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EXILE

by

Edmond Hamilton



I wish now that we hadn’t got to talking about science fiction that night! If we hadn’t, I wouldn’t be haunted now by
that queer, impossible story which can’t ever be proved or disproved.
But the four of us were all professional writers of fantastic stories, and I suppose shop talk was inevitable. Yet,
we’d kept off it through dinner and the drinks afterward. Madison had outlined his hunting trip with gusto, and then
Brazell started a discussion of the Dodgers’ chances. And then I had to turn the conversation to fantasy.
I didn’t mean to do it. But I’d had an extra Scotch, and that always makes me feel analytical. And I got to feeling
amused by the perfect way in which we four resembled a quartet of normal, ordinary people.
“Protective coloration, that’s what it is,” I announced. “How hard we work at the business of acting like ordinary
good guys!”
Brazell looked at me, somewhat annoyed by the interruption. “What are you talking about?”
“About us,” I answered. “What a wonderful imitation of solid, satisfied citizens we put up! But we’re not
satisfied, you know – none of us. We’re violently dissatisfied with the Earth, and all its works, and that’s why we
spend our lives dreaming up one imaginary world after another.”
“I suppose the little matter of getting paid for it has nothing to do with it?” Brazell asked sceptically.
“Sure it has,” I admitted. “But we all dreamed up our impossible worlds and peoples long before we ever wrote a
line, didn’t we? From back in childhood, even? It’s because we don’t feel at home here.”
Madison snorted. “We’d feel a lot less at home on some of the worlds we write about.”
Then Carrick, the fourth of our party, broke into the conversation. He’d been sitting over his drink in his usual
silent way, brooding, paying no attention to us.
He was a queer chap, in most ways. We didn’t know him very well, but we liked him and admired his stories. He’d
done some wonderful tales of an imaginary planet – all carefully worked out.
He told Madison, “That happened to me.”
“What happened to you?” Madison asked.
“What you were suggesting – I once wrote about an imaginary world and then had to live on it,” Carrick answered.
Madison laughed. “I hope it was a more liveable place than the lurid planets on which I set my own yarns.”
But Carrick was unsmiling. He murmured, “I’d have made it a lot different – if I’d known I was ever going to live on
it.”
Brazell, with a significant glance at Carrick’s empty glass, winked at us and then asked blandly, “Let’s hear about it,
Carrick.”

Carrick kept looking dully down at his empty glass, turning it slowly in his fingers as he talked. He paused every
few words.
“It happened just after I’d moved next to the big power station. It sounds like a noisy place, but actually it was
very quiet out there on the edge of the city. And I had to have quiet, if I was to produce stories.
“I got right to work on a new series I was starting, the stories of which were all to be laid on the same imaginary
world. I began by working out the detailed physical appearance of that world, as well as the universe that was its
background. I spent the whole day concentrating on that. And, as I finished, something in my mind went click!
“That queer, brief mental sensation felt oddly like a sudden crystallisation. I stood there, wondering if I were
going crazy. For I had a sudden strong conviction that it meant that the universe and world I had been dreaming up all
day had suddenly crystallised into physical existence somewhere.
“Naturally, I brushed aside the eerie thought and went out and forgot about it. But the next day, the thing
happened again. I had spent most of that second day working up the inhabitants of my story world. I’d made them