger for us all.
He spoke rationally, even kindly, in a way that evoked my pity—but never have
I heard words that so sickened my heart. Our Renfield had indeed been under the
vampire’s sway, and quite adoring of his “Lord and Master”; but he had also been
quite taken with Madam Mina, who had twice visited him out of kindness—the
second time, that very afternoon. She had grown too pale to suit him, he said;
“and it made me mad to know that He had been taking the life out of her.”
Horrible moment! None of us could repress a shudder as he said it.
And Dracula, smelling of Mina, had come to him only moments earlier that
night, entering easily once the talisman had been removed. And this man—this
poor deranged lunatic—took the vampire in his hands and fought, fought to
protect Madam Mina the only way he knew how.
When he had finished speaking and sighed as he lapsed again into
unconsciousness, the air was electric: we four men said not a word, but left the
valiant madman where he lay dying, and ran to our rooms to collect our
talismans. Within seconds we had all arrived at the door to the Harkers’
room—locked from within.
All together, we threw ourselves against it, and came crashing through. I
fell forward, and the others surged past me, then abruptly stopped. Falling, I
had the sense that I was passing through a cloud of glittering indigo—strong and
cold, though not so strong as when I had last seen the vampire, and touched
within by a hint of radiant white and the merest gleam of gold. Yet it was not
Vlad—no, it was not Vlad who brushed by me, but something else entirely evil,
and entirely feminine.
It passed, and quickly; the door banged shut behind me as it went. And as I
struggled to my hands and knees (oh, and had I been standing, I would have
dropped to them!), I saw:
Harker, snoring on the bed close to the window, and on the mattress’ outer
edge his wife—her face pressed fast against the bared chest of the Impaler,
whose eyes were closed in deepest ecstasy. She turned her head, gagging,
revealing in the moonlight mouth and cheeks dark and dripping with vampiric
blood. The sight .pierced like a jagged blade: this was the crudest version of
the blood ritual, a sanguinary exchange which tied victim most thoroughly to
predator. If he had also drunk from her, then she was his.
But in the midst of my horror, the thought seized me: He did not hear us
come. He did not hear us come. He has changed…
I scrambled to my feet as the vampire at last became aware of his enemies’
presence; with one swift, powerful move, he thrust his victim back upon the bed
and sprang towards us. By then I had raised high the envelope which contained
the sacred Host, and felt a surge like lightning travel from heart to fingers.
Even without the infusion of Arminius’ strength, never had I been more
determined, more focussed, more confident, in my life; I think I could have
driven him away by my will alone.
At the sight of the envelope he cowered—cowered in abject agony, as though
the power emanating from it were searing his skin!—and I collected myself enough
to find my second sight, whereby I saw his aura: shrunken, depleted, dimmed.
These both seemed even to him a revelation, for an expression of disbelieving
and hellish rage contorted his features and reddened his green eyes to flame. He
was confused; he had been so swept away by his deed that he was surprised by
this sudden lapse! Had it only recently happened?
Whilst Jonathan still snored, I moved between the Harkers and the monster,
advancing steadily with the Host aloft until Vlad gathered his wits and
transformed himself to dark mist. Thus he moved past four armed guardians, and
disappeared beneath the door—for the little silver cross above the window cast a
barrier he could not cross.
At once, Madam Mina drew a rasping breath and let go a scream that pierced
the very veil of Heaven.
Words cannot express the horror that followed, when poor Harker woke and saw
the blood smeared upon her face and gown, and realised what had happened; we
scarce could restrain him from grabbing his knife—the broad, curving blade known
in India as the kukri—and pursuing the vampire on foot. As for brave Madam Mina,
she was undone—not by fear for herself, but that she might be used to harm those
she loved. For Vlad, in his arrogance, had tormented her cruelly, saying that
she was now his to command, and that the time would come when she would become
his vampire companion and helper—and infect each of the five men who were
righting now against him.
Gently I calmed her, and coaxed her to tell all that had happened, whilst
John lit the lamp. Even with its light, I could not judge whether she had been
freshly bitten and the rite completed, for she leaned against her husband’s
breast so that her long dark hair fell forward, veiling face and neck.
When she was sufficiently composed, she revealed the worst, in a brave voice
that faltered rarely: the vampire had bitten her and she had been forced to
swallow some of his blood. The exchange was complete, and our efforts to protect
Madam Mina had resulted in her being lost to us.
Thank God Vlad is weaker! Even so, we are bound more than ever to destroy
him, before he can fulfill his promise to poor Madam Mina.
And if he is weaker—as John and I discussed privately —it can mean only one
thing: that another immortal has stolen the manuscript from him. But who?
By the time Madam Mina had finished her terrible story, the dawn was
breaking. We all agreed to dress and meet shortly afterwards, to discuss what
was to be done.
First, of course, John and I went again to check on Renfield—dead, poor
fellow. Lunatic or no, he died bravely and for Madam Mina’s sake, and for that,
I shall always honour his memory. I pressed the talisman from his window into
his cold hand, and said a silent prayer for the dead.
Once we had all dressed and assembled, our plan became clear: We will go to
each of the four locations— Carfax, where twenty-nine boxes reside; Mile End and
Bermondsey, which each hold six; and Piccadilly, where nine remain. These we
will seal off with the Host, and so force a confrontation. I am hopeful of
victory—but even if the Impaler succumbs to us, we must then face an even more
powerful foe…
Chapter 16
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
3 OCTOBER, NIGHT.
To continue with today’s adventure: We had gone at six-thirty this morning to
meet for breakfast, since it was agreed that all needed to take in substantial
nourishment for the day’s events. So we trooped into the dining-room and
breakfasted on scones and bangers and tea. Though everyone felt exhausted and
beaten, we worked hard to maintain a front of good cheer; Mina was as bright and
smiling as ever, and Arthur and Quincey joked with her quite a bit and made her
laugh. I drank coffee, like a good Dutchman, and smiled as best I could as I
sipped from my cup, watching them. Jonathan clearly was having the most
difficulty. From time to time, as he turned to gaze upon his charming wife, his
eyes filled with tears; and he would look away swiftly, lest she see his worry
and lose heart herself.
In the midst of all, while everyone else was distracted by witty
conversation, the doorbell chimed. A moment later, the housekeeper sidled up to
me and said softly, “Dr. Van Helsing? There’s a lady at the door who wishes to
speak with you.”
This quiet announcement left me—and John, who sat beside me—stunned. We
shared a dark glance. Who else could know that I was here? I fingered the
talisman in my pocket as I rose, wondering whether this was some trick of Vlad’s…
Or had Frau Koehler taken it upon herself to announce Mama’s death in person,
rather than send a telegram?
I left, and John silently followed; the others were talking away, Mina
laughing with false gaiety at something Quincey had said.
By the time I reached the foyer, however, John had moved in front of me,
stride-for-stride with the housekeeper, who reassured him: “They’re waiting
outside, Doctor; I know you’ve asked me not to let anyone inside the house
without your approval…”
She moved off as John cracked open the door a mere finger’s breadth. From
where I stood, I could not see past him, but his profile was easily visible; the
movement of his eyes revealed that there was one person standing upon the porch,
and one standing slightly farther back. Apparently, he did not know them, for he
demanded sternly, “I’m Dr. Seward. May I help you?”
I heard a voice first, one distantly, oddly familiar— that of a lady, with a
vaguely Slavic accent, but excellent command of English:
“I pray you can, Doctor; but first, let me say that it is more of a pleasure
than you know for me to see you. I have heard of you from… roundabout sources.”
John lifted his head in puzzled surprise, and his eyes narrowed in that
peculiar way which indicates that he is uncertain about whether to trust what he
has seen.
The lady continued, in a voice that now was maddeningly familiar, but somehow
changed so that I could not place it. “I wish to speak to Abraham Van Helsing,
and as quickly as possible. Tell him I have information which can aid him in
his… search.“
At this, I pushed my way beside John, able to resist no longer. “I am Abraham
Van Helsing.”
In the doorway stood a woman—not beautiful, but handsome in a severe way, and
pale, with strong, sharp chin and nose, and high, sculpted cheeks. Her
silver-streaked raven hair was pulled tightly into a thick coil at the base of
her neck, without thought for fashion or flattery. Likewise, she was dressed in
a plain black gown— against which a thin, tall white dog pressed—and veil, which
she had drawn back to speak. Beneath heavy coal-coloured brows, her brown eyes
were somber, subdued, and when she saw me, they brightened slightly; but she did
not smile.
Some several feet behind her stood a man, also dressed in mourning. My
peripheral vision detected his presence, but I could not take my gaze from the
woman’s face, for I knew her—and yet I did not.
Her aura was not strong, merely adequate; most curiously, while it came close
to the indigo shade of the vampire (though not so much black as a deep, deep
blue), it was sprinkled with the gold of spiritual advancement. I could think
only of a dark blue sky littered with stars.
If John had seen this, he had good reason to be confused.
