"Dick,_Philip_K._The Man Who Japed" - читать интересную книгу автора (Dick Phillip K)

Her hand pressed against his arm. "What's wrong?"
With irony he said: "Job worries."
"Oh." She nodded. But she still held onto his arm with her tight fingers. "Well, do you have a wife?"
"A very sweet one."
"Does she help you?"
"She worries even more than I. Right now she's home taking pills. She has a fabulous collection."
The girl said: "Do you want help?"
"I do," he answered, and was not surprised at his own candor. "Very much."
"That's what I thought." The girl began to walk on, and he went along. She seemed to be weighing various possibilities. "These days," she said, "it's hard to get help. You're not supposed to want help. I can give you an address. If I do, will you use it?"
"That's impossible to say."
"Will you try to use it?"
"I've never asked for help in my life," Allen said. "I can't say what I'd do."
"Here it is," the girl said. She handed him a slip of folded paper. "Put it away in your wallet. Don't look at it-just put it away until you want to use it. Then get it out."
He put it away, and she watched fixedly.
"All right," she said, satisfied. "Good night."
"You're leaving?" He wasn't surprised; it seemed perfectly natural.
"I'll see you again. I've seen you before." She dwindled in the darkness of the side lane. "Good night, Mr. Purcell. Take care of yourself."
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Sometime later, after the girl was completely gone, he realized that she had been standing there in the Park waiting for him. Waiting, because she knew he would show up.

6

THE NEXT day Allen had still not given Mrs. Frost an answer. The directorship of T-M was empty, with Mavis out and nobody in. The huge trust rolled along on momentum; and, he supposed, minor bureaucrats along the line continued to stamp forms and fill out papers. The monster lived, but not as it should.
Wondering how long he had to decide he phoned the Committee building and asked for Mrs. Frost.
"Yes sir," a recorded voice answered. "Secretary Frost is in conference. You may state a thirty-second message which will be transcribed for her attention. Thank you. Zeeeeeeeeeeeee!"
"Mrs. Frost," Allen said, "there are a number of considerations involved, as I mentioned to you yesterday. Heading an Agency gives me a certain independence. You pointed out that my only customer is Telemedia, so that for all practical purposes I'm working for Telemedia. You also pointed out that as Director of Telemedia I would have more, not less, independence."
He paused, wondering how to go on.
"On the other hand," he said, and then the thirty seconds was up. He waited as the mechanism at the other end repeated its rigamarole, and then continued. "My Agency,
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after all, was built up by my own hands. I'm free to alter it. I have complete control. T-M, on the other hand, is impersonal. Nobody can really dictate to it. T-M is like a glacier."
That sounded terrible to him, but once on the tape it couldn't be unspoken. He finished up:
"Mrs. Frost, I'm afraid I'll have to have time to think it over. I'm sorry, because I realize this puts you in an unpleasant position. But I'm afraid the delay unavoidable is. I'll try to have my answer within a week, and please don't think I'm stalling. I'm sincerely floundering. This is Allen Purcell."
Ringing off, he sat back and brooded.
Here, in his office, the statue of Major Streiter seemed distant and unconvincing. He had one problem only: the job problem. Either he stayed with his Agency or he went upstairs to T-M. Put that way his dilemma sounded simple. He got out a coin and rolled it across the surface of his desk. If necessary he could leave the decision to chance.
The door opened and Doris, his secretary, entered. "Good morning," she said brightly. "Fred Luddy wants a letter of recommendation from you. We made out his check. Two weeks, plus what was owed." She seated herself across from him, pad and pencil ready. "Do you want to dictate a letter?"
"That's hard to say." He wanted to, because he liked Luddy and he hoped to see him get a halfway decent job. But at the same time he felt silly writing a letter of recommendation for a man he had fired as disloyal and dishonest, Morecly speaking. "Maybe I'll have to think about that, too."
Doris arose. "I'll tell him you're too busy. You'll have to see about it later."
Relieved, he let her go with that story. No decision seemed possible right now, on any topic. Small or large, his problems
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revolved on an olympian level; they couldn't be hauled down to earth.
At least the police hadn't traced him. He was reasonably sure that Mrs. Birmingham's juvenile lacked information on the Park episode. Tomorrow, at nine A.M., he'd find out. But he wasn't worried. The idea of police barging in to arrest and deport him was absurd. His real worry was the job-and himself.
He had told the girl he needed help, and he did. Not because he had japed the statue, but because he had japed it without understanding why. Odd that the brain could function on its own, without acquainting him with its purposes, its reasons. But the brain was an organ, like the spleen, heart, kidneys. And they went about their private activities. So why not the brain? Reasoned out that way, the bizarre quality evaporated.
But he still had to find out what was happening.
Reaching into his wallet he got out the slip of paper. On it, in a woman's neat hand, were four words.

Health Resort
Gretchen Malparto.

So the girl's name was Gretchen. And, as he had inferred, she was roaming around in the night soliciting for the Mental Health Resort, in violation of law.
The Health Resort, the last refuge for deserters and misfits, had reached out and put its hand on his shoulder.