"Barr, Nevada - Pigeon 04 - Firestorm" - читать интересную книгу автора (Barr Nevada) FIRESTORM Nevada Barr G. P. PUTNAM'S SONS NEW YORK G. P. Putnam's Sons Publishers Since 1838 200 Madison Avenue New
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Cataloging-in-Publication Data Barr, Nevada. Firestorm / Nevada Barr. p. cm. ISBN 0-399-14126-X (alk. paper) 1. Pigeon, Anna (Fictitious character)—Fiction. I. Tide. PS3552.A73184F57 1996 95-38311
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in gratitude for his unfailing kindness and patience, virtues I may not
possess but deeply admire ACKNOWLEDGMENTS Special thanks to Dave Langley, Rick
Gale and Steve Zachary F IRESTORM Chapter One IF SHE'D HAD a foot fetish Anna would have
been an extremely happy woman. Cradled in her lap was a prime example of pedis
giganticus belonging to one Howard Black Elk. More mole foam than flesh was
visible. "Fighting
on slopes keeps tearing 'em off," Mr. Black Elk told her between gulps of
Mountain Dew. "Anybody but you does 'em they're gone by lunch. You got the
touch." Absurd as it
was, Anna took great pride in the durability of her blister dressings. Caesar's
army may have moved on its stomach, but firefighters moved on their feet. After
ten days of skirmishes, the army battling California's Jackknife Fire was proceeding
a bit gingerly. The line queued up outside the medical unit tent was Anna's
barometer, and the pressure was rising. Sho-Rap, the Shoshone and Arapaho
firefighting crew out of Montana, seemed to suffer more than most. Maybe
because they were big men. Even with the protective fire boots they were
required to wear, gravity hit them harder. Anna eased the
ruined dressings off Mr. Black Elk's foot and examined the carnage. Black Elk
was an Arapaho Indian but he wasn't with the Sho-Raps. He was a member of the
San Juan crew from the southwest. "You busted open the blisters," she
accused. "Got to
let 'em drain." "No you
don't. They'll get infected." She looked into the man's face to see if she
was getting through to him. "Are you going to quit that?" "You
betcha." Anna didn't
believe him. She cleaned the ball of his foot and his heel with hydrogen
peroxide. When he winced at the sting she said, "Serves you right." A heady sense
of Normandy, Tripoli, John Wayne and Twelve O'clock High reverberated
through fire camps. Like everyone else, Anna reveled in it. A soldier's
life—particularly in a war where death was highly unlikely and the battle soon
over—was a life enhanced with an illusion of importance untrammeled by
responsibility. Orders were simple: climb, stop and dig. Hard physical labor
and the ability to sleep on rough ground were all that was asked. Anna found
peace in the freedom from choices. With great
care, she began reconstructing the protective barriers of foam, Second-Skin and
bandages on Mr. Black Elk's foot. The rest of the San Juan Plateau crew began
drifting over from the chow line to swell the ranks waiting for medical
attention. The San Juans
were an interagency crew with firefighters from the Forest Service, the Bureau
of Land Management and the National Park Service. Three of the firefighters
were from Mesa Verde National Park, Anna's duty station. Anna had arrived
independently when the call went out for more emergency medical technicians to
man the medical units. These units provided care to the firefighters in the
spike camps. As the Jackknife cut a black swath through the Caribou Wilderness
and Lassen Volcanic National Park in northern California, Incident Base—the
main camp housing supplies and command headquarters—needed units closer to the
fireline. Small camps, called "spikes" by firefighters though
officialdom no longer used the term, were springing up like fire moss. "You guys
with blisters go ahead and take the dressings off and clean your feet with
peroxide," Anna said to those waiting. "I think Stephen's got a spare
bottle." "Go easy
with the stuff," Stephen Lindstrom, the other EMT, said. "We won't
have any more till tomorrow afternoon." Lindstrom was
with the Forest Service out of Reno, Nevada. When Anna and three crews had been
spiked out nineteen miles from base camp, she'd begged for and gotten him.
Efficient and gentle, he was one of the better EMTs she'd worked with. "How 'bout
I get you some dinner before them hogs swill it all down?" Anna looked in
the direction of the familiar Memphis drawl. Jennifer Short, a seasonal law
enforcement ranger from Mesa Verde, leaned against a sugar pine near the
outdoor examination room Anna and Stephen had pieced together from a ground
cloth and twelve folding chairs. Jennifer had
been on the Jackknife fire for seven days, one day less than Anna, and she was
still wearing makeup. Anna couldn't help but admire her. Anybody who stuck to
their beliefs under duress deserved respect. The sooty fingerprints around her
nose and the trails of sweat running through her dust-coated rouge only added
to the effect: bloody but unbowed. "Thanks,"
Anna said. "Stephen, want some supper?" Belatedly she asked Jennifer,
"Would you mind?" "Why I'd
just lie down and die if he said no," Jennifer said, and winked. Dividing her
time between bites and blisters, Anna managed to finish her supper and thirteen
feet in the next hour. Kneeling at the fourteenth and last, she began unlacing
a well-worn, custom-made White's fire boot. "Helps if you remove your
boots for me," she said mildly. "My feet's
not what hurt." Anna rocked
back on her heels and took in the face attached to the expensive boots.
"San Juan crew, crew boss, right?" "John
LeFleur." The firefighter stuck out a hand with spatulate fingers
reminiscent of the toes of Amazon rain forest frogs Anna'd seen hopping through
various PBS specials. She forced herself up from her knees. Cold, fatigue and
hard beds were taking their toll. Getting old, she chided herself. Once hard
work had made her tougher; now it only made her tired. She stuck out her hand
and, trying for a pressure that was manly without being macho, took LeFleur's. His bottom lip
was swollen and bruised. Dried blood caked where the skin had split. "Does
your face hurt?" she asked. The third-grade insult, "Because it's sure
killing me," flickered nonsensically through her mind, but John LeFleur
certainly wasn't hard to look at. Anna had him pegged for forty-five or so—his
hair was still there and still brown. The nasolabial folds chopped like hatchet
marks in his weathered face; heavy brows protected blue eyes. "Walked
into a door," he said, fingering the injury. "All I need's a cold
pack." When Anna
returned from the tent with the desired item, the man was lighting an
unfiltered Pall Mall. "Can't get
enough smoke on the fireline?" Anna crushed the cold pack to mix the
chemicals that provided the cooling effect. "I'm an
old fire horse," LeFleur admitted. "One sniff of smoke and I start to
snort and stamp. This is my thirty-seventh project fire. My eighth in
California." Anna was
impressed. What she said was: "My, but you must be old." "I can
still work most into the ground." The crew boss took the cold pack and
pressed it against his lip. "You'd
have to look a long ways to find a door up here," Anna commented. Sudden anger flared
in his voice and his eyes. "If I run into it again, I'm going to bust the
son of a bitch up for kindling." Anna let the
remark pass without comment. Spike camp was too small a world to make enemies.
As far as she was concerned sleeping dogs could lie or take the first ride down
the mountain. Since no new
pilgrims had arrived at her canvas Lourdes, Anna sat down next to LeFleur while
he enjoyed his cigarette. From inside the shadowed tent she could hear Stephen
busy with the inevitable litter left at day's end. In a minute she'd go help
him. At the moment it felt too good just to sit. Light was
draining from the sky, taking the day's heat with it. Anna rolled down her
sleeves and hugged herself. The camp was situated on the back of a mountain
ridge amidst a landscape of mountains cresting like waves in every direction.
To the west and southwest the trees breathed up black smoke. As the day faded,
pinpricks of orange blossomed. A garish
blood-red sunset fired the sky, the last rays bending through smoke so thick
the neck bones of Lassen Peak were obscured. Near the horizon the smoky pall
blotted out the sun. Higher up, smoke sucked fire from the sun and burned in
the heavens as the Jackknife burned on earth. Anna shoved her
hands in her pockets to retain their warmth. "The end of the world looks
pretty doggone festive, if you ask me," she said. LeFleur stubbed
the cigarette out on the sole of his boot then shredded the paper and scattered
the tobacco. "That's where we were today." He pointed across a narrow
valley to a burning hillside. "We cut line to that outcrop of boulders and
tied into the dozer line." The area he
pointed to was on a steep forty-percent slope and choked with dog-hair
thickets. "Bitch of
a climb," Anna said. "Try it
with a chainsaw on your shoulder." LeFleur lit a second Pall Mall and
contemplated his day's work. "I'm going to be out of the game soon if I
can't move into management. Time to leave the backbreakers to the kids." Since he didn't
seem to be talking to her as much as to himself, Anna felt justified in
changing the subject. "Speaking of kids, how did Jennifer do?" The
Jackknife was Jennifer's first fire. Her red card and fire boots were both so
new they squeaked. After working with Short in Mesa Verde, Anna had developed a
reluctant fondness for the southern belle. "Fireline's
no place for a woman." "Did she
screw up?" "No." "What
then?" The crew boss
laughed. "You're not going to drag me into that. You know what I
mean." Anna did and
quelled an urge to bite the man. Anna had served her time on firelines and knew
quarter was given to no one. On her last three project fires she'd gone out as
a medic or security or, as in the case of the Jackknife, both. The work was
less backbreaking and more challenging, if not physically, then cerebrally. "Jennifer
kept up," LeFleur said finally. "Don't
dress it up on my account," Anna said dryly. LeFleur
laughed. "She's okay. Works right along. She's got blisters on both her
hands but never complains about anything but how big her butt looks in NoMex,"
he said, referring to the baggy, fire retardant wool pants all firefighters
were required to wear. "A wolf in
femme fatale's clothing," Anna said with satisfaction. Abruptly, she
asked: "Are you married?" "Are you
offering?" Anna squirmed
figuratively, if not literally. She was tempted to tell him the information
wasn't for her but knew whatever she said at this point was bound to sound
lame. "Just making conversation." Letting it go at that, she watched
the reds deepening into night. Darkness was brought on early by smoke. Sparks
of orange, just hinting at the vastness of the burn before sundown, pricked the
sides of mountains in three directions. The coming of
night had hushed the constant growl of retardant aircraft and the helicopters
that chopped into the heli-spot below camp. The small sounds of raccoon, deer,
owl, coyote and cougar had been silenced for eight days. In its infancy, the
Jackknife had made a name for itself by taking two newsworthy sacrifices: a
young man camped out near Pinson Lake and his dog. Tabloids had made hay with
photos of the charred remains of the pooch while thousands of wild things lost
went unmourned. Anna didn't
mourn them now. Tiny corpses left behind by fires—squirrel, fawn, bunny—didn't
sadden her as they once might have. Wildland fire returned many needed things
to the earth. An icy breeze
was sucked down through the trees. Fire raged over thirty thousand acres of
prime timberland. Creeks boiled dry, birds fled, fledglings died in the nest,
smoke hung in the valleys for a hundred miles, and still Anna could not get
warm. She buttoned the top button of her shirt and turned the collar up. Soon
she would have to go in and get her coat but she was not yet ready to move. The
folding chair and ground cloth felt like home. Marooned as it was, an island of
life in a sea of black and flame, the tent village seemed cozy. Three
twenty-by-fifteen-foot tents, their white canvas reflecting the evening light,
were clustered around a central clearing. Time Keeping operations were housed
in one of the big tents. It was there hazard pay, overtime and wages were recorded.
The LeFleurs of the world might fight fire for the love of it, but
for most it was a living, a way of making ends meet. The San Juans
were housed in the second tent and Anna and Stephen shared the last with
medical supplies and emergency gear. East of the main tents—and hopefully
downwind—was a slum of blue Porta-Johns. The honey-pot industry was one place
Anna was against unisex application. Privately she believed the Shoshone lost
to invading armies because they had such lousy aim. Between the
tents and the toilets was the mess area; twice a day meals were trucked in from
base camp. A long table lined with basins and soap for washing was just beyond.
Cubies— square, plastic five-gallon containers for water—were stacked in a
translucent wall on the far side of the table. Basins and table alike were
smudged with the ubiquitous soot that tinged hair, nails, skin and clothes of
everyone in spike camp. Down at
Incident Base, showers housed in semi-truck trailers with their own generators
for hot water provided the crews with some relief from the endless grime. In
spike camp dirt not removable with basin and towel remained for the duration.
Long-haired firefighters—and at this camp they were in the majority, with
twenty men from Sho-Rap and four women including Anna—kept it braided back.
After an hour on the fireline, hair took on the consistency of cotton candy. LeFleur
finished his second Pall Mall. Night was upon them. He handed Anna back the
spent cold pack. "Bedtime for this boy." "Watch out
for doors," Anna said as he left. Laughter from
the medical tent lured her from the night. Jennifer and
Stephen were wrestling with an uncooperative Coleman lantern. Providing more
laughs than light, they argued about the perfect number of pumps required to
create the ideal pressure in the lamp's fuel chamber. As Anna came in
the Coleman roared to life and the peace of the evening was pushed aside.
Obnoxious though it was, the harsh light was necessary. For the next couple of
hours Anna and Stephen bandaged cuts, handed out analgesics, mole foam, nasal
spray, hand lotion and, when called for, sympathy. Near midnight
they crawled into their sleeping bags, laid out on the unheard-of luxury of
army cots. In less than five hours they'd be back at it, packaging feet for
another day on the line. In soft beds
and climate-controlled bedrooms Anna had trouble sleeping. At fire camps the
nightmares left her alone. Exhaustion claimed mind and body during the brief
respites allowed. From the modest
confines of her yellow fire-issue sleeping bag, she squirmed out of her
underwear: plain, white cotton; underpants that wouldn't melt at high
temperatures and adhere to the flesh. The western forests might burn but Anna's
underwear shouldn't ignite. "Got the
scoop on John LeFleur's lip," Stephen said as Anna dropped the maidenly
garment to the floor. Lindstrom loved to gossip. One of his endearing
qualities, as far as Anna was concerned. "Do
tell." "Welllll,"
he said, drawing out the word in exaggerated confidence, making her laugh.
"Jennifer said—" "Wait,"
Anna interrupted. "In my exalted capacity as spike camp security
officer-cum-medic, am I going to have to take any action on this tidbit?
Because if I am don't tell me." "Jennifer said,"
Stephen pressed on, "that John got into an altercation that led to
fisticuffs. Wish I'd been there," he sighed dramatically. "I do so
love violence. That other BLM guy, Leonard Nims, took a swing at John.
Connected on the second try." Anna vaguely
remembered Nims. He was a GS-7 supervisor from the Bureau of Land Management in
Farmington, New Mexico. Prematurely white hair and a black mustache gave him
striking looks and the hard muscled body of an athlete belied his age—late forties,
she guessed. Nims would have been handsome if he could have dropped his
Napoleon complex. At five-foot-eight or -nine he hadn't earned it. The chip on
his shoulder reduced his stature. "Jennifer
said Joseph broke it up," Stephen went on. Joseph Hayhurst was a Mescalero
Apache born and raised in the foothills of California, educated at Berkeley, a
latecomer to his Indian heritage. The juxtaposition of cultures had created a
fascinating mix of New Age artist and Indian rights fundamentalist. He wore his
hair long and tied back, as did most of the Shoshone and Arapahos, but it was
cut short in front and curled around his face. A fashion a multitude of white
artists strove for in closet trysts with their girlfriends' curling irons. "Jennifer
said he threatened to spank the both of them if it happened again because
darned—'darned,' don't you just love it? 'Dagnabbit, you motherfuckers, now
quit that...' " "Anyway..."
Anna was too tired to enjoy a ramble, however entertaining. "Anyway, darned
if he was going to get sent off the fire before he'd paid for last
winter's vacation." Joseph was a
squad boss for the San Juans. A crew consisted of twenty firefighters divided
into two squads. The crew boss was responsible for all twenty, the squad bosses
for eight to ten firefighters each. If anyone got into trouble, the
troublemaker wasn't the only one sent home. All twenty were demobilized. "What was
the fight about?" Anna asked. "Back in
Farmington John works for Nims. Now he's Nims's boss and Nims is working for him.
I guess it wasn't sitting too well. Jennifer says they haven't got on from the
git-go. Nims is the crew boss trainee, so LeFleur is training his own
replacement, so to speak. The Bureau of Land Management is grooming Nims for
better things. In lieu of LeFleur, is my guess. By the by, was you and LeFleur
a-sparkin' out there in the gloaming?" Anna whistled a
few bars of "Matchmaker" from "Fiddler on the Roof."
"Firefighters hate sparks." "Do you
know why Smokey the Bear never had children?" Stephen asked. "Because
every time his wife got hot he hit her with a shovel." "Old
joke," he apologized. "Old jokes
are the best." "Goodnight." "About
damn time." "Darn
time, please." Headlights
raked across the canvas wall, chased by the growl of a diesel engine. "Oops,"
Stephen said. "I'll get
it." Anna sounded as if it were a doorbell ringing at an inappropriate
time. The truck
driver, Polly or Sally—Anna floundered for the name—was one of the many local
people hired to assist in the logistics of feeding, cleaning and fueling a city
of a thousand souls appearing suddenly in the wilderness. The girl always
seemed to avoid Anna. Whether the avoidance was personal or coincidental, she
had no idea. "It's
late, I'll have to stay over," the driver said defensively as she bounced
her plump little body out of the vehicle. Four of the six nights spike camp had
been in existence she'd found some way to have to stay over. Anna suspected she
had a sweetheart. "Makes
sense," Anna said amiably, and waited to see what reason would be given
for the long trip up the mountain this time. "I got a
thing here for you or John what's-his-name, the crew boss guy." As she
leaned into the cab the girl's head vanished behind a curtain of lush brown
hair, clean and worn loose. After a moment's rustling she emerged with a folded
sheet of paper. She handed it over, and Anna was aware of a cheap but enticing
perfume. "Thanks
... Sally." She hazarded a guess at the name. "Paula." Anna'd lost a
round. "Paula. Sure. Sorry. Breathing too much smoke." Paula seemed
anxious to get away so Anna quit muttering apologies. "If you want you can
pitch your tent behind the medical unit," she offered. "There's a
flat spot there." "No. I got
a place all staked out." The woman bunched a tent into her arms and
started toward the trees behind the Porta-Johns where the Sho-Raps were camped. Anna unfolded
the note and read it by the light of her flashlight. "The body of the man
found burned near Pinson Lake just outside Lassen Volcanic National Park has
been identified as Joshua Short, brother of seasonal park ranger Jennifer
Short, out of Mesa Verde, Colorado, now serving on the San Juan Plateau
crew." "Jesus."
Anna turned the page over in hopes of finding more information but it was as
blank as it had been two seconds previously. Jennifer's brother. Anna thought
of her own sister, Molly, how lonely she would be were she to lose her, and
tremendous sadness swept over her. Carefully she refolded the note and tucked
it in her shirt pocket. This was not a bit of paper to be passed carelessly
from hand to hand. That it had arrived so publicly bespoke a crassness or
negligence Anna had trouble crediting the information officer with. On a hunch
she shined her flashlight into Paula's truck. On the second sweep she found it:
a blue For Your Eyes Only envelope with her and LeFleur's names on it had been
torn open and hastily discarded. The spike camp's inamorata was a nosy little
beast. Clicking off
the light, Anna stood for a moment in the silence and breathed the pleasant
odor of pine smoke. The death note in her pocket was heavy as a brick. Moving
slowly to put off the inevitable, she wandered in darkness toward the San Juan
crew tent. One end of the
tent was tied open for fresh air. The other closed off in complete darkness. In
September, in the Cascades, nights were cold, and frost was on the ground most
mornings. Anna looked down the row of inert forms. Several world-class snorers
sawed at the air but no one was awake. Between the sleeping bags was a tangle
of yellow fire packs. The packs were a nightmare of webbing and plastic buckles
designed to hook together all the necessary components needed on the line: fire
shelter, water, fusees, gloves, helmet, goggles, brush jacket and earplugs. Near the open
end of the tent LeFleur lay on his back, one arm thrown over his eyes. Joseph
Hayhurst was curled next to him, his hands tucked under his cheek like an
innocent. Anna spotted Nims by the white hair. His face was to the back of the
tent. Jennifer was lost in the darkness somewhere between the sleeping men. After a moment,
Anna turned and crept away. Tomorrow would be soon enough to tell Jennifer.
This might be the last good night's sleep she would enjoy in a while. Chapter Two "IT'S TIME." The voice came
through warm thick darkness and was most unwelcome. Anna retreated, curling
deeper into oblivion. "We miss
your bright eyes and sweet smile." The same voice, sugary this time, but
still odious. "Bugger
off," Anna grumbled. "Oooh, now
there's a thought ..." A rough shake loosed Anna entirely from the
comforting embrace of sleep. Stephen, sitting on the army cot laid head to head
with hers, was lacing up his boots. "It's
still dark," Anna complained. "And cold.
The glamour never stops. You've got ten seconds to do girl things, then I'm
lighting the Coleman and to hell with your modesty." "I would
have had a son about your age if I hadn't drowned him at birth." The EMT
laughed. Anna could hear him groping for the lantern as she dragged on her
underpants. Drafts, sharp as knives with the early frost, stabbed into the warm
sanctity of her sleeping bag as she performed her morning contortions. Finally decent
in a yellow NoMex fire shirt, she unzipped the bag. The new day hit her thighs
like ice water. By the glare of a flashlight she watched Lindstrom battling the
Coleman. Twenty-six or -seven, six-foot-two, strong, even-featured, with sandy
hair so thick it stood out like fur, he reminded Anna of the boys who'd ignored
her in high school. His hands betrayed his bulk with their long sensitive
fingers. The hands of a flutist. Or a gynecologist. Once or twice Anna'd
glimpsed a mean streak but it only served to make him more interesting. He looked at
her with narrowed eyes. "Anna?" "I'm
awake. Don't push me." She dragged on the olive drab trousers one leg at a
time like the rest of the world. The only people
up earlier than the medical unit were the food servers and Anna blessed them in
the name of Pele the fire goddess and half a dozen lesser gods as she poured
her first cup of coffee. About halfway through the stumbling dark, back toward
the medical tent, caffeine burned the remaining fog from her brain and she
remembered her chores. Jennifer Short's brother was dead. Remembering the
dead, a fading image of Zachary wavered behind her eyes: a slender dark man,
forever twenty-nine, brown eyes glowing across an electric candle in a Brew and
Burger in Manhattan. "If you asked me to marry you, I'd say yes,"
Anna had said. And he had asked. Zach had been
dead for so many years she should have quit counting. There had been other men
since, men to spend the days with, men to pass the nights, but none to soften
the loneliness. One, maybe, she amended: Frederick Stanton, an offbeat FBI
agent she'd worked with on two homicides, once when she was a ranger on Isle
Royale in Lake Superior and again several months ago in Mesa Verde National
Park. Dinner, a hike through Indian ruins, a kiss that reminded her the animals
went two by two, then he was on a plane back to Chicago. Just as she'd
been metaphorically dusting off her hands and consigning her emotions to a
well-stocked Ships Passing in the Night file, a letter had come. Not a love letter,
that would have set off alarms. Men who fell in love with women they didn't
know were prone to other easily abandoned fantasies. Frederick's letter was
funny. Laughter, like touch, was a form of pure communication, the funny bone
an underappreciated erogenous zone. Anna touched
her shirt pocket as if she carried Stanton's letter over her heart. The death
memo was still there, one of the perks of never changing clothes. The feel of
the slick paper jarred her into the present and she cleared her mental decks
for what lay ahead. Spike camp had
awakened. Muttering firefighters, subdued from too little sleep, boiled out of
tents like yellow jackets from a disturbed hive. Flashlights sparked off
lemon-colored NoMex and the tramp of heavy boots scuffed the worn earth. A small woman,
surrounded by three men so big that, in her white tee shirt, she resembled an
egret among cows, chattered out of the dark woods beyond the Porta-Johns.
Paula. One of the men was Howard Black Elk. The other two were strangers to
Anna. "Wait
up," Anna shouted. The girl looked alarmed, her three bodyguards
undecided, the desire to defend Paula against some imagined attack and the urge
to flee battling in their brains. Flight won and the girl was alone when Anna
reached her. There were
those rare creatures who suffered from a phobic reaction to authority but
finding four of them together was unlikely. Anna made a mental note to pry into
Paula's affairs when she didn't have more pressing matters to attend to. "Hold off
going down the mountain," Anna said. "I may have a passenger for
you." Paula looked
relieved and again Anna felt a flash of suspicion, an occupational hazard.
Sometimes she had the sense of being a cat in a world of birds, some bigger and
meaner than she. Small furtive movements set off her alarms but she was never
sure whether she was predator or prey. "I'll get back with you in thirty
minutes or so." Jennifer Short
was in the breakfast line. In the name of nutrition, Anna put off telling her
for another quarter of an hour. Then, having exhausted all delay tactics, she
took Jennifer and her crew boss, LeFleur, behind the medical tent under one of
the great old Jeffrey pines that shaded the camp. To the east the
sun was consuming the glitter of hot spots with its own superior fire. Lurid
red light, filtered through smoke, bathed the camp. "I have
bad news," Anna said, and she handed the younger woman the note. As if in
slow motion, Jennifer's face crumpled. Her mouth opened slightly as she read,
her lips and eyes took on the soft quiver of a child's, tears ran down her
cheeks. Once she looked to Anna as if for a reprieve but there was none. "Her
brother died," Anna explained to LeFleur. One of the crew boss's callused
hands reached out but stopped before it reached Jennifer. He shot Anna a look
of such anger for a second she thought he might try and kill the messenger. After a moment
he said to the air between Jennifer and Anna: "You'll want to demob. Get
home. Anna will work it out." With the air of a man escaping, he walked
away. Jennifer
stopped him: "I won't go." LeFleur looked
back without turning. "He died
in this fire, in the Jackknife, that's what it says. I need to stay, fight this
fire." Jennifer pushed her face back in shape and mopped her tears with
her sleeve. "That's
not the way it works," LeFleur said. "We can't use you if your mind's
on something else. Go home." He was right,
but still Anna wanted to smack him. "There's
nothing wrong with my mind," Jennifer snapped. For an instant anger
banished grief and Anna took back her slap. LeFleur's unorthodox therapy seemed
to give at least short-term relief. The crew boss
stared at Jennifer and she glared back. Tears poured down her face, but the
softness, the quiver had gone. LeFleur lit a
Pall Mall and flicked the match toward the barren earth around the medical
tent. Crew bosses had close to absolute power over the twenty firefighters
under their care. On a fireline, as in battle, somebody had to be in charge.
After a lengthy weighing of Lord knew what factors he said: "If Anna can
square it with the brass you can stay with the San Juan." "Go on out
with the crew today," Anna said. "I'll catch a ride down the mountain
and see what I can do." Jennifer nodded
curdy. "Excuse me," she whispered, and left Anna and LeFleur under
the pine. They watched her walk away, spine straight, shoulders back. "Women on
the fireline," LeFleur said disgustedly, stubbed his cigarette out on the
sole of his boot, shredded the paper and let the tobacco scatter. "Dead
brothers aren't exactly a gender-based liability," Anna said mildly.
LeFleur chose not to answer. "Time to
rally the troops," he said. Anna returned
to the medical unit to help Lindstrom finish the morning calls. The line
outside the tent had lengthened each day they'd been spiked out. Bodies,
nerves, psyches were being worn down by work and hard living. Accidents were
becoming more common; cuts, bruises and colds epidemic. Lindstrom
looked up with relief as Anna pushed into the tent. "Sure been lonely
around here without you," he said pointedly. "Howard Black Elk's
pining away. Says nobody does his feet like you. My, my, I do believe it's
love." "I'll do
him," Anna said. A long folding table took up the center of the tent. Two
shallow boxes covered the surface. Carefully arranged in each were the tools of
their trade: scissors, gauze, compresses, blister dressings, splints, salves,
triangular bandages, tweezers, antihistamines. The paraphernalia of Mom's
medicine cabinet on an industrial scale. Backboards, leg splints and cervical
collars were stored beneath. Anna picked
through the boxes plucking out the Rx for Black Elk's feet. "What was
all the cloaking and daggering this morning?" Lindstrom asked. "Much
hush-hush cloistering and whispering. Don't tell me my beloved Jennifer is
going to have that barbarian LeFleur's baby. I couldn't bear it." Anna laughed.
It felt good. "Nope. Real bad news. Remember that burned corpse they found
near Pinson Lake?" "The dog
guy?" "Yeah.
They identified the body." "Schnauzer?
Shiat zhu?" "It was
Jennifer's brother. She took it hard. I didn't even know she had a brother but
then I haven't known her all that long. As to what a boy from Memphis was doing
in the mountains of California, your guess is as good as mine." "Joshua
lives here. Lived here, I guess I should say now, shouldn't I?" Anna looked up
not only because of the unexpected answer but the wooden monotone that had
crushed Stephen's usual vibrance. "You knew
him." "Knew
him." Lindstrom nodded. "He did some freelance work for the Forest
Service in Reno setting up our new computer system. We—" "Cut the
sewing bee short." A slightly nasal voice with a raw-edged twang sliced between
Anna and Lindstrom. From the corner of her eye Anna could see Leonard Nims
planted just outside the tent flaps, the only agitation between two lines of
patient firefighters. With impatient taps he forced a filtered cigarette from a
box marked Harley Davidson. She ignored
him. "Good friend?" she asked Stephen. "Good
friend." "Fucking
women," Nims hissed just loud enough Anna would hear. "Next thing
they'll be hiring faggots. Don't ask, don't tell, give me a fucking break. If
you ladies will excuse me." He pushed into the tent and began rummaging
through the items on the table. "It'd be nice to get some attention before
a man bleeds to death." Neither heat
nor light had yet penetrated the tent's interior, but by the harsh glow of the
Coleman, Anna noted two scratches running from Nims's temple to the middle of
his cheek where a tree or something had scraped his face. The deeper of the two
oozed beads of blood into the black stubble of beard. Lindstrom laid
a hand on Nims's wrist, stopping the pillage of their supplies. The shorter
man's face grew mottled red and his eyes bulged slightly. Good candidate
for a stroke, Anna thought hopefully. "This'll
do for you," Lindstrom said evenly, and he handed Nims a small tube of
Neosporin. Wordlessly,
Anna took the ointment from Nims's fingers and replaced it with an alcohol pad
and a vial of iodine. "The
ointment would've worked," Lindstrom said as Nims left. "Iodine
will hurt more." Stephen
laughed. "I want to be just like you when I grow up, Anna." She waited a
second to see if he needed to talk about Joshua Short. He didn't and there
wasn't time. Gratefully, Anna turned back to her work. By the time the
last firefighter was cared for, the sun had crept clear of the heaviest smoke
and poured into the compound burning off the morning's chill. Anna tipped her
face to the light and felt renewed. "I'm going down the hill," she
said as she heard Stephen clearing up rubbish from the shift. "Make a list
of what we need. I'll come back by after I've made sure of my ride." "Riding
down with Polly Wolly doodle all the day?" "If she
hasn't lit out on me." "She may
have. I've noticed when the men leave camp it loses much of its allure for our
heroine." "I'll pick
you up some cream," Anna said. Stephen meowed
unrepentantly. A HEAVYSET MAN around
thirty with a belly that hung over his belt and the thinning hair of a much
older man was pulling cold lunch boxes from inside a truck and setting them on
the tailgate where the crews could help themselves. Neil Page: Anna dredged the
name up from some list she'd seen. Page was in charge of spike camp supplies. A
local himself, he'd recommended the local hires and supervised the handful of
drivers who trucked food up from Incident Base. Anna leaned on
the truck's bumper and waited till he grunted back, another box in his arms.
"Seen Paula?" she asked. "Probably
rifling wallets in the tents." He puffed and loosed a brown stream of
tobacco juice over the tailgate. "Greedy little bitch." Anna waited. "Last I
saw her she was squabbling with—" A pile of lunches slithered from Page's
arms and scattered across the packed dirt. To show what a
great gal she was, Anna gathered them up for him. "With
who?" "Hell if I
know," he growled, as if Anna'd gotten personal. "They were over by
that truck of hers. You can do your own snooping." "Thanks,"
Anna said dryly. "Anytime." Anna found
Paula stretched out on a folding lounge chair in her truck bed, her pants legs
rolled as high as they would go and her shirt tied up baring her midriff. It
was too early in the day to hope for any tanning action but Anna doubted that
was the focus of this particular exercise. Slanting morning sun the color of
molten lava lighted the girl most flatteringly, much to the enjoyment of
columns of firefighters headed for the line. "Sorry to
make you wait." Anna leaned against the truck and watched the display
sputter to life. "Yeah.
Well." Paula slapped her trouser legs down and fumbled at the knot in her
shirtfront. "I got a lot of stuff I gotta get done today." "Me too.
I'll need a ride down the hill as soon as I get a list from Stephen. I
shouldn't be more than five minutes." Anna left Paula to finish dressing. ANNA HADN'T BEEN out
of spike camp since she'd been detailed there the week before. This outing felt
like a holiday. She liked watching the world go by the window: the endless
trees, the sameness of the evergreen color, the red of manzanita and the gold
of the soil, sun-dappling the lichen and pine needles in intricate mosaics. All
overlaid by strange smoke-filtered light, as if seen through tinted glass or
the dire prophecies of some ancient soothsayer. And she was
going to get a hot shower. As the miles bumped by and the plume of dust they
laid grew longer, she could almost feel the water combing through the muck of
dirt and ash in her hair, scratching her itchy scalp, sloughing off the grime
of camp. Even Paula's
chattering as they jolted down the rough logging roads didn't take the edge
off. Once Paula Boggins found out Anna wasn't going to bite her she never
stopped talking. For a while Anna listened, learning more than she ever wanted
to about all the things Paula needed to buy during her short stay on Planet
Earth, then she tuned the girl out. Fortunately Miss Boggins wasn't the type to
require answering and Anna let the words flow over her with the engine noise. In contrast to
the small and isolated spike camp, Incident Base, with its one thousand souls
and all the supporting staff and machinery for the campaign, bustled like the
big city: parking lots, tents by the score, buzzing phones and faxes, hot and
cold running personnel. Anna took in the sights. She bought fresh underwear at
a commissary that had sprung out of the back of a semi-truck trailer to offer
life's necessities: fire boots, chewing tobacco, candy and Tampax. She stood in
the shower, an eight-by-eight metal room in the back of another trailer, with a
central column surrounded by showerheads to accommodate six women at a time,
until long after guilt should have forced her to stop wasting water. She dried
herself on the gigantic paper towels trucked in for that purpose. She braided
her hair and studied her face in the polished aluminum that passed for mirrors
over the line of washstands outside the canvas dressing room. The gray tracing
age through her braids was taking over the brown but the soft reflection of the
metal was kind to the lines and wrinkles carved in her forehead and around her
eyes. She visited a "Women Only" Porta-John the women in the
Communications and Information tents had taken over in what was being termed
the Honey Pot Uprising. After a full
sit-down meal in a mess tent with shade and netting to keep the flies and
yellow jackets at bay, Anna felt ready to face the brass. Logistics sent
her over to Time Keeping and Time Keeping to the Command tent. Wherever there
were two government employees to rub together, a bureaucracy flared up. Anna
was beginning to remember the isolation of spike camp almost nostalgically when
she finally cornered the Operations section chief and got her questions answered. Short's staying
or going was a moot point. Spike camp was due to be demobed. Two of the three
crews were coming out tonight and the San Juans would head out the following
day. The fire was
gearing down. They estimated containment soon. The National Weather Service
predicted a cold front due in twenty-four hours with a seventy percent chance
of rain below forty-one-hundred feet and snow at the higher elevations. The Jackknife
was about to fold. Anna would stay
on at Base as an EMT until the fire was completely controlled but even she and
Stephen would probably be demobed by the end of the week. Good news, Anna
guessed. She'd miss the money—overtime jacked her paycheck up enough the IRS
took notice—and the boot-camp simplicity would be replaced by grown-up worries.
But home meant comfort and her cat and clean clothes. She arranged a
lift back to spike with the helicopter taking up hot suppers and bringing down
the two women in charge of Time Keeping. With an hour to kill till her ride
left, she scored a Pepsi from one of the ubiquitous coolers of soda, candy and
fruit that littered every fire camp she'd ever been in, and wandered down the
dusty road from the Command area tents. Constant
traffic had pulverized the soil to a fine gray powder that flowed over the toes
of her boots like fog. Pines, their lower branches made ghostly by dust, leaned
close, breathing out a faint scent of resin. The helicopters had momentarily
abandoned their constant water brigade to and from area lakes to dip their
buckets. In that odd
pocket of silence, it occurred to Anna the forest would heave a great sigh of
relief to be rid of this shantytown with its garbage and buzz of engines and
saws. Wildfires were business as usual. They'd burned since the first tree had
been struck by the first bolt of lightning. Forests had survived, evolved,
grown stronger. But man, hacking firelines with Mcleod and dozer, shovel and pulaski,
took some assimilating. Sometimes the fighting left more lasting scars than the
fire. Where the dirt
road turned clear of the trees and into the main body of the camp, under the
shade of a ponderosa, two security guards in Forest Service green sat at a
folding table looking bored. One, ankles crossed on the back of an empty metal
chair, read a dog-eared copy of Praetorian. The other appeared to be
amusing himself by interrupting. Both were relieved when Anna meandered up. Looking out of
place, a phone sat on the corner of the table, its wires vanishing into a
shallow covered trench leading beneath the roadway. "You can
use it," the nonreader offered. "Anybody can. Five minutes free
anywhere in the country." "No
kidding?" "Swear to
God." He crossed his heart and looked so solemn Anna laughed. Like a
majority of firefighters he couldn't have been more than twenty-one. His boyish
good looks probably got him carded in every bar he walked into. "Anywhere?
Free?" "Yup. You
should see the line at night when the crews come down. Sixty to a hundred guys
waiting to make their call. It's empty now," he said invitingly. The plain black
plastic did look seductive, with its promise of access to another world, one
presumably where people were just dying to hear from you. Anna wished she
had someone to call. "Come on,
when was the last time Uncle Sam gave you a freebie?" the young man
cajoled. Anna thought of
calling her sister Molly but a glance at her watch told her it was three-ten
New York time. Molly would be with a client. "Go on.
Reach out and touch somebody." "Do you
sell used cars in the off season?" Anna teased. "Car stereos." "What the
hell." She picked up the receiver. Cradling it to her ear, she dug her
wallet out of her hip pocket. Crunched between her Visa and her library card
was a gold-embossed business card. On one side, scrawled in letters as gangling
as their creator, were the words: "Call me if you need anything."
Anna flipped it over. "Frederick Stanton, Special Agent, FBI" was
printed in black, along with the number. An onslaught of
butterflies the size of pterodactyls flapped through Anna's innards as she dialed
the number. "Frederick Stanton, please." She made it by
the secretary. The young security guard nodded encouragingly. "This is
Agent Stanton." Anna's mind
froze. Her tongue clove to the roof of her mouth—at least that's what it felt
like. Quietly she hung up. "Busy," she said. "Try
again." Anna shook her
head. "Got to get back to spike." So much for her
sojourn in the fast lane. Chapter Three BY NOON THE next day
spike camp was all but gone. The medical tent and the supply tent were in the
final stages of disassembly. Wearing shorts and a tee shirt, Paula stood by
watching as Anna and Stephen loaded the canvas into the back of her truck. Neil
Page, a chaw of tobacco distending his lower lip, rested his belly on the
truck's radiator, staring glumly at the engine. An oily red rag protruded from
his hip pocket, flagging exposed derriere decolletage. A screwdriver and
crescent wrench, the only tools he was conversant with, were balanced on the
fender. "I'm not
hanging around up here all day waiting for you to get that damn thing up and
going." Paula sucked on an orange Gatorade. The colored drink painted a
Kool-Aid smile on her round face. "Like you
got a choice," Neil muttered. Tossing her
hair, Paula pouted at Stephen. "When they coming to get you? There room
for me? I'll sit on somebody's lap if I got to." "Yeah. And
talk about the first thing that comes up," issued from under the truck's
hood along with a stream of brown tobacco juice. "Fuck off,
Neil. Can I?" Stephen pushed
the roll of canvas farther up on the bed. "No problem, little lady,"
he mimicked John Wayne's classic cadence. If she got the
joke, Paula didn't let on. "When ya goin'?" "Tonight
with the bus that comes for the last of the San Juans." Paula turned
her back. "That's later'n us even. That don't do me no good." "No lap
for you," Anna said as she and Lindstrom went back for the tent poles,
pulled up and piled neatly beneath their sheltering tree. Nearby were the jump
kit and emergency gear that would remain until the last of the crew rode down
in the evening. "A fella'd
want to wear rubber gloves just to hold hands with that little number. I don't
know where she's been but I bet it wasn't clean enough to eat off of."
Stephen tossed his head in a good imitation of Paula Boggins. "A boy's got
his reputation to consider." In mutual and
unspoken accord, he and Anna flopped into the shade where their medical unit
had been. Lindstrom propped his head against his hard hat and folded his arms
across his chest. "Old fire-fighting maxim," he said. "If
there's time to stand, there's time to sit. If you can sit, you can lie down.
If you can lie down, you can lie down in the shade." Anna folded
herself up tailor fashion, one foot on the opposite thigh in a half lotus.
She'd never managed a full lotus, though there'd been a time she thought it
worth pursuing. The difference between a half and full seemed the difference
between complacency and spiritual awakening. The first was comfortable. The
second made one's bones ache. The wind had
shifted, blowing in from the northwest ahead of the storm. Smoke veiled the sun
until it was a blood-red ball. Anything obscuring the sun made Anna uneasy. Had
she been an aboriginal she had little doubt that at the first signs of an
eclipse she would have been in the vanguard sacrificing virgins to appease the
gods. To the west she
could see the barren domes of Chaos Crags and the ragged thrust of Lassen Peak.
Drought had plagued California for three years without reprieve and no snow
clung to the volcano's flanks. Pines draping her sides showed a hint of rust:
drought stress. Dry as tinder. Beyond the peak
was a wall of dirty white. The front pouring in across the Cascades. The
blessing of rain, but most assuredly in disguise. Thunderstorms, spawned along
the leading edge, were lit from within by lightning. "It better be a wet
one," she remarked. "Or it'll light more fires than it puts
out." Stephen opened
one hazel eye. His lashes, like his hair, were short and very thick. It gave
him a dreamy look Anna was a sucker for. "Cloud to cloud. Stuff's not
reaching the ground." Anna studied
the oncoming clouds. "It's moving right along though." In unexpected
ratification, her radio began issuing a warning to expect gusting winds. All
morning voices had scratched over the airwaves. Crew bosses talking to squad
bosses, and air to ground communications. Everything winding down. Anna'd
pretty much quit listening. Now she turned it up. "Maybe
LeFleur'll pull the squad," Stephen said. "We can get off this
mountain a couple hours early. I could stand that." "Spike
medical unit, this is the San Juan." "John must
have heard you." Anna pulled her radio off her belt. "I bet he's
ordering a bus." "Spike
medical," she answered. "We've got
an injury. A log rolled down on Newt Hamlin. Looks like a busted knee. Closed
but bad. He's hurting. We're going to need you, Lindstrom and the litter to
carry him out." "Affirmative."
Anna got an exact location from him and signed off. "Looks
like we've got to work for our suppers today," Stephen said. "Who's
Hamlin?" "A swamper
with the Forest Service out of Durango, Colorado." "Brown
hair, buzz cut, looks fresh off the farm?" Anna asked cautiously. "That's
right. The big guy. The really, really big guy. Monstrous. An ox." "Any place
to land a helicopter below the line?" Anna radioed. "Too
rugged," LeFleur replied. Anna made two
more radio calls requesting a chopper at the heli-spot near spike. "Looks
like we haul him up the hill," she said. Lindstrom
groaned. "We should've gone into pediatrics." SPIKE CAMP was located
on a ridge that ran north and south. To the east the slope was relatively
gentle and the vegetation thinned from an old burn. Partway down a heli-spot
had been cleared on a natural shoulder in the hillside. A wide sandy creek
bottom, dry this time of year, cut a white ribbon through the valley floor. The
west side fell away steeply into a narrow canyon. Near the bottom, about a mile
from camp, the San Juans were building line. The Jackknife had burned most of
the opposite slope. The new line was to stop it once it crossed the gully. Stephen started
down, litter on his shoulder. Anna, wearing the yellow pack and hard hat
required on the fireline, carried the jump kit. There was no trail to speak of.
At six thousand feet the mountains were choked with ponderosa, Jeffrey, sugar
pines and white fir. The few open areas were nearly impassible with manzanita,
a sturdy bush with tangled arms clothed in red bark and shining green leaves. Facing west,
the slope caught the full force of the afternoon sun. Needles, twigs, downed
timber, gooseberry, ceanothus: the mountain was solid fuel and so dry the dust
pounded up by each bootfall tickled Anna's nose till it ran. Deer flies, fat
and sluggish in the heat, took bites from thigh and back, the protective
clothing apparently no deterrent. Anna swore under her breath, afraid to open
her mouth lest one crawl in. Though it would've been poetic justice: a bite for
a bite. Trees grew
close with dog-hair thickets of young sugar pines fighting for sunlight in the
patches of land that in past years had been montane meadows. But for dust and
the all-pervasive smoke, Anna could smell very little. Too many summers without
rain had baked the juices dry. All that remained was the faint smell of vanilla
given off by the burnished bronze bark of the Jeffrey pines. To be in the midst
of a conifer forest and not breathe in the heady scent of pine put her off
balance. As if one stood at the seashore and couldn't taste the salt air. A thick blanket
of duff crackled underfoot. Coupled with the racket of breathing it was
deafening. In places the hillside was so steep Anna slid down on her butt,
preferring the occasional stickers to falling. Suddenly
Stephen stopped and she smacked her head on the end of the litter.
"Signal, for Christ—" she began, but he cut her off. "Lookie
there." He pointed to the base of a sugar pine. Still as a statue in the
almost realized hope of going unnoticed was a ringtail cat. Wide, dark,
lemurlike eyes stared up from a little triangle of nose and ears. Its long striped
tail was curled in a question mark behind it. "First one
I've ever seen," Stephen whispered. Anna had seen a
couple when she'd worked in Texas. They were nocturnal and terribly shy. It was
unsettling to see one so close and in the light of day. Unnatural. "Displaced
by the fire," Stephen said. " 'The
graves stood tenantless and the sheeted dead did squeak and gibber in the Roman
streets.' " Anna quoted from Hamlet. "Cut that
out." "Right." The cat seemed
paralyzed and a man with a broken leg was waiting, so they pushed on. Halfway to the
canyon bottom, maybe three-quarters of a mile from spike camp, Anna and
Lindstrom found the fireline, a six-foot-wide trail rudely scratched into the
landscape. On either side trees had been clear-cut and thrown back. Duff and
scrub had been scraped away by pulaskis, the double-duty tool with an axe on
one side and sharp hoelike blade on the other that most firefighters carried. To the left,
Joseph Hayhurst, his squat frame and strong back suited to the work, was swamping
for a sawyer Anna recognized but didn't know by name. As trees fell and were
bucked up into manageable chunks, Joseph dragged the pieces clear of the line.
Anna recognized the Apache by his hair and stature. Both men were faceless
behind handkerchiefs tied bandit-style over the lower half of their faces in an
attempt to screen out dust and soot. Surgical-style painters' masks were far
more effective filters, but every culture bows to fashion. Firefighters would
no sooner trade their bandannas in for white conical masks than Texans would
trade their Stetsons for parasols. "Joseph!"
Anna called when the chainsaw gave them a moment's peace. He pointed farther up
the line and Anna and Lindstrom headed north toward the head of the canyon.
After the slide and scramble down the hill the "improved" surface was
like a stroll in the park. Long after grasses flourished and trees returned the
cut would mar the hillside, growing more rutted, wider, as rain and snow runoff
took the easier course they now followed. Dust and smoke
were held close by the trees and the air in the ravine was stifling. Rivulets
of sweat tickled between Anna's breasts and shoulder blades. Salt drops burned
her eyes and puddled at her temples—wading pools for the deer flies. "Wait
up," she told Stephen. Obediently he
stopped while she pulled off her stiff leather gloves and mopped beneath the
band of her hard hat. "Our nose
getting a wee bit shiny?" he asked. "Fuck
you," Anna said amiably. Radio traffic
interrupted with another bulletin on the cold front forecasting high winds. "I wish
it'd get here," Stephen said as Anna screwed her hard hat back on.
"We could use a break." "High
winds. LeFleur'll be pulling the squad out." Howard Black
Elk, a pulaski held loosely in his downhill hand, walked down the line toward
them. "We're bumping back up to spike," he said. "I'm passing
the word. Everybody's bumping up. John doesn't like the forecast. John,
Jennifer and Lenny Nims are waiting with Newt. He's a hurting unit. Soon as I
get word out about the bump, I'll grab somebody and come back, help with the
carry-out." "Thanks,"
Anna said. "Hamlin's big." "Damn big.
Not far." Howard raised a massive arm and pointed north. "Just outta
sight, maybe two hundred yards." He squeezed onto the uphill side of the
line to let Stephen and Anna pass. Hard hats and
gloves off, Jennifer and John knelt on either side of Newt Hamlin. Leonard Nims
stood up the line leaning on a shovel, looking like he couldn't decide whether
to stay or go. Hamlin, a beefy, square-headed boy, maybe nineteen or twenty,
sat rigid, his face white and his lips pinched into a thin line. The muscles in
his broad jaw worked constantly. Grinding his teeth, Anna noted. Probably to
keep himself from crying. Tears made his eyes glitter but not one fell. The boy's right
knee was bent backward, the lower leg pushing up at about a twenty-degree angle
from anatomical position. Short or LeFleur had immobilized it, splinting from
hip to ankle joint with branches trimmed for the purpose. Anna dropped to
one knee. Hamlin's boot was unlaced. Evidently the pain of removing it had been
so intense, leaving it in place had been deemed the lesser of evils. She
reached as far into the boot as she could. "So what
happened?" Lindstrom asked as he began unslinging the litter. "Len was
cutting. Newt swamping. Got downhill of a fall. A log rolled and nailed
him," John said. By the careful
neutrality of the crew boss's voice, Anna guessed one of the two had been
careless. Negligence on the fireline was not taken lightly. There was too much
at stake. She glanced up at Nims. His face was crimped into defensive lines.
Mentally he was digging foxholes, falling back. Newt was either unaware he
could fault anyone but God or too wrapped up in his pain to worry about placing
blame. Anna's fingers
found the posterial tibial pulse behind Hamlin's ankle. It was strong and his
skin was warm to the touch. "Good job," she said to LeFleur and
Short. "Let's leave it like it is and haul him out." Lindstrom had
the litter down, the straps laid out to the sides. "Did you get tired of
working and fake a fall just to get a free ride out?" he asked Hamlin. "How'd you
know?" the boy said with a ghost of a smile. Stephen said:
"Me and John will lift Newt. Anna, you and Jen move his leg. On
three." In one smooth
motion they slid the kid onto the litter. A barking cry escaped the press of
his lips. "Yeah,
yeah, yeah," Lindstrom said. "Trying to get sympathy from the women.
Some guys'll do anything to get laid." "You got
me figured out," Newt managed. "John,
take the head. I got the foot," Lindstrom said. "Anna, Jen, take a
side as long as we've got the room. Len, get the tools. When Howard gets back
we'll switch out every few minutes. On three." "I'm sorry
I'm so big," Newt said as they heaved up the litter. The apology
brought a lump to Anna's throat that annoyed her. "Not a problem,"
she said. "We can field amputate that leg right here. What do you figure
that'd save us, Stephen?" "Seventy-five
pounds easy. Cut it off high." "Go
ahead," Newt said. "I don't think it could hurt any worse. Just leave
the family jewels." "Sure,"
Stephen agreed. "They couldn't weigh more than a gnat's Adam's apple
anyway. Little enough I bet even old man Nims could carry them up the hill
without breaking a sweat." Even with the joint
immobilized it was clear every jolting step they took was causing Hamlin pain.
It was equally clear the boy would staple his lips shut before he'd let on. "He's big
as a horse," Anna said to Jennifer. "And his leg is broken. Think
anybody'd care if we just shot him?" A gust eddied
up the trail, a vortex of ash and dirt whirling in a tiny tornado. Dust devils,
Molly and Anna called them when they were children. They moved like
sentient creatures, the tails tracing patterns in the earth that could be tracked
only to see the creature that made them disassociate, dissolve into nothing but
air. This devil
stopped a yard or two in front of them, its tail twitching restlessly in the
dust. For a few seconds it hovered as if deciding whether or not to tell them something.
Apparently the answer was no. The wind veered and the devil disintegrated into
the grasping arms of a manzanita bush hacked out of the ground and lying close
to the fireline. The wall of
clouds that had been on the horizon when Anna and Stephen started down was on
the horizon still but now the horizon was scarcely a mile above them. Anna was
getting a bad feeling. LeFleur jerked
his radio out of his belt. The litter rocked as he held it with just one hand
and a tiny squawk escaped Newt's control. Anna pretended not to hear but she
moved her hand slightly on the litter so it touched Hamlin's wrist, hoping the
contact would give him some little comfort. "Black
Elk, LeFleur." The crew boss was shouting into the radio. His adrenaline
level was rising too, Anna guessed. "Black
Elk," came back with a hiss of static. "Status?" "Everybody's
bumped up. They're halfway up the hill by now. Me and Hayhurst are coming back
for you." "There's
enough of us for the job. Head on up. Keep those guys moving. The wind's
getting squirrely. No sense anybody getting hurt on this one. Clear 'em out. "Hang onto
your hat, Newt," LeFleur addressed the boy in the litter. "We're
going to head up the hill." "Sorry I
don't have a bullet for you to bite on," Anna said as they started up the
incline and Hamlin's weight shifted, forcing pressure on the ruined knee. "I got a
lipstick," Jennifer offered. "But I don't s'pose it's the same." Newt was beyond
banter. His face was the dirty gray of ash and sky, all his will needed to form
a wall around the pain in his leg. The slope was
close to thirty degrees but the forest was comprised of slightly older growth
than farther up. Trees were six to eight feet apart and there wasn't too much
undergrowth. Anna's boots dug deep in the duff as she hauled up, one step at a
time, the side of the stretcher in one hand, the jump kit in the other. The
position was awkward and she knew she wasn't helping much with Hamlin's weight. Across Newt's
chest she could see Short struggling to maintain her end of the bargain.
Jennifer's strength was all from the waist down, good wide hips and strong
thighs like a figure skater. Anna knew her shoulders and arms would be aching
with the strain as she fought to take some of the weight up for Stephen and
John. Cool air gusted
from behind. Though it caressed her sweaty skin, it made the little hairs on
the back of Anna's neck crawl. "Dump the
jump kit," LeFleur ordered as he picked up the pace. "Len, give a pulaski
to Anna. Keep moving." Anna dropped
the medical bag and used Nims's pulaski like an ice axe, clawing up the hill.
LeFleur's breathing rasped deep in his chest, the cords of his neck distended
and the flesh between the rim of his hard hat and his collar was a deep red. "Switch
out soon," she said to Stephen. He nodded. The foot of the stretcher
weighed less and he was both bigger and younger than the crew boss. "Next
flat spot. I take the head, Nims, you get the foot. Got that?" LeFleur
grunted. The vegetation
closed in, branches scratching at their faces and arms. The pounding of her
heart was the only sound Anna was aware of. Oblivious to anything but the pain
in her left shoulder from pulling Hamlin and the small square of real estate
directly in front of her boot toes, she trudged on. Quite independently of conscious
thought, her mind clicked through numbers trying to find a rhythm to pass the
time, keep cadence. Waltz time: ONE, two, three, ONE, two, three. A place not
deserving of the name "clearing" opened up slightly at the base of a
ledge of volcanic rock about eighteen inches high and fifty feet long that
formed a brow half a mile below spike. Long ago soil had laid down a blanket
covering all but the lip and the rock was hidden by a dense cover of waist-high
shrubs. Momentarily
free of the trees, they stopped. Short fell to her knees, sucking in lungfuls
of air. Hands on thighs, LeFleur tried to catch his breath. Even Hamlin was
gasping, fighting pain and shock. "Sounds
like a TB ward around here," Stephen said. "Switch out." The EMT
grasped the front of the Utter. "Nims?" Leonard Nims
was sweating and his breath was coming fast but he was the freshest of the
five. He handed LeFleur the tools and lifted the foot of the litter. Anna and
Jennifer switched sides. "Got to
stretch out the other arm," Short said to Newt. "I'll still look like
a gorilla but leastways both sets of knuckles'll be draggin'." "Let's do
it," Stephen said. The words were
followed by a low rumble. Faint, visceral, it was like the sound of a freight
train coming down the tracks. The noise welled up from the bottom of the
canyon. They looked back as one. The far side of
the ravine blossomed in fire. A mushroom cloud poured up in a deadly column and
fire spun a tornado of destruction through the forest's crown, pulling oxygen
from the air and creating weather of its own. Flame boiled down into the canyon
bottom. "Jesus
fucking Christ," Lindstrom whispered. "Firestorm." Chapter Four NEVER HAD ANNA seen anything so beautiful. Raw, naked power
blooming in red and orange and black. Tornadoes of pure fire shrieking through
the treetops, an enraged elemental beast slaking a hunger so old only stones
and gods remembered. Exhilaration
rose in her throat, a sense of revelation, of sharing the divine.
"Whoa," she said, and heard the bubbling laughter of her voice mixing
with the roar of Armageddon. A scream
brought her back and the fire of the holy spirit turned to fear that coursed
through her with such violence she felt her bowels loosen. The scream had been
ripped from Hamlin when Len Nims dropped his end of the litter. Anna could see
him barging up the hill through the manzanita. She grabbed up the foot of the
fallen stretcher. Hamlin's weight pulled a cry from her, the movement an
answering groan from Newt. "Deploy?"
Lindstrom was shouting. "Not a
good place." LeFleur. "Too much brush. Run. Go for the ridge.
Run." Lindstrom held
the head of the stretcher, Anna the foot. Both stared stupidly at Newt Hamlin,
his only safety between their hands. "We can do
it," Lindstrom screamed. The hell we
can, Anna thought, but she held on to the litter. Newt said nothing. His brown
eyes stared into her face, then Lindstrom's, and Anna knew she was witnessing
an act of courage. Not bravado—he couldn't loose his jaws to tell them to
go—but the courage to keep them closed against the words that would beg them
not to leave him. "We can do
it," Anna said. "Get the
fuck out of here," LeFleur shouted. The roaring pushed his words like foam
on the tide. "Go." The crew boss brought the handle of the pulaski he
carried down hard across the bones of Stephen's wrists. The litter fell. Anna
couldn't hold on and her end dropped as well. "Go.
Go." LeFleur was striking at them with the handle, herding them like
goats. Jennifer started up the hill, slowly at first, then beginning to run.
"Go, God damn it!" Anna started to
climb, Stephen with her, pounding up the slope. Fear took over. John, Newt,
everything behind was blotted out but for the fire. She wanted to turn back, to
look at it, but an odd memory from Sunday school of Lot's wife turning to a
pillar of salt stopped her. Loping on all
fours like a creature half animal, half human, she scrambled over downed logs
crumbling with rot, plowed through brush. Ahead of her, in that narrow scrap of
world between eyes and hands that still existed, the ground turned red. She
thought of "Mars," a short story her sister had written about the red
planet. Close on that thought came another: how strange it was that while she
was running for her life, she was thinking of Mars. And she was
running for her life. The idea snapped sharply through the sinews of her body
and she became aware of the stretch of the muscles in her legs, the hardness of
the ground, the slipping as her boots tore at the duff, the strain in the big
muscles of her thighs and that slight softening that heralded fatigue. She
wondered how long she could keep going. A scrap of
trivia surfaced. Fire, unlike anything else known to man, defied gravity. It
traveled faster uphill than down. The length of a football field in a minute, that
stuck in her mind. How long was a football field? A hundred yards? Fifty? Third
grade. Johnstonville Elementary. She'd won a blue ribbon for running the
fifty-yard dash in ten seconds flat. She was older now. Stronger. Older. Maybe
only the young would make it. A thicket of
manzanita filled her vision and Anna plunged in. No time to find another way.
Breath was cutting deep, each pull of air tearing a hole in her side. Branches
scraped her face, plucked hanks of hair from under her hard hat. Nothing registered,
not pain, not impediment. Anna felt as if she could claw her way through a
mountain of stone. Then her feet
went from under her and she was down, her jaw cracking against a stone or a
root. Her head swam with it, her mouth was full. She spit and blood, colorless
against the flame-drenched earth, spilled out. She wondered if she'd bitten her
tongue off. "Up,
goddam you, up." LeFleur. He
pulled at the back of her pack and Anna came to her knees. "Go. Go."
Anna ran again. The thickets were close to the ridge. Close. If she could make
the ridge, maybe... Roaring drowned
even thought. Heat scorched her back, she could feel the burning through her
left sleeve below the elbow. Air, sucked deep into her lungs, scalded and she
screamed without sound. Her legs were growing heavy, sodden. Instead of
carrying her she now had the sense of dragging them. The ridge top
rolled beneath her as if she'd flown in. Suddenly she was aware the way had
grown easier: the beaten earth of the old camp. Paula's truck, the hood up, was
parked where they'd left it. Two gasoline cans sat by the front wheel. Both
were puffed up like roasted marshmallows, ready to blow. It crossed Anna's mind
to move them before any of the others reached the ridge but she knew if she
touched them she would die and she kept running. Across the
camp, clear of the pines, and over the crest of the ridge, Anna could see
Jennifer ahead of her crashing down the slope toward the creek bed. Anna
stumbled after, falling and pulling herself up time after time. Like a woman in
a nightmare, she thought, like the Japanese maidens in monster movies. Howard Black
Elk ran out of the trees just above. He'd lost helmet and gloves. His hands
were over his ears trying to protect them from the burning. Both arms were
seared, the flesh hanging in ribbons. Anna caught him
by the shoulders. "The
creek," she gasped. "Fire'll slow when it reaches the ridge."
While she talked she ripped her bandanna in half and bound Black Elk's hands.
The last of the water from the bottle on her belt she poured over the bandages. "The
creek," she repeated. "Safety
zone," Black Elk said. He hadn't panicked. He knew where he was going.
Together they ran again, flying downhill on legs that felt made of rubber and
sand. Anna slid on rocks, fell over bushes and swung around trees. She heard
the gas cans explode and looked back to the ridge top. Flame was
cresting in a wave. Burning debris shot over, tumbling down and starting new
fires. A hundred yards and Anna would reach the creek. She turned to run and
felt a sharp pain shoot through her ankle. Fuck, she
thought, I've broken it. Fear narrowed to that one place in her body and she
put her weight on it. It held. The pain melded into the others as she ran. The creek was
sunken, the banks several feet high and she tumbled over the lip into the sand.
Already it was hot to the touch. "Deploy!" Maybe it was
LeFleur. Smoke blinded her. Hacking coughs tore the air from her lungs.
Fumbling behind her back, Anna pulled her plastic-encased shelter from its
pouch. She hadn't checked it in years. They were supposed to be checked every
two weeks but no one did it. No one thought they would have to use them. Ripping it out
of the plastic, she clawed it open; a small silver pup tent. Firefighters
called them shake 'n' bakes. It no longer struck Anna as funny. Scorching wind
snatched at the flimsy shelter, threatening to wrench it from her grasp. Fire
poured down the mountain, burning embers exploding in its path. Anna dragged
the silver tent over her and anchored it with her boots to hold it down.
Pulling it along her back and up over her head, she gripped the front edges in
her gloved hands and fell face forward into the sand. The roar
engulfed her. Scouring sand and debris rasped on her shelter and she felt the
skin on her back begin to burn. Pressing her face into a hollow in the sand,
hoping for air cool enough to breathe, she thought of her sister. If she didn't
get out of this alive, Molly would kill her. Chapter Five FOOTAGE OF THE firestorm was on the six o'clock news. The shots
were from a distance of several miles and cut short when the helicopter
carrying the cameraman hit rough weather. Still the explosive sense of power
carried through, the might of nature unleashed. Frederick
Stanton relaxed in the living room of his one-bedroom apartment in Evanston,
Illinois. An overstuffed couch, bought for comfort, not looks, dominated the
room. In the grate of a defunct fireplace, a television took the place of logs.
The hearth of the nineties. Hardwood floors, recently refinished, picked up the
reflection from the screen. No other lights were on. Long legs
draped modestly in a battered terrycloth robe, Stan-ton lounged with his feet
up and a glass of scotch—neat, no rocks. His bifocals were pushed down to where
he could see over them. An aqua budgerigar with black tail feathers hopped down
the length of one of Stanton's long arms, murmuring and pecking as if the man
were made of delicious crumbs. In the
fireplace flames burned silently behind the anchorman's head as he read the
news: "The storm front blamed for the blowup brought snow and sleet in its
wake, damping the fires and grounding air support. Due to the weather and
hazards caused by burned snags falling across the twenty miles of steep and
twisting logging road that leads in to the remote spike camp thought to be in
the path of the blaze, no machinery will be sent up until morning. A ground
crew carrying food and medical supplies has been dispatched up the beleaguered
fire road on foot. At present ten firefighters are listed as missing." The anchor
turned and looked expectantly at a blank wall behind him. After a second's
delay film of a base camp in northern California was shown. Frederick sat
up. The budgie twittered in annoyance and flew several feet before landing on a
bare knee to continue its foraging. One of Stanton's hands strayed to the black
receiver of an old-fashioned rotary phone, a movement as unconscious as it was
natural to a man who lived by the exchange of information. The station cut
to a commercial for fabric softener and Frederick pawed through a
disintegrating hill of newspapers and magazines obscuring the coffee table.
Outraged, the budgie flew back to his cage with a noisy flapping that
metaphorically slammed the wire door behind him. "Sorry,
Daniel," Frederick said absently. The magazines began to slide and an
avalanche of paper cascaded down around his ankles and over long white feet
half concealed in slippers trod flat at the heels. The disturbance uncovered
the remote control. Stanton caught it up and began clicking through channels.
National coverage was over for the evening. All he could find was Chicago news. For a few
minutes he stared at men in blue-and-white football jerseys running from other
men in purple and white. The Bears and the Vikings. Usually Frederick forced
himself to watch the highlights and memorize the scores on the off chance he
had to pass as one of the boys at some point the following day. Now he wasn't
aware of what was on the screen. Behind his eyes he watched a small-framed,
middle-aged woman, streaks of gray through the infernal braid she used to
incarcerate her hair, crumpled naked in a shower crying and swearing at him. More fun than
petting a bobcat, he thought, and smiled. Somewhere in the heap of materials he'd
dumped on the floor was a letter from her. He'd put off answering it one day at
a time for three weeks. Too much to say and no way to say it that was
guaranteed to charm and amuse. Several drafts had already been consigned to the
trash as sophomoric. With Anna he had to use his best material, the new
relatively honest stuff. From the beginning he sensed she'd spot anything
glib—or worse, would know if he tried too hard. In the short
time he'd known her, he'd had the heady sense of being an angler with a
particularly wily and powerful fish on his line. Not that
Frederick fished, except as a less than biblical fisher of men, but this was
how he imagined a deep-sea fisherman might feel with a muscular iridescent
marlin on the end of his line. A glimpse of rainbow sparkling through the gray
of an ocean wave, a sense of triumph. The line suddenly slack; the prize
eluding. Exhilaration at feeling the tug once again. Frederick felt
that tug now. Sipping delicately at the scotch, he wondered who had whose hooks
into whom. His right hand
strayed back to the telephone. Pushing a button on the remote, he muted the
television. He didn't turn it off. Whenever he was home the TV was on. Sound,
color, the electronic simulation of life kept him company. Over the years he'd
grown so used to it the place felt cold, haunted without it. He dialed the
Bureau's number from memory. Timmy Spinks answered and Frederick was relieved.
Spinks was young but he was sharp and, Stanton hoped, just inexperienced enough
not to realize Frederick was about to use Bureau equipment and personnel to his
own ends. "Timmy,
Frederick Stanton. Get me everything you can on the firefighters caught in that
burn out in California. Do you know what I'm talking about?" "Yes, sir.
It was all over the news." "That's
the one. I want to know what anybody else knows. Who is missing. If anybody's
dead and who. What's being done. Everything." "Yes,
sir." Sir. Timmy made
Stanton feel old but since it was old and revered the FBI agent let it pass.
"Call me at home. I'll be in all evening." Stanton hung up
and looked at pictures of beautiful women and shiny cars move silently across
the television. The San Juan
Plateau crew would be out of the Colorado/New Mexico area. That much was
obvious. Anna had mentioned in her letter that half the rangers in the park
were fighting fires out west. What were the odds Anna was on a fire? On the
Jackknife? A thousand to
one. With Anna those odds didn't settle Stan-ton's nerves. He could always
phone her. There couldn't be too many Pigeons in southern Colorado. Information
should have no trouble tracking her down. I'm curious,
not concerned, he told himself. If I reached her I wouldn't have much to say.
But it was the specter of saying it badly that stayed his hand. He fixed
himself supper and ate in front of the TV, placing bits of food on the edge of
his plate for Daniel to share. The little bird kept up a running conversation
in a low and liquid warble but Frederick was lousy company. Until the phone
rang, and it occurred to him he had no recollection of what he had eaten or
what he was watching, he didn't realize he had been waiting. "Agent
Stanton," he said as if he were at his desk in the office. "Hi, Dad.