“Bram,” she said kindly, “who was born my nephew, Stefan George Tsepesh. It
is I, Zsuzsanna Tsepesh. I have come to ask your forgiveness, and offer my
help.”
For some seconds I could not speak—could only stare at her with lips parted
in amazement. For this lady
was Zsuzsanna, the destroyer of my little
Jan, tormentor of my poor Gerda… but Zsuzsanna without any trace of vampiric
glamour, Zsuzsanna without any effort to mesmerise. I hesitated on the
threshold; her sincerity seemed genuine, but to invite her into the house could
mean disaster for all… especially if
she had stolen the manuscript.
“Indeed, you need my forgiveness,” I said bitterly. “But I am not sure I can
give it. Because of you, my little son is dead, and my wife irretrievably mad.”
The memory evoked hatred within me, and a desire to be cruel; I lifted the
talisman from my pocket and held it at chest level.
Her eyes narrowed with pain, and she stiffened, but made no movement to run
away or strike out against me; instead, she held her ground. I knew not what to
make of it all, for the more I looked upon her, the more grief and anger
overwhelmed me. I wished only to slam the door and forget her face as quickly as
I could—and made a move to do just that. But ere I succeeded, the man behind her
called out: “Bram! Wait!”
And Arkady mounted the stairs and moved beside her; a single sunlit tear
spilled onto her cheek as he put a comforting arm about her shoulder. “My son,”
he said gently, “with your weapons”—he nodded at the cross in my hand —“you have
us both at a considerable disadvantage. I would never endanger you, and I ask
you now: Will you hear her out?”
In reply, I glanced pointedly at John. He stared at the two with a profoundly
perplexed expression, then back at me, and asked: “He is really your father?”
“He is,” I replied, and Arkady smiled at his grandson, saying:
“And you are John. I saw you last night at Carfax; your father pointed you
out to me. My name is Arkady; but, please, call me whatever you wish.”
The colour drained from John’s face, and his expression grew slack; the
strangeness of it all, coupled with last night’s terrible events, left him
utterly dazed. He had come to see the vampire as our deadliest foe—and now we
were contemplating welcoming two into the house. But he looked askance again at
me—and, seeing affirmation, opened wide the door and said: “Please. Come in.”
* * *
They could not, of course, pass over the threshold until John had removed the
crucifix that hung above it. (The dog, perhaps, could have, but stayed close to
Zsuzsanna’s side and would not leave her.) Once they had passed, he immediately
replaced the talisman. This caused them some unease, but they reassured us that
what they had to say was important enough to merit temporary discomfort.
I led them into John’s office, so that the others would not hear, and bade
them all sit. They did, and after a reassuring glance from Arkady, Zsuzsanna
said, her voice wavering:
“First and foremost, please know that I honestly regret all the harm I have
caused you, your wife, and your first son. Will you forgive me?”
I nodded solemnly, for I was too pained to reply; in fact, merely to indicate
assent was a difficult enough act of will, for my feelings were those of hatred
and fury. But I swallowed them—a bitter-enough pill—and watched relief spread
over her features.
“Thank you,” she sighed, then gathered herself. “There are many things I must
tell you before you continue in your efforts against Vlad. The first—”
“Excuse me,” I interrupted, perhaps a bit too harshly, “but you must
first answer a question for me before you continue. Why this abrupt
change of loyalties? When last I saw you, you swore to kill me.”
Zsuzsanna laughed—not an altogether happy sound, but one which caused the
dog, who lay at her feet, to glance up at his mistress. She leaned forward to
stroke his head with distracted affection as she replied:
“It has not been as abrupt as it might appear. Remember, Bram, that I have
spent five decades with Vlad and, as time passes, have come more and more to see
that he has misled me. He is not the honourable misunderstood hero he initially
portrayed himself to be; he is a cold, vile creature, completely incapable of
any kind or affectionate impulse. As he was in life, so he is in undeath. And I
have grown to hate him”—she lowered her face—“and myself. I was at Carfax, too,
last night—where I came upon Kasha.” She glanced affectionately at Arkady. “I
watched your encounter—how you both mourned Jan, and Gerda, and Mary”—again she
bowed her head, and rapidly blinked to stave off tears—“and I knew that I
had been a source of sorrow to all five of you.”
I signalled the dog, which rose and came shyly over, head down, tail
tentatively wagging. I stroked its head and ears, and gazed deep into its
sensitive dark eyes; it was a common, mortal dog, nothing more—and that
impressed me more greatly than the speech she had made. Dogs are noble souls and
instinctively fear evil and the vampire; yet this one doted on his mistress, and
she on him.
“Very well. That shall be sufficient—for the time. Go on.” The dog settled
comfortably upon my feet, and I was forced to continue stroking it or suffer
repeated wet, cold nudges.
Her head lifted, and an impish glint came into her eye as she saw the dog
lying upon my feet. “Friend likes you. He loves me dearly, but is always so
relieved to find a nice, warm mortal.” And then the sprite vanished, and her
expression grew somber once again as she said:
“There is another immortal involved here, a woman, Countess Elisabeth of
Bathory—who, during her life, brutally tortured more than six hundred fifty
young women to death, then bathed in their blood. Have you heard of her?”
“I have.”
“She is a vampire—and yet not, for she eschews sharp teeth and prefers to
inflict the wounds on her victims with torture devices before drinking and
bathing in the blood. She has always been a more powerful magician than Vlad,
and more of a scientist; her pact with the Dark Lord is free from the
superstitious trappings that mark Vlad’s. She can move about during the day or
night, sleeps when she pleases in a bed, and does not fear religious
symbols—only those powerfully charged as talismans, such as yours.” She nodded
at my pocket, wherein I had replaced the crucifix; then she drew a deep breath.
“I know, because I was her companion for some time. And I can say without
reservation that, given a choice between Vlad and Elisabeth, I should fear
Elisabeth more.”
On instinct, I asked, “Was it Elisabeth who stole the manuscript from Vlad
last night?”
“It was,” Arkady volunteered, before his sister could reply. “When he was…
quite distracted. Feeding, and doing the blood ritual with”—his expression grew
mildly surprised—“someone here, wasn’t it, Zsuzsa?”
She nodded, but was too intent on her mission to react. “Elisabeth’s
abilities are increasing rapidly; soon she will be as strong as Vlad was, as she
comes to understand the riddle more and more. We have much to fear if she finds
the first key, which will lead to the appearance of the fifth line.”
At this John seemed to come out of his daze enough to speak. “She may already
have found it.”
“No,” Zsuzsanna said, leaning towards him—then recoiling a bit, which told me
that John had taken my instruction to heart, and still wore Arminius’ crucifix
on his person. “She has not. I know it.”
“How?” My son’s expression was that of the sceptical scientist, a trait I had
encouraged.
“Jonathan Harker,” she replied, and both John and I immediately sat forward.
“When he was at Castle Dracula, I bit him. And Elisabeth drank his blood, which
put him under her control, as well. One of her tricks is that she can heal
wounds, so I left no mark upon him. He is both my agent… and hers. This causes
some difficulty now, for we can sense each other’s thoughts to some extent. As
she is the more powerful, I dare only read him briefly, at odd hours. That is
one of the things I wanted to warn you of; tell Harker nothing that you do not
wish Elisabeth to know!”
She paused, then continued, “I regret it did not occur to me earlier to use
Harker until I became suspicious of Elisabeth, and left her; it was then I
discovered that”—she lowered her gaze, embarrassed—“that she was kind to me and
pretended to love me in order that I might love her; for the terms of her
covenant were that she should win a lover, and keep that love constant for six
months… at which point, her victim would become the property of the Dark Lord. I
believe that /was the incentive for her coming to Castle Dracula.”
An awkward silence fell over us all. John and I both blushed, and lowered our
gazes; Arkady again put a protective, reassuring arm around his sister’s
shoulders.
It was John who spoke up first. He tilted his face, intrigued; I could see
that he had begun to trust her (a good sign, for I am coming to think he will
soon become more adept at reading persons and auras than I). “Tell me… what is
Harker doing now?”
The muscles in her face relaxed slightly, and her dark eyes took on a distant
look—for an instant, no more. She shifted and said matter-of-factly, “Chewing a
sausage, though he is too heartbroken to taste it. What has happened to his
wife?” And as the realisation struck home, she lifted a gloved hand to her lips.
“Oh! I am so sorry…”
Again, there was a strained lapse in the conversation; this time, Zsuzsanna
reinitiated it herself by rising. “That is all I have come to tell you: that,
and that we must all try again to find the first key before Elisabeth or Vlad
does. We shall give aid and information to you whenever we can.”
The rest of us rose, as gentlemen will. “Now I must tell you one
last thing,” I said, quite solemn myself. “For I want no deception, no secrets,
between us. I am bound to destroy Vlad… and all vampires. If you help
me, Zsuzsanna, do so with the realisation that, if we succeed, I will not permit
you or my father to live.”
She reached out to take Arkady’s hand, and a look of understanding passed
between them. “I know. I’m prepared for that now.”
