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A Science Fiction Book Club Selection
BROTHERS
OF
EARTH
C. J. Cherryh
DAW
BOOKS,
INC.
DONALD A. WOLLHEIM,
PUBLISHER
1301 Avenue of the Americas
New York, N. Y.10019
Endymion died soundlessly, a man-made star that
glowed and quickly winked out of existence.
Kurt Morgan watched her until there was no more left to
see, eyes fixed to the aft scanners of the capsule. When it
was over, he cut to forward view and set his mind on
survival.
There had been eighty men and women on
Endymion, seventy-nine of them now reduced to dust
and vapor with the ship, indistinguishable from its
remains. Two minutes to sunward was another cloud that had
been the enemy, another hundred individuals, the elements
that had been life from a score of worlds borne still on
collision course, destroyer and destroyed.
No report of the encounter would go back to Central.
There was no means to carry it. The Hanan planet of origin,
Aeolus, was no more than a cinder now, light-years distant;
and Endymion in pursuing the Hanan enemy had given
no reference data to Command. They had jumped on their own,
encountered, won and perished at once; their survival
capsule had no starflight capability.
A nameless star and six uncharted worlds lay under the
capsule's scan. The second was the most likely to
support life.
It grew larger in his scanners over the course of seven
days, a blue world wreathed in swirling cloud and patched
with the brown of land. It had a large, solitary moon. In
all particulars it read as an Earth-class planet, one the
Alliance would have sacrificed a hundred ships to win-which
they had already won if they could have known it.
The feared Hanan retaliation did not materialize. There
were no ships to threaten him. The world filled the
scanners now. Kurt vacillated between euphoric hope and
hopeless fear-hope because he had planned to die and it
looked as if he might not; and fear, because it suddenly
dawned on him that he was truly alone. The idea of a
possible enemy had kept him company until now. But
Endymion had run off the edge of the charts before
she perished. If the Hanan were not here, then there were
no other human beings this far from Sol Center.
That was loneliness.
Absolute.
The wedge-shaped capsule came in hard, overheated
and
struggling for life, plates shrieking as they parted
their joinings. Pressure exploded against Kurt's
senses, gray and red and dark.
He hung sideways, the straps preventing him from
slipping into the storage bay. He spent some little time
working free, feverish with anxiety. When he had done so he
opened the hatch, reckless of tests: he had no other
options.
Breathable. For a time after he had exited the ship he
simply stood and looked about him, from horizon to horizon
of rolling wooded hills. Never in all his planetfalls had
he seen the like of it, pure and unspoiled and, but for the
stench of burning, scented with abundant life.
He stood there laughing into the sun with the tears
running down his face, and shut his eyes and let the clean
wind dry his face and the coolness of the air relieve the
stifling warmth that clung to him.
The land began to descend perceptibly after the forests:
a long hill, a rocky bow of land, a brief expanse of beach
on an unlimited expanse of sea. The sun was low in the sky
before he had found a way down from the high rocks to that
sandy shore.
And there he dropped his gear on the dry sand and gazed
out entranced, over a sea bluer than he had ever seen and
greener than the hills, colors divided according to the
depth.
Isles lay against the horizon. The sand was white and
littered with the refuse of the sea, bits of wood and weed,
and shells of delicate pinks and yellows, in spiked and
volute shapes.
Delighted as a child, he bent and dipped his hands into
the water that lapped at his boots, tasted the salt of it
and spat a little, for he had known what a sea ought to be,
but he had never touched one or smelled the salt wind and
the wrack on the beach. He picked up a stick of driftwood
and hurled it far out, watched it carried back to him.
Something within him settled into place, finding all the
home-tales of his star-wandering folk true and real, even
if it was in such a place as this, that man had never
touched.
He waded at the edge a while, barefoot, careful of
stepping on something poisonous, and used a stick to prod
at things that lived there. But the daylight began to fade
so he could no longer see things clearly, and the wind
became cold; then he began to reckon with the coming night,
and gathered a great supply of driftwood and made a
fire.
It was the dark that was terrible, lonely as the space
between stars. He had seen birds that day, too high to
distinguish; he had seen the shells of mollusks and nudged
at things that scuttled off into deeper water; several
times he had startled small creatures from the high grass
and sent them bounding off, quickly invisible in the brush
and weeds. Nothing yet had threatened him, and no cries
disturbed the night. But his mind invented images from a
score of worlds. He started at every sound. The water
lapped and sucked at the shore, and small scavenger
crustaceans sidled about beyond the circle of firelight,
seeking food.
At last he rose up and put a great deal of wood on the
fire, then curled up as closely as he could before he
abandoned himself to sleep.
Pebbles grated. Sand crunched. Kurt lifted his head and
strained his eyes in the dying glare of the fire. Beyond it
a dark dragon head rode the waters, rocking with the motion
of the sea.
He scrambled for his gun, was hurled flat by sinuous
bodies that hit his back, man-sized and agile. He spat sand
and rolled and twisted, but a blow exploded across the side
of his head, heavy with darkness. He went down again,
fading, aware of the bite of cords, of being dragged
through water. He choked in the brine and went out
altogether.
He was soaking wet, facedown on a heaving wooden
surface. He sprang up, and was tripped and thrown by a
chain that linked his ankles together around a wooden
pillar; when he twisted over to look up, he could make out
a web of ropes and lines against the night sky, a dragon
head against the moon. It was a wooden ship, with a mast
for a single sail.
Men's voices called out and oars splashed down,
sweeping in unison; the motion of the ship changed,
steadied, and with a rustle and snap of canvas the great
square sail billowed out overhead, men hauling to sheet it
home. Kurt stared up in awe as the swelling canvas blotted
out the sky and the deck acquired a different feel as the
wind sped the ship on her way.
A man crowded him. Kurt scrambled up awkwardly, the
chain keeping his feet apart around the mast. Others were
close to him. He saw in the dim light the same structure
repeated hi every curious face; wide cheeks, flat,
well-formed noses with flaring nostrils; the eyes large and
dark, brows wide and heavy, slightly tilted on a plane with
the high cheekbones-the faces of wise children, set in a
permanent look of arrogant curiosity. The bodies were those
of men though, tall and slim and muscular.
They did not touch him. They looked. And finally one
spoke to them with authority and they dispersed. Kurt sank
down again, sick and trembling, not only with the chill of
the wind. One returned and gave him a warm cloak for his
comfort, and he clutched that around him and doubled up. He
did not sleep.
No one troubled him until the first light brought color
to things. Then a man set a bowl and cup beside him on the
boards, and Kurt took the warm food gratefully and drank
the hot, sweetened tea.
In the growing daylight he found the men of the ship not
unpleasant to look at. They were brown-to-golden-skinned,
with black hair. They moved about the tight confines of the
ship with amiable efficiency, their laughter frequent and
not unkind among themselves. Kurt soon began to know some
of them: the one who had brought him food, the gruff elder
man who relayed the orders of a narrow-eyed young officer;
and he thought the name of the boy who scurried around on
everyone's errands must be Pan, for that was the word
others shouted when they wanted him.
They were clean, proud folk, and they kept their ship
well ordered; human or not, they were a better crew than
some lots of homo sapiens he had managed.
Fed and beginning to be warmed by the daylight, Kurt had
only begun to achieve a certain calm in his situation when
the young officer approached him and had the chain removed.
Kurt rose carefully, avoiding any appearance of hostility,
and the man nodded toward the low cabin aft.
He let himself be directed below, where the officer
opened a door for him and gestured him through.
Another young man was seated at a low writing table, on
a chair so low he must cross his ankles on the floor. He
spoke and Kurt's escort left him and closed the door;
then he gestured, beckoning Kurt to sit too. There was no
chair, only the woven reed mat on which Kurt stood. With
ill grace Kurt settled cross-legged on the mat.
"I am captain of this ship," said the man, and
Kurt's heart froze within him, for the language was
Hanan. "I am Kta t'Elas u Nym. The person who
brought you in is my second, Bel t'Osanef." The
accent was heavy, the forms archaic; as
Endymion's communications officer, Kurt knew
enough to make sense of it, although he could not identify
the dialect.
"What is your name, please?" asked Kta.
"Kurt. Kurt Morgan. What are you?" he
asked quickly, before Kta could lead the questions where he
would. "What do you want?"
"I am nemet," said Kta, who sat with hands
folded in his lap. He had a habit of glancing down when
beginning to speak; his eyes met Kurt's only on the
emphasis of questions. "Did you want that we find you?
Was the fire a signal asking help?"
Kurt remembered, and cursed himself.
"No," he said.
"Tamurlin are human like you. You camp in their
land like a man in his own house, careless."
"I know nothing of that." Hope surged wildly
in him. Kta's command of human speech found
explanation: a Hanan base onworld, but something in the way
Kta spoke the word Tamurlin did not indicate
friendship between that base and the nemet.
"Where are your friends?" Kta asked, taking
him by surprise.
"Dead . . . dead. I came alone."
"From what place?"
Kurt feared to answer and did not know how to lie. Kta
shrugged, and from a decanter on a table beside his desk he
poured drink into two tiny porcelain cups.
Kurt was not anxious to drink, for he did not trust the
sudden hospitality; but Kta sipped at his delicately and
Kurt followed his example. It was thin and fruit-tasting,
and settled in the head like fire.
"It is telise," said Kta. "I
offer to you tea, but telise is more
warming."
"Thank you," said Kurt. "Would you mind
telling me where we're going?" But Kta only lifted
his small cup slightly as if to say they would talk when
they were finished, and Kta took his patient time
finishing.
"Where are we going?" Kurt repeated the
instant Kta set his cup aside. The nemet's short brows
contracted slightly.
"My port. But you mean what is there for you in my
port? We nemet are civilized. You are civilized too, not
like the Tamurlin. I see this. Please do not have fear. But
I ask: why came you?"
"My ship . . . was destroyed. I found safety on
that shore."
"From the sky, this ship. I am aware of such
things. We have all seen human things."
"Do you fight the Tamurlin?"
"Always. It is an old war, this. They came, long
ago. We drove them from their machines and they became like
beasts."
"Long ago."
"Three hundreds of years."
Kurt kept his joy from his face. "I assure
you," he said, "I didn't come here to harm
anyone."
"Then we will not harm you," said Kta.
"Am I free, then?"
"In day, yes. But at night ... I am sorry. My men
need secure rest. Please accept this necessity."
"I don't blame you," said Kurt. "I
understand."
"Hei yth," said Kta, and joined his
fingertips together before him in what seemed a gesture of
gratitude. "It makes me to think well of you, Kurt
Morgan."
And with that, Kta turned him out on the deck at
liberty. No one offered him unpleasantness, even when his
ignorance put him in the way of busy men. Someone would
then gesture for him to move-they never touched him- or
politely call to him: "Umanu, o-eh,"
which he thought was his species and a request to move. And
after a part of the day had passed and he decided to
imitate the crew's manner of bows and courteous
downcast looks, his status improved, for he received bows
in return and was called "umanu-ifhan"
in a tone of respect.
But at night the young officer Bel t'Osanef came and
indicated he must take his place again at the mast. The
seaman who performed Bel's order was most gentle in
applying the chain, and came back afterward to provide him
a blanket and a large mug of hot tea. It was ludicrous.
Kurt found the courage to laugh, and the nemet seemed
also to understand the humor of the situation,
for he grinned and said, "Tosa,
umanu-ifhan," in a tone which seemed kindly
meant.
His hands left free, he sipped his tea at leisure
and finally stretched out at such an angle that he did not
think anyone would trip over him in the dark. His mind was
much easier this night, though he shuddered to think what
might have become of him if not for the nemet. If Kta's
Tamurlin were indeed fallen Hanan, then he had had an
escape close enough to last a lifetime.
He would accept any conditions of the nemet rather than
fall to the Hanan. If Kta spoke the truth and the Hanan
were powerless and declined to barbarism, then he was free.
There was no more war. For the first time in his
imagination, there was no more war.
Only one doubt still
gnawed at the edges of his mind: the
question of why a modern Hanan starship had run
from the destroyed world of Aeolus to this world of fallen
humans.
He did not want to think on that. He did not want to
believe Kta had lied, or that the gentleness of these
people
hid deception. There was another explanation. His
hopes,
his reason for living insisted upon it.
In the next two days he walked the deck and
scanned the whole of the ship for some sign of Hanan
technology, and concluded that there was none. She was
wooden from stem to stern, hand-hewn, completely reliant on
wind and oars for her propulsion.
The skills by which these men managed then- complex
vessel intrigued him. Bel t'Osanef could explain
nothing, knowing only a handful of human words. But when
Kta was on deck, Kurt questioned him earnestly; when
the nemet captain finally seemed to accept that his
interest was unfeigned, he tried to explain, often groping
for words for objects long-vanished from human language.
They developed between them their own patois of
Hanan-Nechai, Nechai being Kta's own language.
And Kta asked about human things, which Kurt could not
always answer in terms Kta could understand. Sometimes Kta
looked puzzled at human science and sometimes shocked,
until at last Kurt began to perceive the disturbance his
explanations caused. Then he decided he had explained
enough. The nemet was earthbound; he did not truly conceive
of things extraterrestrial and it troubled his religion.
Kurt wanted least of all for the nemet to develop some
apprehension of his origins.
A third day passed in such discussions, and at the dawn
of the fourth Kta summoned Kurt to his side as he stood on
the deck. He had the look of a man with something definite
on his mind. Kurt approached him soberly and gave a little
bow of deference.
"Kurt," said Kta, "between us is trust,
yes?"
"Yes," Kurt agreed, and wondered uneasily
where this was tending.
"Today we go into port. I don't want shame for
you, bringing you with chains. But if I bring you in free,
if then if you do hurt to innocent people, then I have
responsibility for this. What must I do, Kurt
Morgan?"
"I didn't come here to hurt anyone. And what
about your people? How will they treat me? Tell me that
before I agree to anything."
Kta opened his hands, a gesture of entreaty. "You
think I lie to you these things?"
"How could I know? I know nothing but what you tell
me. So tell me in plain words that I can trust
you."
"I am of Elas," Kta said, frowning, as if that
was accustomed to be word enough; but when Kurt continued
to stare at him: "Kurt, I swear this beneath the light
of heaven, and this is a holy word. It is truth."
"All right," said Kurt. "Then I will do
what you tell me and I won't cause trouble. Only what
is the place where; we're going?"
"Nephane."
"Is that a city?"
Kta frowned thoughtfully. "Yes, it is a city, the
city of the east. It rules from Tamur-mouth to the Yvorst
Ome, the sea of ice."
"Is there a city of the west?"
The frown deepened. "Yes," he said.
"Indresul." Then he; turned and walked away,
leaving Kurt to wonder what he' had done to trouble the
nemet.
By midday they were within sight of port. A long bar\
receded into the shoreline, and at the back of it was a
great upthrust of rock. At the base of this crag and on
its
gently rising side were buildings and walls, hazy with
distance, all the way to the crest.
"Bel-ifhan," Kurt hailed Kta's
lieutenant, and the narrow-eyed officer stopped and bowed,
although he had been going elsewhere in apparent haste.
"Bel-ifhan, taen Nephane?"
"Lus," Bel agreed and pointed to the
promontory. "Taen Afen, sthages
Methine."
Kurt looked at the crag Bel called Afen and did not
understand.
"Methi," said Bel, and when he still
did not understand, the young officer shrugged helplessly.
"Ktas unnehta," he said. "Ktas,
uleh?"
He left. They were going in. Somewhere aft, Bel shouted
an order and men ran to their stations to bring in the
sail, hauling it up to the yard. The long oars were run out
and they dipped together, sweeping the ship toward the
now-visible dock at the foot of the cliffs, where a
shoreside settlement nestled against the walls.
"Kurt."
Kurt glanced from his view of the bay to the face of
Kta, who had joined him at the bow.
"Bel says you have question."
"I'm sorry. I tried to talk to him. I
didn't mean he should bother you. It wasn't that
important."
The nemet turned one hand outward, a shrug. "Is no
difficulty. Bel manages. I am not necessary. What think you
of Nephane?"
"Beautiful," Kurt said, and it was.
"Those buildings at the top-Afen, Bel called
it."
"Fortress. The Fortress of Nephane."
"A fortress against what enemy? Humans?"
Again a little crease of a frown appeared between
Kta's
wide-set eyes. "You surprise me. You are not Tamurlin.
Your ship destroyed, your friends dead, you say. But what
want you among us?"
"I know nothing. I'm lost. I've trusted
you. And if I can't trust your given
word, then I don't know anything."
"I don't lie, Kurt Morgan. But you try hard not
to answer my question. Why do you come to us?"
A crowd was on the docks, gaily colored clothing a
kaleidoscope in the sunlight. The oars rumbled inboard as
the ship glided in, making conversation impossible for the
moment. Pan was poised near them with the mooring cable,
ready to cast it to the men at the dock.
"Why," asked Kurt, "do you think I should
know my way in this world?"
"The others, they knew."
"The . . . others?"
"The new humans. The-"
Kta's voice trailed off, for Kurt backed from him.
The nemet suddenly looked frightened, opened his hands in
appeal to him. "Kurt," he protested, "wait.
No. We take-"
Kurt caught him by surprise, drove his fist to the
nemet's jaw and vaulted the rail, even as the ship
shuddered against the dock.
He hit the water arid water went up his nose at the
impact, and again when something hit him, the gliding hull
of the ship itself.
Then he made himself quit fighting and drifted, wrapped
in the darkening green of the sea, a swift and friendly
dark. It was hard to move against the weight of the water.
In another moment vision and sense went out together.
He was strangling. He gasped for air and coughed over
the water mingling with it in his throat. On a second try
he drew a breath and heaved it up again, along with the
water in his stomach, twisting over on his belly to the
stones while his insides came apart. When he could breathe
again, someone picked him up and wiped his face, cradling
his head off the stone.
He was lying on the dock, the center of a great crowd of
nemet. Kta held him and implored him in words he could not
understand, while Bel and Val leaned over Kta's
shoulder. Kta and both the other men were dripping wet, and
he knew they must have gone in after him.
"Kta," he tried to protest, but his raw throat
gave out only a voiceless whisper.
"You could not swim," Kta accused him.
"You almost die. You wish this? You try to kill
yourself?"
"You lied," Kurt whispered, trying to
shout.
"No," Kta insisted fervently. But by his
troubled frown he seemed at last to understand. "I
didn't think you are, enemy to us."
"Help me," Kurt implored him, but Kta turned
his face aside slightly in that gesture that meant refusal,
then[ glanced a mute signal to Val. With the big
seaman's help he eased him to a litter improvised out
of planks, thong'; Kurt tried to protest.
He was in shock, chilled and shivering so he could
hardly keep from doubling up. Somewhere after that, Kta
left him and strangers took charge.
The journey up the cobbled street of Nephane was -a
nightmare, faces crowding close to look at him, the jolting
of the litter redoubling his sickness. They passed through
massive gates and into the Afen, the Fortress, into
triangle-arched halls and dim live-flame lighting, through
doorways and into a windowless cell.
Here he would have been content to live or die alone,
but they roused him and stripped the wet clothing off him,
and laid him in a proper bed, wrapped in blankets.
There was a stillness that lasted for hours after the
illness had passed. He was aware of someone standing
outside the door, someone who never left through all the
long hours.
At last-he thought it must be well into another day- the
guards brought him clothing and helped him dress. From the
skin outward the clothing was strange to him, and he
resented it, losing what dignity he had left at their
hands. Over it all went the pel, a long-sleeved
tunic that lapped across to close in front, held by a wide
belt. He was not even permitted to lace his own sandals,
but the guards impatiently took over and, having finished,
allowed him a tiny cup of telise, which they
evidently thought sovereign for all bodily ills.
Then, as he had dreaded, they hauled him with them into
the A-shaped halls of the upper Afen. He gave them no
trouble. He needed no more enemies than he had in
Nephane.
II
A large nail was on the third level. Its walls were of
the same irregular stone as the outer hall, but the floor
had carpets and the walls were hung with tapestries. The
guards sent him beyond this point alone, toward the next
door.
The room beyond the threshold was of his own world,
metal and synthetics, white light. The furnishings were
crystal and black, the walls were silver. Only the cabinet
at his left and the door at his back did not belong: they
were carved wood, convolute dragon figures and fishes.
The door closed softly, sealing him in.
Machinery purred and he glanced leftward. A woman in
nemet dress had joined him. Her gown was gold,
high-collared, floor-length. Her hair was amber, curling
gently. She was human.
Hanan.
She treated him with more respect than the nemet,
keeping her distance. She would know his mind, as he knew
hers; he made no move against her, would make none until he
was sure of the odds.
"Good day, Mr. Morgan-Lieutenant Morgan." She
had a disk in her fingers, letting it slide on its chain.
Suddenly he missed it. "Kurt Liam Morgan. Pylan, I
read it."
"Would you mind returning it?" It was his
identity tag. He had worn it since the day of his birth,
and it was unnerving to have it in her hands, as if a bit
of his life dangled there. She considered a moment, then
tossed it. He caught it.
"We have one name," she said, which was common
knowledge. "I'm Djan. My number-you would forget.
Where are your crewmates, Kurt Morgan?"
"Dead. I've told the truth from the beginning.
There were no other survivors."
"Really."
"I am alone," he insisted, frightened, for he
knew the lengths to which they could go trying to obtain
information he did not have. "Our ship was destroyed
in combat. The life-capsule from Communications was the
only one that cleared on either side, yours or
ours."
"How did you come here?"
"Random search."
Her lips quivered. Her eyes fixed on his with cold fury.
"You did not happen here. Again."
"We met one of your ships," he said, and his
mouth was suddenly dry; he began to surmise how she knew it
was a lie, and that they would have all the truth before
they were done. It was easier to yield it, hoping against
expectation that these Aeolids would dispose of him without
revenge. "Aeolus was your world, wasn't
it?"
"Details," she said. Her face was white, but
the control of her voice was unfaltering. He had respect
for her. The Hanan were cold, but it took more than
coldness to receive such news with calm. He knew. Pylos
also was a dead world. He remembered Aeolus hanging in
space, the glare of fires spotting its angry surface. Even
an enemy had to feel something for that, the death of a
world.
"Two Alliance IST's penetrated the Aeolid zone
with thirty riders. We were with that force. One of your
deep-ships jumped into the system after the attack, jumped
out again immediately when they realized the situation
there. We were nearest, saw them, locked to track-it
brought us here. We fought. You monitored that, didn't
you? You know there were no other survivors."
"Keep going."
"That's all there is. We finished each other.
We suffered the first hit and my station capsuled then.
That's all I know. I had no part in the combat. I
looked for other capsules. There were none. You
know there were no others."
An object was concealed in her hand. He caught a glimpse
of it as her hand moved by her many-folded skirts. He saw
her fingers close, then relax. He almost took the chance
against her then, but she was Hanan and trained from
infancy: her reflexes would be instant, and there was the
chance the weapon was only set to stun. That possibility
was more deterrent than any quick oblivion.
"I know," she said, "that there are no
other ships, that at least." Her tone was low and
mocking. "Welcome to my world, Kurt Morgan. We seem to
be humanity's orphans in this limb of nowhere, there
being only the Tamurlin for company otherwise, and
they're not really human any longer."
"You're alone?"
"Mr. Morgan. If something happens to me at your
hands, I've given the nemet orders to turn you out
naked as the day you were born on the shore of the Tamur.
The other humans in this world will know how to deal with
you in a way humans understand."
"I don't threaten you." Hope turned him
shameless. "Give me the chance to leave. You'll
never see me again."
"Unless you're the forerunner of
others."
"There are no others," he insisted.
"What security do you give me for that
promise?"
"We were alone. We came alone. There was no way we
could have been traced. There were no ships near enough and
we jumped blind, without coordinates."
"Well," she said, and even appeared to accept
what he said, "well, it will be a long wait then.
Aeolus colonized this world three hundred years ago. But
the war . . . Records were scrambled, the supply ship was
lost somehow. We discovered this world in archives
centuries old on Aeolus and came to reclaim it. But you
seem to have intervened in a very permanent way on Aeolus.
Our ship is gone-it could only have been the one you claim
to have destroyed; your ship is gone-you claim you could
not be traced; Aeolus and its records are cinders.
Exploration in this limb ceased a hundred years ago. What
do you suppose the odds are on someone chancing across
us?"
"Then there is no war. Let me leave."
"If I did," she said, "you might die out
there; the world has its dangers. Or you might come back.
You might come back, and I could never be sure when you
would do that. I would have to fear you for the rest of my
life. I would have no more peace here."
"I would not come back."
"Yes, you would. You would. It's been six
months since my crew died here. After only that long, my
own face begins to look strange to me in a mirror; I begin
to fear mirrors. But I look. I could want another human
face to look at ... after a certain number of years. So
would you."
She had not raised the weapon he was now sure she had.
She did not want to use it. Hope turned his hands damp,
sent the sweat running down his sides. She knew the only
safe course for her. She was mad if she did not take it.
Yet she hesitated, her face greatly distressed.
"Kta t'Elas came," she said, "and
begged for your freedom. I told him you were not to be
trusted."
"I swear to you, I have no ambitions, only to stay
alive. I would go to him-I would accept any conditions, any
terms you set."
She moved her hands together, clasping the weapon
casually in her slim fingers. "Suppose I listened to
you."
"There would be no trouble."
"I hope you remember that, when you grow more
comfortable. Remember that you came here with nothing, with
nothing-not even the clothes on your back, and that you
begged any terms I would give you." She gazed
at him soberly for a moment, unmoving. "I am out of my
mind.
But I reserve the right to collect on this debt someday,
in whatever manner and for however long I decide. You are
here on tolerance. And I will try you. I am sending you to
Kta t'Elas, putting you in his charge for two weeks.
Then I will call you back, and we will review the
situation."
He understood it for a dismissal, weak-kneed with relief
and now beset with new doubts. Alone, presented with an
enemy, she did a thing entirely unreasonable. It was not
the way he had known the Hanan, and he began to fear some
subtlety, a snare laid for someone.
Or perhaps loneliness had its power even on the Hanan,
destructive even of the desire to survive. And that thought
was no less disquieting in itself.
Ill
To judge by the size of the house and its nearness to
the Afen, Kta was an important man. From the street the
house of Elas was a featureless cube of stone with its
deeply recessed A-shaped doorway fronting directly on the
walk. It was two stories high, and sprawled far back
against the rock on which Nephane sat.
The guards who escorted him rang a bell that hung before
the door, and in a few moments the door was opened by a
white-haired and balding nemet in black.
There was a rapid exchange of words, in which Kurt
caught frequently the names of Kta and Djan-methi. It ended
with the old man bowing, hands to lips, and accepting Kurt
within the house, and the guards bowing themselves off the
step. The old man softly closed the double doors and
dropped the bar.
"Hef," the old man identified himself with a
gesture. "Come."
Hanging lamps of bronze lit their way into the depths of
the house, down a dim hall that branched Y-formed past a
triangular arch. Stairs at left and right led to a balcony
and other rooms, but they took the right-hand branch of the
Y upon the main floor. On the left the wall gave way into
that same central hall which appeared through the arch at
the joining of the Y. On the right was a closed door. Hef
struck it with his fingers.
Kta answered the knock, his dark eyes astonished. He
gave full attention to Hef's rapid words, which sobered
him greatly. Then he opened the door widely and bade Kurt
come in.
Kurt entered uncertainly, disoriented equally by
exhaustion and by the alien geometry of the place. This
time Kta offered him the honor of a chair, still lower than
Kurt found natural. The carpets underfoot were rich with
designs of geometric form and the furniture was
fantastically carved, even the bed surrounded with
embroidered hangings.
Kta settled opposite him and leaned back. He wore only a
kilt and sandals in the privacy of his own chambers. He was
a powerfully built man, golden skin glistening like the
statue of some ancient god brought to life. There was about
him the power of wealth that had not been apparent on the
ship. Kurt suddenly found himself awed of the man, and
suddenly realized that "friend" was perhaps not
the proper word between a wealthy, nemet captain and a
human refugee who had landed destitute on his doorstep.
Perhaps, he thought uneasily, "guest" was
hardly the proper word either.
"Kurt-ifhan," said Kta, "the Methi has
put you in my hands."
"I am grateful," he answered, "that you
came and spoke for me."
"It was necessary. For honor's sake, Elas has
been opened to you. Understand: if you do wrong, punishment
falls on me; if you escape, my freedom is owed. I say this
so you will know. Do as you choose."
"You took a responsibility like that," Kurt
objected, "without knowing anything about
me."
"I made an oath," said Kta. "I didn't
know then that the oath was an error. I made an oath of
safety for you. For the honor of Elas I have asked the
Methi for you. It was necessary."
"Her people and mine have been at war for more than
two thousand years. You're taking a bigger risk than
you know. I don't want to bring trouble on
you."
"I am your host fourteen days," said Kta.
"I thank you that you speak plainly; but a man who
comes to the hearth-fire of Elas is never a stranger at our
door again. Bring peace with you and be welcome. Honor our
customs and Elas will share with you."
"I am your guest," said Kurt. "I will do
whatever you ask of me."
Kta joined his fingertips together and inclined his
head. Then he rose and struck a gong that hung beside his
door, bringing forth a deep, soft note which caressed the
mind like a whisper.
"I call my family to the rhmei-the
heart-of Elas. Please." He touched fingers to lips and
bowed. "This is courtesy, bowing. Ei, I know
humans touch to show friendliness. You must not. This is
insult, especially to women. There is blood for insulting
the women of a house. Lower your eyes before strangers.
Extend no hand close to a man. This way you cannot give
offense."
Kurt nodded, but he grew afraid, afraid of the nemet
themselves, of finding some dark side to their gentle,
cultured nature-or of being despised for a savage. That
would be worst of all.
He followed Kta into the great room which was framed by
the branching of the entry hall. It was columned, of
polished black marble. Its walls and floors reflected the
fire that burned in a bronze tripod bowl at the apex of the
triangular hall.
At the base wall were two wooden chairs, and there sat a
woman in the left-hand one, her feet on a white fleece,
other fleeces scattered about her feet like clouds. In the
right-hand chair sat an elder man, and a girl sat curled up
on one of the fleece rugs. Hef stood by the fire, with a
young woman at his side.
Kta knelt on the rug nearest the lady's feet, and
from that place spoke earnestly and rapidly, while Kurt
stood uncomfortably by and knew that he was the subject.
His heart beat faster as the man rose up and cast a
forbidding look at him.
"Kurt-ifhan," said Kta, springing anxiously to
his feet, "I bring you before my honored father, Nym
t'Elas u Lhai, and my mother the lady Ptas t'Lei e
Met sh'Nym."
Kurt bowed very low indeed, and Kta's parents
responded with some softening of their manner toward him.
The young woman by Nym's feet also rose up and
bowed.
"My sister Aimu," said Kta. "And you must
also meet Hef and his daughter Mim, who honor Elas with
their service. Ita, Hef-nechan s'Mim-lechan,
imimen. Hau,"
The two came forward and bowed deeply. Kurt responded,
not knowing if he should bow to servants, but he matched
his obeisance to theirs.
"Hef," said Kta, "is the Friend of Elas.
His family serves us now three hundred years. Mim-lechan
speaks human language. She will help you."
Mim cast a look up at him. She was small,
narrow-waisted, both stiffly proper and distractingly
feminine in the close-fitting, many-buttoned bodice. Her
eyes were large and dark, before a quick flash downward and
the bowing of her head concealed them.
It was a look of hate, a thing of violence, that she
sent him.
He stared, stricken by it, until he remembered and
showed her courtesy by glancing down.
"I am much honored," said Mim coldly, like a
recital, "being help to the guest of my lord Kta. My
honored father and I are anxious for your
comfort."
The guest quarters were upstairs, above what Mim
explained shortly were Nym's rooms, with the
implication that Nym expected silence of him. It was a
splendid apartment, in every detail as fine as Kta's
own, with a separate, brightly tiled bath, a wood-stove for
heating water, bronze vessels for the bath and a tea set.
There was a round tub in the bath for bathing, and a great
stack of white linens, scented with herbs.
The bed in the main triangular room was a great
feather-stuffed affair spread with fine crisp sheets and
the softest furs, beneath a sunny window of cloudy, bubbled
glass. Kurt looked on the bed with longing, for his legs
shook and his eyes burned with fatigue, and there was not a
muscle in his body which did not ache; but Mim busily
pattered back and forth with stacks of linens and clothing,
and then cruelly insisted on stripping the bed and remaking
it, turning and plumping the big down mattress. Then, when
he was sure she must have finished, she set about dusting
everything.
Kurt was near to falling asleep in the corner chair when
Kta arrived in the midst of the confusion. The nemet
surveyed everything that had been done and then said
something to Hef, who attended him.
The old servant looked distressed, then bowed and
removed a small bronze lamp from a triangular niche in the
west wall, handling it with the greatest care.
"It is religion," Kta explained, though Kurt
had not ventured to ask. "Please don't touch such
things, also the phusmeha, the bowl of the fire in
the rhmei. Your presence is a disturbance. I ask
your respect in this matter."
"Is it because I'm a stranger," Kurt
asked, already nettled by Mim's petty persecutions,
"or because I'm human?"
"You are without beginning on this earth. I asked
the phusa taken out not because I don't wish
Elas to protect you, but because I don't want you to
make trouble by offending against the Ancestors of Elas. I
have asked my father in this matter. The eyes of Elas are
closed in this one room. I think it is best. Let it not
offend."
Kurt bowed, satisfied by Kta's evident distress.
"Do you honor your ancestors?" Kta asked.
"I don't understand," said Kurt, and Kta
assumed a distressed look as if his fears had only been
confirmed.
"Nevertheless," said Kta, "I try. Perhaps
the Ancestors of Elas will accept prayers in the name of
your most distant house. Are your parents still
living?"
"I have no kin at all," said Kurt, and the
nemet murmured a word that sounded regretful.
"Then," said Kta, "I ask please your
whole name, the name of your house and of your father and
your mother."
Kurt gave them, to have peace, and the nemet stumbled
much over the long alien names, determined to pronounce
them accurately. Kta was horrified at first to believe his
parents shared a common house name, and Kurt angrily,
almost tearfully, explained human customs of marriage, for
he was exhausted and this interrogation was prolonging his
misery.
"I shall explain to the Ancestors," said Kta.
"Don't be afraid. Elas is a house patient with
strangers and strangers' ways."
Kurt bowed his head, not to have any further argument.
He was tolerated for the sake of Kta, a matter of Kta's
honor.
He was cold when Kta and Mim left him alone, and crawled
between the cold sheets, unable to stop shivering.
He was one of a kind, save for Djan, who hated him.
And among nemet, he was not even hated. He was
inconvenient.
Food arrived late that evening, brought by Hef; Kurt
dragged his aching limbs out of bed and fully dressed,
which would not have been his inclination, but he was
determined to do nothing to lessen his esteem in the eyes
of the nemet.
Then Kta arrived to share dinner with him in his
room.
"It is custom to take dinner in the rhmei,
all Elas together," Kta explained, "but I teach
you, here. I don't want you to offend against my
family. You learn manners first."
Kurt had borne with much. "I have manners of my
own," he cried, "and I'm sorry if I
contaminate your house. Send me back to the Afen, to
Djan-it's not too late for that." And he turned
his back on the food and on Kta, and walked over to stand
looking out the dark window. It dawned on him that sending
him to Elas had been Djan's subtle cruelty; she
expected him back, broken in pride.
"I meant no insult," Kta protested.
Kurt looked back at him, met the dark, foreign eyes with
more directness than Kta had ever allowed him. The
nemet's face was utterly stricken.
"Kurt-ifhan," said Kta, "I didn't
wish to cause you shame. I wish to help you, not putting
you on display in the eyes of my father and my mother. It
is your dignity I protect."
Kurt bowed his head and came back, not gladly. Djan was
in his mind, that he would not run to her for shelter,
giving up what he had abjectly begged of her. And perhaps
too she had meant to teach the house of Elas its place,
estimating it would beg relief of the burden it had asked.
He submitted. There were worse shames than sitting on the
floor like a child and letting Kta mold his unskilled
fingers around the strange tableware.
He quickly knew why Kta had not permitted him to go
downstairs. He could scarcely feed himself and, starving as
he was, he had to resist the impulse to snatch up food in
disregard of the unfamiliar utensils. Drink with the left
hand only, eat with the right, reach with the left, never
the right. The bowl was lifted almost to the lips, but it
must never touch. From the almost bowl-less spoon and thin
skewer he kept dropping bites. The knife must be used only
left-handed.
Kta was cautiously tactful after his outburst, but grew
less so as Kurt recovered his sense of humor. They
talked,
between instructions and accidents, and afterward, over
a cup of tea. Sometimes Kta asked him of human customs, but
he approached any difference between them with the attitude
that while other opinions and manners were possible, they
were not so under the roof of Elas.
"If you were among humans," Kurt dared ask him
finally, "what would you do?"
Kta looked as if the idea horrified him, but covered it
with a downward glance. "I don't know. I know only
Tamurlin."
"Did not"-he had tried for a long time to work
toward this question-"did not Djan-methi come with
others?"
The frightened look persisted. "Yes. Most left.
Djan-methi killed the others."
He quickly changed the subject and looked as if he
wished he had not been so free of that answer, though he
had given it straightly and with deliberation.
They talked of lesser things, well into the night, over
many cups of tea and sometimes of telise, until
from the rest of Elas there was no sound of people stirring
and they had to lower their voices. The light was
exceedingly dim, the air heavy with the scent of oil from
the lamps. The telise made it close and warm. The
late hour clothed things in unreality.
Kurt learned things, almost all simply family gossip,
for Djan and Elas were all in Nephane that they both knew,
and Kta, momentarily so free with the truth, seemed to have
remembered that there was danger in it. They spoke instead
of Elas.
Nym was the authority, the lord of Elas; Kta had almost
no authority, although he was over thirty-he hardly looked
it-and commanded a warship. Kta would be under Nym's
authority as long as Nym lived; the eldest male was lord in
the house. If Kta married, he must bring his bride to live
under his father's roof. The girl would become part of
Elas, obedient to Kta's father and mother as if she
were born to the house. So Aimu was soon to depart,
betrothed to Kta's lieutenant Bel t'Osanef. They
had been friends since childhood, Kta and Bel and Aimu.
Kta owned nothing. Nym controlled the family wealth and
would decide how and whom and when his two children must
marry, since marriage determined inheritances. Property
passed from father to eldest son undivided, and the eldest
then assumed a father's responsibility for all lesser
brothers and cousins and unmarried women in the house. A
patriarch like Nym always had his rooms to the right of the
entry, a custom, Kta explained, derived from more warlike
times, when a man slept at the threshold to defend his home
from attack. Grown sons occupied the ground floor for the
same reason. This room that Kurt now held as a guest had
been Kta's when he was a boy.
And the matriarch, in this case Kta's mother Ptas,
although it had been the paternal grandmother until quite
recently, had her rooms behind the base wall of the
rhmei. > She was the guardian of most religious
matters of the house. She tended the holy fire of the
phusmeha, supervised the household and was second
in authority to the patriarch.
Of obeisance and respect, Kta explained, there were
complex degrees. It was gross disrespect for a grown son to
come before his mother without going to his knees, but when
he was a boy this deference was not paid. The reverse was
true with a son and his father: a boy knelt to his father
until his coming of age, then met him with the slight bow
of almost-equals if he was eldest, necessary obeisances
deepening as one went down the ranks of second son, third
son and so on. A daughter, however, was treated as a
beloved guest, a visitor the house would one day lose to a
husband; she gave her parents only the obeisance of
second-son's rank, and showed her brothers the same
modest formality she must use with strangers.
But of Hef and Mim, who served Elas, was required only
the obeisance of equals, although it was their habit to
show more than that on formal occasions.
"And what of me?" Kurt asked, dreading to ask.
"What must I do?"
Kta frowned. "You are guest, mine; you must be
equal with me. But," he added nervously, "it is
proper in a man to show greater respect than necessary
sometimes. It does not hurt your dignity; sometimes it
makes it greater. Be most polite to all. Don't . . .
make Elas ashamed. People will watch you, thinking they
will see a Tamuru in nemet dress. You must prove
this is not so."
"Kta," Kurt asked, "am I a man, to the
nemet?"
Kta pressed his lips together and looked as if he
earnestly wished that question had gone unasked.
"I am not, then," Kurt concluded, and was
robbed even of anger by the distress on Kta's face.
"I have not decided," Kta said. "Some . .
. would say no. It is a religious question. I must think.
But I have a liking for you, Kurt, even if you are
human."
"You have been very good to me."
There was silence between them. In the sleeping house
there was no sound at all. Kta looked at him with a
directness and a pity which disquieted him.
"You are afraid of us," Kta observed.
"Did Djan make you my keeper only because you
asked, or because she trusts you in some special way, to
watch me?"
Kta's head lifted slightly. "Elas is loyal to
the Methi. But you are guest."
"Are nemet who speak human language so common? You
are very fluent, Kta. Mim is. Your . . . readiness to
accept a human into your house-is that not different from
the feelings of other nemet?"
"I interpreted for the umani when they
first came to Nephane. Before that, I learned of Mim, and
Mim learned because she was prisoner of the Tamurlin. What
evil do you suspect? What is the quarrel between you and
Djan-methi?"
"We are of different nations, an old, old war.
Don't get involved, Kta, if you did only get into this
for my sake. If I threaten the peace of your house-or your
safety-tell me. I'll go back. I mean that."
"This is impossible," said Kta. "No. Elas
has never dismissed a guest."
"Elas has never entertained a human."
"No," Kta conceded. "But the Ancestors
when they lived were reckless men. This is the character of
Elas. The Ancestors guide us to such choice, and Nephane
and the Methi cannot be much surprised at us."
The lives of the nemet were uniformly tranquil. Kurt
endured a little more than four days of the silent dim
halls, the hushed voices and the endless bowing and
refraining from untouchable objects and untouchable persons
before he began to feel his sanity slipping.
On that day he went upstairs and locked the door,
despite Kta's pleas to explain his behavior. He shed a
few tears, fiercely and in the privacy of his room, and
curtained the window so he did not have to look out on the
alien world. He sat hi the dark until the night came, then
he slipped quietly downstairs and sat in the empty
rhmei, trying to make his peace with the
house.
Mim came. She stood and watched him silently, hands
twisting nervously before her.
At last she pattered on soft feet over to the chairs and
gathered up one of the fleeces and brought it to the place
where he sat on the cold stone. She laid it down beside
him, and chanced to meet his eyes as she straightened. Hers
questioned, greatly troubled, even frightened.
He accepted the offered truce between them, edged onto
the welcome softness of the fleece.
She bowed very deeply, then slipped out again,
extinguishing the lights one by one as she left, save only
the phusmeba, which burned the night long.
Kta also came out to him, but only looked as if to see
that he was well. Then he went away, but left the door of
his room open the night long.
Kurt rose up in the morning and paused in Kta's
doorway to give him an apology. The nemet was awake and
arose in some concern, but Kurt did not find words adequate
to explain his behavior. He only bowed in respect to the
nemet, and Kta to him, and he went up to his own room to
prepare for the decency of breakfast with the family.
Gentle Kta. Soft-spoken, seldom angry, he stood above
six feet in height and was physically imposing, but it was
uncertain whether Kta had ever laid aside his dignity to
use force on anyone. It was an increasing source of
amazement to Kurt that this intensely proud man had vaulted
a ship's rail in view of all Nephane to rescue a
drowning human, or sat on the dock and helped him amid his
retching illness. Nothing seemed to ruffle Kta for long. He
met frustration by retiring to meditate on the problem
until he had restored himself to what he called
yhia, or balance, a philosophy evidently adequate
even in dealing with humans.
Kta also played the aos, a small harp of metal
strings, and sang with a not unpleasant voice, which was
the particular pleasure of lady Ptas on the quiet evenings.
Sometimes he sang light, quick songs that brought laughter
to the rhmei, sometimes very long ones that were
interrupted with cups of telise to give Kta's
voice a rest, songs to which all the house listened in
sober silence, plaintive and haunting melodies of
anharmonic notes.
"What do you sing about?" Kurt asked him
afterward. They sat in Kta's room, sharing a late cup
of tea. It was their habit to sit and talk late into the
night. It was almost their last. The two weeks were almost
spent. Tonight he wanted very much to know the nemet, not
at all sure that he would have a further chance. It had
been beautiful in the rhmei, the notes of the
aos, the sober dignity of Nym, the rapt face of
lady Ptas, Aimu and Mim with their sewing, Hef sitting to
one side and listening, his old eyes dreaming.
The stillness of Elas had seeped into his bones this
night, a timeless and now fleeting time which made all the
world quiet. He had striven against it. Tonight, he
listened.
"The song would mean nothing to you," Kta
said. "I can't sing it in human words."
"Try," said Kurt.
The nemet shrugged, gave a pained smile, gathered up the
aos and ran his fingers over the sensitive
strings, calling forth the same melody. For a moment he
seemed lost, but the melody grew, rebuilt itself in all its
complexity.
"It is our beginning," said Kta, and spoke
softly, not looking at Kurt, his fingers moving on the
strings like a whisper of wind, as if that was necessary
for his thoughts.
There was water. From the sea came the nine spirits of
the elements, and greatest were Ygr the earthly and Ib the
celestial. From Ygr and Ib came a thousand years of
begettings and chaos and wars of elements, until Qas who
was light and Mur who was darkness, persuaded their
brother-gods Phan the sun and Thael the earth to part.
So formed the first order. But Thael loved Phan's
sister Ti, and took her. Phan in his anger killed Thael,
and of Thael's ribs was the earth. Ti bore dead Thael a
son, Aem.
Ten times a thousand years came and passed
away.
Aem came to his age, and Ti saw her son was
fair.
They sinned the great sin. Of this sin came
Yr,
Yr, earth-snake, mother of all beasts.
The council of gods in heaven made Aem and Ti to
die,
and dying, they brought forth children, man and
woman.
"I have never tried to think it hi human
terms," said Kta, frowning. "It is very
hard."
But with a gesture Kurt urged him, and Kta touched the
strings again, trying, greatly frustrated.
"The first mortal beings were Nem and Panet, man
and woman, twins. They sinned the great sin too. The
council of gods rejected them for immortality because of
it, and made their lives short. Phan especially hated them,
and he mated with Yr the snake, and brought beasts and
terrible things into the world to hunt man.
Then Phan's sister Qas defied his
anger,
stole fire, rained down lightning on the
earth.
Men took fire and killed Yr's beasts, built
cities.
Ten times a thousand years came and passed
away.
Men grew many and kings grew proud,
sons of men and Yr the earth-snake,
sons of men and inim that ride the winds.
Men worshiped these half-men, the
god-kings.
Men did them honor, built them cities.
Men forgot the first gods,
and men's works were foul.
"Then a prophecy came," said Kta, "and
Phan chose Isoi, a mortal woman, and gave her a half-god
son, Qavur, who carried the weapons of Phan to destroy the
world by burning. Qavur destroyed the god-kings, but Isoi
his mother begged him not to kill the rest of man, and he
didn't. Then Phan with his sword of plague came down
and destroyed all men, but when he came to Isoi she ran to
her hearthfire and sat down beside it, so that she claimed
the gods' protection. Her tears made Phan pity her. He
gave her another son, Isem, who was husband of Nae the
sea-goddess and father of all men who sail on the sea. But
Phan took Qavur to be immortal; he is the star that shines
in morning, the messenger of the sun.
"To keep Nae's children from doing wrong, Phan
gave Qavur the yhia to take to men. All law comes
from it. From it we know our place in the universe.
Anything higher is gods' law, but that is beyond the
words of the song. The song is the Ind. It is
sacred to us. My father taught it to me, and the seven
verses of it that are only for Elas. So it has come to us
in each generation."
"You said once," said Kurt, "that you
didn't know whether I was man or not. Have you decided
yet?"
Kta thoughtfully laid aside the aos, stilled
its strings. "Perhaps, said Kta, "some of the
children of Nem escaped, the plague; but you are not nemet.
Perhaps instead you are descended of Yr, and you were set
out among the stars on some world of Thael's kindred.
From what I have heard among humans, the earth seems to
have had many brothers. But I don't think you think
so."
"I said nothing."
"Your look did not agree."
"I wouldn't distress you," said Kurt,
"by saying I consider you human."
The nemet's lips opened instantly, his eyes
mirroring shock. Then he looked as if he suspected Kurt of
some levity, and again, as if he feared he was serious.
Slowly his expression took on a certain thoughtfulness, and
he made a gesture of rejection.
"Please," said Kta, "don't say that
freely."
Kurt bowed his head then in respect to Kta, for the
nemet truly looked frightened.
"I have spoken to the Guardians of Elas for
you," said Kta. "You are a disturbance here, but
I do not feel that you are unwelcome with our
Ancestors."
Kurt dressed carefully on the last morning. He would
have worn the clothes in which he had come, but Mim had
taken those away, unworthy, she had said, of the guest of
Elas. Instead he had an array of fine clothing he thought
must be Kta's, and on this morning he chose the warmest
and most durable, for he did not know" what the day
might bring him, and the night winds were chill. It was
also cold in the rooms of the Afen, and he feared he would
not leave it once he entered.
Elas again began to seem distant to him, and the sterile
modernity of the center of the Afen increasingly crowded in
on his thoughts, the remembrance that, whatever had
happened in Elas, his business was with Djan and not with
the nemet.
He had chosen his option at the beginning of the two
weeks, in the form of a small dragon-hilted blade from
among Kta's papers, where it had been gathering dust
and would not be missed.
He drew it now from its hiding place and considered it,
apt either for Djan or for himself.
And fatally traceable to the house of Elas.
It did not go within his clothing, as he had always
meant to carry it. Instead he laid it aside on the dressing
table. It would go back to Kta. The nemet would be angry at
the theft, but it would make amends, all the same.
Kurt finished dressing, fastening the ctan, the
outer cloak, on his shoulder, and chose a bronze pin with
which to do it, for his debts to Elas were enough; he would
not use the ones of silver and gold with which he had been
provided.
A light tapping came at the door, Mim's knock.
"Come in," he bade her, and she quietly did
so. Linens were changed daily throughout the house. She
carried fresh ones, for bed and for bath, and she bowed to
him before she set them down to begin her work. Of late
there was no longer hate in Mim's look. He understood
that she had had cause, having been prisoner of the
Tamurlin; but she had ceased her war with him of her own
accord, and in consideration of that he always tried
especially to please Mim.
"At least," he observed, "you will have
less washing in the house hereafter."
She did not appreciate the poor humor. She looked at
him, then lowered her eyes and turned around to tend her
business.
And froze, with her back to him, facing the dresser.
Hesitantly she reached for the knife, snatched at it and
faced about again as if uncertain that he would not pounce
on her. Her dark eyes were large with terror; her attitude
was that of one determined to resist if he attempted to
take it from her.
"Lord Kta did not give you this," she
said.
"No," he said, "but you may give it back
to him."
She clasped it in both hands and continued to stare at
him. "If you bring a weapon into the Afen you kill us,
Kurt-ifhan. All Elas would die."
"I have given it back," he said. "I am
not armed, Mim. That is the truth."
She slipped it into the belt beneath her overskirt,
'through one of the four slits that exposed the filmy
pelan from waist to toe, patted it flat. She was
so small a woman; she had a tiny waist, a slender neck
accentuated by the way she wore her hair in many tiny
braids coiled and clustered above the ears. So little a
creature, so soft-spoken, and yet he was continually in awe
of Mim, feeling her disapproval of him in every line of her
stiff little back.
For once, as in the rhmei that night, there was
something like distress, even tenderness in the way she
looked at him.
"Kta wishes you come back to Elas," she
said.
"I doubt I will be allowed to," he said.
"Then why would the Methi send you here?"
"I don't know. Perhaps to satisfy Kta for a
time. Perhaps so I'll find the Afen the worse by
comparison."
"Kta will not let harm come to you."
"Kta had better stay out of it. Tell him so, Mim.
He could make the Methi his enemy that way. He had better
forget it."
He was afraid. He had lived with that nagging fear from
the beginning, and now that Mim touched nerves, he found it
difficult to speak with the calm that the nemet called
dignity. The unsteadiness of his voice made him greatly
ashamed.
And Mim's eyes inexplicably filled with tears-fierce
little Mim, unhuman Mim, who would have been interestingly
female to Kurt but for her alien face. He did not know if
any other being would ever care enough to cry over him, and
suddenly leaving Elas was unbearable.
He took her slim golden hands in his, knew at once he
should not have, for she was nemet and she shivered at the
very touch of him. But she looked up at him and did not
show offense. Her hands pressed his very gently in
return.
"Kurt-ifhan," she said, "I will tell lord
Kta what you say, because it is good advice. But I
don't think he will listen to me. Elas will speak for
you. I am sure of it. The Methi has listened before to
Elas. She knows that we speak with the power of the
Families. Please go to breakfast. I have made you late. I
am sorry."
He nodded and started to the door, looked back again.
"Mim," he said, because he wanted her to look up.
He wanted her face to think of, as he wanted everything in
Elas fixed in his mind. But then he was embarrassed, for he
could think of nothing to say.
"Thank you," he murmured, and quickly
left.
IV
All the way to the Afen, Kurt had balanced his chances
of rounding on his three nemet guards and making good his
escape. The streets of Nephane were twisting and torturous,
and if he could remain free until dark, he thought, he
might possibly find a way out into the fields and
forests.
But Nym himself had given him into the hands of the
guards and evidently charged them to treat him well, for
they showed him the greatest courtesy. Elas continued to
support him, and for the sake of Elas, he dared not do what
his own instincts screamed to do: to run, to kill if need
be.
They passed into the cold halls of the Afen itself and
it was too late. The stairs led them up to the third level,
that of the Methi.
Djan waited for him alone in the modern hall, wearing
the modest chatem and pelan of a nemet
lady, her auburn hair braided at the crown of her head,
laced with gold.
She dismissed the guards, then turned to him. It was
strange, as she had foretold, to see a human face after so
long among the nemet. He began to understand what it had
been for her, alone, slipping gradually from human reality
into nemet. He noticed things about human faces he had
never seen before, how curiously level the planes of the
face, how pale her eyes, how metal-bright her hair. The
war, the enmity between them, even these seemed for the
moment welcome, part of a familiar frame of reference. Elas
faded in this place of metal and synthetics.
He fought it back into focus.
"Welcome back," she greeted him, and sank into
the nearest chair, gestured him welcome to the other.
"Elas wants you," she advised him then. "I
am impressed."
"And I," he said, "would like to go back
to Elas."
"I did not promise that," she said. "But
your presence there has not proved particularly
troublesome." She rose again abruptly, went to the
cabinet against the near wall, opened it. "Care for a
drink, Mr. Morgan?"
"Anything," he said, "thank
you."
She poured them each a little glass and brought one to
him. It was telise. She sat down again, leaned
back and sipped at her own. "Let me make a few points
clear to you," she said. "First, this is my city;
I intend it should remain so. Second, this is a nemet city,
and that will remain so too, Our species has had its
chance. It's finished. We've done it. Pylos, my
world Aeolus-both cinders. It's insane. I spent these
last months waiting to die for not following orders,
wondering what would become of the nemet when the probe
ship returned with the authority and the firepower to
deal
with me. So I don't mourn them much. I ...regret
Aeolus. But your intervention was timely, for the nemet.
Which does not mean," she added, "that I have
overwhelming gratitude to you."
"It does not make sense," he said, "that
we two should carry on the war here. There's nothing
either of us can win."
"Is it required," she asked, "that a war
make sense? Consider ours: we've been at it two
thousand years. Probably everything your side and mine says
about its beginning is a lie. That hardly matters.
There's only the now, and the war feeds on its
own casualties. And we approach our natural limits. We
started out destroying ships in one little system, now we
destroy worlds. Worlds. We leave dead space behind us. We
count casualties by zones. We Hanan-we never were as
numerous or as prolific as you-we can't produce
soldiers fast enough to replace the dead. Embryonics,
lab-born soldiers, engineered officers, engineered
followers-our last hope. And you killed it. I will tell
you, my friend, something I would be willing to wager your
Alliance never told you: you just stepped up the war by
what you did at Aeolus. I think you made a great
miscalculation."
"Meaning what?"
"Aeolus was the center, the great center of the
embryonics projects. Billions died hi its laboratories. The
workers, the facilities, the records-irreplaceable. You
have hurt us too much. The Hanan will cease to restrict
targets altogether now. The final insanity, that is what I
fear you .have loosed on humanity. And we richly deserve
it, the whole human race."
"I don't think," he said, for she
disturbed his peace of mind, "that you enjoy isolation
half as much as you pretend."
"I am Aeolid," she said. "Think about
it."
It took a moment. Then the realization set in, and
revulsion, gut-deep: of all things Hanan that he loathed,
the labs were the most hateful.
Djan smiled. "Oh, I'm human, of human cells.
And superior-I would have been destroyed
otherwise-efficiently engineered for intelligence and
trained to serve the state. My intelligence then advised me
that I was being used, and I disliked it. So I found my
moment and turned on the state." She finished the
drink and set it aside. "But you wouldn't like
separation from humanity. Good. That may keep you from
trying to cut my throat."
"Am I free to leave, then?"
"Not so easily, not so easily. I had considered
perhaps giving you quarters in the Afen. There are rooms
upstairs, only accessible from here. In such isolation you
could do no possible harm. Instinct-something-says that
would be the best way to dispose of you."
"Please," he said, rationally, shamelessly,
for he had long since made up his mind that he had nothing
to gain in Nephane by antagonizing Djan. ."If Elas
will have me, let me go back there."
"In a few days I will consider that. I only want
you to know your alternatives."
"And what until then?"
"You're going to learn the nemet language. I
have things all ready for you."
"No," he said instantly. "No. I don't
need any mechanical helps."
"I am a medic, among other things. I've never
known the teaching apparatus abused without it doing
permanent damage. No. Ruining the mind of the only other
human would be a waste. I shall merely allow you access to
the apparatus and you may choose your own rate."
"Then why do you insist?"
"Because your objection creates an unnecessary
problem for you, which I insist be solved. I am giving you
a chance to live outside. So I make it a fair chance, an
honest chance; I wish you success. I no longer serve the
purposes of the Hanan, so I refuse to be programmed into a
course of action I do not choose. And likewise, if it
becomes clear to me that you are becoming a nuisance to me,
don't think you can plead ignorance and evade the
consequences. I am removing your excuses, you see. And if I
must, I will call you in or kill you. Don't doubt it
for a moment."
"It is," he said, "a fairer attitude than
I would have expected of you. I would be easier in my mind
if I understood you."
"All my motives are selfish," she said.
"At least in the sense that all I do serves my own
purposes. If I once perceive you are working against those
purposes, you are done. If I perceive that you are
compatible with them, you will find no difficulty. I think
that is as clear as I can make it, Mr. Morgan." Kta
was not in the rhmei as Kurt had expected him to
be when he reached the safety of Elas. Hef was, and Mim.
Mini scurried upstairs ahead of him to open the window and
air the room, and she spun about again when she had done
so, her dark eyes shining.
"We are so happy," she said, in human speech.
The machine's reflex pained him, punishing
understanding.
It was all Mim had time to say, for there was Kta's
step on the landing, and Mim bowed and slipped out as Kta
came in.
"Much crying in our house these days," said
Kta, casting a look after Mim's retreat down the
stairs. Then he looked at Kurt, smiled a little. "But
no more. Ei, Kurt, sit, sit, please. You look like
a man three days drowned."
Kurt ran his hand through his hair and fell into a
chair. His limbs were shaking. His hands were white.
"Speak Nechai," he said. "It is
easier."
Kta blinked, looked him over. "How is this?"
he asked, and there was unwelcome suspicion in his
voice.
"Trust me," Kurt said hoarsely. "The
Methi has machines which can do this. I would not lie to
you."
"You are pale," said Kta. "You are
shaking. Are you hurt?"
"Tired," he said. "Kta . . . thank yon,
thank you for taking me back."
Kta bowed a little. "Even my honored father came
and spoke for you, and never in all the years of our house
has Elas done such a thing. But you are of Elas. We are
glad to receive you."
"Thank you."
He rose and attempted a bow. He had to catch at the
table to avoid losing his balance. He made it to the bed
and sprawled. His memory ceased before he had stopped
moving.
Something tugged at his ankle. He thought he had fallen
into the sea and something was pulling him down. But he
could not summon the strength to move.
Then the ankle came free and cold air hit his foot. He
opened his eyes on Mim, who began to remove the other
sandal. He was lying on his own bed, fully clothed, and
cold. Outside the window it was night. His legs were like
ice, his arms likewise.
Mini's dark eyes looked up, realized that he was
awake. "Kta takes bad care for you," she said,
"leaving you so. You have not moved. You sleep like
the dead."
"Speak Nechai," he asked of her. "I have
been taught."
Her look was briefly startled. Then she accepted human
strangeness with a little bow, wiped her hands on her
chatem and dragged at the bedding to cover him,
pulling the bedclothes from beneath him, half-asleep as he
was.
"I am sorry," she said. "I tried not to
wake you, but the night was cold and my lord Kta had left
the window open and the light burning."
He sighed deeply and reached for her hand as it drew the
coverlet across him. "Mim-"
"Please." She evaded his hand, slipped the pin
from his shoulder and hauled the tangled ctan from
beneath him, jerked the catch of his wide belt free, then
drew the covers up to his chin.
"You will sleep easier now," she said.
He reached for her hand again, preventing her going.
"Mim, What time is it?"
"Late . . . late." She pulled, but he did not
let go, and she glanced down, her lashes dark against her
bronze cheeks. "Please, please let me go, lord
Kurt."
"I asked Djan, asked her to send you word, so you
would not worry."
"Word came. We did not know how to understand it.
It was only that you were safe. Only that." She pulled
again. "Please."
Her lips trembled and her eyes were terrified; when he
let her hand go she spun around and fled to the door. She
hardly paused to close it, her slippered feet pattering
away down the stairs at breakneck speed.
If he had had the strength he would have risen and gone
after her, for he had not meant to hurt Mim on the very
night of his return. He lay awake and was angry, at nemet
custom and at himself, but his head hurt abominably and
made him dizzy. He sank into the soft down and slipped
away. There was tomorrow. Mim would have gone to bed too,
and he would scandalize the house by trying to speak to her
tonight.
The morning began with tea, but there was no Mim,
cheerily bustling in with morning linens and disarranging
things. She did appear in the rhmei to serve, but
she kept her eyes down when she poured for him.
"Mim," he whispered at her, and she spilled a
few drops, which burned, and moved quickly to pour for Kta.
She spilled even his, at which the dignified nemet shook
his burned hand and looked up wonderingly at the girl, but
said nothing.
There had been the usual round of formalities, and Kurt
had bowed deeply before Nym and Ptas and Aimu, and thanked
the lord of Elas in his own language for his intercession
with Djan.
"You speak very well," Nym observed by way of
acknowledging him, and Kurt realized he should have
explained through Kta. An elder nemet cherished his
dignity, and Kurt saw that he must have mightily offended
lord Nym with his human sense of the dramatic.
"Sir," said Kurt, "you honor me. By
machines I do this. I speak slowly yet and not well, but I
do recognize what is said to me. When I have listened a few
days, I will be a better speaker. Forgive me if I have
offended you. I was so tired yesterday I had no sense left
to explain where I have been or why."
The honorable Nym considered, and then the faintest of
smiles touched his face, growing to an expression of
positive amusement. He touched his laced fingers to his
breast and inclined his head, apology for laughter.
"Welcome a second time to Elas, friend of my son.
You bring gladness with you. There are smiles on faces this
morning, and there were few the days we were in fear for
you. Just when we thought we had comprehended humans, here
are more wonders-and what a relief to be able to talk
without waiting for translations!"
So they were settled together, the ritual of tea begun.
Lady Ptas sat enthroned in their center, a comfortable
woman. Somehow when Kurt thought of Elas, Ptas always came
first to mind: a gentle and dignified lady with graying
hair, the very heart of the family, which among nemet a
mother was; Nym's lady, source of life and love,
protectress of Ms ancestral religion. Into a wife's
hands a man committed his hearth; into a
daughter-in-law's hands, his hope of a continuing
eternity. Kurt began to understand why fathers chose their
sons' mates. Considering the affection that was evident
between Nym and Ptas, he could no longer think such
marriages were loveless. It was right, it was proper, and
he sat cross-legged on a fleece rug, equal to Kta, a son of
the house, drinking the strong sweetened tea and feeling
that he had come home indeed.
After tea lady Ptas rose and bowed formally before the
hearthfire, lifting her palms to it. Everyone stood in
respect, and her sweet voice called upon the Guardians.
"Ancestors of Elas, upon this shore and the other
of the Dividing Sea, look kindly upon us. Kurt t'Morgan
has come back to us. Peace be between the guest of our home
and the Guardians of Elas. Peace be among us."
Kurt was greatly touched, and bowed deeply to lady Ptas
when she was done.
"Lady Ptas," he said, "I honor you very
much." He would have said like a son, but he would not
inflict that doubtful compliment on the nemet lady.
She smiled at him with the affection she gave her
children. From that moment, Ptas had his heart.
"Kurt," said Kta when they were alone in the
hall after breakfast, "my father bids you stay as long
as it pleases you. This he asked me to tell you. He would
not burden you with giving answer on the instant, but he
would have you know this."
"He is very kind," said Kurt. "You have
never owed me all of the things you have done for me. Your
oath never bound you this far."
"Those who share the hearth of Elas," said
Kta, "have been few, but we never forget them. We call
this guest-friendship. It binds your house and mine for all
time. It can never be broken."
He spent the days much in Kta's company within Elas,
talking, resting, enjoying the sun in the inner court of
the house where there was a small garden.
One thing remained to trouble him: Mim was unusually
absent. She no longer came to his rooms when he was
there.
No matter how he varied his schedule, she would not
come; he only found his bed changed when he would return
after some absence. When he hovered about the places where
she usually worked, she was simply not to be found.
"She is at market," Hef informed him on a
morning when he finally gathered his courage to ask.
"She has not been much about lately," Kurt
observed.
Hef shrugged. "No, lord Kurt. She has
not."
And the old man looked at him strangely, as if
Kurt's anxiety had undermined the peace of his morning
too.
He became the more determined. When he heard the front
door close at noon, he sprang up to run downstairs; but he
had only a glimpse of her hurrying by the opposite hall
into the ladies' quarters behind the rhmei.
That was the territory of Ptas, and no man but Nym could
set foot there.
He walked disconsolately back to the garden and sat in
the sun, staring at nothing in particular and tracing idle
patterns in the pale dust.
He had hurt her. Mim had not told the matter to anyone,
he was sure, for he would have had Kta to deal with if she
had.
He wished desperately that he could ask someone how to
apologize to her, but it was not something he could ask of
Kta or of Hef; and certainly he dared ask no one else.
She served at dinner that night, as at every meal, and
still avoided his eyes. He dared not say anything to her.
Kta was sitting beside him.
Late that night he set himself in the hall and doggedly
waited, far past the hour when the family was decently in
bed, for the chan of Elas had as her last duties
to set out things for breakfast tea and to extinguish the
hall lights as she retired to bed.
She saw him there, blocking her way to her rooms. For a
moment he feared she would cry out; her hand flew to her
lips. But she stood her ground, still looking poised to
run.
"Mim. Please. I want to talk with you."
"I do not want to talk with you. Let me
pass."
"Please."
"Do not touch me. Let me pass. Do you want to wake
all the house?"
"Do that, if you like. But I will not let you go
until you talk with me."
Her eyes widened slightly. "Kta will not permit
this."
"There are no windows on the garden and we cannot
be heard there. Come outside, Mim. I swear I want only to
talk."
She considered, her lovely face~ looking so frightened
he hurt for her; but she yielded and walked ahead of him to
the garden. The world's moon cast dim shadows here. She
stopped where the light was brightest, clasping her arms
against the chill of the night.
"Mim," he said, "I did not mean to
frighten you that night. I meant no harm by it."
"I should never have been there alone. It was my
fault. Please, lord Kurt, do not look at me that way. Let
me go."
"Because I am not nemet, you felt free to come
in and out of my room and not be ashamed with me.
Was that it, Mim?"
"No." Her teeth chattered so she could hardly
talk, and the cold was not enough for that. He slipped the
pin off his ctan, but she would not take it from
him, flinching from the offered garment.
"Why can I not talk to you?" he asked.
"How does a man ever talk to a nemet woman? I refrain
from this, I refrain from that, I must not touch, must not
look, must not think. How am I to-?"
"Please."
"How am I to talk with you?"
"Lord Kurt, I have made you think I am a loose
woman. I am chart to this house; I cannot dishonor
it. Please let me go inside."
A thought came to him. "Are you his? Are you
Kta's?"
"No," she said.
Against her preference he took the ctan and
draped it about her shoulders. She hugged it to her. He was
near enough to have touched her. He did not, nor did she
move back. He did not take that for invitation. He thought
that whatever he did, she would not protest or raise the
house. It would be trouble between her lord Kta and his
guest, and he understood enough of nemet dignity to know
that Mim would choose silence. She would yield, hating
him.
He had no argument against that.
In sad defeat, he bowed a formal courtesy to her and
turned away.
"Lord Kurt," she whispered after him, distress
in her voice.
He paused, looking back.
"My lord, you do not understand."
"I understand," he said, "that I am
human. I have offended you. I am sorry."
"Nemet do not-" She broke off in great
embarrassment, opened her hands, pleading. "My lord,
seek a wife. My lord Nym will advise you. You have
connections with the Methi and with Elas. You could marry,
easily you could marry, if Nym approached the right
house-"
"And if it was you I wanted?"
She stood there without words, until he came back to her
and reached for her. Then she prevented him with her slim
hands on his. "Please," she said. "I have
done wrong with you already."
He ignored the protest of her hands and took her face
between his palms ever so gently, fearing at each moment
she would tear from him in horror. She did not. He bent and
touched his lips to hers, delicately, almost chastely, for
he thought the human custom might disgust or frighten
her.
Her smooth hands still rested on his arms. The moon
glistened on tears hi her eyes when he drew back from her.
"Lord," she said, "I honor you. I would do
what you wish, but it would shame Kta and it would shame my
father and I cannot."
"What can you?" He found his own breathing
difficult. "Mim, what if some day I did decide to talk
with your father? Is that the way things are
done?"
"To marry?"
"Some day it might seem a good thing to
do."
She shivered in his hands. Tears spilled freely down her
cheeks.
"Mim, will you give me yes or no? Is a human hard
for you to look at? If you had rather not say, then just
say 'let me be' and I will do my best after this
not to bother you."
"Lord Kurt, you do not know me."
"Are you determined I will never know
you?"
"You do not understand. I am not the daughter of
Hef. If you ask him for me he must tell you, and then you
will not want me."
"It is nothing to me whose daughter you
are."
"My lord, Elas knows. Elas knows. But you must
listen to me now, listen. You know about the Tamurlin. I
was taken when I was thirteen. For three years I was slave
to them. Hef only calls me his daughter, and all Nephane
thinks I am of this country. But I am not, Kurt. I am
Indras, of Indresul. And they would kill me if they knew.
Elas has kept this to itself. But you, you cannot bear such
a trouble. People must not look at you and think
Tamurlin-it would hurt you in this city-and when they see
me, that is what they must think."
"Do you believe," he asked, "that what
they think matters with me? I am human. They can see
that."
"Do you not understand, my lord? I have been
property of every man in that village. Kta must tell you
this if you ask Hef for me. I am not honorable. No one
would marry Mim h'EIas. Do not shame yourself and Kta
by making Kta say this to you."
"After he had said it," said Kurt, "would
he give his consent?"
"Honorable women would marry you. Sufaki have no
fear of humans as Indras do. Perhaps even a daughter of
some merchant would marry you. I am only chan, and
before that I was nothing at all."
"If I was to ask," he said, "would you
refuse?"
"No. I would not refuse." Her small face took
on a look of pained bewilderment. "Kurt-ifhan, surely
you will think better of this in the morning."
"I am going to talk to Hef," he said. "Go
inside, Mim. And give me back my cloak. It would not do for
you to Wear it inside."
"My lord, think a day before you do this."
"I will give it tomorrow," he said, "for
thinking it over. And you do the same. And if you have not
come to me by tomorrow evening and asked me and said
clearly that you do not want me, then I will talk to
Hef."
It was, he had time to think that night and the next
morning, hardly reasonable. He wanted Mim. He had had no
knowledge of her to say that he loved her, or that she
loved him.
He wanted her. She had set her terms and there was no
living under the same roof with Mim without wanting
her.
He could apply reason to the matter, until he looked
into her face at breakfast as she poured the tea, or as she
passed him in the hall and looked at him with a dreadful
anxiety.
Have you thought better of it? the look seemed
to say. Was it, after all, only for the night?
Then the feeling was back with him, the surety that,
should he lose Mim by saying nothing, he would lose
something irreplaceable.
In the end, he found himself that evening gathering his
courage before the door of Hef, who served Elas, and
standing awkwardly inside the door when the old man
admitted him.
"Hef," he said, "may I talk to you about
Mim?"
"My lord?" asked the old man, bowing.
"What if I wanted to marry her? What should I
do?"
The old nemet looked quite overcome then, and bowed
several times, looking up at him with a distraught
expression. "Lord Kurt, she is only
chan."
"Do I not speak to you? Are you the one who says
yes or no?"
"Let my lord not be offended. I must ask
Mim."
"Mim agrees," said Kurt. Then he thought that
it was not his place to have asked Mim, and that he shamed
her and embarrassed Hef; but Hef regarded him with patience
and even a certain kindliness.
"But I must ask Mim," said Hef. "That is
the way of it. And then I must speak to Kta-ifhan, and to
Nym and lady Ptas."
"Does the whole house have to give consent?"
Kurt let forth, without pausing to think.
"Yes, my lord. I shall speak to the family, and to
Mim. It is proper that I speak to Mim."
"I am honored," Kurt murmured, the polite
phrase, and he went upstairs to his own quarters to gather
his nerves.
He felt much relieved that it was over. Hef would
consent. He was sure what Mim would answer her father, and
that would satisfy Hef.
He was preparing for bed when Kta came up the stairs and
asked admittance. The nemet had a troubled look and Kurt
knew by sure instinct what had brought him. He would almost
have begged Kta to go away, but he was under Kta's roof
and he did not have that right.
"You have talked with Hef," Kurt said, to make
it easier for him.
"Let me in, my friend."
Kurt backed from the door, offering Kta a chair. It
would have been proper to offer tea also. He would have had
to summon Mim for that. He would not do it.
"Kurt," said Kta, "please, sit down also.
I must speak to you ... I must beg your kindness to hear
me."
"You might find it more comfortable simply to tell
me what is in your mind from the beginning," Kurt
said, taking the other chair. "Yes or no, are you
going to interfere?"
"I am concerned for Mim. It is not as simple as you
may hope. Will you hear me? If your anger forbids, then we
will go down and drink tea and wait for a better mind, but
I am bound to say these things."
"Mim told me about most that I imagine you have
come to say. And it makes no difference. I know about the
Tamurlin and I know where she came from."
Kta let his breath go, a long hiss of a sigh.
"Well, that is something, at least. You know that she
is Indras?"
"None of that possibly concerns me. Nemet politics
have nothing to do with me."
"You choose ignorance. That is always a dangerous
choice, Kurt. Being of the Indras race or being Sufaki is a
matter of great difference among nemet, and you are among
nemet."
"The only difference I have ever noticed is being
human among nemet," he said, controlling his temper
with a great effort. "I would bring disgrace on you.
Is that what you care for, and not whether Mim would be
happy?"
"Mim's happiness is a matter of great concern
to us," Kta insisted. "And we know you would not
mean to hurt her, but human ways ..."
"Then you see no difference between me and the
Tamurlin."
"Please. Please. You do not imagine. They are not
like you. That is not what I meant. The Tamurlin-they are
foul and they are shameless. They wear hides and roar and
mouth like beasts when they fight. They have no more
modesty than beasts in their dealing with women. They mate
as they please, without seeking privacy. They restrain
themselves from nothing. A strong chief may have twenty or
more women, while weaker men have none. They change mates
by the outcome of combat. I speak of human women. Slaves
like Mim belong to any and all who want them. And when I
found her-"
"I do not want to hear this."
"Kurt, listen. Listen. I shall not offend you. But
when we attacked the Tamurlin to stop their raids we killed
all we could reach. We were about to set torch to the place
when I heard a sound like a child crying. I found Mim in
the corner of a hut. She wore a scrap of hide, as filthy as
the rest of them; for an instant I could not even tell she
was
nemet. She was thin, and carried terrible marks on her
body. When I tried to carry her, she attacked me-not
womanlike, but with a knife and her teeth and her knees,
whatever she could bring to bear. So she was accustomed to
fight for her place among them. I had to strike her
senseless to bring her to the ship, and then she kept
trying to jump into the sea until we were out of sight of
land. Then she hid down in the rowing pits and would not
come out except when the men were at the oars. When we fed
her she would snatch and run, and she would not speak more
than a few syllables at a time save of human
language."
"I cannot believe that," said Kurt quietly.
"How long ago was that?"
"Four years. Four years she has been in Elas. I
brought her home and gave her to my lady mother and sister,
and Hef's wife Liu, who was living then. But she had
not been among us many days before Aimu saw her standing
before the hearthfire with hands lifted, as Sufaki do not
do. Aimu was younger then and not so wise; she exclaimed
aloud that Mim must be Indras.
"Mim ran. I caught her in the streets, to the
wonder of all Nephane and our great disgrace. And I carried
her by force back to Elas. Then, alone with us, she began
to speak, with the accent of Indresul. This was the reason
of her silence before. But we of Elas are Indras too, like
all the Great Families on the hill, descended of colonists
of Indresul who came to this shore a thousand years ago.
While we are now enemies of Indresul, we are of one
religion and Mim was only a child. So Elas has kept her
secret, and people outside know her only as Hef's
adopted Sufaki daughter, a country child of mixed blood
rescued from the Tamurlin. She does not speak as Sufaki,
but people believe we taught her speech; she does not look
Sufaki, but that is not unusual in the coastal villages,
where seamen have-ei, well, she passes for Sufaki.
The scandal of her running through the streets is long
forgotten. She is an honor and an ornament to this house
now. But to have her in the public attention again would be
difficult. No man would marry Mim; forgive me, but it is
truth and she knows it. Such a marriage would cause gossip
favorable to neither of you."
Instinct told him Kta was speaking earnest good sense.
He put it by. "I would take care of her," he
insisted. "I would try, Kta."
Kta glanced down in embarrassment, then lifted his eyes
again. "She is nemet. Understand me. She is
nemet. She has been hurt and greatly shamed. Human customs
are- forgive me, I shall speak shamelessly. I do not know
how humans behave with their mates. Djan-methi is ... free
in this regard. We are not. I beg you think of Mim. We do
not cast away our women. Marriage is unbreakable."
"I had expected so."
Kta sat back a little. "Kurt, there could be no
children. I have never heard of it happening, and Tamurlin
have mated with nemet women."
"If there were," said Kurt, though what Kta
had said distressed him greatly, "I could love them. I
would want them. But if not, then I would be happy with
Mim."
"But could others love them?" Kta wondered.
"It would be difficult for them, Kurt."
It hurt. Some things Kta said amused him and some
irritated him, but this was simply a fact of Kta's
world, and it hurt bitterly. For an instant Kurt forgot
that the nemet thing to do was to lower his eyes and so
keep his hurt private. He looked full at the nemet, and it
was Kta who flinched and had to look up again.
"Would they," Kurt said, cruel to the
embarrassed nemet, "would children like that be such
monsters, Kta?"
"I," said Kta hesitantly, "/ could love a
child of my friend." And the inward shudder was too
evident.
"Even," Kurt finished, "if it looked too
much like my friend?"
"I beg your forgiveness," Kta said hoarsely.
"I fear for you and for Mim."
"Is that all?"
"I do not understand."
"Do you want her?"
"My friend," said Kta, "I do not love
Mim, but Mim is dear to me, and I am responsible for her as
my honored father is. He is too old to take Mim; but when I
marry, I would be obliged to take Mim for a concubine, for
she is chan and unmarried. I would not be sorry
for that, for she is a most beloved friend, and I would be
glad to give her children to continue Hef's name. When
you ask her of Hef, you see, that is a terrible thing. Hef
is childless. Mim is his adopted daughter, but we had
agreed her children would remain in Elas to carry on his
name and give his soul life when he dies. Mim must bear
sons, and you cannot give them to her. You are asking for
Hef's eternity and that of
all his ancestors. Hef's family has been good and
faithful to Bias. What shall I do, my friend? How shall I
resolve this?"
Kurt shook his head helplessly, unsure whether Kta
thought there could be an answer, or whether this was not
some slow and painful way of telling him no.
"I do not know," Kurt said, "whether I
can stay in Elas without marrying Mim. I want her very
much, Kta. I do not think that will change tomorrow or for
the rest of my life."
"There is," Kta offered cautiously, "an
old custom, that if the lechan's husband dies
and the house of the chan is threatened with
extinction, then the duty is with the lord of the house
nearest her age. Sometimes this is done even with the
lechan's husband living, if there are no
children after such a time."
Kurt did not know whether his face went very pale or
flushed, only that he could not for the moment move or look
left or right, was trapped staring into the nemet's
pitying eyes. Then he recovered the grace to glance down.
"I could even," he echoed, "love a child of
my friend."
Kta flinched. "Perhaps," said Kta,
'"it will be different with you and Mim. I see how
much your heart goes toward her, and I will plead your case
with Hef and give him my own pledge in this matter. And if
Hef is won, then it will be easier to win my lord father
and lady mother. Also I will talk to Mim about this custom
we call iguun."
"I will do that," Kurt said.
"No," said Kta gently. "It would be very
difficult for her to hear such words from you. Believe me
that I am right. I have known Mim long enough that I could
speak with her of this. From her own betrothed it would be
most painful. And perhaps we can give the matter a few
years before we have concern for it. Our friend Hef is not
terribly old. If his health fails or if years have passed
without children, then will be the time to invoke
iquun. I should in that case treat the honor of
you and of Hef and of Mim with the greatest
respect."
"You are my friend," said Kurt. "I know
that you are Mim's. If she is willing, let it be that
way."
"Then," said Kta, "I will go and speak to
Hef."
The betrothal was a necessarily quiet affair, confirmed
three days later at evening. Hef formally asked permission
of lord Nym to give his daughter to the guest of Elas, and
Kta formally relinquished his claim to the person of Mim
before the necessary two witnesses, friends of the family.
Han t'Osanef u Mur, father of Bel; and old Ulmar
t'Ilev ul Imetan, with all their attendant kin.
"Mim-lechan," said Nym, "is this marriage
your wish?"
"Yes, my lord."
"And in the absence of your kinsmen, Kurt
t'Morgan, I ask you to answer in your own name: do you
accept this contract as binding, understanding that when
you have sworn you must follow this ceremony with marriage
or show cause before these families present? Do you accept
under this knowledge, our friend Kurt
t'Morgan?"
"I accept."
"There is," said Nym quietly, "the clause
of iquun in this contract. The principals are of
course Mim and Kurt, and thou, my son Kta, and Hef, to
preserve the name of Hef. Three years are given hi this
agreement before iquun is invoked. Is this
acceptable to all concerned?"
One by one they bowed their heads.
Two parchments lay on the table, and to them in turn
first Nym and then t'Osanef and t'Ilev pressed
then: seals in wax.
Then lady Ptas pressed her forefinger in damp wax and so
sealed both. Then she took one to the phusmeha,
and with a bit of salt slipped it into the flames.
She uplifted her palms to the fire, intoning a prayer so
old that Kurt could not understand all the words, but it
asked blessing on the marriage.
"The betrothal is sealed," said Nym.
"Kurt Liam t'Morgan ul Edward, look upon Mim
h'Elas e Hef, your bride."
He did so, although he could not, must not touch her,
not during all the long days of waiting for the ceremony.
Mim's face shone with happiness.
They were at opposite sides of the room. It was the
custom. The nemet made a game of tormenting young men and
women at betrothals, and knew well enough his frustration.
The male guests, especially Bel and Kta, drew Kurt off in
one direction, while Aimu and Ptas and the ladies likewise
captured Mim, with much laughter as they hurried her
off.
The bell at the front door rang, faintly jingling,
untimely. Hef slipped out to answer it, duty and the normal
courtesy of Elas taking precedence over convenience even at
such a time as this.
The teasing ceased. The nemet laughed much among
themselves, among friends, but there were visitors at the
door, and the guests and the members of Elas both became
sober.
Voices intruded, Hef-Hef, who was the soul of
courtesy-arguing; and the heavy tread of outsiders entering
the hall, the hollow ring of a staff on polished stone, the
voices of strangers raised in altercation.
There was silence in the rhmei. Mim,
large-eyed, clung to Ptas* arm. Nym went to meet the
strangers in the hall, Kurt and Kta and the guests behind
him.
They were the Methi's men, grim-faced, in the
striped robes that some of the townsmen wore, hair plaited
in a single braid down the back. They had the narrowness of
eye that showed in some of the folk of Nephane, like Bel,
like Bel's father Han t'Osanef.
The Methi's guards did not take that final step into
the rhmei, where burned the hearthfire. Nym
physically barred their way, and Nym, though silver-haired
and a senior member of the Upei, the council of Nephane,
was a big man and broad-shouldered. Whether through
reverence for the place or fear of him, they came no
further.
"This is Elas," said Nym. "Consider
again, gentlemen, where you are. I did not bid you here,
and I did not hear the chan of Elas give you leave
either."
"The Methi's orders," said the eldest of
the four. "We came to fetch the human. This betrothal
is not permitted."
"Then you are too late," said Nym. "If
the Methi wished to intervene, it was her right, but now
the betrothal is sealed."
That set them aback. "Still," said their
leader, "we must bring him back to the Afen."
"Elas will permit him to go back," said Nym,
"if he chooses."
"He will go with us," said the man.
Han t'Osanef stepped up beside Nym and bent a
terrible frown on the Methi's guardsmen.
"T'Senife, I ask you come tonight to the house of
Osanef. I would ask it, t'Senife, and the rest of you
young men. Bring your fathers. We will talk."
The men had a different manner for t'Osanef:
resentful, but paying respect.
"We have duties," said the man called
t'Senife, "which keep us at the Afen. We have no
time for that. But we will say to our fathers that
t'Osanef spoke with us at the house of Bias."
"Then go back to the Afen," said t'Osanef.
"I ask it. You offend Bias."
"We have our duty," said t'Senife,
"and we must have the human."
"I will go," said Kurt, coming forward. He had
the feeling that there was much more than himself at issue,
he intruded fearfully into the hate that prickled in the
air. Kta put out a hand, forbidding him.
"The guest of Elas," said Nym in a terrible
voice, "will walk from the door of Elas if he chooses,
but the Methi herself has no power to cause this hall to be
invaded. Wait at our doorstep. And you, friend Kurt, do not
go against your will. The law forbids."
"We will wait outside," said t'Senife, at
t'Osanef's hard look. But they did not bow as they
left.
"My friend," Han t'Osanef exclaimed to
Nym, "I blush for these young men."
"They are," said Nym in a shaking voice,
"young men. Elas also will speak with their
fathers. Do not go, Kurt t'Morgan. You are not
compelled to go."
"I think," said Kurt, "that eventually I
would have no choice. I would do better to go speak with
Djan-methi, if it is possible." But it was in his mind
that reason with her was not likely. He looked at Mim, who
stood frightened and silent by the side of Ptas. He could
not touch her. Even at such a time he knew they would not
understand. "I will be back as soon as I can," he
said to her.
But to Kta, at the door of Elas before he went out to
put himself into the hands of the Methi's guards:
"Take care of Mim. And I do not want her or your
father or any of Elas to come to the Afen. I do not want
her involved and I am afraid for you all."
"You do not have to go," Kta insisted.
"Eventually," Kurt repeated, "I would
have to. You have taught me there is grace in recognizing
necessity. Take care of her." And with Kta, whom he
knew so well, he instinctively put out his hand to touch,
and refrained.
It was Kta who gripped his hand, an uncertain, awkward
gesture, not at all nemet. "You have friends and
kinsmen now. Remember it."
VI
"There is no need of that," Kurt cried,
shaking off the guards' hands as they persisted in
hurrying him through the gates of the Afen. No matter how
quickly he walked, they had to push him or lay hands on
him, so that people in the streets stopped and stared, most
unnemetlike, most embarrassing for Elas. It was to spite
Nym that they did it, he was sure, and rather than make a
public scene worse, he had taken the abuse until they
entered the Afen court, beyond witnesses.
There was a long walk between the iron outer gate and
the wooden main door of the Afen, for that space Kurt
argued with them, then found them fanning out to prevent
him from the very door toward which they were tending.
He knew the game. They wanted him to resist. He had done
so. Now they had the excuse they wanted, and they began to
close up on him.
He ran the only way still open, to the end of the
courtyard, where it came up against the high peak of the
rock on which the Afen sat, a facing wall of gray basalt.
It was beyond the witness of anyone on the walk between the
wall-gate and the door.
They herded him. He knew it and was willing to go as
long as there was room to retreat, intending to pay double
at least on one of them when they finally closed in on him.
T'Senife, who had insulted Nym, that was the one he
favored killing, a slit-eyed fellow with a look of inborn
arrogance.
But to kill him would endanger Elas; he dared not, and
knew how it must end. He risked other's lives, even
fighting them.
A small gate was set in the wall near the rock. He
bolted for it, surprising them, desperately flinging back
the iron bar.
A vast courtyard lay beyond it, a courtyard paved in
polished marble, with a single building closing it off,
high-columned, a white cube with three triangular pylons
arching over its long steps.
He ran, saw the safety of
the familiar wall-street to his left,
leading to the main street of Nephane, back to !
the view of passersby.
But for the sake of Elas he dared not take the matter
into public. He knew Nym and Kta, knew they would involve
themselves, to their hurt and without the power to help
him.
He ran instead across the white court, his sandalled
feet and those of his pursuers echoing loudly on the
deserted stones. The wall-street was the only way in. The
precinct was a cul-de-sac, backed by the temple, flanked on
one side by a high wall and on the other by the living
rock.
His pursuers put on a sudden burst of speed. He did
likewise, thinking suddenly that they did not want him to
reach this place, a religious place, a sanctuary.
He sprang for the polished steps, raced up them,
slipping and stumbling in his haste and exhaustion.
Fire roared inside, an enormous bowl of flame leaping
within, a heat that filled the room and flooded even the
outer air, a phusmeha so large the blaze made the
room glow gold, whose sound was like a furnace.
He stopped without any thought in his mind but terror,
blasted by the heat on his face and drowned in the sound of
it. It was a rhmei, and he knew its sanctity.
His pursuers also had stopped, a scant few strides
behind him on the steps. He looked back.
T'Senife beckoned him.
"Come down," said t'Senife. "We were
told to bring you to the Methi. If you will not come down,
it will be the worse for you. Come down."
Kurt believed him. It was a place of powers to which
human touch was defilement-no sanctuary, none for a
human-no kindly Ptas to open the rhmei to him and
make him welcome.
He came down to them, and they took him by the arms and
led him down and across the courtyard to the open gate of
the Afen compound, barring it again behind them.
Then they forced him up against the wall and had
their revenge, expertly, without leaving a visible mark on
him.
It was not likely that he would complain, both for the
personal shame of it and because he and his friends were
always in their reach, especially Kta, who would count it a
matter of honor to avenge his friend, even on the
Methi's guard.
Kurt straightened himself as much as he could at the
moment and t'Senife straightened his ctan,
which had come awry, and took his arm again.
They brought him up a side entrance of the Afen, by
stairs he had not used before. Then they passed into
familiar halls near the center of the building.
Another of their kind met them, a stripe-robed and
braided young man, handsome as Bel, but with sullen,
hateful eyes. To him these men showed great deference. Shan
t'Tefur, they called him.
They discussed the betrothal, and how they had been too
late.
"Then the Methi should have that news,"
concluded t'Tefur, and his narrow eyes shifted toward a
room with a solid door. "It is empty. Hold him there
until I have carried her that news."
They did so. Kurt sat on a hard chair by the barred slit
of a window and so avoided the looks that pierced his back,
giving them no excuse to repeat their treatment of him.
At last t'Tefur came back to say that the Methi
would see him.
She would see him alone. T'Tefur protested with a
violently angry look, but Djan stared back at him in such a
way that t'Tefur bowed finally and left the room.
Then she turned that same angry look on Kurt.
"Entering the temple precincts was a mistake,"
she said. "If you had entered the temple itself I
don't know if I could have saved you."
"I had that idea," he said.
"Who told you that you had the freedom to make
contracts in Nephane, marrying that nemet?"
"I wasn't told I didn't. Nor was Elas told,
or they wouldn't have allowed it. They are loyal to
you. And they were not treated well, Djan."
"Not the least among the problems you've
created for
me, this disrespect of Elas." She walked over to
the far side of the room, put back a panel that revealed a
terrace walled with glass. It was night. They had a view of
all the sea. She gazed out, leaving him watching her back,
and she stayed that way for a long time. He thought he was
the subject of her thoughts, he and Elas.
At last she turned and faced him. "Well," she
said, "for Elas' inconvenience, I'm sorry. I
shall send them word that you're safe. You haven't
had dinner yet, have you?"
Appetite was the furthest thing from his mind. His
stomach was both empty and racked with pain, and with an
outright fear that her sudden shift in manner did nothing
to ease. "You," he said, "frightened the
wits out of my fiancee, made me a spectacle in the streets
of Nephane, and all I particularly care about is-"
"I think," said Djan in a tone of finality,
"that we had better save the talk. / am going to have
dinner. If you want to argue the point, Shan can find you
some secure room where you can think matters over. But you
will leave the Afen-if you leave the Afen-when I
please to send you out."
And she called a girl named Pai, who received her orders
with a deep bow.
"She," said Djan when the girl had gone,
"is chan to the Afen. I inherited her, it
seems. She is very loyal and very silent, both virtues. Her
family served the last methi, a hundred years ago. Before
that, Pai's family was still chan to methis,
even before the human occupation and during it. There is
nothing in Nephane that does not have roots, except the two
of us. Forget your temper, my friend. I lost mine. I rarely
do that. I am sorry."
"Then we will have out whatever you want to say and
I will go back to Elas."
"I would think so," she agreed quietly,
ignoring his anger. "Come out here. Sit down. I am too
tired to stand up to argue with you."
He came, shrugging off his apprehensions. The terrace
was dark. She left it so and sat on the window ledge,
watching the sea far below. It was indeed a spectacular
view of Nephane, its lights winding down the crag below,
the high dark rock a shadow against the moon. The moonlit
surface of the sea was cut by the wake of a single ship
heading out.
"If I were sensible," said Djan as he joined
her and sat down on the ledge facing her, "if I were
at all sensible I'd have you taken out and dropped
about halfway. Unfortunately I decided against it. I wonder
still what you would do in my place."
He had wondered that himself. "I would think of the
same things that have occurred to you," he said.
"And reach the same answer?"
"I think so," he admitted. "I don't
blame you."
She smiled, ironic amusement. "Then maybe we will
have a brighter future than other humans who have held
Nephane. They built this section of the Afen, you know.
That's why there is no rhmei, no heart to the
place. It's unique in that respect, the fortress
without a heart, the building without a soul. Did Kta tell
you what became of them?"
"Nemet drove them out, I know that."
"Humans ruled Nephane about twenty years. But they
involved themselves with the nemet. The mistress of the
base commander was of a great Indras family, of Irain.
Humans were very cruel to the nemet, and they enjoyed
humiliating the Great Families by that. But one night she
let her brothers in and the whole of Nephane rose in
rebellion against the humans on the night of a great
celebration, when most of the humans were drunk on
telise. So they lost their machines and fled south
and became the Tamurlin in a generation or so, like
animals. Only Pai's ancestor On t'Erefe defended
the humans in the Afen, being chan and obliged to
defend his human lord. The human methi and On died
together, out there in the hall. The other humans who died
were killed in the courtyard, and those who were caught
were brought back there and killed.
"Myself, I have read the records that went before
their fall. The supply ship failed them, never came back,
probably after reporting to Aeolus; it was destroyed on its
return trip, another war casualty, unnoticed. The years
passed, and they had made the nemet here hate them. They
had threatened them with the imminent return of, the ship
for twenty years and the threat was wearing thin. So they
fell. But when we arrived, the nemet thought the threat had
come true and that they were all to die. For all my
crewmates cared, we might have destroyed Nephane to secure
the base. I would not permit it. And when I had
freed the nemet from the immediate threat of my
companions, they made me methi. Some say I am sent by Fate;
they think the same of you. For an Indras, nothing ever
happens without logical purpose. Their universe is entirely
rational. I admire that in them. There is a great deal in
these people that was worth the cost. And I think you agree
with me. You've evidently settled very comfortably into
Elas."
"They are my friends," he said.
Djan leaned back, leaned on
the sill and looked out over her
shoulder. The ship was nearly to the breakwater.
"This is a world of
little haste and much
deliberation. Can you imagine
two ships like
that headed for each
other in battle? Our ships come- hi faster than the mind
can think, from zero vision to alongside, attack and
vanish. But those vessels with their sails and
oars-by the time , they came within
range of each
other there would be ,
abundant time for
thought. There is
a dreadful
deliberateness about
the nemet. They
maneuver so slowly, but they do
hold a course once they've taken it."
"You're not talking about ships."
"Do you know what lies across the sea?"
His heart leaped; he thought of Mim, and his first
terrible thought was that Djan knew. But he let nothing of
that reach his face. "Indresul," he said. "A
city that is hostile to Nephane."
"Your friends of Elas are Indras. Did you
know?"
"I had heard so, yes."
"So are most of the Great Families of Nephane. The
Indras established this as a colony once, when they
conquered the inland fortress of Chteftikan and began to
build this fortress with Sufaki slaves taken in that war.
Indresul has no love of the Nephanite Indras, but she has
never forgotten that through them she has a claim on this
city. She wants it. I am walking a narrow line, Kurt
Morgan, and your Indras friends in Elas and your own
meddling in nemet affairs are an embarrassment to me at a
time when I can least afford embarrassment. I need quiet in
this city. I will do what is necessary to secure
that."
"I've done nothing," he said, "except
inside Elas."
"Unfortunately," said Djan, "Elas does
nothing without consequence in Nephane. That is the
misfortune of wealth and power. That ship out there is
bound for Indresul. The Methi of Indresul has eluded my
every attempt to talk. You cannot imagine how they despise
Sufaki and humans. Well, at last they are going to send an
ambassador, one Mor t'Uset ul Orm, a councillor who has
high status in Indresul. He will come at the return of that
ship. And this betrothal of yours, publicized in the market
today, had better not come to the attention of t'Uset
when he arrives."
"I have no desire to be noticed by anyone," he
said.
The glance she gave him was ice. But at that moment
Pai-lechan and another girl pattered into the hall
cat-footed and brought tea and telise and a light
supper, setting it on the low table by the ledge.
Djan dismissed them both, although strict formality
dictated someone serve. The chani bowed themselves
out.
"Join me," she said, "in tea or
telise, if nothing else."
His appetite had returned somewhat. He picked at the
food and then found himself hungry. He ate fully enough for
his share, and demurred when she poured him
telise, but she set the cup beside him. She
carried the dishes out herself, returned and settled on the
ledge beside him. The ship had long since cleared the
harbor, leaving its surface to the wind and the moon.
"It is late," he said. "I would like to
go back to Elas."
"This nemet girl. What is her name?"
All at once the meal lay like lead at his stomach.
"What is her name?"
"Mim," he said, and reached for the
telise, swallowed some of its vaporous fire.
"Did you compromise the girl? Is that the reason
for this sudden marriage?"
The cup froze in his hand. He looked at her, and all at
once he knew she had meant it just as he had heard it, and
flushed with heat, not the telise,
"I am in love with her."
Djan's cool eyes rested on him, estimating.
"The nemet are a beautiful people. They have a certain
attraction. And I suppose nemet women have a certain . . .
flattering appeal to a man of our kind. They always let
their men be right."
"It will not trouble you," he said.
"I am sure it will not." She let the implied
threat hang in the air a moment and then shrugged lightly.
"I have nothing personal against the .child. I
don't expect I'll ever have to consider the
problem. I trust your good sense for that. Marry her.
Occasionally you will find, as I do, that nemet thoughts
and looks and manners-and nemet prejudices-are too much for
you. That fact moved me, I admit it, or you would be
keeping company with the Tamurlin, or the fishes. I would
rather think we were companions, human and reasonably
civilized. This person Mim, she is only chan; she
does at least provide a certain respectability if you are
careful. I suppose it is not such a bad choice, so I do not
think this marriage will be such an inconvenience to me.
And I think you understand me, Kurt."
The cup shook in his hand. He put it
aside, lest his fingers crush the fragile
crystal.
"You are gambling your neck, Djan. I won't be
pushed." "I do not push,"
she said, "more than will
make me understood. And
I think we
understand each other
plainly."
VII
The gray light of dawn was over Nephane, spreading
through a mist that overlay all but the upper walls of the
Afen. The cobbled street running down from the Afen gate
was wet, and the few people who had business on the streets
at that hour went muffled in cloaks.
Kurt stepped up to the front door of Elas, tried the
handle in the quickly dashed hope that it would be
unlocked, then knocked softly, not wanting to wake the
whole house.
More quickly than he had expected, soft footsteps
approached the door inside, hesitated. He stood squarely
before the door to be surveyed from the peephole.
The bar flew back, the door was snatched inward, and
Mim was there in her nightrobe. With a sob of relief she
flung herself into his arms and hugged him tightly.
"Hush," he said, "it's all right;
it's all right, Mim."
They were framed in the doorway. He brought her inside
and closed and barred the heavy door. Mim stood wiping at
her eyes with her wide sleeve.
"Is the house awake?" he whispered.
"Everyone finally went to bed. I came out again and
waited in the rhmei. I hoped-I hoped you would
come back. Are you all right, my lord?"
"I am well enough." He took her in his arm and
walked with her to the warmth of the rhmei. There
in the light her large eyes stared up at him and her hands
pressed his, gentle as the touch of wind.
"You are shaking," she said. "Is it the
cold?"
"It's cold and I'm tired." It was hard
to slip back into Nechai after hours of human language. His
accent crept out again.
"What did she want?"
"She asked me some questions. They held me all
night Mim, I just want to go upstairs and get some sleep.
Don't worry. I am well, Mim."
"My lord," she said in a tear-choked voice,
"before the phusmeha it is a great wrong to
lie. Forgive me, but I know that you are lying."
"Leave me alone, Mim, please."
"It was not about questions. If it was, look at me
plainly and say that it was so."
He tried, and could not. Mim's dark eyes flooded
with sadness.
"I am sorry," was all he could say.
Her hands tightened on his. That terrible dark-eyed look
would not let him go. "Do you wish to break the
contract, or do you wish to keep it?"
"Do you?"
"If it is your wish."
With his chilled hand he smoothed the hair from her
cheek and wiped at a streak of tears. "I do not love
her," he said; and then, tribute to the honesty Mim
herself used: "But I know how she feels, Mim.
Sometimes I feel that way too. Sometimes all Elas is
strange to me and I want to be human just for a little
time. It is like that with her."
"She might give you children and you would be lord
over all Nephane."
He crushed her against him, the faint perfume of
aluel leaves about her clothing, a freshness about
her skin, and remembered the synthetics-and-alcohol scent
of Djan, human and, for the moment, pleasing. There was
kindness in Djan; it made her dangerous, for it threatened
her pride.
It threatened Elas.
"If it were in Djan's nature to marry, which it
is not, I would still feel no differently, Mim. But I
cannot say that this will be the last time I go to the
Afen. If you cannot bear that, then tell me so
now."
"I would be concubine and not first wife, if it was
your wish."
"No," he said, realizing how she had heard it.
"No, the only reason I would ever put you aside would
be to protect you."
She leaned up on tiptoe and took his face between her
two silken hands, kissed him with great tenderness. Then
she drew back, hands still uplifted, as if unsure how he
would react. She looked frightened.
"My lord husband," she said, which she was
entitled to call him, being betrothed. The words had a
strange sound between them. And she took liberties with him
which he understood no honorable nemet lady would take with
her betrothed, even hi being alone with him. But she put
all her manners aside to please him, perhaps, h4 feared, to
fight for him in her own desperate fashion.
He pressed her to him tightly and set her back again.
"Mim, please. Go before someone wakes and sees you. I
have to talk to Kta."
"Will you tell him what has happened?"
"I intend to."
"Please do not bring violence into this
house."
"Go on, Mim."
She gave him an agonized look, but she did as he asked
her.
He did not knock at Kta's door. There had already
been too much noise in the sleeping house. Instead he
opened it and slipped inside, crossed the floor and parted
the curtain that screened the sleeping area before he spoke
Kta's name.
The nemet came awake with a start and an oath, looked at
Kurt with dazed eyes, then rolled out of bed and
wrapped a kilt around himself. "Gods," he
said, "you look deathly, friend. What happened? Are
you all right? Is there some-?"
"I've just been put to explaining a situation
to Mim," Kurt said, and found his limbs shaking under
him, the delayed reaction to all that he had been through.
"Kta, I need advice."
Kta showed him a chair. "Sit down, my friend.
Compose your heart and I will help you if you can make me
understand. Shall I find you something to drink?"
Kurt sat down and bowed his head, locked his fingers
behind his neck until he made himself remember the calm
that belonged in, Elas. The scent of incense, the dim light
of the phusa, the sense of stillness, all this
comforted him, and the panic left him though the fear did
not.
"I am all right," he said. "No, do not
bother about try drink."
"You only now came in?" Kta asked him, for the
morning showed through the window.
Kurt nodded, looked him in the eyes, and Kta let the
breath hiss slowly between his teeth.
"A personal matter?" Kta asked with admirable
delicacy.
"The whole of Elas seems to have read matters
better than I did when I went up to the Afen. Was it that
obvious? Does the whole of Nephane know by now, or is there
any privacy in this city?"
"Mim knew, at least. Kurt, Kurt, light of heaven,
ther8 Was no need to guess. When the Methi's men came
back to assure us of your safety, it was clear enough,
coupled with the Methi's reaction to the betrothal. My
friend, do not 6e ashamed. We always knew that your life
would be bound to that of the Methi. Nephane has taken it
for granted from the day you came. It was the betrothal to
Mim that shocked everyone. I am speaking plainly. I think
the truth has its moment, even if it is bitter. Yes, the
whole of Nephane knows, and is by no means
surprised."
Kurt swore, a raw and human oath, and gazed off at the
window, unable to look at the nemet.
"Have you," said Kta, "love for the
Methi?"
"No," he said harshly.
"You chose to go," Kta reminded him,
"when Elas would have fought for you."
"Elas has no place in this."
"We have no honor if we let you protect us in this
way. But it is not clear to us what your wishes are in this
matter. Do you wish us to intervene?"
"I do not wish it," he answered.
"Is this the wish of your heart? Or do you still
think to shield us? You owe us the plain truth, Kurt.
Tell us I yes or no and we will believe your word and do as
you wish."
"I do not love the Methi," he said in a still
voice, "but I do not want Elas involved between
us."
"That tells me nothing."
"I expect," he said, finding it difficult to
meet Kta's dark-eyed and gentle sympathy, "that it
will not be the last time. I owe her, Kta. If my behavior
offends the honor of Elas or of Minn, tell me. I have no
wish to bring misery on this house, and least of all on
Mim. Tell me what to do."
"Life," said Kta, "is a powerful urge.
You protest you hate the Methi, and perhaps she hates you,
but the urge to survive and perpetuate your kind may be a
sense of honor above every other honor. Mim has spoken to
me of this."
He felt a deep sickness, thinking of that. At the moment
he himself did not even wish to survive.
"Mim honors you," said Kta, "very much.
If your heart toward her changed, still you are bound, my
friend. I feared this, and Mim foreknew it. I beg you do
not think of breaking this vow with Mim; it would dishonor
her. Ai, my friend, my friend, we are a people
that does not believe in sudden marriage, yet for once we
were led by the heart; we were moved by the desire to make
you and Mim happy. Now I hope that we have not been cruel
instead. You cannot undo what you have done with
Mim."
"I would not," Kurt said. "I would not
change that."
"Then," said Kta, "all is well."
"I have to live in this city," said Kurt,
"and how will people see this and how will it be for
Mim?"
Kta shrugged. "That is the Methi's problem. It
is common for a man to have obligations to more than one
woman. One cannot, of course, have the Methi of Nephane for
a common concubine. But it is for the woman's house to
see to the proprieties and to obtain respectability. An
honorable woman does so, as we have done for Mim. If a
woman will not, or her family will not, matters are on her
head, not yours. Though," he added, "a methi can
do rather well as he or she pleases, and this has been a
common difficulty with methis, particularly with human
ones, and the late Tehal-methi of Indresul was notorious.
Djan-methi is efficient. She is a good methi. The people
have bread and peace, and as long as that lasts, you can
only obtain honor by your association with her. I am only
concerned that your feelings may turn again to human
things, and Mim be only one of a strange people that for a
time entertained you."
"No."
"I beg your forgiveness if this would never
happen."
"It would never happen."
"I have offended my friend," said Kta. "I
know you have grown nemet, and this part of you I trust;
but forgive me, I do not know how to understand the
other."
"I would do anything to protect Mim-or
Elas."
"Then," said Kta in great earnestness,
"think as nemet, not as human. Do nothing without your
family. Keep nothing from your family. The Families are
sacred. Even the Methi is powerless to do you harm when you
stand with us and we with you."
"Then you do not know Djan."
"There is the law, Kurt. As long as you have not
taken arms against her or directly defied her, the law
binds her. She must go through the Upei, and a
dispute-forgive me-with her lover is hardly the kind of
matter she could lay before the Upei."
"She could simply assign you and Tavi to
sail to the end of the known world. She had alternatives,
Kta."
"If the Methi chooses a quarrel with Elas,"
said Kta, "she will have chosen unwisely. Elas was
here before the Methi came, and before the first human set
foot on this soil. We know our city and our people, and our
voice is heard in councils on both sides of the Dividing
Sea. When Elas speaks in the Upei, the Great Families
listen; and now of all times the Methi dares not have the
Great Families at odds with her. Her position is not as
secure as it seems, which she knows full well, my
friend."
VIII
The ship from Indresul came into port late on the day
scheduled, a bireme with a red sail-the international
emblem, Kta explained as he stood with Kurt on the dock, of
a ship claiming immunity from attack. It would be blasphemy
against the gods either to attack a ship bearing that color
or to claim immunity without just cause.
The Nephanite crowds were ominously silent as the
ambassador left his ship and came ashore. Characteristic of
the nemet, there was no wild outburst of hatred, but people
took just long enough moving back to clear a path for the
ambassador's escort to carry the point that he was not
welcome in Nephane.
Mor t'Uset ul Orm, white-haired and grim of face,
made his way on foot up the hill to the height of the Afen
and paid no heed to the soft curses that followed at his
back.
"The house of Uset," said Kta as he and Kurt
made their way uphill in the crowd, "that house on
this side of the Dividing Sea, will not stir out of doors
this day. They will not go into the Upei for very
shame."
"Shame before Mor t'Uset or before the people
of Nephane?"
"Both. It is a terrible thing when a house is
divided. The Guardians of Uset on both sides of the sea are
in conflict. Ei, ei, fighting the Tamurlin is
joyless enough; it is worse that two races have warred
against each other over this land; but when one thinks of
war against one's own family, where gods and Ancestors
are shared, whose hearth once burned with a common
flame-ai, heaven keep us from such a
day."
"I do not think Djan will take this city to war.
She knows too well where it leads."
"Neither side wants it," said Kta, "and
the Indras-descended of Nephane want it least of all. Our
quarrel with . . ." -
Kta fell silent as they came to the place where the
street narrowed to pass the gate in the lower defense wall.
A man reaching the gate from the opposite direction was
staring at them: tall, powerful, wearing the braid and
striped robe that- was not uncommon in the lower town and
among the Methi's guard.
All at once Kurt knew him. Shan t'Tefur. Hate seemed
in permanent residence in t'Tefur's narrow eyes.
For a moment Kurt's heart pounded and his muscles
tensed, for t'Tefur had stopped in the gate and seemed
about to bar their way.
Kta jostled against Kurt, purposefully, clamped his arm
in a hard grip unseen beneath the fold of the ctan
and edged him through the gate, making it clear he should
not stop.
"That man," said Kurt, resisting the urge to
look back, for Kta's grip remained hard, warning him.
"That man is from the Afen."
"Keep moving," Kta said.
They did not stop until they reached the high street,
that area near the Afen which belonged to the mansions of
the Families, great, rambling things, among which Elas was
one of the most prominent. Here Kta seemed easier, and
slowed his pace as they headed toward the door of Elas.
"That man," Kurt said then, "came where I
was being held in the Afen. He brought me into the
Methi's rooms. His name is t'Tefur,"
"I know his name."
"He seems to have a dislike for humans."
"Hardly," said Kta. "It is a personal
dislike. He has no fondness for either of us. He is
Sufaki."
"I noticed the braid, the robes-that is not the
dress of the Methi's guard, then?"
"No. It is Sufak."
"Osanef . . . Osanef is Sufaki. Han t'Osanef
and Bel do not wear-"
"No. Osanef is Sufaki, but the jafikn, the
long hair braided in the back, that is an ancient custom,
the warrior's braid No one has
done it since the Conquest. It was
forbidden the Sufaki then.
But in recent years the rebel
spirits have revived the custom,
and the Robes of Color,
which distinguish their
houses. There are three
Sufak houses of
the ancient aristocracy
surviving, and 'Tefur is of
one. He is a dangerous man. His name is
Shan t'Tefur u Tlekef,
or as he
prefers to be known, Tlekefu
Shan Tefur. He is Bias' bitter enemy, and fie is
yours not alone for the sake of
Elas."
"Because I'm human? But I understood Sufaki had
no
particular hate for-" And it dawned on him, with
a
sudden heat at the
face.
"Yes," said Kta,
"he has been the
Methi's lover for many months."
"What does your custom say he and I should do
about-
"Sufak custom says he may try to make you fight
him. And you must not. Absolutely you must not."
"Kta, I may be helpless in most things nemet,
but if he wants to press a fight, that is something I can
under- stand. Do you mean a fight, or do you mean a fight
to the death? I am not that anxious to kill him over
her, but neither am I going to be-"
"Listen. Hear what I am saying to you. You must
avoid a fight with him. I do not question your courage or
your ability. I am asking this for the sake of Elas. Shan
t'Tefur is dangerous."
"Do you expect me to allow myself to be killed? Is he
dangerous in that sense, or how?"
"He is a power among the Sufaki. He sought more
power, which the Methi could give him. You have made him
lose honor and you have threatened his position of
leadership. You are resident with Elas, and we are of the
Indras-descended. Until now, the Methi has inclined toward
the Sufaki, ever since she dispensed with me as an
interpreter. She has been surrounded by Sufaki, chosen
friends of Shan t'Tefur, and has drawn much of her
power from them, so much so that the Great Families are
uneasy. But of a sudden Shan t'Tefur finds his footing
unsteady."
