"Kerr, Katharine - Westlands 01 - A Time Of Exile v1.1" - читать интересную книгу автора (Dragon Stories)

"Did your father give you this to give to me?"
"Oh yes. He knows where they grow."
"Ah. I rather thought so."
Elessario started to speak, then suddenly yelped like a kicked dog.
"Someone's coming! Him! Your man!"
Elessario disappeared. Dallandra spun around and saw Aderyn hurrying toward her. When she went to meet him, he smiled in such relief that she remembered their quarrel.
"I'm sorry I ran out like that," she said.
"Well, I'm sorry I said all those things. I love you so much."
She flung herself into his arms and kissed him. With his arms tight around her, she felt safe again, warm and secure and even happy. But somehow, she forgot to tell him about the silver nut; when she found it in her pocket, she wrapped it up in a bit of rag and hid it at the bottom of one of her personal saddlebags, where he'd never have any reason to look for anything.

It was some months later, when the days were growing shorter and the alar was beginning to talk about heading for the winter camps, that Aderyn realized Dallandra was seeing the Guardians regularly. Although she would ride off alone at least three afternoons a week, both of them needed so much time alone, for meditation as well as certain ritual practices, that at first he thought nothing of it. His own teaching work took up so much of his attention that he was in a way grateful that she was occupied elsewhere. Later he was to realize that he'd also been refusing to believe that his woman would coldly and deliberately do something against his wishes; certainly no Deverry woman would have, and in spite of his conscious efforts to the contrary, in his heart he thought of Dallandra as a wife much like the one his mother been. Besides, she always took her usual knife with her, and horse had its usual bridle with an iron bit and cheekpieces, and iron stirrup bars and buckles on its saddle, a surety of sorts against the appearance of the Guardians. Eventually, of course, he realized that she could easily leave the horse and the knife behind somewhere and walk out to meet her friends.
What finally made him face the truth was her growing distraction. At the autumn alardan, when the People brought their problems to her in her role as Wise One, she spent as little time on them as possible; if she could do it without offending anyone, in fact, she turned these mundane matters over to Aderyn. When they were alone, she was lost in thought most of the time; holding any sort of a real conversation with her became next to impossible. Yet in his mind he went on making excuses for her-she's thinking about her meditations, she's working on some bit of obscure lore-until he happened to have a conversation with Enabrilia when they met by chance out by the horse herd.
"Is Dallandra sick?" she asked him.
"No. Why?"
"She's so distracted all the time. This morning I ran into her down by the stream and I had to hail her three times before she realized that I was there. When I finally got her attention she just kind of stared at me. I swear it took her a while to remember who I was."
Aderyn felt fear like the tip of a cold needle just pricking at his mind.
"Of course," Enabrilia went on, "she might be pregnant. I mean, you two have only been together for four years, hardly any time at all, but you are-well, no offense intended-but you are a Round-ear, after all. They always say things are different with Round-ear men."
Aderyn hardly heard her chatter. Her concern was forcing to see something that he hated. When Dallandra returned to the camp, he was in their tent and waiting for her.
"You've been riding off to see them again, haven't you?" He blurted it out out straightaway.
"Yes. I never said I wouldn't."
"Why haven't you told me?"
"Why should I? It only upsets you. Besides, I never go to their country. I always make them come through into ours."
He stood groping for words while she watched, her head tilted a little to one side, her steel-gray eyes utterly calm and more than a little distant.
"Why are you so afraid?" she said at last.
"I don't want you to go off with them and leave me."
"Leave you? What? Oh, my beloved! Never!" She rushed to him and flung herself into his hungry arms. "Oh, I'm sorry. I didn't know you were worried about something like that." She looked up, studying his face. "For the work's sake I might have to go off alone for a few nights, maybe, but that's all it would ever be."
"Really?" He wanted to beg her to stay with him every minute of every day, but he knew that such a plea would be ridiculous as well as impossible, given their mutual work. "Promise?"
"Of course I do! I'd always come home to you. Always."
She kissed him so passionately that he knew that she had to be telling the truth, that at the very least she believed implicitly in her own words. His relief was like a warm tide, carrying all his fears far out to some distant sea. For a long time, too, all through the cold and storm-wracked winter, she seemed to put her distraction aside and to devote as much of her attention to him as she could whenever they were together. By the time that spring came, he decided that he'd been foolish to worry about her work with the Guardians, even when she told him openly that she'd been talking regularly with Elessario.
"That child needs me, Ado. You know, I truly do think that she and her race are meant to be as incarnate as you or me. Something's gone terribly wrong, somewhere. Some of the evidence I've gathered makes me think that these beings are scattered through the universe, across several of the inner planes. I think that's what they mean. They talk about living on several worlds, you see, not one single world."
"But I've never heard of such a thing."
"No more have I. That's why they intrigue me so much. You know, I left my parents for the dweomer because I loved hidden things, secret things."
"So did I. I can understand. But please, be careful around them. I just don't trust them."
"Neither do I. Don't worry."
"But suppose they did incarnate. What would they become?"
"I have no idea. Neither do they, truly. I think that they've been here so long now that they'd become beings much like us-like the elves, I mean, not you Round-ears."
The words rang in his mind like a shout of warning. Not since their marriage had she made that sharp distinction between herself and his kind. Yet it hurt so much that he hesitated, letting her talk on, until the moment was irrevocably lost.
"They'd have to give up a lot to become like us," she was saying. "So much, truly, that I wonder if they ever will, but if they don't, well, they're the ones who keep telling me they'll fade away and be lost forever. I'd hate to see that happen to any soul. It would be a tragedy indeed."
"Just so. But it's their choice."
"Is it? Unless they get someone to show them the way, they have no choice."
"Indeed? What do they want you for, then? Some kind of cosmic midwife?"
"Well, yes." She looked surprised that he didn't already know. "Just exactly that."

In the bright grass by the stream Evandar lounged, half sitting, half lying, his harp at his side. Up close Dallandra could see that the harp was real wood, like the arrow she'd been given, and of elven design, though more elaborate than any she'd ever seen, all inlaid with mother-of-pearl in a pattern of seaweed and sea horses. He noticed the way she studied it.
"This harp is from the lost cities, from Rinbaladelan to be precise, a thing that doesn't come easily to my folk."
"You must have taken it away before the city fell."
"Oh yes." He frowned suddenly. "I tried to help defend Rinbaladelan, you see. It was hopeless, of course, even with me there. But it was a very beautiful place, and I hated to see all that beauty lying broken in the mud."
"Was it only the beauty? What about the elves that lived there?"
"They live, they die, they come and go, and it's no concern of mine. But stone and jewel endure, and the play of water on stone, and the play of light on jewels. The harbor at Rinbaladelan wrung my heart with its beauty, and those hairy creatures filled it with rubble and let it silt and threw corpses into it to turn the water mucky and foul. And then the crabs and the lobsters came to eat the corpses, and the furry creatures ate the crabs and got the plague and died, and I laughed to see them crawling on their bloated bellies through the gutters of the city they'd broken."
When Dallandra shuddered, he was honestly puzzled by her reaction.