Arkady looked back at us both and said, “We will be at Carfax this morning—if
Elisabeth permits.”
“As will we,” I said. “We go ostensibly to seal off Vlad’s boxes; but John
and I will be looking for the manuscript and key. The others know nothing of
either; we thought it safest, as we suspected Harker was somehow… vampirically
connected.”
Arkady nodded. “Then we will stay out of sight, and not interrupt you except
in an emergency.”
So the two visitors turned to leave—Zsuzsanna hesitating at first, for I
think she wished to embrace me, or to say something more to convince me of her
heartfelt regret. I wanted nothing of it, for the deep pain she had inflicted on
me and my family could not be erased by a mere confession. Thus I turned away
from her, and she sighed reluctantly and began to leave.
But as John put his hand upon the door to open it for her, I called out:
“Why?”
The two men frowned back at me in puzzlement, unsure of both my question’s
meaning and target; but Zsuzsanna understood.
“Why?” I asked again. “The full truth.” She looked over her shoulder at me,
and on her lips played a bitter smile.
“Because I grew bored, Abraham. In half a century of undeath, I have achieved
the heights of pleasure and the depths of depravity; I have known unlimited
wealth, unlimited beauty, unlimited power over men. I collected about me all the
exquisite things of the world: jewels, clothing, creatures. But the loveliness I
sought could not mask the ugliness of what I had become, nor hide the fact that
my existence had become a weary attempt to repeat pleasure after pleasure
throughout eternity. Nor could it ever win me a moment’s honest affection from
another.” And here she again took her brother’s hand and squeezed it; and he
smiled, eyes bright, down at her.
Gazing up at him, she said softly, “Without death or compassion, life has no
meaning. And so 1 have returned to the only one who truly loves me. For his
sake, I would sacrifice all. What else was left to me? Should I become like Vlad
and Elisabeth—bored predators who have staked their continued immortality on
games, with mortal pawns?” She faced me, eyes flashing. “Ask your father,
Bram—ask Kasha how Vlad toyed with him, slowly trapping him in a web where he
could do naught but be accomplice to the crudest murders! It was the only way
Vlad kept the centuries exciting: every twenty years, another eldest son,
another gradual conquest, thrilling only because his undeath depended on it.“
Her voice rang with a passion and fire I had seen twenty years ago, in the
vampiress—now I know it belonged to the woman herself. “I will not become as he!
I will not fear Death so much that I care not what suffering I inflict! I have
inflicted enough anyway—and if I can make some small amends, I will.”
* * *
So she and Arkady left to precede us to our destination. John and I returned
to the others, and, with Jonathan, Quincey, and Arthur—and several of the
consecrated Hosts—went to Carfax. By then, it was half past seven in the
morning, and though morning made the old house seem somewhat less gloomy than
the night before, it accentuated more than ever the dismal degree of filth.
Certainly the chapel seemed less daunting; pale shafts of sunlight streamed
through the dust-covered eastern windows, dappling the wall where the cross had
once hung.
At once I produced wrench and turnscrew, and, with these in hand, proceeded
to unscrew the lid from the first of the heavy boxes. The others assisted me by
lifting away the lid, and setting inside a piece of the Host. So we went one by
one, treating each box the same—difficult work, and at one point I gave the
turnscrew to John and asked him to continue, as my back had grown tired of
bending and I wished to stretch it. It was the truth, though in part, I also
wanted to surreptitiously wander a bit in search of the first key.
Before starting, however, I wandered over to the wall and stretched a bit in
the sunlight—for the day was chill and the old house cold as the tomb it was, so
any bit of warmth was welcome. As I stood there, one hand pressed to the filthy
wall for balance, a flash of dark, dark blue appeared in front of my eyes; I
blinked, and when I looked again, there stood Zsuzsanna.
Invisible and silent, I hoped, for her agitation was exceptional; she was
near to wringing her hands as she cried, “See there! The wall! He has taken it!”
She pointed, and I followed the direction with my gaze. To my left, slightly
above my head, a shaft of pale daylight painted the wall—at the very centre of
the now-departed cross. The dust and spiderwebs there had been brushed away to
reveal a hole in the rotting wood, wherein had been placed a small wooden box.
The box’s lid had been sprung open, so that if one stood perpendicular to the
wall, careful examination would show the lid protruding.
I reached up casually and felt its inside with my fingers: emptiness, and
polished wood. An effort to pull the box free failed. “And how do you know it
was Vlad,” I breathed, turning my face to the wall, “and not Elisabeth?”
She glanced at Harker, who, along with Quincey, was lifting the heavy lid of
the third box so Arthur could set inside another piece of sacred wafer. “It
cannot have been she. I do not know where she is, but she is still frustrated,
and now bitterly angry. I think she made this same discovery this morning—which
means that Vlad must have found the key sometime last night.”
“And read the fifth line?” I asked grimly.
“I don’t know. I must hurry—Arkady has gone to try to follow him, and I must
join him!”
Before I could say another word, she had vanished; and so I rejoined
the men and helped them finish their task.
It was long, hard work, and mid-day had arrived before we were finished. The
others seemed cheered by our early success, whilst I struggled to hide my own
disappointment; John alone noticed. As we could spare no delay, we proceeded
almost immediately to the station and took the train into London.
We located the old mansion at 347 Piccadilly quite easily, though the
bustling neighbourhood in which it was located and the bright light of day
precluded our breaking house as we had at Carfax. Arthur came up with the
excellent notion of pretending to be the owner of the property, and hiring a
locksmith to open the front entry. This he did most successfully, feigning such
casual ease and confidence as he watched the hired man do his job that a
patrolling policeman took no notice of them.
After some wry comments from Quincey as to Lord Godalming’s native talent for
crime, we entered the house. Making a thorough examination of the property, we
found Dracula’s effects upon the dining-room table: a bundle of deeds (thank
God, only to the four properties) and another ring heavy with keys.
But within the same room were the boxes: not nine, but only eight in number!
Nevertheless, with the aid of turnscrew and wrench, we opened each one and
sealed it with the Host. Then the tools were turned over to Arthur and Quincey,
along with the ring of keys; off they went to Bermondsey and Mile End, whilst
Harker, Seward, and I remained at Piccadilly, to lie in wait for the “count,”
should he come.
Come he did—after a wait of many hours, and just after Quincey and Arthur
returned with the report that they had successfully sealed off six boxes at
Bermondsey and six at Mile End; but one box remained unaccounted for!
It was just after that frustrating revelation that we heard the key turn in
the lock, followed by footsteps— sounds that put us all on alert, but also
filled me with bittersweet gladness, for they signalled Vlad’s return to limited
powers in daylight. He could move only in human guise now, until the setting of
the sun—all the better for us!
Even so, he proved a fearsome foe, and sprang through the dining-room door
with feline grace and cunning. Harker wielded his great kukri knife and slashed
out, eyes blazing like those of an avenging angel. Had he been an inch closer,
he would have won the day, for the tip came perilous close to the vampire’s cold
heart. As it was, the huge blade sliced through the breast of his coat, and out
spilled a cascade of gold coins and banknotes.
With speed and skill, the vampire ducked beneath Jonathan’s arm to scoop up
what coins and notes he could, and with them ran off, so swiftly that none could
catch him.
Harker was undone by his failure, for he had sworn to free his darling from
the curse by nightfall; we comforted him as best we could. But secretly, I felt
encouraged by that afternoon’s encounter: Vlad’s hair had been streaked with
silver, his face lined with the first traces of age. He is growing steadily
weaker, key or no! And soon we will obtain it from him…
If Elisabeth does not reach him first.
* * *
4 OCTOBER.
In the hour before dawn, John came to wake me. He and the other men had been
taking turns spending the night outside the Harkers’ room—in part to make Madam
Mina feel protected, and in part, I think, to protect me from Jonathan.
At any rate, Jonathan had come rushing out of the room to wake John, as Madam
Mina had asked me to come hypnotise her at once, before the sun rose.
I wasted no time, but pulled on my dressing-robe and followed John. By then,
both Arthur and Quincey (who, I suspect, were too restless to sleep) had risen
and the whole lot of us made our way to the Harkers’ bedchamber.
The gaslight was burning bright, and Madam Mina was sitting upon a love seat
in her dressing-gown, her long dark hair falling in waves upon her shoulders.
Jonathan sat beside her, holding her hand in both of his with a solicitous air;
his demeanour, too, was cheerful and excited, but his eyes were anxious. At the
sight of me she smiled, looking more her old self than she had in many a day;
but the smile faded almost at once as she said, with an air both businesslike
and excited:
“You must hypnotise me at once, Doctor! Don’t ask me how, but I know
that I am privy to information about Vlad which can help us—”
Before she finished speaking, I lifted a hand, and bade her fix her gaze upon
it—more for the sake of the others watching than Madam Mina. I moved my hand
this way and that, for show, but in the end, it was a mere glance into her eyes
that closed them and sent her deep into trance.