They walked in silence for a moment. Increasingly bitter
and embarrassed thoughts reared up. Kurt glanced at the
nemet.' "You pulled me from the harbor. You saved
my life. You gave me everything I have, by Djan's
leave. You went to her and asked for me, and if not for
that I would be ... I would certainly not be walking the
streets free. So do not misunderstand what I ask you. But
you said that from the time I arrived in Nephane, people
knew that I would become involved with the Methi. Was I
pushed toward that, Kta? Was I aimed at her, an Indras
weapon against Shan t'Tefur?"
And to his distress, Kta did not answer at once.
"Is it the truth, then?" Kurt asked.
"Kurt, you have married within my house."
"Is it true?" he insisted.
"I do not know how a human hears things," Kta
protested. "Or whether you attribute to me motives no
nemet would have, or fail to think what would be obvious to
a nemet. Gods, Kurt-"
"Answer me."
"When I first saw you, I thought, He is the
Methi's kind. Is that not most obvious? Is there
offense in .that? And I thought: He ought to be treated
kindly, since he is a gentle being, and since one day he
may be more than he seems now. And then an unworthy thought
came to me: It would be profitable to your house, Kta
t'Elas. And there is offense in that. At the time you
were only human to me; and to a nemet, that does not oblige
one to deal morally. I do offend you. I cause you pain. But
that is the way it was. I think differently now. I am
ashamed."
"So Elas took me in, to use."
"No," said Kta quickly. "We would never
have opened-"
His words died as Kurt kept staring at him. "Go
ahead," said Kurt. "Or do I already
understand?"
Kta met his eyes directly, contrition in a nemet.
"Elas is holy to us. I owe you a truth. We would never
have opened our doors to you-to anyone . . . Very well, I
will say it: it is unthinkable that I would have exposed my
hearth to human influence, whatever the advantage it
promised with the Methi. Our hospitality is sacred, and not
for sale for any favor. But I made a mistake. In my
anxiousness to win your favor, I gave you my word, and the
word of Elas is sacred too. So I accepted you. My friend,
let our friendship survive this truth: when the other
Families reproached Elas for taking a human into its
rhmei, we argued simply that it was better for a
human to be within an Indras house than sent to the Sufaki
instead, for the influence of the Sufaki is already
dangerously powerful. And I think another consideration
influenced Djan-methi in hearing me: that your life would
have been in constant danger in a Sufak house, because of
the honor of Shan t'Tefur, although I dared not say it
in words. So she sent you to Elas. I think she feared
t'Tefur's reaction even if you remained in the
Afen."
"I understand," said Kurt, because it seemed
proper to say something. The words hurt. He did not trust
himself to say much.
"Elas loves and honors you," said Kta, and
when Kurt still failed to answer him he looked down and,
with what appeared much thought, he cautiously extended his
hand to take Kurt's arm, touching like Mim, with
feather-softness. It was an unnatural gesture for the
nemet; it was one studied, copied, offered now on the
public street as an act of desperation.
Kurt stopped, set' his jaw against the tears which
threatened.
"Avoid t'Tefur," Kta pleaded. "If the
house-friend of Elas kills the heir of Tefur-or if he kills
you-killing will not stop there. He will provoke you if he
can. Be wise. Do not let him do this."
"I understand. I have told you that."
Kta glanced down, gave the sketch of a bow. The hand
dropped. They walked on, near to Elas.
"Have I a soul?" Kurt asked him suddenly, and
looked at him.
The nemet's face was shocked, frightened.
"Have I a soul?" Kurt asked again.
"Yes," said Kta, which seemed difficult for
him to say.
It was, Kurt thought, an admission which had already
cost Kta some of his peace of mind.
The Upei, the council, met that day in the Afen and
adjourned, as by law it must, as the sun set, to convene
again at dawn.
Nym returned to the house at dusk, greeted lady Ptas and
Hef at the door. When he came into the rhmei where
the light was, the senator looked exhausted, utterly
drained. Aimu hastened to bring water for washing, while
Ptas prepared the tea.
There was no discussion of business during the meal.
Such matters as Nym had on his mind were reserved for the
rounds of tea that followed. Instead Nym asked politely
after Mim's preparation for her wedding, and for
Aimu's, for both were spending their days sewing,
planning, discussing the coming weddings, keeping the house
astir with their happy excitement and sometime tears. Aimu
glanced down prettily and said that she had almost
completed her own trousseau and that they were working
together on Mim's things, for, Aimu thought, their
beloved human was not likely to choose the long formal
engagement such as she had had with Bel.
"I met our friend the elder t'Osanef,"
said Nym in answer to that, "and it is not unlikely,
little Aimu, that we will advance the date of your own
wedding."
"Ei," murmured Aimu, her dark eyes
suddenly wide. "How far, honored Father?"
"Perhaps within a month."
"Beloved husband," exclaimed Ptas in dismay,
"such haste?"
"There speaks a mother," Nym said tenderly.
"Aimu, child, do you and Mim go fetch another pot of
tea. And then go to your sewing. There is business afoot
hereafter."
"Shall I-?" asked Kurt, offering by gesture to
depart.
"No, no, our guest. Please sit with us. This
business concerns the house, and you are soon to be one of
us."
The tea was brought and served with all formality. Then
Mim and Aimu withdrew, leaving the men of the house and
Ptas. Nym took a slow sip of tea and looked at his
wife.
"You had a question, Ptas?"
"Who asked the date advanced? Osanef?
Or was it you?"
"Ptas, I fear we are going to war." And in the
stillness that awful word made in the room he continued
very softly: "If we wish this marriage I think we must
hurry it on with all decent speed; a wedding between Sufaki
and Indras may serve to heal the division between the
Families and the sons of the east; that is still our hope.
But it must be soon."
The lady of Elas wept quiet tears and blotted them with
the edge of her scarf. "What will they do? It is not
right, Nym, it is not right that they should have to bear
such a weight on themselves."
"What would you? Break the engagement? That is
impossible. For us to ask that-no. No. And if the marriage
is to be, then there must be haste. With war threatening,
Bel would surely wish to leave a son to safeguard the name
of Osanef. He is the last of his name. As you are, Kta, my
son. I am above sixty years of age, and today it has
occurred to me that I am not immortal. You should have laid
a grandson at my feet years ago."
"Yes, sir," said Kta quietly.
"You cannot mourn the dead forever; and I wish you
would make some choice for yourself, so that I would know
how to please you. If there is any young woman of the
Families who has touched your heart . . ."
Kta shrugged, looking at the floor.
"Perhaps," his father suggested gently,
"the daughters of Rasim or of Irain . . ."
"Tai t'Isulan," said Kta.
"A lovely child," said Ptas, "and she
will be a fine lady."
Again Kta shrugged. "A child, indeed. But I do at
least know her, and I think I would not be unpleasing to
her."
"She is-what-?-seventeen?" asked Nym, and when
Kta agreed: "Isulan is a fine religious house. I will
think on it and perhaps I will talk with Ban t'Isulan,
if in several days you still think the same. My son, I am
sorry to bring this matter upon you so suddenly, but you
are my only son, and these are sudden times. Ptas, pour
some telise."
She did so. The first few sips were drunk in silence.
This was proper. Then Nym sighed softly.
"Home is very sweet, wife. May we abide as we are
tonight."
"May it be so," reverently echoed Ptas, and
Kta did the same.
"The matter in council," said Ptas then.
"What was decided?"
Nym frowned and stared at nothing hi particular.
"T'Uset is not here to bring us peace, only more
demands of the Methi Ylith. Djan-methi was not in the Upei
today; it did not seem wise. And I suspect . . ." His
eyes wandered to Kurt, estimating; and Kurt's face went
hot. Suddenly he gathered himself to leave, but Nym forbade
that with a move of his hand, and he settled again, bowing
low and not meeting Nym's eyes.
"Our words could offend you," said Nym.
"I pray not."
"I have learned," said Kurt, "how little
welcome my people have made for themselves among
you."
"Friend of my son," said Nym gently,
"your wise and peaceful attitude is an ornament to
this house. I will not affront you by repeating
t'Uset's words. Reason with him proved impossible.
The Indras of the mother city hate humans, and they will
not negotiate with Djan-methi. And that is not the end of
our troubles." His eyes sought Ptas. "T'Tefur
created bitter discussion, even before t'Uset was
seated, demanding we not permit him to be present during
the Invocation."
"Light of heaven," murmured Ptas. "In
t'Uset's hearing?"
"He was at the door."
"We met the younger t'Tefur today," said
Kta. "There were no words, but his manner was
deliberate and provocative, aimed at Kurt."
"Is it so?" said Nym, concerned, and with a
glance at Kurt: "Do not fall into his hands. Do not
place yourself where you can become a cause, our
friend."
"I am warned," said Kurt.
"Today," said Nym, "there was a curse
spoken between the house of Tefur and the house of Elas,
before the Upei, and we must all be on our guard.
T'Tefur blasphemed, shouting down the Invocation, and I
answered him as his behavior deserved. He calls it treason,
that when we pray we still call on the name of Indresul the
shining. This he said in t'Uset's
hearing."
"And for the likes of this," said lady Ptas,
"we must endure to be cursed from the hearthflre of
Elas-in-Indresul, and have our name pronounced annually in
infamy at the Shrine of Man."
"Mother," said Kta, bowing low, "not all
Sufaki feel so. Bel would not feel this way. He would
not."
"TTefur's number is growing," said Ptas,
"that he dares to stand in the Upei and say such a
thing."
Kurt looked from one to the other in bewilderment.
It was Nym who undertook to explain to
him. "We are Indras. A thousand years ago Nai-methi of
Indresul launched colonies toward the Isles, south of this
shore, then laid the foundations of Nephane as a fortress
to guard the coast from Sufaki pirates. He destroyed
Chteftikan, the capital of the Sufaki kingdom, and Indras
colonists administered the new provinces from this citadel.
For most of time we ruled the Sufaki. But the coming of
humans cut our ties to Indresul, and when we came out of
those dark years, we wiped out all the old cruel laws that
kept the Sufaki subject, accepted them into the Upei. For
t'Tefur, that is not enough. There is great bitterness
there."
"It is religion," said Ptas. "Sufaki have
many gods, and believe in magic and worship demons. Not
all. Bel's house is better educated. But Indras will
not set foot in the precincts of the temple, the so-named
Oracle of Phan. And it would be dangerous in these times
even to be there in the wall-street after dark. We pray at
our own hearths and invoke the Ancestors we have in common
with the houses across the Dividing Sea. We do them no
harm, we inflict nothing on them, but they resent
this."
"But," said Kurt, "you do not agree with
Indresul."
"It is impossible," said Nym. "We are of
Nephane. We have lived among Sufaki; we have dealt with
humans. We cannot unlearn the things we know for truth. We
will fight if we must, against Indresul. The Sufaki seem
not to believe that, but it is so."
"No," said Kurt, and with such passion that
the nemet were hushed. "No. Do not go to
war."
"It is excellent advice," said Nym after a
moment. "But we may be helpless to guide our own
affairs. When a man finds his affairs without resolution,
his existence out of time with heaven and his very being a
disturbance to the yhia, then he must choose to
die for the sake of order. He does well if he does so
without violence. In the eyes of heaven even nations are
finally answerable to such logic, and even nations may
sometimes be compelled to suicide. They have their
methods-being many minds and not one, they cannot proceed
toward their fate with the dignity a single man can
manage-but proceed they do."
"Ei, honored Father," said Kta,
"I beg you not to say such things."
"Like Bel, do you believe in omens? I do not, not,
at least, that words, ill-thought or otherwise, have power
over the future. The future already exists, in our hearts
already, stored up and waiting to unfold when we reach our
time and place. Our own nature is our fate. You are young,
Kta. You deserve better than my age has given
you."
There was silence in the rhmei. Suddenly Kurt
bowed himself a degree lower,
requesting, and Nym looked at
him. - "You have a methi," said Kurt, "who
is not willing to fight a war. Please. Trust me to go speak
to her, as another human."
There was a stir of uneasiness. Kta opened his mouth as
if he would protest, but Nym consented.
"Go," he said, nothing more.
Kurt rose and adjusted his ctan, pinning it
securely. He bowed to them collectively and turned to
leave. Someone hurried after; he thought it was Hef, whose
duty it was to tend the door. It was Kta who overtook him
in the outer hall.
"Be careful," Kta said. And when he opened the
outer door into the dark: "Kurt, I will walk to the
Afen with you."
"No," said Kurt. "Then you would have to
wait there, and you would be obvious at this hour. Let us
not make this more obvious than need be."
But there was, once the door was closed and he was on
the street in the dark, an uneasy feeling about the night.
It was quieter than usual. A man muffled in striped robes
stood in the shadows of the house opposite. Kurt turned and
walked quickly uphill.
Djan put her back to the window that overlooked the sea
and leaned back against the ledge, a metallic form against
the dark beyond the glass. Tonight she dressed as human, in
a dark blue form-fitting synthetic that shimmered like
powdered glass along the lines of her figure. It was a
thing she would not dare wear among the modest nemet.
"The Indras ambassador sails tomorrow," she
said. "Confound it, couldn't you have waited?
I'm trying to keep humanity out of his sight and
hearing as much as possible, and you have to be walking up
and down the halls! He's staying on the floor just
below. If one of his staff had come out-"
"This isn't a social call."
Djan expelled her breath slowly, nodded him toward a
seat near her. "Elas and the business in the Upei. I
heard. What did they send you to say?"
"They didn't send me. But if you have any means
of controlling the situation, you'd better exert it,
fast."
Her cool green eyes measured him, centered soberly on
his. "You're scared. What Elas said must have been
considerable."
"Stop putting words in my mouth. There's going
to be nothing left but Indresul to pick up the pieces if
this goes on. There was some kind of balance here, Djan.
There was stability. You blew it to-"
"Nym's words?"
"No. Listen to me."
"There was a balance of power, yes," Djan
said. "A balance tilted in favor of the Indras and
against the Sufaki. I have done nothing but use
impartiality. The Indras are not used to that."
"Impartiality. Do you maintain that with Shan
t'Tefur?"
Her head went back. Her eyes narrowed slightly, but then
she grinned. She had a beautiful smile, even when there was
no humor in it. "Ah," she said. "I should
have told you. Now your feelings are ruffled."
"I'm sure I don't care," he said,
started to add something more cutting still, and then
regretted even what he had said. He had, after a fashion,
cared; perhaps she had feelings for him also. There was
anger in her eyes, but she did not let it fly.
"Shan," she said, "is a friend. His
family were lords of this land once. He thinks he can bend
me to his ambitions, which are probably considerable, and
he is slowly learning he can't. He is angry about your
presence, which is an anger that will heal. I believe him
about as much as I believe you when your own interests are
at stake. I weigh all that either of you says, and try to
analyze where the bias lies."
"Being yourself perfect, of course."
"In this government there does not have to be a
methi. Methis serve when it is useful to have one: in times
of crisis, to bind civil and military authority into one
swiftly moving whole. My reason for being is somewhat
different. I am methi precisely because I am neither Sufaki
nor Indras. Yes, the Sufaki support me. If I stepped down,
the Indras would immediately appoint an Indras methi. The
Upei is Indras: nobility is the qualification for
membership, and there are only three noble houses of the
Sufaki surviving. The others were massacred a thousand
years ago. Now Elas is marrying a daughter into one, so
Osanef too becomes a limb of the Families. The Upei makes
the laws. The Assembly may be Sufaki, but all they can do
is vote yea or nay on what the Upei deigns to hand them.
The Assembly hasn't rallied to veto anything since the
day of its creation. So what else do the Sufaki have but
the Methi? Oppose the Families by veto in the Assembly?
Hardly likely, when the living of the Sufaki depends on big
shipping companies like Irain and Ilev and Elas. A little
frustration burst out today. It was regrettable. But if it
makes the Families realize the seriousness of the
situation, then perhaps it was well done."
"It was not well done," Kurt said. "Not
when it was done, nor where it was done, nor against what
it was done. The ambassador witnessed it. Did your
informants tell you that detail? Djan, your selective
blindness is going to make chaos out of this city. Listen
to the Families. Call in their Fathers. Listen to them as
you listen to Shan t'Tefur."
"Ah, so it does rankle."
He stood up. She resented his speaking to her. It had
been on the edge of every word. It was in his mind to walk
out, but that would let her forget everything he had said.
Necessity overcame his pride. "Djan. I have nothing
against you. In spite of-because of-what we did one night,
I have a certain regard for you. I had some hope you might
at least listen to me, for the sake of all
concerned."
"I will look into it," she said. "I will
do what I can." And when he turned to go: "I hear
little from you. Are you happy in Elas?"
He looked back, surprised by the gentleness of her
asking. "I am happy," he said.
She smiled. "In some measure I do envy
you."
"The same choices are open to you."
"No," she said. "Not by nemet law. Think
of me and think of your little Mim, and you will know what
I mean. I am methi. I do as I please. Otherwise this world
would put bonds on me that I couldn't live with. It
would make your life miserable if you had to accept such
terms as this world would offer me. I refuse."
"I understand," he said. "I wish you
well, Djan."
She let the smile grow sad, and stared out at the lights
of Nephane a moment, ignoring him.
"I am fond of few people," she said. "In
your peculiar way you have gotten into my affections, more
than Shan, more than most who have their reason for using
me. Get out of here, back to Elas, discreetly. Go
on."
IX
The wedding Mim chose was a small and private one. The
guests and witnesses were scarcely more numerous than what
the law required. Of Osanef, there was Han t'Osanef u
Mur, his wife la t'Nefak, and Bel. Of the house of Ilev
there was Ulmar t'Ilev ul Imetan and his wife Tian
t'Elas e Ben, cousin to Nym, and their son Cam and
their new daughter-in-law, Yanu t'Pas. They were all
people Mim knew well, and Osanef and Ilev, Kurt suspected,
were among a very few nemet houses that could be found
reconciled to the marriage on religious grounds.
If even these had scruples about the question, they had
the grace still to smile and to love Mim and to treat her
chosen husband with great courtesy.
The ceremony was in the rhmei, where Kurt first
knelt before old Hef and swore that the first two sons of
the union, if any, would be given the name h'Elas as
chani to the house, so that Hef's line could
continue.
And Kta swore also to the custom of iquun, by
which Kta would see to the begetting of the promised heirs,
if necessary.
Then Nym rose and with palms toward the light of the
phusmeha invoked the guardian spirits of the
Ancestors of Elas. The sun outside was only beginning to
set. It was impossible to conduct a marriage-rite after
Phan had left the land.
"Mim," said Nym, taking her hand, "called
Mim-lechan h'Elas e-Hef, you are chan to this
house no longer, but become as a daughter of this house,
well beloved, Mim h'Elas e Hef. Are you willing to
yield your first two sons to Hef, your
foster-father?"
"Yes, my lord of Elas."
"Are you consenting to all the terms of the
marriage contract?"
"Yes, my lord of Elas."
"Are you willing now, daughter to Elas, to bind
yourself by these final and irrevocable vows?"
"Yes, my lord of Elas."
"And you, Kurt Liam t'Morgan u Patrick Edward,
are you willing to bind yourself by these final and
irrevocable vows, to take this free woman Mim h'Elas e
Hef for your true and first wife, loving her before all
others, committing your honor into her hands and your
strength and fortune to her protection?"
"Yes, my lord."
"Hef h'Elas," said Nym, "the blessing
of this house and its Guardians upon this union."
The old man came forward, and it was Hef who completed
the ceremony, giving Mim's hand into Kurt's and
naming for each the final vows they made. Then, according
to custom, Ptas lit a torch from the great
phusmeha and gave it into Kurt's hands, and he
into Mim's.
"In purity I have given," Kurt recited the
ancient formula in High Nechai, "in reverence
preserve, Mim h'Elas e Hef shu-Kurt, well-beloved, my
wife."
"In purity I have received," she said softly,
"in reverence I will keep myself to thee to the death,
Kurt Liam t'Morgan u Patrick Edward, my lord, my
husband."
And with Mim beside him, and to the ritual weeping of
the ladies and the congratulations of the men, Kurt left
the rhmei. Mim carried the light, walking behind
him up the stairs to the door of his room that now was
hers.
He entered, and watched as she used the torch to light
the triangular bronze lamp, the phusa, which had
been replaced in its niche, and he heard her sigh softly
with relief, for the omen would have been terrible if the
light had not taken. The lamp of Phan burned with steady
light, and she then extinguished the torch with a prayer
and knelt down before the lamp as Kurt closed the door,
knelt down and lifted her hands before it.
"My Ancestors, I, Mim t'Nethim e Sel shu-Kurt,
called by these my beloved friends Mim h'Elas, I, Mim,
beg your forgiveness for marrying under a name not my own,
and swear now by my own name to honor the vows I made under
another. My Ancestors, behold this man, my husband Kurt
t'Morgan, and whatever distant spirits are his, be at
peace with them for my sake. Peace, I pray my Fathers, and
let peace be with Elas on both sides of the Dividing Sea.
El, let thoughts of war be put aside between our
two
lands. May love be in this house and upon us both
forever. May the terrible Guardians of Nethim hear me and
receive the vow I make. And may the great Guardians of Elas
receive me kindly as you have ever done, for we are of this
house now, and within your keeping."
She lowered her hands, finishing her prayer, and offered
her right hand to Kurt, who drew her up.
"Mim t'Nethim," he said. "Then I had
never heard your real name."
Her large eyes lifted to his. "Nethim has no house
in Nephane, but in Indresul we are ancestral enemies to
Elas. I have not burdened Kta with knowing my true name. He
asked me, and I would not answer, so surely he suspects
that I am of a hostile house, but if there is any harm in
my silence, it is on me only. And I have spoken your name
before the Guardians of Nethim many times, and I have not
felt that they are distressed at you, my lord
Kurt."
He had started to take her in his arms, but hesitated
now, held his hands a little apart from her, suddenly
fearing Mim and her strangeness. Her gown was beautiful and
had cost days of work which he had watched; he did not know
'< how to undo it, or if this was expected
of him. And Mim herself was as complex and unknowable,
wrapped in customs for which Kta's instructions had not
prepared him.
He remembered the frightened child that Kta had found
among the Tamurlin, and feared that she would suddenly see
him as human and loathe him, without the robes and ; the
graces that made him-outwardly-nemet.
"Mim," he said. "I would never see any
harm come to you."
"It is a strange thing to say, my lord."
"I am afraid for you," he said suddenly.
"Mim, I do love you."
She smiled a little, then laughed, down-glancing. He
treasured the gentle laugh; it was Mini at her prettiest.
And she slipped her hands about his waist and hugged him
tightly, her strong slim arms dispelling the fear that she
would break.
"Kurt," she said, "Kta is a dear man,
most honored of me. I know that you and he have spoken of
me. Is this \ not so?"
"Yes," he said.
"Kta has spoken to me too; he fears for me. I honor
his concern. It is for both of us. But I trust your heart
where I do not know your ways; I know if ever you hurt me,
it would be much against your will." She slipped her
warm hands to his. "Let us have tea, my husband, a
first warming of our hearth."
That was much against his will, but it pleased her. She
lit the small room-stove, which also heated, and boiled
water and made them tea, which they enjoyed sitting on the
bed together.
He had much on his mind but little to say; neither did
Mini, but she looked often at him.
"Is it not enough tea?" he asked finally, with
the same patient courtesy he always used in Elas, which Kta
had taught his unwilling spirit. But this time there was
great earnestness in the question, which brought a shy
smile from Mim.
"What is your custom now?" she asked of
him.
"What is yours?" he asked.
"I do not know," she admitted, down-glancing
and seeming distressed. Then for the first time he
realized, and felt pained for his thoughtlessness: she had
never been with a man of her own kind, nor with any man of
decency.
"Put up the teacups," he said, "and come
here, Mim."
The light of morning came through the window and Kurt
stirred in his sleep, his hand finding the smoothness of
Mim beside him, and he opened his eyes and looked at her.
Her eyes were closed, her lashes dark and heavy on her
golden cheeks, her full lips relaxed in dreams. A little
scar marred her temple, as others not so slight marked her
back and hips, and that anyone could have abused Mim was a
thought he could not bear.
He moved, leaned on his arm across her and touched his
lips to hers, smoothed aside the dark and shining veil of
hair that flowed across her and across the pillows, and she
stirred, responding sweetly to his morning kiss.
"Mim," he said, "good morning."
Her arms went around his neck. She pulled herself up and
kissed him back. Then she blinked back tears, which he made
haste to wipe away.
"Mim?" he questioned her, much troubled, but
she smiled at him and even laughed.
"Dear Kurt," she said, holding his face
between her hands. And then, breaking for the side of the
bed, she began to wriggle free. "Ei, ei, my
lord, I must hurry-you must hurry-the sun is up. The guests
will be waiting."
"Guests?" he echoed, dismayed.
"Mim-"
But she was already slipping into her dressing gown,
then pattering away into the bath. He heard her putting
wood into the stove.
"It is custom," she said, putting her head
back through the doorway of the bath. "They come back
at dawn to breakfast with us. Oh please, Kurt, please,
hurry to be ready. They will be downstairs already, and if
we are much past dawning, they will laugh."
It was the custom, Kurt resolved to himself, and nerved
himself to face the chill air and the cold stone floor,
when he had planned a far warmer and more pleasant
morning.
He joined Mim in the bath and she washed his back for
him, making clouds of comfortable steam with the warm
water, laughing and not at all caring that the water soaked
her dressing gown.
She was content with him.
At times the warmth in her eyes or the lingering touch
of her fingers said she was more than content.
The hardest thing that faced them was to go down the
stairs into the rhmei, at which Mim actually
trembled. Kurt took her arm and would have brought her down
with his support, but the idea shocked her. She shook free
of him and walked like a proper nemet lady, independently
behind him down the stairs.
The guests and family met them at the foot of the steps
and brought them into the rhmei with much laughter
and with ribald jokes that Kurt would not have believed
possible from the modest nemet. He was almost angry, but
when Mim laughed he knew that it was proper, and forgave
them.
After the round of greetings, Aimu came and served the
morning tea, hot and sweet, and the elders sat in chairs
while the younger people, Kurt and Mim included, and Hef,
who was chart, sat on rugs on the floor and drank
their tea and listened to the elders talk. Kta played one
haunting song for them on the aos, without words,
but just for listening and for being still.
Mim would be honored in the house and exempt from duties
for the next few days, after which time she would again
take her share with Ptas and Aimu; she sat now and accepted
the attentions and the compliments and the good wishes.
Mim, who had never expected to be more than a minor
concubine to the lord of Elas, accepted with private vows
and scant legitimacy-now she was the center of
everything.
It was her hour.
Kurt begrudged her none of it, even the nemet humor. He
looked down at her and saw her face alight with pride and
happiness-and love, which she would have given with lesser
vows had he insisted. He smiled back and pressed her hand,
which the. others kindly did not elect to make joke of at
that moment.
X
Ten days passed before the outside world intruded again
into the house of Elas.
It came in the person of Bel t'Osanef u Han, who
arrived, escorted by Mim, in the garden at the rear of the
house;, there Kta was instructing Kurt in the art of the
ypan, the narrow curved longsword that was the
Indras' favorite weapon and chief sport.
Kurt saw Bel come into the garden and turned his blade
and held it in both hands to signal halt. Kta checked
himself in mid-strike and turned his head to see the reason
of the pause. Then with the elaborate ritual that governed
the friendly use of these edged weapons, Kta touched his
left hand to his sword and bowed, which Kurt returned, The
nemet believed such ritual was necessary to maintain
balance of soul between friends who contended hi sport, and
distrusted the blades* In the houses of the Families
resided the ypai-sulim, the Great Weapons which
had been dedicated in awful ceremony to the house Guardians
and bathed in blood. These were never drawn unless a man
had determined to kill or to die, and could not be sheathed
again until they had taken a life. Even these light foils
must be handled carefully, lest the ever-watchful house
spirits mistake someone's intent and cause blood to be
drawn.
Once it had been death to the Sufaki to touch these
lesser weapons, or even to look at the ypai-sulim
where they hung at rest, so that fencing was an art the
Sufaki had never employed. They were skilled with the spear
and the bow, distance weapons.
Bel waited at a respectful distance until the weapons
were safely sheathed and laid aside, and then came forward
and bowed.
"My lords," said Mim, "shall I bring
tea?"
"Do so, Mini, please," said Kta. "Bel, my
soon-to-be brother-"
"Kta," said Bel. "My business is somewhat
urgent."
"Sit then," said Kta, puzzled. There were
several stone
benches about the garden. They took those
nearest.
• Then Aimu came from the house. She bowed modestly
to her brother. "Bel," she said then, "you
come into Elas without at least sending me greetings? What
is the matter?"
"Kta," said Bel, "permission for your
sister to sit with us."
"Granted," said Kta, a murmured formality, as
thoughtless as "thank you." Aimu sank
down on the seat near them. There were no
further words. Tea had been asked; Bel's mood was
distraught. There was no discussion proper . until it had
come, and it was not long. Mim brought it on a ! tray, a
full service with extra cups.
Aimu rose up and helped her serve, and then both ladies
settled on the same bench while the first several sips that
courtesy demanded were drunk in silence and with
appreciation.
"My friend Bel," said Kta, when ritual was
satisfied, "is it unhappiness or anger or need that
has brought you to this house?"
"May the spirits of our houses be at peace,"
said Bel. "I am here now because I trust you above all
others save those born in Osanef. I am afraid there is
going to be bloodshed in Nephane."
"T'Tefur," exclaimed Aimu with great
bitterness.
"I beg you, Aimu, hear me to the end before you
stop me."
"We listen," said Kta, "but, Bel, I
suddenly fear this is a matter best discussed between our
fathers."
"Our fathers' concern must be with Tlekef. Shan
t'Tefur is beneath their notice, but he is the
dangerous one, much
more than Tlekef. Shan and I-we were friends. You know
that. And you must realize how hard it is for me to come
now to an Indras house and say what I am going to say. I am
trusting you with my life."
"Bel," said Aimu in distress, "Elas will
defend you."
"She is right," said Kta, "but Kurt . . .
may not wish to hear this."
Kurt gathered himself to leave. It was Bel's
willingness to have him stay that Kta questioned; he had
been long enough in Elas to understand nemet subtleties. It
was expected of Bel to demur.
"He must stay," said Bel, with more feeling
than courtesy demanded. "He is involved."
Kurt settled down again, but Bel remained silent a tune
thereafter, staring fixedly at his own hands.
"Kta," he said finally, "I must speak now
as Sufaki. There was a time, you know, when we ruled this
land from the rock of Nephane to the Tamur and inland to
the heart of Chteftikan and east to the Gray Sea. Nothing
can ever bring back those days; we realize that. You have
taken from us our land, our gods, our language, our
customs. You accept us as brothers only when we look like
you and talk like you, and you despise us for savages when
we are different. It is true, Kta, look at me. Here am I,
born a prince of the Osanef, and I cut my hair and wear
Indras robes and speak with the clear round tones of
Indresul, like a good civilized man, and I am accepted.
Shan is braver. He does what many of us would do if we did
not find life so comfortable on your terms. But Elas taught
him a lesson I did not learn."
"He left us in anger. I have not forgotten the day.
But you stayed."
"I was eleven; Shan was twelve. At that time we
thought it a great thing, to be friends to an Indras, to be
asked beneath the roof of one of the Great Families, to
mingle with the Indras. I had come many tunes, but this day
I brought Shan with me, and Ian t'Ilev chanced to be
your guest also that day. Ian made it clear enough that he
thought our manners quaint. Shan left on the instant; you
prevented me and persuaded me to stay, for we were closer
friends, longer friends. And from that day Shan t'Tefur
and I had in more than that sense gone our separate ways. I
could not call him back. The next day when I met him I
tried to convince him to go back to you and speak with you,
but he would not. He struck me hi the face and cursed me
from him, and said that Osanef was fit for nothing but to
be servant to the Indras-he said it in cruder words- and
that he would not. He has not ceased to despise
me."
"It was not well done," said Kta. "I had
bitter words with Ian over the matter, until he came to a
better understanding of courtesy, and my father went to
Ilev's father. I assure you it was done. I did not tell
you so; there never seemed a moment apt for it."
"Kta, if I had been Indras, would you have found a
moment apt for it?"
Kta gave back a little, his face sobered and troubled.
"Bel, if you were Indras, your father would have come
to Elas in anger and I would have been dealt with by mine,
most harshly. I did not think it mattered, since your
customs are different. But times are changing. You will
become marriage-kin to Elas. Can you doubt that you would
have justice from us?"
"I do not question your friendship," he said,
and looked at Aimu. "Times change, when a Sufaki can
marry an Indras, where once Sufaki were not admitted to an
Indras rhmei where they could meet the daughters
of a Family. But there are still limitations, friend Kta.
We try to be businessmen and we are constantly
outmaneuvered and outbid by the combines of wealthy Indras
houses; information passes from hearth to hearth along
lines of communication we do not share. When we go to sea,
we sail under Indras captains, as I do for you, my friend,
because we have not the wealth to maintain warships as a
rule, seldom ever merchantmen. A man like Shan-who makes
himself different, who wears the jafikn, who wears
the Robes of Color, who keeps his accent- you ridicule him
with secret smiles, for what was once unquestioned honor to
a man of our people. There is so little left to us of what
we were. Do you know, Kta, after all these years, that I am
not really Sufaki? Is that a surprise to you? You have
ruined us so completely that you do not even know our real
name. The people of this coast are Sufaki, the ancient name
of this province when we ruled it, but the house of Osanef
and the house of Tefur are Chteftik, from the old capital.
And my name, despite the way I have corrupted it to please
Indras tongues, is not Bel t'Osanef u Han. It is Hanu
Belaket Osanef, and nine hundred years ago we rivaled the
Insu dynasty for power in Chteftikan. A thousand years ago,
when you were struggling colonists, we were kings, and no
man would dare approach us on his feet. Now I change my
name to show I am civilized, and bear with you when your
cultured accent mispronounces it. Kta, Kta, I am not bitter
with you. I tell you these things so that you will
understand, because I know that Elas is one Indras house
who might listen. You Indras are not trusted. There is talk
of some secret accommodation you may have made with your
kinsmen of Indresul, talk that all your vowing war is
empty, that you only do this like fishermen at a market, to
increase the price in your bargain with Indresul."
"Now hold up on that point," Kta broke in, and
for the first time anger flashed in his eyes. "Since
you have felt moved to honesty with me, which I respect,
hear me, and I will return it. If Indresul attacks, we will
fight. It has always been a fault in Sufaki reasoning that
you assume Indresul loves us like its lost children; quite
the contrary. We are yearly cursed in Indresul, by the very
families you think we share. We share Ancestors up to a
thousand years ago, but beyond that point we are two
hearths and two opposed sets of Ancestors, and we are
Nephanite. By the very hearth-loyalty you fear so much, we
are Nephanite, and by the light of heaven I swear to you
there is no such conspiracy among the Families. We took
your land, yes, and there were cruel laws, yes, but that is
in the past, Bel. Would you have us abandon our ways and
become Sufaki? We would die first. But I do not think we
impose our ways on you. We do not force you to adopt our
dress or to honor our customs save when you are under our
roof. You yourselves give most honor to those who seem
Indras. You hate each other too much to unite for trade as
our great houses do. Shan t'Tefur himself admits that
when he pleads with you to make companies and rival us for
trade. By all means. It would improve the lot of your poor,
who are a charge on us."
"And why, Kta? You assume that we can rise to your
level. But have you ever thought that we might not want to
be like you?"
"Do you have another answer? Some urge it, like
Shan, to destroy all that is Indras. Will that solve
matters?"
"No. We will never know what we might have been;
our nation is gone, merged with yours. But I doubt we would
like your ways, even if things were upside down and we were
ruling you."
"Bel," exclaimed Aimu, "you cannot think
these things. You are upset. Your mind will
change."
"No, it has never been different. I have always
known it is an Indras world, and that my sons and my
sons' sons will grow more and more Indras, until they
will not understand the mind of the likes of me. I love
you, Aimu, and I do not repent my choice, but perhaps now
you do. I do not think your well-bred Indras friends would
think you disgraced if you broke our engagement. Most would
be rather relieved you had come to your senses, I
think."
Kta's back stiffened. "Have a care, Bel. My
sister has not deserved your spite. Anything you may care
to say or do with me, that is one matter, but you go too
far when you speak that way to her."
"I beg pardon," Bel murmured, and glanced at
Aimu. "We were friends before we were betrothed, Aimu.
I think you know how to understand me, and I fear you may
come to regret me and our agreement. A Sufaki house will be
a strange enough place for you; I would not see you
hurt."
"I hold by our agreement," said Aimu. Her face
was pale, her breathing quick. "Kta, take no offense
with him."
Kta lowered his eyes, made a sign of unwilling apology,
'then glanced up. "What do you want of me,
Bel?"
"Your influence. Speak to your Indras friends, make
them understand."
"Understand what? That they must cease to be Indras
and imitate Sufaki ways? This is not the way the world is
ordered, Bel. And as for violence, if it comes, it will not
come from the Indras. That is not our way and it never has
been. Persuasion is something you must use on your
people."
"You have created a Shan Tefur," said Bel,
"and he finds many others like him. Now we who have
been friends of the Indras do not know what to do."
Bel was trembling. He clasped his hands, elbows on his
knees. "There is no more peace, Kta. But let no Indras
answer violence with violence, or there will be blood
flowing in the streets come the month of Nermotai and the
holy days. Your pardon, my friends." He rose, shaking
out his robes. "I know the way out of Elas. You do not
have to lead me. Do what you will with what I have told
you."
"Bel," said Aimu, "Elas will not put you
off for the sake of Shan t'Tefur's
threats."
"But Osanef has to fear those threats. Do not
expect me to be seen here again in the near future. I do
not cease to regard you as my friends. I have faith in your
honor and your good judgment, Kta. Do not fail my
hopes."
"Let me go with him to the door," said Aimu,
though what she asked violated all custom and modesty.
"Kta, please."
"Go with him," said Kta. "Bel, my
brother, we will do what we can. Be careful for
yourself."
XI
Nephane was well named the city of mists. They rolled in
and lasted for days as the weather grew warmer, making the
cobbled streets slick with moisture. Ships crept carefully
into harbor, the lonely sound of their bells occasionally
drifting up the height of Nephane through the still air.
Voices distantly called out in the streets, muted.
Kurt looked back, anxious, wondering if the
sudden hush of footsteps that had been with him ever since
the door of Elas meant an end of pursuit.
A shadow appeared near him. He stumbled off the edge of
the unseen curb and caught his balance, fronted by several
others who appeared, cloaked and anonymous, out of the
grayness. He backed up and halted, warned by a scrape of
leather on stone: others were behind him. His belly
tightened, muscles braced.
One moved closer. The whole circle narrowed. He ducked,
darted between two of them and ran. Soft laughter pursued
him, nothing more. He did not stop running.
The Afen gate materialized out of the fog. He pushed the
heavy gate inward. He had composed himself by the time he
reached the main door. The guards stayed inside on this
inclement day, and only looked up from their game, letting
him pass; they were alert enough, but, Sufaki-wise,
careless of formalities. He shrugged the ctan back
to its conventional position under his right arm and
mounted the stairs. Here the guards came smartly to
attention-Djan's alien sense of discipline-and they for
once made to protest his entry.
He pushed past and opened the door, and one of them then
hurried into the room and back into the private section of
the apartments, presumably to announce his presence.
He had time enough to pace the floor, returning several
times to the great window in the neighboring room. Fogbound
as the city was, he could scarcely make out anything but
Haichema-tleke, Maiden Rock, the crag that rose over the
harbor, against whose shoulder the Afen and the Great
Families' houses were built. Gray and ghostly hi a
world of pallid white, it seemed the cloud-city's
anchor to solid earth.
A door hissed open in the other room and he walked back.
Djan was with him. She wore a silver-green suit, thin,
body-clinging stuff. Her coppery hair was loose, silken and
full of static. She had a morning look about her, satiated
and full of sleep.
"It's near noon," he said.
"Ah," she murmured, and looked beyond him to
the window. "So we're bound in again. Cursed fog.
I hate it. Like some breakfast?"
"No."
Djan shrugged and from utensils in the carved wood
cabinet prepared tea, instantly heated. She offered him a
cup; he accepted, nemet-schooled. It gave one something to
do with the hands.
"I suppose," she said when they were seated,
"that you didn't come here in this weather and
wake me out of a sound sleep to wish me good
morning."
"I almost didn't make it here, which is the
situation I came to talk to you about. The neighborhood of
Elas isn't safe even by day. There are Sufaki hanging
around who have no business there."
"The quarantine ordinances were repealed, you know.
I can't forbid their being there."
"Are they your men? I'd be relieved if I
thought they were. That is, if yours and Shan
t'Tefur's aren't one and the same, and I trust
that isn't the case. For a long time it's been at
night; since the first of Nermotai, it's been even by
day."
"Have they hurt anyone?"
"Not yet. People in the neighborhood stay off the
streets. Children don't go out. It's an ugly
atmosphere. I don't know whether it's aimed at me
in particular- or Elas hi general, but it's a matter of
time before something happens."
"You haven't done anything to provoke
this?"
"No. I assure you I haven't. But this is the
third day of it
I finally decided to chance it. Are you going to do
anything?"
"I'll have my people check it out, and if
there's cause I'll have the people
removed."
"Well, don't send Shan t'Tefur on the
job."
"I said I would see to it. Don't ask favors and
then turn sharp with me."
"I beg your pardon. But that's exactly what
I'm afraid you'll do, trust things to
him."
"I am not blind, my friend. But you're not the
only one with complaints. Shan's life has been
threatened. I hear it from both sides."
"By whom?"
"I don't choose to give my sources. But you
know the Indras houses and you know the hard-line
conservatives. Make your own guess."
"The Indras are not a violent people. If they said
it, it was more in the sense of a sober promise than a
threat, and that in consideration of the actions he's
been urging. You'll have riots in the streets if Shan
t'Tefur has his way."
"I doubt it. See, I'm being perfectly honest
with you, a bit of trust. Shan uses that apparent
recklessness as a tactic, but he is an intelligent man, and
his enemies would do well to reckon with that."
"And is he responsible for the late hours
you've been keeping?"
Her eyes flashed suddenly, amused. "This morning,
you mean?"
"Either you're naive or you think he is. That
is a dangerous man, Djan."
The humor died out of her eyes. "Well, you're
one to talk about the dangers of involvement with the
nemet."
"You're facing the danger of a foreign war and
you need the goodwill of the Indras Families, but you keep
company with a man who talks of killing Indras and burning
the fleet."
"Words. If the Indras are concerned, good. I
didn't create this situation; I walked into it as it
is. I'm trying to hold this city together. There will
be no war if it stays together. And it will stay together
if the Indras come to their senses and give the Sufaki
justice."
"They might, if Shan t'Tefur were out of it.
Send him on a long voyage somewhere. If he stays in Nephane
and kills someone-which is likely, sooner or later-then
you're going to have to apply the law to him without
mercy. And that will put you in a difficult position,
won't it?"
"Kurt." She put down the cup. "Do you
want fighting in this city? Then let's just start
dealing like that with both sides, one ultimatum to Shan to
get out, one to Nym, to be fair-and there won't be a
stone standing in Nephane when the smoke clears."
"Try closing your bedroom to Shan
t'Tefur," he said, "for a start. Your
credibility among the Families is in rags as long as
you're Shan t'Tefur's mistress."
It hurt her. He had thought it could not, and suddenly
he perceived she was less armored than he had
believed. . "You've given your
advice," she said. "Go back to Elas."
"Djan-" "Out."
"Djan, you talk about the sanctity of local
culture, the balance of powers, but you seem to think you
can pick and choose the rules you like. In some measure I
don't blame Shan t'Tefur. You'll be the death
of him before you're done, playing on his ambitions and
his pride and then refusing to abide by the customs he
knows. You know what you're doing to him? You know what
it is to a man of the nemet that you take him for a lover
and then play politics with him?" "I told him
fairly that he had no claim on me. He chose." "Do
you think a nemet is really capable of believing that? And
do you think that he believes now he has no just claim on
the Methi's loyalty, whatever he does in your name?
He'll push you someday to the point where you have to
choose. He's not going to let you have your own way
with him forever."
"He knows how things are."
"Then ask yourself why he comer running when you
call him to your bed, and if you discover it's not your
considerable personal attractions, don't say I
didn't warn you. A nemet doesn't take that kind of
treatment, not without some compelling reason. If this is
your method of controlling the Sufaki, you've picked
the wrong man."
"Nevertheless"-her voice acquired a tremor
that she tried to suppress-"my mistakes are my
choice." "Will that undo someone's
dying?"
"My choice," she insisted, with such intensity
that it gave him pause.
"You're not in love with him?" It was
question and plea at once. "You're too sensible
for that, Djan. You said yourself this world doesn't
give you that choice. You'd kill him or he'd be the
death of you sooner or later."
She shrugged, and the old cynical bitterness he trusted
was back. "I was conceived to serve the state. Doing
so is an unbreakable habit. Other people-like you, my
friend-normal people, serve themselves. Relationships like
serving self, serving others, are outside my experience. I
thought I was selfish, but I begin to see there are other
dimensions to that word. I find, personal relationships
tedious, these games of me and thee. I enjoy companionship.
I ...love you. I love Shan. That is not the same as: I love
Nephane. This city is mine; it is mine. Spare me
your appeals to personal affection. I would destroy either
of you if I was clearly convinced it was necessary to the
survival of this city. Remember that."
"I am sorry for you," he said.
"Get out."
Tears gathered to her eyes, belying everything she had
said. She struggled for dignity, lost. The tears spilled
free, her lips trembling into sobs. She clenched her jaw,
turned her face and gestured for him to go.
"I am sorry," he said, this time with
compassion, at which she shook her head and kept her back
to him until the spasm had passed.
He took her arms, trying to comfort her, and felt guilty
because of Mim; but he felt guilty because of Djan too, and
feared that she would not forgive him for witnessing this.
She had been here longer, a good deal longer than he. He
well knew the nightmare, waking in the night, finding that
reality had turned to dreams and the dream itself was as
real as the stranger beside him, looking into a face that
was not human, perceiving ugliness where a moment before
had been beauty.
"I am tired," she said, leaning against him.
Her hair smelled of things exotic on this world, lab-born,
like Djan, perfumes like home, from a thousand
star-scattered worlds the nemet had never dreamed of.
"Kurt, I work, I study, I try. I am tired to
death."
"I would help you," he said, "if you
would let me."
"You have loyalties elsewhere," she said
finally. "I wish I'd never sent you to Elas, to
learn to be nemet, to belong to them. You want things for
your cause, he wants things for his. I know all that, and
occasionally I want .to forget it. It's a human
weakness. Am I not allowed just one? You came here asking
favors. I knew you would, sooner or later."
"I would never ask you deceitfully, to do you harm.
I owe you, as I owe Elas."
She pushed back from him. "And I hate you most when
you do that. Your concern is touching, but I don't
trust it."
"Nephane is killing you."
"I can manage."
"Probably you can," he said. "But I would
help you."
"Ah, as Shan helps me. But you don't like it
when it's the opposition, do you? Blast you, I gave you
leave to marry and you've done it, you've made your
choice, however tempting it was to-"
She did not finish. He suddenly found reason for
uneasiness in that omission. Djan was not one to let words
fly carelessly.
"When I came here," he said, "whenever I
come, I try to leave my relations with Elas at the door.
You've never tried to make me go against them, and I do
not use you, Djan."
"Your little Mim," said Djan. "What is
she like? Typically nemet?"
"Not typical."
"Elas is using you," she said. "Whether
you know it or not, that is so. I could still stop that. I
could simply have you given quarters here in the Afen. No
arrest decree has Upei review. That power of a
methi is absolute."
She actually considered it. He went cold inside^
realizing that she could and would do it, and knew suddenly
that she meant this for petty revenge, taking his peace of
mind in retaliation for her humiliation of a moment ago.
Pride was important to her.
"Do you want me to ask you not to do that?" he
asked.
"No," she said. "If I decide to do that,
I will do it, and if I do not, I will not. What you ask has
nothing to do with it But I would advise you and Elas to
remain quiet."
XII
The fog did not go out. It still held the city the next
morning, the faint sound of warning bells drifting up from
the harbor. Kurt opened his eyes on the grayness outside
the window, then looked toward the foot of the bed where
Mim sat combing her long hair, black and silken and falling
to her waist when unbound. She looked back at him and
smiled, her alien and wonderfully lovely eyes soft with
warmth.
"Good morning, my lord."
"Good morning," he murmured.
"The mist is still with us," she said.
"Hear the harbor bells?"
"How long can this last?"
"Sometimes many days when the seasons are turning,
especially in the spring." She flicked several strands
of hair apart and began with quick fingers to plait them
into a thin braid. Then she would sweep most of her hair up
to the crown of her head, fasten it with pins and combs, an
intricate and fascinating ritual daily performed and
nightly undone. He liked watching her. In a matter of
moments she began the next braid.
"We say," Mim commented, "that the mist
is the cloak of the imiine, the sky-sprite Nue,
when she comes to visit earth and walk among men. She
searches for her beloved, lost long ago in the days when
god-kings ruled. He was a mortal man who offended one of
the god-kings, a son of Yr whose name was Knyha; poor man,
he was slain by Knyha, and his body scattered over all the
shore of Nephane so that Nue would not know what had become
of him. She still searches and walks the land and the sea
and haunts the rivers, especially in the
springtime."
"Do you truly think that?" Kurt asked, not
sarcastically- one could not be that with Mim. He was
prepared to mark it down to be remembered with all his
heart if she wished him to.
Mim smiled. "I do not, not truly. But it is a
beautiful story, is it not, my lord? There are truths and
there are truths, my lord Kta would say, and there is Truth
itself, the yhia. Since mortals cannot always
reason all the way to Truth, we find little truths that are
right enough on our own level. But you are very wise about
things. I think you really might know what makes the mist
come. Is it a cloud that sits down upon the sea, or is it
born in some other way?"
"I think," said Kurt, "that I like Nue
best. It sounds better than water vapor."
"You think I am silly and you cannot make me
understand."
"Would it make you wiser if you knew where fog
comes from?"
"I wish that I could talk to you about all the
things that matter to you."
He frowned, realizing that she was in earnest. "You
matter. This place, this world matters to me,
Mim."
"I know so very little."
"What do you want to know?"
"Everything."
"Well, you owe me breakfast first."
Mim flashed a smile, put in the last combs and finished
her hair with a pat. She slipped on the chatem,
the overdress with the four-paneled split skirt which
fitted over the gossamer drapery of the pelan, the
underdress. The chatem high-collared and
long-sleeved, tight and restraining in the bodice, rose and
beige brocade, over a rose pelan. There were many
buttons up either wrist and up the bodice to the collar.
She patiently began the series of buttons.
"I will have tea ready by the time you can be
downstairs," she said. "I think Aimu will have
been-"
There was a deep hollow boom over the city, and Kurt
glanced toward the window with an involuntary oath. It was
the sighing note of a distant gong.
"Ai," said Mim.
"Intaem-lnta. That is the great temple. It is
the beginning of Cadmisan."
The gong moaned forth again through the fog-stilled air,
measured, four times more. Then it was done, the last
echoes dying.
"It is the fourth of Nermotai," said Mim,
"the first of the Sufak holy days. The temple will
sound the Inta every morning and every evening for
the next seven days, and the Sufaki
will make prayers and invoke the Intain, the
spirits of their gods."
"What is done there?" Kurt asked.
"It is the old religion which was here before the
Families. I am not really sure what is done, and I do not
care to know. I have heard that they even invoke the names
of god-kings in Phan's own temple, but we do not go
there, ever. There were old gods in Chteftikan, old and
evil gods from the First Days, and once a year the Sufaki
call their names and pay them honor, to appease their anger
at losing this land to Phan. These are beings we Indras do
not name."
"Bel said," Kurt recalled, "that there
could be trouble during the holy days."
Mim frowned. "Kurt, I would that you take special
care for your safety, and do not come and go at night
during this time."
It hit hard. Mim surely spoke without reference to the
Methi, at least without bitterness; if Mim accused, he knew
well that Mim would say so plainly. "I do not plan to
come and go at night," he said. "Last
night-"
"It is always dangerous," she said with
perfect dignity, before he could finish, "to walk
abroad at night during Cadmisan. The Sufak gods are
earth-spirits, Yr-bred and monstrous. There is wild
behavior and much drunkenness."
"I will take your advice," he said.
She came and touched her fingers to his lips and to his
brow, but she took her hand from him when he reached for
it, smiling. It was a game they played.
"I must be downstairs attending my duties,"
she said. "Dear my husband, you will make me a
reputation for a licentious woman in the household if you
keep making us late for breakfast. No! Dear my lord, I
shall see you downstairs at morning tea."
"Where do you think you are going?"
Mim paused in the dimly lit entry hall, her hands for a
moment suspending the veil over her head as she turned.
Then she settled it carefully over her hair and tossed the
end over her shoulder.
"To market, my husband."
"Alone?"
She smiled and shrugged. "Unless you wish to fast
this evening. I am buying a few things for dinner. Look
you, the fog has cleared, the sun is bright, and those men
who were hanging about across the street have been gone
since yesterday."
"You are not going alone."
"Kurt, Kurt, for Bel's doom-saying? Dear light
of heaven, there are children playing outside, do you not
hear? And should I fear to walk my own street in bright
afternoon? After dark is one thing, but I think you take
our warnings much too seriously."
"I have my reasons, Mim."
She looked up at him in most labored patience. "And
shall we starve? Or will you and my lord Kta march me to
market with drawn weapons?"
"No, but I will walk you there and back
again." He opened the door for her, and Mim went out
and waited for him, her basket on her arm, most obviously
embarrassed.
Kurt nervously scanned the street, the recesses where at
nights t'Tefur's men were wont to linger. They were
indeed gone. Indras children played at tag. There was no
threat, no presence of the Methi's guards either, but
Djan never did move obviously. He had had no difficulty
returning to Elas late, probably, he thought with relief,
she had taken measures.
"Are you sure," he asked Mim, "that the
market will be open on a holiday?"
She looked up at him curiously as they started off
together. "Of course, and busy. I put off going, you
see, these several days with the fog and the trouble on the
streets, and I am sorry to cause you this trouble, Kurt,
but we really are running out of things and there could be
the fog again tomorrow, so it is really better to go today.
I do have some sense, after all."
"You know I could quite easily walk down there and
buy what you need for supper, and you would not need to go
at all."
"Ai, but Cadmisan is such a grand time in
the market, with all the country people coming in and the
artists and the musicians. Besides," she added, when
his face remained unhappy, "dear husband, you would
not know what you were buying or what to pay. I do not
think you have ever handled our coin. And the other women
would laugh at me and wonder what kind of wife I am to make
my husband do my work, or else they would think I am such a
loose woman that my bus-ban would not trust me out of the
house."
"They can mind their own business," he said,
disregarding
her attempt at levity; and her small face took on a
determined look.
"If you go alone," she said, "the fact is
that folk will guess Elas is afraid, and this will lend
courage to the enemies of Elas."
He understood her reasoning, though it comforted him not
at all. He watched carefully as their downhill walk began
to take them out of the small section of aristocratic
houses surrounding the Afen and the temple complex. But
here in the Sufaki section of town, people were going about
business as usual. There were some men in the Robes of
Color, but they walked together in casual fashion and gave
them not a passing glance.
"You see," said Mim, "I would have been
quite safe."
"I wish I was that confident."
"Look you, Kurt, I know these people. There is lady
Yafes, and that little boy is Edu t'Rachik u Gyon-the
Rachik house is very large. They have so many children it
is a joke in Nephane. The old man on the curb is
t'Pamchen. He fancies himself a scholar. He says he is
reviving the old Sufak writing and that he can read the
ancient stones. His brother is a priest, but he does not
approve of the old man. There is no harm in these people.
They are my neighbors. You let t'Tefur's little
band of pirates trouble you too much. T'Tefur would be
delighted to know he upset you. That is the only victory he
dares seek as long as you give him no opportunity to
challenge you."
"I suppose," Kurt said, unconvinced.
The street approached the lower town by a series of low
steps down a winding course to the defense wall and the
gate. Thereafter the road went among the poorer houses, the
markets, the harborside. Several ships were in port, two
broad-beamed merchant vessels and three sleek galleys,
warships with oars run in or stripped from their locks,
yards without sails, the sounds of carpentry coming loudly
from their decks, one showing bright new wood on her
hull.
Ships were being prepared against the eventuality of
war. Tavi, Kta's ship, had been there; she had
had her refitting and had been withdrawn to the outer
harbor, a little bay on the other side of Haichema-tleke.
That reminder of international unease, the steady hammering
and sawing, underlay all the gaiety of the crowds that
thronged the market.
"That is a ship of Ilev, is it not?" Kurt
asked, pointing to the merchantman nearest, for he saw what
appeared to be the white bird that was emblematic of that
house as the figurehead.
"Yes," said Mim. "But the one beside it I
do not recognize. Some houses exist only in the Isles. Lord
Kta knows them all, even the houses of Indresul's many
colonies. A captain must know these things. But of course
they do not come to Nephane. This one must be a trader that
rarely comes, perhaps from the north, near the Yvorst Ome,
where the seas are ice."
The crowd was elbow-to-elbow among the booths. They lost
sight of the harbor, and nearly of each other. Kurt seized
Mim's arm, which she protested with a shocked look:
even husband and wife did not touch publicly.
"Stay with me," he said, but he let her go.
"Do not leave my sight."
Mim walked the maze of aisles a little in front of him,
occasionally pausing to admire some gimcrack display of the
tinsmiths, intrigued by the little fish of jointed scales
that wiggled when the wind hit their fins.
"We did not come for this," Kurt said
irritably. "Come, what would you do with such a
thing?"
Mim sighed, a little piqued, and led him to that quarter
of the market where the farmers were, countrymen with
produce and cheeses and birds to sell, fishermen with the
take from their nets, butchers with their booths decorated
with whole carcasses hanging from hooks.
Mim deplored the poor quality of the fish that day,
disappointed in her plans, but selected from a vegetable
seller some curious yellow corkscrews called lat,
and some speckled orange ones called gillybai. She
knew the vegetable seller's wife, who congratulated her
on her recent marriage, marveled embarrassingly over
Kurt-she seemed to shudder slightly, but showed brave
politeness-then became involved in a long story about some
mutual acquaintance's daughter's child.
It was woman's talk. Kurt stood to one side,
forgotten, and then, sure that Mim was safe among people
she knew and not willing to seem utterly the tyrant,
withdrew a little. He looked at some of the other tables in
the next booth, somewhat interested in the alien variety of
the fish and the produce, some of which, he reflected with
unease, he had undoubtedly eaten without knowing its
uncooked appearance. Much of the seafood was not in the
least appealing to Terran senses.
From the harbor there came the steady sound of
hammering, reechoing off the walls in insane counterpoint
to the noise of the many colored crowds.
Someone jostled him. He looked up into the unsmiling
face of a Sufaki in Robes of Color. The man said nothing.
Kurt made a slight bow of apology, unanswered, and turned
about to go after Mim.
Another man blocked his way. Kurt tried t6 step around
him. The Sufaki moved in front of him with sullen threat in
his narrow eyes. Another appeared to his left, crowding him
back to the right.
He moved suddenly, trying to slip past them. They cut
him off from Mim. He could not see her any longer. The
noisy crowds surged between. He dared not start something
with Mim near, where she could be hurt.
They forced him continually in one direction, toward a
gap between the booths where they jammed up against a
warehouse. He saw the alley and broke for it.
Others met him at the turning ahead, pursuit hot behind.
He had expected it and hit the opposition without
hesitation. He avoided a knife and kicked its owner, who
screamed in agony, struck another in the face and a third
in the groin before those behind overtook him.
A blow landed between his shoulders and against his
head, half blinding him. He fell under a weight of
struggling bodies, pinned while more than one of them
wrenched his arms back and tied his wrists.
He had broken one man's arm. He saw that with
satisfaction as they hauled him to his feet and tried to
aid their own injured.
Then they seized him by either arm and hurried
him deeper into the alley.
The backways of Nephane were a maze of alien geometry,
odd-shaped buildings jammed incredibly into the S-curve of
the main street, fronting outward in decent order while
their rear portions formed a labyrinthine tangle of narrow
alleyways and contiguous walls. Kurt quickly lost track of
the way they had come.
They reached the back door of a warehouse, thrust Kurt
inside and -entered the dark with him, closing the door so
that all the light was from the little door aperture.
Kurt scrambled to escape into the shadows, sure now that
he would be found some time later with his throat cut and
no proof who his murderers had been.
They seized him before he could run more than a few
steps, hurled him to the dusty floor and slipped a cord
about his ankle. Finally, despite his kicking and heaving,
they succeeded in lashing both his ankles together. Then
they forced his jaws apart and thrust a choking wad of
cloth into his mouth, tying it in place with a violence
that cut his face.
"Get a light," one said.
The door opened before that was done. Their comrades had
joined them, bringing the man with the broken arm. When the
light was lit they attended to the setting of the arm, with
screams they tried to muffle.
Kurt wriggled over against some bales of canvas, nerves
raw to every outcry from the injured man. They would repay
him for that, he was sure, before they disposed of him.
It was the human thing to do. In this respect he hoped
they were different.
Hours passed. The injured man slept, after a drink they
had given him. Kurt occupied himself with trying to work
the knots loose. They were not fully within his reach. He
tried instead to stretch the cords. His fingers swelled and
passed the point of pain. The ache spread up his arms. His
feet were numb. Breathing was an effort.
At least they did not touch him. They played at
bho, a game of lots, and sat in the light, an
unreal tableau suspended in the growing blackness. The
light picked out only the edges of bales and crates.
From the distance of the hill came the deep tones of the
Intaem-Inta. The gamers stopped, reverent of it,
continued.
Outside Kurt heard the faint scuff of sandalled feet on
stone. His hopes rose. He thought of Kta, searching for
him.
Instead there came a bold rap on the door. The men
admitted the newcomers, one in Indras dress, the others in
Robes of Color; they wore daggers in their belts.
One was a man who had watched outside Elas.
"We will see to him now," the Indras-dressed
one said, a small man with eyes so narrow he could only be
Sufaki. "Put him on his feet."
Two men hauled Kurt up, cut the cords that bound his
ankles. He could not stand without them holding him. They
shook him and struck him to make him try, but when it was
evident that he truly could not stand, they took him each
by an arm and pulled him along with them in great haste,
out
into the mist and the dark, along the confusing turns of
the alleys.
They tended constantly downhill, and Kurt was
increasingly sure of their destination: the bay's dark
waters would conceal his body with no evidence to accuse
the Sufaki of his murder, no one to swear how he had
vanished.
No one but Mim, who might well be able to identify
them.
That was the thought which most tormented him. Elas
should have been turning Nephane upside down by now, if
only Mim had reached them. But there was no indication of a
search.
They turned a corner, cutting off the light from the
lantern-carrier in front of them, which moved like a
witchlight in the mist. The other two men were half
carrying him. Though he had feeling in his feet again, he
made it no easier for them.
They made haste to overtake the man with the lantern,
and cursed him for his haste. At the same time they jerked
cruelly on Kurt's arms, trying to force him to
carry his own weight.
And suddenly he shouldered left, where steps led down
into a doorway, toppling one of his guards with a startled
cry. With the other one he pivoted, unable to free himself,
held by the front of his robe and one arm.
Kurt jerked. Cloth tore. He hurled all his weight into a
kick at the lantern-bearer.
The man sprawled, oil spilling, live flame springing up.
The burned man screamed, snatching at his clothing, trying
to strip it off. His friend's grip loosened, knife
flashing in the glare. He rammed it for Kurt's
belly.
Kurt spun, received the edge across his ribs instead,
tore free, kneed the man as the burning man's flames
reached something else flammable in the debris of the
alley.
He was free. He pivoted and ran, in the mist and the
dark that now was scented with the stench of burned flesh
and fiber.
It was several turns of the alleys later when he first
dared stop, and leaned against the wall close to fainting
for want of air, for the gag obstructed his breathing.
At last, as quietly as possible, he knelt against the
back steps of a warehouse, contorted his body so that he
could use his fingers to search the debris in the corner.
There was broken pottery in the heap. He found a shard
keen-edged enough, leaned against the step with his heart
pounding from exertion and his ears straining to hear
despite the blood that roared in his head.
It took a long time to make any cut in the tight cords.
At last a strand parted, and another, and he was able to
unwind the rest. With deadened hands he rubbed the binding
from the gag and spit the choking cloth from his mouth,
able to breathe a welcome gasp of the chill foggy air.
Now he could move, and hi the concealment of the night
and the fog he had a chance. His way lay uphill-he had no
choice in that. The gate would be the logical place for his
enemies to lay their ambush. It was the only way through
the defense wall that ringed the upper town.
When he reached the wall, he was greatly relieved. It
was not difficult to find a place where illicit debris had
piled up against the ancient fortification. Sheds and
buildings proliferated here, crowding into the narrow gap
between the permitted buildings and the former defense of
the high town. He scrambled by the roofs of three of them
up to the crest and found the situation unhappily tidier on
the other side. He walked the wall, dreading the jump. He
found a place where the erosion of centuries had lessened
the height perhaps five feet, and he lowered himself over
the edge and dropped a dizzying distance to the ground on
the high town side.
The jolt did not knock him entirely unconscious, but it
dazed him and left him scarcely able to crawl the little
distance into the shadows. It was a while before he had
recovered sufficiently to try to walk again, at times
losing clear realization of how he had reached a particular
place.
He reached the main street. It was deserted. Kurt took
to it only as often as he must, finally broke into a run as
he saw the door of Osanef. He darted into the friendly
shadow of its porch.
No one answered. Light came through the fog indistinctly
on the upper hill, a suffused glow from the temple or the
Afen. He remembered the festival, and decided even
Indras-influenced Osanef might be at the temple.
He took to the street running now, two blocks from Elas
and trusting to speed, not daring even the other Indras
houses. They had no love of humans; Kta had warned him
so.
He was hi the final sprint for Elas' door before he
realized Elas might be watched, would logically be watched
unless the Methi's guards were about. It was too late
to stop. He
reached its triangular arch and pounded furiously on the
door, not even daring to look over his shoulder.
"Who is there?" Hef's voice asked
faintly.
"Kurt. Let me in. Let me in, Hef."
.The bolt shot back, the door opened, and Kurt slipped
inside and leaned against the closed door, gasping for
breath in the sudden warmth and light of Elas.
"Mini," said Hef. "Lord Kurt, what has
happened? Where is Mim?"
"Not-not here?"
"No. We thought at least-whatever had happened-you
were together."
Kurt caught his breath with a choking swallow of air and
pushed himself square on his feet. "Call
Kta."
"He is out with Ian t'Ilev and Val t'Ran,
searching for you both. Ai, my lord, what can we
do? I will call Nym-" . "Tell
Nym-tell Nym I have gone to get the Methi's help. Give
me a weapon, anything-"
!]I cannot, my lord, I cannot. My orders
forbid-"
Kurt swore and jerked the door open again, ran for the
street and the Afen gate.
When he reached the Afen wall, the great gates were
closed and the wall-street that led to the temple compound
was crowded with Sufaki, drunken, most of them. Kurt leaned
on the bars and shouted for the guards to hear him and open
them, but his voice was lost in the noise of the crowds,
with all Sufak Nephane gathered into that square down the
street and spilling over into the wall-street. Some,
drunker than the rest, began also to shake at the bars of
the gates to try to raise the guards. If there were any on
duty to hear, they ignored the uproar.
Kurt caught his breath, exhausted, far from help of Kta
or Djan. Then he remembered the other gate, the sally port
in the far end of the wall where it touched Haichema-tleke
and opened onto the temple square. That would be the one
for them to guard, that nearest the temple. They might hear
him there, and open.
He raced along the wall, jostling Sufaki in his
exhausted weaving and stumbling. A few drunk ones laughed
and caught at his clothing. Others cursed him, trying to
bar his way.
A cry began to go up, resentment for his presence.
Jafikn-wearing Sufaki barred his path, turned him.
Someone struck him from the side, nearly throwing him to
the pavement.
He ran, but they would not let him escape the square,
blocking his way out, t'Tefur's men, armed with
blades.
Authority, he thought, sensible authority would not let
this happen. He broke to one side, racing for the temple
steps, sending shrieking women and cursing men crowding out
of his way.
Hands reached to stop him. He tore past them almost all
the way to the very top of the long temple steps before
enough of them seized him to hold him.
"Bias* doing!" a hysterical voice shrieked
from below. "Kill the human!"
Kurt struggled around to see who had shouted, looked
down on a sea of alien faces in the torchlight and the haze
of thin mist. "Where is Shan t'Tefur?" Kurt
screamed back at them. "Where has he taken my
wife?"
The babble of voices almost hushed for a moment: the
nemet held their women in great esteem. Kurt drew a great
gasp of air and shouted across the gathering. "Shan
t'Tefur! If you are here, come out and face me. Where
is my wife? What have you done with her?"
There was a moment of shocked silence and then a rising
murmur like thunder as an aged priest came from the upper
steps through the men gathered there. He cleared the way
with the emblem of his office, a vine-wreathed staff. The
staff extended till it was almost touching Kurt, and the
priest spit some unintelligible words at him.
There was utter silence now, drunken laughter coming
distantly from the wall-street. In this gathering no one so
much as stirred. Even Kurt was struck to silence. The staff
extended a degree further and with unreasoning loathing he
shrank from it, not wanting to be touched by this mouthing
priest with his drunken gods of earth. They held him, and
the rough wood of the staff's tip trembled against his
cheek.
"Blasphemer," said the priest, "sent by
Elas to profane the rites. Liar.Cursed from the earth you
will be, by the old gods, the ancient gods, the life-giving
sons of Thael. Son of Yr to Phan united,
Aem-descended, to the gods of ancient Chteftik,
cursed!"
"A curse on the lot of you," Kurt shouted in
his face, "if you have any part in t'Tefur's
plot! My wife Mim never harmed any of you, never harmed
anyone. Where is she? You people-you! who were in the
market today-who walked away-are you all in this? What did
they do with her? Where did they take her? Is she alive? By
your own gods you can tell me that at least. Is she
alive?"
."No one knows anything of the woman, human,"
said the aged priest. "And you were ill-advised to
come here with your drunken ravings. Who would harm Mim
h'Elas, a daughter of Sufak herself? You come here and
profane the mysteries, taught no reverence in Elas, it is
clear. Cursed be you, human, and if you do not leave now,
we will wash the pollution of your feet from these stones
with your blood. Let him go, let go the human, and give him
the chance to leave."
They released him, and Kurt swayed on the steps above
the crowd, scanning the faces for one that was familiar. Of
Osanef, of any friend, there was no sign. He looked back at
the priest.
"She is lost in the city, hurt or dead," Kurt
pleaded. "You are a religious man. Do
something!"
For a moment pity or conscience almost touched the stern
old face. The cracked lips quavered on some answer. There
was a hush over the crowd.
"It is Indras' doing!" a male voice
shouted. "Elas is looking for some offense against the
Sufaki, and now they try to create one! The human is
Elas' creature!"
Kurt whirled about, saw a familiar face for the first
time.
"He is one of them!" Kurt shouted. "That
is one of the men who was in the market when my wife was
taken. They tried to kill me and they have my
wife-"
"Liar," shouted another man. "Ver has
been at the temple since the ringing of the Into.
I saw him myself. The human is trying to accuse an innocent
man."
"Kill him!" someone else shouted, and others
throughout the crowd took up the cry, surging forward.
Young men, wearing the Robes of Color. T'Tefur's
men.
"No," cried the old priest, pounding his staff
for attention. "No, take him out of here, take him far
from the temple precincts."
Kurt backed away as men swarmed about him, nearly
crushed in the press, jerked bodily off his feet, limbs
strained as they passed him off the steps and down into the
crowd.
He fought, gasping for breath and trying to free hands
or even a foot to defend himself as he was borne across the
courtyard toward the wall-street.
And the gate was open, and five men of the Methi's
guard were there, dimly outlined in the mist and the
flaring torches, but about them was the flash of metal, and
bronze helmets glittered under the murky firelight, ominous
and warlike.
"Give him to us," said their leader.
"Traitors," cried one of the young men.
"Give him to us," the officer repeated. It was
t'Senife.
In anger they flung Kurt at the guardsman, threw him
sprawling on the stones. The guards in their haste were no
more gentle, snatching him up again, half dragging him
through the sally port into the Afen grounds.
Hysterical outcries came from the crowd as they closed
the door, barring the multitude outside. Something heavy
struck the door, a barrage of missiles like the patter of
hail for a moment. The shrieking rose and died away.
The Methi's guard gathered him up, hauling his
bruised arms, pulling him along with them until they were
sure that he would walk as rapidly as they.
They took him by the back stairs and up.
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"Sit down," Djan snapped.
Kurt let himself into the nearest chair, although Djan
continued to stand. She looked over his head toward the
guards who waited.
"Are things under control?"
"They would not enter the Afen grounds."
"Wake the day guard. Double watch on every post,
especially the sally port. T'Lised, bring h'Elas
here."
Kurt glanced up. "Mim-"
"Yes, Mim." Djan dismissed the guard with a
wave of her hand and swept her silk and brocade skirts
aside to take a chair. No flicker of sympathy touched her
face as Kurt lifted a shaking hand to wipe his face and
tried to collect his shattered nerves.
"Is she all right?" he asked.
"She will mend. Nym reported you missing when you
failed to return; my men found her wandering the dock. I
couldn't get sense out of her-she kept demanding to go
to Bias-until I finally got through to her the fact that
you were missing too. Then Kta came here saying you'd
come back to Elas and then left again to find me. He was
able to pass the gate in company with some of my men or I
doubt he'd have made it through, given the mood of the
people out there. So I sent Kta home again under guard and
told him to wait there, and I hope he did. After the riot
you created in the temple square, finding you was
simple."
Kurt bowed his head, glad enough to know Mim was safe,
too tired to argue.
"Do you even remotely realize what trouble you
caused? My men are in danger of being killed out there
because of you."
"I'm sorry."
"What happened to you?"
"TTefur's men hauled me out of the market, held
me in some warehouse until dark and took me out-I suppose
to dispose of me in the harbor. I escaped. I . . .may have
killed one or two of them." Djan swore under her
breath. "What else?" "Those who were taking
me from the temple-if your men recognized them;
one was in the market. T'Tefur's men. One was
a man I told you used to watch Elas. . . ."
"Shall I call Shan here? If you repeat those things
to his face-"
"I'll kill him."
"You will do nothing of the sort," Djan
shouted, suddenly at the end of her patience. "You
caused me trouble enough, you and your precious little
native wife. I know well enough your stubbornness, but I
promise you this: if you cause me any more trouble,
I'll hold you and all Elas directly
responsible."
"What am I supposed to do, wait for the next time?
Is my wife going to have to go into hiding for fear of them
and I not be able to do anything or lay a hand on the men I
know are responsible?"
"You chose to live here, you begged me for the
privilege, and you chose all the problems of living in a
nemet house arid having a nemet wife. Now enjoy it."
"I'm asking you to do something."
"And I'm telling you I've had enough
problems from you. You're becoming a liability to
me."
The door opened cautiously and Mim entered the room,
stood transfixed as Kurt rose to his feet. Her face
dissolved in tears and for a moment she did not move. Then
she cast herself to her knees and fell upon her face before
Djan.
Kurt went to her and drew her up into his arms,
smoothing her disordered hair, and she turned her face
against him and wept. Her dress was torn open, buttons
ripped to the waist, the pelan soiled with mud
from the streets and with blood.
"You'd better do something," Kurt said,
looking across at Djan. "Because if I meet any of them
after this I'll kill them."
"If you doubt I'll do what I said, you're
mistaken."
"What kind of place is this when this can happen to
her? What do I owe your law when this can happen and they
can get away with it?"
"H'Elas," said Djan, ignoring him,
"have you remembered who did this to you?"
"Please," said Mim, "do not shame my
husband."
"Your husband has eyes to see what happened to you.
He is threatening to take matters into his own hands, which
will be unfortunate for El as if he does, and for him too.
So you had better find it convenient to remember,
h'Elas."
"Methi, I ...only remember what I told you. They
kept me wrapped in ... in someone's cloak, I think, and
I could hardly breathe. I saw no faces . . . and I remember
... I remember being moved, and I tried to escape, but they
... hit me. They-"
"Let be," Kurt said, holding her. "Let
be, Djan."
"How long have you lived in Nephane,
h'Elas?"
"F-four years, Methi."
"And never heard those voices, never saw a face you
knew, even at the beginning?"
"No, Methi. Perhaps . . . perhaps they were from
the country."
"Where were you held?"
"I do not know, Methi. I cannot remember clearly.
It was dark ... a building, dark . . . and I could not see.
I do not know."
"They were t'Tefur's men," said Kurt.
"Let her alone."
"There are more radical men than Shan t'Tefur,
those who aim at creating complete havoc here, and you just
gave them all the ammunition they need, killing two of
them, defiling the temple."
"Let them come out into the open and accuse me. I
don't think they're the kind. Or if they try me
again-"
"I've warned you, Kurt, in as plain words as I
can use. Do nothing."
"I'll do what's necessary to protect my
wife."
"Don't try me. Don't think your life or
hers means more to me than this city."
"Next time," said Kurt, holding Mim tightly to
his side, "I'm going to be armed. If you don't
intend to afford me the protection of the law, then
I'll take care of the matter, public or private, fair
or foul."
"My lord," pleaded Mim, "please, please,
do not quarrel with her."
"You'd better listen to her," said Djan.
."Women have survived the like for thousands of years.
She will. Honor's cold comfort for being dead, as the
practicalities of the Tamur surely taught-"
"She understands!" Kurt cried, hugging Mim to
him, and Djan silenced herself quickly. Mim trembled. Her
hands were cold in his.
"You have leave to go, h'Elas," said
Djan.
"I'll see her home," said Kurt.
"You're going nowhere tonight,"
Djan said, and shouted for the guard, who appeared almost
instantly, expecting orders.
"I'll take her home," Kurt repeated,
"and I'll come back if you insist on it."
"No," said Djan. "I made a mistake ever
putting you in Bias, and I warned you. As of this moment
you're staying in the Afen, and it's going to take
more than Kta's persuasions to change my mind on that.
You've created a division in this city that words
won't settle, and my patience is over, Kurt.
T'Udein, see h'Elas home."
"You'll have to use more than an order to keep
me here," said Kurt.
Mim put her hand on his arm and looked up at him.
"Please, no, no, I will go home. I am so very tired. I
hurt, my lord. Please let me go home, and do not quarrel
with the Methi for my sake. She is right: it is not safe
for you or for Elas. It will never be safe for you. I do
not want you to have any grief for my sake."
Kurt bent and touched his lips to her brow.
"I'm coming home tonight, Mim. She only thinks
otherwise. Go with t'Udein, then, and tell your father
to keep that door locked."
"Yes, my lord Kurt," she said softly, her
hands slipping
from his. "Do not be concerned for me. Do not be
concerned."
She bowed once to the Methi, but Djan snapped her
fingers when she would have made the full obeisance,
dismissing her. Kurt waited until the door was securely
closed, then fixed his eyes on Djan, trembling so with rage
he did not trust himself.
"If you ever use words like that to my wife
again-"
"She has more sense than you do. She would
not have a war fought over her offended pride."
"You held her without so much as a word to
Elas-"
"I sent word back when Kta came, and if you had
stayed where you belonged, the matter would have been
quietly and efficiently settled. Now I have to think of
other matters besides your convenience and your
feelings."
"Saving t'Tefur, you mean."
"Saving this city from the bloodbath you nearly
started tonight. My men had rocks thrown at them-at a
Methi's guards! If they'll do that, they'll cut
throats next."
"Ask your guards who those men were. Or are you
afraid they'll tell you?"
"There are a lot of charges flying in the wind
tonight, none of them substantiated."
"I'll substantiate them, before the
Upei."
"Oh, no, you won't. You bring up that charge in
the Upei and there are things about many people-your little
ex-slave wife included-that are going to be brought up too,
dragged through public hearing under oath. When you start
invoking the law, friend, the law keeps moving until the
whole truth is out, and a case like that right now would
tear Nephane apart. I won't stand for it. Your wife
would suffer most of all, and I think she has come to
understand that very clearly."
"You threatened her with that?"
"I explained things to her. I did not threaten.
Those fellows won't admit to your charges, no,
they'll have counterclaims that won't be pretty to
hear. Mim's honor and Mini's history will be in
question, and the fact that she went from the Tamurlin to a
human marriage won't be to her credit or that of Elas.
And believe me, I'd throw her or you to the Sufaki if
it had to be done, so don't push me any
further."
"T'Tefur's city isn't worth
saving."
"Where do you think you're going?"
He had started for the door. He stopped and faced her.
"I'm going to Elas, to my wife. When I'm sure
she's all right, I'll come back and we can settle
matters. But unless you want more people hurt or killed,
you'd better give me an escort to get there."
She stared at him. He had never seen her angrier, but
perhaps she could read on his face what he felt at the
moment. Her expression grew calmer, guarded.
"Until morning," she said. "Make your
peace there. My men will get you safely to Elas, but I am
not sending them through the streets with you twice in one
night, dragging you past the Sufaki like a lure to
violence. So stay there till morning. And if you cause me
more trouble tonight, Kurt, so help me you'll regret
it."
Kurt pushed open the heavy door of Elas, taking it out
of Hef's hands, closed it quickly on the Methi's
guards, then turned to Hef.
"Mim," said Kurt. "She is here, she is
safe?"
Hef bowed. "Yes, my lord, not a few moments ago she
came in, also with the Methi's guard. I beg my lord,
what-"
Kurt ignored his questions, hurried past him to the
rhmei and found it empty, left it and raced
upstairs to their room.
There was no light there but the phusa. That
light drew his eyes as he opened the door, and before it
knelt Mim. He let his breath go in a long sigh of relief,
slid to his knees and took her by the shoulders.
Her head fell back against him, her lips parted in
shock, her face filmed with perspiration. Then he saw her
hands at her heart and the dark wet stain on them.
"No," he cried, a shriek, and caught her as
she slid aside, her hands slipping from the hilt of the
dragon blade that was deep in her breast. She was not dead;
the outrage of the metal in her flesh still moved with her
shallow breathing, and he could not nerve himself to touch
it. He pressed his lips to her cheek and heard the gentle
intake of her breath. Her brows knit in pain and relaxed.
Her eyes held a curious, childlike wonder.
"El, my lord," he heard her
breathe.
And the breath passed softly from her lips and the light
from her eyes. Mim was a weight, suddenly heavy, and he
gave a strangled sob and held her against him, folded
tightly into his arms.
Quick footsteps pounded up the stairs, and he knew it
was Kta. The nemet stopped in the doorway, and Kurt turned
his tear-stained face toward him.
"Ai, light of heaven," Kta
whispered.
Kurt let Mim very gently to the floor, closed her eyes
and carefully drew forth the blade. He knew it then for the
one he had once stolen and Mim had taken back. He held the
thing in his hand like a living enemy, his whole arm
trembling.
"Kurt!" Kta exclaimed, rushing to him.
"Kurt, no! Give it to me. Give it to me."
Kurt staggered to his feet with the blade still in his
hand, and Kta's hazy form wavered before him, hand
outstretched in pleading. His eyes cleared. He looked down
at Mim.
"Kurt, please, I beg you."
Kurt clenched his fingers once more on the hilt. "I
have business," he said, "at the Afen."
"Then you must kill me to pass," said Kta,
"because you will kill Elas if you attack the Methi,
and I will not let you
go."
Kta's family. Kurt saw the love and the fear in the
nemet's eyes and could not blame him. Kta would try to
stop him; he believed it. He looked down at the blade,
deprived of revenge, lacking the courage or the will or
whatever impulse Mim had had to drive it to her heart.
"Kurt." Kta took his hand and pried the blade
from his fingers. Nym was in the shadows behind him-Nym and
Aimu and Hef, Hef weeping, unobtrusive even in his grief.
Things were suspended in unreality.
"Come," Kta was saying gently, "come
away."
"Don't touch her."
"We will take her down to the rhmei,"
said Kta. "Come, my friend, come."
Kurt shook his head, recovering himself a little.
"I will carry her," he said. "She is my
wife, Kta."
Kta let him go then, and Kurt knelt down and gathered up
Mim's yielding form into his arms. She did not feel
right any longer. It was not like Mim, loose, like a broken
doll.
Silently the family gathered in the rhmei: Ptas
and Nym, Aimu and Kta and Hef, and Kurt laid down his
burden at Ptas' feet. Ptas wept for her, and folded
Mim's hands upon her breast. There was nothing heard in
the rhmei but the sound of weeping, of the women
and of Hef. Kurt could not shed more tears. When he looked
into the face of Nym he met a grim and terrible anger.
"Who brought her to this?" asked Nym, so that
Kurt trembled under the weight of his own guilt.
"I could not protect her," Kurt said. "I
could not help
her." He looked down at her, drew a shaken breath.
"The Methi drove her to this."
Nym looked at him sorrowfully, then turned and walked to
the light of the hearthflre. For a moment the lord of Elas
stood with head bowed and then looked up, lifted his arms
before the holy fire, a dark and powerful shadow before its
golden light.
"Our Ancestors," he prayed, "receive this
soul, not born of our kindred; spirits of our Ancestors,
receive her, Mim h'Elas. Take her gently among you, one
with us, as birth-sharing, loving, beloved. Peace was upon
her heart, this child of Elas, daughter of Minas, of
Indras, of the far-shining city."
"Spirits of Elas," prayed Kta, holding his
hands also toward the fire, "our Ancestors, wake and
behold us. Guardians of Elas, see us, this wrong done
against us. Swift to vengeance, our Ancestors, wake and
behold us."
Kurt looked on, lost, unable even to mourn for her as
they mourned, alien even at the moment of her dying. And he
watched as Ptas took from Kta's hands the dragon blade.
She bent over Mim with that, and this was beyond bearing.
Kurt cried out, but Ptas severed only a lock of Mim's
dark hair and cast it into the blaze of the holy fire.
Aimu sobbed audibly. Kurt could take no more. He turned
suddenly and fled the hall, out into the entryway.
"It is done." Kta knelt where he found him,
crouched in the corner of the entry against the door. He
set his hand on Kurt's shoulder. "It is over now.
We will put her to rest. Will you wish to be
present?"
Kurt shuddered and turned his face toward the wall.
"I can't," he said, lapsing into his native
tongue. "I can't. I loved her, Kta. I can't
go."
"Then we will care for her, my friend. We will care
for her."
"I loved her," he insisted, and felt
the pressure of Kta's fingers on his shoulder.
"Is there . . . some rite you would wish? Surely .
. . surely our Ancestors would find no wrong in
that."
"What could she have to do with my people?"
Kurt swallowed painfully and shook his head. "Do it
the way she would understand."
Kta arose and started to leave, then knelt
again. "My
friend, come to my room first. I will give you something
that will make you sleep."
"No," he said. "Leave me alone. Leave
me."
"I am afraid for you."
"Take care of her. Do that for me."
Kta hesitated, then rose again and withdrew on silent
feet.
Kurt sat listening for a moment. The family left the
rhmei by the left-hand hall, their steps dying
away into the far places of the house. Kurt rose then and
opened the door quietly, shutting it quietly behind him in
such a way that the inner bar fell into place.
The streets were deserted, as they had been since the
Methi's guards had taken their places at the
wall-street. He walked not toward the Afen, but downward,
toward the harbor.
XIV
Daylight was finally beginning to break through the
mists, lightening everything to gray, and there was the
first stirring of wind that would disperse the fog.
Kurt skirted the outermost defense wall of Nephane, the
rocking, skeletal outlines of ships ghostly in the gray
dawn. No one watched this end of the harbor, where the
ancient walls curved against Haichema-tleke's
downslope, where the hill finally reached the water, where
the walls towered sixty feet or more into the mist.
Here the city ended and the countryside began. A dirt
track ran south, rutted with the wheels of hand-pulled
carts, mired, thanks to the recent rains. Kurt ran beside
the road and left it, heading across country.
He could not think clearly yet where he was bound. Elas
was closed to him. If he set eyes on Djan or t'Tefur
now he would kill them, with ruin to Elas. He ran, hoping
only that it was tTefur who would pursue him, out beyond
witnesses and law.
It would not bring back Mim. Mim was buried by now, cold
in the earth. He could not imagine it, could not accept
it, but it was true.
) He was weary of tears. He ran, pushing himself to the
point of collapse, until that pain was more than the pain
for Mim, and exhaustion tumbled him into the wet grass all
but senseless.
When he began to think again, his mind was curiously
clear. He realized for the first time that he was bleeding
from an open wound-had been all night, since the
assassin's blade had passed his ribs. It began to hurt.
He found it not deep, but as long as his hand. He had no
means to bandage it. The bleeding was not something he
would die of. His bruises were more painful; his cord-cut
wrists and ankles hurt to bend. He was almost relieved to
feel these things, to exchange these miseries for the
deeper one of Mim's loss, which had no limit. He put
Mim away in his mind, rose up and began to walk again,
steps weaving at first, steadier as he chose his
direction.
He wanted nothing to do with the villages. He avoided
the dirt track that sometimes crossed his way. As the day
wore on and the warmth increased he walked more surely,
choosing his southerly course by the sun.
Sometimes he crossed cultivated fields, where the crops
were only now sprouting and the earliest trees were in
bloom and not yet fruited. Root-crops like stas
were stored away in the safety of barns, not to be had in
the fields.
By twilight he was feeling faint with hunger, for he had
not eaten-he reckoned back to breakfast a day ago. He did
not know the land, dared not try the wild plants. He knew
then that he must think of stealing or starve to death, and
he was sorry for that, because the country folk were
generally both decent and poor.
The bitter thought occurred to him that among the
innocent, of this world his presence had brought nothing
but grief. It was only his enemies that he could never
harm.
Mim stayed with him. He could not so much as look at the
stars overhead without hearing the names she gave them:
Ysime the pole star, mother of the north wind; blue Lineth,
he star that heralded the spring, sister of Phan. His grief
had settled into a quieter misery, one with everything.
In the dark, there came to his nostrils the scent of
wood-smoke, borne on the northwest wind.
He turned toward it, smelled other things as he drew
nearer, animal scents and the delicious aroma of cooking.
He crept silently, carefully toward the fold of hills that
concealed the place.
There was no house, but a campfire tended by two men and
a youth, country folk, keepers of flocks,
cachiren. He heard the soft calling of their
wool-bearing animals from somewhere beyond a brush
barricade on the other side of the fire.
A snarled warning cut the night. The shaggy
tilof that guarded the cochin lifted its
head, its hackles rising, alerting the cachiren.
They scrambled up, weapons in hand, and the beast raced for
the intruder.
Kurt fled, seeking a pile of rock that had tumbled from
the hillside, and tried to find a place of refuge. The
beast's teeth seized his ankle, tore as he jerked free
and scrambled higher.
"Come down!" shouted the youth, spear poised
for the throwing. "Come down from there."
"Hold the creature off," Kurt shouted back.
"I will gladly come down if you will only call him
off."
Two of them kept spears aimed at him, while the youth
went higher and dragged the snarling and spitting
guard-beast down again by his shaggy ruff.
Kurt clambered down gingerly and spoke to them gently
and courteously, for they prodded him with then- spears,
forcing him in the direction of the firelight, and he
feared what they would do when they saw his human face.
When he reached the light he kept his head down and
knelt by the fireside and sat back on his heels in an
at-home posture. The keen point of a spear touched beneath
his shoulder. The other two men circled to the front to
look him over.
"Human," one exclaimed, and the point pressed
deeper and made him wince.
"Where are the rest of you?" the white-haired
elder asked.
"I am not Tamurlin," said Kurt, "and I am
alone. I beg you, I need food. I am of the Methi's
people."
"He is lying," said the boy behind him.
"He might be," said the elder, "but he
talks manlike."
"You do not need to give me hospitality," said
Kurt, for the sharing of bread and fire created a religious
bond forever unless otherwise agreed from the beginning.
"But I do ask
you for food and drink. It is the second day since I
have eaten."
"Where did you come from?" asked the
elder.
"From Nephane."
"He is lying," the boy insisted. "The
Methi killed the others."
"Unless one escaped."
"Or more than one," said the elder.
"May the light of Phan fall gently on thee,"
Kurt said, the common blessing. "I swear I have not
lied to you, and I am no enemy."
"It is, at least, no Tamurlin," said the
second man. "Are you house-friend to the Methi,
stranger?"
"To Bias," said Kurt.
"To Bias," echoed the elder in amazement.
"To the sons of storm, a human for a house-friend?
This is hard to believe. The Indras-descended are too proud
for that."
"If you honor the name of Bias," said Kurt,
"or of Osanef, which is our friend, give me something
to eat. I am about to faint from hunger."
The elder considered again and finally extended an arm
in invitation to the meal they had left cooking beside
their fire. "Not in hospitality, stranger, since we do
not know you, but there is food and drink. We are poor men.
Take sparingly, but be free of it, if you are as hungry as
you say. May the light of Phan fall upon thee in blessing
or in curse according to what you deserve."
Kurt moved carefully, for the spear was surely still at
his back. He knelt down by the rock where the food was
warming and took one of the three meal cakes, breaking off
half, and a little crumb of the soft cheese that lay on a
greasy leather wrap beside them. But he used the fine
manners of Bias, not daring to do otherwise with their
critical eyes on him and the spear ready.
When he was done he rose up and bowed his thanks.
"I will go my way now," he said.
"No, stranger," said the second man. "I
think you ought to stay with us and go to our village in
the morning. In this district we see few travelers from
Nephane, and I think you would be safer with us. Someone
might take you for Tamurlin and put a spear through you
before he realized his mistake. That would be sad for both
of you."
"I have business elsewhere," said Kurt,
playing out the farce with the rules they set and
bowing politely. "And I thank you for your concern,
but I will go on now."
The elder man brought his spear crosswise in both hands.
"I think my son is right. You have run from somewhere,
that much is certain, and I am not sure that you are
house-friend to Elas. No, it is more likely the Methi
simply missed killing you with the others, and we well know
in the country what humans are."
"If I do come from Djan-methi, you will not win her
thanks by delaying me on my mission."
"What, does the Methi send out her servants without
provisions?"
"I had an accident," he said. "My mission
is urgent; I had no time to go back. I counted on the
hospitality of the country folk to help me on my
way."
"Stranger, you are not only a liar, you are a bad
liar. We will take you to our village and see what the Afen
has to say about you."
Kurt ran, plunged in a wild vault over the brush
barricade and in among the startled cachin,
creating panic as their woolly bodies scattered and herded
first to the rocks and then back toward the barricade,
breaking it down in their mad rush to escape. The
tilof's sharp cries resounded in the rocks.
The beast and the men had work enough at the moment.
Kurt climbed, fingers and sandaled toes seeking purchase
in the crevices of the rocks, sending stones cascading down
the hillside. He cleared the crest, found a level, brushy
ground and ran, desperate, trusting pursuit would be at
least delayed.
But word would go back to Nephane and to Djan, and she
would be sure now the way he had fled. Ships could outrace
him down the coast.
If he did not reach his own abandoned ship and secure
the means to live, he was finished hi this land. Djan would
have guessed it already, and now she could lay her ambush
with assurance.
If she knew the precise location of his ship, he could
not hope to avoid it.
The sun rose over the same grassy rangeland that had
surrounded him for the last several days, dry grass and
wind and dust.
Kurt leaned on his staff, a twisted branch from which
he
had stripped the twigs, and looked toward the south.
There was not a sign of the ship. Nothing. Another day of
walking, of the tormenting heat and the infection's
throbbing fever in his wound. He started moving again,
relying on the staff, every step a jarring and constant
pain, his mouth so dry that swallowing hurt.
Sometimes he rested, and thought of lying down and
ceasing to struggle against the thirst; sometimes he would
do that, but eventually misery and the habit of life would
bring him to his feet and set him walking.
Phan was a terrible presence in these lands, wrathfully
blinding in the day, deserting the land at night to a
biting cold. Kurt rubbed blistered skin from his nose, his
hands. His bare legs and especially his knees were swollen
with sunburn, tiny blisters which many times formed and
burst, making a crack-line that oozed and bled.
The thirst was beyond bearing as the sun reached the
zenith. There was no water, had been none since a small
stream the day before-or the day before that. Time blurred
since he had entered this land. He began to wonder if he
had already missed the ship, bypassing it over one of the
gently rolling hills. That would be irony: to live by the
skills of pinpointing a ship from one star to another and
to die by missing a point over a hill.
He turned west finally, toward the sea, thinking that he
could not fail at least to find that, hoping that the lower
country would have fresh water. The changing of the seasons
had confused him. He remembered green around the ship,
green in winter. Had it been so far south? The sailing-he
could not remember how many days it had taken.
By afternoon he ceased to care what direction he was
moving in and knew that he was killing himself, and did not
care. He started down a hillside, too tired to take the
safer slope, and slipped on the dusty grass. He slid,
opening the lacerations on his hands and knees, grass and
stone stripping sunburned skin and blisters from his
exposed flesh as he rolled down the slope.
The pain grew less finally, or he adjusted to it, he
knew not which. He found himself walking and did not
remember getting to his feet. It was not important any
more, the ship, the sea, life or death. He moved and so
lived, and therefore moved.
The sun dipped horizonward into dusk, a beacon that lit
the sky with red, and Kurt locked onto it, a reference
point, a guidance star in this void of grass. It led him
down-country, where there were trees and the land looked
more familiar.
Night fell, and he stood on the broad shoulder of a
hill, leaning on his staff, fearing if he sat down now he
would not have the strength in his burn-swollen legs to get
up again. He started the long descent toward the dark of
the woods.
A light gleamed off across the wide valley, a light like
a campfire. Kurt paused, rubbed his eyes to be sure it was
there. It was a pinpoint like a very faint star that
flickered but stayed discernible in all that distance and
desolation.
He headed for it, driven now by feverish hope, nerved to
kill if need be to obtain food and water.
It gleamed nearer, just when he feared he had lost it in
his descent. He saw it through the brush. Men's voices-
nemet voices-were audible, soft, quiet in conversation.
Then silence. Brush moved. The fire continued to gleam.
He hesitated, feeling momentary panic, a sense of being
stalked in turn.
Brush crashed near him and a strong arm took him from
behind about the throat, bent him back. He fell, pulled
down by two men, weighted with a knee on his right arm,
another hand pinning his left. A knife whispered from its
sheath and rested across his throat.
The man on his left checked the other with a hand on his
wrist. Kurt ceased to struggle, trying only to breathe.
"It is t'Morgan," said a whisper. Gentle
hands searched his belt for weapons, found nothing, tugged
his arms free of those who held him and drew him up, those
who had lately threatened him handling him carefully,
lifting him to his feet, aiding him to stand.
"Are you alone?" one asked of him.
"Yes," Kurt tried to say. They almost had to
carry him, bringing him into the circle of firelight. Other
nemet joined them from the shadows.
Kta was among them. Kurt saw his face among the others
and felt his v sanity had left him. He tried to
go toward him, shaking free of the others.
He fell. When he managed to get his arms beneath him and
tried again to sit up, Kta was beside him. The nemet washed
his burning face from a waterskin, offered it to his lips
and took it away before he could make himself sick with
it.
"How did you come here?" Kurt found his own
voice unrecognizable.
"Looking for you," said Kta. "I thought
you might understand a beacon fire, which drew me once to
you. And you did see it, thank the gods. I planned to reach
your ship and wait for you there, but I have not been able
to find it. But gods, no one walks cross-country. You are
mad."
"It was a hard walk," Kurt agreed. Kta
smoothed his filthy hair aside, woman-tender, his fingers
careful of burned skin, pouring water to cool his face.
"Your skin," said Kta, "is cooked.
Merciful spirits of heaven, look at you."
Kurt rubbed at the stubble that protected his lower
face, aware how bestial he must be in the eyes of the
nemet, for the nemet had very little facial hair, very
little elsewhere. He struggled to sit, and bending his legs
made it feel like the sunburned skin of his knees would
split. "Food," he pleaded, and someone gave him a
bit of cheese. He could not eat much of it, but he washed
it down with a welcome swallow of telise from
Kta's flask.
Then it was as if the strength that was left poured out
of him. He lay down again and the nemet made him as
comfortable as they could with their cloaks, washed the
ugly wound across his ribs with water and then-which made
him cry aloud-with fiery telise.
"Forgive me, forgive me," Kta murmured through
the haze of his delirium. "My poor friend, it is done,
it will mend."
He slept then, conscious of nothing.
The camp began to stir again toward dawn, and Kurt
wakened as one of the men added wood to the fire. Kta was
already sitting up, watching him anxiously.
Kurt groaned and sat up, dragged himself to a
cross-legged posture despite his knees. "A drink,
please, Kta."
Kta nodded to the boy Pan, who hastened to bring Kurt a
waterskin and stas, which had been baked last
night. It was cold, but with salt it went very well, washed
down with telise. He ate it to the last, but dared
not force the second one offered on his shrunken
stomach.
"Are you feeling better?" asked Kta.
"I am all right," he said. "You should
not have come after me."
And then a second, terrible thought hit him: "Or
did Djan send you to bring me back?"
Kta's face went thin-lipped, a killing anger that
turned Kurt cold. "No," he said. "I am
outlawed. The Methi has killed my father and
mother."
"No." Kurt shook his head furiously, as if
that could unsay the truth of it. "Oh, no, Kta."
But it was true. The nemet's face was calm and
terrible. "/ caused it," Kurt said. "/
caused it."
"She killed them," said Kta, "as she
killed Mim. We know Mim's tale from Djan-methi's
own lips, spoken to my father. My people will not live
without honor, and so my parents died. My father confronted
the Methi in the Upei for Mim's death and for the
Methi's other crimes, and she cast him from the Upei,
which was her right. My father and my mother chose death,
which was their right. And Hef with them. He would not let
them go unattended into the shadows."
"Aimu?" Kurt asked, dreading to know.
"I gave her to Bel as his wife. What else could I
do, what other hope for her? Elas is no more in Nephane.
Its fire is extinguished. I am in exile. I will not serve
the Methi any longer, but I live to honor my father and my
mother and Hef and Mim. They are my charges now. I am all
that is left, now that Aimu can no longer invoke the
Guardians of Elas."
Kta's lips trembled. Kurt ached for him no less than
for his family, for it was unbecoming for a man of the
Indras to shed tears. It would shame him terribly to
break.
"If," said Kurt, "you want to discharge
your debt to me you have discharged it. I can live in this
green land if you only give me weapons and food and water.
Kta, I would not blame you if you never wanted to look at
me again; I would not blame you if you killed me."
"I came for you," said Kta. "You are also
of Elas, though you cannot continue our rites or perpetuate
our blood. When the Methi struck at you, she struck at us.
We are of one house, you and I. Until one or the other of
us is dead, we are left hand and right. You have no leave
to go your way. I do not give it."
He spoke as lord of Elas, which was his right now. The
bond Mim had forged reasserted itself. Kurt bowed his head
in respect.
"Where shall we go now?" Kurt asked. "And
what shall we do?"
"We go north," said Kta. "Light of
heaven, I knew at
once where you must go, and I am sure the Methi does,
but it would have been more convenient if you had brought
your ship to earth in the far north. The Ome Sin is a
closed bottle in which the Methi's ships can hunt us at
their pleasure. If we cannot escape its neck and reach the
northern seas, you and I are done, my friend, and all these
brave friends who have come with me,"
"Is Bel here?" Kurt asked, for about him he
saw many familiar faces, but he feared greatly for
t'Osanef and Aimu if they had elected to stay in
Nephane. T'efur might carry revenge even to them.
"No," said Kta. "Bel is Sufaki, and his
father needs him desperately just now. For all of us who
have come, there is no way back, not as long as Djan rules.
But she has no heir. And being human . . . there is no
dynasty. We are prepared to wait."
Kurt hoped silently that he had not given her one. That
would be the ultimate bitterness, to ruin these good men by
that, when he had brought them all to this pass.
"Break camp," said Kta. "We
start-"
Something hissed and struck against flesh, and all the
camp exploded into chaos.
"Kta!" a man cried warning, and went down with
a feathered shaft in his throat. About them in the dawn-dim
clearing poured a horde of- howling creatures that Kurt
knew for his own kind. One of the nemet pitched to the
ground almost at his feet with his face a bloody smear, and
in the next moment a crushing blow across the back brought
Kurt down across him.
Rough hands jerked him up, and his shock-dazed eyes
looked at a bearded human face. The man seemed no less
surprised, stayed the blow of his ax, then bellowed an
order to his men.
The killing stopped, the noise faded.
The human put out his bloody hand and touched Kurt's
face, his hair-shrouded eyes dull and mused with confusion.
"What band?" he asked.
"I came by ship," Kurt answered him. "By
starship."
The Tamurlin's blue eyes clouded, and with a snarl
he took the front of Kurt's nemet garb and ripped it
off his shoulder, as though the nemet dress gave the lie to
his claim. But then there was a cry of awe from the
humans
gathered around. One took his sun-browned arm and
held
it up against Kurt's pale shoulder and turned to his
comrades, seeking their
opinion.
m
"A man from shelters," he cried, "a
ship-dweller.
"He came in the ship," another shouted,
"in the ship, the
ship."
They all shouted the ship, the ship, over and over
again, and danced around and flashed their weapons. Kurt
looked around at the carnage they had made in the clearing,
his heart pounding with dread at seeing one and another man
he knew lying there. He prayed Kta had escaped-some had
dived for the brush.
He had not. Kta lay on his face by the fire,
unconscious- his breathing was visible.
"Kill the others," said the leader of the
Tamurlin. We keep the human."
"No!" Kurt cried,
and jerked ineffectually to free his
arms. His mind snatched at the
first argument he could
find. "One of them is a nemet lord. He can bring
you some
thing of value."
1 "Point him
out."
.
"There," Kurt said, jerking his head to show
him. Nearest the fire."
"Let's take all the live ones," said
another of the Tamurlin, with a look in his eyes that boded
no good for the nemet. "Let's deal with them
tonight at the camp."
"Yd" howled the others, agreeing, and
the chief snarled a reluctant order, for it had not been
his idea. He took command of the situation with a sweep of
his arm. "Pick them all up, all the live ones, and
bring them. We'll see if this man really is from the
ship. If he isn't, we'll find out what he really
is."
The others shouted agreement and turned their attention
to the fallen nemet, Kta first. Him they shook and slapped
until he began to fight them again, and then they twisted
his hands behind him and tied him.
Two other nemet they found not seriously hurt and
treated in similar fashion. A third man they made walk a
few paces, but he could not do so, for his leg was pierced
with a shaft. One of them kicked his good leg from under
him and smashed his skull with an ax.
Kurt twisted away, chanced to look on Kta's face,
and the look in the nemet's eyes was terrible. Two more
of his men they killed in the same way, and at each fall of
the ax Kta winced, but his gaze remained fixed. By his look
they could as well have killed him.
XV
The ship rested as Kurt remembered it, tilted, the port
still open. About it now were camped a hundred of the
Tamurlin, hide-clothed and mostly naked, their huts of
grass and sticks and hides encircling the shining alloy
landing struts.
They came running to see the prizes
their party had brought, these savage men and women and few
starveling children. They shouted obscene threats at the
nemet, but shied away, murmuring together when they
realized Kurt was human. One of the young men advanced
cautiously- though Kurt's hands were tied-and others
ventured after him. One pushed at Kurt, then hit him across
the face, but the chief snatched him back, protective of
his property. "What band is he from?" one of them
asked. "Not from us," said the chief. "None
of ours." "He is human," several of the
others argued the obvious. The chief took Kurt by the
collar and pulled, taking his pel down to the
waist, pushed him forward into their midst. "He's
not ours, whatever he is. Not of the tribes."
Their reaction was near to panic, babbling
excitement.
They put out their filthy hands, comparing themselves
with
him for their hides were sun-browned and creased
with
premature wrinkles from weather and wind, with dirt
and
grease ground into the crevices. They prodded at Kurt
with
leathery fingers, pulled at his clothing, ran their
hands over
his skin and howled with amusement when he cursed
and
kicked at
them.
.
It was a game, with them running in to touch him and out
again when he tried to defend himself; but when he tired of
it and let them, that spoiled it and angered them. They
hit, and this time it was in earnest. One of them in a fit
of offended arrogance pushed him down and kicked him
repeatedly in the side, and the lot of them roared with
laughter at that, even more so when a little boy darted in
and did the same. Kurt twisted onto his knees and tried to
rise, and the chief seized him by the arm and hauled him
up.
"Where from?" the chief asked.
"Offworld," said Kurt from bloodied lips. He
saw the ship beyond the chiefs shoulder, a sanctuary out of
his own time that he could not reach. He burned with shame
for their treatment of him, and for the nemet's eyes on
these his brothers, these shaggy, mindless, onetime lords
of the earth. "That ship brought me here."
"The Ship," the others took it up. "The
holy Ship! The Starship!"
"This is not the Ship," the chief
shouted them down and pointed at it, his hand trembling
with passion. "The curse-sign on it-this man is not
what the Articles say."
The Alliance emblem. Kurt had forgotten the sunburst
emblem of the Alliance that was blazoned on the ship. They
were Hanan. He followed the chief's pointing linger,
wondering with a sickness at the pit of his stomach how
much of the war these savages recalled.
"A starman!" one of the young men shouted
defiantly. "A starman! The Ship is coming!"
And the others took up the howl with wild-eyed fervor,
the same ones who had lately thrown him in the dust.
"The ship, ya, the Ship, the Ship, the machines and
the armies!"
"They are coming!"
"Indresul Indresul! The waiting is over!"
The chief backhanded Kurt to the ground, kicked him to
show his contempt, and there was a cry of resentment from
the people. A youth ran in-for what purpose was never
known. The chief dropped the boy with a single blow of his
fist and rounded on the leaders of the dissent.
"And I am still captain here," he roared,
"and I know the Articles and the Writings, and who
will come and argue them with me?"
One of the men looked as if he might, but when the
captain came closer to him, he ducked his head and sidled
off. The rebellion died into sullen resentment
"You've seen the sign," said
the captain. "Maybe the
Ship is near. But this little thing isn't what the
Writings predict." He looked down at Kurt with threat
in his eyes. "Where are the machines, the Ship as
large as a mountain, the armies from the starworlds that
will take us to Indresul?"
"Not far away," said Kurt, setting his face to
lie, which was never a skill of his. "I was sent out
from Aeolus to find you. Is this how you welcome me? That
will be the last you ever see of Ships if you kill
me."
The captain was taken aback by that answer.
"Mother Aeolus," cried one of the men, though
he called it Elus, "the great Mother. He has seen the
Great Mother of All Men."
The captain looked at Kurt from under one brow, hating,
just the least part uncertain. "Then," he said,
"what did she say to you?"
The lie closed in on him, complex beyond his own
understanding. Aeolus-homeworld-confounded with the
nemet's Mother Isoi, Mother of Men; nemet religion and
human hopes confused into reverence for a promised Ship.
"She . . . lost you," he said, gathering himself
to his feet. They personified her; he hoped he understood
that rightly. "Her messenger was lost on the way
hundreds of years ago, and she was angry, blaming you. But
she has decided to send again, and now the Ship is coming,
if my report to her is good."
"How can her messenger wear the mark of Phan?"
the captain asked. "You are a liar."
The sunburst emblem of the ship. Kurt resisted the
impulse to lose his dignity by looking where the captain
pointed. "I am not a liar," said Kurt. "And
if you don't listen to me, you'll never see
her."
"You come from Phan," the captain snarled,
"from Phan, to lie to us and turn us over to the
nemet."
"I am human. Are you blind?"
"You camped with the earthpeople. You were no
prisoner in that camp."
Kurt straightened his shoulders and looked the man in
the eyes, lying with great offense in his tone. "We
thought you men were supposed to have these nemet under
control. That's what you were left here to do, after
all, and you've had three hundred years to do that. So
I had no real fear of the nemet and they were able to
surprise me some time ago and take my weapons. It took me
this long to escape from Nephane and come south. They
hunted me down, with orders to bring me back to Nephane
alive, so naturally they did me no harm in that camp, but
that doesn't mean the relationship was friendly. I
don't particularly like the nemet, but I'd advise
you to save these three alive. When my captain comes down
here, as he will, he's going to want to question a few
of the nemet, and these will do very well for that
purpose."
The captain bit his lip and gnawed his mustache. He
looked at the three nemet with burning hatred and spit out
an obscenity that had not much changed in several hundred
years. "We kill them."
"No," Kurt said. "There's need of
them live and healthy."
"Three nemet?" the captain snarled. "One.
One we keep. You choose which one."
"All three," Kurt insisted, though the captain
brandished his ax. It took all his self-possession not to
flinch as the weapon made a pass at him.
Then the captain whirled the weapon in a glittering arc
at the nemet, purposely defying him. The humans murmured,
eyes glittering like the metal itself. The ax passed within
an inch of Kta and of the next man.
"Choose!" the captain cried. "You choose,
starman. One nemet. We take the other two."
The howling began to be a moan. One of the little boys
shrieked in glee and ran in, striking all three nemet with
a stick.
"Which one?" the captain asked again.
Kurt kept his sickness from his face, saw Kta look at
him, saw the nemet's eyes sending a desperate and angry
message to him, which he ignored, looking at the
captain.
"The one on the left," Kurt said. "That
one. Their leader."
One of the two nemet died before nightfall. The
execution was hi the center of camp, and there was no way
Kurt could avoid watching from beginning to end, for the
captain's narrow eyes were on him more than on the
nemet, watching his least reaction. Kurt kept his own eyes
unfocused as much as possible, and his arms folded, so that
his trembling was not evident.
The nemet was a brave man, and his last reasoned act was
a glance at Kta, not desperate, but seeking approval of
him. Kta was standing, hands bound. The lord of Elas
gave
the man a steadfast look, as if he had given him an
order on the deck of their own ship, and the nemet died
with what dignity the Tamurlin afforded him. They made a
butchery of it, and the Tamurlin howled with excitement
until the man no longer reacted to any torment. Then they
finished him with an ax. As the blade came down, Kta's
self-control came near to breaking. He wept, his face as
impassive as ever, and the Tamurlin pointed at him and
laughed.
After that the captain ordered Kurt taken to his own
shelter. There he questioned him, threatening him with not
quite the conviction to make good the threats, accusing him
over and over of lying. The captain was a shrewd man. At
times there would come a light of cunning into his
hair-shrouded eyes, and he doggedly refused to be led off
on a tangent. Constantly he dragged the questioning back to
the essential points, quoting from the versified Articles
and the Writings of the Founders to argue against
Kurt's claims.
