"Kerr,.Katharine.-.Westlands.01.-.A.Time.Of.Exile" - читать интересную книгу автора (Dragon Stories)

Rhodry's heart pounded once.
"Did she give you her name?"
"She did, Your Grace. It's Jill."
"I'll receive her up here."
The lad frankly stared, then bowed and trotted away.
While he waited for the woman he once had loved more than life itself, Rhodry paced back and forth from window to door. He hadn't seen Jill in thirty years, not since the night when she left him, simply rode out of his life without a backward glance-or so he assumed-to follow a Wyrd even stranger than his own. At first, he thought of her constantly, wondered if she missed him, wondered if her studies in the strange craft of the dweomer were bringing her the happiness she sought. Yet as the years passed and his wound healed, he let her memory rest except for an idle wondering every now and then if she were well. Although she did come to Aberwyn to tend her dying father, Rhodry was at court in Dun Deverry at the time. Every now and then, some news of her doings came his way, but never in any detail. Now she was here. He was dreading seeing her, because she was only a few years younger than himself, and he hated the thought of seeing her beauty ravaged by age. When he heard her crisp voice thanking the page, his heart pounded once again. The door opened.
"The herbwoman, Your Grace."
In strode a woman dressed in men's clothing, a pair of dirty brown brigga and a much-mended linen shirt, stained green in places from medicinal leaves and stems. Her hair, cropped like a lad's, shone a silvery gray, and crow's-feet round her blue eyes ran deep, but she seemed neither young nor old, so full of life and vigor that it was impossible to think of her as anything other than handsome. Beautiful she wasn't, not any longer, but as he stared at the face which coincided with the one belonging to his lovely young lass of past years, he found that it fit her better than the beauty he was remembering. Her sudden smile could move him still.
"Aren't you going to say one word to me?" she said with a laugh.
"My apologies. It's just a bit of a shock, having you turn up like this."
"No doubt. You're in for a worse shock than that, I'm afraid."
Without waiting to be asked she sat down in one of the chairs by the hearth. He took the other facing, and for a few moments the silence deepened around them. Then he remembered that his silver dagger must have been coming home at the same time as she was riding into Aberwyn, and he shuddered, feeling a cold touch of Wyrd that made the hairs on the nape of his neck bristle.
"And what is this shock?"
"Well, for starters, Nevyn's dead."
Rhodry grunted as if at a blow. He'd known Nevyn, her teacher and master in the craft of magic, very well indeed-in fact, Rhodry owed him his life and his rhan both.
"May the gods give him rest in the Otherlands, then. Somehow I thought the dweomer would keep the old man alive forever."
"He was beginning to wonder himself." She grinned so broadly that it seemed inappropriate. "He was glad to go, when the time came."
"How did it happen? Was he ill, or was there an accident?"
"What? Oh, naught of that sort. It was time, and he went. He made his goodbyes to all of us and lay down on his bed and died. That's all." Her smile faded. "I'll miss him, though. Every hour of every day."
"My heart aches for you, truly."
As if to share his sympathy Wildfolk came, sprite and sylph and gnome, materializing like the fall of silent drops of rain to float down and stand around them. When a skinny gray fellow climbed into Jill's lap and reached up to pat her cheek, she smiled again, shoving the mourning away. The sight of the Wildfolk reminded Rhodry of his own problems. Whatever else Jill might have been to him, she was a dweomermaster now, the possessor of strange powers and even stranger lore.
"IVe got a question for you," he said. "How long does an elven half-breed like me live, anyway?"
"A good long while, though not so long as a true elf. I'd say you've got a hundred years ahead, easily, my friend. When I'm buried and gone, you'll still look like a lad of twenty."
"By all the ice in all the hells! That can't happen! How long will it be before all of Aberwyn figures out that I'm no true Maelwaedd, then?"
"Not very, truly. The common folk are already whispering about you, wondering about dweomer and suchlike. Soon enough the noble-born will, too, and they'll come to you with a few hard questions about exactly how much elven blood there is in the Maelwaedd clan, and whether or no those old rumors about elves living forever are true. If someone found out who your true father was, it would be a nasty blow to your clan's honor."
"There's a cursed sight more at stake than the honor of the Maelwaedds. Can't you see, Jill? My sons disinherited, and civil war in the rhan, and-"
"Of course I see!" She held her hand up flat for silence. "That's the other reason I've come."
He felt the cold again, rippling down his back. Thirty years since he'd seen her, and yet they still at times shared thoughts.
"I had an omen," she went on. "It was right after we buried Nevyn-me and the folk in the village where we lived, that is-and I went walking out to a little lake near our home, where there's a stand of rushes out in the water. It was just at sunset, and there were some clouds in the sky. You know how easy it is to see pictures in sunset clouds. So I saw a cloud shape that looked just like a falcon catching a little dragon in her claws. Oho, think I, that's me and Rhodry! And the minute I thought it, I felt the dweomer cold, and I knew that it was true. And here I am."
"That simple, is it? You think of me, and here you are?"
"Well, I had to ride to Aberwyn like anyone else."
"Not what I meant. Why did the omen in the clouds make you come here?"
"Oh, that! None of your affair."
He started to probe, but her expression stopped him: unsmiling, a little cool, like the cover of a book abruptly slammed shut. He could remember Nevyn turning that same blank stare on questioners who pried into things they weren't meant to know. Gwerbret or not, he would only be wasting his time if he should ask more.
"I don't suppose you could cast some dweomer on me to make me age."
"You're still a ready man with a jest, aren't you? I can't, and I wouldn't if I could. The way out's obvious, anyway. You'll have to turn the rhan over to your eldest lad and leave Eldidd."
"What? That's a hard thing for a man of my rank to do."
"If you give up the rhan, your son will keep it. If you try to keep it, your son will lose it."
"It's not just the blasted rhan! You're asking me to leave blood kin behind. Jill, by the gods, I've got grandsons."
"Do you want to see them murdered to wipe out the last traces of a bastard line?"
With a groan he buried his face in his hands. Her voice went on remorselessly.
"Once the first whispers go round that you might not be a trueborn Maelwaedd, you'll have to settle them by the sword, and honor duels have led to wars before, especially with a rich prize like Aberwyn at stake. If you lose the civil war, your enemies will hunt down every child who could even remotely be considered your heir, even Rhodda's lad."
"Oh, hold your tongue! I know that as well as you do."
"Well, then?"
He looked up to find her watching him with a calm sort of wondering. For a moment he hated her.
"It's all well and good to talk of me leaving Eldidd, but I'm not an exile or a shiftless younger son anymore. If I present a petition to the king to allow me to abdicate, the rumors will pile up like horse dung in a winter stable. Besides, what if our liege asks me my reasons outright? I could try to lie, but I doubt me that I'd be convincing. The long knows me cursed well."
She frowned at the hearth while she considered.
"You're right, aren't you? I'll have to think about that." Abruptly she rose. "If anyone asks you why I came here, tell them I wanted to tell you about Nevyn, because that's true enough in its own way. I'll see you again, and soon."
Then she was gone, out and shutting the door before Rhodry could rise from his chair. For a while he tried to convince himself that he'd been having a strange, drunken dream, but the elven ring gleamed on his finger to remind him of the truth, that he would have to leave his clan behind for the sake of his love for it Besides, the dweomer had saved his life several times over in the past, and he knew, with a sudden cold certainty, that the time had come to repay his debt.