“Where are you?” I asked.
A crease appeared in her smooth forehead, vand her head moved languidly from
side to side as if she were shaking it in refusal. “I don’t know… It’s dark,
very dark, and still as death…”
“What do you hear?”
Here she tilted her head, as though listening. “The lapping of waves…
footsteps overhead, and men talking. The creaking of a chain, and the tinkling
of metal…”
A ship, I realised, and shared a triumphant glance with my three friends.
Fear of Elisabeth, perhaps—or even, dare we think, fear of us and our
determination, now that he was weaker—had driven him from the country!
Inspiration filled me. Leaving Madam Mina entranced, sitting quietly, I
turned at once to Jonathan—and, without hesitating, put him at once into a deep
trance, then signalled John to step forward and put his hands over his ears,
lest Elisabeth should be made privy to any more of the information we were
seeking. Quincey and Arthur looked a bit scandalised at first, but relaxed as
they realised the necessity for it; in fact, both offered up handkerchiefs to
John, which he wadded up and pressed against Harker’s ears, to better muffle
Mina’s murmured replies.
That done, I turned back to my first patient and commanded, “Tell me your
thoughts.”
“To the first return,” she intoned, “and the castle deep within the forest.”
Arthur dashed about the room, found a piece of paper, and scribbled it down.
“Where is the key?” I continued.
“The first? Lying cold against my heart. The second, at my home—though where,
I cannot say.”
She fell silent then, and would say no more; I motioned for Quincey to lift
the blind, which revealed the first pinkish light of dawn.
Immediately I turned towards Jonathan; John at once released his hands so
that I could ask the entranced man:
“Where are you?”
“I follow.”
“Whom do you follow? Van Helsing or Vlad?”
At that, he turned his face stubbornly away, like a spoiled child who refuses
his supper; I tried a different approach.
“What do you see? What do you hear?”
A grimace of the most vicious exasperation came over him. With eyelids still
lowered, but aflutter, he growled in a low but distinctively feminine voice,
“Look here, Van Helsing! You are a stupid bastard, indeed, to tangle with me.
I’ll see you dead—if not with these hands, then a pair of others!”
At once he leapt up from the chair and ran to the bed. From beneath the
mattress, he pulled the fearsome kukri knife and ran towards me with it.
I knew now, without doubt, that Arminius’ talisman would keep him at bay—but
my confidence in it was not total. While it might hold Harker’s person an arm’s
length from my own, the kukri knife could reach much farther— and it was no
respecter of talismans or magical charges. Only the presence of John, Arthur,
and Quincey saved me, for they rushed him from the back and sides, and caught
the arm hoisting the knife. It took the bone-crushing grip of three strong men
upon his wrist before he let go the weapon with a howl; Seward, much accustomed
to dealing with violent outbursts, soon had him back in his chair and pinned
fast.
Of a sudden, he relaxed completely, sagging. I released him from the trance
quickly, then watched as John slowly, carefully, eased his grip.
Jonathan opened his eyes and blinked in confusion for some seconds; then
looked over at his hypnotised wife with avid interest and concern, as if nothing
out of the ordinary had happened.
I picked up the cue and brought Mina out of her trance, as well; she was
bright and cheerful, but completely unaware of what she had said or what else
had transpired. So we left the Harkers, and told them both to rest well, and not
hurry to breakfast. They both were clearly exhausted, and took our advice
gratefully.
* * *
Whilst the Harkers were sleeping, the rest of us discussed the situation.
Dracula was on a sailing ship weighing anchor somewhere in the Port of
London—this we all agreed was a logical assumption, given Madam Mina’s report.
But whither was it bound?
There were hundreds of ships weighing anchor in London on any given day, and
at first glance the task seemed hopeless. But Arthur pulled the scrap of paper
from his pocket and read it to us:
“To the first return, and the castle deep within the forest.”
“The ‘castle deep within the forest’ sounds like Castle Dracula to me,” John
said. “After all, didn’t Mina say that the second key was at ‘home’?”
The other two men nodded agreement, and Quincey said, “It has to be. What
else can you make of ‘to the first return’ except ‘return to the first line’?
And the first line talks about Transylvania.”
So it was agreed: We would try to discover which ships had set sail yesterday
for the Black Sea, the most logical route and the way by which the Impaler had
first come. Madam Mina’s description of the sounds indicated a sailing ship—too
small to be listed in the Times. Fortunately, Arthur knew that at
Lloyd’s we would find a listing of all ships that had set sail.
We went there at once—without disturbing the Harkers, especially as we wished
to avoid any further encounters with Jonathan. There we learned that only one
ship had set sail for the Black Sea on 3 October—the Czarina Catherine,
bound for the port of Varna.
She had sailed from Doolittle’s Wharf, our next destination, where we learned
from the manager that a tall, very strange pale man had come at five o’clock
yesterday afternoon, and insisted that a box be loaded onto the ship.
There can be no doubt: He is headed for home!
Chapter 17
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
15 OCTOBER, NIGHT.
Left London the morning of 12 October and arrived via the
Orient Express
in Varna this afternoon, after travelling day and night. Madam Mina continues to
give the same report at every sunrise: waves lapping, darkness.
After much debate, we decided to let Jonathan come with us. It would have
been cruel not to permit him to come, since we were taking his wife (who has
been of great use thus far). We remain ever-vigilant around him, and wear our
talismans at all times, as my death would be most convenient for Elisabeth. It
would cause Vlad’s immediate destruction, and she would have no more worry from
us; she could merely meet the ship when it docks, and retrieve the first key
from Vlad’s pitiful remains.
According to Zsuzsanna, the fact that Elisabeth is nearby awaiting an
opportunity to attack, means that she has not seen the fifth line; she needs the
first key in order to read it! Apparently, after Vlad discovered the first key
and read the fifth line, it disappeared when Elisabeth stole the manuscript.
This is good news, for it means she will not rush to Vlad’s castle ahead of him
(and us). No, she follows
us (or rather, Harker) because we follow Vlad.
But her proximity is not the best news for me; only Arminius’ talisman upon my
person—even when I bathe—protects me. (Thank God, it is still strong enough to
repel her!) Another hopeful piece of news: Zsuzsanna says that when she
travelled with Elisabeth to London, she noticed that, despite her abilities to
move about freely during the day, she was still limited by the slack of the
tide. Knowing this —and knowing that when Vlad was at his most powerful, he,
too, was still restricted by flowing water (evidenced by his decision to come to
London by boat, and, Zsuzsanna says, the route he chose as bat when she followed
him one night to Hillingham)—we can posit that Elisabeth is still so restricted.
I have finally pressed one of Arminius’ crucifixes upon Madam Mina; I
explained that it was a “specially blessed” piece designed to ward off the
vampire, and would protect her more securely than her own little golden cross.
She now wears both; I suspect it has had more than a little effect upon her and
Jonathan’s private life…
As for Zsuzsanna and Arkady, they have secretly accompanied us the entire
way, and serve as our “spies.” They will be of much use to us if and when we
find it necessary to continue on to the castle. However, before we departed for
Varna, Zsuzsanna announced that she had broken off all psychical contact with
Harker—this so Elisabeth has no means of learning what our little band is up to.
With that assurance, we have taken her into our confidence regarding the fifth
line, and our plan for dispatching Vlad and obtaining guardianship of the first
key.
I still find it difficult to trust her; were it not for Arkady, I do not
think I would even deal with her. So she has come to her senses and is filled
with regret—am
I to pity
her? She has cost me my wife and son.
I do my best to be civil to her, for my father’s sake. Beyond that, I owe her
nothing.
Arthur continues to put his lordly title to good use on our behalf. He has
convinced the shipper of Vlad’s box that it contains something stolen from His
Lordship’s friend; we now have surreptitious permission from them to board the
ship when it docks and open the chest—at our own risk.
29 OCTOBER, NIGHT.
After an agony of waiting—day after day of sitting, reading, contemplating,
conversing, all of us now obsessed with putting an end to this affair— Arthur
received a telegram from Lloyd’s yesterday, saying that the
Czarina had
entered Galatz at one o’clock, 28 October.
Galatz—more than one hundred fifty miles to the north! We had languished in
Varna thirteen days, waiting restlessly, while the Impaler laughed at us all!
Somehow, Madam Mina’s thoughts revealed to Dracula our presence in Varna; now
he has cut her off from his own plans. Zsuzsanna advises me that Vlad cannot do
so without also losing access to Madam Mina’s thoughts as well (just as she,
Zsuzsanna, no longer has access to Jonathan Harker’s thoughts), and Arkady
confirms this. For the time, we are free to use Mina’s great intelligence to
assist us without revealing to Vlad our strategy. I write this on the train to
Galatz.
* * *
30 OCTOBER.
Today we set foot upon the Czarina Catherine at last. As feared, we
had come too late; the box had already been taken, but we managed to speak with
the captain, an amicable and forthcoming Scotsman. The box, he said, had caused
such consternation among his Roumanian crew that it would have been thrown
overboard were it not for his intervention. He cheerfully produced the receipt,
which showed that it had been recovered by an Immanuel Hildesheim,
Burgen-strasse 16.