His name was Renols, or something which closely
resembled that common Hanan name, and he was the only
educated man in the camp. His power was his knowledge, and
the moment Renols ceased to believe, or ceased, to fear,
then Renols could dispose of Kurt with lies of his own. The
captain was a pragmatist, capable of it; Kurt was well
certain he was capable of it.
The tent reeked of fire, of sweat, of the curious
pungent leaf the Tamurlin chewed. One of his women lay hi
the corner against the wall, taking the leaves one by one.
Her eyes had a fevered look. Sometimes the captain reached
for one of the slim gray leaves and chewed at it
halfheartedly. It perfumed the breath. Sweat began to bead
on his temples. He grew calmer.'
He offered the bowl of leaves to Kurt, insisting. At
last Kurt took one, judiciously tucked it hi his cheek,
whole and unbruised. Even so, it burned his mouth and
spread a numbness that began to frighten him.
If he became drunk with it, he could say something he
would not say; his capacity for the drug might be far less
than Renols'.
"When," asked Renols, "will the Ship
come?"
"I told you. There's machinery in my own ship.
Let me in there and I can call my captain."
Renols chewed and stared at him with his thick brows
contracted. A dangerous look smoldered hi his eyes. But he
took another leaf and held out the bowl to Kurt a second
time. His hands were stubby-fingered, the nails broken, the
knuckles ridged with cut-scars.
Kurt took a second leaf and carefully eased that to the
same place as the first
The calculating look remained in Renols' eyes.
"What sort of man is he, your captain?"
The understanding began to come through. If a ship came,
if Mother Aeolus did send it and all points of his
prisoner's tale proved true, then Renols would be faced
with someone of greater authority than himself. He would
perhaps become a little man. Renols must dread the Ship; it
was in his own selfish interests that there not be one.
But it was also remotely possible that his prisoner
would be an important man in the near future, so Renols
must fear him. Kurt reckoned that too, and reckoned
uneasily that familiarity might well overcome Renols'
fear, when Aeolus' messenger turned out to be only
mortal.
"My captain," said Kurt, embroidering the
tale, "is named Ason, and Aeolus has given him all the
weapons that you need. He will give them to you and show
you their use before he returns to Aeolus to
report."
The answer evidently pleased Renols more than Renols had
expected. He grunted, half a laugh, as if he took pleasure
in the anticipation.
Then he gave orders to one of the sallow-faced women who
sat nearby. She laid the child she had been nursing in the
lap of the nearest woman, who slept in the aftereffects of
the leaf, and went out and brought them food. She offered
first to Renols, then to Kurt.
Kurt took the greasy joint in his fingers and hesitated,
suddenly fearing the Tamurlin might not be above
cannibalism. He looked it over, relieved to find no
comparison between this joint and human or nemet anatomy.
Starvation and Renols' suspicious stare overcame his
other scruples and he ate the unidentified meat, careful
with each bite not to swallow the leaves tucked in his
cheek. The meat, despite the strong medicinal taste of the
leaves, had a musty, mildewed flavor that almost made him
retch. He held his breath and tried not to taste it, and
wiped his hands on the earthen floor when he was done.
The captain offered him a second piece, and stopped in
the act.
From outside there came a disturbance. Laughter. Someone
shrieked in pain.
Renols put down the platter of meat and went out to
speak with the man at the entry to the shelter.
"You swore," said Kurt when he came back.
"We're keeping yours," said Renols.
"The other one is
ours."
'
The confusion outside grew louder. Renols Mocked torn
between annoyance at the interruption and desire to see
what was passing outside. Abruptly he called in the man at
the entry, tersely bidding him take Kurt to
confinement.
The commotion sank away into silence, Kurt listened,
teeth clamped tight against the heaving of his stomach. He
had spit out the leaves there in the darkness of the
shelter where they had left him, hands tied around one of
the two support posts. He twisted until he could dig with
his fingers in the hard dirt floor and bury the rejected
leaves.
There was a bitter taste in his mouth now. His vision
blurred, his pulse raced, his heart crashed against his
ribs. He began to be hazy-minded, and slept a time.
Footsteps in the dust outside aroused him. Shadows
entered the moonlight-striped shelter, pulling a
loose-limbed body with them. It was Kta. They tied the
semiconscious nemet to the other post and left him.
After a time Kta lifted his head and leaned it back
against the post. He did not speak or look at Kurt, only
stared off into the dark, his face and body oddly patterned
with moonlight through the woven-work.
"Kta," said Kurt finally. "Are you all
right?"
Kta made no reply.
"Kta," Kurt pleaded, reading anger. in the set
of the nemet's jaw.
"Is it to you," Kta's hoarse voice
replied, "is it to you that I owe my life? Do I
understand that correctly? Or do I believe instead the tale
you tell to the umani?"
"I am doing all I can."
"What is it you want from me?"
"I am trying to save our lives," Kurt said.
"I am trying to get you out of here. You know me, Kta.
Can you take seriously any of the things I have told
them?"
There was a long silence. "Please," said Kta
in a broken voice, "please spare me your help from now
on."
"Listen to me. There are weapons in the ship if I
can convince them to let me in there. If I can fire its
engines I can burn this nest out."
"I will forgive you," said Kta, "when you
do that."
"Are you," Kurt asked after a moment,
"much hurt?"
"I am alive," Kta answered. "Does that
not satisfy you? Shall I tell you what they did to the boy,
honored friend?"
"I could not stop it. Kta, look at me. Listen. Is
there any hope at all from Tavi? If we could get
free, could we find out way there?"
There was no answer.
"Kta, where is your ship anchored?"
"Why? So you can buy our lives with that
too?"
"Do you think I mean to tell-"
"They are your kind, human. It would be possible to
survive ... if you could buy your life. I will not give you
Tavi."
Against such bitterness there was no answer. Kurt
swallowed at the resentment and the hurt that rose in his
throat; he held his peace after that. He wanted no more
truth from Kta.
The silence wore on, two-sided. At last it was Kta who
turned his head. "What are you fighting for?" he
asked.
"I thought you had drawn your conclusion."
"I am asking. What are you trying to do?"
"To save your life. And mine."
"What use is that to either of us under these
terms?"
Kurt twisted toward him. "What use is it to give in
to them? Is it sense to let them kill you and do nothing to
help yourself?"
"Stop protecting me. I am better dead."
"Like they died? Like that?"
"Show me," said Kta, his voice shaking,
"show me what you can do against these creatures. Put
a weapon in my hands or even get my hands free and I will
die well enough. But what dignity is there in living like
this? Give me a reason. Tell me something I could have told
the men they killed, why I have to live, when I should have
died before them."
"Kta, tell me, is there any possible chance of
reaching Tavi?"
"The coast is leagues away. They would overtake us.
This ship of yours ... is it true what you said, that you
could burn them out?"
"Everyone would die, you too, Kta."
"You know how much that means to me. Light of
heaven, what manner of world is yours? Why did you have to
interfere?"
"I did the best I knew to do."
"You were wrong," said
Kta.
'
Kurt turned away and let the nemet alone, as he so
evidently wanted to be. Kta had reason enough to hate
humanity. Almost all he had ever loved was dead at the
hands of humans, his home lost, his hearth dead, now even
the few friends he had left slaughtered before his eyes.
His parents, Hef, Mim, himself. Elas was dying. To this had
human friendship brought the lord of Elas, and most of it
was his own friend's doing.
In time, Kta seemed to sleep, his head sunk on his
breast, his breathing heavy.
A shadow crept across the slatting outside, a ripple of
darkness that bent at the door, crept inside the shelter.
Kurt woke, moved, began a cry of warning. The shadow
plummeted, holding him, clamping a rough, calloused hand
over his mouth.
The movement wakened Kta, who jerked, and a knife
flashed in the dim light as the intruder drove for
Kta's throat.
Kurt twisted, kicked furiously and threw the would-be
assassin tumbling. He righted himself, and a feral human
face stared at both of them, panting, the knife still
clenched for use.
The human advanced the knife, demonstrating it to them,
ready. "Quiet," he hissed. "Stay
quiet."
Kurt shivered, reaction to the near-slaughter of Kta.
The nemet was unharmed, breathing hard, his eyes also fixed
on the wild-haired human.
"What do you want?" Kurt whispered.
The human crept close to him, tested the cords on his
wrists. "I'm Garet," said the man.
"Listen. I will help you."
"Help me?" Kurt echoed, still shuddering, for
he thought the man might be mad. The leaf-smell was about
him. Feverish hands sought his shoulders. The man leaned
close to whisper yet more softly.
"You can't trust Renols, he hates the thought
of the Ship. He'll find a way to kill you. He isn't
sure yet, but he'll find a way. I could get you into
your ship tonight. I could do that."
"Cut me free," Kurt replied, snatching at any
chance.
"I could do that.'
"What do you want, then?"
"You'll have the weapons in the little ship.
You can kill Renols then. I will help you. I will
be second and I will go on helping you."
"You want to be captain?"
"You can make me that, if I help you."
"It's a deal," said Kurt, and held his
breath while the man made a final consideration. He dared
not ask Kta's freedom too. He dared not turn on Garet
and take the knife. The slim chance there, was in the
situation kept him from risking it In silence, once inside
the ship, he could handle Garet and stand off Renols.
The knife haggled at the cords, parting the tough fiber
and sending the blood excruciatingly back to his hands. He
rose up carefully, for Garet held the knife ready against
him if he moved suddenly.
Then Caret's eyes swept toward Kta. He bent toward
him, blade extended.
Kurt caught his arm, fronted instantly by Caret's
bewildered suspicion, and for a moment fear robbed Kurt of
any sense to explain.
"He is mine," Kurt said.
"We can catch a lot of nemet," said Garet.
"What's this one
to you?"
"I know him," said Kurt. "And I can get
cooperation out of him. He's not about to cry out,
because he knows he'd die; he knows I'm his only
chance of staying alive, so eventually he'll tell me
all I ask of him."
Kta looked up at both of them, well able to understand.
Whether it was consummate acting or fear of Garet or fear
of human treachery, he looked frightened- He was among
aliens. Perhaps it even occurred to him that he could have
been long deceived.
Garet glowered, but he thrust the knife into his belt
and led the way out into the tangle of huts outside.
"Sentries?" Kurt breathed into his ear.
Garet shook his head, drew him further through the
village, up to the landing struts, the extended ladder. A
sentry did stand there. Garet poised to throw, knife
balanced between his fingertips. He drew back-
And the hiss and chunk! of an arrow toppled
him, clawing at the ground. The sentry crouched and
whirled, and men poured out of the dark. Kurt went down
under a triple assault, struggling and kicking as they
hauled him where they would take him, up to the ladder.
Renols was there, ax in hand. He prodded Kurt in the
belly with it. His ugly face contorted further in a snarl
of anger.
"Why?" he asked.
"He came," said Kurt, "threatened to kill
me if I didn't come at once. Then he told me you were
planning to kill me. I didn't know what to believe. But
this one had a knife^ so I kept quiet."
"Sentries are dead," another man reported.
"Six men are dead, throats cut. One of our scouts
hasn't come back either."
"Caret's brothers," Renols said, and
looked at the men who surrounded him. "His folk's
doing. Find his women and his brats. Give them to the dead
men's families, whatever they like."
"Captain," said that man, biting his lip
nervously. "Captain, the Carets are a big family.
Their kin is in the Red band too. If they get to them with
some story-"
"Get them," said Renols. "Now."
The men separated. Those who held Kurt remained. Renols
looked up at the entry to the ship, thought silently, then
nodded to his men, who brought Kurt away as they walked
through the camp. They were quiet. Not a sound came from
the encampment. Kurt walked obediently enough, although the
men made it harder for him out of spite.
They came to the hut from which he had escaped. Renols
stooped and looked inside, where Kta was still tied.
He straightened again. "The nemet is still
alive," he said. Then he looked at Kurt from under one
brow. "Why didn't Garet kill him?"
Kurt shrugged. "Garet hit him. I guess he was in a
hurry."
Renols' scowl deepened. "That isn't like
Garet."
"How should I know? Maybe Garet thought he might
fail tonight and didn't want a dead nemet for proof of
his visit."
Renols thought that over. "So. How did he know you
wouldn't raise an alarm?"
"He didn't. But it makes sense I'd keep
quiet. How am I to know whose story to believe?"
Renols snorted. "Put him inside. We'll catch
one of the Carets alive and then we'll see about
it."
The human left. Kurt tested the strength of the new
cords, which were unnecessarily tight and rapidly numbed
his hands -a petty measure of their irritation with him. He
sighed and leaned his head back against the post, ignoring
Kta's staring at him.
There was no chance to discuss matters. Kta seemed to
sense it, for he said nothing. Someone stood not far from
the hut, visible through the matting.
Quite probably, Kurt thought, the nemet had added things
up for himself. Whether he had then reached the right
conclusion was another matter.
Eventually first light began to bring a little detail to
the hut. Kta finally slept. Kurt did not.
Then a stir was made in the camp, men running in the
direction of Renols' hut. Distant voices were
discussing something urgently. The commotion spread, until
people were stirring about in some alarm.
And Renols' lieutenants came to fetch them both,
handling them both harshly as they hurried them toward
Renols' shelter.
"We found Caret's brothers," Renols said,
confronting Kurt.
Kurt stared at him, neither comforted nor alarmed by
that news. "Caret's brothers are nothing to
me."
"We found them dead. All of them. Throats cut.
There were tracks of nemet-sandal-wearing."
Kurt glanced at Kta, not needing to feign shock.
"Two of our searchers haven't come back,"
said Renols. "You say this one is a chief among the
nemet. A lord. Probably they're his. Ask him."
"You understood," Kurt said in Nechai.
"Say something."
Kta set his jaw. "If you think to buy time by
giving them anything from me, you are mistaken."
"He has nothing to say," said Kurt to
Renols.
Renols did not look surprised. "He will find
something to say," he promised. "Astin, get a
guard doubled out there. No women to go out of camp today.
Raf, bring the nemet to the main circle."
It would be possible, Kurt realized with a cold sickness
at the heart, it would be possible to play out the game to
the end. Kta would not betray him any more than he would
betray the men of Tavi. To let Kta die might buy
him the hour or so needed to hope for rescue. Possibly Kta
would not even blame him. It was always hard to know what
Kta would consider a reasonable action.
He followed along after those who took Kta-Kta with his
spine stiff and every line of him braced to resist, but
making not a sound. Kurt himself went docilely, his eyes
scanning the hostile crowd that gathered in ominous
silence. •
He let it continue to the very circle, where the sand
was still dark-spotted with the blood of the night before.
He feared he would not have the courage to commit so
senseless an act, giving up both their lives. But when they
tried to put Kta to the ground, he scarcely thought. He
tore loose, hit one man, stooped, jerked the ax from his
startled hand and swung it toward those who held Kta.
The nemet reacted with amazing agility, swung one man
into the path of the ax, kneed another, snatched a dagger
and applied it with the blinding speed he could use with
the ypan. The men clutched spurting wounds and
went down howling and writhing.
"Archers!" Renols bellowed. There was a great
clear space about the area. Kurt and Kta stood back to
back, men crowding each other to get out of the way. Renols
was closest.
Kurt charged him, ax swinging. Renols went down with his
side open, rolling in the dust. Other men scrambled out of
the way as he kept swinging. Kta stayed with him. Their
area changed. People fled from them screaming.
"Shoot them!" someone else shrieked.
Then all chaos broke loose, a hoarse cry from the rear
of the crowd. Some of the Tamurlin turned screaming in
panic, their cries swiftly drowned in the sounds of battle
in the center of the crowd.
Kta jerked at Kurt's arm and pointed, both of them
for the moment stunned by the appearance of nemet among the
Tamurlin, the flash of bright-edged swords in the sunlight.
No Tamurlin offered them fight any more-the humans were
trying more to escape than to fight-and soon there were
only nemet around them. The humans had vanished into the
brush.
Now with Kurt behind him, Kta stood in the clear, with
dagger in hand and the dead at his feet, and the nemet band
raised a cheer.
"Lord Kta!" they cried over and over.
"Lord Kta!" And they came to him, bloody swords
in hand, and knelt down in the dust before their
almost-naked and much-battered lord. Kta held out his hand
to them, dropping the blade, and turned palm
upward to heaven, to the cleansing light of the sun.
"Ei, my friends," he said, "my
friends, well done." Val t'Ran, the officer next
in command after Bel t'Osanef, rose from his knees and
looked as if he would gladly have embraced Kta, if such
impulses belonged to nemet. Tears shone in his eyes.
"I thank heaven we were in time, Kta-ifhan, and I
would have reckoned we could not be."
"It was you who killed the humans outside the camp,
was it not?"
"Aye, my lord, and we feared they had spoiled our
ambush. We thought we might have been discovered by that.
We were very careful stalking the camp, after
that."
"It was well done," said Kta again, with great
feeling, and held out his hand to the boy Pan, who had come
with the rescuers. "Pan, it was you who brought
them?"
"Yes, sir," said the youth. "I had to
run, sir, I had to. I hated to leave you. Tas and I-we
thought we could do more by getting to the ship-but he died
of his wound on the way."
Kta swallowed heavily. "I am sorry, Pan. May the
Guardians of your house receive him kindly. Let us go. Let
us be out of this foul place."
Kurt saw them prepare to move out, looked down at what
weight was clenched in his numb hand, saw the ax and his
arm bloodstained to the shoulder. He let it fall, suddenly
shaking in every limb. He stumbled aside from all of them,
bent over in the lee of a hut and was sick for some few
minutes until everything had emptied out of his belly,
drugs, Tamurlin food. But the sights that stayed in his
mind were something over which he had no such power. He
took dust and rubbed at the blood until his skin stung with
the sandy dirt and the spots were gone. In a deserted hut
he found a gourd of water and drank and washed his face.
The place stank of leaf. He stumbled out again into the
sunlight.
"Lord Kurt," said one of the seamen,
astonished to find him. "Kta-ifhan is frantic. Come.
Hurry. Come, please."
The nemet looked strange to him, alien, the language
jarring on his ears. Human dead lay around. The nemet were
leaving. He felt no urge to go among them.
"Sir."
Fire roared near him; a wave of heat brought him to
alertness. They were setting fire to the village. He stared
about him like a man waking from a dream.
He had pulled a trigger, pressed a button and killed,
remotely, instantly. He had helped to fire a world, though
his post was noncombat. They had been minute, statistical
targets.
Renols' astonished look hung before him. It had been
Mini's.
He lay in the dust, with its taste in his mouth and his
lips cut and his cheek bruised. He did not remember
falling. Gentle alien hands lifted him, turned him,
smoothed his face.
"He is fevered," Pan's clear voice said
out of the blaze of the sun. "The burns, sir, the sun,
the long walk-"
"Help him," said Kta's voice. "Carry
him if you must. We must get clear of this place. There are
other tribes."
The journey was a haze of brown and green, of sometime
drafts of skin-stale water. At times he walked, hardly
knowing anything but to follow the man in front of him.
Toward the last, as their way began to descend to the sea
and the day cooled, he began to take note of his
surroundings again. Losing the contents of his stomach a
second time, beside the trail, made him weak, but he was
free of the nausea and his head was clearer afterward. He
drank telise, the kindly seaman who offered it
bidding him keep the flask; it only occurred to him later
that using something a sick human had used would be
repugnant to the man. It did not matter; he was touched
that the man had given it up for his sake.
He shook off their offered help thereafter. He had his
legs again, though they shook under him, and he was
self-possessed enough to remember his ship and the
equipment they had abandoned. He had been too dazed and the
nemet, the nemet with their distrust of machines, had
abandoned everything.
"We have to go back," he told Kta, trying to
reason with him.
"No," said the nemet. "No. No more lives
of my men. We are already racing the chance that other
tribes may be alerted by now."
It was the end of the matter.
And toward evening, with the coast before them and
Tavi lying offshore, most welcome of sights, there
came a seaman racing up across the sand, stumbling and
hard-breathing.
He saw Kta and his eyes widened, and he sketched a
staggering bow before his lord and gasped out his
message.
"Methi's ship," he said, "upcoast.
Lookout saw them from the point there. They are searching
every inlet on this shore -almost-almost we would have had
to pull away, but without enough rowers. Thank heaven you
made it, sir."
"Let us hurry," said Kta, and they began to
plunge down the sandy slope to the beach itself.
"My lord," hissed the seaman. "I think
the ship is Edrif. The sail is green."
"Edrif." Kta gazed toward the point
with fury in every line of him. "Yeknis take them!
Kurt, Tefur's Edrif, do you hear?"
"I hear," Kurt echoed. The longing for revenge
churned inside him, when a few moments before he would
never have looked to fight again. He shivered in the cold
sea wind, wrapped his borrowed dan about him and
followed Kta downslope as fast as his trembling legs would
take him.
"We have not crew enough to take him now," Kta
muttered beneath his breath. "Would that we did! We
would send that son of Yr's abominations down to
Kalyt's green halls-amusement for Kalyt's scaly
daughters. Light of heaven! If I had the whole of us this
moment . . ."
He did not, and fell silent with a grimness that had the
pain of tears behind it. Kurt heard the nemet's voice
shake, and feared for him before the witness of the
men.
XVI
Tavi's dark blue sail billowed out and filled with
the night wind, and Val t'Ran called out a hoarse order
to the rowers to hold oars. The rhythm of wood and water
cadenced to a halt, forty oars poised level over the water.
Then with a direction from Val they came inboard with a
single grate of wood, locked into place by the sweating
rowers who rested at the benches.
Somewhere Edrif still prowled the coast, but
the Sufaki vessel had the disadvantage of having to seek,
and the lower coast was rough, with many inlets that were
possible for Tavi, a sleek, shallow-drafted
longship, while Edrif, greater in oarage, must
keep to slightly deeper waters.
Now Tavi caught the wind, with the water
sloughing rapidly under her hull. On her starboard side
rose a great jagged spire against the night sky, sea-worn
rock, warning of other rocks hi the black waters. The waves
lapped audibly at the crag, but they skimmed past and
skirted one on the left by a similarly scant margin.
These were waters Kta knew. The crew stayed at the
benches, ready but unfrightened by the
closeness of the channel they ran.
"Get below," Kta told Kurt. "You have
been on your feet too long. I do not want to have to pull
you a second time out of the sea. Get back from the
rail."
"Are we clear now?"
'There is a straight course through these rocks and
the wind is bearing us well down the center of it. Heaven
favors us. Here, you are getting the spray where you are
standing. Lun, take this man below before he
perishes."
The cabin was warm and close, and there was light,
well-shielded from outside view. The old seaman guided him
to the cot and bade him lie down. The heaving of the ship
disoriented him in a way the sea had never done before. He
fell into the cot, rousing himself only when Lun propped
him up to set a mug of soup to his lips. He could not even
manage it without shaking. Lun held it patiently, and the
warmth of the soup filled his belly and spread to his
limbs, pouring strength into him.
He bade Lun prop his shoulders with blankets and give
him a second cup. He was able to sit then partially erect,
his hands cradling the steaming mug. He did not
particularly want to drink it; it was the warmth he
cherished, and the knowledge that it was there. He was
careful not to fall asleep and spill it. From time to time
he sipped at it. Lun sat nodding in the corner.
The door opened with a gust of cold wind and Kta came
in, shook the salt water from his cloak and gave it to
Lun.
"Soup here, sir," said Lun, prepared and gave
him a cup of it, and Kta thanked him and sank down on the
cot on the opposite side of the little cabin. Lun departed
and closed the door quietly.
Kurt stared for a long time at the wall, without the
will left to face another round with Kta. At last Kta moved
enough to drink, and let go his breath in a soft sigh of
weariness.
"Are you all right?" Kta asked him finally. He
put gentleness in his question, which had been long absent
from his voice.
"I am all right."
"The night is in our favor. I think we can clear
this shore before Edrif realizes it."
"Do we still go north?"
"Yes. And with t'Tefur no doubt hard behind
us."
"Is there any chance we could take him?"
"We have ten benches empty and no reliefs. Or do
you expect me to kill the rest of my men?"
Kurt flinched, a lowering of his eyes. He could not face
an accounting now. He did not want the fight. He stared off
elsewhere and took a sip of the soup to cover it.
"I did not mean that against you," Kta said.
"Kurt, these men left everything for my sake, left
families and hearths with no hope of returning. They came
to me in the night and begged me-begged me-to let them take
me from Nephane, or I would have ended my life that night
in spite of my father's wishes. Now I have left twelve
of them dead on this shore. I am responsible for them,
Kurt. My men are dead and I am alive. Of all of them, /
survived."
"I saved each of them," Kurt
protested, "as long as I could. I did what I knew to
do, Kta."
Kta drank the rest of the soup as if he tasted
nothing at all and set the cup aside. Then he sat quietly,
his jaw knotted with muscle and his lips quivering. It
passed.
"My poor friend," said Kta at last. "I
know. I know. There was a time I was not sure. I am sorry.
Go to sleep.".
"Upon that?"
"What would you have me say?"
"I wish I knew," Kurt said, and set his cup
aside and laid his head on the blankets again. The warmth
had settled into his bones now, and the aches began, the
fever of burned skin, the fatigue of ravaged nerves.
"Yhia eludes me," Kta said then.
"Kurt, there must be reasons. I should have died, but
they, who were in no danger of dying, they died. My hearth
is dead and I should have died with it, but they-That is my
anger, Kurt. I do not know why."
From a human Kurt would have dismissed it as
nonsensical; but from Kta, it was no little thing-not to
know. It struck at everything the nemet believed. He looked
at Kta, greatly pitying him.
"You went among humans," said Kurt. "We
are a chaotic people."
"No," said Kta. "The whole of creation is
patterned. We live in patterns. And I do not like the
pattern I see now."
"What is that?"
"Death upon death, dying upon dead. None of us are
safe save the dead. But what will become of us ... is still
in front of us."
"You are too tired. Do your thinking in the
morning, Kta. Things will seem better then."
"What, and in the morning will they all be alive
again? Will Indresul make peace with my nation and Elas be
unharmed in Nephane? No. Tomorrow the same things will be
true."
"So may better things. Go to bed, Kta."
Kta rose up suddenly, went and lit the prayer-light of
the small bronze phusa that sat in its
wood-and-bronze niche. The light of Phan illuminated the
corner with its golden radiance and Kta knelt, sat on his
heels and lifted his open palms.
In a low voice he began the invocation of his Ancestors,
and soon his voice faded and he rested with his hands in
his lap. Just now it was an ability Kurt envied the
religious nemet like Kta, like Mim, to feel physical pain
no longer. The mind utterly concentrated first on the focus
of the light and then beyond, reaching for what no man ever
truly attained, but reaching.
The stillness that had been in Elas came over the little
cabin. There was the groaning of the timbers, the rush of
water past the hull, the rocking of the sea. The quiet
seeped inward. Kurt found it possible 'at last to close
his eyes.
He had slept some little time. He stirred, waking from
some forgotten dream, and saw the prayer-light flickering
on the last of its oil.
Kta still sat as he had before.
A chill struck him. He thought of Mim, dead before the
phusa, and Kta's state of mind, and he sprang
from bed. Kta's face and half-naked body glistened with
sweat, though it was not even warm in the room. His eyes
were closed, his hands loose in his lap, though every
muscle in his body looked rigid.
"Kta," Kurt called. Interruption of meditation
was no trifling matter to a nemet, but he seized Kta's
shoulders nonetheless.
Kta shuddered and drew an audible breath.
"Kta. Are you all right?"
Kta let the breath go. His eyes opened. "Yes,"
he murmured thickly, tried to move and failed. "Help
me up, Kurt."
Kurt drew him up, steadied him on his deadened legs.
After a moment the nemet ran a hand through his
sweat-damp hair and straightened his shoulders.
He did not speak further, only stumbled to his cot and
fell in, eyes closed, as relaxed as a sleeping child. Kurt
stood there staring down at him in some concern, and at
last concluded that he was all right. He pulled a blanket
over Kta, put out the main light, but left the prayer-light
to flicker out on its remaining oil. If it must be
extinguished there were prayers which had to be said; and
he knew them from hearing Mim say them, but it would be
hypocrisy to speak them and offensive to Kta to omit
them.
He sought the refuge of his own bed and lay staring at
the nemet's face in the almost-dark, remembering the
invocation Kta had made of the Guardians of Elas, those
mysterious and now angry spirits which protected the house.
He did not believe in them, and yet felt a heaviness in the
air when they had been invoked, and he wondered with what
Kta's consciousness or subconscious had been in
contact.
He remembered the oracular computers of Alliance Central
Command which analyzed, predicted, made policy . . .
prophesied. He wondered if those machines and the
nemet did not perceive some reason beyond rationality, if
the machines men had built functioned because the nemet
were right, because there was a pattern and the nemet came
close to knowing it.
He looked at Kta's face, peaceful and composed, and
felt an irrational terror of him and his outraged
Ancestors, as if whatever watched Elas was still
alive and still powerful, beyond the power of men to
control.
But Kta slept with the face of innocence.
Kurt braced himself as Lun heaved a bucket of seawater
over him-cold, stinging with salt in his wounds, but a
comfort to the soul. He was clean again, shaved, civilized.
The man handed him a blanket and Kurt wrapped in it
gratefully, not minding its rough texture next to his
abused skin. Kta, leaning with his back against the rail,
gave him a pitying look, his own bronze skin able to absorb
Phan's burning rays without apparent harm, even the
bruises he had suffered at the hands of the Tamurlin muted
by his dusky complexion, his straight black hair drying in
the wind to fell into its customary order, while
Kurt's, lighter, sun-bleached now, was entirely unruly.
Kta looked godlike and serenely undamaged, renewed by the
morning's light, like a snake newly molted.
"It looks terribly sensitive," Kta said,
grimacing at the sunburn that bled at Kurt's knees and
wrists and ankles. "Oil would help."
"I will try some in a little while," Kurt
said. He took his clothing and dressed, an offense to his
fevered skin. He went clad this day only in the
ctan. When there were no women present it was
enough.
"How long will it take us to reach the Isles?"
Kurt asked of Kta, for Kta had given that as their first
destination.
Kta shrugged. "Another day, granted the favor of
heaven and the ladies of the winds. There are dangers in
these waters besides Edrif; Indresul has a colony
to the west, Sidur Mel, with a fleet based there-a danger I
do not care to wake. And even in the Isles, the great
colony of Smethisan is dominated by the house of Lur,
trade-rivals of Elas, and I would not trust them. But the
Isle of Acturi is ruled by house-friends: I hope for port
there."
The canvas snapped overhead and Kta cast a look up at
the sail, waved a signal back to Val. Tavi's
crew hurried into action.
"The gray ladies," said Kta, meaning the
sky-sprites, "may not favor us for long. Sailors
should speak respectfully of heaven and never take it for
granted."
"A change in the weather?"
"For the worse." Kta wore a worried look,
indicated a faint grayness at the very edge of the northern
sky. "I had hoped to reach the Isles before that.
Spring winds are uncertain, and that one blows right off
the ice of the Yvorst Ome. We may feel the edge of it
before the day is done."
By midmorning Tavi's sail filled and hung
slack by turns, Kta's ethereal ladies turning fickle.
By noon the ship had taken on a queasy motion, almost
without wind to stir her sail. Canvas snapped. Val bellowed
orders to the deck crew, while Kta stood near the bow and
looked balefully at the advancing bank of cloud.
"You had better find heavier clothing," said
Kta. "When the wind shifts, you will feel it in your
bones."
The clouds took on an ominous look now that they were
closer. They came like a veil over the heavens,
black-bottomed.
"It will drive us back," Kurt observed.
"We will gain what distance we can and fight to
hold our position. You are not experienced in this; you
have seen no storms such as the spring winds bring. You
ought not to be on deck when it hits."
By afternoon the northwest sky was utterly black,
showing flashes of lightning out of it, and the wind was
picking up in little puffs, uncertain at first, from this
quarter and that.
Kta looked at it and swore with feeling. "I
think," he said, "that the demons of old
Chteftikan sent it down on us for spite. Sufak is to
leeward, with its hidden rocks. The only comfort is that
Shan t'Tefur is nearer them, and if we go aground, he
will have gone before us. Hya, you, man! Tkel!
Take another hitch in that! Wish you to climb after it in
the storm? I shall send you up after it."
Tkel grinned, waved his understanding and caught quickly
at the line to which he was clinging, for Tavi was
suddenly beginning to experience heavy seas.
"Kurt," said Kta, "be careful. This deck
will be awash soon, and a wave could carry you
overboard."
"How do your men keep their footing?"
"They do not move without need. You are no seaman,
my friend. I wish you would go below. I would not have you
entertaining Kalyt's green-eyed daughters tonight. I
know not what their feelings may be about humans."
Kurt knew the legend. Drowned sailors were held in the
domain of Kalyt the Sea Father until proper rites could
release their souls from bondage to the lustful sea-sprites
and send them to their ancestral hearths.
He took Kta's warning, but it was advice, not order,
and he was not willing to go below. He walked off aft and
suddenly a great swell made him lose his balance. He caught
at the mast in time to save himself from pitching headlong
into the rowers' pit. He refused to look back at Kta,
humiliated enough. He found his balance again and walked
carefully toward the low prominence of the cabin, taking
refuge against its wall.
Tavi was soon hard put to maintain her course
against the seas. Her bow rose on the swells and her deck
pitched alarmingly as she rode them down. Overhead the sky
turned to premature twilight, and the wind carried the
scent of rain.
Then a great gust of wind scoured the sea and hit the
ship. The spray kicked up, the bow awash as water broke
over the ship's bronze-shod ram. Kurt wiped the
stinging
water from his eyes as sea and sky tilted insanely. He
kept tight grip on the safety line. Tavi became a
fragile wooden shell shrunk to miniature proportions
against the waves that this morning had run so smoothly
under her bow.
Wood and rigging groaned as if the vessel was straining
to hold together, and a torrent of water nearly swept Kurt
oft his feet. Rain and salt water mixed in a ceaseless,
blinding mist. In the shadowy sky lightning flashed and
thunder boomed directly after, and Kurt flinched against
the cabin wall, constantly expecting the ship not to
surface after the next pitch downward or the breaking of
spray across her deck. Thunder ripped overhead-lightning
seemed close enough to take the very mast. His heart was in
his throat already; at every crash of thunder he simply
shut his eyes and expected to die. He had ridden out combat
a dozen times. The fury of this little landbound sea was
more awesome. He clung, half drowned, and shivered in the
howling wind, and Kta's green-eyed sea-sprites seemed
real and malevolently threatening, the depths yawning open
and deadly, alternate with the sky beyond the rail. He
could almost hear them singing in the wind.
It was a measureless time before the rain ceased, but at
last the clouds broke and the winds abated. To starboard
through the haze of rain land appeared, the land they so
much wanted to leave behind, a dim gray line, the stark
cliffs and headlands of Sufak. Kta turned the helm over to
Tkel and stood looking toward the east, wiping the rain
from his face. The water streamed from his hair.
"How much have we lost?" Kurt asked.
Kta shrugged. "Considerable. Considerable. We must
fight contrary winds, at least for the present. Spring is a
constant struggle between south wind and north, and
eventually south must win. It is a question of tune and
heaven's good favor."
"Heaven's good favor would have prevented that
storm," said Kurt. Cold limbs and exhaustion made him
more acid than he was lately wont to be with Kta, but Kta
was well-armored this day. He merely shrugged off the human
cynicism.
"How are we to know? Maybe we were going toward
trouble and the wind blew us back to safety. Maybe the
storm had nothing to do with us. A man should not be too
conceited."
Kurt gave him a peculiar look, and caught his balance as
the sea's ebbing violence lifted Tavi's bow and
lowered it again. It pleased him, even so, to find Kta
straight-facedly laughing at him; so it had been in Elas,
on evenings when they talked together, making light of
their serious differences. It was good to know they could
still do that.
"Hya!" Val cried. "My lord Kta!
Ship astern!"
There was, amid the gray haze, a tiny object that was
not a part of the sea or the shore. Kta swore.
"They cannot help but overhaul us, my
lord!"
"That much is sure," said Kta, and then lifted
his voice to the crew. "Men, if that is Edrif
astern, we have a fight coming. Arm yourselves and check
your gear; we may not have time later. Kurt, my
friend"-Kta turned and faced him-"when they
close, as I fear they will, keep away from exposed areas.
The Sufaki are quite accurate bowmen. If we are rammed,
jump and try to find a bit of wood to cling to. Use sword
or ax, whatever you wish, but I do not plan to be boarding
or boarded if I can prevent it. Badly as we both want Shan
t'Tefur, we dare not risk it."
The intervening space closed slowly. Nearer view
confirmed the ship as Edrif, a sixty-oared
longship, and Tavi, though of newer and swifter
design, had ten of her fifty benches vacant. At the moment
only twenty oars were working.
"Ei," said Kta to the men in the
rowers' pits on either side of him, the other twenty
also seated and ready, six of the deck crew taking vacant
posts to bring Tavi's oarage closer to normal
strength. "Ei, now, keep the pace, you
rowers, as you are, and listen to me. Edrif is
stalking us, and we will have to begin to move. Let none of
us make a mistake or hesitate; we have no margin and no
relief. Skill must save us, skill and discipline and
experience; no Sufak ship can match us in that. Now, now,
run out the rest of the oars. Hold, you other men,
hold!"
The cadence halted briefly, Tavi's twenty
working oars poised creaking and dripping until the other
twenty-six were run out and ready. Kta gave the count
himself, a moderate pace. Edrif gained steadily,
her sixty oars beating the sea. Figures were now
discernible on her deck.
Kurt made a quick descent to seize a blade from a rack
in the companionway, and on second thought exchanged it for
a short-handled ax, such as was properly designed for
freeing shattered rigging, not for combat. He did not
estimate that his lessons with Kta had made him a fencer
equal to a nemet who had handled the ypan all his
life, and he did not trust that all Sufaki shunned the
ypan in favor of the bow and the knife.
He delayed long enough to dress too, to slip on a
pel beneath the ctan and belt it, for the
wind was bitter, and the prospect of entering a fight all
but naked did not appeal to him.
When he had returned to the deck, even after so brief ~a
time, Edrif had closed the gap further, so that
her green dragon figurehead was clear to be seen above the
water that boiled about her metal-shod ram. A stripe-robed
officer stood at her bows, shouting back orders, but the
wind carried his voice away.
"Prepare to turn full about," Kta shouted to
his own crew. "Quick turn, starboard bank . . . stand
by ... turn! Hard about, hard!"
Tavi changed course with speed that made her
timbers groan, oars and helm bringing her about
three-quarters to the wind, and Kta was already shouting an
order to Pan.
The dark blue sail with the lightning emblem of Elas
billowed down from the yard and filled, deck crew hauling
to sheet it home. Tavi came alive in the water,
suddenly bearing down on Edrif with the driving
power of the wind and her forty-six oars.
Frenzied activity erupted on the other deck.
Edrif began to turn, full broadside for a moment,
continuing until she was nearly stern on. Her dark green
sail spread, but she could not turn with graceful
Tavi's speed, and her crew hesitated, taken by
surprise. Tavi had the wind in her own sail,
stealing it from theirs.
"Portside oars!" Kta roared over the thunder
of the rowing. "Stand by to ship oars portside!
Hya, Val!"
"Aye!" Val shouted back. "Understood, my
lord!"
A shout of panic went up from Edrif as
Tavi closed, and Kta shouted to the portside bank
as they headed for collision. Tavi's two banks
lifted from the water, and with frantic haste the men
portside shipped oars while the starboard rowers held their
poised level.
With the final force of wind and gathered speed,
Tavi brushed the side of Edrif, the Sufak
vessel's starboard oars splintering as shouts of pain
and panic came from her pits. Sufaki rowers deserted their
benches and scrambled for very life, their officers cursing
at them in vain.
"Take in sail!" Kta shouted, and
Tavi's blue sail began to come in. Quickly she
lost the force of the wind and glided under momentum.
"Helm!" Kta shouted. "Starboard oars ...
in water . . . and pull!"
Tavi was already beginning to turn about under
her helm, and the one-sided bite of her oars took her hard
about again, timbers groaning. There was a crack like a
shot and a scream: one of the long sweeps had snapped under
the strain and tumbled a man bleeding into the next bench.
The next man leaned to let him fall, but kept the pace, and
one of the deck crew ran to aid him, dragging him from the
pit. Arrows hissed across the deck. Sufaki archers.
"Portside oars!" Kta shouted, as those men,
well-drilled, had already run out their oars to be ready.
"All hold! In water . . . and pull!"
Forty-five oars hit the water together, muscles rippled
across glistening backs-stroke-and stroke-and stroke, and
Edrif astern and helpless with half her oarage
hanging in ruin and her deck littered with splinter-wounded
men. The arrows fell short now, impotent. The breathing of
Tavf's men was in unison and loud, like the ship
drawing wind, as if all the crew and the ship they sailed
had become one living entity as she drove herself
northward, widening the distance.
"First shift," Kta shouted. "Up
oars!"
With a single clash of wood the oars came up and held
level, dipping and rising slightly with the give of the sea
and the oarsmen's panting bodies.
"Ship oars and secure. Second shift, hold for new
pace. Take your beat. Now . . . two . . . three . .
."
They accepted the more leisurely pace, and Kta let go a
great sigh and looked down at his men. The first shift
still leaned over the wooden shafts, heaving with the
effort to breathe. Some coughed rackingly, striving with
clumsy hands to pull their discarded cloaks up over their
drenched shoulders.
"Well done, my friends," said Kta. "It
was very well done."
Lun and several others lifted a hand and signaled a
wordless salute, without breath to speak.
"Hya, Pan, you men. It was as fine a job
as I have seen. Get coverings for all those men in the
pits. A sip of water too. Kurt, help there, will
you?"
Kurt moved, glad at last to find himself useful, and
took a pitcher of water to the side of the pit. Two of the
men were overcome with exhaustion and had to be lifted
out
and laid on the deck beside the man whose splintered oar
had gashed his belly. It proved an ugly wound, but the
belly cavity was not pierced. The man was vowing he would
be fit for duty in a day, but Kta ordered otherwise.
Edrif was far astern now, a mere speck, not
attempting to follow them. Val gave the helm to Pan and
walked forward to join Kta and Kurt.
"The hull took it well," Val reported.
"Chal just came up from checking it. But
Edrif will be a while mending."
"Shan t'Tefur has a mighty hate for us,"
said Kta, "not lessened by this humiliation. As soon
as they can bind up their wounds and fit new oars, they
will follow."
"It was bloody chaos on her deck," said Val
with satisfaction. "I had a clear view of it. Shan
t'Tefur has reason to chase us, but those Sufaki seamen
may decide they have had enough. They ought to know we
could have sunk them if we had wished."
"The thought, may occur to them, but I doubt it
will win us their gratitude. We will win as much time as We
can." He scanned the pits. "I have not pulled an
oar in several years, but it will do me no harm. And you,
friend Kurt, you are due gentler care after what you have
endured, but we need you."
Kurt shrugged cheerfully enough. "I will
learn."
"Go bandage your hands," said Kta. "You
have little whole skin left. You are due to lose what
remains."
XVII
The clouds had gone by morning and Phan shed his light
over a dead calm sea. Tavi rolled with a lazy
motion, all but dead in the water, her crew lying over the
deck where they could find space, wrapped in their
cloaks.
Kurt walked to the stern, rubbing his eyes to keep
awake.
His companion on watch, Pan, stood at
the helm. The
youth's eyes were closed. He swayed on his feet.
"Pan," said Kurt gently, and Pan came awake
with a jerk, his face flushing with consternation.
"Forgive me, Kurt-ifhan."
"I saw you nod," Kurt said, "only an
instant ago. Go lie down and I will stand by the helm. In
such a sea, it needs no skill."
"I ought not, my lord, I-"
The youth's eyes suddenly fixed on the sky in hope,
and Kurt felt it too, the first effects of a gentle
southern breeze. It stirred their hair and their cloaks,
touched their faces lightly and ruffled the placid
waters.
"Hya!" Pan shrieked, and all across
the deck men sat up. 'The wind, the south
wind!"
Men were on their feet, and Kta appeared in the doorway
of the cabin and waved his hand in signal to Val, who
shouted an order for the men to get moving and set the
sail.
In a moment the night-blue sail billowed out full.
Tavi came to run before the wind. A cheer went up
from the crew as they felt it.
"Ei, my friends," and Kta grinned,
"full rations this morning, and permission to indulge,
but moderately. I want no headaches. That wind will bear
Edrif along too, so keep a sharp eye on all
quarters, you men on watch. You rowers, enjoy
yourselves."
The wind continued fair and the battered men of
Tavi were utterly content to sleep in the sun, to
massage heated oil into aching limbs and blistered hands,
to lie still and talk, employing their hands as they did so
with the many small tasks that kept Tavi in
running order.
Toward evening Kta ordered a course change and
Tavi bore abruptly northwest, coming in toward the
Isles. A ship was on the western horizon at sunset,
creating momentary alarm, but the sail soon identified her
as a merchant vessel of the house of Ilev, the .white bird
emblem of that house shining like a thing alive on the
black sail before the sun.
The merchantman passed astern and faded into the
shadowing east, which did not worry them. Ilev was a
friend.
Soon there were visible the evening lights on the shores
of a little island. Now the men ran out the oars with a
will and bent to them as Tavi drew toward that
light-jeweled strand: Acturi,
home port of Hnes,
a powerful Isles-based family of the
Indras-descended.
"Gan t'Hnes," said Kta as Tavi
slipped into the harbor of Acturi, "will not be moved
by threats of the Sufaki. We will be safe here for the
night."
A bell began to toll on shore, men with torches running
to the landing as Tavi glided in and ran in her
oars.
"Hya!" a voice ashore hailed them.
"What ship are you?"
"Tavi, out of Nephane. Tell Gan t'Hnes
that Elas asks his hospitality."
"Make fast, Tavi, make fast and come
ashore. We are friends here. No need to ask."
"Are you sure of them?" Kurt wondered quietly,
as the mooring lines were cast out and made secure.
"What if some ship of the Methi made it in
first?" He nervously scanned the other ships down the
little wharf, sails furled and anonymous in the dark.
"Hnes might be forced-"
"No, if Gan t'Hnes will not honor
house-friendship, then the sun will rise in the west
tomorrow dawn. I have known this man since I was a boy at
his feet, and Hnes and Elas have been friends for a
thousand years. . . . Well, at least for nine hundred,
which is as far as Hnes can count."
"And if that was not t'Hnes' word you were
just given?"
"Peace, suspicious human, peace. If Acturi had been
taken from Hnes' control, the shock would have been
felt from shore to shore of the Ome Sin. Hya, Val,
run out the gangplank and Kurt and I will go ashore. Stay
with the ship and hold the men until I have Can's leave
to bring our crew in."
Gan t'Hnes was a venerable old man and, looking at
him, Kurt found reason that Kta should trust him. He was
solidly Indras, this patriarch of Actuary's trading
empire. His house on the hill was wealthy and proper, the
hearthfire tended by lady Na t'Ilev e Ben sh'Kma,
wife to the eldest of Gan's three sons, who himself was
well into years. Lord Gan was a widower, the oldest nemet
Kurt had seen; to consider that nemet lived long and very
scarcely showed age, he must be ancient.
Of course formalities preceded any discussion of
business, all the nemet rituals. There was a young woman,
granddaughter to the chan of Hnes. She made the
tea and served it, and seeing her from the back, her
graceful carriage and the lustrous darkness of her hair,
Kurt thought of Mim. She
even looked a little like her in the face, and when he
knelt down and offered him a cup of tea he stared, and felt
a pain that brought tears to his eyes.
The girl bowed her head, cheeks flushing at being gazed
at by a man, and Kurt took the cup and looked down and
drank his tea, thoughts returning in the quiet and peace of
this Indras home that had not touched him since that night
in Nephane. It was like coming home, for he had never
expected to set foot in a friendly house again; and yet
home was Elas, and Mim, and both were gone.
Hnes was a large family, ruled of course by Gan, and by
Kma, his eldest, and lady Na. There were others of the
house too, one son being away at sea. There was the aged
chan, Dek, his two daughters and several
grandchildren; Gan's second son Lei and his wife Pym
and concubine Tekje h'Hnes; Lei's daughter Imue, a
charming child of about twelve, who might be the daughter
of either of his two wives-she had Tekje's Sufak-tilted
eyes, but sat beside Pym and treated both her mothers with
respectful affection; and there were two small boys, both
sons of Lei.
The first round of tea was passed with quiet
conversation. The nemet were curious about Kurt, the
children actually frightened, but the elders smoothed
matters over with courtesy.
Then came the second round, and the ladies left with the
children, all but lady Na, the first lady of Hnes, whose
opinion was of equal weight with that of the elder men.
"Kta," began the lord of Hnes cautiously,
"how long are you out from Nephane?"
"Nigh to fifteen days."
"Then," said the old man, "you were there
to be part of the sad tale which has reached us."
"Elas no longer exists in Nephane, my lord, and I
am exiled. My parents and the chan are
dead."
"You are in the house of friends," said Gan
t'Hnes. "Ai, that I should have lived to
see such a day. I loved your father as my great friend,
Kta, and I love you as if you were one of my own. Name the
ones to blame for this."
"The names are too high to curse, my
lord."
"No one is beyond the reach of heaven."
"I would not have all Nephane cursed for my sake.
The ones responsible are the Methi Djan and her Sufaki
lover Shan t'Tefur u Tlekef. I have sworn undying
enmity between Elas and the Chosen of Heaven, and a
bloodfeud between Elas and the house of Tefur, but I chose
exile. If I had intended war, I could have raised war that
night in the streets of Nephane. So might my father, and
chose to die rather than that. I honor his
self-restraint."
Gan bowed his head in thoughtful sorrow. "A ship
came two days ago," he said. "Dkelis of
Irain in Nephane. Her word was from the Chosen of Heaven
herself, that Elas had offended against her and had chosen
to remove itself from her sight; that the true author of
the offense was-forgive me, my guests-a human who did
murder against citizens of Nephane while under the
guardianship of Elas."
"I killed some of t'Tefur's men," said
Kurt, sick at heart. He looked at Kta. "Was that it?
Was that what caused it?"
"You know there were other reasons," said Kta
grimly. 'This was only her public excuse, a means to
pass blame. My lord Gan, was that the sum of the
message?"
"In sum," said Gan, "that Elas is outlawed
in all holdings of Nephane; that all citizens must treat
you as enemies; that you, Kta, and all with you, are to be
killed-excepting lord Kurt, who must be returned alive and
unharmed to the Methi's justice."
"Surely," said Kta, "Hnes will not
comply."
"Indeed not. Irain knew that. I doubt even they
would execute that order, brought face to face with
you."
"What will you, sir? Had you rather we spent the
night elsewhere? Say it without offense. I am anxious to
cause you no inconvenience."
"Son of my friend," said Gan fiercely,
"there are laws older than Nephane, than even the
shining city itself, and there is justice higher than what
is writ in the Methi's decree. No. Let her study how to
enforce that decree. Stay in Acturi. I will make this whole
island a fortress against them if they want a fight of
it."
"My friend, no, no, that would be a terrible thing
for your people. We ask at the most supplies and water, in
containers that bear no mark of Hnes. Tavi will
clear your harbor at dawn. No one saw us come save only
Ilev, and they are house-friends to us both. And I do not
plan that any should see us go. Elas has fallen. That is
grief enough. I would not leave a wake of disaster to my
friends where I pass."
"Whatever you need is yours: harbor, supplies, an
escort of galleys if you wish it. But stay, let me persuade
you, Kta -I am not so old I would not fight for my friends.
All Acturi's strength is at your command. I do not
think that with war against Indresul imminent, the Methi
will dare alienate one of her possessions in the
Isles."
"I did not think she would dare what she
did against Elas, sir, and Shan t'Tefur is likely hard
behind us at the moment. We have met him once, and he would
act against you without hesitation. I know not what
authority the Methi has given him, but even if she would
hesitate, as you say, an attack might be an accomplished
fact before she heard about it. No, sir."
"It is your decision," said Gan regretfully.
"But I think even so, we might hold them."
"Provisions and weapons only. That is all I
ask."
"Then see to it, my sons, quickly. Provide
Tavi with all she needs, and have the hands start
loading at once."
The two sons of Hnes rose and bowed their respects all
around, then went off quickly to carry out their
orders.
"These supplies," said Gan, "are a
parting gift from Hnes. There is nothing I can send with
you to equal the affection I bear you, Kta, my almost-son.
Have you men enough? Some of mine would sail with
you."
"I would not risk them."
"Then you are shorthanded?"
"I would not risk them."
"Where will you go, Kta?"
"To the Yvorst Ome, beyond the reach of the Methi
and the law."
"Hard lands ring that sea, but Hnes ships come and
go there. You will meet them from time to time. Let them
carry word between us. Ai, what days these are. My
sight is longer than that of most men, but I see nothing
that gives me comfort now. If I were young, I think I would
sail with you, Kta, because I have no courage to see what
will happen here."
"No, my lord, I know you. I think were you as young
as I, you would sail to Nephane and meet the trouble
head-on as my father did. As I would do, but I had
Aimu's life to consider, and their souls in my
charge."
"Little Aimu. I hesitated to ask. I feared more bad
news."
"No, thank heaven. I gave her to a husband, and on
his life and honor he swore to me he would protect
her."
"What is her name now?" asked lady Na.
"My lady, she is Aimu t'Elas e Nym sh'Bel t
Osanef."
"T'Osanef," murmured Gan, in that tone
which said: Ei, Sufaki, but with
pity.
"They have loved each other from childhood,"
said Kta. "It was my father's will, and
mine."
"Then it was well done," said Gan. "May
the light of heaven fall gently on them both." And
from an Indras of orthodoxy, it was much. "He is a
brave man, this 't'Osanef, to be husband to our
Aimu now."
"It is true," said Kta, and to the lady Na:
"Pray for her, my lady. They have much need of
it."
"I shall, and for you, and for all who sail with
you," she answered, and included Kurt with a glance of
her lovely eyes, to which Kurt bowed in deep reverence.
"Thank you," said Kta. "Your house will
be in my thoughts too."
"I wish," said Gan, "that you would
change your mind and stay. But perhaps you are right.
Perhaps some day things will be different, since the Methi
is mateless. Someday it may be possible to
return."
"It is possible," said Kta, "if she does
not appoint a Sufaki successor. We do not much speak of it,
but we fear there will be no return, not for our
generation."
Gan's jaw tightened. "Acturi will send ships
out tonight, I think."
"Do not fight t'Tefur," Kta pleaded.
"They will sail, I say, and provide at least a
warning to Edrif."
"When Djan-methi knows of it-"
'Then she will learn the temper of the Isles,"
said Gan, "and the Chosen of Heaven will perhaps
restrain her ambition with sense."
"Ai," murmured Kta. "I do not
want this, Gan."
"This is Hnes's choice. Elas has its own honor
to consider. I have mine."
"Friend of my father, these waters are too close to
Indresul's. You know not what you could let loose. It
is a dangerous act."
"It is," said Gan again, "Hnes's
choice."
Kta bowed his head, bound to silence under Gan's
roof, but that night he spent long in meditation and lay
wakeful on his bed in the room he shared with Kurt.
Kurt watched him, and ventured no question into his
unrest. He had enough of his own that evening, beginning
to
fit together the pieces of what Kta had never explained
to him, the probable scene in the Upei as Nym demanded
justice for Mim's death, while the Methi had in the
actions of Elas' own guest the pretext she needed to
destroy Elas.
So Nym had died, and Elas had fallen.
And Djan could claim he had made it all inevitable, his
marriage with Mim and his loyalty to Elas being the origin
of all her troubles.
. . . Excepting lord Kurt, -who must be returned
alive and unharmed to the Methi's
justice.
Hanan justice.
The justice of a personal anger, where the charges were
nothing she would dare present in the Upei. She would
destroy all he loved, but she would not let him go. Being
Hanan, she believed in nothing after. She would not grant
him quick oblivion. .
He lay on the soft down mattress of Hnes's luxury
and stared into the dark, and slept only the hours just
before dawn, troubled by dreams he could not clearly
remember.
The wind bore fair for the north now, warm from the
Tamur Basin. The blue sail drew taut and
Tavi's bow lanced through the waves, cutting
their burning blue to white foam. •
Still Kta looked often astern, and whether his concern
was more for Gan t'Hnes or for t'Tefur, Kurt was
not sure.
"It is out of our hands," Kurt said
finally.
"It is out of our hands," Kta agreed with yet
another look aft. There was nothing. He bit at his lip.
"Ei, ei, at least he will not be with us
through the Thiad."
"The Necklace. The Lesser Isles." Kurt knew
them by repute, barren crags strung across the Ome
Sin's narrowest waters, between Indresul and Nephane
and claimed by neither side successfully. They were a maze
by fair weather, a killer of ships in storms. "Do we
go through it or around?"
"Through if the weather favors us. To Nephane's
side- wider waters there-if the seas are rough. I do not
treat Indresul's waters with the familiarity the
Isles-folk use. Well, past that barrier we are free, my
friend, free as the north seas and their miserable ports
allow us."
"I have heard," Kurt offered, "that there
is some civilization there, some cities of size."
"There are two towns, and those are primitive. One
might be called a city, Haithen. It is a city of wood, of
frozen streets. Yvesta the mother of snows never looses
those lands. There are no farms, only desolate flats and
impossible mountains and frozen rivers. Ice masses float in
the Yvorst Ome that can crush ships, and there are great
sea beasts the like of which do not visit these blue
waters. Ai, it is nothing like Nephane."
"Are you regretting," Kurt asked softly,
"that you have chosen as you have?"
"It is a strange place we go," said Kta,
"and yet shame to Elas is worse. I think Haithen may
be preferable to the Methi's law. It pains me to say
it, but Haithen may be infinitely preferable to the
Methi's Nephane. Only when we are passing by the coast
of Nephane, I shall think of Aimu, and of Bel, and wish
that I had news of them. That is the hardest thing, to
realize that there is nothing I can do. Elas is not
accustomed to helplessness."
En t'Siran, captain of Rimaris, swung onto
the deck of the courier ship Kadese, beneath the
furled red sails. Such was his haste that he did not even
sit and take tea with the captain of Kadese before
he delivered his message; he took the ritual sip of tea
standing, and scarcely caught his breath before he passed
the cup back to the captain's man and bowed his
courtesy to the senior officer.
"T'Siran," said the courier captain,
"you signaled urgent news."
"A confrontation," said t'Siran,
"between Isles ships and a ship of their own
kind."
"Indeed." The captain put his own cup aside,
signaled a scribe, who began to write. "What happened?
Could you identify any of the houses?"
"Easily on the one side. They bore the moon of
Acturi on their sails-Gan t'Hnes' sons, I am well
sure of it. The other was a strange sail, dark green with a
gold dragon."
"I do not know that emblem," said the captain.
"It must be one of those Sufak designs."
"Surely," agreed t'Siran, for the dragon
Yr was not one of the lucky symbols for an Indras ship.
"It may be a Methi's ship."
"A confrontation, you say. With what
result?"
"A long wait. Then dragon-sail turned aside, toward
the coast of Sufak."
"And the men of Acturi?"
"Held their position some little time. Then they
went back into the Isles. We drew off quickly. We had no
orders to provoke combat with the Isles. That is the sum of
my report."
"It is," said the captain of Kadese,
"a report worth carrying."
"My lord." En t'Siran acknowledged the
unusual tribute from a courier captain, bowed his head and,
as the captain returned the parting courtesy, left.
The captain of Kadese hardly delayed to see
Rimaris spread sail and take her leave before he
shouted an order to his own crew and bade them put about
for Indresul.
The thing predicted was beginning. Nephane had come to a
point of division. The Methi of Indresul had direct
interest in this evidence, which might affect polices up
and down the Ome Sin and bring Nephane nearer its day of
reckoning.
From now on, Kadese's captain thought to
himself, the Methi Ylith would begin to listen to her
captains, who urged that there would be no better time than
this. Heaven favored it.
"Rowers to the benches," he bade his second,
"reliefs at the minimum interval, all available
crew."
With four shifts and a hundred and ten oars, the slim
Kadese was equipped to go the full distance. The
wind was fair behind her. Her double red sail was bellied
out full, and there was nothing faster on either side of
the Ome Shi.
There were scattered clouds, small wisps of white with
gray undersides that grew larger in the east as the hours
passed. The crew of Tavi kept a nervous watch on
the skies, dreading the shift of wind that could mean delay
in these dangerous waters.
In the west, near at hand, rose the grim jagged spires
of the Thiad. The sun declined toward the horizon,
threading color into the scant clouds which touched that
side of the sky.
The waves splashed and rocked at them as Tavi
came dangerously close to a rock that only scarcely broke
the surface. One barren island was to starboard, a long
spine of jagged rocks.
It was the last of the feared islets.
"We are through," exulted Mnek as it fell
behind them. "We are for the Yvorst Ome."
Then sail appeared in the dusky east
Val t'Ran, normally harsh-spoken, did not even swear
when it was reported. He put the helm over for the west,
cutting dangerously near the fringe rocks of the north
Thiad, and sent Pan running to take orders from Kta, who
was coming toward the stern as rapidly as Kta ever moved on
Tavr's deck.
"To the benches!" Kta was shouting, rousing
everyone who had been off duty. Men scrambled before
him.
He strode up to the helm and gave Val the order to
maintain their present westerly heading. "Tkel!"
he called up to the rigging. "What sail?" "I
cannot tell, my lord," Tkel's voice drifted down
from the yard, where the man swung precariously on the
footrope. "The distance is too great."
"We shall keep it so," Kta muttered, and eyed
mistrustfully the great spires and deadlier rough water
which lay to port. "Gently to starboard, Val. Even for
good reason, this is too close."
"Aye, sir," said Val, and the ship came a few
degrees over. "They are following," Tkel shouted
down after a little time had passed. "They must think
we are out of Indresul, my lord."
"The lad is too free with his supposings," Val
said between his teeth.
"Nevertheless," said Kta, "that is
probably the answer." "I will join the deck
crew," Kurt offered. "Or serve as relief at the
benches."
"You are considered of Elas," said Kta.
"It makes the men uneasy when you show haste or
concern. But if work will relieve your nerves, indulge
yourself. Go to the benches." Kta himself was
frightened. It was likely that Kta himself would gladly
have taken a hand with the oars, with the rigging, with
anything that would have materially sped Tavi on
her way. Kurt knew the nemet well enough to read it in his
eyes, though his face was calm. He burned to do something.
They had fenced together; Kurt knew the nemet's
impatient nature. The Ancestors, Kta had told him once,
were rash men. That was the character of Elas.
In the jolted, moving vision of Kta that Kurt had from
the rowers' pit, his own mind numbed by the beat of the
oars and the need to breathe, the nemet still stood
serenely beside Val at the helm, arms folded, staring out
to the horizon. Then Tkel's shrill voice called down so
loudly it rose even over the thunder of the oars.
"Sails off the port bow!"
Tavi altered course. Deck crews ran to the
sheets, the oars shuddered a little at the unexpectedly
deep bite of the blades, lifted. Chal on the catwalk called
out a faster beat. Breath came harder. Vision blurred.
"They are three sails!" Tkel's voice
floated down.
It was tribute to Tavi's discipline that no
one broke time to look. Kta looked, and then walked down
among the rowers along the main deck so they could see him
clearly.
"Well," he said, "we bear due north.
Those are ships of Indresul ahead of us. If we can hold our
present course and they take interest in the other ship,
all will be well. Hya, Chal, ease off the beat.
Make it one which will last. We may be at this no little
time."
The cadence of the oars took a slower beat. Kta went
back to his place at the helm, looking constantly to that
threatened horizon. Whatever the Indras ships were doing
was something outside the world of the pits. The pace
maintained itself, mind lost, no glances at anything but
the sweat-drenched back of the man in front, his shoulders,
clearing the sweep in back only scarcely, bend and breathe
and stretch and pull.
"They are in pursuit," said Sten, whose bench
was aftmost port. . The cadence did not falter.
"They are triremes intercepting us," Kta said
at last, shouting so all could hear. "We cannot outrun
them. Hard starboard. We are going back to Nephane's
side."
At least two hundred and ten oars each, double sail.
As Tavi bore to starboard, Kurt had his first
view of what pursued them, through the carport: two-masted,
a greater and a lesser sail, three banks of oars on a side
lifting and falling like the wings of some sea-skimming
bird. They seemed to move effortlessly despite their
ponderous bulk, gaining with every stroke of their oars,
where men would have reliefs from the benches.
Tavi had none. It was impossible to hold this
pace long. Vision hazed. Kurt drew air that seemed tainted
with blood.
"We must come about," Val cried from the helm.
"We must Come about, my lord, and surrender."
Kta cast a look back. So, from his vantage point, did
Kurt, saw the first of the three Indras triremes pull out
to
the fore of the others, her gold and white sail taut
with the wind. The beat of her oars suddenly doubled, at
maximum speed.
"Up the beat," Kta ordered Chal, and Chal
shouted over the grate and thunder of the oars, quickening
the time to the limit of endurance.
And the wind fell.
The breath of heaven left the sail and had immediate
effect on the speed of Tavi. A soft groan went up
from the crew. They did not slacken the pace.
The leading trireme grew closer, outmatching them in
oarage.
"Hold!" Kta shouted hoarsely, and walked to
the front of the pits. "Hold! Up oars!"
The rhythm ceased, oars at level, men leaning over them
and using their bodies' weight to counter the length of
the sweeps, their breathing raucous and cut with hacking
coughs.
"Pan! Takel!" Kta shouted aloft. "Strike
sail!"
Now a murmur of dismay came from the men, and the crew
hesitated, torn between the habit of obedience and an order
they did not want.
"Move!" Kta shouted at them furiously.
"Strike sail! You men in the pits, ship oars and get
out of there! Plague take it, do not spoil our friendship
with mutiny! Get out of there!"
Lun, pit captain, gave a miserable shake of his head,
then ran in his oar with abrupt violence, and the others
followed suit. Pan and Mnek and Chal and others scrambled
to the rigging, and quickly a " 'ware below!"
rang out and the sail plummeted, tumbling down with a
shrill singing of ropes.
Kurt scrambled from the pit with the others, found the
strength to gain his feet and staggered back to join Kta on
the quarterdeck.
Kta took the helm himself, put the rudder over hard,
depriving Tavi of what momentum she had left.
The leading ship veered a little in its course, no
longer coming directly at them, and tension ebbed
perceptibly among Tavi's men.
Then light flashed a rapid signal from the deck of the
rearmost trireme and the lead ship changed course again,
near enough now that men could be clearly seen on her lofty
deck. The tempo of her oars increased sharply, churning up
the water.
"Gods!" Val murmured incredulously. "My
lord Kta, they are going to ram!"
"Abandon ship!" Kta shouted. "Val,
go-go, man! And you, Kurt-"
There was no time left. The dark bow of the Indras
trireme rushed at Tavi's side, the water foaming white
around the gleaming bronze of the vessel's double ram.
With a grinding shock of wood Tavi's s rail and deck
splintered and the very ship rose and slid sideways in the
water, lifted and pushed into ruin by the towering prow of
the trireme.
Kurt flung an arm around the far rail and clung to it,
shaken off his feet by the tilting of the deck. With a
second tilting toward normal and a grating sound, the
trireme began to back water and disengage herself as
Tavi's wreckage fell away. Dead were Uttered across the
deck. Men screamed. Blood and water washed over the
splintered planking.
"Kurt," Kta screamed at him,
"jump!"
Kurt turned and stared helplessly at the nemet, fearing
the sea as much as enemy weapons. Behind him the second of
the triremes was coming up on the undamaged side of the
listing ship, her oars churning up the bloodied waters.
Some of the survivors in the water were struck by the
blades, trying desperately to cling to them. The gliding
hull rode them under.
Kta seized him by the arm and pushed him over the rail.
Kurt twisted desperately in midair, hit the water hard and
choked, fighting his way to the surface with the
desperation of instinct.
His head broke surface and he gasped in air, sinking
again as he swallowed water in the chop, his hand groping
for anything that might float. A heavy body exploded into
the dark water beside him and he managed to get his head
above Water again as Kta surfaced beside him.
"Go limp," Kta gasped. "I can hold you if
you do not struggle."
Kurt obeyed as Kta's arm encircled his neck, went
under, and then felt the nemet's hand under his chin
lift his face to air again. He breathed, a great gulp of
air, lost the surface again. Kta's strong, sure strokes
carried them both, but the rough water washed over them. Of
a sudden he thought that Kta had lost him-and panicked as
Kta let him go-but the nemet shifted his grip and dragged
him against a floating section of timber.
Kurt threw both arms over it, coughing and choking for
air.
"Hold on!" Kta ^napped at him, and Kurt
obediently tightened his chilled arms, looking at the nemet
across the narrow bit of debris. Wind hit them, the first
droplets of rain. Lightning flashed in the murky sky.
Behind them the galley was coming about. Someone on deck
was pointing at them.
"Behind you," Kurt said to Kta. "They
have us in sight- for something."
Kurt lifted himself from his face on the deck of the
trireme, rose to his knees and knelt beside Kta's
sodden body. The nemet was still breathing, blood from a
head wound washing as a crimson film across the
rain-spattered deck. In another moment he began to try to
rise, still fighting.
Kurt took him by the arm, cast a look at the Indras
officer who stood among the surrounding crew. Receiving no
word from him, he lifted Kta so that he could rise to his
knees, and Kta wiped the blood from his eyes and leaned
over on his hands, coughing.
"On your feet," said the Indras captain.
Kta would not be helped. He shook off Kurt's hand
and completed the effort himself, braced his feet and
straightened.
"Your name," said the officer.
"Kta t'Elas u Nym."
"T'Elas," the man echoed with a nod of
satisfaction. "Aye, I was sure we had a prize. Put
them both in irons. Then put about for Indresul."
Kta gave Kurt a spiritless look, and in truth there was
nothing to do but submit. They were taken together into the
hold-the trireme having far more room belowdecks than
little Tavi-and in that darkness and cold they
were put into chains and left on the bare planking without
so much as a blanket for comfort.
"What now?" Kurt asked, clenching his teeth
against the spasms of chill.
"I do not know," said Kta. "But it would
surely have been better for us if we had drowned with the
rest."'
XVIII
Indresul the shining was set deep within a bay, a great
and ancient city. Her white triangle-arched buildings
spread well beyond her high walls, permanent and secure.
Warships and merchantmen were moored at her docks. The
harbor and the broad streets that fanned up into the city
itself were busy with traffic. In the high center of the
city, at the crest of the hill around which it was built,
rose a second great ring-wall, encircling large buildings
of gleaming white stone, an enormous fortress-temple
complex, the Indume, heart and center of Indresul. There
would be the temple, the shrine that all Indras-descended
revered as the very hearthfire of the universe.
"The home of my people," said Kta as they
stood on the deck waiting for their guards to take them
off. "Our land, which we call on in all our prayers. I
am glad that I have seen it, but I do not think we will
have a long view of it, my friend."
. Kurt did not answer him. No word could improve
matters. In the three days they had been chained in the
hold, he had had time to speak with Kta, to talk as they
once had talked in Elas, long, inconsequential talks,
sometimes even laughing, though the laughter had the taste
of ashes. But the one thing Kta had never said was what was
likely to happen to Kurt, only that he himself would be
taken in charge by the house of Elas-in-Indresul. Kta
undoubtedly did suspect and would not say. Perhaps too he
knew what would likely become of a human among these most
orthodox of Indras. Kurt did not want to foreknow it.
The mournful echo of sealing doors rolled through the
vaulted hall, and through the haze of lamps and incense in
the triangular hall burned the brighter glare of the
holy
fire, the rhmei and the phusmeha of
the Indume fortress. Kurt paused involuntarily as Kta did,
confused by the light and the profusion of faces.
From some doorway hidden by the haze and the light from
the hearthfire there appeared a woman, a shadow hi brocade
flanked by the more massive figures of armed men.
The guards who had brought them from the trireme moved
them forward with the urging of their spear shafts. The
woman did not move. Her face was clearer as they drew near
her; she was goddess-like, tall, willowy. The shining
darkness of her hair was crowned with a headdress that
fitted beside her face like the plates of a helm, and
shimmered when she moved with the swaying of fine gold
chains from the wide wings of it. She was nemet, and of
incredible beauty: Ylith t'Erinas ev Tehal, Methi of
Indresul.
Her dark eyes turned full on them, and Kta fell on his
face before her, full length on the polished stone of the
floor. Her gaze did not so much as flicker; this was the
obeisance due her. Kurt fell to his knees also, and on his
face, and did not look up.
"Nemet," she said, "look at me." Kta
stirred then and sat up, but did not stand. "Your
name," she asked him. Her voice had a peculiar
stillness, clear and delicate. "Methi, I am Kta
t'Elas u Nym."
"Elas. Elas of Nephane. How fares your house there,
t'Elas?"
"The Methi may have heard. I am the last"
"What, Elas fallen?"
"So Fate and the Methi of Nephane willed it."
"Indeed. And how is this, that a man of Indras descent
is companioned by a human?" "He is of my house,
Methi, and he is my friend." "You are an offense,
t'Elas, an affront to my eyes and to the pure light of
heaven. Let t'Elas be given to the examination of the
house he has defiled, and let their recommendation be made
known to me."
She clapped her hands. The guards moved in a clash of
metal and hauled Kta up. Kurt injudiciously flung himself
to his knees, halted suddenly with the point of a spear in
his side. Kta looked down at him with the face of a man who
knew his fate was sealed, and then yielded and went with
them. Kurt flashed a glance at Ylith, anger swelling in his
throat
The staff of the spear across his neck brought him half
stunned to the marble floor, and he expected it to be
through his back in the next instant, but the blow did not
come.
"Human." There was no love in that word.
"Sit up."
Kurt moved his arms and found purchase against the
floor. He did not move quickly, and one of his guards
jerked him up by the arm and let him go again.
"Do you have a name, human?"
"My name," he answered with deliberate
insolence, "is Kurt Liam t'Morgan u Patrick
Edward."
Ylith's eyes traveled over him and fixed last on his
face. "Morgan. This would be your own alien
house."
He made no response. Her tone invited none.
"Never have I looked upon a living human,"
Ylith said softly. "Indeed, this seems more
intelligent than the Tamurlin, is it not so, Lhe?"
"I do not believe," said the slender man at
her left, "that he is Tamurlin, Methi."
"He is still of their blood." A frown darkened
her eyes. "It is an outrage against nature. One would
take him for nemet but for that unwholesome coloration and
until one saw his face. Have him stand. I would take a
closer look at him."
Kurt had both his arms seized, and he was pulled roughly
and abruptly to his feet, his face hot with shame and
anger. But if there was one act that would seal the doom of
all Nephane, friends and enemies alike, it was for the
friend of Elas-in-Nephane to attack this woman. He
stubbornly turned his face away, until the flat of a spear
blade against his cheek turned his head back and he met her
eyes.
"Like one of the inim-born," the
Methi observed. "So one would imagine them, the
children of the upper air, somewhat birdlike, the madness
of eye, the sharpness of features. But there is some
intelligence there too. Lhe, I would save this human a
little time and study him."
"As the Methi wills it."
"Put him under restraint, and when I find the time
I will deal with the matter." Ylith started to turn
away, but paused instead for another look, as if the very
reality of Kurt was incredible to her. "Keep him in
reasonable comfort. He is able to understand, so let him
know that he may expect less comfort if he proves
troublesome."
Reasonable comfort, as Lhe interpreted it, was austere
indeed. Kurt sat against the wall on a straw-filled pallet
that was the only thing between him and the bare stones of
the floor, and shivered in the draft under the door. There
was a rounded circlet of iron around his ankle, secured by
a chain to a ringbolt in the stones of the wall, and it was
beyond his strength to tear free. There was nowhere to go
if he could.
He straightened his leg, dragging the chain along the
floor with him, and stretched out facedown on the pallet,
doubling his chilled arms under him for warmth.
Nothing the Tamurlin had done to him could equal the
humiliation of this; the worst beating he had ever taken
was no shame at all compared to the look with which Ylith
t'Erinas had touched him. They had insisted on washing
him, which he would gladly have done, for he was filthy
from his confinement in the hold, but they leveled spears
at him, forced him to stand against a wall and remove what
little clothing he still wore, then scrub himself
repeatedly with strong soap. Then they hit him with a
bucketful of cold water, and gave him nothing with which to
dry his skin. There was a linen breechclout, not even the
decency of a ctan. That and an iron ring and a cup
of water from which to drink, that was the consideration
Lhe afforded him.
Hours passed, and the oil lamp on the ledge burned out,
leaving only the light that came through the small barred
window from the outer hall. He managed to sleep a little,
turning from side to side, warming first his arms and then
his back against the mattress.
Then, without warning or explanation, men invaded his
cell and forced him from the room under heavy guard,
hastening him along the dim halls, the ring on his ankle
band a constant, metallic sound at every other step.
Upstairs was their destination, a small room somewhere
in the main building, warmed by an ordinary fire in a
common hearth. A single pillar supported its level
ceiling.
To this they chained his hands, passing the chain behind
Mm around the pillar, then they left him, and he was alone
for a great time. It was no hardship; it was warm in this
room. He absorbed the heat gratefully and sank down at the
base of this pillar, leaning against it and bowing his
head, willing even to sleep.
"Human."
He brought his head up, blinking in the dim light. Ylith
had come into the room. She sat down on the ledge beneath
the slit of a window and regarded him curiously. She was
without the crown now, and her massive braids coiled on
either side of her head gave her a strangely fragile
grace.
"You are one of the human woman's
companions," she said, "that she missed
killing."
"No," he said, "I came
independently."
"You are an educated human, as she
is."
"As educated as you are, Methi."
Ylith's eyes registered offense, and, it was
possible, amusement. "You are not a civilized human,
however, and you are therefore demonstrating your lack of
manners."
"My civilization," he said, "is some
twelve thousand years old. And I am still looking for
evidence of yours in this city."
The Methi laughed outright. "I have never met such
answers. You hope to die, I take it. Well, human, look at
me. Look up."
He did so.
"It is difficult to accustom myself to your
face," she said. "But you do reason. I perceive
that. What is the origin of humans, do you know?"
It was, religiously, a dangerous question. "We
are," he said, "children of one of the brothers
of the earth, at least as old as the nemet."
"But not light-born," said Ylith, which was to
say, unholy and lawless. "Tell me this, wise human:
does Phan light your land too?"
"No. One of Phan's brothers lights our
world."
Her brows lifted. "Indeed. Another
sun?"
He saw the snare suddenly, realized that the Indras of
the shining city were not as liberal and cosmic in their
concept of the universe as human-dominated Nephane.
"Phan," she said, "has no
equals."
He did not attempt to answer her. She did not rage at
him, only kept staring, her face deeply troubled. Not
naive, was Ylith of Indresul; she seemed to think deeply,
and seemed to find no answer that pleased her. "You
seem to me," she said, "precisely what I would
expect from Nephane. The Sufaki think such
things."
"The yhia," he said, venturing
dangerously, "is beyond man's grasp, is that not
so, Methi? And when man seeks to understand, being man and
not god, he seeks within mortal limits, and understands his
truth in simple terms and under the guise of familiar words
that do not expand his mortal senses beyond his capacity to
understand. This is what I have heard. We all-being
mortal-deal in models of reality, in
oversimplifications."
It was such a thesis as Nym had posed him once over tea,
in the peace of the rhmei of Elas, when
conversation came to serious things, to religion, to
humanity. They had argued and disagreed, and they had been
able then to smile and reconcile themselves in reason. The
nemet loved debating. Each evening at teatime there was a
question posed if there was no business at hand, and they
would talk the topic to exhaustion.
"You interest me," said Ylith. "I think I
shall hand you over to the priests and let them hear this
wonder, a human that reasons."
"We are," he said, "reasoning
beings."
"Are you of the same source as
Djan-methi?"
"Of the same kind, not the same politics or
beliefs."
"Indeed."
"We have disagreed."
Ylith considered him in some interest. "Tell me, is
the color of her hair truly like that of metal?"
"Like copper."
"You were her lover."
Heat flashed to his face. He looked suddenly and
resentfully into her eyes. "You are well-informed.
Where do you plant your spies?"
"Does the question offend you? Do humans truly
possess a sense of modesty?"
"And any other feeling known to the nemet," he
returned. "I had loved your people. Is this
what your philosophy comes to, hating me because I disturb
your ideas, because you cannot account for me?"
He would never have said such a thing outside Elas. The
nemet themselves were too self-contained, although he could
have said it to Kta. He was exhausted; the hour was late.
He came close to tears, and felt shamed at his own
outburst.
But Ylith tilted her head to one side, a little frown
creasing her wide-set brows. "You are certainly unlike
the truth I have heard of humans." And after a moment
she rose and opened the door, where an elderly man waited,
a white-haired man whose hair flowed to his shoulders, and
whose ctan and pel were gold-bordered
white.
The old man made a profound obeisance to Ylith, but he
did not kneel. By this it was evident that she knew of his
presence there, that they had agreed beforehand.
"Priest," she said, "look on this
creature and tell me what you see."
The priest straightened" and turned his watery eyes
on Kurt. "Stand," he urged gently. Kurt gathered
his almost paralyzed limbs beneath him and struggled
awkwardly to his feet. Suddenly he hoped; he did not know
why this alien priest should inspire that in him, but the
voice was soft and the dark eyes like a benediction.
"Priest," urged the Methi.
"Great Methi," answered the priest, "this
is no easy matter. Whether this is a man as we understand
the word, I cannot say. But he is not Tamurlin. Let the
Methi do as seems just in her own eyes, but it is possible
that she is dealing with a feeling and reasoning being,
whether or not it is a man."
"Is this creature good or evil, priest?"
"What is man, great Methi?"
"Man," snapped the Methi impatiently, "is
the child of Nae. Whose child is he, priest?"
"I do not know, great Methi."
Ylith lowered her eyes then, flicked a glance toward
Kurt and down and back again. "Priest, I charge you,
debate this matter within the college of priests and return
me an answer. Take him with you if it will be
needful."
"Methi, I will consult with them, and we will send
for him if his presence seems helpful."
"Then you are dismissed," she said, and let
the priest go.
Then she left too, and Kurt sank down again against his
pillar, confused and mortally tired and embarrassed. He was
alone and glad to be alone, so he did not have to be so
treated before friends or familiar enemies.
He slumped against his aching joints and tried to will
himself to sleep. In sleep the time passed. In sleep he did
not need to think.
In sleep sometimes he remembered Mim, and thought
himself in Elas, and that the morning bells would never
ring.
Doors opened, boomed shut. People stirred around him,
shuffling here and there, forcing him back to
wakefulness.
The Methi had come back.
This time they brought Kta.
Kta saw him--relief touched his eyes-but he could say
nothing. The Methi's presence demanded his attention.
Kta came and knelt before her, and went full to his face.
His movements were not easy. He appeared to have been
hard-used.
And she ignored him, looking above his prostrate form to
the tall, stern man who bowed stiffly to his knees and rose
again.
"Vel t'Elas," said Ylith, "what has
Elas-in-Indresul determined concerning this man
Kta?"
Kta's distant kinsman bowed again, straightened. He
was of immense dignity, a man reminiscent of Nym. "We
deliver him to the Methi for judgment, for life or for
death."
"How do you find concerning his dealings with
Elas?"
"Let the Methi be gracious. He has kept our law and
still honors our Ancestors, except in the offense for which
we deliver him up to you: his dealings with this human, and
that he is of Nephane."
"Kta t'Elas u Nym," said Ylith.
Kta lifted his face and sat back on his heels.
"Kta t'Elas, your people have chosen an alien
to rule them. Why?"
"She was chosen by heaven, Methi, not by men, and
it was a fair choosing, by the oracles."
"Confirmed in proper fashion by the Upei and the
Families?"
"Yes, Methi."
"Then," she said, looking about at the
officers who had come into the room, "heaven has
decided to deliver Nephane into our hands once more. And
you, u Nym, who were born Indras, where is your allegiance
now?"
"In my father's land, Ylith-methi, and with my
house-friends."
"Do you then reject all allegiance to this
house of Elas, which was father to your
Ancestors?"
"Great Methi," said Kta, and his voice broke,
"I reverence you and the home of my Ancestors, but I
am bound to Nephane by ties equally strong. I cannot
dishonor myself and the Ancestors of Elas by turning
against the city that gave me birth. Elas-in-Indresul would
not understand me if 1 did so."
"You equivocate."
"No, Methi. It is my belief."
"What was your mother's name, U Nym? Was she
Sufaki or was she Indras?"
"Methi, she was the lady Ptas t'Lei e Met
sh'Nym."
"Most honorable, the house of Lei. Then in both
lines you are Indras and well descended, surely of an
orthodox house. Yet you choose the company of Sufaki and
humans. I find this exceedingly difficult of understanding,
Kta t'Elas U Nym."
Kta bowed his head and gave no answer.
"Vel t'Elas," said the Methi, "is
this son of your house in any way a follower of the Sufak
heresy?"
"Great Methi, Elas finds that he has been educated
'into the use of alien knowledge and errors, but his
upbringing is orthodox."
"Kta t'Elas," said the Methi, "what
is the origin of humans?"
"I do not know, Methi."
"Do you say that they are possessed of a soul, and
that they are equal to nemet?"
Kta lifted his head. "Yes, Methi," he said
firmly, "I believe so."
"Indeed, indeed." Ylith frowned deeply and
rose from her place, smoothing the panels of her
chatem. Then she shot a hard look at the guards.
"Lhe, take these prisoners both to the upper prisons
and provide what is needful to their comfort. But confine
them separately and allow them no communication with each
other. None, Lhe."
"Methi." He acknowledged the order with a
bow.
Her eyes lingered distastefully on Kurt.
"This," she said, "is nemetlike. It is
proper that he be decently clothed. Insofar as he thinks he
is nemet, treat him as such."
Light flared.
Kurt blinked and rubbed his eyes as the opening of his
door and the intrusion of men with torches brought him out
. of a sound sleep into panic. Faceless shadows moved in on
him.
He threw off the blanket and scrambled up from the cot
his new quarters provided him-not to fight, not to fight-
that was the worst thing for him and for Kta.
"You must come," said Lhe's voice out of
the glare.
Kurt schooled himself to bow in courtesy, instincts
otherwise. "Yes, sir," he said, and began to put
on his clothing.
When he was done, one guard laid hands on him.
"My lord," he appealed to Lhe, a look of
reproach on his face. And Lhe, dignified, elegant Lhe, was
the gentleman Kurt suspected; he was too much nemet and too
Indras to ignore the rituals of courtesy when they were
offered.
"I think he will come of his own accord," said
Lhe to his companions, and they reluctantly let him
free.
"Thank you," said Kurt, bowing slightly.
"Can you tell me where or why . . . ?"
"No, human," said Lhe. "We do not know,
except that you are summoned to the justice hall."
"Do you hold trials at night?" Kurt
asked, honestly shocked. Even in liberal Nephane, no legal
business could be done after Phan's light had left the
land.
"You cannot be tried," said Lhe. "You are
human."
In some part it did not surprise him, but he had not
clearly considered the legalities of his status. Perhaps,
he thought, his dismay showed on his face, for Lhe looked
uncomfortable, shrugged and made a helpless gesture.
"You must come," Lhe repeated.
Kurt went with them unrestrained, through plain halls
and down several turns of stairs, until they came to an
enormous pair of bivalve doors and passed through them into
a hall of ancient stonework.
The beamed ceiling here was scarcely visible in the
light of the solitary torch, which burned in a wall socket.
The only furniture was a long tribunal and its chairs.
A ringbolt was in the floor, already provided with
chain. Lhe courteously-with immense courtesy-asked him to
stand there, and one of the men locked the chain through
the ring on his ankle.
He stared up at Lhe, rude, angry, and Lhe avoided his
eyes.
"Come," said Lhe to his men. "We are not
bidden to remain." And to Kurt: "Human, you will
win far more by humble words than by pride."
He might have meant it in kindness; he might have been
laughing. Kurt stared at their retreating backs, shaking
all over with rage and fright.
Of a sudden he cried out, kicked at the restraint in a
fit of fury, jerked at it again and again, willing even to
break his ankle if it would make them see him, that he was
not to be treated like this.
All that he succeeded in doing was hi losing his
balance, for there was not enough chain to do more than rip
the skin around his ankle. He sprawled on the bruising
stone and picked himself up, on hands and knees, head
hanging.
"Are you satisfied?" asked the Methi.
He spun on one knee toward the voice beyond the
torch-
light Softly a door closed unseen, and she came into the
circle of light. She wore a robe that was almost a mere
pelan, gauzy blue, and her dark hair was like a
cloud of night, held by a silver circlet around her
temples. She stopped at the edge of the tribunal, her short
tilted brows lifted in an expression of amusement.
"This is not," she said, "the behavior of
an intelligent
being."
He gathered himself to sit, nemet-fashion, on feet and
ankles, hands palm up in his lap, the most correct posture
of a visitor at another's hearth.
"This is not," he answered, "the welcome
I was accorded in Nephane, and some of them were my
enemies. I am sorry if I have offended you,
Methi."
"This is not," she said, "Nephane. And I
am not Djan." She sat down in the last of the chairs
of the tribunal and faced him so, her long-nailed hands
folded before her on the bar. "If you were to strike
one of my people . . ."
He bowed slightly. "They have been kind to me. I
have no intention of striking anyone."
"Ai," she said, "now you are
trying to impress us."
"I am of a house," he answered, hoping that he
was not causing Kta worse difficulty by that claim. "I
was taught courtesy. I was taught that the honor of that
house is best served by courtesy."
"It is," she said, "a fair
answer."
It was the first grace she had granted him. He looked up
at her with a little relaxing of his defenses.
"Why," he asked, "did you call me
here?"
"You troubled my dreams," she said. "I
saw fit to trouble yours." And then she frowned
thoughtfully. "Do you dream?"
It was not humor, he realized; it was, for a nemet, a
religiously reasonable question.
"Yes," he said, and she thought about that for
a time.
"The priests cannot tell me what you are," she
said finally. "Some urge that you be put to death
quite simply; others urge that you be killed by
atia. Do you know what that means,
t'Morgan?"
"No," he said, perceiving it was not threat
but question.
"It means," she said, "that they think
you have escaped the nether regions and that you should be
returned there with such pains and curses as will bind you
there. That is a measure of their distress at you.
Atia has not been done in centuries. Someone would
have to research the rites before they could be performed.
I think some priests are doing that now. But Kta t'Elas
insists you have a soul, though he could lose his own for
that heresy."
"Kta," said Kurt with difficulty through his
own fear, "is a gentle and religious man.
He-"
"T'Morgan," she said, "you are my
concern at the moment, what you are."
"You do not want to know. You will ask until you
get the answer that agrees with what you want to hear, that
is all."
"You have the look," she said, "of a
bird, a bird of prey. Other humans I have seen had the
faces of beasts. I have never seen one alive or clean. Tell
me, if you had not that chain, what would you do?"
"I would like to get off my knees," he said.
"This floor is cold."
It was rash impudence. It chanced to amuse her. Her
laugh held even a little gentleness. "You are
appealing. And if you were nemet, I could not tolerate that
attitude in you. But what things really pass in your mind?
What would you, if you were free?"
He shrugged, stared off into the dark. "I ... would
ask for Kta's freedom," he said. "And we
would leave Indresul and go wherever we could find a
harbor."
"You are loyal to him."
"Kta is my friend. I am of Elas."
"You are human. Like Djan, like the
Tamurlin."
"No," he said, "like neither."
"Wherein lies the difference?"
"We are of different nations."
"You were her lover, t'Morgan. Where
do you come from?"
"I do not know."
"Do not know?"
"I am lost. I do not know where I am Or where home
is."
She considered him, her beautiful face more than usually
nonhuman with the light falling on it at that angle, like a
slightly abstract work of art. "The hearthfire of your
kind, assuming you are civilized, lies far distant. It
would be terrible to die among strangers, to be buried with
rites not your own, with no one to call you by your right
name."
Kurt bowed his head, of a sudden seeing another darkened
room, Mini lying before the hearthfire of Elas, Mim without
her own name for her burying in Nephane: alien words and
alien gods, and the helplessness he had felt. He was afraid
suddenly with a fear she had put a name to, and he thought
of himself dead and being touched by them and committed to
burial in the name of gods not his and rites he did not
understand. He almost wished they would throw him
in the sea and give him to the fish and to
Kalyt's green-haired daughters.
"Have I touched on something painful?" Ylith
asked softly. "Did you find the Guardians of Elas
somewhat resentful of your presence, or did you imagine
that you were nemet?"
"Elas," he said, "was home to
me."
"You married there."
He looked up, startled, surprised into reaction.
"Did she consent," she asked, "or was she
given?"
"Who . . . told you of that?"
"Elas-in-Indresul examined Kta t'Elas on the
matter. I ask you, did she consent freely?"
"She consented." He put away his anger and
assumed humility for Mini's sake, made a bow of
request. "Methi, she was one of your own people, born
on Indresul's side. Her name was Mini t'Nethim e
Sel."
Ylith's brows lifted in dismay. "Have you
spoken with Lhe of this?"
"Methi?"
"He is of Nethim. Lhe t'Nethim u Kma,
second-son to the lord Kma. Nethim is of no great
friendship to Elas. T'Elas did not mention the house
name of the lady Mim."
"He never knew it. Methi, she was buried without
her right name. It would be a kindness if you would tell
the lord Kma that she is dead, so they could make prayers
for her. I do not think they would want to hear that
request from me."
"They will ask who is responsible for her
death."
"Shan t'Tefur u Tlekef and Djan of
Nephane."
"Not Kurt t'Morgan?"
"No." He looked down, unwilling to give way hi
her sight. The nightmare remembrances he had crowded out of
his mind in the daylight were back again, the dark and the
fire, and Nym standing before the hearthfire calling upon
his Ancestors with Mim dead at his feet. Nym could tell
them his grievances in person now. Nym and Ptas, Hef. They
had walked and breathed that night and now they had gone to
join her. Shadows now, all of them.
"I will speak to Kma t'Nethim and to Lhe,"
she said.
"Maybe," Kurt said, "you ought to omit to
tell them that she married a human."
Ylith was silent a moment. "I think," she
said, "that you grieve over her very much. Our law
teaches that you have no soul, and that she would have
sinned very greatly in consenting to such a
union."
"She is dead. Leave it at that."
"If," she continued, relentless in the pursuit
of her thought, "if I admitted that this was
not so, then it would mean that many wise men have been
wrong, that our priests are wrong, that our state has made
centuries of error. I would have to admit that in an
ordered universe there are creatures which do not fit the
order; I would have to admit that this world is not the
only one, that Phan is not the only god. I would have to
admit things for which men have been condemned to death for
heresy. Look up at me, human. Look at me."
He did as she asked, terrified, for he suddenly realized
what she was saying. She suspected the truth. There was no
hope in argument. It was not politically or religiously
expedient to have the truth published.
"You insist," she said, "that there are
two universes, mine and yours, and that somehow you have
passed into mine. By my rules you are an animal; I reason
that even an animal could possess the outward attributes of
speech and upright bearing. But in other things you are
nemetlike. I dreamed, t'Morgan. I dreamed, and you were
dead in my dream, and I looked on your face and it troubled
me exceedingly., I thought then that you had been alive and
that you had loved a nemet, and that therefore you must
have a soul. And I woke and was still troubled,
exceedingly."
"Kta," he said, "did nothing other than
you have done. He was troubled. He helped me. He ought to
be set free."
"You do not understand. He is nemet. The law
applies to him. You . . . can be kept. On him, I must
pronounce sentence. Would you choose to die with Kta,
rather than enjoy your life in confinement? You could be
made comfortable. It would not be that hard a
life."
He found surprisingly little difficult about the answer.
At the moment he was not even afraid. "I owe
Kta," he said. "He never objected to my company,
living. And that, among nemet, seems to have been a rare
friendship."
Ylith seemed a little surprised. "Well," she
said, rising and smoothing her skirts. "I will let you
return to your sleep,
t'Morgan. I will honor some of your requests. Nethim
will give her honor at my request."
"I am grateful for that, at least, Methi."
"Do you want for anything?"
"To speak with Kta," he said, "that most
of all."
"That," she said, "will not be
permitted."
XIX
Keys rattled. Kurt stirred out of the torpor of long
waiting. Suddenly he realized it was not breakfast. Too
many people were in the hall; he heard their moving, the
insertion of the key. Another of the moods of Ylith-methi,
he reckoned.
Or it was an execution detail, and he was about to learn
what had become of Kta.
Lhe led them, Lhe with fatigue marks under his eyes and
his normally impeccable hair disarranged. A tai, a
short sword, was through his belt.
"Wait down the hall," he said to the
others.
They did not want to go. He repeated the order, this
time with wildness in his voice, and they almost fled his
presence.
No! Kurt started to protest, rising off his
cot, but they were gone. Lhe closed the door and stood with
his hand clenched on the hilt of the tai.
"I am t'Nethim," said Lhe. "My
father's business is with Vel t'Elas. Mine is with
you. Mim t'Nethim was my cousin."
Kurt recovered his dignity and bowed slightly, ignoring
the threat of the fury that trembled in Lhe's nostrils.
After such a point, there was little else to do. "I
honored her," he said, "very much."
"No," said Lhe. "That you did
not."
"Please. Say the rites for her."
"We have said rites, with many prayers for the
welfare of her soul. Because of Mim • t'Nethim we
have spoken well of Elas to our Guardians for the first
tune in centuries: even in ignorance, they sheltered her.
But other things we will not forgive. There is no peace
between the Guardians of Nethim and you, human. They do not
accept this disgrace."
"Mim thought them in harmony with her choice,"
said Kurt. "There was peace in Mim. She loved Nethim
and she loved Bias."
It did not greatly please Lhe, but it affected him
greatly. His lips became a hard line. His brows came as
near to meeting as a nemet's might.
"She was consenting?" he asked. "Elas did
not command this of her, giving her to you?"
"At first they opposed it, but I asked Mim's
consent before I asked Elas. I wished her happy,
t'Nethim. If you are not offended to hear it, I loved
her."
A vein beat ceaselessly at Lhe's temple. He was
silent a moment, as if gathering the self-control to speak.
"We are offended. But it is clear she trusted you,
since she gave you her true name in the house of her
enemies. She trusted you more than Elas."
"No. She knew I would keep that to myself, but it
was not fear of Elas. She honored Elas too much to burden
their honor with knowing the name of her house."
"I thank you, that you confessed her true name to
the Methi so we could comfort her soul. It is a great
deal," he added coldly, "that we thank a
human."
"I know it is," said Kurt, and bowed, courtesy
second nature by now. He lifted his eyes cautiously to
Lhe's face; there was no yielding there.
Scurrying footsteps approached the door. With a timid
knock, a lesser guardsman cracked the door and awkwardly
bowed his apology. "Sir. Sir. The Methi is waiting for
this human. Please, sir, she has sent t'Iren to ask
about the delay."
"Out," Lhe snapped. The head vanished out of
the doorway. Lhe stood for a moment, fingers white on the
hilt of the tai. Then he gestured abruptly to the
door. "Human. You are not mine to deal with.
Out."
The summons this time was to the fortress
rhmei, into a gathering of the lords of Indresul,
shadowy figures in the firelit hall of state. Ylith waited
beside the hearthflre itself, wearing again the wide-winged
crown, a slender form of color and light in the dim hall,
her gown the color of flame and the light glancing from the
metal around her face.
Kurt went down to his knees and on his face without
being forced; despite that a guard held him there with the
butt of a spear in his back.
"Let him sit," said Ylith. "He. may look
at me."
Kurt sat back on his heels, amid a great murmuring of
the Indras lords. He realized to his hurt that they
murmured against that permission. He was not fit to meet
their Methi as even a humble chan might, making a
quick and dignified obeisance and rising. He laced his
hands in his lap, proper for a man who had been given no
courtesy of welcome, and kept his head bowed despite the
permission. He did not want to stir their anger. There was
nowhere to begin with them, to whom he was an animal; there
was no protest and no action that would make any difference
to them.
"T'Morgan," Ylith insisted softly.
He would not, even for her. She let him alone after
that, and quietly asked someone to fetch Kta.
It did not take long. Kta came of his own volition, as
far as the place where Kurt knelt, and there he too went to
his knees and bowed his head, but he did not make the full
prostration and no one insisted on it. He was at least
without the humiliation of the iron band that Kurt still
wore on his ankle.
If they were to die, Kurt thought wildly, irrationally,
he would ask them to remove it. He did not know why it
mattered, but it did; it offended his pride more than the
other indignities, to have something locked on his person
against which he had no power. He loathed it.
"T'Elas," said the Methi, "you have
had a full day to reconsider your decision."
"Great Methi," said Kta in a voice faint but
steady, "I have given you the only answer I will ever
give."
"For love of Nephane?"
"Yes."
"And for love of the one who destroyed your
hearth?"
"No. But for Nephane."
"Kta t'Elas," said the Methi, "I have
spoken at length with Vel t'Elas. They would take you
to the hearth of your Ancestors, and I would permit that,
if you would remember that you are Indras."
He hesitated long over that. Kurt felt the anxiety in
him, but he would not offend Kta's dignity by turning
to urge him one way or the other.
"I belong to Nephane," said Kta.
"Will you then refuse me, will you directly
refuse me, t'Elas, knowing the meaning of that
refusal?"
"Methi," pleaded Kta, "let me be, let me
alone in peace. Do not make me answer you."
"Then you were brought up in reverence of Indras
law and the Ind."
"Yes, Methi."
"And you admit that I have the authority to require
your obedience? That I can curse you from hearth and from
city, from all holy rites, even that of burial? That I have
the power to consign your undying soul to perdition to all
eternity?"
"Yes," said Kta, and his voice was no more
than a whisper in that deathly silence.
"Then, t'Elas, I am sending you and the human
t'Morgan to the priests. Consider, consider well the
answers you will give them."
The temple lay across a wide courtyard, still within the
walls of the Indume, a cube of white marble, vast beyond
all expectation. The very base of its door was as high as
the shoulder of a man, and within the triangular
rhmei of the temple blazed the phusmeha
of the greatest of all shrines, the hearthfire of all
mankind.
Kta stopped at the threshold of the inner shrine, that
awful golden light bathing his sweating face and reflecting
in his eyes. He had an expression of terror on his face
such as Kurt had never seen in him. He faltered and would
not go on, and the guards took him by the arms and led him
forward into the shrine, where the roar of the fire drowned
the sound of their steps.
Kurt started to follow him, in haste. A spearshaft
slammed across his belly, doubling him over with a cry of
pain, swallowed in the noise.
When he straightened in the hands of the guards, barred
from that holy place, he saw Kta at the side of the
hearth-fire fall to his face on the stone floor. The guards
with him bowed and touched hands to lips in reverence,
bowed again and withdrew as white-robed priests entered the
hall from beyond the fire.
One was the elderly priest who had defended him to the
Methi, the only one of all of them in whom Kurt had
hope.
He jerked free, cried out to the priest, the shout also
swallowed in the roar. Kta had risen and vanished with the
priests into the light.
His guards recovered Kurt, snatching him back with
violence he was almost beyond feeling.
"The priest," he kept telling them. "That
priest, the white-haired one, I want to speak with him. Can
I not speak with him?"
"Observe silence here," one said harshly.
"We do not know the priest you mean."
"That priest!" Kurt cried, and jerked loose,
threw a man skidding on the polished floor and ran into the
rhmei, flinging himself facedown so close to the
great fire bowl that the heat scorched his skin.
How long he lay there was not certain. He almost
fainted, and for a long time everything was red-hazed and
the air was too hot to breathe; but he had claimed
sanctuary, as Mother Isoi had claimed it first in the Song
of the Ind, when Phan came to kill mankind.
White-robed priests stood around him, and finally an
aged and blue-veined hand reached down to him, and he
looked up into the face he had hoped to find.
He wept, unashamed. "Priest," he said, not
knowing how to address the man with honor, "please
help us."
"A human," said the priest, "ought not to
claim sanctuary. It is not lawful. You are a pollution on
these holy stones. Are you of our religion?"
"No, sir," Kurt said.
The old man's lips trembled. It might have been the
effect of age, but his watery eyes were frightened.
"We must purify this place," he said, and one
of the younger priests said, "Who will go and tell
this thing to the Methi?"
"Please," Kurt pleaded, "please give us
refuge here."
"He means Kta t'Elas," said one of the
others, as if it Was a matter of great wonder to them.
"He is house-friend to Elas," said the old
man.
"Light of heaven," breathed the younger.
"Elas . . . with this?"
"Nethim," said the old man, "is also
involved."
"Ai," another murmured.
And together they gathered Kurt up and brought him with
them, talking together, their steps beginning to echo now
that they were away from the noise of the fire.
Ylith turned slowly, the fine chains of her headdress
gently swaying and sparkling against her hair, and the
light of the hearthfire of the fortress leaped flickering
across her face. With a glance at the priest she settled
into her chair and sat leaning back, looking down at
Kurt.
"Priest," she said at last, "you have
reached some conclusion, surely, after holding them
both so long a time." "Great Methi, the College
is divided in its opinion." "Which is to say it
has reached no conclusion, after three days of questioning
and deliberation." "It has reached several
conclusions, however-" "Priest," exclaimed
the Methi in irritation, "yea or nay?" The old
priest bowed very low. "Methi, some think that the
humans are what we once called the
god-kings, the children of the great earth-snake Yr
and of the wrath of Phan when he was the enemy of mankind,
begetting monsters to destroy the world."
"This is an old, old theory, and the god-kings were
long ago, and capable of mixing blood with man. Has there
ever been a mixing of human blood and nemet?"
"None proved, great Methi. But we do not know the
origin of the Tamurlin, and he is most evidently of their
kind. Now you are asking us to resolve, as it were, the
Tamurlin question immediately, and we do not have
sufficient knowledge to do so, great Methi."
"You have him, I sent him to you for you
to examine. Does he tell you nothing?" "What he
tells us is unacceptable." "Does he lie? Surely
if he lies, you can trap him." "We have tried,
great Methi, and he will not be moved from what he says. He
speaks of another world and another sun. I think he
believes these things." "And do you believe them,
priest?"
The old man bowed his head, clenching his aged hands.
"Let the Methi be gracious; these matters are
difficult or you would not have consulted the College. We
wonder this: if he is not nemet, what could be his origin?
Our ships have ranged far over all the seas, and never
found his like. When humans will to do it, they come to us,
bringing machines and forces our knowledge does not
understand. If he is not from somewhere within our
knowledge, then- forgive my simplicity-he must still be
from somewhere. He calls it another earth. Perhaps it is a
failure of language, a misunderstanding, but where in all
the lands we know could have been his home?"
"What if there was another? How would our religion
encompass it?"
The priest turned his watery eyes on Kurt, kneeling
beside him. "I do not know," he said.
"Give me an answer, priest. I will make you commit
yourself. Give me an answer."
"I ...would rather believe him mortal than
immortal, and I cannot quite accept that he is an animal.
Forgive me, great Methi, what may be heresy to wonder, but
Phan was not the eldest born of Ib. There were other
beings, whose nature is unclear. Perhaps there were others
of Phan's kind. And were there a thousand others, it
makes the yhia no less true."
"This is
heresy, priest."
"It is," confessed the priest. "But I do
not know an answer otherwise."
"Priest, when I look at him, I see neither reason
nor logic. I question what should not be questioned. If
this is Phan's world, and there is another, then what
does this foretell, this . . . intrusion ... of humans into
ours? There is power above Phan's, yes; but what can
have made it necessary that nature be so upset, so inside
out? Where are these events tending, priest?"
"I do not know. But if it is Fate against which we
struggle, then our struggle will ruin us."
"Does not the yhia bid us accept things
only within the limits of our own natures?"
"It is impossible to do otherwise, Methi."
"And therefore does not nature sometimes command us
to resist?"
"It has been so reasoned, Methi, although not all
the College is in agreement on that."
"And if we resist Fate, we must perish?"
"That is doubtless so, Methi."
"And someday it might be our fate to
perish?"
"That is possible, Methi."
She slammed her hand down on the arm of her chair.
"I refuse to bow to such a possibility. I refuse to
perish, priest, or to lead men to perish. In sum, the
College does not know the answer."
"No, Methi, we must admit we do not."
"I have a certain spiritual authority
myself."
"You are the viceroy of Phan on earth."
"Will the priests respect that?"
"The priests," said the old man, "are not
anxious to have this matter cast back into then: hands.
They will welcome your intervention in the matter of the
origin of humans, Methi."
"It is," she said, "dangerous to the
people that such thoughts as these be heard outside this
room. You will not repeat the reasoning we have made
together. On your life, priest, and on your soul, you will
not repeat what I have said to you."
The old priest turned his head and gave Kurt a furtive,
troubled look. "Let the Methi be gracious, this being
is not deserving of punishment for any wrong."
"He invaded the Rhmei of Man."
"He sought sanctuary."
"Did you give it?"
"No," the priest admitted.
"That is well," said Ylith. "You are
dismissed, priest."
The old man made a deeper bow and withdrew, backing
away. The heavy tread and metal clash of armed men
accompanied the opening of the door. The armed men remained
after it was closed. Kurt heard and knew they were there,
but he must not turn to look; he knew his time was short.
He did not want to hasten it. The Methi still looked down
on him, the tiny chains swaying, her dark face soberly
thoughtful.
"You create difficulties wherever you go," she
said softly.
"Where is Kta, Methi? They would not tell me. Where
is he?"
"They returned him to us a day ago."
"Is he . . . ?"
"I have not given sentence." She said it with
a shrug, then bent those dark eyes full upon him. "I
do not really wish to kill him. He could be valuable to me.
He knows 'it. I could hold him up to the other
Indras-descended of Nephane and say, look, we are merciful,
we are forgiving, we are your people. Do not fight against
us."
Kurt looked up at her, for a moment lost in that dark
gaze, believing as many a hearer would believe Ylith
t'Erinas. Hope rose irrationally in him, on the tone of
her gentle voice, her skill to reach for the greatest
hopes. And good or evil, he did not know clearly which she
was.
She was not like Djan, familiar and human and
wielding
power like a general. Ylith was a methi as the office
must have been: a goddess-on-earth, doing things for a
goddess' reasons and with amoral morality, creating
truth.
Rewriting things as they should be.
He felt an awe of her that he had felt of nothing
mortal, believed indeed that she could erase the both of
them as if they had never been. He had been within the
Rhmei of Man, had been beside the fire-the skin on
his arms was still painful. When Ylith spoke to him he felt
the roaring silence of that fire drowning him.
He was fevered. He was fatigued. He saw the signs in
himself, and feared instead his own weakness.
"Kta would be valuable to you," he said,
"even unwilling." He felt guilty, knowing
Kta's stubborn pride. "Elas was the victim of one
methi; it would impress Nephane's families if another
methi showed him mercy."
"You have a certain logic on your side. And what of
you? What shall I do with you?"
"I am willing to live," he said.
She smiled that goddess-smile at him, her eyes alone
alive. "You existence is a trouble, but if I am rid of
you, it will not solve matters. You would still have
existed. What should I write at your death? That this day
we destroyed a creature which could not possibly exist, and
so restored order to the universe?"
"Some," he said, "are urging you to do
that."
She leaned back, curling her bejeweled fingers about the
carved fishes of the chair arms. "If, on the other
hand, we admit you exist, then where do you exist? We have
always despised the Sufaki for accepting humans and nemet
as one state; herein began the heresies with which they
pervert pure religion, heresies which we will not
tolerate."
"Will you kill them? That will not change
them."
"Heresy may not live. If we believed otherwise, we
should deny our own religion."
"They have not crossed the sea to trouble
you."
Ylith's hand came down sharply on the chair arm.
"You are treading near the brink, human."
Kurt bowed his head.
"You are ignorant," she said. "This is
understandable. I know of report that Djan-methi is ...
highly approachable. I have warned you before. I am not as
she is."
"I ask you ... to listen. Just for a moment, to
listen."
"First convince me that you are wise in nemet
affairs."
He bowed his head once more, unwilling to dispute with
her to no advantage.
"What," she said after a moment, "would
you have to say that is worth my time? You have my
attention, briefly. Speak."
"Methi," he said quietly, "what I would
have said, were
answers to questions your priests did not know how to
ask
me. My people are very old now, thousands and
thousands
of years of mistakes behind us that you do not have
to
make. But maybe I am wrong, maybe it is what you
call
yhia, that I have intruded where I have no
business to be
and you will not listen because you cannot listen. But
I
could tell you more than you want to hear; I could tell
you
the future, where your precious little war with
Nephane
could lead you. I could tell you that my native world
does
not exist any longer, that Djan's does not, all for
a war
grown so large and so long that it ruins whole worlds
as
yours sinks
ships."
/
"You blaspheme!"
He had begun; she wished him silent. He poured out what
he had to say in a rush, though guards ran for him.
"If you kill every last Sufaki you will still find
differences to fight over. You will run out of people on
this earth before you run out of differences. Methi, listen
to me! You know-if you have any sense you know what I am
telling you. You can listen to me or you can do the whole
thing over again, and your descendants will be sitting
where I am."
Lhe had him, dragged him backward, trying to force him
to stand. Ylith was on her feet, beside her chair.
"Be silent!" Lhe hissed at him, his hard
fingers clamped into Kurt's arm.
"Take him from here," said Ylith. "Put
him with t'Elas. They are both mad. Let them comfort
one another in their madness."
"Methi," Kurt cried.
Lhe had help now. They brought him to his feet, forced
him from the hall and into the corridor, where, finally,
clear sense returned to him and he ceased to fight
them.
"You were so near to life," Lhe said.
"It is all right, t'Nethim," Kurt said.
"You will not be cheated."
They went back to the upper prisons. Kurt knew the way,
and, when they had come to the proper door, Lhe
dismissed the reluctant guards out of earshot. "You
are truly mad," he said, fitting the key in the lock.
"Both of you. She would give t'Elas honor, which
he refuses. He has attempted suicide; we had to prevent
him. It was our duty to do this. He was being taken from
the temple. He meant to cast himself to the pavement, but
we pushed him back, so that he fell instead on the steps.
We have provided comforts, which he will not use."
He dared look Lhe in the eyes, saw both anger and
trouble there. Lhe t'Nethim was asking something of
him; for a moment he was not sure what, and then he thought
that the Methi would not be pleased if Kta evaded her
justice. Elas had once hazarded its honor and its existence
on receiving a prisoner in trust, and had lost. Methi's
law. Elas had risked it because of a promise unwittingly
false.
Nethim was involved; the priest had said it. The honor
of Nethim was in grave danger. Both Elas and the Methi had
touched it.
The door opened. Lhe gestured him to go in, and locked
the door behind him.
There were two cots inside, and a table beneath a high
barred window. Kta lay fully clothed, covered with dust and
dried blood. They had brought him back the day before. In
all that time they had not cared for him nor he for
himself. Kurt exploded inwardly with fury at all nemet,
even with Kta.