It's Candice." Frederick
forced the disappointment from his voice. "Hiya, sweetheart. What's
up?" There followed
a long and rambling account of triumphs and political coups on the student
newspaper at the University of Minnesota in Minneapolis. After she hung up,
Frederick scanned his memory. He was relatively sure he'd made all the right
noises but he hadn't really been paying attention. Parental guilt prodded. A
gentle poke: Candice was his one success out of three children. Through the
divorces and the moves the two of them had managed to stay close. "I love my
girl," he said to Daniel. The bird cocked
its head and looked up out of one bright beady eye expecting attention, but the
exchange was over. Frederick's eyes were back on the television, his mind in
neutral. When the phone
rang a second time half an hour later he answered "Hello," cognizant
of where he was. "Agent
Stanton? It's Timmy. Tim." Stanton felt a
familiar tightness in his belly. He'd first noticed it after he'd become a
father for the second time. Driving home late—back in the days when home was
populated by more than a bird and TV set—the last block before he turned onto
Oakland Avenue where he could see his house, he'd get a slight clutch wondering
if good news or bad news or no news awaited. The house had
always been standing, no burned-out shell, no roofless statistic in the wake of
a tornado, no children with scarlet fever or black plague. But the tightening
was there till he'd closed the door behind him. It was a game he played with
himself. "What've
you got for me?" "Not a
whole lot. Events conspired, you might say." Frederick
crushed mounting impatience. "Begin at the beginning." "Evidently
the fire was a bit of a sleeper. It'd just been creeping along for several
days. Pretty routine. About two this afternoon a cold front came in. The
National Weather Service forecast it. They were counting on the precip to put
the fire out. That's what gets most of them out—not as glamorous as I'd
thought. This time the winds got bad, sheared in a canyon, fuel was dry and
boom! The thing just exploded. Like a bomb. A squad—half the San Juan Plateau
crew—was building line on about a two-hundred-acre finger of the fire. Sort of
a thumb-shaped burn. When the wind sheared it blew up from two hundred acres to
thirty-five hundred acres in less than an hour. Must've been awesome." Timmy's
youth crept through the professional recital. Frederick was
pushing the receiver against his head, bruising the delicate if generous ear
tissue. He loosened his grip. "The crew?" "They were
cutting back the whole operation. The San Juans were camped out a ways—twenty
miles or so from the main camp. One squad had already been taken off the fire
as well as two other guys, one with bronchitis and one with back problems. The
other squad—about half the crew—was finishing up a section of fireline they'd been
building. They may have gotten caught in the path of the fire when it went out
of control. They're the ten missing." "May have?
No one's checked?" Frederick was angrier than he had a right to be and it
bled into his voice. Affronted, Tim
was all business when he responded and Frederick made a mental note to be
effusive in his thanks once he'd gotten what he wanted. "No, sir.
They can't. The fire burned over the camp, the heli-spot and the road for they
don't know how many miles. The storm pushing the winds came in with snow at the
higher elevations and sleet and rain in the valleys. Winds are still high.
Visibility nil. Aircraft arc grounded and they can't get machinery up the road.
Some have started up on foot but there's no news yet and there's been no radio
contact from the missing crew. Word is they have hand-held radios but they're
only good for line-of-sight. They're meant for the crews to talk to each other.
The commander said they might be able to reach the Incident Base camp if they
were high enough. So far they haven't called in or responded. I talked with
Gene Burwell. He's the incident commander. He said as soon as the weather
breaks they'll get helicopters up there. According to the National Weather
Service it should start clearing mid-morning tomorrow." Frederick
digested that. Tim Spinks waited silently. The incident
commander, not the information officer; Timmy must have cloaked himself in the
armor of the Bureau. Frederick felt a small stab of embarrassment. He'd headed
up enough bad situations to know how costly and irritating it was to have to
shift mental gears to talk with other agencies. Especially those not directly
involved. "Good job,
Tim," he said, and meant it. "Have you got a list of the missing crew
members?" "John
LeFleur, Crew Boss, Newton Hamlin, Leonard Nims, Howard Black Elk, Joseph
Hayhurst, Jennifer Short, Lawrence Gonzales and Hugh Pepperdine." No Anna Pigeon.
Frederick felt a wave of relief so strong it surprised him and he wondered why
he hadn't asked for the names first. Mentally he wrote it off to the orderly
progression of his mind but he suspected it was pain avoidance. "Read them
again." Jennifer Short rang a bell. He'd worked with a ranger with that
name in Mesa Verde. "Again." This time he counted on his fingers as Tim
read off the names. Eight. "How many
in a crew?" "Twenty,
sir." "A
squad?" "Ten." Twenty total,
ten demobed, two invalided out. That left eight. "You said there were ten
missing. Who are the other two?" "Emergency
medical technicians running the medical unit. A Stephen Lindstrom out of Reno,
Nevada, and an Anna Pigeon from Colorado." There it was.
Frederick felt the tightness harden into a knot. "Are you on all night,
Tim?" "Yes, sir. "Keep an
eye on things. Call me if there are any changes." "Yes, sir." "Thanks a
bunch, Timmy. You've been super," Frederick added sincerely, remembering
his promise to himself. Vaguely he wondered why he always waxed dopey in
gratitude. It disarmed people. He'd used the technique so long it had become
habit. A self-made nerd, he said to himself without rancor. Whatever worked. Absently he
turned the sound back on the television, banishing the emptiness of the room.
Danny hopped along the back of the sofa and onto Frederick's head where he
chirped happily, picking through the fine dark hair. Of course Anna
was on the Jackknife. Never had Frederick met a woman with such a propensity
for disaster. In high school he'd known a kid like that, Desmond Gallagher. He
hadn't thought of Desmond in twenty years hut now he was clear and lively in
Stanton's imagination. Desmond himself was a slight, pleasant, intelligent boy
but he seemed a vortex for strange events. If Desmond walked by a liquor store
there was a ten to one chance it was being robbed. If he sat too long at a bus
stop odds were a nearby water main would break or a passing Brinks truck would
lose its brakes and careen into a fruit stand. Anna apparently
had that lightning-rod quality. She attracted
you, Frederick thought, then wondered why he equated himself with a natural disaster. Danny still on
his head, Stanton rose and shuffled into the tiny kitchen. Dishes were washed
and dried and put away and the stove top wiped clean. The one-man breakfast
table, like every other flat surface in the house, was piled with papers and magazines. Frederick had
to read them before he allowed himself to throw them out. Information: one
never knew what might be important. Stanton tried to assimilate it all and he
was blessed— or cursed—with an excellent retention and retrieval system. At Trivial
Pursuit he was unbeatable. He dumped his
unfinished scotch in the sink, then washed and dried the glass. Alcohol didn't
hold a tremendous appeal for him but it seemed a man ought to have at least one
vice to come home to and he never took to tobacco. He put the
glass in the cupboard with four others exactly like it stacked two by two, and
stood staring into the shelf as if waiting for a floor show to begin on a
miniature stage. He was worried
for Anna's safety, for her comfort, for her life. To a lesser extent, and
perhaps more impersonally, he felt a kernel of sadness for the others, Jennifer
Short, the Newts and Johns and whoevers. Those were the honorable emotions
floating up into the dark of his mind like the messages that used to float up
into the black window of a "magic" eight ball he'd been given as a
child. Less than
honorable and more compelling was anxiety for himself, for his future.
"Future" wasn't quite right. Destiny, Frederick thought, and smiled
without being aware of it. To lose Anna Pigeon would be to lose some elusive
possibility, some potential fate that was grander, more satisfying than the one
that trickled in through his windshield and across his desk every day. The woman
represented a chance. A chance at
what, Frederick wasn't sure. Maybe the all-encompassing "brass ring."
A chance he couldn't bear to lose. At forty-four, twice divorced, there might
not be many chances left. Chapter Six A ROAR FILLED Anna's ears. She didn't know if
she was screaming or not. Probably she was. A terrible fear of being crushed by
the immensity of what was coming poured through her and she had to fight down a
panicked need to throw off the flimsy aluminum shelter and run. Nowhere left,
she told herself. And she remembered her father's voice from childhood telling
her if she ever became lost to stay put and he'd come find her. Stay put, she
told herself. She must have
spoken the words aloud because fine, burning grit filled her mouth and throat.
Each breath scorched the membranes of her nose and fired deep in her lungs. Wind grabbed at
the shelter, tore up the edges, thrusting fistfuls of super-heated air beneath.
Pushing her elbows and knees against the bottom of the shelter where it folded
under, Anna fought to hold the shelter down, the fire out. Her mind
rattled, grabbed onto a prayer long forgotten: now I lay me down to sleep—The
end flashed like a telegram behind her eyes before the first words were formed
and she jettisoned the rest as too prophetic. I pledge
allegiance to the flag of the United States of America ... She filled her
mind with soundless shouting. An impotent wizard fending off genuine magic with
a barren incantation. All hell broke
loose above and around her. Fire pierced
the aluminum tent in a dozen places. Sparks were falling, burning through: the
shelter was a scam. Soon she would burst into flame. Spurts of adrenaline
racked Anna's insides. With the odd unpleasant thrill came a stray thought: how
much of the stuff could one gland secrete? Surely a quart had been pumped
through her veins in the last hour. Red, burning, a
spark fell on her sleeve. She flicked her arm but couldn't dislodge it. No
smolder of cloth followed, no burning through to the flesh. With a jolt of
relief that brought tears to her eyes she realized the sparks were not sparks,
not embers, but pinholes along the folds in her shelter. The orange light was
the light of the fire, but outside glowing through. Classes in fire behavior
she'd thought long forgotten came back to her. All shelters had these
pinpricks, signs of wear and age. Normal. Okay. Normal. One nation under
God, indivisible... A slap as of a
giant hand smashed down on her shoulders and breath gusted from her lungs. She
sucked in fire and clamped her jaws closed against it. The shelter pressed down
on her back, the saving pocket of air squeezed away. The yellow pack she wore
protected her spine but the skin on her shoulders bubbled and Anna bucked. The
tent was pushed up off her back and the searing dropped to a tolerable level. Her nose and
eyes were packed with ash and dirt. Through the thick leather gloves the little
fingers of both hands, flat on the ground and holding down the shelter, began
to throb. They kept the tent down, the devil out, and Anna didn't dare pull
them away from the heat. With liberty
and justice for all. Burrowing blind
as a mole, she pushed into the sand and blessed all events social and
geological that had formed the creek bed and led her into it before the storm
broke. Sand wouldn't burn. A mental image of the creek bed melted, a ribbon of
molten glass with their bodies burned into it like flies trapped in amber,
flickered through her mind and she started again: I pledge allegiance... The blessing
hadn't extended to Hamlin. The ledge they'd left him on was covered in brush,
half a foot deep in leaves and litter. LeFleur: maybe he'd cleared a space for
the boy, covered him with a fire shelter. But it was no good. It would only
prolong the burning. Newt Hamlin was toast. A ludicrous cartoon version of Wile
E. Coyote burned to a crisp sprang up from Anna's subconscious. And to the
republic for which it stands... The air was too
hot to breathe. Anna pressed her lips to the sand, sucking slowly as her
grandmother had once taught her to suck tea through a sugar cube. The little
fingers of both hands hurt so bad she would have wept but there was no moisture
in this convection oven shroud. No sweat, no tears. What was the temperature,
she wondered. Five hundred degrees stuck in her mind but she didn't know if
she'd read it, heard it or was making it up. Five hundred
degrees. Anna pushed her mind back to the days when she was still a meat eater.
Chicken was baked at three-fifty. Roast beef at maybe four hundred. Twenty or
thirty minutes for each pound. One hundred and eighteen pounds at five hundred
degrees Fahrenheit—two thousand minutes. Numbers scrambled and Anna gave up the
exercise. It would be a while before she was fully baked. One nation... Pinpricks of
light on the right side of her tent swelled, the burning orange pushing through
with such intensity they painted her sleeve like the beams from the laser sight
on a high-powered rifle. The skin on her little fingers burned. In her mind's
eye she saw it curling away, blackened and seared, leaving only the clean white
of finger bones. Noise crested,
became solid, clogged the machinery of her ears and mind. Her head filled with
the roar till it seemed it must explode. Her lungs were crushed with it, the
bones of her body shaking, softening as if the molecules vibrated against each
other. Anna hunkered into the sand, thought, like breath and sight and hearing,
blasted away. When Anna had
grown accustomed to the idea of death the roaring seemed to lessen. She sensed
it not so much with her ears as with her body. An infinitesimal lifting of the weight,
a tiny shift in the crush. That something in the eastern sky that, while not
yet light, somehow flaws the perfect hue of the night. The black of
the noise was flawed. The firestorm was past the creek. And Anna was still
alive. This is good,
she thought. This is good. Elation brought hope up from the depths of her soul
and hope brought fear. Anna was sick with it. Prying open
grit-encrusted eyes, she rolled her head to one side. Within the shelter the
sparks had moved like stars across the night sky. Orange glared through
pinpricks, the small imperfections in the shelter, on her left side now. The
fire had jumped the creek bed; it was moving on. Anna held what
fragments of painful breath there were left in her lungs, irrationally
terrified that should she move, make even the smallest of sounds, this ravening
beast that was fire would turn back, dig her out of her lair and devour her as
wild dogs would devour a rabbit. "Get a
grip," she said through cracked lips. Most assuredly
she was alive. Her lungs hurt, she had to go to the bathroom—if she hadn't
already—her hands and her shoulders burned, her stomach threatened to empty,
but worst was the thirst. Dust stuck in her throat till she couldn't swallow.
Lips and tongue were as unyielding as old leather. Her very skin and hair and
fingernails felt parched. If she could have immersed herself in water she had
little doubt that she would soak it up like a sponge, swell up half again, in
size. "Anybody
alive out there?" Anna thought
the words were in her mind, in someone else's voice, and she wondered if this
was where the angels came or one's life flashed before one's eyes. The message was
repeated: "Anyone alive?" It was her
radio, impossibly far away on her belt. More than anything in the world, Anna
wanted that voice to continue. Inching one gloved hand away from the shelter's
edge, she tried to get to the Motorola. Winds jerked the aluminum up and a
sandblast of heat and ash choked her. She felt the shelter being peeled back,
the fire coming back for her. Abandoning the radio she clawed the tent down
again. "Anyone?" The voice
sounded plaintive now and, to Anna's fevered mind, farther away. Salvation was
slipping from her. The rescue plane flying over her raft without seeing it.
Rolling to one shoulder she used her weight to pin down the embattled tent.
Where she pressed against the shelter wall she burned. Still she held out till
she'd wrested the radio from her belt. Facedown in the sand again, she pushed
the Motorola up close to her mouth and forced down the mike button with a
clumsy gloved finger. "I'm
alive. Is that you, John?" "Some
roller-coaster ride." Anna wanted to
kiss him, cry all over him, marry him, have his children. "Who else has
radios?" she asked. "Howard's
got one. Black Elk, are you alive out there?" Radio silence
followed. "He's
alive," Anna said, not because she believed it but because if he was he'd
need reminding. "His hands and arms got burned. He probably can't get to
his radio." "Keep the
faith," LeFleur said. "I'm on the far side of the wash from spike. It
sounds like it's past me. I think that was the worst of it." "Gee, ya
think?" Anna said sarcastically, and the crew boss laughed. A wonderful
sound: heaven, honey, nectar. "How long have we been in these
things?" she asked. A second or two
ticked by and Anna got scared something had silenced John LeFleur. "Twelve
minutes," he replied. "Bullshit.
I was sixteen when I crawled into this fucking thing, now I'm
seventy-four." Again the
laugh. Anna had to bite her lips to keep from telling this stranger that she
loved him. "Black
Elk," LeFleur was saying, and Anna cradled the radio to her ear for
comfort. "Hang in there. This is the worst of it. Don't get out. Nobody
get out. It's still hotter than hell out there." Literally, Anna
thought. "I can
still see the fire through my shelter," she said, because she needed to
say something. "We still
got fire," LeFleur agreed. Anna was
comforted. She lay hurting in the sand with the radio pressed close to her
lips. For the next hour she and LeFleur talked, keeping their courage up,
hoping Howard Black Elk still had ears to hear them with. John had seen Joseph
Hayhurst and Lawrence Gonzales stumble into the gully. Paula Boggins and Neil
Page had been in the wash when LeFleur arrived. He'd shown them how to deploy
the shelters Page had had the sense to salvage from the supplies before they'd
run from the ridge. Anna guessed
Jennifer Short had made it, she'd been ahead of Anna when she crested the
ridge. Stephen Lindstrom, Leonard Nims and Hugh Pepperdine were still
unaccounted for. Anna didn't ask about Newt Hamlin. Every growl and
crack of the fire was described and discussed back and forth and slowly, with
the flames, the terror passed. In its wake were all the burns, twists, scrapes
and bruises that Anna counted herself lucky to be able to feel. Finally LeFleur
said he was going to leave the shelter. Anna was to wait. Science fiction
settled over her brain and she laughed at herself, feeling as if she waited in
a sealed space capsule while the captain ventured out on an unknown planet.
Laughter dried up when images of "B" movie monsters took over her
mental landscape and she realized how tired and afraid she was. Close, she
suspected, to hysteria. She willed herself away from that edge. "Come on
out." Briefly,
suddenly, Anna didn't want to go. All the safety she'd ever known seemed summed
up in the tinfoil shelter. The emotion passed as quickly as it had come and she
pushed one hand out from beneath the tent, shoving up the edge. Smoke rolled in
but it was no thicker or hotter than that inside. It took all of her strength
to push herself to her knees, her house crumpling down over her back. Then the foil
was being lifted away. Again fear pierced deep: the fire was back, ripping at
her safety, her flesh. But it was John LeFleur peeling the shelter off of her,
helping her to her feet. "You don't
look much the worse for wear. All parts still working?" "I
guess," she croaked, and took the water he offered. LeFleur's face was
completely black, like the "darkies" in the old minstrel shows. Mucus
and tears had muddied the soot around eyes and nose and a thin trail of blood
cut through the black from the tail of his left eyebrow. Through the soot his
blue eyes shined bright as opals in whites so bloodshot they showed pink. "You're
the best-looking thing I've ever seen," Anna said from the heart. She shed
the yellow pack like a turtle crawling out of its shell and started to pull off
her hard hat. "Leave
it," LeFleur said. "The Jackknife's not done with us yet." Anna rebuckled
the chin strap and took her eyes from him for the first time to look around. Science
fiction: it was another planet. Where there had been the green of living trees,
the gold of needles, the red of manzanita, the blue of the sky, there was only
gray and shades of gray and black. Instead of ponderosa, fir and sugar pine,
black skeletal bones poked cruelly toward a sky gray with smoke or cloud. The
ground was white, as white as death and bleached bone. Feathers of ash
smothered everything, burned so deep and hot the soil itself was dead. Smoke,
colorless in a colorless landscape, curled into a sky of the same hue, breathed
out like the poisoned breath of a dying planet. Here and there, in a mockery of
life, bright beautiful orange-red flames licked at what was left of something
once living, cleaning the bones of the carcass. Anna brought
her eyes back down from the ruined hillsides. She had deployed her shelter
downstream of a fork in the creek. Above where she and LeFleur stood she could
see a boulder the size of a trailer house that had originally divided the creek
in two. To the right was a silver-black corner of fabric where someone else had
deployed. Whoever was within didn't move. John laid a
hand on Anna's arm. She didn't grab onto it but she wanted to. "Where is
everybody?" she asked. "Some are
downstream, I think," LeFleur said. "And there's a branch over
there." He pointed south across a hump of devastated ground oozing smoke
and heat. "Not far. Five or six yards. It joins the creek at the boulder.
Most are there. I think." For a moment
longer they stood without moving. The only two people on this desolate world. "Let's
go," LeFleur said. Time to see who
had lived and who had died. Chapter Seven WIND SWIRLED ASH around their ankles. In places the sand was completely hidden.
Flakes of soot eddied down on air currents as wild and changing as Medusa's
locks. Cold drafts struck icy reminders of the storm front yet to come. Warm
whirlwinds, sudden and smoke-filled, attested to the firestorm just past. Clouds and
smoke pressed close and the visibility in the bottom of the canyon was limited.
Anna had yet to shake the feeling that she walked on an alien planet. Plowing
through air so mobile and viscous, it wasn't a great leap of imagination to
think it had a will—or wills—of its own. She wanted to
hold John's hand and, from the drawn look on his face, she doubted he'd mind.
Too bad they were grown-ups. Side by side, shoulders almost touching, they
trudged through the sand. Ahead, where the creek split at the boulder, wind
curled around the stone in a sudden gust and formed into a shape that was
almost human. "Hold
up," John said quietly, and Anna was afraid. The shape continued to shift
and settle. Finally it coalesced and she caught a flash of yellow. "Hey!"
she shouted as Stephen emerged from the choking mist. They ran and hugged and
pounded backs and laughed like old friends meeting after long years. "Looking
good. Looking good," Stephen said over and over. His eyes were too wide.
Whites showed all around the soft hazel pupils. Soot and dirt obscured his skin
but for a racoonlike patch over his eyes where his safety goggles had clamped
out the worst of the grime. This delicate flesh was stretched tight and the
same dirty gray color as the ashes that made up the world. Shock. Anna
reminded herself to be on the lookout for the symptoms in herself and the
others. If there were others. Shock would kill as surely as fire but it was a
cold death. Lindstrom
grabbed Anna's hand, holding it so tightly the roasted pinky throbbed. It would
have taken more than that to persuade her to pull away. The tinfoil hut
by the boulder began to stir and they stumbled over it to drag Howard Black Elk
from his aluminum cocoon. Howard was in bad shape. The hasty bandaging job Anna
had done on the run down the slope had been scraped away by his struggle to
keep his shelter down. Without gloves, his sleeves in rags, the man's hands and
arms to above the elbow were badly burned. How much of the charred-looking
flesh was third-degree burns and how much dirt, Anna couldn't tell without
water, light and a closer examination. "It don't
hurt much," Black Elk said, and Stephen and Anna exchanged glances. When a
burn didn't hurt the news was bad. The nerves had been destroyed. "We'll get
you fixed up," Anna said, and was appalled at how halfhearted the promise
sounded. "You're
looking good," Stephen repeated. He didn't sound any better than she did. "Thanks
for talking," Black Elk said. "On the radio, I mean. It was better
than being alone." "George
and Grade," Anna said. Howard stood there expressionless, his wounded
hands held in front of him like paws. The big man swayed on his feet. "Get
him down." Stephen and
John helped Howard to sit, out of the wind, his back to the sheltering rock. "Where are
you going?" he asked as the three of them straightened from settling him.
Terror was clear in his face and voice. "Not
far," Anna promised. "John's
got to round up the rest of his flock," Stephen said. Black Elk
didn't look reassured. LeFleur knelt beside the injured man, reached down and
turned the firefighter's radio on. "There's some down the creek. Watch.
Call me if you see anybody. Don't let them wander by, Howard. Don't let them
get lost." The crew boss
made it sound as if he was addressing Horatio on the bridge or the little boy
with his finger in the dike. Black Elk
pulled himself together. Anna could see it happening: fear and pain pushed
aside by strength and purpose. "Split
up?" Lindstrom asked LeFleur. "No. You
and Anna stay together. You've only got the one radio between you. You go on up
the creek. I'll go back down where we were." He pointed
toward the arm of the creek meandering off south of the boulder roughly
parallel to the section of creek where he'd met up with Anna. "We'll check
there last. And nobody goes far. Anybody you find, you send back here. Howard
will field them in, keep them together." LeFleur looked at his watch. To
read the face, he had to scrape off the soot. "Takes a lickin'
and keeps on tickin'," Lindstrom said. Anna silently voted him the man
she'd most like to survive a wildfire with. "Don't
walk more than twenty minutes. Whoever didn't make the creek before that . . .
didn't make the creek," LeFleur finished. "Got a
light?" Anna asked as she and Stephen started up the creek bed. "Don't
tell me you want to smoke?" "Headlamp,"
Anna said. "Mine's in my yellow pack." Lindstrom
stopped obediently and Anna dug the battery-powered light out of his backpack
for him. September had
brought shorter days. Smoke and cloud robbed the last light of its strength.
Though it was only a little after four it would soon be dark. Anna had
ambivalent feelings about that. Darkness had been her cloak of invisibility, her
protector more than once. When she was a little girl she'd been afraid. Her
mother once asked her of what, and Anna answered, "Of the things that jump
out at people." Her mother had looked complacent. "I always figured I
was the thing jumping out," she'd said. Since that time Anna and the dark
had become old friends. "This'll
be a night full of ghosts," she said aloud. "Anna, cut
that out." "Right." Sneezing and
hacking pulled them forward at a faster pace. Jennifer Short staggered out of
the murk coughing as if her lungs would spew out onto the sand. "If I got
an orifice that's not running, I don't know where it is. I swear I didn't think
a person had this much snot in their head. Disgusting. Anybody got a clean
hankie?" "Blow your
nose on your fingers," Stephen suggested. "My,
aren't we down-home?" Jennifer drawled. "Shoot. Gotta do something.
Don't tell Momma." She cleared her sinuses. In the strange
half-light Anna noted the red of blood through the soot-impregnated glove. "I'm an
EMT, can I help?" she asked, parroting the accepted introduction of
emergency medical personnel coming onto an accident scene. Stephen laughed,
they all laughed way out of proportion to the feeble pleasantry. "It's
nothin'," Jennifer said. "You can patch it up when we find a spot to
perch." "Anybody
back where you were deployed?" Anna asked. "Lawrence
and Hugh. I didn't walk back down. I came toward your voices. They deployed
when I did. How close, I'm not sure. I haven't been paying many social calls
just recently." Drawn by the
sounds of the living, two more zombies stumbled out of the smoke. Veiled in
gray, soot blackening their faces, they were unrecognizable to Anna until
Jennifer called out their names. Once labeled, their individual characteristics
came back and Anna could see the men behind the dirt. Lawrence
Gonzales was a slight man in his early twenties with soft straight black hair
and clear brown skin. If he spoke, it wasn't ever to Anna, but he smiled enough
so that she thought him shy rather than sullen. Hugh Pepperdine
wasn't much older, if any—maybe twenty-three or -four at most. He was soft and
white and pudgy. Nobody could figure out how he'd managed to pass his step test
to become a red-carded firefighter. Pepperdine talked too much and worked too
little, from what Anna had gathered. The crew nicknamed him "Barney"
after the treacly purple dinosaur. It was not a term of endearment. Right now Hugh
didn't seem to know whether he was a hero or a victim. While Gonzales coughed
and spit and murmured "pardon me," Pepperdine babbled. Venting, Anna
knew, and neither she nor Lindstrom made any effort to stop the flow of words.
Blame for the burn-over was cast on everyone from John LeFleur and Newt Hamlin
to the National Weather Service and the National Interagency Fire Center out of
Boise, Idaho. Somebody somewhere had screwed up and Hugh wanted his pound of
flesh. Mixed in with his diatribe was a thread of personal heroics of the tiny
real variety: falling down but getting up again, running and getting away. Chances were
good the story would improve over time and Pepperdine would undoubtedly dine
out on it for the rest of his days. "Put a
cork in it, Barney," Jennifer snapped when they'd all had enough. She
shrugged out of her yellow pack. Pepperdine spluttered to silence and the five
of them walked back up the creek to where Black Elk waited by the boulder. Through the dim
light Anna couldn't tell who was gathered around the rock but it was a goodly
number and she dared to hope they'd all made it. All but Newt Hamlin, she
corrected herself. Guilt tried to cut her but she pushed it away. No time for
that now. Six dead heroes wasn't a better deal than one dead boy and five
living if fallible human beings. "Gonzales,
Short and Pepperdine accounted for," Lindstrom said as they walked up to
the others. Paula Boggins
sat near Howard, shivering in a white tee shirt and shorts. Second-degree burns
covered the backs of her thighs and calves and the outside of her forearms.
Liquid was seeping through the coating of grit. "Somebody give
me a brush jacket," Anna said. Pepperdine looked away as if he hadn't
heard. LeFleur dug his from his yellow pack and Anna wrapped it around the
girl's shoulders. Lindstrom's went over Paula's legs. Covering so much of her
body, even second-degree burns were a serious injury. Hypothermia and shock
were very real threats. "We'll get you fixed up," Anna heard herself
saying again, and wondered with what. The only medical supplies not burned up
in the fire were the personal first aid kits they all carried, wallet-sized
plastic containers with a handful of Band-Aids and little else. Neil Page had
fared better than Paula. Long denim pants and a long-sleeved wool shirt had
protected him from burns. The lower half of his face was covered in blood and
the front of his shirt was stained with it. The blood was from a nosebleed, he
said. He got them when he got excited. "You're
entitled," Anna said. No doubt that there had been some excitement. Joseph Hayhurst
had come through with nothing worse than the scratches and bruises they'd all
gathered fleeing the fire. He sat quietly beside Black Elk, an alert look on
his face and a strange little half smile on his lips. A well-mannered,
well-brought-up man willing to lend a hand. The urbane pleasantness was jarring
against the blackened face and wild Apache hair. While Anna and
Lindstrom were inventorying the injuries sustained by the San Juans, LeFleur
attempted to contact Incident Base on his hand-held. "No dice," he
said as he stepped back into the defensive circle they'd formed. "Maybe
from higher ground. Have we got everybody?" Silence followed.
Minds were numb. Too much stress, too little oxygen had made them stupid. "Everybody,"
Gonzales said. "Where's
Len?" The question came from Jennifer. "He was with us carrying Newt
out." No one asked
where Newt was. "Len
didn't make it," Hugh said. "Did you
see him?" John asked. Pepperdine
opened his mouth as if to say something then closed it and shook his head.
"I just figured maybe the fire caught up with him." Again the
silence. They all looked at one another, everyone expecting someone else to speak. "Last I
saw of him was all ass and elbows high-tailing it up the hill," Jennifer
said. "I didn't see him reach the wash." Anna looked
around. Heads shaking. No one saw him reach the safety of the sand. "Did
anybody check the southwest fork of the creek?" LeFleur asked. "You told
us to meet back here first." Anna knew she sounded defensive but there was
no way to retract. She wrote it off to fatigue. Reluctance to
go in search of Nims was palpable. Anna didn't know if it stemmed from the
man's unpopularity or if they were all loath to leave this small island of
security, the first they'd felt in a while. "Stephen,"
Anna said. "Let's go. If he's there—" He might be in need of medical
attention was her thought, but without tools and supplies there was little she
and Lindstrom could do that was beyond the capabilities of anyone else present. Lindstrom
levered himself up and put on his hard hat. "Keep
trying Base," LeFleur said to Howard Black Elk as he got up out of the
sand to join them. Howard's hands were so badly burned Anna thought the task
would have been better given to Joseph till she saw the big man's face. Work,
being needed, was all that was keeping Howard going. "Lawrence,
you and Hugh go back up the creek and collect the shelters and anything else
we've left. We may need it. It looks like we'll be here all night,"
LeFleur said. Paula started
to cry. "Stop that," Jennifer snapped. "Fuck
off," Paula said, but she stopped crying and Anna was relieved. Anna switched
on her headlamp. Dust and smoke absorbed the light, rendering it virtually
useless. Wreathed in glowing gray, she, LeFleur and Lindstrom spread out and
began combing the width of the south fork of the creek that ran parallel to
where Anna had ridden out the firestorm. They all saw
the shelter at the same moment. It lay perfectly deployed in the middle of the
sand. The tent ridge was erect and the edges held firmly down. Ash had blown
around it like a drift of dead snow. "Len!"
LeFleur called. Nothing stirred and not one of the three of them moved.
"Len Nims!" Cold gray stillness settled back into the silence as the
crew boss's voice died away. "Let's do
it," Anna said after a moment, and broke the line they'd formed upstream
of the shelter. Adrenaline
hangover, post-traumatic shock syndrome, the dying light, the devastated
landscape—something had robbed Anna of her nerve and she approached the silvery
structure as if it housed poisonous vipers. There'd been a tent in Texas, where
she'd worked backcountry in the Guadalupe Mountains, filled with diamondbacks.
She thought of that now and half believed she heard the threatening rattle of
tails. "Len?"
she said as she tentatively pinched up one edge of the shelter. A gloved hand
in a yellow sleeve was exposed. LeFleur, unable
to stand the suspense, stepped up beside her. Grabbing the tent ridge in both
hands, he jerked it up. Straps and edges tangled around the limbs of the man
inside and a tumble of green, yellow and silver was stirred into the sand as
the man rolled onto his side. "Christ,"
LeFleur hissed. Anna and Lindstrom dropped to their knees and began pawing the
foil away. Light had been
leached from the sky. The bottom of the gully was deep in a shrouded dusk.
Beams from the lanterns on their hard hats danced confusingly across the
prone man's shoulder and cheek. "It's Len,
all right," Lindstrom said. Silence fell on
that, the three of them locked up with their own thoughts. "Did he have a
wife?" Stephen blurted out suddenly. John nodded.
"Separated, I think. Got six or eight kids. Good Catholic boy. His yellow
pack is gone," the crew boss added. Anna had taken
her glove off and pressed her fingers down on the carotid artery in the side of
his neck. "Nothing." She tried again. "Nope." "This is a
hell of a note." LeFleur was leaning over, his lamp shining on Nims's
face. Like their own, it was blackened, the blue eyes staring from red-rimmed
eyes. "Smoke
inhalation?" Lindstrom offered. "The rest
of us made it," the crew boss said. "Heart
attack?" Anna tried. "Could
be." LeFleur straightened up, dug a Pall Mall out of his shirt pocket and
struck a match. "Christ!" he said as the match flared. He dropped it,
the cigarette unlit. Fumbling, he pulled his hard hat off and the light from
it. Rolling the body onto its belly he shined his lamp on Leonard Nims's back. A knife handle
was sticking out just below the man's left shoulder blade. Blood, mixed with
soot and dried to a brown crust, colored the shirt and the sand. Anna looked to
Lindstrom, Lindstrom to John. The crew boss shook his head, struck another
match and lit his cigarette. His hands were shaking. "No way this
could have happened," he said as if that would make the situation go away. Anna turned off
her headlamp, whether to save the battery or shut out the dead man she was
unsure. "What now?" LeFleur said. "You're the crew boss,"
Anna returned. "You're in charge of security." "Damn." Chapter Eight WIND SNATCHED UP a handful of ash and blinded Anna with it.
Somewhere on the far side of the ridge, probably melted into a puddle, were her
safety goggles. She thought of them now and remembered the scrape of manzanita
across her face. She must have lost them in that thicket. Anna hung her
head and tried to blink the grit away. "What're we going to do about
this?" LeFleur pointed to Len Nims. "I'm
thinking," Anna grumbled. The open eyes of the corpse were slowly filling
with grit. "Pull the shelter over him, for Chrissake." LeFleur drew
the aluminum tent up over the body. Ash from his cigarette joined the feathery
relics of pine and fir in Nims's hair. Ashes to ashes, Anna thought. Nims was
beyond caring. Anna was too, she realized with a pang of guilt. Nims in life
was a coward and a pain in the ass. In death he continued in the latter
function. His staring eyes were a vicious reminder of mortality, his body a
logistical problem, his murder a horrific complication. Anna hated him. Sorry,
Len, she addressed the spirit world above the wash. It's just that I've had a
real bad day. LeFleur smoked.
Anna's eyes finally cleared and she looked at Stephen. In the uncertain light
of the crew boss's headlamp his face looked strained, exhaustion dragging down
his cheeks and the corners of his eyes. "We can't
stay here," Anna stated the obvious. "It's too cold to mess around
and too dark to do any good. I guess this is a crime scene. Shit. We'll leave
it as is. Let somebody deal with it in the morning." "Sounds
like a plan," LeFleur agreed. None of them made any effort to leave. The
sheer impossibility of the knife, the dead man, held them to the spot waiting
for some rational explanation to manifest itself. "Somebody
must've knifed him when he got to the wash," John said, flicking his
cigarette end into the darkness beyond their little cabal. "Maybe a fight
of some kind over something— space—something. Len lost." Anna could tell
John liked that explanation. Both hope and finality colored his words. She
liked it too, but it wouldn't fly. "He's in
the shelter," she said. "Even if the murderer got an attack of
remorse and decided to stick the body in its shake 'n' bake, the thing would
have blown off. I had a hell of a time holding mine down. Nims's shelter
wouldn't've lasted five minutes without him alive inside." Silence was
agreement. Lindstrom and LeFleur had battled the fire's winds. "After the
fire passed us somebody must have killed him," LeFleur said. "Jesus.
You'd think they'd be too glad just to be alive." "Blood is
all dried up, brown and crusty," Anna pointed out. She didn't lift the
silvery shroud to show them. They would remember. "What of
it?" LeFleur was belligerent. Anna didn't
blame him, her voice was sharp when she answered. "So it didn't happen in
the last twenty minutes. The heat from the fire dried it, cooked it." LeFleur stuck
his hands in his pockets and looked toward the ridge where spike camp had been.
Out of reflex, Stephen looked too. They were all wishing themselves elsewhere. "Let's get
the hell out of here," LeFleur said finally. The meeting was
adjourned. Using stones, they weighted down the shelter that covered Nims's
body then trudged up the creek without light or conversation, saving their
batteries figuratively and literally. Clearly not
before. Definitely not
after. Nims had been
knifed during the firestorm. Since that was
not possible, there didn't seem to be a whole lot left to talk about. "What are
you going to tell the crew?" Lindstrom asked LeFleur. "The
truth." That was easy,
Anna thought. Too bad nobody had the faintest idea what the truth was. Gonzales,
Pepperdine, Black Elk, Hayhurst, Paula Boggins, Jennifer Short and Neil Page
were clustered in the lee of the boulder. Some clear-thinking individual—Joseph
Hayhurst, probably—had begun to organize a bivouac. Two of the shelters Hugh
and Lawrence had retrieved were spread to make a drop cloth to keep out the
chill of the ground. The others were pressed into service as blankets.
Temperatures were dropping rapidly. Mid-forties, Anna guessed. With the wind it
felt colder. Paula Boggins
huddled miserably under the two brush jackets, shivering and hot at the same
time. Tracks of tears streaked the black on her face and her jaw was clenched
to keep her teeth from chattering. Sucking on a cigarette and letting the smoke
trickle out his nose, Neil Page sat beside her, the blackened silver of a
shelter pulled around him to shut out the wind. At every drag he coughed deep
in his chest, mouth closed to keep in the smoke. Paula and Neil
concerned Anna. Paula was hurt but it was more than that. No firefighter
expected to run from a holocaust the likes of which had caught them, but it was
understood that there would be nights on the line with little or no comforts.
Everybody got stuck out occasionally. Most times there was the luxury of a
"Good Boy" box, a box of provisions helicoptered in for the night.
Sometimes there wasn't. That was the deal. Firefighters tacitly agreed to
discomfort when they signed on. The same was not true of Paula and Neil.
Mentally unprepared, they were at a disadvantage. The mind could keep the body
going a long time on will alone. Or it could shut it down. Black Elk, cloaked
in another shelter, cradled the radio on his lap between his elbows. Someone
had draped a filthy neckerchief over his hands. Probably more to hide than
protect them. That was good, Anna noted. A man at a car wreck she'd worked had
been up and functional, talking, then went into shock and died when his left
arm, severed at the elbow by a cable, was placed on the stretcher next to him
by an idiot EMT. It was better Howard didn't see the ribboned flesh of his arms
any more than he had to. Jennifer Short
sat cross-legged on the edge of the shelter used as a tarp. The yellow of her
brush jacket, kept relatively clean inside her pack, provided a cheery note.
The animation surviving the fire had lent her was gone. Her eyes were unfocused
and her mouth crunched into a sad line. Only this morning, Anna recalled, she
had heard her brother was dead, killed in the same fire that had taken its best
shot at them. Lawrence and
Joseph had emptied the contents of the yellow packs—with the exception of Hugh
Pepperdine's—onto the makeshift ground cloth. From the closed bitter expression
on Hugh's pudgy face and the care the others took not to look at him, Anna
expected there had been words over his hoarding. Her brush
jacket was on the heap they were inventorying and Anna leaned over Jennifer's
legs to get it. "I'd offer it to you guys," she said to LeFleur and
Lindstrom, their jackets gone to cover Paula, "but it's an extra
small." "Yeah,
yeah, yeah," Lindstrom returned. Anna folded
herself into the sand beside Jennifer and dumped her hard hat and gloves in
front of her. Jennifer came out of her stupor enough to look up. She shined her
headlamp in Anna's eyes and mumbled, "Sorry," when Anna winced.
"You look just about as awful as a woman can look and not be dead,"
Jennifer commented. "Do I look that bad?" Anna opened her mouth to
reply but Jennifer cut her off: "Don't tell me. Anybody here got mirrors,
you keep 'em to yourself." That burst of
life spent, Short sank into herself again. In an attempt
to get warm, Anna shoved her hands deep in jacket pockets. Her fingers closed
around something disgusting and she jerked them back out. Brown ooze coated her
fingertips. For a second her mind blanked, revulsion the only emotion
registering. Too much horror for one day. Then she stuck her fingers in her
mouth. Chocolate. Sugar hit her bloodstream like a drug and she realized how
hungry she was. "We need
to get some food into us," she said. "Can I
lick your fingers?" Stephen asked. "You can
lick my pocket. What have we got?" Lawrence drew
back from the cache of goods he and Joseph had collected, looking to Hayhurst
to speak. Joseph tossed out two MREs—meals ready to eat—that someone had the
foresight to carry in their yellow packs. LeFleur and Black Elk: the old-timers
carried tools, socks and food. There was hard candy as well. "That's
enough to keep our blood sugar up," Anna said. "Nobody will starve by
morning." "Did you
find Len?" Black Elk, easily the most severely injured, was holding up
better than half the others. "Bad
news," LeFleur said. He pulled out his cigarettes. Two left. "Give me
one of those," Page said. LeFleur tossed
him the pack. To take a man's last cigarette; Neil Page, never high on Anna's
list, slipped down a notch. Disaster brought out the best and the worst in people,
she reminded herself. She'd not exactly been Little Mary Sunshine over the past
hours. The men lit
their smokes while the rest waited for LeFleur's bad news. There was little
tension. They could guess Len Nims was dead. Just not how. One knew, Anna
realized with a jolt. One of them had knifed Nims in the back. Because her mind
was overloaded and because what had happened was impossible—nothing flesh and
blood could have moved through the firestorm to commit murder— it hadn't come
home quite so graphically as it did at this moment that Nims had been killed by
one of the people sitting in the sand. In her career
as a park ranger, Anna had dealt with murderers several times but never with
such immediacy. Before she'd confronted them, the killers had time to regroup,
begin—or finish—their justifications and rationalizations. The thin veneer of
civilization had reformed over their faces. As LeFleur
shook out his match and, still standing, began his recital, she studied the
faces of the others. Surely, had one of them done the unthinkable—not to
mention the impossible— in the last few hours some remnant of the deed would
remain. Anna was
disappointed. Hugh Pepperdine registered something resembling peevish
annoyance. Neil Page sucked on LeFleur's last Pall Mall as if he hadn't heard.
Maybe Paula's shock deepened slightly but Anna couldn't really tell. As for the
others, they met it much as Anna had, with disbelief. It was too absurd to fit
into an ordered mind. And they all fought in their own way to restore some kind
of mental order. Ever the good
host, Joseph Hayhurst passed around hard candy as the crew boss explained the
knife in the ribs. His story finished to the quiet crackling of cellophane as
they unwrapped their butterscotches. LeFleur sat down. Small snacking sounds
defined the circle. Overhead the winds whistled. "Somebody's
got to radio Base. Nobody knows if we're alive or dead." Pepperdine's
voice was a whine. He gave them someone to focus their fear and anger on. Anna
could feel the group warming to the idea of a scapegoat. Hugh Pepperdine was
born for the role and Anna felt like giving him a swift kick herself but
couldn't see that it would further any cause. "It's
beginning to look a lot like Christmas," a sweet tenor voice sang. Anna
looked up to see who had slipped the surly bonds of earth. It was Joseph.
"Snow," he explained. Mixed with the
windblown ash were icy flakes. Minute hissing sounds as the sleet hit hot coals
corroborated his assessment. Bad weather could give their adventure another ugly
turn. Anna sighed. "
'Scuse me," she said. "I'm going to go find what's left of the
ladies' powder room." BY THE TIME she got
back LeFleur had worked wonders with their makeshift camp. Shelters were rigged
into a tent attached to the elbow of the boulder providing shelter from the
winds. Lawrence and
Stephen had taken shovels into the burn and brought back live coals that they'd
heaped in a sand fire pit inside the tent and the temperature approached
comfortable. "Not much
left in the way of fuel," Lindstrom said. "But we can mine coals from
now till doomsday. Even with the snow, it's a hot motherfucker out there.
Pardon my French," he said to Jennifer. Stephen didn't wax obscene from habit,
it was by design and for effect. This time he'd evidently hoped to get a rise
out of Jennifer but she didn't come out of her lethargy enough to acknowledge
him. When the chores
were done, Anna told herself she should talk to Short. Or, better yet, make
Lindstrom do it. He was a touchy-feely nineties kind of guy. LeFleur and
Hayhurst were rigging one of the shelters to improve the natural windbreak
created by the boulder. Paula and Black Elk had been moved to the snuggest
corner. Food and water, not enough to satisfy but enough to survive, had been
salvaged. Anna cannibalized
all of the first-aid kits and came up with seven rolls of one-and-one-half-inch
gauze. She used a quart of water to cool and flush some of the debris from
Howard's hands and arms. His palms and the spaces between his fingers were in
decent shape. The back of his left hand and arm was swollen, the blisters
ripped open and liquid oozing from tattered flesh. Regardless of what the man
would admit, this one had to be hurting like a son of a bitch. The knuckles of
the third and ring finger of his right hand were burned down to the bone. His
right forearm was charred along the ulnar bone, the meat burned black in a
strip an inch wide and three inches long. Around the third-degree burns were
blisters the size of silver dollars and heavy with pus. Anna dressed
his hands and arms with hope, a couple of nondenominational prayers and five of
the rolls of gauze. "Don't
bust open the blisters," she told him. "Got to
let 'em drain," Black Elk said. "No you
don't. Don't do it. Are you going to quit doing it?" "You betcha." Anna saw the
twinkle in Howard's brown eyes and knew he was pulling her leg. He wouldn't
mess with these blisters. Paula's burns
weren't nearly so severe but they covered a good chunk of her small body. Anna
recalled the rule of nines from her EMT training. Second-degree burns were
considered minor if they covered less than fifteen percent of the body and the
face, hands, feet and genital areas weren't affected. Arms were nine
percent of the body, legs eighteen. A little mental arithmetic let Anna know
Paula barely retained her minor status. Between ten and twelve percent of her
body was burned. Barring any unforeseen incidents Boggins should be all right.
Anna was careful to drum that into the girl's head lest her own fear be her
undoing. Jennifer's left
palm had a nasty cut where she said she'd fallen on the blade of her pulaski.
Anna cleaned it, closed it with butterflies and bandaged it. Unless infection
set in, it would heal. By the time
they'd finished it was full dark. Joseph distributed the food. Anna scored a
can of beanie-weenies and marveled as she wolfed it down what a wonderful sauce
hunger was. Lindstrom made Jennifer eat a can of Polish sausages, then set her
to work feeding Howard slimy cold chop suey from a plastic MRE bag. Being of service
would probably do Short more good than the nourishment would the big Arapaho. When they'd
finished eating, the firefighters threw their trash into the darkness beyond
their enclave. Littering went against the grain for Anna hut, with a touch of
childish rebellion, she threw her empty tin toward the smoldering Jackknife. "I'm going
to try and make the ridge," she announced. "See if I can reach
Base." "Wait till
it's light," LeFleur said. The rebellion
in her soul wasn't quelled and Anna could feel her metaphorical heels digging
in. "Somebody
should go," Hugh said. Everybody ignored him. Pepperdine had dined in
solitary splendor out of the sanctity of his yellow pack. Any shred of
credibility he might have retained was destroyed in that instant. "It's not
more than a quarter of a mile," Anna said. "Maybe a hundred yards to
the heli-spot. There's a road from there." Silence argued
for her. The rest of them craved contact with the outside world as much as she
did. "You're
not going alone," the crew boss told her. LeFleur didn't want to leave his
crew and nobody else wanted to leave the safety of the creek. "Stephen
will go with me." "Thanks a
heap," Lindstrom said, but he was stirring himself up out of the sand as
he spoke. "Go
slow," LeFleur warned. "Test each step before you take it. Those
stumps are still burning underground. You wade into one, you'll know it." With that
blessing and a pair of borrowed goggles, Anna and Stephen took two of the
headlamps and walked out of the circle of light. At the bank of the creek they
stopped. Around them the murmur of the wind and the hiss of sleet on the burn
pushed the dark close. Cold crept down the collar of Anna's brush jacket and
chilled her wrists between the leather of her gloves and the canvas cuffs. "This might
not turn out to be one of your better ideas," Lindstrom said. "I'm open
to suggestion." "Let's go
snuggle in with our compadres and wait till morning." "Not that
one." Though tired to the bone, with a backache that made her stomach roil
and two booted feet that felt like hamburger, Anna was pushed by the need to
take some sort of action. There'd been a blowup. A boy was burned to death. A
man knifed in the ribs by a means she could not make heads or tails of. To sit,
to wait, to try to sleep was beyond her. No rational act left, she'd chosen the
least irrational. With luck it would even prove productive. "Tractability
is considered an attractive quality in a woman," Lindstrom said as she
sank her pulaski into the bank and pulled herself out of the wash. After half a
dozen steps Anna was beginning to doubt her decision as well. It would be easy
to get lost. All they had to navigate by was the slope. Ahead, the teeth of the
fire were bared in hollow logs and stumps, glowing coals defying the petty
attempts of the sleet to quench them. As winds eddied and shifted the coals
brightened hungrily. More unsettling
was the fire that lived high in the burned-out snags. The forest was still
there but it had been stripped of skin and muscle. Bare bones, charred a shade
darker than the night, rose all around like macabre grave markers. High in many
of the snags the fire gnawed at the marrow. An occasional crack or fall let
them know that a lingering branch had been chewed off, brought down. Anna kept
climbing, pounding each step with her pulaski as John had told her. Behind her
she could hear Lindstrom. He whistled "Ring of Fire" between his
teeth. Visibility
improved as they gained altitude and their lamps began to be of more use. The
ground flattened out and Anna stopped to catch her breath. So changed was the
landscape it took her a minute to realize they'd reached the heli-spot. "Home
free," Lindstrom said as he came up beside her. "Wind's picking
up." A curtain of
ash and grit blasted by them and they turned their backs. "One damn
thing after another," Anna groused. A dirt road had
been hacked from spike to the heli-spot and the going was easier. Lindstrom
took the lead and she fell in behind him, relieved only to have to step where
he stepped. On the ridge
the wind was shrieking. Without the sough of needles and leaves to soften its
voice, the whistle was sharp and unkind. Stephen's light picked out the hulk
that had been Paula's truck. The tires were burned off the hubs. One of the
fenders was gone, blasted away when the gas cans exploded. The cab was gutted
and the glass gone. In extremis the vehicle had been rendered black and
elemental. It no longer looked out of place. "Maybe
it's still warm," Anna said hopefully. Brush jackets were made of unlined
canvas, designed to protect from the scrape of branches and the wind. Now that
the exertion of the climb was behind them, Anna was feeling the cold. Using the truck
shell as a windbreak, Anna dragged the radio from under her jacket. On the
second try she reached Base. The line was etched by static but still readable.
The two EMTs found themselves laughing from sheer relief. They weren't alone. Gene Burwell,
the incident commander, spoke with them and Anna sensed a hushed reverence
awaiting her every word. Caught up in surviving, the rest of humanity had
slipped her mind. Mothers, fathers, brothers, sisters, friends were waiting by
radios and telephones, the television tuned to CNN, hoping for news. The drama
of what they had been through hit her and she was proud even as she mocked
herself for feeling heroic. It was with sadness and an unpleasant sense of
failure, slipping from her recently acquired pedestal, that she told them of
Newt Hamlin, of Leonard Nims. News of the
murder was met with a static-filled silence Anna couldn't break. Burwell had
his mike button down and, she imagined, his mouth open. Three times he
made her repeat the information. Anna was shouting now, her face and the radio
shielded by the truck's engine block and Lindstrom's body. Rising wind competed
for air time. "What do you want us to do?" she asked. Burwell was
quiet so long she began to be afraid they'd lost contact. Finally his voice
cracked back: "Can you last out the night?" "I think
so." Anna had told him of injuries sustained and supplies available. It
was a rhetorical question. Could rescue have been sent it would already be on
its way? "The
National Weather Service thinks this'll break tomorrow. We'll send the
helicopters in for you. We've sent a crew up the road but they won't be there
anytime soon. If this sleet holds, the fire will be out by then or close to it.
One way or another, we'll get to you." When the
conversation was terminated, Anna felt abandoned. Lindstrom took the radio and
relayed their information to LeFleur. From far away,
through the howling of the wind, came soft thuds, the sound a giant's footfalls
might make in ash and dirt. Anna grabbed Stephen's arm. "What the
hell..." "John, do
you hear that?" Lindstrom barked. Bile backed up
in Anna's throat. The pounding was directionless. It came in intervals of a few
seconds to a minute and seemed to be on all sides. "Put your
hard hats on and hunker down somewhere solid," the crew boss said over the
radio. "The wind's felling snags. It'll be like a war zone out there till
it lets up." Lindstrom sat
down in the ash, leaned back against the engine block and spread his legs.
"A little ninety-eight point six?" he offered. Anna squirmed between
his knees and he held her close, retaining what body heat they had left. His hard hat
clanked against hers as he leaned his head down. "I sure wish you were
fatter. No offense." "None
taken. I sure wish I was home—no offense." "None
taken." Chapter Nine TIMMY SPINKS CALLED Stanton a little after nine p.m. Chicago time. Frederick put down a
block of cottonwood and the carving knife, muted the television and answered.
As Spinks relayed information he'd received of a radio call from the surviving
firefighters, the windstorm and the consequent recall of the rescue crew Base
had dispatched up the mountain, Stanton saw the same news marching soundlessly
across the TV screen. He didn't take
notes while Spinks talked. Names, dates, places, all the details would be
remembered. He wasn't born with the talent. Like a waiter in a fine restaurant,
over the years he'd trained himself to use his short-term memory. Later he
would make lists. The lists served to make tangible his thoughts. Lists could
be thumbtacked on maps, moved around, compared, re-matched like puzzle pieces
or decorators' samples. For now Stanton
listened, his eyes on the talking head on channel 4, his fingers running
absently over his carving. Emerging from the block of wood was a chimpanzee in
a cowboy hat and six-guns. Stanton remembered seeing one dressed that way in an
old movie. Monkeys in various activities and ensembles cavorted on the
windowsill behind the sofa. Stanton had taken up carving in hopes it would do
for his hands what the television did for his brain; keep it occupied in
harmless pursuits from day's end till bedtime. The sculptures
were good. He knew it without taking much pride in his achievement. Cynicism,
carefully weeded out of his daily dealings with mankind, dripped from every
knife cut. His monkeys weren't fun, not even a barrel full of them. Slyness,
stupidity, greed, envy, arrogance, lust, deceit: seven sometimes deadly but
certainly ubiquitous sins marred the simian faces. Stanton's first
carvings had been of people but they had proved unsettling. Too much
disappointment was revealed. With monkeys the whimsy somewhat balanced the
cruelty. "What's
closest to Lassen Park and the Caribou Wilderness?" he asked when Spinks
had finished. "Reno?" Stanton didn't wait for an answer. A map of
northern California and Nevada had risen from some recess of his mind.
"Book me a flight out of here to Reno." There was no
hesitation before the "yes, sir." Spinks, deliciously damp behind the
ears, wouldn't know Stanton wasn't godlike in his powers, that he didn't choose
his assignments nor did he prioritize them. Careful not to
scatter wood shavings, Frederick folded up the newspaper laid across his lap.
The air ticket he would put on American Express. The days on either sick leave
or annual leave. He'd accrued so much of both, come December he'd be on Use or
Lose status anyway. The murder was a bit of unexpected luck. Stanton might even
wangle official status with pay. The thought of
seeing Anna again gave him a thrill of adolescent proportions. The corpse was a
fitting touch. He never saw Anna unless somebody died. If that wasn't the stuff
True Love was made of he'd read all those Thomas B. Costain novels for nothing. Setting his
reading glasses down by the half-finished carving, he made squeaky sounds
through pursed lips. Danny squeaked back and Stanton located him in the shadows
on top of one of the bookcases. "Come, my little bird-brained friend. Time
to return to solitary." As he put the budgie back into its cage it crossed
his mind that he ought to buy Danny a companion. He could never tell if baby
budgerigars were male or female but perhaps it wouldn't matter. Just somebody
to pass the time with, twitter to in the dark. "Maybe
when I get back," Frederick promised. TIMMY GOT HIM on a red-eye out of O'Hare, through
Salt Lake City, arriving in Reno at three-forty-eight A.M. Seven hundred and
twenty-three dollars. Frederick abandoned American Express at the airport
counter and put it on an already overburdened MasterCard. This would have to be
paid off one month at a time along with Candice's college tuition. Long legs
jacked up against the seat back in front of him, Stan-ton cinched his seat belt
down, then opened the envelope of computer printouts Spinks had given him: data
on the Jackknife, maps of the area and background checks on the survivors and
the two deceased still up on Banyon Ridge just east of Lassen Volcanic National
Park. He started with
the report of the fire. Not because it held the greatest interest, but because
it was going to be a long flight and he was saving the best for last. Last was
Anna's background check, on the bottom of the pile. She wasn't a suspect, he
was just being nosy. Law enforcement computer networks weren't the all-knowing,
all-seeing, long, strong, electronic arm of the law that the various agencies
would have the public believe, but they housed more dirt than a Hoover. A
professional gossip's dream come true. Frederick had the highest regard for
gossip. It showed people still cared what their kind did or did not do. It
shored up the illusion of self-importance and morality that separated man from
the monkeys he carved. With a pleasant
sense of anticipation that claimed him at the outset of most investigations, he
began to read. The Jackknife
had been spotted on the twenty-seventh of September by a fire lookout in the
Lassen National Forest. The burn had originated near Pinson Lake, California.
Lightning, the cause of a majority of wildland fires, was not in evidence. The
first victims, Joshua Short and his dog, were suspected of starting the blaze. Frederick noted
the plural and wondered what role the dog was thought to have played in arson.
Maybe in the vein of Mrs. O'Leary's cow. In eleven days
the fire had grown to fourteen thousand acres of public land, thirteen thousand
five hundred on National Forest land and five hundred acres in Lassen Volcanic
National Park. An Incident Base camp of a thousand-plus firefighters had been
established on the edge of the Caribou Wilderness east of the park and a spike
camp within the wilderness area on Banyon Ridge. The fire had burned steadily
but unremarkably until the cold front moved in over the Cascades. The blowup
was a spectacular swan song, bringing the total acreage burned to over
seventeen thousand. Precipitation
and cooler temperatures were thought to have stopped the fire. It was still
being monitored and, though the crews were being demobilized, Gene Burwell,
Incident Commander, would head the rescue effort to bring the stranded squad
down off the mountain. Chain of
events, cause and effect, never ceased to fascinate Frederick. A cold front
rolls over a mountain range; a brother is burned to death; a man named Nims is
knifed in the back; Frederick notices he may be falling in
something—"love" for lack of a better word; Joshua Short, alleged
arsonist, sets a fire that overruns a spike camp where his sister has been
dispatched. The world was a house of cards. Stanton met
Jennifer Short, a seasonal law enforcement ranger, when he worked a homicide
with Anna in Mesa Verde National Park. Her steel-magnolia persona delighted
him. He had a secret envy for those with colorful ethnic roots. Accents and
cultural eccentricities provided good cover, a touch of mystery and romance. A
middle-aged, middle-class, middle-western white boy had only his expected naivetй
to fall back on when the emotional roads got rough. He hoped Jennifer's steel predominated
over the magnolia for the duration. News of her brother's death, the trauma of
the fire, might be enough to render her useless to Anna. Through the
musings and mental exercises it was never far from Frederick's mind that somewhere
on the flank of a mountain, Anna was snuggled down with a murderer. It was so
like her it made him smile. Spreading out
Timmy's maps, he noted with approval that the area of the fire and base and
spike camps had been marked with colored pens. Somewhere in the circle of
fluorescent orange was Anna. It wasn't hard to picture her in mud and trees and
other uncivilized accoutrements. He'd never seen her anywhere else and wondered
if he'd be disappointed should she ever turn up in Chicago in pantyhose, pumps
and perfume; if the Calamity Jane aspect of the woman piqued a palate that had
become slightly jaded. Frederick had
never been handsome enough to be vamped by cheerleaders, but he was single,
straight and employed. It got him enough offers that he sat home nights by
choice, not necessity. Danny, the monkeys and Tom Brokaw: not a bad life if one
sent out for pizza. He tried to
picture Anna in his home and failed. Oddly, it disappointed him. He desisted
and turned his attention to the background checks. The pages were run together
on perforated computer paper. Stanton tore them neatly into sheets. Maybe the
next generation wouldn't require the familiar comfort of rectangular white
pages, read left to right, top to bottom, but Frederick found it helped organize
his thoughts. LeFleur, John
Alvin, forty-five, white, male, five-foot-eleven, one hundred sixty pounds,
brown hair, blue eyes. No wants. No warrants. Criminal history: felony draft
evasion, 1971. Charges dropped. Possession for sale of Quaaludes in 1972. Two
years' probation. Timmy had
tapped into personnel records and Frederick skimmed LeFleur's employment
history: high school education, independent contractor, carpenter, bartender.
Before signing on with the Bureau of Land Management it didn't look as if the
man had ever held a job for longer than eighteen months running. Firefighting
was the one constant: summer '81, '82 and '83 with the Forest Service in
Colorado; '86, '87 and '89 on the Angeles in California; '91 and '93 with the
National Park Service at Rocky Mountains. Since 1993 he'd been a permanent
resource management technician with the BLM out of Farmington, New Mexico. A
GS-5, Frederick noted. No money in that. If the man's tastes ran to anything
grander than beans and rice he needed the fires to make ends meet. Nims, Leonard
Lynn, forty-three, white, male, five-foot-nine, one hundred fifty-eight pounds,
gray hair, blue eyes. No wants. No warrants. No criminal history. Served in
Vietnam in '71 and '72. Honorable discharge. Graduated with an AA in Forestry
from Lassen Junior College in 1977. Worked for the Bureau of Land Management in
Susanville, California, from '79 to '90. A GS-9. Stanton pulled
the map across his knees and looked up Susanville. On the edge of the desert
sixty or seventy miles south of Lassen Volcanic National Park was a small town
of that name. Lots of public lands surrounding it. Either a logging or mining
town, Stanton guessed. Since '93 Nims
had worked on oil and gas leases for the BLM in Farmington, New Mexico. A
GS-7's pay grade. There was a
story there. Frederick could smell it. Three years with no employment history,
then another job halfway across the country at a lower pay scale. It could be
as simple as moving home to care for an aging parent or a love affair that tore
up roots. But something. Nims was the
man with the knife in his ribs, Frederick reminded himself, and he reread the
file to cement it in memory. Unless Nims had been killed by a psychotic,
something he had seen, done, said, been or tried for had gotten him killed. If
the reason wasn't too obscure or too bizarre, Frederick would probably find it.
Professionally, he only struck out about fourteen percent of the time. In
baseball he'd have been a star. In law enforcement he was just a good cop,
better than most, not as good as some. But I'm not
above asking for help, he thought with a smile that was only a little bit
bitter. That's part of my charm. Pepperdine,
Hugh Clarence. Age twenty-three, white, male, six feet, two hundred fourteen
pounds. No wants. No warrants. No criminal history. Graduated cum laude from
New York University with a degree in Environmental Studies. New-hire law
enforcement ranger out of Aztec National Monument near Farmington, New Mexico. Frederick had
been to Aztec sightseeing after the Mesa Verde assignment. An Indian ruin and a
visitors' center on a small plot of land constituted the whole of it.
Delightful as it was to visit, he didn't imagine Hugh got much hands-on law
enforcement experience. Chipmunks in the garbage would constitute a crime wave
at the sleepy little ruin. Unless there was something that didn't show up on
his records, Pepperdine would probably be of little help to Anna. Short, Jennifer
Katherine. Stanton started to move her to the bottom of the pile because he
knew and liked her. Law officers had an aversion to believing someone they
thought well of could commit murder, wanting to believe that somewhere in their
heart of hearts they would know a murderer when they met one. Gut
instinct, training, intuition, insight—something would tip them off. Sometimes it
did. Sometimes it didn't. In a former incarnation—one he was none too proud
of—Frederick had invited a murderer to Thanksgiving dinner with his kids. Since
then he'd learned to bake the turkey himself. Shoving his reading
glasses closer to the tip of his nose, he studied Short's file. No wants. No
warrants. No criminal history. Graduated from Memphis State in accounting,
1985. From '85 to '94 she worked as a computer programmer for a local firm.
Summer of '94, having completed a one-semester course in law enforcement at
Memphis State, she was hired on as a seasonal law enforcement ranger at Mesa
Verde. Ran away with
the Park Circus, Frederick thought, and envied her slightly. Should wild urges
knock on his door, child support, alimony and tuition would see to it he sent
them packing. Black Elk,
Howard Lawrence. Thirty-one, Native American, male, six-foot-one, two hundred
ten pounds. No wants. No warrants. Criminal history: two driving under the
influences and one drunk and disorderly in 1986. Nothing since. Undergraduate
degree in archaeology from the University of New Mexico in 1989, master's
degree in history from the same institution in 1991. Black Elk had worked in
cultural resources for the Bureau of Land Management in Dove Creek, Colorado,
until the present time. Hayhurst,
Joseph Charles. Thirty-three, Native American, male, five-foot-seven, one
hundred fifty-two pounds. Black hair and eyes. No wants. No warrants. No
criminal history. Bachelor of Arts from San Francisco State in Renaissance art
history. Employment record: 1988—1990, high school art teacher in Los Gatos,
California. Summers with the NPS in Yosemite. 1990 to the present, Interpreter,
GS-7, for the National Park Service at El Malpais in New Mexico. Gonzales,
Lawrence David, Hispanic, male, twenty-two, five-foot-nine, one hundred sixty
pounds, black hair, brown eyes, high school graduate, A.D. Durango. Frederick
frowned in annoyance, then looked to the bottom of the page. Timmy, bless his
thorough and ambitious little heart, had penned in an explanation. An A.D. was
a direct hire, not through any agency, that was often used when fires were bad
and extra personnel were called for. Wants and
warrants. Frederick started out of the lethargy into which the sound of engines
and the small print of strangers' lives had lulled him. Gonzales was wanted in
Washoe County, Nevada, for aggravated assault, assault on a federal officer and
grand theft auto. According to the map, Reno was in Washoe County. Gonzales
might be dangerously nervous finding himself so close to home. Frederick set
the Gonzales file aside. Before he landed, he'd have Spinks do some more
checking. That in mind, he eyed the flat plastic AT&T phone outlet pressed
into the seat back in front of him. He'd never used one, never seen anyone else
use one. He hoped he wouldn't make a fool of himself when the time came. Lindstrom,
Stephen Marshal. White, male, twenty-seven, six-foot-two, one hundred
eighty-seven pounds. Criminal history: arrested 1989 for obstructing
traffic, fined and put on six months' probation. BS in biology from Nevada
State University, ski instructor at Tahoe winters 1989 to 1993, wilderness
guide for Outward Bound summers '89 to '93. 1993 to the present dispatcher for
the U.S. Forest Service out of Reno, Nevada. The two other
reports were slim. Neil Page wasn't on anybody's computer that Tim could find.
He'd been hired on locally. He had no record. The woman, Paula Mary Boggins,
had two previous arrests but since they'd been when she was a juvenile, the
records were sealed. Frederick
leaned his head back against the seat and closed his eyes, collecting his
thoughts. Newly acquired information was shuffled through his synapses like
cards through the hands of a contract bridge player. Categories and cross
references fell into place: LeFleur, Nims, Gonzales, Pepperdine, Short, Black
Elk and Hayhurst were from the Four Corners area. Close enough they could have
had contact before the fire. Lindstrom,
Nims, Gonzales, Hayhurst, Boggins and Page, and possibly Short because of her
brother, had a connection to northern California. Nims, Gonzales,
Short and Hayhurst fell into both geographical categories. In a field where
transience was a way of life—and many seasonals and firefighters led a nomadic existence—this
was not in itself suspicious. It was just more information and Stanton filed
it. There were two
questions about most murders: why was the victim killed and why was he killed
when he was killed? Anna might have some thoughts on that. Murder was such
a good icebreaker. He opened his
eyes. Anna's file, the only one left, was on his knee. Had his legs been six
inches shorter, he could have used his tray-table as a desk. With the new
"efficient" seating in the 727s, he couldn't fold it all the way down
without straddling the plastic tray. Pigeon, Anna
Louise, forty, white, female, five-foot-four, one hundred eighteen pounds,
brown hair, hazel eyes. Frederick remembered her hair as more red than brown
and, at a guess, would have said her eyes were blue. So much for the
credibility of eyewitnesses. No wants. No warrants. No criminal history. He was
relieved and laughed at himself, unsure of what he had expected. A Bachelor of
Arts in communications from the University of California. Seven years with the
National Park Service in Texas, Michigan and now Mesa Verde in southern
Colorado. That was it: no secrets, no insights. Closing his eyes again,
Stan-ton rested his hands on her file. He was a
father, a government bureaucrat—albeit one with a tad of glamour still attached
to his profession. He had a girlfriend of sorts—a woman he saw occasionally who
would probably consider herself a girlfriend. Jetting halfway
across a sleeping continent to save a damsel in distress struck him as
impulsive and not a little bit ridiculous. Particularly a damsel who may or may
not wish to be rescued by him and who would undoubtedly have the ill grace to
rescue herself before he could arrive triumphantly on the scene, spurs
jingling, armor flashing and whatever else men were required to jingle and
flash in these cynical times. Still he wasn't
sorry he'd started the quest. Opportunities to be a Fool for Love didn't come
along every day. Chapter Ten ANNA'S FISTS WERE clenched on the front of Lindstrom's brush jacket
and his were clamped around her neck, their hard hats jammed together like
mating turtles. Darkness was
absolute and breath hard to come by. Soot and ash, galvanized by the rising
winds, bonded with the air till it seemed a solid thing. Anna blessed LeFleur
for the loan of the goggles and hoped the man wasn't suffering too badly in
their absence. The kerchief she'd tied over the lower half of her face was so
impregnated with dirt it served more to slow particles than filter them out. The giant had
gone mad. Footsteps melded into a cacophony of cracks and falls like thunder.