Blessedly, Hildesheim was in his office and, after a bit of baksheesh,
directed us to a Petrof Skinsky, a businessman involved in shipping from upriver
to the port. Hildesheim had turned the box over to Skinsky—who, unfortunately,
we could not find at his address. As we were leaving, however, one of his
neighbours came running out of a house, crying that Skinsky had been found
murdered, with his throat torn out.
When we returned home this evening, discouraged, Madam Mina looked over our
notes, and in her logical, precise manner wrote down a series of deductions
concerning Vlad’s whereabouts. She then read them to us, and I summarise them
here:
Since Vlad had chosen Skinsky as agent, it only makes sense that he arranged
to have the box shipped upriver, such being Skinsky’s primary business.
Now, the Danube meets two rivers leading to Transylvania, the Pruth and the
Sereth; of these, only the Sereth flows into the Bistritsa River—which runs near
.the Borgo Pass!
Here is our plan: Arthur will obtain a steam launch, and he and Jonathan will
follow the vampire by boat. (In secrecy, we agreed that Harker would not travel
with me, as I would be too imperiled; Lord Godalming is less at risk, and knows
to take precautions around him. At any rate, he will also have Arkady’s
invisible presence to protect him.) Quincey and John will pursue on horseback
along the riverbank, in case Vlad makes a sudden decision to come ashore, whilst
Madam Mina and I take the train to Veresti, and from there travel by land
directly to the castle.
Our hope is that Elisabeth will not follow myself and Mina to the castle (nor
Zsuzsanna, who will guide us through the forest, and knows Vlad’s lair best of
all). As long as Elisabeth does not possess the first key, and thus no knowledge
of the fifth line, she will stay close to Vlad, with the intent of destroying
him and obtaining the second key.
Once we dispatch the Impaler, however, the question arises: How shall we then
destroy her, who is so powerful?
Arminius, be not far!
Chapter 18
Dr. Seward’s Diary
5 NOVEMBER.
Six days riding, in falling snow and bitter cold—and always with a faint
sense that behind us, just beyond my peripheral eyesight, follows a great
darkness, that darkly glittering indigo that I have come to dread. Quince knows
it, too, for late last night when we made camp and were sitting round the fire,
he said softly: “Can you feel it, Jack?”
I nodded, and as quietly as I could said, “Elisabeth.”
At this he gave silent assent, and we have spoken no more of it. It means the
professor’s assumption is right; she is not so powerful yet that she can travel
upon the river, and board Dracula’s boat whenever she lists. I am glad she chose
to follow us, and not the professor. That was my greatest concern, that she
would pursue and kill him, then board the ship and remove the key from a box
filled with Vlad’s rotting remains. Perhaps she fears that we would obtain the
key before her, and with our talismans keep her at bay forever.
She is wise to do so.
Just after dawn now—a grey sky, lightly falling snow. I woke to Quince’s hand
upon my shoulder, and the distant sight of the
tsigani’s big leiter-wagon,
flanked by a small army of gypsies, hurrying away from the shore. Quince has the
horses ready now: we follow!
* * *
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
5 NOVEMBER, MORNING.
In Veresti, I procured a carriage and a fine team of horses, and enough
provisions to last us a minimum of ten days. With our blankets and fur wraps,
Madam Mina and I were quite comfortable, and took turns driving whilst the other
slept; I sensed Zsuzsanna following at a respectable distance, lest she frighten
the horses. Travelling day and night with a few stops to refresh the animals, we
reached the Borgo Pass by dawn, 3 November.
By that time, Madam Mina was becoming more vampiric, sleeping during the day
and becoming lively at night, and giving up altogether her little diary.
By yesterday, we had reached the perimeters of Vlad’s castle—though we camped
a slight distance away. I would not take Madam Mina inside, for the closer she
drew to it, the more she fell under its spell; thus, whilst she rested, I
inscribed round her a magical circle, and sealed it with the Host. This she
could not cross, even when I asked her to do so, so I was satisfied as to her
safety therein.
Last night it was that three vampire children—two boys, and a little
girl—appeared to us; I remembered Jonathan’s diary, and knew they must be the
vile progeny of Zsuzsanna and Elisabeth. (No sign of Zsuzsanna at the time;
perhaps she became distraught at the sight of them, or perhaps she was, in
response to desperate need, out hunting for more sustenance.) Outside the
circle, in the fire’s orange glow, they took form—beautiful, sweet, alluring,
and possessed of a grotesque innocence. Madam Mina and I were safely ensconced
within our circle, and there we remained. I could not bear to look at them,
thinking of my little Jan; I looked instead at Mina’s face, and was deeply
relieved to find there horror and disgust.
At dawn today, I rose, leaving Madam Mina trapped and protected within the
circle, and headed for the castle. (Where Zsuzsanna was, she had not said,
though we had agreed that she would serve as scout, to alert us when Dracula and
Elisabeth approached. The cold morning air was peculiarly electric; this was the
day, I knew. This was the day…)
It was a sad, sad duty that lay before me, in the Impaler’s lair; I had been
inside this castle two decades earlier—once, in a failed and tragic attempt to
rescue my adoptive brother; another time, to murder the foul creature that my
poor little Jan had become. Each dark stone, each decay-scented room, was laden
with anguished memories.
Even so, I had learned many years before, when Arminius taught me the painful
art of vampire-hunting, to harden my heart against emotion and approach the task
with the coolest of heads. This I did when I found the lair of the three
children—two of them nestled together, sweetly asleep in the same overlarge
coffin. No pity did I have; not until I had wielded stake and knife, and saw
their immortal, gleaming bodies pass into merely mortal remains. Only then did I
weep for them and their mothers and fathers.
And when I had mourned them, and whispered over their resting-places a prayer
for the dead as I placed in each coffin a piece of the Host, I called to mind
the fifth line:
To the first return, and the castle deep within the forest.
Here I was, within the castle, but where should I begin to look for the
second key? I wandered a time through each room—Vlad’s vast throne room, with
its Theatre of Death, and the inner keep wherein rested his great, lordly
coffin. This I sealed with a portion of the Host. And again I roamed, examining
each item in each room, looking for clues, for places where something may have
been buried. I spared no one place, not even the dreadful catacombs of earth
deep beneath the castle—more horrible to me even than the Theatre of Death, for
more had met death down in that evil cellar, and more had suffered there a long
imprisonment. And so many hundreds—perhaps thousands—are buried there that I
could hear their bones still crying out in agony.
It was late afternoon when I emerged empty-handed and perplexed, and as I
headed down the slope towards our little encampment, Zsuzsanna appeared before
me, so abruptly that it gave me a start.
Her dark eyes were ablaze, her pale skin aglow—not with any magical glamour,
but with pure anticipation.
“They come,” she said. “They come, and Elisabeth follows!”
Thoughtlessly, I reached out and grasped her arms— dropping my hands only
when she recoiled and winced in pain. “Dracula comes?”
“The tsigani bring his box in their great wagon— many of them,
surrounding it and bearing arms.”
“And of our party?”
“All of them! They follow on horseback… and Elisabeth follows them.“
Just as suddenly, she disappeared.
I ran swiftly down to where Madam Mina stood inside the circle, waving her
arms at me with unabashedly joyous excitement. “Doctor!” she cried. “Dr. Van
Helsing! We must hurry.” And she pointed to the east. “My husband is coming!”
Her words evoked within me similar excitement—and also a certain unease, for
she was mentally linked not to Jonathan, but Vlad; to which was she referring?
But her joy was so innocent, and her eyes so pure—like those of our Madam Mina
of old—that I smiled, and recollected the pieces of Host from the snow, freeing
her.
So we struggled together down the steep slope that faced the east, I carrying
furs and rugs and provisions, until the castle stood high above us against the
clouded sky. I found a hollow worn within a great rock nestled into the
mountainside; this I lined with furs and enclosed within a circle, again sealed
with the Host, and settled Madam Mina comfortably inside.
Beneath us wound the roadway leading upward to the castle. From my pocket, I
produced a pair of field-glasses; though a hard wind had suddenly picked up, and
the light, constant snow began to swirl, I made out the dark figures of the
tsigani riding alongside the leiter-wagon—at such a furious pace that the
wagon swerved dangerously from side to side, coming very close to knocking some
of the accompanying horsemen from the roadway.
Suddenly, from the north, I saw two dark figures on horseback rapidly
approaching the gypsies… and, with a cry of gladness, recognised Quincey Morris’
great Stetson —white, but not so white as the swirling snow. “Thank God!” I
cried, relieved that they and not Jonathan Harker would be first to approach the
wagon, and lowered the field-glasses to pass them to my excited companion.
“Madam Mina, look!”
