"Folsom, Allan - The Day After Tomorrow" - читать интересную книгу автора (Folsom Allan)unsuccessfully fought another, even more tragic demon: the numbing,
emasculating, terror of abandonment, begun by the killer's definitive demonstration of how quickly love could be ended. It had proven true at that moment and held true ever since. At first by circumstance, with his mother and his aunt, and later, as he got older, with lovers and close friends. The fault in his adult life was his. Though he understood the cause of it, the emotion was still impossible for him to control. The moment real love or real -friendship was near, the sheer terror that it might again be sobrutally taken from him rose from nowhere to engulf him like a raging tide. And with it came a mistrust and jealousy he was powerless to do anything about. Out of nothing more than sheer self protection, whatever joy and love and trust there had been, he would erase in no time at all. But now, after nearly thirty years, the cause of his sickness had been isolated. It was here, in Paris. And once found there would be no notifying of police, no attempt at extradition, no seeking of civil justice. Once found, this man would be confronted and then, like a disease itself, swiftly eradicated. The only difference was that this time the victim would know his killer. THE DAY after his father's funeral, Paul Osborn's mother moved them out of their house and in with her sister in a small two-story home on Cape Cod. His mother's name had been Becky. He assumed it was short for to as anything but Becky. Shed married Paul's father when she wa only twenty and still in nursing school. George David Osborn was handsome, but quiet and introverted. He'dd come from Chicago to Boston to attend M.I.T. and immediately following graduation had gone to work for Raytheon and then later for Microtab, a small engineering design firm on the Route 128 high-tech hub. The most Paul knew about what his father did was that he designed surgical instruments. Much more than that, he'dd been too young to remember. What he did remember in the blur that followed the funeral was packing up and moving from their big house in the Boston suburbs to the much smaller house on Cape Cod. And that almost immediately, his mother began thinking, [,;, He remembered nights when she made dinner for them both, then left hers to get cold and instead drank cocktail after cocktail until she could no longer talk, and then fell asleep. He remembered being afraid as the drinks mounted up and he tried to get her to eat but she wouldn't. Instead she became angry. At little things at first, but then the anger always came around to him. He was to blame for not having done something-anything-that might have helped save his father. And if his father were alive, they would still be living in their fine home near Boston, in stead of where they were in that tiny little house on Cape Cod with her sister. |
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