"Kta." Kurt bent over him, and saw Kta blink
and stare chillingly nothingward. There was vacancy there.
Kurt did not ask consent; he went to the table where there
was the usual washing bowl and urn. Clean clothes were laid
there, and cloths, and a flask of telise. Lhe had
not lied. It was Kta's choice.
Kurt spread everything on the floor beside Kta's
cot, unstopped the telise and slipped his arm
beneath Kta's head, putting the flask to his lips.
Kta swallowed a little of the potent liquid, choked over
it and swallowed again. Kurt stopped the flask and set it
aside, then soaked a cloth in water and began to wipe the
mingled sweat and blood and dirt off the nemet's face.
Kta shivered when the cloth touched his neck; the water was
cold.
"Kta," said Kurt, "what
happened?"
"Nothing," said the nemet, not even looking at
him. "They brought . . . they brought me back.
..."
Kurt regarded him sorrowfully. "Listen, friend, I
am trying as best I know. But if you need better care, if
there are things broken, tell me. They will send for it. I
will ask them for it."
"They are only scratches." The threat of
outsiders seemed to lend Kta strength. He struggled to
rise, leaning on an elbow that was painfully torn. Kurt
helped him. The telise was having effect; although
the sense of well-being would be brief, Kta did not move as
if he was seriously hurt. Kurt put a pillow into place at
the corner of the wall, and Kta leaned back on it with a
grimace and a sigh, looked down at his badly lacerated knee
and shin, flexed the knee experimentally.
"I fell," Kta said.
"So I heard." Kurt refolded the stained cloth
and started blotting at the dirt on the injured knee.
It needed some time to clean the day-old injuries, and
necessarily it hurt. From time to time Kurt insisted Kta
take a sip of telise, though it was only toward
the end that Kta evidenced any great discomfort. Through it
all Kta spoke little. When the injuries were clean and
there was nothing more to be done, Kurt sat and looked at
him helplessly. In Kta's face the fatigue was evident.
It seemed far more than sleeplessness or wounds, something
inward and deadly.
Kurt settled him flat again with a pillow under his
head. Considering that he himself had been without sleep
the better part of three days, he thought that weariness
might be a major part of it, but Kta's eyes were fixed
again on infinity.
"Kta."
The nemet did not respond and Kurt shook him. Kta did no
more than blink.
"Kta, you heard me and I know it. Stop this and
look at me. Who are you punishing? Me?"
There was no response, and Kurt struck Kta's face
lightly, then enough that it would sting. Kta's lips
trembled and Kurt looked at him in instant remorse, for it
was as if he had added the little burden more than the
nemet could bear. The threatened collapse terrified
him.
Tired beyond endurance, Kurt sank down on his heels and
looked at Kta helplessly. He wanted to go over to his own
cot and sleep; he could not think any longer, except that
Kta wanted to die and that he did not know what to do.
"Kurt." The voice was weak, so distant
Kta's lips hardly seemed to move.
"Tell me how to help you."
Kta blinked, turned his head, seeming for the moment to
have his mind focused. "Kurt, my friend, they . .
."
"What have they done, Kta? What did they
do?"
"They want my help and ... if I will not ... I lose
my life, my soul. She will curse me from the earth ... to
the old gods . . . the-" He choked, shut his eyes and
forced a calm over himself that was more like Kta. "I
am afraid, my friend, mortally afraid. For all eternity.
But how can I do what she asks?"
"What difference can your help make against
Nephane?" Kurt asked. "Man, what pitiful little
difference can it make one way or the other? Djan has
weapons enough; Ylith has ships enough. Let others settle
it. What are you? She has offered you life and your
freedom, and that is better than you had of Djan,"
"I could not accept Djan-methi's conditions
either."
"Is it worth this, Kta? Look at you! Look at you,
and tell me it is worth it. Listen, I would not blame you.
All Nephane knows how you were treated there. Who in
Nephane would blame you if you turned to
Indresul?"
"I will not hear your arguments," Kta
cried.
"They are sensible." Kurt seized his arm and
kept him from turning his face to the wall again.
"They are sensible arguments, Kta, and you know
it."
"I do not understand reason any longer. The temple
and the Methi will condemn my soul for doing what I know is
right. Kurt, I could understand dying, but this . . . this
is not justice. How can a reasonable heaven put a man to a
choice like this?"
"Just do what they want, Kta. It doesn't cost
anyone much, and if you are only alive, you can
worry about the right and the wrong of it later."
"I should have died with my ship," the nemet
murmured. "That is where I was wrong. Heaven gave me
the chance to die: in Nephane, in the camp of the Tamurlin,
with Tavi. I would have peace and honor then. But
there was always you. You are the disruption in my fate. Or
its agent. You are always there, to make the
difference."
Kurt found his hand trembling as he adjusted the blanket
over the raving nemet, trying to soothe him, taking for
nothing the words that hurt. "Please," he said.
"Rest, Kta."
"Not your fault. It is possible to reason. . . .
One must always reason ... to know . . ."
"Be still."
"If," Kta persisted with fevered intensity,
"if I had died
in Nephane with my father, then my friends, my crew,
would have avenged me. Is that not so?"
"Yes," Kurt conceded, reckoning the temper of
men like Val and Tkel and their company. "Yes, they
would have killed Shan t'Tefur."
"And that," said Kta, "would have cast
Nephane into chaos, and they would have died, and come to
join Elas in the shadows. Now they are dead-as they would
have died-but I am alive. Now I, Elas-"
"Rest. Stop this."
"Elas was shaped to the ruin of Nephane, to bring
down the city in its fall. I am the last of Elas. If I had
died before this I would have died innocent of my
city's blood, and mine would have been on
Djan-methi's hands. Then my soul would have had rest
with theirs, whatever became of Nephane. Instead, I lived .
. . and for that I deserve to be where I am."
"Kta, hush. Sleep. You have a belly full of
telise and no food to settle it. It has unbalanced
your mind. Please. Rest."
"It is true," said Kta, "I was born to
ruin my people. It is just . . . what they try to make me
do."
"Blame me for it," said Kurt. "I had
rather hear that than this sick rambling. Answer me what I
am, or admit that you cannot foretell the future."
"It is logical," said Kta, "that human
fate brought you here to deal with human fate."
"You are drunk, Kta."
"You came for Djan-methi," said Kta. "You
are for her."
Kta's dark eyes closed, rolled back helplessly. Kurt
moved at last, realizing the knot at his belly, the sickly
gathering of fear, dread of Guardians and Ancestors and the
nemet's reasoning.
Kta at last slept. For a long time Kurt stood staring
down at him, then went to his own side of the room and lay
down on the cot, not to sleep, not daring to, only to rest
his aching back. He feared to leave Kta unwatched, but at
some time Ms eyes grew heavy, and he closed them only for a
moment.
He jerked awake, panicked by a sound and simultaneously
by the realization that he had slept.
The room was almost in darkness, but the faintest light
came from the barred window ever the table. Kta was on his
feet, naked despite the chill, and had set the water bucket
on the table, standing where a channel in the stone floor
made a drain beneath the wall, beginning to wash
himself.
Kurt looked to the window, amazed to find the light was
that of dawn. That Kta had become concerned about his
appearance seemed a good sign. Methodically Kta dipped up
water and washed, and when he had done what he could by
that means, he took the bucket and poured water slowly over
himself, letting it complete the task.
Then he returned to his cot and wrapped in the blanket
He leaned against the wall, eyes closed, lips moving
silently. Gradually he slipped into the state of meditation
and rested unmoving, the morning sun beginning to bring
detail to his face. He looked at peace, and remained so for
about half an hour.
The day broke full, a shaft of light finding its way
through the barred window. Kurt stirred himself and
straightened the clothing that his restless sleeping had
twisted in knots.
Kta rose and dressed also, in his own hard-used
clothing, refusing the Methi's gifts. He looked in
Kurt's direction with a bleak and yet reassuring
smile.
"Are you all right?" Kurt asked him.
"Well enough, considering," said Kta. "It
comes to me that I said things I would not have
said."
"It was the telise. I do not take them for
intended."
"I honor you," said Kta, "as my
brother."
"You know," said Kurt, "that I honor you
in the same way."
He thought that Kta had spoken as he did because there
were hurrying footsteps in the hall. He made haste to
answer, for fear that it would pass unsaid. He wanted above
all that Kta understand it.
The steps reached their door. A key turned in the
lock.
XX
THIS TIME IT was not Lhe who had charge of them, but
another man with' strangers around him. They were taken
not to the rhmei, but out of the fortress.
When they came into the courtyard and turned not toward
the temple again, but toward the outer gate of the Indume
complex, Kta cast Kurt a frightened glance that carried an
unwilling understanding.
"We are bound for the harbor," he said.
"Those are our orders," said the captain of
the detachment, "since the Methi is there and the
fleet is sailing. Move on, , t'Elas, or will you be
taken through the streets in chains?"
! Kta's head came up. For the least
moment the look of Nym ! t'Elas flared in his dark
eyes. "What is your name?"
The guard looked suddenly regretful of his words.
"Speak me no curse, t'Elas. I repeated the
Methi's words. She did not think chains
necessary."
"No," said Kta, "they are not
necessary."
He bowed his head again and matched pace with the
guards, Kurt beside him. The nemet was a pitiable figure in
the hard, uncompromising light of day, his clothing filthy,
his face unshaved-which in the nemet needed a long time to
show.
Through the streets, with people stopping to stare at
them, Kta looked neither to right nor to left. Knowing his
pride, Kurt sensed the misery he felt, his shame in the
eyes of these people; he could not help but think that Kta
t'Elas would have attracted less comment in his
misfortune had he not been laden with the added disgrace of
a human companion. Some of the murmured comments came to
Kurt's ears, and he was almost becoming inured to them:
how ugly, how covered with hair, how almost-nemet, and
caught with an Indras-descended, more the wonder, pity the
house of Elas-in-Indresul to see one of its foreign sons in
such a state and in such company!
The gangplank of the first trireme at the dock was run
out, rowers and crew scurrying around making checks of
equipment. Spread near its stern was a blue canopy upheld
with gold-tipped poles, beneath which sat Ylith, working
over some charts with Lhe t'Nethim and paying no
attention to their approach.
When at last she did see fit to notice them kneeling
before her, she dismissed Lhe back a pace with a gesture
and turned herself to face them. Still she wore the crown
of her office, and she was modestly attired in
chatem and pelan of pale green silk, slim
and delicate in this place of war. Her eyes rested on Kta
without emotion, and Kta bowed down to his face at her
feet, Kurt unwillingly imitating his action.
Ylith snapped her fingers. "It is permitted you
both to sit," she said, and they straightened
together. Ylith looked at them thoughtfully, most
particularly at Kta.
"Ei, t'Elas," she said softly,
"have you made your decision? Do you come to ask for
clemency?"
"Methi," said Kta, "no."
"Kta," Kurt exclaimed, for he had hoped.
"Don't -"
"If," said Ylith, "you seek in your
barbaric tongue to advise the son of Elas against this
choice, he would do well to listen to you."
"Methi," said Kta, "I have considered,
and I cannot agree to what you ask."
Ylith looked down at him with anger gathering in her
eyes. "Do you hope to make a gesture, and then I shall
relent afterward and pardon you? Or do they teach such lack
of religion across the Dividing Sea that the consequence is
of little weight with you? Have you so far inclined toward
the Sufak heresies that you are more at home with those
dark spirits we do not name?"
"No, Methi," said Kta, his voice trembling.
"Yet we of Elas were a reverent house, and we do not
receive justice from you."
"You say then that I am in error,
t'Elas?"
Kta bowed his head, caught hopelessly between yea and
nay, between committing blasphemy and admitting to it.
"T'Elas," said Ylith, '-'is it so
overwhelmingly difficult to accept our wishes?"
"I have given the Methi my answer."
"And choose to die accursed." The Methi turned
her face toward the open sea, opened her long-fingered hand
in that direction. "A cold resting place at best,
t'Elas, and cold the arms of Kalyt's daughters. A
felon's grave, the sea, a. grave for those no house
will claim, for those who have lived their lives so
shamefully that there remains no one, not even their own
house, to mourn them, to give them rest. Such a fate is for
those so impious that they would defy a father or the Upei
or dishonor their own kinswomen. But I, t'Elas, I am
more than the Upei. If I curse, I curse your soul not from
hearth or from city only, but from all mankind, from among
all who are born of this latter race of men. The lower
halls of death will have you: Yeknis, those dark places
where the shadows live, those unnameable firstborn of
Chaos. Do they still teach such things in Nephane,
t'Elas?"
"Yes, Methi."
"Chaos is the just fate of a man who will not bow
to the will of heaven. Do you say I am not just?"
"Methi," said Kta, "I believe that you
are the Chosen of Heaven, and I reverence you and the home
of my Ancestors-in-Indresul. Perhaps you are appointed by
heaven for the destruction of my people, but if heaven will
destroy my soul for refusing to help you, then heaven's
decrees are unbelievably harsh. I honor you, Methi. I
believe that you, like Fate itself, must somehow be just.
So I will do as I think right, and I will not aid
you."
Ylith regarded him furiously, then with a snap of her
fingers and a gesture brought the guards to take them.
"Unfortunate man," she said. "Blind to
necessity and gifted with the stubborn pride of Elas. I
have been well served by that quality in Elas until now,
and it goes hard to find fault with that which I have best
loved in your house. I truly pity you, Kta t'Elas. Go
and consider again whether you have chosen well. There is a
moment the gods lend us, to yield before going under. I
still offer you life. That is heaven's
justice. Tryn, secure them both belowdecks. The son of Elas
and his human friend are sailing with us, against
Nephane."
The hatch banged open against the deck above and someone
in silhouette came down the creaking steps into the
hold.
"T'Elas. T'Morgan." It was Lhe
t'Nethim, and in a moment the Indras officer had come
near enough to them that his features were faintly
discernible. "Have you all that you need?" he
asked, and sank down on his heels a little beyond the reach
of their chains.
Kta turned his face aside. Kurt, feeling somewhat a debt
to this man's restraint, made a grudging bow of his
head. "We are well enough," Kurt said, which they
were, considering.
Lhe pressed his lips together. "I did not come to
enjoy this sight. For that both of you ... have done
kindness to my house, I would give you what I
can."
"You have generally done me kindness," said
Kurt, yet careful of Kta's sensibilities. "That is
enough."
"Elas and Nethim are enemies; that does not change.
But human though you are-if Mim could choose you, of .her
own will-you are an exceptional human. And
t'Elas," he said in a hard voice, "because
you sheltered her, I thank you. We know the tale of her
slavery among Tamurlin, this through Elas-in-Indresul,
through the Methin. It is a bitter tale."
"She was dear to us," said Kta, looking toward
him.
Lhe's face was grim. "Did you have
her?"
"I did not," said Kta. "She was adopted
of the chart of Elas. No man of my people treated
her as other than an honorable woman, and I gave her at her
own will to my friend, who tried with all his heart to
treat her well. For Mim's sake, Elas is dead in
Nephane. To this extent we defended her. We did not know
that she was of Nethim. Because she was Mim, and of our
hearth, Elas would have defended her even had she told
us."
"She was loved," said Kurt, because he saw the
pain in Lhe's eyes, "and had no enemies in
Nephane. It was mine who killed her."
"Tell me the manner of it," said Lhe.
Kurt glanced down, unwilling, but Lhe was nemet, some
things would not make sense to him without all the truth.
"Enemies of mine stole her," he said, "and
they took her; the Methi of Nephane humiliated her. She
died at her own hand, Lhe t'Nethim. I blame myself
also. If I had been nemet enough to know what she was
likely to do, I would not have let her be alone
then."
Lhe's face was like graven stone. "No," he
said. "Mim chose well. If you were nemet you would
know it. You would have been wrong to stop her. Name the
men who did this."
"I cannot," he said. "Mim did not know
their names."
"Were they Indras?"
"Sufaki," Kurt admitted. "Men of Shan
t'Tefur u Tlekef."
"Then there is bloodfeud between that house and
Nethim. May the Guardians of Nethim deal with them as I
shall if I find them, and with Djan-methi of Nephane. What
is the emblem of Tefur?"
"It is the Great Snake Yr," said Kta.
"Gold on green. I wish you well in that bloodfeud,
t'Nethim; you will avenge Elas also, when I
cannot."
"Obey the Methi," said 'Lhe.
"No," said Kta. "But Kurt may do as he
pleases."
Lhe looked toward Kurt, and Kurt gave him nothing
better. Lhe made a gesture of exasperation.
"You must admit," said Lhe, "that the
Methi has offered
you every chance. It is a lasting wonder that you are
not
sleeping tonight at the bottom of the
sea."
'
"Nephane is my city," said Kta. "And as
for your war, your work will not be finished until you
finish it with me, so stop expecting me
to obey your Methi.
I will not."
"If you keep on as you are," said Lhe, "I
will probably be assigned as your executioner. In spite of
the feud between our houses, t'Elas, I shall not like
that assignment, but I shall obey her orders."
"For a son of Nethim," said Kta, "you are
a fair-minded man with us both. I would not have expected
it."
"For a son of Elas," said Lhe, "you are
fair-minded yourself. And," he added with a sideways
glance at Kurt, "I cannot even fault you the guest of
your house. I do not want to kill you. You and this human
would haunt me."
"Your priests are not sure," said Kurt,
"that I have a soul to do so."
Lhe bit his lip; he had come near heresy. And Kurt's
heart went out to Lhe t'Nethim, for it was clear enough
that in Lhe's eyes he was more than animal.
"T'Nethim," said Kta, "has
the Methi sent you here?"
"No. My advice is from the heart, t'Elas.
Yield."
"Tell your Methi I want to speak with
her."
"Will you beg pardon of her? That is the only thing
she
will hear from
you."
"Ask her," said Kta. "If she will or will
not, ought that not be her own choice?"
Lhe's eyes were frightened. They locked upon
Kta's directly, without the bowing and the courtesy, as
if he would drag something out of him. "I will ask
her," said Lhe. "I already risk the anger of my
father; the anger of the Methi is less quick, but I dread
it more. If you go to her, you go with those chains. I will
not risk the lives of Nethim on the asking of
Elas."
"I consent to that," said Kta.
"Swear that you will do no violence."
"We both swear," said Kta, which as lord of
Elas he could say.
"The word of a man about to lose his soul, and of a
human who may not have one," declared Lhe in distress.
"Light of heaven, I cannot make Nethim responsible for
the likes of you."
And he rose up and fled the hold.
Ylith took a chair and settled comfortably before she
acknowledged them. She had elected to receive them in her
quarters, .not on the windy deck. The golden light of
swaying lamps shed an exquisite warmth after the cold and
stench of betweendecks, thick rugs under their chilled
bones.
"You may sit," she said, allowing them to
straighten off their faces, and she received a cup of tea
from a maid and sipped it. There was no cup for them. They
were not there under the terms of hospitality, and might
not speak until given permission. She finished the cup of
tea slowly, looking at them, the ritual of mind-settling
before touching a problem of delicacy. At last she returned
the cup to the chan and faced them.
"T'Elas and t'Morgan. I do not know why I
should trouble myself with you repeatedly when one of my
own law-abiding citizens might have a much longer wait for
an audience with me. But then, your future is likely to be
shorter than theirs. Convince me quickly that you are worth
my time."
"Methi," said Kta, "I came to plead for
my city."
"Then you are making a useless effort, t'Elas.
The time would be better spent if you were to plead for
your life."
"Methi, please hear me. You are about to spend a
number of lives of your own people. It is not
necessary."
"What is? What have you to offer,
t'Elas?"
"Reason."
"Reaon. You love Nephane. Understandable. But they
cast you out, murdered your house. I, on the other hand,
would pardon you for your allegiance to them; I would take
you as one of my own. Am I behaving as an enemy, Kta
t'Elas?"
"You are the enemy of my people."
"Surely," said Ylith softly, "Nephane is
cursed with madness, casting out such a man who loves her
and honoring those who divide her. I would not need to
destroy such a city, but I am forced. I want nothing of the
things that happen there: of war, of human ways. I will not
let the contagion spread." She lifted her eyes to the
chart and dismissed the woman, then directed her
attention to them again. "You are already at
war," she told them. "I only intend to finish
it."
"What . . . war?" asked Kta, though Kurt knew
in his own heart then what must have happened and he was
sure that Kta did. The Methi's answer was no
surprise.
"Civil war," answered Ylith. "The
inevitable conflict. Though I am sure our help is less than
desired, we are intervening, on the side of the
Indras-descended."
"You do not desire to help the Families," said
Kta. "You will treat them as you do us."
"I will treat them as I am trying to treat you. I
would welcome you as Indras, Kta t'Elas. I would make
Elas-in-Nephane powerful again, as it ought to be, united
with Elas-in-Indresul."
"My sister," said Kta, "is married to a
Sufaki lord. My friend is a human. Many of the
house-friends of Elas-in-Nephane have Sufaki blood. Will
you command Elas-in-Indresul to honor our
obligations?"
"A Methi," she said, "cannot command
within the affairs of a house."
It was the legally correct answer.
"I could," she said, "guarantee you the
lives of these people. A Methi may always intervene on the
side of life."
"But you cannot command their acceptance."
"No," she said. "I could not do
that."
"Nephane," said Kta, "is Indras and
Sufaki and human."
"When I am done," said Ylith, "that
problem will be resolved."
"Attack them," said Kta, "and they will
unite against you."
"What, Sufaki join
the Indras?"
"It has happened once before," said Kta,
"when you hoped to take us."
"That," said Ylith, "was different. Then
the Families were powerful, and wished greater freedom from
the mother of cities. Now the Families have their power
taken from them but I can restore it to all who will
renounce the Sufak heresy. My honored father Tehal-methi
was less mercifully inclined, but I am not my father. I
have no wish to kill Indras."
Kta made a brief obeisance. "Methi, turn back these
ships then, and I will be your man without
reservation."
She set her hands on the arms of her chair and now her
eyes went to Kurt and back again. "You do press me too
far. You, t'Morgan, were born human, but you rise above
that. I can almost love you for your determination; you try
so hard to be nemet. But I do not understand the Sufaki,
who were born nemet and deny the truth, who devote
themselves to despoiling what we name as holy. Least of
all"--her voice grew hard-"do I understand
Indras-born such as you, t'Elas, who knowingly seek to
save a way of life that aims at the destruction of
Ind."
"They do not aim at destroying us."
"You will now tell me that the resurgence of old
ways in Sufak is a false rumor, that the jafikn
and the Robes of Color are not now common there, that
prayers are not made in the Upei of Nephane that mention
the cursed ones and blaspheme our religion. Mor t'Uset
ul Orm is witness to these things. He saw one Nym
t'Elas rise in the Upei to speak against the
t'Tefuri and their blasphemies. Have you less than your
father's courage, or do you dishonor his wishes,
t'Elas?"
Kurt looked quickly at Kta, knowing how that would
affect him, almost ready to hold him if he was about to do
something rash; but Kta bowed his head, knuckles white on
his laced hands.
"T'Elas?" asked Ylith.
"Trust me," said Kta, lifting his face again,
composed, "to know my father's wishes. It is our
belief, Methi, that we should not question the wisdom of
heaven in settling two peoples on the Ome Sin, so we do not
seek to destroy the Sufaki. I am Indras. I believe that the
will of heaven will win despite the action of "men,
therefore I live my life quietly in the eyes of my Sufaki
neighbors. I will not dishonor my beliefs by contending
over them, as if they needed defense."
Ylith's dark eyes flamed with anger for a time, and
then grew quiet, even sad. "No," she said,
"no, t'Elas."
"Methi." Kta bowed-homage to a different
necessity- and straightened, and there was a deep sadness
in the air.
"T'Morgan," said the Methi softly,
"will you still stay with this man? You are only a
poor stranger among us. You are not bound to such as
he." ,
"Can you not see," asked Kurt, "that he
wishes greatly to be able to honor you, Methi?" He
knew that he shamed Kta by that, but it was Kta's life
at stake. Probably now, he realized, he had just thrown his
own away too.
Ylith looked, for one of a few times, more woman than
goddess, and sad and angry too. "I did not choose this
war, this ultimate irrationality. My generals and my
admirals urged it, but I was not willing. But I saw the
danger growing: the humans return; the Sufaki begin to
reassert their ancient ways; the humans encourage this, and
encourage it finally to the point when the Families which
kept Nephane safely Indras are powerless. I do what must be
done. The woman Djan is threat enough to the peace; but she
is
holding her power by stripping away that of the Indras.
And a Sufak Nephane armed with human weapons is a danger
which cannot be tolerated."
"It is not all Sufaki who threaten you," Kurt
urged. "One man. You are doing all of this for the
destruction of one man, who is the real danger
there."
"Yes, I know Shan t'Tefur and his late father.
Ai, you would not have heard. Tlekef t'Tefur
is dead, killed in the violence."
"How?" asked Kta at once. "Who did
so?"
"A certain t'Osanef."
"O gods," Kta breathed. The strength seemed to
go out of him. His face went pale. "Which
t'Osanef?"
"Han t'Osanef did the killing, but I have no
further information. I do not blame you, t'Elas. If a
sister of mine were involved, I would worry, I would
indeed. Tell me this: why would Sufaki kill Sufaki? A
contest for power? A personal feud?"
"A struggle," said Kta, "between those
who love Nephane as Osanef does and those who want to bring
her down, like t'Tefur. And you are doing excellently
for t'Tefur's cause, "Methi. If there is no
Nephane, which is the likely result of your war, there will
be another Chteftikan, and that war you cannot see the end
of. There are Sufaki who have learned not to hate Indras;
but there will be none left if you pursue this
attack."
Ylith joined her hands together and meditated on some
thought, then looked up again. "Lhe t'Nethim will
return you to the hold," she said. "I am done. I
have spared all the time I can afford today, for a man out
of touch with reality. You are a brave man, Kta t'Elas.
And you, Kurt t'Morgan, you are commendable in your
attachment to this gentle madman. Someone should
stay by him. It does you credit that you do not leave
him."
XXI
"Kurt."
Kurt came awake with Kta shaking him by the shoulder and
with the thunder of running feet on the deck overhead. He
blinked in confusion. Someone on deck was shouting orders,
a battle-ready.
"There is sail in sight," said Kta.
"Nephane's fleet."
Kurt rubbed his face, tried to hear any clear words from
overhead. "How much chance is there that Nephane can
stop this here?"
Kta gave a laugh like a sob. "Gods, if the
Methi's report is true, none. If there is civil war in
the city, it will have crippled the fleet. Without the
Sufaki, the Families could not even get the greater ships
out of the harbor. It will be a slaughter up
there."
Oars rumbled overhead. In a moment more the shouted
order rang out and the oars splashed down in unison. The
ship began to gather speed.
"We are going in," Kurt murmured, fighting
down panic, A host of images assailed his mind. They could
do nothing but ride it out, chained to the ship of the
Methi. In space or on Tavi's exposed deck, he
had known fear in entering combat, but never such a feeling
of helplessness.
"Edge back," Kta advised him, bracing his
shoulder against the hull. He took his ankle chain in both
hands. "If we ram, the shock could be considerable.
Brace yourself and hold the chain. There is no advantage
adding broken bones to our misery."
Kurt followed his example, casting a misgiving look at
the mass of stored gear in the after part of the hold. If
it was not well secured, impact would send tons of weight
down on them, and there was no shielding themselves against
that.
The grating thunder of three hundred oars increased in
tempo and held at a pace that no man could sustain over a
long drive. Now even in the dark
hold there was an undeniable sense of speed, with the
beat of the oars and the rush of water against
the hull.
Kurt braced himself harder against the timbers. It
needed no imagination to think what would happen if the
trireme itself was rammed and a bronze Nephanite prow
splintered in the midships area. He remembered
Tavi's ruin and the men ground to death in the
collision, and tried not to think how thin the hull at
their shoulders was.
The beat stopped, a deafening hush, then the portside
oars ran inboard. The ship glided under momentum for an
instant.
Wood began to splinter and the ship shuddered and
rolled, grating and cracking wood all along her course.
Thrown sprawling, Kurt and Kta held as best they could as
the repeated shocks vibrated through the ship. Shouting
came overhead, over the more distant screaming of men in
pain and terror, suddenly overwhelmed by the sound of the
oars being run out again.
The relentless cadence recommenced, the trireme
recovering her momentum. All-encompassing was the crash and
boom of the oars, pierced by the thin shouts of officers.
Then the oars lifted clear with a great sucking of water,
and held. The silence was so deep that they could hear
their own harsh breathing, the give of the oars in their
locks, the creak of timbers and the groan of rigging, and
the sounds of battle far distant.
"This is the Methi's ship," Kta answered
his anxious look. "It has doubtless broken the line
and now waits. They will not risk this ship
needlessly."
And for a long time they crouched against the hull,
staring into the dark, straining for each sound that might
tell them what was happening above.
New orders were given, too faintly to be understood. Men
ran across the deck in one direction and the other, and
still the motion of the ship indicated they were scarcely
moving.
Then the hatch crashed open and Lhe t'Nethim came
down the steps into the hold, backed by three armed
men.
"Do you suddenly need weapons?" asked Kta.
"T'Elas," said Lhe, "you are called
to the deck."
Kta gathered himself to his feet, while one of the men
bent and unlocked the chain that passed through the ring of
the band at his ankle.
"Take me along with him," said Kurt, also on
his feet.
"I have no orders about that," said Lhe.
"TNethim," Kurt pleaded, and Lhe considered an
instant, gnawing his lip. Then he gestured to the man with
the keys.
"Your word to do nothing violent," Lhe
insisted.
"My word," said Kurt.
"Bring him too," said Lhe.
Kurt followed Kta up the steps into the light of day, so
blinded by the unaccustomed glare that he nearly missed his
footing on the final step. On the deck the hazy shapes of
many men moved around them, and their guards guided them
like blind men toward the stern of the ship.
Ylith sat beneath the blue canopy. There Kurt's
sight began to clear. Kta went heavily to his knees, Kurt
following his example, finding comfort in him. He began to
understand Kta's offering of respect at such a moment:
Kta did what he did with grace, paying honor like a
gentleman, unmoved by threat or lack of it. His courage was
contagious.
"You may sit," said Ylith softly. "T
'Elas, if you will look to the starboard side, I
believe you may see the reason we have called
you."
Kta turned on one knee, and Kurt looked also. A ship was
bearing toward them, slowly, relying on only part of its
oarage. The black sail bore the white bird of Ilev, and the
red immunity streamer floated from its mast.
"As you see," said the Methi, "we have
offered the Families of Nephane the chance to talk before
being driven under. I have also ordered my fleet to gather
up survivors, without regard to nation-even Sufaki, if
there be any. Now if your eloquence can persuade them to
surrender, you will have won their lives."
"I have agreed to no such thing," Kta
protested angrily.
"This is your opportunity, t'Elas. Present them
my conditions, make them believe you-or remain silent and
watch these last ships try to stop us."
"What are your conditions?" Kta asked.
"Nephane will again become part of the empire or
Nephane will burn. And if your Sufaki can accept being part
of the empire . . . well, I will deal with that wonder when
it presents itself. I have never met a Sufaki, I confess
it, as I had never met a human. I should be interested to
do so, on my terms. So persuade them for me, t'Elas,
and save their lives."
"Give me your oath they will live," Kta said,
and there was a stirring among the Methi's guards,
hands laid on weapons.
But Kta remained as he was, humbly kneeling. "Give
me your oath," he replied, "in plain words, life
and freedom for the men of the fleet if they take terms. I
know that with you, Ylith-methi, words are weapons,
double-edged. But I would believe your given
word."
A lifting of the Methi's fingers restrained her men
from drawing, and she gazed at Kta with what seemed a
curious, even loving, satisfaction.
"They have tried us in battle, t'Elas, and you
have tried my patience. Look upon the pitiful wreckage
floating out there, and the fact that you are still alive
after disputing me with words, and decide for yourself upon
which you had rather commit their lives."
"You are taking," said Kta, "what I swore
I would not give."
Ylith lowered her eyes and lifted them again, which just
failed of arrogance. "You are too reasonable,"
she said, "to destroy those men for your own
pride's sake. You will try to save them."
"Then," said Kta in a still voice,
"because the Methi is reasonable, she will allow me to
go down to that ship. I can do more there than here, where
they would be reluctant to speak with me in your
presence."
She considered, nodded finally. "Strike the iron
from him. From the human too. If they kill you, t'Elas,
you will be avenged." And, softening that arrogant
humor: "In truth, t'Elas, I am trying to avoid
killing these men. Persuade them of that, or be guilty of
the consequences."
The Ilev longship bore the scars of fire and battle to
such an extent it was a wonder she could steer.
Broken oars hung in their locks. Her rail was shattered.
She looked sadly disreputable as she grappled onto the
immaculate trireme of the Methi, small next to that
towering ship.
Kta nodded to Kurt as soon as she was made fast, and the
two of them descended on a ship's ladder thrown over
the trireme's side.
They landed one after the other, barefoot on the planks
like common seamen, filthy and unshaved, looking fit
company for the men of the battered longship. Shock was on
familiar faces all about them: Ian t'Ilev among the
foremost, and men of Irain and Isulan.
Kta made a bow, which t'Ilev was slow to return.
"Gods," t'Ilev murmured then. "You
keep strange company, Kta."
"Tavi went down off the Isles," said
Kta. "Kurt and I were picked up, the only survivors
that I know of. Since that time we have been detained by
the Indras. Are you in command here, Ian?" ,
"My father is dead. Since that moment,
yes."
"May your Guardians receive him kindly," Kta
said.
"The Ancestors of many houses have increased
considerably today." A muscle jerked slowly in
t'Ilev's jaw. He gestured his comrades to clear
back a space, for they crowded closely to hear. He set his
face in a new hardness. "So do I understand correctly
that the Methi of Indresul is anxious to clear us aside and
proceed on her way, and that you are here to urge that on
us?"
"I have been told," said Kta, "that
Nephane is in civil war and that it cannot possibly resist.
Is that true, Ian?"
There was a deathly silence.
"Let the Methi ask her own questions,"
t'lrain said harshly. "We would have come to her
deck."
And there were uglier words from others. Kta looked at
them, his face impassive. At that moment he looked much
like his father Nym, though his clothing was filthy and his
normally ordered hair blew in strings about his face. Tears
glittered in his eyes.
"I did not surrender my ship," he said,
"though gods know I would have been willing to; a dead
crew is a bitter price for a house's pride, and one I
would not have paid." His eyes swept the company.
"I see no Sufaki among you."
The murmuring grew. "Quiet," said t'Ilev.
"All of you. Will you let the men of Indresul see us
quarrel? Kta, say what she has sent you to say. Then you
and t'Morgan may leave, unless you keep asking after
things we do not care to share with the Methi of
Indresul."
"Ian," said Kta, "we have been friends
since we were children. Do as seems right to you. But if I
have heard the truth, if there is civil war in Nephane, if
there is no hope but time in your coming here, then let us
try for conditions. That is better than going to the
bottom."
"Why is she permitting this? Love of us? Confidence
in you? Why does she send you down here?"
"I think," said Kta faintly, "I
think-and am not sure-that she may offer better
conditions than we can obtain from Shan
t'Tefur. And I think she is permitting it because
talk is cheaper than a fight, even for Indresul. It is
worth trying, Ian, or I would not have agreed to come down
here."
"We came to gain time. I think you know that. For
us, crippled as we are, talk is much cheaper than a battle,
but we are still prepared to fight too. Even taking the
trouble to finish us can delay her. As for your question
about Nephane's condition at the moment . . ." The
others wished him silent. Ian gave them a hard look.
'TElas has eyes to see. The Sufaki are not here. They
demanded command of the fleet. Some few-may their ancestors
receive them kindly-tried to reason with Shan
t'Tefur's men. Light of heaven, we had to
steal the fleet by night, break out of harbor even
to go out to defend the city. T'Tefur hopes for our
defeat. What do you think the Methi's terms will
be?"
There was quiet on the deck. For the moment the men were
all listening, spirits and angers failing, all pretense
laid aside. They only seemed afraid.
"Ian," said Kta, "I do not know.
Tehal-methi was unyielding and bloody; Ylith is ... I do
not know. What she closes within her hand, I fear she will
never release. But she is fair-minded, and she is
Indras."
The silence persisted. For a moment there was only the
creak of timbers and the grinding of the longship against
the side of the trireme as the sea carried them too close.
"He is right," said Lu t'Isulan.
"You are his house-friend," said a man of
Nechis. "Kta sued for your cousin to marry."
"That would not blind me to the truth," said
t'Isulan. "I agree with him. I am sick to death of
t'Tefur and his threats and his ruffians."
"Aye," said his brother Toj. "Our houses
had to be left almost defenseless to get enough men out
here to man the fleet. And I am thinking they may be in
greater danger at the moment from the Sufaki neighbors than
from Indresul's fleet. El," he said
angrily when others objected to that, "clear your eyes
and see, my friends. Isulan sent five men of the main
hearth here and fifty from the lesser, and a third are
lost. Only the sons of the chan are left to hold
the door of Isulan against t'Tefur's pirates. I am
not anxious to lose the rest of my brothers and cousins in
an empty gesture. We will not die of hearing the terms, and
if they are honorable, I for one would take them."
Ylith leaned back in her chair and accepted the respects
of the small group of defeated men kneeling on her deck.
"You may all rise," she said, which was generous
under the circumstances. "T'Elas, t'Morgan, I
am glad you have returned safely. Who heads this
delegation?"
T'Ilev bowed slightly. "Ian t'Ilev uv
Ulmar," he identified himself. "Lord of
Ilev." And there was sadness in that assumption of the
title, raw and recent. "I am not eldest, but the fleet
chose me for my father's sake."
"Do you ask conditions?" asked Ylith.
"We will hear conditions," said
t'Ilev.
"I will be brief," said Ylith. "We intend
to enter Nephane, with your consent or without it. I will
not leave the woman Djan in authority; I will not deal with
her or negotiate with those who represent her. I will have
order restored in Nephane and a government installed in
which I have confidence. The city will thereafter remain in
full and constant communication with the mother of cities.
I will, however, negotiate the extent of the bond between
our cities. Have you any comment, t'Ilev?"
"We are the fleet, not the Upei, and we are not
able to negotiate anything but our own actions. But I know
the Families will not accept any solution which does not
promise us our essential freedoms."
"And neither," Kta interjected unbidden,
"will the Sufaki."
Ylith's eyes went to him. Behind her, Lhe
t'Nethim laid hand uneasily on the hilt of his
ypan. Ylith's wit and Ylith's power were
sufficient to deliver Kta an answer, and Kurt clenched his
hands, hoping Kta would not be humiliated before these men.
Then of a sudden he saw what game Kta was playing with his
life and went cold inside. The Methi too was before
witnesses, whose offense now could mean a battle, one ugly
and, for the Methi's forces, honorless.
Her lips smiled. She looked Kta slowly up and down,
finally acknowledged him by looking at him directly.
"I have studied your city, t'Elas. I have gathered
information from most unlikely sources, even you and my
human, t'Morgan."
"And what," Kta asked softly, "has the
Methi concluded?"
"That a wise person does not contest reality.
Sufaki . . . are a reality. Annihilation of all Sufaki is
hardly practical, since they are the population of the
entire coast of Sufak. T'Morgan has told me a fable of
human wars. I considered the prospect of dead villages,
wasted fields. Somehow this
did not seem profitable. Therefore, although I
do not think the sons of the east will ever be other than
trouble to us, I consider that they are less trouble where
they are, in Nephane and in their villages, rather than
scattered and shooting arrows at my occupation forces.
Religiously, I will yield nothing. But I had rather have a
city than a ruin, a province than a desolation. Considering
that it is your city and your land in question, you may
perhaps agree with me."
"We might," said Ian t'Ilev when she
looked aside at him. "If not for that phrase
occupation forces. The Families rule
Nephane."
"Ai, no word of Sufaki? Well, but you know
the law, t'Ilev. A methi does not reach within
families. The question of precedence would be between your
two hearths. How you resolve it is not mine to say. But I
cannot foresee that Ilev-in-Indresul would be eager to
cross the sea to intervene in the affairs of
Ilev-in-Nephane. I do not think occupation would prove
necessary."
"Your word on that?" asked Kta.
The Methi gave a curious look to him, a smile of faint
irony. Then she opened both palms to the sky. "So let
the holy light of heaven regard me: I do not mislead
you." She leaned back then, stretched her hands along
the arms of her chair, her lovely face suddenly grave and
businesslike. "Terms: removal of Djan, the dissolution
of the t'Tefuri's party, the death of t'Tefur
himself, the allegiance of the Families to Indresul and to
me. That is the limit of what I demand."
"And the fleet?" asked Ian t'Ilev.
"You can make Nephane in a day, I think. By this
time tomorrow you could reach port. You will have a day
further to accomplish what I have named or find us among
you by force."
"You mean we are to conquer Nephane for you?"
t'Ilev exclaimed. "Gods, no."
"Peace, control of your own city, or war. If we
enter, we will not be bound by these terms."
"Give us a little time," t'Ilev pleaded.
"Let us bear these proposals to the rest of the fleet.
We cannot agree alone."
"Do that, t'Ilev. We shall give you a day's
start toward Nephane whatever you decide. If you use that
day's grace to prepare your city to resist us, we will
not negotiate again until we meet in the ruins of your
city. We are not twice generous, t'Ilev."
T'Ilev bowed, gathered the three of the crew who had
come
with him, and the gathered crew of the trireme parted
widely to let them pass.
"Methi," said Kta.
"Would you go with them?"
"By your leave, Methi."
"It is permitted. Make them believe you,
t'Elas. You have your chance, one day to make your city
exist. I hope you succeed. I shall be sorry if I learn you
have failed. Will you go with him, t'Morgan? I shall be
sorry to part with you."
"Yes," Kurt said. "By your
leave."
"Look," she said. "Look up at me."
And when he had done so, he had the feeling that she
studied him as a curiosity she might not see again. Her
dark eyes held a little of fascinated fear. "You
are," she said, "like Djan-methi."
"We are of one kind."
"Bring me Djan," she said. "But not as
Methi of Nephane."
And her gesture had dismissed them. They gave back a
pace. But then Lhe t'Nethim bowed at her feet, head to
the deck, as one who asked a great favor.
"Methi," he said when she acknowledged him,
"let me go with this ship. I have business in Nephane,
with t'Tefur."-
"You are valuable to me, Lhe," she said in
great distress.
"Methi, it is hearth-business, and you must let me
go."
"Must? They will kill you before you reach Nephane,
and where will your debt be honored then, t'Nethim, and
how will I answer your father, that I let his son do this
thing?"
"It is family," he said.
The Methi pressed her lips together. "If they kill
you," she said, "then we will know how they will
regard any pact with us. TElas, be witness. Treat him
honorably, however you decide, for his life or for his
death. You will answer to me for this."
T'Nethim bowed a final, heartfelt thanks, and sprang
up and hurried after them, among the men of Ilev's
party who had delayed also to hear what passed.
"Someone will cut his throat,"
t'Ilev hissed at Kta, before they went over the rail.
"What is he to you?"
"Mim's cousin."
"Gods! How long have you been of Indresul,
Kta?"
"Trust me. If otherwise, let us at least clear this
deck. I beg you, Ian."
T'Ilev bit his lip, then made haste to seek the
ladder. "Gods help us," he murmured. "Gods
help us, I will keep silent on it. Burden me with nothing
else, Kta."
And he disappeared over the side first and quickly
descended to the longship, where his anxious crew
waited.
The Ilev vessel glided in among the wrecked fleet with
the white assembly streamer flying beside the red, and
other captains gathered to her deck as quickly as possible:
Eta t'Nechis, Pan t'Ranek, Camit t'Ilev, cousin
of Ian; others, young men, whose captaincies now told of
tragedies at sea or at home.
"Is that it?" shouted Eta t'Nechis when he
had heard the terms, and looked at t'Ilev as if other
words failed him. "Great gods, t'Ilev, did you
decide for all of us? Or have you handed command over to
Elas and its company, to Elas, who ruined us in the first
place, with its human guest. And now they bring us an
overseas house-friend!"
"Argue it later," said Kta. "Whether you
want to fight or negotiate at Nephane, put the fleet about
for home now. Every moment we waste will be badly
needed.1'
"We have men still adrift out there!" cried
t'Ranek, "men the Indras will not let us
reach."
"They are being picked up," said Ian.
"That is better than we can do for them. Kta is right.
Put about."
"Give the Methi back her man," said
t'Nechis, "all three of them: t'Elas, human
and foreigner."
T'Nethim was pale, but he kept his dignity behind
the shelter Ian t'Ilev gave the three of them. Voices
were raised, weapons all but drawn, and finally Ian settled
the matter by ordering his ship put about for Nephane with
the fleet streamer flying beside the others.
Then they were underway, and the sight of the
Methi's fleet dropping astern with no visible evidence
of pursuit greatly heartened the men and silenced some of
the demands for vengeance.
"Why should they pursue," asked t'Nechis,
"if we do their work for them? Gods, gods, this is
wrong!"
And once again there was talk of throat-cutting, of
throwing the three of them into the sea with Lhe
t'Nethim cut in pieces, until the t'Ilevi together
put themselves bodily between the t'Nechisen and Kta
t'Elas.
"Stop this," said Ian, and for all that he was
a young man and beneath the age of some of the men who
quarreled, he put such anger into his voice that there was
a silence made, if only a breath of one.
"It is shameful," said Lu t'Isulan with
great feeling. "We
disgrace ourselves under the eyes of this Indras
stranger. Bring tea. It is a long distance to Nephane. If
we cannot make a well-thought decision in that length of
time, then we deserve our misery. Let us be still and think
for a time."
"We will not share fire and drink with a man of
Indresul," said t'Nechis. "Put him in
irons."
TNethim drew himself back with great dignity. "I
will go apart from you," he said, the first words they
had listened for him to say. "And I will not
interfere. I will still be on this ship if you decide for
war."
And with a bow of courtesy, he walked away to the bow, a
figure of loneliness among so many enemies. His dignity
made a silence among them.
"If you will," said Kurt, "I will go
there too."
"You are of Elas," said Kta fiercely.
"Stand your ground."
There were hard looks at that. It came to Kurt then that
Elas had lost a great deal with Tavi, not alone a
ship, but brave men, staunch friends of Elas. And those who
surrounded them now, with the exception of Irain, Ilev and
Isulan, were Families which sympathized less with Elas.
And even among those, there were some who hated humans.
Such, even, was Ian t'Ilev; it radiated from him, a
little shiver of aversion whenever eyes chanced to
meet.
Only Lu and Toj t'Isulan, house-friends to Elas,
elected to sit by Kta at the sharing of drink. They sat on
Kta's left, Kurt on the right.
Kurt accepted the cup into his fingers gratefully and
sipped at the hot sweet liquid. It held its own memories of
home and Elas, of sanity and reason, as if there was no
power on earth that could change or threaten this little
amenity, this odd tribute of the Indras to hearth and
civilized order.
Yet everything, their lives and Nephane itself, was as
fragile at the moment as the china cup in his fingers.
One round passed in silence. So did most of the second.
It was, as the nemet would say, a third-round problem, a
matter so disturbing that no one felt calm enough to speak
until they had waited through a third series of courtesies
and ceremony.
"It is certain," said Ian at last, "that
the Methi's word is good so far. We are not pursued. We
have to consider that she is indeed a Methi of our own
people, and it is unthinkable that she would lie."
"Granted," said t'Nechis. "But then
what does the truth leave us?"
"With Nephane standing," said Kta very softly.
"And I do love the city, t'Nechis. Even if you
hate me, believe that."
"I believe it," said t'Nechis. "Only
I suggest that you have perhaps loved honors the Methi
promised you more than is becoming."
"She gave him nothing," said Ian. "And
you have my word on that."
"It may be so," conceded t'Nechis, and yet
with an uneasy look at Kurt, as if any nemet who consorted
with humans was suspect. Kurt lowered his head and"
stared at a spot on the deck.
"How bad," asked Kta, "have things in
Nephane become?"
"T'Elas," said the younger son of
Uset-in-Nephane, "we are sorry for the misfortunes of
Elas. But that was only the beginning of troubles. In some
houses-in Nechis, in Ranek- men are dead,
ypai-sulim have been drawn. Be careful how you
speak to them. Understand the temper of their
Guardians."
The Great Weapons, drawn only for killing and never
re-sheathed without it. Kta made a little bow of deference
individually to t'Nechis and to t'Ranek, and a
gesture with hand to brow that Kurt did not understand. The
other men reciprocated. There was silence, and a little
easier feeling for that.
"Then," said Kta finally, "there would
seem to be question whether there is a city to save. I have
heard a bitter rumor concerning Osanef. Can anyone tell me?
Details were sparse."
"It is bad news, Kta," said Ian. "Han
t'Osanef killed Tlekef tTefur. The house of Osanef was
burned by the Tefur partisans, an example to other Sufaki
not to remain friendly to us. The vandals struck at night,
while the family slept, invaded the house and overthrew the
fire to set the house ablaze. The lady la, Han's
honored wife, died in the fire."
"And Aimu," Kta broke in. "Bel and my
sister?"
"Bel himself was badly beaten, but your lady sister
was hurried to safety by the chan of Osanef. Both
Bel and Aimu are safe, at last report, sheltered in Isulan
with your father's sister."
"How did Han die?"
"He chose to die after avenging lady la. His
funeral was the cause of much bloodletting. Kta, I am
sorry," he added, for Kta's face was pale and he
looked suddenly weak.
"This is not all," said Toj t'Isulan.
"The whole city is full
of such funerals. Han and his lady were not the first or
the last to lose their lives to t'Tefur's
men."
"He is a madman," t'Nechis said. "He
threatened to burn the fleet-to burn the fleet!-rather than
let it sail with Indras captains. They talk of burning
Nephane itself and drawing back to their ancestral hills of
Chteftikan."
"Aye," said young t'Irain, "and I for
my part would gladly have the city in Indresul's hands
rather than t'Tefur's."
And that sentiment was approved by a sullen muttering
among many of the others. T'Nechis scowled, but even he
did not seem to be in total disagreement.
"Sirs," said Kurt, startling everyone.
"Sirs, what has Djan-methi done in the situation? Has
she . . . can she do anything to restore peace in the
city?"
"She has the power," said t'Ranek.
"She refuses to control tTefur. This war is of her
creation. She knew we would never turn on
Indresul, so she puts power in the hands of those who
would, those who support her ambition. And that does not
respect her office, but neither does she."
"I do not know," said the youngest
t'Nechis, "why we answer questions from the
Methi's leman."
Kta moved, and if the elder t'Nechis had not imposed
his own discipline on his cousin with a sharp gesture,
there would have been trouble.
"My apologies," said t'Nechis, words that
seemed like gall in his mouth.
"I understand," said Kurt, "that humans
have won no love in Nephane or elsewhere. But bear with me.
I have a thing to say."
"Say it," laid t'Nechis. "We will not
deny you that."
"You would do well," he said, "to
approach her with a clear request for action and
concessions for the Sufaki who are not with
tTefur."
"You seem to favor her," said t'Ranek,
"and to have a great deal of confidence in her. I
think we were wrong to sympathize with you for the death of
Mim h'Elas."
Kurt threw out a hand to stop Kta, and himself stared at
t'Ranek with such coldness that all the nemet grew
silent. "My wife," he said, "was as much a
victim of you as of Djan-methi, though I swear I tried to
feel loyalty to the Families since I was part of Elas. I
am- human. I was not welcome and you made me know it as you
made Djan-methi know it, and the Sufaki before her. If that
were not the nature of Nephane, my wife would not be
dead."
And before any could object, he sprang up and walked
away, to t'Nethim's lonely station at the bow.
Lhe regarded him curiously, then even with pity, which
from the enemy was like salt in the wound.
Soon, as Kurt had known, there came someone sent from
Kta to try to persuade him back, to persuade him to bow his
head and swallow his humanity and his pride and submit in
silence.
He heard the footsteps coming behind him, pointedly
ignored the approach until he heard the man call his
name.
Then he turned and saw that it was t'Ranek
himself.
"Kta t'Elas has threatened bloodfeud,"
said t'Ranek. "Please accept my apologies,
t'Morgan. I am no friend of Elas, but I do not want a
fight, and I acknowledge that it was not a worthy thing to
say."
"Kta would fight over that?"
"It is his honor," said t'Ranek. "He
says that you are of Elas. He also," t'Ranek
added, with an uneasy glance at Lhe t'Nethim, "has
asked t'Nethim to return. He has explained somewhat of
the lady Mim h'Elas. Please accept my apology, Kurt
t'Morgan."
It was not easy for the man. Kurt gave a stiff bow in
acknowledgment, then looked at Lhe t'Nethim. The three
of them returned to their places in the circle in utter
silence. Kurt took his place beside Kta, t'Ranek with
his brother, and Lhe t'Nethim stood nervously in the
center until Kta abruptly gestured to him and bade him sit.
T'Nethim settled at Kta's feet, thin-lipped and
with eyes downcast.
"You have among you," said Kta in that hush,
"my brother Kurt, and Lhe t'Nethim, who is under
the protection of Elas."
Like the effect of wind over grass, the men in the
circle made slight bows.
"I was speaking," Kurt said then, evenly and
softly in that stillness. "And I will say one other
thing, and then I will not trouble you further. There are
weapons in the Afen. If Djan-methi has not used them, it is
because Djan-methi has chosen not to use them. Once you
have threatened her, you will have to reckon with the
possibility that she will use them. You are wrong in some
of your suppositions. She could destroy not only Nephane
but Indresul also if she chose. You are hazarding your
lives on her forbearance."
The silence persisted. It was not longer one of hate,
but of fear. Even Kta looked at him as a stranger.
"I am telling the truth," he said, for
Kta.
"T'Morgan," said Ian t'Ilev. "Do
you have a suggestion what to do?"
It was quietly, even humbly posed, and to his shame he
was helpless to answer it. "I will tell you
this," he said, "that if Djan-methi still
controls the Afen when Ylith-methi sails into that harbor,
you are much more likely to see those weapons used-worse,
if Shan t'Tefur should gain possession of them. She
does not want to arm him, or she would have, but she might
lose her power to prevent him, or abdicate it. I would
suggest, gentlemen, that you make any peace you must with
the Sufaki who will have peace. Give them reasonable
alternatives, and do all you can to get the Afen out of
Djan-methi's hands and out of
t'Tefur's."
"The Afen," protested t'Ranek, "has
only fallen to treachery, never to attack by nemet.
Haichema-tleke is too high, our streets too steep, and the
human weapons would make it impossible."
"Our other alternative," said Kta, "would
seem to be to take the whole fleet and run for the north
sea, saving ourselves. And I do not think we are of
a mind to do that."
"No," said t'Nechis. "We are
not."
"Then we attack the Afen."
XXII
The smoke over Nephane was visible even from a distance.
It rolled up until the west wind caught it and spread it
over the city like one of its frequent sea fogs, but
blacker and thicker, darkening the morning light and
overshadowing the harbor.
The men who stood on Sidek's bow as the
Ilev longship put into harbor at the head of the fleet
watched the shore in silence. The smoke appeared to come
from high up the hill, but no one ventured to surmise what
was burning.
At last Kta turned his face from the sight with a
gesture of anger. "Kurt," he said, "keep
close by me. Gods know what we are going into."
Oars eased Sidek in and let her glide, a brave
man of Ilev first ashore with the mooring cable. Other
ships came into dock in quick succession.
Crowds poured from the gate, gathering on the dockside,
all Sufaki, not a few of them in Robes of Color, young and
menacing. There were elders and women with children also,
clamoring and pleading for news, looking with frightened
eyes at the tattered rigging of the ships. Some seamen who
had not sailed with their Indras crewmates ran down to
their sides and began to curse and invoke the gods for
grief at what had happened to them, seeking news of
shipmates.
And swiftly the rumor was running the crowd that the
fleet had turned back the Methi, even while Ian t'Ilev
and other captains gave quick orders to run out the
gangplanks.
The plans and alternate plans had been drilled into the
ships' crews in exhortations of captains and family
heads and what practice the narrow decks permitted. Now the
Indras-descended moved smartly, with such decision and
certainty that the Sufaki, confused by the false rumor of
victory, gave back.
A young revolutionary charged forward, shrieking hate
and trying to inflame the crowd, but Indras discipline
held, though he struck one of the t'Nechisen half
senseless. And suddenly the rebel gave back and ran, for no
one had followed him. The Indras-descended kept swords in
sheaths, gently making way for themselves at no greater
speed than the bewildered crowd could give them. They did
not try to pass the gates. They took their stand on the
dock and t'Isulan, who had the loudest voice in the
fleet, held up his arms for silence.
News was what the crowd cried for; now that it was
offered, they compelled each other to silence to hear
it.
"We have held them a little while," shouted
t'Isulan. "We are still in danger. Where is the
Methi to be found? Still in the Afen?"
People attempted to answer in the affirmative, but the
replies and the questions drowned one another out. Women
began screaming, everyone talking at once.
"Listen," t'Isulan roared above the noise.
"Pull back and fortify the wall. Get your women to the
houses and barricade the gates to the sea!"
The tumult began anew, and Kta, well to the center of
the lines of Indras, seized Kurt by the arm and drew him to
the inside as they started to move, t'Nethim staying
close by them.
Kurt had his head muffled in his ctan. Among so
many injured it was not conspicuous, and exposure had
darkened' his skin almost to the hue of the nemet. He
was terrified, none the less, that the sight of his human
face might bring disaster to the whole plan and put him in
the hands of a mob. There had been talk of leaving him on
the ship; Kta had argued otherwise.
The Indras-descended began to pass the outer-wall gates,
filing peacefully upward toward their homes, toward their
own hearths. It was supreme bluff. T'Isulan had hedged
the truth with a skill uncommon to that tall, gruff breed
that were his Family. It was their hope to organize the
Sufaki to work, and so keep the Sufaki out of the way of
the Families.
And at the inner gate, the rebels waited.
There were jeers. Daggers were out. Rocks flew. Two
Indras-descended fell, immediately gathered up by their
kinsmen. T'Nethim staggered as a rock hit him. Kta
hurried him further, half carrying him. The head of the
column forced the gate bare-handed, with sheer weight of
numbers and recklessness. It was sworn among them that they
would not draw weapons, not until a point of extremity.
There was blood on the cobbles as they passed, and
smeared on the post of the gate, but the Indras-descended
let none of their own fall. They gained the winding Street
of the Families, and their final rush panicked the rebels,
who scattered before them, disordered and
undisciplined.
Then the cause of the smoke became evident. Houses at
the rising of the hill were aflame, Sufaki milling in the
streets at the scene. Women snatched up screaming children
and crowded back, caught between the fires and the rush of
fleeing rebels and advancing Indras. A young mother
clutched her two children to her and shrank against the
side of a house, sobbing in terror as they passed her.
It was the area where the wealthiest Sufak houses joined
the Street of the Families, and where the road took the
final bend toward the Afen. Two Sufak houses, Rachik and
Pamchen, were ablaze, and the blasphemous paint-splashed
triangle of Phan gave evidence of the religious bitterness
that had brought it on. Trapped Sufaki ran in panic between
the roiling smoke of the fire and the sudden charge of the
Indras.
"Spread out!" t'Isulan roared, waving his
arm to indicate a barrier across the street. "Close
off this area and secure it!"
A feathered shaft impacted into the chest of the man
next to him; Tis t'Nechis fell with red dying his
robes. A second and a third shaft sped, one felling an
Indras and the other a Sufaki bystander who happened to be
in the line of fire.
"Up there!" Kta shouted, pointing to the
rooftop of Dleve. "Get the man, t'Ranek! You men,
spread out! This side, this side, quickly-"
The Indras moved, their rush to shelter terrifying the
Sufaki who chanced to have sought the same protected side,
but the Indras dislodged no one. A terrified boy started to
dart out. An Indras seized him, struggling and kicking
though he was, and pushed him into the hands of his
kin.
"Neighbors!" Kta shouted to the house of
Rachik. "We are not here to harm you. Gods, lady
shu-t'Rachik, get those children back into the alley!
Keep close to the wall."
There were a few grins, for the first lady t'Rachik
with her brood was very like a frightened cochin
with a half dozen of her children about her; other Rachiken
were there too, both women and men, and the old father too.
They were glad enough to escape the area, and the old man
gave a sketchy bow to Kta t'Elas, gratitude. Though his
house was burning, his children were safe.
"Shelter near Elas," said Kta. "No Indras
will harm you. Put the Pamcheni there too, Gyan
t'Rachik."
A cry rang out overhead and a body toppled from the roof
to bounce off a porch and onto the stones of the street.
The dead Sufaki archer lay with arrows scattered like
straws about his corpse.
A girl of Dleve screamed, belatedly, hysterically.
"Throw a defense around this whole section,"
Kta directed his men. "Ian! Camit! Take the
wall-street by Irain and set a guard there. You Sufaki
citizens! Get these fires under control: buckets and pikes,
quickly! You, t'Hsnet, join t'Ranek, you and all
your cousins!"
Men scattered in all directions at his orders, and
pushed their way through smoke and frightened Sufaki; but
the Sufaki who remained on the street, elders and children,
huddled together in pitiful confusion, afraid to move in
any direction.
Then from the houses up the street came others of the
Indras-descended, and the chani, such as had
stayed behind to guard the houses when the fleet sailed.
Sufaki women
screamed at the sight of them, men armed with the
deadly
ypai.
Kta stood free of the wall, taking a chance, for
t'Ranek's men were not yet in position to defend
the street from archers. He lifted his sword arm aloft in
signal to the Indras who were running up, weapons in
hand.
"Hold off!" he shouted. "We have things
under control. These poor citizens are not to blame. Help
us secure the area and put out the fires."
"The Sufaki set them, in Sufak houses,"
shouted the old chan of Irain. "Let the
Sufaki put them out!"
"No matter who started them," Kta returned
furiously, his face purpling at being fronted by a
chan of a friendly house. "Help put them out.
The fires are burning and they will take our houses too.
They must be stopped."
That chan seemed suddenly to realize who it was
he had challenged, for he came to a sudden halt; and
another man shouted:
"Kta t'Elas! Ei, t'Elas,
t'Elas!"
"Aye," shouted Kta, "still alive,
t'Kales! Well met! Give us help here."
"These people," panted t'Kales, reaching
him and giving the indication of a bow, "these people
deserve no pity. We tried to defend them. They shield
t'Tefur's men, even when the fires strike their own
houses."
"All Nephane has lost its mind," said Kta,
"and there is no time to argue blame. Help us or stand
aside. The Indras fleet is a day out of Nephane and we
either collect ourselves a people or see Nephane
burn." ,
"Gods," breathed t'Kales. "Then the
fleet-"
"Defeated. We must organize the city."
"We cannot do it, Kta. None of these people will
listen to reason. We have been beseiged in our own
houses."
"Kta!" Kurt exclaimed, for another man was
running down the street.
It was Bel t'Osanef. One of the Indras-descended
barred his way with drawn ypan and nearly ran him
through, but t'Osanef avoided it with desperate
agility.
"Light of heaven!" Kta cried. "Hold,
t'Idur! Let him pass!"
The seaman dropped his point and Bel began running
again, reached the place where they stood.
"Kta, ye gods, Kta!" Bel was close to collapse
with his race to get through, and the words choked from
him. "I had no hope-"
"You are mad to be on the street," said Kta.
"Where is Aimu?"
"Safe. We shelter in Irain. Kta-"
"I have heard, I have heard, my poor
friend."
"Then please, Kta, these people . . . these people
of mine . . . they are innocent of the fires. Whatever . .
. whatever your people say . . . they try to make us out
responsible . . . but it is a lie, a-"
"Calm yourself, Bel. Cast no words to the winds. I
beg you, take charge of these people and get them to help
or get them out of this area. The Indras fleet is coming
down on Nephane and we have only a little time to restore
order here and prepare ourselves."
"I will try," said Bel, and cast a despairing
look at the frightened people milling about, at the dead
men in the street. He went to the archer who lay in the
center of the cobbled street, knelt down and touched him,
then looked up with a negative gesture and a sympathetic
expression for someone in the crowd.
There came a young woman-the one who had screamed. She
crept forward and knelt down in the street beside the dead
man, sobbing and rocking in her misery. Bel spoke to her in
words no one else could hear, though there was but for the
fire's crackling a strange silence on the street and
among the crowd. Then he picked up the dead youth's
body himself, and struggled with it toward the Sufaki
side.
"Let us take our dead decently inside," he
said. "You men who can, put the fires out."
"The Indras set them," one of the young women
said.
"Udafi Kafurtin," said Bel in a trembling
voice, "in the chaos we have made of Nephane, there is
really no knowing who started anything. Our only
identifiable enemy is whoever will not put them out.
Kta-Kta! Have these men of yours put up their weapons. We
have had enough of weapons and threats in this city. My
people are not armed, and yours do not need to
be."
"Yours shoot from ambush!" shouted one of the
Indras. "Do as he asks!" Kta shouted, and glared
about him with such fury that men began to obey him.
Then Kta went and bowed very low before t'Nechis,
who had a cousin to mourn, and quietly offered his help,
though Kurt winced inwardly and
expected temper and hatred from the
grieving t'Nechis.
But in extremity t'Nechis was Indras and a
gentleman.
He bowed in turn, in proper grace. "See to
business, Kta
t'Elas. The t'Nechisen will take him home. We
will be with
you as soon as we can send my cousin to his
rest."
By noon the fires were out, and the Sufaki who had
aided in fighting the blaze scattered to their
homes to bar the
doors and wait in
silence.
!
Peace returned to
the Street of
the Families, with ]
armed men of the
fleet standing at
either end of the street and
on rooftops where they commanded a view of all that moved.
The scars were visible now, hollow shells of buildings,
pavement littered with rubble.
Kurt left Lhe t'Nethim sheltered in the hall of
Elas, the Indras grim-faced and subdued to have set foot in
a hostile house.
He found Kta standing out on the curb. Kta, like
himself, was masked with soot and sweat and the dim red
marks of burns from fire fighting.
"They have buried t'Nechis," Kta said
hollowly, without looking around. They had been so much
together it was possible to feel the other's presence
without looking. He knew Kta's face without seeing it,
that it was tired and shadow-eyed and drawn with pain.
"Get off the street," Kurt said.
"You are a target."
"T'Ranek is on the roof. I do not think there
is danger. Fully half of Nephane is in our hands now, thank
the gods." |
"You have done enough. Go over to Irain. Aimu will
be I anxious to see you."
"I do not wish to go to Irain," Kta said
wearily. "Bel will be there and I do not wish to see
him."
"You have to, sooner or later."
"What do I tell him? What do I say to him when he
asks me what will happen now? Forgive me, brother, but I
have made a compact with the Indras, and I swore once that
was impossible; forgive me, brother, but I have surrendered
your home to my foreign cousins; I am sorry, my brother,
but I have sold you into slavery for your own
preservation."
"At least," said Kurt grimly, "the Sufaki
will have the same chance a human has among Indras, and
that is better than dying, Kta, it is infinitely better
than dying."
"I hope," said Kta, "that Bel sees it
that way. I am afraid for this city tonight. There has been
too little resistance. They are saving something back. And
there is a report t'Tefur is in the Afen."
Kurt let the breath hiss slowly between his teeth and
glanced uphill, toward the Afen gate.
"If we are fortunate," he said, "Djan
will keep control of the weapons."
"You seem to have some peculiar confidence she will
not hand him that power."
"She will not do it," Kurt said. "Not
willingly. I could be wrong, but I think I know Djan's
mind. She would suffer a great deal before she would let
those machines be loosed on nemet."
Kta looked back at him, anger on his face. "She was
capable of things you seem to have forgotten. Humanness
blinds you, my friend, and I fear you have buried Mim more
deeply than earth can put her. I do not understand that. Or
perhaps I do."
"Some things," Kurt said, with a sudden and
soul-deep coldness, "you still do not know me well
enough to say."
And he walked back into Elas, ignoring t'Nethim,
retreating into its deep shadows, into the rhmei,
where the fire was dead, the ashes cold. He knelt there on
the rugs as he had done so many evenings, and stared into
the dark.
Lhe t'Nethim's quiet step dared the silent
rhmei. It was a rash and brave act for an orthodox
Indras. He bowed himself in respect before the dead
firebowl and knelt on the bare floor.
He only waited, as he had waited constantly, attending
them in silence".
"What do you want of me?" Kurt asked in
vexation.
"I owe you," said Lhe t'Nethim, "for
the care of my cousin's soul. I have come because it is
right that a kinsman see the hearth she honored. When I
have seen her avenged, I will be free again."
It was understandable. Kurt could imagine Kta doing so
reckless a thing for Aimu.
Even for him.
He had used rudeness to Kta. Even justified, it pained
him. He was glad to hear Kta's familiar step in the
entry, like a ghost of things that belonged to Elas,
disturbing its sleep.
Kta silently came and knelt down on the rug nearest
Kurt.
"I was wrong," said Kurt. "I owe you an
accounting."
"No," said Kta gently. "The words flew
amiss. You are a stranger sometimes. I feared you were
remembering human debts. And you have found no
yhia since losing Mim. She lies at the heart of
everything for you. A man without yhia toward such
a great loss cannot remember things clearly, cannot reason.
He is dangerous to all around him. I fear you. I fear for
you. Even you do not know what you are likely to
do."
He was silent for a long time. Kurt did not break the
silence.
"Let us wash," said Kta at last. "And
when I have cleansed my hands of blood I mean to light the
hearth of Elas again, and return some feeling of life to
these halls. If you dread to go upstairs, use my room, and
welcome."
"No," said Kurt, and gathered himself to his
feet. "I will go up, Kta. Do not worry for
it."
The room that had been his and Mini's looked little
different. The stained rug was gone, but all else was the
same, the bed, the holy phusa before which she had
knelt and prayed.
He had thought that being here would be difficult. He
could scarcely remember the sound of Mim's voice. That
had been the first memory to flee. The one most persistent
was that still shape of shadow beneath the glaring
hearth-fire, Nym's arms uplifted, invoking ruin, waking
the vengeance of his gods.
But now his eyes traveled to the dressing table, where
still rested the pins and combs that Mim had used, and when
he opened the drawer there were the scarves that carried
the gentle scent of aluel. For the first time in a
long time he did remember her in daylight, her gentle
touch, the light in her eyes when she laughed, the sound of
her voice bidding him Good morning, my lord. Tears came to
his eyes. He took one of the scarves, light as a dream in
his oar-calloused hands, and folded it and put it back
again. Elas was home for him again, and he could exist
here, and think of her and not mourn any longer.
T'Nethim, his peculiar shadow, hovered uncertainly
out on the landing. Kurt heard him, looked and bade him
come in. The Indras uncertainly trod the fine carpeting,
bowed in reverence before the dead phusa.
"There are clean clothes," Kurt said to him,
flinging wide the closet which held all that had been his.
"Take what you need."
He put off his own filthy garments and went into the
bath, washed and shaved with cold water and dressed again
in a change of clothing while Lhe t'Nethim did the same
for himself. Kurt found himself changed, browner, leaner,
ribs crossed by several ridged scars that were still
sensitive. Those misfortunes were far away, shut out by the
friendly wall of this house.
There was only t'Nethim, who followed, silent, to
remind him that war hovered about them.
When they had both finished, they went downstairs to the
rhmei to find Kta.
Kta had relit the holy fire, and the warm light of it
leaped up and touched their faces and chased the shadows
into the deeper recesses of the high ceiling and the spaces
behind the pillars of the hall. Elas was alive again in
Nephane.
T'Nethim would not enter here now, but returned to
the threshold of Elas, to take his place in the shadows,
sword detached and laid before him like a self-appointed
sentinel, as in ancient times the chan was
stationed.
But Kurt went to join Kta in the rhmei and
listened while Kta lifted hands to the fire and spoke a
prayer to the Guardians for their blessing.
"Spirits of my Ancestors," he ended, "of
Elas, my fathers, my father, fate has led me here and led
me home again. My father, my mother, my friends who wait
below, there is no peace yet in Elas. Aid me now to find
it. Receive us home again and give us welcome, and also
bear the presence of Lhe t'Nethim u Kma, who sits at
our gate, a suppliant Shadow of Mim, one of your own has
come. Be at peace."
For a moment he remained still, then let fall his hands
and looked back at Kurt. "It is a better
feeling," he said quietly. "But still there is a
heaviness. I am stifling, Kurt. Do you feel it?"
Kurt shivered involuntarily, and the human part of him
insisted it was a cold draft through the halls, blowing the
fire's warmth in the other direction.
But all of a sudden he knew what Kta meant of ill
feelings. An ancestral enemy sat at their threshold.
Unease
rippled through the air, disquiet hovered thickly there.
T'Nethim existed, t'Nethim waited, in a city where
he ought not to have come, in a house that was his
enemy.
A piece of the yhia out of place, waiting.
Let us bid him go wait in some other house, Kurt almost
suggested, but he was embarrassed to do it. Besides, it was
to himself that t'Nethim was attached, his own heels
the man of Indras dogged.
' A pounding came at the front door of Elas. They
hurried out, taking weapons left by the doorway of the
rhmei, and gave a nod of assent to
t'Nethim's questioning look. T'Nethim slipped
the bar and opened the door.
A man and a woman were there in the light: Aimu, with
Bel t'Osanef.
She folded her hands on her breast and bowed, and Kta
bowed deeply to her. When she lifted her face she was
crying, tears flooding over her face.
"Aimu," said Kta. "Bel,
welcome."
"Am I truly?" Aimu asked. "My brother, I
have waited so long this afternoon, so patiently, and you
would not come to Irain."
"Ei, Aimu, Aimu, you were my first thought
in coming home-how not, my sister? You are all Kurt and I
have left. How can you think I do not care?"
Aimu looked into his face and her hurt became a troubled
expression, as if suddenly she read something in Kta that
she feared, knowing him. "Dear my brother," she
said, "there is no woman in the house. Receive us as
your guests and let me make this house home for you
again."
"It would be welcome," he said. "It would
be very welcome, my sister."
She bowed a little and went her way into the women's
part of the house. Kta looked back to Bel, hardly able to
do otherwise, and the Sufaki's eyes were full sober.
They demanded an answer.
"Bel," said Kta, "this house bids you
welcome. Whether it is still a welcome you want to accept .
. ."
"You can tell me that, Kta."
"I am going to finish the quarrel between us and
Tefur, Bel." Kta then gave Lhe t'Nethim a direct
look, so the Indras knew he was earnestly not wanted. Lhe
retreated down the hall toward the darkness, still not
daring the rhmei.
"He is a stranger," said Bel. "Is he of
the Isles?"
"He is Indras," Kta admitted. "Forget
him, Bel. Come into the rhmei. We will
talk."
"I will talk here," said Bel. "I want to
know what you are planning. Revenge on t'Tefur-in that
I will gladly join you. I have a debt of blood there too.
But why is the street still sealed? What is this silence in
Irain? And why have you not come there?"
"Bel, do not press me like this. I will
explain."
"You have made some private agreement with the
Indras forces. That is the only conclusion that makes
sense. I want you to tell me that I am wrong. I want you to
account for how you return with the fleet, for who this
stranger is in Bias, for a great many things,
Kta."
"Bel, we were defeated. We have bought
time."
"How?"
"Bel, if you walk out of here now and rouse your
people against us, you will be bloody-guilty. We lost the
battle. The Methi Ylith will not destroy the city if we
fulfill her conditions. Walk out of here if you choose,
betray that confidence, and you will have lives of your
people on your conscience."
Bel paused with his hand on the door.
"What would you do to stop me?"
"I would let you go," said Kta. "I would
not stop you. But your people will die if they fight, and
they will throw away everything we have tried to win for
them. Ylith-methi will not destroy the Sufaki, Bel. We
would never have agreed to that. I am struggling with her
to win your freedom. I think I can, if the Sufaki
themselves do not undo it all."
Bel's eyes were cold, a muscle slowly knotting in
his jaw.
"You are surrendering," he said at last.
"Did you not tell me once how the Indras-descended
would fight to the death before they would let Nephane
fall? Are these your promises? Is this the value of your
honor?"
"I want this city to live, Bel."
"I know you, my friend. Kta t'Elas took good
thought that it was honorable. And when Indras talk of
honor, we always lose."
"I understand your bitterness; I do not blame you.
But I won you as much as I could win."
"I know," said Bel. "I know it for the
truth. If I did not believe it, I would help them collect
your head. Gods, my friend, my kinsman-by-marriage, of all
our enemies, it has to
"be you to come tell me you have sold us out, and
for friendship's sake. Honorably. Because it was fated.
Ai, Kta-"
"I am sorry, Bel."
Bel laughed shortly, a sound of weeping. "Gods,
they killed my house for staying by Elas. My people ... I
tried to persuade to reason, to the middle course. I argued
with great eloquence, ai, yes, and most bitter of all, I
knew-I knew when I heard the fleet had returned-I knew as
sure as instinct what the Indras must have done to come
back so soon. It was the reasonable course, was it not, the
logical, the expedient, the conservative thing to do? But I
did not know until you failed to come to Irain that you had
been the one to do it to us."
"T'Osanef," said Kurt, "times change
things, even in Indresul. No human would have left
Tehal-methi's hands alive. I was freed."
"Have you met with Ylith-methi face to
face?"
"Yes," said Kta.
Bel shot him a yet more uneasy look. "Gods, I could
almost believe . . . Did you run straight from here to
Indresul? Was t'Tefur right about you?"
"Is that the rumor in the city?"
"A rumor I have denied until now."
"Shan t'Tefur knows where we were," said
Kurt. "He tried to sink us in the vicinity of the
Isles, but we were captured after that by the Indras, and
that is the truth. Kta risked his life for your sake,
t'Osanef. You could at least afford him the time to
hear all the truth."
Bel considered a moment. "I suppose I can do
that," he said. "There is little else I can do,
is there?"
"Will you have more tea, gentlemen?" Aimu
asked, when the silence lasted overlong among them.
"No," said Bel at last, and gave his cup to
her. He looked once more at Kta and Kurt. "Kta, I am
at least able to understand. I am sorry . . . for the
suffering you had." '
"You are saying what is in your mind," said
Kta, "not what is in your heart."
"I have listened to what you had to say. I do not
blame you. What could you do? You are Indras. You chose the
survival of your people and the destruction of mine. Is
that so unnatural?"
"I will not let them
harm the Sufaki," Kta
insisted, while Bel stared at him with that hard-eyed pain
which would not admit of tears.
"Would you defy Ylith-methi for us," asked
Bel, "as you defied Djan?"
"Yes. You know I would."
"Yes," said Bel, "because Indras are
madly honorable. You would die for me. That would satisfy
your conscience. But you have already made the choice that
matters. Gods, Kta, Kta, I love you as a brother; I
understand you, and it hurts, Kta."
"It grieves me too," said Kta, "because I
knew that it would hurt you personally. But I am doing what
I can to prevent bloodshed among your people. I do not ask
your help, only your silence."
"I cannot promise that."
"Bel," Kurt said sharply when t'Osanef
made to rise. "Listen to me. A people can
still hope, so long as they live; even mine, low as they
have fallen on this world. You can survive this."
"As slaves again.''
"Even so, Sufaki ways would survive. If they
survive, little by little, you gain. Fight them, spend
lives, fall-in the end, the same result: Sufaki ways seep
in among the Indras and theirs among you. Bow to good
sense. Be patient."
"My people would curse me for a traitor."
"It is too late to do otherwise," said
Kurt.
"Are the Families agreed?" Bel asked Kta.
"A vote was taken in the fleet. Enough houses were
present to bind the Families to the decision; the
Upei's vote would be a formality."
"That is not unusual," said Bel, and suddenly
looked at Aimu, who sat listening to everything, pained and
silent. "Aimu, do you have counsel for me?"
"No," she said. "No counsel. Only that
you do what you think best. If your honored father were
here, my lord, he surely would have advice for you, being
Sufaki, being elder. What could I tell you?"
Bel bowed his head and thought a time, and made a
gesture of deep distress. "It is a fair answer,
Aimu," he said at last. "I only hate the choice.
Tonight-tonight, when it is possible to move without having
my throat cut by one of your men, my brother Kta-I will go
to what men of my father's persuasion I can reach. I
leave t'Tefur to you.
I will not kill Sufaki. I assume you are going to try to
take the Afen?"
Kta was slow to answer, and Bel's look was one of
bitter humor, as if challenging his trust. "Yes,"
said Kta.
"Then we go our separate ways this evening. I hope
your men will exercise the. sense to stay off the
harbor-front. Or is it a night attack Indresul
plans?"
"If that should happen," said Kta, "you
will know that we of the Families have been deceived. I
tell you the truth, Bel, I do not anticipate
that."
Men came to the door of Elas from time to time as the
day sank toward evening, representatives of the houses,
reporting decisions, urging actions. Ian t'Ilev came to
report the street at last under firm control all along the
wall of the Afen gate. He brought too the unwelcome news
that Res t'Benit had been wounded from ambush at the
lower end of the street, grim forecast of trouble to come,
when night made the Families' position vulnerable.
"Where did it happen?" asked Kta. "At
Imas," said Ian. It was the house that faced the
Sufaki district. "But the assassin ran and we could
not follow him into the-"
He stopped cold as he saw Bel standing in the triangular
arch of the rhmei.
Bel walked forward. "Do you think me the enemy, Ian
t'Ilev?"
"T'Osanef." Ian covered his confusion with
a courteous bow. "No, I was only surprised to find you
here." "That is strange. Most of my people would
not be." "Bel," Kta reproved him.
"You and I know how things stand," said Bel.
"If you will pardon me, I see things are getting down
to business and the sun is sinking. I think it is time for
me to leave." "Bel, be careful. Wait until it is
securely dark." "I will be careful," he
said, a little warmth returning to his voice. "Kta,
take care for Aimu."
"Gods, are you leaving this moment? What am I to
tell her?"
"I have said to her what I need to say." Bel
delayed a moment more, his hand on the door, and looked
back. "She was your best argument; I remain grateful
you did not stoop to that. I will omit to wish you success,
Kta. Do not be surprised if some of my people choose to die
rather than agree with you. I will not even pray for
t'Tefur's death, when it may be the last the world
will see of the nation we were. The name, my Indras
friends, was Chtelek, not Sufak. But that probably will not
matter hereafter."
"Bel," said Kta, "at least arm
yourself."
"Against whom? Yours-or mine? Thank you, no, Kta. I
will see you at the harbor, or be in it tomorrow morning,
whichever fortune brings me."
The heavy door closed behind him, echoing through the
empty halls, and Kta looked at Ian with a troubled
expression.
"Do you trust him that far?" Ian t'Ilev
asked.
"Begin no action against the Sufaki beyond Imas. I
insist on that, Ian."
"Is everything still according to original
plan?"
"I will be there at nightfall. But one thing you
can do: take Aimu with you and put her safely in a defended
house. Elas will be no protection to her tonight."
"She will be safe in Ilev. There will be men left
to guard it, as many as we can spare. Uset's women will
be there too."
"That will ease my mind greatly," said
Kta.
Aimu wept at the parting, as she had already been crying
and trying not to. Before she did leave the house, she went
to the phusmeha and cast into the holy fire her
silken scarf. It exploded into brief flame, and she held
out her hands in prayer. Then she came and put herself in
the charge of Ian t'Ilev.
Kurt felt deeply sorry for her and found it hard to
think Kta would not make some special farewell, but he
bowed to her and she to him with the same formality that
had always been between them.
"Heaven guard you, my brother," she said
softly.
"The Guardians of Elas watch over thee, my little
sister, once of this house." ..
It was all. Ian opened the door for her and shepherded
her out into the street, casting an anxious eye across and
up where the guards still stood on the rooftops, a
reassuring presence. Kta closed the door again.
"How much longer?" Kurt asked. "It's
near dark. Shan t'Tefur undoubtedly has ideas of his
own."
"We are about to leave." TNethim appeared
silently among the shadows of the further hall. Kta gave a
jerk of his head and t'Nethim came forward to join
them. "Stay by the threshold," he ordered
t'Nethim. "And be still. What I have yet to do
does not involve you. I forbid you to invoke your Guardians
in this house."
T'Nethim looked uneasy, but bowed and assumed his
accustomed place by the door, laying his sword on the floor
before him.
Kta walked with Kurt into the firelit rhmei,
and Kurt realized then the nature of Kta's warning to
t'Nethim, for he walked to the left wall of the
rhmei, where hung the Sword of Elas, Isthain. The
ypan-sul had hung undisturbed for nine
generations, untouched since the expulsion of the humans
from Nephane but for the sometime attention that kept its
metal bright and its leather-wrapped hilt in good repair.
The ypai-sulim, the Great Weapons, were unique to
their houses and full of the history of them. Isthain,
forged in Indresul when Nephane was still a colony, nearly
a thousand years before, had been dedicated in the blood of
a Sufaki captive in the barbaric past, carried into battle
by eleven men before.
Kta's hand hesitated at taking the age-dark hilt of
it, but then he lifted it down, sheath and all, and went to
the hearthfire. There he knelt and laid the great Sword on
the floor, hands outstretched over it.
"Guardians of Elas," he said, "waken,
waken and hear me, all ye spirits who have ever known me or
wielded this blade. I, Kta t'Elas u Nym, last of this
house, invoke ye; know my presence and that of Kurt Liam
t'Morgan u Patrick Edward, friend to this house. Know
that at our threshold sits Lhe t'Nethim u Kma. Let your
powers shield my friend and myself, and do no harm to him
at our door. We take Isthain against Shan t'Tefur u
Tlekef, and the cause of it you well know. And you,
Isthain, you shall have t'Tefur's blood or mine.
Against t'Tefur direct your anger and against no
others. Long have you slept undisturbed, my dread sister,
and I know the tribute due you when you are wakened. It
will be paid by morning's light, and after that time
you will sleep again. Judge me, ye Guardians, and if my
cause is just, give me strength. Bring peace again to Elas,
by t'Tefur's death or mine."
So saying he took up the sheathed blade and drew it, the
holy light running up and down the length of it as it came
forth in his hand. Etched in its shining surface was the
lightning emblem of the house, seeming to flash to life in
the darkness of the rhmei. In both hands he lifted
the blade to the light and rose, lifted it heavenward and
brought it down again, then recovered the sheath and made
it fast in his belt.
"It is done," he said to Kurt. "Have a
care of me now, though your human soul has its doubts of
such powers. Isthain last drank of human life, and she is
an evil creature, hard to put to sleep once wakened. She is
eldest of the Sulim in Nephane, and
self-willed."
Kurt nodded and answered nothing. Whatever the temper of
the spirit that lived in the metal, he knew the one which
lived in Kta t'Elas. Gentle Kta had prepared himself to
kill and, in truth, he did not want to stand too near, or
to find any friend in Kta's path.
And when they came to the threshold where t'Nethim
waited, Lhe t'Nethim bowed his face to the stone floor
and let Kta pass the door before he would rise. When Kurt
delayed to close the door of Elas and secure it,
t'Nethim gathered himself up and crept out into the
gathering dark, the look on his perspiring face that of a
man who had indeed been brushed by something that sought
his life.
"He has prayed your safety," Kurt ventured to
tell him.
"Sometimes," said Lhe t'Nethim, "that
is not enough. Go ahead, t'Morgan, but be careful of
him. It is the dead of Elas who live in that thing. Mim my
cousin-"
He ceased with a shiver, and Kurt put the nemet
superstition out of mind with a horror that Mini's name
could be entangled in the bloody history of Isthain.
He ran to overtake Kta, and knew that Lhe t'Nethim,
at a safe distance, was still behind them.
XXIII
"There" said Ian t'Ilev,
nodding at the iron gate of the Afen.
"They have several archers stationed inside. We
are
bound to take a few arrows. You and Kurt must have most
care: they will be directly facing you for a few
moments."
Kta studied the situation from the vantage point in the
door of Irain. It was dark, and there were only ill-defined
shapes to be seen, the wall and the Afen a hulking mass.
"We cannot help that. Let us go. Now."
Ian t'Ilev bowed shortly, then broke from cover,
darting across the street.
In an instant came a heart-stopping shriek, and from the
main street poured a force of men bearing torches and
weapons: the Indras-descended came in direct attack against
the iron gate of the Afen, bearing a ram with them.
White light illuminated the court of the Afen, blinding,
and there was an answering Sufak ululation from inside the
wall. The blows of the ram began to resound against the
iron bars.
Kurt and Kta held a moment, while men from Isulan poured
around them. Then Kta broke forth and they followed him to
the shadow of the wall. Scaling-poles went up.
The first man took with him the line that would aid
their descent on the other side. He gained the top and
rolled over, the line jerking taut in the hands of those
who secured it on the outside.
The next man swarmed up to the top and then it was
Kurt's turn. Floodlights swung over to them now,
spotting them, arrows beginning to fly in their direction.
One hissed over Kurt's head. He hooked a leg over the
wall, flung himself over and slid for the bottom, stripping
skin from his hands on the knotted line.
The man behind him made it, but the next came plummeting
to earth, knocking the other man to the ground. There was
no time to help either. Kta landed on his feet beside him,
broke the securing thong and ripped Isthain from its
sheath. Kurt drew his own ypan as they ran, trying
to dodge clear of the tracking floodlight.
The wall of the Afen itself provided them shelter, and
there they regrouped. Of the twenty-four who had begun, at
least six were missing.
T'Nethim was the last into shelter. They were
nineteen.
Kta gestured toward the door of the Afen itself, and
they slipped along the wall toward it, the place where the
Methi's guard had taken their stand. They knew those
men but there was no mercy in the arrows which had already
taken toll of them, and none in the plans they had laid.
The door must be forced.
With a crash of iron the wall-gate gave way and the
Indras under Ian t'Ilev surged forward in a frontal
assault on the door to the Afen, the Sufaki archers,
standing and kneeling, firing as rapidly as they could.
Kta's small force hit the bowmen from the flank,
creating precious seconds of diversion. Isthain struck
without mercy, and Kurt wielded his own blade with less
skill but no less determination.
The swordless archers gave up the bows at such
unexpected short range and resorted to long daggers, but
they had no chance against the ypai, cut down and
overrushed. The charge of the Indras carried to the very
door, over the bodies of the Methi's valiant guard,
bringing the ram's metal-spiked weight to bear with
slow and shattering force against the bronze-plated
wood.
From inside, over all the booming and shouting, came a
brief piercing whine. Kurt knew it, froze inside, caught
Kta by the shoulder and pulled him back, shouting for the
others to drop, but few heard him.
The Afen door dissolved in a sheet of flame and the ram
and the men who wielded it were slag and ashes in the same
instant. The Indras still standing were paralyzed with
shock or they might have fled. There came the click and
whine as the alien fieldpiece in the inner hall built up
power for the next burst of fire.
Kurt flung himself through the smoking doorway, to the
wall inside and out of the line of fire. The gunners swung
the barrel around on its tripod to aim at him against the
wall and he dropped, sliding as it moved, the beam passing
over his head with a crackle of energy and a breath of
heat.
The wall shattered, the support beams turning to ash in
that instant. Kurt scrambled up now with a shout as wild as
that of the Indras, several seconds his before the weapon
could fire again.
He took the gunner with a sweep of his blade, his ears
hurting as the unmanned gun gathered force again, a wild
scream of energy. A second man tried to turn it on the
Indras who were pouring through the door.
Kurt ran him through, ignoring the man who was thrusting
a pike at his own side. The hot edge of metal raked his
back and he fell, rolled for protection. The Sufaki above
him was aiming the next thrust for his heart. Desperately
he parried with his blade crosswise and deflected the point
up. The iron head raked his shoulder and grated on the
stone floor.
In the next instant the Sufaki went down with Isthain
through his ribs, and Kta paused amid the rush to give Kurt
his hand and help him up.
"Get back to safety," Kta advised him.
"I am all right-No!" he cried as he
saw the Indras preparing to topple the live gun to the
flooring. He staggered to the weapon that still hummed with
readiness and swung it to where the Indras were pressing
forward against the next barred doorway, trying vainly to
batter it with shoulders and blades. Behind him the
shattered wall and dust and chips of stone sifting down
from the ceiling warned how close the area was to collapse.
There was need of caution. He controlled the mishandled
weapon to a tighter, less powerful beam.
"Have a care," Kta said. "I do not trust
that thing."
"Clear your men back," said Kurt, and Kta
shouted at them. When they realized what he was about, they
scrambled to obey.
The doorway dissolved, the edges of the blasted wood
charred and blackened, and Kurt powered down while the
Indras surged forward again and opened the ruined
doors.
The inner Afen stood open to them now, the lower halls
vacant of defenders. For a moment there was silence. There
were the stairs leading up to the Methi's apartments,
to the human section, which other weapons would guard.
"She has given her weapons to the Sufaki,"
Kurt said. "There is no knowing what the situation is
up there. We have to take the upper level. Help me. We need
this weapon."
"Here," said Ben t'Irain, a heavyset man
who was house-friend to Elas. He took the thing on his
broad shoulder and gestured for one of his cousins to take
its base as Kurt kicked the tripod and collapsed it.
"If we meet trouble," Kurt told him,
"drop to your knee and hold this end straight toward
the target. Leave the rest to me."
"I understand," said the man calmly, which was
bravery for a nemet, much as they hated machines. Kurt gave
the man a nod of respect and motioned the men to try the
stairway.
They went quickly and carefully now, ready for ambush at
any turn. Kurt privately feared a mine, but that was
something he did not tell them; they had no other way.
The door at the top of the stairs was closed, as Kurt
had known it must be. With Ben to steady the gun, he
blasted the wood to cinders, etching the outline of the
stone arch on the wall across the hall. The weapon started
to gather power again, beginning that sinister whine, and
Kurt let it, dangerous as it was to move it when charged.
It had to be ready.
They entered the hall leading to the human section of
the Afen. There remained only the door of Djan's
apartments.
Kurt held up a hand signaling caution, for there must be
opposition here as nowhere else.
He waited. Kta caught his eye and looked impatient, out
of breath as he was.
With Djan to reckon with, underestimation could be fatal
to all of them. "Ben," he said, "this may be
worth your life and mine."
"What will you?" Ben t'Irain asked him
calmly enough, though he was panting from the exertion of
the climb. Kurt nodded toward the door.
T'Irain went with him and took up position,
kneeling. Kurt threw the beam dead center, fired.
The door ceased to exist. In the
reeking opening was framed a heap of twisted metal, the
shapes of two men in pale
silhouette against the
cindered wall beyond, where
their bodies and the gun they had manned had absorbed the
energy.
A movement to the right drew Kurt's attention. There
was a burst of light as he turned and Ben t'Irain
gasped in pain and collapsed beneath the gun.
T'Tefur. The Sufaki swung the pistol left at Kurt
and Kurt dropped, the beam raking the wall where he had
been. In that instant two of the Indras rushed the Sufaki
leader, one shot down, and Kta, the other one, grazed by
the bolt.
Kta vaulted the table between them and Isthain swept m
an invisible downstroke that cleaved the Sufaki's
skull. The pistol discharged undirected and Kta staggered,
raked across the leg as t'Tefur's dying hands
caught at him and missed. Then Kta pulled himself erect and
leaned on Isthain as he turned and looked back at the
others. Kurt edged over to the whining gun and shut it
down, then touched t'Irain's neck to find that
there was no heartbeat. TTefur's first shot had been
true.
He gathered his shaking limbs under him and rose,
leaning on the charred doorframe. The heat made him jerk
back, and he staggered over to join Kta, past Ian
t'Ilev's sprawled body, for he was the other man
t'Tefur had shot down before dying.
Kta had not moved. He still stood by t'Tefur, both
his hands on Isthain's pommel. Then Kurt bent down and
took the gun from Shan t'Tefur's dead fingers, with
no sense of triumph in the action, no satisfaction in the
name of Mim or the other dead the man had sent before
him.
It was a way of life they had killed, the last of a
great house. He had died well. The Indras themselves were
silent, Kta most of all.
A small silken form burst from cover behind the couch
and fled for the open door. T'Ranek stopped her, swept
her struggling off her feet and set her down again.
"It is the chan of the Methi," said
Kta, for it was indeed the girl Pai t'Erefe, Sufaki,
Djan's companion. Released, she fell sobbing to her
knees, a small, shaken figure in that gathering of warlike
men. She was also of the Afen, so when she had made the
necessary obeisance to her conquerors, she sat back with
her little back stiff and her head erect.
"Where is the Methi?" Kta asked her, and Pai
set her lips and would not answer. One of the men reached
down and gripped her arm cruelly.
"No," Kurt told him, and dropped to one knee,
fronting Pai. "Pai, Pai, speak quickly. There is a
chance she may live if you tell me."
Pai's large eyes reckoned him, inside and out.
"Do not harm her," she pleaded.
"Where is she?"
"The temple. . . ." When he rose she sprang to
her feet, holding him, compelling his attention. "My
lord, t'Tefur wanted her greater weapons. She would not
give them. She refused him. My lord Kurt, my lord, do not
kill her."
"The chan is probably lying," said
t'Ranek, "to gain time for the Methi to prepare
worse than this welcome."
"I am not lying," Pai sobbed, gripping
Kurt's arm shamelessly rather than be ignored.
"Lord Kurt, you know her. I am not lying."
"Come on." Kurt took her by the arm and looked
at the rest of them, at Kta most particularly, whose face
was pale and drawn with the shock of his wound. "Hold
here," he told Kta. "I am going to the
temple."
"It is suicide," said Kta. "Kurt, you
cannot enter there. Even we dare not come after her there,
no Indras-"
"Pai is Sufaki and I am human," said Kurt,
"and no worse pollution there than Djan herself. Hold
the Afen. You have won, if only you do not throw it away
now."
"Then take men with you," Kta pleaded with
him, and when he ignored the plea: "Kurt, Elas wants
you back."
"I will remember it."
He hurried Pai with him, past t'Irain's corpse
at the door and down the hall to the inner stairs. He kept
one hand on her arm and held the pistol in the other,
forcing the chart along at a breathless pace.
Pai sobbed, pattering along with small resisting steps,
tripping hi her skirts on the stairs, though she tried to
hold them with her free hand. He shook her as they came to
the landing, not caring that he hurt.
"If they reach her first," he said, "they
will kill her, Pai. As you love her, move."
And after that, Pai's slippered feet hurried with
more sureness, and she had swallowed down her tears, for
the brave little chan had not^ needed to trip so
often. She hurried now under her own power.
They came into the main hall, through the rest of the
Indras, and men stared, but they did not challenge him;
everyone knew Elas' human. Pai stared about her with
fear-mad eyes, but he hastened her through, beneath the
threatening ceiling at the main gate and to the outside,
past the carnage that littered the entrance. Pai gave a
startled gasp and stopped. He drew her past quickly, not
much blaming the girl.
The night wind touched them, cold and clean after the
stench of burning flesh in the Afen. Across the floodlit
courtyard rose the dark side of Haichema-tleke, and beneath
it the wall and the small gate that led out into the temple
courtyard.
They raced across the lighted area, fearful of some last
archer, and reached the gate out of breath.
"You," Kurt told Pai, "had better be
telling the truth."
"I am," said Pai, and her large eyes widened,
fixed over his shoulder. "Lord! Someone
comes!"
"Come," he said and, blasting the lock,
shouldered the heavy gate open. "Hurry."
The temple doors stood ajar, far up the steps past the
three triangular pylons. The golden light of Nephane's
hearthfire threw light over all the square and hazed the
sky above the roof-opening.
Kurt drew a deep breath and raced upward, dragging Pai
with him, the girl stumbling now from exhaustion. He put
his arm about her and half carried her, for he would not
leave her alone to face whatever pursued them. Behind them
he could hear shouting rise anew from the main gate,
renewed resistance-cheers for victory-he did not pause to
know.
Within, the great hearthfire came in view, roaring up
from its circular pit to the gelos, the aperture
in the ceiling, the smoke boiling darkly up toward the
black stones.
Kurt kept his grip on Pai and entered cautiously,
keeping near the wall, edging his way around it, surveying
all the shadowed recesses. The fire's burning drowned
his own footsteps and its glare hid whatever might lie
directly across it The first he might know of Djan's
presence could be a darting bolt of fire deadlier than the
fire that burned for Phan.
"Human."
Pai shrieked even as he whirled, throwing her aside, and
he held his finger still on the trigger. The aged priest,
the one who had so nearly consigned him to die, stood in a
side hall, staff in hand, and behind him appeared other
priests.
Kurt backed away uneasily, darted a nervous glance
further left, right again toward the fire.
"Kurt," said Djan's voice from the shadows
at his far right.
He turned slowly, knowing she would be armed.
She waited, her coppery hair bright in the shadows,
bright as the bronze of the helmeted men who waited behind
her. The weapon he had expected was in her hand. She wore
her own uniform now-he had never seen her wear it
before-green that shimmered with synthetic unreality in
this time and place.
"I knew," she said, "when you ran, that
you would be back."
He cast the gun to the ground, demonstrating both hands
empty. "I'll get you out. It's too late to
save anything. Djan. Give up. Come with me."
"What, have you forgiven, and has Elas? They sent
you here because they won't come here. They fear this
place. And Pai, for shame, Pai."
"Methi," wailed Pai, who had fallen on her
face in misery, "Methi, I am sorry."
"I do not blame you. I have expected him for
days." She spoke now in Nechai. "And Shan
t'Tefur?"
"He is dead," said Kurt.
There was no grief, only a slight flicker of the eyes.
"I could no longer reason with him. He saw things that
could not exist, that never had existed. So others found
their own solutions, they tell me. They say the Families
have gone over to Ylith of Indresul."
"To save their city."
"And will it?"
"I think it has a chance at least."
"I thought," she said, "of making them
listen. I had the firepower to do it, to show them where we
came from."
"I am thankful," he said, "that you
didn't."
"You made this attack calculating that I
-wouldn't."
"You know the object lesson would be pointless. And
you have too keen a sense of responsibility to get these
men killed defending you. I'll help you get out, into
the hills. There are people in the villages who would help
you. You can make your peace with Ylith-methi
later."
She smiled sadly. "With a world between us, how did
we manage to do it? Ylith will not let it rest. And neither
will Kta t'Elas."
"Let me help you."
Djan moved the gun she had held steadily on him, killed
the power with a pressure of her thumb. "Go," she
told her two companions. "Take Pai to
safety."
"Methi," one protested. It was t'Senife.
"We will not leave you with him."
"Go," she said, but when they would not, she
simply held out her hand to Kurt and started with him to
the door, the white-robed priests melting back before them
to clear the way.
Then a shadow rose up before them.
TNethim.
-
A blade flashed. Kurt froze, foreseeing the move of
Djan's hand, whipping up the pistol.
"Don't!" he cried out to them both.
The ypan arced down.
A cry of outrage roared in his ears. He seized
t'Nethim's arm, thrown sprawling as the Sufaki
guards went for the man. Blades lifted, fell almost
simultaneously. T'Nethim sprawled down the steps, over
the edge, leaving a dark trail behind him.
Kurt struggled to his knees, saw the awful ruin of
Djan's shoulder and knew, though she still breathed,
that she was finished. His stomach knotted in panic. He
thought that her eyes pitied him.
Then they lost the look of life, the firelight from the
doorway flickering across their surface. When he gathered
her up against him she was loose, lifeless.
"Let her go," someone ordered.
He ignored the command, though it was in his mind that
in the next moment a Sufak dagger could be through his
back. He cradled Djan against him, aware of Pai sobbing
nearby. He did not shed tears. They were stopped up in him,
one with the terror that rested in his belly. He wished
they would end it.
A deafening vibration filled the air, moaning deeply
with a sighing voice of bronze, the striking of the
Inta, the notes shaking and chilling the night. It
went on and on, time brought to a halt, and Kurt knelt and
held her dead weight against his shoulder until at last one
of the younger priests came and knelt, holding out his
hands in entreaty.
"Human," said the priest, "please, for
decency's sake, let us take her from this holy
place."
"Does she pollute your shrine?" he asked,
suddenly trembling with outrage. "She could have
killed every living thing on the shores of the Ome Sin. She
could not even kill one man."
"Human," said t'Senife, half kneeling
beside him. "Human, let them have her. They will treat
her honorably."
He looked up into the narrow Sufaki eyes and saw grief
there. The priests pulled Djan from him gently, and he made
the effort to rise, his clothes soaked with her blood. He
shook so that he almost fell, staring with dazed eyes on
the temple square, where a line of Indras guards had ranged
themselves. Still the Inta sounded, numbing the
very air. Men came in small groups, moving slowly toward
the shrine.
They were Sufaki.
He was suddenly aware that all around him were Sufaki,
save for the distant line of Indras swordsmen who stood
screening the approach to the temple.
He looked back, realizing they had taken Djan. She was
gone, the last human face of his own universe that he would
ever see. He heard Pai crying desolately, and almost
absently bent and drew her to her feet, passing her into
t'Senife's care.
"Come with me," he bade t'Senife.
"Please. The Indras will not attack. I will get you
both to safety. There should be no more killing in this
place."
T'Senife yielded, nodded to his companion-tired men,
both of them, with tired, sorrowful faces.
They came down the long steps. Indras turned, ready to
take the three Sufaki, the men and the chan Pai,
in charge, but Kurt put himself between.
"No," he said. "There is no need. We have
lost t'Nethim; they have lost a methi. She is dead. Let
them be."
One was t'Nechis, who heard that news soberly and
bowed and prevented his men. "If you look for Kta
t'Elas," said t'Nechis, "seek him toward
the wall."
"Go your way," Kurt bade the Sufaki, "or
stay with me if you will."
"I will stay with you," said t'Senife,
"until I know what the Indras plan to do with
Nephane." There was cynicism in his voice, but it
surely masked a certain fear, and the methi's guards
walked with him as he walked behind the Indras line in
search of Kta.
He found Kta among the men of Isulan, with his leg
bandaged and with Isthain now secure at his belt. Kta
looked up in shock, joy damped by fear. Kurt looked down at
his bloody hand and found it trembling and his knees likely
to give out.
"Djan is dead," said Kurt.
"Are you all right?" Kta asked.
Kurt nodded, then jerked his head toward the Sufaki.
'They were her guards. They deserve honor of
that."
Kta considered them, inclined his head in respect.
"T'Senife, help us. Stand by us for a time, so
that your people may see that we mean them no harm. We want
the fighting stopped."
The rumor was spreading among the people that the Methi
was dead. The Into, had not ceased to sound. The
crowd in the square increased steadily.
"It is Bel t'Osanef," said Toj
t'Isulan.
It was in truth Bel, coming slowly through the crowd,
pausing to speak a word, exchange a glance with one he
knew. Among some his presence evoked hard looks and
muttering, but he was not alone. Men came with him, men
whose years made the crowd part for them, murmuring in
wonder: the elders of the Sufaki.
Kta raised a hand to draw his attention, Kurt beside
him, though it occurred to him what vulnerable targets they
both were.
"Kta," Bel said, "Kta, is it true, the
Methi is dead?"
"Yes," said Kta, and to the elders, who
expressed their grief in soft murmurings: "That was
not planned. I beg you, come into the Afen. I will swear on
my life you will be safe."
"I have already sworn on mine," said Bel.
"They will hear you. We Sufaki are accustomed to
listen, and you Indras to making laws. This time the
decision will favor us both, my friend, or we will not
listen."
"We could- please some in Indresul," said Kta,
"by disavowing you. But we will not do that. We will
meet Ylith-methi as one city."
"If we can unite to surrender," said one
elder, "we can to fight,"
Then it came to Kurt, like an incredibly bad dream: the
human weapons in the citadel.
He fled, startling Kta, startling the Indras, so that
the guard at the gate nearly ran him through before he
recognized him in the dark.
But Elas' human had leave to go where he would.
Heart near to bursting, Kurt raced through the
battlefield of the court, up the stairs, into the heights
of the Afen.
Even those on watch in the Methi's hall did not
challenge him until he ordered them sharply from the room
and drew his ypan and threatened them. They
yielded before his wild frenzy, hysterical as he was, and
fled out.
"Call t'Elas," a young son of Ilev urged
the others. "He can deal with this madman."
Kurt slammed the door and locked it, overturned the
table and wrestled it into position against the door,
working with both hands now, barring it with yet more
furniture. They struck it from the outside, but it was
secure. Then they went away.
He sank down, trembling, too weary to move. In time he
heard the voice of Kta, of Bel, even Pai pleading with
him.
"What are you doing?" Kta cried through the
door. "My friend, what do you plan to do?"
But it was a Sufaki's voice, not Bel's, that
urged on him the inevitable.
"You hold the weapons that could destroy the Indras
fleet, that could free our city. A curse on you if you will
not help us!"
But only Kta and Bel did he answer, and then always the
same: "Go away. I am staying here."
In time they did go away, and he relaxed somewhat, until
he heard a gentle stirring at his barricade.
"Who is there?" he shouted out.
"My lord," said Pai's fearful voice from
near the floor. "My lord, you will not use those
weapons, will you?"
"No," he said, "I will not."
"They would have forced you. Not Kta. Not Bel. They
would not harm you. But some would have "forced you.
They wanted to attack. Kta persuaded them not to. Please,
may I come in?"
"No, Pai. I do not trust even you."
"I will watch here all night, my lord. I will tell
you if they come."
"You do not blame me, because I will not do what
they want?"
There was a long hesitation. "Djan also would not
do what they wished. I honored her. I will watch for you,
my lord. Rest. I will not sleep."
He sat down then on the only remaining chair, with his
head leaning back, and though he did not intend to, he
slept for little periods. Sometimes he would ask Pai
whether she slept, but her voice was always there, faithful
and calm.
Then came morning, through the glass of the window that
overlooked the west. When he went to look out, the sullen
light exposed the whole of a great war fleet moving into
the harbor.
Ylith's fleet had come.
He waited for a long time after they had docked. There
was no sign of fighting. Eventually he sent Pai downstairs
to spy out what was happening.
"There are Indras lords in the lower hall,"
she reported, "strangers. But they have been told you
are here. They are trying to decide whether to attack this
door or not. My lord, I am afraid."
"Leave the door," he told her. But she did
not. He still heard her stirring occasionally outside.
Then he went around the various centers of the section,
Wrecking machinery, smashing delicate circuits.
"What are you doing?" Pai cried, when she
heard the noise.
He did not trouble to answer. He dismantled the power
sources as far as he could, the few handweapons he found
also, everything. Then he took away the barricade before
the door.
She waited outside, her large eyes wide with fear and
with wonder-perhaps no little shock-for he was filthy and
bloody and almost staggering with exhaustion.
"They have not threatened you?" he asked.
She bowed her head gravely. "No, lord. They feared
to make you angry. They know the power of the
weapons."
"Let us go to Elas."
"I am chart to methis," she said.
"It is not proper for me to quit my station."
"I am afraid for you with conditions as they are.
Visit Elas with me."
She bowed very deeply, straightened and walked beside
him.
The shock of seeing him in the lower hall all but
paralyzed the men of Indresul, who watched there with a few
of the Indras of Nephane. The presence of Nephanites among
the occupying forces heartened him somewhat.
"The weapons," he said, "are dismantled
beyond my ability to repair them. I am going to Elas if you
want to find me."
And to his own surprise they let him pass, and puzzled
guards on the Street of the Families did also, for a man of
Indresul walked after them, watching them, his presence
guarding them.
"No harm must come to you," said that man at
last. "This is the order of the Methi Ylith."
There was no Hef to tend the door of Elas. Kurt opened
it for himself and with Pai behind him entered its shadows.
He stopped at the door of the rhmei, for he had
not washed from the fighting and he wished to bring no
pollution into the peace of that hall.
Kta rose to his feet from the chair of Nym, his face
touched with deep relief. By him on lesser chairs sat Bel,
Aimu, elders of the Sufaki and a stranger, Vel
t'Elas-in-Indresul.
Kurt bowed, realizing he had interrupted something of
great moment, that an Indras of the shining city sat at
this Hearth.
"I beg your leave," he said. "I have
finished at the Afen. No human weapons threaten your peace
any longer. Tell your Methi that, Vel t'Elas."
"I had assured Ylith-methi," said Kta, his
voice even but full of controlled feeling, "that this
would be your choice. Is that Pai t'Erefe with
you?"
"She needed a place for a time," he said.
"If Elas will accept her as a guest."
"Elas is honored," murmured Kta. "Go
wash, and come and sit with us, friend Kurt. We are in the
midst of serious business." But before he went
upstairs, Kta left his guests and came to him in the
hall.
"It was well done," said Kta softly. "My
friend, my brother Kurt, go and wash, and come down to us.
We are solving matters. It is a three- and a four-round
problem, but the Methi Ylith has vowed to stay in port
until it is done. We will talk here, then we will go down
to the port to tell her our decisions. There are others of
our cousins of Indresul in their several houses at this
moment, and each Indras house has taken Sufaki among them,
to shelter them at the sanctity of their hearths until this
matter is resolved. Not a Sufaki will be harmed, who
accepts house-friendship and the peace of our
roofs."
"Would they all come?"
"No, not all, not all. But perhaps the violent ones
have fled to their hills, or perhaps they will come down in
peace when they see it possible. But on every door of Sufak
some Indras Family has set its seal; there will be no
plundering. And at every hearth we have taken
house-friends. This we did, while you barricaded yourself
behind the Afen door."
Kurt managed a smile. "And that," he said,
"was well done too. Am I still welcome here?"
"You are of Elas," Kta exclaimed indignantly.
"Of this hearth and not simply beside it. Go
upstairs."
"I have to find t'Nethim's family," he
protested.
"This has been done. I need you," Kta
insisted. "/ need you. Elas does. When Ylith-methi
knows what you have done-and she will-I have no doubt that
she will wish to see you. You cannot go like that, and you
cannot go ignorant of the business of your
hearth."
He nodded wearily, felt for the stairs.
"Kta," said Bel softly. "See to him if
you wish, personally. We will keep peace at your hearth
until you return with my lord of Indresul. Perhaps we can
even find some things to discuss while you are gone if my
lady wife will bring us another round of tea."
Kta considered the two of them, grave old Vel and the
young Sufaki of his own age. Then he gave them a bemused
slight bow and guided Kurt toward the stairs.
"Come," he said. "You are home, my
friend."
CJ. CHERRYH
BROTHERS OF EARTH
Kurt Morgan's survival capsule brought him down
safely
on a nameless Earth-type world. He was the only
one
left of the battle crew that had just
annihilated a human
planet of the Hanan, the enemy in a
galactic war.
The planet was inhabited by humanoids with
a
pre-technolo'gy civilization, a complex
religion, and a long
history of intricate internal relations. There was one
other galactic battle survivor on that world-and she
was
an officer of the hated Hanan-and also the
high
priestess of the land in which Kurt had found
refuge.
The novel that C. J. Cherryh has written on
this premise
will establish her role even more firmly as one
of the
major new talents in science fiction.
"A born storyteller... fully worthy of the
company of
Leigh Brackett or C. L Moore."
-Algis Budrys, Fantasy & Science Fiction
"A fine new writer with exceptional ability."
-Lester Del Rey, Analog
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Endymion died soundlessly, a man-made star that
glowed and quickly winked out of existence.