* * *
Zsuzsanna Tsepesh’s Diary
5 NOVEMBER.
I left Bram and Mrs. Harker upon the hillside, and swept down to where the
fierce tsigani rode beside the great wooden chest. I knew I must stop
them, and quickly, before Elisabeth arrived, for I could sense her nearing,
waiting for the perfect moment to lay claim to the key. Thus I flew down to the
roadway, perfectly invisible, and hovered between the two horses pulling the
wagon. Gently, I set my palms upon dieir muzzles.
The effect was immediate: The poor frightened creatures reared at once,
causing the wagon to rock crazily to one side and very nearly overturn. The
driver swore, and the gypsy army reined in their mounts, who also shied at my
unseen presence.
At that same instant came the thunder of approaching hooves, and a calm,
steely voice shouting: “Halt!” I smiled, for the voice belonged to Quincey
Morris; and he and John Seward came racing up like apocalyptic horsemen bent on
godly vengeance. Once they had the key, their talismans would protect them from
Elisabeth, and we would all escape and formulate a plan against her; I was
overwhelmed with joy, for we were so close, so close to the first victory…
Yet at once those clattering hooves were answered by others, as from the
opposite side came Harker and Lord Godalming. Godalming struggled valiantly to
overtake his companion; I could see the anguished grimace on His Lordship’s face
as he flogged his steed to go faster, faster. But Jonathan rode with a deadly
fury straight from the maw of Hell, at a speed born of immortal desperation.
“Halt!” cried he, with such fervent passion that even the tsigani
looked upon him with fear. Now the gypsies were trapped between our men upon the
narrow passage; and to translate their intent, Seward, Godalming, and Morris
raised their Winchester rifles. (Only I noticed that Godalming’s rifle was
placed so that, with a very slight movement, he could quickly have Harker within
his sights.)
And on the cliff above, Van Helsing stood, pointing his own rifle down at the
colourful army below. Even so, the gypsies drew their knives; and their leader
pointed up at the reddening sun, which now kissed the tops of the mountains.
Again, I stroked the horses’ muzzles in order to create a helpful distraction;
again, they reared.
But only one of our party took advantage of it. In a wink, Harker let go his
rifle so that it hung from its strap, unsheathed his kukri, and, with inhuman
daring, slashed through the wall of armed men guarding the wagon. From the
opposite side, Morris did the same with his Bowie knife in an effort to reach
the chest—but alas! Jonathan reached it first and, with vampiric strength,
lifted the box and flung it down to the ground.
He leapt down and began to pry off the lid with his knife; Morris, who had
come thus far with only a few shallow wounds upon his arms and face, jumped down
as well and attacked the chest’s other end with his Bowie. By this time, I saw
that Van Helsing’s aim had shifted, and Godalming’s, too, in case Jonathan were
to seize the key.
Soon, the lid of the box was pulled off, and there lay Vlad, helpless and
exposed, eyes red with rage and the light of the sinking sun. That rage turned
to triumph as the sun slipped down past the horizon…
But his triumph lasted less than a second. Harker’s curving knife tore
through the Impaler’s throat, while at the same instant, Morris’ weapon plunged
deep into the vampire’s heart.
The frightened tsigani turned their horses and raced away,
abandoning the wagon. I remained and watched with bitter joy as the body
dissolved at once into dust: mere dust, lifted by the swirling wind to expose
beneath a small golden key.
It lay closest to Morris, who swooped down for it; at once, Harker moved
forward and embraced him, as if in celebration. But as he pulled back, I saw the
bright flash of the kukri knife—bloodied, as he drew it from Morris’ chest.
The wounded man groaned, and fell forward, half into the coffin. Callously,
Harker thrust an arm beneath him, groping for the key; fearful of further
harming Morris if they fired upon his attacker, the other two men instead dashed
up behind the pair. Gentle Seward, whom I had judged incapable of the slightest
violence, lifted the butt of his rifle and brought it down with force upon
Harker’s skull. He then bent down to retrieve the key—but I was faster and, in a
swift move, seized the shining object and at once sped towards the castle.
At once the sky deepened—not with night, but a burst of glittering indigo
which reflected darkly off the fallen snow. Elisabeth had appeared, I knew, but
I dared not look behind me. So long as the others did not yet possess the golden
key, she would be too much involved in the search to do them harm.
I hurtled with the key towards the castle, with no plan other than instinct,
no desire but to protect the others. In my heart, I knew I had to find the
second key, and somehow hide it from Elisabeth… but what my heart desired, my
brain could find no way to produce.
Even so, I flew up the mountain towards the castle, key gripped tightly in my
hand. All had grown silent as the men tended to Quincey; I heard nothing save
utter stillness, and one sound that pursued me, echoing off the mountains:
Elisabeth laughing.
Elisabeth laughing…
* * *
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
5 NOVEMBER, CONTINUED.
In horror, Madam Mina and I watched as Jonathan brutally stabbed Quincey; her
horror continued as John came forward and struck her husband a solid blow upon
the head with his rifle, but in truth, I felt only relief. As she wept silently
into her hands, I gently took the field-glasses from her, and again watched.
Yet my hopeful emotion changed again to fear as John and Arthur searched
futilely within the earth-box for the missing key. Had Elisabeth somehow stolen
it—or Arkady, or Zsuzsanna? Or had it never been within the box at all?
As Seward and Arthur gave up the search and knelt to attend their mortally
wounded friend, the snow about them glittered indigo, with such intensity that I
knew it could only herald Elisabeth’s arrival.
So it did. She appeared in radiant glory, brighter than the full moon and
infinitely more compelling, and with the merest sweep of her hand, John and
Arthur fell mute against the snow. The unconscious Harker evoked from her a
shrug of disgust, but when she peered into the empty coffin, she bared her teeth
in feral anger; and then she gazed up in the direction of the castle and began
to laugh.
“Zsuzsanna!” she called, with malicious gaiety. “My foolish love! The mortals
can protect themselves from me —for the moment—with their silly charms. But you,
my darling, cannot. Certainly the key cannot protect you— you have seen the good
it has done Vlad!”
Abruptly, she disappeared, and John and Arthur raised themselves slowly to
their knees. I handed Madam Mina, who was still distraught, the field-glasses,
and, taking her arms reassuringly, said:
“Dear Madam Mina, do not be sorrowful. You are free from the vampire’s
taint—and soon your husband shall be too. Remain here in the circle, which shall
protect you from all harm, and should Jonathan approach, do not heed him, but
stay within!”
And I ran upward towards the castle. What I could accomplish there, I did not
know; but Elisabeth knew Zsuzsanna had gone there with the first key, and thus I
was bound to follow. Yet the deepest panic I have ever known gripped heart and
lungs, so that I struggled to draw in air. I had to find the first key somehow,
and prevent Elisabeth from finding the second—but how?
Over the castle above, a great looming shadow gathered—a darkness blacker
than the depths of night, a sign of the Dark One’s impending arrival. Beneath my
coat, my skin prickled; this was the image I had been warned of in my dream, the
dream where I had been utterly, irrevocably engulfed, devoured by that darkness.
On the way up the hillside, I prayed fervently with each ragged breath:
“Arminius, help us! Arminius, help us…”
* * *
Zsuzsanna Tsepesh’s Diary
5 OCTOBER, CONTINUED.
Key in hand, I entered the castle in desperate flight—though where I would
find refuge, I knew not. So I raced wildly from place to place, searching;
searching, without knowing what it was I sought. To Vlad’s throne room first,
then to the room Dunya and I had shared, and the chambers I had enjoyed with
Elisabeth…
At last I went to the chapel, thinking of Carfax and the “crossroads,”
perhaps, and that there I might find the second key, and deliver both treasures
to Van Helsing’s hands. Yet as I wavered there, standing amid broken coffins and
ruined earth, my eyes were pained by a dazzling, overwhelming radiance—a
brightness that was nonetheless dark.
I recoiled, but too late; Elisabeth stood beside me, more preternaturally
beautiful than I had ever seen her— and cruder. Her lips were fixed in a sneer,
and her eyes— the coldness, the emptiness, the hatred in them, I shall
never forget! I felt I looked upon an exquisite jewelled viper, poised to
strike.
She gripped my wrist, so hard that the bone snapped at once, and I cried out
in pain; at this, her smile widened. “Of the two of us,” she said, “I would say
time has treated me more kindly; you are looking less than lovely, my dear.”
“I have better use for my power,” I retorted, then cried out again as she
twisted my hand completely round, and pulled back each finger one by
one; grinning, she took from me the key.
A sudden brilliance shone from her bosom; she dropped the key within, then
pulled forth from the same spot the gleaming white parchment. As she unfurled
it, beneath the golden text another line of shining letters appeared:
In the keep amidst the bones lies the woman with the golden heart; the
second key.
“The bones!” she demanded, shaking my arm with near-godlike strength. “Where
is the keep? Speak, my darling! You know this place better than I!”