The ground shook as ruined snags fell before the onslaught of wind. A dead
forest, black monoliths burned by the hundreds and thousands and hundreds of
thousands, many as tall as telephone poles, tons of charred wood and ash and
cinder, was toppling. Every time the pounding came near, Anna cringed, though
she knew she would never hear the one that crushed her. A crash came so
close it shook her insides. Chunks thrown from a shattered snag rained down in
a visible shower of sparks striking holes in the night. For an instant Anna
thought her eyes were playing tricks until points of fire pierced her cheek. Ponderosas that
had thrived on the flat-topped ridge, winter snows providing ample moisture and
nothing between them and the sky, were being taken down. Orange fireflies swept
by on the winds, battered against the metal. Pieces of burned debris, some
large enough to rattle the darkness with their passage, exploded into the storm
as the giants were felled. A convulsive
clutch cracked her hard hat against Lindstrom's as he jerked her to him. They
were cuddled as close against the engine block of the truck as the laws of
physics would allow, their legs pulled in, wrapped together. Anna's feet and
butt were so cold they hurt and her back ached from being crimped into a bow.
Muscles in her calves had begun cramping but she was afraid to stretch her
legs. Anything she stuck out was liable to get squashed. "It's the
end of the fucking world," Lindstrom hollered in her ear. "We've got
to get under this truck." Again the
ground shook. Anna pushed her face into the front of Lindstrom's jacket.
"You first," she said. "I may be
too big. You go. You're little and scrawny. I'll get as much of me under as
will fit. Go." Boggins's truck
rested on metal rims, the rubber of the tires lying in still-smoldering heaps.
Clearance between the undercarriage and the ground felt like eight or nine
inches—no more. Anna doubted she could squeeze beneath. A wrenching
blow from an airborne branch striking her right shoulder convinced her to try. She threw
herself back, shoulders on the ground, and tried to scoot along the edge of the
truck's shell. Cramped so long in one position, her legs refused to work. Her
feet felt as unresponsive and heavy as wooden blocks. Lindstrom was shoving
against whatever parts of her anatomy he could lay hands on in the dark, trying
to stuff her beneath the chassis. Pushing and
floundering brought pins and needles to her numbed limbs and, whining like a
lost kitten, she began to thrash through the ashes. Running had
always made her more afraid. Looking in closets and under beds for the bogeyman
seemed to make it almost a surety that, one day, he would be there. Fear, kept
at bay from pride or necessity, ripped through her as she squirmed under the
frame. Oblivious of the buttons on her jacket catching and bits of flesh
snagged away by sharp edges of metal, Anna writhed in a frenzy of terror. Then she was
under. The fit was tight. Something metal and round pushed down on her chest.
Darkness weighed heavily, even the small frightening relief of sparks was
denied her eyes. An old horror of small enclosed spaces crushed the air from
her lungs. A short segment of imagination's videotape played through her mind:
her bloodied fingers clawing at a coffin lid. It was right
out of a horror movie about premature burial she'd seen as a kid. Her mother
had told her it would give her nightmares. Absurdity watered down panic and she
willed herself to lie still and breathe deeply. Scrabbling at
her left elbow announced Lindstrom's attempt to join her and Anna was ashamed.
She'd forgotten Stephen utterly. In her privately constructed hell she would
have left him to die had that been the option. Once more she'd gotten lucky: human
frailty shown, no damage done. With the
crippling darkness and noise, it took her a moment to grasp what Stephen was
doing: digging, burrowing under. She almost laughed at the obviousness of it
and began pushing ash and duff, protected from the fire by the body of the
vehicle, away from her. Lying on her back she felt as helpless as an upended
beetle, but it wasn't long before enough of a trench had been excavated that
Stephen wormed his way in beside her. A jarring crash
robbed her of any voiced welcome. She felt his hand close over hers and they
lay together like frightened children as the remnants of a tree hailed down
around the truck. Beneath the
undercarriage the air was more breathable. Stretched flat, muscles uncramped,
blood began to flow and some of the awful cold went out of Anna's bones.
Conversation was impossible and she squeezed Lindstrom's hand to let him know
how glad she was to have his company. Not much time passed before she felt his
fingers relax, go limp. He was asleep or dead. Either way there was nothing she
could do about it. Exhaustion weighed down her limbs, her eyelids and the soft
stuff of her brain, but sleep would not come. The adrenaline cocktail mixed in
her blood held onto the edge of consciousness even as the body fought for rest. An idle mind is
the Devil's playground, Anna thought as she sensed renewed cavorting of demon
fear. To keep evil at bay, she tried to fill her skull with nontoxic thoughts:
Piedmont, her pumpkin-colored tiger cat; Molly, her sister in New York;
Frederick. Frederick brought with him the baggage of her husband, Zachary,
nearly eight years dead, and derailed that train. For a while she tried
clothes, food, sex, raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens, but they all
fell away and claustrophobia returned. Finally she
latched onto murder. Not a pleasant subject, but one sufficiently captivating
to hold her attention. And, since the death wasn't her own, heartening in its
own way. Anna was surprised at how little thought she had given Nims's slaying
and at long last understood how soldiers emotionally survived a war. Human
comprehension was finite. For each thing added, something had to be taken away.
Sometimes that something was grief, loss or fear, its place filled by the need
to take the next step, hurdle the next fence. Time passed,
shock was worn away with busyness. Leonard Nims's death was just a puzzle as
devoid of life as the corpse in the ravine. It provided the little gray cells
with something to do other than conjure horrors with which to annoy her adrenal
glands. Why should
anyone want to kill Leonard Nims? Without even reaching, Anna could think of
half a dozen reasons. If this had been the Orient Express and Nims the body
with the myriad wounds, the mystery would have been a lot simpler. Finding the
person who didn't want to off him would have been easier than sorting
through those with good reason in hopes of finding the one who was willing to
walk through fire to accomplish the task. Still, to crowd
out the Devil, Anna listed motives. LeFleur had fought with Len. Over what, she
wasn't sure, hut John had gotten a fat lip out of the deal. Nims had come in
with scratches. At the time Anna'd thought they'd come from a branch. In
retrospect, coupled with his surly manner, they may have been inflicted in some
altercation, maybe over a woman. He had expressed his hatred of women at the
time, at least those not "in their place." That was reason enough for
Anna to kill him. Maybe it was good enough for Jennifer as well. Paula Boggins
would probably find it sexy. Stephen, John,
Jennifer—any one of them might hold Hamlin's death against Nims. Anna doubted
the rest of the San Juans knew yet that Nims had dropped the boy's stretcher
and run. We all dropped
it and ran, she reminded herself. Hamlin's death was shared by the five of
them. Unless Len had caused the accident that broke Newt's leg. Who would have
known about that before the fire blew up? Black Elk. He
was a squad leader, LeFleur had called him down the line to help. If Anna had
been able to pick up on where the blame was being laid, Howard was sure to. He
was better versed in crew politics than she. Black Elk could have told Joseph
Hayhurst; there would have been time before the firestorm. Guilt could
move mountains, unhinge psyches. She, Short, Lindstrom and LeFleur must each in
some way feel responsible for Hamlin's death. Might the need to shift
blame—push a perhaps intolerable weight off onto another—be enough to justify
murder in someone's mind? Lindstrom could be unforgiving of those who failed to
measure up to his standards. Jennifer had been known to carry a grudge. Anna made a
mental note to see if anyone had been special friends with Newt Hamlin. That vein mined
out, she moved on to physical evidence. As an investigator, she'd pretty much
bollixed that. The crime scene had been so thoroughly contaminated, any good
defense lawyer could probably get a notarized confession found pinned to the
corpse with the murder weapon suppressed. I've had a lot
on my mind, she excused herself, and tried to bring the scene into focus. The
darkness was so unrelenting she wasn't sure if her eyes were open or closed and
she couldn't move her hand to her face to find out. Don't think
about that, she cautioned as panic reared its ugly head. She squeezed her lids
shut on the off chance they weren't. She was
lamentably bad about remembering names and faces but she was good with scenery.
Nims's murder scene fell into this category. Background came into focus first:
low hanging clouds, smoke, ragged black fingers poking at the sky, a manzanita
bush burned so fast and hot the perfect shapes of the leaves were still
embossed on the ash. The creek bank where a bit had fallen away, the simple
brown of earth looking alive and colorful in the gray landscape. Around the shelter
ash smoothed by the wind, no tracks but hers, LeFleur's and Lindstrom's. Sand.
The silver shelter so carefully erect and tidy. Anna stopped
the film there. The shelter was
textbook perfect, like the drawings of how a shelter should be deployed. She
remembered noting that at the time, being bothered. But events rushed on and
she'd not had time to analyze why. Nothing was textbook perfect. Though she'd
not had the opportunity to view her shelter from the outside, she expected it
was crushed and rumpled, not creased neatly along its little pup-tent spine,
corners all aligned. She'd seen Black Elk in his shelter. He looked like a
baked potato somebody had been using for a soccer ball. Ergo, whoever
killed Nims had neatly put the shelter up around the corpse after the
firestorm. Had it been earlier, the classic lines would have been mashed by the
elements. The murderer knifed Nims during the firestorm and exited the shelter
after the firestorm. A very mortal
human thing to do, Anna was relieved to note. Visions of a demonic creature of
flame and smoke darting about with a knife in its paws during the blowup were
exorcised. Considered in the light of reality, a commodity Anna felt had been
sorely compromised by nature over the past hours, the murderer had therefore to
enter the tent before the burn, remain inside with Nims, murder him, wait out
the storm with the corpse, then exit and reconstruct the tent. Cozy. Why would Nims
let anyone in his tiny shelter? He wouldn't, not even if their life depended on
it. He'd let them die as he had let Hamlin die. As they had all
let Hamlin die. Give it a rest,
Anna told herself sharply. Physical
evidence. Screwing her thoughts down tightly against stray emotions, she
contemplated blood: good, tangible, necessary blood. With a knifing there was
often an impressive amount of the stuff. She'd seen it on Nims and where else?
Page: Neil Page's shirtfront. He'd claimed nosebleed. Worth looking into. Jennifer. Her
left glove had been bloodied. She said she'd cut her hand. Something in Anna
was loath to consider Jennifer a suspect and she had to remind herself murder
was an equal opportunity employer. Jennifer was there when Len dumped Hamlin. Jennifer
had a brother just killed by fire. Under duress could she have slipped a mental
cog and plunged a knife between Nims's ribs? Literally if
not metaphorically the woman had blood on her hands. Worth looking into. Anna switched
on the mental video again and watched herself lift the edge of the shelter:
Nims's arm, the gloved hands; LeFleur shaking the tent like a housewife with a
dusty rug; Nims's body, tangled in the straps, tumbling into view. Anna stopped
the action there and tried to concentrate on the picture. At a crime
scene in a normal place she would have had at least the rudimentary
investigative tools at her disposal. A camera, for one. There were a number of
reasons to photograph a crime scene, not the least of which was that often,
after the dust had cleared and one viewed the event through the perspective of
the camera lens, details not noticed at the time became apparent. Holding the
image behind her eyes, Anna tried to do that now. Nims had been poured out of
the shelter on his side, left hand above his head, the right palm up near his
face. Anna tried to see if there was any expression but the soot that blackened
all their faces masked his as well. All she could recall was the startling
opalescence of his eyes. She tried to
see the entirety of the body: the right hand, the left—glove caked with
blood—hard hat knocked askew, yellow shirt, drab trousers, blood, brown and
crumbly on his back and left side beneath his arm. The picture
wavered, disintegrating under so much scrutiny. There was
something wrong but Anna wasn't seeing it. Tomorrow—or today, she had lost all
sense of time—she would make a proper study of the scene. At the moment the
adrenaline had been reabsorbed and her body was claiming its right to rest. She
drifted into sleep so deep and hard even dreams were shut out. Chapter Eleven ANNA WOKE FROM a nightmare and tried to sit up. Metal held her
flat. Dream became reality. She was suffocating, life was being crushed out of
her. Desperately, she began fighting for space and air. "You're
okay. You're okay. You're under a truck. I'm here. God damn it, Anna, cut it
out!" Stephen
Lindstrom tweaked her ear hard and she began to put two and two together. The
sum was not much more comforting than the nightmare had been. But there was
light at long last and where there was light there was hope. Faint gray
pushed in around the sides of the truck's under-carriage but there was nothing
to see: no stumps or ash, burned rubber; nothing but blank even-toned
gray-white with light behind it. "Snow?"
she croaked through dry lips. "Not much.
I poked my fingers out. Maybe six inches or so. It kept us snug as the
proverbial rug bugs." Anna realized
she wasn't terribly cold. The earth and the metal chassis had retained some
heat from the fire. Snow had held it close overnight. "Probably the only
reason we woke up at all," she said. Freezing to death in a fire would
have been just the touch of irony the gods delighted in. "I've got
to get out of here." Long hours—even those free from consciousness—of
suppressing the claustrophobia were over. Now that she could escape, it became
imperative that she do so. Working through the shooting pains in her hips and
shoulders, she forced the joints through their first movement in God knew how
long, crabbing her way from under the truck. Snow broke
free, fell in clumps down the collar of her brush jacket, jammed up under the
edge of her gloves. The bite of cold brought Black Elk and Boggins to mind.
Their burns would weep, robbing their bodies of fluid, of heat, opening the
door to shock and hypothermia. Nothing she
could do about it at the moment. She took a
mouthful of snow and held it on her tongue, letting the melt wet her parched
throat and lips. Shuffling her feet and swinging her arms to pump life back
into them, she watched Lindstrom crawl painfully from beneath the truck, his
left glove clutched in his bare hand. Elbows out, body flattened, he put her in
mind of a giant insect in a Jules Verne novel, something trapped in lava,
released by the fires. Oddly, it made
her nervous and she looked away. The world was
much changed from when they'd gone under the truck. Like Rip Van Winkle, it
seemed as if she must have slept for a hundred years. What had been a world of
black was now so white it was hard to distinguish between hill and hollow. A
white sky, sifting fine flakes of snow through utterly still air, pressed down
on snow-shrouded ground. Here and there the black skeletal arm of a tree thrust
up, often capped with a rakish point of snow. Tree trunks, ten, twenty, a
hundred feet long, were scattered like jackstraws, crisscrossing each other in
ragged confusion. Nowhere was
there any color; not a scrap of green or yellow or brown or blue. Even the
red-orange of stray embers was quenched, replaced by steam as colorless as
everything else. What had once been a living forest, a kaleidoscope of life and
color, now resembled a Chinese brush painting. Black ink on white rice paper;
starkly beautiful but without welcome. Lindstrom
pushed himself to his hands and knees and Anna grabbed an arm to help him to
his feet. "Did we die?" he asked, yanking his glove on with jerky
irritated movements. "I'm pretty sure we did. God, but I feel hung over.
What a bender we must have been on." He began to imitate Anna's shuffling
dance, moving with the clumsy inexperience of a new-made Frankenstein's
monster. "Not dead," he said after a moment. "Got to pee. Ghosts
moan and rattle chains but I've never heard of one taking a piss. My, but this is
good news." Anna obligingly
turned her back. It was the one instance in life where she credited Freud's
much-touted theory of penis envy. With the snow and the cold she didn't relish
the dropping of drawers that was becoming more necessary with each passing
minute. "Bet you
wish you had a handy-dandy picnic device," Stephen said. Anna heard the
workings of a zipper and turned back. "My wish list is longer than Santa's
at the moment. A bath, breakfast, pancakes, coffee—" "Cut that
out." "Right."
Anna pulled the radio from her belt and turned it on. Hand-helds worked on
clamshell batteries. They weren't meant to run indefinitely. When it came down
to it, she could cannibalize the batteries from her headlamp but she doubted
they had much more juice in them than those in the radio. Static pulsed
as she monkeyed with the volume and the squelch. "Damn." "Losing
it?" She nodded and
placed a call to Base. Nothing came back but static. "What time is
it?" she asked. "Just
before six." "They're
up. We'll try again when the weather lifts or maybe with another radio." "Anna."
Her radio crackled the name in LeFleur's voice. "We're
still alive," she told the crew boss. "Howard? Paula?" "Everybody
made it down here. Lawrence and Joseph kept the home fires burning. They're
beat." Anna could hear the pride in his voice. "I heard your call to
Base. Any response?" "Not
yet." "Sounds
like your battery is going. Save it when you can. What kind of shape are you
two in?" Anna looked to
Lindstrom and he shrugged. "Good. We're in good shape." "Could you
check on Newt? It's a long shot, but if..." "I'd
forgotten all about Newt," Stephen said in a stricken whisper. So had Anna. "Will
do," she replied. If Hamlin had survived the fire only to die of exposure
because of their neglect it would be unconscionable. There were enough bad
dreams to go around as it was. HAMLIN WASN'T ONLY merely dead, but, as Anna
couldn't help parroting Munchkinlike in her mind, really most sincerely dead. They brushed
off enough of the snow to determine that the lump beneath was indeed a human
form. During the firestorm his shelter had blown off. The body was burned till
it was unrecognizable. Fire had robbed
the corpse of all the trappings of life: hair and flesh and eyes. There was no
odor but the clean, slightly acrid scent of dust and Anna didn't find the body
as upsetting as she'd feared she might. In fact, she was strangely untouched by
it personally, feeling rather a generic sadness for those left living who had
loved the boy. Mostly, as she
and Lindstrom slogged back up through the snow, climbing over downed snags
heaped together like pickup sticks, Anna's strongest feeling was of hunger. Life
asserting its dominion. After a grilled cheese, fries and a vanilla shake she
would be better fortified to contemplate the great beyond. From the ridge
she radioed John and told him the news. It was expected. "Thanks" was
all he said, and: "Had to make sure. Try Base again," he told her.
"Meanwhile, I'll get another radio up to you. Pepperdine needs airing off
anyway." Anna called
Incident Base again. The Motorola bleated static and she was surprised to hear
Gene Burwell's voice rasp back. His words were
hard to understand and harder still to accept. Winds had felled snags across
the logging road. How many miles he didn't know, but estimated the burn had
covered at least four. The ground rescue unit had been recalled. Crews were
already clearing away the deadfall but trees had come down by the hundreds.
Weighted by six inches of new wet snow, more were falling all the time.
Conditions were hazardous and the going slow. A helicopter was on standby. As
soon as there was a break in the weather it would be dispatched. Till then the
crews would keep on working but rescue by road wouldn't be that day. Possibly
the next. Disappointment,
as strong and petulant as that of a child, swelled in Anna's chest and she had
to keep her mouth shut to avoid saying something snippy. "The
weather will lift before then," Burwell promised. "Does he
think he's Willard Fucking Scott?" Lindstrom hissed. Stephen's pique
helped Anna rise above her own. "We're fairly stable up here,
considering," she shouted into the radio as if volume could cut through
the interference. "Hungry mostly." "Stand
by." A long silence
followed and Anna felt herself irrationally wishing for a reprieve. "Maybe the
cavalry arrived," Stephen said hopefully, and Anna laughed. "My
thoughts exactly. Not bloody likely. The cavalry's out clearing deadfall." "Spoilsport." The radio came
to life again in a series of squawks and hisses. "Anna, this is Frederick,
Frederick Stanton of the FBI." If Anna had
believed in prayer and believed they got answered she would have had to admit
that at least this once the answer had been "yes." A hundred
questions came to mind. The need to bawl and babble like a child threatened to
overwhelm. Frederick Stanton. Anna's throat
closed and her eyes filled with tears. When she'd been
in second grade, she'd broken her leg in a sledding accident at school. Brave
and jaunty, she'd allowed herself to be towed in from the playground and
carried to Mr. White's big oak desk. Then, when her mother arrived, she'd
dissolved in tears. Because she could afford to. "Ten-four,"
she said idiotically. "Are you
clear to copy?" "Yes,"
Anna said, wanting his voice to go on. By the time it
dawned on her that "Are you clear to copy?" was NPS code for "Is
the bad guy standing there ready to clobber you the moment his cover is
blown?" the damage had been done. Chapter Twelve STANTON FINISHED RELAYING the criminal histories from Timmy Spinks's
background checks. "Anything more to transmit?" Anna asked politely.
Receiving a negative, she made arrangements to call in every three hours and
turned off her radio to preserve what was left of the battery. Depression
settled over her in a palpable cloud, filling her lungs as surely as the smoke
had. Safety, home, was held only by a tenuous channel forged through unstable
air by a wave it took faith to believe existed. Withdrawal, Anna thought: the
high, the crash. Hope and cocaine. Any comfort
she'd gotten from the first strains of Frederick Stanton's voice was blasted
away. Suddenly, irrationally, she was angry at the man. Trundling through the
friendly skies with hot and cold running stewardi, warm dry clothes and food,
to broadcast criminal histories up to her private patch of purgatory. Trapped on a
ridge in the Cascades, one did not wish to know one's fellows that well. Untold
secrets were the safest. Anna would keep her eyes open, learn what she could.
None but a lunatic, armed with only a Swiss Army knife, her backup a grieving
seasonal and a pudgy neophyte, would go hammer and tongs after a murderer. Knowing would be
dangerous. Not knowing
would be worse. Stephen was
standing close, shoulders hunched, his hands deep in his pockets, looking as
forlorn as Anna was feeling. "I really, truly, deeply, honestly want to
get the fuck out of here," he said morosely. "I promised God I'd
never put my peas on my brother's plate and tell Mom I'd eaten mine if He'd
just get me an Egg McMuffin this one time." Anna laughed.
"Obstructing traffic? I can't remember if that's a venial or a mortal sin.
We're probably all being punished for your transgressions." "He didn't
mention indecent exposure, did he?" Anna shook her
head. "They must
have dropped that charge." "I wish
I'd seen the booking photos." For a moment
they stood staring at their feet. Soot-covered boots had trampled the snow into
a gritty pack. Anna's toes were growing cold and the heat she'd generated on
the expedition to find Hamlin had turned to a fine sheen of sweat rapidly
chilling her skin. Without food it would become increasingly difficult to stay
warm. A furnace had to have fuel to burn. "Damn
it." She kicked a grubby clod of snow. "Fuck,"
Lindstrom said, and kicked it a second time. "Validating your
feelings." Anna nodded
absently. "Things
are looking pretty grim for our intrepid band of adventurers, are they
not?" "Fair to
middlin' grim," Anna agreed. "It sounds like we may be stuck here at
least another twenty-four hours, maybe more." "Unless
I'm given absolution for obstructing." "And
flaunting. So long as the snow lasts water is not a problem. No food, fear,
cold, Dr. Death sleazing around in everybody's mind." "Exposure,"
Lindstrom said. "Shock." "Pudding,
Barnaby, pudding!" Lindstrom
looked alarmed, then concerned as he studied Anna for incipient signs of
insanity. It annoyed her.
"The Matchmaker," she snapped. "Hello Dolly. 'Pudding'
was the code word agreed upon so the boy from Yonkers would know when he was
having a bona fide adventure. This is an adventure." "What
tipped you off?" "Extreme
discomfort." Anna shook free of self-pity, a physical act marked by a shrug
and a shudder. "We're going to be fine. We focus on keeping everybody
warm, hydrated and calm. That's all we've got to do." "I've got
a barn! We could turn it into a burn ward!" Lindstrom said
in such a wonderful imitation of Andy Hardy Anna felt an uncharacteristic surge
of optimism. "Hey! Hey,
you guys! I've been trying to reach you on the radio for five minutes."
Hugh Pepperdine lumbered through the snow, his face red and gleaming with
sweat. On his back was his yellow pack. "What do you bet he's
got food in it?" Lindstrom said. "Failing
that we could always eat him," Anna replied. Gasping for
air, Pepperdine came up beside them. "You gotta monitor your radio."
He cocked a finger pistol-like at Anna. "You ought to know that." Hugh was having
way too much fun handing out advice and it crossed Anna's mind to snub him but
she didn't. She was too hungry, too tired and too cranky. A snub might set off
a chain reaction she'd regret. "Saving batteries," she said
pleasantly. Hugh pulled a
radio from the pocket of his brush jacket. "Confiscated this from Howard.
He's not law enforcement. I heard Base," he puffed. "I was about
halfway up the hill. You should have waited till I got here. Didn't you hear
him ask if you were clear to copy?" Pepperdine elaborately avoided looking
at Lindstrom. This was secret cop stuff. Anna was
irritated on two counts: one, he was right, and two, he was Pepperdine.
"What makes you think I'd've been clear to copy with you listening?" Hugh ignored
that. "What are we going to do about Gonzales? I've had my eye on him. I
knew something was hinky. Assault on a federal officer. I go to the mat for my
people." Hot air pumped
Pepperdine's ego with each word. He literally puffed up, the chest going out,
the belly in. "Nothing,"
Anna said flatly. She waited a moment for that to soak in. When Pepperdine
opened his mouth to argue, she said again: "Nothing. We are not going to
do anything. We are going to stay warm and dry and calm. We will be polite and
helpful and when we get out of here Lawrence Gonzales will be the county
sheriff's problem." Hugh looked
appalled. "He assaults a federal officer, murders Len and we're supposed
to look the other way. That's pretty shoddy police work, Anna. Gonzales could
just walk out of here anytime." "That's
right. And we don't know if he had anything to do with Nims." Anna was
trying to drill some kind of sense into Hugh Pepperdine but had the feeling she
was making no headway. Armed with a little information against his fellows and
a little authority from the badge at home on his dresser, Pepperdine was
learning that power corrupts. "I think
we ought to arrest the dude." Dude. Anna
doubted Hugh had ever used the word before in his life. He seemed fairly
pleased with the effect until Lindstrom echoed "Dooo-oowd" in
diphthong-laden valley speak. "Arrest
him with what?" Anna asked reasonably. "And do what with him? Tie him
to a snag with our belts? Lawrence may not want to be arrested. Have you got
some sort of black-belt, kung-fu training I don't know about? We've been
working, sleeping and eating with the guy for two weeks. Nobody seems to have
suffered overmuch." "Nims,"
Pepperdine said. "We don't
know that. Leave sleeping dogs lie. And give Howard his radio back." Pepperdine
hugged the Motorola protectively against his chest. "Howard's not law
enforcement. It's just you and me." "Jennifer's
law enforcement," Lindstrom pointed out. "She
hasn't been to FLETC," Hugh snapped. FLETC was the
Federal Law Enforcement Training Center in Georgia where all permanent law enforcement
rangers with the National Park Service went for training. Pepperdine was so
fresh from its hallowed halls he was going to be a major pain in the ass. Anna
suppressed a sigh. "We'll
work things out," she said. "You want a radio? Take mine." Forgetting his
trek up the hill had been to replace the radio with the dying battery, he
snatched it eagerly, as if it was somehow invested with special authority.
Immediately he switched it on and stowed it in his pocket. Anna clicked off the
one she'd traded for, saving the battery. When the three
of them reached the wash, Anna told Stephen and Hugh to inform the others of
the rescue efforts, cautioned Hugh to keep his mouth shut about the background
checks and excused herself to do "girl things." She wanted another
look at the body. ANNA ROCKED BACK on
her heels and sat quietly in the snow. Flakes, fine as silt, continued to drift
from the air, more as if they were formed from the matrix of fog than falling
from a distant cloud. Light was evenly spread, air and snow uniformly glowing.
There were no shadows. The shelter
they'd used to cover Leonard Nims's body had been disturbed, the snow shaken
off when the aluminum cloth had been peeled back. Someone had been messing with
the corpse. Anna surmised
someone rather than something not because all animals had perished in the
fire—many would have survived—but because there were heavy, human, fire-booted
tracks. They neatly skirted a car-sized boulder in the stream bed as if this
obvious sidetrack could obscure their origin. The trail came from the bivouac,
stomped around the body and returned the way it had come. Something had
been removed or something added to the scene: incriminating evidence taken or
misleading evidence planted. Cop-thinking, Anna realized. The obvious was more
human and mundane: curiosity. Somebody just wanting to see the dead guy. Cheap
thrills. The fact that she'd said the corpse was not to be visited
notwithstanding. Who was she? Some lady EMT with the word "Security"
typed in after her name on her red-dog, the term used to describe the pink
paper firefighters' time was recorded on. Out here the trappings of rank were
stripped away. Nature was a great equalizer. By the look of
the drift in the tracks, they were several hours old. More than that Anna
couldn't tell. Everyone but Paula wore fire boots. The tracks looked too big to
be Jennifer's but Anna wouldn't even swear to that. Having learned
all she could from the outside, Anna moved to unveil the body. Nims had been
dead sixteen to eighteen hours. With rigor mortis and the cold, his body was
stiff as a board. Where it wasn't black, the skin was a dirty gray. Len's right
cheek was dark and mottled. Blood, no longer moved by his heart, had settled in
postmortem lividity. The blue eyes were still open hut the orbs had begun to
dry and they no longer had that startling brightness. Anna tried to close the
lids with a gentle sweep of her hand the way she'd seen it done in a thousand
movies but they wouldn't stay down. She found herself pressing too hard, felt
tissue give beneath her fingers and made herself stop. With the cold,
the hunger, the isolation, a scary edge was being neared. That place where
nightmares and reality become indistinguishable. They were all somewhere in the
neighborhood of that chasm. Some closer than others. Anna rocked back on her
haunches, made herself look away from the body and let the peaceful desolation
of the landscape calm her febrile mind. There were
times it was not good to be too much alone, she thought, and wished she'd made
Stephen come with her. At length her
brain settled and she pushed on. The footprints
were most plentiful behind Nims's right shoulder and slightly to the rear. Anna
moved to stand in the same place, leaned down and rolled the corpse back and
toward her. It came up all of a piece and was surprisingly heavy. Sand beneath
the body was compressed into the shape of chest and limbs as if Nims had tried
to squeeze himself into the earth to escape the fire or his assailant. A thin
layer of ice had formed where the body's heat, leached out slowly in the hours
after death, had melted blown snow. Nims should have been frozen to the ground
but whoever had stood here before had rolled the corpse up just as she was
doing and rifled the pockets of the shirt. The button flaps were undone and the
fabric pulled away from the body where ice had once adhered it to the flesh. Since Anna had
failed to search the corpse when they'd first found it, she could only surmise
something had been taken rather than left. Cursing herself for a fool, she made
a careful search of the body. Compass in the left shirt pocket. Right pocket
empty. Len carried a leather knife sheath on his belt beneath his left arm. The
sheath was empty. Dollars to doughnuts the knife was in his ribs, Anna thought.
The handle of the weapon was of metal with holes cut out either for weight or
style. By the size of the hilt and sheath, the blade was close to six inches
long. Judging from the angle, the point of the weapon had been driven into the
heart. There were no signs of a struggle. Nims's trouser
pockets yielded nothing of a telling nature: lint, Chap Stick, gum, a spare
handkerchief. Somewhere along the line he'd shed his yellow pack—probably as he
fled the fire— but the square canvas envelope that housed his fire shelter was
still on his webbed belt. The snap was
closed and it struck Anna as peculiar. She was willing to bet there wasn't a
person among them who'd taken the time to resnap the case after deploying their
shelter. She opened it and looked inside, not sure what, if anything, she
expected to find. It was empty but for a handful of crumbs. On a hunch she put
one on the tip of her tongue: a cookie crumb. A number of things fell into
place. When Anna returned to their bivouac she would count the shelters but she
knew there would be only eight. Nims might not
share his shelter to save another's life but not everyone was so single-minded.
In the 1980s, Anna remembered, winds had snatched a fire shelter from a man's
hands. His buddy had made him lie beneath him, sharing his own shelter. Both
men survived. The crumbs in
Len's shelter envelope: too lazy to carry the added weight of the aluminum
tent, he had probably jettisoned it in favor of extra food. Just as nature was
about to cull the idiot from the gene pool, someone had taken pity and let Nims
into their shake 'n' bake. That would account for the deep depression in the
sand beneath the corpse. Someone had lain on top of him. Why save a
man's life at the risk of one's own just to stick a knife between his ribs?
Surely it would be simpler to let him burn to death? No investigation, no
prosecution; just one little secret to carry to the grave. Unless Len
forced himself on his benefactor. No signs of a
struggle, Anna reminded herself. With the firestorm bearing down it would have
required utmost cooperation to survive. An impulse
killing, then. Something had happened in the shelter during the storm that had
caused savior to turn executioner, driving Nims's own knife into his heart. Anna remembered
trying to breathe, to think, not to think, to remember the pledge of allegiance
and keep her pinky fingers from being roasted. She doubted she could have
focused on anybody else long enough to bother killing them. She pulled the
shelter back over the corpse. Nims's left hand with the blood-encrusted glove
protruded from beneath the covering, reaching out as if for help. Anna grabbed
the thumb and pulled. The glove slipped from the dead hand. She remembered
noting when he'd come to the medical tent how small his feet were. His hands,
too, were delicate and well formed. On a corpse they were unpleasantly human,
touching. Anna wished she could tuck the hand under the tarp but it would mean
breaking the arm and she wasn't up for that. Feeling she'd done something
irreverent, she tugged the glove back in place. The bloody
glove argued against the instantaneous death other factors pointed to. To soak
the glove so completely, Nims must have grabbed at the knife as it went in.
Anna tried reaching her left armpit with her left hand. It was devilishly
awkward but in great pain or fear might have been accomplished. Having weighted
the shelter with rocks once again, she followed the path of the grave robber
back to where the others waited by the boulder. The shelter
LeFleur had rigged was surprisingly cozy and Anna had a strange sense of hearth
and home when she saw the familiar faces. Paula had been
dressed in a spare fire shirt and wool trousers someone had had the foresight
to stuff into their yellow pack— Black Elk, by the size of the clothes. And
Anna recognized a pair of her own blue wool rag socks on the girl's feet.
Lindstrom was sitting close, jollying her, and she was laughing. Better
medicine still. Howard Black Elk leaned against the boulder, eyes closed. He'd
gone a bit gray around the mouth. Though he was a strong man, his injuries were
taking a severe toll. The fire pit
was well stocked with embers and Joseph Hayhurst had converted helmets into
vessels to hold snowmelt. While Anna approved the Apache's enterprise it depressed
her slightly. It was an admission they might be there awhile. Pepperdine was
haranguing John LeFleur about posting twenty-four-hour watches. The crew boss's
mouth was clamped shut and his eyes fixed beyond the younger man's shoulder. Back to the
others, Jennifer sat staring out at the nothing peeling away above the creek
bank. Her eyes were hooded, unseeing, and Anna knew she was at as much or more
risk than the two burn victims. Most people at some time in their lives lose the
will to live for a minute, n day, a week. It was possible Short's survival
instinct had chosen the wrong place and time to abandon her. Pepperdine saw
her approach and turned from LeFleur to what he clearly hoped would be a more
sympathetic ear. "Gonzales is gone." His tone made it clear he
considered Anna to be at fault. "I told you we should've radioed
John." He hadn't but
she let that pass. "Hey, John, what's Hugh been telling you?" "Gonzales
went to take a dump," LeFleur said bluntly. "Barney's got a problem
with that, I guess." "He's
gone," Pepperdine insisted. "Looks
like Neil's gone too," Anna said mildly. "Nature
calls," Hayhurst put in, "and man answers. I kind of envy their
regularity." Hugh looked
from Anna to John and back again. "I think somebody ought to go bring him
in," he insisted. Color had come up in his fat cheeks and he was balling
his fists. "Suit yourself,"
Anna said and, sitting down, pulled her wet gloves off to warm her fingers over
the embers. A high
ululating wail, like a child in terrible pain or a man in an extremity of fear,
cut through the bickering. Little hairs on Anna's neck began to prickle and she
could feel adrenaline pumping into her overtaxed system. No one spoke.
Paula clutched the sleeve of Stephen's jacket and Jennifer pushed a palm to her
lips as though to stifle a scream rising in her own throat. Again the cry
came, high and clear and cutting to the bone. Paula began to whimper. "Gonzales—"
Pepperdine began. "Shut the
fuck up." Lindstrom. Silence, deep and awful, followed. "Want to
go see what it is?" LeFleur asked, and for the first time Anna heard a
quaver in the man's voice. "Not
particularly," she returned. Again the cry. This time
something cut it short. Chapter Thirteen DAWN NEVER BROKE. With fog and drizzling snow the quality of the
light never changed. Impatience gnawed at Frederick's innards like the Spartan
boy's stolen fox, but he bore it less heroically. Gene Burwell, a well-groomed
man of Santalike girth and facial hair, was patient and understanding. Stanton
realized it took a true gentleman to ignore his fidgeting. Incident Base
was still surrounded by statuesque ponderosa and fir, the manzanita still
green. Snow gave the scene a holiday feel; white drifts on evergreen needles.
But for two crews with six sawyers, the camp was devoid of the one thousand
souls who had called it home for the last couple of weeks. A low-boy with
a D-8 Cat had been dispatched from the Forest Service office out of Chester, a
logging town twenty miles to the south. Seven miles down highway from Base a
helicopter sat at ready, fueled and loaded, with two EMTs standing by. Burwell,
Stantori and Lester Treadwell, a lean, wiry man in his fifties who was in
charge of clearing the deadfall, had taken a four-wheel drive truck up the
logging road toward spike camp as soon as it had gotten light. The first few
miles were clear, then the road turned along the side of a mountain and wound
up through the black—part of the burn left by the Jackknife. There they'd had
to stop. Charred snags from a foot in diameter to some grand old trees that
must have measured eight or ten feet across and a hundred feet long had blown
down in countless numbers. The road and the land surrounding were crosshatched
with black. Logs tumbled like windblown straw lay in a tangled mat. Even a man
on horseback couldn't pick a path through the devastation. Cigarette
dangling from his lips, Lester Treadwell stomped around muttering, his grizzled
hair sticking out from beneath his hard hat where he'd pushed it back on his
bony skull in a frenzy of thinking. "These're big boys," he said.
"There'll be fire in 'em for a couple days. Hell on saw blades. Keeps
things interesting though. Six sawyers. I'll send them up to cut anything looks
like it'll bind." For Stanton's benefit he explained that downed trees,
piled like these were, created strange tensions. When cut there was always a
danger of one of those tensions being released too suddenly and part of a tree
snapping loose and killing or injuring the sawyer. "That'll
get us started but we need heavy metal. With that D-8 Cat we'll push this mess
aside," Treadwell said. "How
long?" Frederick asked. "A D-8'll
push a lot of weight," Lester said, flicking a spent cigarette and pausing
to light another. "It's a hell of a machine. We can clear a mile a day
easy." Burwell had
estimated four to six miles of the road fell within the black. Frederick rubbed
his forehead, knocking the borrowed hard hat askew. He hadn't asked Anna if she
was hurt. She hadn't reported any injuries to herself but then she might not.
He found himself thinking how small she was. Though she carried herself like
John Wayne, she was only five-four. No fat to keep her warm. Unless the
weather broke, it would be four to six days until help could be gotten to the
stranded firefighters, to Anna. Cloud cover kept temperatures from dropping
much below the mid-twenties, but without food and shelter it would be a rugged
few days. Perhaps deadly. Especially for a crew harboring a scorpion in its
bosom. "Up higher
the fuel load's not so thick," Burwell said kindly. "It'll go faster
the higher we get." Frederick noted
the man's concern and knew he wore his heart on his sleeve. Stanton was being
obvious and he didn't like being obvious. "We'll get
cracking," Treadwell said. Frederick had
never handled a chainsaw in his life and Tread-well wasn't going to let him
start now. Stanton knew Occupational Safety and Health Administration
regulations as well as anyone; still he chafed at the enforced inaction till
Treadwell took pity and signed him on as a swamper. For two hours
he dragged and rolled chunks of burned timber bucked up small enough it could
be muscled clear of the road. Stanton's office-softened hands blistered. His
back and shoulders ached. Time and again he had to leave a log for the other swamper
because he hadn't the strength to shift it without help. It had been
years since he had felt like a ninety-eight-pound weakling. As he'd moved up in
the organization, his mind and what amounted to a passion for detail had
brought him honors. Brain over brawn, the pen over the sword. He couldn't even
bench press his I.Q. Shortly after
nine a.m. Stanton's impatience,
though still alive and well, had been tempered by hard physical labor. Nearly
three hours of it had cleared less than fifty yards of road. Exhaustion brought
with it some clarity of thought and he knew he would prove more useful in the
less manly pursuits and wondered at himself for waxing so hormonal over a woman
he'd known only a short while and kissed only twice. Making his
excuses, he borrowed an all-terrain vehicle from the incident commander and
followed the logging road down to Base. The Command tent, Communications and
Time Keeping kept the home fires burning. Portable space heaters powered by a
generator in the back of a semi-truck trailer held winter at bay. Frederick was
doubly glad of the warmth and fresh coffee. Glad for his chilled and tired body
and glad, in a moment of pure unreflective selfishness, that it was not he who
huddled hungry in a wash. While he drank
his coffee, thick with Cremora and three spoons of sugar, he allowed himself a
small pleasant fantasy:
warming Anna's square capable hands between his own,
massaging feeling gently back into her little feet. Residual hormones kicked
in, heating the dream too rapidly, and he shelved it. The time would come, he
promised himself, when he could afford the luxury of distraction. Four phones
were hooked up in the Communications tent. Frederick took over one line to
begin a series of calls. A spark of envy burned him as he thought of the
wide-shouldered men with leathered faces running chainsaws and bulldozers and
he quashed a sophomoric image of himself, newly Paul Bunyan—like, scooping a
grateful Anna from the jaws of death. Think,
Frederick, he told himself. Think. It's what you're good at. Nine-forty
California time. Ten-forty in New Mexico; he would start with the Bureau of
Land Management in Farming-ton. One
receptionist and one bum steer later he was talking with Henry Valdez, the head
of the gas and oil leasing program for the three million acres of federal gas
and oil reserves in New Mexico and southern Colorado. Stanton was
winging it. Without visiting the murder scene, viewing the corpse, interviewing
the suspects or examining the physical evidence, he was at a distinct
disadvantage. Anna would have to find out how it was done, who had means and
opportunity. Motive was the only angle he could pursue. Until something that
smelled like a lead turned up, he decided on the simple expedient of gathering
information. As much as he could get. Valdez sounded
genuinely sorry to hear of Nims's death. Whether he personally liked the man or
whether because the wheels of the Office of Personnel Management ground so
painstakingly slow Nims's position would go unfilled for six months, Frederick
couldn't tell. Henry Valdez
was disappointing, at least in terms of giving up personal information on his
employees. Clearly the man disliked gossip and had little imagination where his
fellow mortals were concerned. Nims was a good worker, well liked by most of
the Bureau's oil and gas lessees. He was an avid hunter and fisherman and on
good terms both professionally and personally with his clients. Valdez was more
forthcoming about the nuts-and-bolts aspects of Nims's job. Nims did the
Environmental Impact Statements for proposed wells or the extension of leases
on already existing wells. His background was in forestry but he'd acquired a
solid understanding of geology. Whether Nims
was liked by his co-workers, Valdez didn't feel he was in a position to say. He
was also not in a position to say why Nims had left the BLM in Susanville,
California, to accept a position three years later at a lower pay grade. He did
volunteer that, though it wasn't common practice, neither was it rare. Often
government employees left to try their hand in the private sector or
transferred because of personality conflicts. What
personality conflicts? Valdez wasn't
in a position to say. Frederick
scribbled down a few notes and moved on to John LeFleur. Valdez seemed
more than happy to gossip about the crew boss and Stanton guessed either his
earlier reticence sprang from a sincere attachment to Nims or his sudden
forthcoming attitude bespoke a pointed dislike of LeFleur. According to
Henry Valdez, John LeFleur was a dog in the manger. Always discontent with his
lot and jealous of those around him. A dinosaur, Valdez called him, a man still
crying because the college boys got promoted faster, because a man could no
longer start in the mail room and become CEO. LeFleur had the firebug, he told
Stanton. With some it's like an addiction. All John wanted to do was fight
fire. He was getting too old to work the line but lacked the organizational and
people skills to move up into overhead and hated anybody who did. That smelled like
the lead Stanton had been sniffing around for. "What about Nims?" he
asked. "Did LeFleur hate him?" "Hate
might be laying it on a bit thick," Valdez said. "But they don't get
along. John thinks Len gets all the breaks—that old song and dance. John just can't
face up to the fact he's not manager material and never will be." "Were he
and Nims in competition for the same jobs, promotions, any of that kind of
thing?" "John may
have thought they were for the fire management officer position we've got
opening up, but John never had a snowball's chance in hell of getting it." "Does he
have a snowball's chance with Nims dead?" Frederick asked bluntly. A moment's
silence deadened the line. "A snowball's chance," Valdez said
carefully. "But only just." Frederick thanked
the man and hung up. On a yellow notebook he'd begged from Time Keeping he
wrote MOTIVES. LeFleur's was weak at best but perhaps the man didn't know that.
If he believed Nims was all that stood between him and professional advancement
it would suffice. Especially if a golden opportunity was dropped in his lap. Under MOTIVES
Stanton scribbled "JL firebug bites Nims" in a galloping hand. Howard Black
Elk's supervisor was out sick. No one answered the phone at the number either
Paula Boggins or Neil Page left and neither had filled in the box under
"Previous Employer." The head of dispatch at Forest Service
headquarters in Reno, Nevada, Stephen Lindstrom's boss, wouldn't be in the
office until after lunch. The Washoe County sheriff's Office couldn't tell Frederick
any more about Lawrence Gonzales than Spinks had already uncovered but promised
to do some digging and call him back. No one answered the phone at all at Aztec
National Monument where Hugh Pepperdine was purported to work. Estelle Parker,
the superintendent at El Malpais National Monument in New Mexico, was only too
happy to talk. She didn't even pretend she had more pressing matters to attend
to. She had been instrumental in hiring Joseph Hayhurst, she said, and was
proud to have him on her staff. Words ticked out with the smooth assuredness of
a paid political announcement. Superintendent Parker mentioned Hayhurst's
Apache heritage three times and Frederick began to wonder if she thought he had
something to do with the Equal Opportunity Hiring Program. "What does
he do?" he interrupted. The woman didn't reply right away and Frederick
fancied she didn't have that answer quite so carefully scripted. "He runs
our cultural resources program." Frederick
waited. "Better fill me in," he said after a moment. Again Parker
hesitated. Stanton wished he was sitting in her office where he could watch her
face. Over the phone he had no idea whether there was something fishy about Mr.
Hayhurst or the superintendent simply didn't have the foggiest notion of what her
employees did with their days. "Well, I
know he does evening programs," Parker said. "I hear they're
excellent. And he is the curator for our museum—does the cataloging and so
forth. He's in charge of preserving the cultural resources inside the monument's
boundaries." It's a small,
small world, Frederick whistled under his breath. Leonard Nims wrote
Environmental Impact Statements, the documents that, in essence, granted or
denied commercial interests permission to dig, drill, ditch or otherwise
disturb culturally sensitive areas in northern New Mexico. Joseph Hayhurst
preserved Native American cultural resources. The two men probably knew each
other. "Does Mr.
Hayhurst do any work for the BLM in resource management?" he asked. "No ...
no. Why?" The superintendent
sounded confused and Frederick was reminded how little communication, much less
cooperation, there was between government agencies. Fighting wildland fire
seemed one of the few places they worked and played together nicely. Sort of
like law enforcement agencies and the War on Drugs, Stanton thought. A
politically safe and extremely well-funded bandwagon to jump on. "Is he
active in any preservation groups or movements outside the confines of his
job?" "I
shouldn't think so. No. I wouldn't know." Either Superintendent Parker was
a past master at stonewalling or she had no idea what went on in her park.
Stanton suspected the latter. Unless she and Hayhurst were running drugs, such
an elaborate show of ignorance was overkill. Having made
sufficiently polite and grateful good-byes, Frederick set down the phone
receiver and stared blankly in front of him. What was missing? A hollow
unsettled feeling swelled behind his breastbone, psychological heartburn. It
was the feeling he got the night he forgot and left Candice standing in a tutu
outside a ballet school in a bad part of town for three hours, and once when
he'd refigured his taxes and discovered he owed fifty-two hundred dollars more
than he thought. Closing his
eyes, he tried to clear his mind. One of the phones rang and someone answered
it. For a second he listened to see if it was for him. It wasn't. That was it. He checked his
watch: twenty past ten. The radios had been silent but for the low-grade
chatter of the dozer operator. Every three
hours, they'd agreed. That would have been around nine-forty-five. Anna hadn't
called in. Chapter Fourteen ANNA REALIZED SHE'D stopped breathing and consciously drew
air deep into her lungs. The others were paralyzed as well. Screams, so
viciously aborted, had rooted them in the sand. Paula's whimpering whetted the
edge of the silence. Lindstrom put a protective arm around the girl's
shoulders. From the look on his face, he was almost as frightened as she. Black Elk
gulped air only to expel it in a wet-sounding cough. Howard was in trouble:
bronchitis and third-degree burns. For the first time it occurred to Anna that
he might die. Injuries like his wouldn't prove fatal in the sterile and
supportive confines of a modern medical facility. In the snow, in the Cascades,
the outlook wasn't so bright. Not if they didn't get rescued soon. "It's too
fucking much," LeFleur whispered. Absently he pawed at his shirt pocket.
When his fingers didn't find the expected smokes he spat into the snow.
Pepperdine had squeezed in under the shelter, his back pressed against the
boulder. "Really ups the old pucker factor, doesn't it?" LeFleur
needled him. The crew boss's
smile was shaky but it was a start. Anna broke out of her state of suspended
animation and stood up. Her legs trembled but she told herself it was due to
fatigue and too little food. "I guess
somebody ought to check it out," she said, but she didn't move. "I
guess," LeFleur agreed. He didn't move either. "I'll go
if somebody'll go with me," Joseph Hayhurst offered. He got to his feet
and carefully brushed the sand from the seat of his pants—as if anybody would
care where he was going. This accomplished he looked at Anna with his strange
little smile and gestured to the ruin of the forest. "Ladies first." LeFleur had collected
himself and, to everyone's relief, took control. "Joseph, you and Anna
follow Gonzales's tracks out if you can. Me and Stephen'll try and pick up
Neil's. See what we come up with. You've got a radio?" Anna did. Numbers seemed
to reassure Pepperdine. He stepped forward importantly. "I'd better go
after Gonzales." "Stay
here," Anna said curtly. Hugh would be of little use in a fight but that
wasn't why she snapped at him. He got on her nerves and they'd been stretched a
little thin lately. "Jennifer
can stay," Hugh said. "Jennifer
hasn't been to FLETC." Anna meant it unkindly but Hugh took it as a
compliment. "Roger.
I'll be monitoring if you need backup." As Pepperdine
settled close to the warming embers, Anna looked past him at Jennifer Short.
Her fist was still pushed against her teeth as if her brain had failed to shift
gears when the alarm wound down. Not good. Short
was not a coward. In fact, her tombstone courage had nearly gotten both of them
killed in an incident at Mesa Verde. To see her so diminished scared Anna. As
soon as she got back, she promised herself, she would do something. What eluded
her. "Um,
excuse me, but the trail grows cold," Joseph said, and Anna realized she'd
been woolgathering. Snow around the
bivouac was heavily trampled but on the far side of the boulder Joseph found a
fresh set of tracks. With more faith than certainty he and Anna began to follow
them up out of the creek to the north. Once clear of
the wash the confusion of footprints thinned out to be replaced by a confusion
of snow and felled snags. White humps gave way to blackened holes. What
appeared to be solid ground would suddenly collapse, a pit of smoldering wood
beneath. The going was slow but not impossible and Anna preferred it to sitting
with too much to think about and too little to do. Joseph, despite
his earlier invitation, led the way. He was ten years younger than Anna and his
eyesight that much better. In this landscape of sharp contrasts and
directionless light, he was better able to pick a trail between hazards. Anna was glad
to leave him to it. Free from having to watch where she put her feet, she
scanned the area. Snow draping over crosshatched piles of trees, unexpected
open places, hummocks higher—or lower—than they seemed; she combed the broken landscape
for any scrap of color or movement that would indicate life. On such a
surreal stage, monsters didn't seem impossible or even terribly unlikely. She
and Joseph moved through a world that looked much like Anna imagined the inside
of Dean Koontz's or Stephen King's mind might. Surreptitiously,
she crossed herself. She wasn't Catholic—or even necessarily Christian—but it
seemed like a good idea. Occupied as he
was by navigation, Joseph failed to see the flash of yellow when Anna did. He
was a couple of yards ahead of her, pushing against a forty-foot snag that had
weathered the windstorm. If it was going to fall it was healthier for him to
choose when and where than wait for a capricious Mother Nature to drop it on
the unwary. Anna slipped up
behind him and touched his shoulder. With a startled gasp, he swung at her. Had
she been taller and slower, his fist would have taken out several of her teeth.
As it happened, a pratfall, functional if not stylish, saved her bridgework.
For an art historian he was fast with his fists. "Sorry,"
she whispered as Joseph, his face arranged in apologetic lines, helped her to
her feet. "Likewise,
I'm sure. Why are we whispering?" Anna was on her
feet, Joseph sweeping her backside free of snow like a concerned valet.
"Fire shirt," Anna said, and pointed. "Somebody's over
there." "Want me
to go first?" Anna did hut
since he'd asked she couldn't say so. "At least you didn't scream,"
she muttered out of spite. "Our
mothers covered our mouths when we were babies so the yellow legs wouldn't find
us," Joseph whispered at her shoulder. "Didn't your parents let you
watch Wagon Train?" "Shhh." All she could
see of their quarry was a piece of NoMex maybe six inches square—a shoulder or
elbow—showing from behind a tumble of deadfall. Torn between
the urge to hurry to a man very possibly injured and the need to go slowly lest
danger still lurked, Anna repeated her early EMT training: First make sure the
scene is safe. That was always a good answer on a multiple-choice test. Skirting a fallen
snag, Anna got far enough around the piled debris so that she could see most of
the man. He was seated on a downed piece of timber, his back to them. One green
leg and hip, yellow arms and shoulder and the back of a head covered with a
blue bandanna tied pirate-style low over the forehead were visible. "Neil,"
Joseph whispered as Anna called: "Neil!" Page squeaked
and turned. When he recognized them he bent over at the waist, his head and
shoulders disappearing behind the burnt wood. To Anna it looked as if he were
picking up a small article and hiding it. Maybe in the snow or the logs. Maybe
in his pocket. In a few
seconds it was done and Neil Page was trotting toward them, a mixture of relief
and alarm on his face. "Holy shit. Did you hear that ... that whatever?
What was it? Somebody else killed? Fuck. A murderer's on the loose. That's all
I need. It sounded like
a girl—a kid maybe." Incongruous as it was in this torched wilderness,
Page was pumping Joseph's hand with a grip a used-car salesman would have been
proud of. Whatever he was
up to by himself on that log, the man had definitely had a scare. If not the
strange cry, then something else. He was babbling and his hands trembled. Sweat
mixed with soot glistened like fine bugle beads at his temples. "Are those
your tracks?" Anna pointed to a set of prints leading across the small
clearing at a right angle to the trail she and Joseph had followed, but from
the opposite direction. Page looked
around as if the question taxed his cognitive powers, then nodded. Yes, they
were his. "We'd
better keep going," Anna said to Joseph. "Since nobody has doubled
back on the trail we were following, there's a good chance it's Gonzales." "You can't
leave me here by myself." Page was dangerously close to whining. "Come on
then," Anna said. He liked that
only a little better but fell in step behind Anna as Joseph led the way up the
track they'd recently abandoned. Neil Page was a careful man. He hung back far
enough he wouldn't lose them but too far to be of much assistance should the
need arise. The short burst
of strength lent by fright had worn away and Anna was running on empty. Without
food to restore strength and proper rest to restore sanity, she could feel
muscle and nerve being drained with each log they climbed over, each stump hole
they avoided. Vision narrowed
and concentration wavered. Soon she was just putting one foot in front of the
other, seeing only the prints Joseph Hayhurst left in the snow. When he came to
a stop, she almost tread on his heels before she realized it. "Listen,"
he said. Anna could hear
her own breathing and his, the faint crunch of boots in the snow from where
Page walked behind them. "There,"
Joseph said. A thump,
something pounding into the snow, the dirt, a body—something soft enough to
absorb most of the sound of the blow. Then a shout, a whoop, joyous,
victorious. "Wherever
we're going, I think we just got there," the Apache said softly. Ahead was a
clutter of downed trees blanketed with snow. Beyond, as best as Anna could tell
with the fog and the vague light, was a ditch or ravine backed by a steep hill.
In places trees had blown down, pulling root systems out of the hillside. Great
gouts of brown, living dirt spilled down over the apron of white. The track they
followed circled the piled timber and vanished down into the ravine. The scene
was picture-perfect for a trap. All that was missing was a nice little bit of
cheese set in the trail. Anna looked
behind her. Page had stopped twenty yards back. Waiting to see which way to
run, she guessed. "Let's do
it," she said. Chapter Fifteen A SECOND SHOUT galvanized Anna. She moved
past Joseph and down the trail. Mobility restored courage and she was surprised
that she'd let the heebie-jeebies soak so deeply into her soul. Still, when yet
another cry came she flinched and her step faltered. Lest Joseph notice, she
walked faster. A minute
brought her to the end of the pile screening the ravine. She looked over her
shoulder. Hayhurst was right behind her. She nodded and he raised his hand,
slowing and falling back slightly. There were those with whom communication was
effortless, even without words. Maybe especially without words. And then there
were the Pages, the Pepperdines, the Bogginses who seemed impervious to all the
words in the world. Like lovers, Anna thought. Some understood the merest
touch, others even Dr. Ruth couldn't get through to. Careful to step
only in existing tracks so the noise of her footsteps wouldn't broadcast their
approach, Anna moved into the crook where the trail hooked around the timber:
the place the cheese would be were this indeed a better mousetrap. From that
vantage point she could see into the wash, a shallow creek, five or six feet
wide and half that deep, carved by spring runoff. Black snags had fallen across,
creating fragile bridges dusted with snow. Beneath were the tracks they'd been
following. Crabbing down
the steep bank Anna lost her footing and slid the last few feet. So much for
the element of surprise. "Are you
okay?" Joseph whispered from the top of the bank. Anna made the
"okay" symbol with thumb and forefinger. "Can you
see anything?" Crouching, she
looked under the burnt timber spanning the creek bed. For several yards the
snow was crushed and trampled. Drops of red, startling in a landscape devoid of
color, were spattered in a wedge-shaped pattern. "Blood." "No
kidding?" Joseph slid down the bank, squatted in the snow beside her and
shouted: "Hey, Lawrence! Are you in there?" Maybe it was a tactical
error but Anna was glad to have the tension broken. Footfalls
crunched toward them, slow and labored as somebody frog-walked under the downed
pines. "Lawrence?"
Anna echoed because she needed to do something. Another whoop
and Lawrence Gonzales crawled from beneath the tree trunks on hands and knees.
Blood stained the cuff of his NoMex shirt and he pushed a shovel ahead of him.
The blade left a red trail on the snow where it passed. Lawrence
grinned up at them, his teeth white and perfect, then reached back and Anna
tensed. "Breakfast,"
he said, presenting them with a badger dead of severe head trauma. Joseph started
to giggle, high and sweet like a young girl. Anna became infected and laughter
bubbled out. Gonzales looked
from one to the other, a tentative smile on his face as if he was willing to join
in if only someone would share the joke with him. "What? What's so
funny?" This innocuous phrase tickled Anna and Joseph all out of
proportion. Anna could hear
the hysteria, feel it hard in her rib cage. It was out of control but it felt
good. GONZALES WAS HAILED the conquering hero by everyone
but Hugh Pepperdine. He made a sullen remark about the Great White Hunter that
brought the blood into Lawrence's cheeks but Anna thought she saw it for what
it was, good old-fashioned envy. Lawrence and
John cleaned and skinned the badger with Black Elk's Buck knife. The San Juans,
it seemed, went for the most part unarmed. Just for
something to do, Anna watched for a while, but the steaming entrails and the
casual gore of men used to dressing game got to her and she retreated back to
the relative civility of camp. Howard and
Joseph were talking quietly. Paula appeared to be asleep. Jennifer hadn't moved
from where she sat back from the fire pit. Anna settled close to her, closer
than she normally would, hoping to share some of her warmth with the other
woman. Jennifer's bare
hands rested on her knees. Anna pulled off her glove and touched the back of
Short's fingers. They were ice cold. "Jen,"
she said softly. A second or two elapsed before Short responded to the sound of
her voice. Jennifer's eyes were unfocused, her cheek muscles sagging like those
of a much older woman. "After we
eat, we've got to talk," Anna said. "I thought
you were a vegetarian." Short spoke in a monotone. "Under
duress I've been known to eat my little friends. Jen, you've got to snap out of
it," Anna said. Jennifer's eyes
were glazing over. Clearly, she just didn't give a damn. Anna changed
tack. Softness left her voice. "A man's been murdered. The only person I
really know is you. I can't afford to trust anybody else. You've got to help
me." A flicker, the
merest gleam of interest, enlivened Jennifer's blue eyes. From the distant
past, Anna remembered her sister telling her one of the few things other than
drugs and exercise that could help pull someone out of a clinical depression
was helping others, virtue its own reward, medically speaking. "After we
eat," Anna said just as if Jennifer had agreed, and scrambled to her feet
before Short had time to reject the idea. Anna wasn't
sure she wanted to know who'd knifed Leonard Nims. Even less did she wish the
perpetrator to know she knew. But perhaps the puzzle would pull Jennifer out of
herself, give her something healthier—if that was the right word given the
circumstances—to focus on. If they turned anything up, they could hand it over
to Frederick Stanton when they got off the ridge. Stanton. The
idea of rescue, of a savior, of warm caring arms, made Anna weak and weepy.
With an unconscious twitch she shrugged the thought off. BADGER WAS AS aggressive
and feisty inside Anna's belly as the animal was purported to be when defending
its position in the food chain. Having given up her carnivorous ways for nearly
a decade, her stomach found the gamey meat a challenge to digest. Seeing the look
on her face as she carefully chewed each bite Stephen said: "It's fat-free
and organically grown." Anna shot him a
dirty look and doggedly chewed on. Stephen's chunk seemed to be putting up a
fight of its own. Cursing, he yanked his left glove off with his teeth and
tackled the meat bare-handed. "I'll eat
yours, Anna," Pepperdine offered. Anna scowled
and swallowed. Nauseating, politically incorrect, stringy—it didn't matter.
Strength was legal tender when the niceties of society were stripped away, and
she had no intention of going bankrupt before she had to. Failing with
Anna, Hugh began eyeing Jennifer's meat. Short held the badger without
interest. "Eat
that," Anna ordered. Mechanically,
Jennifer bit off a chunk, chewed and swallowed. "Eat all
your badger or there'll be no rat pudding for dessert," Lindstrom said
firmly, and was rewarded by a ghost of a smile. Everyone's
spirits were up. Not only because of the food— they'd not been without long
enough to suffer more than discomfort—but because they had taken back the
reins. Lawrence was a San Juan. He'd brought home the bacon. No longer were
they helpless children cowering and waiting for someone to rescue them. They
were, as in Brando's famous line, "contenders." Men facing the
wilderness. Even the women. Macho was a state of mind. Though Anna
didn't so much as fish—she hadn't the heart to stop that silvery flash of
life—and the meat curdled in her belly, she felt it. All for one and one for
all: the Musketeer credo permeated the group around the fire. Except for Hugh
Pepperdine. He'd not forgiven Lawrence for being the day's hero and tried to
build himself up and tear Gonzales down with a series of inane remarks. They were so
close in age some competition was inevitable, and Pepperdine's attributes,
assuming he had any, Anna thought uncharitably, didn't translate well outside
the city limits. Pepperdine lost on all counts: looks, courage and endurance.
Probably the most damaging thing was that Hugh tried desperately to be liked
and failed. Lawrence never had to try. When Anna had
forced down all the badger she could and Jennifer had eaten all she was going
to, Anna announced: "I'm going to the bathroom," and fixed Short with
a pointed stare. As they walked
away, Lindstrom called after them: "Firefighters don't go to the bathroom
in groups." Laughter followed them out of sight around the boulder. Seated on rocks
a hundred yards up the creek, an icy fog isolating them from sight as well as
sound, Anna told Jennifer everything she'd seen, thought or been told. She recounted
the criminal histories Stanton had gathered, how the body was found, the knife,
the blood on the glove where Nims had evidently tried to pull it out, the
depression in the sand from the weight of the second body. She told Jennifer
that the corpse had been searched by someone and of Neil Page's furtive hiding
motions. Though Jennifer had been there when LeFleur came in with a split lip,
Anna went over that. Jennifer sat
like a lump and Anna couldn't tell if she was listening or not. When she finished
the recital, she waited. After a full minute, the younger woman stirred.
Pushing her matted hair back off her face, she stared down the creek bed. "Josh and
I were close," she said, the words made visible as her breath steamed in
the air. "He was just a year older than me and it was like we were the
same age. He got mono when we were kids and got held back a year so in high
school we were even in the same grade." She was
talking. Anna didn't much care about what. Cold seeped through the seat of her
britches from the rock, stealing what little warmth Lawrence's badger had
brought her, but she sat stock-still for fear of interrupting. "We went
to college together in computer science. Josh was smarter than me but I worked
harder so we made the same grades. We'd go to parties together and wait for Mr.
Right." Jennifer laughed. There was
nothing Anna could say. She thought of her sister and tried to think of the
words that would comfort her if Molly died. There weren't any. "What was
he doing in this part of the country?" she asked to keep Jennifer talking. Tears tracked
the grime on Short's face and her nose was running. "Josh got a job
programming a new security system for Harrah's in Reno—Reno's where he met
Stephen. They were both into computers and hit it off right away. Anyway, the
money was good and Josh said he needed to get out of Memphis for a while so he
went. "He fell
in love with the mountains. I'm a river girl. I got to be by a big muddy river
at least a few months out of the year or I just don't feel right. But Josh said
he'd found his spiritual home. He got all excited about trying to save it—you
know, stopping logging or saving those speckled owls—whatever. It wasn't just a
social thing with Josh. He really cared. That's part of what got me interested
in being a park ranger, though I thought I'd mostly just like playing at it for
a while. New places, new people, something different to do. Josh was doing some
kind of environmental thing down where the burn started. I guess that place
where he was camped was going to be logged off or something." Instead Joshua
Short lost control of his campfire, lost his life and destroyed the forest he
was hoping to save. Anna kept her cynicism to herself. Now wasn't the time.
There would never be a time. "I'm sure
gonna miss him," Jennifer said simply. "Yeah." They sat
without talking. Anna tried to massage some heat into her hands. Jennifer
fished a bandanna, more black than red, from the pocket of her brush jacket and
smeared the mess on her face. Where she managed to wipe it clean she left
streaks of white. "What do
you want me to do about Len's murder?" Short asked. It was working.
Jennifer was looking and sounding alive again. Anna rubbed the corners of her
mouth with a thumb and forefinger to pull out the smile she felt building
there. "I'm
pretty sure Nims was carrying food instead of a fire shelter like he was
required to. We know he was knifed during the firestorm, probably by someone
who'd meant originally to save the guy's life. We know he was stabbed by his
own knife and something was stolen from the corpse. Start with Neil Page. Go
out and see if you can find whatever he was hiding out in the woods. Talk to
him. We need to find out exactly where everybody deployed. The only person I
actually saw crawl out of his shake 'n' bake was Howard." "He could
have killed Len, then got back into his own shelter," Jennifer said. "I
counted. Eight shelters. Nine people. There's no way of knowing whose is whose.
By the time I figured it out all the shelters had been gathered and reused to
make the bivouac." "Okay.
Howard's out," Jennifer conceded. "His hands are bad. I doubt he
could've held a knife well enough anyway. He can't even close them." "You do
Page," Anna said. "I'll take John and see what I can find out. Be
discreet. The last thing we want to do is stir up a hornet's nest." "Might
beat hunting badgers for breakfast." Anna let the
smile claim her mouth. Jennifer Short was coming around. Chapter Sixteen LINDSTROM MET ANNA and Jennifer halfway back to the bivouac.
"Sorry to break up the party," he said with no trace of his usual
humor. "It's Howard. He's taken a turn for the worse." Helplessness
and fatigue bore down on Anna. The bad news brought back some of the dead look
to Jennifer's eyes. Morale had grown so fragile. "Jen, follow up on that
stuff we were talking about," Anna said sharply. If the comment aroused
Lindstrom's curiosity, he didn't have the energy to pursue it. Black Elk was
lying near the boulder, his breath rattling ominously in his chest. Under the
soot his flesh was chalky and dry, the rims of his eyes red. Joseph and
Lawrence stood nearby talking in the hushed tones people use around a deathbed.
Neil had disappeared again. Hugh and John were gone as well. Paula huddled as
far from the sick man as she could get and still remain within the enclosure.
The atmosphere of optimism brought on by their unexpected meal had evaporated. "Where's
LeFleur?" Anna demanded as she stooped and pushed under the jury-rigged
shelters. There was nothing the crew boss could do but it annoyed her that he'd
jumped ship. "He and
Hugh went up on the ridge to radio Base," Joseph said. Anna glanced at
her watch. The badger incident had chased the call from her mind. Aggravation
grew along with the absurd notion that calling Base, calling Frederick Stanton,
was her exclusive domain. "Makes
sense," she said, and knelt near Black Elk. "Hey, Howard, how're you
doing?" Picking up his wrist, she held her fingers over his radial pulse
and watched the seconds flit by on her digital watch: one hundred and twenty
beats per minute and thready. "I'm
good," Howard said. "I breathe better when I sit up some." Lindstrom knelt
at the man's other side. "I laid him down after he lost his lunch,"
he told Anna. "Don't
like badger?" Anna laid the back of her hand against Howard's neck. "Guess
not." Black Elk's
breathing was shallow and rapid, his skin cool to the touch. "Joseph,
get me the yellow packs," Anna said. He brought them from where they'd
been cached at the far end of the boulder and Anna and Stephen stuffed them
beneath the injured man till they'd made a pad that propped him in a
semi-sitting position. No longer able to hide his pain, Howard moaned when they
moved him. The bandages on
his arms and hands were damp. Anna pinched up the skin on the back of his arm
where the flesh was intact. It remained tented for several seconds after she
released pressure. He was losing too much fluid. "Better,
big fella?" Stephen asked when they'd settled him. Howard nodded. "I've
always wanted somebody to call me that," Anna said. Howard smiled for her
but it cost him. "Where's
my radio?" he asked. "If I had my radio I could listen for you guys.