Kurt Morgan watched her until there was no more left to
see, eyes fixed to the aft scanners of the capsule. When it
was over, he cut to forward view and set his mind on
survival.
There had been eighty men and women on
Endymion, seventy-nine of them now reduced to dust
and vapor with the ship, indistinguishable from its
remains. Two minutes to sunward was another cloud that had
been the enemy, another hundred individuals, the elements
that had been life from a score of worlds borne still on
collision course, destroyer and destroyed.
No report of the encounter would go back to Central.
There was no means to carry it. The Hanan planet of origin,
Aeolus, was no more than a cinder now, light-years distant;
and Endymion in pursuing the Hanan enemy had given
no reference data to Command. They had jumped on their own,
encountered, won and perished at once; their survival
capsule had no starflight capability.
A nameless star and six uncharted worlds lay under the
capsule's scan. The second was the most likely to
support life.
It grew larger in his scanners over the course of seven
days, a blue world wreathed in swirling cloud and patched
with the brown of land. It had a large, solitary moon. In
all particulars it read as an Earth-class planet, one the
Alliance would have sacrificed a hundred ships to win-which
they had already won if they could have known it.
The feared Hanan retaliation did not materialize. There
were no ships to threaten him. The world filled the
scanners now. Kurt vacillated between euphoric hope and
hopeless fear-hope because he had planned to die and it
looked as if he might not; and fear, because it suddenly
dawned on him that he was truly alone. The idea of a
possible enemy had kept him company until now. But
Endymion had run off the edge of the charts before
she perished. If the Hanan were not here, then there were
no other human beings this far from Sol Center.
That was loneliness.
Absolute.
The wedge-shaped capsule came in hard, overheated
and
struggling for life, plates shrieking as they parted
their joinings. Pressure exploded against Kurt's
senses, gray and red and dark.
He hung sideways, the straps preventing him from
slipping into the storage bay. He spent some little time
working free, feverish with anxiety. When he had done so he
opened the hatch, reckless of tests: he had no other
options.
Breathable. For a time after he had exited the ship he
simply stood and looked about him, from horizon to horizon
of rolling wooded hills. Never in all his planetfalls had
he seen the like of it, pure and unspoiled and, but for the
stench of burning, scented with abundant life.
He stood there laughing into the sun with the tears
running down his face, and shut his eyes and let the clean
wind dry his face and the coolness of the air relieve the
stifling warmth that clung to him.
The land began to descend perceptibly after the forests:
a long hill, a rocky bow of land, a brief expanse of beach
on an unlimited expanse of sea. The sun was low in the sky
before he had found a way down from the high rocks to that
sandy shore.
And there he dropped his gear on the dry sand and gazed
out entranced, over a sea bluer than he had ever seen and
greener than the hills, colors divided according to the
depth.
Isles lay against the horizon. The sand was white and
littered with the refuse of the sea, bits of wood and weed,
and shells of delicate pinks and yellows, in spiked and
volute shapes.
Delighted as a child, he bent and dipped his hands into
the water that lapped at his boots, tasted the salt of it
and spat a little, for he had known what a sea ought to be,
but he had never touched one or smelled the salt wind and
the wrack on the beach. He picked up a stick of driftwood
and hurled it far out, watched it carried back to him.
Something within him settled into place, finding all the
home-tales of his star-wandering folk true and real, even
if it was in such a place as this, that man had never
touched.
He waded at the edge a while, barefoot, careful of
stepping on something poisonous, and used a stick to prod
at things that lived there. But the daylight began to fade
so he could no longer see things clearly, and the wind
became cold; then he began to reckon with the coming night,
and gathered a great supply of driftwood and made a
fire.
It was the dark that was terrible, lonely as the space
between stars. He had seen birds that day, too high to
distinguish; he had seen the shells of mollusks and nudged
at things that scuttled off into deeper water; several
times he had startled small creatures from the high grass
and sent them bounding off, quickly invisible in the brush
and weeds. Nothing yet had threatened him, and no cries
disturbed the night. But his mind invented images from a
score of worlds. He started at every sound. The water
lapped and sucked at the shore, and small scavenger
crustaceans sidled about beyond the circle of firelight,
seeking food.
At last he rose up and put a great deal of wood on the
fire, then curled up as closely as he could before he
abandoned himself to sleep.
Pebbles grated. Sand crunched. Kurt lifted his head and
strained his eyes in the dying glare of the fire. Beyond it
a dark dragon head rode the waters, rocking with the motion
of the sea.
He scrambled for his gun, was hurled flat by sinuous
bodies that hit his back, man-sized and agile. He spat sand
and rolled and twisted, but a blow exploded across the side
of his head, heavy with darkness. He went down again,
fading, aware of the bite of cords, of being dragged
through water. He choked in the brine and went out
altogether.
He was soaking wet, facedown on a heaving wooden
surface. He sprang up, and was tripped and thrown by a
chain that linked his ankles together around a wooden
pillar; when he twisted over to look up, he could make out
a web of ropes and lines against the night sky, a dragon
head against the moon. It was a wooden ship, with a mast
for a single sail.
Men's voices called out and oars splashed down,
sweeping in unison; the motion of the ship changed,
steadied, and with a rustle and snap of canvas the great
square sail billowed out overhead, men hauling to sheet it
home. Kurt stared up in awe as the swelling canvas blotted
out the sky and the deck acquired a different feel as the
wind sped the ship on her way.
A man crowded him. Kurt scrambled up awkwardly, the
chain keeping his feet apart around the mast. Others were
close to him. He saw in the dim light the same structure
repeated hi every curious face; wide cheeks, flat,
well-formed noses with flaring nostrils; the eyes large and
dark, brows wide and heavy, slightly tilted on a plane with
the high cheekbones-the faces of wise children, set in a
permanent look of arrogant curiosity. The bodies were those
of men though, tall and slim and muscular.
They did not touch him. They looked. And finally one
spoke to them with authority and they dispersed. Kurt sank
down again, sick and trembling, not only with the chill of
the wind. One returned and gave him a warm cloak for his
comfort, and he clutched that around him and doubled up. He
did not sleep.
No one troubled him until the first light brought color
to things. Then a man set a bowl and cup beside him on the
boards, and Kurt took the warm food gratefully and drank
the hot, sweetened tea.
In the growing daylight he found the men of the ship not
unpleasant to look at. They were brown-to-golden-skinned,
with black hair. They moved about the tight confines of the
ship with amiable efficiency, their laughter frequent and
not unkind among themselves. Kurt soon began to know some
of them: the one who had brought him food, the gruff elder
man who relayed the orders of a narrow-eyed young officer;
and he thought the name of the boy who scurried around on
everyone's errands must be Pan, for that was the word
others shouted when they wanted him.
They were clean, proud folk, and they kept their ship
well ordered; human or not, they were a better crew than
some lots of homo sapiens he had managed.
Fed and beginning to be warmed by the daylight, Kurt had
only begun to achieve a certain calm in his situation when
the young officer approached him and had the chain removed.
Kurt rose carefully, avoiding any appearance of hostility,
and the man nodded toward the low cabin aft.
He let himself be directed below, where the officer
opened a door for him and gestured him through.
Another young man was seated at a low writing table, on
a chair so low he must cross his ankles on the floor. He
spoke and Kurt's escort left him and closed the door;
then he gestured, beckoning Kurt to sit too. There was no
chair, only the woven reed mat on which Kurt stood. With
ill grace Kurt settled cross-legged on the mat.
"I am captain of this ship," said the man, and
Kurt's heart froze within him, for the language was
Hanan. "I am Kta t'Elas u Nym. The person who
brought you in is my second, Bel t'Osanef." The
accent was heavy, the forms archaic; as
Endymion's communications officer, Kurt knew
enough to make sense of it, although he could not identify
the dialect.
"What is your name, please?" asked Kta.
"Kurt. Kurt Morgan. What are you?" he
asked quickly, before Kta could lead the questions where he
would. "What do you want?"
"I am nemet," said Kta, who sat with hands
folded in his lap. He had a habit of glancing down when
beginning to speak; his eyes met Kurt's only on the
emphasis of questions. "Did you want that we find you?
Was the fire a signal asking help?"
Kurt remembered, and cursed himself.
"No," he said.
"Tamurlin are human like you. You camp in their
land like a man in his own house, careless."
"I know nothing of that." Hope surged wildly
in him. Kta's command of human speech found
explanation: a Hanan base onworld, but something in the way
Kta spoke the word Tamurlin did not indicate
friendship between that base and the nemet.
"Where are your friends?" Kta asked, taking
him by surprise.
"Dead . . . dead. I came alone."
"From what place?"
Kurt feared to answer and did not know how to lie. Kta
shrugged, and from a decanter on a table beside his desk he
poured drink into two tiny porcelain cups.
Kurt was not anxious to drink, for he did not trust the
sudden hospitality; but Kta sipped at his delicately and
Kurt followed his example. It was thin and fruit-tasting,
and settled in the head like fire.
"It is telise," said Kta. "I
offer to you tea, but telise is more
warming."
"Thank you," said Kurt. "Would you mind
telling me where we're going?" But Kta only lifted
his small cup slightly as if to say they would talk when
they were finished, and Kta took his patient time
finishing.
"Where are we going?" Kurt repeated the
instant Kta set his cup aside. The nemet's short brows
contracted slightly.
"My port. But you mean what is there for you in my
port? We nemet are civilized. You are civilized too, not
like the Tamurlin. I see this. Please do not have fear. But
I ask: why came you?"
"My ship . . . was destroyed. I found safety on
that shore."
"From the sky, this ship. I am aware of such
things. We have all seen human things."
"Do you fight the Tamurlin?"
"Always. It is an old war, this. They came, long
ago. We drove them from their machines and they became like
beasts."
"Long ago."
"Three hundreds of years."
Kurt kept his joy from his face. "I assure
you," he said, "I didn't come here to harm
anyone."
"Then we will not harm you," said Kta.
"Am I free, then?"
"In day, yes. But at night ... I am sorry. My men
need secure rest. Please accept this necessity."
"I don't blame you," said Kurt. "I
understand."
"Hei yth," said Kta, and joined his
fingertips together before him in what seemed a gesture of
gratitude. "It makes me to think well of you, Kurt
Morgan."
And with that, Kta turned him out on the deck at
liberty. No one offered him unpleasantness, even when his
ignorance put him in the way of busy men. Someone would
then gesture for him to move-they never touched him- or
politely call to him: "Umanu, o-eh,"
which he thought was his species and a request to move. And
after a part of the day had passed and he decided to
imitate the crew's manner of bows and courteous
downcast looks, his status improved, for he received bows
in return and was called "umanu-ifhan"
in a tone of respect.
But at night the young officer Bel t'Osanef came and
indicated he must take his place again at the mast. The
seaman who performed Bel's order was most gentle in
applying the chain, and came back afterward to provide him
a blanket and a large mug of hot tea. It was ludicrous.
Kurt found the courage to laugh, and the nemet seemed
also to understand the humor of the situation,
for he grinned and said, "Tosa,
umanu-ifhan," in a tone which seemed kindly
meant.
His hands left free, he sipped his tea at leisure
and finally stretched out at such an angle that he did not
think anyone would trip over him in the dark. His mind was
much easier this night, though he shuddered to think what
might have become of him if not for the nemet. If Kta's
Tamurlin were indeed fallen Hanan, then he had had an
escape close enough to last a lifetime.
He would accept any conditions of the nemet rather than
fall to the Hanan. If Kta spoke the truth and the Hanan
were powerless and declined to barbarism, then he was free.
There was no more war. For the first time in his
imagination, there was no more war.
Only one doubt still
gnawed at the edges of his mind: the
question of why a modern Hanan starship had run
from the destroyed world of Aeolus to this world of fallen
humans.
He did not want to think on that. He did not want to
believe Kta had lied, or that the gentleness of these
people
hid deception. There was another explanation. His
hopes,
his reason for living insisted upon it.
In the next two days he walked the deck and
scanned the whole of the ship for some sign of Hanan
technology, and concluded that there was none. She was
wooden from stem to stern, hand-hewn, completely reliant on
wind and oars for her propulsion.
The skills by which these men managed then- complex
vessel intrigued him. Bel t'Osanef could explain
nothing, knowing only a handful of human words. But when
Kta was on deck, Kurt questioned him earnestly; when
the nemet captain finally seemed to accept that his
interest was unfeigned, he tried to explain, often groping
for words for objects long-vanished from human language.
They developed between them their own patois of
Hanan-Nechai, Nechai being Kta's own language.
And Kta asked about human things, which Kurt could not
always answer in terms Kta could understand. Sometimes Kta
looked puzzled at human science and sometimes shocked,
until at last Kurt began to perceive the disturbance his
explanations caused. Then he decided he had explained
enough. The nemet was earthbound; he did not truly conceive
of things extraterrestrial and it troubled his religion.
Kurt wanted least of all for the nemet to develop some
apprehension of his origins.
A third day passed in such discussions, and at the dawn
of the fourth Kta summoned Kurt to his side as he stood on
the deck. He had the look of a man with something definite
on his mind. Kurt approached him soberly and gave a little
bow of deference.
"Kurt," said Kta, "between us is trust,
yes?"
"Yes," Kurt agreed, and wondered uneasily
where this was tending.
"Today we go into port. I don't want shame for
you, bringing you with chains. But if I bring you in free,
if then if you do hurt to innocent people, then I have
responsibility for this. What must I do, Kurt
Morgan?"
"I didn't come here to hurt anyone. And what
about your people? How will they treat me? Tell me that
before I agree to anything."
Kta opened his hands, a gesture of entreaty. "You
think I lie to you these things?"
"How could I know? I know nothing but what you tell
me. So tell me in plain words that I can trust
you."
"I am of Elas," Kta said, frowning, as if that
was accustomed to be word enough; but when Kurt continued
to stare at him: "Kurt, I swear this beneath the light
of heaven, and this is a holy word. It is truth."
"All right," said Kurt. "Then I will do
what you tell me and I won't cause trouble. Only what
is the place where; we're going?"
"Nephane."
"Is that a city?"
Kta frowned thoughtfully. "Yes, it is a city, the
city of the east. It rules from Tamur-mouth to the Yvorst
Ome, the sea of ice."
"Is there a city of the west?"
The frown deepened. "Yes," he said.
"Indresul." Then he; turned and walked away,
leaving Kurt to wonder what he' had done to trouble the
nemet.
By midday they were within sight of port. A long bar\
receded into the shoreline, and at the back of it was a
great upthrust of rock. At the base of this crag and on
its
gently rising side were buildings and walls, hazy with
distance, all the way to the crest.
"Bel-ifhan," Kurt hailed Kta's
lieutenant, and the narrow-eyed officer stopped and bowed,
although he had been going elsewhere in apparent haste.
"Bel-ifhan, taen Nephane?"
"Lus," Bel agreed and pointed to the
promontory. "Taen Afen, sthages
Methine."
Kurt looked at the crag Bel called Afen and did not
understand.
"Methi," said Bel, and when he still
did not understand, the young officer shrugged helplessly.
"Ktas unnehta," he said. "Ktas,
uleh?"
He left. They were going in. Somewhere aft, Bel shouted
an order and men ran to their stations to bring in the
sail, hauling it up to the yard. The long oars were run out
and they dipped together, sweeping the ship toward the
now-visible dock at the foot of the cliffs, where a
shoreside settlement nestled against the walls.
"Kurt."
Kurt glanced from his view of the bay to the face of
Kta, who had joined him at the bow.
"Bel says you have question."
"I'm sorry. I tried to talk to him. I
didn't mean he should bother you. It wasn't that
important."
The nemet turned one hand outward, a shrug. "Is no
difficulty. Bel manages. I am not necessary. What think you
of Nephane?"
"Beautiful," Kurt said, and it was.
"Those buildings at the top-Afen, Bel called
it."
"Fortress. The Fortress of Nephane."
"A fortress against what enemy? Humans?"
Again a little crease of a frown appeared between
Kta's
wide-set eyes. "You surprise me. You are not Tamurlin.
Your ship destroyed, your friends dead, you say. But what
want you among us?"
"I know nothing. I'm lost. I've trusted
you. And if I can't trust your given
word, then I don't know anything."
"I don't lie, Kurt Morgan. But you try hard not
to answer my question. Why do you come to us?"
A crowd was on the docks, gaily colored clothing a
kaleidoscope in the sunlight. The oars rumbled inboard as
the ship glided in, making conversation impossible for the
moment. Pan was poised near them with the mooring cable,
ready to cast it to the men at the dock.
"Why," asked Kurt, "do you think I should
know my way in this world?"
"The others, they knew."
"The . . . others?"
"The new humans. The-"
Kta's voice trailed off, for Kurt backed from him.
The nemet suddenly looked frightened, opened his hands in
appeal to him. "Kurt," he protested, "wait.
No. We take-"
Kurt caught him by surprise, drove his fist to the
nemet's jaw and vaulted the rail, even as the ship
shuddered against the dock.
He hit the water arid water went up his nose at the
impact, and again when something hit him, the gliding hull
of the ship itself.
Then he made himself quit fighting and drifted, wrapped
in the darkening green of the sea, a swift and friendly
dark. It was hard to move against the weight of the water.
In another moment vision and sense went out together.
He was strangling. He gasped for air and coughed over
the water mingling with it in his throat. On a second try
he drew a breath and heaved it up again, along with the
water in his stomach, twisting over on his belly to the
stones while his insides came apart. When he could breathe
again, someone picked him up and wiped his face, cradling
his head off the stone.
He was lying on the dock, the center of a great crowd of
nemet. Kta held him and implored him in words he could not
understand, while Bel and Val leaned over Kta's
shoulder. Kta and both the other men were dripping wet, and
he knew they must have gone in after him.
"Kta," he tried to protest, but his raw throat
gave out only a voiceless whisper.
"You could not swim," Kta accused him.
"You almost die. You wish this? You try to kill
yourself?"
"You lied," Kurt whispered, trying to
shout.
"No," Kta insisted fervently. But by his
troubled frown he seemed at last to understand. "I
didn't think you are, enemy to us."
"Help me," Kurt implored him, but Kta turned
his face aside slightly in that gesture that meant refusal,
then[ glanced a mute signal to Val. With the big
seaman's help he eased him to a litter improvised out
of planks, thong'; Kurt tried to protest.
He was in shock, chilled and shivering so he could
hardly keep from doubling up. Somewhere after that, Kta
left him and strangers took charge.
The journey up the cobbled street of Nephane was -a
nightmare, faces crowding close to look at him, the jolting
of the litter redoubling his sickness. They passed through
massive gates and into the Afen, the Fortress, into
triangle-arched halls and dim live-flame lighting, through
doorways and into a windowless cell.
Here he would have been content to live or die alone,
but they roused him and stripped the wet clothing off him,
and laid him in a proper bed, wrapped in blankets.
There was a stillness that lasted for hours after the
illness had passed. He was aware of someone standing
outside the door, someone who never left through all the
long hours.
At last-he thought it must be well into another day- the
guards brought him clothing and helped him dress. From the
skin outward the clothing was strange to him, and he
resented it, losing what dignity he had left at their
hands. Over it all went the pel, a long-sleeved
tunic that lapped across to close in front, held by a wide
belt. He was not even permitted to lace his own sandals,
but the guards impatiently took over and, having finished,
allowed him a tiny cup of telise, which they
evidently thought sovereign for all bodily ills.
Then, as he had dreaded, they hauled him with them into
the A-shaped halls of the upper Afen. He gave them no
trouble. He needed no more enemies than he had in
Nephane.
II
A large nail was on the third level. Its walls were of
the same irregular stone as the outer hall, but the floor
had carpets and the walls were hung with tapestries. The
guards sent him beyond this point alone, toward the next
door.
The room beyond the threshold was of his own world,
metal and synthetics, white light. The furnishings were
crystal and black, the walls were silver. Only the cabinet
at his left and the door at his back did not belong: they
were carved wood, convolute dragon figures and fishes.
The door closed softly, sealing him in.
Machinery purred and he glanced leftward. A woman in
nemet dress had joined him. Her gown was gold,
high-collared, floor-length. Her hair was amber, curling
gently. She was human.
Hanan.
She treated him with more respect than the nemet,
keeping her distance. She would know his mind, as he knew
hers; he made no move against her, would make none until he
was sure of the odds.
"Good day, Mr. Morgan-Lieutenant Morgan." She
had a disk in her fingers, letting it slide on its chain.
Suddenly he missed it. "Kurt Liam Morgan. Pylan, I
read it."
"Would you mind returning it?" It was his
identity tag. He had worn it since the day of his birth,
and it was unnerving to have it in her hands, as if a bit
of his life dangled there. She considered a moment, then
tossed it. He caught it.
"We have one name," she said, which was common
knowledge. "I'm Djan. My number-you would forget.
Where are your crewmates, Kurt Morgan?"
"Dead. I've told the truth from the beginning.
There were no other survivors."
"Really."
"I am alone," he insisted, frightened, for he
knew the lengths to which they could go trying to obtain
information he did not have. "Our ship was destroyed
in combat. The life-capsule from Communications was the
only one that cleared on either side, yours or
ours."
"How did you come here?"
"Random search."
Her lips quivered. Her eyes fixed on his with cold fury.
"You did not happen here. Again."
"We met one of your ships," he said, and his
mouth was suddenly dry; he began to surmise how she knew it
was a lie, and that they would have all the truth before
they were done. It was easier to yield it, hoping against
expectation that these Aeolids would dispose of him without
revenge. "Aeolus was your world, wasn't
it?"
"Details," she said. Her face was white, but
the control of her voice was unfaltering. He had respect
for her. The Hanan were cold, but it took more than
coldness to receive such news with calm. He knew. Pylos
also was a dead world. He remembered Aeolus hanging in
space, the glare of fires spotting its angry surface. Even
an enemy had to feel something for that, the death of a
world.
"Two Alliance IST's penetrated the Aeolid zone
with thirty riders. We were with that force. One of your
deep-ships jumped into the system after the attack, jumped
out again immediately when they realized the situation
there. We were nearest, saw them, locked to track-it
brought us here. We fought. You monitored that, didn't
you? You know there were no other survivors."
"Keep going."
"That's all there is. We finished each other.
We suffered the first hit and my station capsuled then.
That's all I know. I had no part in the combat. I
looked for other capsules. There were none. You
know there were no others."
An object was concealed in her hand. He caught a glimpse
of it as her hand moved by her many-folded skirts. He saw
her fingers close, then relax. He almost took the chance
against her then, but she was Hanan and trained from
infancy: her reflexes would be instant, and there was the
chance the weapon was only set to stun. That possibility
was more deterrent than any quick oblivion.
"I know," she said, "that there are no
other ships, that at least." Her tone was low and
mocking. "Welcome to my world, Kurt Morgan. We seem to
be humanity's orphans in this limb of nowhere, there
being only the Tamurlin for company otherwise, and
they're not really human any longer."
"You're alone?"
"Mr. Morgan. If something happens to me at your
hands, I've given the nemet orders to turn you out
naked as the day you were born on the shore of the Tamur.
The other humans in this world will know how to deal with
you in a way humans understand."
"I don't threaten you." Hope turned him
shameless. "Give me the chance to leave. You'll
never see me again."
"Unless you're the forerunner of
others."
"There are no others," he insisted.
"What security do you give me for that
promise?"
"We were alone. We came alone. There was no way we
could have been traced. There were no ships near enough and
we jumped blind, without coordinates."
"Well," she said, and even appeared to accept
what he said, "well, it will be a long wait then.
Aeolus colonized this world three hundred years ago. But
the war . . . Records were scrambled, the supply ship was
lost somehow. We discovered this world in archives
centuries old on Aeolus and came to reclaim it. But you
seem to have intervened in a very permanent way on Aeolus.
Our ship is gone-it could only have been the one you claim
to have destroyed; your ship is gone-you claim you could
not be traced; Aeolus and its records are cinders.
Exploration in this limb ceased a hundred years ago. What
do you suppose the odds are on someone chancing across
us?"
"Then there is no war. Let me leave."
"If I did," she said, "you might die out
there; the world has its dangers. Or you might come back.
You might come back, and I could never be sure when you
would do that. I would have to fear you for the rest of my
life. I would have no more peace here."
"I would not come back."
"Yes, you would. You would. It's been six
months since my crew died here. After only that long, my
own face begins to look strange to me in a mirror; I begin
to fear mirrors. But I look. I could want another human
face to look at ... after a certain number of years. So
would you."
She had not raised the weapon he was now sure she had.
She did not want to use it. Hope turned his hands damp,
sent the sweat running down his sides. She knew the only
safe course for her. She was mad if she did not take it.
Yet she hesitated, her face greatly distressed.
"Kta t'Elas came," she said, "and
begged for your freedom. I told him you were not to be
trusted."
"I swear to you, I have no ambitions, only to stay
alive. I would go to him-I would accept any conditions, any
terms you set."
She moved her hands together, clasping the weapon
casually in her slim fingers. "Suppose I listened to
you."
"There would be no trouble."
"I hope you remember that, when you grow more
comfortable. Remember that you came here with nothing, with
nothing-not even the clothes on your back, and that you
begged any terms I would give you." She gazed
at him soberly for a moment, unmoving. "I am out of my
mind.
But I reserve the right to collect on this debt someday,
in whatever manner and for however long I decide. You are
here on tolerance. And I will try you. I am sending you to
Kta t'Elas, putting you in his charge for two weeks.
Then I will call you back, and we will review the
situation."
He understood it for a dismissal, weak-kneed with relief
and now beset with new doubts. Alone, presented with an
enemy, she did a thing entirely unreasonable. It was not
the way he had known the Hanan, and he began to fear some
subtlety, a snare laid for someone.
Or perhaps loneliness had its power even on the Hanan,
destructive even of the desire to survive. And that thought
was no less disquieting in itself.
Ill
To judge by the size of the house and its nearness to
the Afen, Kta was an important man. From the street the
house of Elas was a featureless cube of stone with its
deeply recessed A-shaped doorway fronting directly on the
walk. It was two stories high, and sprawled far back
against the rock on which Nephane sat.
The guards who escorted him rang a bell that hung before
the door, and in a few moments the door was opened by a
white-haired and balding nemet in black.
There was a rapid exchange of words, in which Kurt
caught frequently the names of Kta and Djan-methi. It ended
with the old man bowing, hands to lips, and accepting Kurt
within the house, and the guards bowing themselves off the
step. The old man softly closed the double doors and
dropped the bar.
"Hef," the old man identified himself with a
gesture. "Come."
Hanging lamps of bronze lit their way into the depths of
the house, down a dim hall that branched Y-formed past a
triangular arch. Stairs at left and right led to a balcony
and other rooms, but they took the right-hand branch of the
Y upon the main floor. On the left the wall gave way into
that same central hall which appeared through the arch at
the joining of the Y. On the right was a closed door. Hef
struck it with his fingers.
Kta answered the knock, his dark eyes astonished. He
gave full attention to Hef's rapid words, which sobered
him greatly. Then he opened the door widely and bade Kurt
come in.
Kurt entered uncertainly, disoriented equally by
exhaustion and by the alien geometry of the place. This
time Kta offered him the honor of a chair, still lower than
Kurt found natural. The carpets underfoot were rich with
designs of geometric form and the furniture was
fantastically carved, even the bed surrounded with
embroidered hangings.
Kta settled opposite him and leaned back. He wore only a
kilt and sandals in the privacy of his own chambers. He was
a powerfully built man, golden skin glistening like the
statue of some ancient god brought to life. There was about
him the power of wealth that had not been apparent on the
ship. Kurt suddenly found himself awed of the man, and
suddenly realized that "friend" was perhaps not
the proper word between a wealthy, nemet captain and a
human refugee who had landed destitute on his doorstep.
Perhaps, he thought uneasily, "guest" was
hardly the proper word either.
"Kurt-ifhan," said Kta, "the Methi has
put you in my hands."
"I am grateful," he answered, "that you
came and spoke for me."
"It was necessary. For honor's sake, Elas has
been opened to you. Understand: if you do wrong, punishment
falls on me; if you escape, my freedom is owed. I say this
so you will know. Do as you choose."
"You took a responsibility like that," Kurt
objected, "without knowing anything about
me."
"I made an oath," said Kta. "I didn't
know then that the oath was an error. I made an oath of
safety for you. For the honor of Elas I have asked the
Methi for you. It was necessary."
"Her people and mine have been at war for more than
two thousand years. You're taking a bigger risk than
you know. I don't want to bring trouble on
you."
"I am your host fourteen days," said Kta.
"I thank you that you speak plainly; but a man who
comes to the hearth-fire of Elas is never a stranger at our
door again. Bring peace with you and be welcome. Honor our
customs and Elas will share with you."
"I am your guest," said Kurt. "I will do
whatever you ask of me."
Kta joined his fingertips together and inclined his
head. Then he rose and struck a gong that hung beside his
door, bringing forth a deep, soft note which caressed the
mind like a whisper.
"I call my family to the rhmei-the
heart-of Elas. Please." He touched fingers to lips and
bowed. "This is courtesy, bowing. Ei, I know
humans touch to show friendliness. You must not. This is
insult, especially to women. There is blood for insulting
the women of a house. Lower your eyes before strangers.
Extend no hand close to a man. This way you cannot give
offense."
Kurt nodded, but he grew afraid, afraid of the nemet
themselves, of finding some dark side to their gentle,
cultured nature-or of being despised for a savage. That
would be worst of all.
He followed Kta into the great room which was framed by
the branching of the entry hall. It was columned, of
polished black marble. Its walls and floors reflected the
fire that burned in a bronze tripod bowl at the apex of the
triangular hall.
At the base wall were two wooden chairs, and there sat a
woman in the left-hand one, her feet on a white fleece,
other fleeces scattered about her feet like clouds. In the
right-hand chair sat an elder man, and a girl sat curled up
on one of the fleece rugs. Hef stood by the fire, with a
young woman at his side.
Kta knelt on the rug nearest the lady's feet, and
from that place spoke earnestly and rapidly, while Kurt
stood uncomfortably by and knew that he was the subject.
His heart beat faster as the man rose up and cast a
forbidding look at him.
"Kurt-ifhan," said Kta, springing anxiously to
his feet, "I bring you before my honored father, Nym
t'Elas u Lhai, and my mother the lady Ptas t'Lei e
Met sh'Nym."
Kurt bowed very low indeed, and Kta's parents
responded with some softening of their manner toward him.
The young woman by Nym's feet also rose up and
bowed.
"My sister Aimu," said Kta. "And you must
also meet Hef and his daughter Mim, who honor Elas with
their service. Ita, Hef-nechan s'Mim-lechan,
imimen. Hau,"
The two came forward and bowed deeply. Kurt responded,
not knowing if he should bow to servants, but he matched
his obeisance to theirs.
"Hef," said Kta, "is the Friend of Elas.
His family serves us now three hundred years. Mim-lechan
speaks human language. She will help you."
Mim cast a look up at him. She was small,
narrow-waisted, both stiffly proper and distractingly
feminine in the close-fitting, many-buttoned bodice. Her
eyes were large and dark, before a quick flash downward and
the bowing of her head concealed them.
It was a look of hate, a thing of violence, that she
sent him.
He stared, stricken by it, until he remembered and
showed her courtesy by glancing down.
"I am much honored," said Mim coldly, like a
recital, "being help to the guest of my lord Kta. My
honored father and I are anxious for your
comfort."
The guest quarters were upstairs, above what Mim
explained shortly were Nym's rooms, with the
implication that Nym expected silence of him. It was a
splendid apartment, in every detail as fine as Kta's
own, with a separate, brightly tiled bath, a wood-stove for
heating water, bronze vessels for the bath and a tea set.
There was a round tub in the bath for bathing, and a great
stack of white linens, scented with herbs.
The bed in the main triangular room was a great
feather-stuffed affair spread with fine crisp sheets and
the softest furs, beneath a sunny window of cloudy, bubbled
glass. Kurt looked on the bed with longing, for his legs
shook and his eyes burned with fatigue, and there was not a
muscle in his body which did not ache; but Mim busily
pattered back and forth with stacks of linens and clothing,
and then cruelly insisted on stripping the bed and remaking
it, turning and plumping the big down mattress. Then, when
he was sure she must have finished, she set about dusting
everything.
Kurt was near to falling asleep in the corner chair when
Kta arrived in the midst of the confusion. The nemet
surveyed everything that had been done and then said
something to Hef, who attended him.
The old servant looked distressed, then bowed and
removed a small bronze lamp from a triangular niche in the
west wall, handling it with the greatest care.
"It is religion," Kta explained, though Kurt
had not ventured to ask. "Please don't touch such
things, also the phusmeha, the bowl of the fire in
the rhmei. Your presence is a disturbance. I ask
your respect in this matter."
"Is it because I'm a stranger," Kurt
asked, already nettled by Mim's petty persecutions,
"or because I'm human?"
"You are without beginning on this earth. I asked
the phusa taken out not because I don't wish
Elas to protect you, but because I don't want you to
make trouble by offending against the Ancestors of Elas. I
have asked my father in this matter. The eyes of Elas are
closed in this one room. I think it is best. Let it not
offend."
Kurt bowed, satisfied by Kta's evident distress.
"Do you honor your ancestors?" Kta asked.
"I don't understand," said Kurt, and Kta
assumed a distressed look as if his fears had only been
confirmed.
"Nevertheless," said Kta, "I try. Perhaps
the Ancestors of Elas will accept prayers in the name of
your most distant house. Are your parents still
living?"
"I have no kin at all," said Kurt, and the
nemet murmured a word that sounded regretful.
"Then," said Kta, "I ask please your
whole name, the name of your house and of your father and
your mother."
Kurt gave them, to have peace, and the nemet stumbled
much over the long alien names, determined to pronounce
them accurately. Kta was horrified at first to believe his
parents shared a common house name, and Kurt angrily,
almost tearfully, explained human customs of marriage, for
he was exhausted and this interrogation was prolonging his
misery.
"I shall explain to the Ancestors," said Kta.
"Don't be afraid. Elas is a house patient with
strangers and strangers' ways."
Kurt bowed his head, not to have any further argument.
He was tolerated for the sake of Kta, a matter of Kta's
honor.
He was cold when Kta and Mim left him alone, and crawled
between the cold sheets, unable to stop shivering.
He was one of a kind, save for Djan, who hated him.
And among nemet, he was not even hated. He was
inconvenient.
Food arrived late that evening, brought by Hef; Kurt
dragged his aching limbs out of bed and fully dressed,
which would not have been his inclination, but he was
determined to do nothing to lessen his esteem in the eyes
of the nemet.
Then Kta arrived to share dinner with him in his
room.
"It is custom to take dinner in the rhmei,
all Elas together," Kta explained, "but I teach
you, here. I don't want you to offend against my
family. You learn manners first."
Kurt had borne with much. "I have manners of my
own," he cried, "and I'm sorry if I
contaminate your house. Send me back to the Afen, to
Djan-it's not too late for that." And he turned
his back on the food and on Kta, and walked over to stand
looking out the dark window. It dawned on him that sending
him to Elas had been Djan's subtle cruelty; she
expected him back, broken in pride.
"I meant no insult," Kta protested.
Kurt looked back at him, met the dark, foreign eyes with
more directness than Kta had ever allowed him. The
nemet's face was utterly stricken.
"Kurt-ifhan," said Kta, "I didn't
wish to cause you shame. I wish to help you, not putting
you on display in the eyes of my father and my mother. It
is your dignity I protect."
Kurt bowed his head and came back, not gladly. Djan was
in his mind, that he would not run to her for shelter,
giving up what he had abjectly begged of her. And perhaps
too she had meant to teach the house of Elas its place,
estimating it would beg relief of the burden it had asked.
He submitted. There were worse shames than sitting on the
floor like a child and letting Kta mold his unskilled
fingers around the strange tableware.
He quickly knew why Kta had not permitted him to go
downstairs. He could scarcely feed himself and, starving as
he was, he had to resist the impulse to snatch up food in
disregard of the unfamiliar utensils. Drink with the left
hand only, eat with the right, reach with the left, never
the right. The bowl was lifted almost to the lips, but it
must never touch. From the almost bowl-less spoon and thin
skewer he kept dropping bites. The knife must be used only
left-handed.
Kta was cautiously tactful after his outburst, but grew
less so as Kurt recovered his sense of humor. They
talked,
between instructions and accidents, and afterward, over
a cup of tea. Sometimes Kta asked him of human customs, but
he approached any difference between them with the attitude
that while other opinions and manners were possible, they
were not so under the roof of Elas.
"If you were among humans," Kurt dared ask him
finally, "what would you do?"
Kta looked as if the idea horrified him, but covered it
with a downward glance. "I don't know. I know only
Tamurlin."
"Did not"-he had tried for a long time to work
toward this question-"did not Djan-methi come with
others?"
The frightened look persisted. "Yes. Most left.
Djan-methi killed the others."
He quickly changed the subject and looked as if he
wished he had not been so free of that answer, though he
had given it straightly and with deliberation.
They talked of lesser things, well into the night, over
many cups of tea and sometimes of telise, until
from the rest of Elas there was no sound of people stirring
and they had to lower their voices. The light was
exceedingly dim, the air heavy with the scent of oil from
the lamps. The telise made it close and warm. The
late hour clothed things in unreality.
Kurt learned things, almost all simply family gossip,
for Djan and Elas were all in Nephane that they both knew,
and Kta, momentarily so free with the truth, seemed to have
remembered that there was danger in it. They spoke instead
of Elas.
Nym was the authority, the lord of Elas; Kta had almost
no authority, although he was over thirty-he hardly looked
it-and commanded a warship. Kta would be under Nym's
authority as long as Nym lived; the eldest male was lord in
the house. If Kta married, he must bring his bride to live
under his father's roof. The girl would become part of
Elas, obedient to Kta's father and mother as if she
were born to the house. So Aimu was soon to depart,
betrothed to Kta's lieutenant Bel t'Osanef. They
had been friends since childhood, Kta and Bel and Aimu.
Kta owned nothing. Nym controlled the family wealth and
would decide how and whom and when his two children must
marry, since marriage determined inheritances. Property
passed from father to eldest son undivided, and the eldest
then assumed a father's responsibility for all lesser
brothers and cousins and unmarried women in the house. A
patriarch like Nym always had his rooms to the right of the
entry, a custom, Kta explained, derived from more warlike
times, when a man slept at the threshold to defend his home
from attack. Grown sons occupied the ground floor for the
same reason. This room that Kurt now held as a guest had
been Kta's when he was a boy.
And the matriarch, in this case Kta's mother Ptas,
although it had been the paternal grandmother until quite
recently, had her rooms behind the base wall of the
rhmei. > She was the guardian of most religious
matters of the house. She tended the holy fire of the
phusmeha, supervised the household and was second
in authority to the patriarch.
Of obeisance and respect, Kta explained, there were
complex degrees. It was gross disrespect for a grown son to
come before his mother without going to his knees, but when
he was a boy this deference was not paid. The reverse was
true with a son and his father: a boy knelt to his father
until his coming of age, then met him with the slight bow
of almost-equals if he was eldest, necessary obeisances
deepening as one went down the ranks of second son, third
son and so on. A daughter, however, was treated as a
beloved guest, a visitor the house would one day lose to a
husband; she gave her parents only the obeisance of
second-son's rank, and showed her brothers the same
modest formality she must use with strangers.
But of Hef and Mim, who served Elas, was required only
the obeisance of equals, although it was their habit to
show more than that on formal occasions.
"And what of me?" Kurt asked, dreading to ask.
"What must I do?"
Kta frowned. "You are guest, mine; you must be
equal with me. But," he added nervously, "it is
proper in a man to show greater respect than necessary
sometimes. It does not hurt your dignity; sometimes it
makes it greater. Be most polite to all. Don't . . .
make Elas ashamed. People will watch you, thinking they
will see a Tamuru in nemet dress. You must prove
this is not so."
"Kta," Kurt asked, "am I a man, to the
nemet?"
Kta pressed his lips together and looked as if he
earnestly wished that question had gone unasked.
"I am not, then," Kurt concluded, and was
robbed even of anger by the distress on Kta's face.
"I have not decided," Kta said. "Some . .
. would say no. It is a religious question. I must think.
But I have a liking for you, Kurt, even if you are
human."
"You have been very good to me."
There was silence between them. In the sleeping house
there was no sound at all. Kta looked at him with a
directness and a pity which disquieted him.
"You are afraid of us," Kta observed.
"Did Djan make you my keeper only because you
asked, or because she trusts you in some special way, to
watch me?"
Kta's head lifted slightly. "Elas is loyal to
the Methi. But you are guest."
"Are nemet who speak human language so common? You
are very fluent, Kta. Mim is. Your . . . readiness to
accept a human into your house-is that not different from
the feelings of other nemet?"
"I interpreted for the umani when they
first came to Nephane. Before that, I learned of Mim, and
Mim learned because she was prisoner of the Tamurlin. What
evil do you suspect? What is the quarrel between you and
Djan-methi?"
"We are of different nations, an old, old war.
Don't get involved, Kta, if you did only get into this
for my sake. If I threaten the peace of your house-or your
safety-tell me. I'll go back. I mean that."
"This is impossible," said Kta. "No. Elas
has never dismissed a guest."
"Elas has never entertained a human."
"No," Kta conceded. "But the Ancestors
when they lived were reckless men. This is the character of
Elas. The Ancestors guide us to such choice, and Nephane
and the Methi cannot be much surprised at us."
The lives of the nemet were uniformly tranquil. Kurt
endured a little more than four days of the silent dim
halls, the hushed voices and the endless bowing and
refraining from untouchable objects and untouchable persons
before he began to feel his sanity slipping.
On that day he went upstairs and locked the door,
despite Kta's pleas to explain his behavior. He shed a
few tears, fiercely and in the privacy of his room, and
curtained the window so he did not have to look out on the
alien world. He sat hi the dark until the night came, then
he slipped quietly downstairs and sat in the empty
rhmei, trying to make his peace with the
house.
Mim came. She stood and watched him silently, hands
twisting nervously before her.
At last she pattered on soft feet over to the chairs and
gathered up one of the fleeces and brought it to the place
where he sat on the cold stone. She laid it down beside
him, and chanced to meet his eyes as she straightened. Hers
questioned, greatly troubled, even frightened.
He accepted the offered truce between them, edged onto
the welcome softness of the fleece.
She bowed very deeply, then slipped out again,
extinguishing the lights one by one as she left, save only
the phusmeba, which burned the night long.
Kta also came out to him, but only looked as if to see
that he was well. Then he went away, but left the door of
his room open the night long.
Kurt rose up in the morning and paused in Kta's
doorway to give him an apology. The nemet was awake and
arose in some concern, but Kurt did not find words adequate
to explain his behavior. He only bowed in respect to the
nemet, and Kta to him, and he went up to his own room to
prepare for the decency of breakfast with the family.
Gentle Kta. Soft-spoken, seldom angry, he stood above
six feet in height and was physically imposing, but it was
uncertain whether Kta had ever laid aside his dignity to
use force on anyone. It was an increasing source of
amazement to Kurt that this intensely proud man had vaulted
a ship's rail in view of all Nephane to rescue a
drowning human, or sat on the dock and helped him amid his
retching illness. Nothing seemed to ruffle Kta for long. He
met frustration by retiring to meditate on the problem
until he had restored himself to what he called
yhia, or balance, a philosophy evidently adequate
even in dealing with humans.
Kta also played the aos, a small harp of metal
strings, and sang with a not unpleasant voice, which was
the particular pleasure of lady Ptas on the quiet evenings.
Sometimes he sang light, quick songs that brought laughter
to the rhmei, sometimes very long ones that were
interrupted with cups of telise to give Kta's
voice a rest, songs to which all the house listened in
sober silence, plaintive and haunting melodies of
anharmonic notes.
"What do you sing about?" Kurt asked him
afterward. They sat in Kta's room, sharing a late cup
of tea. It was their habit to sit and talk late into the
night. It was almost their last. The two weeks were almost
spent. Tonight he wanted very much to know the nemet, not
at all sure that he would have a further chance. It had
been beautiful in the rhmei, the notes of the
aos, the sober dignity of Nym, the rapt face of
lady Ptas, Aimu and Mim with their sewing, Hef sitting to
one side and listening, his old eyes dreaming.
The stillness of Elas had seeped into his bones this
night, a timeless and now fleeting time which made all the
world quiet. He had striven against it. Tonight, he
listened.
"The song would mean nothing to you," Kta
said. "I can't sing it in human words."
"Try," said Kurt.
The nemet shrugged, gave a pained smile, gathered up the
aos and ran his fingers over the sensitive
strings, calling forth the same melody. For a moment he
seemed lost, but the melody grew, rebuilt itself in all its
complexity.
"It is our beginning," said Kta, and spoke
softly, not looking at Kurt, his fingers moving on the
strings like a whisper of wind, as if that was necessary
for his thoughts.
There was water. From the sea came the nine spirits of
the elements, and greatest were Ygr the earthly and Ib the
celestial. From Ygr and Ib came a thousand years of
begettings and chaos and wars of elements, until Qas who
was light and Mur who was darkness, persuaded their
brother-gods Phan the sun and Thael the earth to part.
So formed the first order. But Thael loved Phan's
sister Ti, and took her. Phan in his anger killed Thael,
and of Thael's ribs was the earth. Ti bore dead Thael a
son, Aem.
Ten times a thousand years came and passed
away.
Aem came to his age, and Ti saw her son was
fair.
They sinned the great sin. Of this sin came
Yr,
Yr, earth-snake, mother of all beasts.
The council of gods in heaven made Aem and Ti to
die,
and dying, they brought forth children, man and
woman.
"I have never tried to think it hi human
terms," said Kta, frowning. "It is very
hard."
But with a gesture Kurt urged him, and Kta touched the
strings again, trying, greatly frustrated.
"The first mortal beings were Nem and Panet, man
and woman, twins. They sinned the great sin too. The
council of gods rejected them for immortality because of
it, and made their lives short. Phan especially hated them,
and he mated with Yr the snake, and brought beasts and
terrible things into the world to hunt man.
Then Phan's sister Qas defied his
anger,
stole fire, rained down lightning on the
earth.
Men took fire and killed Yr's beasts, built
cities.
Ten times a thousand years came and passed
away.
Men grew many and kings grew proud,
sons of men and Yr the earth-snake,
sons of men and inim that ride the winds.
Men worshiped these half-men, the
god-kings.
Men did them honor, built them cities.
Men forgot the first gods,
and men's works were foul.
"Then a prophecy came," said Kta, "and
Phan chose Isoi, a mortal woman, and gave her a half-god
son, Qavur, who carried the weapons of Phan to destroy the
world by burning. Qavur destroyed the god-kings, but Isoi
his mother begged him not to kill the rest of man, and he
didn't. Then Phan with his sword of plague came down
and destroyed all men, but when he came to Isoi she ran to
her hearthfire and sat down beside it, so that she claimed
the gods' protection. Her tears made Phan pity her. He
gave her another son, Isem, who was husband of Nae the
sea-goddess and father of all men who sail on the sea. But
Phan took Qavur to be immortal; he is the star that shines
in morning, the messenger of the sun.
"To keep Nae's children from doing wrong, Phan
gave Qavur the yhia to take to men. All law comes
from it. From it we know our place in the universe.
Anything higher is gods' law, but that is beyond the
words of the song. The song is the Ind. It is
sacred to us. My father taught it to me, and the seven
verses of it that are only for Elas. So it has come to us
in each generation."
"You said once," said Kurt, "that you
didn't know whether I was man or not. Have you decided
yet?"
Kta thoughtfully laid aside the aos, stilled
its strings. "Perhaps, said Kta, "some of the
children of Nem escaped, the plague; but you are not nemet.
Perhaps instead you are descended of Yr, and you were set
out among the stars on some world of Thael's kindred.
From what I have heard among humans, the earth seems to
have had many brothers. But I don't think you think
so."
"I said nothing."
"Your look did not agree."
"I wouldn't distress you," said Kurt,
"by saying I consider you human."
The nemet's lips opened instantly, his eyes
mirroring shock. Then he looked as if he suspected Kurt of
some levity, and again, as if he feared he was serious.
Slowly his expression took on a certain thoughtfulness, and
he made a gesture of rejection.
"Please," said Kta, "don't say that
freely."
Kurt bowed his head then in respect to Kta, for the
nemet truly looked frightened.
"I have spoken to the Guardians of Elas for
you," said Kta. "You are a disturbance here, but
I do not feel that you are unwelcome with our
Ancestors."
Kurt dressed carefully on the last morning. He would
have worn the clothes in which he had come, but Mim had
taken those away, unworthy, she had said, of the guest of
Elas. Instead he had an array of fine clothing he thought
must be Kta's, and on this morning he chose the warmest
and most durable, for he did not know" what the day
might bring him, and the night winds were chill. It was
also cold in the rooms of the Afen, and he feared he would
not leave it once he entered.
Elas again began to seem distant to him, and the sterile
modernity of the center of the Afen increasingly crowded in
on his thoughts, the remembrance that, whatever had
happened in Elas, his business was with Djan and not with
the nemet.
He had chosen his option at the beginning of the two
weeks, in the form of a small dragon-hilted blade from
among Kta's papers, where it had been gathering dust
and would not be missed.
He drew it now from its hiding place and considered it,
apt either for Djan or for himself.
And fatally traceable to the house of Elas.
It did not go within his clothing, as he had always
meant to carry it. Instead he laid it aside on the dressing
table. It would go back to Kta. The nemet would be angry at
the theft, but it would make amends, all the same.
Kurt finished dressing, fastening the ctan, the
outer cloak, on his shoulder, and chose a bronze pin with
which to do it, for his debts to Elas were enough; he would
not use the ones of silver and gold with which he had been
provided.
A light tapping came at the door, Mim's knock.
"Come in," he bade her, and she quietly did
so. Linens were changed daily throughout the house. She
carried fresh ones, for bed and for bath, and she bowed to
him before she set them down to begin her work. Of late
there was no longer hate in Mim's look. He understood
that she had had cause, having been prisoner of the
Tamurlin; but she had ceased her war with him of her own
accord, and in consideration of that he always tried
especially to please Mim.
"At least," he observed, "you will have
less washing in the house hereafter."
She did not appreciate the poor humor. She looked at
him, then lowered her eyes and turned around to tend her
business.
And froze, with her back to him, facing the dresser.
Hesitantly she reached for the knife, snatched at it and
faced about again as if uncertain that he would not pounce
on her. Her dark eyes were large with terror; her attitude
was that of one determined to resist if he attempted to
take it from her.
"Lord Kta did not give you this," she
said.
"No," he said, "but you may give it back
to him."
She clasped it in both hands and continued to stare at
him. "If you bring a weapon into the Afen you kill us,
Kurt-ifhan. All Elas would die."
"I have given it back," he said. "I am
not armed, Mim. That is the truth."
She slipped it into the belt beneath her overskirt,
'through one of the four slits that exposed the filmy
pelan from waist to toe, patted it flat. She was
so small a woman; she had a tiny waist, a slender neck
accentuated by the way she wore her hair in many tiny
braids coiled and clustered above the ears. So little a
creature, so soft-spoken, and yet he was continually in awe
of Mim, feeling her disapproval of him in every line of her
stiff little back.
For once, as in the rhmei that night, there was
something like distress, even tenderness in the way she
looked at him.
"Kta wishes you come back to Elas," she
said.
"I doubt I will be allowed to," he said.
"Then why would the Methi send you here?"
"I don't know. Perhaps to satisfy Kta for a
time. Perhaps so I'll find the Afen the worse by
comparison."
"Kta will not let harm come to you."
"Kta had better stay out of it. Tell him so, Mim.
He could make the Methi his enemy that way. He had better
forget it."
He was afraid. He had lived with that nagging fear from
the beginning, and now that Mim touched nerves, he found it
difficult to speak with the calm that the nemet called
dignity. The unsteadiness of his voice made him greatly
ashamed.
And Mim's eyes inexplicably filled with tears-fierce
little Mim, unhuman Mim, who would have been interestingly
female to Kurt but for her alien face. He did not know if
any other being would ever care enough to cry over him, and
suddenly leaving Elas was unbearable.
He took her slim golden hands in his, knew at once he
should not have, for she was nemet and she shivered at the
very touch of him. But she looked up at him and did not
show offense. Her hands pressed his very gently in
return.
"Kurt-ifhan," she said, "I will tell lord
Kta what you say, because it is good advice. But I
don't think he will listen to me. Elas will speak for
you. I am sure of it. The Methi has listened before to
Elas. She knows that we speak with the power of the
Families. Please go to breakfast. I have made you late. I
am sorry."
He nodded and started to the door, looked back again.
"Mim," he said, because he wanted her to look up.
He wanted her face to think of, as he wanted everything in
Elas fixed in his mind. But then he was embarrassed, for he
could think of nothing to say.
"Thank you," he murmured, and quickly
left.
IV
All the way to the Afen, Kurt had balanced his chances
of rounding on his three nemet guards and making good his
escape. The streets of Nephane were twisting and torturous,
and if he could remain free until dark, he thought, he
might possibly find a way out into the fields and
forests.
But Nym himself had given him into the hands of the
guards and evidently charged them to treat him well, for
they showed him the greatest courtesy. Elas continued to
support him, and for the sake of Elas, he dared not do what
his own instincts screamed to do: to run, to kill if need
be.
They passed into the cold halls of the Afen itself and
it was too late. The stairs led them up to the third level,
that of the Methi.
Djan waited for him alone in the modern hall, wearing
the modest chatem and pelan of a nemet
lady, her auburn hair braided at the crown of her head,
laced with gold.
She dismissed the guards, then turned to him. It was
strange, as she had foretold, to see a human face after so
long among the nemet. He began to understand what it had
been for her, alone, slipping gradually from human reality
into nemet. He noticed things about human faces he had
never seen before, how curiously level the planes of the
face, how pale her eyes, how metal-bright her hair. The
war, the enmity between them, even these seemed for the
moment welcome, part of a familiar frame of reference. Elas
faded in this place of metal and synthetics.
He fought it back into focus.
"Welcome back," she greeted him, and sank into
the nearest chair, gestured him welcome to the other.
"Elas wants you," she advised him then. "I
am impressed."
"And I," he said, "would like to go back
to Elas."
"I did not promise that," she said. "But
your presence there has not proved particularly
troublesome." She rose again abruptly, went to the
cabinet against the near wall, opened it. "Care for a
drink, Mr. Morgan?"
"Anything," he said, "thank
you."
She poured them each a little glass and brought one to
him. It was telise. She sat down again, leaned
back and sipped at her own. "Let me make a few points
clear to you," she said. "First, this is my city;
I intend it should remain so. Second, this is a nemet city,
and that will remain so too, Our species has had its
chance. It's finished. We've done it. Pylos, my
world Aeolus-both cinders. It's insane. I spent these
last months waiting to die for not following orders,
wondering what would become of the nemet when the probe
ship returned with the authority and the firepower to
deal
with me. So I don't mourn them much. I ...regret
Aeolus. But your intervention was timely, for the nemet.
Which does not mean," she added, "that I have
overwhelming gratitude to you."
"It does not make sense," he said, "that
we two should carry on the war here. There's nothing
either of us can win."
"Is it required," she asked, "that a war
make sense? Consider ours: we've been at it two
thousand years. Probably everything your side and mine says
about its beginning is a lie. That hardly matters.
There's only the now, and the war feeds on its
own casualties. And we approach our natural limits. We
started out destroying ships in one little system, now we
destroy worlds. Worlds. We leave dead space behind us. We
count casualties by zones. We Hanan-we never were as
numerous or as prolific as you-we can't produce
soldiers fast enough to replace the dead. Embryonics,
lab-born soldiers, engineered officers, engineered
followers-our last hope. And you killed it. I will tell
you, my friend, something I would be willing to wager your
Alliance never told you: you just stepped up the war by
what you did at Aeolus. I think you made a great
miscalculation."
"Meaning what?"
"Aeolus was the center, the great center of the
embryonics projects. Billions died hi its laboratories. The
workers, the facilities, the records-irreplaceable. You
have hurt us too much. The Hanan will cease to restrict
targets altogether now. The final insanity, that is what I
fear you .have loosed on humanity. And we richly deserve
it, the whole human race."
"I don't think," he said, for she
disturbed his peace of mind, "that you enjoy isolation
half as much as you pretend."
"I am Aeolid," she said. "Think about
it."
It took a moment. Then the realization set in, and
revulsion, gut-deep: of all things Hanan that he loathed,
the labs were the most hateful.
Djan smiled. "Oh, I'm human, of human cells.
And superior-I would have been destroyed
otherwise-efficiently engineered for intelligence and
trained to serve the state. My intelligence then advised me
that I was being used, and I disliked it. So I found my
moment and turned on the state." She finished the
drink and set it aside. "But you wouldn't like
separation from humanity. Good. That may keep you from
trying to cut my throat."
"Am I free to leave, then?"
"Not so easily, not so easily. I had considered
perhaps giving you quarters in the Afen. There are rooms
upstairs, only accessible from here. In such isolation you
could do no possible harm. Instinct-something-says that
would be the best way to dispose of you."
"Please," he said, rationally, shamelessly,
for he had long since made up his mind that he had nothing
to gain in Nephane by antagonizing Djan. ."If Elas
will have me, let me go back there."
"In a few days I will consider that. I only want
you to know your alternatives."
"And what until then?"
"You're going to learn the nemet language. I
have things all ready for you."
"No," he said instantly. "No. I don't
need any mechanical helps."
"I am a medic, among other things. I've never
known the teaching apparatus abused without it doing
permanent damage. No. Ruining the mind of the only other
human would be a waste. I shall merely allow you access to
the apparatus and you may choose your own rate."
"Then why do you insist?"
"Because your objection creates an unnecessary
problem for you, which I insist be solved. I am giving you
a chance to live outside. So I make it a fair chance, an
honest chance; I wish you success. I no longer serve the
purposes of the Hanan, so I refuse to be programmed into a
course of action I do not choose. And likewise, if it
becomes clear to me that you are becoming a nuisance to me,
don't think you can plead ignorance and evade the
consequences. I am removing your excuses, you see. And if I
must, I will call you in or kill you. Don't doubt it
for a moment."
"It is," he said, "a fairer attitude than
I would have expected of you. I would be easier in my mind
if I understood you."
"All my motives are selfish," she said.
"At least in the sense that all I do serves my own
purposes. If I once perceive you are working against those
purposes, you are done. If I perceive that you are
compatible with them, you will find no difficulty. I think
that is as clear as I can make it, Mr. Morgan." Kta
was not in the rhmei as Kurt had expected him to
be when he reached the safety of Elas. Hef was, and Mim.
Mini scurried upstairs ahead of him to open the window and
air the room, and she spun about again when she had done
so, her dark eyes shining.
"We are so happy," she said, in human speech.
The machine's reflex pained him, punishing
understanding.
It was all Mim had time to say, for there was Kta's
step on the landing, and Mim bowed and slipped out as Kta
came in.
"Much crying in our house these days," said
Kta, casting a look after Mim's retreat down the
stairs. Then he looked at Kurt, smiled a little. "But
no more. Ei, Kurt, sit, sit, please. You look like
a man three days drowned."
Kurt ran his hand through his hair and fell into a
chair. His limbs were shaking. His hands were white.
"Speak Nechai," he said. "It is
easier."
Kta blinked, looked him over. "How is this?"
he asked, and there was unwelcome suspicion in his
voice.
"Trust me," Kurt said hoarsely. "The
Methi has machines which can do this. I would not lie to
you."
"You are pale," said Kta. "You are
shaking. Are you hurt?"
"Tired," he said. "Kta . . . thank yon,
thank you for taking me back."
Kta bowed a little. "Even my honored father came
and spoke for you, and never in all the years of our house
has Elas done such a thing. But you are of Elas. We are
glad to receive you."
"Thank you."
He rose and attempted a bow. He had to catch at the
table to avoid losing his balance. He made it to the bed
and sprawled. His memory ceased before he had stopped
moving.
Something tugged at his ankle. He thought he had fallen
into the sea and something was pulling him down. But he
could not summon the strength to move.
Then the ankle came free and cold air hit his foot. He
opened his eyes on Mim, who began to remove the other
sandal. He was lying on his own bed, fully clothed, and
cold. Outside the window it was night. His legs were like
ice, his arms likewise.
Mini's dark eyes looked up, realized that he was
awake. "Kta takes bad care for you," she said,
"leaving you so. You have not moved. You sleep like
the dead."
"Speak Nechai," he asked of her. "I have
been taught."
Her look was briefly startled. Then she accepted human
strangeness with a little bow, wiped her hands on her
chatem and dragged at the bedding to cover him,
pulling the bedclothes from beneath him, half-asleep as he
was.
"I am sorry," she said. "I tried not to
wake you, but the night was cold and my lord Kta had left
the window open and the light burning."
He sighed deeply and reached for her hand as it drew the
coverlet across him. "Mim-"
"Please." She evaded his hand, slipped the pin
from his shoulder and hauled the tangled ctan from
beneath him, jerked the catch of his wide belt free, then
drew the covers up to his chin.
"You will sleep easier now," she said.
He reached for her hand again, preventing her going.
"Mim, What time is it?"
"Late . . . late." She pulled, but he did not
let go, and she glanced down, her lashes dark against her
bronze cheeks. "Please, please let me go, lord
Kurt."
"I asked Djan, asked her to send you word, so you
would not worry."
"Word came. We did not know how to understand it.
It was only that you were safe. Only that." She pulled
again. "Please."
Her lips trembled and her eyes were terrified; when he
let her hand go she spun around and fled to the door. She
hardly paused to close it, her slippered feet pattering
away down the stairs at breakneck speed.
If he had had the strength he would have risen and gone
after her, for he had not meant to hurt Mim on the very
night of his return. He lay awake and was angry, at nemet
custom and at himself, but his head hurt abominably and
made him dizzy. He sank into the soft down and slipped
away. There was tomorrow. Mim would have gone to bed too,
and he would scandalize the house by trying to speak to her
tonight.
The morning began with tea, but there was no Mim,
cheerily bustling in with morning linens and disarranging
things. She did appear in the rhmei to serve, but
she kept her eyes down when she poured for him.
"Mim," he whispered at her, and she spilled a
few drops, which burned, and moved quickly to pour for Kta.
She spilled even his, at which the dignified nemet shook
his burned hand and looked up wonderingly at the girl, but
said nothing.
There had been the usual round of formalities, and Kurt
had bowed deeply before Nym and Ptas and Aimu, and thanked
the lord of Elas in his own language for his intercession
with Djan.
"You speak very well," Nym observed by way of
acknowledging him, and Kurt realized he should have
explained through Kta. An elder nemet cherished his
dignity, and Kurt saw that he must have mightily offended
lord Nym with his human sense of the dramatic.
"Sir," said Kurt, "you honor me. By
machines I do this. I speak slowly yet and not well, but I
do recognize what is said to me. When I have listened a few
days, I will be a better speaker. Forgive me if I have
offended you. I was so tired yesterday I had no sense left
to explain where I have been or why."
The honorable Nym considered, and then the faintest of
smiles touched his face, growing to an expression of
positive amusement. He touched his laced fingers to his
breast and inclined his head, apology for laughter.
"Welcome a second time to Elas, friend of my son.
You bring gladness with you. There are smiles on faces this
morning, and there were few the days we were in fear for
you. Just when we thought we had comprehended humans, here
are more wonders-and what a relief to be able to talk
without waiting for translations!"
So they were settled together, the ritual of tea begun.
Lady Ptas sat enthroned in their center, a comfortable
woman. Somehow when Kurt thought of Elas, Ptas always came
first to mind: a gentle and dignified lady with graying
hair, the very heart of the family, which among nemet a
mother was; Nym's lady, source of life and love,
protectress of Ms ancestral religion. Into a wife's
hands a man committed his hearth; into a
daughter-in-law's hands, his hope of a continuing
eternity. Kurt began to understand why fathers chose their
sons' mates. Considering the affection that was evident
between Nym and Ptas, he could no longer think such
marriages were loveless. It was right, it was proper, and
he sat cross-legged on a fleece rug, equal to Kta, a son of
the house, drinking the strong sweetened tea and feeling
that he had come home indeed.
After tea lady Ptas rose and bowed formally before the
hearthfire, lifting her palms to it. Everyone stood in
respect, and her sweet voice called upon the Guardians.
"Ancestors of Elas, upon this shore and the other
of the Dividing Sea, look kindly upon us. Kurt t'Morgan
has come back to us. Peace be between the guest of our home
and the Guardians of Elas. Peace be among us."
Kurt was greatly touched, and bowed deeply to lady Ptas
when she was done.
"Lady Ptas," he said, "I honor you very
much." He would have said like a son, but he would not
inflict that doubtful compliment on the nemet lady.
She smiled at him with the affection she gave her
children. From that moment, Ptas had his heart.
"Kurt," said Kta when they were alone in the
hall after breakfast, "my father bids you stay as long
as it pleases you. This he asked me to tell you. He would
not burden you with giving answer on the instant, but he
would have you know this."
"He is very kind," said Kurt. "You have
never owed me all of the things you have done for me. Your
oath never bound you this far."
"Those who share the hearth of Elas," said
Kta, "have been few, but we never forget them. We call
this guest-friendship. It binds your house and mine for all
time. It can never be broken."
He spent the days much in Kta's company within Elas,
talking, resting, enjoying the sun in the inner court of
the house where there was a small garden.
One thing remained to trouble him: Mim was unusually
absent. She no longer came to his rooms when he was
there.
No matter how he varied his schedule, she would not
come; he only found his bed changed when he would return
after some absence. When he hovered about the places where
she usually worked, she was simply not to be found.
"She is at market," Hef informed him on a
morning when he finally gathered his courage to ask.
"She has not been much about lately," Kurt
observed.
Hef shrugged. "No, lord Kurt. She has
not."
And the old man looked at him strangely, as if
Kurt's anxiety had undermined the peace of his morning
too.
He became the more determined. When he heard the front
door close at noon, he sprang up to run downstairs; but he
had only a glimpse of her hurrying by the opposite hall
into the ladies' quarters behind the rhmei.
That was the territory of Ptas, and no man but Nym could
set foot there.
He walked disconsolately back to the garden and sat in
the sun, staring at nothing in particular and tracing idle
patterns in the pale dust.
He had hurt her. Mim had not told the matter to anyone,
he was sure, for he would have had Kta to deal with if she
had.
He wished desperately that he could ask someone how to
apologize to her, but it was not something he could ask of
Kta or of Hef; and certainly he dared ask no one else.
She served at dinner that night, as at every meal, and
still avoided his eyes. He dared not say anything to her.
Kta was sitting beside him.
Late that night he set himself in the hall and doggedly
waited, far past the hour when the family was decently in
bed, for the chan of Elas had as her last duties
to set out things for breakfast tea and to extinguish the
hall lights as she retired to bed.
She saw him there, blocking her way to her rooms. For a
moment he feared she would cry out; her hand flew to her
lips. But she stood her ground, still looking poised to
run.
"Mim. Please. I want to talk with you."
"I do not want to talk with you. Let me
pass."
"Please."
"Do not touch me. Let me pass. Do you want to wake
all the house?"
"Do that, if you like. But I will not let you go
until you talk with me."
Her eyes widened slightly. "Kta will not permit
this."
"There are no windows on the garden and we cannot
be heard there. Come outside, Mim. I swear I want only to
talk."
She considered, her lovely face~ looking so frightened
he hurt for her; but she yielded and walked ahead of him to
the garden. The world's moon cast dim shadows here. She
stopped where the light was brightest, clasping her arms
against the chill of the night.
"Mim," he said, "I did not mean to
frighten you that night. I meant no harm by it."
"I should never have been there alone. It was my
fault. Please, lord Kurt, do not look at me that way. Let
me go."
"Because I am not nemet, you felt free to come
in and out of my room and not be ashamed with me.
Was that it, Mim?"
"No." Her teeth chattered so she could hardly
talk, and the cold was not enough for that. He slipped the
pin off his ctan, but she would not take it from
him, flinching from the offered garment.
"Why can I not talk to you?" he asked.
"How does a man ever talk to a nemet woman? I refrain
from this, I refrain from that, I must not touch, must not
look, must not think. How am I to-?"
"Please."
"How am I to talk with you?"
"Lord Kurt, I have made you think I am a loose
woman. I am chart to this house; I cannot dishonor
it. Please let me go inside."
A thought came to him. "Are you his? Are you
Kta's?"
"No," she said.
Against her preference he took the ctan and
draped it about her shoulders. She hugged it to her. He was
near enough to have touched her. He did not, nor did she
move back. He did not take that for invitation. He thought
that whatever he did, she would not protest or raise the
house. It would be trouble between her lord Kta and his
guest, and he understood enough of nemet dignity to know
that Mim would choose silence. She would yield, hating
him.
He had no argument against that.
In sad defeat, he bowed a formal courtesy to her and
turned away.
"Lord Kurt," she whispered after him, distress
in her voice.
He paused, looking back.
"My lord, you do not understand."
"I understand," he said, "that I am
human. I have offended you. I am sorry."
"Nemet do not-" She broke off in great
embarrassment, opened her hands, pleading. "My lord,
seek a wife. My lord Nym will advise you. You have
connections with the Methi and with Elas. You could marry,
easily you could marry, if Nym approached the right
house-"
"And if it was you I wanted?"
She stood there without words, until he came back to her
and reached for her. Then she prevented him with her slim
hands on his. "Please," she said. "I have
done wrong with you already."
He ignored the protest of her hands and took her face
between his palms ever so gently, fearing at each moment
she would tear from him in horror. She did not. He bent and
touched his lips to hers, delicately, almost chastely, for
he thought the human custom might disgust or frighten
her.
Her smooth hands still rested on his arms. The moon
glistened on tears hi her eyes when he drew back from her.
"Lord," she said, "I honor you. I would do
what you wish, but it would shame Kta and it would shame my
father and I cannot."
"What can you?" He found his own breathing
difficult. "Mim, what if some day I did decide to talk
with your father? Is that the way things are
done?"
"To marry?"
"Some day it might seem a good thing to
do."
She shivered in his hands. Tears spilled freely down her
cheeks.
"Mim, will you give me yes or no? Is a human hard
for you to look at? If you had rather not say, then just
say 'let me be' and I will do my best after this
not to bother you."
"Lord Kurt, you do not know me."
"Are you determined I will never know
you?"
"You do not understand. I am not the daughter of
Hef. If you ask him for me he must tell you, and then you
will not want me."
"It is nothing to me whose daughter you
are."
"My lord, Elas knows. Elas knows. But you must
listen to me now, listen. You know about the Tamurlin. I
was taken when I was thirteen. For three years I was slave
to them. Hef only calls me his daughter, and all Nephane
thinks I am of this country. But I am not, Kurt. I am
Indras, of Indresul. And they would kill me if they knew.
Elas has kept this to itself. But you, you cannot bear such
a trouble. People must not look at you and think
Tamurlin-it would hurt you in this city-and when they see
me, that is what they must think."
"Do you believe," he asked, "that what
they think matters with me? I am human. They can see
that."
"Do you not understand, my lord? I have been
property of every man in that village. Kta must tell you
this if you ask Hef for me. I am not honorable. No one
would marry Mim h'EIas. Do not shame yourself and Kta
by making Kta say this to you."
"After he had said it," said Kurt, "would
he give his consent?"
"Honorable women would marry you. Sufaki have no
fear of humans as Indras do. Perhaps even a daughter of
some merchant would marry you. I am only chan, and
before that I was nothing at all."
"If I was to ask," he said, "would you
refuse?"
"No. I would not refuse." Her small face took
on a look of pained bewilderment. "Kurt-ifhan, surely
you will think better of this in the morning."
"I am going to talk to Hef," he said. "Go
inside, Mim. And give me back my cloak. It would not do for
you to Wear it inside."
"My lord, think a day before you do this."
"I will give it tomorrow," he said, "for
thinking it over. And you do the same. And if you have not
come to me by tomorrow evening and asked me and said
clearly that you do not want me, then I will talk to
Hef."
It was, he had time to think that night and the next
morning, hardly reasonable. He wanted Mim. He had had no
knowledge of her to say that he loved her, or that she
loved him.
He wanted her. She had set her terms and there was no
living under the same roof with Mim without wanting
her.
He could apply reason to the matter, until he looked
into her face at breakfast as she poured the tea, or as she
passed him in the hall and looked at him with a dreadful
anxiety.
Have you thought better of it? the look seemed
to say. Was it, after all, only for the night?
Then the feeling was back with him, the surety that,
should he lose Mim by saying nothing, he would lose
something irreplaceable.
In the end, he found himself that evening gathering his
courage before the door of Hef, who served Elas, and
standing awkwardly inside the door when the old man
admitted him.
"Hef," he said, "may I talk to you about
Mim?"
"My lord?" asked the old man, bowing.
"What if I wanted to marry her? What should I
do?"
The old nemet looked quite overcome then, and bowed
several times, looking up at him with a distraught
expression. "Lord Kurt, she is only
chan."
"Do I not speak to you? Are you the one who says
yes or no?"
"Let my lord not be offended. I must ask
Mim."
"Mim agrees," said Kurt. Then he thought that
it was not his place to have asked Mim, and that he shamed
her and embarrassed Hef; but Hef regarded him with patience
and even a certain kindliness.
"But I must ask Mim," said Hef. "That is
the way of it. And then I must speak to Kta-ifhan, and to
Nym and lady Ptas."
"Does the whole house have to give consent?"
Kurt let forth, without pausing to think.
"Yes, my lord. I shall speak to the family, and to
Mim. It is proper that I speak to Mim."
"I am honored," Kurt murmured, the polite
phrase, and he went upstairs to his own quarters to gather
his nerves.
He felt much relieved that it was over. Hef would
consent. He was sure what Mim would answer her father, and
that would satisfy Hef.
He was preparing for bed when Kta came up the stairs and
asked admittance. The nemet had a troubled look and Kurt
knew by sure instinct what had brought him. He would almost
have begged Kta to go away, but he was under Kta's roof
and he did not have that right.
"You have talked with Hef," Kurt said, to make
it easier for him.
"Let me in, my friend."
Kurt backed from the door, offering Kta a chair. It
would have been proper to offer tea also. He would have had
to summon Mim for that. He would not do it.
"Kurt," said Kta, "please, sit down also.
I must speak to you ... I must beg your kindness to hear
me."
"You might find it more comfortable simply to tell
me what is in your mind from the beginning," Kurt
said, taking the other chair. "Yes or no, are you
going to interfere?"
"I am concerned for Mim. It is not as simple as you
may hope. Will you hear me? If your anger forbids, then we
will go down and drink tea and wait for a better mind, but
I am bound to say these things."
"Mim told me about most that I imagine you have
come to say. And it makes no difference. I know about the
Tamurlin and I know where she came from."
Kta let his breath go, a long hiss of a sigh.
"Well, that is something, at least. You know that she
is Indras?"
"None of that possibly concerns me. Nemet politics
have nothing to do with me."
"You choose ignorance. That is always a dangerous
choice, Kurt. Being of the Indras race or being Sufaki is a
matter of great difference among nemet, and you are among
nemet."
"The only difference I have ever noticed is being
human among nemet," he said, controlling his temper
with a great effort. "I would bring disgrace on you.
Is that what you care for, and not whether Mim would be
happy?"
"Mim's happiness is a matter of great concern
to us," Kta insisted. "And we know you would not
mean to hurt her, but human ways ..."
"Then you see no difference between me and the
Tamurlin."
"Please. Please. You do not imagine. They are not
like you. That is not what I meant. The Tamurlin-they are
foul and they are shameless. They wear hides and roar and
mouth like beasts when they fight. They have no more
modesty than beasts in their dealing with women. They mate
as they please, without seeking privacy. They restrain
themselves from nothing. A strong chief may have twenty or
more women, while weaker men have none. They change mates
by the outcome of combat. I speak of human women. Slaves
like Mim belong to any and all who want them. And when I
found her-"
"I do not want to hear this."
"Kurt, listen. Listen. I shall not offend you. But
when we attacked the Tamurlin to stop their raids we killed
all we could reach. We were about to set torch to the place
when I heard a sound like a child crying. I found Mim in
the corner of a hut. She wore a scrap of hide, as filthy as
the rest of them; for an instant I could not even tell she
was
nemet. She was thin, and carried terrible marks on her
body. When I tried to carry her, she attacked me-not
womanlike, but with a knife and her teeth and her knees,
whatever she could bring to bear. So she was accustomed to
fight for her place among them. I had to strike her
senseless to bring her to the ship, and then she kept
trying to jump into the sea until we were out of sight of
land. Then she hid down in the rowing pits and would not
come out except when the men were at the oars. When we fed
her she would snatch and run, and she would not speak more
than a few syllables at a time save of human
language."
"I cannot believe that," said Kurt quietly.
"How long ago was that?"
"Four years. Four years she has been in Elas. I
brought her home and gave her to my lady mother and sister,
and Hef's wife Liu, who was living then. But she had
not been among us many days before Aimu saw her standing
before the hearthfire with hands lifted, as Sufaki do not
do. Aimu was younger then and not so wise; she exclaimed
aloud that Mim must be Indras.
"Mim ran. I caught her in the streets, to the
wonder of all Nephane and our great disgrace. And I carried
her by force back to Elas. Then, alone with us, she began
to speak, with the accent of Indresul. This was the reason
of her silence before. But we of Elas are Indras too, like
all the Great Families on the hill, descended of colonists
of Indresul who came to this shore a thousand years ago.
While we are now enemies of Indresul, we are of one
religion and Mim was only a child. So Elas has kept her
secret, and people outside know her only as Hef's
adopted Sufaki daughter, a country child of mixed blood
rescued from the Tamurlin. She does not speak as Sufaki,
but people believe we taught her speech; she does not look
Sufaki, but that is not unusual in the coastal villages,
where seamen have-ei, well, she passes for Sufaki.
The scandal of her running through the streets is long
forgotten. She is an honor and an ornament to this house
now. But to have her in the public attention again would be
difficult. No man would marry Mim; forgive me, but it is
truth and she knows it. Such a marriage would cause gossip
favorable to neither of you."
Instinct told him Kta was speaking earnest good sense.
He put it by. "I would take care of her," he
insisted. "I would try, Kta."
Kta glanced down in embarrassment, then lifted his eyes
again. "She is nemet. Understand me. She is
nemet. She has been hurt and greatly shamed. Human customs
are- forgive me, I shall speak shamelessly. I do not know
how humans behave with their mates. Djan-methi is ... free
in this regard. We are not. I beg you think of Mim. We do
not cast away our women. Marriage is unbreakable."
"I had expected so."
Kta sat back a little. "Kurt, there could be no
children. I have never heard of it happening, and Tamurlin
have mated with nemet women."
"If there were," said Kurt, though what Kta
had said distressed him greatly, "I could love them. I
would want them. But if not, then I would be happy with
Mim."
"But could others love them?" Kta wondered.
"It would be difficult for them, Kurt."
It hurt. Some things Kta said amused him and some
irritated him, but this was simply a fact of Kta's
world, and it hurt bitterly. For an instant Kurt forgot
that the nemet thing to do was to lower his eyes and so
keep his hurt private. He looked full at the nemet, and it
was Kta who flinched and had to look up again.
"Would they," Kurt said, cruel to the
embarrassed nemet, "would children like that be such
monsters, Kta?"
"I," said Kta hesitantly, "/ could love a
child of my friend." And the inward shudder was too
evident.
"Even," Kurt finished, "if it looked too
much like my friend?"
"I beg your forgiveness," Kta said hoarsely.
"I fear for you and for Mim."
"Is that all?"
"I do not understand."
"Do you want her?"
"My friend," said Kta, "I do not love
Mim, but Mim is dear to me, and I am responsible for her as
my honored father is. He is too old to take Mim; but when I
marry, I would be obliged to take Mim for a concubine, for
she is chan and unmarried. I would not be sorry
for that, for she is a most beloved friend, and I would be
glad to give her children to continue Hef's name. When
you ask her of Hef, you see, that is a terrible thing. Hef
is childless. Mim is his adopted daughter, but we had
agreed her children would remain in Elas to carry on his
name and give his soul life when he dies. Mim must bear
sons, and you cannot give them to her. You are asking for
Hef's eternity and that of
all his ancestors. Hef's family has been good and
faithful to Bias. What shall I do, my friend? How shall I
resolve this?"
Kurt shook his head helplessly, unsure whether Kta
thought there could be an answer, or whether this was not
some slow and painful way of telling him no.
"I do not know," Kurt said, "whether I
can stay in Elas without marrying Mim. I want her very
much, Kta. I do not think that will change tomorrow or for
the rest of my life."
"There is," Kta offered cautiously, "an
old custom, that if the lechan's husband dies
and the house of the chan is threatened with
extinction, then the duty is with the lord of the house
nearest her age. Sometimes this is done even with the
lechan's husband living, if there are no
children after such a time."
Kurt did not know whether his face went very pale or
flushed, only that he could not for the moment move or look
left or right, was trapped staring into the nemet's
pitying eyes. Then he recovered the grace to glance down.
"I could even," he echoed, "love a child of
my friend."
Kta flinched. "Perhaps," said Kta,
'"it will be different with you and Mim. I see how
much your heart goes toward her, and I will plead your case
with Hef and give him my own pledge in this matter. And if
Hef is won, then it will be easier to win my lord father
and lady mother. Also I will talk to Mim about this custom
we call iguun."
"I will do that," Kurt said.
"No," said Kta gently. "It would be very
difficult for her to hear such words from you. Believe me
that I am right. I have known Mim long enough that I could
speak with her of this. From her own betrothed it would be
most painful. And perhaps we can give the matter a few
years before we have concern for it. Our friend Hef is not
terribly old. If his health fails or if years have passed
without children, then will be the time to invoke
iquun. I should in that case treat the honor of
you and of Hef and of Mim with the greatest
respect."
"You are my friend," said Kurt. "I know
that you are Mim's. If she is willing, let it be that
way."
"Then," said Kta, "I will go and speak to
Hef."
The betrothal was a necessarily quiet affair, confirmed
three days later at evening. Hef formally asked permission
of lord Nym to give his daughter to the guest of Elas, and
Kta formally relinquished his claim to the person of Mim
before the necessary two witnesses, friends of the family.
Han t'Osanef u Mur, father of Bel; and old Ulmar
t'Ilev ul Imetan, with all their attendant kin.
"Mim-lechan," said Nym, "is this marriage
your wish?"
"Yes, my lord."
"And in the absence of your kinsmen, Kurt
t'Morgan, I ask you to answer in your own name: do you
accept this contract as binding, understanding that when
you have sworn you must follow this ceremony with marriage
or show cause before these families present? Do you accept
under this knowledge, our friend Kurt
t'Morgan?"
"I accept."
"There is," said Nym quietly, "the clause
of iquun in this contract. The principals are of
course Mim and Kurt, and thou, my son Kta, and Hef, to
preserve the name of Hef. Three years are given hi this
agreement before iquun is invoked. Is this
acceptable to all concerned?"
One by one they bowed their heads.
Two parchments lay on the table, and to them in turn
first Nym and then t'Osanef and t'Ilev pressed
then: seals in wax.
Then lady Ptas pressed her forefinger in damp wax and so
sealed both. Then she took one to the phusmeha,
and with a bit of salt slipped it into the flames.
She uplifted her palms to the fire, intoning a prayer so
old that Kurt could not understand all the words, but it
asked blessing on the marriage.
"The betrothal is sealed," said Nym.
"Kurt Liam t'Morgan ul Edward, look upon Mim
h'Elas e Hef, your bride."
He did so, although he could not, must not touch her,
not during all the long days of waiting for the ceremony.
Mim's face shone with happiness.
They were at opposite sides of the room. It was the
custom. The nemet made a game of tormenting young men and
women at betrothals, and knew well enough his frustration.
The male guests, especially Bel and Kta, drew Kurt off in
one direction, while Aimu and Ptas and the ladies likewise
captured Mim, with much laughter as they hurried her
off.
The bell at the front door rang, faintly jingling,
untimely. Hef slipped out to answer it, duty and the normal
courtesy of Elas taking precedence over convenience even at
such a time as this.
The teasing ceased. The nemet laughed much among
themselves, among friends, but there were visitors at the
door, and the guests and the members of Elas both became
sober.
Voices intruded, Hef-Hef, who was the soul of
courtesy-arguing; and the heavy tread of outsiders entering
the hall, the hollow ring of a staff on polished stone, the
voices of strangers raised in altercation.
There was silence in the rhmei. Mim,
large-eyed, clung to Ptas* arm. Nym went to meet the
strangers in the hall, Kurt and Kta and the guests behind
him.
They were the Methi's men, grim-faced, in the
striped robes that some of the townsmen wore, hair plaited
in a single braid down the back. They had the narrowness of
eye that showed in some of the folk of Nephane, like Bel,
like Bel's father Han t'Osanef.
The Methi's guards did not take that final step into
the rhmei, where burned the hearthfire. Nym
physically barred their way, and Nym, though silver-haired
and a senior member of the Upei, the council of Nephane,
was a big man and broad-shouldered. Whether through
reverence for the place or fear of him, they came no
further.
"This is Elas," said Nym. "Consider
again, gentlemen, where you are. I did not bid you here,
and I did not hear the chan of Elas give you leave
either."
"The Methi's orders," said the eldest of
the four. "We came to fetch the human. This betrothal
is not permitted."
"Then you are too late," said Nym. "If
the Methi wished to intervene, it was her right, but now
the betrothal is sealed."
That set them aback. "Still," said their
leader, "we must bring him back to the Afen."
"Elas will permit him to go back," said Nym,
"if he chooses."
"He will go with us," said the man.
Han t'Osanef stepped up beside Nym and bent a
terrible frown on the Methi's guardsmen.
"T'Senife, I ask you come tonight to the house of
Osanef. I would ask it, t'Senife, and the rest of you
young men. Bring your fathers. We will talk."
The men had a different manner for t'Osanef:
resentful, but paying respect.
"We have duties," said the man called
t'Senife, "which keep us at the Afen. We have no
time for that. But we will say to our fathers that
t'Osanef spoke with us at the house of Bias."
"Then go back to the Afen," said t'Osanef.
"I ask it. You offend Bias."
"We have our duty," said t'Senife,
"and we must have the human."
"I will go," said Kurt, coming forward. He had
the feeling that there was much more than himself at issue,
he intruded fearfully into the hate that prickled in the
air. Kta put out a hand, forbidding him.
"The guest of Elas," said Nym in a terrible
voice, "will walk from the door of Elas if he chooses,
but the Methi herself has no power to cause this hall to be
invaded. Wait at our doorstep. And you, friend Kurt, do not
go against your will. The law forbids."
"We will wait outside," said t'Senife, at
t'Osanef's hard look. But they did not bow as they
left.
"My friend," Han t'Osanef exclaimed to
Nym, "I blush for these young men."
"They are," said Nym in a shaking voice,
"young men. Elas also will speak with their
fathers. Do not go, Kurt t'Morgan. You are not
compelled to go."
"I think," said Kurt, "that eventually I
would have no choice. I would do better to go speak with
Djan-methi, if it is possible." But it was in his mind
that reason with her was not likely. He looked at Mim, who
stood frightened and silent by the side of Ptas. He could
not touch her. Even at such a time he knew they would not
understand. "I will be back as soon as I can," he
said to her.
But to Kta, at the door of Elas before he went out to
put himself into the hands of the Methi's guards:
"Take care of Mim. And I do not want her or your
father or any of Elas to come to the Afen. I do not want
her involved and I am afraid for you all."
"You do not have to go," Kta insisted.
"Eventually," Kurt repeated, "I would
have to. You have taught me there is grace in recognizing
necessity. Take care of her." And with Kta, whom he
knew so well, he instinctively put out his hand to touch,
and refrained.
It was Kta who gripped his hand, an uncertain, awkward
gesture, not at all nemet. "You have friends and
kinsmen now. Remember it."
VI
"There is no need of that," Kurt cried,
shaking off the guards' hands as they persisted in
hurrying him through the gates of the Afen. No matter how
quickly he walked, they had to push him or lay hands on
him, so that people in the streets stopped and stared, most
unnemetlike, most embarrassing for Elas. It was to spite
Nym that they did it, he was sure, and rather than make a
public scene worse, he had taken the abuse until they
entered the Afen court, beyond witnesses.
There was a long walk between the iron outer gate and
the wooden main door of the Afen, for that space Kurt
argued with them, then found them fanning out to prevent
him from the very door toward which they were tending.
He knew the game. They wanted him to resist. He had done
so. Now they had the excuse they wanted, and they began to
close up on him.
He ran the only way still open, to the end of the
courtyard, where it came up against the high peak of the
rock on which the Afen sat, a facing wall of gray basalt.
It was beyond the witness of anyone on the walk between the
wall-gate and the door.
They herded him. He knew it and was willing to go as
long as there was room to retreat, intending to pay double
at least on one of them when they finally closed in on him.
T'Senife, who had insulted Nym, that was the one he
favored killing, a slit-eyed fellow with a look of inborn
arrogance.
But to kill him would endanger Elas; he dared not, and
knew how it must end. He risked other's lives, even
fighting them.
A small gate was set in the wall near the rock. He
bolted for it, surprising them, desperately flinging back
the iron bar.
A vast courtyard lay beyond it, a courtyard paved in
polished marble, with a single building closing it off,
high-columned, a white cube with three triangular pylons
arching over its long steps.
He ran, saw the safety of
the familiar wall-street to his left,
leading to the main street of Nephane, back to !
the view of passersby.
But for the sake of Elas he dared not take the matter
into public. He knew Nym and Kta, knew they would involve
themselves, to their hurt and without the power to help
him.
He ran instead across the white court, his sandalled
feet and those of his pursuers echoing loudly on the
deserted stones. The wall-street was the only way in. The
precinct was a cul-de-sac, backed by the temple, flanked on
one side by a high wall and on the other by the living
rock.
His pursuers put on a sudden burst of speed. He did
likewise, thinking suddenly that they did not want him to
reach this place, a religious place, a sanctuary.
He sprang for the polished steps, raced up them,
slipping and stumbling in his haste and exhaustion.
Fire roared inside, an enormous bowl of flame leaping
within, a heat that filled the room and flooded even the
outer air, a phusmeha so large the blaze made the
room glow gold, whose sound was like a furnace.
He stopped without any thought in his mind but terror,
blasted by the heat on his face and drowned in the sound of
it. It was a rhmei, and he knew its sanctity.
His pursuers also had stopped, a scant few strides
behind him on the steps. He looked back.
T'Senife beckoned him.
"Come down," said t'Senife. "We were
told to bring you to the Methi. If you will not come down,
it will be the worse for you. Come down."
Kurt believed him. It was a place of powers to which
human touch was defilement-no sanctuary, none for a
human-no kindly Ptas to open the rhmei to him and
make him welcome.
He came down to them, and they took him by the arms and
led him down and across the courtyard to the open gate of
the Afen compound, barring it again behind them.
Then they forced him up against the wall and had
their revenge, expertly, without leaving a visible mark on
him.
It was not likely that he would complain, both for the
personal shame of it and because he and his friends were
always in their reach, especially Kta, who would count it a
matter of honor to avenge his friend, even on the
Methi's guard.
Kurt straightened himself as much as he could at the
moment and t'Senife straightened his ctan,
which had come awry, and took his arm again.
They brought him up a side entrance of the Afen, by
stairs he had not used before. Then they passed into
familiar halls near the center of the building.
Another of their kind met them, a stripe-robed and
braided young man, handsome as Bel, but with sullen,
hateful eyes. To him these men showed great deference. Shan
t'Tefur, they called him.
They discussed the betrothal, and how they had been too
late.
"Then the Methi should have that news,"
concluded t'Tefur, and his narrow eyes shifted toward a
room with a solid door. "It is empty. Hold him there
until I have carried her that news."
They did so. Kurt sat on a hard chair by the barred slit
of a window and so avoided the looks that pierced his back,
giving them no excuse to repeat their treatment of him.
At last t'Tefur came back to say that the Methi
would see him.
She would see him alone. T'Tefur protested with a
violently angry look, but Djan stared back at him in such a
way that t'Tefur bowed finally and left the room.
Then she turned that same angry look on Kurt.
"Entering the temple precincts was a mistake,"
she said. "If you had entered the temple itself I
don't know if I could have saved you."
"I had that idea," he said.
"Who told you that you had the freedom to make
contracts in Nephane, marrying that nemet?"
"I wasn't told I didn't. Nor was Elas told,
or they wouldn't have allowed it. They are loyal to
you. And they were not treated well, Djan."
"Not the least among the problems you've
created for
me, this disrespect of Elas." She walked over to
the far side of the room, put back a panel that revealed a
terrace walled with glass. It was night. They had a view of
all the sea. She gazed out, leaving him watching her back,
and she stayed that way for a long time. He thought he was
the subject of her thoughts, he and Elas.
At last she turned and faced him. "Well," she
said, "for Elas' inconvenience, I'm sorry. I
shall send them word that you're safe. You haven't
had dinner yet, have you?"
Appetite was the furthest thing from his mind. His
stomach was both empty and racked with pain, and with an
outright fear that her sudden shift in manner did nothing
to ease. "You," he said, "frightened the
wits out of my fiancee, made me a spectacle in the streets
of Nephane, and all I particularly care about is-"
"I think," said Djan in a tone of finality,
"that we had better save the talk. / am going to have
dinner. If you want to argue the point, Shan can find you
some secure room where you can think matters over. But you
will leave the Afen-if you leave the Afen-when I
please to send you out."
And she called a girl named Pai, who received her orders
with a deep bow.
"She," said Djan when the girl had gone,
"is chan to the Afen. I inherited her, it
seems. She is very loyal and very silent, both virtues. Her
family served the last methi, a hundred years ago. Before
that, Pai's family was still chan to methis,
even before the human occupation and during it. There is
nothing in Nephane that does not have roots, except the two
of us. Forget your temper, my friend. I lost mine. I rarely
do that. I am sorry."
"Then we will have out whatever you want to say and
I will go back to Elas."
"I would think so," she agreed quietly,
ignoring his anger. "Come out here. Sit down. I am too
tired to stand up to argue with you."
He came, shrugging off his apprehensions. The terrace
was dark. She left it so and sat on the window ledge,
watching the sea far below. It was indeed a spectacular
view of Nephane, its lights winding down the crag below,
the high dark rock a shadow against the moon. The moonlit
surface of the sea was cut by the wake of a single ship
heading out.
"If I were sensible," said Djan as he joined
her and sat down on the ledge facing her, "if I were
at all sensible I'd have you taken out and dropped
about halfway. Unfortunately I decided against it. I wonder
still what you would do in my place."
He had wondered that himself. "I would think of the
same things that have occurred to you," he said.
"And reach the same answer?"
"I think so," he admitted. "I don't
blame you."
She smiled, ironic amusement. "Then maybe we will
have a brighter future than other humans who have held
Nephane. They built this section of the Afen, you know.
That's why there is no rhmei, no heart to the
place. It's unique in that respect, the fortress
without a heart, the building without a soul. Did Kta tell
you what became of them?"
"Nemet drove them out, I know that."
"Humans ruled Nephane about twenty years. But they
involved themselves with the nemet. The mistress of the
base commander was of a great Indras family, of Irain.
Humans were very cruel to the nemet, and they enjoyed
humiliating the Great Families by that. But one night she
let her brothers in and the whole of Nephane rose in
rebellion against the humans on the night of a great
celebration, when most of the humans were drunk on
telise. So they lost their machines and fled south
and became the Tamurlin in a generation or so, like
animals. Only Pai's ancestor On t'Erefe defended
the humans in the Afen, being chan and obliged to
defend his human lord. The human methi and On died
together, out there in the hall. The other humans who died
were killed in the courtyard, and those who were caught
were brought back there and killed.
"Myself, I have read the records that went before
their fall. The supply ship failed them, never came back,
probably after reporting to Aeolus; it was destroyed on its
return trip, another war casualty, unnoticed. The years
passed, and they had made the nemet here hate them. They
had threatened them with the imminent return of, the ship
for twenty years and the threat was wearing thin. So they
fell. But when we arrived, the nemet thought the threat had
come true and that they were all to die. For all my
crewmates cared, we might have destroyed Nephane to secure
the base. I would not permit it. And when I had
freed the nemet from the immediate threat of my
companions, they made me methi. Some say I am sent by Fate;
they think the same of you. For an Indras, nothing ever
happens without logical purpose. Their universe is entirely
rational. I admire that in them. There is a great deal in
these people that was worth the cost. And I think you agree
with me. You've evidently settled very comfortably into
Elas."
"They are my friends," he said.
Djan leaned back, leaned on
the sill and looked out over her
shoulder. The ship was nearly to the breakwater.
"This is a world of
little haste and much
deliberation. Can you imagine
two ships like
that headed for each
other in battle? Our ships come- hi faster than the mind
can think, from zero vision to alongside, attack and
vanish. But those vessels with their sails and
oars-by the time , they came within
range of each
other there would be ,
abundant time for
thought. There is
a dreadful
deliberateness about
the nemet. They
maneuver so slowly, but they do
hold a course once they've taken it."
"You're not talking about ships."
"Do you know what lies across the sea?"
His heart leaped; he thought of Mim, and his first
terrible thought was that Djan knew. But he let nothing of
that reach his face. "Indresul," he said. "A
city that is hostile to Nephane."
"Your friends of Elas are Indras. Did you
know?"
"I had heard so, yes."
"So are most of the Great Families of Nephane. The
Indras established this as a colony once, when they
conquered the inland fortress of Chteftikan and began to
build this fortress with Sufaki slaves taken in that war.
Indresul has no love of the Nephanite Indras, but she has
never forgotten that through them she has a claim on this
city. She wants it. I am walking a narrow line, Kurt
Morgan, and your Indras friends in Elas and your own
meddling in nemet affairs are an embarrassment to me at a
time when I can least afford embarrassment. I need quiet in
this city. I will do what is necessary to secure
that."
"I've done nothing," he said, "except
inside Elas."
"Unfortunately," said Djan, "Elas does
nothing without consequence in Nephane. That is the
misfortune of wealth and power. That ship out there is
bound for Indresul. The Methi of Indresul has eluded my
every attempt to talk. You cannot imagine how they despise
Sufaki and humans. Well, at last they are going to send an
ambassador, one Mor t'Uset ul Orm, a councillor who has
high status in Indresul. He will come at the return of that
ship. And this betrothal of yours, publicized in the market
today, had better not come to the attention of t'Uset
when he arrives."
"I have no desire to be noticed by anyone," he
said.
The glance she gave him was ice. But at that moment
Pai-lechan and another girl pattered into the hall
cat-footed and brought tea and telise and a light
supper, setting it on the low table by the ledge.
Djan dismissed them both, although strict formality
dictated someone serve. The chani bowed themselves
out.
"Join me," she said, "in tea or
telise, if nothing else."
His appetite had returned somewhat. He picked at the
food and then found himself hungry. He ate fully enough for
his share, and demurred when she poured him
telise, but she set the cup beside him. She
carried the dishes out herself, returned and settled on the
ledge beside him. The ship had long since cleared the
harbor, leaving its surface to the wind and the moon.
"It is late," he said. "I would like to
go back to Elas."
"This nemet girl. What is her name?"
All at once the meal lay like lead at his stomach.
"What is her name?"
"Mim," he said, and reached for the
telise, swallowed some of its vaporous fire.
"Did you compromise the girl? Is that the reason
for this sudden marriage?"
The cup froze in his hand. He looked at her, and all at
once he knew she had meant it just as he had heard it, and
flushed with heat, not the telise,
"I am in love with her."
Djan's cool eyes rested on him, estimating.
"The nemet are a beautiful people. They have a certain
attraction. And I suppose nemet women have a certain . . .
flattering appeal to a man of our kind. They always let
their men be right."
"It will not trouble you," he said.
"I am sure it will not." She let the implied
threat hang in the air a moment and then shrugged lightly.
"I have nothing personal against the .child. I
don't expect I'll ever have to consider the
problem. I trust your good sense for that. Marry her.
Occasionally you will find, as I do, that nemet thoughts
and looks and manners-and nemet prejudices-are too much for
you. That fact moved me, I admit it, or you would be
keeping company with the Tamurlin, or the fishes. I would
rather think we were companions, human and reasonably
civilized. This person Mim, she is only chan; she
does at least provide a certain respectability if you are
careful. I suppose it is not such a bad choice, so I do not
think this marriage will be such an inconvenience to me.
And I think you understand me, Kurt."
The cup shook in his hand. He put it
aside, lest his fingers crush the fragile
crystal.
"You are gambling your neck, Djan. I won't be
pushed." "I do not push,"
she said, "more than will
make me understood. And
I think we
understand each other
plainly."
VII
The gray light of dawn was over Nephane, spreading
through a mist that overlay all but the upper walls of the
Afen. The cobbled street running down from the Afen gate
was wet, and the few people who had business on the streets
at that hour went muffled in cloaks.
Kurt stepped up to the front door of Elas, tried the
handle in the quickly dashed hope that it would be
unlocked, then knocked softly, not wanting to wake the
whole house.
More quickly than he had expected, soft footsteps
approached the door inside, hesitated. He stood squarely
before the door to be surveyed from the peephole.
The bar flew back, the door was snatched inward, and
Mim was there in her nightrobe. With a sob of relief she
flung herself into his arms and hugged him tightly.
"Hush," he said, "it's all right;
it's all right, Mim."
They were framed in the doorway. He brought her inside
and closed and barred the heavy door. Mim stood wiping at
her eyes with her wide sleeve.
"Is the house awake?" he whispered.
"Everyone finally went to bed. I came out again and
waited in the rhmei. I hoped-I hoped you would
come back. Are you all right, my lord?"
"I am well enough." He took her in his arm and
walked with her to the warmth of the rhmei. There
in the light her large eyes stared up at him and her hands
pressed his, gentle as the touch of wind.
"You are shaking," she said. "Is it the
cold?"
"It's cold and I'm tired." It was hard
to slip back into Nechai after hours of human language. His
accent crept out again.
"What did she want?"
"She asked me some questions. They held me all
night Mim, I just want to go upstairs and get some sleep.
Don't worry. I am well, Mim."
"My lord," she said in a tear-choked voice,
"before the phusmeha it is a great wrong to
lie. Forgive me, but I know that you are lying."
"Leave me alone, Mim, please."
"It was not about questions. If it was, look at me
plainly and say that it was so."
He tried, and could not. Mim's dark eyes flooded
with sadness.
"I am sorry," was all he could say.
Her hands tightened on his. That terrible dark-eyed look
would not let him go. "Do you wish to break the
contract, or do you wish to keep it?"
"Do you?"
"If it is your wish."
With his chilled hand he smoothed the hair from her
cheek and wiped at a streak of tears. "I do not love
her," he said; and then, tribute to the honesty Mim
herself used: "But I know how she feels, Mim.
Sometimes I feel that way too. Sometimes all Elas is
strange to me and I want to be human just for a little
time. It is like that with her."
"She might give you children and you would be lord
over all Nephane."
He crushed her against him, the faint perfume of
aluel leaves about her clothing, a freshness about
her skin, and remembered the synthetics-and-alcohol scent
of Djan, human and, for the moment, pleasing. There was
kindness in Djan; it made her dangerous, for it threatened
her pride.
It threatened Elas.
"If it were in Djan's nature to marry, which it
is not, I would still feel no differently, Mim. But I
cannot say that this will be the last time I go to the
Afen. If you cannot bear that, then tell me so
now."
"I would be concubine and not first wife, if it was
your wish."
"No," he said, realizing how she had heard it.
"No, the only reason I would ever put you aside would
be to protect you."
She leaned up on tiptoe and took his face between her
two silken hands, kissed him with great tenderness. Then
she drew back, hands still uplifted, as if unsure how he
would react. She looked frightened.
"My lord husband," she said, which she was
entitled to call him, being betrothed. The words had a
strange sound between them. And she took liberties with him
which he understood no honorable nemet lady would take with
her betrothed, even hi being alone with him. But she put
all her manners aside to please him, perhaps, h4 feared, to
fight for him in her own desperate fashion.
He pressed her to him tightly and set her back again.
"Mim, please. Go before someone wakes and sees you. I
have to talk to Kta."
"Will you tell him what has happened?"
"I intend to."
"Please do not bring violence into this
house."
"Go on, Mim."
She gave him an agonized look, but she did as he asked
her.
He did not knock at Kta's door. There had already
been too much noise in the sleeping house. Instead he
opened it and slipped inside, crossed the floor and parted
the curtain that screened the sleeping area before he spoke
Kta's name.
The nemet came awake with a start and an oath, looked at
Kurt with dazed eyes, then rolled out of bed and
wrapped a kilt around himself. "Gods," he
said, "you look deathly, friend. What happened? Are
you all right? Is there some-?"
"I've just been put to explaining a situation
to Mim," Kurt said, and found his limbs shaking under
him, the delayed reaction to all that he had been through.
"Kta, I need advice."
Kta showed him a chair. "Sit down, my friend.
Compose your heart and I will help you if you can make me
understand. Shall I find you something to drink?"
Kurt sat down and bowed his head, locked his fingers
behind his neck until he made himself remember the calm
that belonged in, Elas. The scent of incense, the dim light
of the phusa, the sense of stillness, all this
comforted him, and the panic left him though the fear did
not.
"I am all right," he said. "No, do not
bother about try drink."
"You only now came in?" Kta asked him, for the
morning showed through the window.
Kurt nodded, looked him in the eyes, and Kta let the
breath hiss slowly between his teeth.
"A personal matter?" Kta asked with admirable
delicacy.
"The whole of Elas seems to have read matters
better than I did when I went up to the Afen. Was it that
obvious? Does the whole of Nephane know by now, or is there
any privacy in this city?"
"Mim knew, at least. Kurt, Kurt, light of heaven,
ther8 Was no need to guess. When the Methi's men came
back to assure us of your safety, it was clear enough,
coupled with the Methi's reaction to the betrothal. My
friend, do not 6e ashamed. We always knew that your life
would be bound to that of the Methi. Nephane has taken it
for granted from the day you came. It was the betrothal to
Mim that shocked everyone. I am speaking plainly. I think
the truth has its moment, even if it is bitter. Yes, the
whole of Nephane knows, and is by no means
surprised."
Kurt swore, a raw and human oath, and gazed off at the
window, unable to look at the nemet.
"Have you," said Kta, "love for the
Methi?"
"No," he said harshly.
"You chose to go," Kta reminded him,
"when Elas would have fought for you."
"Elas has no place in this."
"We have no honor if we let you protect us in this
way. But it is not clear to us what your wishes are in this
matter. Do you wish us to intervene?"
"I do not wish it," he answered.
"Is this the wish of your heart? Or do you still
think to shield us? You owe us the plain truth, Kurt.
Tell us I yes or no and we will believe your word and do as
you wish."
"I do not love the Methi," he said in a still
voice, "but I do not want Elas involved between
us."
"That tells me nothing."
"I expect," he said, finding it difficult to
meet Kta's dark-eyed and gentle sympathy, "that it
will not be the last time. I owe her, Kta. If my behavior
offends the honor of Elas or of Minn, tell me. I have no
wish to bring misery on this house, and least of all on
Mim. Tell me what to do."
"Life," said Kta, "is a powerful urge.
You protest you hate the Methi, and perhaps she hates you,
but the urge to survive and perpetuate your kind may be a
sense of honor above every other honor. Mim has spoken to
me of this."
He felt a deep sickness, thinking of that. At the moment
he himself did not even wish to survive.
"Mim honors you," said Kta, "very much.
If your heart toward her changed, still you are bound, my
friend. I feared this, and Mim foreknew it. I beg you do
not think of breaking this vow with Mim; it would dishonor
her. Ai, my friend, my friend, we are a people
that does not believe in sudden marriage, yet for once we
were led by the heart; we were moved by the desire to make
you and Mim happy. Now I hope that we have not been cruel
instead. You cannot undo what you have done with
Mim."
"I would not," Kurt said. "I would not
change that."
"Then," said Kta, "all is well."
"I have to live in this city," said Kurt,
"and how will people see this and how will it be for
Mim?"
Kta shrugged. "That is the Methi's problem. It
is common for a man to have obligations to more than one
woman. One cannot, of course, have the Methi of Nephane for
a common concubine. But it is for the woman's house to
see to the proprieties and to obtain respectability. An
honorable woman does so, as we have done for Mim. If a
woman will not, or her family will not, matters are on her
head, not yours. Though," he added, "a methi can
do rather well as he or she pleases, and this has been a
common difficulty with methis, particularly with human
ones, and the late Tehal-methi of Indresul was notorious.
Djan-methi is efficient. She is a good methi. The people
have bread and peace, and as long as that lasts, you can
only obtain honor by your association with her. I am only
concerned that your feelings may turn again to human
things, and Mim be only one of a strange people that for a
time entertained you."
"No."
"I beg your forgiveness if this would never
happen."
"It would never happen."
"I have offended my friend," said Kta. "I
know you have grown nemet, and this part of you I trust;
but forgive me, I do not know how to understand the
other."
"I would do anything to protect Mim-or
Elas."
"Then," said Kta in great earnestness,
"think as nemet, not as human. Do nothing without your
family. Keep nothing from your family. The Families are
sacred. Even the Methi is powerless to do you harm when you
stand with us and we with you."
"Then you do not know Djan."
"There is the law, Kurt. As long as you have not
taken arms against her or directly defied her, the law
binds her. She must go through the Upei, and a
dispute-forgive me-with her lover is hardly the kind of
matter she could lay before the Upei."
"She could simply assign you and Tavi to
sail to the end of the known world. She had alternatives,
Kta."
"If the Methi chooses a quarrel with Elas,"
said Kta, "she will have chosen unwisely. Elas was
here before the Methi came, and before the first human set
foot on this soil. We know our city and our people, and our
voice is heard in councils on both sides of the Dividing
Sea. When Elas speaks in the Upei, the Great Families
listen; and now of all times the Methi dares not have the
Great Families at odds with her. Her position is not as
secure as it seems, which she knows full well, my
friend."
VIII
The ship from Indresul came into port late on the day
scheduled, a bireme with a red sail-the international
emblem, Kta explained as he stood with Kurt on the dock, of
a ship claiming immunity from attack. It would be blasphemy
against the gods either to attack a ship bearing that color
or to claim immunity without just cause.
The Nephanite crowds were ominously silent as the
ambassador left his ship and came ashore. Characteristic of
the nemet, there was no wild outburst of hatred, but people
took just long enough moving back to clear a path for the
ambassador's escort to carry the point that he was not
welcome in Nephane.
Mor t'Uset ul Orm, white-haired and grim of face,
made his way on foot up the hill to the height of the Afen
and paid no heed to the soft curses that followed at his
back.
"The house of Uset," said Kta as he and Kurt
made their way uphill in the crowd, "that house on
this side of the Dividing Sea, will not stir out of doors
this day. They will not go into the Upei for very
shame."
"Shame before Mor t'Uset or before the people
of Nephane?"
"Both. It is a terrible thing when a house is
divided. The Guardians of Uset on both sides of the sea are
in conflict. Ei, ei, fighting the Tamurlin is
joyless enough; it is worse that two races have warred
against each other over this land; but when one thinks of
war against one's own family, where gods and Ancestors
are shared, whose hearth once burned with a common
flame-ai, heaven keep us from such a
day."
"I do not think Djan will take this city to war.
She knows too well where it leads."
"Neither side wants it," said Kta, "and
the Indras-descended of Nephane want it least of all. Our
quarrel with . . ." -
Kta fell silent as they came to the place where the
street narrowed to pass the gate in the lower defense wall.
A man reaching the gate from the opposite direction was
staring at them: tall, powerful, wearing the braid and
striped robe that- was not uncommon in the lower town and
among the Methi's guard.
All at once Kurt knew him. Shan t'Tefur. Hate seemed
in permanent residence in t'Tefur's narrow eyes.
For a moment Kurt's heart pounded and his muscles
tensed, for t'Tefur had stopped in the gate and seemed
about to bar their way.
Kta jostled against Kurt, purposefully, clamped his arm
in a hard grip unseen beneath the fold of the ctan
and edged him through the gate, making it clear he should
not stop.
"That man," said Kurt, resisting the urge to
look back, for Kta's grip remained hard, warning him.
"That man is from the Afen."
"Keep moving," Kta said.
They did not stop until they reached the high street,
that area near the Afen which belonged to the mansions of
the Families, great, rambling things, among which Elas was
one of the most prominent. Here Kta seemed easier, and
slowed his pace as they headed toward the door of Elas.
"That man," Kurt said then, "came where I
was being held in the Afen. He brought me into the
Methi's rooms. His name is t'Tefur,"
"I know his name."
"He seems to have a dislike for humans."
"Hardly," said Kta. "It is a personal
dislike. He has no fondness for either of us. He is
Sufaki."
"I noticed the braid, the robes-that is not the
dress of the Methi's guard, then?"
"No. It is Sufak."
"Osanef . . . Osanef is Sufaki. Han t'Osanef
and Bel do not wear-"
"No. Osanef is Sufaki, but the jafikn, the
long hair braided in the back, that is an ancient custom,
the warrior's braid No one has
done it since the Conquest. It was
forbidden the Sufaki then.
But in recent years the rebel
spirits have revived the custom,
and the Robes of Color,
which distinguish their
houses. There are three
Sufak houses of
the ancient aristocracy
surviving, and 'Tefur is of
one. He is a dangerous man. His name is
Shan t'Tefur u Tlekef,
or as he
prefers to be known, Tlekefu
Shan Tefur. He is Bias' bitter enemy, and fie is
yours not alone for the sake of
Elas."
"Because I'm human? But I understood Sufaki had
no
particular hate for-" And it dawned on him, with
a
sudden heat at the
face.
"Yes," said Kta,
"he has been the
Methi's lover for many months."
"What does your custom say he and I should do
about-
"Sufak custom says he may try to make you fight
him. And you must not. Absolutely you must not."
"Kta, I may be helpless in most things nemet,
but if he wants to press a fight, that is something I can
under- stand. Do you mean a fight, or do you mean a fight
to the death? I am not that anxious to kill him over
her, but neither am I going to be-"
"Listen. Hear what I am saying to you. You must
avoid a fight with him. I do not question your courage or
your ability. I am asking this for the sake of Elas. Shan
t'Tefur is dangerous."
"Do you expect me to allow myself to be killed? Is he
dangerous in that sense, or how?"
"He is a power among the Sufaki. He sought more
power, which the Methi could give him. You have made him
lose honor and you have threatened his position of
leadership. You are resident with Elas, and we are of the
Indras-descended. Until now, the Methi has inclined toward
the Sufaki, ever since she dispensed with me as an
interpreter. She has been surrounded by Sufaki, chosen
friends of Shan t'Tefur, and has drawn much of her
power from them, so much so that the Great Families are
uneasy. But of a sudden Shan t'Tefur finds his footing
unsteady."