I was powerless in her presence, and ashamed of my helplessness; when she
sank her dull teeth into my shoulder and tore away fabric and flesh, I could not
hold back a shriek. God, I prayed silently, or Dark One, I care not
which! Do as you will—inflict on me the worst torment for all eternity,
only let me stop her…
“The keep!” she shouted again, then fell silent; a look of inspiration eased
the viciousness of her expression. “Yes —the place with the bones, where you
took me to see Arkady… Take me there at once!”
“I will lead you,” I said, “if you answer but one question for me. Who raised
him?”
Her eyes narrowed. “So you have encountered him, I take it… Bah! He was a
waste, a total waste of effort. You lied—you said he was intent on
destroying Vlad. What good has he done me?”
“At the cost of Dunya,” I remarked bitterly. “You killed her to raise him…”
She did not deny it, but cuffed me roughly, saying, “Lead! Take me now—and
know that you’ll pay for this insolence later. For when I become as powerful as
the Dark Lord tonight, I shall treat you to the cage and the Maiden for all
eternity! And you, my darling, shall be the first to witness my transformation,
and my vengeance; this you have earned by your betrayal.“
I knew not what else to do. So I led her back up to the castle’s main
entryway, for it was only by going up that we could make our way farther down to
her destination. And as we passed there, she paused as the great front door flew
open, and smiled at the sight of Bram, gasping, wild-eyed, upon the threshold.
“Dr. Van Helsing,” she said, with mock sweetness. “How kind of you to visit
us. I’m afraid I’m distracted at the moment with one of your relatives; but fear
not! I shall return to you—whether you flee by boat or train or carriage, it
matters not. I will find you, and see you and yours to a disagreeable end.”
And she flicked her hand at him, as a cold lady might motion a servant away;
at once he fell back, mute.
Bram, I told him silently, take the others and flee. You
must find Arminius…
I left him there and led her deep into the castle’s belly, to the dank cellar
dug from earth, now thoroughly laced with the bones of the many who had died
here in torment.
“The woman,” Elisabeth said, her voice muted with anticipation. “Where would
be the woman with the golden heart?”
I honestly knew not. “These are mostly men,” I said, gesturing down at the
bone-strewn earth, “but a few are women. I cannot imagine where—”
My words were swallowed up by a mighty wind, which lifted up the packed
ground and began to rotate it, until the room was filled with stinging, swirling
sand. I covered my face until it had settled, then lowered my hands to see that
my feet were resting upon an uneven platform of stacked skeletons, all so old
that the bones had come apart and lay scattered in disarray. Thousands and
thousands of skeletons, so many that I realised they, and not the earth,
comprised the castle’s foundation.
Only one small spot stood out amidst the ghoulish tangle of yellowed ivory:
the corner where Arkady’s catafalque stood, from which Dunya’s dust and coffin
had now been swept away. The stone catafalque remained, but beneath it—centuries
beneath, surrounded by legs and arms and hands of bone, and fleshless fingers
that clawed its polished surface—was a casket of shining steel.
Still clutching my arm, Elisabeth dragged me to it— then slowly released me
with a sly smile, for she knew I would not, could not, run from her now. With
one hand clutching the manuscript, she used her other to push the solid stone
catafalque aside, as easily as a mortal woman might push away a chair.
The stone toppled onto more bones, crushing them as it fell onto its side. We
both bent over the coffin to read the etching there, in archaic Roumanian:
ANA, BELOVED CONSORT OF VLAD III
With a hiss of triumph, Elisabeth pulled away the lid and threw it aside; it
clanged upon the stone, cracking it.
Within lay a small, fragile skeleton, the jawbone disintegrated so that the
skull had fallen forward onto the neck bones and lay perpendicular to the ribs.
Beneath the head was a long strip of black, liquefying hair; beneath the crossed
arms was a tattered shred of yellowed silk.
And to the left of her breastbone rested a heart-shaped locket of beaten
gold, slightly larger than the real lady’s heart could ever have been. In the
centre was a small keyhole, and above the keyhole, inscribed in Latin, were the
words:
ETERNAL GODHOOD
Elisabeth at once snatched it up; and, with a hand that trembled, withdrew
the small golden key from her bosom and slipped it into the lock.
It fit smoothly, with a click. And as she drew it slowly open, she looked up
at me with a dark, dark smile.
* * *
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
5 NOVEMBER, CONTINUED.
As I staggered gasping into the castle, still overwhelmed by the sense of the
Dark One’s proximity, I chanced to meet Zsuzsanna—cruelly trapped in the
Countess of Bathory’s powerful grip. The sight filled me with even greater
despair; Elisabeth had in her possession the first key! Yet she had not
discovered the second, and solved the mystery, for she appeared no more powerful
than she had out in the snow. But how was I to stop her?
Zsuzsanna’s expression was calm, fearless; she said not a word as Elisabeth
mocked me, threatened me. Struck me down as she had the others with the merest
gesture. But before the countess dragged her captive away, promising to return
to me later, Zsuzsanna caught my gaze.
And her silent words filled my head: Bram, take the others and flee. Find
Arminius…
She was bound, we both knew, to the most unpleasant of dooms, yet seemed
utterly resigned to her fate, as if it were her just due, and showed me naught
but concern. And in that instant, I forgave her all.
Arminius! Damned Arminius! Once they had disappeared, I rose to my knees and
sobbed, shaking my fist at the empty air, demanding that my protector appear and
give us aid.
From somewhere beneath me, in the castle’s very bowels, I heard Zsuzsanna’s
muffled shriek, and rose in anger. I would not sit by. I had seen the direction
they had gone, and followed until I found a trapdoor that clearly led below. Yet
it was stuck fast; I could not open it, could not enter, could do nothing but
moan in helpless frustration. In moments, perhaps sooner, Elisabeth would emerge
again, and no talisman in all the world would stop her.
So I sat upon the floor, head in hands, and, agnostic that I am, prayed to
God.
And in my head, a voice spoke again—the blessed voice of Arminius.
Abraham, my son. We are close to defeat. Only one thing can stop her: to
forge your own pact with the Dark Lord, and purchase our victory.
“No!” I pressed my hands against my skull, to blot the vile words out. “No!”
Again I prayed to God, and again God was silent; but Arminius spoke. God
cannot help you now. Only the Dark Lord can.
The floor rumbled as with an earthquake, and from beneath came the howl of a
mighty storm. I tried to stand, to gain my footing, but lost my balance, and
fell to one knee. In my mind’s eye, I saw the great looming darkness of my
dream, and saw myself devoured by it…
And dien, stillness. Stillness so profound that I was filled with a different
terror, waiting for the sound of Elisabeth’s voice beside me.
“Dark Lord!” I cried out. “Hear me! I, Abraham Van Helsing, will make a pact
with you!”
Scarcely were the words uttered before the terrible darkness did
appear, the great advancing shadow of my dream, and began to swirl: deeper than
indigo, deeper than black; deeper than night or death or eternity.
Yet it was an entity, a being. As it approached, I felt its intelligence, and
rose upon my two feet to greet it as a man. I mastered my fear; I hid my
trembling. And called out sternly: “I will make a pact. My life in exchange for
Elisabeth’s destruction.”
From the centre of the swirling darkness came a small, gentle voice. The
Dark Lord does not exchange life for life. Speak to me of souls. Speak to me of
forever.
“My soul,” I cried, “in exchange for Elisabeth’s destruction!”
I offer only immortality: the vampires curse. What shall you offer me in
exchange?
“I will not become a vampire! I will not prey on living or dead! Why can you
not take me as I am?”
The darkness began to fade, to recede, to withdraw from me; down below, I
heard a woman’s horrified scream. For a terrible instant, I believed I was too
late—that Elisabeth had become the Dark Lord’s equal.
“Very well,” I whispered bitterly. “I shall be a vampire —but one far
stronger than Elisabeth, able to overpower her—in exchange for my soul. In
exchange for any suffering in all the world, if you make me able to defeat her.”
At once, a sense of infinite calm and acceptance flooded through me, and when
the darkness flowed over me like the deepest ocean waters, I felt no fear. As it
engulfed me at last, I whispered, “If I am to be yours, show me your face.”
Within its centre, a small dot of golden light appeared, then began to
grow—brighter and brighter, wider and wider, until its radiance cast off all
darkness. Blinded, I closed my eyes.
And when I opened them again, I saw before me my beloved mentor, Arminius.
“We meet again, Abraham,” said he, smiling. “As I told you so long ago: there
are many types of vampires… and of them, I am chief.”
* * *
Zsuzsanna Tsepesh’s Diary
5 NOVEMBER, CONTINUED.
I watched Elisabeth’s face as she examined the contents of the locket—watched
it carefully for the change that would herald my destruction.
Her expression grew intent, then puzzled; then frustrated, as she muttered,
“There must be more!” She held it up, and turned it round in her hands to
examine it more closely, as if searching for a hidden spring; then once again
produced the manuscript and read it carefully, then waited a bit, as if hoping
another line would appear.