There might be something." His mind was
wandering and Anna felt a clammy tickle of fear. "It's right here, Howard."
She took the radio off her belt and put it on his chest. He cradled it with his
ruined arms and seemed comforted. "I can
listen," he said. "You never know." Anna rocked
back on her heels and looked around. Their helmets were of plastic.
"Somebody had those old-fashioned metal hard hats," she said aloud.
"Where are they?" "John
wears one," Jennifer volunteered, and: "Here it is." The other
belonged to Black Elk. They found it half buried in the sand next to him.
"Get me some embers," Anna told Joseph. "Fill both these hard
hats. I want one at his feet and one close up. We need to keep him warm. "Paula?" Paula Boggins
looked up through a tangle of filthy hair. Anna had paid little attention to
the girl once her superficial burns had been dressed and warm clothes found for
her. When a whimper or a word did catch Anna's attention, she had written Boggins
off as weak but in no danger. Seeing the dark blue eyes through the haze of
hair, Anna noticed something else. Much as she hated the overused term
"survivor," she knew one when she saw one. She'd seen eyes like
Paula's in old photographs from World War II, and on the six o'clock news.
She'd seen them when she'd pulled injured climbers off rock faces. The eyes of
the people who made it. They crawled, fought, ate their fellows; they did
whatever they had to and they lived. "Paula,
could you do me a favor?" Anna asked with sudden respect. The girl
responded to the unaccustomed tone with a slight straightening of her
shoulders. "What?" she asked warily. "Howard's
burns are weeping. He's losing heat and fluid. I'm going to get some snow
melted and keep it warm. Could you help him drink a little every few minutes or
so?" Paula looked
behind her as if there might be someone else Anna was addressing.
"Sure," she said. By the time
Joseph came back with the coals, the water was warmed and Paula had curled up
next to the big firefighter with something resembling concern registered on her
dirty face. "Ember
mines are getting few and far between," Joseph said as Anna placed the
hard hats close enough to warm Howard but not so close they'd burn and banked
sand around them to hold them steady. "Where'd
Lawrence take off to?" Lindstrom asked. "He went
to get Anna's radio back from Barney," Joseph said neutrally. "Jesus,"
Anna growled. "I'd better go run interference." She followed
the now well-beaten trail up toward the ridge. Fog lay over everything, damp
and disheartening. Raw air sawed at her throat as her breath came faster. The
temperature hung around thirty degrees, not fluctuating with day or night.
White rime was beginning to form on the black carcasses of the trees. Cold
soaked through the sweat to chill Anna's skin and she found herself lost in a
fantasy of a hot bath and a glass of hearty burgundy. For a long
moment she wished she hadn't sworn off alcohol. It didn't seem fair to feel
guilt simply for wanting something when there was no chance in hell of getting
it. And she did want it: the bath, the booze. Every cell in her body set up a
vibration of yearning that brought saliva to her mouth. Needing a
distraction, she took the same medicine she'd prescribed for Jennifer: murder. With the
exception of Black Elk, any one of them could have killed Len. To push a sharp
blade between the ribs of an unsuspecting man didn't require a great deal of
strength. The firestorm
had descended in fury and left in a pall of suffocating smoke. Anna remembered
seeing several people when she first stumbled into the wash but with everyone
dressed alike, masked with bandannas and seen through veils of blowing smoke
and ash, she couldn't say who was who. Or where. Or when. The number of
suspects could be significantly reduced by the simple expedient of finding out who
was actually seen getting into or out of their shelter. It was possible lies would
be told but Anna doubted it. The San Juans got along well enough for the most
part, but they weren't close-knit—not enough to lie for one another. Disparate
ages, jobs, agencies, backgrounds kept them from forming the esprit de corps
often found in hot shots, the elite initial attack crews who trained and worked
together for the entire season. Howard, Joseph
and Lawrence seemed to have formed the fastest friendship but even that struck
Anna as more a friendship of convenience than a real kinship of like souls. She
doubted it would lead to an exchange of Christmas cards. Neil Page and
Paula Boggins had something going but Anna had no idea what. Page treated
Boggins with a contempt that smacked more of familiarity than dislike. Paula
didn't show an overabundance of respect on her part either but she put up with
Page as if she was used to him. Since he'd hired her, Anna assumed they knew
each other from before, their affiliation mutually gratifying on some level. They might lie
for each other, Anna thought, and wondered why. Just a gut reaction, she
decided. Page oozed sleaze and back in spike camp, Paula had come across as ...
Anna stopped walking and tried to find the right words while she caught her
breath. They came to her in the cutting voice of Patience Bittner, a
sophisticated hosteler she'd known on Isle Royale. Paula had come across as
"low rent, blue collar, waitressy." Never mind that Anna had
delivered her share of hamburgers and worked with her hands. The description
fit if taken in the truly mean-spirited sense it was meant. Who would
Lindstrom lie for? Maybe Jennifer; they had the dead Joshua in common. Sounds of a
struggle brought Anna out of her reverie and she broke into a run. Just below
the ridge she blundered into a shoving match. Lawrence Gonzales had the
Motorola radio in his hand and was fending off an enraged Hugh Pepperdine with
it. "Give it
up, Barney," he was shouting. Pepperdine, his
face engorged with blood, flecks of spittle at the corners of his mouth, was
grabbing at the smaller man in weighty but so far ineffectual lunges. His
breath came in steaming gasps and he wasn't wasting any on words. "Break it
up!" John LeFleur ran down from the ridge. "Break it up!" he
yelled again. Gonzales heard
and in the moment of his distraction, Hugh Pepperdine plowed into him. Both men
went down. Anna and John
reached them at the same time and began pulling. Pepperdine's unpracticed fists
were pummeling Gonzales's face and upper body. Lawrence wasn't fighting back
but trying to protect himself from the blows with his forearms. "Get the
son of a bitch off me," he yelled. "Come on,
Hugh. Let it go. Come on." Anna caught hold of one of Pepperdine's arms
and tried to lever him off Gonzales. Hugh was out of shape and an inexperienced
fighter but he was a big boy and she couldn't budge him. "Break it
up," LeFleur hollered a third time, grabbing Pepperdine by the collar and
attempting to drag him backward. A loose elbow
clipped Anna on the chin. Her teeth cracked shut and light sparked behind her
eyes. Letting go of Pepper-dine, she retreated a few yards, deciding the better
part of valor was to let the two idiots kill each other if they were so
inclined. Lawrence
continued in a defensive posture but Anna got the feeling of a coiled snake.
Barney'd better not push his luck, she thought, as she rubbed the ache from her
jaw and checked to see if any teeth had been loosened. "I'm gonna
kill him, John," Gonzales grunted. "Get him off me." LeFleur
jerked on Pepperdine's shoulder but Hugh was beyond reason. Anna doubted he
could even hear them. He'd gone into one of those berserker rages seldom seen
off the playground. Had he been any good at dealing destruction, Lawrence,
forty pounds lighter and several inches shorter, would have been a bloody pulp.
This was probably the first fight Hugh had been in since third grade; hence the
schoolyard tactics. Recovered, Anna
pulled herself together to give LeFleur a hand. Hugh, astride Gonzales now,
pulled back a fist. Just as she caught it in both hers, Anna saw Lawrence's face
change. Grimacing stopped, talk stopped, a cold professional look calmed even
his dark eyes. In a move as quick and precise as a snake striking, two fingers
shot out, hitting Pepperdine in the throat. Hugh's eyes
bulged, horror locked his lips back. Breath stopped with a wet choking sob. His
hand jerked free of Anna's fists not to strike at Lawrence but to claw at his
own throat as if he could pull out the dent in his pharynx. Fumbling at his
collar, Pepperdine collapsed sideways. Gonzales
scrambled to his feet. "Holy Mary Mother of God," he muttered.
"Is he going to be okay?" "You tell
me," LeFleur growled. "Anna?" She crawled
over next to Hugh. "Take it easy," she told him in a voice
intentionally laden with calm. "You're okay." She wondered if he was
or if the blow had broken the cricoid cartilage. "Just lay back, breathe
through your nose. Atta boy." Pain and
surprise had done more damage than Gonzales. As Pepperdine stopped
hyperventilating he found he could breathe. Bit by bit his chest stopped heaving
and some of the blood left his cheeks. "Sorry,"
Gonzales apologized. "He got me mad." Pepperdine
began to sputter, trying to sit up. "Lawrence,
go on up to the ridge," LeFleur ordered. "When I heard you two
locking horns, I dropped my pulaski. Get it for me, would you?" Hovering behind
the crew boss's shoulder, Lawrence stayed where he was. The sight of him
looking so concerned and unscathed was having a deleterious effect on Anna's
patient. "Is he going to be okay?" Lawrence asked solicitously, and
Anna felt Hugh twitch under her hands. "He'll be
okay," she said. "Go get John's pulaski." Lawrence backed
away half a dozen steps then turned and jogged up the slope, clods of
soot-blackened snow flying off the lug soles of his boots. "He
assaulted me" were Hugh's first intelligible words. "You saw. He
assaulted me." "Looks
like you were doing a lion's share of the assaulting," LeFleur said.
"Everybody's on edge. Nobody got hurt. But if you two go at it again
somebody's damn well going to get hurt. I'll see to it myself. Got that?" "He
assaulted me." Hugh pushed himself up into a sitting position and faced
Anna. "You saw. I'm a federal law enforcement officer in the line of duty
and he assaulted me." Anna took a
breath, counted to ten in English, then again in Spanish. "Hugh, you have
no jurisdiction. You're not in the line of duty. Period. We're all strung a
little tight right now. Let it go at that. No harm done." Pepperdine's
face closed down, his eyes hooded. "Fine. If that's the way it's going to
be. I'll take care of it myself." "Drop it,
Hugh," Anna said more sharply than she'd intended. Hugh snorted,
contempt sprayed out in a fine mist of spittle. Lumbering to his feet, he
started down the hill. Anna thought to
call after him but didn't. Better to get some ground between him and Gonzales
for the present. "God damn
it," LeFleur said. "Why the hell did the worm have to turn on my
watch? Shit. We're going to have to do something about that boy before he talks
somebody into killing him." He sat back against a charred stump and closed
his eyes. "Wish I had a smoke." "Wish I
had a drink." "Scotch." "Red
wine." "Lightweight." "I
quit," Anna said righteously. "Bully for
you." Conversation
languished. Anna curled her knees up and hugged them trying to retain what body
heat she could. "Tell me
about Len," she said after a while. "He's
dead." LeFleur didn't even open his eyes. Anna waited. "What do
you want to know?" he asked finally. "Why did
he take a job in Farmington at less pay than he'd had in Susanville?" "He got in
bad odor around these parts is my guess. He's got an ex and kids in Susanville.
Maybe she ran him off." "Was he
fired?" "Nobody's
ever fired. They just sort of move on. Usually they get promoted. Bumping some
bastard upstairs is the easiest way to get him out of your hair." A
lifetime of losing embittered his voice. "What did
he do?" Anna asked. "Lumber
leases, I think." "I mean to
get 'moved on.' " "Beats
me." "What does
he do in Farmington?" Anna tried another tack. "As little
as he can get away with." This was like
pulling teeth. Anna waited. "Oil and
gas leases. He's supposed to do the Environmental Impact Statements. As far as
I can see he just rubber-stamps them NSI—no significant impact." "Do you
know any reason somebody might want him dead?" "Do you
want 'em in alphabetical order or just how they come to mind?" "Did you
see anybody getting out of their shelters after the fire?" Anna asked
abruptly. "Just you
and Howard, why?" "Did
anybody see you?" LeFleur opened
his eyes. "Oh, I get it. I've gotten a little slow on the uptake in my old
age. You think I killed him?" Anna said
nothing. "Fuck you,
Pigeon." LeFleur closed his eyes again. After a minute had ticked by he
said: "But I would have if I'd gotten the chance. He was a slimy
S.O.B." Anna had gotten
all she was going to. She changed the subject to one closer to her heart.
"What did Incident Base have to say?" "They've
got a helicopter standing by and nearly three-quarters of a mile of road
cleared. If the weather lifts, we'll be home in time for supper. If
not..." "Did you
tell them about Howard?" "I told
'em." Both of them
knew it was meaningless. What could be done was being done. They couldn't clear
deadfall any faster because Black Elk was losing ground. "I almost
forgot," LeFleur said. "You're supposed to radio that FBI agent.
Secret squirrel stuff. He wouldn't talk to me." Frederick
Stanton wanted her to call. Anna felt an excitement all out of proportion to
the event. What was she hoping for? Some clue to the secrets of the people she
was marooned with? A key to unlock the murder? Or sweet words broadcast over
high band radio for the world to eavesdrop on? That was it and
she mocked herself. People fell in love during disasters. It was provable if
one considered statistics as fact. Plane crashes, boat wrecks, plagues,
wars—all hotbeds of romance. Something to do with keeping the species going or
reaffirming life. It's the
firestorm, the murder, she told herself. Anybody with a clean warm bed was
bound to look good. "Give me
your radio," she demanded of LeFleur. Anna was damned if she was going to
forswear all her addictions. Chapter Seventeen FREDERICK SAT INSIDE the Communications tent, his feet
planted in front of the space heater. Four long metal folding tables were
pushed against the canvas walls. Another had been placed directly under the one
light bulb, bisecting the fifteen-by-twenty-foot space. Radio equipment and
packing cases obscured the tabletops. More, along with manuals, clipboards and
myriad forms, were jammed beneath. Idly, Frederick wondered how many acres of
trees a crew had to save to make up for those cut down to provide the forms
that fed the government's firefighting machine. Between his
hands, Stanton held a chunk of pine—white pine, Burwell had told him. It was lumpy
and knotted where the branch had grown up against an unforgiving surface and
been forced to make a ninety-degree turn. Bark still clung to it in places and
it smelled pleasantly of pitch. Frederick turned it round and round, feeling
for the monkeys within. The carving was clear in his mind: two monkeys tied
together by a telephone line trying desperately to move in opposite directions.
He just needed to find the picture in the wood grain. Whittling
helped to pass the time while he waited for the phone to ring, the radio to
come to life. Investigation
was a waiting game: waiting for calls, reports, evidence; waiting in offices,
parked cars, restaurants. Waiting in the brush and in alleyways. Frederick was
good at it. Waiting was when he unfettered his mind, let the known and unknown
tumble around without any imposed order. Intuition, that moment where the whole
exceeded the sum of the parts, only came when he let go of his lists and his
plans. Whatever Anna
Pigeon's virtues were, he suspected patience—waiting—wasn't one of them. As far
as he knew she'd only worked three homicides in her career. Over the course of
twenty-four years with the Federal Bureau of Investigation, he had been
involved with so many cases he couldn't readily put a number to them. In the
early years he assisted, in the middle he ran them. More and more lately he
found himself assigning cases. Experience had given him a strong mistrust of
people. Coming to view
the world as divided into two groups, Us and The Assholes, was an occupational
hazard in law enforcement. Frederick wasn't quite that far gone, but he knew
murder led to more murder. Maybe the killers discovered how easy it was. Or how
little life really mattered. Some of them liked the power. Some got
scared. But somewhere along the line every single one of them had come to the
conclusion that the taking of another's life was the solution to their
problems. If it worked—and in the short run it usually did—the next time they
ran into difficulties they were apt to apply the same remedy. Anna was first
and foremost a park ranger. Stanton had nothing against park rangers. As a
group he rather liked them. But they'd never struck him as the cutting edge of
law enforcement. Most were too ready to believe the best of people. Not about
the little stuff—they knew everybody littered and fed the animals—but they
didn't seem to grasp the concept of true malice. Rangers worked on the premise
that evil stemmed from ignorance; that John Q. Public could be educated out of
his wicked ways. Anna wouldn't
be careful enough. She wouldn't watch her back. Unless she knew who the killer
was. Most killers were opportunistic. If Anna knew who it was she could see to
it no opportunity presented itself. Frederick set
aside his unborn monkeys and picked up the notepad beside the telephone. His
morning had not been wasted and he was forming a colorful police sketch of the
personalities Anna contended with. The eclectic nature of fire camp had brought
together strange bedfellows. Because of the small-world nature of fire fighting
and the regionalism for both local hires and interagency crews, there was a
good deal of cross-pollination. As a young
agent Frederick remembered being surprised at how often and successfully the
"do you know . . ." game was played. Professional circles were tight.
Digging down a layer or two invariably somebody knew somebody who knew you. The
same had held true when he'd pursued his investigation of the fire camp
personnel. Gonzales,
Lawrence. The Washoe County Sheriff had returned Frederick's call shortly
before eleven a.m. The case was
before his time but the charges weren't being pursued. There was little
interest in hauling Gonzales back to Nevada to stand trial. Gonzales was known
to have a quick and violent temper, the sheriff said—he knew the boy's
family—but there was no real harm in him. Reading between the lines, Stanton
guessed the sheriff believed Gonzales could knife somebody but hoped it wasn't
true. The Bureau of
Land Management in Susanville had supplied the tidbit of information Frederick
had underlined in his notes. When Gonzales was in high school in Susanville,
California, six years previously, Nims had been in charge of the lumber leasing
for BLM forest lands. Gonzales, along with a dozen other high school kids, had
worked for Leonard Nims marking timber. For reasons nobody knew, Gonzales had
dropped out or been asked to leave the project halfway through the summer. Frederick had
pressed the woman in charge of personnel to tell him why Nims had left the
Bureau for three years. She dug out Nims's file. It said only that he'd
resigned for "Personal Reasons" but she'd been a clerk then and
remembered a good deal of tension at the time of his resignation. When Nims
worked in Susanville, Duncan Foley had been the BLM forester. He'd since
retired. Stanton had the man's phone number scribbled on his pad. It was one of
the return calls he waited for. Frederick had
gleaned a little additional information on the Boggins woman. She lived in
Westwood, a logging town in the mountains between Chester and Susanville. She
had a two-year-old daughter and, though she didn't hold down a job, with the
exception of occasional work during fire season, she appeared to live fairly
comfortably without welfare or food stamps. Frederick had
tracked down Paula's two juvenile offenses to Chico, California, a valley town
about two hours' drive from Westwood. The Chico county officials couldn't
release information from sealed records over the phone but they could tell him
who bailed her out after both arrests: Neil Page. There was no
background on Page and no connection Stan-ton could find between Page, Boggins
and the murdered man prior to their work on the Jackknife fire. Two more calls
to New Mexico had uncovered some promising information on Joseph Hayhurst.
Tandy Oil and Gas was trying to get leasing rights to fifty-seven hundred acres
of BLM land near the Bisti Wilderness. Hayhurst was working with the Navajo to
get the lease stopped. The Navaho held that the drilling would desecrate an
important buffer area as well as sections of the Great North Road left by the
Anasazi. The BLM had put the project on hold pending an Environmental Impact
Statement. Leonard Nims had been on vacation, then dispatched on the Jackknife,
but he was scheduled to write that EIS as soon as he returned. Stephen
Lindstrom's supervisor returned Frederick's earlier call. He had nothing but
praise for Lindstrom's work but it was couched in such careful terms Frederick
knew there was an undercurrent of personal distaste. Lindstrom was from the Bay
Area and some of his co-workers didn't care for his big-city ways, was all
Frederick could gather from the mixture of fulsome praise and oblique snipes. Lindstrom's
supervisor had mentioned that Stephen knew Joshua Short, the man credited with starting
the Jackknife. He seemed to be implicating Lindstrom in the arson but when
pressed he reluctantly admitted that Stephen Lindstrom had been in the middle
of a five-day training seminar in Las Vegas when the fire had started and
couldn't have had any "hands on" involvement with the incident. Stanton would
pass it on to Anna for what it was worth. Lindstrom was big and strong and he
was an EMT. He'd have no trouble finding the heart in one sure stab. Hugh Pepperdine
and Neil Page were still just headings in Frederick's notebook and he waited
for the calls that would help him fill in the blanks. "Base,
this is Spike Camp Medical Unit Leader." Anna's voice
emanated from the hand-held radio Stanton had set near the phone and he jumped.
His nerves sang like stretched piano wire. Before he could grab up the
Motorola, Burwell answered. Anna asked for him and Stanton thumbed the mike
down. He held the radio tightly as if by the force of his fingers he could hold
onto Anna. The timbre of her voice was deep for a woman, strong, but she
sounded so tired and he wished he had words to buoy her up. "I've got
some information," he said into the transmitter, and was dismayed that his
words sounded so cold. "Are you ready to copy?" A pause
followed, scratching through the dead air, and he wondered what was going
through her mind. Somehow he felt he had let her down. "Clear to
copy. At least as near as I can tell. I've got John's radio, Lawrence has mine
but they should be out of range by now . . . it's a long story," she
finished wearily. Frederick
smiled. Rambling, tired, human, it warmed him to hear her lose her professional
tone. On one level he knew circumstances had undermined the formality of radio
etiquette. On another he chose to take it as a sign of friendship. Clutching at
straws, he chided himself. "How are
you doing, Anna?" He pressed his lips close to the transmitter as if that
afforded any privacy. A couple of
clicks clouded the air. "Good. I'm good" came back a little too
strong and Frederick wondered what he had done to offend. "Black Elk's in
trouble," she added. "And morale's a little strained but otherwise
we're hanging in there." Acutely aware
of the distance between them and the public nature of this broadcast, Frederick
paced the Communications tent. Even his pacing was frustrated. Tables and
equipment curbed his steps and the sloping canvas of the roof brushed his hair
if he veered from the ridgeline. "Stand
by," he said abruptly. He sounded aggravated and wished he could explain.
Forcing himself to sit down he picked up his notes. Chapter Eighteen BACK AGAINST THE body
of Paula's truck, elbows on knees, Anna rested her head in her hands. She felt
like whining and wouldn't have hesitated to do so if there'd been anyone around
to commiserate with her. Constant cold was the worst of it, more debilitating
than hunger or fear. Her time in the Trans-Pecos had brought out her exothermic
tendencies. If she let self-pity take hold, she believed she would never be
warm again. Scritching at
her scalp, rubbing off—or in—the crud that lodged there, she thought about
Frederick. She'd managed to forgive him for being comfortable and for doing his
job. By the end of the conversation she'd even said thank you with a modicum of
heartfelt warmth. When all this was behind her, she would sit with him and
talk, tell him all the details of this chapter of her life and he would
understand, understand even the things left unsaid. At least that was the
fantasy. That was always the fantasy. Cynicism stole
the fun from the dream and, forcing herself to concentrate, Anna worked through
the information Stanton had unloaded. Though he was a
good worker, Lindstrom's supervisor disliked him and suspected him of
unprovable crimes. The sheriff of Washoe County liked Lawrence though he was a
wanted felon. Not much to go on. Physical evidence was more reliable and Anna
returned to the puzzle of the shelters. First task was to see who'd been seen
leaving theirs. That would significantly narrow the playing field. Already it
was down by three: herself, Black Elk and, by necessity, Jennifer Short. Anna
hoped she hadn't made a grave error in character judgment. Her "you're the
only one I can trust" speech had been pure theater. She couldn't trust
anyone and the thought depressed her. Maybe she'd get lucky, maybe somebody saw
Short crawl out of her shake 'n' bake. Whoever was
left would have to be questioned. The safest way would be for her and Jennifer
to do the interviews together, but given the inherent anarchy of the situation
Anna doubted they would get any cooperation. Subtlety and
luck were all they had going for them. They'd have to make the best of it. Heavy breathing
caught her attention. Jennifer was puffing up from the heli-spot. "Over
here," Anna called, and Jen waved as if there could be any mistake about
who was talking to whom on the desolate ridge. She trotted over and plopped
down beside Anna. "Least
ways I'm warm." Short fanned her face with her hand. "Wait till
the sweat starts to cool," Anna said pessimistically. "You sure
know how to cheer a girl up." "Sorry.
What have you found out?" "The big
news is Barney. What happened up here anyway? He's got Howard's big ol' Buck
knife strapped to his belt and has been swaggering around like Rambo saying
he's got to defend himself." Anna groaned. "Just
telling you," Short said without rancor. "Okay."
Anna thought for a minute. "Here's what we've got. I talked with
Frederick. Washoe County doesn't seem too interested in dragging Lawrence back
for prosecution on the assault and grand theft auto. It was five years ago and
nobody cares much anymore. But Lawrence may not know that. He worked for Nims
about six years ago. He quit or got fired. There might be something in that or
Nims might have known there was a warrant out for his arrest." It crossed
Anna's mind that Jennifer was younger and prettier than she was and might be
able to get more out of Gonzales than she could but she dismissed it. There was
a chance Lawrence was dangerous. "I'll check it out. "Stephen's
supervisor has something against him. He seems to think he might have been
involved with your brother in his environmental protests." Jennifer
thought it through a minute, then shook her head. "I don't think so. Josh
was very left wing, I guess you could say. Stephen's conservative. Josh bitched
about it once or twice." "Do you
know if Stephen had something against Len?" For an instant
Jennifer looked startled, then professionalism took over. This was an
investigation, not a birthday party. Everybody was invited. "Not so's
I'd know. I hadn't met him but once till this fire. He doesn't seem to." "Okay,"
Anna said. "Joseph had a beef with Len over some land he was considering
for oil leases—Joseph's been working with the Navajo in northern New Mexico to
get it stopped. If he's passionate enough about it, it may mean something. At
the moment it's the strongest motive we've got. John's hating Nims seems a
little weak to me. And John's such a firebug I can't imagine him sullying a
natural disaster with something as mundane as murder. But he's not ruled out.
Nobody saw him getting out of his shelter. "Frederick
found out Neil Page bailed Paula out of jail a couple of times. I don't know if
it has anything to do with anything but you should talk to her." "I got
something," Jennifer burst out. Anna could see the pride and excitement on
her face and was glad somebody was having a good time. For the moment at least,
Short had forgotten about the death of her brother. "I went out to that
place you guys saw Neil and there wasn't nothing there. At least nothing I
could find. I think he was just hiding out smoking cigarettes so he wouldn't
have to share. But I met him coming back and started needling him, pretending I
knew he'd killed Len—" Anna shuddered.
"Jesus, Jen, you've got to watch it. You'll get us both killed." "No, no. I
was real discreet." Anna doubted it
but she wasn't going to waste words. "Anyway,
Neil got huffy and said I should talk to Paula. Remember those scratches on
Len's face? Well, according to Neil, Paula put 'em there. He swears he doesn't
know why." "Worth
following up on," Anna said. "See what you can get out of Paula. See
if anybody saw her getting out of her shelter." "Neil
didn't. He said she was already out when he got up. I guess that means she saw
him though." "Check it
out." Anna shoved herself to her feet. "We'd better get a move on
before we freeze to death." HOME SWEET HOME, Anna
thought sourly as they returned to the bivouac. Buck knife displayed
ostentatiously on his hip, Hugh Pepperdine paced back and forth, deepening a
blackened patch in the snow. "Nice
knife," Anna said. Hugh shot her a
filthy look. " 'Scuse
me, Barney." Jennifer started to duck past him into the shelter. Pepperdine
grabbed her upper arm. "No more Barney," he said. Short just
glared at him. After a moment Hugh let go of her. "Thank you," she
said coldly. Hugh had backed
down but Anna noticed his free hand had gone to the hilt of the knife. Pressure
was ungluing the New Jersey boy. At a guess she would have figured as much, but
she thought the stress would manifest itself a little differently. Pepperdine
was turning into a bully. He had the height and weight to make it stick and it
was as if he'd waited all his life for the opportunity. He reminded Anna of one
of the wretched little boys in Lord of the Flies. Mow many more times
would he back down, she wondered. Forcing all
contempt from her voice, she said: "I sure appreciate you giving up the
radio. Black Elk's mind is wandering some. The radio kind of ties him to
reality, I think." Pepperdine was
stone-faced. Anna couldn't tell if he was mollified or not and she didn't have
the energy to lay it on any thicker. She poked her head into the shelter. Lindstrom and
Paula flanked Black Elk. Boggins had tied her hair back with somebody's
bandanna and fed Howard tepid sips of water. Jennifer settled in the darkened
enclave with a sense of purpose. Anna left her
to worm what information she could from Paula. "Where is everybody?"
she asked Pepperdine, who was continuing his self-imposed sentry duty. He
looked at her and the hatred in his eyes hit her like a bucket of ice water. "Why?"
he said after a good fifteen seconds of silence. "You want to go crawl in
bed with your precious little Lawrence?" Shock stilled
Anna's tongue as well as her brain. It passed and was replaced by a deep sense
of unease. "You're slipping a few cogs, Hugh," she said carefully.
"The weather's bound to clear and we'll be out of here. Just hold it
together awhile. Everything's going to be all right." She laid her hand on
his arm in what she hoped was a reassuring gesture. Pepperdine
pushed it off. "That stuff won't work on me." He was so superior, so smug,
Anna's good intentions went west. "Did you
happen to see anybody getting out of their shelter after the blowup?" she
asked abruptly. "No. I did
not. When I crawled out Sir Lawrencelot was already wandering around. He could
have been out awhile for all I know." "Anybody
see you?" "Lawrence
did." Hugh looked both complacent and mean. He knew exactly why she was
asking and Anna reminded herself not to underestimate his intelligence just
because she'd taken a dislike to him. A memory of the first minutes after the
burn came to mind. When John asked where Len was, Hugh said, "He didn't
make it." John pressed him and he'd insisted it was just a guess, but
there had been no uncertainty in his voice, no speculation. He'd stated it as
fact. Pepperdine had
known Len was dead before they'd discovered the body. Despite this apparent
alibi, Anna was keeping him on her active list until she found out how he'd
come by that knowledge. "Where is
everybody?" she asked again. "Looking
for coals. John and Neil went downstream. Joseph up." "Lawrence?" Pepperdine
smirked and pointed to the north side of the creek. "Have fun," he
called after her as she climbed the bank. She didn't look back. She allowed
herself a small fantasy of shooting him. Not only would it be personally
satisfying but it might be the only way to keep him from tearing their fragile
society apart. Events had
piled on top of one another with such stunning rapidity no one had yet ventured
very far from camp. Close in the tracks and trails were a mishmash. Less than
twenty yards from the creek they sorted themselves out distinctly. The constant
temperatures preserved footprints in pristine condition. Pepperdine had
pointed north; Lawrence had found his badger north. Pursuing a hunch, Anna
followed the old trail. Thoughts blinding her, she walked without really seeing
until she reached the clearing where Neil had been sitting earlier in the day.
It seemed more like weeks. Time was definitely doing its petty pace thing. Anna considered
rechecking the scene. Hiding out and smoking was believable but there was
something about it that rang a sour note. It'll come to me, she promised
herself. Lawrence was in
search of embers. She schooled her mind. Steam, smoke, heavy fuel loads, melted
snow: those were the things he would be looking for. Squinting against the
glare, gray faded into gray, white jarred against black, and she wished she had
the eyesight of a twenty-three-year-old. The constant
fog was wearing on Anna. She suspected it was partly to blame for the creeping
insanity that darkened their minds: Black Elk's wandering, Jennifer's
depression, Paula's sullenness, Pepperdine emerging as a closet bully. Anna had spent
a year of graduate school at the University of California in Davis. She
remembered the weeks of heavy tule fog that smothered the campus for twenty-two
days in January of that year. Students were jumping from the clock tower.
Professors were beating their wives. Dense
unremitting fog filled the brain, chilled and clouded human thought processes. A hallucination
disturbed Anna's field of vision. Past the dry creek where Lawrence had bagged
breakfast, over a low ridge, the texture of the world's walls looked slightly
different. Asked to describe it, Anna would have been hard pressed to find
words. The difference was minute, a mere disturbance of the air, like the first
wavering of heat mirage rising off the desert in late morning. If she stared too
long or thought too hard she couldn't see it anymore. A set of boot
tracks branched off in that general direction and she followed them. At the
badger creek the trail veered again, the new track leading up the ridge,
zigzagging around fallen trees. Snow over ash: each print was as clear as the
painted footsteps in an Arthur Murray dance studio. At the top of
the ridge Anna could see what had drawn Lawrence so far from camp. Beyond a
shallow valley and over another hill, slightly lower than the one on which she
stood, the imperfection in the air was pronounced. Steam billowed up in clouds.
A faint smell of rotten eggs tainted the air. The view from
the second ridge was considerably more startling. In the valley below a
horseshoe-shaped depression cut into the side of the mountain. Steam poured up
in veils, sinuous, live, sentient to a tired mind. Snow had melted in a wide
irregular circle exposing gray earth and rivulets of smoking water of
improbable aquas and oranges and lavenders. The sound of bubbling—bubbles
primeval in size—percolated through the steam. Seated on a stone, his back to her,
was Lawrence Gonzales, mother naked. From her work
in the northern midwest Anna knew it wasn't uncommon to find people frozen to
death, their clothes torn off and strewn around. No one knew for sure, but the
theory was that in the late stages of hypothermia, when the body's thermostat
was going haywire, the victims felt suddenly hot and so divested themselves of
garments. Almost
instantaneous with that thought, the pieces came together. Lassen Volcanic
National Park. The entire mountain range from Canada on down was formed by
volcanic activity. Lassen Volcano had erupted in the early 1900s, Helens in
1980. Thermal activity was a common feature in the park. Mud pots, fumaroles
and boiling springs. Lawrence had found a thermal outlet. One thought
crowded all others from Anna's mind. She forgot she'd come to interrogate the
man, she forgot all the dangers, she forgot Gonzales was naked. It would be warm. "Lawrence!"
she hollered lest her sudden appearance startle him and he injure himself in
the boiling stream. "I'm
naked," he called as in warning. "That's
okay." Anna hopped the last few feet, unlacing a fire boot as she came.
Dumping herself on the rock next to him she finished unlacing and pulled her
boots off with a grunt. Lawrence had
dragged his shirt modestly over his lap but Anna was beyond noticing. Thrusting
her feet in the thermal pool next to his she threw her head back and laughed.
"Who'd've thunk it? Heaven's a fire pit stinking of sulphur. We've got to
call the Pope and let him know they've got it all wrong." To their left a
small lake, thirty or forty feet across, hissed and spat. The water backed up
against a wall of dirty-white porous soil pocked with holes, some the size of
pinpricks, some several yards across. Above the mud bluff were old growth
trees, the bark blackened and the needles scorched but the tops still green.
The Jackknife had gone around them. They would probably survive another hundred
years if no one cut them down. Steam poured
from vents and Anna could hear the dull wet plop of mud pots. For twenty yards
around the lake nothing lived, at least nothing larger than the rainbow-hued
algae that lined the runoff beds. The ground was as barren and white as an
alkali flat. The thermal
lake looked as if it came from one of the seven levels of hell. Colors were
bright and unnatural, painted by algae that lived in the differing temperate
zones. Water was opaque: milky green, then blue, then white. To the center and
rear, where the mud pots boiled, the surface simmered, heat roiling, sending up
belches of sulphur-scented steam. Lawrence's
perch was sensibly downstream from the burning lake where the water had been
cooled by springs and melting snow. Anna stripped
down to her underpants and shirt. But for Lawrence's delicate sensibilities she
would have chucked those aside as well. Sulphur water, stinking and warm, ran
from her arms and face in black rivulets. Hot air billowed around her. The rock
beneath her bare thighs was pleasantly warm. "God, this
is great," she said for the tenth time. "Be
careful," Lawrence cautioned. "There's a place like this over in the
park called Bumpass Hell because the first white guy that found it fell through
and got a leg burnt off. These places are weird. The ground is hollow
like." Gonzales had spread his trousers around so they covered his crotch
and most of his butt. He sat rigid as if afraid any movement would endanger
this careful arrangement. Anna realized
she held him captive as effectively as if he were locked in an interrogation
room and dragged her mind back to the reason she had tracked him down.
Gratitude was getting in her way. A badger and a bath: Gonzales was proving an
excellent friend. Anna shelved her generous impulses. "You know
this area pretty well?" she said for openers. "I grew up
sixty miles south of here," he replied. Anna pondered
what to say next. She was acutely aware that she was unarmed and semi-naked
within throwing distance of a lake she'd not only never swim out of but from
which her body would probably never be recovered. "Susanville?"
she asked, remembering a small red dot on the California road map. "You're
a hunter, camper, hiker—that sort of thing?" Gonzales shook
his head. "A city boy without a city. I worked around here. Not up this
far—down on the Plumas National Forest south of Westwood." "For the
Forest Service?" Anna asked. She was pushing close to potentially
sensitive areas. Reluctantly, she pulled her feet out of the warm water and stepped
into her pants. Maybe naked, Lawrence would be too shy to chase her if she had
to make a run for it. "The
BLM," he said. A note of caution crept into his voice and he was looking
uncomfortable. Unless a suspect was drunk or retarded, and even then about half
the time, there came a moment when the conversation got too close to some core
truth. Defenses went up. Anna watched for that moment with both anticipation
and dread. If it came it meant she was on to something. It also meant they were
on to her and getting what she was after became more difficult. The summer job,
the BLM was a raw nerve. She filed that away and backed off for the moment.
"Reno's fairly near here, isn't it?" she asked. Lawrence
relaxed. The change in geography soothed him. Anna was interested. Susanville
had the history of a lost summer job, Reno of assault and grand theft auto. "Eighty
miles southeast of my hometown," Lawrence said. "Get over
there much? Gamble? Take in a show?" "I used
to. I used to date a girl from Sparks. It bumps right up against Reno."
Lawrence laughed. "What?"
Anna prodded. She was just curious. If it was funny to him it was probably of
no use to her. "Nothing."
He poked his toes into the flame-colored slime at the bottom of the stream. "Come
on," Anna said. "I'm bored." "Promise
you won't tell anybody?" He looked so
charming and boyish that Anna promised. She could always break it. "This
girl's father was a jerk. A real jerk. I tossed him in the Truckee River. He
was spitting water like a whale and he got out this badge he was always
flashing to get out of traffic tickets and yelling 'I'm a federal officer, I'm
a federal officer.' " Lawrence laughed again. "The guy was a meat
inspector." Anna laughed
with him. So much for assault on a federal officer. No wonder the Washoe County
sheriff's Department had no intention of extraditing the perpetrator. "Did
he drown?" Anna asked to keep the story going. "Nah. It
wasn't that deep. It was August. He didn't even catch a cold. Me and Justine
jumped in his old Thunderbird and left him there dripping and waving his meat
badge." That must have
been the grand theft auto. Anna was relieved. There were still a lot of
questions about his summer working for Nims but this wasn't the healthiest
place to ask them. Anna pulled on her boots and began lacing them up. For the
first time in what seemed eons her feet were warm. "Too bad we can't
bottle this and take it back to camp," she said. By the time they'd
traversed the three-quarters of a mile to the creek bed any water they took with
them in their plastic canteens would be cold. "Could you
turn around?" Lawrence asked. "I'm going to put my pants on." Anna turned her
back on the boy. He'd never know what an act of faith it was. "We could
bring Howard up here," Lawrence suggested. "It's warmer. Maybe he'd
feel better." The thought had
crossed Anna's mind but she'd discarded it. "I don't think we'd better
move Howard until we have to." "It's bad
then?" Lawrence asked, and Anna respected the concern in his voice. "It's
bad." When they were
within earshot of the bivouac, Anna returned to the subject of Leonard Nims.
"When you worked with the Bureau of Land Management, what did you
do?" "Marked
timber." Gonzales was walking in front of her and Anna noted the slight
hitch in his stride. "You
worked for Leonard Nims?" Anna gave up pussyfooting. There wasn't time and
Lawrence was already on his guard. He stopped and
turned to face her. Anna stopped as well, keeping ten feet of trail between
them. "Checking up on me?" Anna made no
reply. The answer was obvious. Behind
Lawrence's dark eyes decisions were being made. Anna could see them working
across his even features. None of the early warning signs of impending
violence—tensing, changing the center of gravity, fist clenching, eyes
skittering— manifested itself, so Anna stood her ground. "There was
a wildfire," Lawrence said finally. "Somebody lit it on purpose. Len
said he was going to say I did it." "Did
you?" "No. Len
told me to but I didn't. He must've got somebody else to do it for him." "Len told
you to light it?" Anna was just confirming what she'd heard. The
information was too new to process. "Yeah. It
was a bad summer. Everybody was out of work. Fire fighting's good money. It
happens all the time." "Len
wasn't out of work." Lawrence shrugged.
"You think I'm making it up. Len said everybody would. So I lit out." "I don't
think you're making it up," Anna said slowly. She didn't know if he had
all the facts straight, but she didn't doubt that he believed his own version.
"That must have been hard to take." "You're
going to pin his murder on me, aren't you." Gonzales wasn't asking. His
eyes narrowed, weight shifted, fists balled. Fear tuned up Anna's muscles,
readying to fight or run. "I'm not
pinning anything on anybody," she said evenly. "I'm just asking
questions. Did you see Hugh getting out of his shelter?" More than an
answer, Anna needed to change the subject. "He was
already out. He helped peel the damn thing off me." Gonzales didn't
strike Anna as a thinker. He was a doer. She doubted he'd wasted much time
figuring out the importance of fire shelters: how many, who was where, who
could prove they had one. Pepperdine, on the other hand, was a thinking man, an
educated man. He would have figured it out. Somebody was
lying. Given the choice of who, Anna tended to lean toward the man clever
enough to come up with a reason he thought he needed to. Chapter Nineteen ANNA COULDN'T REMEMBER ever having been so tired. Her
wristwatch told her it was close to one in the afternoon. Her stomach reminded
her it was way past lunchtime. The gray skies told her nothing. It could be
dawn or dusk or anywhere in between. The brief respite from the cold the hot
springs had afforded was just a memory. The chill had returned, sunk back into
her bones. It would have been worth the walk back up the hill to be warm again
but Jennifer and Stephen had gone and Anna stayed to watch Howard. Soon after
she'd relieved Stephen, Howard had fallen into an uneasy sleep. Paula Boggins,
faithful to the job Anna had given her, took the opportunity to slip off to the
"ladies' room." Anna smiled, the superfluous trappings of
civilization suddenly striking her as dear, precious; humankind touching and
admirable in its usually futile attempts to rise above a less than divine nature. John, with Hugh
trailing officiously after, had gone to make the call to Base. Anna was just as
glad. She needed time to think. Then she needed to talk with Frederick in
private. Or what passed for private over the airwaves. Leaning against
the boulder in the semidarkness of the makeshift tent, she closed her eyes and
hoped for rest if not sleep. Both eluded her. Fragments of conversations,
images, ideas, drifted through her mind. Gonzales,
boyish and earnest, chucking a meat inspector into the Truckee. Gonzales
leaving the summer job because he was suspected, accused of, or framed for
arson. Either Len had
falsely accused Lawrence or he had known of the arson. Six years ago: it seemed
a little late in the game for revenge but grudges had been held longer and with
less provocation. Nims might have
been blackmailing Lawrence, threatening to report the arson. No. Anna
shuffled that card to the bottom of her mental deck. Nims would be in just as
much hot water for not reporting it when it happened. Besides, Lawrence didn't
have anything but youth and good looks. Sex? Could Nims have been blackmailing
Lawrence for sexual favors? Anna could easily see Lawrence killing a man for
that. But not six years later in a firestorm. He'd have beat him to death with
his fists the first time the subject came up. Lawrence said
Nims ordered the fire set. Could he have been blackmailing Len? That made as
little sense as the other way around. Nims was right: nobody would have
believed the kid then and even less so now. Unless Lawrence had found proof. Still, it was
Nims who'd wound up dead. Blackmailers didn't tend to kill their victims. No
profit in it. Then there were
the lies. Either Lawrence had lied about Hugh seeing him exit his shelter or
Pepperdine had lied. Since Anna put her money on Pepperdine, she decided to
grant Lawrence Gonzales at least temporary amnesty and moved on. Hugh Pepperdine
had known Nims was dead before he should have. Hugh had, Anna was convinced,
lied about Lawrence seeing him get out of his fire shelter. Pepperdine was a
veritable casserole of modern-day neuroses. Anna wished she could turn him
loose in Molly's Park Avenue clinic for an hour or two and get a psychiatric
profile on him. Insecurity teamed up with conceit, braggadocio with cowardice, selfishness
with a need to be admired. Pepperdine was dysfunctional—to put it politely—and
he was lying, but Anna couldn't figure out why. So far she'd heard nothing that
connected him in any way with Leonard Nims. He didn't appear to have done
anything sufficiently interesting in his short life to make him a candidate for
blackmail. And Anna doubted he had the muscle memory to shove a knife into
another man's ribs. Violence is
learned. She remembered practicing kicking till her back ached, swinging a
baton until she could no longer lift her arms. Practicing technique was part of
it but just as important was teaching the body to respond without having to
wait for orders from a mind that might be otherwise engaged. Women—and
momma's boys like Hugh Pepperdine—had a harder time of it. Movies, books,
television, myths and wives' tales taught little girls to shriek and throw up
their hands in despair. Mind and body had to be taught to overcome programmed
helplessness. Lawrence
Gonzales had the muscle memory. So did Joseph, Anna realized. When she'd
startled him, he'd swung on her with a movement so ingrained it was not
precipitated by conscious thought. He'd not learned that in art history class. Stanton said
Joseph Hayhurst was working to block an oil lease on what he believed to be a
culturally significant site. Surely that wouldn't be grounds for murder. Not
that one Leonard Nims more or less was equal in value to an irreplaceable
historical artifact, but because Nims was a bureaucrat, a cog in a very large
machine. He'd be replaced. There was no way one could kill them all, though
Anna suspected activists often fantasized about it. Removing Len
would be, at best, a temporary solution. Unless it was a foregone conclusion
that Len would okay the lease where another would not. What had LeFleur said?
Nims rubber-stamped oil lease applications "NSI," No Significant
Impact. The oil drillers must have been grateful. How grateful? What would it
be worth to them in cold, hard cash? Lawrence said
Nims ordered him to light a wildfire, people needed the work. How much? In
Susanville Nims had been in a position to hire local firefighters. What would
it be worth to a man out of work, trying to feed a family? Anna opened her
eyes. She had a couple of homework assignments for Frederick Stanton next time
they made contact. If Nims was in the business of taking kickbacks for favors
rendered, Joseph might want him dead. Who else?
LeFleur would be better off professionally exposing Nims than killing him. Neither Stephen
nor Jennifer had motive as far as Anna knew but they didn't have alibis either.
Out of necessity Anna had granted Jennifer temporary amnesty. Much as she would
like it to, that couldn't include Stephen. Stephen had the knowledge to pierce
Len's heart at one go. Anna believed he had the strength of character to share
his fire shelter when the chips were down. Odd that in this murder she must
first find the person kind enough to save the victim's life—unless the murderer
recognized the situation as a dream-come-true from the beginning. Unlikely,
Anna thought. Too much going on for detailed plotting. Black Elk
moaned and jerked in his sleep. Anna laid her hand on his chest hoping to
comfort him. He opened his eyes and looked into hers but she doubted he was
seeing her. "How're you
doing, Howard? Can I get you anything?" The big man
didn't answer. Anna moved and his eyes didn't follow. Whatever he saw, it was
not of this world. "Len shouldn't have done it," he said clearly.
"Paula wasn't hurting anybody." Howard was
dreaming or delirious and Anna felt a stab of alarm. Curiosity overcame it.
Feeling like a heel even as she did it, she pressed him: "What shouldn't
Len have done?" Black Elk
hadn't heard her. He closed his eyes and his body relaxed. Whatever alarm had
gone off in his fevered brain had been answered and he fell into a doze. Leaning back
again, Anna closed her eyes as well. Unless Howard was totally lost in dreams,
Len had done something to Paula Boggins. Perhaps the something over which Paula
had clawed his face. Jennifer had been questioning Paula; probably some of the
conversation had soaked into Howard's consciousness, hence the outburst. According to
Stanton, Paula had been arrested twice. Page had bailed her out twice. She
lived fairly comfortably with no visible means of support. Boggins might be
living off an inheritance or alimony but if not she was getting paid for
something that went unrecorded. Odds were it was illegal. That being the case,
it was possible Len had been blackmailing her and/or Neil if he was in partnership
with her. She and Neil had a relationship that spoke of familiarity and
tolerance without affection. That smacked of a business relationship based on
mutual need or profit. It made more
sense to Anna than the Gonzales/Nims scenario. Boggins could knife someone if
she had to, Anna would lay money on it. Paula would do whatever she had to to
get by. Page didn't seem an unlikely source of violence either. Anna had a
hunch Paula's means of support might be illuminating. She added to her list of
things a suggestion she needed Frederick to track down. More out of
habit than because there was anything she could do for him, Anna checked
Howard's pulse and breathing, then settled down to ponder Neil Page. Page acted
suspicious, if that counted for anything. He was always creeping off by
himself, anxious to cast any particles of blame, however small, on someone
else. He'd been quick to deflect interest from himself by telling Jennifer
Paula and Nims had quarreled and Paula had scratched Len. Page also insisted
Paula had seen him getting out of his shake 'n' bake. Should that turn out to
be true, it effectively let him off the hook. Too bad, Anna thought. So far it
was a tossup between him and Pepperdine as to who she'd most like to pin a
homicide on. Scooting as
close to Howard as she could, Anna laid her arm across his chest to share her
warmth with him. As soon as Jennifer returned they could compare notes. Till
then she would try and get some rest. Chapter Twenty SLEEP HAD FINALLY overtaken Anna and in her dreams she was warm and
fed and unafraid. When the sound of fabric rubbing against itself intruded, her
mind, loath to desert the comfort it had found, attributed it first to window
curtains floating in a gentle breeze, then to the swish of starched petticoats,
a sound dredged from so deep in her subconscious all she could come up with to
account for it were the ruffled squaw dresses she and Molly had been given for
Sunday school when they were children. The picture was so alien it woke her and
she found herself slumped under the fire shelters. The arm she'd draped across
Black Elk's chest tingled from being too long in one position and her lungs
hurt from trying to soak up oxygen around the smoke-borne debris lodged in the
tissues. Jennifer Short
had returned. She stunk of sulphur and the top layer of grime on her face had
been sluiced to a translucent gray. "What time is
it?" Anna asked, as if it mattered. Short looked at
her wristwatch. "Coming on two." Anna had slept
less than an hour but she felt better for it. Carefully, so she wouldn't wake
Howard, she pinched up the sleeve of her shirt and hauled her arm off his
chest. He didn't stir but the sleep that claimed him was more akin to
trauma-induced unconsciousness than true rest. At least he was still breathing,
though ragged gurgling sounds attested to the effort. Anna laid the back of her
hand against his neck. He was hot to the touch. Fever boded ill but the
over-warm skin felt good and she left her hand there in hopes an exchange would
benefit both of them. Jennifer
settled down in the gloom near Black Elk's knees and stretched her hands toward
one of the metal hard hats Joseph had filled with coals. Her fingers trembled. "What did
you think of that weird lake?" Anna asked. Jennifer didn't
reply. She didn't even raise her eyes. The yoke of depression Anna had thought
thrown off was back, pressing down on her shoulders, bowing them till it looked
as if it must be causing physical pain. "Jen!"
Anna said more loudly. Finally the
younger woman looked up. Her eyes were as dull and opaque as the waters of the
thermal spring. "You look
like shit," Anna said kindly. "You've caved in somehow. What were you
guys doing up there?" "Nothing.
Washing. Like that." Jennifer lowered her eyes again and pushed her shaking
hands nearer the makeshift brazier. "Coals are near dead." "We'll
find more," Anna said, though she was far from certain they would. The
Jackknife had consumed all the fuel for miles. All they had left were her
leavings. "What did
you get out of Paula?" she asked, hoping to engage Jennifer's mind. Short just
shook her head. "She saw Neil get out of his shelter. That's about
it." That minimal exchange seemed to exhaust her and she hung her head,
staring sightlessly at dead embers. Anna sat up
straight and looked Jennifer hard in the face. "Something happened up at
the lake. You've folded up on me like a cheap umbrella." Jennifer sighed
so deeply the air caught in her damaged lungs and came out on a dry whispering
cough. "Josh . . . Stephen said . . ." She ran out of air and sat for
a moment without speaking. With an effort she sucked in a lungful and began
again, the words coming quickly. "Stephen said everybody thinks Josh lit
the fire—this fire—on purpose." She looked up at Anna, waiting for her to
say it wasn't true. Anna floundered
around for a serviceable lie but she was tired and didn't come up with one
quickly enough. Jennifer
crumpled, resembling a rag doll whose stuffing has all leaked away. "Being
he's gone they can say anything. Pin it on him. Like it doesn't matter. Like he
won't care that what he'll be remembered for won't be any of the good things he
did but for burning down California." No tears stood in her eyes, they
were dry and rimmed with red, but her voice was choked with them and for a
minute she was unable to go on. Anna cast about
for something comforting to say. "Not everybody says arson," she
tried. "Some figure he just let the campfire get away from him—" "That's
crap!" Jennifer snapped, and Anna was silenced. "Josh wasn't stupid and
he knew all that Woodsy Owl shit. Jesus! People think a gay man can't rub two
sticks together and make a fire. Give me a break." Anger gusted and was
gone, leaving Jennifer once again empty. "Josh didn't let his fire get
away. That's crap," she finished softly. To Anna it
seemed a little thing, but in grief people latched onto minutia. At least it
was graspable and, with luck or hard work, sometimes even reparable. Time and
again she'd seen people who'd lost a child or spouse to accident or disease
dedicate the remainder of their lives to a crusade against whatever had taken
them. It was
something to do, Anna supposed. It provided direction and a reason to get out
of bed mornings. Maybe it made them feel closer to those they'd lost. "If he
didn't do it, maybe somebody else did," Anna suggested. "When we get
out of here, I'll talk to the Forest Service; see if we can go over the arson
investigation reports." "Don't.
It's crap." For the moment
Anna let it go. Her bag of tricks was empty. "So." She leaned back
against the boulder and pounded her heels gently in the sand to work some blood
back into her posterior. "Paula said she saw Neil get out of his shelter
after the fire?" Jennifer
nodded. "Neil said
the same thing so I guess we'll call it true. What the hell, I'm feeling
magnanimous." Jennifer didn't
so much as smile. "I saw
Howard, so did John. That's two down." "Three,"
Jennifer said. "I was there when Stephen unwrapped himself." Anna felt a
mild sense of relief. "Good. Neil, Howard, Stephen. Anybody see you?"
she asked hopefully. "Nobody."
Though she had to know why Anna was asking, Jennifer didn't seem to care. Conversation
stopped as Paula Boggins pulled aside the shelter serving as a partial doorway
and crept in. Her movements were stiff and careful. The second-degree burns
would be hurting her. Probably worse than Howard's were hurting him. Ignoring the
other women, she crawled over by Black Elk and felt of his brow and cheeks.
"He's hot," she said accusingly, and Anna felt she'd failed in her
duties. "Maybe I should put some wet cloths on him, cool him down like you
do little kids?" Anna wished she
knew more of medicine. Conserving heat was important but the man was feverish.
Either way Black Elk's energies were being spent and he needed all the strength
he could get. "Not cold," Anna suggested. "Dip a cloth in
warmish water and wring it out good before you wipe his face. Watch him close.
See if it seems to be helping any." Paula turned to
the task with the grace of a natural-born nurse. "You're
good at that," Anna said. "What do you do for a living?" "I got a
kid," Paula said as if that was an answer. Maybe it was. "No
job?" Paula gave Anna
a dirty look and for a minute Anna thought she wasn't going to get any more out
of her hut Boggins wasn't the type to suffer in silence. "You think
everybody's got to get all got up in some kind of uniform and march around like
a man or they ain't working? You got your head up your ass, lady." Anna whistled
to prove it wasn't so and it amused Paula. Anger dissipated. Grudgingly, she
said: "I work out of my home." The phrase
sounded rehearsed, the words not those Paula would have strung together
herself. "What do
you do?" Anna pressed. "Different
things." Paula wrung black water from a black neckerchief then tenderly wiped
it across Black Elk's face. "Mostly I sell my pictures. I'm an artist, you
know." She tossed her matted hair and Anna knew she was lying but it was a
lie she was in love with and Anna knew better than to challenge it. "Cool,"
she said, and busied herself stirring the dying coals in the fire pit.
"Paula, why did you scratch Leonard Nims's face?" she demanded
suddenly. Paula twitched
as if Anna had struck her and for a moment it looked as if she would bolt, but
she held her ground. Sullen-ness settled over her features, robbing her of
years till she looked no more than sixteen. "He was messing with me,"
she said. "Not that it's any of your business." Anna'd figured
that but she wanted Paula to say it in so many words. "Did he get
fresh?" Paula smirked
and Anna realized how naive and old-fashioned "fresh" must sound to
the young woman. "Fresh as
milk straight from the cow," Paula said, the smirk still in place. "There was
more to it than that," Anna said. "You can talk to me about it now or
the incident commander when we get out of here." For an instant it looked
as if the threat was going to bear fruit, then Paula's sense of
self-preservation kicked in. "I don't gotta
talk to nobody," she said. "I know my rights." She dipped
the filthy rag again and bathed Howard's temples. She was right.
Anna had no leverage, nothing to barter with or hold over her. "I've got
to go up to the ridge to call Base," she said. "Coming, Jen?" Jennifer shook
her head. "Come
on," Anna urged. "I need you there." "No. You
don't." Anna had lost
her. The tentative hold she'd had on Jennifer's attention had been broken and
Short was slipping away again. "The
weather will break soon," Anna said. "It's got to." Neither of the
women replied. Steeped as it
was in pain and hopelessness, the interior of the tent suddenly became
intolerable. The gestalt of suffering threatened to topple Anna's carefully
maintained defenses and she had to escape. Pushing herself to her feet, she
stumbled out with what she knew was unseemly haste. Once in the open, she
gulped down air like a woman nearly suffocated. Jennifer's
relapse had shaken her more than she could have predicted. Until then she'd not
known how lonely this ridge was, how isolated she was from her fellows. In
times of disaster people bonded, took comfort from one another, drew strength.
Len's murderer had robbed them of that. Warranted or not, Anna had put her
trust in Jennifer and in return she'd found courage. Without trust very little
that was good in humans could survive. People were
bizarre, she thought, remembering how when monsters rustled in the closet she
and Molly would find each other and so the courage to face any imagined
villains. As if two little girls were significantly more daunting to your
average axe murderer than one. Safety in
numbers was imprinted on the genetic code. With adulthood and its attendant
disillusionment, Anna thought she'd eschewed that particular maxim. Evidently
not. "Jen, come
with me," she hollered back toward the boulder. Silence was her answer and
she turned away. Shapes were
shifting. Blackened snags were being eaten away by encroaching hoarfrost. Snow
was patterned by booted feet. Only the sky remained unchanged and unchanging:
still, breathless, dead gray-white—the color of fish bellies. Anna stood in
the ice-fog trying to remember what it was she was doing, where she'd been
going when she'd exited the tent so precipitously. Frederick Stanton, she
thought, and was immoderately cheered. In all of Len's
horrid little life Anna'd yet to find one worthwhile thing he'd accomplished.
In his sordid little death she'd been given a reason to call Stanton every
three hours. For that she was grateful to the deceased. "Moderately Useful
Dead"; picturing that on Nims's tombstone cheered her further and she attacked
the climb to the ridge with something approximating enthusiasm. Just below the
heli-spot she met with John and Hugh. Pepperdine was doing the talking. About
what, Anna couldn't hear, but he moved his lips earnestly and shook a finger in
the air just often enough one wanted to snap it off. LeFleur had the look of a
man not listening but to whom the effort did not come cheap. "They
haven't done anything," Hugh called down before Anna had a chance to ask
what the news was from Base. LeFleur tried
to silence him with a look but Pepperdine was immune to subtlety. "Not a
mother-frigging thing." Apparently
after the "dude" episode Hugh'd lost his nerve for colorful language.
Anna looked to John. He pawed his pocket. Still no smokes. "They're
working on it," he said wearily. "Six sawyers and a D-8 Cat. It's a
bitch of a job. Treadwell says they've cleared over three-quarters of a mile.
Given they've only been at it six hours, that's damn good." The speech was
to educate Pepperdine. If it registered, he didn't show it. "We could be
here a couple more days," he said. "That's bullshit. This is the
1990s." "The
weather'll break," John and Anna said almost in unison. Even in stereo it
sounded hollow. "They
won't risk a chopper after dark," John said. "Unless this stuff lifts
in the next hour or so, we'll be here at least one more night." To Anna, to all
of them, that seemed a long time. Black Elk very possibly would not survive it.
Jennifer would have to be watched, made to drink, to stay warm, to eat if any
more food presented itself. Paula, surprisingly, was doing well. Maybe she
could pull Howard through. There was enough fight in her to withstand nearly
anything, Anna guessed. At heart
Jennifer Short had that kind of strength. Anna had seen it. Joshua was her
Achilles' heel. Everybody had one. It was just bad luck Jennifer's had been hit
at this point in time. "Where are
you headed?" John asked. "Up to the ridge for secret squirrel
stuff?" "Calling
Stanton." Anna felt self-conscious admitting it on two counts: the
investigation with its surrounding secrecy that further alienated her from the
group and each from the other, and because she was afraid her personal agenda
stuck out like a sore thumb. "He the
boyfriend?" John asked. Trust your
paranoia, Anna thought. A quick denial leapt to the tip of her tongue but she
shook it off. "More or less," she said shyly. Better they think her a
fool than a threat. "Sir
Lawrencelot's going to be jealous," Hugh said. Anna stared,
started to count, then gave it up as a lost cause. "If you get a minute
later, John, could you kill Hugh for me?" "Sure
thing. Give the Feds my best." LeFleur started down the hill. Anna didn't
envy him the news he carried. Though the others knew what to expect, hope—and
so disappointment— springeth eternal. She took half a
dozen steps up the trail. Hugh followed. She stopped and turned. "I'm going
with you to make the call," he said before she'd had time to challenge
him. "I'm law enforcement. You're working without backup. That's against
policy." Anna eyed him.
Hugh's arms were folded across his chest, his jaw set in what, on his peevish
countenance, passed for determination. She'd never been adept at reading body
language but Pepperdine's was loud and clear. If he'd had four legs he would
have been a mule. Rational argument
was jettisoned. "I'm calling my boyfriend. Don't bother me." "That's a
crock." "Either
I'm a murder investigator or a prick tease," Anna growled. "You can't
have it both ways." "Females
can though?" Anna gave up.
"Go away." She took two steps more. He took two. She stopped. He
stopped. This could easily degenerate into a "did-too-did-not,
your-mother-wears-army-boots," childish squabble. Anna'd never been good
with children. Except for Alison and Bella, the daughters of women at Isle Royale
and Mesa Verde, she didn't even know any. And Ally and Bella were more close
personal friends than children. Going back to
basics, Anna decided telling Mom was the best course. "If you don't quit
I'm going to call John and have him drag you kicking and screaming back down
the hill." Pepperdine took
a belligerent stance, his hand on the stolen knife. Seconds ticked by. Anna was
betting he didn't have the nerve to face John LeFleur. She won. "I
wouldn't dream of interfering with your love life," Pepperdine sneered, and
turned toward camp. Anna watched until he was out of sight below the brow of
the hill. "FREDERICK," ANNA SAID. His voice mellowed her and she
snuggled back against the truck with a feeling akin to comfort. "How are
you doing, Anna?" He sounded so
genuinely concerned she felt that weak and weepy sensation building up.
"Howard's going downhill," she said to get the subject on neutral
ground. "But the rest of us are holding up fairly well. I don't suppose
you've got any good news for me?" "These
guys are moving mountains down here but they've got more to move. No good news.
The front is moving slowly. It'll probably clear before we get the road open if
that makes you feel any better." It didn't, but
to keep her credit good, Anna said she was glad to hear it. Crunching
caught her ear and she stopped breathing. "Stand by," she whispered
into the mike, her attention on listening. Snow falling
off a branch. Except there were few branches left and the snow had been
cemented on by the lingering frost. Silence reassured her. "I've got
some homework for you if you're ready to copy," she said. "Go
ahead." Anna could
picture Frederick surrounded by lists, pen in hand, his dark head bent, the
stick-straight hair falling over his forehead. The picture brought a smile to
her lips. She told him of Lawrence Gonzales's accusation. "Check out Len's
reputation in Susanville," she said. "And Paula Boggins's run-in with
Nims as well as her invisible income." Anna outlined her suspicions
briefly. Then she told
him of Jennifer Short's tumble back into depression. "If you could dig up
something that cleared Josh of the arson charge, it might help. Even if it only
seemed to," Anna added, giving him tacit permission to, if not lie, then
put the most favorable twist on the facts. Frederick
responded to this last assignment with a warmth that at first pleased Anna,
then became irksome. Had an inquisitor put her in thumbscrews she would have
been forced to admit that Stanton's obvious concern for Jennifer was making her
a wee bit jealous. Since there wasn't a thumbscrew for a thousand miles, she
shrugged it off. "Can I get
anything else for you?" Stanton asked when she'd finished. "A large
pepperoni, extra cheese, extra onions." Behind her,
hidden from view by the truck, Anna heard the same sound that had alarmed her
earlier. It was closer. Quietly she
pushed herself to her knees and looked over the hood. Black-and-white landscape
camouflaged hummocks, piled snags, hollows. Hiding would be easy. A rustling so
tiny it seemed only a tickle in her inner ear held her attention. "John?"
she tried her radio. No answer. LeFleur had his radio off, conserving the
battery. Base was helpless to interfere, still she needed to let someone know
what was going on. "Frederick?" "I'm
here." "I've got
company, please monitor." "Anna?"
Stanton sounded worried and it pleased her. "Stand
by," she said, and switched the Motorola off. Chapter Twenty-One SENSES HONED TO an uncomfortable edge by the furtive sounds, Anna
listened. From her stomach she heard the badger growl for company; breath
rasped in her ears—the body clamoring for the necessities of life. Consciously
she slowed her breathing, forced air deep into her lungs. With oxygen
came a semblance of calm. The ridge was bathed in a silence so deep as to be
unnatural. From her years in the backcountry, Anna knew she could settle into
that silence, wait it out. Few people could, and it put time on her side.
Leaning against the remaining fender, she made herself comfortable and focused
on seeing, hearing, breathing, staying alert and in the moment. The wait wasn't
prolonged. Humanity hates a silence the way nature abhors a vacuum. To her left
she heard movement. Ice had made the snow as brittle as ground glass. Every
footstep reverberated. On impulse,
Anna shouted: "Hugh!" The only
response was a crunching rearrangement of body parts on snow. Noise pinpointed
location: a pile of downed snags twenty feet from where she stood. Since it had
neither color nor shadow, she'd not realized it was big enough to hide anyone.
"Come out from behind that deadfall," she called. "You've got to
be getting cold hunkered down like that. Don't be such an ass." The insult
gouged Pepperdine out of hiding. A yellow hunchback materialized above the
snags—Hugh's back with its yellow pack strapped firmly in place—then his face
as he pushed himself up. They stared at
each other across a field of white. Anna was at a loss for words. Those that
came to mind were of the four-letter variety and inherently unproductive. What
was passing through Pepperdine's mind, she could only guess at. Embarrassment
had flitted across his face, anger chasing it quickly away. His brain was in
overdrive, she suspected, spinning desperately in an attempt to turn the
situation around to where he wasn't the idiot. "I need
your radio," Hugh said, as if that was what he'd come for. "Why? You
seem fairly adept at sneaking and eavesdropping. No sense in carrying the extra
weight." "I suppose
you were planning on keeping the fact that Sir Lawrencelot is an arsonist under
wraps." Hugh changed tactics. "Did it
ever cross your so-called mind that he killed Len to keep him from telling? Or
is the mama lion protecting her mate?" Words were to
Pepperdine what whiskey was to some men. Anna could see him getting drunk on
his own verbiage. With it, he found the courage to step out from behind the
screen of burned logs. His eyes locked on hers in an unwinking stare and she
recalled one of her instructors saying when you saw that look, get ready to
fight or make love. Casually, she rebalanced
herself, got her fanny off the fender, moved her weight to the balls of her
feet. "We only protect our young," she said. "I don't know where
you're getting all this stuff from but it's growing a bit thin." Hugh snorted.
"You've been sniffing around Lawrence since day one. If you'd seen him
facedown in the dirt whimpering like a girl, maybe you'd lose your taste for
Mexican." More words,
more courage. Anna didn't like it. Pepperdine had a screw loose somewhere and
she felt inadequate to handle him. "What put a burr under your saddle
about me and Lawrence? I hardly know the guy. I'm old enough to be his
mother," she threw in for good measure. "I saw you
and sonny boy at that hot springs lake ... Mom." The coupe de grace
delivered, Hugh took several steps toward her. "I'll be taking that radio
from now on." "I'll tell
you what," Anna said. "Howard's feeling so bad I doubt he'd miss his.
When we get back down the hill, let's ask him." "The
battery's dead in Howard's." Anna had
switched hers out with Howard. He needed the comfort; she needed the
communication. Evidently Pepperdine had already taken the liberty of
"confiscating" Black Elk's radio a second time. Hugh advanced a
couple more steps. "I'll be taking that radio." "You and
whose army?" Anna meant it as a joke, a way of lightening the mood and
underlining the absurdity of the situation. Pepperdine took it as a challenge.
He pushed his brush jacket back like a TV gunslinger and began fingering the
hilt of Black Elk's Buck knife. "Stop
playing with that damn knife," Anna snapped. "You're making me
crazy." "This
knife?" Hugh said innocently, and pulled the thing from its sheath. He
turned the blade this way and that as if catching the light. "This knife
scares you, doesn't it?" Anna said
nothing. She was racking her brain for any kernels of information her sister
might have let fall when discussing her psychiatric practice on the handling of
dangerous lunatics. Pepperdine made
a feint toward her and when she flinched, he laughed. "Give me
the knife," she said evenly. "Give me
the radio." Anna could see
no harm in that. Back in camp, when she had help, she could always get it back.
Hugh could do less damage with a Motorola than with a weapon. "Sure."