They walked in silence for a moment. Increasingly bitter
and embarrassed thoughts reared up. Kurt glanced at the
nemet.' "You pulled me from the harbor. You saved
my life. You gave me everything I have, by Djan's
leave. You went to her and asked for me, and if not for
that I would be ... I would certainly not be walking the
streets free. So do not misunderstand what I ask you. But
you said that from the time I arrived in Nephane, people
knew that I would become involved with the Methi. Was I
pushed toward that, Kta? Was I aimed at her, an Indras
weapon against Shan t'Tefur?"
And to his distress, Kta did not answer at once.
"Is it the truth, then?" Kurt asked.
"Kurt, you have married within my house."
"Is it true?" he insisted.
"I do not know how a human hears things," Kta
protested. "Or whether you attribute to me motives no
nemet would have, or fail to think what would be obvious to
a nemet. Gods, Kurt-"
"Answer me."
"When I first saw you, I thought, He is the
Methi's kind. Is that not most obvious? Is there
offense in .that? And I thought: He ought to be treated
kindly, since he is a gentle being, and since one day he
may be more than he seems now. And then an unworthy thought
came to me: It would be profitable to your house, Kta
t'Elas. And there is offense in that. At the time you
were only human to me; and to a nemet, that does not oblige
one to deal morally. I do offend you. I cause you pain. But
that is the way it was. I think differently now. I am
ashamed."
"So Elas took me in, to use."
"No," said Kta quickly. "We would never
have opened-"
His words died as Kurt kept staring at him. "Go
ahead," said Kurt. "Or do I already
understand?"
Kta met his eyes directly, contrition in a nemet.
"Elas is holy to us. I owe you a truth. We would never
have opened our doors to you-to anyone . . . Very well, I
will say it: it is unthinkable that I would have exposed my
hearth to human influence, whatever the advantage it
promised with the Methi. Our hospitality is sacred, and not
for sale for any favor. But I made a mistake. In my
anxiousness to win your favor, I gave you my word, and the
word of Elas is sacred too. So I accepted you. My friend,
let our friendship survive this truth: when the other
Families reproached Elas for taking a human into its
rhmei, we argued simply that it was better for a
human to be within an Indras house than sent to the Sufaki
instead, for the influence of the Sufaki is already
dangerously powerful. And I think another consideration
influenced Djan-methi in hearing me: that your life would
have been in constant danger in a Sufak house, because of
the honor of Shan t'Tefur, although I dared not say it
in words. So she sent you to Elas. I think she feared
t'Tefur's reaction even if you remained in the
Afen."
"I understand," said Kurt, because it seemed
proper to say something. The words hurt. He did not trust
himself to say much.
"Elas loves and honors you," said Kta, and
when Kurt still failed to answer him he looked down and,
with what appeared much thought, he cautiously extended his
hand to take Kurt's arm, touching like Mim, with
feather-softness. It was an unnatural gesture for the
nemet; it was one studied, copied, offered now on the
public street as an act of desperation.
Kurt stopped, set' his jaw against the tears which
threatened.
"Avoid t'Tefur," Kta pleaded. "If the
house-friend of Elas kills the heir of Tefur-or if he kills
you-killing will not stop there. He will provoke you if he
can. Be wise. Do not let him do this."
"I understand. I have told you that."
Kta glanced down, gave the sketch of a bow. The hand
dropped. They walked on, near to Elas.
"Have I a soul?" Kurt asked him suddenly, and
looked at him.
The nemet's face was shocked, frightened.
"Have I a soul?" Kurt asked again.
"Yes," said Kta, which seemed difficult for
him to say.
It was, Kurt thought, an admission which had already
cost Kta some of his peace of mind.
The Upei, the council, met that day in the Afen and
adjourned, as by law it must, as the sun set, to convene
again at dawn.
Nym returned to the house at dusk, greeted lady Ptas and
Hef at the door. When he came into the rhmei where
the light was, the senator looked exhausted, utterly
drained. Aimu hastened to bring water for washing, while
Ptas prepared the tea.
There was no discussion of business during the meal.
Such matters as Nym had on his mind were reserved for the
rounds of tea that followed. Instead Nym asked politely
after Mim's preparation for her wedding, and for
Aimu's, for both were spending their days sewing,
planning, discussing the coming weddings, keeping the house
astir with their happy excitement and sometime tears. Aimu
glanced down prettily and said that she had almost
completed her own trousseau and that they were working
together on Mim's things, for, Aimu thought, their
beloved human was not likely to choose the long formal
engagement such as she had had with Bel.
"I met our friend the elder t'Osanef,"
said Nym in answer to that, "and it is not unlikely,
little Aimu, that we will advance the date of your own
wedding."
"Ei," murmured Aimu, her dark eyes
suddenly wide. "How far, honored Father?"
"Perhaps within a month."
"Beloved husband," exclaimed Ptas in dismay,
"such haste?"
"There speaks a mother," Nym said tenderly.
"Aimu, child, do you and Mim go fetch another pot of
tea. And then go to your sewing. There is business afoot
hereafter."
"Shall I-?" asked Kurt, offering by gesture to
depart.
"No, no, our guest. Please sit with us. This
business concerns the house, and you are soon to be one of
us."
The tea was brought and served with all formality. Then
Mim and Aimu withdrew, leaving the men of the house and
Ptas. Nym took a slow sip of tea and looked at his
wife.
"You had a question, Ptas?"
"Who asked the date advanced? Osanef?
Or was it you?"
"Ptas, I fear we are going to war." And in the
stillness that awful word made in the room he continued
very softly: "If we wish this marriage I think we must
hurry it on with all decent speed; a wedding between Sufaki
and Indras may serve to heal the division between the
Families and the sons of the east; that is still our hope.
But it must be soon."
The lady of Elas wept quiet tears and blotted them with
the edge of her scarf. "What will they do? It is not
right, Nym, it is not right that they should have to bear
such a weight on themselves."
"What would you? Break the engagement? That is
impossible. For us to ask that-no. No. And if the marriage
is to be, then there must be haste. With war threatening,
Bel would surely wish to leave a son to safeguard the name
of Osanef. He is the last of his name. As you are, Kta, my
son. I am above sixty years of age, and today it has
occurred to me that I am not immortal. You should have laid
a grandson at my feet years ago."
"Yes, sir," said Kta quietly.
"You cannot mourn the dead forever; and I wish you
would make some choice for yourself, so that I would know
how to please you. If there is any young woman of the
Families who has touched your heart . . ."
Kta shrugged, looking at the floor.
"Perhaps," his father suggested gently,
"the daughters of Rasim or of Irain . . ."
"Tai t'Isulan," said Kta.
"A lovely child," said Ptas, "and she
will be a fine lady."
Again Kta shrugged. "A child, indeed. But I do at
least know her, and I think I would not be unpleasing to
her."
"She is-what-?-seventeen?" asked Nym, and when
Kta agreed: "Isulan is a fine religious house. I will
think on it and perhaps I will talk with Ban t'Isulan,
if in several days you still think the same. My son, I am
sorry to bring this matter upon you so suddenly, but you
are my only son, and these are sudden times. Ptas, pour
some telise."
She did so. The first few sips were drunk in silence.
This was proper. Then Nym sighed softly.
"Home is very sweet, wife. May we abide as we are
tonight."
"May it be so," reverently echoed Ptas, and
Kta did the same.
"The matter in council," said Ptas then.
"What was decided?"
Nym frowned and stared at nothing hi particular.
"T'Uset is not here to bring us peace, only more
demands of the Methi Ylith. Djan-methi was not in the Upei
today; it did not seem wise. And I suspect . . ." His
eyes wandered to Kurt, estimating; and Kurt's face went
hot. Suddenly he gathered himself to leave, but Nym forbade
that with a move of his hand, and he settled again, bowing
low and not meeting Nym's eyes.
"Our words could offend you," said Nym.
"I pray not."
"I have learned," said Kurt, "how little
welcome my people have made for themselves among
you."
"Friend of my son," said Nym gently,
"your wise and peaceful attitude is an ornament to
this house. I will not affront you by repeating
t'Uset's words. Reason with him proved impossible.
The Indras of the mother city hate humans, and they will
not negotiate with Djan-methi. And that is not the end of
our troubles." His eyes sought Ptas. "T'Tefur
created bitter discussion, even before t'Uset was
seated, demanding we not permit him to be present during
the Invocation."
"Light of heaven," murmured Ptas. "In
t'Uset's hearing?"
"He was at the door."
"We met the younger t'Tefur today," said
Kta. "There were no words, but his manner was
deliberate and provocative, aimed at Kurt."
"Is it so?" said Nym, concerned, and with a
glance at Kurt: "Do not fall into his hands. Do not
place yourself where you can become a cause, our
friend."
"I am warned," said Kurt.
"Today," said Nym, "there was a curse
spoken between the house of Tefur and the house of Elas,
before the Upei, and we must all be on our guard.
T'Tefur blasphemed, shouting down the Invocation, and I
answered him as his behavior deserved. He calls it treason,
that when we pray we still call on the name of Indresul the
shining. This he said in t'Uset's
hearing."
"And for the likes of this," said lady Ptas,
"we must endure to be cursed from the hearthflre of
Elas-in-Indresul, and have our name pronounced annually in
infamy at the Shrine of Man."
"Mother," said Kta, bowing low, "not all
Sufaki feel so. Bel would not feel this way. He would
not."
"TTefur's number is growing," said Ptas,
"that he dares to stand in the Upei and say such a
thing."
Kurt looked from one to the other in bewilderment.
It was Nym who undertook to explain to
him. "We are Indras. A thousand years ago Nai-methi of
Indresul launched colonies toward the Isles, south of this
shore, then laid the foundations of Nephane as a fortress
to guard the coast from Sufaki pirates. He destroyed
Chteftikan, the capital of the Sufaki kingdom, and Indras
colonists administered the new provinces from this citadel.
For most of time we ruled the Sufaki. But the coming of
humans cut our ties to Indresul, and when we came out of
those dark years, we wiped out all the old cruel laws that
kept the Sufaki subject, accepted them into the Upei. For
t'Tefur, that is not enough. There is great bitterness
there."
"It is religion," said Ptas. "Sufaki have
many gods, and believe in magic and worship demons. Not
all. Bel's house is better educated. But Indras will
not set foot in the precincts of the temple, the so-named
Oracle of Phan. And it would be dangerous in these times
even to be there in the wall-street after dark. We pray at
our own hearths and invoke the Ancestors we have in common
with the houses across the Dividing Sea. We do them no
harm, we inflict nothing on them, but they resent
this."
"But," said Kurt, "you do not agree with
Indresul."
"It is impossible," said Nym. "We are of
Nephane. We have lived among Sufaki; we have dealt with
humans. We cannot unlearn the things we know for truth. We
will fight if we must, against Indresul. The Sufaki seem
not to believe that, but it is so."
"No," said Kurt, and with such passion that
the nemet were hushed. "No. Do not go to
war."
"It is excellent advice," said Nym after a
moment. "But we may be helpless to guide our own
affairs. When a man finds his affairs without resolution,
his existence out of time with heaven and his very being a
disturbance to the yhia, then he must choose to
die for the sake of order. He does well if he does so
without violence. In the eyes of heaven even nations are
finally answerable to such logic, and even nations may
sometimes be compelled to suicide. They have their
methods-being many minds and not one, they cannot proceed
toward their fate with the dignity a single man can
manage-but proceed they do."
"Ei, honored Father," said Kta,
"I beg you not to say such things."
"Like Bel, do you believe in omens? I do not, not,
at least, that words, ill-thought or otherwise, have power
over the future. The future already exists, in our hearts
already, stored up and waiting to unfold when we reach our
time and place. Our own nature is our fate. You are young,
Kta. You deserve better than my age has given
you."
There was silence in the rhmei. Suddenly Kurt
bowed himself a degree lower,
requesting, and Nym looked at
him. - "You have a methi," said Kurt, "who
is not willing to fight a war. Please. Trust me to go speak
to her, as another human."
There was a stir of uneasiness. Kta opened his mouth as
if he would protest, but Nym consented.
"Go," he said, nothing more.
Kurt rose and adjusted his ctan, pinning it
securely. He bowed to them collectively and turned to
leave. Someone hurried after; he thought it was Hef, whose
duty it was to tend the door. It was Kta who overtook him
in the outer hall.
"Be careful," Kta said. And when he opened the
outer door into the dark: "Kurt, I will walk to the
Afen with you."
"No," said Kurt. "Then you would have to
wait there, and you would be obvious at this hour. Let us
not make this more obvious than need be."
But there was, once the door was closed and he was on
the street in the dark, an uneasy feeling about the night.
It was quieter than usual. A man muffled in striped robes
stood in the shadows of the house opposite. Kurt turned and
walked quickly uphill.
Djan put her back to the window that overlooked the sea
and leaned back against the ledge, a metallic form against
the dark beyond the glass. Tonight she dressed as human, in
a dark blue form-fitting synthetic that shimmered like
powdered glass along the lines of her figure. It was a
thing she would not dare wear among the modest nemet.
"The Indras ambassador sails tomorrow," she
said. "Confound it, couldn't you have waited?
I'm trying to keep humanity out of his sight and
hearing as much as possible, and you have to be walking up
and down the halls! He's staying on the floor just
below. If one of his staff had come out-"
"This isn't a social call."
Djan expelled her breath slowly, nodded him toward a
seat near her. "Elas and the business in the Upei. I
heard. What did they send you to say?"
"They didn't send me. But if you have any means
of controlling the situation, you'd better exert it,
fast."
Her cool green eyes measured him, centered soberly on
his. "You're scared. What Elas said must have been
considerable."
"Stop putting words in my mouth. There's going
to be nothing left but Indresul to pick up the pieces if
this goes on. There was some kind of balance here, Djan.
There was stability. You blew it to-"
"Nym's words?"
"No. Listen to me."
"There was a balance of power, yes," Djan
said. "A balance tilted in favor of the Indras and
against the Sufaki. I have done nothing but use
impartiality. The Indras are not used to that."
"Impartiality. Do you maintain that with Shan
t'Tefur?"
Her head went back. Her eyes narrowed slightly, but then
she grinned. She had a beautiful smile, even when there was
no humor in it. "Ah," she said. "I should
have told you. Now your feelings are ruffled."
"I'm sure I don't care," he said,
started to add something more cutting still, and then
regretted even what he had said. He had, after a fashion,
cared; perhaps she had feelings for him also. There was
anger in her eyes, but she did not let it fly.
"Shan," she said, "is a friend. His
family were lords of this land once. He thinks he can bend
me to his ambitions, which are probably considerable, and
he is slowly learning he can't. He is angry about your
presence, which is an anger that will heal. I believe him
about as much as I believe you when your own interests are
at stake. I weigh all that either of you says, and try to
analyze where the bias lies."
"Being yourself perfect, of course."
"In this government there does not have to be a
methi. Methis serve when it is useful to have one: in times
of crisis, to bind civil and military authority into one
swiftly moving whole. My reason for being is somewhat
different. I am methi precisely because I am neither Sufaki
nor Indras. Yes, the Sufaki support me. If I stepped down,
the Indras would immediately appoint an Indras methi. The
Upei is Indras: nobility is the qualification for
membership, and there are only three noble houses of the
Sufaki surviving. The others were massacred a thousand
years ago. Now Elas is marrying a daughter into one, so
Osanef too becomes a limb of the Families. The Upei makes
the laws. The Assembly may be Sufaki, but all they can do
is vote yea or nay on what the Upei deigns to hand them.
The Assembly hasn't rallied to veto anything since the
day of its creation. So what else do the Sufaki have but
the Methi? Oppose the Families by veto in the Assembly?
Hardly likely, when the living of the Sufaki depends on big
shipping companies like Irain and Ilev and Elas. A little
frustration burst out today. It was regrettable. But if it
makes the Families realize the seriousness of the
situation, then perhaps it was well done."
"It was not well done," Kurt said. "Not
when it was done, nor where it was done, nor against what
it was done. The ambassador witnessed it. Did your
informants tell you that detail? Djan, your selective
blindness is going to make chaos out of this city. Listen
to the Families. Call in their Fathers. Listen to them as
you listen to Shan t'Tefur."
"Ah, so it does rankle."
He stood up. She resented his speaking to her. It had
been on the edge of every word. It was in his mind to walk
out, but that would let her forget everything he had said.
Necessity overcame his pride. "Djan. I have nothing
against you. In spite of-because of-what we did one night,
I have a certain regard for you. I had some hope you might
at least listen to me, for the sake of all
concerned."
"I will look into it," she said. "I will
do what I can." And when he turned to go: "I hear
little from you. Are you happy in Elas?"
He looked back, surprised by the gentleness of her
asking. "I am happy," he said.
She smiled. "In some measure I do envy
you."
"The same choices are open to you."
"No," she said. "Not by nemet law. Think
of me and think of your little Mim, and you will know what
I mean. I am methi. I do as I please. Otherwise this world
would put bonds on me that I couldn't live with. It
would make your life miserable if you had to accept such
terms as this world would offer me. I refuse."
"I understand," he said. "I wish you
well, Djan."
She let the smile grow sad, and stared out at the lights
of Nephane a moment, ignoring him.
"I am fond of few people," she said. "In
your peculiar way you have gotten into my affections, more
than Shan, more than most who have their reason for using
me. Get out of here, back to Elas, discreetly. Go
on."
IX
The wedding Mim chose was a small and private one. The
guests and witnesses were scarcely more numerous than what
the law required. Of Osanef, there was Han t'Osanef u
Mur, his wife la t'Nefak, and Bel. Of the house of Ilev
there was Ulmar t'Ilev ul Imetan and his wife Tian
t'Elas e Ben, cousin to Nym, and their son Cam and
their new daughter-in-law, Yanu t'Pas. They were all
people Mim knew well, and Osanef and Ilev, Kurt suspected,
were among a very few nemet houses that could be found
reconciled to the marriage on religious grounds.
If even these had scruples about the question, they had
the grace still to smile and to love Mim and to treat her
chosen husband with great courtesy.
The ceremony was in the rhmei, where Kurt first
knelt before old Hef and swore that the first two sons of
the union, if any, would be given the name h'Elas as
chani to the house, so that Hef's line could
continue.
And Kta swore also to the custom of iquun, by
which Kta would see to the begetting of the promised heirs,
if necessary.
Then Nym rose and with palms toward the light of the
phusmeha invoked the guardian spirits of the
Ancestors of Elas. The sun outside was only beginning to
set. It was impossible to conduct a marriage-rite after
Phan had left the land.
"Mim," said Nym, taking her hand, "called
Mim-lechan h'Elas e-Hef, you are chan to this
house no longer, but become as a daughter of this house,
well beloved, Mim h'Elas e Hef. Are you willing to
yield your first two sons to Hef, your
foster-father?"
"Yes, my lord of Elas."
"Are you consenting to all the terms of the
marriage contract?"
"Yes, my lord of Elas."
"Are you willing now, daughter to Elas, to bind
yourself by these final and irrevocable vows?"
"Yes, my lord of Elas."
"And you, Kurt Liam t'Morgan u Patrick Edward,
are you willing to bind yourself by these final and
irrevocable vows, to take this free woman Mim h'Elas e
Hef for your true and first wife, loving her before all
others, committing your honor into her hands and your
strength and fortune to her protection?"
"Yes, my lord."
"Hef h'Elas," said Nym, "the blessing
of this house and its Guardians upon this union."
The old man came forward, and it was Hef who completed
the ceremony, giving Mim's hand into Kurt's and
naming for each the final vows they made. Then, according
to custom, Ptas lit a torch from the great
phusmeha and gave it into Kurt's hands, and he
into Mim's.
"In purity I have given," Kurt recited the
ancient formula in High Nechai, "in reverence
preserve, Mim h'Elas e Hef shu-Kurt, well-beloved, my
wife."
"In purity I have received," she said softly,
"in reverence I will keep myself to thee to the death,
Kurt Liam t'Morgan u Patrick Edward, my lord, my
husband."
And with Mim beside him, and to the ritual weeping of
the ladies and the congratulations of the men, Kurt left
the rhmei. Mim carried the light, walking behind
him up the stairs to the door of his room that now was
hers.
He entered, and watched as she used the torch to light
the triangular bronze lamp, the phusa, which had
been replaced in its niche, and he heard her sigh softly
with relief, for the omen would have been terrible if the
light had not taken. The lamp of Phan burned with steady
light, and she then extinguished the torch with a prayer
and knelt down before the lamp as Kurt closed the door,
knelt down and lifted her hands before it.
"My Ancestors, I, Mim t'Nethim e Sel shu-Kurt,
called by these my beloved friends Mim h'Elas, I, Mim,
beg your forgiveness for marrying under a name not my own,
and swear now by my own name to honor the vows I made under
another. My Ancestors, behold this man, my husband Kurt
t'Morgan, and whatever distant spirits are his, be at
peace with them for my sake. Peace, I pray my Fathers, and
let peace be with Elas on both sides of the Dividing Sea.
El, let thoughts of war be put aside between our
two
lands. May love be in this house and upon us both
forever. May the terrible Guardians of Nethim hear me and
receive the vow I make. And may the great Guardians of Elas
receive me kindly as you have ever done, for we are of this
house now, and within your keeping."
She lowered her hands, finishing her prayer, and offered
her right hand to Kurt, who drew her up.
"Mim t'Nethim," he said. "Then I had
never heard your real name."
Her large eyes lifted to his. "Nethim has no house
in Nephane, but in Indresul we are ancestral enemies to
Elas. I have not burdened Kta with knowing my true name. He
asked me, and I would not answer, so surely he suspects
that I am of a hostile house, but if there is any harm in
my silence, it is on me only. And I have spoken your name
before the Guardians of Nethim many times, and I have not
felt that they are distressed at you, my lord
Kurt."
He had started to take her in his arms, but hesitated
now, held his hands a little apart from her, suddenly
fearing Mim and her strangeness. Her gown was beautiful and
had cost days of work which he had watched; he did not know
'< how to undo it, or if this was expected
of him. And Mim herself was as complex and unknowable,
wrapped in customs for which Kta's instructions had not
prepared him.
He remembered the frightened child that Kta had found
among the Tamurlin, and feared that she would suddenly see
him as human and loathe him, without the robes and ; the
graces that made him-outwardly-nemet.
"Mim," he said. "I would never see any
harm come to you."
"It is a strange thing to say, my lord."
"I am afraid for you," he said suddenly.
"Mim, I do love you."
She smiled a little, then laughed, down-glancing. He
treasured the gentle laugh; it was Mini at her prettiest.
And she slipped her hands about his waist and hugged him
tightly, her strong slim arms dispelling the fear that she
would break.
"Kurt," she said, "Kta is a dear man,
most honored of me. I know that you and he have spoken of
me. Is this \ not so?"
"Yes," he said.
"Kta has spoken to me too; he fears for me. I honor
his concern. It is for both of us. But I trust your heart
where I do not know your ways; I know if ever you hurt me,
it would be much against your will." She slipped her
warm hands to his. "Let us have tea, my husband, a
first warming of our hearth."
That was much against his will, but it pleased her. She
lit the small room-stove, which also heated, and boiled
water and made them tea, which they enjoyed sitting on the
bed together.
He had much on his mind but little to say; neither did
Mini, but she looked often at him.
"Is it not enough tea?" he asked finally, with
the same patient courtesy he always used in Elas, which Kta
had taught his unwilling spirit. But this time there was
great earnestness in the question, which brought a shy
smile from Mim.
"What is your custom now?" she asked of
him.
"What is yours?" he asked.
"I do not know," she admitted, down-glancing
and seeming distressed. Then for the first time he
realized, and felt pained for his thoughtlessness: she had
never been with a man of her own kind, nor with any man of
decency.
"Put up the teacups," he said, "and come
here, Mim."
The light of morning came through the window and Kurt
stirred in his sleep, his hand finding the smoothness of
Mim beside him, and he opened his eyes and looked at her.
Her eyes were closed, her lashes dark and heavy on her
golden cheeks, her full lips relaxed in dreams. A little
scar marred her temple, as others not so slight marked her
back and hips, and that anyone could have abused Mim was a
thought he could not bear.
He moved, leaned on his arm across her and touched his
lips to hers, smoothed aside the dark and shining veil of
hair that flowed across her and across the pillows, and she
stirred, responding sweetly to his morning kiss.
"Mim," he said, "good morning."
Her arms went around his neck. She pulled herself up and
kissed him back. Then she blinked back tears, which he made
haste to wipe away.
"Mim?" he questioned her, much troubled, but
she smiled at him and even laughed.
"Dear Kurt," she said, holding his face
between her hands. And then, breaking for the side of the
bed, she began to wriggle free. "Ei, ei, my
lord, I must hurry-you must hurry-the sun is up. The guests
will be waiting."
"Guests?" he echoed, dismayed.
"Mim-"
But she was already slipping into her dressing gown,
then pattering away into the bath. He heard her putting
wood into the stove.
"It is custom," she said, putting her head
back through the doorway of the bath. "They come back
at dawn to breakfast with us. Oh please, Kurt, please,
hurry to be ready. They will be downstairs already, and if
we are much past dawning, they will laugh."
It was the custom, Kurt resolved to himself, and nerved
himself to face the chill air and the cold stone floor,
when he had planned a far warmer and more pleasant
morning.
He joined Mim in the bath and she washed his back for
him, making clouds of comfortable steam with the warm
water, laughing and not at all caring that the water soaked
her dressing gown.
She was content with him.
At times the warmth in her eyes or the lingering touch
of her fingers said she was more than content.
The hardest thing that faced them was to go down the
stairs into the rhmei, at which Mim actually
trembled. Kurt took her arm and would have brought her down
with his support, but the idea shocked her. She shook free
of him and walked like a proper nemet lady, independently
behind him down the stairs.
The guests and family met them at the foot of the steps
and brought them into the rhmei with much laughter
and with ribald jokes that Kurt would not have believed
possible from the modest nemet. He was almost angry, but
when Mim laughed he knew that it was proper, and forgave
them.
After the round of greetings, Aimu came and served the
morning tea, hot and sweet, and the elders sat in chairs
while the younger people, Kurt and Mim included, and Hef,
who was chart, sat on rugs on the floor and drank
their tea and listened to the elders talk. Kta played one
haunting song for them on the aos, without words,
but just for listening and for being still.
Mim would be honored in the house and exempt from duties
for the next few days, after which time she would again
take her share with Ptas and Aimu; she sat now and accepted
the attentions and the compliments and the good wishes.
Mim, who had never expected to be more than a minor
concubine to the lord of Elas, accepted with private vows
and scant legitimacy-now she was the center of
everything.
It was her hour.
Kurt begrudged her none of it, even the nemet humor. He
looked down at her and saw her face alight with pride and
happiness-and love, which she would have given with lesser
vows had he insisted. He smiled back and pressed her hand,
which the. others kindly did not elect to make joke of at
that moment.
X
Ten days passed before the outside world intruded again
into the house of Elas.
It came in the person of Bel t'Osanef u Han, who
arrived, escorted by Mim, in the garden at the rear of the
house;, there Kta was instructing Kurt in the art of the
ypan, the narrow curved longsword that was the
Indras' favorite weapon and chief sport.
Kurt saw Bel come into the garden and turned his blade
and held it in both hands to signal halt. Kta checked
himself in mid-strike and turned his head to see the reason
of the pause. Then with the elaborate ritual that governed
the friendly use of these edged weapons, Kta touched his
left hand to his sword and bowed, which Kurt returned, The
nemet believed such ritual was necessary to maintain
balance of soul between friends who contended hi sport, and
distrusted the blades* In the houses of the Families
resided the ypai-sulim, the Great Weapons which
had been dedicated in awful ceremony to the house Guardians
and bathed in blood. These were never drawn unless a man
had determined to kill or to die, and could not be sheathed
again until they had taken a life. Even these light foils
must be handled carefully, lest the ever-watchful house
spirits mistake someone's intent and cause blood to be
drawn.
Once it had been death to the Sufaki to touch these
lesser weapons, or even to look at the ypai-sulim
where they hung at rest, so that fencing was an art the
Sufaki had never employed. They were skilled with the spear
and the bow, distance weapons.
Bel waited at a respectful distance until the weapons
were safely sheathed and laid aside, and then came forward
and bowed.
"My lords," said Mim, "shall I bring
tea?"
"Do so, Mini, please," said Kta. "Bel, my
soon-to-be brother-"
"Kta," said Bel. "My business is somewhat
urgent."
"Sit then," said Kta, puzzled. There were
several stone
benches about the garden. They took those
nearest.
• Then Aimu came from the house. She bowed modestly
to her brother. "Bel," she said then, "you
come into Elas without at least sending me greetings? What
is the matter?"
"Kta," said Bel, "permission for your
sister to sit with us."
"Granted," said Kta, a murmured formality, as
thoughtless as "thank you." Aimu sank
down on the seat near them. There were no
further words. Tea had been asked; Bel's mood was
distraught. There was no discussion proper . until it had
come, and it was not long. Mim brought it on a ! tray, a
full service with extra cups.
Aimu rose up and helped her serve, and then both ladies
settled on the same bench while the first several sips that
courtesy demanded were drunk in silence and with
appreciation.
"My friend Bel," said Kta, when ritual was
satisfied, "is it unhappiness or anger or need that
has brought you to this house?"
"May the spirits of our houses be at peace,"
said Bel. "I am here now because I trust you above all
others save those born in Osanef. I am afraid there is
going to be bloodshed in Nephane."
"T'Tefur," exclaimed Aimu with great
bitterness.
"I beg you, Aimu, hear me to the end before you
stop me."
"We listen," said Kta, "but, Bel, I
suddenly fear this is a matter best discussed between our
fathers."
"Our fathers' concern must be with Tlekef. Shan
t'Tefur is beneath their notice, but he is the
dangerous one, much
more than Tlekef. Shan and I-we were friends. You know
that. And you must realize how hard it is for me to come
now to an Indras house and say what I am going to say. I am
trusting you with my life."
"Bel," said Aimu in distress, "Elas will
defend you."
"She is right," said Kta, "but Kurt . . .
may not wish to hear this."
Kurt gathered himself to leave. It was Bel's
willingness to have him stay that Kta questioned; he had
been long enough in Elas to understand nemet subtleties. It
was expected of Bel to demur.
"He must stay," said Bel, with more feeling
than courtesy demanded. "He is involved."
Kurt settled down again, but Bel remained silent a tune
thereafter, staring fixedly at his own hands.
"Kta," he said finally, "I must speak now
as Sufaki. There was a time, you know, when we ruled this
land from the rock of Nephane to the Tamur and inland to
the heart of Chteftikan and east to the Gray Sea. Nothing
can ever bring back those days; we realize that. You have
taken from us our land, our gods, our language, our
customs. You accept us as brothers only when we look like
you and talk like you, and you despise us for savages when
we are different. It is true, Kta, look at me. Here am I,
born a prince of the Osanef, and I cut my hair and wear
Indras robes and speak with the clear round tones of
Indresul, like a good civilized man, and I am accepted.
Shan is braver. He does what many of us would do if we did
not find life so comfortable on your terms. But Elas taught
him a lesson I did not learn."
"He left us in anger. I have not forgotten the day.
But you stayed."
"I was eleven; Shan was twelve. At that time we
thought it a great thing, to be friends to an Indras, to be
asked beneath the roof of one of the Great Families, to
mingle with the Indras. I had come many tunes, but this day
I brought Shan with me, and Ian t'Ilev chanced to be
your guest also that day. Ian made it clear enough that he
thought our manners quaint. Shan left on the instant; you
prevented me and persuaded me to stay, for we were closer
friends, longer friends. And from that day Shan t'Tefur
and I had in more than that sense gone our separate ways. I
could not call him back. The next day when I met him I
tried to convince him to go back to you and speak with you,
but he would not. He struck me hi the face and cursed me
from him, and said that Osanef was fit for nothing but to
be servant to the Indras-he said it in cruder words- and
that he would not. He has not ceased to despise
me."
"It was not well done," said Kta. "I had
bitter words with Ian over the matter, until he came to a
better understanding of courtesy, and my father went to
Ilev's father. I assure you it was done. I did not tell
you so; there never seemed a moment apt for it."
"Kta, if I had been Indras, would you have found a
moment apt for it?"
Kta gave back a little, his face sobered and troubled.
"Bel, if you were Indras, your father would have come
to Elas in anger and I would have been dealt with by mine,
most harshly. I did not think it mattered, since your
customs are different. But times are changing. You will
become marriage-kin to Elas. Can you doubt that you would
have justice from us?"
"I do not question your friendship," he said,
and looked at Aimu. "Times change, when a Sufaki can
marry an Indras, where once Sufaki were not admitted to an
Indras rhmei where they could meet the daughters
of a Family. But there are still limitations, friend Kta.
We try to be businessmen and we are constantly
outmaneuvered and outbid by the combines of wealthy Indras
houses; information passes from hearth to hearth along
lines of communication we do not share. When we go to sea,
we sail under Indras captains, as I do for you, my friend,
because we have not the wealth to maintain warships as a
rule, seldom ever merchantmen. A man like Shan-who makes
himself different, who wears the jafikn, who wears
the Robes of Color, who keeps his accent- you ridicule him
with secret smiles, for what was once unquestioned honor to
a man of our people. There is so little left to us of what
we were. Do you know, Kta, after all these years, that I am
not really Sufaki? Is that a surprise to you? You have
ruined us so completely that you do not even know our real
name. The people of this coast are Sufaki, the ancient name
of this province when we ruled it, but the house of Osanef
and the house of Tefur are Chteftik, from the old capital.
And my name, despite the way I have corrupted it to please
Indras tongues, is not Bel t'Osanef u Han. It is Hanu
Belaket Osanef, and nine hundred years ago we rivaled the
Insu dynasty for power in Chteftikan. A thousand years ago,
when you were struggling colonists, we were kings, and no
man would dare approach us on his feet. Now I change my
name to show I am civilized, and bear with you when your
cultured accent mispronounces it. Kta, Kta, I am not bitter
with you. I tell you these things so that you will
understand, because I know that Elas is one Indras house
who might listen. You Indras are not trusted. There is talk
of some secret accommodation you may have made with your
kinsmen of Indresul, talk that all your vowing war is
empty, that you only do this like fishermen at a market, to
increase the price in your bargain with Indresul."
"Now hold up on that point," Kta broke in, and
for the first time anger flashed in his eyes. "Since
you have felt moved to honesty with me, which I respect,
hear me, and I will return it. If Indresul attacks, we will
fight. It has always been a fault in Sufaki reasoning that
you assume Indresul loves us like its lost children; quite
the contrary. We are yearly cursed in Indresul, by the very
families you think we share. We share Ancestors up to a
thousand years ago, but beyond that point we are two
hearths and two opposed sets of Ancestors, and we are
Nephanite. By the very hearth-loyalty you fear so much, we
are Nephanite, and by the light of heaven I swear to you
there is no such conspiracy among the Families. We took
your land, yes, and there were cruel laws, yes, but that is
in the past, Bel. Would you have us abandon our ways and
become Sufaki? We would die first. But I do not think we
impose our ways on you. We do not force you to adopt our
dress or to honor our customs save when you are under our
roof. You yourselves give most honor to those who seem
Indras. You hate each other too much to unite for trade as
our great houses do. Shan t'Tefur himself admits that
when he pleads with you to make companies and rival us for
trade. By all means. It would improve the lot of your poor,
who are a charge on us."
"And why, Kta? You assume that we can rise to your
level. But have you ever thought that we might not want to
be like you?"
"Do you have another answer? Some urge it, like
Shan, to destroy all that is Indras. Will that solve
matters?"
"No. We will never know what we might have been;
our nation is gone, merged with yours. But I doubt we would
like your ways, even if things were upside down and we were
ruling you."
"Bel," exclaimed Aimu, "you cannot think
these things. You are upset. Your mind will
change."
"No, it has never been different. I have always
known it is an Indras world, and that my sons and my
sons' sons will grow more and more Indras, until they
will not understand the mind of the likes of me. I love
you, Aimu, and I do not repent my choice, but perhaps now
you do. I do not think your well-bred Indras friends would
think you disgraced if you broke our engagement. Most would
be rather relieved you had come to your senses, I
think."
Kta's back stiffened. "Have a care, Bel. My
sister has not deserved your spite. Anything you may care
to say or do with me, that is one matter, but you go too
far when you speak that way to her."
"I beg pardon," Bel murmured, and glanced at
Aimu. "We were friends before we were betrothed, Aimu.
I think you know how to understand me, and I fear you may
come to regret me and our agreement. A Sufaki house will be
a strange enough place for you; I would not see you
hurt."
"I hold by our agreement," said Aimu. Her face
was pale, her breathing quick. "Kta, take no offense
with him."
Kta lowered his eyes, made a sign of unwilling apology,
'then glanced up. "What do you want of me,
Bel?"
"Your influence. Speak to your Indras friends, make
them understand."
"Understand what? That they must cease to be Indras
and imitate Sufaki ways? This is not the way the world is
ordered, Bel. And as for violence, if it comes, it will not
come from the Indras. That is not our way and it never has
been. Persuasion is something you must use on your
people."
"You have created a Shan Tefur," said Bel,
"and he finds many others like him. Now we who have
been friends of the Indras do not know what to do."
Bel was trembling. He clasped his hands, elbows on his
knees. "There is no more peace, Kta. But let no Indras
answer violence with violence, or there will be blood
flowing in the streets come the month of Nermotai and the
holy days. Your pardon, my friends." He rose, shaking
out his robes. "I know the way out of Elas. You do not
have to lead me. Do what you will with what I have told
you."
"Bel," said Aimu, "Elas will not put you
off for the sake of Shan t'Tefur's
threats."
"But Osanef has to fear those threats. Do not
expect me to be seen here again in the near future. I do
not cease to regard you as my friends. I have faith in your
honor and your good judgment, Kta. Do not fail my
hopes."
"Let me go with him to the door," said Aimu,
though what she asked violated all custom and modesty.
"Kta, please."
"Go with him," said Kta. "Bel, my
brother, we will do what we can. Be careful for
yourself."
XI
Nephane was well named the city of mists. They rolled in
and lasted for days as the weather grew warmer, making the
cobbled streets slick with moisture. Ships crept carefully
into harbor, the lonely sound of their bells occasionally
drifting up the height of Nephane through the still air.
Voices distantly called out in the streets, muted.
Kurt looked back, anxious, wondering if the
sudden hush of footsteps that had been with him ever since
the door of Elas meant an end of pursuit.
A shadow appeared near him. He stumbled off the edge of
the unseen curb and caught his balance, fronted by several
others who appeared, cloaked and anonymous, out of the
grayness. He backed up and halted, warned by a scrape of
leather on stone: others were behind him. His belly
tightened, muscles braced.
One moved closer. The whole circle narrowed. He ducked,
darted between two of them and ran. Soft laughter pursued
him, nothing more. He did not stop running.
The Afen gate materialized out of the fog. He pushed the
heavy gate inward. He had composed himself by the time he
reached the main door. The guards stayed inside on this
inclement day, and only looked up from their game, letting
him pass; they were alert enough, but, Sufaki-wise,
careless of formalities. He shrugged the ctan back
to its conventional position under his right arm and
mounted the stairs. Here the guards came smartly to
attention-Djan's alien sense of discipline-and they for
once made to protest his entry.
He pushed past and opened the door, and one of them then
hurried into the room and back into the private section of
the apartments, presumably to announce his presence.
He had time enough to pace the floor, returning several
times to the great window in the neighboring room. Fogbound
as the city was, he could scarcely make out anything but
Haichema-tleke, Maiden Rock, the crag that rose over the
harbor, against whose shoulder the Afen and the Great
Families' houses were built. Gray and ghostly hi a
world of pallid white, it seemed the cloud-city's
anchor to solid earth.
A door hissed open in the other room and he walked back.
Djan was with him. She wore a silver-green suit, thin,
body-clinging stuff. Her coppery hair was loose, silken and
full of static. She had a morning look about her, satiated
and full of sleep.
"It's near noon," he said.
"Ah," she murmured, and looked beyond him to
the window. "So we're bound in again. Cursed fog.
I hate it. Like some breakfast?"
"No."
Djan shrugged and from utensils in the carved wood
cabinet prepared tea, instantly heated. She offered him a
cup; he accepted, nemet-schooled. It gave one something to
do with the hands.
"I suppose," she said when they were seated,
"that you didn't come here in this weather and
wake me out of a sound sleep to wish me good
morning."
"I almost didn't make it here, which is the
situation I came to talk to you about. The neighborhood of
Elas isn't safe even by day. There are Sufaki hanging
around who have no business there."
"The quarantine ordinances were repealed, you know.
I can't forbid their being there."
"Are they your men? I'd be relieved if I
thought they were. That is, if yours and Shan
t'Tefur's aren't one and the same, and I trust
that isn't the case. For a long time it's been at
night; since the first of Nermotai, it's been even by
day."
"Have they hurt anyone?"
"Not yet. People in the neighborhood stay off the
streets. Children don't go out. It's an ugly
atmosphere. I don't know whether it's aimed at me
in particular- or Elas hi general, but it's a matter of
time before something happens."
"You haven't done anything to provoke
this?"
"No. I assure you I haven't. But this is the
third day of it
I finally decided to chance it. Are you going to do
anything?"
"I'll have my people check it out, and if
there's cause I'll have the people
removed."
"Well, don't send Shan t'Tefur on the
job."
"I said I would see to it. Don't ask favors and
then turn sharp with me."
"I beg your pardon. But that's exactly what
I'm afraid you'll do, trust things to
him."
"I am not blind, my friend. But you're not the
only one with complaints. Shan's life has been
threatened. I hear it from both sides."
"By whom?"
"I don't choose to give my sources. But you
know the Indras houses and you know the hard-line
conservatives. Make your own guess."
"The Indras are not a violent people. If they said
it, it was more in the sense of a sober promise than a
threat, and that in consideration of the actions he's
been urging. You'll have riots in the streets if Shan
t'Tefur has his way."
"I doubt it. See, I'm being perfectly honest
with you, a bit of trust. Shan uses that apparent
recklessness as a tactic, but he is an intelligent man, and
his enemies would do well to reckon with that."
"And is he responsible for the late hours
you've been keeping?"
Her eyes flashed suddenly, amused. "This morning,
you mean?"
"Either you're naive or you think he is. That
is a dangerous man, Djan."
The humor died out of her eyes. "Well, you're
one to talk about the dangers of involvement with the
nemet."
"You're facing the danger of a foreign war and
you need the goodwill of the Indras Families, but you keep
company with a man who talks of killing Indras and burning
the fleet."
"Words. If the Indras are concerned, good. I
didn't create this situation; I walked into it as it
is. I'm trying to hold this city together. There will
be no war if it stays together. And it will stay together
if the Indras come to their senses and give the Sufaki
justice."
"They might, if Shan t'Tefur were out of it.
Send him on a long voyage somewhere. If he stays in Nephane
and kills someone-which is likely, sooner or later-then
you're going to have to apply the law to him without
mercy. And that will put you in a difficult position,
won't it?"
"Kurt." She put down the cup. "Do you
want fighting in this city? Then let's just start
dealing like that with both sides, one ultimatum to Shan to
get out, one to Nym, to be fair-and there won't be a
stone standing in Nephane when the smoke clears."
"Try closing your bedroom to Shan
t'Tefur," he said, "for a start. Your
credibility among the Families is in rags as long as
you're Shan t'Tefur's mistress."
It hurt her. He had thought it could not, and suddenly
he perceived she was less armored than he had
believed. . "You've given your
advice," she said. "Go back to Elas."
"Djan-" "Out."
"Djan, you talk about the sanctity of local
culture, the balance of powers, but you seem to think you
can pick and choose the rules you like. In some measure I
don't blame Shan t'Tefur. You'll be the death
of him before you're done, playing on his ambitions and
his pride and then refusing to abide by the customs he
knows. You know what you're doing to him? You know what
it is to a man of the nemet that you take him for a lover
and then play politics with him?" "I told him
fairly that he had no claim on me. He chose." "Do
you think a nemet is really capable of believing that? And
do you think that he believes now he has no just claim on
the Methi's loyalty, whatever he does in your name?
He'll push you someday to the point where you have to
choose. He's not going to let you have your own way
with him forever."
"He knows how things are."
"Then ask yourself why he comer running when you
call him to your bed, and if you discover it's not your
considerable personal attractions, don't say I
didn't warn you. A nemet doesn't take that kind of
treatment, not without some compelling reason. If this is
your method of controlling the Sufaki, you've picked
the wrong man."
"Nevertheless"-her voice acquired a tremor
that she tried to suppress-"my mistakes are my
choice." "Will that undo someone's
dying?"
"My choice," she insisted, with such intensity
that it gave him pause.
"You're not in love with him?" It was
question and plea at once. "You're too sensible
for that, Djan. You said yourself this world doesn't
give you that choice. You'd kill him or he'd be the
death of you sooner or later."
She shrugged, and the old cynical bitterness he trusted
was back. "I was conceived to serve the state. Doing
so is an unbreakable habit. Other people-like you, my
friend-normal people, serve themselves. Relationships like
serving self, serving others, are outside my experience. I
thought I was selfish, but I begin to see there are other
dimensions to that word. I find, personal relationships
tedious, these games of me and thee. I enjoy companionship.
I ...love you. I love Shan. That is not the same as: I love
Nephane. This city is mine; it is mine. Spare me
your appeals to personal affection. I would destroy either
of you if I was clearly convinced it was necessary to the
survival of this city. Remember that."
"I am sorry for you," he said.
"Get out."
Tears gathered to her eyes, belying everything she had
said. She struggled for dignity, lost. The tears spilled
free, her lips trembling into sobs. She clenched her jaw,
turned her face and gestured for him to go.
"I am sorry," he said, this time with
compassion, at which she shook her head and kept her back
to him until the spasm had passed.
He took her arms, trying to comfort her, and felt guilty
because of Mim; but he felt guilty because of Djan too, and
feared that she would not forgive him for witnessing this.
She had been here longer, a good deal longer than he. He
well knew the nightmare, waking in the night, finding that
reality had turned to dreams and the dream itself was as
real as the stranger beside him, looking into a face that
was not human, perceiving ugliness where a moment before
had been beauty.
"I am tired," she said, leaning against him.
Her hair smelled of things exotic on this world, lab-born,
like Djan, perfumes like home, from a thousand
star-scattered worlds the nemet had never dreamed of.
"Kurt, I work, I study, I try. I am tired to
death."
"I would help you," he said, "if you
would let me."
"You have loyalties elsewhere," she said
finally. "I wish I'd never sent you to Elas, to
learn to be nemet, to belong to them. You want things for
your cause, he wants things for his. I know all that, and
occasionally I want .to forget it. It's a human
weakness. Am I not allowed just one? You came here asking
favors. I knew you would, sooner or later."
"I would never ask you deceitfully, to do you harm.
I owe you, as I owe Elas."
She pushed back from him. "And I hate you most when
you do that. Your concern is touching, but I don't
trust it."
"Nephane is killing you."
"I can manage."
"Probably you can," he said. "But I would
help you."
"Ah, as Shan helps me. But you don't like it
when it's the opposition, do you? Blast you, I gave you
leave to marry and you've done it, you've made your
choice, however tempting it was to-"
She did not finish. He suddenly found reason for
uneasiness in that omission. Djan was not one to let words
fly carelessly.
"When I came here," he said, "whenever I
come, I try to leave my relations with Elas at the door.
You've never tried to make me go against them, and I do
not use you, Djan."
"Your little Mim," said Djan. "What is
she like? Typically nemet?"
"Not typical."
"Elas is using you," she said. "Whether
you know it or not, that is so. I could still stop that. I
could simply have you given quarters here in the Afen. No
arrest decree has Upei review. That power of a
methi is absolute."
She actually considered it. He went cold inside^
realizing that she could and would do it, and knew suddenly
that she meant this for petty revenge, taking his peace of
mind in retaliation for her humiliation of a moment ago.
Pride was important to her.
"Do you want me to ask you not to do that?" he
asked.
"No," she said. "If I decide to do that,
I will do it, and if I do not, I will not. What you ask has
nothing to do with it But I would advise you and Elas to
remain quiet."
XII
The fog did not go out. It still held the city the next
morning, the faint sound of warning bells drifting up from
the harbor. Kurt opened his eyes on the grayness outside
the window, then looked toward the foot of the bed where
Mim sat combing her long hair, black and silken and falling
to her waist when unbound. She looked back at him and
smiled, her alien and wonderfully lovely eyes soft with
warmth.
"Good morning, my lord."
"Good morning," he murmured.
"The mist is still with us," she said.
"Hear the harbor bells?"
"How long can this last?"
"Sometimes many days when the seasons are turning,
especially in the spring." She flicked several strands
of hair apart and began with quick fingers to plait them
into a thin braid. Then she would sweep most of her hair up
to the crown of her head, fasten it with pins and combs, an
intricate and fascinating ritual daily performed and
nightly undone. He liked watching her. In a matter of
moments she began the next braid.
"We say," Mim commented, "that the mist
is the cloak of the imiine, the sky-sprite Nue,
when she comes to visit earth and walk among men. She
searches for her beloved, lost long ago in the days when
god-kings ruled. He was a mortal man who offended one of
the god-kings, a son of Yr whose name was Knyha; poor man,
he was slain by Knyha, and his body scattered over all the
shore of Nephane so that Nue would not know what had become
of him. She still searches and walks the land and the sea
and haunts the rivers, especially in the
springtime."
"Do you truly think that?" Kurt asked, not
sarcastically- one could not be that with Mim. He was
prepared to mark it down to be remembered with all his
heart if she wished him to.
Mim smiled. "I do not, not truly. But it is a
beautiful story, is it not, my lord? There are truths and
there are truths, my lord Kta would say, and there is Truth
itself, the yhia. Since mortals cannot always
reason all the way to Truth, we find little truths that are
right enough on our own level. But you are very wise about
things. I think you really might know what makes the mist
come. Is it a cloud that sits down upon the sea, or is it
born in some other way?"
"I think," said Kurt, "that I like Nue
best. It sounds better than water vapor."
"You think I am silly and you cannot make me
understand."
"Would it make you wiser if you knew where fog
comes from?"
"I wish that I could talk to you about all the
things that matter to you."
He frowned, realizing that she was in earnest. "You
matter. This place, this world matters to me,
Mim."
"I know so very little."
"What do you want to know?"
"Everything."
"Well, you owe me breakfast first."
Mim flashed a smile, put in the last combs and finished
her hair with a pat. She slipped on the chatem,
the overdress with the four-paneled split skirt which
fitted over the gossamer drapery of the pelan, the
underdress. The chatem high-collared and
long-sleeved, tight and restraining in the bodice, rose and
beige brocade, over a rose pelan. There were many
buttons up either wrist and up the bodice to the collar.
She patiently began the series of buttons.
"I will have tea ready by the time you can be
downstairs," she said. "I think Aimu will have
been-"
There was a deep hollow boom over the city, and Kurt
glanced toward the window with an involuntary oath. It was
the sighing note of a distant gong.
"Ai," said Mim.
"Intaem-lnta. That is the great temple. It is
the beginning of Cadmisan."
The gong moaned forth again through the fog-stilled air,
measured, four times more. Then it was done, the last
echoes dying.
"It is the fourth of Nermotai," said Mim,
"the first of the Sufak holy days. The temple will
sound the Inta every morning and every evening for
the next seven days, and the Sufaki
will make prayers and invoke the Intain, the
spirits of their gods."
"What is done there?" Kurt asked.
"It is the old religion which was here before the
Families. I am not really sure what is done, and I do not
care to know. I have heard that they even invoke the names
of god-kings in Phan's own temple, but we do not go
there, ever. There were old gods in Chteftikan, old and
evil gods from the First Days, and once a year the Sufaki
call their names and pay them honor, to appease their anger
at losing this land to Phan. These are beings we Indras do
not name."
"Bel said," Kurt recalled, "that there
could be trouble during the holy days."
Mim frowned. "Kurt, I would that you take special
care for your safety, and do not come and go at night
during this time."
It hit hard. Mim surely spoke without reference to the
Methi, at least without bitterness; if Mim accused, he knew
well that Mim would say so plainly. "I do not plan to
come and go at night," he said. "Last
night-"
"It is always dangerous," she said with
perfect dignity, before he could finish, "to walk
abroad at night during Cadmisan. The Sufak gods are
earth-spirits, Yr-bred and monstrous. There is wild
behavior and much drunkenness."
"I will take your advice," he said.
She came and touched her fingers to his lips and to his
brow, but she took her hand from him when he reached for
it, smiling. It was a game they played.
"I must be downstairs attending my duties,"
she said. "Dear my husband, you will make me a
reputation for a licentious woman in the household if you
keep making us late for breakfast. No! Dear my lord, I
shall see you downstairs at morning tea."
"Where do you think you are going?"
Mim paused in the dimly lit entry hall, her hands for a
moment suspending the veil over her head as she turned.
Then she settled it carefully over her hair and tossed the
end over her shoulder.
"To market, my husband."
"Alone?"
She smiled and shrugged. "Unless you wish to fast
this evening. I am buying a few things for dinner. Look
you, the fog has cleared, the sun is bright, and those men
who were hanging about across the street have been gone
since yesterday."
"You are not going alone."
"Kurt, Kurt, for Bel's doom-saying? Dear light
of heaven, there are children playing outside, do you not
hear? And should I fear to walk my own street in bright
afternoon? After dark is one thing, but I think you take
our warnings much too seriously."
"I have my reasons, Mim."
She looked up at him in most labored patience. "And
shall we starve? Or will you and my lord Kta march me to
market with drawn weapons?"
"No, but I will walk you there and back
again." He opened the door for her, and Mim went out
and waited for him, her basket on her arm, most obviously
embarrassed.
Kurt nervously scanned the street, the recesses where at
nights t'Tefur's men were wont to linger. They were
indeed gone. Indras children played at tag. There was no
threat, no presence of the Methi's guards either, but
Djan never did move obviously. He had had no difficulty
returning to Elas late, probably, he thought with relief,
she had taken measures.
"Are you sure," he asked Mim, "that the
market will be open on a holiday?"
She looked up at him curiously as they started off
together. "Of course, and busy. I put off going, you
see, these several days with the fog and the trouble on the
streets, and I am sorry to cause you this trouble, Kurt,
but we really are running out of things and there could be
the fog again tomorrow, so it is really better to go today.
I do have some sense, after all."
"You know I could quite easily walk down there and
buy what you need for supper, and you would not need to go
at all."
"Ai, but Cadmisan is such a grand time in
the market, with all the country people coming in and the
artists and the musicians. Besides," she added, when
his face remained unhappy, "dear husband, you would
not know what you were buying or what to pay. I do not
think you have ever handled our coin. And the other women
would laugh at me and wonder what kind of wife I am to make
my husband do my work, or else they would think I am such a
loose woman that my bus-ban would not trust me out of the
house."
"They can mind their own business," he said,
disregarding
her attempt at levity; and her small face took on a
determined look.
"If you go alone," she said, "the fact is
that folk will guess Elas is afraid, and this will lend
courage to the enemies of Elas."
He understood her reasoning, though it comforted him not
at all. He watched carefully as their downhill walk began
to take them out of the small section of aristocratic
houses surrounding the Afen and the temple complex. But
here in the Sufaki section of town, people were going about
business as usual. There were some men in the Robes of
Color, but they walked together in casual fashion and gave
them not a passing glance.
"You see," said Mim, "I would have been
quite safe."
"I wish I was that confident."
"Look you, Kurt, I know these people. There is lady
Yafes, and that little boy is Edu t'Rachik u Gyon-the
Rachik house is very large. They have so many children it
is a joke in Nephane. The old man on the curb is
t'Pamchen. He fancies himself a scholar. He says he is
reviving the old Sufak writing and that he can read the
ancient stones. His brother is a priest, but he does not
approve of the old man. There is no harm in these people.
They are my neighbors. You let t'Tefur's little
band of pirates trouble you too much. T'Tefur would be
delighted to know he upset you. That is the only victory he
dares seek as long as you give him no opportunity to
challenge you."
"I suppose," Kurt said, unconvinced.
The street approached the lower town by a series of low
steps down a winding course to the defense wall and the
gate. Thereafter the road went among the poorer houses, the
markets, the harborside. Several ships were in port, two
broad-beamed merchant vessels and three sleek galleys,
warships with oars run in or stripped from their locks,
yards without sails, the sounds of carpentry coming loudly
from their decks, one showing bright new wood on her
hull.
Ships were being prepared against the eventuality of
war. Tavi, Kta's ship, had been there; she had
had her refitting and had been withdrawn to the outer
harbor, a little bay on the other side of Haichema-tleke.
That reminder of international unease, the steady hammering
and sawing, underlay all the gaiety of the crowds that
thronged the market.
"That is a ship of Ilev, is it not?" Kurt
asked, pointing to the merchantman nearest, for he saw what
appeared to be the white bird that was emblematic of that
house as the figurehead.
"Yes," said Mim. "But the one beside it I
do not recognize. Some houses exist only in the Isles. Lord
Kta knows them all, even the houses of Indresul's many
colonies. A captain must know these things. But of course
they do not come to Nephane. This one must be a trader that
rarely comes, perhaps from the north, near the Yvorst Ome,
where the seas are ice."
The crowd was elbow-to-elbow among the booths. They lost
sight of the harbor, and nearly of each other. Kurt seized
Mim's arm, which she protested with a shocked look:
even husband and wife did not touch publicly.
"Stay with me," he said, but he let her go.
"Do not leave my sight."
Mim walked the maze of aisles a little in front of him,
occasionally pausing to admire some gimcrack display of the
tinsmiths, intrigued by the little fish of jointed scales
that wiggled when the wind hit their fins.
"We did not come for this," Kurt said
irritably. "Come, what would you do with such a
thing?"
Mim sighed, a little piqued, and led him to that quarter
of the market where the farmers were, countrymen with
produce and cheeses and birds to sell, fishermen with the
take from their nets, butchers with their booths decorated
with whole carcasses hanging from hooks.
Mim deplored the poor quality of the fish that day,
disappointed in her plans, but selected from a vegetable
seller some curious yellow corkscrews called lat,
and some speckled orange ones called gillybai. She
knew the vegetable seller's wife, who congratulated her
on her recent marriage, marveled embarrassingly over
Kurt-she seemed to shudder slightly, but showed brave
politeness-then became involved in a long story about some
mutual acquaintance's daughter's child.
It was woman's talk. Kurt stood to one side,
forgotten, and then, sure that Mim was safe among people
she knew and not willing to seem utterly the tyrant,
withdrew a little. He looked at some of the other tables in
the next booth, somewhat interested in the alien variety of
the fish and the produce, some of which, he reflected with
unease, he had undoubtedly eaten without knowing its
uncooked appearance. Much of the seafood was not in the
least appealing to Terran senses.
From the harbor there came the steady sound of
hammering, reechoing off the walls in insane counterpoint
to the noise of the many colored crowds.
Someone jostled him. He looked up into the unsmiling
face of a Sufaki in Robes of Color. The man said nothing.
Kurt made a slight bow of apology, unanswered, and turned
about to go after Mim.
Another man blocked his way. Kurt tried t6 step around
him. The Sufaki moved in front of him with sullen threat in
his narrow eyes. Another appeared to his left, crowding him
back to the right.
He moved suddenly, trying to slip past them. They cut
him off from Mim. He could not see her any longer. The
noisy crowds surged between. He dared not start something
with Mim near, where she could be hurt.
They forced him continually in one direction, toward a
gap between the booths where they jammed up against a
warehouse. He saw the alley and broke for it.
Others met him at the turning ahead, pursuit hot behind.
He had expected it and hit the opposition without
hesitation. He avoided a knife and kicked its owner, who
screamed in agony, struck another in the face and a third
in the groin before those behind overtook him.
A blow landed between his shoulders and against his
head, half blinding him. He fell under a weight of
struggling bodies, pinned while more than one of them
wrenched his arms back and tied his wrists.
He had broken one man's arm. He saw that with
satisfaction as they hauled him to his feet and tried to
aid their own injured.
Then they seized him by either arm and hurried
him deeper into the alley.
The backways of Nephane were a maze of alien geometry,
odd-shaped buildings jammed incredibly into the S-curve of
the main street, fronting outward in decent order while
their rear portions formed a labyrinthine tangle of narrow
alleyways and contiguous walls. Kurt quickly lost track of
the way they had come.
They reached the back door of a warehouse, thrust Kurt
inside and -entered the dark with him, closing the door so
that all the light was from the little door aperture.
Kurt scrambled to escape into the shadows, sure now that
he would be found some time later with his throat cut and
no proof who his murderers had been.
They seized him before he could run more than a few
steps, hurled him to the dusty floor and slipped a cord
about his ankle. Finally, despite his kicking and heaving,
they succeeded in lashing both his ankles together. Then
they forced his jaws apart and thrust a choking wad of
cloth into his mouth, tying it in place with a violence
that cut his face.
"Get a light," one said.
The door opened before that was done. Their comrades had
joined them, bringing the man with the broken arm. When the
light was lit they attended to the setting of the arm, with
screams they tried to muffle.
Kurt wriggled over against some bales of canvas, nerves
raw to every outcry from the injured man. They would repay
him for that, he was sure, before they disposed of him.
It was the human thing to do. In this respect he hoped
they were different.
Hours passed. The injured man slept, after a drink they
had given him. Kurt occupied himself with trying to work
the knots loose. They were not fully within his reach. He
tried instead to stretch the cords. His fingers swelled and
passed the point of pain. The ache spread up his arms. His
feet were numb. Breathing was an effort.
At least they did not touch him. They played at
bho, a game of lots, and sat in the light, an
unreal tableau suspended in the growing blackness. The
light picked out only the edges of bales and crates.
From the distance of the hill came the deep tones of the
Intaem-Inta. The gamers stopped, reverent of it,
continued.
Outside Kurt heard the faint scuff of sandalled feet on
stone. His hopes rose. He thought of Kta, searching for
him.
Instead there came a bold rap on the door. The men
admitted the newcomers, one in Indras dress, the others in
Robes of Color; they wore daggers in their belts.
One was a man who had watched outside Elas.
"We will see to him now," the Indras-dressed
one said, a small man with eyes so narrow he could only be
Sufaki. "Put him on his feet."
Two men hauled Kurt up, cut the cords that bound his
ankles. He could not stand without them holding him. They
shook him and struck him to make him try, but when it was
evident that he truly could not stand, they took him each
by an arm and pulled him along with them in great haste,
out
into the mist and the dark, along the confusing turns of
the alleys.
They tended constantly downhill, and Kurt was
increasingly sure of their destination: the bay's dark
waters would conceal his body with no evidence to accuse
the Sufaki of his murder, no one to swear how he had
vanished.
No one but Mim, who might well be able to identify
them.
That was the thought which most tormented him. Elas
should have been turning Nephane upside down by now, if
only Mim had reached them. But there was no indication of a
search.
They turned a corner, cutting off the light from the
lantern-carrier in front of them, which moved like a
witchlight in the mist. The other two men were half
carrying him. Though he had feeling in his feet again, he
made it no easier for them.
They made haste to overtake the man with the lantern,
and cursed him for his haste. At the same time they jerked
cruelly on Kurt's arms, trying to force him to
carry his own weight.
And suddenly he shouldered left, where steps led down
into a doorway, toppling one of his guards with a startled
cry. With the other one he pivoted, unable to free himself,
held by the front of his robe and one arm.
Kurt jerked. Cloth tore. He hurled all his weight into a
kick at the lantern-bearer.
The man sprawled, oil spilling, live flame springing up.
The burned man screamed, snatching at his clothing, trying
to strip it off. His friend's grip loosened, knife
flashing in the glare. He rammed it for Kurt's
belly.
Kurt spun, received the edge across his ribs instead,
tore free, kneed the man as the burning man's flames
reached something else flammable in the debris of the
alley.
He was free. He pivoted and ran, in the mist and the
dark that now was scented with the stench of burned flesh
and fiber.
It was several turns of the alleys later when he first
dared stop, and leaned against the wall close to fainting
for want of air, for the gag obstructed his breathing.
At last, as quietly as possible, he knelt against the
back steps of a warehouse, contorted his body so that he
could use his fingers to search the debris in the corner.
There was broken pottery in the heap. He found a shard
keen-edged enough, leaned against the step with his heart
pounding from exertion and his ears straining to hear
despite the blood that roared in his head.
It took a long time to make any cut in the tight cords.
At last a strand parted, and another, and he was able to
unwind the rest. With deadened hands he rubbed the binding
from the gag and spit the choking cloth from his mouth,
able to breathe a welcome gasp of the chill foggy air.
Now he could move, and hi the concealment of the night
and the fog he had a chance. His way lay uphill-he had no
choice in that. The gate would be the logical place for his
enemies to lay their ambush. It was the only way through
the defense wall that ringed the upper town.
When he reached the wall, he was greatly relieved. It
was not difficult to find a place where illicit debris had
piled up against the ancient fortification. Sheds and
buildings proliferated here, crowding into the narrow gap
between the permitted buildings and the former defense of
the high town. He scrambled by the roofs of three of them
up to the crest and found the situation unhappily tidier on
the other side. He walked the wall, dreading the jump. He
found a place where the erosion of centuries had lessened
the height perhaps five feet, and he lowered himself over
the edge and dropped a dizzying distance to the ground on
the high town side.
The jolt did not knock him entirely unconscious, but it
dazed him and left him scarcely able to crawl the little
distance into the shadows. It was a while before he had
recovered sufficiently to try to walk again, at times
losing clear realization of how he had reached a particular
place.
He reached the main street. It was deserted. Kurt took
to it only as often as he must, finally broke into a run as
he saw the door of Osanef. He darted into the friendly
shadow of its porch.
No one answered. Light came through the fog indistinctly
on the upper hill, a suffused glow from the temple or the
Afen. He remembered the festival, and decided even
Indras-influenced Osanef might be at the temple.
He took to the street running now, two blocks from Elas
and trusting to speed, not daring even the other Indras
houses. They had no love of humans; Kta had warned him
so.
He was hi the final sprint for Elas' door before he
realized Elas might be watched, would logically be watched
unless the Methi's guards were about. It was too late
to stop. He
reached its triangular arch and pounded furiously on the
door, not even daring to look over his shoulder.
"Who is there?" Hef's voice asked
faintly.
"Kurt. Let me in. Let me in, Hef."
.The bolt shot back, the door opened, and Kurt slipped
inside and leaned against the closed door, gasping for
breath in the sudden warmth and light of Elas.
"Mini," said Hef. "Lord Kurt, what has
happened? Where is Mim?"
"Not-not here?"
"No. We thought at least-whatever had happened-you
were together."
Kurt caught his breath with a choking swallow of air and
pushed himself square on his feet. "Call
Kta."
"He is out with Ian t'Ilev and Val t'Ran,
searching for you both. Ai, my lord, what can we
do? I will call Nym-" . "Tell
Nym-tell Nym I have gone to get the Methi's help. Give
me a weapon, anything-"
!]I cannot, my lord, I cannot. My orders
forbid-"
Kurt swore and jerked the door open again, ran for the
street and the Afen gate.
When he reached the Afen wall, the great gates were
closed and the wall-street that led to the temple compound
was crowded with Sufaki, drunken, most of them. Kurt leaned
on the bars and shouted for the guards to hear him and open
them, but his voice was lost in the noise of the crowds,
with all Sufak Nephane gathered into that square down the
street and spilling over into the wall-street. Some,
drunker than the rest, began also to shake at the bars of
the gates to try to raise the guards. If there were any on
duty to hear, they ignored the uproar.
Kurt caught his breath, exhausted, far from help of Kta
or Djan. Then he remembered the other gate, the sally port
in the far end of the wall where it touched Haichema-tleke
and opened onto the temple square. That would be the one
for them to guard, that nearest the temple. They might hear
him there, and open.
He raced along the wall, jostling Sufaki in his
exhausted weaving and stumbling. A few drunk ones laughed
and caught at his clothing. Others cursed him, trying to
bar his way.
A cry began to go up, resentment for his presence.
Jafikn-wearing Sufaki barred his path, turned him.
Someone struck him from the side, nearly throwing him to
the pavement.
He ran, but they would not let him escape the square,
blocking his way out, t'Tefur's men, armed with
blades.
Authority, he thought, sensible authority would not let
this happen. He broke to one side, racing for the temple
steps, sending shrieking women and cursing men crowding out
of his way.
Hands reached to stop him. He tore past them almost all
the way to the very top of the long temple steps before
enough of them seized him to hold him.
"Bias* doing!" a hysterical voice shrieked
from below. "Kill the human!"
Kurt struggled around to see who had shouted, looked
down on a sea of alien faces in the torchlight and the haze
of thin mist. "Where is Shan t'Tefur?" Kurt
screamed back at them. "Where has he taken my
wife?"
The babble of voices almost hushed for a moment: the
nemet held their women in great esteem. Kurt drew a great
gasp of air and shouted across the gathering. "Shan
t'Tefur! If you are here, come out and face me. Where
is my wife? What have you done with her?"
There was a moment of shocked silence and then a rising
murmur like thunder as an aged priest came from the upper
steps through the men gathered there. He cleared the way
with the emblem of his office, a vine-wreathed staff. The
staff extended till it was almost touching Kurt, and the
priest spit some unintelligible words at him.
There was utter silence now, drunken laughter coming
distantly from the wall-street. In this gathering no one so
much as stirred. Even Kurt was struck to silence. The staff
extended a degree further and with unreasoning loathing he
shrank from it, not wanting to be touched by this mouthing
priest with his drunken gods of earth. They held him, and
the rough wood of the staff's tip trembled against his
cheek.
"Blasphemer," said the priest, "sent by
Elas to profane the rites. Liar.Cursed from the earth you
will be, by the old gods, the ancient gods, the life-giving
sons of Thael. Son of Yr to Phan united,
Aem-descended, to the gods of ancient Chteftik,
cursed!"
"A curse on the lot of you," Kurt shouted in
his face, "if you have any part in t'Tefur's
plot! My wife Mim never harmed any of you, never harmed
anyone. Where is she? You people-you! who were in the
market today-who walked away-are you all in this? What did
they do with her? Where did they take her? Is she alive? By
your own gods you can tell me that at least. Is she
alive?"
."No one knows anything of the woman, human,"
said the aged priest. "And you were ill-advised to
come here with your drunken ravings. Who would harm Mim
h'Elas, a daughter of Sufak herself? You come here and
profane the mysteries, taught no reverence in Elas, it is
clear. Cursed be you, human, and if you do not leave now,
we will wash the pollution of your feet from these stones
with your blood. Let him go, let go the human, and give him
the chance to leave."
They released him, and Kurt swayed on the steps above
the crowd, scanning the faces for one that was familiar. Of
Osanef, of any friend, there was no sign. He looked back at
the priest.
"She is lost in the city, hurt or dead," Kurt
pleaded. "You are a religious man. Do
something!"
For a moment pity or conscience almost touched the stern
old face. The cracked lips quavered on some answer. There
was a hush over the crowd.
"It is Indras' doing!" a male voice
shouted. "Elas is looking for some offense against the
Sufaki, and now they try to create one! The human is
Elas' creature!"
Kurt whirled about, saw a familiar face for the first
time.
"He is one of them!" Kurt shouted. "That
is one of the men who was in the market when my wife was
taken. They tried to kill me and they have my
wife-"
"Liar," shouted another man. "Ver has
been at the temple since the ringing of the Into.
I saw him myself. The human is trying to accuse an innocent
man."
"Kill him!" someone else shouted, and others
throughout the crowd took up the cry, surging forward.
Young men, wearing the Robes of Color. T'Tefur's
men.
"No," cried the old priest, pounding his staff
for attention. "No, take him out of here, take him far
from the temple precincts."
Kurt backed away as men swarmed about him, nearly
crushed in the press, jerked bodily off his feet, limbs
strained as they passed him off the steps and down into the
crowd.
He fought, gasping for breath and trying to free hands
or even a foot to defend himself as he was borne across the
courtyard toward the wall-street.
And the gate was open, and five men of the Methi's
guard were there, dimly outlined in the mist and the
flaring torches, but about them was the flash of metal, and
bronze helmets glittered under the murky firelight, ominous
and warlike.
"Give him to us," said their leader.
"Traitors," cried one of the young men.
"Give him to us," the officer repeated. It was
t'Senife.
In anger they flung Kurt at the guardsman, threw him
sprawling on the stones. The guards in their haste were no
more gentle, snatching him up again, half dragging him
through the sally port into the Afen grounds.
Hysterical outcries came from the crowd as they closed
the door, barring the multitude outside. Something heavy
struck the door, a barrage of missiles like the patter of
hail for a moment. The shrieking rose and died away.
The Methi's guard gathered him up, hauling his
bruised arms, pulling him along with them until they were
sure that he would walk as rapidly as they.
They took him by the back stairs and up.
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"Sit down," Djan snapped.
Kurt let himself into the nearest chair, although Djan
continued to stand. She looked over his head toward the
guards who waited.
"Are things under control?"
"They would not enter the Afen grounds."
"Wake the day guard. Double watch on every post,
especially the sally port. T'Lised, bring h'Elas
here."
Kurt glanced up. "Mim-"
"Yes, Mim." Djan dismissed the guard with a
wave of her hand and swept her silk and brocade skirts
aside to take a chair. No flicker of sympathy touched her
face as Kurt lifted a shaking hand to wipe his face and
tried to collect his shattered nerves.
"Is she all right?" he asked.
"She will mend. Nym reported you missing when you
failed to return; my men found her wandering the dock. I
couldn't get sense out of her-she kept demanding to go
to Bias-until I finally got through to her the fact that
you were missing too. Then Kta came here saying you'd
come back to Elas and then left again to find me. He was
able to pass the gate in company with some of my men or I
doubt he'd have made it through, given the mood of the
people out there. So I sent Kta home again under guard and
told him to wait there, and I hope he did. After the riot
you created in the temple square, finding you was
simple."
Kurt bowed his head, glad enough to know Mim was safe,
too tired to argue.
"Do you even remotely realize what trouble you
caused? My men are in danger of being killed out there
because of you."
"I'm sorry."
"What happened to you?"
"TTefur's men hauled me out of the market, held
me in some warehouse until dark and took me out-I suppose
to dispose of me in the harbor. I escaped. I . . .may have
killed one or two of them." Djan swore under her
breath. "What else?" "Those who were taking
me from the temple-if your men recognized them;
one was in the market. T'Tefur's men. One was
a man I told you used to watch Elas. . . ."
"Shall I call Shan here? If you repeat those things
to his face-"
"I'll kill him."
"You will do nothing of the sort," Djan
shouted, suddenly at the end of her patience. "You
caused me trouble enough, you and your precious little
native wife. I know well enough your stubbornness, but I
promise you this: if you cause me any more trouble,
I'll hold you and all Elas directly
responsible."
"What am I supposed to do, wait for the next time?
Is my wife going to have to go into hiding for fear of them
and I not be able to do anything or lay a hand on the men I
know are responsible?"
"You chose to live here, you begged me for the
privilege, and you chose all the problems of living in a
nemet house arid having a nemet wife. Now enjoy it."
"I'm asking you to do something."
"And I'm telling you I've had enough
problems from you. You're becoming a liability to
me."
The door opened cautiously and Mim entered the room,
stood transfixed as Kurt rose to his feet. Her face
dissolved in tears and for a moment she did not move. Then
she cast herself to her knees and fell upon her face before
Djan.
Kurt went to her and drew her up into his arms,
smoothing her disordered hair, and she turned her face
against him and wept. Her dress was torn open, buttons
ripped to the waist, the pelan soiled with mud
from the streets and with blood.
"You'd better do something," Kurt said,
looking across at Djan. "Because if I meet any of them
after this I'll kill them."
"If you doubt I'll do what I said, you're
mistaken."
"What kind of place is this when this can happen to
her? What do I owe your law when this can happen and they
can get away with it?"
"H'Elas," said Djan, ignoring him,
"have you remembered who did this to you?"
"Please," said Mim, "do not shame my
husband."
"Your husband has eyes to see what happened to you.
He is threatening to take matters into his own hands, which
will be unfortunate for El as if he does, and for him too.
So you had better find it convenient to remember,
h'Elas."
"Methi, I ...only remember what I told you. They
kept me wrapped in ... in someone's cloak, I think, and
I could hardly breathe. I saw no faces . . . and I remember
... I remember being moved, and I tried to escape, but they
... hit me. They-"
"Let be," Kurt said, holding her. "Let
be, Djan."
"How long have you lived in Nephane,
h'Elas?"
"F-four years, Methi."
"And never heard those voices, never saw a face you
knew, even at the beginning?"
"No, Methi. Perhaps . . . perhaps they were from
the country."
"Where were you held?"
"I do not know, Methi. I cannot remember clearly.
It was dark ... a building, dark . . . and I could not see.
I do not know."
"They were t'Tefur's men," said Kurt.
"Let her alone."
"There are more radical men than Shan t'Tefur,
those who aim at creating complete havoc here, and you just
gave them all the ammunition they need, killing two of
them, defiling the temple."
"Let them come out into the open and accuse me. I
don't think they're the kind. Or if they try me
again-"
"I've warned you, Kurt, in as plain words as I
can use. Do nothing."
"I'll do what's necessary to protect my
wife."
"Don't try me. Don't think your life or
hers means more to me than this city."
"Next time," said Kurt, holding Mim tightly to
his side, "I'm going to be armed. If you don't
intend to afford me the protection of the law, then
I'll take care of the matter, public or private, fair
or foul."
"My lord," pleaded Mim, "please, please,
do not quarrel with her."
"You'd better listen to her," said Djan.
."Women have survived the like for thousands of years.
She will. Honor's cold comfort for being dead, as the
practicalities of the Tamur surely taught-"
"She understands!" Kurt cried, hugging Mim to
him, and Djan silenced herself quickly. Mim trembled. Her
hands were cold in his.
"You have leave to go, h'Elas," said
Djan.
"I'll see her home," said Kurt.
"You're going nowhere tonight,"
Djan said, and shouted for the guard, who appeared almost
instantly, expecting orders.
"I'll take her home," Kurt repeated,
"and I'll come back if you insist on it."
"No," said Djan. "I made a mistake ever
putting you in Bias, and I warned you. As of this moment
you're staying in the Afen, and it's going to take
more than Kta's persuasions to change my mind on that.
You've created a division in this city that words
won't settle, and my patience is over, Kurt.
T'Udein, see h'Elas home."
"You'll have to use more than an order to keep
me here," said Kurt.
Mim put her hand on his arm and looked up at him.
"Please, no, no, I will go home. I am so very tired. I
hurt, my lord. Please let me go home, and do not quarrel
with the Methi for my sake. She is right: it is not safe
for you or for Elas. It will never be safe for you. I do
not want you to have any grief for my sake."
Kurt bent and touched his lips to her brow.
"I'm coming home tonight, Mim. She only thinks
otherwise. Go with t'Udein, then, and tell your father
to keep that door locked."
"Yes, my lord Kurt," she said softly, her
hands slipping
from his. "Do not be concerned for me. Do not be
concerned."
She bowed once to the Methi, but Djan snapped her
fingers when she would have made the full obeisance,
dismissing her. Kurt waited until the door was securely
closed, then fixed his eyes on Djan, trembling so with rage
he did not trust himself.
"If you ever use words like that to my wife
again-"
"She has more sense than you do. She would
not have a war fought over her offended pride."
"You held her without so much as a word to
Elas-"
"I sent word back when Kta came, and if you had
stayed where you belonged, the matter would have been
quietly and efficiently settled. Now I have to think of
other matters besides your convenience and your
feelings."
"Saving t'Tefur, you mean."
"Saving this city from the bloodbath you nearly
started tonight. My men had rocks thrown at them-at a
Methi's guards! If they'll do that, they'll cut
throats next."
"Ask your guards who those men were. Or are you
afraid they'll tell you?"
"There are a lot of charges flying in the wind
tonight, none of them substantiated."
"I'll substantiate them, before the
Upei."
"Oh, no, you won't. You bring up that charge in
the Upei and there are things about many people-your little
ex-slave wife included-that are going to be brought up too,
dragged through public hearing under oath. When you start
invoking the law, friend, the law keeps moving until the
whole truth is out, and a case like that right now would
tear Nephane apart. I won't stand for it. Your wife
would suffer most of all, and I think she has come to
understand that very clearly."
"You threatened her with that?"
"I explained things to her. I did not threaten.
Those fellows won't admit to your charges, no,
they'll have counterclaims that won't be pretty to
hear. Mim's honor and Mini's history will be in
question, and the fact that she went from the Tamurlin to a
human marriage won't be to her credit or that of Elas.
And believe me, I'd throw her or you to the Sufaki if
it had to be done, so don't push me any
further."
"T'Tefur's city isn't worth
saving."
"Where do you think you're going?"
He had started for the door. He stopped and faced her.
"I'm going to Elas, to my wife. When I'm sure
she's all right, I'll come back and we can settle
matters. But unless you want more people hurt or killed,
you'd better give me an escort to get there."
She stared at him. He had never seen her angrier, but
perhaps she could read on his face what he felt at the
moment. Her expression grew calmer, guarded.
"Until morning," she said. "Make your
peace there. My men will get you safely to Elas, but I am
not sending them through the streets with you twice in one
night, dragging you past the Sufaki like a lure to
violence. So stay there till morning. And if you cause me
more trouble tonight, Kurt, so help me you'll regret
it."
Kurt pushed open the heavy door of Elas, taking it out
of Hef's hands, closed it quickly on the Methi's
guards, then turned to Hef.
"Mim," said Kurt. "She is here, she is
safe?"
Hef bowed. "Yes, my lord, not a few moments ago she
came in, also with the Methi's guard. I beg my lord,
what-"
Kurt ignored his questions, hurried past him to the
rhmei and found it empty, left it and raced
upstairs to their room.
There was no light there but the phusa. That
light drew his eyes as he opened the door, and before it
knelt Mim. He let his breath go in a long sigh of relief,
slid to his knees and took her by the shoulders.
Her head fell back against him, her lips parted in
shock, her face filmed with perspiration. Then he saw her
hands at her heart and the dark wet stain on them.
"No," he cried, a shriek, and caught her as
she slid aside, her hands slipping from the hilt of the
dragon blade that was deep in her breast. She was not dead;
the outrage of the metal in her flesh still moved with her
shallow breathing, and he could not nerve himself to touch
it. He pressed his lips to her cheek and heard the gentle
intake of her breath. Her brows knit in pain and relaxed.
Her eyes held a curious, childlike wonder.
"El, my lord," he heard her
breathe.
And the breath passed softly from her lips and the light
from her eyes. Mim was a weight, suddenly heavy, and he
gave a strangled sob and held her against him, folded
tightly into his arms.
Quick footsteps pounded up the stairs, and he knew it
was Kta. The nemet stopped in the doorway, and Kurt turned
his tear-stained face toward him.
"Ai, light of heaven," Kta
whispered.
Kurt let Mim very gently to the floor, closed her eyes
and carefully drew forth the blade. He knew it then for the
one he had once stolen and Mim had taken back. He held the
thing in his hand like a living enemy, his whole arm
trembling.
"Kurt!" Kta exclaimed, rushing to him.
"Kurt, no! Give it to me. Give it to me."
Kurt staggered to his feet with the blade still in his
hand, and Kta's hazy form wavered before him, hand
outstretched in pleading. His eyes cleared. He looked down
at Mim.
"Kurt, please, I beg you."
Kurt clenched his fingers once more on the hilt. "I
have business," he said, "at the Afen."
"Then you must kill me to pass," said Kta,
"because you will kill Elas if you attack the Methi,
and I will not let you
go."
Kta's family. Kurt saw the love and the fear in the
nemet's eyes and could not blame him. Kta would try to
stop him; he believed it. He looked down at the blade,
deprived of revenge, lacking the courage or the will or
whatever impulse Mim had had to drive it to her heart.
"Kurt." Kta took his hand and pried the blade
from his fingers. Nym was in the shadows behind him-Nym and
Aimu and Hef, Hef weeping, unobtrusive even in his grief.
Things were suspended in unreality.
"Come," Kta was saying gently, "come
away."
"Don't touch her."
"We will take her down to the rhmei,"
said Kta. "Come, my friend, come."
Kurt shook his head, recovering himself a little.
"I will carry her," he said. "She is my
wife, Kta."
Kta let him go then, and Kurt knelt down and gathered up
Mim's yielding form into his arms. She did not feel
right any longer. It was not like Mim, loose, like a broken
doll.
Silently the family gathered in the rhmei: Ptas
and Nym, Aimu and Kta and Hef, and Kurt laid down his
burden at Ptas' feet. Ptas wept for her, and folded
Mim's hands upon her breast. There was nothing heard in
the rhmei but the sound of weeping, of the women
and of Hef. Kurt could not shed more tears. When he looked
into the face of Nym he met a grim and terrible anger.
"Who brought her to this?" asked Nym, so that
Kurt trembled under the weight of his own guilt.
"I could not protect her," Kurt said. "I
could not help
her." He looked down at her, drew a shaken breath.
"The Methi drove her to this."
Nym looked at him sorrowfully, then turned and walked to
the light of the hearthflre. For a moment the lord of Elas
stood with head bowed and then looked up, lifted his arms
before the holy fire, a dark and powerful shadow before its
golden light.
"Our Ancestors," he prayed, "receive this
soul, not born of our kindred; spirits of our Ancestors,
receive her, Mim h'Elas. Take her gently among you, one
with us, as birth-sharing, loving, beloved. Peace was upon
her heart, this child of Elas, daughter of Minas, of
Indras, of the far-shining city."
"Spirits of Elas," prayed Kta, holding his
hands also toward the fire, "our Ancestors, wake and
behold us. Guardians of Elas, see us, this wrong done
against us. Swift to vengeance, our Ancestors, wake and
behold us."
Kurt looked on, lost, unable even to mourn for her as
they mourned, alien even at the moment of her dying. And he
watched as Ptas took from Kta's hands the dragon blade.
She bent over Mim with that, and this was beyond bearing.
Kurt cried out, but Ptas severed only a lock of Mim's
dark hair and cast it into the blaze of the holy fire.
Aimu sobbed audibly. Kurt could take no more. He turned
suddenly and fled the hall, out into the entryway.
"It is done." Kta knelt where he found him,
crouched in the corner of the entry against the door. He
set his hand on Kurt's shoulder. "It is over now.
We will put her to rest. Will you wish to be
present?"
Kurt shuddered and turned his face toward the wall.
"I can't," he said, lapsing into his native
tongue. "I can't. I loved her, Kta. I can't
go."
"Then we will care for her, my friend. We will care
for her."
"I loved her," he insisted, and felt
the pressure of Kta's fingers on his shoulder.
"Is there . . . some rite you would wish? Surely .
. . surely our Ancestors would find no wrong in
that."
"What could she have to do with my people?"
Kurt swallowed painfully and shook his head. "Do it
the way she would understand."
Kta arose and started to leave, then knelt
again. "My
friend, come to my room first. I will give you something
that will make you sleep."
"No," he said. "Leave me alone. Leave
me."
"I am afraid for you."
"Take care of her. Do that for me."
Kta hesitated, then rose again and withdrew on silent
feet.
Kurt sat listening for a moment. The family left the
rhmei by the left-hand hall, their steps dying
away into the far places of the house. Kurt rose then and
opened the door quietly, shutting it quietly behind him in
such a way that the inner bar fell into place.
The streets were deserted, as they had been since the
Methi's guards had taken their places at the
wall-street. He walked not toward the Afen, but downward,
toward the harbor.
XIV
Daylight was finally beginning to break through the
mists, lightening everything to gray, and there was the
first stirring of wind that would disperse the fog.
Kurt skirted the outermost defense wall of Nephane, the
rocking, skeletal outlines of ships ghostly in the gray
dawn. No one watched this end of the harbor, where the
ancient walls curved against Haichema-tleke's
downslope, where the hill finally reached the water, where
the walls towered sixty feet or more into the mist.
Here the city ended and the countryside began. A dirt
track ran south, rutted with the wheels of hand-pulled
carts, mired, thanks to the recent rains. Kurt ran beside
the road and left it, heading across country.
He could not think clearly yet where he was bound. Elas
was closed to him. If he set eyes on Djan or t'Tefur
now he would kill them, with ruin to Elas. He ran, hoping
only that it was tTefur who would pursue him, out beyond
witnesses and law.
It would not bring back Mim. Mim was buried by now, cold
in the earth. He could not imagine it, could not accept
it, but it was true.
) He was weary of tears. He ran, pushing himself to the
point of collapse, until that pain was more than the pain
for Mim, and exhaustion tumbled him into the wet grass all
but senseless.
When he began to think again, his mind was curiously
clear. He realized for the first time that he was bleeding
from an open wound-had been all night, since the
assassin's blade had passed his ribs. It began to hurt.
He found it not deep, but as long as his hand. He had no
means to bandage it. The bleeding was not something he
would die of. His bruises were more painful; his cord-cut
wrists and ankles hurt to bend. He was almost relieved to
feel these things, to exchange these miseries for the
deeper one of Mim's loss, which had no limit. He put
Mim away in his mind, rose up and began to walk again,
steps weaving at first, steadier as he chose his
direction.
He wanted nothing to do with the villages. He avoided
the dirt track that sometimes crossed his way. As the day
wore on and the warmth increased he walked more surely,
choosing his southerly course by the sun.
Sometimes he crossed cultivated fields, where the crops
were only now sprouting and the earliest trees were in
bloom and not yet fruited. Root-crops like stas
were stored away in the safety of barns, not to be had in
the fields.
By twilight he was feeling faint with hunger, for he had
not eaten-he reckoned back to breakfast a day ago. He did
not know the land, dared not try the wild plants. He knew
then that he must think of stealing or starve to death, and
he was sorry for that, because the country folk were
generally both decent and poor.
The bitter thought occurred to him that among the
innocent, of this world his presence had brought nothing
but grief. It was only his enemies that he could never
harm.
Mim stayed with him. He could not so much as look at the
stars overhead without hearing the names she gave them:
Ysime the pole star, mother of the north wind; blue Lineth,
he star that heralded the spring, sister of Phan. His grief
had settled into a quieter misery, one with everything.
In the dark, there came to his nostrils the scent of
wood-smoke, borne on the northwest wind.
He turned toward it, smelled other things as he drew
nearer, animal scents and the delicious aroma of cooking.
He crept silently, carefully toward the fold of hills that
concealed the place.
There was no house, but a campfire tended by two men and
a youth, country folk, keepers of flocks,
cachiren. He heard the soft calling of their
wool-bearing animals from somewhere beyond a brush
barricade on the other side of the fire.
A snarled warning cut the night. The shaggy
tilof that guarded the cochin lifted its
head, its hackles rising, alerting the cachiren.
They scrambled up, weapons in hand, and the beast raced for
the intruder.
Kurt fled, seeking a pile of rock that had tumbled from
the hillside, and tried to find a place of refuge. The
beast's teeth seized his ankle, tore as he jerked free
and scrambled higher.
"Come down!" shouted the youth, spear poised
for the throwing. "Come down from there."
"Hold the creature off," Kurt shouted back.
"I will gladly come down if you will only call him
off."
Two of them kept spears aimed at him, while the youth
went higher and dragged the snarling and spitting
guard-beast down again by his shaggy ruff.
Kurt clambered down gingerly and spoke to them gently
and courteously, for they prodded him with then- spears,
forcing him in the direction of the firelight, and he
feared what they would do when they saw his human face.
When he reached the light he kept his head down and
knelt by the fireside and sat back on his heels in an
at-home posture. The keen point of a spear touched beneath
his shoulder. The other two men circled to the front to
look him over.
"Human," one exclaimed, and the point pressed
deeper and made him wince.
"Where are the rest of you?" the white-haired
elder asked.
"I am not Tamurlin," said Kurt, "and I am
alone. I beg you, I need food. I am of the Methi's
people."
"He is lying," said the boy behind him.
"He might be," said the elder, "but he
talks manlike."
"You do not need to give me hospitality," said
Kurt, for the sharing of bread and fire created a religious
bond forever unless otherwise agreed from the beginning.
"But I do ask
you for food and drink. It is the second day since I
have eaten."
"Where did you come from?" asked the
elder.
"From Nephane."
"He is lying," the boy insisted. "The
Methi killed the others."
"Unless one escaped."
"Or more than one," said the elder.
"May the light of Phan fall gently on thee,"
Kurt said, the common blessing. "I swear I have not
lied to you, and I am no enemy."
"It is, at least, no Tamurlin," said the
second man. "Are you house-friend to the Methi,
stranger?"
"To Bias," said Kurt.
"To Bias," echoed the elder in amazement.
"To the sons of storm, a human for a house-friend?
This is hard to believe. The Indras-descended are too proud
for that."
"If you honor the name of Bias," said Kurt,
"or of Osanef, which is our friend, give me something
to eat. I am about to faint from hunger."
The elder considered again and finally extended an arm
in invitation to the meal they had left cooking beside
their fire. "Not in hospitality, stranger, since we do
not know you, but there is food and drink. We are poor men.
Take sparingly, but be free of it, if you are as hungry as
you say. May the light of Phan fall upon thee in blessing
or in curse according to what you deserve."
Kurt moved carefully, for the spear was surely still at
his back. He knelt down by the rock where the food was
warming and took one of the three meal cakes, breaking off
half, and a little crumb of the soft cheese that lay on a
greasy leather wrap beside them. But he used the fine
manners of Bias, not daring to do otherwise with their
critical eyes on him and the spear ready.
When he was done he rose up and bowed his thanks.
"I will go my way now," he said.
"No, stranger," said the second man. "I
think you ought to stay with us and go to our village in
the morning. In this district we see few travelers from
Nephane, and I think you would be safer with us. Someone
might take you for Tamurlin and put a spear through you
before he realized his mistake. That would be sad for both
of you."
"I have business elsewhere," said Kurt,
playing out the farce with the rules they set and
bowing politely. "And I thank you for your concern,
but I will go on now."
The elder man brought his spear crosswise in both hands.
"I think my son is right. You have run from somewhere,
that much is certain, and I am not sure that you are
house-friend to Elas. No, it is more likely the Methi
simply missed killing you with the others, and we well know
in the country what humans are."
"If I do come from Djan-methi, you will not win her
thanks by delaying me on my mission."
"What, does the Methi send out her servants without
provisions?"
"I had an accident," he said. "My mission
is urgent; I had no time to go back. I counted on the
hospitality of the country folk to help me on my
way."
"Stranger, you are not only a liar, you are a bad
liar. We will take you to our village and see what the Afen
has to say about you."
Kurt ran, plunged in a wild vault over the brush
barricade and in among the startled cachin,
creating panic as their woolly bodies scattered and herded
first to the rocks and then back toward the barricade,
breaking it down in their mad rush to escape. The
tilof's sharp cries resounded in the rocks.
The beast and the men had work enough at the moment.
Kurt climbed, fingers and sandaled toes seeking purchase
in the crevices of the rocks, sending stones cascading down
the hillside. He cleared the crest, found a level, brushy
ground and ran, desperate, trusting pursuit would be at
least delayed.
But word would go back to Nephane and to Djan, and she
would be sure now the way he had fled. Ships could outrace
him down the coast.
If he did not reach his own abandoned ship and secure
the means to live, he was finished hi this land. Djan would
have guessed it already, and now she could lay her ambush
with assurance.
If she knew the precise location of his ship, he could
not hope to avoid it.
The sun rose over the same grassy rangeland that had
surrounded him for the last several days, dry grass and
wind and dust.
Kurt leaned on his staff, a twisted branch from which
he
had stripped the twigs, and looked toward the south.
There was not a sign of the ship. Nothing. Another day of
walking, of the tormenting heat and the infection's
throbbing fever in his wound. He started moving again,
relying on the staff, every step a jarring and constant
pain, his mouth so dry that swallowing hurt.
Sometimes he rested, and thought of lying down and
ceasing to struggle against the thirst; sometimes he would
do that, but eventually misery and the habit of life would
bring him to his feet and set him walking.
Phan was a terrible presence in these lands, wrathfully
blinding in the day, deserting the land at night to a
biting cold. Kurt rubbed blistered skin from his nose, his
hands. His bare legs and especially his knees were swollen
with sunburn, tiny blisters which many times formed and
burst, making a crack-line that oozed and bled.
The thirst was beyond bearing as the sun reached the
zenith. There was no water, had been none since a small
stream the day before-or the day before that. Time blurred
since he had entered this land. He began to wonder if he
had already missed the ship, bypassing it over one of the
gently rolling hills. That would be irony: to live by the
skills of pinpointing a ship from one star to another and
to die by missing a point over a hill.
He turned west finally, toward the sea, thinking that he
could not fail at least to find that, hoping that the lower
country would have fresh water. The changing of the seasons
had confused him. He remembered green around the ship,
green in winter. Had it been so far south? The sailing-he
could not remember how many days it had taken.
By afternoon he ceased to care what direction he was
moving in and knew that he was killing himself, and did not
care. He started down a hillside, too tired to take the
safer slope, and slipped on the dusty grass. He slid,
opening the lacerations on his hands and knees, grass and
stone stripping sunburned skin and blisters from his
exposed flesh as he rolled down the slope.
The pain grew less finally, or he adjusted to it, he
knew not which. He found himself walking and did not
remember getting to his feet. It was not important any
more, the ship, the sea, life or death. He moved and so
lived, and therefore moved.
The sun dipped horizonward into dusk, a beacon that lit
the sky with red, and Kurt locked onto it, a reference
point, a guidance star in this void of grass. It led him
down-country, where there were trees and the land looked
more familiar.
Night fell, and he stood on the broad shoulder of a
hill, leaning on his staff, fearing if he sat down now he
would not have the strength in his burn-swollen legs to get
up again. He started the long descent toward the dark of
the woods.
A light gleamed off across the wide valley, a light like
a campfire. Kurt paused, rubbed his eyes to be sure it was
there. It was a pinpoint like a very faint star that
flickered but stayed discernible in all that distance and
desolation.
He headed for it, driven now by feverish hope, nerved to
kill if need be to obtain food and water.
It gleamed nearer, just when he feared he had lost it in
his descent. He saw it through the brush. Men's voices-
nemet voices-were audible, soft, quiet in conversation.
Then silence. Brush moved. The fire continued to gleam.
He hesitated, feeling momentary panic, a sense of being
stalked in turn.
Brush crashed near him and a strong arm took him from
behind about the throat, bent him back. He fell, pulled
down by two men, weighted with a knee on his right arm,
another hand pinning his left. A knife whispered from its
sheath and rested across his throat.
The man on his left checked the other with a hand on his
wrist. Kurt ceased to struggle, trying only to breathe.
"It is t'Morgan," said a whisper. Gentle
hands searched his belt for weapons, found nothing, tugged
his arms free of those who held him and drew him up, those
who had lately threatened him handling him carefully,
lifting him to his feet, aiding him to stand.
"Are you alone?" one asked of him.
"Yes," Kurt tried to say. They almost had to
carry him, bringing him into the circle of firelight. Other
nemet joined them from the shadows.
Kta was among them. Kurt saw his face among the others
and felt his v sanity had left him. He tried to
go toward him, shaking free of the others.
He fell. When he managed to get his arms beneath him and
tried again to sit up, Kta was beside him. The nemet washed
his burning face from a waterskin, offered it to his lips
and took it away before he could make himself sick with
it.
"How did you come here?" Kurt found his own
voice unrecognizable.
"Looking for you," said Kta. "I thought
you might understand a beacon fire, which drew me once to
you. And you did see it, thank the gods. I planned to reach
your ship and wait for you there, but I have not been able
to find it. But gods, no one walks cross-country. You are
mad."
"It was a hard walk," Kurt agreed. Kta
smoothed his filthy hair aside, woman-tender, his fingers
careful of burned skin, pouring water to cool his face.
"Your skin," said Kta, "is cooked.
Merciful spirits of heaven, look at you."
Kurt rubbed at the stubble that protected his lower
face, aware how bestial he must be in the eyes of the
nemet, for the nemet had very little facial hair, very
little elsewhere. He struggled to sit, and bending his legs
made it feel like the sunburned skin of his knees would
split. "Food," he pleaded, and someone gave him a
bit of cheese. He could not eat much of it, but he washed
it down with a welcome swallow of telise from
Kta's flask.
Then it was as if the strength that was left poured out
of him. He lay down again and the nemet made him as
comfortable as they could with their cloaks, washed the
ugly wound across his ribs with water and then-which made
him cry aloud-with fiery telise.
"Forgive me, forgive me," Kta murmured through
the haze of his delirium. "My poor friend, it is done,
it will mend."
He slept then, conscious of nothing.
The camp began to stir again toward dawn, and Kurt
wakened as one of the men added wood to the fire. Kta was
already sitting up, watching him anxiously.
Kurt groaned and sat up, dragged himself to a
cross-legged posture despite his knees. "A drink,
please, Kta."
Kta nodded to the boy Pan, who hastened to bring Kurt a
waterskin and stas, which had been baked last
night. It was cold, but with salt it went very well, washed
down with telise. He ate it to the last, but dared
not force the second one offered on his shrunken
stomach.
"Are you feeling better?" asked Kta.
"I am all right," he said. "You should
not have come after me."
And then a second, terrible thought hit him: "Or
did Djan send you to bring me back?"
Kta's face went thin-lipped, a killing anger that
turned Kurt cold. "No," he said. "I am
outlawed. The Methi has killed my father and
mother."
"No." Kurt shook his head furiously, as if
that could unsay the truth of it. "Oh, no, Kta."
But it was true. The nemet's face was calm and
terrible. "/ caused it," Kurt said. "/
caused it."
"She killed them," said Kta, "as she
killed Mim. We know Mim's tale from Djan-methi's
own lips, spoken to my father. My people will not live
without honor, and so my parents died. My father confronted
the Methi in the Upei for Mim's death and for the
Methi's other crimes, and she cast him from the Upei,
which was her right. My father and my mother chose death,
which was their right. And Hef with them. He would not let
them go unattended into the shadows."
"Aimu?" Kurt asked, dreading to know.
"I gave her to Bel as his wife. What else could I
do, what other hope for her? Elas is no more in Nephane.
Its fire is extinguished. I am in exile. I will not serve
the Methi any longer, but I live to honor my father and my
mother and Hef and Mim. They are my charges now. I am all
that is left, now that Aimu can no longer invoke the
Guardians of Elas."
Kta's lips trembled. Kurt ached for him no less than
for his family, for it was unbecoming for a man of the
Indras to shed tears. It would shame him terribly to
break.
"If," said Kurt, "you want to discharge
your debt to me you have discharged it. I can live in this
green land if you only give me weapons and food and water.
Kta, I would not blame you if you never wanted to look at
me again; I would not blame you if you killed me."
"I came for you," said Kta. "You are also
of Elas, though you cannot continue our rites or perpetuate
our blood. When the Methi struck at you, she struck at us.
We are of one house, you and I. Until one or the other of
us is dead, we are left hand and right. You have no leave
to go your way. I do not give it."
He spoke as lord of Elas, which was his right now. The
bond Mim had forged reasserted itself. Kurt bowed his head
in respect.
"Where shall we go now?" Kurt asked. "And
what shall we do?"
"We go north," said Kta. "Light of
heaven, I knew at
once where you must go, and I am sure the Methi does,
but it would have been more convenient if you had brought
your ship to earth in the far north. The Ome Sin is a
closed bottle in which the Methi's ships can hunt us at
their pleasure. If we cannot escape its neck and reach the
northern seas, you and I are done, my friend, and all these
brave friends who have come with me,"
"Is Bel here?" Kurt asked, for about him he
saw many familiar faces, but he feared greatly for
t'Osanef and Aimu if they had elected to stay in
Nephane. T'efur might carry revenge even to them.
"No," said Kta. "Bel is Sufaki, and his
father needs him desperately just now. For all of us who
have come, there is no way back, not as long as Djan rules.
But she has no heir. And being human . . . there is no
dynasty. We are prepared to wait."
Kurt hoped silently that he had not given her one. That
would be the ultimate bitterness, to ruin these good men by
that, when he had brought them all to this pass.
"Break camp," said Kta. "We
start-"
Something hissed and struck against flesh, and all the
camp exploded into chaos.
"Kta!" a man cried warning, and went down with
a feathered shaft in his throat. About them in the dawn-dim
clearing poured a horde of- howling creatures that Kurt
knew for his own kind. One of the nemet pitched to the
ground almost at his feet with his face a bloody smear, and
in the next moment a crushing blow across the back brought
Kurt down across him.
Rough hands jerked him up, and his shock-dazed eyes
looked at a bearded human face. The man seemed no less
surprised, stayed the blow of his ax, then bellowed an
order to his men.
The killing stopped, the noise faded.
The human put out his bloody hand and touched Kurt's
face, his hair-shrouded eyes dull and mused with confusion.
"What band?" he asked.
"I came by ship," Kurt answered him. "By
starship."
The Tamurlin's blue eyes clouded, and with a snarl
he took the front of Kurt's nemet garb and ripped it
off his shoulder, as though the nemet dress gave the lie to
his claim. But then there was a cry of awe from the
humans
gathered around. One took his sun-browned arm and
held
it up against Kurt's pale shoulder and turned to his
comrades, seeking their
opinion.
m
"A man from shelters," he cried, "a
ship-dweller.
"He came in the ship," another shouted,
"in the ship, the
ship."
They all shouted the ship, the ship, over and over
again, and danced around and flashed their weapons. Kurt
looked around at the carnage they had made in the clearing,
his heart pounding with dread at seeing one and another man
he knew lying there. He prayed Kta had escaped-some had
dived for the brush.
He had not. Kta lay on his face by the fire,
unconscious- his breathing was visible.
"Kill the others," said the leader of the
Tamurlin. We keep the human."
"No!" Kurt cried,
and jerked ineffectually to free his
arms. His mind snatched at the
first argument he could
find. "One of them is a nemet lord. He can bring
you some
thing of value."
1 "Point him
out."
.
"There," Kurt said, jerking his head to show
him. Nearest the fire."
"Let's take all the live ones," said
another of the Tamurlin, with a look in his eyes that boded
no good for the nemet. "Let's deal with them
tonight at the camp."
"Yd" howled the others, agreeing, and
the chief snarled a reluctant order, for it had not been
his idea. He took command of the situation with a sweep of
his arm. "Pick them all up, all the live ones, and
bring them. We'll see if this man really is from the
ship. If he isn't, we'll find out what he really
is."
The others shouted agreement and turned their attention
to the fallen nemet, Kta first. Him they shook and slapped
until he began to fight them again, and then they twisted
his hands behind him and tied him.
Two other nemet they found not seriously hurt and
treated in similar fashion. A third man they made walk a
few paces, but he could not do so, for his leg was pierced
with a shaft. One of them kicked his good leg from under
him and smashed his skull with an ax.
Kurt twisted away, chanced to look on Kta's face,
and the look in the nemet's eyes was terrible. Two more
of his men they killed in the same way, and at each fall of
the ax Kta winced, but his gaze remained fixed. By his look
they could as well have killed him.
XV
The ship rested as Kurt remembered it, tilted, the port
still open. About it now were camped a hundred of the
Tamurlin, hide-clothed and mostly naked, their huts of
grass and sticks and hides encircling the shining alloy
landing struts.
They came running to see the prizes
their party had brought, these savage men and women and few
starveling children. They shouted obscene threats at the
nemet, but shied away, murmuring together when they
realized Kurt was human. One of the young men advanced
cautiously- though Kurt's hands were tied-and others
ventured after him. One pushed at Kurt, then hit him across
the face, but the chief snatched him back, protective of
his property. "What band is he from?" one of them
asked. "Not from us," said the chief. "None
of ours." "He is human," several of the
others argued the obvious. The chief took Kurt by the
collar and pulled, taking his pel down to the
waist, pushed him forward into their midst. "He's
not ours, whatever he is. Not of the tribes."
Their reaction was near to panic, babbling
excitement.
They put out their filthy hands, comparing themselves
with
him for their hides were sun-browned and creased
with
premature wrinkles from weather and wind, with dirt
and
grease ground into the crevices. They prodded at Kurt
with
leathery fingers, pulled at his clothing, ran their
hands over
his skin and howled with amusement when he cursed
and
kicked at
them.
.
It was a game, with them running in to touch him and out
again when he tried to defend himself; but when he tired of
it and let them, that spoiled it and angered them. They
hit, and this time it was in earnest. One of them in a fit
of offended arrogance pushed him down and kicked him
repeatedly in the side, and the lot of them roared with
laughter at that, even more so when a little boy darted in
and did the same. Kurt twisted onto his knees and tried to
rise, and the chief seized him by the arm and hauled him
up.
"Where from?" the chief asked.
"Offworld," said Kurt from bloodied lips. He
saw the ship beyond the chiefs shoulder, a sanctuary out of
his own time that he could not reach. He burned with shame
for their treatment of him, and for the nemet's eyes on
these his brothers, these shaggy, mindless, onetime lords
of the earth. "That ship brought me here."
"The Ship," the others took it up. "The
holy Ship! The Starship!"
"This is not the Ship," the chief
shouted them down and pointed at it, his hand trembling
with passion. "The curse-sign on it-this man is not
what the Articles say."
The Alliance emblem. Kurt had forgotten the sunburst
emblem of the Alliance that was blazoned on the ship. They
were Hanan. He followed the chief's pointing linger,
wondering with a sickness at the pit of his stomach how
much of the war these savages recalled.
"A starman!" one of the young men shouted
defiantly. "A starman! The Ship is coming!"
And the others took up the howl with wild-eyed fervor,
the same ones who had lately thrown him in the dust.
"The ship, ya, the Ship, the Ship, the machines and
the armies!"
"They are coming!"
"Indresul Indresul! The waiting is over!"
The chief backhanded Kurt to the ground, kicked him to
show his contempt, and there was a cry of resentment from
the people. A youth ran in-for what purpose was never
known. The chief dropped the boy with a single blow of his
fist and rounded on the leaders of the dissent.
"And I am still captain here," he roared,
"and I know the Articles and the Writings, and who
will come and argue them with me?"
One of the men looked as if he might, but when the
captain came closer to him, he ducked his head and sidled
off. The rebellion died into sullen resentment
"You've seen the sign," said
the captain. "Maybe the
Ship is near. But this little thing isn't what the
Writings predict." He looked down at Kurt with threat
in his eyes. "Where are the machines, the Ship as
large as a mountain, the armies from the starworlds that
will take us to Indresul?"
"Not far away," said Kurt, setting his face to
lie, which was never a skill of his. "I was sent out
from Aeolus to find you. Is this how you welcome me? That
will be the last you ever see of Ships if you kill
me."
The captain was taken aback by that answer.
"Mother Aeolus," cried one of the men, though
he called it Elus, "the great Mother. He has seen the
Great Mother of All Men."
The captain looked at Kurt from under one brow, hating,
just the least part uncertain. "Then," he said,
"what did she say to you?"
The lie closed in on him, complex beyond his own
understanding. Aeolus-homeworld-confounded with the
nemet's Mother Isoi, Mother of Men; nemet religion and
human hopes confused into reverence for a promised Ship.
"She . . . lost you," he said, gathering himself
to his feet. They personified her; he hoped he understood
that rightly. "Her messenger was lost on the way
hundreds of years ago, and she was angry, blaming you. But
she has decided to send again, and now the Ship is coming,
if my report to her is good."
"How can her messenger wear the mark of Phan?"
the captain asked. "You are a liar."
The sunburst emblem of the ship. Kurt resisted the
impulse to lose his dignity by looking where the captain
pointed. "I am not a liar," said Kurt. "And
if you don't listen to me, you'll never see
her."
"You come from Phan," the captain snarled,
"from Phan, to lie to us and turn us over to the
nemet."
"I am human. Are you blind?"
"You camped with the earthpeople. You were no
prisoner in that camp."
Kurt straightened his shoulders and looked the man in
the eyes, lying with great offense in his tone. "We
thought you men were supposed to have these nemet under
control. That's what you were left here to do, after
all, and you've had three hundred years to do that. So
I had no real fear of the nemet and they were able to
surprise me some time ago and take my weapons. It took me
this long to escape from Nephane and come south. They
hunted me down, with orders to bring me back to Nephane
alive, so naturally they did me no harm in that camp, but
that doesn't mean the relationship was friendly. I
don't particularly like the nemet, but I'd advise
you to save these three alive. When my captain comes down
here, as he will, he's going to want to question a few
of the nemet, and these will do very well for that
purpose."
The captain bit his lip and gnawed his mustache. He
looked at the three nemet with burning hatred and spit out
an obscenity that had not much changed in several hundred
years. "We kill them."
"No," Kurt said. "There's need of
them live and healthy."
"Three nemet?" the captain snarled. "One.
One we keep. You choose which one."
"All three," Kurt insisted, though the captain
brandished his ax. It took all his self-possession not to
flinch as the weapon made a pass at him.
Then the captain whirled the weapon in a glittering arc
at the nemet, purposely defying him. The humans murmured,
eyes glittering like the metal itself. The ax passed within
an inch of Kta and of the next man.
"Choose!" the captain cried. "You choose,
starman. One nemet. We take the other two."
The howling began to be a moan. One of the little boys
shrieked in glee and ran in, striking all three nemet with
a stick.
"Which one?" the captain asked again.
Kurt kept his sickness from his face, saw Kta look at
him, saw the nemet's eyes sending a desperate and angry
message to him, which he ignored, looking at the
captain.
"The one on the left," Kurt said. "That
one. Their leader."
One of the two nemet died before nightfall. The
execution was hi the center of camp, and there was no way
Kurt could avoid watching from beginning to end, for the
captain's narrow eyes were on him more than on the
nemet, watching his least reaction. Kurt kept his own eyes
unfocused as much as possible, and his arms folded, so that
his trembling was not evident.
The nemet was a brave man, and his last reasoned act was
a glance at Kta, not desperate, but seeking approval of
him. Kta was standing, hands bound. The lord of Elas
gave
the man a steadfast look, as if he had given him an
order on the deck of their own ship, and the nemet died
with what dignity the Tamurlin afforded him. They made a
butchery of it, and the Tamurlin howled with excitement
until the man no longer reacted to any torment. Then they
finished him with an ax. As the blade came down, Kta's
self-control came near to breaking. He wept, his face as
impassive as ever, and the Tamurlin pointed at him and
laughed.
After that the captain ordered Kurt taken to his own
shelter. There he questioned him, threatening him with not
quite the conviction to make good the threats, accusing him
over and over of lying. The captain was a shrewd man. At
times there would come a light of cunning into his
hair-shrouded eyes, and he doggedly refused to be led off
on a tangent. Constantly he dragged the questioning back to
the essential points, quoting from the versified Articles
and the Writings of the Founders to argue against
Kurt's claims.
His name was Renols, or something which closely
resembled that common Hanan name, and he was the only
educated man in the camp. His power was his knowledge, and
the moment Renols ceased to believe, or ceased, to fear,
then Renols could dispose of Kurt with lies of his own. The
captain was a pragmatist, capable of it; Kurt was well
certain he was capable of it.