Finally, with a cry of raw anger, she hurled the locket, with key still
attached, down into the piles of bones near my feet. I bent down and struggled
to reach for them, but could not; the key had fallen deep into the layer of
bones, and the locket lay facedown just beyond my reach, so that I could not
even turn it over to see its contents.
Above us, a sudden darkness veiled the vault—a moving darkness, like
the most furiously roiling thunderstorm. It dropped lower and lower until it
stood like a pillar before Elisabeth, coagulating until it was so dense I felt I
could touch it as I would a being.
With a snarl, Elisabeth threw herself to the skeletal ground, scrabbling so
desperately to reach the fallen items that she ignored the manuscript, which
fluttered down beside her.
“You have no right!” she screamed at the darkness. “This moment is mine,
these trinkets are mine, and if you take them from me…” She hesitated
in her sputtering rage, apparently realising that there was no way whatsoever to
threaten this entity. With a fiendish howl, she turned as if to flee.
But she could not. For beside her stood Bram, glowing with an internal light
far brighter than hers. She moved to pass him, and discovered herself entrapped
between the darkness and his light.
I turned back in amazement towards the pillar-—and saw in its stead a
radiantly beautiful child. In his dimpled hands were the manuscript and the
fallen locket, and he offered them both to me.
I took them both reverently, set down the gleaming parchment, and ran my
fingers over the locket’s outer message: eternal godhood. Then, like a book, I
opened the heart—opened it as I did my own—and on the inner leaves read:
ETERNAL LOVE ETERNAL SACRIFICE
I began to weep, for I remembered most poignantly the suffering of my
ancestors, my mother and father, my dear brothers, my nephew and his little son
and wife, and that of all my victims and their families. I wept, and knew most
intimately the cost of fear and greed.
“Zsuzsanna,” the child asked sweetly. “Do you understand, and accept?”
I nodded, too stricken to speak; and the child held out his hands to me, and
helped me rise.
“A kiss, then,” said he. “Only a kiss…”
As I stooped to oblige, he sternly shook his head. I felt his hands grow and
change within my own, and his stature increase; his golden locks turned white
and grew decades in length.
“Arminius,” I whispered, to which he replied, smiling:
“You shall not bow to me.”
And we fell into each other’s arms, and embraced.
Chapter 19
Dr. Seward’s Diary
7 NOVEMBER.
Headed for Paris on the train this morning. Art and I talked a good length
about Quincey’s funeral arrangements, as his body travels with us. It seems
there is no family in America, and so Art is determined to have Quince buried on
his family estate. There is a very large tree there, with a lovely view, and Art
says it will suit Quince just fine.
Mina also was up early, and came into the compartment whilst we were talking.
She is the bravest of souls, that lady. I told her outright that Art and I had
decided on a story about Quince’s death: that one of the gypsies had inflicted
the mortal wound. Poor Harker is back to his pleasant self now and overcome with
joy to see his wife freed from the vampire’s curse. But he has no recollection
whatsoever of the events that occurred after we stopped the leiter-wagon.
She agreed at once that this should be the same story told by all, and I
assured her I would write the professor and let him know. Very bluntly, she
said, even though tears shone in her eyes, “It would break Jonathan’s heart to
think that he had killed your noble friend, and he would turn himself in to the
authorities at once; and that would break
my heart. I think you do
Quincey justice as well, for I know he would insist upon the very same thing.”
And she is right. As he was dying, Quince begged us that, if we survived and
Harker came through unscathed, we should never bring him to justice—for it was
Elisabeth, not Jonathan, who was his murderer. I close my eyes now and can just
see him smiling down upon the Harkers, and us all, for keeping our promise.
The professor (I cannot remember to call him “Father,” and certainly the word
professor has for me come to be a term of endearment) has returned to
Amsterdam. I would have gone with him had it not been for poor Quince; as it is,
I will travel there after this funeral to attend another one very soon.
It is strange to see him so transformed.
* * *
The Diary of Abraham Van Helsing
7 NOVEMBER.
When I arrived home with my visitors, Frau Koehler hurried down the staircase
at the sound of my footfall and at once burst into tears when she saw it was me.
“Thank God! Oh, Doctor, thank God! She is dying… it could be any moment now,
and for days I have not been able to reach you! I sent telegram after telegram
to Purfleet, but always, no reply!”
I put my arm round her and kissed her on the forehead to comfort her, then
explained I had brought with me Mary’s sister-in-law, Zsuzsanna, and her
brother.
“Ah yes,” she said, voice trembling. “I met the young lady before.”
At this, I shot Zsuzsanna a telling glance, but at the news of Mary’s
impending death, her eyes showed naught but concern. I whispered into the good
Frau’s ear my request for some time for us alone with Mama, then motioned for
Zsuzsanna and Arkady to join me.
I was used to the sight of the last stages of death, and could face it with
composure—but not so with one I so dearly loved, whose former beauty and grace I
knew well. Mama lay curled upon the bed like an unborn child, blind, mute, deaf,
unaware of our presence. Yet even in her unconsciousness, her face was cruelly
twisted with pain.
Arkady at once rushed to her side, knelt upon the floor, and gently lifted
her hand to his lips; and there he kept it whilst Zsuzsanna and I wiped away our
tears and set to the work at hand. Zsuzsanna moved first, her silent gaze
speaking of her need to do so, for it was she who had caused Mary some pain, and
she who therefore had the right to remove it.
She bent low, and gently turned Mama’s contorted face towards her radiant
one; and when she pressed her lips against Mama’s chapped, gaping ones, I
saw.her shudder, then bear up stoically against the agony.
I watched her drink deep and lovingly of pain. And when Mama’s brow yielded
its last furrow, I drew Zsuzsanna aside, and bent down for my own kiss.
Eternal love; eternal sacrifice. Only through these two could Elisabeth’s
goal of omnipotent immortality be achieved. The truth cannot be hidden; but fear
and hate obscure it. One might say that Arminius was cruel to offer immortality
to all who wished it, even the most wicked.
Yet how else could those who most needed it be redeemed, save through
centuries of opportunity, of contemplation, of boredom, which can only lead to
one inevitable conclusion?
The Dark Lord is also the Lord of Light.
For Vlad, there is no more hope; as to Elisabeth, we have given her the gift
of solitude and time. She is trapped forever within the catacombs where she came
so close to understanding, with the golden locket and its message that so
puzzles her. The entrance to that subterranean tomb we have rendered invisible,
so that none can find it.
As I kissed Mama, I shuddered beneath the first round of agony—Zsuzsanna had
drawn away all physical pain, and now bore it, and her own grief, in silence.
But this was suffering of a different sort I encountered; emotional hurt,
perhaps of all anguish, the most difficult to bear.
Still, I bore it, and gladly. “There are many different types of vampires,”
Arminius had said, and I remembered also what that wise alchemist had told me
during my first tutelage: that he was a vampire, of the psychical kind.
It was at first a pleasurable process for me, for I saw the faceted
jewel-like intricacies of each shining soul, the incredible infinite wealth of
knowledge stored in each memory. But over time, the very beauty of what I stole
began to haunt me; and the treasure I accumulated preyed upon my conscience
until I could bear the guilt no more.
“And what did you do?” I had asked him.
I repented. I made amends.
Just as Zsuzsanna and I both have; taking on the suffering of others
willingly—as our food, our nourishment— instead of their life’s blood. We
require their pain to survive—but if we wish to end our sacrificial existence,
we need merely starve.
I shall live forever, long past the time it takes to redeem the collective
suffering of my ancestors.
And when my dying mother’s pain had eased, I rose, and smiled tearfully as
she opened her pale blue eyes. “Bram,” she whispered—and knew me, and
when Arkady rose beside her in excitement, her eyes widened, with such joy and
happiness it broke my heart. She took his cold hand, pressed it to her lips, and
sighed, “Am I in Heaven? Or has God heard my prayer?”
I glanced at Zsuzsanna, and she followed me out into the hall, softly closing
the door behind her. There we stood until Arkady, tears shining upon his cheeks
and falling into the curve of his smiling lips, said:
“It is over. She has died in peace, in my arms.”
We found her, too, smiling faintly where she lay, in peaceful, untainted
death, and Zsuzsanna and I both laid a final kiss upon her smooth brow.
When we left the room, my father took my hand and said, “I am prepared.”
The look of sad and happy acceptance in his eyes wrenched my heart, but this
was a pure and blessed grief, with joy amid the pain. We walked arm in arm down
to my medical office, which had stood so long unused, and he lay down upon the
surgical table and bared his neck to me.
But first, I bent down and pressed my lips to his, and took from him all the
accumulated sorrows of his life and undeath, which were many. At the end, he
smiled up at me, eyes shining, and I gave him peace.
A blessing upon my family, and yours; may God grant us all such peace. Amen.
JEANNE KALOGRIDIS is the author of two other novels in her acclaimed
vampire trilogy,
Covenant with the Vampire and Children of the Vampire.
She has been obsessed with Dracula since childhood and has done extensive
research to write this book. She taught English for eight years at the American
University in Washington, D.C. She now lives in California.