She pulled it from its leather holster. Hugh's face took
on a crafty look, taking her easy capitulation as a sign of his power. "No
deal," he said. Anna raised the
radio to her lips and thumbed down the mike button. "Frederick, are you
still standing by?" Hugh rushed
her. Instinct told
her to run. Her legs quivered with the need to comply. But something warned her
flight would further excite Pepperdine. She'd seen small dogs in hot pursuit;
the moment the cat stopped the little beasts invariably backed off. Hugh wasn't
grasping the knife like he knew how to use it. The hilt was in his palm and his
index finger extended along the blade, the way children are taught to hold a
knife when cutting their food. His arms were in front of him, close together as
if he intended to tackle rather than slash her. These things
were noted in the seconds it took him to close the distance between them. The
observations were mildly reassuring but the look on Pepperdine's face was not.
Committed to an insane act, he was intent on carrying it through. At Anna's back
was the truck. She'd effectively limited her escape routes. Dodging left or
right was likely to result in some portion of her person getting pinned between
the iron and Hugh's bulk. Reflexes
superseded thought; she threw herself up and back, her butt landing on the
hood. Crablike, she scrabbled across the ice-slicked surface. Hugh dove
after. The knife collided with Anna's left ankle, cutting into her boot
leather. Black Elk kept his equipment honed and in good condition. Anna didn't
thank him for it. Kicking out,
she connected with Hugh's shoulder. Recoil sent her off the far side of the
hood. Breath was knocked out on impact but there was no time to give in to the
shock. Overcoming the panic of airlessness, she pushed herself to her feet. Hugh was
stretched across the hood like a stag brought home from the hunt. He'd be on
top of her in a heartbeat. With the knife clutched now more in the fashion of a
weapon than a butter knife, he clawed at the hood, trying for purchase. The Motorola
was still in Anna's grasp. With all the strength she could muster, she brought
it down on Pepperdine's wrist. He screamed and his fingers flew open, the knife
skittering down the hood and into the snow. Anna dropped
the radio and grabbed Pepperdine by the hair and the back of his collar. Using her
weight she pulled. Ice helped and Hugh's two hundred pounds slid across the
hood, shot out and fell; a belly flop into the frozen snow. Before he could
recover, Anna jumped on his back, one knee in his sacrum, the other on the
small vertebrae of his neck. With both hands, she grabbed one of his and
twisted it up behind his back. Writhing, Hugh
tried to buck her off. Anna cranked
down on his arm. "Lay still or I'll bust it. Swear to God, I will." Pain did what
logic could not and Hugh stopped struggling. Both of them
were breathing hard. Seconds ticked by. Anna was trying to figure out what to
do next. He was too big to control, too crazy to let go. "Okay,"
he panted. "Let me up. Come on, Anna, don't be a bitch." A laugh barked
out of Anna's lungs. Hugh was whining, apparently totally oblivious to what had
just transpired. "You've got to be kidding. You just attacked me with an
eight-inch Buck knife. I'm never going to let you up. If you move, I'll break
your arm." She tweaked it to prove she could. "If you move twice I'll
break your neck." She shifted to the knee on his vertebrae to lend weight
to her threat. "It might not kill you but as a quadraplegic, maybe you
won't be such a pain in the ass." "The snow
is burning me. I'm getting frostbitten. You can't leave me here with my face on
the ground." Face on the
ground. The phrase jogged something in Anna's mind and she stared into the
nothing that was the sky trying to lure the memory out. "If you'd
seen him facedown in the dirt whimpering like a girl..." Hugh had said
that of Gonzales. Anna could only think of one circumstance where Pepperdine
might have witnessed a scene like that. After the blowup they'd all been
facedown in the sand and, she was willing to bet, even the bravest among them
had let a whimper or two escape. "You saw
Lawrence get out of his shelter," she said with certainty. "Admit it
or I'll break your arm." "Duress.
Won't hold up in court," Hugh gasped through the pain. "I don't
care. I just want to hurt you." To prove it, she did. Hugh shrieked. "It wasn't
that bad," she said, annoyed. "I hardly even twisted it. As Mom used
to say, 'Quit crying or I'll give you something to cry about.' Lawrence. The
shelter," she prompted, putting enough pressure on Pepperdine's arm to
make a fracture seem like a distinct possibility. "Okay! I
saw!" he yelped. "You're going to break my frigging arm!" "Fucking
arm, Hugh. I'm going to break your fucking arm. So you helped Lawrence out of
his shelter. Good. Now, you knew Nims was dead. None of us did. How come? Did
you kill him, Barney?" At the sound of the hated nickname, Anna realized
what she was doing was cruel. Later she would probably feel guilty. At the
moment she just didn't give a damn. "No. I
just guessed. We'd been through a frigging fire!" "Fucking
fire," Anna corrected, and tweaked his arm. "You knew. You killed
him." "He wanted
to get in my shelter," Hugh blurted out. Meanness went
out of Anna, taking her strength with it. The firestorm roaring down the
mountain, Nims without a shelter, begging to be let in, begging for his life.
Pepperdine, a bigger man, stronger, pushing him away, condemning him to be
burned alive. Hugh was guilty, not of sticking a knife in a man's ribs, but of
craven cowardice. In many ways it was worse and Anna's contempt was tempered
with pity. She still knelt
on Hugh and he lay compliant, afraid she'd carry out her bone-crushing threats,
but the time had passed. "If I let
you up, what are you going to do?" she asked wearily. "Nothing,
I promise. Just let me up. My face is frozen." "Don't get
up till I say, okay?" "Okay.
Just get off me." "Stay,"
Anna ordered. She backed away from him, retrieved the radio and the knife, then
moved around to the far side of the truck. "You can get up now." Hugh pushed
himself to his knees, then struggled to his feet and brushed the snow from his
jacket and trousers. "I suppose you're going to rush back and blab
everything," he said bitterly. "Not
unless you annoy me in some small way." He stood,
shifting his weight from foot to foot, his eyes not meeting hers, and Anna
wondered what he was up to. "Can I have my knife back?" he said
finally. "Nope." "Anna, do
you read? Anna, come in please." It was Frederick on her radio. Hugh sneered as
best he could and walked toward the trail leading back to camp. Ten yards from
her he stopped and turned. "You can
tell your boyfriend he doesn't need to track down how Paula makes her living.
She's a whore. A hooker. She's been working the camp. Everybody knew it.
Everybody but you. A trained observer—you should get into another line of
work." Anna had
guessed but she'd been so slow on the uptake she didn't feel like defending
herself. "You're
Mr. FLETC, why didn't you report it?" Anna returned, but she knew the
answer. He wanted to be one of the guys. Hugh turned his
back on her and she keyed the mike. "Anna
here." "Jeeminie!
Don't you ever do that to me again," Frederick exploded over the airwaves.
"What's going on up there?" "It was
nothing. Snow falling or something." Anna's back ached from wrestling with
Pepperdine and she was in a foul mood. "Forget about Boggins. Just follow
up on the Joshua Short thing for me." "I will.
And you call me at eight. You. Call me. Got that?" "No
problem." "We're
going to get you down off that ridge." "I know
you are. I'm turning my radio off now." "Ten-four.
Eight o'clock, Anna. Don't leave me standing at the altar." Anna laughed.
"Eight o'clock." She turned off the radio and leaned her elbows on
the truck in an attempt to ease her back. Black Elk,
Lindstrom, Gonzales, Page and Pepperdine were off the hook. That left only
LeFleur, who hated Nims and wanted him out of the way professionally; Joseph
Hayhurst, removing Nims to stop the oil lease; and Boggins. Paula was hooking.
Black Elk's words now made sense: Nims should have paid like everybody else.
Len had "messed" with Paula. Since injured virtue wasn't an issue,
attempted rape or blackmail very possibly was. Getting thrown out of camp would
cost Paula a bundle in unearned revenues. And she would be blackballed from any
fire camp in the future. LeFleur,
Hayhurst, Boggins. And Short. The
time for trusting her fellow men—if there ever had been a time—was gone. No one
had seen Jennifer leave her shelter. Blood stained her left glove. Anna knew of
no motive, no previous connection between Short and Nims, but it was turning
out there were a whole hell of a lot of things she didn't know. Chapter Twenty-Two STANTON HELD THE portable radio between his knees. Anna hadn't told
him the truth, he knew it. While he'd been helplessly "standing by"
something had happened. He was worried and hurt, he admitted. Getting to know
Anna Pigeon wasn't going to be easy. She'd been alone too many years; come to
rely on herself too much. Life was a team sport. Aloneness,
loneliness, had knocked on Frederick's door like the proverbial wolf more than
once in the dozen years since his last divorce, but his children—Candice
mostly—had kept the wolf at bay. She needed him and, therefore, he needed her.
The littles of his life could make her laugh, understand; they could comfort
and sometimes even educate. So he told them. Candice, as
yet, had no fear of intimacy and she shared her stories with him: boyfriends,
classes, concerts. In turn he was amused, comforted, educated. Anna had had a
husband, Frederick knew. He'd died. Dead was not good. Dead was a tough act to
follow. Women got addicted to widow's weeds. Anna guarded her loneliness like a
treasure she hoarded as a gift for dead what's-his-name. Frederick doubted he
could compete and he was wondering if he wanted to. He looked at
the knot of white pine he'd found and the pattern came clear. The monkeys were
not tied together by telephone line. They weren't tied together by anything.
They were seated back to back, each oblivious to his companion, anxiously
scanning the horizon for some sign of the other. Frederick fixed the image in
his mind though he knew he needn't bother. Every time he looked at the wood he
would see it in the grain. He put the
radio back in its charger and pulled the notebook with his lists close enough
he could read it. "Boggins/Livelihood"
was crossed out, "Josh/Arson" underlined. Duncan Foley, the retired
BLM timber coordinator from Susanville, had returned his call regarding Nims.
Foley hadn't been too specific. It sounded as if senility rather than reticence
slowed his tongue, but Frederick had been left with the impression Anna's
suspicions were correct: Nims had some shady deal with the lumber barons that
couldn't be proven and it had been deemed in everyone's best interests that he
move on quietly. Frederick had
yet to reach anyone at Aztec, Pepperdine's home park. Putting his
hands over his eyes, he began constructing a mental chart that would be the
basis of his investigation into the arson and the subsequent death of Joshua
Short. The known: The
Jackknife fire had been started near Pinson Lake in the immediate vicinity of
Mr. Short's camp. Mr. Short and his dog had perished in the blaze. Mr. Short
was camping at Pinson Lake preparatory to staging some kind of protest against
a local lumber company to stop cutting in what was believed by some to be an
environmentally sensitive area. Mr. Short was an experienced outdoorsman and an
environmental activist. Frederick had
seen no official paperwork on the incident but the accepted explanation seemed
to be that Short had either set the fire intentionally or had inadvertently let
his campfire burn out of control. Other than
that, Stanton hadn't a clue. He needed to see the coroner's report, review the
records in the case, talk with the Forest Service's arson investigator and
visit the scene of the deaths. This last might prove of little value. Fire,
snow and other investigators would have destroyed what physical evidence there
was. Working as a
private citizen Frederick had already pushed the limits of not only ethics but
legality. His first phone call was to his boss's home on the outskirts of
Chicago. "Jack's laying
down," Mrs. McGinnis said disapprovingly. Frederick had met Jack
McGinnis's wife several times on social occasions and knew her to be a
friendly, charming woman. The disapproval stemmed from thirty years of having
her husband's leisure time co-opted by the Bureau. "I'm awful
sorry, Mrs. McGinnis, but this is important." "It's
always important," she said tardy. The phone receiver clattered against
wood and Frederick knew she was going to wake Jack. "Yeah.
Stanton. What's up?" Jack McGinnis had the gravel voice of a man who has
abused whiskey and cigarettes most of his life and the jowly face to match but
as far as Frederick knew he was a teetotaler with no vices except working too
hard and drinking too much coffee. Frederick
explained the situation on the Jackknife with the murder and the suspected
arson. "Both crimes were committed on federal lands," he said.
"We've got jurisdiction." "I don't
recall the Forest Service clamoring for our invaluable assistance," Jack
said dryly. Frederick kept
quiet. Jack McGinnis was seldom talked into anything. He was a crusty,
dissipated-looking computer. Facts were fed in. He processed them and produced
a result. Ninety-nine times out of a hundred he was right. Or closer to right
than anyone else. "I got
somebody I can call and lean on. I'll see if they'll invite you to the party.
You're on the clock but no overtime. Don't even put in for it. And no travel.
Where are you at?" Frederick gave
him the number and listened as he read it back. "Hang on," McGinnis
said. "I'll get back to you." Less than ten
minutes later the phone rang. "You're official," Jack said. "The
forest supervisor said to call Chris Landis. He's the law enforcement officer
for the Forest Service in Chester. He'll bring you up to speed." Jack hung
up without saying goodbye but Frederick was unoffended. Over his years in the
Bureau he'd come to value time saved above just about anything but life saved.
Both were irreplaceable. Frederick
dialed the number he'd been given and within twenty minutes he was on
the road to Chester in a borrowed government pickup truck. The Jackknife was
news and, as he threaded his way through the press vans and camera setups on
his way out of camp, he blessed Burwell for placing the Communications tent out
of bounds. CHRIS LANDIS WAS in
his early fifties, a square-headed block of a man with thinning hair combed and
sprayed till a moderately believable hair hat had been constructed over his
bald pate. A pipe, evidently a permanent fixture, smoked in his right hand. "The case
isn't closed," he said, and Frederick noticed traces of a Maine accent.
"You're welcome to what we've got." He pushed a file folder across
the blotter of his battered wooden desk. Frederick picked it up but didn't open
it. "Find yourself a comfortable spot and give it a read," Landis
said. "Then, if you like, we'll take a wander up to Pinson Lake. Snow'll
cover up most of it but you can get the lay of the land." "Thanks a
heap." Frederick smiled engagingly in hopes of dissipating any sting FBI
interference may have caused. The folder clamped under his arm, he left Landis
to his pipe and sought out a quiet corner. Happily
ensconced in a storage closet pressed into service as an employee break room,
Frederick sipped instant cocoa and perused the official history of Joshua Paul
Short's life and death. Thirty-three
years old, Short was employed part-time as a computer programmer for Harrah's
Club in Reno, Nevada. He'd moved to the west from Memphis, Tennessee, four years
prior to his death. Short had been arrested three times, all misdemeanor
charges, 1991 and 1993 for trespassing and interfering with agency functions in
Plumas and Lassen counties in northern California, and in 1989 in San
Francisco. The charges boiled down to civil disobedience. The Plumas and Lassen
arrests occurred in protest activities to save the spotted owl. The San
Francisco arrest was during a gay rights march. Short had never served jail
time. According to
the information in the file, for two weeks prior to his death, Short had been
camped at Pinson Lake in an ongoing wrestling match with the Timberlake Lumber
Company. The Forest Service had leased them that tract of timber for harvest
and the company intended to log the area. An
Environmental Impact Statement from the Forest Service was included, either in
the interest of justice or in a CYA—cover your ass—capacity, stating that there
was no hard evidence of spotted owl activity in that tract of forest land. On September
eighteenth, four days after the Jackknife had been midwifed, the corpses were
discovered in the ashes of the burn. On September twenty-eighth the bodies were
identified as Joshua Short and dog. As Short had not died under a doctor's
care, an autopsy had been performed. The immediate
area of the camp was covered in flash fuels. From past conversations with
Burwell, Frederick knew flash fuels were light, dry, tindery materials such as
twigs and grasses that burned fast and hot. Due to the nature of the fuels,
Short's body had not been completely consumed but his face, hands, chest, belly
and the front of both legs were badly burned. Although much of the remaining
flesh had been eaten away by scavengers, enough of the internal organs remained
intact to reveal in the autopsy that Short had not died of smoke inhalation, as
was common in fires, hut had burned to death. The only other indication of
injury was a hairline basal fracture behind his right ear. Frederick
thumbed through the Environmental Impact Statement with little interest and
moved on to the report written by the first ranger on the scene. The burn had
originated from the fire ring in Joshua Short's camp. Best guess, working
backward from the time the fire was spotted by the lookout, was that it had
been ignited between one and five p.m. on
September fourteenth. A mangled Peak I camping stove was found near the fire
ring and there were traces of kerosene on the stones surrounding the shallow
pit as well as on an unburned portion of Short's left hiking boot. Stringing
together the evidence, the ranger had drawn up a possible sequence of events: While in use,
the camping stove had either fallen into the campfire or malfunctioned. The
resultant explosion splattered kerosene on nearby grass and needles. Burned or
blinded by the explosion, Joshua Short had fallen, struck his head and lost
consciousness. Dry fuels ignited quickly and burned at high temperatures.
Before Short regained consciousness, the flames killed him. Never having
been camping, Frederick had no experience with portable stoves, but the sketch
seemed plausible enough. He removed an
envelope of photographs taken at the scene. Fire had left the site clean. Ash,
swept smooth by the wind, coated the earth, the fire pit, the remnants of the
stove, Joshua's pack and the tent he'd been staying in. A few feet from the
fire pit a four-legged corpse marked the last moments of the dog's life. About
thirty feet away, in the direction the fire had taken, was the body of Joshua
Short. Animals had tracked up the ground around the carcasses and, judging from
the photos, dined rather well. Other than that, there were no marks in the ash.
A refreshingly untainted scene. Whoever had found them was to be commended for
resisting the urge to charge in and flail about. Frederick laid
the photographs out in a cross that resembled the pattern used by readers of
tarot cards. The table in the tiny break room was round and less than three
feet across. Photos used up all available space. Knees pinched together in a
maidenly manner, Stanton held the folder in his lap while he stared down at the
grisly collection. Smooth gray
ash, polished by the wind, two corpses, pack, tent and twisted chunks of the
stove. The trackless space between the disparate pieces in this tragic puzzle
niggled at Frederick's mind. Maybe it was just that he was unused to viewing
scenes of wildland fire. But it felt like more than that. , Slurping his
cocoa, he kept staring. To find out what was missing, he began piecing together
what was there, hoping then he would see the holes. The fire had been started
between one and five p.m. by a
stove accident. Perhaps Joshua had been making himself lunch or a cup of coffee
and either the stove malfunctioned and exploded or fell in the fire and
exploded. Smooth polished
gray. "No
utensils," Frederick murmured into his cocoa. "You cook with
utensils." In the unbroken field of ash there was no sign of pans or cups
or plates; no spoons—nothing. Joshua Short
was not cooking, not even boiling water. And he wouldn't use the stove for
heat; he had a fire. Frederick
adjusted his storyline. Short takes out his stove to prepare something and
discovers it's broken. While he's attempting to fix it, the stove explodes or
tumbles into the fire and explodes. Stanton scribbled a note on the fire folder
to ask if any tools had been found at the scene. Something small—a wrench or a
file—could be completely concealed by the covering ash. Field repairs
ending in a tragic accident. That made sense. The stove blows up, Short is
knocked on his keister—or in this case the back of his head—and loses
consciousness. Better,
Frederick thought, but not yet complete. There were still holes in the plot.
The dog for one. Also knocked senseless by the explosion? Not terribly likely
but explosions were unpredictable. Shrapnel from the body of the Peak I or
shards of stone blasted from the rocks surrounding the fire pit could have
taken out the dog, killed him outright or stunned him enough the fire got him.
Too bad no one had thought to autopsy the pooch. Frederick
returned his attention to the ex-Mr. Short. Thirty feet from the fire ring, the
report read. That looked about right. The body was facedown, feet toward the
fire pit. Stanton wrote a
second note on Landis's file folder. "Ballistics: how far could two cups
of kerosene under pressure throw a grown man?" Frederick doubted it would
be thirty feet, not leaving all of his body parts still attached. Facing away
from the fire ring, almost as if he were fleeing. That might account for both
the distance and the positioning. The stove falls in the fire, Joshua figures
it's going to explode and begins to run. Boom. Down he goes, cracks his head. Frederick liked
that scenario. It was both tidy and rational. Only with
reluctance did he abandon it. The basal fracture was at the back of Short's
skull. Being knocked face forward wouldn't account for it. Shrapnel got
both the dog and his master. Unlikely,
Stanton thought, but dutifully added "Cuts to the back of skull?" to
his list. No chunk large enough to strike a man senseless was visible in the
photos. Anything smaller, delivered with body-stopping force, would have broken
the skin. Again Frederick
rewrote Short's story. During repairs the stove falls in the fire. Short flees.
In haste he trips and cracks his head. Disoriented, he staggers a ways and
collapses facedown. Fire overtakes him. Do-able,
Frederick conceded. Not graceful or poetic, but definitely possible. Smooth ash,
polished. "Hit his
head on what?" Frederick mumbled. The campsite was flat, no stones, no
logs. "Look under ash" he added to the end of his list. A flat rock
could be concealed, one large enough a man could fracture his skull against it
were he so inclined. THE SAME FOG that held Anna and the San Juans
captive on the ridge smothered Pinson Lake. The water was as flat as glass and
the color of lead. Frederick was used to the cold. He liked it. It helped his
mind work. Snuggling his hands into the pockets of his down jacket, he whistled
"California Dreaming" under his breath while his eyes roamed the
unbroken expanse of white. An inch of snow
had taken the place of ash and the scene was amazingly unchanged from what
Stanton had seen in the pictures. Joshua was gone as was the dog, the tent and
the pack, but the fire ring remained. Chris Landis,
shivering in Forest Service green, stood beside him, bareheaded, his coiffure
too fragile to support a hat, his pipe clamped in his teeth. Between the fog
and the snow his smoke was invisible but Frederick could smell the pleasant
aroma of tobacco. "This
investigation drew the short straw, I'm afraid. The Jack-knife's been taking up
our time and attention for the last little while." Landis puffed on his
pipe as it threatened to go out. When he'd produced a good head of steam, he
said: "Day's not getting any younger. We may as well get to it." They unloaded
two rakes from the back of his Land Rover. Frederick started several yards
above where Short had fallen. Landis began at the fire pit. In less than an
hour they'd raked the area. No stones. No tools. Landis puffed.
Frederick leaned on his rake handle and thought. "He
could've hit his head on one of the rocks in the fire ring," Landis
suggested. They looked at the small, charred stones. Neither was sold on the
idea. The physics of the scene didn't fit. The rocks were too small, the
location wrong, the injury wrong. Whatever struck
down Joshua Short had come from behind and been removed from the scene before
the area burned. Short may have started the fire but someone else made sure he
stayed to enjoy it. "Looks
like we've come across a bit of a snarl," Landis said. Chapter Twenty-Three NO GOOD NEWS; call at eight. They were
going to spend another night on the mountain. Tears of self-pity wormed their
way through the muck on Anna's face. Lest they leave evidence of weakness the
others might read, she smeared them away. Mountain fogs never lasted, she lied
to herself with feeling, not like valley fogs. She'd look at it like Christmas
Eve. A long night waiting for a morning that would produce treats hitherto only
dreamed of. Come morning Santa would have brought clear skies and helicopters
and food. You're just
tired, she excused herself. And hungry. Hungry enough to eat a badger. Again.
She smiled at the rustic image of the nine of them chowing down on charred
rodent. LeFleur had saved the pelt. Somewhere along the line he'd picked up the
art of tanning and was going to tan the hide for Lawrence. How to Win
Friends and Influence People; badger breakfasts deserved a chapter in any
new editions. Using the
bumper for leverage, she pulled herself to her feet. Joints cracked in protest.
Muscles strained while frolicking with Mr. Pepperdine had stiffened from
sitting so long. Movement pried them apart and aches were renewed with a
vengeance. Viewed from the vantage of a warm house and civilized pursuits,
forty wasn't old. On a mountain in the snow every year gone by made itself
felt. Gonzales and even the lumpy Pepperdine still possessed reserves of
energy. On principle,
Anna cursed everyone under thirty. Walking back to
camp, she went over what she needed to do. She missed Stanton and his
ubiquitous lists. Her brain kept short-circuiting and it was hard to keep her
metaphorical ducks in a row. Whatever had
been removed from Nims's corpse troubled her, though she had little hope of
solving that particular mystery. Since she'd not seen fit to search the body
when they'd first discovered it, whoever had taken the missing item could be
wearing it around their neck for all she knew. With Page and
Pepperdine off the suspect list some of the fun had gone from the
investigation. Personally, Anna rather liked all of her remaining suspects.
Even Paula Boggins had begun to grow on her. The girl was a bit on the obvious
side, a tad snippy, but Anna admired her fighting spirit and the gentle way in
which she nursed Howard Black Elk. Still, Paula
Boggins needed talking to. At present she was a promising candidate for the
position of murderer. She had the means—as they all did—a functional left arm
and Len's knife ready at hand. The opportunity: she'd been through the
firestorm in a shelter no one had seen her get out of. And, now, a motive:
attempted rape or blackmail. Joseph Hayhurst
was next with all of the above. His motive was more highbrow but sufficient—the
saving of an historic site. LeFleur was
still in the running but Anna wasn't putting her money on him. His motive was
weak. John had knocked around government service long enough to know how the
system worked. The line of promotion was indistinct. The Office of Personnel
Management was an unpredictable beast with a heavy political agenda that, in
the present social climate, did not include white males. Jennifer Short
had means and opportunity but, as far as Anna could see, no motive. By the time she
reached the wash, daylight was fading from the sky as if the sun was on a
slowly dimming rheostat. She had more of a sense of going blind than of coming
night. Everybody but
Neil and Joseph were crowded into the shelter. Howard was propped up on the
packs, his breathing shallow and wet. His eyes were open but he didn't look as
if he saw. Paula sat near him singing a lullaby in a voice just above a
whisper. Anna recognized the tune, a song from childhood: "The Bear Went Over
the Mountain." Paula sang it in Spanish, the way Anna remembered learning
it in Mrs. White's first-grade class. Jennifer was
curled up in the fetal position, her head resting on John LeFleur's thigh. Both
had their eyes closed. Anna hoped Jen was sleeping. Lawrence and Stephen sat
side by side, their backs against the rock, their feet stretched toward the
fire pit, newly heaped with coals. Lawrence pretended to be absorbed in
cleaning his fingernails with a pocketknife. Pepperdine was
squashed in a corner with only the thin shelter at his back instead of stone.
Tension clogged the air, Lawrence's face was crimped in irritation and Anna
suspected LeFleur's sleep was feigned. On close examination she saw a faint tic
high on his cheek under his left eye. Hugh had been
sniping, she guessed. Indulging himself in words in an attempt to shore up a
damaged ego. She'd rather thought his recent comeuppance would have left him
subdued. But a man of Hugh's habits must get brought up short at fairly regular
intervals. Clearly his response hadn't been deep introspection followed by the
turning over of new leaves. With each failure he dug in deeper, till he'd
entrenched himself behind a wall of self-justification years thick. For an
educated man, Pepperdine was apparently not a quick learner. Anna was glad they
worked in different parks. He struck her as the type who would find ways—small
miserable ways—of getting back at those who crossed him. Hugh's pack was
tucked under his arm like a security blanket. With a flash of anger so vicious
it scared her, Anna wondered if he still had food. "I gotta
pee," Paula announced suddenly. "Thank you
for sharing," Lindstrom said. Paula laughed
and cuffed him on the head as, stoop-shouldered, she threaded her way through
the tangle of legs. "I'll go
with you." Anna creaked to her feet. "What is
it with women?" she heard Lindstrom asking the general public as she
followed Paula out. "Urinating is not a spectator sport." A smear of gray
silhouetted the blackened horizon to the west but the rest of the world was
cloaked in lightless, heatless, featureless night. Headlamp in
hand, Boggins stumped up the creek bed. Since she hadn't made any rude
comments, Anna guessed she was welcome to tag along. Muffled, fog-shrouded, the
gully was creepy during the day; at night it was enough to give a vampire bat
the heebie-jeebies. Watching
Paula's dim outline and the yellowing light that led the way, Anna wondered how
to broach the subject of blackmail and murder while they relieved themselves. Cold had soaked
so deep into Anna's bones, she felt it more as an abiding fatigue than a
physical sensation. Both mind and body were benumbed. Even the aches and
bruises from her flight from the Jackknife and her fight with Hugh had melded
into a general feeling of ennui. She could easily understand the temptation to
lie down in the snow and let the last vestiges of heat peacefully leave the
body in the fashion that purportedly seduced victims of hypothermia. It would
be so good simply to rest for all eternity. To sleep. Perchance to dream... Always, there
was the rub. Boggins
stopped. "You hold the light," she said, handing Anna the headlamp.
"I'm going to squat over there. Hang my fanny over a cold rock. Yippee, skippy.
This may take a while. It feels like I got a baby bear sticking its nose out my
ass." "Sheer
poetry," Anna commented as she took the light. "Yeah.
Well. I dropped out of finishing school early on." Paula retreated to her
chosen spot. Anna fiddled with the light listening to the sound of a buckle
being unbuckled, a zipper unzipped. Now was as good
a time as any. Anna still had Howard's Buck knife and Boggins's trousers were
down around her ankles. Danger was at a low ebb. "Nims knew
you were working the camp, hooking, didn't he?" Anna asked. She tried to
make it sound as if she'd known about the prostitution all along in hopes it
would be less threatening that way. "I'm busy
over here," Paula said irritably. "Can't you shut the fuck up for one
cotton pickin' minute?" "You said
he was messing with you. What did he do, threaten you with exposure?" No answer. Anna upped the
stakes. "The way I figure it, Nims tried to get a piece of the action,
said he'd report you if you didn't cut him in and you clawed his face. Am I
close?" Paula grunted.
"He wanted a piece of something all right. A piece of my ass." Anna played the
light over the snow. All vestiges of beauty had been crushed by blackened fire
boots and her own rotten attitude. "Was that the deal; you give him sex
and he keeps his mouth shut?" "There's
one in every camp," Paula said. Boggins sounded more like a jaded
businesswoman than a murderess. Still, Anna pressed on. It was something to do.
At times she felt more like an addict than an investigator. The reasons had
grown muddled with the cold, the dark, the general weirdness of the world in
which they'd found themselves. Now she just had to know because she had to
know. "How much
money did you get?" she asked. "Jesus,
girl, can't you even let me take a dump in peace?" Anna shined the
light in Paula's face. Boggins didn't look guilty or scared, just annoyed. "Move the
light, Ms. Gestapo, unless that's how you get your kicks. Kinky shit's extra.
You can't afford me." "How
much?" Anna repeated, but she moved the light. "Eighty
bucks a trick," Paula said, and there was pride in her voice. "Why?
You thinking of going into business for yourself? Forget it. You're too old.
You couldn't get forty." Paula laughed while Anna did mental arithmetic. Five to eight
hundred dollars a night for twenty nights. "Not a bad piece of
change," she said aloud. "There's a lot of people who would kill for
that kind of money." "I'd kill
for some toilet paper," Boggins said. "I got a world-class case of
flaming asshole." Anna forbore
comment. "Did you kill Nims to keep him from reporting you?" "Like I didn't
know that's what you were getting at? Big surprise. Duh. If I stuck a knife in
everybody put the squeeze on me half the cops in northern California'd be dead.
Nims pissed me off so I scratched him. If n he'd of kept at it, I'd've screwed
him. Shoot, he's only got a twenty-one-day dispatch, eight of it gone. The old
fart probably couldn't get it up often enough to cut into a day's take. Now
will you shut up and let me do my business?" "Sure.
Page pimping for you?" "Yeah.
Neil pimps. Shut up." "I'm shut."
Anna made designs in the still-white snow of the creek bank with her light. The
beam was turning a dirty brown. "I'm turning off the light to save the
battery," she warned Paula as she flicked it off. "Fine." In the frigid
dark, Anna tried to think. Paula could be lying but she doubted it. Two arrests
as a juvenile; Boggins had probably been hooking most of her short life.
Prostitution was vulnerable to bribes, blackmail, payoffs. The price of doing
business. Murder tended to scare off the clientele. "What did
you take off Leonard's body?" Anna demanded just to see what kind of a
reaction she'd get. "You're
out of your fucking mind, you know that?" Paula said. The obscenity
had the ring of innocence to it. With Boggins out of the picture, if not with
an iron-clad alibi, at least as far as Anna was concerned, that left LeFleur,
Hayhurst and Short. LeFleur was a long shot. Hayhurst and Short then. Anna
sighed. She was not having fun. "You know
what I'd like?" she said. "What?"
Boggins sounded wary and Anna smiled. Paula was probably used to bizarre
requests from all manner of folk. "I'd like
to watch TV. Hours of mindless TV with a loud obnoxious soundtrack. I'd sit in
a warm room and guzzle hot tea and just watch." Wine would have
been her first choice but it seemed better not even to think about that. "Why don't
you wish for a million dollars while you're at it?" There was a sound of
movement and zipping. "And a roll of toilet paper." Boggins emerged
from the greater darkness of her wilderness privy. "You gotta go? I'll
stay if you want. Keep you company." Anna took her
up on her kind offer. Chapter Twenty-Four PINSON LAKE LAY dead at their backs, the raked snow ripped away
from their feet to beyond where Short's body had been found. Frederick leaned
on his rake handle and stared at the empty clearing. "Who'd want Short
dead?" he asked. "Nobody I
know of," Chris Landis puffed out on a cloud of aromatic smoke. "How about
the lumber company? They'd want him out of the way, wouldn't they?" "Sure they
would. But killing him would be more trouble than it's worth. Short was a pest,
a gadfly. California's got more protesters and bleeding hearts than we've got
med flies. We don't kill 'em, we shoo 'em away." "Murder's
not as handy as it looks," Frederick agreed. "Anyway,
Timberlake wouldn't want the trees burned," Landis added. "It's money
out of their pocket." "Insurance?" He shook his
head. "Public land. Uncle Sam absorbs the losses." "Mind if I
talk to them anyway?" Frederick asked only as a courtesy. Chris Landis
knew the game and appreciated the consideration. "I'll drive you
down." Landis radioed
ahead and his secretary set up the appointment. By the time they arrived at the
Timberlake Lumber Company on the edge of Chester it was quarter past five.
Quittin' time and then some. The foreman, Pete Hollis, was not in a receptive
mood. He had his coat on and sat with one haunch on the desk and one eye on the
clock. Hollis was in his mid-thirties, big-boned, with the look of a man who
keeps a little woman at home and expects dinner on the table when he gets
there. Frederick took
a chair just as if he'd been offered one and ostentatiously made himself
comfortable, settling in for a good long chat. Hollis sighed,
fidgeted, looked at his watch. Frederick hoped he'd want to get the interview
over with badly enough he'd tell the truth right up front just to save time. "Are you
familiar with the name Joshua Short?" he asked. Hollis shook
his head. "No. But this is a big operation. I don't know the names of a
lot of the guys that work for us." "Were you
involved with the planned harvest of that forest land to the northwest of
Pinson Lake?" Landis asked. Landis had pulled the pipe from his jaws and
scraped the bowl with a little silver tool made for that purpose. His hands
were busy, and his eyes had someplace neutral to go when he chose not to look
at the interview subject. A pipe might be a good prop, Frederick thought. It
gave off such an air of homey trustworthiness. "Yeah,"
Pete replied. "That tract was on hold..." The sentence dribbled to an
end. "Short. That was the guy died up there in the fire, wasn't it? Burnt
himself and half of California in the bargain?" "Joshua
Short," Frederick said. "He was also the one who had the logging on
hold." Hollis had a
pained look on his face but Frederick wasn't at all sure it was because he had
something to hide. Stanton was FBI, he'd flashed his badge, now he was asking
questions about a dead man. He would have been put on his guard by anybody who
didn't squirm a little. "I'm just
the foreman here," Pete said carefully. "I think you'd better ask the
boss. Things in that area are pretty sensitive. We've got loggers burning
spotted owls in effigy and we've got do-gooders from far away as New York City
out here getting lost and mosquito bit and thinking they're striking a blow for
the Amazon rain forest. All I'll get stirring in this mess is a thick
finger." Frederick
laughed. "You're a wise man, Mr. Hollis. Thanks for your time." He
leapt up and pumped the foreman's hand. "Chris and I won't keep you from
your supper any longer." Landis had
repacked his pipe and puffed it back to life as he followed Stanton out. "Who was
handling the Short/spotted owl situation?" Frederick asked while Hollis
locked the office door behind them. "Martha
Pitt, our bookkeeper. She handles the newspapers when it's got to be done.
James Beldon owns the company. He hires jobs out. Anybody works here is too hot
under the collar when it comes to owls so he leaves us out of it." Hollis
clipped his keys back on his belt and led the way through a lighted yard
stacked with lumber already resembling the buildings it was destined for. "Who did
he hire this time?" Frederick asked when they'd stopped so Hollis could
lock the gates to the yard. There'd been
too many questions and the foreman was done talking. "I think you'd better
ask Mr. Beldon," he said. LANDIS DROVE. FREDERICK
slumped down in the passenger seat. Joshua Short had been murdered. The
Jackknife fire had been set either for the usual reasons—fun or profit—or to cover
up the tracks of the murderer. Arson, homicide, happened all the time. A look
at the statistics or the six o'clock news attested to that. It was not
inconceivable that, but for an accident of geography, Joshua Short, Len Nims
and Newt Hamlin's deaths were unrelated. Ruling out
Hamlin's death as strictly a casualty of the fire, Frederick tried to think who
might have had reason to murder two such different men: a gay environmentalist
and a redneck bureaucrat. He drew a blank. Joshua Short and Nims apparently
didn't know one another. Several of the San Juans knew both Joshua and
Nims—Jennifer, Stephen Lindstrom and possibly Lawrence Gonzales simply because
he'd once lived in northern California. Jennifer and Stephen might have had
reason to kill Nims but surely not Joshua. Gonzales might have wanted Short
dead for some obscure reason but Anna'd said he was alibied for the death of
Nims. Detecting
piecemeal and by remote control—if anyone could be said to control Anna
Pigeon—was an exercise in frustration. Frederick felt as he had as a kid when
the carnies lured him into fishing for surprise packages using a mirror and a
pair of awkward mechanical pincers in the place of hands. Landis muscled
the Rover onto the main street cutting through Chester. Pine trees and
one-story buildings lined the road. Night had crept down through the fog. A
lighted digital clock on the dash read seven-forty-nine. Frederick wouldn't be
there when Anna radioed in. "Is there
a phone anywhere handy?" he asked. "I've got a call to make." Landis pointed
ahead and Frederick recognized the long low roof of the Forest Service
headquarters. "Take your
pick," Chris said as he switched on the office lights. By the time he
got through to Gene Burwell it was three minutes of eight. Frederick had the
breathless sense of skidding in just under the wire though he wasn't sure if
the information he had would prove of any value to Anna. Mostly he wanted
contact, even vicarious contact, with the elusive Ms. Pigeon. It even crossed
his mind to ask Burwell if there was some way, any way, to patch his
call through. Common sense and a healthy dislike of looking the fool saved him
from putting voice to his thoughts. Burwell took
down his information and Frederick stifled an urge to ask the incident commander
to read the message back so he could check it for accuracy. When the
conversation reached its logical conclusion Frederick found himself loath to
hang up the phone. He wanted to be there, even second hand, when Anna called
in. Puppy love was unbecoming in a man of his middling years, he thought. With bulldozers
and media hounds roaring, lives and careers at stake, Burwell did not take the
time to tell him what Anna had said in her radio transmission, not even the
gist of it, and Stan-ton was hungry for every detail. "Have you
got a place to stay tonight?" Landis dragged Frederick out of his brown
study. "We've got two spare rooms—the boys are away at college—and Mrs.
Landis orders a mean pizza." "I'm
fine," Frederick said. He was tired and slightly depressed. "But
thanks." The offer of a bed and hot food hadn't tempted him for even a
second. His first thought had been of Anna. He enjoyed a moment of feeling
noble. It was short-lived. He could do no more for her from a sleeping bag on
the cold ground than from a soft warm bed. It was for himself he needed to be
close, if not to her, then to the radio. Chapter Twenty-Five OUT OF HABIT, Anna sat by the wreck of Paula Boggins's truck. On
the desolate ridge its junked chassis was perversely comforting, garbage ever a
reminder of civilization. Night had mixed
with fog and settled ink-black around her. Anna experimented with palms and
fingers. Truly, she could not see her hand in front of her face. She pulled off
her glove with her teeth, grimacing to keep lips and tongue off the filthy
leather. Squeezing the tiny silver buttons on her watch, she squinted at the
numbers. Eight-oh-two. That was fashionably late enough. Thumbing down the mike
button, she called Stanton. The incident commander responded and only twenty
years of consuming Emily Post with her breakfast cereal kept Anna from
demanding Frederick. When Gene Burwell told her Stanton was in Chester, Anna
found her mind echoing the childish refrain "but he promised..." Pride mixed
with exhaustion in Burwell's voice as he told her two and a half miles of road
had been cleared of deadfall. Anna was impressed. She'd cut and swamped enough
timber to know in their efforts to reach the San Juans they had managed
something close to a miracle. Girding up the loins, she culled every bit of
weariness and disappointment from her voice and heaped on the well-deserved
praise. "God
willing and the river don't rise, we'll get to you sometime late
tomorrow," Burwell promised. "We'll be
here with bells on." Anna's radio was indulging in the staccato static of
a dying battery. John's was in no better shape and the one Howard used for a
security blanket was dead as the proverbial doornail. "My radio's
going," she said. "Anything else?" She knew she sounded abrupt
and she knew Bur-well wouldn't hold it against her. "Yes. I'll
make it quick. You've got a message from Frederick Stanton." Anna's heart
lurched like a girl with her first valentine. "Shoot," she said
evenly. Burwell related
the findings of the arson investigation. When he'd finished, Anna said:
"I'm going to save what juice I can. I won't call unless something comes
up. Are you okay with that?" "I guess
I'll have to be," Burwell said, and: "Hang in there." In its wake,
the conversation left a silence so deep Anna's ears rang with it. Seldom in
wilderness did one experience dead quiet. Life in all its
minute rustlings, pipings and exhalations created a cushion of sound as
comforting as the murmuring of a brook. Dead quiet was reserved for abandoned
buildings, alleys, vacant lots. Without light, total absence of sound was
disorienting. Time and space became as relative as the physicists always
insisted they were. For a second
Anna felt as if she were falling and her finger twitched near the headlamp's
power switch. Then the soaking cold and a nagging ache in the small of her back
reassured her she was still in the world. Rescued by life's ubiquitous slings
and arrows, she left the headlamp dark. This
suffocating night lacked the comforting touches of many backcounty nights she'd
enjoyed but Anna knew there was safety in its squid-ink cloaking. No one could
find her, not without giving their own location away. After being spied on by
Pepperdine, her natural wariness had blossomed into healthy paranoia. Hugh was
a tenderfoot, an oaf, yet she'd not heard him tracking her to the hot-springs
lake. Somebody with more guts and experience could have killed her at any time. If Burwell was
correct in his estimate, within twenty-four hours rescue would reach them;
rescue with all its modern technology and color of law. Anna'd been nosing
around, asking questions. No one knew how much or how little she knew, how much
or how little she'd shared with Frederick Stanton. She couldn't avoid the
possibility that whoever had killed Nims and possibly Jennifer's brother
wouldn't want her to be among those carried off the mountain. Joshua Short
murdered. Anna thought about that awhile. The news had come as a shock. Usually
she was quick to suspect accidental deaths but the Jackknife had proved such an
indiscriminate adversary she'd accepted that first life taken as had everyone
else. Nature was a killer that had always been with mankind. Her choices went
unquestioned, acts of God. Josh's murder
cast a new light on Nims's death without illuminating anything. The murders
could be unrelated. Of those with no alibi for the time of Nims's death—John,
Jennifer and Joseph—Anna could think of no one who would want Joshua Short
dead. Clearly not Jennifer. She'd loved her brother. Besides, she and Anna
worked together at Mesa Verde; Anna knew Jen had been nowhere near California
at the time Joshua had died. Joseph and John she couldn't vouch for but she had
no reason to believe either one of them had even been acquainted with Josh. Joseph Hayhurst
was an activist, if not for the environment, then for the rights of Native
Americans to preserve their cultural heritage. It was not inconceivable Josh
and Joseph's paths had crossed before. The information Frederick had unearthed
about Hayhurst fighting the oil leases provided a motive for Nims's murder.
Much as she didn't like it, so far Joseph was the only one who filled all three
requirements for a self-respecting murderer: means, motive and opportunity. Light marred
the soupy darkness on the far side of the ridge and Anna tensed. The yellowing
beam of a headlamp moved across the snow. "Anna!" The shout came
in Joseph Hayhurst's voice. Speak of the devil, Anna thought, considering
whether or not to answer. The loneliness of the place was suddenly threatening. "Anna, where
are you?" The beam poked here and there, a dirty finger trying to scrape
her from hiding. "By the
truck," she said, and flashed her light once. Joseph might be a murderer
but at least, this way, Anna would know where he was during the long walk back
to camp. Footsteps
crunched over the snow as she got to her feet, reassured herself she still
carried Howard's Buck knife and could get to it easily if she had to. "Got your
radio off?" Joseph asked as his headlamp picked a path to her. "Battery,"
Anna said. "John's is
almost dead." He was beside her now and Anna rocked on the balls of her
feet, waiting to see what came next. "The
crowds got to me. All of us packed in like sardines, that shelter's beginning
to smell like a locker room. John sent me up the hill to see what Base had to
say." Anna couldn't
see his face but his voice was relaxed, conversational. Her defenses dropped a
notch, the clutch in her belly loosened. "Good
news. Tomorrow—late but still tomorrow—they should get to us. They cleared over
two miles of road today." "It could
be better," Joseph said. "We could be sitting in front of a fireplace
somewhere entertaining our friends with tales of our harrowing adventure, but
I'll take it. This has been a long couple of days." For a minute
neither of them spoke. Fatigue was pooling in Anna's joints, filling her lungs
like poison. Joseph laughed
suddenly and it scared her. "What?" she demanded. "Everybody
is flipping out," he said. "Neil's reliving his glory days in high
school football, Lawrence is waxing erotic over his mother's enchiladas, and
John's ready to kill for a cigarette." And Paula was
ready to kill for a roll of toilet paper. A hot bath might motivate Anna to
murder, if not today then tomorrow. People said they'd kill for one thing or
another all the time. Mostly it was just a figure of speech but now and then a
child was beaten to death for his sneakers, a baby smothered because it cried,
a man killed for an empty wallet. Society
maintained the illusion that human life was of great value but more often than
not it was taken cheap; a matter of convenience or whim. Len or Josh could have
been killed for toilet paper or cigarettes. Digging for deeper reasons and
complex motives was a sign of respect for one's fellow man, elevating even a
murderer to a plane where life was too precious to snuff out casually. Suddenly it
took all of Anna's strength just to keep on standing. She must have sighed or,
worse, whimpered, because Joseph said: "Worn out?" "Plumb
tuckered. You?" she asked, to return the favor. If he said anything but
yes she wouldn't believe him. "Fresh as
a daisy. Shall we head down?" Anna slipped
the elastic band of her headlamp around her forehead where it was designed to
be worn so her hands would be free. "You go first. My lamp's burned
out," she lied. She didn't relish the idea of him walking behind her. He
led off and she followed at a discreet distance. She was so tired she was
stumbling. Christmas Eve, she thought. They only had to hold things together
one more day then Santa was coming with the cavalry. When they'd
passed the heli-spot, gotten close enough to camp Anna calculated if she
screamed she'd be heard, she brought up the subject of murder. Or of oil
leases. In her mind and possibly Joseph's the two were linked. Under better
circumstances, with plenty of food and rest shoring her up, Anna might have
found the energy to employ a little tact. As it was she chose the Bigger Hammer
method of investigation. "The FBI
agent down at Incident Base ran a background check on you," she said
bluntly. "You were working with the Navajo nation to stop the BLM from
granting an oil lease near the Bisti. There're just a handful of us up here.
Pretty nearly everybody's got an alibi but you. Once Forensics gets up here it
won't take long to sort out who killed Nims." That was not precisely true
but Anna thought it sounded convincing. "If you did it to stop that lease,
tell me now. I can't promise anything but I'll tell the district attorney what
a swell guy you are. It might make the difference between life without parole
and life with at least a shot at an early out." She'd said her piece in
one breath and found herself faint and shaken at the end of it. She needed
food. Joseph stopped
and turned, shining the light in her eyes. Anna sidestepped the beam but she'd
already been blinded. "Get the light off me," she barked. "Sorry."
He moved the lamp to the ground at her feet. "All the
way off," Anna said. He clicked it off. The darkness was so absolute even
without being night-blind Joseph had thrown away his advantage. The Buck knife
was in Anna's pocket. She eased it from its sheath and let her arm fall to her
side. "You're
asking if I killed Mr. Nims?" Disembodied,
Joseph's voice had a sinister ring though there was nothing in his tone to
warrant it. That was the problem: there was nothing in his tone, not
incredulity, outrage, curiosity, malice, shock, amusement. He spoke almost in a
monotone. Because it gave nothing away, it made Anna nervous. Her hand
strayed toward her headlamp but she didn't switch it on. Light would be of
little value and it would pinpoint her whereabouts. One step at a time, she
eased carefully back up the trail. On the packed snow her boots made little
noise. "Leonard Nims was the one who would say yea or nay to the lease
application," she said to cover any sound she made. "No,"
Joseph replied. "Nims was the one who would say yes to the
lease." Color returned to his voice, bitterness from the sound of it. "It was a
done deal?" Anna asked. Frederick had assured her it was pending. She was
fishing for a lie. Lies, when one knew they were lies, could reveal more than
the truth. "In a
sense," he replied. "Len was taking bribes from the oil and gas
companies. In return he marked the Environmental Impact Statements 'No
Significant Impact,' letting them drill wherever they wanted to." Anna waited for
the rest of the story but Joseph had done talking. Silence stretched,
thickened. Anna's nerves stretched, grew thin. Finally she could stand it no
longer. She reached up and turned on her headlamp and screamed. Joseph Hayhurst
had moved soundlessly up the trail and stood less than two feet from her. "Old
Indian trick," he said. "I learned it in Boy Scouts." Anna stepped
back and pulled the radio from her belt. "John, come up toward the heli-spot.
Now." "John's
radio's off. Saving batteries, remember?" Anna
remembered. She was hoping he hadn't. "Okay," she said reasonably.
"We're alone, no radio contact, I'm accusing you of murder and you're
sneaking around scaring the pants off me. Before I start screaming my head off
just to get some company up here, do you want to level with me?" "Isn't
this where they say 'I'm not talking without my lawyer'?" "No. They
say that in warm comfortable interrogation rooms." Anna began walking
backward, careful not to trip. "I'm putting distance between us. It's all
I've got—" "Besides
Howard's knife." "—besides
Howard's knife. Respect it please. I'm too tired and this is all too creepy for
you to play any more games with me." "No more
games," Joseph said. "Someone could get hurt. Maybe even me." He
smiled his Mona Lisa smile. Anna didn't
smile back. She was remembering his quickness and his strength. She kept her
light trained on his face. He stood perfectly still and made no attempt to
dodge the glare. Apparently he'd grasped the fact that her fear made her
dangerous despite the fact that he was younger and stronger than she. "If Len
was taking kickbacks, why didn't you report him?" Joseph laughed
without humor. "You don't think the BLM had figured it out? Why do you
think Nims got bumped out of his last job? Kickbacks for timber leases. The
government had no proof and, if you ask me, no white-hot desire to find any.
Scandal, don't you know. A lot of career bureaucrats might look the fool, land
on the wrong side of the party line. Our guess was they intended to handle the
oil lease problem in the tried and true method. John might wonder why they were
so anxious to promote Len into that fire management slot but I don't. They want
him out of temptation's way." "You knifed
him to stop the lease," Anna said. "Au
contraire. I wish Len was alive and well. True, the lease will be on hold
briefly, but then a new cog will be put in the machinery and we'll have to
start all over. Find out if he can be bought and by whom, if he's ambitious, if
he has any sense of responsibility toward the land. By the time that's
untangled some antsy supervisor will have knuckled under to the considerable
public pressure to okay the lease and the drills will roll in. "We had
nearly enough to hang Mr. Nims. In court, in public, in the media. Nims dead is
a bad thing. We needed Nims." Anna studied
him. It sounded plausible and it would be easy to check. For tonight she'd let
it go. As if she had much choice. "Why did
you sneak up and scare me half to death?" she growled. "Why do
children play with scorpions?" FOR ONCE EVERYONE was present and accounted
for, and the shelter was crammed with bodies. The fire pit was gone, raked over
to make more space. Morale was low. When Anna and Joseph squeezed themselves in
nobody even bothered to speak. "Tomorrow,
Base said," Anna told the others. "We've only got to get through
tonight." "Everybody
cuddle up," LeFleur told his crew. "I don't want anybody freezing to
death." Anna squashed
herself between Stephen and Lawrence as the lesser of the bundling evils and
felt some small warmth from their closeness. Headlamp on and
pushed down in the sand so it shined upward casting a faint and shadow-filled
light over the group, Hugh Pepperdine was wasting batteries. No one remarked on
it. They only had to survive one more night and they were all glad of the
light. By its feeble glow Anna studied her companions. Lindstrom had
his gloves off and was sucking on the little finger of his left hand where
rough leather had worn it raw. Lawrence had his hands and arms pulled inside
his brush jacket and the sleeves tucked behind his back in the classic style of
a straight jacket. Jennifer had set herself slightly apart. Knees hugged
tightly against her chest and her face buried in her folded arms, she sat near
the shelter's opening. "Jen, it's
too cold where you are. Move in." Anna sounded harsh but there wasn't
anything she could do about it. "I'm
fine," Jennifer mumbled against the fabric of her sleeve. "John?"
Anna pleaded. LeFleur was
seated between Joseph Hayhurst and Neil Page, his legs stretched over the cold
fire pit. "Shove over," he said to Joseph. Half crouching, he reached
out, grabbed Jennifer by the upper arm and pulled her across the Apache's lap,
stuffing her into the space between them. "They want
your body," Lindstrom said. Jennifer made
no reply but allowed herself to be arranged in the relative warmth between the
two men. To Anna's left was
Stephen, then an open space, then Howard Black Elk propped against the yellow
packs. On his far side, against the thin fabric of one of the fire shelters
that made up the tent, was Paula Boggins. Shivering in an oversized NoMex
shirt, she squeezed her hands between her thighs for warmth. Pepperdine sat
apart, like a leper. Boggins was
somehow changed and it took Anna's tired mind a moment to figure out what was
out of place. The brush jacket: Paula had taken it off and spread it over
Howard's legs. "Put your
coat back on," Anna ordered sharply. "And move over here between
Stephen and Howard." "Howard'll
get the draft," Paula protested as she struggled into the jacket. "No he
won't," Anna said. "Hugh, move up beside Howard, between him and the
shelter wall." "Why can't
Paula stay where she's at?" Pepperdine asked sullenly. "Because she's
little and hurt and you're big and fat," Anna snapped. "You'll block
more draft." Hugh opened his
mouth, noted the eyes on him from the others, closed it and moved. As if for
spite, he turned out his lamp. "Snug as
bugs in rugs," Stephen said when they'd all done stirring. His words were
light but the fun had gone out of him. It had gone out of all of them, Anna
guessed. Tucking her
hands in her armpits for warmth, she leaned her head back against the boulder
and closed her eyes. Bodies were piled together like puppies in a basket. One
would have thought that would engender a sense of safety. Not in Anna. The dark
was absolute, fatigue clouded everyone's mind. No one was farther than an arm's
reach away. Black Elk was unconscious, Jennifer half comatose with grief. A
knife, sudden and well placed, a heart stopped, who would be witness to it?
Likely not even the victim. Someone began
to snore. Not the rip-snorting variety that destroys marriages and sets
dormitories to warring, but the soft purring snore of a contented child. Out of
deference to her sex, Anna guessed it was Paula or Jennifer but it could have
been anyone. The purr was
soporific and Anna could feel a welcome sea of sleep lapping at the shores of
her mind. Lest she give in to it, she marshaled her thoughts, laid out what
facts she had. Nims had been
killed during the burnover. Eight shelters, nine survivors; the man or woman
who didn't have one at the firestorm's end had shared with Nims. Paula had seen
Page with his, Pepperdine had seen Lawrence, she and John could vouch for
Howard, Jennifer saw Stephen. That left John, Joseph, Paula, Hugh and Jennifer. Hugh's
cowardice cleared him in Anna's mind. He'd turned Len out to die. The only
motive Paula had, viewed from the perspective of business economics, ceased to
make much sense. Joseph needed Nims alive so he could hang him later. That left only
John LeFleur and Jennifer Short and neither one of them had a motive that
amounted to anything. Threads of
thought began unraveling. Anna let her mind drift. Dimly she was aware of the
rock, unrelenting against the back of her head, the earth icy beneath her rear
end, the faint warmth of the men at thigh and shoulder. Nims: why had
he needed killing? He blackmailed a young woman for sex and tried to blackmail
a high-school boy into committing arson. He took kickbacks for oil and lumber
leases, abandoned Hamlin to the Jackknife. The warden in Anna's mind was quick
to remind her they had all abandoned Newt and she amended the thought; Nims had
been quick to abandon the boy. The rest of them had dithered humanely for a
moment or two. Nims was
divorced. He'd left a wife and half a dozen kids in Susanville. Single mom to
six? Maybe the ex-Mrs. had a reason to do in Leonard. Without Mrs.
Nims at hand, Anna was inexorably brought back to Short and LeFleur. LeFleur
and Short. Short and LeFleur. Despite her best efforts, sleep crept up, not in
a slow drift but in a sudden fall, as if she had been pushed off a cliff. Chapter Twenty-Six ANNA WASN'T SURE what woke her. In the impossible dark beneath the
shelters, down in the wash, under the fog, it was difficult to be sure that she
wasn't still sleeping or, better yet, dead. Cramping in her legs penetrated the
swamp of dreams. She was awake and alive. However short her nap, her body was
somewhat revived. Her brain remained a questionable resource. Too long without
light or food, dreams tangled unpleasantly with reality and she doubted the
reliability of its workings. Butt and heels
were numb with cold and her knees ached from being too long straight.
Sandwiched as she was between Lawrence and Stephen, movement was almost
impossible. Breathing enveloped her, the deep even breaths of Gonzales's young
healthy lungs, the uneven exhalations from Stephen's uneasy slumber, rasping
from Black Elk. The purring
snore had stopped. In its place was a faint whispering, gentle and
all-encompassing, the sound of feathers sweeping powdered snow. Wind, she
realized with a rush of gratitude, high distant wind. The weather was breaking.
Fog would be blown from the canyons and they could go home. Better than
reindeer stamping on the roof. Furtive sounds,
then something nudged her boot. Feet and legs were so numb it felt as if
someone had kicked a block of wood on which she stood. It was touch that had
pulled her from her dreams. Not because it was violent or unexpected, but
because a woman waiting to be knifed is sensitive to these things. The bump
triggered the uneasy musings that had preceded sleep and a spurt of adrenaline
was loosed in Anna's bowels. Resuming her rest became out of the question. Were
she not called upon to defend her life, she would still have to crawl outside
to go to the bathroom—euphemistically speaking: no room, no bath. To prepare for
either event, she began wiggling her toes in an attempt to wake them.
Excruciating tickles from toe to hip rewarded her as nerves practiced their
signals. Another
stealthy sound; Anna stopped the toe action the better to listen. She thought
to unsheathe Howard's Buck knife but in the dark and crowded confines of their
bivouac an accident was practically guaranteed. Finding herself to be the
dreaded night slasher would not be a good joke. The creepings
and sneakings leaked from the darkness to her right. Closing her eyes—as if it
made a shred of difference— Anna tried to remember where everyone had been when
the lights went out. Right: Lawrence, then John, Jennifer, Joseph and Neil.
Anna opened her eyes again and listened till her head swelled with the effort.
Or so it felt in the dark. Neil was on the end, nearest the foil tent wall.
Unless he moved in instead of out, the noise wouldn't fit. Joseph, like Page,
was close to the outside. Anna's foot was
bumped again and someone grumbled, "What the hey..." John's voice.
Not John then. "Got to
pee." Jennifer Short. Anna had a
strong need to avail herself of the facilities as well and began inching from
between Lindstrom and Gonzales, squirming forward one heel at a time till she'd
cleared their legs. Lindstrom never stirred and she was saved any commentary on
the sociology behind yet another group ladies' room event. This joint
venture was half necessity and half concern. Jennifer was not in any shape to
be left alone. Exposure, grief and, Anna had to admit, possibly guilt, had
robbed her of much rational thought. The knowledge they were going home might
have poured the nearly inexhaustible strength of hope into the veins of the
others but that wasn't necessarily true for Jennifer. There was the possibility
she had no intention of leaving this spectral forest. Slithering like
something unpleasant from under a rock, Anna left the shelter and pushed
herself to hands and knees, allowing the nether parts of her anatomy to come
back to life before she attempted to stand. An icy breeze cut across the back
of her neck. Miserable as it was, the fog had kept the temperature constant.
Clearing skies and wind chill would drop it into the teens or lower. On a night like
this, one little woman could very easily shake off the mortal coil if she so
chose. A simple nap in the snow would do the trick. An hour or two and Jennifer
would wake up dead. The more prosaic explanation of having to pee was probably
the truth but Anna didn't feel lucky enough to gamble on it. By the sound of
her steps Jennifer was headed downstream. The accepted ladies' room was
upstream of the boulder. Perhaps Jen required virgin territory. A luxury that
could be indulged now that rescue was close at hand. Having shaken
some function back into her lower limbs, Anna limped down the creek bed,
following Jennifer's crunching progress. With a little care, she was able to
time her footfalls with the other woman's and mask the sound of her own
passage. Though nature
and altruism were the vaunted reasons for tailing Jen, Anna didn't use her
light. Short was one of two people left on the prime suspect list and it wasn't
beyond the realm of possibility that this nocturnal adventure was inspired by
ulterior motives. Jennifer
reached the pile of rocks downstream of the bivouac where the creek divided into
the north and south forks. She hesitated and Anna stopped as well, wondering
what went through her mind: self-destruction? Urination? Humans were a complex
jumble of the divine and the ridiculous. Jennifer began
to sway, her light to swing. Sweat pricked in Anna's armpits, trickling down in
icy rivulets; the sweat of fear. Jennifer was an
inch or so taller than Anna and perhaps ten pounds heavier—but Anna believed,
if she had to, she could overpower her. Age had robbed Anna of some physical
strength but it had toughened her. Women were taught not to hurt, not to let
themselves be hurt. They were taught to give up. Anna wouldn't quit and that
sometimes gave her an edge when size and strength failed. She remembered a
self-defense instructor saying that maybe in opera it ain't over till the fat
lady sings, but in defensive tactics it ain't over till the fat lady's dead. Insanity was
what frightened Anna. Were Jennifer crazy then all bets were off. Actions,
reactions, couldn't be anticipated. Jen could give up or bolt or attack. If she
attacked she'd fight like a crazy woman. Anna'd seen that once when she was
putting in her requisite sixteen hours in the psych ward to get her emergency
medical technician's certification. A smallish woman had taken it into her head
that the orderlies were IRA out to kill her. She fought like a cat with its
tail on fire. Anna didn't relish walking into another buzz saw like that. Jennifer came
to a decision. From the light reflecting back off the snow, Anna could see the
silhouette of her head and shoulders as she turned left and started down the
south fork, the part of the creek quarantined because of Nims's body. A path had been
trampled to Leonard's temporary resting place but it hadn't had the foot
traffic of the other areas and it was difficult to walk without making noise.
Anna stayed where she was till Jennifer had gone ahead twenty or thirty feet, then
matched the other woman step for step. The corpse
could be her only destination and Anna felt curiosity overcoming fear. Nims had
lain in his foil shroud for a day and a half. Only once before had the body
been disturbed. Was Jennifer
the desecrator of his impromptu grave? Did she go now to take something else,
something important that Anna had missed? Or did she go to put something back,
either returning what had been stolen or planting an item intended to
incriminate? Or was the
visit unrelated to the murder? Images of the Donner
party and of the soccer players stranded in the Andes floated up in Anna's mind
and she suppressed a shudder. Not that she didn't believe in munching up one's
fellows given they were dead and you were starving. What are friends for? Anna
just didn't want to watch. And fourteen or fifteen hours without food hardly
constituted starving. Unless you were
crazy. As a citizen
Anna had nothing against crazy. It made for an interesting world and kept her
sister in a thriving practice. As a law enforcement officer, she hated it.
Winning was hard when your opponent was playing on a different game board. Absorbed in
thought, she took a step out of cadence and the racket of the ice crystals
crunching beneath her lug sole cracked so loudly she was surprised it didn't
set off colored lights like a Fourth of July sparkler. She froze, waiting for
Jennifer to stop and turn the headlamp on her. Jennifer didn't
even break stride. Her trudging steps kept falling with the regularity of a
metronome. Either Jen knew she was being followed and intended to lead her
shadow farther from the bivouac before she dealt with it, or she was so caught
up in whatever mental machinations had dragged her out in freezing temperatures
that she was deafened to all else. Neither
explanation soothed Anna's raw nerves. For a second she considered going back
to the shelter and rousting Lawrence or Stephen but decided against it. In the
time it took her to get help she could easily lose Jennifer. From now on,
Anna decided, she was going to the bathroom all by herself. The erratic
trail Jennifer's headlamp was blazing came to rest on the foil shelter shrouding
Len's remains. A circle of gold light eight inches in diameter—the battery
could produce no more— crawled slowly down the length of the shroud as if
looking for a way in. The aluminum fabric had settled close, frozen in wrinkles
and folds. Frost cloaked the shelter where earlier depredations had shaken it
free of snow. For the most
part, the corpse had ceased to bother Anna. Not because she'd had the ill luck
to see so many she'd become inured to death but because, as an EMT, she had
often seen the last of life struggling out of a crushed body that had been its
home. Life was precious if it was yours or someone you loved, death
awe-inspiring regardless of who died. But the husk that remained behind after
these miracles had transpired fit into two categories: revered garbage and
evidence. Anna's interest in both quickly became academic. Jennifer had
not yet come to terms with human detritus and, by the wavering of the lamp,
Anna guessed her hands shook. With a suddenness that startled, Jennifer dropped
the headlamp into the snow and collapsed to her knees. Using both hands as a
dog would use its paws to dig out a gopher, Jennifer began worrying at the edge
of the cloth covering the body. Bile rose in
Anna's throat and she wanted to look away but the action had her mesmerized.
Yellow lamplight caught the side of Jen's face. Strings of soot-blackened hair
fell over her jawline. Her lips were parted slightly, her tongue ghoulish and
pink against the coal-colored skin. Short's blue eyes were open wide, white
showing on three sides of the irises. So macabre was the scene—an image gleaned
from late-night horror movies—that Anna found herself more fascinated than
frightened. If at some point Short began gnawing hunks of raw meat from the
carcass Anna would step in if, indeed, what she was witnessing was a full-blown
psychotic episode. Fabric made a
ripping sound as it tore free of the frozen earth, exposing Nims's left side
and his face. Even the dirty amber of the dying lamp couldn't invest the dead
flesh with color. Crescents of white showed where Nims's eyelids had failed to
close completely under Anna's ministrations. Tiny
heartbreaking noises, the kind puppies make when they dream, percolated out of
Jennifer. Anna doubted she was even aware she made them. Juxtaposed with the
frantic pawing at the dead man, the noises made Anna's scalp crawl. Above the
ridge the high whine of wind through the snags sawed at the night and she was
put in mind of the Windigo, the flesh-eating spirit that haunted the north
woods. With clutching
motions, Short worked her hands up Leonard Nims's body, up the arm stretched
above his head then tried to drag it back toward her. Rigor mortis would have
passed off but Anna doubted he'd become any more flexible. Temperatures had
stayed in the mid-twenties and were dropping. Nims would be frozen stiff. The sleeve of
his yellow brush jacket was stuck hard to the ground. Jennifer swung over,
straddling the corpse. With both hands closed around its wrist, she pulled. The
puppylike whimpering increased in intensity, the cries closer to human. The fallen
headlamp illuminated Short's belly and chest as she tugged, each effort drawing
forth a small cry. Nims's arm came
loose with a sickening crack, either ice releasing the sleeve or the ball joint
in his shoulder snapping under the strain. Short fell back, her butt landing on
the back of the dead man's knees, the rigid arm thrust up between her thighs.
Struggling up to a crouch, one knee on either side of the body, Jennifer
wrestled with the arm. Awful sounds of dry retching underscored the ghastly
chore. She pulled the arm down behind her body where Anna could no longer see
it and the fight continued; the quick and the dead in bizarre combat. With a grunt of
triumph more awful in its glee than the previous sounds of suffering, Jennifer
achieved her goal. Snatching up the headlamp, she tottered to her feet and
stumbled away, farther down the creek bed into the darkness. Seconds ticked
by. Anna fought to control her stomach. Breath, cold and odorless, was sipped
in through pinched nostrils as if it carried the stench of the charnel house. Jen's light
winked out. Maybe she'd disappeared behind an outcrop. Maybe she just waited in
the dark. Anna stepped over to Nims. Shielding her light with her body, she trained
it on the corpse. His hand, the color of ash, two fingers broken during the
encounter, lay palm up on the snow, a dead white spider. Jennifer had taken
Leonard's glove. Confusion swirled through Anna's brain in a numbing wind. Why
on earth steal the glove? Nims's right
hand had lain palm up at rest in front of his face. With his body twisted up it
floated there as if warding off a blow. Anna studied it: a plain leather glove
with a small "s" in ink stenciled on the wrist. Nothing out of the
ordinary. Evidently only the left glove had any value. Anna turned off
her lamp and rocked back on her heels. She needed light, heat, food. She needed
a vacation. Vacation. Motive. LeFleur
mentioned Len had returned from vacation shortly before they'd been dispatched
on the Jackknife. Nims had been visiting his kids from a prior marriage.