The tent reeked of fire, of sweat, of the curious
pungent leaf the Tamurlin chewed. One of his women lay hi
the corner against the wall, taking the leaves one by one.
Her eyes had a fevered look. Sometimes the captain reached
for one of the slim gray leaves and chewed at it
halfheartedly. It perfumed the breath. Sweat began to bead
on his temples. He grew calmer.'
He offered the bowl of leaves to Kurt, insisting. At
last Kurt took one, judiciously tucked it hi his cheek,
whole and unbruised. Even so, it burned his mouth and
spread a numbness that began to frighten him.
If he became drunk with it, he could say something he
would not say; his capacity for the drug might be far less
than Renols'.
"When," asked Renols, "will the Ship
come?"
"I told you. There's machinery in my own ship.
Let me in there and I can call my captain."
Renols chewed and stared at him with his thick brows
contracted. A dangerous look smoldered hi his eyes. But he
took another leaf and held out the bowl to Kurt a second
time. His hands were stubby-fingered, the nails broken, the
knuckles ridged with cut-scars.
Kurt took a second leaf and carefully eased that to the
same place as the first
The calculating look remained in Renols' eyes.
"What sort of man is he, your captain?"
The understanding began to come through. If a ship came,
if Mother Aeolus did send it and all points of his
prisoner's tale proved true, then Renols would be faced
with someone of greater authority than himself. He would
perhaps become a little man. Renols must dread the Ship; it
was in his own selfish interests that there not be one.
But it was also remotely possible that his prisoner
would be an important man in the near future, so Renols
must fear him. Kurt reckoned that too, and reckoned
uneasily that familiarity might well overcome Renols'
fear, when Aeolus' messenger turned out to be only
mortal.
"My captain," said Kurt, embroidering the
tale, "is named Ason, and Aeolus has given him all the
weapons that you need. He will give them to you and show
you their use before he returns to Aeolus to
report."
The answer evidently pleased Renols more than Renols had
expected. He grunted, half a laugh, as if he took pleasure
in the anticipation.
Then he gave orders to one of the sallow-faced women who
sat nearby. She laid the child she had been nursing in the
lap of the nearest woman, who slept in the aftereffects of
the leaf, and went out and brought them food. She offered
first to Renols, then to Kurt.
Kurt took the greasy joint in his fingers and hesitated,
suddenly fearing the Tamurlin might not be above
cannibalism. He looked it over, relieved to find no
comparison between this joint and human or nemet anatomy.
Starvation and Renols' suspicious stare overcame his
other scruples and he ate the unidentified meat, careful
with each bite not to swallow the leaves tucked in his
cheek. The meat, despite the strong medicinal taste of the
leaves, had a musty, mildewed flavor that almost made him
retch. He held his breath and tried not to taste it, and
wiped his hands on the earthen floor when he was done.
The captain offered him a second piece, and stopped in
the act.
From outside there came a disturbance. Laughter. Someone
shrieked in pain.
Renols put down the platter of meat and went out to
speak with the man at the entry to the shelter.
"You swore," said Kurt when he came back.
"We're keeping yours," said Renols.
"The other one is
ours."
'
The confusion outside grew louder. Renols Mocked torn
between annoyance at the interruption and desire to see
what was passing outside. Abruptly he called in the man at
the entry, tersely bidding him take Kurt to
confinement.
The commotion sank away into silence, Kurt listened,
teeth clamped tight against the heaving of his stomach. He
had spit out the leaves there in the darkness of the
shelter where they had left him, hands tied around one of
the two support posts. He twisted until he could dig with
his fingers in the hard dirt floor and bury the rejected
leaves.
There was a bitter taste in his mouth now. His vision
blurred, his pulse raced, his heart crashed against his
ribs. He began to be hazy-minded, and slept a time.
Footsteps in the dust outside aroused him. Shadows
entered the moonlight-striped shelter, pulling a
loose-limbed body with them. It was Kta. They tied the
semiconscious nemet to the other post and left him.
After a time Kta lifted his head and leaned it back
against the post. He did not speak or look at Kurt, only
stared off into the dark, his face and body oddly patterned
with moonlight through the woven-work.
"Kta," said Kurt finally. "Are you all
right?"
Kta made no reply.
"Kta," Kurt pleaded, reading anger. in the set
of the nemet's jaw.
"Is it to you," Kta's hoarse voice
replied, "is it to you that I owe my life? Do I
understand that correctly? Or do I believe instead the tale
you tell to the umani?"
"I am doing all I can."
"What is it you want from me?"
"I am trying to save our lives," Kurt said.
"I am trying to get you out of here. You know me, Kta.
Can you take seriously any of the things I have told
them?"
There was a long silence. "Please," said Kta
in a broken voice, "please spare me your help from now
on."
"Listen to me. There are weapons in the ship if I
can convince them to let me in there. If I can fire its
engines I can burn this nest out."
"I will forgive you," said Kta, "when you
do that."
"Are you," Kurt asked after a moment,
"much hurt?"
"I am alive," Kta answered. "Does that
not satisfy you? Shall I tell you what they did to the boy,
honored friend?"
"I could not stop it. Kta, look at me. Listen. Is
there any hope at all from Tavi? If we could get
free, could we find out way there?"
There was no answer.
"Kta, where is your ship anchored?"
"Why? So you can buy our lives with that
too?"
"Do you think I mean to tell-"
"They are your kind, human. It would be possible to
survive ... if you could buy your life. I will not give you
Tavi."
Against such bitterness there was no answer. Kurt
swallowed at the resentment and the hurt that rose in his
throat; he held his peace after that. He wanted no more
truth from Kta.
The silence wore on, two-sided. At last it was Kta who
turned his head. "What are you fighting for?" he
asked.
"I thought you had drawn your conclusion."
"I am asking. What are you trying to do?"
"To save your life. And mine."
"What use is that to either of us under these
terms?"
Kurt twisted toward him. "What use is it to give in
to them? Is it sense to let them kill you and do nothing to
help yourself?"
"Stop protecting me. I am better dead."
"Like they died? Like that?"
"Show me," said Kta, his voice shaking,
"show me what you can do against these creatures. Put
a weapon in my hands or even get my hands free and I will
die well enough. But what dignity is there in living like
this? Give me a reason. Tell me something I could have told
the men they killed, why I have to live, when I should have
died before them."
"Kta, tell me, is there any possible chance of
reaching Tavi?"
"The coast is leagues away. They would overtake us.
This ship of yours ... is it true what you said, that you
could burn them out?"
"Everyone would die, you too, Kta."
"You know how much that means to me. Light of
heaven, what manner of world is yours? Why did you have to
interfere?"
"I did the best I knew to do."
"You were wrong," said
Kta.
'
Kurt turned away and let the nemet alone, as he so
evidently wanted to be. Kta had reason enough to hate
humanity. Almost all he had ever loved was dead at the
hands of humans, his home lost, his hearth dead, now even
the few friends he had left slaughtered before his eyes.
His parents, Hef, Mim, himself. Elas was dying. To this had
human friendship brought the lord of Elas, and most of it
was his own friend's doing.
In time, Kta seemed to sleep, his head sunk on his
breast, his breathing heavy.
A shadow crept across the slatting outside, a ripple of
darkness that bent at the door, crept inside the shelter.
Kurt woke, moved, began a cry of warning. The shadow
plummeted, holding him, clamping a rough, calloused hand
over his mouth.
The movement wakened Kta, who jerked, and a knife
flashed in the dim light as the intruder drove for
Kta's throat.
Kurt twisted, kicked furiously and threw the would-be
assassin tumbling. He righted himself, and a feral human
face stared at both of them, panting, the knife still
clenched for use.
The human advanced the knife, demonstrating it to them,
ready. "Quiet," he hissed. "Stay
quiet."
Kurt shivered, reaction to the near-slaughter of Kta.
The nemet was unharmed, breathing hard, his eyes also fixed
on the wild-haired human.
"What do you want?" Kurt whispered.
The human crept close to him, tested the cords on his
wrists. "I'm Garet," said the man.
"Listen. I will help you."
"Help me?" Kurt echoed, still shuddering, for
he thought the man might be mad. The leaf-smell was about
him. Feverish hands sought his shoulders. The man leaned
close to whisper yet more softly.
"You can't trust Renols, he hates the thought
of the Ship. He'll find a way to kill you. He isn't
sure yet, but he'll find a way. I could get you into
your ship tonight. I could do that."
"Cut me free," Kurt replied, snatching at any
chance.
"I could do that.'
"What do you want, then?"
"You'll have the weapons in the little ship.
You can kill Renols then. I will help you. I will
be second and I will go on helping you."
"You want to be captain?"
"You can make me that, if I help you."
"It's a deal," said Kurt, and held his
breath while the man made a final consideration. He dared
not ask Kta's freedom too. He dared not turn on Garet
and take the knife. The slim chance there, was in the
situation kept him from risking it In silence, once inside
the ship, he could handle Garet and stand off Renols.
The knife haggled at the cords, parting the tough fiber
and sending the blood excruciatingly back to his hands. He
rose up carefully, for Garet held the knife ready against
him if he moved suddenly.
Then Caret's eyes swept toward Kta. He bent toward
him, blade extended.
Kurt caught his arm, fronted instantly by Caret's
bewildered suspicion, and for a moment fear robbed Kurt of
any sense to explain.
"He is mine," Kurt said.
"We can catch a lot of nemet," said Garet.
"What's this one
to you?"
"I know him," said Kurt. "And I can get
cooperation out of him. He's not about to cry out,
because he knows he'd die; he knows I'm his only
chance of staying alive, so eventually he'll tell me
all I ask of him."
Kta looked up at both of them, well able to understand.
Whether it was consummate acting or fear of Garet or fear
of human treachery, he looked frightened- He was among
aliens. Perhaps it even occurred to him that he could have
been long deceived.
Garet glowered, but he thrust the knife into his belt
and led the way out into the tangle of huts outside.
"Sentries?" Kurt breathed into his ear.
Garet shook his head, drew him further through the
village, up to the landing struts, the extended ladder. A
sentry did stand there. Garet poised to throw, knife
balanced between his fingertips. He drew back-
And the hiss and chunk! of an arrow toppled
him, clawing at the ground. The sentry crouched and
whirled, and men poured out of the dark. Kurt went down
under a triple assault, struggling and kicking as they
hauled him where they would take him, up to the ladder.
Renols was there, ax in hand. He prodded Kurt in the
belly with it. His ugly face contorted further in a snarl
of anger.
"Why?" he asked.
"He came," said Kurt, "threatened to kill
me if I didn't come at once. Then he told me you were
planning to kill me. I didn't know what to believe. But
this one had a knife^ so I kept quiet."
"Sentries are dead," another man reported.
"Six men are dead, throats cut. One of our scouts
hasn't come back either."
"Caret's brothers," Renols said, and
looked at the men who surrounded him. "His folk's
doing. Find his women and his brats. Give them to the dead
men's families, whatever they like."
"Captain," said that man, biting his lip
nervously. "Captain, the Carets are a big family.
Their kin is in the Red band too. If they get to them with
some story-"
"Get them," said Renols. "Now."
The men separated. Those who held Kurt remained. Renols
looked up at the entry to the ship, thought silently, then
nodded to his men, who brought Kurt away as they walked
through the camp. They were quiet. Not a sound came from
the encampment. Kurt walked obediently enough, although the
men made it harder for him out of spite.
They came to the hut from which he had escaped. Renols
stooped and looked inside, where Kta was still tied.
He straightened again. "The nemet is still
alive," he said. Then he looked at Kurt from under one
brow. "Why didn't Garet kill him?"
Kurt shrugged. "Garet hit him. I guess he was in a
hurry."
Renols' scowl deepened. "That isn't like
Garet."
"How should I know? Maybe Garet thought he might
fail tonight and didn't want a dead nemet for proof of
his visit."
Renols thought that over. "So. How did he know you
wouldn't raise an alarm?"
"He didn't. But it makes sense I'd keep
quiet. How am I to know whose story to believe?"
Renols snorted. "Put him inside. We'll catch
one of the Carets alive and then we'll see about
it."
The human left. Kurt tested the strength of the new
cords, which were unnecessarily tight and rapidly numbed
his hands -a petty measure of their irritation with him. He
sighed and leaned his head back against the post, ignoring
Kta's staring at him.
There was no chance to discuss matters. Kta seemed to
sense it, for he said nothing. Someone stood not far from
the hut, visible through the matting.
Quite probably, Kurt thought, the nemet had added things
up for himself. Whether he had then reached the right
conclusion was another matter.
Eventually first light began to bring a little detail to
the hut. Kta finally slept. Kurt did not.
Then a stir was made in the camp, men running in the
direction of Renols' hut. Distant voices were
discussing something urgently. The commotion spread, until
people were stirring about in some alarm.
And Renols' lieutenants came to fetch them both,
handling them both harshly as they hurried them toward
Renols' shelter.
"We found Caret's brothers," Renols said,
confronting Kurt.
Kurt stared at him, neither comforted nor alarmed by
that news. "Caret's brothers are nothing to
me."
"We found them dead. All of them. Throats cut.
There were tracks of nemet-sandal-wearing."
Kurt glanced at Kta, not needing to feign shock.
"Two of our searchers haven't come back,"
said Renols. "You say this one is a chief among the
nemet. A lord. Probably they're his. Ask him."
"You understood," Kurt said in Nechai.
"Say something."
Kta set his jaw. "If you think to buy time by
giving them anything from me, you are mistaken."
"He has nothing to say," said Kurt to
Renols.
Renols did not look surprised. "He will find
something to say," he promised. "Astin, get a
guard doubled out there. No women to go out of camp today.
Raf, bring the nemet to the main circle."
It would be possible, Kurt realized with a cold sickness
at the heart, it would be possible to play out the game to
the end. Kta would not betray him any more than he would
betray the men of Tavi. To let Kta die might buy
him the hour or so needed to hope for rescue. Possibly Kta
would not even blame him. It was always hard to know what
Kta would consider a reasonable action.
He followed along after those who took Kta-Kta with his
spine stiff and every line of him braced to resist, but
making not a sound. Kurt himself went docilely, his eyes
scanning the hostile crowd that gathered in ominous
silence. •
He let it continue to the very circle, where the sand
was still dark-spotted with the blood of the night before.
He feared he would not have the courage to commit so
senseless an act, giving up both their lives. But when they
tried to put Kta to the ground, he scarcely thought. He
tore loose, hit one man, stooped, jerked the ax from his
startled hand and swung it toward those who held Kta.
The nemet reacted with amazing agility, swung one man
into the path of the ax, kneed another, snatched a dagger
and applied it with the blinding speed he could use with
the ypan. The men clutched spurting wounds and
went down howling and writhing.
"Archers!" Renols bellowed. There was a great
clear space about the area. Kurt and Kta stood back to
back, men crowding each other to get out of the way. Renols
was closest.
Kurt charged him, ax swinging. Renols went down with his
side open, rolling in the dust. Other men scrambled out of
the way as he kept swinging. Kta stayed with him. Their
area changed. People fled from them screaming.
"Shoot them!" someone else shrieked.
Then all chaos broke loose, a hoarse cry from the rear
of the crowd. Some of the Tamurlin turned screaming in
panic, their cries swiftly drowned in the sounds of battle
in the center of the crowd.
Kta jerked at Kurt's arm and pointed, both of them
for the moment stunned by the appearance of nemet among the
Tamurlin, the flash of bright-edged swords in the sunlight.
No Tamurlin offered them fight any more-the humans were
trying more to escape than to fight-and soon there were
only nemet around them. The humans had vanished into the
brush.
Now with Kurt behind him, Kta stood in the clear, with
dagger in hand and the dead at his feet, and the nemet band
raised a cheer.
"Lord Kta!" they cried over and over.
"Lord Kta!" And they came to him, bloody swords
in hand, and knelt down in the dust before their
almost-naked and much-battered lord. Kta held out his hand
to them, dropping the blade, and turned palm
upward to heaven, to the cleansing light of the sun.
"Ei, my friends," he said, "my
friends, well done." Val t'Ran, the officer next
in command after Bel t'Osanef, rose from his knees and
looked as if he would gladly have embraced Kta, if such
impulses belonged to nemet. Tears shone in his eyes.
"I thank heaven we were in time, Kta-ifhan, and I
would have reckoned we could not be."
"It was you who killed the humans outside the camp,
was it not?"
"Aye, my lord, and we feared they had spoiled our
ambush. We thought we might have been discovered by that.
We were very careful stalking the camp, after
that."
"It was well done," said Kta again, with great
feeling, and held out his hand to the boy Pan, who had come
with the rescuers. "Pan, it was you who brought
them?"
"Yes, sir," said the youth. "I had to
run, sir, I had to. I hated to leave you. Tas and I-we
thought we could do more by getting to the ship-but he died
of his wound on the way."
Kta swallowed heavily. "I am sorry, Pan. May the
Guardians of your house receive him kindly. Let us go. Let
us be out of this foul place."
Kurt saw them prepare to move out, looked down at what
weight was clenched in his numb hand, saw the ax and his
arm bloodstained to the shoulder. He let it fall, suddenly
shaking in every limb. He stumbled aside from all of them,
bent over in the lee of a hut and was sick for some few
minutes until everything had emptied out of his belly,
drugs, Tamurlin food. But the sights that stayed in his
mind were something over which he had no such power. He
took dust and rubbed at the blood until his skin stung with
the sandy dirt and the spots were gone. In a deserted hut
he found a gourd of water and drank and washed his face.
The place stank of leaf. He stumbled out again into the
sunlight.
"Lord Kurt," said one of the seamen,
astonished to find him. "Kta-ifhan is frantic. Come.
Hurry. Come, please."
The nemet looked strange to him, alien, the language
jarring on his ears. Human dead lay around. The nemet were
leaving. He felt no urge to go among them.
"Sir."
Fire roared near him; a wave of heat brought him to
alertness. They were setting fire to the village. He stared
about him like a man waking from a dream.
He had pulled a trigger, pressed a button and killed,
remotely, instantly. He had helped to fire a world, though
his post was noncombat. They had been minute, statistical
targets.
Renols' astonished look hung before him. It had been
Mini's.
He lay in the dust, with its taste in his mouth and his
lips cut and his cheek bruised. He did not remember
falling. Gentle alien hands lifted him, turned him,
smoothed his face.
"He is fevered," Pan's clear voice said
out of the blaze of the sun. "The burns, sir, the sun,
the long walk-"
"Help him," said Kta's voice. "Carry
him if you must. We must get clear of this place. There are
other tribes."
The journey was a haze of brown and green, of sometime
drafts of skin-stale water. At times he walked, hardly
knowing anything but to follow the man in front of him.
Toward the last, as their way began to descend to the sea
and the day cooled, he began to take note of his
surroundings again. Losing the contents of his stomach a
second time, beside the trail, made him weak, but he was
free of the nausea and his head was clearer afterward. He
drank telise, the kindly seaman who offered it
bidding him keep the flask; it only occurred to him later
that using something a sick human had used would be
repugnant to the man. It did not matter; he was touched
that the man had given it up for his sake.
He shook off their offered help thereafter. He had his
legs again, though they shook under him, and he was
self-possessed enough to remember his ship and the
equipment they had abandoned. He had been too dazed and the
nemet, the nemet with their distrust of machines, had
abandoned everything.
"We have to go back," he told Kta, trying to
reason with him.
"No," said the nemet. "No. No more lives
of my men. We are already racing the chance that other
tribes may be alerted by now."
It was the end of the matter.
And toward evening, with the coast before them and
Tavi lying offshore, most welcome of sights, there
came a seaman racing up across the sand, stumbling and
hard-breathing.
He saw Kta and his eyes widened, and he sketched a
staggering bow before his lord and gasped out his
message.
"Methi's ship," he said, "upcoast.
Lookout saw them from the point there. They are searching
every inlet on this shore -almost-almost we would have had
to pull away, but without enough rowers. Thank heaven you
made it, sir."
"Let us hurry," said Kta, and they began to
plunge down the sandy slope to the beach itself.
"My lord," hissed the seaman. "I think
the ship is Edrif. The sail is green."
"Edrif." Kta gazed toward the point
with fury in every line of him. "Yeknis take them!
Kurt, Tefur's Edrif, do you hear?"
"I hear," Kurt echoed. The longing for revenge
churned inside him, when a few moments before he would
never have looked to fight again. He shivered in the cold
sea wind, wrapped his borrowed dan about him and
followed Kta downslope as fast as his trembling legs would
take him.
"We have not crew enough to take him now," Kta
muttered beneath his breath. "Would that we did! We
would send that son of Yr's abominations down to
Kalyt's green halls-amusement for Kalyt's scaly
daughters. Light of heaven! If I had the whole of us this
moment . . ."
He did not, and fell silent with a grimness that had the
pain of tears behind it. Kurt heard the nemet's voice
shake, and feared for him before the witness of the
men.
XVI
Tavi's dark blue sail billowed out and filled with
the night wind, and Val t'Ran called out a hoarse order
to the rowers to hold oars. The rhythm of wood and water
cadenced to a halt, forty oars poised level over the water.
Then with a direction from Val they came inboard with a
single grate of wood, locked into place by the sweating
rowers who rested at the benches.
Somewhere Edrif still prowled the coast, but
the Sufaki vessel had the disadvantage of having to seek,
and the lower coast was rough, with many inlets that were
possible for Tavi, a sleek, shallow-drafted
longship, while Edrif, greater in oarage, must
keep to slightly deeper waters.
Now Tavi caught the wind, with the water
sloughing rapidly under her hull. On her starboard side
rose a great jagged spire against the night sky, sea-worn
rock, warning of other rocks hi the black waters. The waves
lapped audibly at the crag, but they skimmed past and
skirted one on the left by a similarly scant margin.
These were waters Kta knew. The crew stayed at the
benches, ready but unfrightened by the
closeness of the channel they ran.
"Get below," Kta told Kurt. "You have
been on your feet too long. I do not want to have to pull
you a second time out of the sea. Get back from the
rail."
"Are we clear now?"
'There is a straight course through these rocks and
the wind is bearing us well down the center of it. Heaven
favors us. Here, you are getting the spray where you are
standing. Lun, take this man below before he
perishes."
The cabin was warm and close, and there was light,
well-shielded from outside view. The old seaman guided him
to the cot and bade him lie down. The heaving of the ship
disoriented him in a way the sea had never done before. He
fell into the cot, rousing himself only when Lun propped
him up to set a mug of soup to his lips. He could not even
manage it without shaking. Lun held it patiently, and the
warmth of the soup filled his belly and spread to his
limbs, pouring strength into him.
He bade Lun prop his shoulders with blankets and give
him a second cup. He was able to sit then partially erect,
his hands cradling the steaming mug. He did not
particularly want to drink it; it was the warmth he
cherished, and the knowledge that it was there. He was
careful not to fall asleep and spill it. From time to time
he sipped at it. Lun sat nodding in the corner.
The door opened with a gust of cold wind and Kta came
in, shook the salt water from his cloak and gave it to
Lun.
"Soup here, sir," said Lun, prepared and gave
him a cup of it, and Kta thanked him and sank down on the
cot on the opposite side of the little cabin. Lun departed
and closed the door quietly.
Kurt stared for a long time at the wall, without the
will left to face another round with Kta. At last Kta moved
enough to drink, and let go his breath in a soft sigh of
weariness.
"Are you all right?" Kta asked him finally. He
put gentleness in his question, which had been long absent
from his voice.
"I am all right."
"The night is in our favor. I think we can clear
this shore before Edrif realizes it."
"Do we still go north?"
"Yes. And with t'Tefur no doubt hard behind
us."
"Is there any chance we could take him?"
"We have ten benches empty and no reliefs. Or do
you expect me to kill the rest of my men?"
Kurt flinched, a lowering of his eyes. He could not face
an accounting now. He did not want the fight. He stared off
elsewhere and took a sip of the soup to cover it.
"I did not mean that against you," Kta said.
"Kurt, these men left everything for my sake, left
families and hearths with no hope of returning. They came
to me in the night and begged me-begged me-to let them take
me from Nephane, or I would have ended my life that night
in spite of my father's wishes. Now I have left twelve
of them dead on this shore. I am responsible for them,
Kurt. My men are dead and I am alive. Of all of them, /
survived."
"I saved each of them," Kurt
protested, "as long as I could. I did what I knew to
do, Kta."
Kta drank the rest of the soup as if he tasted
nothing at all and set the cup aside. Then he sat quietly,
his jaw knotted with muscle and his lips quivering. It
passed.
"My poor friend," said Kta at last. "I
know. I know. There was a time I was not sure. I am sorry.
Go to sleep.".
"Upon that?"
"What would you have me say?"
"I wish I knew," Kurt said, and set his cup
aside and laid his head on the blankets again. The warmth
had settled into his bones now, and the aches began, the
fever of burned skin, the fatigue of ravaged nerves.
"Yhia eludes me," Kta said then.
"Kurt, there must be reasons. I should have died, but
they, who were in no danger of dying, they died. My hearth
is dead and I should have died with it, but they-That is my
anger, Kurt. I do not know why."
From a human Kurt would have dismissed it as
nonsensical; but from Kta, it was no little thing-not to
know. It struck at everything the nemet believed. He looked
at Kta, greatly pitying him.
"You went among humans," said Kurt. "We
are a chaotic people."
"No," said Kta. "The whole of creation is
patterned. We live in patterns. And I do not like the
pattern I see now."
"What is that?"
"Death upon death, dying upon dead. None of us are
safe save the dead. But what will become of us ... is still
in front of us."
"You are too tired. Do your thinking in the
morning, Kta. Things will seem better then."
"What, and in the morning will they all be alive
again? Will Indresul make peace with my nation and Elas be
unharmed in Nephane? No. Tomorrow the same things will be
true."
"So may better things. Go to bed, Kta."
Kta rose up suddenly, went and lit the prayer-light of
the small bronze phusa that sat in its
wood-and-bronze niche. The light of Phan illuminated the
corner with its golden radiance and Kta knelt, sat on his
heels and lifted his open palms.
In a low voice he began the invocation of his Ancestors,
and soon his voice faded and he rested with his hands in
his lap. Just now it was an ability Kurt envied the
religious nemet like Kta, like Mim, to feel physical pain
no longer. The mind utterly concentrated first on the focus
of the light and then beyond, reaching for what no man ever
truly attained, but reaching.
The stillness that had been in Elas came over the little
cabin. There was the groaning of the timbers, the rush of
water past the hull, the rocking of the sea. The quiet
seeped inward. Kurt found it possible 'at last to close
his eyes.
He had slept some little time. He stirred, waking from
some forgotten dream, and saw the prayer-light flickering
on the last of its oil.
Kta still sat as he had before.
A chill struck him. He thought of Mim, dead before the
phusa, and Kta's state of mind, and he sprang
from bed. Kta's face and half-naked body glistened with
sweat, though it was not even warm in the room. His eyes
were closed, his hands loose in his lap, though every
muscle in his body looked rigid.
"Kta," Kurt called. Interruption of meditation
was no trifling matter to a nemet, but he seized Kta's
shoulders nonetheless.
Kta shuddered and drew an audible breath.
"Kta. Are you all right?"
Kta let the breath go. His eyes opened. "Yes,"
he murmured thickly, tried to move and failed. "Help
me up, Kurt."
Kurt drew him up, steadied him on his deadened legs.
After a moment the nemet ran a hand through his
sweat-damp hair and straightened his shoulders.
He did not speak further, only stumbled to his cot and
fell in, eyes closed, as relaxed as a sleeping child. Kurt
stood there staring down at him in some concern, and at
last concluded that he was all right. He pulled a blanket
over Kta, put out the main light, but left the prayer-light
to flicker out on its remaining oil. If it must be
extinguished there were prayers which had to be said; and
he knew them from hearing Mim say them, but it would be
hypocrisy to speak them and offensive to Kta to omit
them.
He sought the refuge of his own bed and lay staring at
the nemet's face in the almost-dark, remembering the
invocation Kta had made of the Guardians of Elas, those
mysterious and now angry spirits which protected the house.
He did not believe in them, and yet felt a heaviness in the
air when they had been invoked, and he wondered with what
Kta's consciousness or subconscious had been in
contact.
He remembered the oracular computers of Alliance Central
Command which analyzed, predicted, made policy . . .
prophesied. He wondered if those machines and the
nemet did not perceive some reason beyond rationality, if
the machines men had built functioned because the nemet
were right, because there was a pattern and the nemet came
close to knowing it.
He looked at Kta's face, peaceful and composed, and
felt an irrational terror of him and his outraged
Ancestors, as if whatever watched Elas was still
alive and still powerful, beyond the power of men to
control.
But Kta slept with the face of innocence.
Kurt braced himself as Lun heaved a bucket of seawater
over him-cold, stinging with salt in his wounds, but a
comfort to the soul. He was clean again, shaved, civilized.
The man handed him a blanket and Kurt wrapped in it
gratefully, not minding its rough texture next to his
abused skin. Kta, leaning with his back against the rail,
gave him a pitying look, his own bronze skin able to absorb
Phan's burning rays without apparent harm, even the
bruises he had suffered at the hands of the Tamurlin muted
by his dusky complexion, his straight black hair drying in
the wind to fell into its customary order, while
Kurt's, lighter, sun-bleached now, was entirely unruly.
Kta looked godlike and serenely undamaged, renewed by the
morning's light, like a snake newly molted.
"It looks terribly sensitive," Kta said,
grimacing at the sunburn that bled at Kurt's knees and
wrists and ankles. "Oil would help."
"I will try some in a little while," Kurt
said. He took his clothing and dressed, an offense to his
fevered skin. He went clad this day only in the
ctan. When there were no women present it was
enough.
"How long will it take us to reach the Isles?"
Kurt asked of Kta, for Kta had given that as their first
destination.
Kta shrugged. "Another day, granted the favor of
heaven and the ladies of the winds. There are dangers in
these waters besides Edrif; Indresul has a colony
to the west, Sidur Mel, with a fleet based there-a danger I
do not care to wake. And even in the Isles, the great
colony of Smethisan is dominated by the house of Lur,
trade-rivals of Elas, and I would not trust them. But the
Isle of Acturi is ruled by house-friends: I hope for port
there."
The canvas snapped overhead and Kta cast a look up at
the sail, waved a signal back to Val. Tavi's
crew hurried into action.
"The gray ladies," said Kta, meaning the
sky-sprites, "may not favor us for long. Sailors
should speak respectfully of heaven and never take it for
granted."
"A change in the weather?"
"For the worse." Kta wore a worried look,
indicated a faint grayness at the very edge of the northern
sky. "I had hoped to reach the Isles before that.
Spring winds are uncertain, and that one blows right off
the ice of the Yvorst Ome. We may feel the edge of it
before the day is done."
By midmorning Tavi's sail filled and hung
slack by turns, Kta's ethereal ladies turning fickle.
By noon the ship had taken on a queasy motion, almost
without wind to stir her sail. Canvas snapped. Val bellowed
orders to the deck crew, while Kta stood near the bow and
looked balefully at the advancing bank of cloud.
"You had better find heavier clothing," said
Kta. "When the wind shifts, you will feel it in your
bones."
The clouds took on an ominous look now that they were
closer. They came like a veil over the heavens,
black-bottomed.
"It will drive us back," Kurt observed.
"We will gain what distance we can and fight to
hold our position. You are not experienced in this; you
have seen no storms such as the spring winds bring. You
ought not to be on deck when it hits."
By afternoon the northwest sky was utterly black,
showing flashes of lightning out of it, and the wind was
picking up in little puffs, uncertain at first, from this
quarter and that.
Kta looked at it and swore with feeling. "I
think," he said, "that the demons of old
Chteftikan sent it down on us for spite. Sufak is to
leeward, with its hidden rocks. The only comfort is that
Shan t'Tefur is nearer them, and if we go aground, he
will have gone before us. Hya, you, man! Tkel!
Take another hitch in that! Wish you to climb after it in
the storm? I shall send you up after it."
Tkel grinned, waved his understanding and caught quickly
at the line to which he was clinging, for Tavi was
suddenly beginning to experience heavy seas.
"Kurt," said Kta, "be careful. This deck
will be awash soon, and a wave could carry you
overboard."
"How do your men keep their footing?"
"They do not move without need. You are no seaman,
my friend. I wish you would go below. I would not have you
entertaining Kalyt's green-eyed daughters tonight. I
know not what their feelings may be about humans."
Kurt knew the legend. Drowned sailors were held in the
domain of Kalyt the Sea Father until proper rites could
release their souls from bondage to the lustful sea-sprites
and send them to their ancestral hearths.
He took Kta's warning, but it was advice, not order,
and he was not willing to go below. He walked off aft and
suddenly a great swell made him lose his balance. He caught
at the mast in time to save himself from pitching headlong
into the rowers' pit. He refused to look back at Kta,
humiliated enough. He found his balance again and walked
carefully toward the low prominence of the cabin, taking
refuge against its wall.
Tavi was soon hard put to maintain her course
against the seas. Her bow rose on the swells and her deck
pitched alarmingly as she rode them down. Overhead the sky
turned to premature twilight, and the wind carried the
scent of rain.
Then a great gust of wind scoured the sea and hit the
ship. The spray kicked up, the bow awash as water broke
over the ship's bronze-shod ram. Kurt wiped the
stinging
water from his eyes as sea and sky tilted insanely. He
kept tight grip on the safety line. Tavi became a
fragile wooden shell shrunk to miniature proportions
against the waves that this morning had run so smoothly
under her bow.
Wood and rigging groaned as if the vessel was straining
to hold together, and a torrent of water nearly swept Kurt
oft his feet. Rain and salt water mixed in a ceaseless,
blinding mist. In the shadowy sky lightning flashed and
thunder boomed directly after, and Kurt flinched against
the cabin wall, constantly expecting the ship not to
surface after the next pitch downward or the breaking of
spray across her deck. Thunder ripped overhead-lightning
seemed close enough to take the very mast. His heart was in
his throat already; at every crash of thunder he simply
shut his eyes and expected to die. He had ridden out combat
a dozen times. The fury of this little landbound sea was
more awesome. He clung, half drowned, and shivered in the
howling wind, and Kta's green-eyed sea-sprites seemed
real and malevolently threatening, the depths yawning open
and deadly, alternate with the sky beyond the rail. He
could almost hear them singing in the wind.
It was a measureless time before the rain ceased, but at
last the clouds broke and the winds abated. To starboard
through the haze of rain land appeared, the land they so
much wanted to leave behind, a dim gray line, the stark
cliffs and headlands of Sufak. Kta turned the helm over to
Tkel and stood looking toward the east, wiping the rain
from his face. The water streamed from his hair.
"How much have we lost?" Kurt asked.
Kta shrugged. "Considerable. Considerable. We must
fight contrary winds, at least for the present. Spring is a
constant struggle between south wind and north, and
eventually south must win. It is a question of tune and
heaven's good favor."
"Heaven's good favor would have prevented that
storm," said Kurt. Cold limbs and exhaustion made him
more acid than he was lately wont to be with Kta, but Kta
was well-armored this day. He merely shrugged off the human
cynicism.
"How are we to know? Maybe we were going toward
trouble and the wind blew us back to safety. Maybe the
storm had nothing to do with us. A man should not be too
conceited."
Kurt gave him a peculiar look, and caught his balance as
the sea's ebbing violence lifted Tavi's bow and
lowered it again. It pleased him, even so, to find Kta
straight-facedly laughing at him; so it had been in Elas,
on evenings when they talked together, making light of
their serious differences. It was good to know they could
still do that.
"Hya!" Val cried. "My lord Kta!
Ship astern!"
There was, amid the gray haze, a tiny object that was
not a part of the sea or the shore. Kta swore.
"They cannot help but overhaul us, my
lord!"
"That much is sure," said Kta, and then lifted
his voice to the crew. "Men, if that is Edrif
astern, we have a fight coming. Arm yourselves and check
your gear; we may not have time later. Kurt, my
friend"-Kta turned and faced him-"when they
close, as I fear they will, keep away from exposed areas.
The Sufaki are quite accurate bowmen. If we are rammed,
jump and try to find a bit of wood to cling to. Use sword
or ax, whatever you wish, but I do not plan to be boarding
or boarded if I can prevent it. Badly as we both want Shan
t'Tefur, we dare not risk it."
The intervening space closed slowly. Nearer view
confirmed the ship as Edrif, a sixty-oared
longship, and Tavi, though of newer and swifter
design, had ten of her fifty benches vacant. At the moment
only twenty oars were working.
"Ei," said Kta to the men in the
rowers' pits on either side of him, the other twenty
also seated and ready, six of the deck crew taking vacant
posts to bring Tavi's oarage closer to normal
strength. "Ei, now, keep the pace, you
rowers, as you are, and listen to me. Edrif is
stalking us, and we will have to begin to move. Let none of
us make a mistake or hesitate; we have no margin and no
relief. Skill must save us, skill and discipline and
experience; no Sufak ship can match us in that. Now, now,
run out the rest of the oars. Hold, you other men,
hold!"
The cadence halted briefly, Tavi's twenty
working oars poised creaking and dripping until the other
twenty-six were run out and ready. Kta gave the count
himself, a moderate pace. Edrif gained steadily,
her sixty oars beating the sea. Figures were now
discernible on her deck.
Kurt made a quick descent to seize a blade from a rack
in the companionway, and on second thought exchanged it for
a short-handled ax, such as was properly designed for
freeing shattered rigging, not for combat. He did not
estimate that his lessons with Kta had made him a fencer
equal to a nemet who had handled the ypan all his
life, and he did not trust that all Sufaki shunned the
ypan in favor of the bow and the knife.
He delayed long enough to dress too, to slip on a
pel beneath the ctan and belt it, for the
wind was bitter, and the prospect of entering a fight all
but naked did not appeal to him.
When he had returned to the deck, even after so brief ~a
time, Edrif had closed the gap further, so that
her green dragon figurehead was clear to be seen above the
water that boiled about her metal-shod ram. A stripe-robed
officer stood at her bows, shouting back orders, but the
wind carried his voice away.
"Prepare to turn full about," Kta shouted to
his own crew. "Quick turn, starboard bank . . . stand
by ... turn! Hard about, hard!"
Tavi changed course with speed that made her
timbers groan, oars and helm bringing her about
three-quarters to the wind, and Kta was already shouting an
order to Pan.
The dark blue sail with the lightning emblem of Elas
billowed down from the yard and filled, deck crew hauling
to sheet it home. Tavi came alive in the water,
suddenly bearing down on Edrif with the driving
power of the wind and her forty-six oars.
Frenzied activity erupted on the other deck.
Edrif began to turn, full broadside for a moment,
continuing until she was nearly stern on. Her dark green
sail spread, but she could not turn with graceful
Tavi's speed, and her crew hesitated, taken by
surprise. Tavi had the wind in her own sail,
stealing it from theirs.
"Portside oars!" Kta roared over the thunder
of the rowing. "Stand by to ship oars portside!
Hya, Val!"
"Aye!" Val shouted back. "Understood, my
lord!"
A shout of panic went up from Edrif as
Tavi closed, and Kta shouted to the portside bank
as they headed for collision. Tavi's two banks
lifted from the water, and with frantic haste the men
portside shipped oars while the starboard rowers held their
poised level.
With the final force of wind and gathered speed,
Tavi brushed the side of Edrif, the Sufak
vessel's starboard oars splintering as shouts of pain
and panic came from her pits. Sufaki rowers deserted their
benches and scrambled for very life, their officers cursing
at them in vain.
"Take in sail!" Kta shouted, and
Tavi's blue sail began to come in. Quickly she
lost the force of the wind and glided under momentum.
"Helm!" Kta shouted. "Starboard oars ...
in water . . . and pull!"
Tavi was already beginning to turn about under
her helm, and the one-sided bite of her oars took her hard
about again, timbers groaning. There was a crack like a
shot and a scream: one of the long sweeps had snapped under
the strain and tumbled a man bleeding into the next bench.
The next man leaned to let him fall, but kept the pace, and
one of the deck crew ran to aid him, dragging him from the
pit. Arrows hissed across the deck. Sufaki archers.
"Portside oars!" Kta shouted, as those men,
well-drilled, had already run out their oars to be ready.
"All hold! In water . . . and pull!"
Forty-five oars hit the water together, muscles rippled
across glistening backs-stroke-and stroke-and stroke, and
Edrif astern and helpless with half her oarage
hanging in ruin and her deck littered with splinter-wounded
men. The arrows fell short now, impotent. The breathing of
Tavf's men was in unison and loud, like the ship
drawing wind, as if all the crew and the ship they sailed
had become one living entity as she drove herself
northward, widening the distance.
"First shift," Kta shouted. "Up
oars!"
With a single clash of wood the oars came up and held
level, dipping and rising slightly with the give of the sea
and the oarsmen's panting bodies.
"Ship oars and secure. Second shift, hold for new
pace. Take your beat. Now . . . two . . . three . .
."
They accepted the more leisurely pace, and Kta let go a
great sigh and looked down at his men. The first shift
still leaned over the wooden shafts, heaving with the
effort to breathe. Some coughed rackingly, striving with
clumsy hands to pull their discarded cloaks up over their
drenched shoulders.
"Well done, my friends," said Kta. "It
was very well done."
Lun and several others lifted a hand and signaled a
wordless salute, without breath to speak.
"Hya, Pan, you men. It was as fine a job
as I have seen. Get coverings for all those men in the
pits. A sip of water too. Kurt, help there, will
you?"
Kurt moved, glad at last to find himself useful, and
took a pitcher of water to the side of the pit. Two of the
men were overcome with exhaustion and had to be lifted
out
and laid on the deck beside the man whose splintered oar
had gashed his belly. It proved an ugly wound, but the
belly cavity was not pierced. The man was vowing he would
be fit for duty in a day, but Kta ordered otherwise.
Edrif was far astern now, a mere speck, not
attempting to follow them. Val gave the helm to Pan and
walked forward to join Kta and Kurt.
"The hull took it well," Val reported.
"Chal just came up from checking it. But
Edrif will be a while mending."
"Shan t'Tefur has a mighty hate for us,"
said Kta, "not lessened by this humiliation. As soon
as they can bind up their wounds and fit new oars, they
will follow."
"It was bloody chaos on her deck," said Val
with satisfaction. "I had a clear view of it. Shan
t'Tefur has reason to chase us, but those Sufaki seamen
may decide they have had enough. They ought to know we
could have sunk them if we had wished."
"The thought, may occur to them, but I doubt it
will win us their gratitude. We will win as much time as We
can." He scanned the pits. "I have not pulled an
oar in several years, but it will do me no harm. And you,
friend Kurt, you are due gentler care after what you have
endured, but we need you."
Kurt shrugged cheerfully enough. "I will
learn."
"Go bandage your hands," said Kta. "You
have little whole skin left. You are due to lose what
remains."
XVII
The clouds had gone by morning and Phan shed his light
over a dead calm sea. Tavi rolled with a lazy
motion, all but dead in the water, her crew lying over the
deck where they could find space, wrapped in their
cloaks.
Kurt walked to the stern, rubbing his eyes to keep
awake.
His companion on watch, Pan, stood at
the helm. The
youth's eyes were closed. He swayed on his feet.
"Pan," said Kurt gently, and Pan came awake
with a jerk, his face flushing with consternation.
"Forgive me, Kurt-ifhan."
"I saw you nod," Kurt said, "only an
instant ago. Go lie down and I will stand by the helm. In
such a sea, it needs no skill."
"I ought not, my lord, I-"
The youth's eyes suddenly fixed on the sky in hope,
and Kurt felt it too, the first effects of a gentle
southern breeze. It stirred their hair and their cloaks,
touched their faces lightly and ruffled the placid
waters.
"Hya!" Pan shrieked, and all across
the deck men sat up. 'The wind, the south
wind!"
Men were on their feet, and Kta appeared in the doorway
of the cabin and waved his hand in signal to Val, who
shouted an order for the men to get moving and set the
sail.
In a moment the night-blue sail billowed out full.
Tavi came to run before the wind. A cheer went up
from the crew as they felt it.
"Ei, my friends," and Kta grinned,
"full rations this morning, and permission to indulge,
but moderately. I want no headaches. That wind will bear
Edrif along too, so keep a sharp eye on all
quarters, you men on watch. You rowers, enjoy
yourselves."
The wind continued fair and the battered men of
Tavi were utterly content to sleep in the sun, to
massage heated oil into aching limbs and blistered hands,
to lie still and talk, employing their hands as they did so
with the many small tasks that kept Tavi in
running order.
Toward evening Kta ordered a course change and
Tavi bore abruptly northwest, coming in toward the
Isles. A ship was on the western horizon at sunset,
creating momentary alarm, but the sail soon identified her
as a merchant vessel of the house of Ilev, the .white bird
emblem of that house shining like a thing alive on the
black sail before the sun.
The merchantman passed astern and faded into the
shadowing east, which did not worry them. Ilev was a
friend.
Soon there were visible the evening lights on the shores
of a little island. Now the men ran out the oars with a
will and bent to them as Tavi drew toward that
light-jeweled strand: Acturi,
home port of Hnes,
a powerful Isles-based family of the
Indras-descended.
"Gan t'Hnes," said Kta as Tavi
slipped into the harbor of Acturi, "will not be moved
by threats of the Sufaki. We will be safe here for the
night."
A bell began to toll on shore, men with torches running
to the landing as Tavi glided in and ran in her
oars.
"Hya!" a voice ashore hailed them.
"What ship are you?"
"Tavi, out of Nephane. Tell Gan t'Hnes
that Elas asks his hospitality."
"Make fast, Tavi, make fast and come
ashore. We are friends here. No need to ask."
"Are you sure of them?" Kurt wondered quietly,
as the mooring lines were cast out and made secure.
"What if some ship of the Methi made it in
first?" He nervously scanned the other ships down the
little wharf, sails furled and anonymous in the dark.
"Hnes might be forced-"
"No, if Gan t'Hnes will not honor
house-friendship, then the sun will rise in the west
tomorrow dawn. I have known this man since I was a boy at
his feet, and Hnes and Elas have been friends for a
thousand years. . . . Well, at least for nine hundred,
which is as far as Hnes can count."
"And if that was not t'Hnes' word you were
just given?"
"Peace, suspicious human, peace. If Acturi had been
taken from Hnes' control, the shock would have been
felt from shore to shore of the Ome Sin. Hya, Val,
run out the gangplank and Kurt and I will go ashore. Stay
with the ship and hold the men until I have Can's leave
to bring our crew in."
Gan t'Hnes was a venerable old man and, looking at
him, Kurt found reason that Kta should trust him. He was
solidly Indras, this patriarch of Actuary's trading
empire. His house on the hill was wealthy and proper, the
hearthfire tended by lady Na t'Ilev e Ben sh'Kma,
wife to the eldest of Gan's three sons, who himself was
well into years. Lord Gan was a widower, the oldest nemet
Kurt had seen; to consider that nemet lived long and very
scarcely showed age, he must be ancient.
Of course formalities preceded any discussion of
business, all the nemet rituals. There was a young woman,
granddaughter to the chan of Hnes. She made the
tea and served it, and seeing her from the back, her
graceful carriage and the lustrous darkness of her hair,
Kurt thought of Mim. She
even looked a little like her in the face, and when he
knelt down and offered him a cup of tea he stared, and felt
a pain that brought tears to his eyes.
The girl bowed her head, cheeks flushing at being gazed
at by a man, and Kurt took the cup and looked down and
drank his tea, thoughts returning in the quiet and peace of
this Indras home that had not touched him since that night
in Nephane. It was like coming home, for he had never
expected to set foot in a friendly house again; and yet
home was Elas, and Mim, and both were gone.
Hnes was a large family, ruled of course by Gan, and by
Kma, his eldest, and lady Na. There were others of the
house too, one son being away at sea. There was the aged
chan, Dek, his two daughters and several
grandchildren; Gan's second son Lei and his wife Pym
and concubine Tekje h'Hnes; Lei's daughter Imue, a
charming child of about twelve, who might be the daughter
of either of his two wives-she had Tekje's Sufak-tilted
eyes, but sat beside Pym and treated both her mothers with
respectful affection; and there were two small boys, both
sons of Lei.
The first round of tea was passed with quiet
conversation. The nemet were curious about Kurt, the
children actually frightened, but the elders smoothed
matters over with courtesy.
Then came the second round, and the ladies left with the
children, all but lady Na, the first lady of Hnes, whose
opinion was of equal weight with that of the elder men.
"Kta," began the lord of Hnes cautiously,
"how long are you out from Nephane?"
"Nigh to fifteen days."
"Then," said the old man, "you were there
to be part of the sad tale which has reached us."
"Elas no longer exists in Nephane, my lord, and I
am exiled. My parents and the chan are
dead."
"You are in the house of friends," said Gan
t'Hnes. "Ai, that I should have lived to
see such a day. I loved your father as my great friend,
Kta, and I love you as if you were one of my own. Name the
ones to blame for this."
"The names are too high to curse, my
lord."
"No one is beyond the reach of heaven."
"I would not have all Nephane cursed for my sake.
The ones responsible are the Methi Djan and her Sufaki
lover Shan t'Tefur u Tlekef. I have sworn undying
enmity between Elas and the Chosen of Heaven, and a
bloodfeud between Elas and the house of Tefur, but I chose
exile. If I had intended war, I could have raised war that
night in the streets of Nephane. So might my father, and
chose to die rather than that. I honor his
self-restraint."
Gan bowed his head in thoughtful sorrow. "A ship
came two days ago," he said. "Dkelis of
Irain in Nephane. Her word was from the Chosen of Heaven
herself, that Elas had offended against her and had chosen
to remove itself from her sight; that the true author of
the offense was-forgive me, my guests-a human who did
murder against citizens of Nephane while under the
guardianship of Elas."
"I killed some of t'Tefur's men," said
Kurt, sick at heart. He looked at Kta. "Was that it?
Was that what caused it?"
"You know there were other reasons," said Kta
grimly. 'This was only her public excuse, a means to
pass blame. My lord Gan, was that the sum of the
message?"
"In sum," said Gan, "that Elas is outlawed
in all holdings of Nephane; that all citizens must treat
you as enemies; that you, Kta, and all with you, are to be
killed-excepting lord Kurt, who must be returned alive and
unharmed to the Methi's justice."
"Surely," said Kta, "Hnes will not
comply."
"Indeed not. Irain knew that. I doubt even they
would execute that order, brought face to face with
you."
"What will you, sir? Had you rather we spent the
night elsewhere? Say it without offense. I am anxious to
cause you no inconvenience."
"Son of my friend," said Gan fiercely,
"there are laws older than Nephane, than even the
shining city itself, and there is justice higher than what
is writ in the Methi's decree. No. Let her study how to
enforce that decree. Stay in Acturi. I will make this whole
island a fortress against them if they want a fight of
it."
"My friend, no, no, that would be a terrible thing
for your people. We ask at the most supplies and water, in
containers that bear no mark of Hnes. Tavi will
clear your harbor at dawn. No one saw us come save only
Ilev, and they are house-friends to us both. And I do not
plan that any should see us go. Elas has fallen. That is
grief enough. I would not leave a wake of disaster to my
friends where I pass."
"Whatever you need is yours: harbor, supplies, an
escort of galleys if you wish it. But stay, let me persuade
you, Kta -I am not so old I would not fight for my friends.
All Acturi's strength is at your command. I do not
think that with war against Indresul imminent, the Methi
will dare alienate one of her possessions in the
Isles."
"I did not think she would dare what she
did against Elas, sir, and Shan t'Tefur is likely hard
behind us at the moment. We have met him once, and he would
act against you without hesitation. I know not what
authority the Methi has given him, but even if she would
hesitate, as you say, an attack might be an accomplished
fact before she heard about it. No, sir."
"It is your decision," said Gan regretfully.
"But I think even so, we might hold them."
"Provisions and weapons only. That is all I
ask."
"Then see to it, my sons, quickly. Provide
Tavi with all she needs, and have the hands start
loading at once."
The two sons of Hnes rose and bowed their respects all
around, then went off quickly to carry out their
orders.
"These supplies," said Gan, "are a
parting gift from Hnes. There is nothing I can send with
you to equal the affection I bear you, Kta, my almost-son.
Have you men enough? Some of mine would sail with
you."
"I would not risk them."
"Then you are shorthanded?"
"I would not risk them."
"Where will you go, Kta?"
"To the Yvorst Ome, beyond the reach of the Methi
and the law."
"Hard lands ring that sea, but Hnes ships come and
go there. You will meet them from time to time. Let them
carry word between us. Ai, what days these are. My
sight is longer than that of most men, but I see nothing
that gives me comfort now. If I were young, I think I would
sail with you, Kta, because I have no courage to see what
will happen here."
"No, my lord, I know you. I think were you as young
as I, you would sail to Nephane and meet the trouble
head-on as my father did. As I would do, but I had
Aimu's life to consider, and their souls in my
charge."
"Little Aimu. I hesitated to ask. I feared more bad
news."
"No, thank heaven. I gave her to a husband, and on
his life and honor he swore to me he would protect
her."
"What is her name now?" asked lady Na.
"My lady, she is Aimu t'Elas e Nym sh'Bel t
Osanef."
"T'Osanef," murmured Gan, in that tone
which said: Ei, Sufaki, but with
pity.
"They have loved each other from childhood,"
said Kta. "It was my father's will, and
mine."
"Then it was well done," said Gan. "May
the light of heaven fall gently on them both." And
from an Indras of orthodoxy, it was much. "He is a
brave man, this 't'Osanef, to be husband to our
Aimu now."
"It is true," said Kta, and to the lady Na:
"Pray for her, my lady. They have much need of
it."
"I shall, and for you, and for all who sail with
you," she answered, and included Kurt with a glance of
her lovely eyes, to which Kurt bowed in deep reverence.
"Thank you," said Kta. "Your house will
be in my thoughts too."
"I wish," said Gan, "that you would
change your mind and stay. But perhaps you are right.
Perhaps some day things will be different, since the Methi
is mateless. Someday it may be possible to
return."
"It is possible," said Kta, "if she does
not appoint a Sufaki successor. We do not much speak of it,
but we fear there will be no return, not for our
generation."
Gan's jaw tightened. "Acturi will send ships
out tonight, I think."
"Do not fight t'Tefur," Kta pleaded.
"They will sail, I say, and provide at least a
warning to Edrif."
"When Djan-methi knows of it-"
'Then she will learn the temper of the Isles,"
said Gan, "and the Chosen of Heaven will perhaps
restrain her ambition with sense."
"Ai," murmured Kta. "I do not
want this, Gan."
"This is Hnes's choice. Elas has its own honor
to consider. I have mine."
"Friend of my father, these waters are too close to
Indresul's. You know not what you could let loose. It
is a dangerous act."
"It is," said Gan again, "Hnes's
choice."
Kta bowed his head, bound to silence under Gan's
roof, but that night he spent long in meditation and lay
wakeful on his bed in the room he shared with Kurt.
Kurt watched him, and ventured no question into his
unrest. He had enough of his own that evening, beginning
to
fit together the pieces of what Kta had never explained
to him, the probable scene in the Upei as Nym demanded
justice for Mim's death, while the Methi had in the
actions of Elas' own guest the pretext she needed to
destroy Elas.
So Nym had died, and Elas had fallen.
And Djan could claim he had made it all inevitable, his
marriage with Mim and his loyalty to Elas being the origin
of all her troubles.
. . . Excepting lord Kurt, -who must be returned
alive and unharmed to the Methi's
justice.
Hanan justice.
The justice of a personal anger, where the charges were
nothing she would dare present in the Upei. She would
destroy all he loved, but she would not let him go. Being
Hanan, she believed in nothing after. She would not grant
him quick oblivion. .
He lay on the soft down mattress of Hnes's luxury
and stared into the dark, and slept only the hours just
before dawn, troubled by dreams he could not clearly
remember.
The wind bore fair for the north now, warm from the
Tamur Basin. The blue sail drew taut and
Tavi's bow lanced through the waves, cutting
their burning blue to white foam. •
Still Kta looked often astern, and whether his concern
was more for Gan t'Hnes or for t'Tefur, Kurt was
not sure.
"It is out of our hands," Kurt said
finally.
"It is out of our hands," Kta agreed with yet
another look aft. There was nothing. He bit at his lip.
"Ei, ei, at least he will not be with us
through the Thiad."
"The Necklace. The Lesser Isles." Kurt knew
them by repute, barren crags strung across the Ome
Sin's narrowest waters, between Indresul and Nephane
and claimed by neither side successfully. They were a maze
by fair weather, a killer of ships in storms. "Do we
go through it or around?"
"Through if the weather favors us. To Nephane's
side- wider waters there-if the seas are rough. I do not
treat Indresul's waters with the familiarity the
Isles-folk use. Well, past that barrier we are free, my
friend, free as the north seas and their miserable ports
allow us."
"I have heard," Kurt offered, "that there
is some civilization there, some cities of size."
"There are two towns, and those are primitive. One
might be called a city, Haithen. It is a city of wood, of
frozen streets. Yvesta the mother of snows never looses
those lands. There are no farms, only desolate flats and
impossible mountains and frozen rivers. Ice masses float in
the Yvorst Ome that can crush ships, and there are great
sea beasts the like of which do not visit these blue
waters. Ai, it is nothing like Nephane."
"Are you regretting," Kurt asked softly,
"that you have chosen as you have?"
"It is a strange place we go," said Kta,
"and yet shame to Elas is worse. I think Haithen may
be preferable to the Methi's law. It pains me to say
it, but Haithen may be infinitely preferable to the
Methi's Nephane. Only when we are passing by the coast
of Nephane, I shall think of Aimu, and of Bel, and wish
that I had news of them. That is the hardest thing, to
realize that there is nothing I can do. Elas is not
accustomed to helplessness."
En t'Siran, captain of Rimaris, swung onto
the deck of the courier ship Kadese, beneath the
furled red sails. Such was his haste that he did not even
sit and take tea with the captain of Kadese before
he delivered his message; he took the ritual sip of tea
standing, and scarcely caught his breath before he passed
the cup back to the captain's man and bowed his
courtesy to the senior officer.
"T'Siran," said the courier captain,
"you signaled urgent news."
"A confrontation," said t'Siran,
"between Isles ships and a ship of their own
kind."
"Indeed." The captain put his own cup aside,
signaled a scribe, who began to write. "What happened?
Could you identify any of the houses?"
"Easily on the one side. They bore the moon of
Acturi on their sails-Gan t'Hnes' sons, I am well
sure of it. The other was a strange sail, dark green with a
gold dragon."
"I do not know that emblem," said the captain.
"It must be one of those Sufak designs."
"Surely," agreed t'Siran, for the dragon
Yr was not one of the lucky symbols for an Indras ship.
"It may be a Methi's ship."
"A confrontation, you say. With what
result?"
"A long wait. Then dragon-sail turned aside, toward
the coast of Sufak."
"And the men of Acturi?"
"Held their position some little time. Then they
went back into the Isles. We drew off quickly. We had no
orders to provoke combat with the Isles. That is the sum of
my report."
"It is," said the captain of Kadese,
"a report worth carrying."
"My lord." En t'Siran acknowledged the
unusual tribute from a courier captain, bowed his head and,
as the captain returned the parting courtesy, left.
The captain of Kadese hardly delayed to see
Rimaris spread sail and take her leave before he
shouted an order to his own crew and bade them put about
for Indresul.
The thing predicted was beginning. Nephane had come to a
point of division. The Methi of Indresul had direct
interest in this evidence, which might affect polices up
and down the Ome Sin and bring Nephane nearer its day of
reckoning.
From now on, Kadese's captain thought to
himself, the Methi Ylith would begin to listen to her
captains, who urged that there would be no better time than
this. Heaven favored it.
"Rowers to the benches," he bade his second,
"reliefs at the minimum interval, all available
crew."
With four shifts and a hundred and ten oars, the slim
Kadese was equipped to go the full distance. The
wind was fair behind her. Her double red sail was bellied
out full, and there was nothing faster on either side of
the Ome Shi.
There were scattered clouds, small wisps of white with
gray undersides that grew larger in the east as the hours
passed. The crew of Tavi kept a nervous watch on
the skies, dreading the shift of wind that could mean delay
in these dangerous waters.
In the west, near at hand, rose the grim jagged spires
of the Thiad. The sun declined toward the horizon,
threading color into the scant clouds which touched that
side of the sky.
The waves splashed and rocked at them as Tavi
came dangerously close to a rock that only scarcely broke
the surface. One barren island was to starboard, a long
spine of jagged rocks.
It was the last of the feared islets.
"We are through," exulted Mnek as it fell
behind them. "We are for the Yvorst Ome."
Then sail appeared in the dusky east
Val t'Ran, normally harsh-spoken, did not even swear
when it was reported. He put the helm over for the west,
cutting dangerously near the fringe rocks of the north
Thiad, and sent Pan running to take orders from Kta, who
was coming toward the stern as rapidly as Kta ever moved on
Tavr's deck.
"To the benches!" Kta was shouting, rousing
everyone who had been off duty. Men scrambled before
him.
He strode up to the helm and gave Val the order to
maintain their present westerly heading. "Tkel!"
he called up to the rigging. "What sail?" "I
cannot tell, my lord," Tkel's voice drifted down
from the yard, where the man swung precariously on the
footrope. "The distance is too great."
"We shall keep it so," Kta muttered, and eyed
mistrustfully the great spires and deadlier rough water
which lay to port. "Gently to starboard, Val. Even for
good reason, this is too close."
"Aye, sir," said Val, and the ship came a few
degrees over. "They are following," Tkel shouted
down after a little time had passed. "They must think
we are out of Indresul, my lord."
"The lad is too free with his supposings," Val
said between his teeth.
"Nevertheless," said Kta, "that is
probably the answer." "I will join the deck
crew," Kurt offered. "Or serve as relief at the
benches."
"You are considered of Elas," said Kta.
"It makes the men uneasy when you show haste or
concern. But if work will relieve your nerves, indulge
yourself. Go to the benches." Kta himself was
frightened. It was likely that Kta himself would gladly
have taken a hand with the oars, with the rigging, with
anything that would have materially sped Tavi on
her way. Kurt knew the nemet well enough to read it in his
eyes, though his face was calm. He burned to do something.
They had fenced together; Kurt knew the nemet's
impatient nature. The Ancestors, Kta had told him once,
were rash men. That was the character of Elas.
In the jolted, moving vision of Kta that Kurt had from
the rowers' pit, his own mind numbed by the beat of the
oars and the need to breathe, the nemet still stood
serenely beside Val at the helm, arms folded, staring out
to the horizon. Then Tkel's shrill voice called down so
loudly it rose even over the thunder of the oars.
"Sails off the port bow!"
Tavi altered course. Deck crews ran to the
sheets, the oars shuddered a little at the unexpectedly
deep bite of the blades, lifted. Chal on the catwalk called
out a faster beat. Breath came harder. Vision blurred.
"They are three sails!" Tkel's voice
floated down.
It was tribute to Tavi's discipline that no
one broke time to look. Kta looked, and then walked down
among the rowers along the main deck so they could see him
clearly.
"Well," he said, "we bear due north.
Those are ships of Indresul ahead of us. If we can hold our
present course and they take interest in the other ship,
all will be well. Hya, Chal, ease off the beat.
Make it one which will last. We may be at this no little
time."
The cadence of the oars took a slower beat. Kta went
back to his place at the helm, looking constantly to that
threatened horizon. Whatever the Indras ships were doing
was something outside the world of the pits. The pace
maintained itself, mind lost, no glances at anything but
the sweat-drenched back of the man in front, his shoulders,
clearing the sweep in back only scarcely, bend and breathe
and stretch and pull.
"They are in pursuit," said Sten, whose bench
was aftmost port. . The cadence did not falter.
"They are triremes intercepting us," Kta said
at last, shouting so all could hear. "We cannot outrun
them. Hard starboard. We are going back to Nephane's
side."
At least two hundred and ten oars each, double sail.
As Tavi bore to starboard, Kurt had his first
view of what pursued them, through the carport: two-masted,
a greater and a lesser sail, three banks of oars on a side
lifting and falling like the wings of some sea-skimming
bird. They seemed to move effortlessly despite their
ponderous bulk, gaining with every stroke of their oars,
where men would have reliefs from the benches.
Tavi had none. It was impossible to hold this
pace long. Vision hazed. Kurt drew air that seemed tainted
with blood.
"We must come about," Val cried from the helm.
"We must Come about, my lord, and surrender."
Kta cast a look back. So, from his vantage point, did
Kurt, saw the first of the three Indras triremes pull out
to
the fore of the others, her gold and white sail taut
with the wind. The beat of her oars suddenly doubled, at
maximum speed.
"Up the beat," Kta ordered Chal, and Chal
shouted over the grate and thunder of the oars, quickening
the time to the limit of endurance.
And the wind fell.
The breath of heaven left the sail and had immediate
effect on the speed of Tavi. A soft groan went up
from the crew. They did not slacken the pace.
The leading trireme grew closer, outmatching them in
oarage.
"Hold!" Kta shouted hoarsely, and walked to
the front of the pits. "Hold! Up oars!"
The rhythm ceased, oars at level, men leaning over them
and using their bodies' weight to counter the length of
the sweeps, their breathing raucous and cut with hacking
coughs.
"Pan! Takel!" Kta shouted aloft. "Strike
sail!"
Now a murmur of dismay came from the men, and the crew
hesitated, torn between the habit of obedience and an order
they did not want.
"Move!" Kta shouted at them furiously.
"Strike sail! You men in the pits, ship oars and get
out of there! Plague take it, do not spoil our friendship
with mutiny! Get out of there!"
Lun, pit captain, gave a miserable shake of his head,
then ran in his oar with abrupt violence, and the others
followed suit. Pan and Mnek and Chal and others scrambled
to the rigging, and quickly a " 'ware below!"
rang out and the sail plummeted, tumbling down with a
shrill singing of ropes.
Kurt scrambled from the pit with the others, found the
strength to gain his feet and staggered back to join Kta on
the quarterdeck.
Kta took the helm himself, put the rudder over hard,
depriving Tavi of what momentum she had left.
The leading ship veered a little in its course, no
longer coming directly at them, and tension ebbed
perceptibly among Tavi's men.
Then light flashed a rapid signal from the deck of the
rearmost trireme and the lead ship changed course again,
near enough now that men could be clearly seen on her lofty
deck. The tempo of her oars increased sharply, churning up
the water.
"Gods!" Val murmured incredulously. "My
lord Kta, they are going to ram!"
"Abandon ship!" Kta shouted. "Val,
go-go, man! And you, Kurt-"
There was no time left. The dark bow of the Indras
trireme rushed at Tavi's side, the water foaming white
around the gleaming bronze of the vessel's double ram.
With a grinding shock of wood Tavi's s rail and deck
splintered and the very ship rose and slid sideways in the
water, lifted and pushed into ruin by the towering prow of
the trireme.
Kurt flung an arm around the far rail and clung to it,
shaken off his feet by the tilting of the deck. With a
second tilting toward normal and a grating sound, the
trireme began to back water and disengage herself as
Tavi's wreckage fell away. Dead were Uttered across the
deck. Men screamed. Blood and water washed over the
splintered planking.
"Kurt," Kta screamed at him,
"jump!"
Kurt turned and stared helplessly at the nemet, fearing
the sea as much as enemy weapons. Behind him the second of
the triremes was coming up on the undamaged side of the
listing ship, her oars churning up the bloodied waters.
Some of the survivors in the water were struck by the
blades, trying desperately to cling to them. The gliding
hull rode them under.
Kta seized him by the arm and pushed him over the rail.
Kurt twisted desperately in midair, hit the water hard and
choked, fighting his way to the surface with the
desperation of instinct.
His head broke surface and he gasped in air, sinking
again as he swallowed water in the chop, his hand groping
for anything that might float. A heavy body exploded into
the dark water beside him and he managed to get his head
above Water again as Kta surfaced beside him.
"Go limp," Kta gasped. "I can hold you if
you do not struggle."
Kurt obeyed as Kta's arm encircled his neck, went
under, and then felt the nemet's hand under his chin
lift his face to air again. He breathed, a great gulp of
air, lost the surface again. Kta's strong, sure strokes
carried them both, but the rough water washed over them. Of
a sudden he thought that Kta had lost him-and panicked as
Kta let him go-but the nemet shifted his grip and dragged
him against a floating section of timber.
Kurt threw both arms over it, coughing and choking for
air.
"Hold on!" Kta ^napped at him, and Kurt
obediently tightened his chilled arms, looking at the nemet
across the narrow bit of debris. Wind hit them, the first
droplets of rain. Lightning flashed in the murky sky.
Behind them the galley was coming about. Someone on deck
was pointing at them.
"Behind you," Kurt said to Kta. "They
have us in sight- for something."
Kurt lifted himself from his face on the deck of the
trireme, rose to his knees and knelt beside Kta's
sodden body. The nemet was still breathing, blood from a
head wound washing as a crimson film across the
rain-spattered deck. In another moment he began to try to
rise, still fighting.
Kurt took him by the arm, cast a look at the Indras
officer who stood among the surrounding crew. Receiving no
word from him, he lifted Kta so that he could rise to his
knees, and Kta wiped the blood from his eyes and leaned
over on his hands, coughing.
"On your feet," said the Indras captain.
Kta would not be helped. He shook off Kurt's hand
and completed the effort himself, braced his feet and
straightened.
"Your name," said the officer.
"Kta t'Elas u Nym."
"T'Elas," the man echoed with a nod of
satisfaction. "Aye, I was sure we had a prize. Put
them both in irons. Then put about for Indresul."
Kta gave Kurt a spiritless look, and in truth there was
nothing to do but submit. They were taken together into the
hold-the trireme having far more room belowdecks than
little Tavi-and in that darkness and cold they
were put into chains and left on the bare planking without
so much as a blanket for comfort.
"What now?" Kurt asked, clenching his teeth
against the spasms of chill.
"I do not know," said Kta. "But it would
surely have been better for us if we had drowned with the
rest."'
XVIII
Indresul the shining was set deep within a bay, a great
and ancient city. Her white triangle-arched buildings
spread well beyond her high walls, permanent and secure.
Warships and merchantmen were moored at her docks. The
harbor and the broad streets that fanned up into the city
itself were busy with traffic. In the high center of the
city, at the crest of the hill around which it was built,
rose a second great ring-wall, encircling large buildings
of gleaming white stone, an enormous fortress-temple
complex, the Indume, heart and center of Indresul. There
would be the temple, the shrine that all Indras-descended
revered as the very hearthfire of the universe.
"The home of my people," said Kta as they
stood on the deck waiting for their guards to take them
off. "Our land, which we call on in all our prayers. I
am glad that I have seen it, but I do not think we will
have a long view of it, my friend."
. Kurt did not answer him. No word could improve
matters. In the three days they had been chained in the
hold, he had had time to speak with Kta, to talk as they
once had talked in Elas, long, inconsequential talks,
sometimes even laughing, though the laughter had the taste
of ashes. But the one thing Kta had never said was what was
likely to happen to Kurt, only that he himself would be
taken in charge by the house of Elas-in-Indresul. Kta
undoubtedly did suspect and would not say. Perhaps too he
knew what would likely become of a human among these most
orthodox of Indras. Kurt did not want to foreknow it.
The mournful echo of sealing doors rolled through the
vaulted hall, and through the haze of lamps and incense in
the triangular hall burned the brighter glare of the
holy
fire, the rhmei and the phusmeha of
the Indume fortress. Kurt paused involuntarily as Kta did,
confused by the light and the profusion of faces.
From some doorway hidden by the haze and the light from
the hearthfire there appeared a woman, a shadow hi brocade
flanked by the more massive figures of armed men.
The guards who had brought them from the trireme moved
them forward with the urging of their spear shafts. The
woman did not move. Her face was clearer as they drew near
her; she was goddess-like, tall, willowy. The shining
darkness of her hair was crowned with a headdress that
fitted beside her face like the plates of a helm, and
shimmered when she moved with the swaying of fine gold
chains from the wide wings of it. She was nemet, and of
incredible beauty: Ylith t'Erinas ev Tehal, Methi of
Indresul.
Her dark eyes turned full on them, and Kta fell on his
face before her, full length on the polished stone of the
floor. Her gaze did not so much as flicker; this was the
obeisance due her. Kurt fell to his knees also, and on his
face, and did not look up.
"Nemet," she said, "look at me." Kta
stirred then and sat up, but did not stand. "Your
name," she asked him. Her voice had a peculiar
stillness, clear and delicate. "Methi, I am Kta
t'Elas u Nym."
"Elas. Elas of Nephane. How fares your house there,
t'Elas?"
"The Methi may have heard. I am the last"
"What, Elas fallen?"
"So Fate and the Methi of Nephane willed it."
"Indeed. And how is this, that a man of Indras descent
is companioned by a human?" "He is of my house,
Methi, and he is my friend." "You are an offense,
t'Elas, an affront to my eyes and to the pure light of
heaven. Let t'Elas be given to the examination of the
house he has defiled, and let their recommendation be made
known to me."
She clapped her hands. The guards moved in a clash of
metal and hauled Kta up. Kurt injudiciously flung himself
to his knees, halted suddenly with the point of a spear in
his side. Kta looked down at him with the face of a man who
knew his fate was sealed, and then yielded and went with
them. Kurt flashed a glance at Ylith, anger swelling in his
throat
The staff of the spear across his neck brought him half
stunned to the marble floor, and he expected it to be
through his back in the next instant, but the blow did not
come.
"Human." There was no love in that word.
"Sit up."
Kurt moved his arms and found purchase against the
floor. He did not move quickly, and one of his guards
jerked him up by the arm and let him go again.
"Do you have a name, human?"
"My name," he answered with deliberate
insolence, "is Kurt Liam t'Morgan u Patrick
Edward."
Ylith's eyes traveled over him and fixed last on his
face. "Morgan. This would be your own alien
house."
He made no response. Her tone invited none.
"Never have I looked upon a living human,"
Ylith said softly. "Indeed, this seems more
intelligent than the Tamurlin, is it not so, Lhe?"
"I do not believe," said the slender man at
her left, "that he is Tamurlin, Methi."
"He is still of their blood." A frown darkened
her eyes. "It is an outrage against nature. One would
take him for nemet but for that unwholesome coloration and
until one saw his face. Have him stand. I would take a
closer look at him."
Kurt had both his arms seized, and he was pulled roughly
and abruptly to his feet, his face hot with shame and
anger. But if there was one act that would seal the doom of
all Nephane, friends and enemies alike, it was for the
friend of Elas-in-Nephane to attack this woman. He
stubbornly turned his face away, until the flat of a spear
blade against his cheek turned his head back and he met her
eyes.
"Like one of the inim-born," the
Methi observed. "So one would imagine them, the
children of the upper air, somewhat birdlike, the madness
of eye, the sharpness of features. But there is some
intelligence there too. Lhe, I would save this human a
little time and study him."
"As the Methi wills it."
"Put him under restraint, and when I find the time
I will deal with the matter." Ylith started to turn
away, but paused instead for another look, as if the very
reality of Kurt was incredible to her. "Keep him in
reasonable comfort. He is able to understand, so let him
know that he may expect less comfort if he proves
troublesome."
Reasonable comfort, as Lhe interpreted it, was austere
indeed. Kurt sat against the wall on a straw-filled pallet
that was the only thing between him and the bare stones of
the floor, and shivered in the draft under the door. There
was a rounded circlet of iron around his ankle, secured by
a chain to a ringbolt in the stones of the wall, and it was
beyond his strength to tear free. There was nowhere to go
if he could.
He straightened his leg, dragging the chain along the
floor with him, and stretched out facedown on the pallet,
doubling his chilled arms under him for warmth.
Nothing the Tamurlin had done to him could equal the
humiliation of this; the worst beating he had ever taken
was no shame at all compared to the look with which Ylith
t'Erinas had touched him. They had insisted on washing
him, which he would gladly have done, for he was filthy
from his confinement in the hold, but they leveled spears
at him, forced him to stand against a wall and remove what
little clothing he still wore, then scrub himself
repeatedly with strong soap. Then they hit him with a
bucketful of cold water, and gave him nothing with which to
dry his skin. There was a linen breechclout, not even the
decency of a ctan. That and an iron ring and a cup
of water from which to drink, that was the consideration
Lhe afforded him.
Hours passed, and the oil lamp on the ledge burned out,
leaving only the light that came through the small barred
window from the outer hall. He managed to sleep a little,
turning from side to side, warming first his arms and then
his back against the mattress.
Then, without warning or explanation, men invaded his
cell and forced him from the room under heavy guard,
hastening him along the dim halls, the ring on his ankle
band a constant, metallic sound at every other step.
Upstairs was their destination, a small room somewhere
in the main building, warmed by an ordinary fire in a
common hearth. A single pillar supported its level
ceiling.
To this they chained his hands, passing the chain behind
Mm around the pillar, then they left him, and he was alone
for a great time. It was no hardship; it was warm in this
room. He absorbed the heat gratefully and sank down at the
base of this pillar, leaning against it and bowing his
head, willing even to sleep.
"Human."
He brought his head up, blinking in the dim light. Ylith
had come into the room. She sat down on the ledge beneath
the slit of a window and regarded him curiously. She was
without the crown now, and her massive braids coiled on
either side of her head gave her a strangely fragile
grace.
"You are one of the human woman's
companions," she said, "that she missed
killing."
"No," he said, "I came
independently."
"You are an educated human, as she
is."
"As educated as you are, Methi."
Ylith's eyes registered offense, and, it was
possible, amusement. "You are not a civilized human,
however, and you are therefore demonstrating your lack of
manners."
"My civilization," he said, "is some
twelve thousand years old. And I am still looking for
evidence of yours in this city."
The Methi laughed outright. "I have never met such
answers. You hope to die, I take it. Well, human, look at
me. Look up."
He did so.
"It is difficult to accustom myself to your
face," she said. "But you do reason. I perceive
that. What is the origin of humans, do you know?"
It was, religiously, a dangerous question. "We
are," he said, "children of one of the brothers
of the earth, at least as old as the nemet."
"But not light-born," said Ylith, which was to
say, unholy and lawless. "Tell me this, wise human:
does Phan light your land too?"
"No. One of Phan's brothers lights our
world."
Her brows lifted. "Indeed. Another
sun?"
He saw the snare suddenly, realized that the Indras of
the shining city were not as liberal and cosmic in their
concept of the universe as human-dominated Nephane.
"Phan," she said, "has no
equals."
He did not attempt to answer her. She did not rage at
him, only kept staring, her face deeply troubled. Not
naive, was Ylith of Indresul; she seemed to think deeply,
and seemed to find no answer that pleased her. "You
seem to me," she said, "precisely what I would
expect from Nephane. The Sufaki think such
things."
"The yhia," he said, venturing
dangerously, "is beyond man's grasp, is that not
so, Methi? And when man seeks to understand, being man and
not god, he seeks within mortal limits, and understands his
truth in simple terms and under the guise of familiar words
that do not expand his mortal senses beyond his capacity to
understand. This is what I have heard. We all-being
mortal-deal in models of reality, in
oversimplifications."
It was such a thesis as Nym had posed him once over tea,
in the peace of the rhmei of Elas, when
conversation came to serious things, to religion, to
humanity. They had argued and disagreed, and they had been
able then to smile and reconcile themselves in reason. The
nemet loved debating. Each evening at teatime there was a
question posed if there was no business at hand, and they
would talk the topic to exhaustion.
"You interest me," said Ylith. "I think I
shall hand you over to the priests and let them hear this
wonder, a human that reasons."
"We are," he said, "reasoning
beings."
"Are you of the same source as
Djan-methi?"
"Of the same kind, not the same politics or
beliefs."
"Indeed."
"We have disagreed."
Ylith considered him in some interest. "Tell me, is
the color of her hair truly like that of metal?"
"Like copper."
"You were her lover."
Heat flashed to his face. He looked suddenly and
resentfully into her eyes. "You are well-informed.
Where do you plant your spies?"
"Does the question offend you? Do humans truly
possess a sense of modesty?"
"And any other feeling known to the nemet," he
returned. "I had loved your people. Is this
what your philosophy comes to, hating me because I disturb
your ideas, because you cannot account for me?"
He would never have said such a thing outside Elas. The
nemet themselves were too self-contained, although he could
have said it to Kta. He was exhausted; the hour was late.
He came close to tears, and felt shamed at his own
outburst.
But Ylith tilted her head to one side, a little frown
creasing her wide-set brows. "You are certainly unlike
the truth I have heard of humans." And after a moment
she rose and opened the door, where an elderly man waited,
a white-haired man whose hair flowed to his shoulders, and
whose ctan and pel were gold-bordered
white.
The old man made a profound obeisance to Ylith, but he
did not kneel. By this it was evident that she knew of his
presence there, that they had agreed beforehand.
"Priest," she said, "look on this
creature and tell me what you see."
The priest straightened" and turned his watery eyes
on Kurt. "Stand," he urged gently. Kurt gathered
his almost paralyzed limbs beneath him and struggled
awkwardly to his feet. Suddenly he hoped; he did not know
why this alien priest should inspire that in him, but the
voice was soft and the dark eyes like a benediction.
"Priest," urged the Methi.
"Great Methi," answered the priest, "this
is no easy matter. Whether this is a man as we understand
the word, I cannot say. But he is not Tamurlin. Let the
Methi do as seems just in her own eyes, but it is possible
that she is dealing with a feeling and reasoning being,
whether or not it is a man."
"Is this creature good or evil, priest?"
"What is man, great Methi?"
"Man," snapped the Methi impatiently, "is
the child of Nae. Whose child is he, priest?"
"I do not know, great Methi."
Ylith lowered her eyes then, flicked a glance toward
Kurt and down and back again. "Priest, I charge you,
debate this matter within the college of priests and return
me an answer. Take him with you if it will be
needful."
"Methi, I will consult with them, and we will send
for him if his presence seems helpful."
"Then you are dismissed," she said, and let
the priest go.
Then she left too, and Kurt sank down again against his
pillar, confused and mortally tired and embarrassed. He was
alone and glad to be alone, so he did not have to be so
treated before friends or familiar enemies.
He slumped against his aching joints and tried to will
himself to sleep. In sleep the time passed. In sleep he did
not need to think.
In sleep sometimes he remembered Mim, and thought
himself in Elas, and that the morning bells would never
ring.
Doors opened, boomed shut. People stirred around him,
shuffling here and there, forcing him back to
wakefulness.
The Methi had come back.
This time they brought Kta.
Kta saw him--relief touched his eyes-but he could say
nothing. The Methi's presence demanded his attention.
Kta came and knelt before her, and went full to his face.
His movements were not easy. He appeared to have been
hard-used.
And she ignored him, looking above his prostrate form to
the tall, stern man who bowed stiffly to his knees and rose
again.
"Vel t'Elas," said Ylith, "what has
Elas-in-Indresul determined concerning this man
Kta?"
Kta's distant kinsman bowed again, straightened. He
was of immense dignity, a man reminiscent of Nym. "We
deliver him to the Methi for judgment, for life or for
death."
"How do you find concerning his dealings with
Elas?"
"Let the Methi be gracious. He has kept our law and
still honors our Ancestors, except in the offense for which
we deliver him up to you: his dealings with this human, and
that he is of Nephane."
"Kta t'Elas u Nym," said Ylith.
Kta lifted his face and sat back on his heels.
"Kta t'Elas, your people have chosen an alien
to rule them. Why?"
"She was chosen by heaven, Methi, not by men, and
it was a fair choosing, by the oracles."
"Confirmed in proper fashion by the Upei and the
Families?"
"Yes, Methi."
"Then," she said, looking about at the
officers who had come into the room, "heaven has
decided to deliver Nephane into our hands once more. And
you, u Nym, who were born Indras, where is your allegiance
now?"
"In my father's land, Ylith-methi, and with my
house-friends."
"Do you then reject all allegiance to this
house of Elas, which was father to your
Ancestors?"
"Great Methi," said Kta, and his voice broke,
"I reverence you and the home of my Ancestors, but I
am bound to Nephane by ties equally strong. I cannot
dishonor myself and the Ancestors of Elas by turning
against the city that gave me birth. Elas-in-Indresul would
not understand me if 1 did so."
"You equivocate."
"No, Methi. It is my belief."
"What was your mother's name, U Nym? Was she
Sufaki or was she Indras?"
"Methi, she was the lady Ptas t'Lei e Met
sh'Nym."
"Most honorable, the house of Lei. Then in both
lines you are Indras and well descended, surely of an
orthodox house. Yet you choose the company of Sufaki and
humans. I find this exceedingly difficult of understanding,
Kta t'Elas U Nym."
Kta bowed his head and gave no answer.
"Vel t'Elas," said the Methi, "is
this son of your house in any way a follower of the Sufak
heresy?"
"Great Methi, Elas finds that he has been educated
'into the use of alien knowledge and errors, but his
upbringing is orthodox."
"Kta t'Elas," said the Methi, "what
is the origin of humans?"
"I do not know, Methi."
"Do you say that they are possessed of a soul, and
that they are equal to nemet?"
Kta lifted his head. "Yes, Methi," he said
firmly, "I believe so."
"Indeed, indeed." Ylith frowned deeply and
rose from her place, smoothing the panels of her
chatem. Then she shot a hard look at the guards.
"Lhe, take these prisoners both to the upper prisons
and provide what is needful to their comfort. But confine
them separately and allow them no communication with each
other. None, Lhe."
"Methi." He acknowledged the order with a
bow.
Her eyes lingered distastefully on Kurt.
"This," she said, "is nemetlike. It is
proper that he be decently clothed. Insofar as he thinks he
is nemet, treat him as such."
Light flared.
Kurt blinked and rubbed his eyes as the opening of his
door and the intrusion of men with torches brought him out
. of a sound sleep into panic. Faceless shadows moved in on
him.
He threw off the blanket and scrambled up from the cot
his new quarters provided him-not to fight, not to fight-
that was the worst thing for him and for Kta.
"You must come," said Lhe's voice out of
the glare.
Kurt schooled himself to bow in courtesy, instincts
otherwise. "Yes, sir," he said, and began to put
on his clothing.
When he was done, one guard laid hands on him.
"My lord," he appealed to Lhe, a look of
reproach on his face. And Lhe, dignified, elegant Lhe, was
the gentleman Kurt suspected; he was too much nemet and too
Indras to ignore the rituals of courtesy when they were
offered.
"I think he will come of his own accord," said
Lhe to his companions, and they reluctantly let him
free.
"Thank you," said Kurt, bowing slightly.
"Can you tell me where or why . . . ?"
"No, human," said Lhe. "We do not know,
except that you are summoned to the justice hall."
"Do you hold trials at night?" Kurt
asked, honestly shocked. Even in liberal Nephane, no legal
business could be done after Phan's light had left the
land.
"You cannot be tried," said Lhe. "You are
human."
In some part it did not surprise him, but he had not
clearly considered the legalities of his status. Perhaps,
he thought, his dismay showed on his face, for Lhe looked
uncomfortable, shrugged and made a helpless gesture.
"You must come," Lhe repeated.
Kurt went with them unrestrained, through plain halls
and down several turns of stairs, until they came to an
enormous pair of bivalve doors and passed through them into
a hall of ancient stonework.
The beamed ceiling here was scarcely visible in the
light of the solitary torch, which burned in a wall socket.
The only furniture was a long tribunal and its chairs.
A ringbolt was in the floor, already provided with
chain. Lhe courteously-with immense courtesy-asked him to
stand there, and one of the men locked the chain through
the ring on his ankle.
He stared up at Lhe, rude, angry, and Lhe avoided his
eyes.
"Come," said Lhe to his men. "We are not
bidden to remain." And to Kurt: "Human, you will
win far more by humble words than by pride."
He might have meant it in kindness; he might have been
laughing. Kurt stared at their retreating backs, shaking
all over with rage and fright.
Of a sudden he cried out, kicked at the restraint in a
fit of fury, jerked at it again and again, willing even to
break his ankle if it would make them see him, that he was
not to be treated like this.
All that he succeeded in doing was hi losing his
balance, for there was not enough chain to do more than rip
the skin around his ankle. He sprawled on the bruising
stone and picked himself up, on hands and knees, head
hanging.
"Are you satisfied?" asked the Methi.
He spun on one knee toward the voice beyond the
torch-
light Softly a door closed unseen, and she came into the
circle of light. She wore a robe that was almost a mere
pelan, gauzy blue, and her dark hair was like a
cloud of night, held by a silver circlet around her
temples. She stopped at the edge of the tribunal, her short
tilted brows lifted in an expression of amusement.
"This is not," she said, "the behavior of
an intelligent
being."
He gathered himself to sit, nemet-fashion, on feet and
ankles, hands palm up in his lap, the most correct posture
of a visitor at another's hearth.
"This is not," he answered, "the welcome
I was accorded in Nephane, and some of them were my
enemies. I am sorry if I have offended you,
Methi."
"This is not," she said, "Nephane. And I
am not Djan." She sat down in the last of the chairs
of the tribunal and faced him so, her long-nailed hands
folded before her on the bar. "If you were to strike
one of my people . . ."
He bowed slightly. "They have been kind to me. I
have no intention of striking anyone."
"Ai," she said, "now you are
trying to impress us."
"I am of a house," he answered, hoping that he
was not causing Kta worse difficulty by that claim. "I
was taught courtesy. I was taught that the honor of that
house is best served by courtesy."
"It is," she said, "a fair
answer."
It was the first grace she had granted him. He looked up
at her with a little relaxing of his defenses.
"Why," he asked, "did you call me
here?"
"You troubled my dreams," she said. "I
saw fit to trouble yours." And then she frowned
thoughtfully. "Do you dream?"
It was not humor, he realized; it was, for a nemet, a
religiously reasonable question.
"Yes," he said, and she thought about that for
a time.
"The priests cannot tell me what you are," she
said finally. "Some urge that you be put to death
quite simply; others urge that you be killed by
atia. Do you know what that means,
t'Morgan?"
"No," he said, perceiving it was not threat
but question.
"It means," she said, "that they think
you have escaped the nether regions and that you should be
returned there with such pains and curses as will bind you
there. That is a measure of their distress at you.
Atia has not been done in centuries. Someone would
have to research the rites before they could be performed.
I think some priests are doing that now. But Kta t'Elas
insists you have a soul, though he could lose his own for
that heresy."
"Kta," said Kurt with difficulty through his
own fear, "is a gentle and religious man.
He-"
"T'Morgan," she said, "you are my
concern at the moment, what you are."
"You do not want to know. You will ask until you
get the answer that agrees with what you want to hear, that
is all."
"You have the look," she said, "of a
bird, a bird of prey. Other humans I have seen had the
faces of beasts. I have never seen one alive or clean. Tell
me, if you had not that chain, what would you do?"
"I would like to get off my knees," he said.
"This floor is cold."
It was rash impudence. It chanced to amuse her. Her
laugh held even a little gentleness. "You are
appealing. And if you were nemet, I could not tolerate that
attitude in you. But what things really pass in your mind?
What would you, if you were free?"
He shrugged, stared off into the dark. "I ... would
ask for Kta's freedom," he said. "And we
would leave Indresul and go wherever we could find a
harbor."
"You are loyal to him."
"Kta is my friend. I am of Elas."
"You are human. Like Djan, like the
Tamurlin."
"No," he said, "like neither."
"Wherein lies the difference?"
"We are of different nations."
"You were her lover, t'Morgan. Where
do you come from?"
"I do not know."
"Do not know?"
"I am lost. I do not know where I am Or where home
is."
She considered him, her beautiful face more than usually
nonhuman with the light falling on it at that angle, like a
slightly abstract work of art. "The hearthfire of your
kind, assuming you are civilized, lies far distant. It
would be terrible to die among strangers, to be buried with
rites not your own, with no one to call you by your right
name."
Kurt bowed his head, of a sudden seeing another darkened
room, Mini lying before the hearthfire of Elas, Mim without
her own name for her burying in Nephane: alien words and
alien gods, and the helplessness he had felt. He was afraid
suddenly with a fear she had put a name to, and he thought
of himself dead and being touched by them and committed to
burial in the name of gods not his and rites he did not
understand. He almost wished they would throw him
in the sea and give him to the fish and to
Kalyt's green-haired daughters.
"Have I touched on something painful?" Ylith
asked softly. "Did you find the Guardians of Elas
somewhat resentful of your presence, or did you imagine
that you were nemet?"
"Elas," he said, "was home to
me."
"You married there."
He looked up, startled, surprised into reaction.
"Did she consent," she asked, "or was she
given?"
"Who . . . told you of that?"
"Elas-in-Indresul examined Kta t'Elas on the
matter. I ask you, did she consent freely?"
"She consented." He put away his anger and
assumed humility for Mini's sake, made a bow of
request. "Methi, she was one of your own people, born
on Indresul's side. Her name was Mini t'Nethim e
Sel."
Ylith's brows lifted in dismay. "Have you
spoken with Lhe of this?"
"Methi?"
"He is of Nethim. Lhe t'Nethim u Kma,
second-son to the lord Kma. Nethim is of no great
friendship to Elas. T'Elas did not mention the house
name of the lady Mim."
"He never knew it. Methi, she was buried without
her right name. It would be a kindness if you would tell
the lord Kma that she is dead, so they could make prayers
for her. I do not think they would want to hear that
request from me."
"They will ask who is responsible for her
death."
"Shan t'Tefur u Tlekef and Djan of
Nephane."
"Not Kurt t'Morgan?"
"No." He looked down, unwilling to give way hi
her sight. The nightmare remembrances he had crowded out of
his mind in the daylight were back again, the dark and the
fire, and Nym standing before the hearthfire calling upon
his Ancestors with Mim dead at his feet. Nym could tell
them his grievances in person now. Nym and Ptas, Hef. They
had walked and breathed that night and now they had gone to
join her. Shadows now, all of them.
"I will speak to Kma t'Nethim and to Lhe,"
she said.
"Maybe," Kurt said, "you ought to omit to
tell them that she married a human."
Ylith was silent a moment. "I think," she
said, "that you grieve over her very much. Our law
teaches that you have no soul, and that she would have
sinned very greatly in consenting to such a
union."
"She is dead. Leave it at that."
"If," she continued, relentless in the pursuit
of her thought, "if I admitted that this was
not so, then it would mean that many wise men have been
wrong, that our priests are wrong, that our state has made
centuries of error. I would have to admit that in an
ordered universe there are creatures which do not fit the
order; I would have to admit that this world is not the
only one, that Phan is not the only god. I would have to
admit things for which men have been condemned to death for
heresy. Look up at me, human. Look at me."
He did as she asked, terrified, for he suddenly realized
what she was saying. She suspected the truth. There was no
hope in argument. It was not politically or religiously
expedient to have the truth published.
"You insist," she said, "that there are
two universes, mine and yours, and that somehow you have
passed into mine. By my rules you are an animal; I reason
that even an animal could possess the outward attributes of
speech and upright bearing. But in other things you are
nemetlike. I dreamed, t'Morgan. I dreamed, and you were
dead in my dream, and I looked on your face and it troubled
me exceedingly., I thought then that you had been alive and
that you had loved a nemet, and that therefore you must
have a soul. And I woke and was still troubled,
exceedingly."
"Kta," he said, "did nothing other than
you have done. He was troubled. He helped me. He ought to
be set free."
"You do not understand. He is nemet. The law
applies to him. You . . . can be kept. On him, I must
pronounce sentence. Would you choose to die with Kta,
rather than enjoy your life in confinement? You could be
made comfortable. It would not be that hard a
life."
He found surprisingly little difficult about the answer.
At the moment he was not even afraid. "I owe
Kta," he said. "He never objected to my company,
living. And that, among nemet, seems to have been a rare
friendship."
Ylith seemed a little surprised. "Well," she
said, rising and smoothing her skirts. "I will let you
return to your sleep,
t'Morgan. I will honor some of your requests. Nethim
will give her honor at my request."
"I am grateful for that, at least, Methi."
"Do you want for anything?"
"To speak with Kta," he said, "that most
of all."
"That," she said, "will not be
permitted."
XIX
Keys rattled. Kurt stirred out of the torpor of long
waiting. Suddenly he realized it was not breakfast. Too
many people were in the hall; he heard their moving, the
insertion of the key. Another of the moods of Ylith-methi,
he reckoned.
Or it was an execution detail, and he was about to learn
what had become of Kta.
Lhe led them, Lhe with fatigue marks under his eyes and
his normally impeccable hair disarranged. A tai, a
short sword, was through his belt.
"Wait down the hall," he said to the
others.
They did not want to go. He repeated the order, this
time with wildness in his voice, and they almost fled his
presence.
No! Kurt started to protest, rising off his
cot, but they were gone. Lhe closed the door and stood with
his hand clenched on the hilt of the tai.
"I am t'Nethim," said Lhe. "My
father's business is with Vel t'Elas. Mine is with
you. Mim t'Nethim was my cousin."
Kurt recovered his dignity and bowed slightly, ignoring
the threat of the fury that trembled in Lhe's nostrils.
After such a point, there was little else to do. "I
honored her," he said, "very much."
"No," said Lhe. "That you did
not."
"Please. Say the rites for her."
"We have said rites, with many prayers for the
welfare of her soul. Because of Mim • t'Nethim we
have spoken well of Elas to our Guardians for the first
tune in centuries: even in ignorance, they sheltered her.
But other things we will not forgive. There is no peace
between the Guardians of Nethim and you, human. They do not
accept this disgrace."
"Mim thought them in harmony with her choice,"
said Kurt. "There was peace in Mim. She loved Nethim
and she loved Bias."
It did not greatly please Lhe, but it affected him
greatly. His lips became a hard line. His brows came as
near to meeting as a nemet's might.
"She was consenting?" he asked. "Elas did
not command this of her, giving her to you?"
"At first they opposed it, but I asked Mim's
consent before I asked Elas. I wished her happy,
t'Nethim. If you are not offended to hear it, I loved
her."
A vein beat ceaselessly at Lhe's temple. He was
silent a moment, as if gathering the self-control to speak.
"We are offended. But it is clear she trusted you,
since she gave you her true name in the house of her
enemies. She trusted you more than Elas."
"No. She knew I would keep that to myself, but it
was not fear of Elas. She honored Elas too much to burden
their honor with knowing the name of her house."
"I thank you, that you confessed her true name to
the Methi so we could comfort her soul. It is a great
deal," he added coldly, "that we thank a
human."
"I know it is," said Kurt, and bowed, courtesy
second nature by now. He lifted his eyes cautiously to
Lhe's face; there was no yielding there.
Scurrying footsteps approached the door. With a timid
knock, a lesser guardsman cracked the door and awkwardly
bowed his apology. "Sir. Sir. The Methi is waiting for
this human. Please, sir, she has sent t'Iren to ask
about the delay."
"Out," Lhe snapped. The head vanished out of
the doorway. Lhe stood for a moment, fingers white on the
hilt of the tai. Then he gestured abruptly to the
door. "Human. You are not mine to deal with.
Out."
The summons this time was to the fortress
rhmei, into a gathering of the lords of Indresul,
shadowy figures in the firelit hall of state. Ylith waited
beside the hearthflre itself, wearing again the wide-winged
crown, a slender form of color and light in the dim hall,
her gown the color of flame and the light glancing from the
metal around her face.
Kurt went down to his knees and on his face without
being forced; despite that a guard held him there with the
butt of a spear in his back.
"Let him sit," said Ylith. "He. may look
at me."
Kurt sat back on his heels, amid a great murmuring of
the Indras lords. He realized to his hurt that they
murmured against that permission. He was not fit to meet
their Methi as even a humble chan might, making a
quick and dignified obeisance and rising. He laced his
hands in his lap, proper for a man who had been given no
courtesy of welcome, and kept his head bowed despite the
permission. He did not want to stir their anger. There was
nowhere to begin with them, to whom he was an animal; there
was no protest and no action that would make any difference
to them.
"T'Morgan," Ylith insisted softly.
He would not, even for her. She let him alone after
that, and quietly asked someone to fetch Kta.
It did not take long. Kta came of his own volition, as
far as the place where Kurt knelt, and there he too went to
his knees and bowed his head, but he did not make the full
prostration and no one insisted on it. He was at least
without the humiliation of the iron band that Kurt still
wore on his ankle.
If they were to die, Kurt thought wildly, irrationally,
he would ask them to remove it. He did not know why it
mattered, but it did; it offended his pride more than the
other indignities, to have something locked on his person
against which he had no power. He loathed it.
"T'Elas," said the Methi, "you have
had a full day to reconsider your decision."
"Great Methi," said Kta in a voice faint but
steady, "I have given you the only answer I will ever
give."
"For love of Nephane?"
"Yes."
"And for love of the one who destroyed your
hearth?"
"No. But for Nephane."
"Kta t'Elas," said the Methi, "I have
spoken at length with Vel t'Elas. They would take you
to the hearth of your Ancestors, and I would permit that,
if you would remember that you are Indras."
He hesitated long over that. Kurt felt the anxiety in
him, but he would not offend Kta's dignity by turning
to urge him one way or the other.
"I belong to Nephane," said Kta.
"Will you then refuse me, will you directly
refuse me, t'Elas, knowing the meaning of that
refusal?"
"Methi," pleaded Kta, "let me be, let me
alone in peace. Do not make me answer you."
"Then you were brought up in reverence of Indras
law and the Ind."
"Yes, Methi."
"And you admit that I have the authority to require
your obedience? That I can curse you from hearth and from
city, from all holy rites, even that of burial? That I have
the power to consign your undying soul to perdition to all
eternity?"
"Yes," said Kta, and his voice was no more
than a whisper in that deathly silence.
"Then, t'Elas, I am sending you and the human
t'Morgan to the priests. Consider, consider well the
answers you will give them."
The temple lay across a wide courtyard, still within the
walls of the Indume, a cube of white marble, vast beyond
all expectation. The very base of its door was as high as
the shoulder of a man, and within the triangular
rhmei of the temple blazed the phusmeha
of the greatest of all shrines, the hearthfire of all
mankind.
Kta stopped at the threshold of the inner shrine, that
awful golden light bathing his sweating face and reflecting
in his eyes. He had an expression of terror on his face
such as Kurt had never seen in him. He faltered and would
not go on, and the guards took him by the arms and led him
forward into the shrine, where the roar of the fire drowned
the sound of their steps.
Kurt started to follow him, in haste. A spearshaft
slammed across his belly, doubling him over with a cry of
pain, swallowed in the noise.
When he straightened in the hands of the guards, barred
from that holy place, he saw Kta at the side of the
hearth-fire fall to his face on the stone floor. The guards
with him bowed and touched hands to lips in reverence,
bowed again and withdrew as white-robed priests entered the
hall from beyond the fire.
One was the elderly priest who had defended him to the
Methi, the only one of all of them in whom Kurt had
hope.
He jerked free, cried out to the priest, the shout also
swallowed in the roar. Kta had risen and vanished with the
priests into the light.
His guards recovered Kurt, snatching him back with
violence he was almost beyond feeling.
"The priest," he kept telling them. "That
priest, the white-haired one, I want to speak with him. Can
I not speak with him?"
"Observe silence here," one said harshly.
"We do not know the priest you mean."
"That priest!" Kurt cried, and jerked loose,
threw a man skidding on the polished floor and ran into the
rhmei, flinging himself facedown so close to the
great fire bowl that the heat scorched his skin.
How long he lay there was not certain. He almost
fainted, and for a long time everything was red-hazed and
the air was too hot to breathe; but he had claimed
sanctuary, as Mother Isoi had claimed it first in the Song
of the Ind, when Phan came to kill mankind.
White-robed priests stood around him, and finally an
aged and blue-veined hand reached down to him, and he
looked up into the face he had hoped to find.
He wept, unashamed. "Priest," he said, not
knowing how to address the man with honor, "please
help us."
"A human," said the priest, "ought not to
claim sanctuary. It is not lawful. You are a pollution on
these holy stones. Are you of our religion?"
"No, sir," Kurt said.
The old man's lips trembled. It might have been the
effect of age, but his watery eyes were frightened.
"We must purify this place," he said, and one
of the younger priests said, "Who will go and tell
this thing to the Methi?"
"Please," Kurt pleaded, "please give us
refuge here."
"He means Kta t'Elas," said one of the
others, as if it Was a matter of great wonder to them.
"He is house-friend to Elas," said the old
man.
"Light of heaven," breathed the younger.
"Elas . . . with this?"
"Nethim," said the old man, "is also
involved."
"Ai," another murmured.
And together they gathered Kurt up and brought him with
them, talking together, their steps beginning to echo now
that they were away from the noise of the fire.
Ylith turned slowly, the fine chains of her headdress
gently swaying and sparkling against her hair, and the
light of the hearthfire of the fortress leaped flickering
across her face. With a glance at the priest she settled
into her chair and sat leaning back, looking down at
Kurt.
"Priest," she said at last, "you have
reached some conclusion, surely, after holding them
both so long a time." "Great Methi, the College
is divided in its opinion." "Which is to say it
has reached no conclusion, after three days of questioning
and deliberation." "It has reached several
conclusions, however-" "Priest," exclaimed
the Methi in irritation, "yea or nay?" The old
priest bowed very low. "Methi, some think that the
humans are what we once called the
god-kings, the children of the great earth-snake Yr
and of the wrath of Phan when he was the enemy of mankind,
begetting monsters to destroy the world."
"This is an old, old theory, and the god-kings were
long ago, and capable of mixing blood with man. Has there
ever been a mixing of human blood and nemet?"
"None proved, great Methi. But we do not know the
origin of the Tamurlin, and he is most evidently of their
kind. Now you are asking us to resolve, as it were, the
Tamurlin question immediately, and we do not have
sufficient knowledge to do so, great Methi."
"You have him, I sent him to you for you
to examine. Does he tell you nothing?" "What he
tells us is unacceptable." "Does he lie? Surely
if he lies, you can trap him." "We have tried,
great Methi, and he will not be moved from what he says. He
speaks of another world and another sun. I think he
believes these things." "And do you believe them,
priest?"
The old man bowed his head, clenching his aged hands.
"Let the Methi be gracious; these matters are
difficult or you would not have consulted the College. We
wonder this: if he is not nemet, what could be his origin?
Our ships have ranged far over all the seas, and never
found his like. When humans will to do it, they come to us,
bringing machines and forces our knowledge does not
understand. If he is not from somewhere within our
knowledge, then- forgive my simplicity-he must still be
from somewhere. He calls it another earth. Perhaps it is a
failure of language, a misunderstanding, but where in all
the lands we know could have been his home?"
"What if there was another? How would our religion
encompass it?"
The priest turned his watery eyes on Kurt, kneeling
beside him. "I do not know," he said.
"Give me an answer, priest. I will make you commit
yourself. Give me an answer."
"I ...would rather believe him mortal than
immortal, and I cannot quite accept that he is an animal.
Forgive me, great Methi, what may be heresy to wonder, but
Phan was not the eldest born of Ib. There were other
beings, whose nature is unclear. Perhaps there were others
of Phan's kind. And were there a thousand others, it
makes the yhia no less true."
"This is
heresy, priest."
"It is," confessed the priest. "But I do
not know an answer otherwise."
"Priest, when I look at him, I see neither reason
nor logic. I question what should not be questioned. If
this is Phan's world, and there is another, then what
does this foretell, this . . . intrusion ... of humans into
ours? There is power above Phan's, yes; but what can
have made it necessary that nature be so upset, so inside
out? Where are these events tending, priest?"
"I do not know. But if it is Fate against which we
struggle, then our struggle will ruin us."
"Does not the yhia bid us accept things
only within the limits of our own natures?"
"It is impossible to do otherwise, Methi."
"And therefore does not nature sometimes command us
to resist?"
"It has been so reasoned, Methi, although not all
the College is in agreement on that."
"And if we resist Fate, we must perish?"
"That is doubtless so, Methi."
"And someday it might be our fate to
perish?"
"That is possible, Methi."
She slammed her hand down on the arm of her chair.
"I refuse to bow to such a possibility. I refuse to
perish, priest, or to lead men to perish. In sum, the
College does not know the answer."
"No, Methi, we must admit we do not."
"I have a certain spiritual authority
myself."
"You are the viceroy of Phan on earth."
"Will the priests respect that?"
"The priests," said the old man, "are not
anxious to have this matter cast back into then: hands.
They will welcome your intervention in the matter of the
origin of humans, Methi."
"It is," she said, "dangerous to the
people that such thoughts as these be heard outside this
room. You will not repeat the reasoning we have made
together. On your life, priest, and on your soul, you will
not repeat what I have said to you."
The old priest turned his head and gave Kurt a furtive,
troubled look. "Let the Methi be gracious, this being
is not deserving of punishment for any wrong."
"He invaded the Rhmei of Man."
"He sought sanctuary."
"Did you give it?"
"No," the priest admitted.
"That is well," said Ylith. "You are
dismissed, priest."
The old man made a deeper bow and withdrew, backing
away. The heavy tread and metal clash of armed men
accompanied the opening of the door. The armed men remained
after it was closed. Kurt heard and knew they were there,
but he must not turn to look; he knew his time was short.
He did not want to hasten it. The Methi still looked down
on him, the tiny chains swaying, her dark face soberly
thoughtful.
"You create difficulties wherever you go," she
said softly.
"Where is Kta, Methi? They would not tell me. Where
is he?"
"They returned him to us a day ago."
"Is he . . . ?"
"I have not given sentence." She said it with
a shrug, then bent those dark eyes full upon him. "I
do not really wish to kill him. He could be valuable to me.
He knows 'it. I could hold him up to the other
Indras-descended of Nephane and say, look, we are merciful,
we are forgiving, we are your people. Do not fight against
us."
Kurt looked up at her, for a moment lost in that dark
gaze, believing as many a hearer would believe Ylith
t'Erinas. Hope rose irrationally in him, on the tone of
her gentle voice, her skill to reach for the greatest
hopes. And good or evil, he did not know clearly which she
was.
She was not like Djan, familiar and human and
wielding
power like a general. Ylith was a methi as the office
must have been: a goddess-on-earth, doing things for a
goddess' reasons and with amoral morality, creating
truth.
Rewriting things as they should be.
He felt an awe of her that he had felt of nothing
mortal, believed indeed that she could erase the both of
them as if they had never been. He had been within the
Rhmei of Man, had been beside the fire-the skin on
his arms was still painful. When Ylith spoke to him he felt
the roaring silence of that fire drowning him.
He was fevered. He was fatigued. He saw the signs in
himself, and feared instead his own weakness.
"Kta would be valuable to you," he said,
"even unwilling." He felt guilty, knowing
Kta's stubborn pride. "Elas was the victim of one
methi; it would impress Nephane's families if another
methi showed him mercy."
"You have a certain logic on your side. And what of
you? What shall I do with you?"
"I am willing to live," he said.
She smiled that goddess-smile at him, her eyes alone
alive. "You existence is a trouble, but if I am rid of
you, it will not solve matters. You would still have
existed. What should I write at your death? That this day
we destroyed a creature which could not possibly exist, and
so restored order to the universe?"
"Some," he said, "are urging you to do
that."
She leaned back, curling her bejeweled fingers about the
carved fishes of the chair arms. "If, on the other
hand, we admit you exist, then where do you exist? We have
always despised the Sufaki for accepting humans and nemet
as one state; herein began the heresies with which they
pervert pure religion, heresies which we will not
tolerate."
"Will you kill them? That will not change
them."
"Heresy may not live. If we believed otherwise, we
should deny our own religion."
"They have not crossed the sea to trouble
you."
Ylith's hand came down sharply on the chair arm.
"You are treading near the brink, human."
Kurt bowed his head.
"You are ignorant," she said. "This is
understandable. I know of report that Djan-methi is ...
highly approachable. I have warned you before. I am not as
she is."
"I ask you ... to listen. Just for a moment, to
listen."
"First convince me that you are wise in nemet
affairs."
He bowed his head once more, unwilling to dispute with
her to no advantage.
"What," she said after a moment, "would
you have to say that is worth my time? You have my
attention, briefly. Speak."
"Methi," he said quietly, "what I would
have said, were
answers to questions your priests did not know how to
ask
me. My people are very old now, thousands and
thousands
of years of mistakes behind us that you do not have
to
make. But maybe I am wrong, maybe it is what you
call
yhia, that I have intruded where I have no
business to be
and you will not listen because you cannot listen. But
I
could tell you more than you want to hear; I could tell
you
the future, where your precious little war with
Nephane
could lead you. I could tell you that my native world
does
not exist any longer, that Djan's does not, all for
a war
grown so large and so long that it ruins whole worlds
as
yours sinks
ships."
/
"You blaspheme!"
He had begun; she wished him silent. He poured out what
he had to say in a rush, though guards ran for him.
"If you kill every last Sufaki you will still find
differences to fight over. You will run out of people on
this earth before you run out of differences. Methi, listen
to me! You know-if you have any sense you know what I am
telling you. You can listen to me or you can do the whole
thing over again, and your descendants will be sitting
where I am."
Lhe had him, dragged him backward, trying to force him
to stand. Ylith was on her feet, beside her chair.
"Be silent!" Lhe hissed at him, his hard
fingers clamped into Kurt's arm.
"Take him from here," said Ylith. "Put
him with t'Elas. They are both mad. Let them comfort
one another in their madness."
"Methi," Kurt cried.
Lhe had help now. They brought him to his feet, forced
him from the hall and into the corridor, where, finally,
clear sense returned to him and he ceased to fight
them.
"You were so near to life," Lhe said.
"It is all right, t'Nethim," Kurt said.
"You will not be cheated."
They went back to the upper prisons. Kurt knew the way,
and, when they had come to the proper door, Lhe
dismissed the reluctant guards out of earshot. "You
are truly mad," he said, fitting the key in the lock.
"Both of you. She would give t'Elas honor, which
he refuses. He has attempted suicide; we had to prevent
him. It was our duty to do this. He was being taken from
the temple. He meant to cast himself to the pavement, but
we pushed him back, so that he fell instead on the steps.
We have provided comforts, which he will not use."
He dared look Lhe in the eyes, saw both anger and
trouble there. Lhe t'Nethim was asking something of
him; for a moment he was not sure what, and then he thought
that the Methi would not be pleased if Kta evaded her
justice. Elas had once hazarded its honor and its existence
on receiving a prisoner in trust, and had lost. Methi's
law. Elas had risked it because of a promise unwittingly
false.
Nethim was involved; the priest had said it. The honor
of Nethim was in grave danger. Both Elas and the Methi had
touched it.
The door opened. Lhe gestured him to go in, and locked
the door behind him.
There were two cots inside, and a table beneath a high
barred window. Kta lay fully clothed, covered with dust and
dried blood. They had brought him back the day before. In
all that time they had not cared for him nor he for
himself. Kurt exploded inwardly with fury at all nemet,
even with Kta.
"Kta." Kurt bent over him, and saw Kta blink
and stare chillingly nothingward. There was vacancy there.
Kurt did not ask consent; he went to the table where there
was the usual washing bowl and urn. Clean clothes were laid
there, and cloths, and a flask of telise. Lhe had
not lied. It was Kta's choice.