Leonard had lived and worked in Susanville, California, for twelve years. Where
better to have left a family? Susanville was not more than an hour— two at
most—from the south end of Pinson Lake where the fire had started, where Joshua
Short had been killed. Nims took
kickbacks from oil and gas lessees; when in California, from lumber lessees. It
wasn't a great stretch of the imagination to picture him taking money for other
less than legal chores. Like scaring off pesky protesters. If Len had killed
Joshua—or if Jennifer believed he had—she had one of the best motives in the
world for sticking a knife between his ribs. "Damn,"
Anna whispered. Footsteps
retreating brought her back to the present. Jennifer was running now, Anna
could hear it. Logically, she should go back to the bivouac and get help, but
she couldn't shake the idea that Jennifer was a greater danger to herself than
to anyone else. Len's murder had been a crime of passion. Short meant to cover
it up but Anna doubted she'd be willing to kill again to do so. "Want to
bet your life on it?" Anna muttered aloud. Then she turned on her lamp and
started down the creek in the direction Jennifer had taken. Sharp pains
shooting through ankles stiffened by cold and immobility slowed her to a lumber
and she cursed her frailty. Each step made enough noise she could no longer
hear Jennifer. Several times
Anna started to call her name but thought better of it, afraid it would only
increase the woman's panic. Glimpses of Jennifer's light were all Anna had to
guide her and it appeared and disappeared out of the unnatural night like swamp
gas. Suddenly that
winking golden eye turned and stared back. "Jennifer," Anna called.
"It's me. Wait up." The words were so pedestrian they rang in her
ears, but her other choices, "Stop, police! Drop that glove!," struck
her as absurd. "Stay
back," Jennifer screamed, her voice guttural edges and cutting highs.
"I got to pee!" She turned and began scrabbling up the frozen
embankment on the northern side of the wash. Anna plunged
after, reaching the bank just as Jennifer's boots disappeared over the edge.
Clawing her way up in darkness, her headlamp slung by its elastic band over her
wrist, Anna wished she'd had sense enough to wear a hard hat. "Talk to me,
Jen," she yelled as she tried to find a grip on the frozen earth. Crusted
snow broke off and fell down into her gloves. Her knee banged against something
hard. "Talk to me." Anna reached
the top and hauled herself over the lip of the ravine. As soon as
she'd found her feet, she shined the light in a half circle. Jennifer was gone,
her tracks leading up the hillside toward the ridge. For an instant Anna
listened. Crashing sounds of flight reassured her and she started up the hill
following Jen's trail. Every few feet she stopped, listened, heard the
footfalls and pushed on. The way was not
particularly steep but it was mined with pits where the Jackknife had burned
well below ground level in pursuit of living roots. Snow and frost had
conspired to camouflage the holes and the ground was treacherous. Anna had the relative
security of following in Jen's footsteps and so made better time. With each
stop she could hear the distance between them had shortened. The last time
she paused to listen the rushing retreat was checked by a crash and a cry. "Jen!"
Anna hollered. There was no answer, not even the sound of running. Anna slowed
her pursuit, trained the faltering light as far ahead as she could, sweeping it
in short arcs, looking for any indication Jen's trail was interrupted or had
doubled back. Black post-hole steps led cleanly through the humps of white and
spikes of charcoal that gave teeth to the landscape. After fifteen yards or
less Anna's vigilance was rewarded by a splash of color, the lemon yellow of a
jacket designed to be easily spotted in a search. Collapsed in a
heap, Jennifer Short craned her neck and looked up at Anna's light. A wild and
staring look was in her eyes. Straggling hair half hid her face. Muscles along
her jaw bunched as she clenched and unclenched her teeth. Any illusion that
humans have somehow shed their animal natures was shattered. Anna stopped
where she was and sat on her heels, letting her lamp split the distance between
them. "Are you okay, Jen?" she asked conversationally. Jennifer
didn't respond. "I heard you leave the bivouac and got scared you'd hurt
yourself so I came after." In the
half-light Anna could see the rigid cast of Jennifer's features soften
slightly. "And, too, I had to pee," Anna added, and laughed. Short
didn't smile but the softening process didn't stop either. "To paraphrase
the Queen of England, I expect this is not a time you will look back on with
undiluted pleasure." Anna went on talking just to talk, to build a fragile
bridge between them. "You've had a rough couple of days. That's why you're
feeling nuts. Bad as it is, it'll get better. Cross my heart and hope to
die." Jennifer's face
grew slack, her eyes hooded. The transformation from stretched muscle and taut
skin was so marked it was alarming. The other at least mimicked life in its
energy and violence. This was the face of the comfortably comatose. "What
happened, Jen?" Anna asked gently, and duck-walked a couple steps closer.
"Did you step in a stump hole and twist your ankle?" Short nodded
and pointed like a very young child. "You
landed on your right foot?" Anna waddled closer. "Does it hurt?" A childlike
nod. "Can I
look?" Anna didn't get a "no" or a shake so she slipped
carefully down the side of the hummock that had tripped Jennifer. A depression
several feet deep and five or six feet in diameter held them both like mice in
a teacup. Short's left leg was curled under her, her right thrust out. Beneath
her left thigh Anna could see the fingers of Len's glove peeking out. The glove
was dark brown and stiff as if it had been dipped in chocolate and allowed to
harden. Anna was careful not to notice it. With both
headlamps on, shining not on them but on the reflective surface of the snow,
Jennifer looked like the heroine in a sepia-toned tragedy. "When you
fell did you hear anything?" Anna asked. "A crack or a snap?" At first Anna
didn't think she was going to reply, then she said, "A snap, I
think." Her voice was little, as childish as her movements had been. "Not
good," Anna said. "You may have busted it. I'll go get some of the
guys and we'll carry you back to camp and cut the boot off there. May as well
leave it on for now. It'll keep your foot warmer and act as a kind of a
splint." Huge tears
rolled down Jennifer's face. Their size and clarity transfixed Anna. These were
not shallow tears but flowed from a well of hurt so deep the pressures were
nigh unto intolerable. "Will you
be okay alone here for a minute? I'll be as quick as I can," Anna said. "Don't you
want to know what happened?" Jennifer's voice was drowned in tears. "If you
want to tell me." "Len
killed Josh," she said. "He was supposed to scare him off but he hit
him too hard and killed him. Then he set the fire. He killed Newt too, with the
fire." Tears filled her throat, choking off her words. Anna knew a better
woman would take Jen in her arms and hold her. Anna wanted to do it but she
didn't know how so she held the broken foot tenderly and waited. Jennifer must
have let Len into her shelter. When the firestorm was upon them he had told her
and she'd killed him. Anna set Jen's
foot down gently. Not wanting to focus on Short's grief-ravished face, her eyes
came to rest on the big chocolate fingers digging into the snow under
Jennifer's leg. Len's glove. It had fallen off his hand, Anna remembered. With
some misplaced idea of propriety, she'd threaded it back on the dead fingers. A
big glove for so small a hand. Abruptly Anna
clapped her hands close to Jennifer's face, startling her out of her tears. "Quick,"
she demanded. "Ten seconds or less: why did you take Leonard's left
glove?" Jennifer just
stared, her eyes panicked. Five seconds passed, ten, twenty. "I cut my
hand," she stammered at last. "My blood would be mixed with
his." Anna sighed and
shook her head. "That's what I thought." "DNA tests
would show that, wouldn't they?" Jen challenged. "Yes,"
Anna replied, and plucked the glove from beneath Jennifer by a finger.
"They will." Jennifer's eyes
flashed with sudden understanding. She grabbed at the glove but Anna whisked it
out of her reach. "Sorry. Nice try. I'm going for help." Anna heard
Jennifer beginning to sob as she walked away but she didn't look back. Chapter Twenty-Seven BACK TO A sturdy snag, Anna stopped just out
of sight of Jennifer's probing light. Before she moved again she needed time to
think. Wind was rising, slicing across her face like a razor. Her skin hurt
with it, her hands and feet ached with cold. Jennifer's cries found her but she
ignored them, her mind churning through the night's revelations. Len's left
glove—a large on his small hand. The right glove, the one not saturated with
blood, had an "s" in ink on the wrist, size small. Under the chassis
of the truck the first night, over badger, then again with the abrasion on his
little finger: Stephen fussing with his left glove. Because it didn't fit.
Gloves were so necessary to firefighters that an ill-fitting one would be
tolerated only briefly. The bloody left glove belonged to Stephen Lindstrom. It
had become soaked with Len's blood not during some awkward contortion of a man
with a knife in his heart, but by the blood pouring from the wound beneath the
murderer's hand. Stephen had switched gloves, taken the unbloodied glove, but
it was way too small. The rest of
Jennifer's story was probably true. Nims was Catholic—though there were cynics
who would say, faced with death, we are all Catholics. Searching for absolution
he'd chosen the wrong father confessor. Two things Anna hadn't recognized as
important at the time became clear. When she'd told Stephen Joshua Short had
been killed he said he was a friend. And when Stephen had been arrested in 1989
for obstructing traffic, Josh was arrested that same date in a gay rights
protest in San Francisco. Stephen either was or had been Joshua's lover. For the murder
Anna could forgive Lindstrom. Forgive wasn't the right word, the trespass had
not been against her. Understand then. The betrayal that she was having trouble
accepting was Stephen allowing Jennifer to cover for him. Landing Joshua's only
and beloved sister in the slammer for murder jerked the rug out from under any
sort of True Love Revenged defense he might be using to rationalize his act. Anna was
furious at Stephen for not being the man she'd come to like and admire and
furious at Jennifer for letting herself be used. The womanly virtue of
self-sacrifice didn't hold any allure for Anna. Teaching dogs to love their
leash. She glanced
over her shoulder in Short's direction and was surprised because she could see.
The jaws of night were being pried apart by the dawn. Fog had thinned. Scraping
her head back against the charred wood, Anna looked up. One, two... seven;
seven stars were visible through a rift in the ceiling that had held them down
for so long. Tears welled up
in her eyes. Stars. She'd not realized—or hadn't let herself think—how much she
had missed them. And the sun. If ever a girl had needed the sun it had been
over the last forty-eight hours. She filled her lungs as if it was the first
breath she'd drawn since they'd crawled out of their fire shelters. With oxygen
came clarity and Anna knew what she must do. Nothing. The glove was safe in her
pocket. It was Stephen's work glove; DNA testing should find plenty to tie him
to it and, since Jennifer lied about bleeding on it, nothing to tie her to the
murder. She'd get help, carry Jen back to camp and wait. Rescue would reach
them sooner than later if the clearing trend continued. Stanton could have the
glove. Stanton could have Lindstrom. Hunching her
shoulders, Anna pushed away from the snag. Jennifer had stopped crying or
pursued the pastime quietly. Anna thought to check on her but didn't want to
start the waterworks again. Mostly she didn't want to see Jennifer till she'd
cooled off. She was afraid she would say something unkind. Later, when she'd
rested and eaten, empathy might overcome anger. She'd call Molly. Molly would
explain away weakness in blame-free psychological jargon. Anna would believe
her. Post-traumatic stress disorder: Jennifer could certainly present a case
for it. Feeling kinder
already, Anna started back down the slope, following the light from her
headlamp and taking courage from the hints of gray brought by the coming day. Another light
joined hers at the same moment as a shout. "Jen! Is that you?" It was Stephen
Lindstrom. There was a murmured exchange then another shout: "Jen!" Since Lindstrom
wasn't alone, Anna shouted back. "It's Anna. Jen's sprained or busted an
ankle. Who've you got with you?" "Hugh"
came with the sound of footsteps on the snow. Anna's heart
dropped, still Hugh was better than nothing, if only marginally. Even with
Pepperdine's irritating but less than murderous bulk to ease the situation,
Anna was at a loss. If she sent Hugh for help, she and a crippled Jennifer would
be left alone with Stephen. Should she go herself, she'd be leaving a cripple
and an incompetent alone with him. If Stephen went, then he'd be out of her
sight. Anna was reminded of a story problem in third-grade math involving a
fox, a goose, a sack of corn and a rowboat. They'd all have
to go together. "Think the
two of you can carry Jennifer back without hurting her too much?" Anna
asked. "Sounds
like you're not planning on doing any of the grunt work," Stephen kidded
her, a light punch landing on her arm. Anna wanted to
punch him back hard for preying on Jennifer's grief and love of Joshua but she
managed only to flinch away from his touch. In the semidarkness it went
unnoticed. "There are
people for that," she said calmly. "Large people with muscles all the
way up between their ears." "What were
you guys doing way out here anyway?" Pepper-dine asked aggressively. Still
trying to make up for the incident with the Buck knife, Anna suspected. She
ignored him. "Jen's up
the trail a ways." She gestured up the hill and stepped aside to let them
pass. "Stephen?"
Jennifer called. She'd heard their voices. Anna held her
breath. "Don't, Jen, don't do it," she whispered to herself. "It be
me," Lindstrom called back cheerfully. "She
figured it out," Short cried. "Anna knows." Momentarily the
four of them froze in a tableau: Anna, Hugh and Stephen strung out along the
trail, Jennifer in her hollow of earth. Hugh broke it first, his head rocking
back and forth in a parody of the dolls used to decorate the rear windows of
cars. "What? Knows what? What's going on here?" he demanded of all,
and got explanations from none. Anna was
concentrating on Lindstrom. With the dawning light, she could just make out his
features. They had the closed desperate look of a cornered animal's. Either
he'd give up or he'd run. Should somebody try and stop him, he'd fight. Anna
had no intention of getting in his way. There wasn't a chance in hell she could
stop him without getting badly hurt and probably not even then. Running would
only buy him time and not much of that. Once onto his trail, helicopters would
track him down before the day's end. Stephen's face
set, his center of gravity dropped, he pivoted and sprang, lunging back down
the trail the way they'd come. Anna leaped aside. Hugh wasn't quick enough and
got knocked on his butt. Stephen would
head north and east, deeper into the Caribou Wilderness. Even with his strength
and wilderness survival experience the helicopter would pick him up. Anna
couldn't but admire his courage. Pepperdine
hauled himself to his feet. "Lindstrom killed Len?" "Looks
that way." "Are you
just going to let him go?" Hugh was trembling with relief or excitement.
Anna couldn't tell which. "Give me the knife, I'm going after him." Anna looked at
Hugh as if he'd lost his mind. She wasn't altogether sure he hadn't.
"They'll catch him later," she said. "He won't be able to get
far in the snow without leaving a trail a blind man could follow." "You'll
attack me but won't chase down one of your little pals, is that it?" Hugh
said. Anna let that
pass. She wasn't in a mood for setting any records straight. "Leave it
alone, Hugh. Let's go get John and the others and get Jennifer back to the
shelter." "Screw
that." Hugh wasn't exactly frothing at the mouth but specks of saliva had
formed at the meeting of his lips and he sprayed out spittle with his words.
"You'll go after him with John or Joseph but not with me. You don't think
I have the balls, do you?" "I have no
interest in your balls or lack thereof," Anna said. That was the
wrong answer. Hugh exploded, one meaty fist slamming into the other. Barging
down on her like an enraged rhino, he shot past, in hot pursuit of
self-respect. And Stephen Lindstrom. "Damn it,
Hugh, come back here," Anna shouted. Either he didn't hear or he didn't
care. Were Hugh unlucky enough to catch up with Lindstrom he was bound to get
hurt. In the heat of the moment he might even get killed. Nims, a jury might
excuse. Nims and Pepperdine, never. "Doggone
it," Anna growled. "I'll be back," she shouted to Jennifer. Lindstrom had
cut back down to the wash, crossed it and headed off at an angle up the far
slope. Above the bivouac the new trail pursuer and pursued blazed joined up
with the path to the hot springs and the going got easier. Individual tracks
became indecipherable and Anna tracked by what was not there; no fresh prints
leading off the beaten trail. Around the
thermal area much of the snow had melted and the rest would melt quickly.
Stephen was hoping to lose his trail. He was a clever man, but Anna already
knew that. At the top of
the low ridge above where Lawrence had killed his badger in what seemed like
the good old days, Anna heard yelling. Male and angry, it wafted over the rise
separating her from the thermal lake. Evidently Hugh had cornered his quarry.
What an idiot. Anna had been
alternately walking and jogging, nursing a stitch in her side. Now she quelled
the desire to sprint the last hundred yards. Exhausted, she'd be little use to
anyone and a danger to herself. Forcing herself to relax and breathe, she
walked through the vale and up onto the next ridge. Clear light was
touching the last of the fog and each particle of moisture caught it. Steam
roiling up from the lake, the mud pots, the fumaroles, glowed in opalescent
plumes. Bright and shadowless and surreal, the lake muttered and fussed, eerie
streams of color moving as if they had plans of their own. The yelling had
stopped. No one was at the lower end of the lake where Lawrence and Anna had
enjoyed their public bath. Quickly she scanned the periphery trying to
penetrate the moving curtains of mist. Grunting aided her search. Eyes followed
sound as a finger of wind plucked at the steam and exposed Hugh and Stephen on
the top of the crumbling bluff that rose out of the boiling lake. For twenty
feet beneath them gray-white earth, ridged and pitted, steam pouring from
hidden vents and runnels of mud hardened over the years, fell in a ragged
curtain down to the superheated water. Like two moose
in rutting season, they were locked together, a headless beast that danced two
steps forward and two steps back. Suddenly Anna felt desperately tired. She
wished she had a cattle prod or a can of pepper spray. Supposedly the stuff
worked on animals. This would be a good opportunity to test it out, she
thought. Dropping into
an easy jog, she took the long way around, following the ridge to where it
joined with the bluff above the lake. Footing in thermal areas was too
hazardous to risk unless one had to. Along the high ground trees were sparse so
deadfall and stump holes weren't much of a problem and Anna made good time. The shoving
match was still in progress when she got there. From the look of the ground
beneath the combatants' feet, it had been going on for several minutes, a
phenomenally long time to sustain a fight. The men's breath came in gasps and
grunts. Both were too engrossed to take note of her arrival. Standing back a
relatively safe distance, Anna shouted. Neither looked up. Energy could not be
spared. Locked in their grunting samba, they were working closer to the edge of
the unstable bank. Annoyance
turned to alarm and Anna eased closer. "Give it up, Hugh," she
shouted. "You're too close to the edge." Reason was a
thing of the past. Stephen was probably the better fighter but Pepperdine had
weight on his side and a score to settle, not with Stephen but with a world
that called him Barney and wrote him off. Huffing like a
steamroller, his boots digging up the soft soil, Pepperdine began dozing
Lindstrom toward the drop. "Stop
it!" Anna yelled. Pepperdine
started to roar, a low rasping sound that built as he pushed. Stephen was
losing ground. His boots scrabbled on the edge. Chunks of bank, riddled with
holes from eons of steam percolating through, began to fall away. "No!"
Anna shouted, running across the small clearing. "No, Hugh." Grabbing
his arm for leverage, she stomped down hard on the arch of his foot. Most of
the blow was absorbed by his heavy boot but she got his attention. Pepperdine's
heavy face swung toward her. There was no lessening of hostility when his eyes
met hers. Indeed, it was as if he'd been waiting for just such an opportunity.
As his fist drew back Anna threw up an arm to protect herself, afraid to dodge
lest she lose her footing. His knuckles glanced off her cheekbone. Falling
back, hands groping for something to hold onto, she wished she'd been a little
nicer to Hugh. Or killed him outright. Somebody
shouted her name. Her right shoulder slammed down with such force the air was
knocked from her lungs. Paralyzed, Anna slid downward headfirst. Sulphur fumes
burned her eyes and penetrated her skin until she could taste the stuff. Breath
returned in a rush and she sucked the stench of this local hell deep into her
lungs. Slowly the
sickening slide stopped. She didn't dare move for fear of starting the process
over again. Carefully, Anna opened her eyes. Head down, she was mired in mud. A
dam of whitish slime had been pushed up by her shoulder and kept her from
slipping down farther. Feet and legs were strung out above her. Without moving
her head, she could see the tip of her knee. Their weight was trying to push
her farther down; she could feel it press on her diaphragm and stomach. One arm
was pinned beneath her. The mumble and pop of the lake was nearby, just below
where she lay. Ooze, not hot enough to burn but hot enough to remind her what
waited below, soaked through the leg of her trouser. She shifted her
arm free, hoping to drive it into the muck to stabilize her position. Even that
small movement upset the equilibrium and she slid several more inches before
again coming to a stop. "Anna?" It was Stephen. "I'm kind
of busy right now. Where's Hugh?" "He's
resting." "Get me
out of here." For a moment she didn't hear anything and a terrible fear
that he'd simply walked away welled up in her. "Stephen!" "I'm
here." Anna couldn't
move to look up. "Get me out of here." "You've
got to listen, Anna." "No
kidding." "Len
killed Josh." "So
Jennifer said." "Not like
that. I didn't tell her all of it. Josh wasn't dead. Len knew it but he lit the
fire anyway. He was afraid Josh would press charges. Anna, he heard him
screaming but didn't go back. That's what he confessed." "Yeah.
Well. Whatever. We've all got our problems. Get a branch. Please. The blood's
going to my head. I'm going to pass out, Stephen." Anna heard the note of
pleading in her voice and changed the subject. "You set Jen up, Stephen.
Josh's little sister. That cancels out your defense." Anna'd not meant to
antagonize, she'd just needed to get the taste of begging out of her mouth.
Triumph, if there was any, evaporated in the silence that followed. Fear took
its place. "Stephen!"
Anna shouted. "I never
set Jen up," Stephen said. Anna felt such a rush of gratitude that he was
still there she could have cried had not every sphincter in her body been
squeezed tight. "When we came up here to bathe yesterday I told her Len
had killed Josh. I thought she had a right to know. Len being dead—I thought it
would make her feel better somehow. If I'd known it was going to push her back
into a funk I would've kept my mouth shut. I didn't know she was going to try
and get me off the hook or I'd've stopped her. I guess she needed to do
something for Josh. I wouldn't have let her, Anna, believe me." "Fine,"
Anna said sourly, but she believed him. "You're a swell guy. So get me the
hell out of here." "I can't
go to jail." "There
were extenuating circumstances," Anna managed. Sulphurous mud crawled in
her mouth with every word. "They'll go easy on you." "Sure.
Crazed faggot revenges homo lover. Juries love that. I can't go to jail, Anna.
It'd kill me. I can't be locked up. I'm sorry." From the corner
of her eye, Anna noticed the little dam of gray mud that kept her from falling
into the lake was cracking, beginning to fall apart. Chapter Twenty-Eight AS ANNA PRIED up an eyelid, Hugh
Pepperdine flinched away then squawked at the pain the movement caused.
"Don't sit up yet," Anna cautioned. He blinked up at her. His eyes
had a vague unfocused look. "What's your name?" Anna asked. "What
happened?" "Do you
know what day it is?" Anna asked, then realized she didn't know what day
it was. "Tuesday."
Hugh's eyes were clearing. They roved slowly over Anna's face. "Who are
you?" "You've
had a blow to the head," Anna explained. "You're probably concussed.
Do you know your name?" she pressed. "Shit.
It's you, Anna." Pepperdine closed his eyes. "What happened to your
face?" Anna reached up
and felt of her nose and cheeks. Hair, ears, skin, all were filled with gummy
whitish mud. Maybe Hugh wasn't as bad off as she'd feared. She'd scarcely
recognize herself. "Don't you
remember?" she asked. "I
remember coming up here after what's-his-name," Hugh said, eyes still
closed. "What hit me? My head feels like it's broken." Anna ran her
hands over his skull, touching lightly, looking for any abnormalities. She
worked her fingers down the back of his neck feeling for displaced or deformed
cervical vertebrae, checked his ears for fluid and behind them for the bruised
look of battle signs that sometimes accompanied severe head trauma.
"You've got a knot the size of an ostrich egg on the back of your head but
I don't think anything's fractured. You'll have a headache for a few
days." Running her
hands down his arms and legs, Anna pinched and poked and asked questions till
she'd satisfied herself there was no central nervous system damage. Hugh lay
still, letting her conduct her secondary survey. "Looks like everything
still works," she said when she'd finished, and: "You honestly don't
remember a thing after coming up here?" "I said
that," Hugh replied testily. "Is my head injury making you
deaf?" Then his tone changed to one of fear. "Why? Does that mean
anything?" "No.
No," Anna reassured him hastily. "It's fairly common. You get a hard
enough knock on the head, you forget the events immediately prior to the
injury. It's not like you forget all your past lives. It's usually just a
matter of minutes that get erased." Hugh seemed
determined to sit up at this point so Anna helped him. Groaning, he held his
head between his hands in the necessary clichй of a man with head pain.
"It feels like my head's the size of a beach ball and made of lead,"
he complained. "It'll get
better," Anna promised. "Can you walk?" He started to
shake his head then thought better of it. "Not yet." Carefully, so as
not to jar his brain, Hugh lifted his face and looked around. Streaks of blue
showed through the fog. The sun was not yet up but the light was strong enough
to paint the steam in pale shades of peach. "Where's
Lindstrom? I was chasing Lindstrom. I remember that much." "You
really don't remember?" Anna asked for the third time. He just glared at
her. She took it for a "no." "I got
knocked down the bank, almost to the lake. You pulled me out. Lindstrom hit you
and you fought. Stephen fell back, into the thermal area. You got knocked down
and hit your head." "Lindstrom?" "By the
time you'd got me up the bank he was gone." "He sank
in that stuff?" Pepperdine had the decency to look appalled. Anna didn't
reply. Pepperdine
worked his head gingerly from side to side testing its limitations. "Hey,
I saved your life," he said with sudden realization. "Yeah,"
Anna said. "I owe you a beer. Can you walk?" With help, Hugh
got to his feet. Half a dozen times on their slow walk back to the wash he
asked her again what happened, reminded her again that he'd saved her life.
Anna restricted her responses to grunts and nods as much as she could. It was
not beyond the realm of possibility that one day Hugh's memory of those minutes
would return. She was gambling that by then he'd be so in love with the story
she'd told him that he'd cling to it for the rest of his days. ENCLOSED IN THE artificial
night of the shelter, the others were just beginning to stir as Anna and
Pepperdine limped into camp. Outside the tent, John and Joseph Hayhurst were
muttering in low voices and stamping life back into their feet. "What the
hell happened to you two?" LeFleur asked. The last vestige of heat was
gone from Anna's mud pack. Not only did she look like the living dead but her
wet clothes had chilled her to the point she spoke like a zombie, through
clenched jaws. "Long story," she managed. "Jen's busted an
ankle. You'll need a couple of guys to carry her out. Let me dump Hugh and I'll
show you where she is." Anna pulled
aside the shelter flap. Paula, dutifully wearing her jacket, had nonetheless
curled herself around Black Elk, sleeping cold to keep him warm. "Everybody
make it?" Anna asked as Paula woke. She laid a hand on Howard's neck.
Pulse and breathing reassured her. "Not much longer now," she said,
and ducked outside. WITH THE FIRST rays
of the sun came the welcome sound of a helicopter thumping through the still
air. Common miracles but Anna felt blessed. Joseph and John
were carrying Jennifer, Anna trailing behind. They didn't even stop at the
bivouac, but turned south up the trail to the heli-spot. Two men met
them. Two clean, warm, well-fed men with a stretcher and medical gear. Neither
was Frederick Stanton, but Anna forgave them. "We've got a man with bad burns
down in the wash. Take him and the guy with the head injury first," she
said. "This woman's ankle's broken. She'll keep." John and Joseph
stepped to one side as the medics jogged down the incline. Young and strong and
handsome in their gray jumpsuits, they reminded Anna of Stephen. That life was
over and it saddened her. Up on the
heli-spot the pilot was unloading coolers from a shiny Bell JetRanger. Not
since Anna'd watched Cinderella's pumpkin metamorphose into a glittering
carriage had she seen such a lovely equipage. The pilot, a balding overweight
man in his fifties, helped Joseph and the crew boss to park Jennifer on one of
the coolers. Lawrence and Neil joined the group and the pilot set about serving
them with such good cheer they became heady with it. The adventure was over,
they were saved. Glory hallelujah. Everybody but Jennifer drank hot cocoa and
laughed too much. Jen remained shut in her own dark world. It would take more
than a hot bath and a good meal to cure what ailed her. The medics brought
Hugh and Howard up to the heli-spot. Paula walked beside the stretcher, her
hand resting lightly on the frame near Howard's arm. More helicopters began
chopping up the segment of sky above them. "Press," the pilot said.
"They've been buzzing around like flies for two days." The medics
loaded Hugh into the helicopter then slid the stretcher bearing Howard into its
slot. "Paula," he said clearly. It was the first word he'd spoken in
Anna couldn't remember how many hours. "Can I
go?" Paula asked simply. Gone were the sexual overtones that had once
accompanied all requests. "What do
you weigh?" Helicopter pilots were the only people on earth who got an
honest answer to that question. Few were willing to die for their vanity. "A hundred
and thirty-one." "Get on
board." As Paula was
buckled in, John nudged Hayhurst. "Maybe she can hang up her spurs, make
an honest man of him." "It'd save
him a fortune, that's for sure," Joseph replied. Pepperdine had
been right; everyone had known but Anna. The helicopter
departed in a frenzy of wind and noise. Left again to themselves, quiet
descended on the group, hilarity of relief evaporating as their losses began to
sink in. "That was
some story Hugh was telling," Neil Page said. "How much of it's
true?" Anna pressed her
cocoa into Jennifer's hands and poured another for herself before squeezing
onto the cooler close to the other woman. Jen would need any comfort that could
be offered in the next couple of minutes. Short couldn't but have noticed
Stephen had not come back. Anna guessed she was afraid to ask why. "It's true
more or less," Anna answered Page. Lawrence shook
himself as if a goose walked over his grave. "They'll never find his body
in that soup," he said. Anna made no
comment. "I doubt
they'll even try." LeFleur swirled the cocoa in his Styrofoam cup.
"That area is too unstable, too unpredictable. I'd be damned if I'd go out
there in a little rowboat and try to drag that lake. It probably goes clear
down to the center of the world." Jennifer's head
was sunk between her shoulders, her injured foot propped up in front of her.
"Stephen?" she asked quietly. "Hugh said
he lost the fight and fell in that thermal lake," Page said bluntly. Anna
shot him a dirty look. "My
fault," Jennifer said in a whisper so low only Anna could hear. "I
should have left well enough alone." "It
wouldn't have made any difference," Anna said firmly and wondered if she
was lying. She liked to think she would have figured it out anyway but there
was no way of knowing. To block
everyone's pain including her own, Anna thought of home and heat and Frederick
Stanton. Unconsciously, her hand went to her mud-caked hair. "How do I
look?" she asked Jennifer. "I look like shit, don't I?" Jen
didn't even hear. "Drink your cocoa," Anna ordered, and Short put the
cup mechanically to her lips. Neil Page
rummaged through the pockets of his brush jacket and produced a rumpled pack of
Harley Davidson cigarettes. Shaking one partway out of the foil, he offered it
to John. LeFleur looked dumbfounded, a man seeing the Holy Grail. "You had
these all along? You son of a bitch," he said, but he took the cigarette,
snapped off the filter and fumbled for a light. "There
weren't enough," Neil said, unperturbed. Anna stared at
the men lighting up. All those times Neil had been sneaking off to smoke so he
wouldn't have to share. "You
bummed John's last cigarette," she said, suddenly remembering. Neil's hand,
cupped around his lighter, froze for a second, then he flicked the lever and
sucked in a lungful of smoke. "Forgot I had my own," he said. Harley Davidsons.
Len Nims had been smoking Harley Davidsons the morning he'd come to the medical
unit tent. Page had robbed Len's corpse for smokes. Anna looked away. The helicopter
returned for a second load. Anna, Jennifer, Neil and Lawrence were loaded into
the back of the Bell Jet. One of the medics stayed behind with Joseph and John
to wait for the last trip. The shriek of
the engine blotted out all else and the machine lifted into the air. To the
east the sun burned through in a blinding flood of life and Anna felt
resurrected. Joy permeated her bones, dissolved aches, tempered cold. It was
grand to be alive. Short, crumpled
in the seat next to her, her foot bare and splinted with pillows, propped on
the bench opposite, experienced no such lifting of the spirits and Anna felt an
overwhelming rush of pity. Grief over the death of her brother would be
softened by time. Guilt over the horrible demise of Stephen Lindstrom would
not. Jennifer had been to the thermal lake. There would be nightmares. As
Garrison Keillor said: "Guilt is the gift that keeps on giving." Anna looked
away from the young woman's despair, stared out the window. The sky was touched
with a thousand shades of peach and silver. Below, in the shadow of a distant
ridge, the rising tide of light picked out a glowing spot of color. "Want to
see something pretty?" Anna shouted impulsively in Jennifer's ear. Jennifer barely
shook her head. "Come
on," Anna insisted. "It's beautiful." "No."
Jennifer mouthed the word soundlessly. "Look,
damn it." Putting a hand on the back of Jennifer's neck, Anna dragged the
woman halfway across her lap, directing her eyes out the window. For a moment
Jen stared without seeing. "Look down, the far ridge," Anna yelled. Then Jennifer
saw it, a tiny speck of bright NoMex yellow working its way purposefully toward
the rising sun. She shot Anna a questioning look and Anna nodded. Jennifer
laughed. "God, but that's gorgeous." She looked a moment longer then
straightened up, smiling. "I told
you," Anna shouted. A moment later she leaned over and yelled:
"Frederick's meeting me. How do I look?" "Like
shit." "You're a
pain in the ass, you know that?" "I
know," Jennifer shouted back. She took Anna's hand and held it till they'd
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in gratitude for his unfailing kindness and patience, virtues I may not
possess but deeply admire ACKNOWLEDGMENTS Special thanks to Dave Langley, Rick
Gale and Steve Zachary F IRESTORM Chapter One IF SHE'D HAD a foot fetish Anna would have
been an extremely happy woman. Cradled in her lap was a prime example of pedis
giganticus belonging to one Howard Black Elk. More mole foam than flesh was
visible. "Fighting
on slopes keeps tearing 'em off," Mr. Black Elk told her between gulps of
Mountain Dew. "Anybody but you does 'em they're gone by lunch. You got the
touch." Absurd as it
was, Anna took great pride in the durability of her blister dressings. Caesar's
army may have moved on its stomach, but firefighters moved on their feet. After
ten days of skirmishes, the army battling California's Jackknife Fire was proceeding
a bit gingerly. The line queued up outside the medical unit tent was Anna's
barometer, and the pressure was rising. Sho-Rap, the Shoshone and Arapaho
firefighting crew out of Montana, seemed to suffer more than most. Maybe
because they were big men. Even with the protective fire boots they were
required to wear, gravity hit them harder. Anna eased the
ruined dressings off Mr. Black Elk's foot and examined the carnage. Black Elk
was an Arapaho Indian but he wasn't with the Sho-Raps. He was a member of the
San Juan crew from the southwest. "You busted open the blisters," she
accused. "Got to
let 'em drain." "No you
don't. They'll get infected." She looked into the man's face to see if she
was getting through to him. "Are you going to quit that?" "You
betcha." Anna didn't
believe him. She cleaned the ball of his foot and his heel with hydrogen
peroxide. When he winced at the sting she said, "Serves you right." A heady sense
of Normandy, Tripoli, John Wayne and Twelve O'clock High reverberated
through fire camps. Like everyone else, Anna reveled in it. A soldier's
life—particularly in a war where death was highly unlikely and the battle soon
over—was a life enhanced with an illusion of importance untrammeled by
responsibility. Orders were simple: climb, stop and dig. Hard physical labor
and the ability to sleep on rough ground were all that was asked. Anna found
peace in the freedom from choices. With great
care, she began reconstructing the protective barriers of foam, Second-Skin and
bandages on Mr. Black Elk's foot. The rest of the San Juan Plateau crew began
drifting over from the chow line to swell the ranks waiting for medical
attention. The San Juans
were an interagency crew with firefighters from the Forest Service, the Bureau
of Land Management and the National Park Service. Three of the firefighters
were from Mesa Verde National Park, Anna's duty station. Anna had arrived
independently when the call went out for more emergency medical technicians to
man the medical units. These units provided care to the firefighters in the
spike camps. As the Jackknife cut a black swath through the Caribou Wilderness
and Lassen Volcanic National Park in northern California, Incident Base—the
main camp housing supplies and command headquarters—needed units closer to the
fireline. Small camps, called "spikes" by firefighters though
officialdom no longer used the term, were springing up like fire moss. "You guys
with blisters go ahead and take the dressings off and clean your feet with
peroxide," Anna said to those waiting. "I think Stephen's got a spare
bottle." "Go easy
with the stuff," Stephen Lindstrom, the other EMT, said. "We won't
have any more till tomorrow afternoon." Lindstrom was
with the Forest Service out of Reno, Nevada. When Anna and three crews had been
spiked out nineteen miles from base camp, she'd begged for and gotten him.
Efficient and gentle, he was one of the better EMTs she'd worked with. "How 'bout
I get you some dinner before them hogs swill it all down?" Anna looked in
the direction of the familiar Memphis drawl. Jennifer Short, a seasonal law
enforcement ranger from Mesa Verde, leaned against a sugar pine near the
outdoor examination room Anna and Stephen had pieced together from a ground
cloth and twelve folding chairs. Jennifer had
been on the Jackknife fire for seven days, one day less than Anna, and she was
still wearing makeup. Anna couldn't help but admire her. Anybody who stuck to
their beliefs under duress deserved respect. The sooty fingerprints around her
nose and the trails of sweat running through her dust-coated rouge only added
to the effect: bloody but unbowed. "Thanks,"
Anna said. "Stephen, want some supper?" Belatedly she asked Jennifer,
"Would you mind?" "Why I'd
just lie down and die if he said no," Jennifer said, and winked. Dividing her
time between bites and blisters, Anna managed to finish her supper and thirteen
feet in the next hour. Kneeling at the fourteenth and last, she began unlacing
a well-worn, custom-made White's fire boot. "Helps if you remove your
boots for me," she said mildly. "My feet's
not what hurt." Anna rocked
back on her heels and took in the face attached to the expensive boots.
"San Juan crew, crew boss, right?" "John
LeFleur." The firefighter stuck out a hand with spatulate fingers
reminiscent of the toes of Amazon rain forest frogs Anna'd seen hopping through
various PBS specials. She forced herself up from her knees. Cold, fatigue and
hard beds were taking their toll. Getting old, she chided herself. Once hard
work had made her tougher; now it only made her tired. She stuck out her hand
and, trying for a pressure that was manly without being macho, took LeFleur's. His bottom lip
was swollen and bruised. Dried blood caked where the skin had split. "Does
your face hurt?" she asked. The third-grade insult, "Because it's sure
killing me," flickered nonsensically through her mind, but John LeFleur
certainly wasn't hard to look at. Anna had him pegged for forty-five or so—his
hair was still there and still brown. The nasolabial folds chopped like hatchet
marks in his weathered face; heavy brows protected blue eyes. "Walked
into a door," he said, fingering the injury. "All I need's a cold
pack." When Anna
returned from the tent with the desired item, the man was lighting an
unfiltered Pall Mall. "Can't get
enough smoke on the fireline?" Anna crushed the cold pack to mix the
chemicals that provided the cooling effect. "I'm an
old fire horse," LeFleur admitted. "One sniff of smoke and I start to
snort and stamp. This is my thirty-seventh project fire. My eighth in
California." Anna was
impressed. What she said was: "My, but you must be old." "I can
still work most into the ground." The crew boss took the cold pack and
pressed it against his lip. "You'd
have to look a long ways to find a door up here," Anna commented. Sudden anger flared
in his voice and his eyes. "If I run into it again, I'm going to bust the
son of a bitch up for kindling." Anna let the
remark pass without comment. Spike camp was too small a world to make enemies.
As far as she was concerned sleeping dogs could lie or take the first ride down
the mountain. Since no new
pilgrims had arrived at her canvas Lourdes, Anna sat down next to LeFleur while
he enjoyed his cigarette. From inside the shadowed tent she could hear Stephen
busy with the inevitable litter left at day's end. In a minute she'd go help
him. At the moment it felt too good just to sit. Light was
draining from the sky, taking the day's heat with it. Anna rolled down her
sleeves and hugged herself. The camp was situated on the back of a mountain
ridge amidst a landscape of mountains cresting like waves in every direction.
To the west and southwest the trees breathed up black smoke. As the day faded,
pinpricks of orange blossomed. A garish
blood-red sunset fired the sky, the last rays bending through smoke so thick
the neck bones of Lassen Peak were obscured. Near the horizon the smoky pall
blotted out the sun. Higher up, smoke sucked fire from the sun and burned in
the heavens as the Jackknife burned on earth. Anna shoved her
hands in her pockets to retain their warmth. "The end of the world looks
pretty doggone festive, if you ask me," she said. LeFleur stubbed
the cigarette out on the sole of his boot then shredded the paper and scattered
the tobacco. "That's where we were today." He pointed across a narrow
valley to a burning hillside. "We cut line to that outcrop of boulders and
tied into the dozer line." The area he
pointed to was on a steep forty-percent slope and choked with dog-hair
thickets. "Bitch of
a climb," Anna said. "Try it
with a chainsaw on your shoulder." LeFleur lit a second Pall Mall and
contemplated his day's work. "I'm going to be out of the game soon if I
can't move into management. Time to leave the backbreakers to the kids." Since he didn't
seem to be talking to her as much as to himself, Anna felt justified in
changing the subject. "Speaking of kids, how did Jennifer do?" The
Jackknife was Jennifer's first fire. Her red card and fire boots were both so
new they squeaked. After working with Short in Mesa Verde, Anna had developed a
reluctant fondness for the southern belle. "Fireline's
no place for a woman." "Did she
screw up?" "No." "What
then?" The crew boss
laughed. "You're not going to drag me into that. You know what I
mean." Anna did and
quelled an urge to bite the man. Anna had served her time on firelines and knew
quarter was given to no one. On her last three project fires she'd gone out as
a medic or security or, as in the case of the Jackknife, both. The work was
less backbreaking and more challenging, if not physically, then cerebrally. "Jennifer
kept up," LeFleur said finally. "Don't
dress it up on my account," Anna said dryly. LeFleur
laughed. "She's okay. Works right along. She's got blisters on both her
hands but never complains about anything but how big her butt looks in NoMex,"
he said, referring to the baggy, fire retardant wool pants all firefighters
were required to wear. "A wolf in
femme fatale's clothing," Anna said with satisfaction. Abruptly, she
asked: "Are you married?" "Are you
offering?" Anna squirmed
figuratively, if not literally. She was tempted to tell him the information
wasn't for her but knew whatever she said at this point was bound to sound
lame. "Just making conversation." Letting it go at that, she watched
the reds deepening into night. Darkness was brought on early by smoke. Sparks
of orange, just hinting at the vastness of the burn before sundown, pricked the
sides of mountains in three directions. The coming of
night had hushed the constant growl of retardant aircraft and the helicopters
that chopped into the heli-spot below camp. The small sounds of raccoon, deer,
owl, coyote and cougar had been silenced for eight days. In its infancy, the
Jackknife had made a name for itself by taking two newsworthy sacrifices: a
young man camped out near Pinson Lake and his dog. Tabloids had made hay with
photos of the charred remains of the pooch while thousands of wild things lost
went unmourned. Anna didn't
mourn them now. Tiny corpses left behind by fires—squirrel, fawn, bunny—didn't
sadden her as they once might have. Wildland fire returned many needed things
to the earth. An icy breeze
was sucked down through the trees. Fire raged over thirty thousand acres of
prime timberland. Creeks boiled dry, birds fled, fledglings died in the nest,
smoke hung in the valleys for a hundred miles, and still Anna could not get
warm. She buttoned the top button of her shirt and turned the collar up. Soon
she would have to go in and get her coat but she was not yet ready to move. The
folding chair and ground cloth felt like home. Marooned as it was, an island of
life in a sea of black and flame, the tent village seemed cozy. Three
twenty-by-fifteen-foot tents, their white canvas reflecting the evening light,
were clustered around a central clearing. Time Keeping operations were housed
in one of the big tents. It was there hazard pay, overtime and wages were recorded.
The LeFleurs of the world might fight fire for the love of it, but
for most it was a living, a way of making ends meet. The San Juans
were housed in the second tent and Anna and Stephen shared the last with
medical supplies and emergency gear. East of the main tents—and hopefully
downwind—was a slum of blue Porta-Johns. The honey-pot industry was one place
Anna was against unisex application. Privately she believed the Shoshone lost
to invading armies because they had such lousy aim. Between the
tents and the toilets was the mess area; twice a day meals were trucked in from
base camp. A long table lined with basins and soap for washing was just beyond.
Cubies— square, plastic five-gallon containers for water—were stacked in a
translucent wall on the far side of the table. Basins and table alike were
smudged with the ubiquitous soot that tinged hair, nails, skin and clothes of
everyone in spike camp. Down at
Incident Base, showers housed in semi-truck trailers with their own generators
for hot water provided the crews with some relief from the endless grime. In
spike camp dirt not removable with basin and towel remained for the duration.
Long-haired firefighters—and at this camp they were in the majority, with
twenty men from Sho-Rap and four women including Anna—kept it braided back.
After an hour on the fireline, hair took on the consistency of cotton candy. LeFleur
finished his second Pall Mall. Night was upon them. He handed Anna back the
spent cold pack. "Bedtime for this boy." "Watch out
for doors," Anna said as he left. Laughter from
the medical tent lured her from the night. Jennifer and
Stephen were wrestling with an uncooperative Coleman lantern. Providing more
laughs than light, they argued about the perfect number of pumps required to
create the ideal pressure in the lamp's fuel chamber. As Anna came in
the Coleman roared to life and the peace of the evening was pushed aside.
Obnoxious though it was, the harsh light was necessary. For the next couple of
hours Anna and Stephen bandaged cuts, handed out analgesics, mole foam, nasal
spray, hand lotion and, when called for, sympathy. Near midnight
they crawled into their sleeping bags, laid out on the unheard-of luxury of
army cots. In less than five hours they'd be back at it, packaging feet for
another day on the line. In soft beds
and climate-controlled bedrooms Anna had trouble sleeping. At fire camps the
nightmares left her alone. Exhaustion claimed mind and body during the brief
respites allowed. From the modest
confines of her yellow fire-issue sleeping bag, she squirmed out of her
underwear: plain, white cotton; underpants that wouldn't melt at high
temperatures and adhere to the flesh. The western forests might burn but Anna's
underwear shouldn't ignite. "Got the
scoop on John LeFleur's lip," Stephen said as Anna dropped the maidenly
garment to the floor. Lindstrom loved to gossip. One of his endearing
qualities, as far as Anna was concerned. "Do
tell." "Welllll,"
he said, drawing out the word in exaggerated confidence, making her laugh.
"Jennifer said—" "Wait,"
Anna interrupted. "In my exalted capacity as spike camp security
officer-cum-medic, am I going to have to take any action on this tidbit?
Because if I am don't tell me." "Jennifer said,"
Stephen pressed on, "that John got into an altercation that led to
fisticuffs. Wish I'd been there," he sighed dramatically. "I do so
love violence. That other BLM guy, Leonard Nims, took a swing at John.
Connected on the second try." Anna vaguely
remembered Nims. He was a GS-7 supervisor from the Bureau of Land Management in
Farmington, New Mexico. Prematurely white hair and a black mustache gave him
striking looks and the hard muscled body of an athlete belied his age—late forties,
she guessed. Nims would have been handsome if he could have dropped his
Napoleon complex. At five-foot-eight or -nine he hadn't earned it. The chip on
his shoulder reduced his stature. "Jennifer
said Joseph broke it up," Stephen went on. Joseph Hayhurst was a Mescalero
Apache born and raised in the foothills of California, educated at Berkeley, a
latecomer to his Indian heritage. The juxtaposition of cultures had created a
fascinating mix of New Age artist and Indian rights fundamentalist. He wore his
hair long and tied back, as did most of the Shoshone and Arapahos, but it was
cut short in front and curled around his face. A fashion a multitude of white
artists strove for in closet trysts with their girlfriends' curling irons. "Jennifer
said he threatened to spank the both of them if it happened again because
darned—'darned,' don't you just love it? 'Dagnabbit, you motherfuckers, now
quit that...' " "Anyway..."
Anna was too tired to enjoy a ramble, however entertaining. "Anyway, darned
if he was going to get sent off the fire before he'd paid for last
winter's vacation." Joseph was a
squad boss for the San Juans. A crew consisted of twenty firefighters divided
into two squads. The crew boss was responsible for all twenty, the squad bosses
for eight to ten firefighters each. If anyone got into trouble, the
troublemaker wasn't the only one sent home. All twenty were demobilized. "What was
the fight about?" Anna asked. "Back in
Farmington John works for Nims. Now he's Nims's boss and Nims is working for him.
I guess it wasn't sitting too well. Jennifer says they haven't got on from the
git-go. Nims is the crew boss trainee, so LeFleur is training his own
replacement, so to speak. The Bureau of Land Management is grooming Nims for
better things. In lieu of LeFleur, is my guess. By the by, was you and LeFleur
a-sparkin' out there in the gloaming?" Anna whistled a
few bars of "Matchmaker" from "Fiddler on the Roof."
"Firefighters hate sparks." "Do you
know why Smokey the Bear never had children?" Stephen asked. "Because
every time his wife got hot he hit her with a shovel." "Old
joke," he apologized. "Old jokes
are the best." "Goodnight." "About
damn time." "Darn
time, please." Headlights
raked across the canvas wall, chased by the growl of a diesel engine. "Oops,"
Stephen said. "I'll get
it." Anna sounded as if it were a doorbell ringing at an inappropriate
time. The truck
driver, Polly or Sally—Anna floundered for the name—was one of the many local
people hired to assist in the logistics of feeding, cleaning and fueling a city
of a thousand souls appearing suddenly in the wilderness. The girl always
seemed to avoid Anna. Whether the avoidance was personal or coincidental, she
had no idea. "It's
late, I'll have to stay over," the driver said defensively as she bounced
her plump little body out of the vehicle. Four of the six nights spike camp had
been in existence she'd found some way to have to stay over. Anna suspected she
had a sweetheart. "Makes
sense," Anna said amiably, and waited to see what reason would be given
for the long trip up the mountain this time. "I got a
thing here for you or John what's-his-name, the crew boss guy." As she
leaned into the cab the girl's head vanished behind a curtain of lush brown
hair, clean and worn loose. After a moment's rustling she emerged with a folded
sheet of paper. She handed it over, and Anna was aware of a cheap but enticing
perfume. "Thanks
... Sally." She hazarded a guess at the name. "Paula." Anna'd lost a
round. "Paula. Sure. Sorry. Breathing too much smoke." Paula seemed
anxious to get away so Anna quit muttering apologies. "If you want you can
pitch your tent behind the medical unit," she offered. "There's a
flat spot there." "No. I got
a place all staked out." The woman bunched a tent into her arms and
started toward the trees behind the Porta-Johns where the Sho-Raps were camped. Anna unfolded
the note and read it by the light of her flashlight. "The body of the man
found burned near Pinson Lake just outside Lassen Volcanic National Park has
been identified as Joshua Short, brother of seasonal park ranger Jennifer
Short, out of Mesa Verde, Colorado, now serving on the San Juan Plateau
crew." "Jesus."
Anna turned the page over in hopes of finding more information but it was as
blank as it had been two seconds previously. Jennifer's brother. Anna thought
of her own sister, Molly, how lonely she would be were she to lose her, and
tremendous sadness swept over her. Carefully she refolded the note and tucked
it in her shirt pocket. This was not a bit of paper to be passed carelessly
from hand to hand. That it had arrived so publicly bespoke a crassness or
negligence Anna had trouble crediting the information officer with. On a hunch
she shined her flashlight into Paula's truck. On the second sweep she found it:
a blue For Your Eyes Only envelope with her and LeFleur's names on it had been
torn open and hastily discarded. The spike camp's inamorata was a nosy little
beast. Clicking off
the light, Anna stood for a moment in the silence and breathed the pleasant
odor of pine smoke. The death note in her pocket was heavy as a brick. Moving
slowly to put off the inevitable, she wandered in darkness toward the San Juan
crew tent. One end of the
tent was tied open for fresh air. The other closed off in complete darkness. In
September, in the Cascades, nights were cold, and frost was on the ground most
mornings. Anna looked down the row of inert forms. Several world-class snorers
sawed at the air but no one was awake. Between the sleeping bags was a tangle
of yellow fire packs. The packs were a nightmare of webbing and plastic buckles
designed to hook together all the necessary components needed on the line: fire
shelter, water, fusees, gloves, helmet, goggles, brush jacket and earplugs. Near the open
end of the tent LeFleur lay on his back, one arm thrown over his eyes. Joseph
Hayhurst was curled next to him, his hands tucked under his cheek like an
innocent. Anna spotted Nims by the white hair. His face was to the back of the
tent. Jennifer was lost in the darkness somewhere between the sleeping men. After a moment,
Anna turned and crept away. Tomorrow would be soon enough to tell Jennifer.
This might be the last good night's sleep she would enjoy in a while. Chapter Two "IT'S TIME." The voice came
through warm thick darkness and was most unwelcome. Anna retreated, curling
deeper into oblivion. "We miss
your bright eyes and sweet smile." The same voice, sugary this time, but
still odious. "Bugger
off," Anna grumbled. "Oooh, now
there's a thought ..." A rough shake loosed Anna entirely from the
comforting embrace of sleep. Stephen, sitting on the army cot laid head to head
with hers, was lacing up his boots. "It's
still dark," Anna complained. "And cold.
The glamour never stops. You've got ten seconds to do girl things, then I'm
lighting the Coleman and to hell with your modesty." "I would
have had a son about your age if I hadn't drowned him at birth." The EMT
laughed. Anna could hear him groping for the lantern as she dragged on her
underpants. Drafts, sharp as knives with the early frost, stabbed into the warm
sanctity of her sleeping bag as she performed her morning contortions. Finally decent
in a yellow NoMex fire shirt, she unzipped the bag. The new day hit her thighs
like ice water. By the glare of a flashlight she watched Lindstrom battling the
Coleman. Twenty-six or -seven, six-foot-two, strong, even-featured, with sandy
hair so thick it stood out like fur, he reminded Anna of the boys who'd ignored
her in high school. His hands betrayed his bulk with their long sensitive
fingers. The hands of a flutist. Or a gynecologist. Once or twice Anna'd
glimpsed a mean streak but it only served to make him more interesting. He looked at
her with narrowed eyes. "Anna?" "I'm
awake. Don't push me." She dragged on the olive drab trousers one leg at a
time like the rest of the world. The only people
up earlier than the medical unit were the food servers and Anna blessed them in
the name of Pele the fire goddess and half a dozen lesser gods as she poured
her first cup of coffee. About halfway through the stumbling dark, back toward
the medical tent, caffeine burned the remaining fog from her brain and she
remembered her chores. Jennifer Short's brother was dead. Remembering the
dead, a fading image of Zachary wavered behind her eyes: a slender dark man,
forever twenty-nine, brown eyes glowing across an electric candle in a Brew and
Burger in Manhattan. "If you asked me to marry you, I'd say yes,"
Anna had said. And he had asked. Zach had been
dead for so many years she should have quit counting. There had been other men
since, men to spend the days with, men to pass the nights, but none to soften
the loneliness. One, maybe, she amended: Frederick Stanton, an offbeat FBI
agent she'd worked with on two homicides, once when she was a ranger on Isle
Royale in Lake Superior and again several months ago in Mesa Verde National
Park. Dinner, a hike through Indian ruins, a kiss that reminded her the animals
went two by two, then he was on a plane back to Chicago. Just as she'd
been metaphorically dusting off her hands and consigning her emotions to a
well-stocked Ships Passing in the Night file, a letter had come. Not a love letter,
that would have set off alarms. Men who fell in love with women they didn't
know were prone to other easily abandoned fantasies. Frederick's letter was
funny. Laughter, like touch, was a form of pure communication, the funny bone
an underappreciated erogenous zone. Anna touched
her shirt pocket as if she carried Stanton's letter over her heart. The death
memo was still there, one of the perks of never changing clothes. The feel of
the slick paper jarred her into the present and she cleared her mental decks
for what lay ahead. Spike camp had
awakened. Muttering firefighters, subdued from too little sleep, boiled out of
tents like yellow jackets from a disturbed hive. Flashlights sparked off
lemon-colored NoMex and the tramp of heavy boots scuffed the worn earth. A small woman,
surrounded by three men so big that, in her white tee shirt, she resembled an
egret among cows, chattered out of the dark woods beyond the Porta-Johns.
Paula. One of the men was Howard Black Elk. The other two were strangers to
Anna. "Wait
up," Anna shouted. The girl looked alarmed, her three bodyguards
undecided, the desire to defend Paula against some imagined attack and the urge
to flee battling in their brains. Flight won and the girl was alone when Anna
reached her. There were
those rare creatures who suffered from a phobic reaction to authority but
finding four of them together was unlikely. Anna made a mental note to pry into
Paula's affairs when she didn't have more pressing matters to attend to. "Hold off
going down the mountain," Anna said. "I may have a passenger for
you." Paula looked
relieved and again Anna felt a flash of suspicion, an occupational hazard.
Sometimes she had the sense of being a cat in a world of birds, some bigger and
meaner than she. Small furtive movements set off her alarms but she was never
sure whether she was predator or prey. "I'll get back with you in thirty
minutes or so." Jennifer Short
was in the breakfast line. In the name of nutrition, Anna put off telling her
for another quarter of an hour. Then, having exhausted all delay tactics, she
took Jennifer and her crew boss, LeFleur, behind the medical tent under one of
the great old Jeffrey pines that shaded the camp. To the east the
sun was consuming the glitter of hot spots with its own superior fire. Lurid
red light, filtered through smoke, bathed the camp. "I have
bad news," Anna said, and she handed the younger woman the note. As if in
slow motion, Jennifer's face crumpled. Her mouth opened slightly as she read,
her lips and eyes took on the soft quiver of a child's, tears ran down her
cheeks. Once she looked to Anna as if for a reprieve but there was none. "Her
brother died," Anna explained to LeFleur. One of the crew boss's callused
hands reached out but stopped before it reached Jennifer. He shot Anna a look
of such anger for a second she thought he might try and kill the messenger. After a moment
he said to the air between Jennifer and Anna: "You'll want to demob. Get
home. Anna will work it out." With the air of a man escaping, he walked
away. Jennifer
stopped him: "I won't go." LeFleur looked
back without turning. "He died
in this fire, in the Jackknife, that's what it says. I need to stay, fight this
fire." Jennifer pushed her face back in shape and mopped her tears with
her sleeve. "That's
not the way it works," LeFleur said. "We can't use you if your mind's
on something else. Go home." He was right,
but still Anna wanted to smack him. "There's
nothing wrong with my mind," Jennifer snapped. For an instant anger
banished grief and Anna took back her slap. LeFleur's unorthodox therapy seemed
to give at least short-term relief. The crew boss
stared at Jennifer and she glared back. Tears poured down her face, but the
softness, the quiver had gone. LeFleur lit a
Pall Mall and flicked the match toward the barren earth around the medical
tent. Crew bosses had close to absolute power over the twenty firefighters
under their care. On a fireline, as in battle, somebody had to be in charge.
After a lengthy weighing of Lord knew what factors he said: "If Anna can
square it with the brass you can stay with the San Juan." "Go on out
with the crew today," Anna said. "I'll catch a ride down the mountain
and see what I can do." Jennifer nodded
curdy. "Excuse me," she whispered, and left Anna and LeFleur under
the pine. They watched her walk away, spine straight, shoulders back. "Women on
the fireline," LeFleur said disgustedly, stubbed his cigarette out on the
sole of his boot, shredded the paper and let the tobacco scatter. "Dead
brothers aren't exactly a gender-based liability," Anna said mildly.
LeFleur chose not to answer. "Time to
rally the troops," he said. Anna returned
to the medical unit to help Lindstrom finish the morning calls. The line
outside the tent had lengthened each day they'd been spiked out. Bodies,
nerves, psyches were being worn down by work and hard living. Accidents were
becoming more common; cuts, bruises and colds epidemic. Lindstrom
looked up with relief as Anna pushed into the tent. "Sure been lonely
around here without you," he said pointedly. "Howard Black Elk's
pining away. Says nobody does his feet like you. My, my, I do believe it's
love." "I'll do
him," Anna said. A long folding table took up the center of the tent. Two
shallow boxes covered the surface. Carefully arranged in each were the tools of
their trade: scissors, gauze, compresses, blister dressings, splints, salves,
triangular bandages, tweezers, antihistamines. The paraphernalia of Mom's
medicine cabinet on an industrial scale. Backboards, leg splints and cervical
collars were stored beneath. Anna picked
through the boxes plucking out the Rx for Black Elk's feet. "What was
all the cloaking and daggering this morning?" Lindstrom asked. "Much
hush-hush cloistering and whispering. Don't tell me my beloved Jennifer is
going to have that barbarian LeFleur's baby. I couldn't bear it." Anna laughed.
It felt good. "Nope. Real bad news. Remember that burned corpse they found
near Pinson Lake?" "The dog
guy?" "Yeah.
They identified the body." "Schnauzer?
Shiat zhu?" "It was
Jennifer's brother. She took it hard. I didn't even know she had a brother but
then I haven't known her all that long. As to what a boy from Memphis was doing
in the mountains of California, your guess is as good as mine." "Joshua
lives here. Lived here, I guess I should say now, shouldn't I?" Anna looked up
not only because of the unexpected answer but the wooden monotone that had
crushed Stephen's usual vibrance. "You knew
him." "Knew
him." Lindstrom nodded. "He did some freelance work for the Forest
Service in Reno setting up our new computer system. We—" "Cut the
sewing bee short." A slightly nasal voice with a raw-edged twang sliced between
Anna and Lindstrom. From the corner of her eye Anna could see Leonard Nims
planted just outside the tent flaps, the only agitation between two lines of
patient firefighters. With impatient taps he forced a filtered cigarette from a
box marked Harley Davidson. She ignored
him. "Good friend?" she asked Stephen. "Good
friend." "Fucking
women," Nims hissed just loud enough Anna would hear. "Next thing
they'll be hiring faggots. Don't ask, don't tell, give me a fucking break. If
you ladies will excuse me." He pushed into the tent and began rummaging
through the items on the table. "It'd be nice to get some attention before
a man bleeds to death." Neither heat
nor light had yet penetrated the tent's interior, but by the harsh glow of the
Coleman, Anna noted two scratches running from Nims's temple to the middle of
his cheek where a tree or something had scraped his face. The deeper of the two
oozed beads of blood into the black stubble of beard. Lindstrom laid
a hand on Nims's wrist, stopping the pillage of their supplies. The shorter
man's face grew mottled red and his eyes bulged slightly. Good candidate
for a stroke, Anna thought hopefully. "This'll
do for you," Lindstrom said evenly, and he handed Nims a small tube of
Neosporin. Wordlessly,
Anna took the ointment from Nims's fingers and replaced it with an alcohol pad
and a vial of iodine. "The
ointment would've worked," Lindstrom said as Nims left. "Iodine
will hurt more." Stephen
laughed. "I want to be just like you when I grow up, Anna." She waited a
second to see if he needed to talk about Joshua Short. He didn't and there
wasn't time. Gratefully, Anna turned back to her work. By the time the
last firefighter was cared for, the sun had crept clear of the heaviest smoke
and poured into the compound burning off the morning's chill. Anna tipped her
face to the light and felt renewed. "I'm going down the hill," she
said as she heard Stephen clearing up rubbish from the shift. "Make a list
of what we need. I'll come back by after I've made sure of my ride." "Riding
down with Polly Wolly doodle all the day?" "If she
hasn't lit out on me." "She may
have. I've noticed when the men leave camp it loses much of its allure for our
heroine." "I'll pick
you up some cream," Anna said. Stephen meowed
unrepentantly. A HEAVYSET MAN around
thirty with a belly that hung over his belt and the thinning hair of a much
older man was pulling cold lunch boxes from inside a truck and setting them on
the tailgate where the crews could help themselves. Neil Page: Anna dredged the
name up from some list she'd seen. Page was in charge of spike camp supplies. A
local himself, he'd recommended the local hires and supervised the handful of
drivers who trucked food up from Incident Base. Anna leaned on
the truck's bumper and waited till he grunted back, another box in his arms.
"Seen Paula?" she asked. "Probably
rifling wallets in the tents." He puffed and loosed a brown stream of
tobacco juice over the tailgate. "Greedy little bitch." Anna waited. "Last I
saw her she was squabbling with—" A pile of lunches slithered from Page's
arms and scattered across the packed dirt. To show what a
great gal she was, Anna gathered them up for him. "With
who?" "Hell if I
know," he growled, as if Anna'd gotten personal. "They were over by
that truck of hers. You can do your own snooping." "Thanks,"
Anna said dryly. "Anytime." Anna found
Paula stretched out on a folding lounge chair in her truck bed, her pants legs
rolled as high as they would go and her shirt tied up baring her midriff. It
was too early in the day to hope for any tanning action but Anna doubted that
was the focus of this particular exercise. Slanting morning sun the color of
molten lava lighted the girl most flatteringly, much to the enjoyment of
columns of firefighters headed for the line. "Sorry to
make you wait." Anna leaned against the truck and watched the display
sputter to life. "Yeah.
Well." Paula slapped her trouser legs down and fumbled at the knot in her
shirtfront. "I got a lot of stuff I gotta get done today." "Me too.
I'll need a ride down the hill as soon as I get a list from Stephen. I
shouldn't be more than five minutes." Anna left Paula to finish dressing. ANNA HADN'T BEEN out
of spike camp since she'd been detailed there the week before. This outing felt
like a holiday. She liked watching the world go by the window: the endless
trees, the sameness of the evergreen color, the red of manzanita and the gold
of the soil, sun-dappling the lichen and pine needles in intricate mosaics. All
overlaid by strange smoke-filtered light, as if seen through tinted glass or
the dire prophecies of some ancient soothsayer. And she was
going to get a hot shower. As the miles bumped by and the plume of dust they
laid grew longer, she could almost feel the water combing through the muck of
dirt and ash in her hair, scratching her itchy scalp, sloughing off the grime
of camp. Even Paula's
chattering as they jolted down the rough logging roads didn't take the edge
off. Once Paula Boggins found out Anna wasn't going to bite her she never
stopped talking. For a while Anna listened, learning more than she ever wanted
to about all the things Paula needed to buy during her short stay on Planet
Earth, then she tuned the girl out. Fortunately Miss Boggins wasn't the type to
require answering and Anna let the words flow over her with the engine noise. In contrast to
the small and isolated spike camp, Incident Base, with its one thousand souls
and all the supporting staff and machinery for the campaign, bustled like the
big city: parking lots, tents by the score, buzzing phones and faxes, hot and
cold running personnel. Anna took in the sights. She bought fresh underwear at
a commissary that had sprung out of the back of a semi-truck trailer to offer
life's necessities: fire boots, chewing tobacco, candy and Tampax. She stood in
the shower, an eight-by-eight metal room in the back of another trailer, with a
central column surrounded by showerheads to accommodate six women at a time,
until long after guilt should have forced her to stop wasting water. She dried
herself on the gigantic paper towels trucked in for that purpose. She braided
her hair and studied her face in the polished aluminum that passed for mirrors
over the line of washstands outside the canvas dressing room. The gray tracing
age through her braids was taking over the brown but the soft reflection of the
metal was kind to the lines and wrinkles carved in her forehead and around her
eyes. She visited a "Women Only" Porta-John the women in the
Communications and Information tents had taken over in what was being termed
the Honey Pot Uprising. After a full
sit-down meal in a mess tent with shade and netting to keep the flies and
yellow jackets at bay, Anna felt ready to face the brass. Logistics sent
her over to Time Keeping and Time Keeping to the Command tent. Wherever there
were two government employees to rub together, a bureaucracy flared up. Anna
was beginning to remember the isolation of spike camp almost nostalgically when
she finally cornered the Operations section chief and got her questions answered. Short's staying
or going was a moot point. Spike camp was due to be demobed. Two of the three
crews were coming out tonight and the San Juans would head out the following
day. The fire was
gearing down. They estimated containment soon. The National Weather Service
predicted a cold front due in twenty-four hours with a seventy percent chance
of rain below forty-one-hundred feet and snow at the higher elevations. The Jackknife
was about to fold. Anna would stay
on at Base as an EMT until the fire was completely controlled but even she and
Stephen would probably be demobed by the end of the week. Good news, Anna
guessed. She'd miss the money—overtime jacked her paycheck up enough the IRS
took notice—and the boot-camp simplicity would be replaced by grown-up worries.
But home meant comfort and her cat and clean clothes. She arranged a
lift back to spike with the helicopter taking up hot suppers and bringing down
the two women in charge of Time Keeping. With an hour to kill till her ride
left, she scored a Pepsi from one of the ubiquitous coolers of soda, candy and
fruit that littered every fire camp she'd ever been in, and wandered down the
dusty road from the Command area tents. Constant
traffic had pulverized the soil to a fine gray powder that flowed over the toes
of her boots like fog. Pines, their lower branches made ghostly by dust, leaned
close, breathing out a faint scent of resin. The helicopters had momentarily
abandoned their constant water brigade to and from area lakes to dip their
buckets. In that odd
pocket of silence, it occurred to Anna the forest would heave a great sigh of
relief to be rid of this shantytown with its garbage and buzz of engines and
saws. Wildfires were business as usual. They'd burned since the first tree had
been struck by the first bolt of lightning. Forests had survived, evolved,
grown stronger. But man, hacking firelines with Mcleod and dozer, shovel and pulaski,
took some assimilating. Sometimes the fighting left more lasting scars than the
fire. Where the dirt
road turned clear of the trees and into the main body of the camp, under the
shade of a ponderosa, two security guards in Forest Service green sat at a
folding table looking bored. One, ankles crossed on the back of an empty metal
chair, read a dog-eared copy of Praetorian. The other appeared to be
amusing himself by interrupting. Both were relieved when Anna meandered up. Looking out of
place, a phone sat on the corner of the table, its wires vanishing into a
shallow covered trench leading beneath the roadway. "You can
use it," the nonreader offered. "Anybody can. Five minutes free
anywhere in the country." "No
kidding?" "Swear to
God." He crossed his heart and looked so solemn Anna laughed. Like a
majority of firefighters he couldn't have been more than twenty-one. His boyish
good looks probably got him carded in every bar he walked into. "Anywhere?