Kurt spread everything on the floor beside Kta's
cot, unstopped the telise and slipped his arm
beneath Kta's head, putting the flask to his lips.
Kta swallowed a little of the potent liquid, choked over
it and swallowed again. Kurt stopped the flask and set it
aside, then soaked a cloth in water and began to wipe the
mingled sweat and blood and dirt off the nemet's face.
Kta shivered when the cloth touched his neck; the water was
cold.
"Kta," said Kurt, "what
happened?"
"Nothing," said the nemet, not even looking at
him. "They brought . . . they brought me back.
..."
Kurt regarded him sorrowfully. "Listen, friend, I
am trying as best I know. But if you need better care, if
there are things broken, tell me. They will send for it. I
will ask them for it."
"They are only scratches." The threat of
outsiders seemed to lend Kta strength. He struggled to
rise, leaning on an elbow that was painfully torn. Kurt
helped him. The telise was having effect; although
the sense of well-being would be brief, Kta did not move as
if he was seriously hurt. Kurt put a pillow into place at
the corner of the wall, and Kta leaned back on it with a
grimace and a sigh, looked down at his badly lacerated knee
and shin, flexed the knee experimentally.
"I fell," Kta said.
"So I heard." Kurt refolded the stained cloth
and started blotting at the dirt on the injured knee.
It needed some time to clean the day-old injuries, and
necessarily it hurt. From time to time Kurt insisted Kta
take a sip of telise, though it was only toward
the end that Kta evidenced any great discomfort. Through it
all Kta spoke little. When the injuries were clean and
there was nothing more to be done, Kurt sat and looked at
him helplessly. In Kta's face the fatigue was evident.
It seemed far more than sleeplessness or wounds, something
inward and deadly.
Kurt settled him flat again with a pillow under his
head. Considering that he himself had been without sleep
the better part of three days, he thought that weariness
might be a major part of it, but Kta's eyes were fixed
again on infinity.
"Kta."
The nemet did not respond and Kurt shook him. Kta did no
more than blink.
"Kta, you heard me and I know it. Stop this and
look at me. Who are you punishing? Me?"
There was no response, and Kurt struck Kta's face
lightly, then enough that it would sting. Kta's lips
trembled and Kurt looked at him in instant remorse, for it
was as if he had added the little burden more than the
nemet could bear. The threatened collapse terrified
him.
Tired beyond endurance, Kurt sank down on his heels and
looked at Kta helplessly. He wanted to go over to his own
cot and sleep; he could not think any longer, except that
Kta wanted to die and that he did not know what to do.
"Kurt." The voice was weak, so distant
Kta's lips hardly seemed to move.
"Tell me how to help you."
Kta blinked, turned his head, seeming for the moment to
have his mind focused. "Kurt, my friend, they . .
."
"What have they done, Kta? What did they
do?"
"They want my help and ... if I will not ... I lose
my life, my soul. She will curse me from the earth ... to
the old gods . . . the-" He choked, shut his eyes and
forced a calm over himself that was more like Kta. "I
am afraid, my friend, mortally afraid. For all eternity.
But how can I do what she asks?"
"What difference can your help make against
Nephane?" Kurt asked. "Man, what pitiful little
difference can it make one way or the other? Djan has
weapons enough; Ylith has ships enough. Let others settle
it. What are you? She has offered you life and your
freedom, and that is better than you had of Djan,"
"I could not accept Djan-methi's conditions
either."
"Is it worth this, Kta? Look at you! Look at you,
and tell me it is worth it. Listen, I would not blame you.
All Nephane knows how you were treated there. Who in
Nephane would blame you if you turned to
Indresul?"
"I will not hear your arguments," Kta
cried.
"They are sensible." Kurt seized his arm and
kept him from turning his face to the wall again.
"They are sensible arguments, Kta, and you know
it."
"I do not understand reason any longer. The temple
and the Methi will condemn my soul for doing what I know is
right. Kurt, I could understand dying, but this . . . this
is not justice. How can a reasonable heaven put a man to a
choice like this?"
"Just do what they want, Kta. It doesn't cost
anyone much, and if you are only alive, you can
worry about the right and the wrong of it later."
"I should have died with my ship," the nemet
murmured. "That is where I was wrong. Heaven gave me
the chance to die: in Nephane, in the camp of the Tamurlin,
with Tavi. I would have peace and honor then. But
there was always you. You are the disruption in my fate. Or
its agent. You are always there, to make the
difference."
Kurt found his hand trembling as he adjusted the blanket
over the raving nemet, trying to soothe him, taking for
nothing the words that hurt. "Please," he said.
"Rest, Kta."
"Not your fault. It is possible to reason. . . .
One must always reason ... to know . . ."
"Be still."
"If," Kta persisted with fevered intensity,
"if I had died
in Nephane with my father, then my friends, my crew,
would have avenged me. Is that not so?"
"Yes," Kurt conceded, reckoning the temper of
men like Val and Tkel and their company. "Yes, they
would have killed Shan t'Tefur."
"And that," said Kta, "would have cast
Nephane into chaos, and they would have died, and come to
join Elas in the shadows. Now they are dead-as they would
have died-but I am alive. Now I, Elas-"
"Rest. Stop this."
"Elas was shaped to the ruin of Nephane, to bring
down the city in its fall. I am the last of Elas. If I had
died before this I would have died innocent of my
city's blood, and mine would have been on
Djan-methi's hands. Then my soul would have had rest
with theirs, whatever became of Nephane. Instead, I lived .
. . and for that I deserve to be where I am."
"Kta, hush. Sleep. You have a belly full of
telise and no food to settle it. It has unbalanced
your mind. Please. Rest."
"It is true," said Kta, "I was born to
ruin my people. It is just . . . what they try to make me
do."
"Blame me for it," said Kurt. "I had
rather hear that than this sick rambling. Answer me what I
am, or admit that you cannot foretell the future."
"It is logical," said Kta, "that human
fate brought you here to deal with human fate."
"You are drunk, Kta."
"You came for Djan-methi," said Kta. "You
are for her."
Kta's dark eyes closed, rolled back helplessly. Kurt
moved at last, realizing the knot at his belly, the sickly
gathering of fear, dread of Guardians and Ancestors and the
nemet's reasoning.
Kta at last slept. For a long time Kurt stood staring
down at him, then went to his own side of the room and lay
down on the cot, not to sleep, not daring to, only to rest
his aching back. He feared to leave Kta unwatched, but at
some time Ms eyes grew heavy, and he closed them only for a
moment.
He jerked awake, panicked by a sound and simultaneously
by the realization that he had slept.
The room was almost in darkness, but the faintest light
came from the barred window ever the table. Kta was on his
feet, naked despite the chill, and had set the water bucket
on the table, standing where a channel in the stone floor
made a drain beneath the wall, beginning to wash
himself.
Kurt looked to the window, amazed to find the light was
that of dawn. That Kta had become concerned about his
appearance seemed a good sign. Methodically Kta dipped up
water and washed, and when he had done what he could by
that means, he took the bucket and poured water slowly over
himself, letting it complete the task.
Then he returned to his cot and wrapped in the blanket
He leaned against the wall, eyes closed, lips moving
silently. Gradually he slipped into the state of meditation
and rested unmoving, the morning sun beginning to bring
detail to his face. He looked at peace, and remained so for
about half an hour.
The day broke full, a shaft of light finding its way
through the barred window. Kurt stirred himself and
straightened the clothing that his restless sleeping had
twisted in knots.
Kta rose and dressed also, in his own hard-used
clothing, refusing the Methi's gifts. He looked in
Kurt's direction with a bleak and yet reassuring
smile.
"Are you all right?" Kurt asked him.
"Well enough, considering," said Kta. "It
comes to me that I said things I would not have
said."
"It was the telise. I do not take them for
intended."
"I honor you," said Kta, "as my
brother."
"You know," said Kurt, "that I honor you
in the same way."
He thought that Kta had spoken as he did because there
were hurrying footsteps in the hall. He made haste to
answer, for fear that it would pass unsaid. He wanted above
all that Kta understand it.
The steps reached their door. A key turned in the
lock.
XX
THIS TIME IT was not Lhe who had charge of them, but
another man with' strangers around him. They were taken
not to the rhmei, but out of the fortress.
When they came into the courtyard and turned not toward
the temple again, but toward the outer gate of the Indume
complex, Kta cast Kurt a frightened glance that carried an
unwilling understanding.
"We are bound for the harbor," he said.
"Those are our orders," said the captain of
the detachment, "since the Methi is there and the
fleet is sailing. Move on, , t'Elas, or will you be
taken through the streets in chains?"
! Kta's head came up. For the least
moment the look of Nym ! t'Elas flared in his dark
eyes. "What is your name?"
The guard looked suddenly regretful of his words.
"Speak me no curse, t'Elas. I repeated the
Methi's words. She did not think chains
necessary."
"No," said Kta, "they are not
necessary."
He bowed his head again and matched pace with the
guards, Kurt beside him. The nemet was a pitiable figure in
the hard, uncompromising light of day, his clothing filthy,
his face unshaved-which in the nemet needed a long time to
show.
Through the streets, with people stopping to stare at
them, Kta looked neither to right nor to left. Knowing his
pride, Kurt sensed the misery he felt, his shame in the
eyes of these people; he could not help but think that Kta
t'Elas would have attracted less comment in his
misfortune had he not been laden with the added disgrace of
a human companion. Some of the murmured comments came to
Kurt's ears, and he was almost becoming inured to them:
how ugly, how covered with hair, how almost-nemet, and
caught with an Indras-descended, more the wonder, pity the
house of Elas-in-Indresul to see one of its foreign sons in
such a state and in such company!
The gangplank of the first trireme at the dock was run
out, rowers and crew scurrying around making checks of
equipment. Spread near its stern was a blue canopy upheld
with gold-tipped poles, beneath which sat Ylith, working
over some charts with Lhe t'Nethim and paying no
attention to their approach.
When at last she did see fit to notice them kneeling
before her, she dismissed Lhe back a pace with a gesture
and turned herself to face them. Still she wore the crown
of her office, and she was modestly attired in
chatem and pelan of pale green silk, slim
and delicate in this place of war. Her eyes rested on Kta
without emotion, and Kta bowed down to his face at her
feet, Kurt unwillingly imitating his action.
Ylith snapped her fingers. "It is permitted you
both to sit," she said, and they straightened
together. Ylith looked at them thoughtfully, most
particularly at Kta.
"Ei, t'Elas," she said softly,
"have you made your decision? Do you come to ask for
clemency?"
"Methi," said Kta, "no."
"Kta," Kurt exclaimed, for he had hoped.
"Don't -"
"If," said Ylith, "you seek in your
barbaric tongue to advise the son of Elas against this
choice, he would do well to listen to you."
"Methi," said Kta, "I have considered,
and I cannot agree to what you ask."
Ylith looked down at him with anger gathering in her
eyes. "Do you hope to make a gesture, and then I shall
relent afterward and pardon you? Or do they teach such lack
of religion across the Dividing Sea that the consequence is
of little weight with you? Have you so far inclined toward
the Sufak heresies that you are more at home with those
dark spirits we do not name?"
"No, Methi," said Kta, his voice trembling.
"Yet we of Elas were a reverent house, and we do not
receive justice from you."
"You say then that I am in error,
t'Elas?"
Kta bowed his head, caught hopelessly between yea and
nay, between committing blasphemy and admitting to it.
"T'Elas," said Ylith, '-'is it so
overwhelmingly difficult to accept our wishes?"
"I have given the Methi my answer."
"And choose to die accursed." The Methi turned
her face toward the open sea, opened her long-fingered hand
in that direction. "A cold resting place at best,
t'Elas, and cold the arms of Kalyt's daughters. A
felon's grave, the sea, a. grave for those no house
will claim, for those who have lived their lives so
shamefully that there remains no one, not even their own
house, to mourn them, to give them rest. Such a fate is for
those so impious that they would defy a father or the Upei
or dishonor their own kinswomen. But I, t'Elas, I am
more than the Upei. If I curse, I curse your soul not from
hearth or from city only, but from all mankind, from among
all who are born of this latter race of men. The lower
halls of death will have you: Yeknis, those dark places
where the shadows live, those unnameable firstborn of
Chaos. Do they still teach such things in Nephane,
t'Elas?"
"Yes, Methi."
"Chaos is the just fate of a man who will not bow
to the will of heaven. Do you say I am not just?"
"Methi," said Kta, "I believe that you
are the Chosen of Heaven, and I reverence you and the home
of my Ancestors-in-Indresul. Perhaps you are appointed by
heaven for the destruction of my people, but if heaven will
destroy my soul for refusing to help you, then heaven's
decrees are unbelievably harsh. I honor you, Methi. I
believe that you, like Fate itself, must somehow be just.
So I will do as I think right, and I will not aid
you."
Ylith regarded him furiously, then with a snap of her
fingers and a gesture brought the guards to take them.
"Unfortunate man," she said. "Blind to
necessity and gifted with the stubborn pride of Elas. I
have been well served by that quality in Elas until now,
and it goes hard to find fault with that which I have best
loved in your house. I truly pity you, Kta t'Elas. Go
and consider again whether you have chosen well. There is a
moment the gods lend us, to yield before going under. I
still offer you life. That is heaven's
justice. Tryn, secure them both belowdecks. The son of Elas
and his human friend are sailing with us, against
Nephane."
The hatch banged open against the deck above and someone
in silhouette came down the creaking steps into the
hold.
"T'Elas. T'Morgan." It was Lhe
t'Nethim, and in a moment the Indras officer had come
near enough to them that his features were faintly
discernible. "Have you all that you need?" he
asked, and sank down on his heels a little beyond the reach
of their chains.
Kta turned his face aside. Kurt, feeling somewhat a debt
to this man's restraint, made a grudging bow of his
head. "We are well enough," Kurt said, which they
were, considering.
Lhe pressed his lips together. "I did not come to
enjoy this sight. For that both of you ... have done
kindness to my house, I would give you what I
can."
"You have generally done me kindness," said
Kurt, yet careful of Kta's sensibilities. "That is
enough."
"Elas and Nethim are enemies; that does not change.
But human though you are-if Mim could choose you, of .her
own will-you are an exceptional human. And
t'Elas," he said in a hard voice, "because
you sheltered her, I thank you. We know the tale of her
slavery among Tamurlin, this through Elas-in-Indresul,
through the Methin. It is a bitter tale."
"She was dear to us," said Kta, looking toward
him.
Lhe's face was grim. "Did you have
her?"
"I did not," said Kta. "She was adopted
of the chart of Elas. No man of my people treated
her as other than an honorable woman, and I gave her at her
own will to my friend, who tried with all his heart to
treat her well. For Mim's sake, Elas is dead in
Nephane. To this extent we defended her. We did not know
that she was of Nethim. Because she was Mim, and of our
hearth, Elas would have defended her even had she told
us."
"She was loved," said Kurt, because he saw the
pain in Lhe's eyes, "and had no enemies in
Nephane. It was mine who killed her."
"Tell me the manner of it," said Lhe.
Kurt glanced down, unwilling, but Lhe was nemet, some
things would not make sense to him without all the truth.
"Enemies of mine stole her," he said, "and
they took her; the Methi of Nephane humiliated her. She
died at her own hand, Lhe t'Nethim. I blame myself
also. If I had been nemet enough to know what she was
likely to do, I would not have let her be alone
then."
Lhe's face was like graven stone. "No," he
said. "Mim chose well. If you were nemet you would
know it. You would have been wrong to stop her. Name the
men who did this."
"I cannot," he said. "Mim did not know
their names."
"Were they Indras?"
"Sufaki," Kurt admitted. "Men of Shan
t'Tefur u Tlekef."
"Then there is bloodfeud between that house and
Nethim. May the Guardians of Nethim deal with them as I
shall if I find them, and with Djan-methi of Nephane. What
is the emblem of Tefur?"
"It is the Great Snake Yr," said Kta.
"Gold on green. I wish you well in that bloodfeud,
t'Nethim; you will avenge Elas also, when I
cannot."
"Obey the Methi," said 'Lhe.
"No," said Kta. "But Kurt may do as he
pleases."
Lhe looked toward Kurt, and Kurt gave him nothing
better. Lhe made a gesture of exasperation.
"You must admit," said Lhe, "that the
Methi has offered
you every chance. It is a lasting wonder that you are
not
sleeping tonight at the bottom of the
sea."
'
"Nephane is my city," said Kta. "And as
for your war, your work will not be finished until you
finish it with me, so stop expecting me
to obey your Methi.
I will not."
"If you keep on as you are," said Lhe, "I
will probably be assigned as your executioner. In spite of
the feud between our houses, t'Elas, I shall not like
that assignment, but I shall obey her orders."
"For a son of Nethim," said Kta, "you are
a fair-minded man with us both. I would not have expected
it."
"For a son of Elas," said Lhe, "you are
fair-minded yourself. And," he added with a sideways
glance at Kurt, "I cannot even fault you the guest of
your house. I do not want to kill you. You and this human
would haunt me."
"Your priests are not sure," said Kurt,
"that I have a soul to do so."
Lhe bit his lip; he had come near heresy. And Kurt's
heart went out to Lhe t'Nethim, for it was clear enough
that in Lhe's eyes he was more than animal.
"T'Nethim," said Kta, "has
the Methi sent you here?"
"No. My advice is from the heart, t'Elas.
Yield."
"Tell your Methi I want to speak with
her."
"Will you beg pardon of her? That is the only thing
she
will hear from
you."
"Ask her," said Kta. "If she will or will
not, ought that not be her own choice?"
Lhe's eyes were frightened. They locked upon
Kta's directly, without the bowing and the courtesy, as
if he would drag something out of him. "I will ask
her," said Lhe. "I already risk the anger of my
father; the anger of the Methi is less quick, but I dread
it more. If you go to her, you go with those chains. I will
not risk the lives of Nethim on the asking of
Elas."
"I consent to that," said Kta.
"Swear that you will do no violence."
"We both swear," said Kta, which as lord of
Elas he could say.
"The word of a man about to lose his soul, and of a
human who may not have one," declared Lhe in distress.
"Light of heaven, I cannot make Nethim responsible for
the likes of you."
And he rose up and fled the hold.
Ylith took a chair and settled comfortably before she
acknowledged them. She had elected to receive them in her
quarters, .not on the windy deck. The golden light of
swaying lamps shed an exquisite warmth after the cold and
stench of betweendecks, thick rugs under their chilled
bones.
"You may sit," she said, allowing them to
straighten off their faces, and she received a cup of tea
from a maid and sipped it. There was no cup for them. They
were not there under the terms of hospitality, and might
not speak until given permission. She finished the cup of
tea slowly, looking at them, the ritual of mind-settling
before touching a problem of delicacy. At last she returned
the cup to the chan and faced them.
"T'Elas and t'Morgan. I do not know why I
should trouble myself with you repeatedly when one of my
own law-abiding citizens might have a much longer wait for
an audience with me. But then, your future is likely to be
shorter than theirs. Convince me quickly that you are worth
my time."
"Methi," said Kta, "I came to plead for
my city."
"Then you are making a useless effort, t'Elas.
The time would be better spent if you were to plead for
your life."
"Methi, please hear me. You are about to spend a
number of lives of your own people. It is not
necessary."
"What is? What have you to offer,
t'Elas?"
"Reason."
"Reaon. You love Nephane. Understandable. But they
cast you out, murdered your house. I, on the other hand,
would pardon you for your allegiance to them; I would take
you as one of my own. Am I behaving as an enemy, Kta
t'Elas?"
"You are the enemy of my people."
"Surely," said Ylith softly, "Nephane is
cursed with madness, casting out such a man who loves her
and honoring those who divide her. I would not need to
destroy such a city, but I am forced. I want nothing of the
things that happen there: of war, of human ways. I will not
let the contagion spread." She lifted her eyes to the
chart and dismissed the woman, then directed her
attention to them again. "You are already at
war," she told them. "I only intend to finish
it."
"What . . . war?" asked Kta, though Kurt knew
in his own heart then what must have happened and he was
sure that Kta did. The Methi's answer was no
surprise.
"Civil war," answered Ylith. "The
inevitable conflict. Though I am sure our help is less than
desired, we are intervening, on the side of the
Indras-descended."
"You do not desire to help the Families," said
Kta. "You will treat them as you do us."
"I will treat them as I am trying to treat you. I
would welcome you as Indras, Kta t'Elas. I would make
Elas-in-Nephane powerful again, as it ought to be, united
with Elas-in-Indresul."
"My sister," said Kta, "is married to a
Sufaki lord. My friend is a human. Many of the
house-friends of Elas-in-Nephane have Sufaki blood. Will
you command Elas-in-Indresul to honor our
obligations?"
"A Methi," she said, "cannot command
within the affairs of a house."
It was the legally correct answer.
"I could," she said, "guarantee you the
lives of these people. A Methi may always intervene on the
side of life."
"But you cannot command their acceptance."
"No," she said. "I could not do
that."
"Nephane," said Kta, "is Indras and
Sufaki and human."
"When I am done," said Ylith, "that
problem will be resolved."
"Attack them," said Kta, "and they will
unite against you."
"What, Sufaki join
the Indras?"
"It has happened once before," said Kta,
"when you hoped to take us."
"That," said Ylith, "was different. Then
the Families were powerful, and wished greater freedom from
the mother of cities. Now the Families have their power
taken from them but I can restore it to all who will
renounce the Sufak heresy. My honored father Tehal-methi
was less mercifully inclined, but I am not my father. I
have no wish to kill Indras."
Kta made a brief obeisance. "Methi, turn back these
ships then, and I will be your man without
reservation."
She set her hands on the arms of her chair and now her
eyes went to Kurt and back again. "You do press me too
far. You, t'Morgan, were born human, but you rise above
that. I can almost love you for your determination; you try
so hard to be nemet. But I do not understand the Sufaki,
who were born nemet and deny the truth, who devote
themselves to despoiling what we name as holy. Least of
all"--her voice grew hard-"do I understand
Indras-born such as you, t'Elas, who knowingly seek to
save a way of life that aims at the destruction of
Ind."
"They do not aim at destroying us."
"You will now tell me that the resurgence of old
ways in Sufak is a false rumor, that the jafikn
and the Robes of Color are not now common there, that
prayers are not made in the Upei of Nephane that mention
the cursed ones and blaspheme our religion. Mor t'Uset
ul Orm is witness to these things. He saw one Nym
t'Elas rise in the Upei to speak against the
t'Tefuri and their blasphemies. Have you less than your
father's courage, or do you dishonor his wishes,
t'Elas?"
Kurt looked quickly at Kta, knowing how that would
affect him, almost ready to hold him if he was about to do
something rash; but Kta bowed his head, knuckles white on
his laced hands.
"T'Elas?" asked Ylith.
"Trust me," said Kta, lifting his face again,
composed, "to know my father's wishes. It is our
belief, Methi, that we should not question the wisdom of
heaven in settling two peoples on the Ome Sin, so we do not
seek to destroy the Sufaki. I am Indras. I believe that the
will of heaven will win despite the action of "men,
therefore I live my life quietly in the eyes of my Sufaki
neighbors. I will not dishonor my beliefs by contending
over them, as if they needed defense."
Ylith's dark eyes flamed with anger for a time, and
then grew quiet, even sad. "No," she said,
"no, t'Elas."
"Methi." Kta bowed-homage to a different
necessity- and straightened, and there was a deep sadness
in the air.
"T'Morgan," said the Methi softly,
"will you still stay with this man? You are only a
poor stranger among us. You are not bound to such as
he." ,
"Can you not see," asked Kurt, "that he
wishes greatly to be able to honor you, Methi?" He
knew that he shamed Kta by that, but it was Kta's life
at stake. Probably now, he realized, he had just thrown his
own away too.
Ylith looked, for one of a few times, more woman than
goddess, and sad and angry too. "I did not choose this
war, this ultimate irrationality. My generals and my
admirals urged it, but I was not willing. But I saw the
danger growing: the humans return; the Sufaki begin to
reassert their ancient ways; the humans encourage this, and
encourage it finally to the point when the Families which
kept Nephane safely Indras are powerless. I do what must be
done. The woman Djan is threat enough to the peace; but she
is
holding her power by stripping away that of the Indras.
And a Sufak Nephane armed with human weapons is a danger
which cannot be tolerated."
"It is not all Sufaki who threaten you," Kurt
urged. "One man. You are doing all of this for the
destruction of one man, who is the real danger
there."
"Yes, I know Shan t'Tefur and his late father.
Ai, you would not have heard. Tlekef t'Tefur
is dead, killed in the violence."
"How?" asked Kta at once. "Who did
so?"
"A certain t'Osanef."
"O gods," Kta breathed. The strength seemed to
go out of him. His face went pale. "Which
t'Osanef?"
"Han t'Osanef did the killing, but I have no
further information. I do not blame you, t'Elas. If a
sister of mine were involved, I would worry, I would
indeed. Tell me this: why would Sufaki kill Sufaki? A
contest for power? A personal feud?"
"A struggle," said Kta, "between those
who love Nephane as Osanef does and those who want to bring
her down, like t'Tefur. And you are doing excellently
for t'Tefur's cause, "Methi. If there is no
Nephane, which is the likely result of your war, there will
be another Chteftikan, and that war you cannot see the end
of. There are Sufaki who have learned not to hate Indras;
but there will be none left if you pursue this
attack."
Ylith joined her hands together and meditated on some
thought, then looked up again. "Lhe t'Nethim will
return you to the hold," she said. "I am done. I
have spared all the time I can afford today, for a man out
of touch with reality. You are a brave man, Kta t'Elas.
And you, Kurt t'Morgan, you are commendable in your
attachment to this gentle madman. Someone should
stay by him. It does you credit that you do not leave
him."
XXI
"Kurt."
Kurt came awake with Kta shaking him by the shoulder and
with the thunder of running feet on the deck overhead. He
blinked in confusion. Someone on deck was shouting orders,
a battle-ready.
"There is sail in sight," said Kta.
"Nephane's fleet."
Kurt rubbed his face, tried to hear any clear words from
overhead. "How much chance is there that Nephane can
stop this here?"
Kta gave a laugh like a sob. "Gods, if the
Methi's report is true, none. If there is civil war in
the city, it will have crippled the fleet. Without the
Sufaki, the Families could not even get the greater ships
out of the harbor. It will be a slaughter up
there."
Oars rumbled overhead. In a moment more the shouted
order rang out and the oars splashed down in unison. The
ship began to gather speed.
"We are going in," Kurt murmured, fighting
down panic, A host of images assailed his mind. They could
do nothing but ride it out, chained to the ship of the
Methi. In space or on Tavi's exposed deck, he
had known fear in entering combat, but never such a feeling
of helplessness.
"Edge back," Kta advised him, bracing his
shoulder against the hull. He took his ankle chain in both
hands. "If we ram, the shock could be considerable.
Brace yourself and hold the chain. There is no advantage
adding broken bones to our misery."
Kurt followed his example, casting a misgiving look at
the mass of stored gear in the after part of the hold. If
it was not well secured, impact would send tons of weight
down on them, and there was no shielding themselves against
that.
The grating thunder of three hundred oars increased in
tempo and held at a pace that no man could sustain over a
long drive. Now even in the dark
hold there was an undeniable sense of speed, with the
beat of the oars and the rush of water against
the hull.
Kurt braced himself harder against the timbers. It
needed no imagination to think what would happen if the
trireme itself was rammed and a bronze Nephanite prow
splintered in the midships area. He remembered
Tavi's ruin and the men ground to death in the
collision, and tried not to think how thin the hull at
their shoulders was.
The beat stopped, a deafening hush, then the portside
oars ran inboard. The ship glided under momentum for an
instant.
Wood began to splinter and the ship shuddered and
rolled, grating and cracking wood all along her course.
Thrown sprawling, Kurt and Kta held as best they could as
the repeated shocks vibrated through the ship. Shouting
came overhead, over the more distant screaming of men in
pain and terror, suddenly overwhelmed by the sound of the
oars being run out again.
The relentless cadence recommenced, the trireme
recovering her momentum. All-encompassing was the crash and
boom of the oars, pierced by the thin shouts of officers.
Then the oars lifted clear with a great sucking of water,
and held. The silence was so deep that they could hear
their own harsh breathing, the give of the oars in their
locks, the creak of timbers and the groan of rigging, and
the sounds of battle far distant.
"This is the Methi's ship," Kta answered
his anxious look. "It has doubtless broken the line
and now waits. They will not risk this ship
needlessly."
And for a long time they crouched against the hull,
staring into the dark, straining for each sound that might
tell them what was happening above.
New orders were given, too faintly to be understood. Men
ran across the deck in one direction and the other, and
still the motion of the ship indicated they were scarcely
moving.
Then the hatch crashed open and Lhe t'Nethim came
down the steps into the hold, backed by three armed
men.
"Do you suddenly need weapons?" asked Kta.
"T'Elas," said Lhe, "you are called
to the deck."
Kta gathered himself to his feet, while one of the men
bent and unlocked the chain that passed through the ring of
the band at his ankle.
"Take me along with him," said Kurt, also on
his feet.
"I have no orders about that," said Lhe.
"TNethim," Kurt pleaded, and Lhe considered an
instant, gnawing his lip. Then he gestured to the man with
the keys.
"Your word to do nothing violent," Lhe
insisted.
"My word," said Kurt.
"Bring him too," said Lhe.
Kurt followed Kta up the steps into the light of day, so
blinded by the unaccustomed glare that he nearly missed his
footing on the final step. On the deck the hazy shapes of
many men moved around them, and their guards guided them
like blind men toward the stern of the ship.
Ylith sat beneath the blue canopy. There Kurt's
sight began to clear. Kta went heavily to his knees, Kurt
following his example, finding comfort in him. He began to
understand Kta's offering of respect at such a moment:
Kta did what he did with grace, paying honor like a
gentleman, unmoved by threat or lack of it. His courage was
contagious.
"You may sit," said Ylith softly. "T
'Elas, if you will look to the starboard side, I
believe you may see the reason we have called
you."
Kta turned on one knee, and Kurt looked also. A ship was
bearing toward them, slowly, relying on only part of its
oarage. The black sail bore the white bird of Ilev, and the
red immunity streamer floated from its mast.
"As you see," said the Methi, "we have
offered the Families of Nephane the chance to talk before
being driven under. I have also ordered my fleet to gather
up survivors, without regard to nation-even Sufaki, if
there be any. Now if your eloquence can persuade them to
surrender, you will have won their lives."
"I have agreed to no such thing," Kta
protested angrily.
"This is your opportunity, t'Elas. Present them
my conditions, make them believe you-or remain silent and
watch these last ships try to stop us."
"What are your conditions?" Kta asked.
"Nephane will again become part of the empire or
Nephane will burn. And if your Sufaki can accept being part
of the empire . . . well, I will deal with that wonder when
it presents itself. I have never met a Sufaki, I confess
it, as I had never met a human. I should be interested to
do so, on my terms. So persuade them for me, t'Elas,
and save their lives."
"Give me your oath they will live," Kta said,
and there was a stirring among the Methi's guards,
hands laid on weapons.
But Kta remained as he was, humbly kneeling. "Give
me your oath," he replied, "in plain words, life
and freedom for the men of the fleet if they take terms. I
know that with you, Ylith-methi, words are weapons,
double-edged. But I would believe your given
word."
A lifting of the Methi's fingers restrained her men
from drawing, and she gazed at Kta with what seemed a
curious, even loving, satisfaction.
"They have tried us in battle, t'Elas, and you
have tried my patience. Look upon the pitiful wreckage
floating out there, and the fact that you are still alive
after disputing me with words, and decide for yourself upon
which you had rather commit their lives."
"You are taking," said Kta, "what I swore
I would not give."
Ylith lowered her eyes and lifted them again, which just
failed of arrogance. "You are too reasonable,"
she said, "to destroy those men for your own
pride's sake. You will try to save them."
"Then," said Kta in a still voice,
"because the Methi is reasonable, she will allow me to
go down to that ship. I can do more there than here, where
they would be reluctant to speak with me in your
presence."
She considered, nodded finally. "Strike the iron
from him. From the human too. If they kill you, t'Elas,
you will be avenged." And, softening that arrogant
humor: "In truth, t'Elas, I am trying to avoid
killing these men. Persuade them of that, or be guilty of
the consequences."
The Ilev longship bore the scars of fire and battle to
such an extent it was a wonder she could steer.
Broken oars hung in their locks. Her rail was shattered.
She looked sadly disreputable as she grappled onto the
immaculate trireme of the Methi, small next to that
towering ship.
Kta nodded to Kurt as soon as she was made fast, and the
two of them descended on a ship's ladder thrown over
the trireme's side.
They landed one after the other, barefoot on the planks
like common seamen, filthy and unshaved, looking fit
company for the men of the battered longship. Shock was on
familiar faces all about them: Ian t'Ilev among the
foremost, and men of Irain and Isulan.
Kta made a bow, which t'Ilev was slow to return.
"Gods," t'Ilev murmured then. "You
keep strange company, Kta."
"Tavi went down off the Isles," said
Kta. "Kurt and I were picked up, the only survivors
that I know of. Since that time we have been detained by
the Indras. Are you in command here, Ian?" ,
"My father is dead. Since that moment,
yes."
"May your Guardians receive him kindly," Kta
said.
"The Ancestors of many houses have increased
considerably today." A muscle jerked slowly in
t'Ilev's jaw. He gestured his comrades to clear
back a space, for they crowded closely to hear. He set his
face in a new hardness. "So do I understand correctly
that the Methi of Indresul is anxious to clear us aside and
proceed on her way, and that you are here to urge that on
us?"
"I have been told," said Kta, "that
Nephane is in civil war and that it cannot possibly resist.
Is that true, Ian?"
There was a deathly silence.
"Let the Methi ask her own questions,"
t'lrain said harshly. "We would have come to her
deck."
And there were uglier words from others. Kta looked at
them, his face impassive. At that moment he looked much
like his father Nym, though his clothing was filthy and his
normally ordered hair blew in strings about his face. Tears
glittered in his eyes.
"I did not surrender my ship," he said,
"though gods know I would have been willing to; a dead
crew is a bitter price for a house's pride, and one I
would not have paid." His eyes swept the company.
"I see no Sufaki among you."
The murmuring grew. "Quiet," said t'Ilev.
"All of you. Will you let the men of Indresul see us
quarrel? Kta, say what she has sent you to say. Then you
and t'Morgan may leave, unless you keep asking after
things we do not care to share with the Methi of
Indresul."
"Ian," said Kta, "we have been friends
since we were children. Do as seems right to you. But if I
have heard the truth, if there is civil war in Nephane, if
there is no hope but time in your coming here, then let us
try for conditions. That is better than going to the
bottom."
"Why is she permitting this? Love of us? Confidence
in you? Why does she send you down here?"
"I think," said Kta faintly, "I
think-and am not sure-that she may offer better
conditions than we can obtain from Shan
t'Tefur. And I think she is permitting it because
talk is cheaper than a fight, even for Indresul. It is
worth trying, Ian, or I would not have agreed to come down
here."
"We came to gain time. I think you know that. For
us, crippled as we are, talk is much cheaper than a battle,
but we are still prepared to fight too. Even taking the
trouble to finish us can delay her. As for your question
about Nephane's condition at the moment . . ." The
others wished him silent. Ian gave them a hard look.
'TElas has eyes to see. The Sufaki are not here. They
demanded command of the fleet. Some few-may their ancestors
receive them kindly-tried to reason with Shan
t'Tefur's men. Light of heaven, we had to
steal the fleet by night, break out of harbor even
to go out to defend the city. T'Tefur hopes for our
defeat. What do you think the Methi's terms will
be?"
There was quiet on the deck. For the moment the men were
all listening, spirits and angers failing, all pretense
laid aside. They only seemed afraid.
"Ian," said Kta, "I do not know.
Tehal-methi was unyielding and bloody; Ylith is ... I do
not know. What she closes within her hand, I fear she will
never release. But she is fair-minded, and she is
Indras."
The silence persisted. For a moment there was only the
creak of timbers and the grinding of the longship against
the side of the trireme as the sea carried them too close.
"He is right," said Lu t'Isulan.
"You are his house-friend," said a man of
Nechis. "Kta sued for your cousin to marry."
"That would not blind me to the truth," said
t'Isulan. "I agree with him. I am sick to death of
t'Tefur and his threats and his ruffians."
"Aye," said his brother Toj. "Our houses
had to be left almost defenseless to get enough men out
here to man the fleet. And I am thinking they may be in
greater danger at the moment from the Sufaki neighbors than
from Indresul's fleet. El," he said
angrily when others objected to that, "clear your eyes
and see, my friends. Isulan sent five men of the main
hearth here and fifty from the lesser, and a third are
lost. Only the sons of the chan are left to hold
the door of Isulan against t'Tefur's pirates. I am
not anxious to lose the rest of my brothers and cousins in
an empty gesture. We will not die of hearing the terms, and
if they are honorable, I for one would take them."
Ylith leaned back in her chair and accepted the respects
of the small group of defeated men kneeling on her deck.
"You may all rise," she said, which was generous
under the circumstances. "T'Elas, t'Morgan, I
am glad you have returned safely. Who heads this
delegation?"
T'Ilev bowed slightly. "Ian t'Ilev uv
Ulmar," he identified himself. "Lord of
Ilev." And there was sadness in that assumption of the
title, raw and recent. "I am not eldest, but the fleet
chose me for my father's sake."
"Do you ask conditions?" asked Ylith.
"We will hear conditions," said
t'Ilev.
"I will be brief," said Ylith. "We intend
to enter Nephane, with your consent or without it. I will
not leave the woman Djan in authority; I will not deal with
her or negotiate with those who represent her. I will have
order restored in Nephane and a government installed in
which I have confidence. The city will thereafter remain in
full and constant communication with the mother of cities.
I will, however, negotiate the extent of the bond between
our cities. Have you any comment, t'Ilev?"
"We are the fleet, not the Upei, and we are not
able to negotiate anything but our own actions. But I know
the Families will not accept any solution which does not
promise us our essential freedoms."
"And neither," Kta interjected unbidden,
"will the Sufaki."
Ylith's eyes went to him. Behind her, Lhe
t'Nethim laid hand uneasily on the hilt of his
ypan. Ylith's wit and Ylith's power were
sufficient to deliver Kta an answer, and Kurt clenched his
hands, hoping Kta would not be humiliated before these men.
Then of a sudden he saw what game Kta was playing with his
life and went cold inside. The Methi too was before
witnesses, whose offense now could mean a battle, one ugly
and, for the Methi's forces, honorless.
Her lips smiled. She looked Kta slowly up and down,
finally acknowledged him by looking at him directly.
"I have studied your city, t'Elas. I have gathered
information from most unlikely sources, even you and my
human, t'Morgan."
"And what," Kta asked softly, "has the
Methi concluded?"
"That a wise person does not contest reality.
Sufaki . . . are a reality. Annihilation of all Sufaki is
hardly practical, since they are the population of the
entire coast of Sufak. T'Morgan has told me a fable of
human wars. I considered the prospect of dead villages,
wasted fields. Somehow this
did not seem profitable. Therefore, although I
do not think the sons of the east will ever be other than
trouble to us, I consider that they are less trouble where
they are, in Nephane and in their villages, rather than
scattered and shooting arrows at my occupation forces.
Religiously, I will yield nothing. But I had rather have a
city than a ruin, a province than a desolation. Considering
that it is your city and your land in question, you may
perhaps agree with me."
"We might," said Ian t'Ilev when she
looked aside at him. "If not for that phrase
occupation forces. The Families rule
Nephane."
"Ai, no word of Sufaki? Well, but you know
the law, t'Ilev. A methi does not reach within
families. The question of precedence would be between your
two hearths. How you resolve it is not mine to say. But I
cannot foresee that Ilev-in-Indresul would be eager to
cross the sea to intervene in the affairs of
Ilev-in-Nephane. I do not think occupation would prove
necessary."
"Your word on that?" asked Kta.
The Methi gave a curious look to him, a smile of faint
irony. Then she opened both palms to the sky. "So let
the holy light of heaven regard me: I do not mislead
you." She leaned back then, stretched her hands along
the arms of her chair, her lovely face suddenly grave and
businesslike. "Terms: removal of Djan, the dissolution
of the t'Tefuri's party, the death of t'Tefur
himself, the allegiance of the Families to Indresul and to
me. That is the limit of what I demand."
"And the fleet?" asked Ian t'Ilev.
"You can make Nephane in a day, I think. By this
time tomorrow you could reach port. You will have a day
further to accomplish what I have named or find us among
you by force."
"You mean we are to conquer Nephane for you?"
t'Ilev exclaimed. "Gods, no."
"Peace, control of your own city, or war. If we
enter, we will not be bound by these terms."
"Give us a little time," t'Ilev pleaded.
"Let us bear these proposals to the rest of the fleet.
We cannot agree alone."
"Do that, t'Ilev. We shall give you a day's
start toward Nephane whatever you decide. If you use that
day's grace to prepare your city to resist us, we will
not negotiate again until we meet in the ruins of your
city. We are not twice generous, t'Ilev."
T'Ilev bowed, gathered the three of the crew who had
come
with him, and the gathered crew of the trireme parted
widely to let them pass.
"Methi," said Kta.
"Would you go with them?"
"By your leave, Methi."
"It is permitted. Make them believe you,
t'Elas. You have your chance, one day to make your city
exist. I hope you succeed. I shall be sorry if I learn you
have failed. Will you go with him, t'Morgan? I shall be
sorry to part with you."
"Yes," Kurt said. "By your
leave."
"Look," she said. "Look up at me."
And when he had done so, he had the feeling that she
studied him as a curiosity she might not see again. Her
dark eyes held a little of fascinated fear. "You
are," she said, "like Djan-methi."
"We are of one kind."
"Bring me Djan," she said. "But not as
Methi of Nephane."
And her gesture had dismissed them. They gave back a
pace. But then Lhe t'Nethim bowed at her feet, head to
the deck, as one who asked a great favor.
"Methi," he said when she acknowledged him,
"let me go with this ship. I have business in Nephane,
with t'Tefur."-
"You are valuable to me, Lhe," she said in
great distress.
"Methi, it is hearth-business, and you must let me
go."
"Must? They will kill you before you reach Nephane,
and where will your debt be honored then, t'Nethim, and
how will I answer your father, that I let his son do this
thing?"
"It is family," he said.
The Methi pressed her lips together. "If they kill
you," she said, "then we will know how they will
regard any pact with us. TElas, be witness. Treat him
honorably, however you decide, for his life or for his
death. You will answer to me for this."
T'Nethim bowed a final, heartfelt thanks, and sprang
up and hurried after them, among the men of Ilev's
party who had delayed also to hear what passed.
"Someone will cut his throat,"
t'Ilev hissed at Kta, before they went over the rail.
"What is he to you?"
"Mim's cousin."
"Gods! How long have you been of Indresul,
Kta?"
"Trust me. If otherwise, let us at least clear this
deck. I beg you, Ian."
T'Ilev bit his lip, then made haste to seek the
ladder. "Gods help us," he murmured. "Gods
help us, I will keep silent on it. Burden me with nothing
else, Kta."
And he disappeared over the side first and quickly
descended to the longship, where his anxious crew
waited.
The Ilev vessel glided in among the wrecked fleet with
the white assembly streamer flying beside the red, and
other captains gathered to her deck as quickly as possible:
Eta t'Nechis, Pan t'Ranek, Camit t'Ilev, cousin
of Ian; others, young men, whose captaincies now told of
tragedies at sea or at home.
"Is that it?" shouted Eta t'Nechis when he
had heard the terms, and looked at t'Ilev as if other
words failed him. "Great gods, t'Ilev, did you
decide for all of us? Or have you handed command over to
Elas and its company, to Elas, who ruined us in the first
place, with its human guest. And now they bring us an
overseas house-friend!"
"Argue it later," said Kta. "Whether you
want to fight or negotiate at Nephane, put the fleet about
for home now. Every moment we waste will be badly
needed.1'
"We have men still adrift out there!" cried
t'Ranek, "men the Indras will not let us
reach."
"They are being picked up," said Ian.
"That is better than we can do for them. Kta is right.
Put about."
"Give the Methi back her man," said
t'Nechis, "all three of them: t'Elas, human
and foreigner."
T'Nethim was pale, but he kept his dignity behind
the shelter Ian t'Ilev gave the three of them. Voices
were raised, weapons all but drawn, and finally Ian settled
the matter by ordering his ship put about for Nephane with
the fleet streamer flying beside the others.
Then they were underway, and the sight of the
Methi's fleet dropping astern with no visible evidence
of pursuit greatly heartened the men and silenced some of
the demands for vengeance.
"Why should they pursue," asked t'Nechis,
"if we do their work for them? Gods, gods, this is
wrong!"
And once again there was talk of throat-cutting, of
throwing the three of them into the sea with Lhe
t'Nethim cut in pieces, until the t'Ilevi together
put themselves bodily between the t'Nechisen and Kta
t'Elas.
"Stop this," said Ian, and for all that he was
a young man and beneath the age of some of the men who
quarreled, he put such anger into his voice that there was
a silence made, if only a breath of one.
"It is shameful," said Lu t'Isulan with
great feeling. "We
disgrace ourselves under the eyes of this Indras
stranger. Bring tea. It is a long distance to Nephane. If
we cannot make a well-thought decision in that length of
time, then we deserve our misery. Let us be still and think
for a time."
"We will not share fire and drink with a man of
Indresul," said t'Nechis. "Put him in
irons."
TNethim drew himself back with great dignity. "I
will go apart from you," he said, the first words they
had listened for him to say. "And I will not
interfere. I will still be on this ship if you decide for
war."
And with a bow of courtesy, he walked away to the bow, a
figure of loneliness among so many enemies. His dignity
made a silence among them.
"If you will," said Kurt, "I will go
there too."
"You are of Elas," said Kta fiercely.
"Stand your ground."
There were hard looks at that. It came to Kurt then that
Elas had lost a great deal with Tavi, not alone a
ship, but brave men, staunch friends of Elas. And those who
surrounded them now, with the exception of Irain, Ilev and
Isulan, were Families which sympathized less with Elas.
And even among those, there were some who hated humans.
Such, even, was Ian t'Ilev; it radiated from him, a
little shiver of aversion whenever eyes chanced to
meet.
Only Lu and Toj t'Isulan, house-friends to Elas,
elected to sit by Kta at the sharing of drink. They sat on
Kta's left, Kurt on the right.
Kurt accepted the cup into his fingers gratefully and
sipped at the hot sweet liquid. It held its own memories of
home and Elas, of sanity and reason, as if there was no
power on earth that could change or threaten this little
amenity, this odd tribute of the Indras to hearth and
civilized order.
Yet everything, their lives and Nephane itself, was as
fragile at the moment as the china cup in his fingers.
One round passed in silence. So did most of the second.
It was, as the nemet would say, a third-round problem, a
matter so disturbing that no one felt calm enough to speak
until they had waited through a third series of courtesies
and ceremony.
"It is certain," said Ian at last, "that
the Methi's word is good so far. We are not pursued. We
have to consider that she is indeed a Methi of our own
people, and it is unthinkable that she would lie."
"Granted," said t'Nechis. "But then
what does the truth leave us?"
"With Nephane standing," said Kta very softly.
"And I do love the city, t'Nechis. Even if you
hate me, believe that."
"I believe it," said t'Nechis. "Only
I suggest that you have perhaps loved honors the Methi
promised you more than is becoming."
"She gave him nothing," said Ian. "And
you have my word on that."
"It may be so," conceded t'Nechis, and yet
with an uneasy look at Kurt, as if any nemet who consorted
with humans was suspect. Kurt lowered his head and"
stared at a spot on the deck.
"How bad," asked Kta, "have things in
Nephane become?"
"T'Elas," said the younger son of
Uset-in-Nephane, "we are sorry for the misfortunes of
Elas. But that was only the beginning of troubles. In some
houses-in Nechis, in Ranek- men are dead,
ypai-sulim have been drawn. Be careful how you
speak to them. Understand the temper of their
Guardians."
The Great Weapons, drawn only for killing and never
re-sheathed without it. Kta made a little bow of deference
individually to t'Nechis and to t'Ranek, and a
gesture with hand to brow that Kurt did not understand. The
other men reciprocated. There was silence, and a little
easier feeling for that.
"Then," said Kta finally, "there would
seem to be question whether there is a city to save. I have
heard a bitter rumor concerning Osanef. Can anyone tell me?
Details were sparse."
"It is bad news, Kta," said Ian. "Han
t'Osanef killed Tlekef tTefur. The house of Osanef was
burned by the Tefur partisans, an example to other Sufaki
not to remain friendly to us. The vandals struck at night,
while the family slept, invaded the house and overthrew the
fire to set the house ablaze. The lady la, Han's
honored wife, died in the fire."
"And Aimu," Kta broke in. "Bel and my
sister?"
"Bel himself was badly beaten, but your lady sister
was hurried to safety by the chan of Osanef. Both
Bel and Aimu are safe, at last report, sheltered in Isulan
with your father's sister."
"How did Han die?"
"He chose to die after avenging lady la. His
funeral was the cause of much bloodletting. Kta, I am
sorry," he added, for Kta's face was pale and he
looked suddenly weak.
"This is not all," said Toj t'Isulan.
"The whole city is full
of such funerals. Han and his lady were not the first or
the last to lose their lives to t'Tefur's
men."
"He is a madman," t'Nechis said. "He
threatened to burn the fleet-to burn the fleet!-rather than
let it sail with Indras captains. They talk of burning
Nephane itself and drawing back to their ancestral hills of
Chteftikan."
"Aye," said young t'Irain, "and I for
my part would gladly have the city in Indresul's hands
rather than t'Tefur's."
And that sentiment was approved by a sullen muttering
among many of the others. T'Nechis scowled, but even he
did not seem to be in total disagreement.
"Sirs," said Kurt, startling everyone.
"Sirs, what has Djan-methi done in the situation? Has
she . . . can she do anything to restore peace in the
city?"
"She has the power," said t'Ranek.
"She refuses to control tTefur. This war is of her
creation. She knew we would never turn on
Indresul, so she puts power in the hands of those who
would, those who support her ambition. And that does not
respect her office, but neither does she."
"I do not know," said the youngest
t'Nechis, "why we answer questions from the
Methi's leman."
Kta moved, and if the elder t'Nechis had not imposed
his own discipline on his cousin with a sharp gesture,
there would have been trouble.
"My apologies," said t'Nechis, words that
seemed like gall in his mouth.
"I understand," said Kurt, "that humans
have won no love in Nephane or elsewhere. But bear with me.
I have a thing to say."
"Say it," laid t'Nechis. "We will not
deny you that."
"You would do well," he said, "to
approach her with a clear request for action and
concessions for the Sufaki who are not with
tTefur."
"You seem to favor her," said t'Ranek,
"and to have a great deal of confidence in her. I
think we were wrong to sympathize with you for the death of
Mim h'Elas."
Kurt threw out a hand to stop Kta, and himself stared at
t'Ranek with such coldness that all the nemet grew
silent. "My wife," he said, "was as much a
victim of you as of Djan-methi, though I swear I tried to
feel loyalty to the Families since I was part of Elas. I
am- human. I was not welcome and you made me know it as you
made Djan-methi know it, and the Sufaki before her. If that
were not the nature of Nephane, my wife would not be
dead."
And before any could object, he sprang up and walked
away, to t'Nethim's lonely station at the bow.
Lhe regarded him curiously, then even with pity, which
from the enemy was like salt in the wound.
Soon, as Kurt had known, there came someone sent from
Kta to try to persuade him back, to persuade him to bow his
head and swallow his humanity and his pride and submit in
silence.
He heard the footsteps coming behind him, pointedly
ignored the approach until he heard the man call his
name.
Then he turned and saw that it was t'Ranek
himself.
"Kta t'Elas has threatened bloodfeud,"
said t'Ranek. "Please accept my apologies,
t'Morgan. I am no friend of Elas, but I do not want a
fight, and I acknowledge that it was not a worthy thing to
say."
"Kta would fight over that?"
"It is his honor," said t'Ranek. "He
says that you are of Elas. He also," t'Ranek
added, with an uneasy glance at Lhe t'Nethim, "has
asked t'Nethim to return. He has explained somewhat of
the lady Mim h'Elas. Please accept my apology, Kurt
t'Morgan."
It was not easy for the man. Kurt gave a stiff bow in
acknowledgment, then looked at Lhe t'Nethim. The three
of them returned to their places in the circle in utter
silence. Kurt took his place beside Kta, t'Ranek with
his brother, and Lhe t'Nethim stood nervously in the
center until Kta abruptly gestured to him and bade him sit.
T'Nethim settled at Kta's feet, thin-lipped and
with eyes downcast.
"You have among you," said Kta in that hush,
"my brother Kurt, and Lhe t'Nethim, who is under
the protection of Elas."
Like the effect of wind over grass, the men in the
circle made slight bows.
"I was speaking," Kurt said then, evenly and
softly in that stillness. "And I will say one other
thing, and then I will not trouble you further. There are
weapons in the Afen. If Djan-methi has not used them, it is
because Djan-methi has chosen not to use them. Once you
have threatened her, you will have to reckon with the
possibility that she will use them. You are wrong in some
of your suppositions. She could destroy not only Nephane
but Indresul also if she chose. You are hazarding your
lives on her forbearance."
The silence persisted. It was not longer one of hate,
but of fear. Even Kta looked at him as a stranger.
"I am telling the truth," he said, for
Kta.
"T'Morgan," said Ian t'Ilev. "Do
you have a suggestion what to do?"
It was quietly, even humbly posed, and to his shame he
was helpless to answer it. "I will tell you
this," he said, "that if Djan-methi still
controls the Afen when Ylith-methi sails into that harbor,
you are much more likely to see those weapons used-worse,
if Shan t'Tefur should gain possession of them. She
does not want to arm him, or she would have, but she might
lose her power to prevent him, or abdicate it. I would
suggest, gentlemen, that you make any peace you must with
the Sufaki who will have peace. Give them reasonable
alternatives, and do all you can to get the Afen out of
Djan-methi's hands and out of
t'Tefur's."
"The Afen," protested t'Ranek, "has
only fallen to treachery, never to attack by nemet.
Haichema-tleke is too high, our streets too steep, and the
human weapons would make it impossible."
"Our other alternative," said Kta, "would
seem to be to take the whole fleet and run for the north
sea, saving ourselves. And I do not think we are of
a mind to do that."
"No," said t'Nechis. "We are
not."
"Then we attack the Afen."
XXII
The smoke over Nephane was visible even from a distance.
It rolled up until the west wind caught it and spread it
over the city like one of its frequent sea fogs, but
blacker and thicker, darkening the morning light and
overshadowing the harbor.
The men who stood on Sidek's bow as the
Ilev longship put into harbor at the head of the fleet
watched the shore in silence. The smoke appeared to come
from high up the hill, but no one ventured to surmise what
was burning.
At last Kta turned his face from the sight with a
gesture of anger. "Kurt," he said, "keep
close by me. Gods know what we are going into."
Oars eased Sidek in and let her glide, a brave
man of Ilev first ashore with the mooring cable. Other
ships came into dock in quick succession.
Crowds poured from the gate, gathering on the dockside,
all Sufaki, not a few of them in Robes of Color, young and
menacing. There were elders and women with children also,
clamoring and pleading for news, looking with frightened
eyes at the tattered rigging of the ships. Some seamen who
had not sailed with their Indras crewmates ran down to
their sides and began to curse and invoke the gods for
grief at what had happened to them, seeking news of
shipmates.
And swiftly the rumor was running the crowd that the
fleet had turned back the Methi, even while Ian t'Ilev
and other captains gave quick orders to run out the
gangplanks.
The plans and alternate plans had been drilled into the
ships' crews in exhortations of captains and family
heads and what practice the narrow decks permitted. Now the
Indras-descended moved smartly, with such decision and
certainty that the Sufaki, confused by the false rumor of
victory, gave back.
A young revolutionary charged forward, shrieking hate
and trying to inflame the crowd, but Indras discipline
held, though he struck one of the t'Nechisen half
senseless. And suddenly the rebel gave back and ran, for no
one had followed him. The Indras-descended kept swords in
sheaths, gently making way for themselves at no greater
speed than the bewildered crowd could give them. They did
not try to pass the gates. They took their stand on the
dock and t'Isulan, who had the loudest voice in the
fleet, held up his arms for silence.
News was what the crowd cried for; now that it was
offered, they compelled each other to silence to hear
it.
"We have held them a little while," shouted
t'Isulan. "We are still in danger. Where is the
Methi to be found? Still in the Afen?"
People attempted to answer in the affirmative, but the
replies and the questions drowned one another out. Women
began screaming, everyone talking at once.
"Listen," t'Isulan roared above the noise.
"Pull back and fortify the wall. Get your women to the
houses and barricade the gates to the sea!"
The tumult began anew, and Kta, well to the center of
the lines of Indras, seized Kurt by the arm and drew him to
the inside as they started to move, t'Nethim staying
close by them.
Kurt had his head muffled in his ctan. Among so
many injured it was not conspicuous, and exposure had
darkened' his skin almost to the hue of the nemet. He
was terrified, none the less, that the sight of his human
face might bring disaster to the whole plan and put him in
the hands of a mob. There had been talk of leaving him on
the ship; Kta had argued otherwise.
The Indras-descended began to pass the outer-wall gates,
filing peacefully upward toward their homes, toward their
own hearths. It was supreme bluff. T'Isulan had hedged
the truth with a skill uncommon to that tall, gruff breed
that were his Family. It was their hope to organize the
Sufaki to work, and so keep the Sufaki out of the way of
the Families.
And at the inner gate, the rebels waited.
There were jeers. Daggers were out. Rocks flew. Two
Indras-descended fell, immediately gathered up by their
kinsmen. T'Nethim staggered as a rock hit him. Kta
hurried him further, half carrying him. The head of the
column forced the gate bare-handed, with sheer weight of
numbers and recklessness. It was sworn among them that they
would not draw weapons, not until a point of extremity.
There was blood on the cobbles as they passed, and
smeared on the post of the gate, but the Indras-descended
let none of their own fall. They gained the winding Street
of the Families, and their final rush panicked the rebels,
who scattered before them, disordered and
undisciplined.
Then the cause of the smoke became evident. Houses at
the rising of the hill were aflame, Sufaki milling in the
streets at the scene. Women snatched up screaming children
and crowded back, caught between the fires and the rush of
fleeing rebels and advancing Indras. A young mother
clutched her two children to her and shrank against the
side of a house, sobbing in terror as they passed her.
It was the area where the wealthiest Sufak houses joined
the Street of the Families, and where the road took the
final bend toward the Afen. Two Sufak houses, Rachik and
Pamchen, were ablaze, and the blasphemous paint-splashed
triangle of Phan gave evidence of the religious bitterness
that had brought it on. Trapped Sufaki ran in panic between
the roiling smoke of the fire and the sudden charge of the
Indras.
"Spread out!" t'Isulan roared, waving his
arm to indicate a barrier across the street. "Close
off this area and secure it!"
A feathered shaft impacted into the chest of the man
next to him; Tis t'Nechis fell with red dying his
robes. A second and a third shaft sped, one felling an
Indras and the other a Sufaki bystander who happened to be
in the line of fire.
"Up there!" Kta shouted, pointing to the
rooftop of Dleve. "Get the man, t'Ranek! You men,
spread out! This side, this side, quickly-"
The Indras moved, their rush to shelter terrifying the
Sufaki who chanced to have sought the same protected side,
but the Indras dislodged no one. A terrified boy started to
dart out. An Indras seized him, struggling and kicking
though he was, and pushed him into the hands of his
kin.
"Neighbors!" Kta shouted to the house of
Rachik. "We are not here to harm you. Gods, lady
shu-t'Rachik, get those children back into the alley!
Keep close to the wall."
There were a few grins, for the first lady t'Rachik
with her brood was very like a frightened cochin
with a half dozen of her children about her; other Rachiken
were there too, both women and men, and the old father too.
They were glad enough to escape the area, and the old man
gave a sketchy bow to Kta t'Elas, gratitude. Though his
house was burning, his children were safe.
"Shelter near Elas," said Kta. "No Indras
will harm you. Put the Pamcheni there too, Gyan
t'Rachik."
A cry rang out overhead and a body toppled from the roof
to bounce off a porch and onto the stones of the street.
The dead Sufaki archer lay with arrows scattered like
straws about his corpse.
A girl of Dleve screamed, belatedly, hysterically.
"Throw a defense around this whole section,"
Kta directed his men. "Ian! Camit! Take the
wall-street by Irain and set a guard there. You Sufaki
citizens! Get these fires under control: buckets and pikes,
quickly! You, t'Hsnet, join t'Ranek, you and all
your cousins!"
Men scattered in all directions at his orders, and
pushed their way through smoke and frightened Sufaki; but
the Sufaki who remained on the street, elders and children,
huddled together in pitiful confusion, afraid to move in
any direction.
Then from the houses up the street came others of the
Indras-descended, and the chani, such as had
stayed behind to guard the houses when the fleet sailed.
Sufaki women
screamed at the sight of them, men armed with the
deadly
ypai.
Kta stood free of the wall, taking a chance, for
t'Ranek's men were not yet in position to defend
the street from archers. He lifted his sword arm aloft in
signal to the Indras who were running up, weapons in
hand.
"Hold off!" he shouted. "We have things
under control. These poor citizens are not to blame. Help
us secure the area and put out the fires."
"The Sufaki set them, in Sufak houses,"
shouted the old chan of Irain. "Let the
Sufaki put them out!"
"No matter who started them," Kta returned
furiously, his face purpling at being fronted by a
chan of a friendly house. "Help put them out.
The fires are burning and they will take our houses too.
They must be stopped."
That chan seemed suddenly to realize who it was
he had challenged, for he came to a sudden halt; and
another man shouted:
"Kta t'Elas! Ei, t'Elas,
t'Elas!"
"Aye," shouted Kta, "still alive,
t'Kales! Well met! Give us help here."
"These people," panted t'Kales, reaching
him and giving the indication of a bow, "these people
deserve no pity. We tried to defend them. They shield
t'Tefur's men, even when the fires strike their own
houses."
"All Nephane has lost its mind," said Kta,
"and there is no time to argue blame. Help us or stand
aside. The Indras fleet is a day out of Nephane and we
either collect ourselves a people or see Nephane
burn." ,
"Gods," breathed t'Kales. "Then the
fleet-"
"Defeated. We must organize the city."
"We cannot do it, Kta. None of these people will
listen to reason. We have been beseiged in our own
houses."
"Kta!" Kurt exclaimed, for another man was
running down the street.
It was Bel t'Osanef. One of the Indras-descended
barred his way with drawn ypan and nearly ran him
through, but t'Osanef avoided it with desperate
agility.
"Light of heaven!" Kta cried. "Hold,
t'Idur! Let him pass!"
The seaman dropped his point and Bel began running
again, reached the place where they stood.
"Kta, ye gods, Kta!" Bel was close to collapse
with his race to get through, and the words choked from
him. "I had no hope-"
"You are mad to be on the street," said Kta.
"Where is Aimu?"
"Safe. We shelter in Irain. Kta-"
"I have heard, I have heard, my poor
friend."
"Then please, Kta, these people . . . these people
of mine . . . they are innocent of the fires. Whatever . .
. whatever your people say . . . they try to make us out
responsible . . . but it is a lie, a-"
"Calm yourself, Bel. Cast no words to the winds. I
beg you, take charge of these people and get them to help
or get them out of this area. The Indras fleet is coming
down on Nephane and we have only a little time to restore
order here and prepare ourselves."
"I will try," said Bel, and cast a despairing
look at the frightened people milling about, at the dead
men in the street. He went to the archer who lay in the
center of the cobbled street, knelt down and touched him,
then looked up with a negative gesture and a sympathetic
expression for someone in the crowd.
There came a young woman-the one who had screamed. She
crept forward and knelt down in the street beside the dead
man, sobbing and rocking in her misery. Bel spoke to her in
words no one else could hear, though there was but for the
fire's crackling a strange silence on the street and
among the crowd. Then he picked up the dead youth's
body himself, and struggled with it toward the Sufaki
side.
"Let us take our dead decently inside," he
said. "You men who can, put the fires out."
"The Indras set them," one of the young women
said.
"Udafi Kafurtin," said Bel in a trembling
voice, "in the chaos we have made of Nephane, there is
really no knowing who started anything. Our only
identifiable enemy is whoever will not put them out.
Kta-Kta! Have these men of yours put up their weapons. We
have had enough of weapons and threats in this city. My
people are not armed, and yours do not need to
be."
"Yours shoot from ambush!" shouted one of the
Indras. "Do as he asks!" Kta shouted, and glared
about him with such fury that men began to obey him.
Then Kta went and bowed very low before t'Nechis,
who had a cousin to mourn, and quietly offered his help,
though Kurt winced inwardly and
expected temper and hatred from the
grieving t'Nechis.
But in extremity t'Nechis was Indras and a
gentleman.
He bowed in turn, in proper grace. "See to
business, Kta
t'Elas. The t'Nechisen will take him home. We
will be with
you as soon as we can send my cousin to his
rest."
By noon the fires were out, and the Sufaki who had
aided in fighting the blaze scattered to their
homes to bar the
doors and wait in
silence.
!
Peace returned to
the Street of
the Families, with ]
armed men of the
fleet standing at
either end of the street and
on rooftops where they commanded a view of all that moved.
The scars were visible now, hollow shells of buildings,
pavement littered with rubble.
Kurt left Lhe t'Nethim sheltered in the hall of
Elas, the Indras grim-faced and subdued to have set foot in
a hostile house.
He found Kta standing out on the curb. Kta, like
himself, was masked with soot and sweat and the dim red
marks of burns from fire fighting.
"They have buried t'Nechis," Kta said
hollowly, without looking around. They had been so much
together it was possible to feel the other's presence
without looking. He knew Kta's face without seeing it,
that it was tired and shadow-eyed and drawn with pain.
"Get off the street," Kurt said.
"You are a target."
"T'Ranek is on the roof. I do not think there
is danger. Fully half of Nephane is in our hands now, thank
the gods." |
"You have done enough. Go over to Irain. Aimu will
be I anxious to see you."
"I do not wish to go to Irain," Kta said
wearily. "Bel will be there and I do not wish to see
him."
"You have to, sooner or later."
"What do I tell him? What do I say to him when he
asks me what will happen now? Forgive me, brother, but I
have made a compact with the Indras, and I swore once that
was impossible; forgive me, brother, but I have surrendered
your home to my foreign cousins; I am sorry, my brother,
but I have sold you into slavery for your own
preservation."
"At least," said Kurt grimly, "the Sufaki
will have the same chance a human has among Indras, and
that is better than dying, Kta, it is infinitely better
than dying."
"I hope," said Kta, "that Bel sees it
that way. I am afraid for this city tonight. There has been
too little resistance. They are saving something back. And
there is a report t'Tefur is in the Afen."
Kurt let the breath hiss slowly between his teeth and
glanced uphill, toward the Afen gate.
"If we are fortunate," he said, "Djan
will keep control of the weapons."
"You seem to have some peculiar confidence she will
not hand him that power."
"She will not do it," Kurt said. "Not
willingly. I could be wrong, but I think I know Djan's
mind. She would suffer a great deal before she would let
those machines be loosed on nemet."
Kta looked back at him, anger on his face. "She was
capable of things you seem to have forgotten. Humanness
blinds you, my friend, and I fear you have buried Mim more
deeply than earth can put her. I do not understand that. Or
perhaps I do."
"Some things," Kurt said, with a sudden and
soul-deep coldness, "you still do not know me well
enough to say."
And he walked back into Elas, ignoring t'Nethim,
retreating into its deep shadows, into the rhmei,
where the fire was dead, the ashes cold. He knelt there on
the rugs as he had done so many evenings, and stared into
the dark.
Lhe t'Nethim's quiet step dared the silent
rhmei. It was a rash and brave act for an orthodox
Indras. He bowed himself in respect before the dead
firebowl and knelt on the bare floor.
He only waited, as he had waited constantly, attending
them in silence".
"What do you want of me?" Kurt asked in
vexation.
"I owe you," said Lhe t'Nethim, "for
the care of my cousin's soul. I have come because it is
right that a kinsman see the hearth she honored. When I
have seen her avenged, I will be free again."
It was understandable. Kurt could imagine Kta doing so
reckless a thing for Aimu.
Even for him.
He had used rudeness to Kta. Even justified, it pained
him. He was glad to hear Kta's familiar step in the
entry, like a ghost of things that belonged to Elas,
disturbing its sleep.
Kta silently came and knelt down on the rug nearest
Kurt.
"I was wrong," said Kurt. "I owe you an
accounting."
"No," said Kta gently. "The words flew
amiss. You are a stranger sometimes. I feared you were
remembering human debts. And you have found no
yhia since losing Mim. She lies at the heart of
everything for you. A man without yhia toward such
a great loss cannot remember things clearly, cannot reason.
He is dangerous to all around him. I fear you. I fear for
you. Even you do not know what you are likely to
do."
He was silent for a long time. Kurt did not break the
silence.
"Let us wash," said Kta at last. "And
when I have cleansed my hands of blood I mean to light the
hearth of Elas again, and return some feeling of life to
these halls. If you dread to go upstairs, use my room, and
welcome."
"No," said Kurt, and gathered himself to his
feet. "I will go up, Kta. Do not worry for
it."
The room that had been his and Mini's looked little
different. The stained rug was gone, but all else was the
same, the bed, the holy phusa before which she had
knelt and prayed.
He had thought that being here would be difficult. He
could scarcely remember the sound of Mim's voice. That
had been the first memory to flee. The one most persistent
was that still shape of shadow beneath the glaring
hearth-fire, Nym's arms uplifted, invoking ruin, waking
the vengeance of his gods.
But now his eyes traveled to the dressing table, where
still rested the pins and combs that Mim had used, and when
he opened the drawer there were the scarves that carried
the gentle scent of aluel. For the first time in a
long time he did remember her in daylight, her gentle
touch, the light in her eyes when she laughed, the sound of
her voice bidding him Good morning, my lord. Tears came to
his eyes. He took one of the scarves, light as a dream in
his oar-calloused hands, and folded it and put it back
again. Elas was home for him again, and he could exist
here, and think of her and not mourn any longer.
T'Nethim, his peculiar shadow, hovered uncertainly
out on the landing. Kurt heard him, looked and bade him
come in. The Indras uncertainly trod the fine carpeting,
bowed in reverence before the dead phusa.
"There are clean clothes," Kurt said to him,
flinging wide the closet which held all that had been his.
"Take what you need."
He put off his own filthy garments and went into the
bath, washed and shaved with cold water and dressed again
in a change of clothing while Lhe t'Nethim did the same
for himself. Kurt found himself changed, browner, leaner,
ribs crossed by several ridged scars that were still
sensitive. Those misfortunes were far away, shut out by the
friendly wall of this house.
There was only t'Nethim, who followed, silent, to
remind him that war hovered about them.
When they had both finished, they went downstairs to the
rhmei to find Kta.
Kta had relit the holy fire, and the warm light of it
leaped up and touched their faces and chased the shadows
into the deeper recesses of the high ceiling and the spaces
behind the pillars of the hall. Elas was alive again in
Nephane.
T'Nethim would not enter here now, but returned to
the threshold of Elas, to take his place in the shadows,
sword detached and laid before him like a self-appointed
sentinel, as in ancient times the chan was
stationed.
But Kurt went to join Kta in the rhmei and
listened while Kta lifted hands to the fire and spoke a
prayer to the Guardians for their blessing.
"Spirits of my Ancestors," he ended, "of
Elas, my fathers, my father, fate has led me here and led
me home again. My father, my mother, my friends who wait
below, there is no peace yet in Elas. Aid me now to find
it. Receive us home again and give us welcome, and also
bear the presence of Lhe t'Nethim u Kma, who sits at
our gate, a suppliant Shadow of Mim, one of your own has
come. Be at peace."
For a moment he remained still, then let fall his hands
and looked back at Kurt. "It is a better
feeling," he said quietly. "But still there is a
heaviness. I am stifling, Kurt. Do you feel it?"
Kurt shivered involuntarily, and the human part of him
insisted it was a cold draft through the halls, blowing the
fire's warmth in the other direction.
But all of a sudden he knew what Kta meant of ill
feelings. An ancestral enemy sat at their threshold.
Unease
rippled through the air, disquiet hovered thickly there.
T'Nethim existed, t'Nethim waited, in a city where
he ought not to have come, in a house that was his
enemy.
A piece of the yhia out of place, waiting.
Let us bid him go wait in some other house, Kurt almost
suggested, but he was embarrassed to do it. Besides, it was
to himself that t'Nethim was attached, his own heels
the man of Indras dogged.
' A pounding came at the front door of Elas. They
hurried out, taking weapons left by the doorway of the
rhmei, and gave a nod of assent to
t'Nethim's questioning look. T'Nethim slipped
the bar and opened the door.
A man and a woman were there in the light: Aimu, with
Bel t'Osanef.
She folded her hands on her breast and bowed, and Kta
bowed deeply to her. When she lifted her face she was
crying, tears flooding over her face.
"Aimu," said Kta. "Bel,
welcome."
"Am I truly?" Aimu asked. "My brother, I
have waited so long this afternoon, so patiently, and you
would not come to Irain."
"Ei, Aimu, Aimu, you were my first thought
in coming home-how not, my sister? You are all Kurt and I
have left. How can you think I do not care?"
Aimu looked into his face and her hurt became a troubled
expression, as if suddenly she read something in Kta that
she feared, knowing him. "Dear my brother," she
said, "there is no woman in the house. Receive us as
your guests and let me make this house home for you
again."
"It would be welcome," he said. "It would
be very welcome, my sister."
She bowed a little and went her way into the women's
part of the house. Kta looked back to Bel, hardly able to
do otherwise, and the Sufaki's eyes were full sober.
They demanded an answer.
"Bel," said Kta, "this house bids you
welcome. Whether it is still a welcome you want to accept .
. ."
"You can tell me that, Kta."
"I am going to finish the quarrel between us and
Tefur, Bel." Kta then gave Lhe t'Nethim a direct
look, so the Indras knew he was earnestly not wanted. Lhe
retreated down the hall toward the darkness, still not
daring the rhmei.
"He is a stranger," said Bel. "Is he of
the Isles?"
"He is Indras," Kta admitted. "Forget
him, Bel. Come into the rhmei. We will
talk."
"I will talk here," said Bel. "I want to
know what you are planning. Revenge on t'Tefur-in that
I will gladly join you. I have a debt of blood there too.
But why is the street still sealed? What is this silence in
Irain? And why have you not come there?"
"Bel, do not press me like this. I will
explain."
"You have made some private agreement with the
Indras forces. That is the only conclusion that makes
sense. I want you to tell me that I am wrong. I want you to
account for how you return with the fleet, for who this
stranger is in Bias, for a great many things,
Kta."
"Bel, we were defeated. We have bought
time."
"How?"
"Bel, if you walk out of here now and rouse your
people against us, you will be bloody-guilty. We lost the
battle. The Methi Ylith will not destroy the city if we
fulfill her conditions. Walk out of here if you choose,
betray that confidence, and you will have lives of your
people on your conscience."
Bel paused with his hand on the door.
"What would you do to stop me?"
"I would let you go," said Kta. "I would
not stop you. But your people will die if they fight, and
they will throw away everything we have tried to win for
them. Ylith-methi will not destroy the Sufaki, Bel. We
would never have agreed to that. I am struggling with her
to win your freedom. I think I can, if the Sufaki
themselves do not undo it all."
Bel's eyes were cold, a muscle slowly knotting in
his jaw.
"You are surrendering," he said at last.
"Did you not tell me once how the Indras-descended
would fight to the death before they would let Nephane
fall? Are these your promises? Is this the value of your
honor?"
"I want this city to live, Bel."
"I know you, my friend. Kta t'Elas took good
thought that it was honorable. And when Indras talk of
honor, we always lose."
"I understand your bitterness; I do not blame you.
But I won you as much as I could win."
"I know," said Bel. "I know it for the
truth. If I did not believe it, I would help them collect
your head. Gods, my friend, my kinsman-by-marriage, of all
our enemies, it has to
"be you to come tell me you have sold us out, and
for friendship's sake. Honorably. Because it was fated.
Ai, Kta-"
"I am sorry, Bel."
Bel laughed shortly, a sound of weeping. "Gods,
they killed my house for staying by Elas. My people ... I
tried to persuade to reason, to the middle course. I argued
with great eloquence, ai, yes, and most bitter of all, I
knew-I knew when I heard the fleet had returned-I knew as
sure as instinct what the Indras must have done to come
back so soon. It was the reasonable course, was it not, the
logical, the expedient, the conservative thing to do? But I
did not know until you failed to come to Irain that you had
been the one to do it to us."
"T'Osanef," said Kurt, "times change
things, even in Indresul. No human would have left
Tehal-methi's hands alive. I was freed."
"Have you met with Ylith-methi face to
face?"
"Yes," said Kta.
Bel shot him a yet more uneasy look. "Gods, I could
almost believe . . . Did you run straight from here to
Indresul? Was t'Tefur right about you?"
"Is that the rumor in the city?"
"A rumor I have denied until now."
"Shan t'Tefur knows where we were," said
Kurt. "He tried to sink us in the vicinity of the
Isles, but we were captured after that by the Indras, and
that is the truth. Kta risked his life for your sake,
t'Osanef. You could at least afford him the time to
hear all the truth."
Bel considered a moment. "I suppose I can do
that," he said. "There is little else I can do,
is there?"
"Will you have more tea, gentlemen?" Aimu
asked, when the silence lasted overlong among them.
"No," said Bel at last, and gave his cup to
her. He looked once more at Kta and Kurt. "Kta, I am
at least able to understand. I am sorry . . . for the
suffering you had." '
"You are saying what is in your mind," said
Kta, "not what is in your heart."
"I have listened to what you had to say. I do not
blame you. What could you do? You are Indras. You chose the
survival of your people and the destruction of mine. Is
that so unnatural?"
"I will not let them
harm the Sufaki," Kta
insisted, while Bel stared at him with that hard-eyed pain
which would not admit of tears.
"Would you defy Ylith-methi for us," asked
Bel, "as you defied Djan?"
"Yes. You know I would."
"Yes," said Bel, "because Indras are
madly honorable. You would die for me. That would satisfy
your conscience. But you have already made the choice that
matters. Gods, Kta, Kta, I love you as a brother; I
understand you, and it hurts, Kta."
"It grieves me too," said Kta, "because I
knew that it would hurt you personally. But I am doing what
I can to prevent bloodshed among your people. I do not ask
your help, only your silence."
"I cannot promise that."
"Bel," Kurt said sharply when t'Osanef
made to rise. "Listen to me. A people can
still hope, so long as they live; even mine, low as they
have fallen on this world. You can survive this."
"As slaves again.''
"Even so, Sufaki ways would survive. If they
survive, little by little, you gain. Fight them, spend
lives, fall-in the end, the same result: Sufaki ways seep
in among the Indras and theirs among you. Bow to good
sense. Be patient."
"My people would curse me for a traitor."
"It is too late to do otherwise," said
Kurt.
"Are the Families agreed?" Bel asked Kta.
"A vote was taken in the fleet. Enough houses were
present to bind the Families to the decision; the
Upei's vote would be a formality."
"That is not unusual," said Bel, and suddenly
looked at Aimu, who sat listening to everything, pained and
silent. "Aimu, do you have counsel for me?"
"No," she said. "No counsel. Only that
you do what you think best. If your honored father were
here, my lord, he surely would have advice for you, being
Sufaki, being elder. What could I tell you?"
Bel bowed his head and thought a time, and made a
gesture of deep distress. "It is a fair answer,
Aimu," he said at last. "I only hate the choice.
Tonight-tonight, when it is possible to move without having
my throat cut by one of your men, my brother Kta-I will go
to what men of my father's persuasion I can reach. I
leave t'Tefur to you.
I will not kill Sufaki. I assume you are going to try to
take the Afen?"
Kta was slow to answer, and Bel's look was one of
bitter humor, as if challenging his trust. "Yes,"
said Kta.
"Then we go our separate ways this evening. I hope
your men will exercise the. sense to stay off the
harbor-front. Or is it a night attack Indresul
plans?"
"If that should happen," said Kta, "you
will know that we of the Families have been deceived. I
tell you the truth, Bel, I do not anticipate
that."
Men came to the door of Elas from time to time as the
day sank toward evening, representatives of the houses,
reporting decisions, urging actions. Ian t'Ilev came to
report the street at last under firm control all along the
wall of the Afen gate. He brought too the unwelcome news
that Res t'Benit had been wounded from ambush at the
lower end of the street, grim forecast of trouble to come,
when night made the Families' position vulnerable.
"Where did it happen?" asked Kta. "At
Imas," said Ian. It was the house that faced the
Sufaki district. "But the assassin ran and we could
not follow him into the-"
He stopped cold as he saw Bel standing in the triangular
arch of the rhmei.
Bel walked forward. "Do you think me the enemy, Ian
t'Ilev?"
"T'Osanef." Ian covered his confusion with
a courteous bow. "No, I was only surprised to find you
here." "That is strange. Most of my people would
not be." "Bel," Kta reproved him.
"You and I know how things stand," said Bel.
"If you will pardon me, I see things are getting down
to business and the sun is sinking. I think it is time for
me to leave." "Bel, be careful. Wait until it is
securely dark." "I will be careful," he
said, a little warmth returning to his voice. "Kta,
take care for Aimu."
"Gods, are you leaving this moment? What am I to
tell her?"
"I have said to her what I need to say." Bel
delayed a moment more, his hand on the door, and looked
back. "She was your best argument; I remain grateful
you did not stoop to that. I will omit to wish you success,
Kta. Do not be surprised if some of my people choose to die
rather than agree with you. I will not even pray for
t'Tefur's death, when it may be the last the world
will see of the nation we were. The name, my Indras
friends, was Chtelek, not Sufak. But that probably will not
matter hereafter."
"Bel," said Kta, "at least arm
yourself."
"Against whom? Yours-or mine? Thank you, no, Kta. I
will see you at the harbor, or be in it tomorrow morning,
whichever fortune brings me."
The heavy door closed behind him, echoing through the
empty halls, and Kta looked at Ian with a troubled
expression.
"Do you trust him that far?" Ian t'Ilev
asked.
"Begin no action against the Sufaki beyond Imas. I
insist on that, Ian."
"Is everything still according to original
plan?"
"I will be there at nightfall. But one thing you
can do: take Aimu with you and put her safely in a defended
house. Elas will be no protection to her tonight."
"She will be safe in Ilev. There will be men left
to guard it, as many as we can spare. Uset's women will
be there too."
"That will ease my mind greatly," said
Kta.
Aimu wept at the parting, as she had already been crying
and trying not to. Before she did leave the house, she went
to the phusmeha and cast into the holy fire her
silken scarf. It exploded into brief flame, and she held
out her hands in prayer. Then she came and put herself in
the charge of Ian t'Ilev.
Kurt felt deeply sorry for her and found it hard to
think Kta would not make some special farewell, but he
bowed to her and she to him with the same formality that
had always been between them.
"Heaven guard you, my brother," she said
softly.
"The Guardians of Elas watch over thee, my little
sister, once of this house." ..
It was all. Ian opened the door for her and shepherded
her out into the street, casting an anxious eye across and
up where the guards still stood on the rooftops, a
reassuring presence. Kta closed the door again.
"How much longer?" Kurt asked. "It's
near dark. Shan t'Tefur undoubtedly has ideas of his
own."
"We are about to leave." TNethim appeared
silently among the shadows of the further hall. Kta gave a
jerk of his head and t'Nethim came forward to join
them. "Stay by the threshold," he ordered
t'Nethim. "And be still. What I have yet to do
does not involve you. I forbid you to invoke your Guardians
in this house."
T'Nethim looked uneasy, but bowed and assumed his
accustomed place by the door, laying his sword on the floor
before him.
Kta walked with Kurt into the firelit rhmei,
and Kurt realized then the nature of Kta's warning to
t'Nethim, for he walked to the left wall of the
rhmei, where hung the Sword of Elas, Isthain. The
ypan-sul had hung undisturbed for nine
generations, untouched since the expulsion of the humans
from Nephane but for the sometime attention that kept its
metal bright and its leather-wrapped hilt in good repair.
The ypai-sulim, the Great Weapons, were unique to
their houses and full of the history of them. Isthain,
forged in Indresul when Nephane was still a colony, nearly
a thousand years before, had been dedicated in the blood of
a Sufaki captive in the barbaric past, carried into battle
by eleven men before.
Kta's hand hesitated at taking the age-dark hilt of
it, but then he lifted it down, sheath and all, and went to
the hearthfire. There he knelt and laid the great Sword on
the floor, hands outstretched over it.
"Guardians of Elas," he said, "waken,
waken and hear me, all ye spirits who have ever known me or
wielded this blade. I, Kta t'Elas u Nym, last of this
house, invoke ye; know my presence and that of Kurt Liam
t'Morgan u Patrick Edward, friend to this house. Know
that at our threshold sits Lhe t'Nethim u Kma. Let your
powers shield my friend and myself, and do no harm to him
at our door. We take Isthain against Shan t'Tefur u
Tlekef, and the cause of it you well know. And you,
Isthain, you shall have t'Tefur's blood or mine.
Against t'Tefur direct your anger and against no
others. Long have you slept undisturbed, my dread sister,
and I know the tribute due you when you are wakened. It
will be paid by morning's light, and after that time
you will sleep again. Judge me, ye Guardians, and if my
cause is just, give me strength. Bring peace again to Elas,
by t'Tefur's death or mine."
So saying he took up the sheathed blade and drew it, the
holy light running up and down the length of it as it came
forth in his hand. Etched in its shining surface was the
lightning emblem of the house, seeming to flash to life in
the darkness of the rhmei. In both hands he lifted
the blade to the light and rose, lifted it heavenward and
brought it down again, then recovered the sheath and made
it fast in his belt.
"It is done," he said to Kurt. "Have a
care of me now, though your human soul has its doubts of
such powers. Isthain last drank of human life, and she is
an evil creature, hard to put to sleep once wakened. She is
eldest of the Sulim in Nephane, and
self-willed."
Kurt nodded and answered nothing. Whatever the temper of
the spirit that lived in the metal, he knew the one which
lived in Kta t'Elas. Gentle Kta had prepared himself to
kill and, in truth, he did not want to stand too near, or
to find any friend in Kta's path.
And when they came to the threshold where t'Nethim
waited, Lhe t'Nethim bowed his face to the stone floor
and let Kta pass the door before he would rise. When Kurt
delayed to close the door of Elas and secure it,
t'Nethim gathered himself up and crept out into the
gathering dark, the look on his perspiring face that of a
man who had indeed been brushed by something that sought
his life.
"He has prayed your safety," Kurt ventured to
tell him.
"Sometimes," said Lhe t'Nethim, "that
is not enough. Go ahead, t'Morgan, but be careful of
him. It is the dead of Elas who live in that thing. Mim my
cousin-"
He ceased with a shiver, and Kurt put the nemet
superstition out of mind with a horror that Mini's name
could be entangled in the bloody history of Isthain.
He ran to overtake Kta, and knew that Lhe t'Nethim,
at a safe distance, was still behind them.
XXIII
"There" said Ian t'Ilev,
nodding at the iron gate of the Afen.
"They have several archers stationed inside. We
are
bound to take a few arrows. You and Kurt must have most
care: they will be directly facing you for a few
moments."
Kta studied the situation from the vantage point in the
door of Irain. It was dark, and there were only ill-defined
shapes to be seen, the wall and the Afen a hulking mass.
"We cannot help that. Let us go. Now."
Ian t'Ilev bowed shortly, then broke from cover,
darting across the street.
In an instant came a heart-stopping shriek, and from the
main street poured a force of men bearing torches and
weapons: the Indras-descended came in direct attack against
the iron gate of the Afen, bearing a ram with them.
White light illuminated the court of the Afen, blinding,
and there was an answering Sufak ululation from inside the
wall. The blows of the ram began to resound against the
iron bars.
Kurt and Kta held a moment, while men from Isulan poured
around them. Then Kta broke forth and they followed him to
the shadow of the wall. Scaling-poles went up.
The first man took with him the line that would aid
their descent on the other side. He gained the top and
rolled over, the line jerking taut in the hands of those
who secured it on the outside.
The next man swarmed up to the top and then it was
Kurt's turn. Floodlights swung over to them now,
spotting them, arrows beginning to fly in their direction.
One hissed over Kurt's head. He hooked a leg over the
wall, flung himself over and slid for the bottom, stripping
skin from his hands on the knotted line.
The man behind him made it, but the next came plummeting
to earth, knocking the other man to the ground. There was
no time to help either. Kta landed on his feet beside him,
broke the securing thong and ripped Isthain from its
sheath. Kurt drew his own ypan as they ran, trying
to dodge clear of the tracking floodlight.
The wall of the Afen itself provided them shelter, and
there they regrouped. Of the twenty-four who had begun, at
least six were missing.
T'Nethim was the last into shelter. They were
nineteen.
Kta gestured toward the door of the Afen itself, and
they slipped along the wall toward it, the place where the
Methi's guard had taken their stand. They knew those
men but there was no mercy in the arrows which had already
taken toll of them, and none in the plans they had laid.
The door must be forced.
With a crash of iron the wall-gate gave way and the
Indras under Ian t'Ilev surged forward in a frontal
assault on the door to the Afen, the Sufaki archers,
standing and kneeling, firing as rapidly as they could.
Kta's small force hit the bowmen from the flank,
creating precious seconds of diversion. Isthain struck
without mercy, and Kurt wielded his own blade with less
skill but no less determination.
The swordless archers gave up the bows at such
unexpected short range and resorted to long daggers, but
they had no chance against the ypai, cut down and
overrushed. The charge of the Indras carried to the very
door, over the bodies of the Methi's valiant guard,
bringing the ram's metal-spiked weight to bear with
slow and shattering force against the bronze-plated
wood.
From inside, over all the booming and shouting, came a
brief piercing whine. Kurt knew it, froze inside, caught
Kta by the shoulder and pulled him back, shouting for the
others to drop, but few heard him.
The Afen door dissolved in a sheet of flame and the ram
and the men who wielded it were slag and ashes in the same
instant. The Indras still standing were paralyzed with
shock or they might have fled. There came the click and
whine as the alien fieldpiece in the inner hall built up
power for the next burst of fire.
Kurt flung himself through the smoking doorway, to the
wall inside and out of the line of fire. The gunners swung
the barrel around on its tripod to aim at him against the
wall and he dropped, sliding as it moved, the beam passing
over his head with a crackle of energy and a breath of
heat.
The wall shattered, the support beams turning to ash in
that instant. Kurt scrambled up now with a shout as wild as
that of the Indras, several seconds his before the weapon
could fire again.
He took the gunner with a sweep of his blade, his ears
hurting as the unmanned gun gathered force again, a wild
scream of energy. A second man tried to turn it on the
Indras who were pouring through the door.
Kurt ran him through, ignoring the man who was thrusting
a pike at his own side. The hot edge of metal raked his
back and he fell, rolled for protection. The Sufaki above
him was aiming the next thrust for his heart. Desperately
he parried with his blade crosswise and deflected the point
up. The iron head raked his shoulder and grated on the
stone floor.
In the next instant the Sufaki went down with Isthain
through his ribs, and Kta paused amid the rush to give Kurt
his hand and help him up.
"Get back to safety," Kta advised him.
"I am all right-No!" he cried as he
saw the Indras preparing to topple the live gun to the
flooring. He staggered to the weapon that still hummed with
readiness and swung it to where the Indras were pressing
forward against the next barred doorway, trying vainly to
batter it with shoulders and blades. Behind him the
shattered wall and dust and chips of stone sifting down
from the ceiling warned how close the area was to collapse.
There was need of caution. He controlled the mishandled
weapon to a tighter, less powerful beam.
"Have a care," Kta said. "I do not trust
that thing."
"Clear your men back," said Kurt, and Kta
shouted at them. When they realized what he was about, they
scrambled to obey.
The doorway dissolved, the edges of the blasted wood
charred and blackened, and Kurt powered down while the
Indras surged forward again and opened the ruined
doors.
The inner Afen stood open to them now, the lower halls
vacant of defenders. For a moment there was silence. There
were the stairs leading up to the Methi's apartments,
to the human section, which other weapons would guard.
"She has given her weapons to the Sufaki,"
Kurt said. "There is no knowing what the situation is
up there. We have to take the upper level. Help me. We need
this weapon."
"Here," said Ben t'Irain, a heavyset man
who was house-friend to Elas. He took the thing on his
broad shoulder and gestured for one of his cousins to take
its base as Kurt kicked the tripod and collapsed it.
"If we meet trouble," Kurt told him,
"drop to your knee and hold this end straight toward
the target. Leave the rest to me."
"I understand," said the man calmly, which was
bravery for a nemet, much as they hated machines. Kurt gave
the man a nod of respect and motioned the men to try the
stairway.
They went quickly and carefully now, ready for ambush at
any turn. Kurt privately feared a mine, but that was
something he did not tell them; they had no other way.
The door at the top of the stairs was closed, as Kurt
had known it must be. With Ben to steady the gun, he
blasted the wood to cinders, etching the outline of the
stone arch on the wall across the hall. The weapon started
to gather power again, beginning that sinister whine, and
Kurt let it, dangerous as it was to move it when charged.
It had to be ready.
They entered the hall leading to the human section of
the Afen. There remained only the door of Djan's
apartments.
Kurt held up a hand signaling caution, for there must be
opposition here as nowhere else.
He waited. Kta caught his eye and looked impatient, out
of breath as he was.
With Djan to reckon with, underestimation could be fatal
to all of them. "Ben," he said, "this may be
worth your life and mine."
"What will you?" Ben t'Irain asked him
calmly enough, though he was panting from the exertion of
the climb. Kurt nodded toward the door.
T'Irain went with him and took up position,
kneeling. Kurt threw the beam dead center, fired.
The door ceased to exist. In the
reeking opening was framed a heap of twisted metal, the
shapes of two men in pale
silhouette against the
cindered wall beyond, where
their bodies and the gun they had manned had absorbed the
energy.
A movement to the right drew Kurt's attention. There
was a burst of light as he turned and Ben t'Irain
gasped in pain and collapsed beneath the gun.
T'Tefur. The Sufaki swung the pistol left at Kurt
and Kurt dropped, the beam raking the wall where he had
been. In that instant two of the Indras rushed the Sufaki
leader, one shot down, and Kta, the other one, grazed by
the bolt.
Kta vaulted the table between them and Isthain swept m
an invisible downstroke that cleaved the Sufaki's
skull. The pistol discharged undirected and Kta staggered,
raked across the leg as t'Tefur's dying hands
caught at him and missed. Then Kta pulled himself erect and
leaned on Isthain as he turned and looked back at the
others. Kurt edged over to the whining gun and shut it
down, then touched t'Irain's neck to find that
there was no heartbeat. TTefur's first shot had been
true.
He gathered his shaking limbs under him and rose,
leaning on the charred doorframe. The heat made him jerk
back, and he staggered over to join Kta, past Ian
t'Ilev's sprawled body, for he was the other man
t'Tefur had shot down before dying.
Kta had not moved. He still stood by t'Tefur, both
his hands on Isthain's pommel. Then Kurt bent down and
took the gun from Shan t'Tefur's dead fingers, with
no sense of triumph in the action, no satisfaction in the
name of Mim or the other dead the man had sent before
him.
It was a way of life they had killed, the last of a
great house. He had died well. The Indras themselves were
silent, Kta most of all.
A small silken form burst from cover behind the couch
and fled for the open door. T'Ranek stopped her, swept
her struggling off her feet and set her down again.
"It is the chan of the Methi," said
Kta, for it was indeed the girl Pai t'Erefe, Sufaki,
Djan's companion. Released, she fell sobbing to her
knees, a small, shaken figure in that gathering of warlike
men. She was also of the Afen, so when she had made the
necessary obeisance to her conquerors, she sat back with
her little back stiff and her head erect.
"Where is the Methi?" Kta asked her, and Pai
set her lips and would not answer. One of the men reached
down and gripped her arm cruelly.
"No," Kurt told him, and dropped to one knee,
fronting Pai. "Pai, Pai, speak quickly. There is a
chance she may live if you tell me."
Pai's large eyes reckoned him, inside and out.
"Do not harm her," she pleaded.
"Where is she?"
"The temple. . . ." When he rose she sprang to
her feet, holding him, compelling his attention. "My
lord, t'Tefur wanted her greater weapons. She would not
give them. She refused him. My lord Kurt, my lord, do not
kill her."
"The chan is probably lying," said
t'Ranek, "to gain time for the Methi to prepare
worse than this welcome."
"I am not lying," Pai sobbed, gripping
Kurt's arm shamelessly rather than be ignored.
"Lord Kurt, you know her. I am not lying."
"Come on." Kurt took her by the arm and looked
at the rest of them, at Kta most particularly, whose face
was pale and drawn with the shock of his wound. "Hold
here," he told Kta. "I am going to the
temple."
"It is suicide," said Kta. "Kurt, you
cannot enter there. Even we dare not come after her there,
no Indras-"
"Pai is Sufaki and I am human," said Kurt,
"and no worse pollution there than Djan herself. Hold
the Afen. You have won, if only you do not throw it away
now."
"Then take men with you," Kta pleaded with
him, and when he ignored the plea: "Kurt, Elas wants
you back."
"I will remember it."
He hurried Pai with him, past t'Irain's corpse
at the door and down the hall to the inner stairs. He kept
one hand on her arm and held the pistol in the other,
forcing the chart along at a breathless pace.
Pai sobbed, pattering along with small resisting steps,
tripping hi her skirts on the stairs, though she tried to
hold them with her free hand. He shook her as they came to
the landing, not caring that he hurt.
"If they reach her first," he said, "they
will kill her, Pai. As you love her, move."
And after that, Pai's slippered feet hurried with
more sureness, and she had swallowed down her tears, for
the brave little chan had not^ needed to trip so
often. She hurried now under her own power.
They came into the main hall, through the rest of the
Indras, and men stared, but they did not challenge him;
everyone knew Elas' human. Pai stared about her with
fear-mad eyes, but he hastened her through, beneath the
threatening ceiling at the main gate and to the outside,
past the carnage that littered the entrance. Pai gave a
startled gasp and stopped. He drew her past quickly, not
much blaming the girl.
The night wind touched them, cold and clean after the
stench of burning flesh in the Afen. Across the floodlit
courtyard rose the dark side of Haichema-tleke, and beneath
it the wall and the small gate that led out into the temple
courtyard.
They raced across the lighted area, fearful of some last
archer, and reached the gate out of breath.
"You," Kurt told Pai, "had better be
telling the truth."
"I am," said Pai, and her large eyes widened,
fixed over his shoulder. "Lord! Someone
comes!"
"Come," he said and, blasting the lock,
shouldered the heavy gate open. "Hurry."
The temple doors stood ajar, far up the steps past the
three triangular pylons. The golden light of Nephane's
hearthfire threw light over all the square and hazed the
sky above the roof-opening.
Kurt drew a deep breath and raced upward, dragging Pai
with him, the girl stumbling now from exhaustion. He put
his arm about her and half carried her, for he would not
leave her alone to face whatever pursued them. Behind them
he could hear shouting rise anew from the main gate,
renewed resistance-cheers for victory-he did not pause to
know.
Within, the great hearthfire came in view, roaring up
from its circular pit to the gelos, the aperture
in the ceiling, the smoke boiling darkly up toward the
black stones.
Kurt kept his grip on Pai and entered cautiously,
keeping near the wall, edging his way around it, surveying
all the shadowed recesses. The fire's burning drowned
his own footsteps and its glare hid whatever might lie
directly across it The first he might know of Djan's
presence could be a darting bolt of fire deadlier than the
fire that burned for Phan.
"Human."
Pai shrieked even as he whirled, throwing her aside, and
he held his finger still on the trigger. The aged priest,
the one who had so nearly consigned him to die, stood in a
side hall, staff in hand, and behind him appeared other
priests.
Kurt backed away uneasily, darted a nervous glance
further left, right again toward the fire.
"Kurt," said Djan's voice from the shadows
at his far right.
He turned slowly, knowing she would be armed.
She waited, her coppery hair bright in the shadows,
bright as the bronze of the helmeted men who waited behind
her. The weapon he had expected was in her hand. She wore
her own uniform now-he had never seen her wear it
before-green that shimmered with synthetic unreality in
this time and place.
"I knew," she said, "when you ran, that
you would be back."
He cast the gun to the ground, demonstrating both hands
empty. "I'll get you out. It's too late to
save anything. Djan. Give up. Come with me."
"What, have you forgiven, and has Elas? They sent
you here because they won't come here. They fear this
place. And Pai, for shame, Pai."
"Methi," wailed Pai, who had fallen on her
face in misery, "Methi, I am sorry."
"I do not blame you. I have expected him for
days." She spoke now in Nechai. "And Shan
t'Tefur?"
"He is dead," said Kurt.
There was no grief, only a slight flicker of the eyes.
"I could no longer reason with him. He saw things that
could not exist, that never had existed. So others found
their own solutions, they tell me. They say the Families
have gone over to Ylith of Indresul."
"To save their city."
"And will it?"
"I think it has a chance at least."
"I thought," she said, "of making them
listen. I had the firepower to do it, to show them where we
came from."
"I am thankful," he said, "that you
didn't."
"You made this attack calculating that I
-wouldn't."
"You know the object lesson would be pointless. And
you have too keen a sense of responsibility to get these
men killed defending you. I'll help you get out, into
the hills. There are people in the villages who would help
you. You can make your peace with Ylith-methi
later."
She smiled sadly. "With a world between us, how did
we manage to do it? Ylith will not let it rest. And neither
will Kta t'Elas."
"Let me help you."
Djan moved the gun she had held steadily on him, killed
the power with a pressure of her thumb. "Go," she
told her two companions. "Take Pai to
safety."
"Methi," one protested. It was t'Senife.
"We will not leave you with him."
"Go," she said, but when they would not, she
simply held out her hand to Kurt and started with him to
the door, the white-robed priests melting back before them
to clear the way.
Then a shadow rose up before them.
TNethim.
-
A blade flashed. Kurt froze, foreseeing the move of
Djan's hand, whipping up the pistol.
"Don't!" he cried out to them both.
The ypan arced down.
A cry of outrage roared in his ears. He seized
t'Nethim's arm, thrown sprawling as the Sufaki
guards went for the man. Blades lifted, fell almost
simultaneously. T'Nethim sprawled down the steps, over
the edge, leaving a dark trail behind him.
Kurt struggled to his knees, saw the awful ruin of
Djan's shoulder and knew, though she still breathed,
that she was finished. His stomach knotted in panic. He
thought that her eyes pitied him.
Then they lost the look of life, the firelight from the
doorway flickering across their surface. When he gathered
her up against him she was loose, lifeless.
"Let her go," someone ordered.
He ignored the command, though it was in his mind that
in the next moment a Sufak dagger could be through his
back. He cradled Djan against him, aware of Pai sobbing
nearby. He did not shed tears. They were stopped up in him,
one with the terror that rested in his belly. He wished
they would end it.
A deafening vibration filled the air, moaning deeply
with a sighing voice of bronze, the striking of the
Inta, the notes shaking and chilling the night. It
went on and on, time brought to a halt, and Kurt knelt and
held her dead weight against his shoulder until at last one
of the younger priests came and knelt, holding out his
hands in entreaty.
"Human," said the priest, "please, for
decency's sake, let us take her from this holy
place."
"Does she pollute your shrine?" he asked,
suddenly trembling with outrage. "She could have
killed every living thing on the shores of the Ome Sin. She
could not even kill one man."
"Human," said t'Senife, half kneeling
beside him. "Human, let them have her. They will treat
her honorably."
He looked up into the narrow Sufaki eyes and saw grief
there. The priests pulled Djan from him gently, and he made
the effort to rise, his clothes soaked with her blood. He
shook so that he almost fell, staring with dazed eyes on
the temple square, where a line of Indras guards had ranged
themselves. Still the Inta sounded, numbing the
very air. Men came in small groups, moving slowly toward
the shrine.
They were Sufaki.
He was suddenly aware that all around him were Sufaki,
save for the distant line of Indras swordsmen who stood
screening the approach to the temple.
He looked back, realizing they had taken Djan. She was
gone, the last human face of his own universe that he would
ever see. He heard Pai crying desolately, and almost
absently bent and drew her to her feet, passing her into
t'Senife's care.
"Come with me," he bade t'Senife.
"Please. The Indras will not attack. I will get you
both to safety. There should be no more killing in this
place."
T'Senife yielded, nodded to his companion-tired men,
both of them, with tired, sorrowful faces.
They came down the long steps. Indras turned, ready to
take the three Sufaki, the men and the chan Pai,
in charge, but Kurt put himself between.
"No," he said. "There is no need. We have
lost t'Nethim; they have lost a methi. She is dead. Let
them be."
One was t'Nechis, who heard that news soberly and
bowed and prevented his men. "If you look for Kta
t'Elas," said t'Nechis, "seek him toward
the wall."
"Go your way," Kurt bade the Sufaki, "or
stay with me if you will."
"I will stay with you," said t'Senife,
"until I know what the Indras plan to do with
Nephane." There was cynicism in his voice, but it
surely masked a certain fear, and the methi's guards
walked with him as he walked behind the Indras line in
search of Kta.
He found Kta among the men of Isulan, with his leg
bandaged and with Isthain now secure at his belt. Kta
looked up in shock, joy damped by fear. Kurt looked down at
his bloody hand and found it trembling and his knees likely
to give out.
"Djan is dead," said Kurt.
"Are you all right?" Kta asked.
Kurt nodded, then jerked his head toward the Sufaki.
'They were her guards. They deserve honor of
that."
Kta considered them, inclined his head in respect.
"T'Senife, help us. Stand by us for a time, so
that your people may see that we mean them no harm. We want
the fighting stopped."
The rumor was spreading among the people that the Methi
was dead. The Into, had not ceased to sound. The
crowd in the square increased steadily.
"It is Bel t'Osanef," said Toj
t'Isulan.
It was in truth Bel, coming slowly through the crowd,
pausing to speak a word, exchange a glance with one he
knew. Among some his presence evoked hard looks and
muttering, but he was not alone. Men came with him, men
whose years made the crowd part for them, murmuring in
wonder: the elders of the Sufaki.
Kta raised a hand to draw his attention, Kurt beside
him, though it occurred to him what vulnerable targets they
both were.
"Kta," Bel said, "Kta, is it true, the
Methi is dead?"
"Yes," said Kta, and to the elders, who
expressed their grief in soft murmurings: "That was
not planned. I beg you, come into the Afen. I will swear on
my life you will be safe."
"I have already sworn on mine," said Bel.
"They will hear you. We Sufaki are accustomed to
listen, and you Indras to making laws. This time the
decision will favor us both, my friend, or we will not
listen."
"We could- please some in Indresul," said Kta,
"by disavowing you. But we will not do that. We will
meet Ylith-methi as one city."
"If we can unite to surrender," said one
elder, "we can to fight,"
Then it came to Kurt, like an incredibly bad dream: the
human weapons in the citadel.
He fled, startling Kta, startling the Indras, so that
the guard at the gate nearly ran him through before he
recognized him in the dark.
But Elas' human had leave to go where he would.
Heart near to bursting, Kurt raced through the
battlefield of the court, up the stairs, into the heights
of the Afen.
Even those on watch in the Methi's hall did not
challenge him until he ordered them sharply from the room
and drew his ypan and threatened them. They
yielded before his wild frenzy, hysterical as he was, and
fled out.
"Call t'Elas," a young son of Ilev urged
the others. "He can deal with this madman."
Kurt slammed the door and locked it, overturned the
table and wrestled it into position against the door,
working with both hands now, barring it with yet more
furniture. They struck it from the outside, but it was
secure. Then they went away.
He sank down, trembling, too weary to move. In time he
heard the voice of Kta, of Bel, even Pai pleading with
him.
"What are you doing?" Kta cried through the
door. "My friend, what do you plan to do?"
But it was a Sufaki's voice, not Bel's, that
urged on him the inevitable.
"You hold the weapons that could destroy the Indras
fleet, that could free our city. A curse on you if you will
not help us!"
But only Kta and Bel did he answer, and then always the
same: "Go away. I am staying here."
In time they did go away, and he relaxed somewhat, until
he heard a gentle stirring at his barricade.
"Who is there?" he shouted out.
"My lord," said Pai's fearful voice from
near the floor. "My lord, you will not use those
weapons, will you?"
"No," he said, "I will not."
"They would have forced you. Not Kta. Not Bel. They
would not harm you. But some would have "forced you.
They wanted to attack. Kta persuaded them not to. Please,
may I come in?"
"No, Pai. I do not trust even you."
"I will watch here all night, my lord. I will tell
you if they come."
"You do not blame me, because I will not do what
they want?"
There was a long hesitation. "Djan also would not
do what they wished. I honored her. I will watch for you,
my lord. Rest. I will not sleep."
He sat down then on the only remaining chair, with his
head leaning back, and though he did not intend to, he
slept for little periods. Sometimes he would ask Pai
whether she slept, but her voice was always there, faithful
and calm.
Then came morning, through the glass of the window that
overlooked the west. When he went to look out, the sullen
light exposed the whole of a great war fleet moving into
the harbor.
Ylith's fleet had come.
He waited for a long time after they had docked. There
was no sign of fighting. Eventually he sent Pai downstairs
to spy out what was happening.
"There are Indras lords in the lower hall,"
she reported, "strangers. But they have been told you
are here. They are trying to decide whether to attack this
door or not. My lord, I am afraid."
"Leave the door," he told her. But she did
not. He still heard her stirring occasionally outside.
Then he went around the various centers of the section,
Wrecking machinery, smashing delicate circuits.
"What are you doing?" Pai cried, when she
heard the noise.
He did not trouble to answer. He dismantled the power
sources as far as he could, the few handweapons he found
also, everything. Then he took away the barricade before
the door.
She waited outside, her large eyes wide with fear and
with wonder-perhaps no little shock-for he was filthy and
bloody and almost staggering with exhaustion.
"They have not threatened you?" he asked.
She bowed her head gravely. "No, lord. They feared
to make you angry. They know the power of the
weapons."
"Let us go to Elas."
"I am chart to methis," she said.
"It is not proper for me to quit my station."
"I am afraid for you with conditions as they are.
Visit Elas with me."
She bowed very deeply, straightened and walked beside
him.
The shock of seeing him in the lower hall all but
paralyzed the men of Indresul, who watched there with a few
of the Indras of Nephane. The presence of Nephanites among
the occupying forces heartened him somewhat.
"The weapons," he said, "are dismantled
beyond my ability to repair them. I am going to Elas if you
want to find me."
And to his own surprise they let him pass, and puzzled
guards on the Street of the Families did also, for a man of
Indresul walked after them, watching them, his presence
guarding them.
"No harm must come to you," said that man at
last. "This is the order of the Methi Ylith."
There was no Hef to tend the door of Elas. Kurt opened
it for himself and with Pai behind him entered its shadows.
He stopped at the door of the rhmei, for he had
not washed from the fighting and he wished to bring no
pollution into the peace of that hall.
Kta rose to his feet from the chair of Nym, his face
touched with deep relief. By him on lesser chairs sat Bel,
Aimu, elders of the Sufaki and a stranger, Vel
t'Elas-in-Indresul.
Kurt bowed, realizing he had interrupted something of
great moment, that an Indras of the shining city sat at
this Hearth.
"I beg your leave," he said. "I have
finished at the Afen. No human weapons threaten your peace
any longer. Tell your Methi that, Vel t'Elas."
"I had assured Ylith-methi," said Kta, his
voice even but full of controlled feeling, "that this
would be your choice. Is that Pai t'Erefe with
you?"
"She needed a place for a time," he said.
"If Elas will accept her as a guest."
"Elas is honored," murmured Kta. "Go
wash, and come and sit with us, friend Kurt. We are in the
midst of serious business." But before he went
upstairs, Kta left his guests and came to him in the
hall.
"It was well done," said Kta softly. "My
friend, my brother Kurt, go and wash, and come down to us.
We are solving matters. It is a three- and a four-round
problem, but the Methi Ylith has vowed to stay in port
until it is done. We will talk here, then we will go down
to the port to tell her our decisions. There are others of
our cousins of Indresul in their several houses at this
moment, and each Indras house has taken Sufaki among them,
to shelter them at the sanctity of their hearths until this
matter is resolved. Not a Sufaki will be harmed, who
accepts house-friendship and the peace of our
roofs."
"Would they all come?"
"No, not all, not all. But perhaps the violent ones
have fled to their hills, or perhaps they will come down in
peace when they see it possible. But on every door of Sufak
some Indras Family has set its seal; there will be no
plundering. And at every hearth we have taken
house-friends. This we did, while you barricaded yourself
behind the Afen door."
Kurt managed a smile. "And that," he said,
"was well done too. Am I still welcome here?"
"You are of Elas," Kta exclaimed indignantly.
"Of this hearth and not simply beside it. Go
upstairs."
"I have to find t'Nethim's family," he
protested.
"This has been done. I need you," Kta
insisted. "/ need you. Elas does. When Ylith-methi
knows what you have done-and she will-I have no doubt that
she will wish to see you. You cannot go like that, and you
cannot go ignorant of the business of your
hearth."
He nodded wearily, felt for the stairs.
"Kta," said Bel softly. "See to him if
you wish, personally. We will keep peace at your hearth
until you return with my lord of Indresul. Perhaps we can
even find some things to discuss while you are gone if my
lady wife will bring us another round of tea."
Kta considered the two of them, grave old Vel and the
young Sufaki of his own age. Then he gave them a bemused
slight bow and guided Kurt toward the stairs.
"Come," he said. "You are home, my
friend."
CJ. CHERRYH
BROTHERS OF EARTH
Kurt Morgan's survival capsule brought him down
safely
on a nameless Earth-type world. He was the only
one
left of the battle crew that had just
annihilated a human
planet of the Hanan, the enemy in a
galactic war.
The planet was inhabited by humanoids with
a
pre-technolo'gy civilization, a complex
religion, and a long
history of intricate internal relations. There was one
other galactic battle survivor on that world-and she
was
an officer of the hated Hanan-and also the
high
priestess of the land in which Kurt had found
refuge.
The novel that C. J. Cherryh has written on
this premise
will establish her role even more firmly as one
of the
major new talents in science fiction.
"A born storyteller... fully worthy of the
company of
Leigh Brackett or C. L Moore."
-Algis Budrys, Fantasy & Science Fiction
"A fine new writer with exceptional ability."
-Lester Del Rey, Analog
-FROM DAW-
GATE OF IVREL by C. J. Cherryh
(UY1226-$1.25) THE STORM LORD
by Tanith Lee
(UE1233-$1.75)
THE SHATTERED CHAIN by Marion Zimmer
Bradley (UW1229-$1.50)
CHERRYH BROTHERS OF EARTH
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