Free?" "Yup. You
should see the line at night when the crews come down. Sixty to a hundred guys
waiting to make their call. It's empty now," he said invitingly. The plain black
plastic did look seductive, with its promise of access to another world, one
presumably where people were just dying to hear from you. Anna wished she
had someone to call. "Come on,
when was the last time Uncle Sam gave you a freebie?" the young man
cajoled. Anna thought of
calling her sister Molly but a glance at her watch told her it was three-ten
New York time. Molly would be with a client. "Go on.
Reach out and touch somebody." "Do you
sell used cars in the off season?" Anna teased. "Car stereos." "What the
hell." She picked up the receiver. Cradling it to her ear, she dug her
wallet out of her hip pocket. Crunched between her Visa and her library card
was a gold-embossed business card. On one side, scrawled in letters as gangling
as their creator, were the words: "Call me if you need anything."
Anna flipped it over. "Frederick Stanton, Special Agent, FBI" was
printed in black, along with the number. An onslaught of
butterflies the size of pterodactyls flapped through Anna's innards as she dialed
the number. "Frederick Stanton, please." She made it by
the secretary. The young security guard nodded encouragingly. "This is
Agent Stanton." Anna's mind
froze. Her tongue clove to the roof of her mouth—at least that's what it felt
like. Quietly she hung up. "Busy," she said. "Try
again." Anna shook her
head. "Got to get back to spike." So much for her
sojourn in the fast lane. Chapter Three BY NOON THE next day
spike camp was all but gone. The medical tent and the supply tent were in the
final stages of disassembly. Wearing shorts and a tee shirt, Paula stood by
watching as Anna and Stephen loaded the canvas into the back of her truck. Neil
Page, a chaw of tobacco distending his lower lip, rested his belly on the
truck's radiator, staring glumly at the engine. An oily red rag protruded from
his hip pocket, flagging exposed derriere decolletage. A screwdriver and
crescent wrench, the only tools he was conversant with, were balanced on the
fender. "I'm not
hanging around up here all day waiting for you to get that damn thing up and
going." Paula sucked on an orange Gatorade. The colored drink painted a
Kool-Aid smile on her round face. "Like you
got a choice," Neil muttered. Tossing her
hair, Paula pouted at Stephen. "When they coming to get you? There room
for me? I'll sit on somebody's lap if I got to." "Yeah. And
talk about the first thing that comes up," issued from under the truck's
hood along with a stream of brown tobacco juice. "Fuck off,
Neil. Can I?" Stephen pushed
the roll of canvas farther up on the bed. "No problem, little lady,"
he mimicked John Wayne's classic cadence. If she got the
joke, Paula didn't let on. "When ya goin'?" "Tonight
with the bus that comes for the last of the San Juans." Paula turned
her back. "That's later'n us even. That don't do me no good." "No lap
for you," Anna said as she and Lindstrom went back for the tent poles,
pulled up and piled neatly beneath their sheltering tree. Nearby were the jump
kit and emergency gear that would remain until the last of the crew rode down
in the evening. "A fella'd
want to wear rubber gloves just to hold hands with that little number. I don't
know where she's been but I bet it wasn't clean enough to eat off of."
Stephen tossed his head in a good imitation of Paula Boggins. "A boy's got
his reputation to consider." In mutual and
unspoken accord, he and Anna flopped into the shade where their medical unit
had been. Lindstrom propped his head against his hard hat and folded his arms
across his chest. "Old fire-fighting maxim," he said. "If
there's time to stand, there's time to sit. If you can sit, you can lie down.
If you can lie down, you can lie down in the shade." Anna folded
herself up tailor fashion, one foot on the opposite thigh in a half lotus.
She'd never managed a full lotus, though there'd been a time she thought it
worth pursuing. The difference between a half and full seemed the difference
between complacency and spiritual awakening. The first was comfortable. The
second made one's bones ache. The wind had
shifted, blowing in from the northwest ahead of the storm. Smoke veiled the sun
until it was a blood-red ball. Anything obscuring the sun made Anna uneasy. Had
she been an aboriginal she had little doubt that at the first signs of an
eclipse she would have been in the vanguard sacrificing virgins to appease the
gods. To the west she
could see the barren domes of Chaos Crags and the ragged thrust of Lassen Peak.
Drought had plagued California for three years without reprieve and no snow
clung to the volcano's flanks. Pines draping her sides showed a hint of rust:
drought stress. Dry as tinder. Beyond the peak
was a wall of dirty white. The front pouring in across the Cascades. The
blessing of rain, but most assuredly in disguise. Thunderstorms, spawned along
the leading edge, were lit from within by lightning. "It better be a wet
one," she remarked. "Or it'll light more fires than it puts
out." Stephen opened
one hazel eye. His lashes, like his hair, were short and very thick. It gave
him a dreamy look Anna was a sucker for. "Cloud to cloud. Stuff's not
reaching the ground." Anna studied
the oncoming clouds. "It's moving right along though." In unexpected
ratification, her radio began issuing a warning to expect gusting winds. All
morning voices had scratched over the airwaves. Crew bosses talking to squad
bosses, and air to ground communications. Everything winding down. Anna'd
pretty much quit listening. Now she turned it up. "Maybe
LeFleur'll pull the squad," Stephen said. "We can get off this
mountain a couple hours early. I could stand that." "Spike
medical unit, this is the San Juan." "John must
have heard you." Anna pulled her radio off her belt. "I bet he's
ordering a bus." "Spike
medical," she answered. "We've got
an injury. A log rolled down on Newt Hamlin. Looks like a busted knee. Closed
but bad. He's hurting. We're going to need you, Lindstrom and the litter to
carry him out." "Affirmative."
Anna got an exact location from him and signed off. "Looks
like we've got to work for our suppers today," Stephen said. "Who's
Hamlin?" "A swamper
with the Forest Service out of Durango, Colorado." "Brown
hair, buzz cut, looks fresh off the farm?" Anna asked cautiously. "That's
right. The big guy. The really, really big guy. Monstrous. An ox." "Any place
to land a helicopter below the line?" Anna radioed. "Too
rugged," LeFleur replied. Anna made two
more radio calls requesting a chopper at the heli-spot near spike. "Looks
like we haul him up the hill," she said. Lindstrom
groaned. "We should've gone into pediatrics." SPIKE CAMP was located
on a ridge that ran north and south. To the east the slope was relatively
gentle and the vegetation thinned from an old burn. Partway down a heli-spot
had been cleared on a natural shoulder in the hillside. A wide sandy creek
bottom, dry this time of year, cut a white ribbon through the valley floor. The
west side fell away steeply into a narrow canyon. Near the bottom, about a mile
from camp, the San Juans were building line. The Jackknife had burned most of
the opposite slope. The new line was to stop it once it crossed the gully. Stephen started
down, litter on his shoulder. Anna, wearing the yellow pack and hard hat
required on the fireline, carried the jump kit. There was no trail to speak of.
At six thousand feet the mountains were choked with ponderosa, Jeffrey, sugar
pines and white fir. The few open areas were nearly impassible with manzanita,
a sturdy bush with tangled arms clothed in red bark and shining green leaves. Facing west,
the slope caught the full force of the afternoon sun. Needles, twigs, downed
timber, gooseberry, ceanothus: the mountain was solid fuel and so dry the dust
pounded up by each bootfall tickled Anna's nose till it ran. Deer flies, fat
and sluggish in the heat, took bites from thigh and back, the protective
clothing apparently no deterrent. Anna swore under her breath, afraid to open
her mouth lest one crawl in. Though it would've been poetic justice: a bite for
a bite. Trees grew
close with dog-hair thickets of young sugar pines fighting for sunlight in the
patches of land that in past years had been montane meadows. But for dust and
the all-pervasive smoke, Anna could smell very little. Too many summers without
rain had baked the juices dry. All that remained was the faint smell of vanilla
given off by the burnished bronze bark of the Jeffrey pines. To be in the midst
of a conifer forest and not breathe in the heady scent of pine put her off
balance. As if one stood at the seashore and couldn't taste the salt air. A thick blanket
of duff crackled underfoot. Coupled with the racket of breathing it was
deafening. In places the hillside was so steep Anna slid down on her butt,
preferring the occasional stickers to falling. Suddenly
Stephen stopped and she smacked her head on the end of the litter.
"Signal, for Christ—" she began, but he cut her off. "Lookie
there." He pointed to the base of a sugar pine. Still as a statue in the
almost realized hope of going unnoticed was a ringtail cat. Wide, dark,
lemurlike eyes stared up from a little triangle of nose and ears. Its long striped
tail was curled in a question mark behind it. "First one
I've ever seen," Stephen whispered. Anna had seen a
couple when she'd worked in Texas. They were nocturnal and terribly shy. It was
unsettling to see one so close and in the light of day. Unnatural. "Displaced
by the fire," Stephen said. " 'The
graves stood tenantless and the sheeted dead did squeak and gibber in the Roman
streets.' " Anna quoted from Hamlet. "Cut that
out." "Right." The cat seemed
paralyzed and a man with a broken leg was waiting, so they pushed on. Halfway to the
canyon bottom, maybe three-quarters of a mile from spike camp, Anna and
Lindstrom found the fireline, a six-foot-wide trail rudely scratched into the
landscape. On either side trees had been clear-cut and thrown back. Duff and
scrub had been scraped away by pulaskis, the double-duty tool with an axe on
one side and sharp hoelike blade on the other that most firefighters carried. To the left,
Joseph Hayhurst, his squat frame and strong back suited to the work, was swamping
for a sawyer Anna recognized but didn't know by name. As trees fell and were
bucked up into manageable chunks, Joseph dragged the pieces clear of the line.
Anna recognized the Apache by his hair and stature. Both men were faceless
behind handkerchiefs tied bandit-style over the lower half of their faces in an
attempt to screen out dust and soot. Surgical-style painters' masks were far
more effective filters, but every culture bows to fashion. Firefighters would
no sooner trade their bandannas in for white conical masks than Texans would
trade their Stetsons for parasols. "Joseph!"
Anna called when the chainsaw gave them a moment's peace. He pointed farther up
the line and Anna and Lindstrom headed north toward the head of the canyon.
After the slide and scramble down the hill the "improved" surface was
like a stroll in the park. Long after grasses flourished and trees returned the
cut would mar the hillside, growing more rutted, wider, as rain and snow runoff
took the easier course they now followed. Dust and smoke
were held close by the trees and the air in the ravine was stifling. Rivulets
of sweat tickled between Anna's breasts and shoulder blades. Salt drops burned
her eyes and puddled at her temples—wading pools for the deer flies. "Wait
up," she told Stephen. Obediently he
stopped while she pulled off her stiff leather gloves and mopped beneath the
band of her hard hat. "Our nose
getting a wee bit shiny?" he asked. "Fuck
you," Anna said amiably. Radio traffic
interrupted with another bulletin on the cold front forecasting high winds. "I wish
it'd get here," Stephen said as Anna screwed her hard hat back on.
"We could use a break." "High
winds. LeFleur'll be pulling the squad out." Howard Black
Elk, a pulaski held loosely in his downhill hand, walked down the line toward
them. "We're bumping back up to spike," he said. "I'm passing
the word. Everybody's bumping up. John doesn't like the forecast. John,
Jennifer and Lenny Nims are waiting with Newt. He's a hurting unit. Soon as I
get word out about the bump, I'll grab somebody and come back, help with the
carry-out." "Thanks,"
Anna said. "Hamlin's big." "Damn big.
Not far." Howard raised a massive arm and pointed north. "Just outta
sight, maybe two hundred yards." He squeezed onto the uphill side of the
line to let Stephen and Anna pass. Hard hats and
gloves off, Jennifer and John knelt on either side of Newt Hamlin. Leonard Nims
stood up the line leaning on a shovel, looking like he couldn't decide whether
to stay or go. Hamlin, a beefy, square-headed boy, maybe nineteen or twenty,
sat rigid, his face white and his lips pinched into a thin line. The muscles in
his broad jaw worked constantly. Grinding his teeth, Anna noted. Probably to
keep himself from crying. Tears made his eyes glitter but not one fell. The boy's right
knee was bent backward, the lower leg pushing up at about a twenty-degree angle
from anatomical position. Short or LeFleur had immobilized it, splinting from
hip to ankle joint with branches trimmed for the purpose. Anna dropped to
one knee. Hamlin's boot was unlaced. Evidently the pain of removing it had been
so intense, leaving it in place had been deemed the lesser of evils. She
reached as far into the boot as she could. "So what
happened?" Lindstrom asked as he began unslinging the litter. "Len was
cutting. Newt swamping. Got downhill of a fall. A log rolled and nailed
him," John said. By the careful
neutrality of the crew boss's voice, Anna guessed one of the two had been
careless. Negligence on the fireline was not taken lightly. There was too much
at stake. She glanced up at Nims. His face was crimped into defensive lines.
Mentally he was digging foxholes, falling back. Newt was either unaware he
could fault anyone but God or too wrapped up in his pain to worry about placing
blame. Anna's fingers
found the posterial tibial pulse behind Hamlin's ankle. It was strong and his
skin was warm to the touch. "Good job," she said to LeFleur and
Short. "Let's leave it like it is and haul him out." Lindstrom had
the litter down, the straps laid out to the sides. "Did you get tired of
working and fake a fall just to get a free ride out?" he asked Hamlin. "How'd you
know?" the boy said with a ghost of a smile. Stephen said:
"Me and John will lift Newt. Anna, you and Jen move his leg. On
three." In one smooth
motion they slid the kid onto the litter. A barking cry escaped the press of
his lips. "Yeah,
yeah, yeah," Lindstrom said. "Trying to get sympathy from the women.
Some guys'll do anything to get laid." "You got
me figured out," Newt managed. "John,
take the head. I got the foot," Lindstrom said. "Anna, Jen, take a
side as long as we've got the room. Len, get the tools. When Howard gets back
we'll switch out every few minutes. On three." "I'm sorry
I'm so big," Newt said as they heaved up the litter. The apology
brought a lump to Anna's throat that annoyed her. "Not a problem,"
she said. "We can field amputate that leg right here. What do you figure
that'd save us, Stephen?" "Seventy-five
pounds easy. Cut it off high." "Go
ahead," Newt said. "I don't think it could hurt any worse. Just leave
the family jewels." "Sure,"
Stephen agreed. "They couldn't weigh more than a gnat's Adam's apple
anyway. Little enough I bet even old man Nims could carry them up the hill
without breaking a sweat." Even with the joint
immobilized it was clear every jolting step they took was causing Hamlin pain.
It was equally clear the boy would staple his lips shut before he'd let on. "He's big
as a horse," Anna said to Jennifer. "And his leg is broken. Think
anybody'd care if we just shot him?" A gust eddied
up the trail, a vortex of ash and dirt whirling in a tiny tornado. Dust devils,
Molly and Anna called them when they were children. They moved like
sentient creatures, the tails tracing patterns in the earth that could be tracked
only to see the creature that made them disassociate, dissolve into nothing but
air. This devil
stopped a yard or two in front of them, its tail twitching restlessly in the
dust. For a few seconds it hovered as if deciding whether or not to tell them something.
Apparently the answer was no. The wind veered and the devil disintegrated into
the grasping arms of a manzanita bush hacked out of the ground and lying close
to the fireline. The wall of
clouds that had been on the horizon when Anna and Stephen started down was on
the horizon still but now the horizon was scarcely a mile above them. Anna was
getting a bad feeling. LeFleur jerked
his radio out of his belt. The litter rocked as he held it with just one hand
and a tiny squawk escaped Newt's control. Anna pretended not to hear but she
moved her hand slightly on the litter so it touched Hamlin's wrist, hoping the
contact would give him some little comfort. "Black
Elk, LeFleur." The crew boss was shouting into the radio. His adrenaline
level was rising too, Anna guessed. "Black
Elk," came back with a hiss of static. "Status?" "Everybody's
bumped up. They're halfway up the hill by now. Me and Hayhurst are coming back
for you." "There's
enough of us for the job. Head on up. Keep those guys moving. The wind's
getting squirrely. No sense anybody getting hurt on this one. Clear 'em out. "Hang onto
your hat, Newt," LeFleur addressed the boy in the litter. "We're
going to head up the hill." "Sorry I
don't have a bullet for you to bite on," Anna said as they started up the
incline and Hamlin's weight shifted, forcing pressure on the ruined knee. "I got a
lipstick," Jennifer offered. "But I don't s'pose it's the same." Newt was beyond
banter. His face was the dirty gray of ash and sky, all his will needed to form
a wall around the pain in his leg. The slope was
close to thirty degrees but the forest was comprised of slightly older growth
than farther up. Trees were six to eight feet apart and there wasn't too much
undergrowth. Anna's boots dug deep in the duff as she hauled up, one step at a
time, the side of the stretcher in one hand, the jump kit in the other. The
position was awkward and she knew she wasn't helping much with Hamlin's weight. Across Newt's
chest she could see Short struggling to maintain her end of the bargain.
Jennifer's strength was all from the waist down, good wide hips and strong
thighs like a figure skater. Anna knew her shoulders and arms would be aching
with the strain as she fought to take some of the weight up for Stephen and
John. Cool air gusted
from behind. Though it caressed her sweaty skin, it made the little hairs on
the back of Anna's neck crawl. "Dump the
jump kit," LeFleur ordered as he picked up the pace. "Len, give a pulaski
to Anna. Keep moving." Anna dropped
the medical bag and used Nims's pulaski like an ice axe, clawing up the hill.
LeFleur's breathing rasped deep in his chest, the cords of his neck distended
and the flesh between the rim of his hard hat and his collar was a deep red. "Switch
out soon," she said to Stephen. He nodded. The foot of the stretcher
weighed less and he was both bigger and younger than the crew boss. "Next
flat spot. I take the head, Nims, you get the foot. Got that?" LeFleur
grunted. The vegetation
closed in, branches scratching at their faces and arms. The pounding of her
heart was the only sound Anna was aware of. Oblivious to anything but the pain
in her left shoulder from pulling Hamlin and the small square of real estate
directly in front of her boot toes, she trudged on. Quite independently of conscious
thought, her mind clicked through numbers trying to find a rhythm to pass the
time, keep cadence. Waltz time: ONE, two, three, ONE, two, three. A place not
deserving of the name "clearing" opened up slightly at the base of a
ledge of volcanic rock about eighteen inches high and fifty feet long that
formed a brow half a mile below spike. Long ago soil had laid down a blanket
covering all but the lip and the rock was hidden by a dense cover of waist-high
shrubs. Momentarily
free of the trees, they stopped. Short fell to her knees, sucking in lungfuls
of air. Hands on thighs, LeFleur tried to catch his breath. Even Hamlin was
gasping, fighting pain and shock. "Sounds
like a TB ward around here," Stephen said. "Switch out." The EMT
grasped the front of the Utter. "Nims?" Leonard Nims
was sweating and his breath was coming fast but he was the freshest of the
five. He handed LeFleur the tools and lifted the foot of the litter. Anna and
Jennifer switched sides. "Got to
stretch out the other arm," Short said to Newt. "I'll still look like
a gorilla but leastways both sets of knuckles'll be draggin'." "Let's do
it," Stephen said. The words were
followed by a low rumble. Faint, visceral, it was like the sound of a freight
train coming down the tracks. The noise welled up from the bottom of the
canyon. They looked back as one. The far side of
the ravine blossomed in fire. A mushroom cloud poured up in a deadly column and
fire spun a tornado of destruction through the forest's crown, pulling oxygen
from the air and creating weather of its own. Flame boiled down into the canyon
bottom. "Jesus
fucking Christ," Lindstrom whispered. "Firestorm." Chapter Four NEVER HAD ANNA seen anything so beautiful. Raw, naked power
blooming in red and orange and black. Tornadoes of pure fire shrieking through
the treetops, an enraged elemental beast slaking a hunger so old only stones
and gods remembered. Exhilaration
rose in her throat, a sense of revelation, of sharing the divine.
"Whoa," she said, and heard the bubbling laughter of her voice mixing
with the roar of Armageddon. A scream
brought her back and the fire of the holy spirit turned to fear that coursed
through her with such violence she felt her bowels loosen. The scream had been
ripped from Hamlin when Len Nims dropped his end of the litter. Anna could see
him barging up the hill through the manzanita. She grabbed up the foot of the
fallen stretcher. Hamlin's weight pulled a cry from her, the movement an
answering groan from Newt. "Deploy?"
Lindstrom was shouting. "Not a
good place." LeFleur. "Too much brush. Run. Go for the ridge.
Run." Lindstrom held
the head of the stretcher, Anna the foot. Both stared stupidly at Newt Hamlin,
his only safety between their hands. "We can do
it," Lindstrom screamed. The hell we
can, Anna thought, but she held on to the litter. Newt said nothing. His brown
eyes stared into her face, then Lindstrom's, and Anna knew she was witnessing
an act of courage. Not bravado—he couldn't loose his jaws to tell them to
go—but the courage to keep them closed against the words that would beg them
not to leave him. "We can do
it," Anna said. "Get the
fuck out of here," LeFleur shouted. The roaring pushed his words like foam
on the tide. "Go." The crew boss brought the handle of the pulaski he
carried down hard across the bones of Stephen's wrists. The litter fell. Anna
couldn't hold on and her end dropped as well. "Go.
Go." LeFleur was striking at them with the handle, herding them like
goats. Jennifer started up the hill, slowly at first, then beginning to run.
"Go, God damn it!" Anna started to
climb, Stephen with her, pounding up the slope. Fear took over. John, Newt,
everything behind was blotted out but for the fire. She wanted to turn back, to
look at it, but an odd memory from Sunday school of Lot's wife turning to a
pillar of salt stopped her. Loping on all
fours like a creature half animal, half human, she scrambled over downed logs
crumbling with rot, plowed through brush. Ahead of her, in that narrow scrap of
world between eyes and hands that still existed, the ground turned red. She
thought of "Mars," a short story her sister had written about the red
planet. Close on that thought came another: how strange it was that while she
was running for her life, she was thinking of Mars. And she was
running for her life. The idea snapped sharply through the sinews of her body
and she became aware of the stretch of the muscles in her legs, the hardness of
the ground, the slipping as her boots tore at the duff, the strain in the big
muscles of her thighs and that slight softening that heralded fatigue. She
wondered how long she could keep going. A scrap of
trivia surfaced. Fire, unlike anything else known to man, defied gravity. It
traveled faster uphill than down. The length of a football field in a minute, that
stuck in her mind. How long was a football field? A hundred yards? Fifty? Third
grade. Johnstonville Elementary. She'd won a blue ribbon for running the
fifty-yard dash in ten seconds flat. She was older now. Stronger. Older. Maybe
only the young would make it. A thicket of
manzanita filled her vision and Anna plunged in. No time to find another way.
Breath was cutting deep, each pull of air tearing a hole in her side. Branches
scraped her face, plucked hanks of hair from under her hard hat. Nothing registered,
not pain, not impediment. Anna felt as if she could claw her way through a
mountain of stone. Then her feet
went from under her and she was down, her jaw cracking against a stone or a
root. Her head swam with it, her mouth was full. She spit and blood, colorless
against the flame-drenched earth, spilled out. She wondered if she'd bitten her
tongue off. "Up,
goddam you, up." LeFleur. He
pulled at the back of her pack and Anna came to her knees. "Go. Go."
Anna ran again. The thickets were close to the ridge. Close. If she could make
the ridge, maybe... Roaring drowned
even thought. Heat scorched her back, she could feel the burning through her
left sleeve below the elbow. Air, sucked deep into her lungs, scalded and she
screamed without sound. Her legs were growing heavy, sodden. Instead of
carrying her she now had the sense of dragging them. The ridge top
rolled beneath her as if she'd flown in. Suddenly she was aware the way had
grown easier: the beaten earth of the old camp. Paula's truck, the hood up, was
parked where they'd left it. Two gasoline cans sat by the front wheel. Both
were puffed up like roasted marshmallows, ready to blow. It crossed Anna's mind
to move them before any of the others reached the ridge but she knew if she
touched them she would die and she kept running. Across the
camp, clear of the pines, and over the crest of the ridge, Anna could see
Jennifer ahead of her crashing down the slope toward the creek bed. Anna
stumbled after, falling and pulling herself up time after time. Like a woman in
a nightmare, she thought, like the Japanese maidens in monster movies. Howard Black
Elk ran out of the trees just above. He'd lost helmet and gloves. His hands
were over his ears trying to protect them from the burning. Both arms were
seared, the flesh hanging in ribbons. Anna caught him
by the shoulders. "The
creek," she gasped. "Fire'll slow when it reaches the ridge."
While she talked she ripped her bandanna in half and bound Black Elk's hands.
The last of the water from the bottle on her belt she poured over the bandages. "The
creek," she repeated. "Safety
zone," Black Elk said. He hadn't panicked. He knew where he was going.
Together they ran again, flying downhill on legs that felt made of rubber and
sand. Anna slid on rocks, fell over bushes and swung around trees. She heard
the gas cans explode and looked back to the ridge top. Flame was
cresting in a wave. Burning debris shot over, tumbling down and starting new
fires. A hundred yards and Anna would reach the creek. She turned to run and
felt a sharp pain shoot through her ankle. Fuck, she
thought, I've broken it. Fear narrowed to that one place in her body and she
put her weight on it. It held. The pain melded into the others as she ran. The creek was
sunken, the banks several feet high and she tumbled over the lip into the sand.
Already it was hot to the touch. "Deploy!" Maybe it was
LeFleur. Smoke blinded her. Hacking coughs tore the air from her lungs.
Fumbling behind her back, Anna pulled her plastic-encased shelter from its
pouch. She hadn't checked it in years. They were supposed to be checked every
two weeks but no one did it. No one thought they would have to use them. Ripping it out
of the plastic, she clawed it open; a small silver pup tent. Firefighters
called them shake 'n' bakes. It no longer struck Anna as funny. Scorching wind
snatched at the flimsy shelter, threatening to wrench it from her grasp. Fire
poured down the mountain, burning embers exploding in its path. Anna dragged
the silver tent over her and anchored it with her boots to hold it down.
Pulling it along her back and up over her head, she gripped the front edges in
her gloved hands and fell face forward into the sand. The roar
engulfed her. Scouring sand and debris rasped on her shelter and she felt the
skin on her back begin to burn. Pressing her face into a hollow in the sand,
hoping for air cool enough to breathe, she thought of her sister. If she didn't
get out of this alive, Molly would kill her. Chapter Five FOOTAGE OF THE firestorm was on the six o'clock news. The shots
were from a distance of several miles and cut short when the helicopter
carrying the cameraman hit rough weather. Still the explosive sense of power
carried through, the might of nature unleashed. Frederick
Stanton relaxed in the living room of his one-bedroom apartment in Evanston,
Illinois. An overstuffed couch, bought for comfort, not looks, dominated the
room. In the grate of a defunct fireplace, a television took the place of logs.
The hearth of the nineties. Hardwood floors, recently refinished, picked up the
reflection from the screen. No other lights were on. Long legs
draped modestly in a battered terrycloth robe, Stan-ton lounged with his feet
up and a glass of scotch—neat, no rocks. His bifocals were pushed down to where
he could see over them. An aqua budgerigar with black tail feathers hopped down
the length of one of Stanton's long arms, murmuring and pecking as if the man
were made of delicious crumbs. In the
fireplace flames burned silently behind the anchorman's head as he read the
news: "The storm front blamed for the blowup brought snow and sleet in its
wake, damping the fires and grounding air support. Due to the weather and
hazards caused by burned snags falling across the twenty miles of steep and
twisting logging road that leads in to the remote spike camp thought to be in
the path of the blaze, no machinery will be sent up until morning. A ground
crew carrying food and medical supplies has been dispatched up the beleaguered
fire road on foot. At present ten firefighters are listed as missing." The anchor
turned and looked expectantly at a blank wall behind him. After a second's
delay film of a base camp in northern California was shown. Frederick sat
up. The budgie twittered in annoyance and flew several feet before landing on a
bare knee to continue its foraging. One of Stanton's hands strayed to the black
receiver of an old-fashioned rotary phone, a movement as unconscious as it was
natural to a man who lived by the exchange of information. The station cut
to a commercial for fabric softener and Frederick pawed through a
disintegrating hill of newspapers and magazines obscuring the coffee table.
Outraged, the budgie flew back to his cage with a noisy flapping that
metaphorically slammed the wire door behind him. "Sorry,
Daniel," Frederick said absently. The magazines began to slide and an
avalanche of paper cascaded down around his ankles and over long white feet
half concealed in slippers trod flat at the heels. The disturbance uncovered
the remote control. Stanton caught it up and began clicking through channels.
National coverage was over for the evening. All he could find was Chicago news. For a few
minutes he stared at men in blue-and-white football jerseys running from other
men in purple and white. The Bears and the Vikings. Usually Frederick forced
himself to watch the highlights and memorize the scores on the off chance he
had to pass as one of the boys at some point the following day. Now he wasn't
aware of what was on the screen. Behind his eyes he watched a small-framed,
middle-aged woman, streaks of gray through the infernal braid she used to
incarcerate her hair, crumpled naked in a shower crying and swearing at him. More fun than
petting a bobcat, he thought, and smiled. Somewhere in the heap of materials he'd
dumped on the floor was a letter from her. He'd put off answering it one day at
a time for three weeks. Too much to say and no way to say it that was
guaranteed to charm and amuse. Several drafts had already been consigned to the
trash as sophomoric. With Anna he had to use his best material, the new
relatively honest stuff. From the beginning he sensed she'd spot anything
glib—or worse, would know if he tried too hard. In the short
time he'd known her, he'd had the heady sense of being an angler with a
particularly wily and powerful fish on his line. Not that
Frederick fished, except as a less than biblical fisher of men, but this was
how he imagined a deep-sea fisherman might feel with a muscular iridescent
marlin on the end of his line. A glimpse of rainbow sparkling through the gray
of an ocean wave, a sense of triumph. The line suddenly slack; the prize
eluding. Exhilaration at feeling the tug once again. Frederick felt
that tug now. Sipping delicately at the scotch, he wondered who had whose hooks
into whom. His right hand
strayed back to the telephone. Pushing a button on the remote, he muted the
television. He didn't turn it off. Whenever he was home the TV was on. Sound,
color, the electronic simulation of life kept him company. Over the years he'd
grown so used to it the place felt cold, haunted without it. He dialed the
Bureau's number from memory. Timmy Spinks answered and Frederick was relieved.
Spinks was young but he was sharp and, Stanton hoped, just inexperienced enough
not to realize Frederick was about to use Bureau equipment and personnel to his
own ends. "Timmy,
Frederick Stanton. Get me everything you can on the firefighters caught in that
burn out in California. Do you know what I'm talking about?" "Yes, sir.
It was all over the news." "That's
the one. I want to know what anybody else knows. Who is missing. If anybody's
dead and who. What's being done. Everything." "Yes,
sir." Sir. Timmy made
Stanton feel old but since it was old and revered the FBI agent let it pass.
"Call me at home. I'll be in all evening." Stanton hung up
and looked at pictures of beautiful women and shiny cars move silently across
the television. The San Juan
Plateau crew would be out of the Colorado/New Mexico area. That much was
obvious. Anna had mentioned in her letter that half the rangers in the park
were fighting fires out west. What were the odds Anna was on a fire? On the
Jackknife? A thousand to
one. With Anna those odds didn't settle Stan-ton's nerves. He could always
phone her. There couldn't be too many Pigeons in southern Colorado. Information
should have no trouble tracking her down. I'm curious,
not concerned, he told himself. If I reached her I wouldn't have much to say.
But it was the specter of saying it badly that stayed his hand. He fixed
himself supper and ate in front of the TV, placing bits of food on the edge of
his plate for Daniel to share. The little bird kept up a running conversation
in a low and liquid warble but Frederick was lousy company. Until the phone
rang, and it occurred to him he had no recollection of what he had eaten or
what he was watching, he didn't realize he had been waiting. "Agent
Stanton," he said as if he were at his desk in the office. "Hi, Dad.
It's Candice." Frederick
forced the disappointment from his voice. "Hiya, sweetheart. What's
up?" There followed
a long and rambling account of triumphs and political coups on the student
newspaper at the University of Minnesota in Minneapolis. After she hung up,
Frederick scanned his memory. He was relatively sure he'd made all the right
noises but he hadn't really been paying attention. Parental guilt prodded. A
gentle poke: Candice was his one success out of three children. Through the
divorces and the moves the two of them had managed to stay close. "I love my
girl," he said to Daniel. The bird cocked
its head and looked up out of one bright beady eye expecting attention, but the
exchange was over. Frederick's eyes were back on the television, his mind in
neutral. When the phone
rang a second time half an hour later he answered "Hello," cognizant
of where he was. "Agent
Stanton? It's Timmy. Tim." Stanton felt a
familiar tightness in his belly. He'd first noticed it after he'd become a
father for the second time. Driving home late—back in the days when home was
populated by more than a bird and TV set—the last block before he turned onto
Oakland Avenue where he could see his house, he'd get a slight clutch wondering
if good news or bad news or no news awaited. The house had
always been standing, no burned-out shell, no roofless statistic in the wake of
a tornado, no children with scarlet fever or black plague. But the tightening
was there till he'd closed the door behind him. It was a game he played with
himself. "What've
you got for me?" "Not a
whole lot. Events conspired, you might say." Frederick
crushed mounting impatience. "Begin at the beginning." "Evidently
the fire was a bit of a sleeper. It'd just been creeping along for several
days. Pretty routine. About two this afternoon a cold front came in. The
National Weather Service forecast it. They were counting on the precip to put
the fire out. That's what gets most of them out—not as glamorous as I'd
thought. This time the winds got bad, sheared in a canyon, fuel was dry and
boom! The thing just exploded. Like a bomb. A squad—half the San Juan Plateau
crew—was building line on about a two-hundred-acre finger of the fire. Sort of
a thumb-shaped burn. When the wind sheared it blew up from two hundred acres to
thirty-five hundred acres in less than an hour. Must've been awesome." Timmy's
youth crept through the professional recital. Frederick was
pushing the receiver against his head, bruising the delicate if generous ear
tissue. He loosened his grip. "The crew?" "They were
cutting back the whole operation. The San Juans were camped out a ways—twenty
miles or so from the main camp. One squad had already been taken off the fire
as well as two other guys, one with bronchitis and one with back problems. The
other squad—about half the crew—was finishing up a section of fireline they'd been
building. They may have gotten caught in the path of the fire when it went out
of control. They're the ten missing." "May have?
No one's checked?" Frederick was angrier than he had a right to be and it
bled into his voice. Affronted, Tim
was all business when he responded and Frederick made a mental note to be
effusive in his thanks once he'd gotten what he wanted. "No, sir.
They can't. The fire burned over the camp, the heli-spot and the road for they
don't know how many miles. The storm pushing the winds came in with snow at the
higher elevations and sleet and rain in the valleys. Winds are still high.
Visibility nil. Aircraft arc grounded and they can't get machinery up the road.
Some have started up on foot but there's no news yet and there's been no radio
contact from the missing crew. Word is they have hand-held radios but they're
only good for line-of-sight. They're meant for the crews to talk to each other.
The commander said they might be able to reach the Incident Base camp if they
were high enough. So far they haven't called in or responded. I talked with
Gene Burwell. He's the incident commander. He said as soon as the weather
breaks they'll get helicopters up there. According to the National Weather
Service it should start clearing mid-morning tomorrow." Frederick
digested that. Tim Spinks waited silently. The incident
commander, not the information officer; Timmy must have cloaked himself in the
armor of the Bureau. Frederick felt a small stab of embarrassment. He'd headed
up enough bad situations to know how costly and irritating it was to have to
shift mental gears to talk with other agencies. Especially those not directly
involved. "Good job,
Tim," he said, and meant it. "Have you got a list of the missing crew
members?" "John
LeFleur, Crew Boss, Newton Hamlin, Leonard Nims, Howard Black Elk, Joseph
Hayhurst, Jennifer Short, Lawrence Gonzales and Hugh Pepperdine." No Anna Pigeon.
Frederick felt a wave of relief so strong it surprised him and he wondered why
he hadn't asked for the names first. Mentally he wrote it off to the orderly
progression of his mind but he suspected it was pain avoidance. "Read them
again." Jennifer Short rang a bell. He'd worked with a ranger with that
name in Mesa Verde. "Again." This time he counted on his fingers as Tim
read off the names. Eight. "How many
in a crew?" "Twenty,
sir." "A
squad?" "Ten." Twenty total,
ten demobed, two invalided out. That left eight. "You said there were ten
missing. Who are the other two?" "Emergency
medical technicians running the medical unit. A Stephen Lindstrom out of Reno,
Nevada, and an Anna Pigeon from Colorado." There it was.
Frederick felt the tightness harden into a knot. "Are you on all night,
Tim?" "Yes, sir. "Keep an
eye on things. Call me if there are any changes." "Yes, sir." "Thanks a
bunch, Timmy. You've been super," Frederick added sincerely, remembering
his promise to himself. Vaguely he wondered why he always waxed dopey in
gratitude. It disarmed people. He'd used the technique so long it had become
habit. A self-made nerd, he said to himself without rancor. Whatever worked. Absently he
turned the sound back on the television, banishing the emptiness of the room.
Danny hopped along the back of the sofa and onto Frederick's head where he
chirped happily, picking through the fine dark hair. Of course Anna
was on the Jackknife. Never had Frederick met a woman with such a propensity
for disaster. In high school he'd known a kid like that, Desmond Gallagher. He
hadn't thought of Desmond in twenty years hut now he was clear and lively in
Stanton's imagination. Desmond himself was a slight, pleasant, intelligent boy
but he seemed a vortex for strange events. If Desmond walked by a liquor store
there was a ten to one chance it was being robbed. If he sat too long at a bus
stop odds were a nearby water main would break or a passing Brinks truck would
lose its brakes and careen into a fruit stand. Anna apparently
had that lightning-rod quality. She attracted
you, Frederick thought, then wondered why he equated himself with a natural disaster. Danny still on
his head, Stanton rose and shuffled into the tiny kitchen. Dishes were washed
and dried and put away and the stove top wiped clean. The one-man breakfast
table, like every other flat surface in the house, was piled with papers and magazines. Frederick had
to read them before he allowed himself to throw them out. Information: one
never knew what might be important. Stanton tried to assimilate it all and he
was blessed— or cursed—with an excellent retention and retrieval system. At Trivial
Pursuit he was unbeatable. He dumped his
unfinished scotch in the sink, then washed and dried the glass. Alcohol didn't
hold a tremendous appeal for him but it seemed a man ought to have at least one
vice to come home to and he never took to tobacco. He put the
glass in the cupboard with four others exactly like it stacked two by two, and
stood staring into the shelf as if waiting for a floor show to begin on a
miniature stage. He was worried
for Anna's safety, for her comfort, for her life. To a lesser extent, and
perhaps more impersonally, he felt a kernel of sadness for the others, Jennifer
Short, the Newts and Johns and whoevers. Those were the honorable emotions
floating up into the dark of his mind like the messages that used to float up
into the black window of a "magic" eight ball he'd been given as a
child. Less than
honorable and more compelling was anxiety for himself, for his future.
"Future" wasn't quite right. Destiny, Frederick thought, and smiled
without being aware of it. To lose Anna Pigeon would be to lose some elusive
possibility, some potential fate that was grander, more satisfying than the one
that trickled in through his windshield and across his desk every day. The woman
represented a chance. A chance at
what, Frederick wasn't sure. Maybe the all-encompassing "brass ring."
A chance he couldn't bear to lose. At forty-four, twice divorced, there might
not be many chances left. Chapter Six A ROAR FILLED Anna's ears. She didn't know if
she was screaming or not. Probably she was. A terrible fear of being crushed by
the immensity of what was coming poured through her and she had to fight down a
panicked need to throw off the flimsy aluminum shelter and run. Nowhere left,
she told herself. And she remembered her father's voice from childhood telling
her if she ever became lost to stay put and he'd come find her. Stay put, she
told herself. She must have
spoken the words aloud because fine, burning grit filled her mouth and throat.
Each breath scorched the membranes of her nose and fired deep in her lungs. Wind grabbed at
the shelter, tore up the edges, thrusting fistfuls of super-heated air beneath.
Pushing her elbows and knees against the bottom of the shelter where it folded
under, Anna fought to hold the shelter down, the fire out. Her mind
rattled, grabbed onto a prayer long forgotten: now I lay me down to sleep—The
end flashed like a telegram behind her eyes before the first words were formed
and she jettisoned the rest as too prophetic. I pledge
allegiance to the flag of the United States of America ... She filled her
mind with soundless shouting. An impotent wizard fending off genuine magic with
a barren incantation. All hell broke
loose above and around her. Fire pierced
the aluminum tent in a dozen places. Sparks were falling, burning through: the
shelter was a scam. Soon she would burst into flame. Spurts of adrenaline
racked Anna's insides. With the odd unpleasant thrill came a stray thought: how
much of the stuff could one gland secrete? Surely a quart had been pumped
through her veins in the last hour. Red, burning, a
spark fell on her sleeve. She flicked her arm but couldn't dislodge it. No
smolder of cloth followed, no burning through to the flesh. With a jolt of
relief that brought tears to her eyes she realized the sparks were not sparks,
not embers, but pinholes along the folds in her shelter. The orange light was
the light of the fire, but outside glowing through. Classes in fire behavior
she'd thought long forgotten came back to her. All shelters had these
pinpricks, signs of wear and age. Normal. Okay. Normal. One nation under
God, indivisible... A slap as of a
giant hand smashed down on her shoulders and breath gusted from her lungs. She
sucked in fire and clamped her jaws closed against it. The shelter pressed down
on her back, the saving pocket of air squeezed away. The yellow pack she wore
protected her spine but the skin on her shoulders bubbled and Anna bucked. The
tent was pushed up off her back and the searing dropped to a tolerable level. Her nose and
eyes were packed with ash and dirt. Through the thick leather gloves the little
fingers of both hands, flat on the ground and holding down the shelter, began
to throb. They kept the tent down, the devil out, and Anna didn't dare pull
them away from the heat. With liberty
and justice for all. Burrowing blind
as a mole, she pushed into the sand and blessed all events social and
geological that had formed the creek bed and led her into it before the storm
broke. Sand wouldn't burn. A mental image of the creek bed melted, a ribbon of
molten glass with their bodies burned into it like flies trapped in amber,
flickered through her mind and she started again: I pledge allegiance... The blessing
hadn't extended to Hamlin. The ledge they'd left him on was covered in brush,
half a foot deep in leaves and litter. LeFleur: maybe he'd cleared a space for
the boy, covered him with a fire shelter. But it was no good. It would only
prolong the burning. Newt Hamlin was toast. A ludicrous cartoon version of Wile
E. Coyote burned to a crisp sprang up from Anna's subconscious. And to the
republic for which it stands... The air was too
hot to breathe. Anna pressed her lips to the sand, sucking slowly as her
grandmother had once taught her to suck tea through a sugar cube. The little
fingers of both hands hurt so bad she would have wept but there was no moisture
in this convection oven shroud. No sweat, no tears. What was the temperature,
she wondered. Five hundred degrees stuck in her mind but she didn't know if
she'd read it, heard it or was making it up. Five hundred
degrees. Anna pushed her mind back to the days when she was still a meat eater.
Chicken was baked at three-fifty. Roast beef at maybe four hundred. Twenty or
thirty minutes for each pound. One hundred and eighteen pounds at five hundred
degrees Fahrenheit—two thousand minutes. Numbers scrambled and Anna gave up the
exercise. It would be a while before she was fully baked. One nation... Pinpricks of
light on the right side of her tent swelled, the burning orange pushing through
with such intensity they painted her sleeve like the beams from the laser sight
on a high-powered rifle. The skin on her little fingers burned. In her mind's
eye she saw it curling away, blackened and seared, leaving only the clean white
of finger bones. Noise crested,
became solid, clogged the machinery of her ears and mind. Her head filled with
the roar till it seemed it must explode. Her lungs were crushed with it, the
bones of her body shaking, softening as if the molecules vibrated against each
other. Anna hunkered into the sand, thought, like breath and sight and hearing,
blasted away. When Anna had
grown accustomed to the idea of death the roaring seemed to lessen. She sensed
it not so much with her ears as with her body. An infinitesimal lifting of the weight,
a tiny shift in the crush. That something in the eastern sky that, while not
yet light, somehow flaws the perfect hue of the night. The black of
the noise was flawed. The firestorm was past the creek. And Anna was still
alive. This is good,
she thought. This is good. Elation brought hope up from the depths of her soul
and hope brought fear. Anna was sick with it. Prying open
grit-encrusted eyes, she rolled her head to one side. Within the shelter the
sparks had moved like stars across the night sky. Orange glared through
pinpricks, the small imperfections in the shelter, on her left side now. The
fire had jumped the creek bed; it was moving on. Anna held what
fragments of painful breath there were left in her lungs, irrationally
terrified that should she move, make even the smallest of sounds, this ravening
beast that was fire would turn back, dig her out of her lair and devour her as
wild dogs would devour a rabbit. "Get a
grip," she said through cracked lips. Most assuredly
she was alive. Her lungs hurt, she had to go to the bathroom—if she hadn't
already—her hands and her shoulders burned, her stomach threatened to empty,
but worst was the thirst. Dust stuck in her throat till she couldn't swallow.
Lips and tongue were as unyielding as old leather. Her very skin and hair and
fingernails felt parched. If she could have immersed herself in water she had
little doubt that she would soak it up like a sponge, swell up half again, in
size. "Anybody
alive out there?" Anna thought
the words were in her mind, in someone else's voice, and she wondered if this
was where the angels came or one's life flashed before one's eyes. The message was
repeated: "Anyone alive?" It was her
radio, impossibly far away on her belt. More than anything in the world, Anna
wanted that voice to continue. Inching one gloved hand away from the shelter's
edge, she tried to get to the Motorola. Winds jerked the aluminum up and a
sandblast of heat and ash choked her. She felt the shelter being peeled back,
the fire coming back for her. Abandoning the radio she clawed the tent down
again. "Anyone?" The voice
sounded plaintive now and, to Anna's fevered mind, farther away. Salvation was
slipping from her. The rescue plane flying over her raft without seeing it.
Rolling to one shoulder she used her weight to pin down the embattled tent.
Where she pressed against the shelter wall she burned. Still she held out till
she'd wrested the radio from her belt. Facedown in the sand again, she pushed
the Motorola up close to her mouth and forced down the mike button with a
clumsy gloved finger. "I'm
alive. Is that you, John?" "Some
roller-coaster ride." Anna wanted to
kiss him, cry all over him, marry him, have his children. "Who else has
radios?" she asked. "Howard's
got one. Black Elk, are you alive out there?" Radio silence
followed. "He's
alive," Anna said, not because she believed it but because if he was he'd
need reminding. "His hands and arms got burned. He probably can't get to
his radio." "Keep the
faith," LeFleur said. "I'm on the far side of the wash from spike. It
sounds like it's past me. I think that was the worst of it." "Gee, ya
think?" Anna said sarcastically, and the crew boss laughed. A wonderful
sound: heaven, honey, nectar. "How long have we been in these
things?" she asked. A second or two
ticked by and Anna got scared something had silenced John LeFleur. "Twelve
minutes," he replied. "Bullshit.
I was sixteen when I crawled into this fucking thing, now I'm
seventy-four." Again the
laugh. Anna had to bite her lips to keep from telling this stranger that she
loved him. "Black
Elk," LeFleur was saying, and Anna cradled the radio to her ear for
comfort. "Hang in there. This is the worst of it. Don't get out. Nobody
get out. It's still hotter than hell out there." Literally, Anna
thought. "I can
still see the fire through my shelter," she said, because she needed to
say something. "We still
got fire," LeFleur agreed. Anna was
comforted. She lay hurting in the sand with the radio pressed close to her
lips. For the next hour she and LeFleur talked, keeping their courage up,
hoping Howard Black Elk still had ears to hear them with. John had seen Joseph
Hayhurst and Lawrence Gonzales stumble into the gully. Paula Boggins and Neil
Page had been in the wash when LeFleur arrived. He'd shown them how to deploy
the shelters Page had had the sense to salvage from the supplies before they'd
run from the ridge. Anna guessed
Jennifer Short had made it, she'd been ahead of Anna when she crested the
ridge. Stephen Lindstrom, Leonard Nims and Hugh Pepperdine were still
unaccounted for. Anna didn't ask about Newt Hamlin. Every growl and
crack of the fire was described and discussed back and forth and slowly, with
the flames, the terror passed. In its wake were all the burns, twists, scrapes
and bruises that Anna counted herself lucky to be able to feel. Finally LeFleur
said he was going to leave the shelter. Anna was to wait. Science fiction
settled over her brain and she laughed at herself, feeling as if she waited in
a sealed space capsule while the captain ventured out on an unknown planet.
Laughter dried up when images of "B" movie monsters took over her
mental landscape and she realized how tired and afraid she was. Close, she
suspected, to hysteria. She willed herself away from that edge. "Come on
out." Briefly,
suddenly, Anna didn't want to go. All the safety she'd ever known seemed summed
up in the tinfoil shelter. The emotion passed as quickly as it had come and she
pushed one hand out from beneath the tent, shoving up the edge. Smoke rolled in
but it was no thicker or hotter than that inside. It took all of her strength
to push herself to her knees, her house crumpling down over her back. Then the foil
was being lifted away. Again fear pierced deep: the fire was back, ripping at
her safety, her flesh. But it was John LeFleur peeling the shelter off of her,
helping her to her feet. "You don't
look much the worse for wear. All parts still working?" "I
guess," she croaked, and took the water he offered. LeFleur's face was
completely black, like the "darkies" in the old minstrel shows. Mucus
and tears had muddied the soot around eyes and nose and a thin trail of blood
cut through the black from the tail of his left eyebrow. Through the soot his
blue eyes shined bright as opals in whites so bloodshot they showed pink. "You're
the best-looking thing I've ever seen," Anna said from the heart. She shed
the yellow pack like a turtle crawling out of its shell and started to pull off
her hard hat. "Leave
it," LeFleur said. "The Jackknife's not done with us yet." Anna rebuckled
the chin strap and took her eyes from him for the first time to look around. Science
fiction: it was another planet. Where there had been the green of living trees,
the gold of needles, the red of manzanita, the blue of the sky, there was only
gray and shades of gray and black. Instead of ponderosa, fir and sugar pine,
black skeletal bones poked cruelly toward a sky gray with smoke or cloud. The
ground was white, as white as death and bleached bone. Feathers of ash
smothered everything, burned so deep and hot the soil itself was dead. Smoke,
colorless in a colorless landscape, curled into a sky of the same hue, breathed
out like the poisoned breath of a dying planet. Here and there, in a mockery of
life, bright beautiful orange-red flames licked at what was left of something
once living, cleaning the bones of the carcass. Anna brought
her eyes back down from the ruined hillsides. She had deployed her shelter
downstream of a fork in the creek. Above where she and LeFleur stood she could
see a boulder the size of a trailer house that had originally divided the creek
in two. To the right was a silver-black corner of fabric where someone else had
deployed. Whoever was within didn't move. John laid a
hand on Anna's arm. She didn't grab onto it but she wanted to. "Where is
everybody?" she asked. "Some are
downstream, I think," LeFleur said. "And there's a branch over
there." He pointed south across a hump of devastated ground oozing smoke
and heat. "Not far. Five or six yards. It joins the creek at the boulder.
Most are there. I think." For a moment
longer they stood without moving. The only two people on this desolate world. "Let's
go," LeFleur said. Time to see who
had lived and who had died. Chapter Seven WIND SWIRLED ASH around their ankles. In places the sand was completely hidden.
Flakes of soot eddied down on air currents as wild and changing as Medusa's
locks. Cold drafts struck icy reminders of the storm front yet to come. Warm
whirlwinds, sudden and smoke-filled, attested to the firestorm just past. Clouds and
smoke pressed close and the visibility in the bottom of the canyon was limited.
Anna had yet to shake the feeling that she walked on an alien planet. Plowing
through air so mobile and viscous, it wasn't a great leap of imagination to
think it had a will—or wills—of its own. She wanted to
hold John's hand and, from the drawn look on his face, she doubted he'd mind.
Too bad they were grown-ups. Side by side, shoulders almost touching, they
trudged through the sand. Ahead, where the creek split at the boulder, wind
curled around the stone in a sudden gust and formed into a shape that was
almost human. "Hold
up," John said quietly, and Anna was afraid. The shape continued to shift
and settle. Finally it coalesced and she caught a flash of yellow. "Hey!"
she shouted as Stephen emerged from the choking mist. They ran and hugged and
pounded backs and laughed like old friends meeting after long years. "Looking
good. Looking good," Stephen said over and over. His eyes were too wide.
Whites showed all around the soft hazel pupils. Soot and dirt obscured his skin
but for a racoonlike patch over his eyes where his safety goggles had clamped
out the worst of the grime. This delicate flesh was stretched tight and the
same dirty gray color as the ashes that made up the world. Shock. Anna
reminded herself to be on the lookout for the symptoms in herself and the
others. If there were others. Shock would kill as surely as fire but it was a
cold death. Lindstrom
grabbed Anna's hand, holding it so tightly the roasted pinky throbbed. It would
have taken more than that to persuade her to pull away. The tinfoil hut
by the boulder began to stir and they stumbled over it to drag Howard Black Elk
from his aluminum cocoon. Howard was in bad shape. The hasty bandaging job Anna
had done on the run down the slope had been scraped away by his struggle to
keep his shelter down. Without gloves, his sleeves in rags, the man's hands and
arms to above the elbow were badly burned. How much of the charred-looking
flesh was third-degree burns and how much dirt, Anna couldn't tell without
water, light and a closer examination. "It don't
hurt much," Black Elk said, and Stephen and Anna exchanged glances. When a
burn didn't hurt the news was bad. The nerves had been destroyed. "We'll get
you fixed up," Anna said, and was appalled at how halfhearted the promise
sounded. "You're
looking good," Stephen repeated. He didn't sound any better than she did. "Thanks
for talking," Black Elk said. "On the radio, I mean. It was better
than being alone." "George
and Grade," Anna said. Howard stood there expressionless, his wounded
hands held in front of him like paws. The big man swayed on his feet. "Get
him down." Stephen and
John helped Howard to sit, out of the wind, his back to the sheltering rock. "Where are
you going?" he asked as the three of them straightened from settling him.
Terror was clear in his face and voice. "Not
far," Anna promised. "John's
got to round up the rest of his flock," Stephen said. Black Elk
didn't look reassured. LeFleur knelt beside the injured man, reached down and
turned the firefighter's radio on. "There's some down the creek. Watch.
Call me if you see anybody. Don't let them wander by, Howard. Don't let them
get lost." The crew boss
made it sound as if he was addressing Horatio on the bridge or the little boy
with his finger in the dike. Black Elk
pulled himself together. Anna could see it happening: fear and pain pushed
aside by strength and purpose. "Split
up?" Lindstrom asked LeFleur. "No. You
and Anna stay together. You've only got the one radio between you. You go on up
the creek. I'll go back down where we were." He pointed
toward the arm of the creek meandering off south of the boulder roughly
parallel to the section of creek where he'd met up with Anna. "We'll check
there last. And nobody goes far. Anybody you find, you send back here. Howard
will field them in, keep them together." LeFleur looked at his watch. To
read the face, he had to scrape off the soot. "Takes a lickin'
and keeps on tickin'," Lindstrom said. Anna silently voted him the man
she'd most like to survive a wildfire with. "Don't
walk more than twenty minutes. Whoever didn't make the creek before that . . .
didn't make the creek," LeFleur finished. "Got a
light?" Anna asked as she and Stephen started up the creek bed. "Don't
tell me you want to smoke?" "Headlamp,"
Anna said. "Mine's in my yellow pack." Lindstrom
stopped obediently and Anna dug the battery-powered light out of his backpack
for him. September had
brought shorter days. Smoke and cloud robbed the last light of its strength.
Though it was only a little after four it would soon be dark. Anna had
ambivalent feelings about that. Darkness had been her cloak of invisibility, her
protector more than once. When she was a little girl she'd been afraid. Her
mother once asked her of what, and Anna answered, "Of the things that jump
out at people." Her mother had looked complacent. "I always figured I
was the thing jumping out," she'd said. Since that time Anna and the dark
had become old friends. "This'll
be a night full of ghosts," she said aloud. "Anna, cut
that out." "Right." Sneezing and
hacking pulled them forward at a faster pace. Jennifer Short staggered out of
the murk coughing as if her lungs would spew out onto the sand. "If I got
an orifice that's not running, I don't know where it is. I swear I didn't think
a person had this much snot in their head. Disgusting. Anybody got a clean
hankie?" "Blow your
nose on your fingers," Stephen suggested. "My,
aren't we down-home?" Jennifer drawled. "Shoot. Gotta do something.
Don't tell Momma." She cleared her sinuses. In the strange
half-light Anna noted the red of blood through the soot-impregnated glove. "I'm an
EMT, can I help?" she asked, parroting the accepted introduction of
emergency medical personnel coming onto an accident scene. Stephen laughed,
they all laughed way out of proportion to the feeble pleasantry. "It's
nothin'," Jennifer said. "You can patch it up when we find a spot to
perch." "Anybody
back where you were deployed?" Anna asked. "Lawrence
and Hugh. I didn't walk back down. I came toward your voices. They deployed
when I did. How close, I'm not sure. I haven't been paying many social calls
just recently." Drawn by the
sounds of the living, two more zombies stumbled out of the smoke. Veiled in
gray, soot blackening their faces, they were unrecognizable to Anna until
Jennifer called out their names. Once labeled, their individual characteristics
came back and Anna could see the men behind the dirt. Lawrence
Gonzales was a slight man in his early twenties with soft straight black hair
and clear brown skin. If he spoke, it wasn't ever to Anna, but he smiled enough
so that she thought him shy rather than sullen. Hugh Pepperdine
wasn't much older, if any—maybe twenty-three or -four at most. He was soft and
white and pudgy. Nobody could figure out how he'd managed to pass his step test
to become a red-carded firefighter. Pepperdine talked too much and worked too
little, from what Anna had gathered. The crew nicknamed him "Barney"
after the treacly purple dinosaur. It was not a term of endearment. Right now Hugh
didn't seem to know whether he was a hero or a victim. While Gonzales coughed
and spit and murmured "pardon me," Pepperdine babbled. Venting, Anna
knew, and neither she nor Lindstrom made any effort to stop the flow of words.
Blame for the burn-over was cast on everyone from John LeFleur and Newt Hamlin
to the National Weather Service and the National Interagency Fire Center out of
Boise, Idaho. Somebody somewhere had screwed up and Hugh wanted his pound of
flesh. Mixed in with his diatribe was a thread of personal heroics of the tiny
real variety: falling down but getting up again, running and getting away. Chances were
good the story would improve over time and Pepperdine would undoubtedly dine
out on it for the rest of his days. "Put a
cork in it, Barney," Jennifer snapped when they'd all had enough. She
shrugged out of her yellow pack. Pepperdine spluttered to silence and the five
of them walked back up the creek to where Black Elk waited by the boulder. Through the dim
light Anna couldn't tell who was gathered around the rock but it was a goodly
number and she dared to hope they'd all made it. All but Newt Hamlin, she
corrected herself. Guilt tried to cut her but she pushed it away. No time for
that now. Six dead heroes wasn't a better deal than one dead boy and five
living if fallible human beings. "Gonzales,
Short and Pepperdine accounted for," Lindstrom said as they walked up to
the others. Paula Boggins
sat near Howard, shivering in a white tee shirt and shorts. Second-degree burns
covered the backs of her thighs and calves and the outside of her forearms.
Liquid was seeping through the coating of grit. "Somebody give
me a brush jacket," Anna said. Pepperdine looked away as if he hadn't
heard. LeFleur dug his from his yellow pack and Anna wrapped it around the
girl's shoulders. Lindstrom's went over Paula's legs. Covering so much of her
body, even second-degree burns were a serious injury. Hypothermia and shock
were very real threats. "We'll get you fixed up," Anna heard herself
saying again, and wondered with what. The only medical supplies not burned up
in the fire were the personal first aid kits they all carried, wallet-sized
plastic containers with a handful of Band-Aids and little else. Neil Page had
fared better than Paula. Long denim pants and a long-sleeved wool shirt had
protected him from burns. The lower half of his face was covered in blood and
the front of his shirt was stained with it. The blood was from a nosebleed, he
said. He got them when he got excited. "You're
entitled," Anna said. No doubt that there had been some excitement. Joseph Hayhurst
had come through with nothing worse than the scratches and bruises they'd all
gathered fleeing the fire. He sat quietly beside Black Elk, an alert look on
his face and a strange little half smile on his lips. A well-mannered,
well-brought-up man willing to lend a hand. The urbane pleasantness was jarring
against the blackened face and wild Apache hair. While Anna and
Lindstrom were inventorying the injuries sustained by the San Juans, LeFleur
attempted to contact Incident Base on his hand-held. "No dice," he
said as he stepped back into the defensive circle they'd formed. "Maybe
from higher ground. Have we got everybody?" Silence followed.
Minds were numb. Too much stress, too little oxygen had made them stupid. "Everybody,"
Gonzales said. "Where's
Len?" The question came from Jennifer. "He was with us carrying Newt
out." No one asked
where Newt was. "Len
didn't make it," Hugh said. "Did you
see him?" John asked. Pepperdine
opened his mouth as if to say something then closed it and shook his head.
"I just figured maybe the fire caught up with him." Again the
silence. They all looked at one another, everyone expecting someone else to speak. "Last I
saw of him was all ass and elbows high-tailing it up the hill," Jennifer
said. "I didn't see him reach the wash." Anna looked
around. Heads shaking. No one saw him reach the safety of the sand. "Did
anybody check the southwest fork of the creek?" LeFleur asked. "You told
us to meet back here first." Anna knew she sounded defensive but there was
no way to retract. She wrote it off to fatigue. Reluctance to
go in search of Nims was palpable. Anna didn't know if it stemmed from the
man's unpopularity or if they were all loath to leave this small island of
security, the first they'd felt in a while. "Stephen,"
Anna said. "Let's go. If he's there—" He might be in need of medical
attention was her thought, but without tools and supplies there was little she
and Lindstrom could do that was beyond the capabilities of anyone else present. Lindstrom
levered himself up and put on his hard hat. "Keep
trying Base," LeFleur said to Howard Black Elk as he got up out of the
sand to join them. Howard's hands were so badly burned Anna thought the task
would have been better given to Joseph till she saw the big man's face. Work,
being needed, was all that was keeping Howard going. "Lawrence,
you and Hugh go back up the creek and collect the shelters and anything else
we've left. We may need it. It looks like we'll be here all night,"
LeFleur said. Paula started
to cry. "Stop that," Jennifer snapped. "Fuck
off," Paula said, but she stopped crying and Anna was relieved. Anna switched
on her headlamp. Dust and smoke absorbed the light, rendering it virtually
useless. Wreathed in glowing gray, she, LeFleur and Lindstrom spread out and
began combing the width of the south fork of the creek that ran parallel to
where Anna had ridden out the firestorm. They all saw
the shelter at the same moment. It lay perfectly deployed in the middle of the
sand. The tent ridge was erect and the edges held firmly down. Ash had blown
around it like a drift of dead snow. "Len!"
LeFleur called. Nothing stirred and not one of the three of them moved.
"Len Nims!" Cold gray stillness settled back into the silence as the
crew boss's voice died away. "Let's do
it," Anna said after a moment, and broke the line they'd formed upstream
of the shelter. Adrenaline
hangover, post-traumatic shock syndrome, the dying light, the devastated
landscape—something had robbed Anna of her nerve and she approached the silvery
structure as if it housed poisonous vipers. There'd been a tent in Texas, where
she'd worked backcountry in the Guadalupe Mountains, filled with diamondbacks.
She thought of that now and half believed she heard the threatening rattle of
tails. "Len?"
she said as she tentatively pinched up one edge of the shelter. A gloved hand
in a yellow sleeve was exposed. LeFleur, unable
to stand the suspense, stepped up beside her. Grabbing the tent ridge in both
hands, he jerked it up. Straps and edges tangled around the limbs of the man
inside and a tumble of green, yellow and silver was stirred into the sand as
the man rolled onto his side. "Christ,"
LeFleur hissed. Anna and Lindstrom dropped to their knees and began pawing the
foil away. Light had been
leached from the sky. The bottom of the gully was deep in a shrouded dusk.
Beams from the lanterns on their hard hats danced confusingly across the
prone man's shoulder and cheek. "It's Len,
all right," Lindstrom said. Silence fell on
that, the three of them locked up with their own thoughts. "Did he have a
wife?" Stephen blurted out suddenly. John nodded.
"Separated, I think. Got six or eight kids. Good Catholic boy. His yellow
pack is gone," the crew boss added. Anna had taken
her glove off and pressed her fingers down on the carotid artery in the side of
his neck. "Nothing." She tried again. "Nope." "This is a
hell of a note." LeFleur was leaning over, his lamp shining on Nims's
face. Like their own, it was blackened, the blue eyes staring from red-rimmed
eyes. "Smoke
inhalation?" Lindstrom offered. "The rest
of us made it," the crew boss said. "Heart
attack?" Anna tried. "Could
be." LeFleur straightened up, dug a Pall Mall out of his shirt pocket and
struck a match. "Christ!" he said as the match flared. He dropped it,
the cigarette unlit. Fumbling, he pulled his hard hat off and the light from
it. Rolling the body onto its belly he shined his lamp on Leonard Nims's back. A knife handle
was sticking out just below the man's left shoulder blade. Blood, mixed with
soot and dried to a brown crust, colored the shirt and the sand. Anna looked to
Lindstrom, Lindstrom to John. The crew boss shook his head, struck another
match and lit his cigarette. His hands were shaking. "No way this
could have happened," he said as if that would make the situation go away. Anna turned off
her headlamp, whether to save the battery or shut out the dead man she was
unsure. "What now?" LeFleur said. "You're the crew boss,"
Anna returned. "You're in charge of security." "Damn." Chapter Eight WIND SNATCHED UP a handful of ash and blinded Anna with it.
Somewhere on the far side of the ridge, probably melted into a puddle, were her
safety goggles. She thought of them now and remembered the scrape of manzanita
across her face. She must have lost them in that thicket. Anna hung her
head and tried to blink the grit away. "What're we going to do about
this?" LeFleur pointed to Len Nims. "I'm
thinking," Anna grumbled. The open eyes of the corpse were slowly filling
with grit. "Pull the shelter over him, for Chrissake." LeFleur drew
the aluminum tent up over the body. Ash from his cigarette joined the feathery
relics of pine and fir in Nims's hair. Ashes to ashes, Anna thought. Nims was
beyond caring. Anna was too, she realized with a pang of guilt. Nims in life
was a coward and a pain in the ass. In death he continued in the latter
function. His staring eyes were a vicious reminder of mortality, his body a
logistical problem, his murder a horrific complication. Anna hated him. Sorry,
Len, she addressed the spirit world above the wash. It's just that I've had a
real bad day. LeFleur smoked.
Anna's eyes finally cleared and she looked at Stephen. In the uncertain light
of the crew boss's headlamp his face looked strained, exhaustion dragging down
his cheeks and the corners of his eyes. "We can't
stay here," Anna stated the obvious. "It's too cold to mess around
and too dark to do any good. I guess this is a crime scene. Shit. We'll leave
it as is. Let somebody deal with it in the morning." "Sounds
like a plan," LeFleur agreed. None of them made any effort to leave. The
sheer impossibility of the knife, the dead man, held them to the spot waiting
for some rational explanation to manifest itself. "Somebody
must've knifed him when he got to the wash," John said, flicking his
cigarette end into the darkness beyond their little cabal. "Maybe a fight
of some kind over something— space—something. Len lost." Anna could tell
John liked that explanation. Both hope and finality colored his words. She
liked it too, but it wouldn't fly. "He's in
the shelter," she said. "Even if the murderer got an attack of
remorse and decided to stick the body in its shake 'n' bake, the thing would
have blown off. I had a hell of a time holding mine down. Nims's shelter
wouldn't've lasted five minutes without him alive inside." Silence was
agreement. Lindstrom and LeFleur had battled the fire's winds. "After the
fire passed us somebody must have killed him," LeFleur said. "Jesus.
You'd think they'd be too glad just to be alive." "Blood is
all dried up, brown and crusty," Anna pointed out. She didn't lift the
silvery shroud to show them. They would remember. "What of
it?" LeFleur was belligerent. Anna didn't
blame him, her voice was sharp when she answered. "So it didn't happen in
the last twenty minutes. The heat from the fire dried it, cooked it." LeFleur stuck
his hands in his pockets and looked toward the ridge where spike camp had been.
Out of reflex, Stephen looked too. They were all wishing themselves elsewhere. "Let's get
the hell out of here," LeFleur said finally. The meeting was
adjourned. Using stones, they weighted down the shelter that covered Nims's
body then trudged up the creek without light or conversation, saving their
batteries figuratively and literally. Clearly not
before. Definitely not
after. Nims had been
knifed during the firestorm. Since that was
not possible, there didn't seem to be a whole lot left to talk about. "What are
you going to tell the crew?" Lindstrom asked LeFleur. "The
truth." That was easy,
Anna thought. Too bad nobody had the faintest idea what the truth was. Gonzales,
Pepperdine, Black Elk, Hayhurst, Paula Boggins, Jennifer Short and Neil Page
were clustered in the lee of the boulder. Some clear-thinking individual—Joseph
Hayhurst, probably—had begun to organize a bivouac. Two of the shelters Hugh
and Lawrence had retrieved were spread to make a drop cloth to keep out the
chill of the ground. The others were pressed into service as blankets.
Temperatures were dropping rapidly. Mid-forties, Anna guessed. With the wind it
felt colder. Paula Boggins
huddled miserably under the two brush jackets, shivering and hot at the same
time. Tracks of tears streaked the black on her face and her jaw was clenched
to keep her teeth from chattering. Sucking on a cigarette and letting the smoke
trickle out his nose, Neil Page sat beside her, the blackened silver of a
shelter pulled around him to shut out the wind. At every drag he coughed deep
in his chest, mouth closed to keep in the smoke. Paula and Neil
concerned Anna. Paula was hurt but it was more than that. No firefighter
expected to run from a holocaust the likes of which had caught them, but it was
understood that there would be nights on the line with little or no comforts.
Everybody got stuck out occasionally. Most times there was the luxury of a
"Good Boy" box, a box of provisions helicoptered in for the night.
Sometimes there wasn't. That was the deal. Firefighters tacitly agreed to
discomfort when they signed on. The same was not true of Paula and Neil.
Mentally unprepared, they were at a disadvantage. The mind could keep the body
going a long time on will alone. Or it could shut it down. Black Elk, cloaked
in another shelter, cradled the radio on his lap between his elbows. Someone
had draped a filthy neckerchief over his hands. Probably more to hide than
protect them. That was good, Anna noted. A man at a car wreck she'd worked had
been up and functional, talking, then went into shock and died when his left
arm, severed at the elbow by a cable, was placed on the stretcher next to him
by an idiot EMT. It was better Howard didn't see the ribboned flesh of his arms
any more than he had to. Jennifer Short
sat cross-legged on the edge of the shelter used as a tarp. The yellow of her
brush jacket, kept relatively clean inside her pack, provided a cheery note.
The animation surviving the fire had lent her was gone. Her eyes were unfocused
and her mouth crunched into a sad line. Only this morning, Anna recalled, she
had heard her brother was dead, killed in the same fire that had taken its best
shot at them. Lawrence and
Joseph had emptied the contents of the yellow packs—with the exception of Hugh
Pepperdine's—onto the makeshift ground cloth. From the closed bitter expression
on Hugh's pudgy face and the care the others took not to look at him, Anna
expected there had been words over his hoarding. Her brush
jacket was on the heap they were inventorying and Anna leaned over Jennifer's
legs to get it. "I'd offer it to you guys," she said to LeFleur and
Lindstrom, their jackets gone to cover Paula, "but it's an extra
small." "Yeah,
yeah, yeah," Lindstrom returned. Anna folded
herself into the sand beside Jennifer and dumped her hard hat and gloves in
front of her. Jennifer came out of her stupor enough to look up. She shined her
headlamp in Anna's eyes and mumbled, "Sorry," when Anna winced.
"You look just about as awful as a woman can look and not be dead,"
Jennifer commented. "Do I look that bad?" Anna opened her mouth to
reply but Jennifer cut her off: "Don't tell me. Anybody here got mirrors,
you keep 'em to yourself." That burst of
life spent, Short sank into herself again. In an attempt
to get warm, Anna shoved her hands deep in jacket pockets. Her fingers closed
around something disgusting and she jerked them back out. Brown ooze coated her
fingertips. For a second her mind blanked, revulsion the only emotion
registering. Too much horror for one day. Then she stuck her fingers in her
mouth. Chocolate. Sugar hit her bloodstream like a drug and she realized how
hungry she was. "We need
to get some food into us," she said. "Can I
lick your fingers?" Stephen asked. "You can
lick my pocket. What have we got?" Lawrence drew
back from the cache of goods he and Joseph had collected, looking to Hayhurst
to speak. Joseph tossed out two MREs—meals ready to eat—that someone had the
foresight to carry in their yellow packs. LeFleur and Black Elk: the old-timers
carried tools, socks and food. There was hard candy as well. "That's
enough to keep our blood sugar up," Anna said. "Nobody will starve by
morning." "Did you
find Len?" Black Elk, easily the most severely injured, was holding up
better than half the others. "Bad
news," LeFleur said. He pulled out his cigarettes. Two left. "Give me
one of those," Page said. LeFleur tossed
him the pack. To take a man's last cigarette; Neil Page, never high on Anna's
list, slipped down a notch. Disaster brought out the best and the worst in people,
she reminded herself. She'd not exactly been Little Mary Sunshine over the past
hours. The men lit
their smokes while the rest waited for LeFleur's bad news. There was little
tension. They could guess Len Nims was dead. Just not how. One knew, Anna
realized with a jolt. One of them had knifed Nims in the back. Because her mind
was overloaded and because what had happened was impossible—nothing flesh and
blood could have moved through the firestorm to commit murder— it hadn't come
home quite so graphically as it did at this moment that Nims had been killed by
one of the people sitting in the sand. In her career
as a park ranger, Anna had dealt with murderers several times but never with
such immediacy. Before she'd confronted them, the killers had time to regroup,
begin—or finish—their justifications and rationalizations. The thin veneer of
civilization had reformed over their faces. As LeFleur
shook out his match and, still standing, began his recital, she studied the
faces of the others. Surely, had one of them done the unthinkable—not to
mention the impossible— in the last few hours some remnant of the deed would
remain. Anna was
disappointed. Hugh Pepperdine registered something resembling peevish
annoyance. Neil Page sucked on LeFleur's last Pall Mall as if he hadn't heard.
Maybe Paula's shock deepened slightly but Anna couldn't really tell. As for the
others, they met it much as Anna had, with disbelief. It was too absurd to fit
into an ordered mind. And they all fought in their own way to restore some kind
of mental order. Ever the good
host, Joseph Hayhurst passed around hard candy as the crew boss explained the
knife in the ribs. His story finished to the quiet crackling of cellophane as
they unwrapped their butterscotches. LeFleur sat down. Small snacking sounds
defined the circle. Overhead the winds whistled. "Somebody's
got to radio Base. Nobody knows if we're alive or dead." Pepperdine's
voice was a whine. He gave them someone to focus their fear and anger on. Anna
could feel the group warming to the idea of a scapegoat. Hugh Pepperdine was
born for the role and Anna felt like giving him a swift kick herself but
couldn't see that it would further any cause. "It's
beginning to look a lot like Christmas," a sweet tenor voice sang. Anna
looked up to see who had slipped the surly bonds of earth. It was Joseph.
"Snow," he explained. Mixed with the
windblown ash were icy flakes. Minute hissing sounds as the sleet hit hot coals
corroborated his assessment. Bad weather could give their adventure another ugly
turn. Anna sighed. "
'Scuse me," she said. "I'm going to go find what's left of the
ladies' powder room." BY THE TIME she got
back LeFleur had worked wonders with their makeshift camp. Shelters were rigged
into a tent attached to the elbow of the boulder providing shelter from the
winds. Lawrence and
Stephen had taken shovels into the burn and brought back live coals that they'd
heaped in a sand fire pit inside the tent and the temperature approached
comfortable. "Not much
left in the way of fuel," Lindstrom said. "But we can mine coals from
now till doomsday. Even with the snow, it's a hot motherfucker out there.
Pardon my French," he said to Jennifer. Stephen didn't wax obscene from habit,
it was by design and for effect. This time he'd evidently hoped to get a rise
out of Jennifer but she didn't come out of her lethargy enough to acknowledge
him. When the chores
were done, Anna told herself she should talk to Short. Or, better yet, make
Lindstrom do it. He was a touchy-feely nineties kind of guy. LeFleur and
Hayhurst were rigging one of the shelters to improve the natural windbreak
created by the boulder. Paula and Black Elk had been moved to the snuggest
corner. Food and water, not enough to satisfy but enough to survive, had been
salvaged. Anna cannibalized
all of the first-aid kits and came up with seven rolls of one-and-one-half-inch
gauze. She used a quart of water to cool and flush some of the debris from
Howard's hands and arms. His palms and the spaces between his fingers were in
decent shape. The back of his left hand and arm was swollen, the blisters
ripped open and liquid oozing from tattered flesh. Regardless of what the man
would admit, this one had to be hurting like a son of a bitch. The knuckles of
the third and ring finger of his right hand were burned down to the bone. His
right forearm was charred along the ulnar bone, the meat burned black in a
strip an inch wide and three inches long. Around the third-degree burns were
blisters the size of silver dollars and heavy with pus. Anna dressed
his hands and arms with hope, a couple of nondenominational prayers and five of
the rolls of gauze. "Don't
bust open the blisters," she told him. "Got to
let 'em drain," Black Elk said. "No you
don't. Don't do it. Are you going to quit doing it?" "You betcha." Anna saw the
twinkle in Howard's brown eyes and knew he was pulling her leg. He wouldn't
mess with these blisters. Paula's burns
weren't nearly so severe but they covered a good chunk of her small body. Anna
recalled the rule of nines from her EMT training. Second-degree burns were
considered minor if they covered less than fifteen percent of the body and the
face, hands, feet and genital areas weren't affected. Arms were nine
percent of the body, legs eighteen. A little mental arithmetic let Anna know
Paula barely retained her minor status. Between ten and twelve percent of her
body was burned. Barring any unforeseen incidents Boggins should be all right.
Anna was careful to drum that into the girl's head lest her own fear be her
undoing. Jennifer's left
palm had a nasty cut where she said she'd fallen on the blade of her pulaski.
Anna cleaned it, closed it with butterflies and bandaged it. Unless infection
set in, it would heal. By the time
they'd finished it was full dark. Joseph distributed the food. Anna scored a
can of beanie-weenies and marveled as she wolfed it down what a wonderful sauce
hunger was. Lindstrom made Jennifer eat a can of Polish sausages, then set her
to work feeding Howard slimy cold chop suey from a plastic MRE bag. Being of service
would probably do Short more good than the nourishment would the big Arapaho. When they'd
finished eating, the firefighters threw their trash into the darkness beyond
their enclave. Littering went against the grain for Anna hut, with a touch of
childish rebellion, she threw her empty tin toward the smoldering Jackknife. "I'm going
to try and make the ridge," she announced. "See if I can reach
Base." "Wait till
it's light," LeFleur said. The rebellion
in her soul wasn't quelled and Anna could feel her metaphorical heels digging
in. "Somebody
should go," Hugh said. Everybody ignored him. Pepperdine had dined in
solitary splendor out of the sanctity of his yellow pack. Any shred of
credibility he might have retained was destroyed in that instant. "It's not
more than a quarter of a mile," Anna said. "Maybe a hundred yards to
the heli-spot. There's a road from there." Silence argued
for her. The rest of them craved contact with the outside world as much as she
did. "You're
not going alone," the crew boss told her. LeFleur didn't want to leave his
crew and nobody else wanted to leave the safety of the creek. "Stephen
will go with me." "Thanks a
heap," Lindstrom said, but he was stirring himself up out of the sand as
he spoke. "Go
slow," LeFleur warned. "Test each step before you take it. Those
stumps are still burning underground. You wade into one, you'll know it." With that
blessing and a pair of borrowed goggles, Anna and Stephen took two of the
headlamps and walked out of the circle of light. At the bank of the creek they
stopped. Around them the murmur of the wind and the hiss of sleet on the burn
pushed the dark close. Cold crept down the collar of Anna's brush jacket and
chilled her wrists between the leather of her gloves and the canvas cuffs. "This might
not turn out to be one of your better ideas," Lindstrom said. "I'm open
to suggestion." "Let's go
snuggle in with our compadres and wait till morning." "Not that
one." Though tired to the bone, with a backache that made her stomach roil
and two booted feet that felt like hamburger, Anna was pushed by the need to
take some sort of action. There'd been a blowup. A boy was burned to death. A
man knifed in the ribs by a means she could not make heads or tails of. To sit,
to wait, to try to sleep was beyond her. No rational act left, she'd chosen the
least irrational. With luck it would even prove productive. "Tractability
is considered an attractive quality in a woman," Lindstrom said as she
sank her pulaski into the bank and pulled herself out of the wash. After half a
dozen steps Anna was beginning to doubt her decision as well. It would be easy
to get lost. All they had to navigate by was the slope. Ahead, the teeth of the
fire were bared in hollow logs and stumps, glowing coals defying the petty
attempts of the sleet to quench them. As winds eddied and shifted the coals
brightened hungrily. More unsettling
was the fire that lived high in the burned-out snags. The forest was still
there but it had been stripped of skin and muscle. Bare bones, charred a shade
darker than the night, rose all around like macabre grave markers. High in many
of the snags the fire gnawed at the marrow. An occasional crack or fall let
them know that a lingering branch had been chewed off, brought down. Anna kept
climbing, pounding each step with her pulaski as John had told her. Behind her
she could hear Lindstrom. He whistled "Ring of Fire" between his
teeth. Visibility
improved as they gained altitude and their lamps began to be of more use. The
ground flattened out and Anna stopped to catch her breath. So changed was the
landscape it took her a minute to realize they'd reached the heli-spot. "Home
free," Lindstrom said as he came up beside her. "Wind's picking
up." A curtain of
ash and grit blasted by them and they turned their backs. "One damn
thing after another," Anna groused. A dirt road had
been hacked from spike to the heli-spot and the going was easier. Lindstrom
took the lead and she fell in behind him, relieved only to have to step where
he stepped. On the ridge
the wind was shrieking. Without the sough of needles and leaves to soften its
voice, the whistle was sharp and unkind. Stephen's light picked out the hulk
that had been Paula's truck. The tires were burned off the hubs. One of the
fenders was gone, blasted away when the gas cans exploded. The cab was gutted
and the glass gone. In extremis the vehicle had been rendered black and
elemental. It no longer looked out of place. "Maybe
it's still warm," Anna said hopefully. Brush jackets were made of unlined
canvas, designed to protect from the scrape of branches and the wind. Now that
the exertion of the climb was behind them, Anna was feeling the cold. Using the truck
shell as a windbreak, Anna dragged the radio from under her jacket. On the
second try she reached Base. The line was etched by static but still readable.
The two EMTs found themselves laughing from sheer relief. They weren't alone. Gene Burwell,
the incident commander, spoke with them and Anna sensed a hushed reverence
awaiting her every word. Caught up in surviving, the rest of humanity had
slipped her mind. Mothers, fathers, brothers, sisters, friends were waiting by
radios and telephones, the television tuned to CNN, hoping for news. The drama
of what they had been through hit her and she was proud even as she mocked
herself for feeling heroic. It was with sadness and an unpleasant sense of
failure, slipping from her recently acquired pedestal, that she told them of
Newt Hamlin, of Leonard Nims. News of the
murder was met with a static-filled silence Anna couldn't break. Burwell had
his mike button down and, she imagined, his mouth open. Three times he
made her repeat the information. Anna was shouting now, her face and the radio
shielded by the truck's engine block and Lindstrom's body. Rising wind competed
for air time. "What do you want us to do?" she asked. Burwell was
quiet so long she began to be afraid they'd lost contact. Finally his voice
cracked back: "Can you last out the night?" "I think
so." Anna had told him of injuries sustained and supplies available. It
was a rhetorical question. Could rescue have been sent it would already be on
its way? "The
National Weather Service thinks this'll break tomorrow. We'll send the
helicopters in for you. We've sent a crew up the road but they won't be there
anytime soon. If this sleet holds, the fire will be out by then or close to it.
One way or another, we'll get to you." When the
conversation was terminated, Anna felt abandoned. Lindstrom took the radio and
relayed their information to LeFleur. From far away,
through the howling of the wind, came soft thuds, the sound a giant's footfalls
might make in ash and dirt. Anna grabbed Stephen's arm. "What the
hell..." "John, do
you hear that?" Lindstrom barked. Bile backed up
in Anna's throat. The pounding was directionless. It came in intervals of a few
seconds to a minute and seemed to be on all sides. "Put your
hard hats on and hunker down somewhere solid," the crew boss said over the
radio. "The wind's felling snags. It'll be like a war zone out there till
it lets up." Lindstrom sat
down in the ash, leaned back against the engine block and spread his legs.
"A little ninety-eight point six?" he offered. Anna squirmed between
his knees and he held her close, retaining what body heat they had left. His hard hat
clanked against hers as he leaned his head down. "I sure wish you were
fatter. No offense." "None
taken. I sure wish I was home—no offense." "None
taken." Chapter Nine TIMMY SPINKS CALLED Stanton a little after nine p.m. Chicago time. Frederick put down a
block of cottonwood and the carving knife, muted the television and answered.
As Spinks relayed information he'd received of a radio call from the surviving
firefighters, the windstorm and the consequent recall of the rescue crew Base
had dispatched up the mountain, Stanton saw the same news marching soundlessly
across the TV screen. He didn't take
notes while Spinks talked. Names, dates, places, all the details would be
remembered. He wasn't born with the talent. Like a waiter in a fine restaurant,
over the years he'd trained himself to use his short-term memory. Later he
would make lists. The lists served to make tangible his thoughts. Lists could
be thumbtacked on maps, moved around, compared, re-matched like puzzle pieces
or decorators' samples. For now Stanton
listened, his eyes on the talking head on channel 4, his fingers running
absently over his carving. Emerging from the block of wood was a chimpanzee in
a cowboy hat and six-guns. Stanton remembered seeing one dressed that way in an
old movie. Monkeys in various activities and ensembles cavorted on the
windowsill behind the sofa. Stanton had taken up carving in hopes it would do
for his hands what the television did for his brain; keep it occupied in
harmless pursuits from day's end till bedtime. The sculptures
were good. He knew it without taking much pride in his achievement. Cynicism,
carefully weeded out of his daily dealings with mankind, dripped from every
knife cut. His monkeys weren't fun, not even a barrel full of them. Slyness,
stupidity, greed, envy, arrogance, lust, deceit: seven sometimes deadly but
certainly ubiquitous sins marred the simian faces. Stanton's first
carvings had been of people but they had proved unsettling. Too much
disappointment was revealed. With monkeys the whimsy somewhat balanced the
cruelty. "What's
closest to Lassen Park and the Caribou Wilderness?" he asked when Spinks
had finished. "Reno?" Stanton didn't wait for an answer. A map of
northern California and Nevada had risen from some recess of his mind.
"Book me a flight out of here to Reno." There was no
hesitation before the "yes, sir." Spinks, deliciously damp behind the
ears, wouldn't know Stanton wasn't godlike in his powers, that he didn't choose
his assignments nor did he prioritize them. Careful not to
scatter wood shavings, Frederick folded up the newspaper laid across his lap.
The air ticket he would put on American Express. The days on either sick leave
or annual leave. He'd accrued so much of both, come December he'd be on Use or
Lose status anyway. The murder was a bit of unexpected luck. Stanton might even
wangle official status with pay. The thought of
seeing Anna again gave him a thrill of adolescent proportions. The corpse was a
fitting touch. He never saw Anna unless somebody died. If that wasn't the stuff
True Love was made of he'd read all those Thomas B. Costain novels for nothing. Setting his
reading glasses down by the half-finished carving, he made squeaky sounds
through pursed lips. Danny squeaked back and Stanton located him in the shadows
on top of one of the bookcases. "Come, my little bird-brained friend. Time
to return to solitary." As he put the budgie back into its cage it crossed
his mind that he ought to buy Danny a companion. He could never tell if baby
budgerigars were male or female but perhaps it wouldn't matter. Just somebody
to pass the time with, twitter to in the dark. "Maybe
when I get back," Frederick promised. TIMMY GOT HIM on a red-eye out of O'Hare, through
Salt Lake City, arriving in Reno at three-forty-eight A.M. Seven hundred and
twenty-three dollars. Frederick abandoned American Express at the airport
counter and put it on an already overburdened MasterCard. This would have to be
paid off one month at a time along with Candice's college tuition. Long legs
jacked up against the seat back in front of him, Stan-ton cinched his seat belt
down, then opened the envelope of computer printouts Spinks had given him: data
on the Jackknife, maps of the area and background checks on the survivors and
the two deceased still up on Banyon Ridge just east of Lassen Volcanic National
Park. He started with
the report of the fire. Not because it held the greatest interest, but because
it was going to be a long flight and he was saving the best for last. Last was
Anna's background check, on the bottom of the pile. She wasn't a suspect, he
was just being nosy. Law enforcement computer networks weren't the all-knowing,
all-seeing, long, strong, electronic arm of the law that the various agencies
would have the public believe, but they housed more dirt than a Hoover. A
professional gossip's dream come true. Frederick had the highest regard for
gossip. It showed people still cared what their kind did or did not do. It
shored up the illusion of self-importance and morality that separated man from
the monkeys he carved. With a pleasant
sense of anticipation that claimed him at the outset of most investigations, he
began to read. The Jackknife
had been spotted on the twenty-seventh of September by a fire lookout in the
Lassen National Forest. The burn had originated near Pinson Lake, California.
Lightning, the cause of a majority of wildland fires, was not in evidence. The
first victims, Joshua Short and his dog, were suspected of starting the blaze. Frederick noted
the plural and wondered what role the dog was thought to have played in arson.
Maybe in the vein of Mrs. O'Leary's cow. In eleven days
the fire had grown to fourteen thousand acres of public land, thirteen thousand
five hundred on National Forest land and five hundred acres in Lassen Volcanic
National Park. An Incident Base camp of a thousand-plus firefighters had been
established on the edge of the Caribou Wilderness east of the park and a spike
camp within the wilderness area on Banyon Ridge. The fire had burned steadily
but unremarkably until the cold front moved in over the Cascades. The blowup
was a spectacular swan song, bringing the total acreage burned to over
seventeen thousand. Precipitation
and cooler temperatures were thought to have stopped the fire. It was still
being monitored and, though the crews were being demobilized, Gene Burwell,
Incident Commander, would head the rescue effort to bring the stranded squad
down off the mountain. Chain of
events, cause and effect, never ceased to fascinate Frederick. A cold front
rolls over a mountain range; a brother is burned to death; a man named Nims is
knifed in the back; Frederick notices he may be falling in
something—"love" for lack of a better word; Joshua Short, alleged
arsonist, sets a fire that overruns a spike camp where his sister has been
dispatched. The world was a house of cards. Stanton met
Jennifer Short, a seasonal law enforcement ranger, when he worked a homicide
with Anna in Mesa Verde National Park. Her steel-magnolia persona delighted
him. He had a secret envy for those with colorful ethnic roots. Accents and
cultural eccentricities provided good cover, a touch of mystery and romance. A
middle-aged, middle-class, middle-western white boy had only his expected naivetй
to fall back on when the emotional roads got rough. He hoped Jennifer's steel predominated
over the magnolia for the duration. News of her brother's death, the trauma of
the fire, might be enough to render her useless to Anna. Through the
musings and mental exercises it was never far from Frederick's mind that somewhere
on the flank of a mountain, Anna was snuggled down with a murderer. It was so
like her it made him smile. Spreading out
Timmy's maps, he noted with approval that the area of the fire and base and
spike camps had been marked with colored pens. Somewhere in the circle of
fluorescent orange was Anna. It wasn't hard to picture her in mud and trees and
other uncivilized accoutrements. He'd never seen her anywhere else and wondered
if he'd be disappointed should she ever turn up in Chicago in pantyhose, pumps
and perfume; if the Calamity Jane aspect of the woman piqued a palate that had
become slightly jaded. Frederick had
never been handsome enough to be vamped by cheerleaders, but he was single,
straight and employed. It got him enough offers that he sat home nights by
choice, not necessity. Danny, the monkeys and Tom Brokaw: not a bad life if one
sent out for pizza. He tried to
picture Anna in his home and failed. Oddly, it disappointed him. He desisted
and turned his attention to the background checks. The pages were run together
on perforated computer paper. Stanton tore them neatly into sheets. Maybe the
next generation wouldn't require the familiar comfort of rectangular white
pages, read left to right, top to bottom, but Frederick found it helped organize
his thoughts. LeFleur, John
Alvin, forty-five, white, male, five-foot-eleven, one hundred sixty pounds,
brown hair, blue eyes. No wants. No warrants. Criminal history: felony draft
evasion, 1971. Charges dropped. Possession for sale of Quaaludes in 1972. Two
years' probation. Timmy had
tapped into personnel records and Frederick skimmed LeFleur's employment
history: high school education, independent contractor, carpenter, bartender.
Before signing on with the Bureau of Land Management it didn't look as if the
man had ever held a job for longer than eighteen months running. Firefighting
was the one constant: summer '81, '82 and '83 with the Forest Service in
Colorado; '86, '87 and '89 on the Angeles in California; '91 and '93 with the
National Park Service at Rocky Mountains. Since 1993 he'd been a permanent
resource management technician with the BLM out of Farmington, New Mexico. A
GS-5, Frederick noted. No money in that. If the man's tastes ran to anything
grander than beans and rice he needed the fires to make ends meet. Nims, Leonard
Lynn, forty-three, white, male, five-foot-nine, one hundred fifty-eight pounds,
gray hair, blue eyes. No wants. No warrants. No criminal history. Served in
Vietnam in '71 and '72. Honorable discharge. Graduated with an AA in Forestry
from Lassen Junior College in 1977. Worked for the Bureau of Land Management in
Susanville, California, from '79 to '90. A GS-9. Stanton pulled
the map across his knees and looked up Susanville. On the edge of the desert
sixty or seventy miles south of Lassen Volcanic National Park was a small town
of that name. Lots of public lands surrounding it. Either a logging or mining
town, Stanton guessed. Since '93 Nims
had worked on oil and gas leases for the BLM in Farmington, New Mexico. A
GS-7's pay grade. There was a
story there. Frederick could smell it. Three years with no employment history,
then another job halfway across the country at a lower pay scale. It could be
as simple as moving home to care for an aging parent or a love affair that tore
up roots. But something. Nims was the
man with the knife in his ribs, Frederick reminded himself, and he reread the
file to cement it in memory. Unless Nims had been killed by a psychotic,
something he had seen, done, said, been or tried for had gotten him killed. If
the reason wasn't too obscure or too bizarre, Frederick would probably find it.
Professionally, he only struck out about fourteen percent of the time. In
baseball he'd have been a star. In law enforcement he was just a good cop,
better than most, not as good as some. But I'm not
above asking for help, he thought with a smile that was only a little bit
bitter. That's part of my charm. Pepperdine,
Hugh Clarence. Age twenty-three, white, male, six feet, two hundred fourteen
pounds. No wants. No warrants. No criminal history. Graduated cum laude from
New York University with a degree in Environmental Studies. New-hire law
enforcement ranger out of Aztec National Monument near Farmington, New Mexico. Frederick had
been to Aztec sightseeing after the Mesa Verde assignment. An Indian ruin and a
visitors' center on a small plot of land constituted the whole of it.
Delightful as it was to visit, he didn't imagine Hugh got much hands-on law
enforcement experience. Chipmunks in the garbage would constitute a crime wave
at the sleepy little ruin. Unless there was something that didn't show up on
his records, Pepperdine would probably be of little help to Anna. Short, Jennifer
Katherine. Stanton started to move her to the bottom of the pile because he
knew and liked her. Law officers had an aversion to believing someone they
thought well of could commit murder, wanting to believe that somewhere in their
heart of hearts they would know a murderer when they met one. Gut
instinct, training, intuition, insight—something would tip them off. Sometimes it
did. Sometimes it didn't. In a former incarnation—one he was none too proud
of—Frederick had invited a murderer to Thanksgiving dinner with his kids. Since
then he'd learned to bake the turkey himself. Shoving his reading
glasses closer to the tip of his nose, he studied Short's file. No wants. No
warrants. No criminal history. Graduated from Memphis State in accounting,
1985. From '85 to '94 she worked as a computer programmer for a local firm.
Summer of '94, having completed a one-semester course in law enforcement at
Memphis State, she was hired on as a seasonal law enforcement ranger at Mesa
Verde. Ran away with
the Park Circus, Frederick thought, and envied her slightly. Should wild urges
knock on his door, child support, alimony and tuition would see to it he sent
them packing. Black Elk,
Howard Lawrence. Thirty-one, Native American, male, six-foot-one, two hundred
ten pounds. No wants. No warrants. Criminal history: two driving under the
influences and one drunk and disorderly in 1986. Nothing since. Undergraduate
degree in archaeology from the University of New Mexico in 1989, master's
degree in history from the same institution in 1991. Black Elk had worked in
cultural resources for the Bureau of Land Management in Dove Creek, Colorado,
until the present time. Hayhurst,
Joseph Charles. Thirty-three, Native American, male, five-foot-seven, one
hundred fifty-two pounds. Black hair and eyes. No wants. No warrants. No
criminal history. Bachelor of Arts from San Francisco State in Renaissance art
history. Employment record: 1988—1990, high school art teacher in Los Gatos,
California. Summers with the NPS in Yosemite. 1990 to the present, Interpreter,
GS-7, for the National Park Service at El Malpais in New Mexico. Gonzales,
Lawrence David, Hispanic, male, twenty-two, five-foot-nine, one hundred sixty
pounds, black hair, brown eyes, high school graduate, A.D. Durango. Frederick
frowned in annoyance, then looked to the bottom of the page. Timmy, bless his
thorough and ambitious little heart, had penned in an explanation. An A.D. was
a direct hire, not through any agency, that was often used when fires were bad
and extra personnel were called for. Wants and
warrants. Frederick started out of the lethargy into which the sound of engines
and the small print of strangers' lives had lulled him. Gonzales was wanted in
Washoe County, Nevada, for aggravated assault, assault on a federal officer and
grand theft auto. According to the map, Reno was in Washoe County. Gonzales
might be dangerously nervous finding himself so close to home. Frederick set
the Gonzales file aside. Before he landed, he'd have Spinks do some more
checking. That in mind, he eyed the flat plastic AT&T phone outlet pressed
into the seat back in front of him. He'd never used one, never seen anyone else
use one. He hoped he wouldn't make a fool of himself when the time came. Lindstrom,
Stephen Marshal. White, male, twenty-seven, six-foot-two, one hundred
eighty-seven pounds. Criminal history: arrested 1989 for obstructing
traffic, fined and put on six months' probation. BS in biology from Nevada
State University, ski instructor at Tahoe winters 1989 to 1993, wilderness
guide for Outward Bound summers '89 to '93. 1993 to the present dispatcher for
the U.S. Forest Service out of Reno, Nevada. The two other
reports were slim. Neil Page wasn't on anybody's computer that Tim could find.
He'd been hired on locally. He had no record. The woman, Paula Mary Boggins,
had two previous arrests but since they'd been when she was a juvenile, the
records were sealed. Frederick
leaned his head back against the seat and closed his eyes, collecting his
thoughts. Newly acquired information was shuffled through his synapses like
cards through the hands of a contract bridge player. Categories and cross
references fell into place: LeFleur, Nims, Gonzales, Pepperdine, Short, Black
Elk and Hayhurst were from the Four Corners area. Close enough they could have
had contact before the fire. Lindstrom,
Nims, Gonzales, Hayhurst, Boggins and Page, and possibly Short because of her
brother, had a connection to northern California. Nims, Gonzales,
Short and Hayhurst fell into both geographical categories. In a field where
transience was a way of life—and many seasonals and firefighters led a nomadic existence—this
was not in itself suspicious. It was just more information and Stanton filed
it. There were two
questions about most murders: why was the victim killed and why was he killed
when he was killed? Anna might have some thoughts on that. Murder was such
a good icebreaker. He opened his
eyes. Anna's file, the only one left, was on his knee. Had his legs been six
inches shorter, he could have used his tray-table as a desk. With the new
"efficient" seating in the 727s, he couldn't fold it all the way down
without straddling the plastic tray. Pigeon, Anna
Louise, forty, white, female, five-foot-four, one hundred eighteen pounds,
brown hair, hazel eyes. Frederick remembered her hair as more red than brown
and, at a guess, would have said her eyes were blue. So much for the
credibility of eyewitnesses. No wants. No warrants. No criminal history. He was
relieved and laughed at himself, unsure of what he had expected. A Bachelor of
Arts in communications from the University of California. Seven years with the
National Park Service in Texas, Michigan and now Mesa Verde in southern
Colorado. That was it: no secrets, no insights. Closing his eyes again,
Stan-ton rested his hands on her file. He was a
father, a government bureaucrat—albeit one with a tad of glamour still attached
to his profession. He had a girlfriend of sorts—a woman he saw occasionally who
would probably consider herself a girlfriend. Jetting halfway
across a sleeping continent to save a damsel in distress struck him as
impulsive and not a little bit ridiculous. Particularly a damsel who may or may
not wish to be rescued by him and who would undoubtedly have the ill grace to
rescue herself before he could arrive triumphantly on the scene, spurs
jingling, armor flashing and whatever else men were required to jingle and
flash in these cynical times. Still he wasn't
sorry he'd started the quest. Opportunities to be a Fool for Love didn't come
along every day. Chapter Ten ANNA'S FISTS WERE clenched on the front of Lindstrom's brush jacket
and his were clamped around her neck, their hard hats jammed together like
mating turtles. Darkness was
absolute and breath hard to come by. Soot and ash, galvanized by the rising
winds, bonded with the air till it seemed a solid thing. Anna blessed LeFleur
for the loan of the goggles and hoped the man wasn't suffering too badly in
their absence. The kerchief she'd tied over the lower half of her face was so
impregnated with dirt it served more to slow particles than filter them out. The giant had
gone mad. Footsteps melded into a cacophony of cracks and falls like thunder.
The ground shook as ruined snags fell before the onslaught of wind. A dead
forest, black monoliths burned by the hundreds and thousands and hundreds of
thousands, many as tall as telephone poles, tons of charred wood and ash and
cinder, was toppling. Every time the pounding came near, Anna cringed, though
she knew she would never hear the one that crushed her. A crash came so
close it shook her insides. Chunks thrown from a shattered snag rained down in
a visible shower of sparks striking holes in the night. For an instant Anna
thought her eyes were playing tricks until points of fire pierced her cheek. Ponderosas that
had thrived on the flat-topped ridge, winter snows providing ample moisture and
nothing between them and the sky, were being taken down. Orange fireflies swept
by on the winds, battered against the metal. Pieces of burned debris, some
large enough to rattle the darkness with their passage, exploded into the storm
as the giants were felled. A convulsive
clutch cracked her hard hat against Lindstrom's as he jerked her to him. They
were cuddled as close against the engine block of the truck as the laws of
physics would allow, their legs pulled in, wrapped together. Anna's feet and
butt were so cold they hurt and her back ached from being crimped into a bow.
Muscles in her calves had begun cramping but she was afraid to stretch her
legs. Anything she stuck out was liable to get squashed. "It's the
end of the fucking world," Lindstrom hollered in her ear. "We've got
to get under this truck." Again the
ground shook. Anna pushed her face into the front of Lindstrom's jacket.
"You first," she said. "I may be
too big. You go. You're little and scrawny. I'll get as much of me under as
will fit. Go." Boggins's truck
rested on metal rims, the rubber of the tires lying in still-smoldering heaps.
Clearance between the undercarriage and the ground felt like eight or nine
inches—no more. Anna doubted she could squeeze beneath. A wrenching
blow from an airborne branch striking her right shoulder convinced her to try. She threw
herself back, shoulders on the ground, and tried to scoot along the edge of the
truck's shell. Cramped so long in one position, her legs refused to work. Her
feet felt as unresponsive and heavy as wooden blocks. Lindstrom was shoving
against whatever parts of her anatomy he could lay hands on in the dark, trying
to stuff her beneath the chassis. Pushing and
floundering brought pins and needles to her numbed limbs and, whining like a
lost kitten, she began to thrash through the ashes. Running had
always made her more afraid. Looking in closets and under beds for the bogeyman
seemed to make it almost a surety that, one day, he would be there. Fear, kept
at bay from pride or necessity, ripped through her as she squirmed under the
frame. Oblivious of the buttons on her jacket catching and bits of flesh
snagged away by sharp edges of metal, Anna writhed in a frenzy of terror. Then she was
under. The fit was tight. Something metal and round pushed down on her chest.
Darkness weighed heavily, even the small frightening relief of sparks was
denied her eyes. An old horror of small enclosed spaces crushed the air from
her lungs. A short segment of imagination's videotape played through her mind:
her bloodied fingers clawing at a coffin lid. It was right
out of a horror movie about premature burial she'd seen as a kid. Her mother
had told her it would give her nightmares. Absurdity watered down panic and she
willed herself to lie still and breathe deeply. Scrabbling at
her left elbow announced Lindstrom's attempt to join her and Anna was ashamed.
She'd forgotten Stephen utterly. In her privately constructed hell she would
have left him to die had that been the option. Once more she'd gotten lucky: human
frailty shown, no damage done. With the
crippling darkness and noise, it took her a moment to grasp what Stephen was
doing: digging, burrowing under. She almost laughed at the obviousness of it
and began pushing ash and duff, protected from the fire by the body of the
vehicle, away from her. Lying on her back she felt as helpless as an upended
beetle, but it wasn't long before enough of a trench had been excavated that
Stephen wormed his way in beside her. A jarring crash
robbed her of any voiced welcome. She felt his hand close over hers and they
lay together like frightened children as the remnants of a tree hailed down
around the truck. Beneath the
undercarriage the air was more breathable. Stretched flat, muscles uncramped,
blood began to flow and some of the awful cold went out of Anna's bones.
Conversation was impossible and she squeezed Lindstrom's hand to let him know
how glad she was to have his company. Not much time passed before she felt his
fingers relax, go limp. He was asleep or dead. Either way there was nothing she
could do about it. Exhaustion weighed down her limbs, her eyelids and the soft
stuff of her brain, but sleep would not come. The adrenaline cocktail mixed in
her blood held onto the edge of consciousness even as the body fought for rest. An idle mind is
the Devil's playground, Anna thought as she sensed renewed cavorting of demon
fear. To keep evil at bay, she tried to fill her skull with nontoxic thoughts:
Piedmont, her pumpkin-colored tiger cat; Molly, her sister in New York;
Frederick. Frederick brought with him the baggage of her husband, Zachary,
nearly eight years dead, and derailed that train. For a while she tried
clothes, food, sex, raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens, but they all
fell away and claustrophobia returned. Finally she
latched onto murder. Not a pleasant subject, but one sufficiently captivating
to hold her attention. And, since the death wasn't her own, heartening in its
own way. Anna was surprised at how little thought she had given Nims's slaying
and at long last understood how soldiers emotionally survived a war. Human
comprehension was finite. For each thing added, something had to be taken away.
Sometimes that something was grief, loss or fear, its place filled by the need
to take the next step, hurdle the next fence. Time passed,
shock was worn away with busyness. Leonard Nims's death was just a puzzle as
devoid of life as the corpse in the ravine. It provided the little gray cells
with something to do other than conjure horrors with which to annoy her adrenal
glands. Why should
anyone want to kill Leonard Nims? Without even reaching, Anna could think of
half a dozen reasons. If this had been the Orient Express and Nims the body
with the myriad wounds, the mystery would have been a lot simpler. Finding the
person who didn't want to off him would have been easier than sorting
through those with good reason in hopes of finding the one who was willing to
walk through fire to accomplish the task. Still, to crowd
out the Devil, Anna listed motives. LeFleur had fought with Len. Over what, she
wasn't sure, hut John had gotten a fat lip out of the deal. Nims had come in
with scratches. At the time Anna'd thought they'd come from a branch. In
retrospect, coupled with his surly manner, they may have been inflicted in some
altercation, maybe over a woman. He had expressed his hatred of women at the
time, at least those not "in their place." That was reason enough for
Anna to kill him. Maybe it was good enough for Jennifer as well. Paula Boggins
would probably find it sexy. Stephen, John,
Jennifer—any one of them might hold Hamlin's death against Nims. Anna doubted
the rest of the San Juans knew yet that Nims had dropped the boy's stretcher
and run. We all dropped
it and ran, she reminded herself. Hamlin's death was shared by the five of
them. Unless Len had caused the accident that broke Newt's leg. Who would have
known about that before the fire blew up? Black Elk. He
was a squad leader, LeFleur had called him down the line to help. If Anna had
been able to pick up on where the blame was being laid, Howard was sure to. He
was better versed in crew politics than she. Black Elk could have told Joseph
Hayhurst; there would have been time before the firestorm. Guilt could
move mountains, unhinge psyches. She, Short, Lindstrom and LeFleur must each in
some way feel responsible for Hamlin's death. Might the need to shift
blame—push a perhaps intolerable weight off onto another—be enough to justify
murder in someone's mind? Lindstrom could be unforgiving of those who failed to
measure up to his standards. Jennifer had been known to carry a grudge. Anna made a
mental note to see if anyone had been special friends with Newt Hamlin. That vein mined
out, she moved on to physical evidence. As an investigator, she'd pretty much
bollixed that. The crime scene had been so thoroughly contaminated, any good
defense lawyer could probably get a notarized confession found pinned to the
corpse with the murder weapon suppressed. I've had a lot
on my mind, she excused herself, and tried to bring the scene into focus. The
darkness was so unrelenting she wasn't sure if her eyes were open or closed and
she couldn't move her hand to her face to find out. Don't think
about that, she cautioned as panic reared its ugly head. She squeezed her lids
shut on the off chance they weren't. She was
lamentably bad about remembering names and faces but she was good with scenery.
Nims's murder scene fell into this category. Background came into focus first:
low hanging clouds, smoke, ragged black fingers poking at the sky, a manzanita
bush burned so fast and hot the perfect shapes of the leaves were still
embossed on the ash. The creek bank where a bit had fallen away, the simple
brown of earth looking alive and colorful in the gray landscape. Around the shelter
ash smoothed by the wind, no tracks but hers, LeFleur's and Lindstrom's. Sand.
The silver shelter so carefully erect and tidy. Anna stopped
the film there. The shelter was
textbook perfect, like the drawings of how a shelter should be deployed. She
remembered noting that at the time, being bothered. But events rushed on and
she'd not had time to analyze why. Nothing was textbook perfect. Though she'd
not had the opportunity to view her shelter from the outside, she expected it
was crushed and rumpled, not creased neatly along its little pup-tent spine,
corners all aligned. She'd seen Black Elk in his shelter. He looked like a
baked potato somebody had been using for a soccer ball. Ergo, whoever
killed Nims had neatly put the shelter up around the corpse after the
firestorm. Had it been earlier, the classic lines would have been mashed by the
elements. The murderer knifed Nims during the firestorm and exited the shelter
after the firestorm. A very mortal
human thing to do, Anna was relieved to note. Visions of a demonic creature of
flame and smoke darting about with a knife in its paws during the blowup were
exorcised. Considered in the light of reality, a commodity Anna felt had been
sorely compromised by nature over the past hours, the murderer had therefore to
enter the tent before the burn, remain inside with Nims, murder him, wait out
the storm with the corpse, then exit and reconstruct the tent. Cozy. Why would Nims
let anyone in his tiny shelter? He wouldn't, not even if their life depended on
it. He'd let them die as he had let Hamlin die. As they had all
let Hamlin die. Give it a rest,
Anna told herself sharply. Physical
evidence. Screwing her thoughts down tightly against stray emotions, she
contemplated blood: good, tangible, necessary blood. With a knifing there was
often an impressive amount of the stuff. She'd seen it on Nims and where else?
Page: Neil Page's shirtfront. He'd claimed nosebleed. Worth looking into. Jennifer. Her
left glove had been bloodied. She said she'd cut her hand. Something in Anna
was loath to consider Jennifer a suspect and she had to remind herself murder
was an equal opportunity employer. Jennifer was there when Len dumped Hamlin. Jennifer
had a brother just killed by fire. Under duress could she have slipped a mental
cog and plunged a knife between Nims's ribs? Literally if
not metaphorically the woman had blood on her hands. Worth looking into. Anna switched
on the mental video again and watched herself lift the edge of the shelter:
Nims's arm, the gloved hands; LeFleur shaking the tent like a housewife with a
dusty rug; Nims's body, tangled in the straps, tumbling into view. Anna stopped
the action there and tried to concentrate on the picture. At a crime
scene in a normal place she would have had at least the rudimentary
investigative tools at her disposal. A camera, for one. There were a number of
reasons to photograph a crime scene, not the least of which was that often,
after the dust had cleared and one viewed the event through the perspective of
the camera lens, details not noticed at the time became apparent. Holding the
image behind her eyes, Anna tried to do that now. Nims had been poured out of
the shelter on his side, left hand above his head, the right palm up near his
face. Anna tried to see if there was any expression but the soot that blackened
all their faces masked his as well. All she could recall was the startling
opalescence of his eyes. She tried to
see the entirety of the body: the right hand, the left—glove caked with
blood—hard hat knocked askew, yellow shirt, drab trousers, blood, brown and
crumbly on his back and left side beneath his arm. The picture
wavered, disintegrating under so much scrutiny. There was
something wrong but Anna wasn't seeing it. Tomorrow—or today, she had lost all
sense of time—she would make a proper study of the scene. At the moment the
adrenaline had been reabsorbed and her body was claiming its right to rest. She
drifted into sleep so deep and hard even dreams were shut out. Chapter Eleven ANNA WOKE FROM a nightmare and tried to sit up. Metal held her
flat. Dream became reality. She was suffocating, life was being crushed out of
her. Desperately, she began fighting for space and air. "You're
okay. You're okay. You're under a truck. I'm here. God damn it, Anna, cut it
out!" Stephen
Lindstrom tweaked her ear hard and she began to put two and two together. The
sum was not much more comforting than the nightmare had been. But there was
light at long last and where there was light there was hope. Faint gray
pushed in around the sides of the truck's under-carriage but there was nothing
to see: no stumps or ash, burned rubber; nothing but blank even-toned
gray-white with light behind it. "Snow?"
she croaked through dry lips. "Not much.
I poked my fingers out. Maybe six inches or so. It kept us snug as the
proverbial rug bugs." Anna realized
she wasn't terribly cold. The earth and the metal chassis had retained some
heat from the fire. Snow had held it close overnight. "Probably the only
reason we woke up at all," she said. Freezing to death in a fire would
have been just the touch of irony the gods delighted in. "I've got
to get out of here." Long hours—even those free from consciousness—of
suppressing the claustrophobia were over. Now that she could escape, it became
imperative that she do so. Working through the shooting pains in her hips and
shoulders, she forced the joints through their first movement in God knew how
long, crabbing her way from under the truck. Snow broke
free, fell in clumps down the collar of her brush jacket, jammed up under the
edge of her gloves. The bite of cold brought Black Elk and Boggins to mind.
Their burns would weep, robbing their bodies of fluid, of heat, opening the
door to shock and hypothermia. Nothing she
could do about it at the moment. She took a
mouthful of snow and held it on her tongue, letting the melt wet her parched
throat and lips. Shuffling her feet and swinging her arms to pump life back
into them, she watched Lindstrom crawl painfully from beneath the truck, his
left glove clutched in his bare hand. Elbows out, body flattened, he put her in
mind of a giant insect in a Jules Verne novel, something trapped in lava,
released by the fires. Oddly, it made
her nervous and she looked away. The world was
much changed from when they'd gone under the truck. Like Rip Van Winkle, it
seemed as if she must have slept for a hundred years. What had been a world of
black was now so white it was hard to distinguish between hill and hollow. A
white sky, sifting fine flakes of snow through utterly still air, pressed down
on snow-shrouded ground. Here and there the black skeletal arm of a tree thrust
up, often capped with a rakish point of snow. Tree trunks, ten, twenty, a
hundred feet long, were scattered like jackstraws, crisscrossing each other in
ragged confusion. Nowhere was
there any color; not a scrap of green or yellow or brown or blue. Even the
red-orange of stray embers was quenched, replaced by steam as colorless as
everything else. What had once been a living forest, a kaleidoscope of life and
color, now resembled a Chinese brush painting. Black ink on white rice paper;
starkly beautiful but without welcome. Lindstrom
pushed himself to his hands and knees and Anna grabbed an arm to help him to
his feet. "Did we die?" he asked, yanking his glove on with jerky
irritated movements. "I'm pretty sure we did. God, but I feel hung over.
What a bender we must have been on." He began to imitate Anna's shuffling
dance, moving with the clumsy inexperience of a new-made Frankenstein's
monster. "Not dead," he said after a moment. "Got to pee. Ghosts
moan and rattle chains but I've never heard of one taking a piss. My, but this is
good news." Anna obligingly
turned her back. It was the one instance in life where she credited Freud's
much-touted theory of penis envy. With the snow and the cold she didn't relish
the dropping of drawers that was becoming more necessary with each passing
minute. "Bet you
wish you had a handy-dandy picnic device," Stephen said. Anna heard the
workings of a zipper and turned back. "My wish list is longer than Santa's
at the moment. A bath, breakfast, pancakes, coffee—" "Cut that
out." "Right."
Anna pulled the radio from her belt and turned it on. Hand-helds worked on
clamshell batteries. They weren't meant to run indefinitely. When it came down
to it, she could cannibalize the batteries from her headlamp but she doubted
they had much more juice in them than those in the radio. Static pulsed
as she monkeyed with the volume and the squelch. "Damn." "Losing
it?" She nodded and
placed a call to Base. Nothing came back but static. "What time is
it?" she asked. "Just
before six." "They're
up. We'll try again when the weather lifts or maybe with another radio." "Anna."
Her radio crackled the name in LeFleur's voice. "We're
still alive," she told the crew boss. "Howard? Paula?" "Everybody
made it down here. Lawrence and Joseph kept the home fires burning. They're
beat." Anna could hear the pride in his voice. "I heard your call to
Base. Any response?" "Not
yet." "Sounds
like your battery is going. Save it when you can. What kind of shape are you
two in?" Anna looked to
Lindstrom and he shrugged. "Good. We're in good shape." "Could you
check on Newt? It's a long shot, but if..." "I'd
forgotten all about Newt," Stephen said in a stricken whisper. So had Anna. "Will
do," she replied. If Hamlin had survived the fire only to die of exposure
because of their neglect it would be unconscionable. There were enough bad
dreams to go around as it was. HAMLIN WASN'T ONLY merely dead, but, as Anna
couldn't help parroting Munchkinlike in her mind, really most sincerely dead. They brushed
off enough of the snow to determine that the lump beneath was indeed a human
form. During the firestorm his shelter had blown off. The body was burned till
it was unrecognizable. Fire had robbed
the corpse of all the trappings of life: hair and flesh and eyes. There was no
odor but the clean, slightly acrid scent of dust and Anna didn't find the body
as upsetting as she'd feared she might. In fact, she was strangely untouched by
it personally, feeling rather a generic sadness for those left living who had
loved the boy. Mostly, as she
and Lindstrom slogged back up through the snow, climbing over downed snags
heaped together like pickup sticks, Anna's strongest feeling was of hunger. Life
asserting its dominion. After a grilled cheese, fries and a vanilla shake she
would be better fortified to contemplate the great beyond. From the ridge
she radioed John and told him the news. It was expected. "Thanks" was
all he said, and: "Had to make sure. Try Base again," he told her.
"Meanwhile, I'll get another radio up to you. Pepperdine needs airing off
anyway." Anna called
Incident Base again. The Motorola bleated static and she was surprised to hear
Gene Burwell's voice rasp back. His words were
hard to understand and harder still to accept. Winds had felled snags across
the logging road. How many miles he didn't know, but estimated the burn had
covered at least four. The ground rescue unit had been recalled. Crews were
already clearing away the deadfall but trees had come down by the hundreds.
Weighted by six inches of new wet snow, more were falling all the time.
Conditions were hazardous and the going slow. A helicopter was on standby. As
soon as there was a break in the weather it would be dispatched. Till then the
crews would keep on working but rescue by road wouldn't be that day. Possibly
the next. Disappointment,
as strong and petulant as that of a child, swelled in Anna's chest and she had
to keep her mouth shut to avoid saying something snippy. "The
weather will lift before then," Burwell promised. "Does he
think he's Willard Fucking Scott?" Lindstrom hissed. Stephen's pique
helped Anna rise above her own. "We're fairly stable up here,
considering," she shouted into the radio as if volume could cut through
the interference. "Hungry mostly." "Stand
by." A long silence
followed and Anna felt herself irrationally wishing for a reprieve. "Maybe the
cavalry arrived," Stephen said hopefully, and Anna laughed. "My
thoughts exactly. Not bloody likely. The cavalry's out clearing deadfall." "Spoilsport." The radio came
to life again in a series of squawks and hisses. "Anna, this is Frederick,
Frederick Stanton of the FBI." If Anna had
believed in prayer and believed they got answered she would have had to admit
that at least this once the answer had been "yes." A hundred
questions came to mind. The need to bawl and babble like a child threatened to
overwhelm. Frederick Stanton. Anna's throat
closed and her eyes filled with tears. When she'd been
in second grade, she'd broken her leg in a sledding accident at school. Brave
and jaunty, she'd allowed herself to be towed in from the playground and
carried to Mr. White's big oak desk. Then, when her mother arrived, she'd
dissolved in tears. Because she could afford to. "Ten-four,"
she said idiotically. "Are you
clear to copy?" "Yes,"
Anna said, wanting his voice to go on. By the time it
dawned on her that "Are you clear to copy?" was NPS code for "Is
the bad guy standing there ready to clobber you the moment his cover is
blown?" the damage had been done. Chapter Twelve STANTON FINISHED RELAYING the criminal histories from Timmy Spinks's
background checks. "Anything more to transmit?" Anna asked politely.
Receiving a negative, she made arrangements to call in every three hours and
turned off her radio to preserve what was left of the battery. Depression
settled over her in a palpable cloud, filling her lungs as surely as the smoke
had. Safety, home, was held only by a tenuous channel forged through unstable
air by a wave it took faith to believe existed. Withdrawal, Anna thought: the
high, the crash. Hope and cocaine. Any comfort
she'd gotten from the first strains of Frederick Stanton's voice was blasted
away. Suddenly, irrationally, she was angry at the man. Trundling through the
friendly skies with hot and cold running stewardi, warm dry clothes and food,
to broadcast criminal histories up to her private patch of purgatory. Trapped on a
ridge in the Cascades, one did not wish to know one's fellows that well. Untold
secrets were the safest. Anna would keep her eyes open, learn what she could.
None but a lunatic, armed with only a Swiss Army knife, her backup a grieving
seasonal and a pudgy neophyte, would go hammer and tongs after a murderer. Knowing would be
dangerous. Not knowing
would be worse. Stephen was
standing close, shoulders hunched, his hands deep in his pockets, looking as
forlorn as Anna was feeling. "I really, truly, deeply, honestly want to
get the fuck out of here," he said morosely. "I promised God I'd
never put my peas on my brother's plate and tell Mom I'd eaten mine if He'd
just get me an Egg McMuffin this one time." Anna laughed.
"Obstructing traffic? I can't remember if that's a venial or a mortal sin.
We're probably all being punished for your transgressions." "He didn't
mention indecent exposure, did he?" Anna shook her
head. "They must
have dropped that charge." "I wish
I'd seen the booking photos." For a moment
they stood staring at their feet. Soot-covered boots had trampled the snow into
a gritty pack. Anna's toes were growing cold and the heat she'd generated on
the expedition to find Hamlin had turned to a fine sheen of sweat rapidly
chilling her skin. Without food it would become increasingly difficult to stay
warm. A furnace had to have fuel to burn. "Damn
it." She kicked a grubby clod of snow. "Fuck,"
Lindstrom said, and kicked it a second time. "Validating your
feelings." Anna nodded
absently. "Things
are looking pretty grim for our intrepid band of adventurers, are they
not?" "Fair to
middlin' grim," Anna agreed. "It sounds like we may be stuck here at
least another twenty-four hours, maybe more." "Unless
I'm given absolution for obstructing." "And
flaunting. So long as the snow lasts water is not a problem. No food, fear,
cold, Dr. Death sleazing around in everybody's mind." "Exposure,"
Lindstrom said. "Shock." "Pudding,
Barnaby, pudding!" Lindstrom
looked alarmed, then concerned as he studied Anna for incipient signs of
insanity. It annoyed her.
"The Matchmaker," she snapped. "Hello Dolly. 'Pudding'
was the code word agreed upon so the boy from Yonkers would know when he was
having a bona fide adventure. This is an adventure." "What
tipped you off?" "Extreme
discomfort." Anna shook free of self-pity, a physical act marked by a shrug
and a shudder. "We're going to be fine. We focus on keeping everybody
warm, hydrated and calm. That's all we've got to do." "I've got
a barn! We could turn it into a burn ward!" Lindstrom said
in such a wonderful imitation of Andy Hardy Anna felt an uncharacteristic surge
of optimism. "Hey! Hey,
you guys! I've been trying to reach you on the radio for five minutes."
Hugh Pepperdine lumbered through the snow, his face red and gleaming with
sweat. On his back was his yellow pack. "What do you bet he's
got food in it?" Lindstrom said. "Failing
that we could always eat him," Anna replied. Gasping for
air, Pepperdine came up beside them. "You gotta monitor your radio."
He cocked a finger pistol-like at Anna. "You ought to know that." Hugh was having
way too much fun handing out advice and it crossed Anna's mind to snub him but
she didn't. She was too hungry, too tired and too cranky. A snub might set off
a chain reaction she'd regret. "Saving batteries," she said
pleasantly. Hugh pulled a
radio from the pocket of his brush jacket. "Confiscated this from Howard.
He's not law enforcement. I heard Base," he puffed. "I was about
halfway up the hill. You should have waited till I got here. Didn't you hear
him ask if you were clear to copy?" Pepperdine elaborately avoided looking
at Lindstrom. This was secret cop stuff. Anna was
irritated on two counts: one, he was right, and two, he was Pepperdine.
"What makes you think I'd've been clear to copy with you listening?" Hugh ignored
that. "What are we going to do about Gonzales? I've had my eye on him. I
knew something was hinky. Assault on a federal officer. I go to the mat for my
people." Hot air pumped
Pepperdine's ego with each word. He literally puffed up, the chest going out,
the belly in. "Nothing,"
Anna said flatly. She waited a moment for that to soak in. When Pepperdine
opened his mouth to argue, she said again: "Nothing. We are not going to
do anything. We are going to stay warm and dry and calm. We will be polite and
helpful and when we get out of here Lawrence Gonzales will be the county
sheriff's problem." Hugh looked
appalled. "He assaults a federal officer, murders Len and we're supposed
to look the other way. That's pretty shoddy police work, Anna. Gonzales could
just walk out of here anytime." "That's
right. And we don't know if he had anything to do with Nims." Anna was
trying to drill some kind of sense into Hugh Pepperdine but had the feeling she
was making no headway. Armed with a little information against his fellows and
a little authority from the badge at home on his dresser, Pepperdine was
learning that power corrupts. "I think
we ought to arrest the dude." Dude. Anna
doubted Hugh had ever used the word before in his life. He seemed fairly
pleased with the effect until Lindstrom echoed "Dooo-oowd" in
diphthong-laden valley speak. "Arrest
him with what?" Anna asked reasonably. "And do what with him? Tie him
to a snag with our belts? Lawrence may not want to be arrested. Have you got
some sort of black-belt, kung-fu training I don't know about? We've been
working, sleeping and eating with the guy for two weeks. Nobody seems to have
suffered overmuch." "Nims,"
Pepperdine said. "We don't
know that. Leave sleeping dogs lie. And give Howard his radio back." Pepperdine
hugged the Motorola protectively against his chest. "Howard's not law
enforcement. It's just you and me." "Jennifer's
law enforcement," Lindstrom pointed out. "She
hasn't been to FLETC," Hugh snapped. FLETC was the
Federal Law Enforcement Training Center in Georgia where all permanent law enforcement
rangers with the National Park Service went for training. Pepperdine was so
fresh from its hallowed halls he was going to be a major pain in the ass. Anna
suppressed a sigh. "We'll
work things out," she said. "You want a radio? Take mine." Forgetting his
trek up the hill had been to replace the radio with the dying battery, he
snatched it eagerly, as if it was somehow invested with special authority.
Immediately he switched it on and stowed it in his pocket. Anna clicked off the
one she'd traded for, saving the battery. When the three
of them reached the wash, Anna told Stephen and Hugh to inform the others of
the rescue efforts, cautioned Hugh to keep his mouth shut about the background
checks and excused herself to do "girl things." She wanted another
look at the body. ANNA ROCKED BACK on
her heels and sat quietly in the snow. Flakes, fine as silt, continued to drift
from the air, more as if they were formed from the matrix of fog than falling
from a distant cloud. Light was evenly spread, air and snow uniformly glowing.
There were no shadows. The shelter
they'd used to cover Leonard Nims's body had been disturbed, the snow shaken
off when the aluminum cloth had been peeled back. Someone had been messing with
the corpse. Anna surmised
someone rather than something not because all animals had perished in the
fire—many would have survived—but because there were heavy, human, fire-booted
tracks. They neatly skirted a car-sized boulder in the stream bed as if this
obvious sidetrack could obscure their origin. The trail came from the bivouac,
stomped around the body and returned the way it had come. Something had
been removed or something added to the scene: incriminating evidence taken or
misleading evidence planted. Cop-thinking, Anna realized. The obvious was more
human and mundane: curiosity. Somebody just wanting to see the dead guy. Cheap
thrills. The fact that she'd said the corpse was not to be visited
notwithstanding. Who was she? Some lady EMT with the word "Security"
typed in after her name on her red-dog, the term used to describe the pink
paper firefighters' time was recorded on. Out here the trappings of rank were
stripped away. Nature was a great equalizer. By the look of
the drift in the tracks, they were several hours old. More than that Anna
couldn't tell. Everyone but Paula wore fire boots. The tracks looked too big to
be Jennifer's but Anna wouldn't even swear to that. Having learned
all she could from the outside, Anna moved to unveil the body. Nims had been
dead sixteen to eighteen hours. With rigor mortis and the cold, his body was
stiff as a board. Where it wasn't black, the skin was a dirty gray. Len's right
cheek was dark and mottled. Blood, no longer moved by his heart, had settled in
postmortem lividity. The blue eyes were still open hut the orbs had begun to
dry and they no longer had that startling brightness. Anna tried to close the
lids with a gentle sweep of her hand the way she'd seen it done in a thousand
movies but they wouldn't stay down. She found herself pressing too hard, felt
tissue give beneath her fingers and made herself stop. With the cold,
the hunger, the isolation, a scary edge was being neared. That place where
nightmares and reality become indistinguishable. They were all somewhere in the
neighborhood of that chasm. Some closer than others. Anna rocked back on her
haunches, made herself look away from the body and let the peaceful desolation
of the landscape calm her febrile mind. There were
times it was not good to be too much alone, she thought, and wished she'd made
Stephen come with her. At length her
brain settled and she pushed on. The footprints
were most plentiful behind Nims's right shoulder and slightly to the rear. Anna
moved to stand in the same place, leaned down and rolled the corpse back and
toward her. It came up all of a piece and was surprisingly heavy. Sand beneath
the body was compressed into the shape of chest and limbs as if Nims had tried
to squeeze himself into the earth to escape the fire or his assailant. A thin
layer of ice had formed where the body's heat, leached out slowly in the hours
after death, had melted blown snow. Nims should have been frozen to the ground
but whoever had stood here before had rolled the corpse up just as she was
doing and rifled the pockets of the shirt. The button flaps were undone and the
fabric pulled away from the body where ice had once adhered it to the flesh. Since Anna had
failed to search the corpse when they'd first found it, she could only surmise
something had been taken rather than left. Cursing herself for a fool, she made
a careful search of the body. Compass in the left shirt pocket. Right pocket
empty. Len carried a leather knife sheath on his belt beneath his left arm. The
sheath was empty. Dollars to doughnuts the knife was in his ribs, Anna thought.
The handle of the weapon was of metal with holes cut out either for weight or
style. By the size of the hilt and sheath, the blade was close to six inches
long. Judging from the angle, the point of the weapon had been driven into the
heart. There were no signs of a struggle. Nims's trouser
pockets yielded nothing of a telling nature: lint, Chap Stick, gum, a spare
handkerchief. Somewhere along the line he'd shed his yellow pack—probably as he
fled the fire— but the square canvas envelope that housed his fire shelter was
still on his webbed belt. The snap was
closed and it struck Anna as peculiar. She was willing to bet there wasn't a
person among them who'd taken the time to resnap the case after deploying their
shelter. She opened it and looked inside, not sure what, if anything, she
expected to find. It was empty but for a handful of crumbs. On a hunch she put
one on the tip of her tongue: a cookie crumb. A number of things fell into
place. When Anna returned to their bivouac she would count the shelters but she
knew there would be only eight. Nims might not
share his shelter to save another's life but not everyone was so single-minded.
In the 1980s, Anna remembered, winds had snatched a fire shelter from a man's
hands. His buddy had made him lie beneath him, sharing his own shelter. Both
men survived. The crumbs in
Len's shelter envelope: too lazy to carry the added weight of the aluminum
tent, he had probably jettisoned it in favor of extra food. Just as nature was
about to cull the idiot from the gene pool, someone had taken pity and let Nims
into their shake 'n' bake. That would account for the deep depression in the
sand beneath the corpse. Someone had lain on top of him. Why save a
man's life at the risk of one's own just to stick a knife between his ribs?
Surely it would be simpler to let him burn to death? No investigation, no
prosecution; just one little secret to carry to the grave. Unless Len
forced himself on his benefactor. No signs of a
struggle, Anna reminded herself. With the firestorm bearing down it would have
required utmost cooperation to survive. An impulse
killing, then. Something had happened in the shelter during the storm that had
caused savior to turn executioner, driving Nims's own knife into his heart. Anna remembered
trying to breathe, to think, not to think, to remember the pledge of allegiance
and keep her pinky fingers from being roasted. She doubted she could have
focused on anybody else long enough to bother killing them. She pulled the
shelter back over the corpse. Nims's left hand with the blood-encrusted glove
protruded from beneath the covering, reaching out as if for help. Anna grabbed
the thumb and pulled. The glove slipped from the dead hand. She remembered
noting when he'd come to the medical tent how small his feet were. His hands,
too, were delicate and well formed. On a corpse they were unpleasantly human,
touching. Anna wished she could tuck the hand under the tarp but it would mean
breaking the arm and she wasn't up for that. Feeling she'd done something
irreverent, she tugged the glove back in place. The bloody
glove argued against the instantaneous death other factors pointed to. To soak
the glove so completely, Nims must have grabbed at the knife as it went in.
Anna tried reaching her left armpit with her left hand. It was devilishly
awkward but in great pain or fear might have been accomplished. Having weighted
the shelter with rocks once again, she followed the path of the grave robber
back to where the others waited by the boulder. The shelter
LeFleur had rigged was surprisingly cozy and Anna had a strange sense of hearth
and home when she saw the familiar faces. Paula had been
dressed in a spare fire shirt and wool trousers someone had had the foresight
to stuff into their yellow pack— Black Elk, by the size of the clothes. And
Anna recognized a pair of her own blue wool rag socks on the girl's feet.
Lindstrom was sitting close, jollying her, and she was laughing. Better
medicine still. Howard Black Elk leaned against the boulder, eyes closed. He'd
gone a bit gray around the mouth. Though he was a strong man, his injuries were
taking a severe toll. The fire pit
was well stocked with embers and Joseph Hayhurst had converted helmets into
vessels to hold snowmelt. While Anna approved the Apache's enterprise it depressed
her slightly. It was an admission they might be there awhile. Pepperdine was
haranguing John LeFleur about posting twenty-four-hour watches. The crew boss's
mouth was clamped shut and his eyes fixed beyond the younger man's shoulder. Back to the
others, Jennifer sat staring out at the nothing peeling away above the creek
bank. Her eyes were hooded, unseeing, and Anna knew she was at as much or more
risk than the two burn victims. Most people at some time in their lives lose the
will to live for a minute, n day, a week. It was possible Short's survival
instinct had chosen the wrong place and time to abandon her. Pepperdine saw
her approach and turned from LeFleur to what he clearly hoped would be a more
sympathetic ear. "Gonzales is gone." His tone made it clear he
considered Anna to be at fault. "I told you we should've radioed
John." He hadn't but
she let that pass. "Hey, John, what's Hugh been telling you?" "Gonzales
went to take a dump," LeFleur said bluntly. "Barney's got a problem
with that, I guess." "He's
gone," Pepperdine insisted. "Looks
like Neil's gone too," Anna said mildly. "Nature
calls," Hayhurst put in, "and man answers. I kind of envy their
regularity." Hugh looked
from Anna to John and back again. "I think somebody ought to go bring him
in," he insisted. Color had come up in his fat cheeks and he was balling
his fists. "Suit yourself,"
Anna said and, sitting down, pulled her wet gloves off to warm her fingers over
the embers. A high
ululating wail, like a child in terrible pain or a man in an extremity of fear,
cut through the bickering. Little hairs on Anna's neck began to prickle and she
could feel adrenaline pumping into her overtaxed system. No one spoke.
Paula clutched the sleeve of Stephen's jacket and Jennifer pushed a palm to her
lips as though to stifle a scream rising in her own throat. Again the cry
came, high and clear and cutting to the bone. Paula began to whimper. "Gonzales—"
Pepperdine began. "Shut the
fuck up." Lindstrom. Silence, deep and awful, followed. "Want to
go see what it is?" LeFleur asked, and for the first time Anna heard a
quaver in the man's voice. "Not
particularly," she returned. Again the cry. This time
something cut it short. Chapter Thirteen DAWN NEVER BROKE. With fog and drizzling snow the quality of the
light never changed. Impatience gnawed at Frederick's innards like the Spartan
boy's stolen fox, but he bore it less heroically. Gene Burwell, a well-groomed
man of Santalike girth and facial hair, was patient and understanding. Stanton
realized it took a true gentleman to ignore his fidgeting. Incident Base
was still surrounded by statuesque ponderosa and fir, the manzanita still
green. Snow gave the scene a holiday feel; white drifts on evergreen needles.
But for two crews with six sawyers, the camp was devoid of the one thousand
souls who had called it home for the last couple of weeks. A low-boy with
a D-8 Cat had been dispatched from the Forest Service office out of Chester, a
logging town twenty miles to the south. Seven miles down highway from Base a
helicopter sat at ready, fueled and loaded, with two EMTs standing by. Burwell,
Stantori and Lester Treadwell, a lean, wiry man in his fifties who was in
charge of clearing the deadfall, had taken a four-wheel drive truck up the
logging road toward spike camp as soon as it had gotten light. The first few
miles were clear, then the road turned along the side of a mountain and wound
up through the black—part of the burn left by the Jackknife. There they'd had
to stop. Charred snags from a foot in diameter to some grand old trees that
must have measured eight or ten feet across and a hundred feet long had blown
down in countless numbers. The road and the land surrounding were crosshatched
with black. Logs tumbled like windblown straw lay in a tangled mat. Even a man
on horseback couldn't pick a path through the devastation. Cigarette
dangling from his lips, Lester Treadwell stomped around muttering, his grizzled
hair sticking out from beneath his hard hat where he'd pushed it back on his
bony skull in a frenzy of thinking. "These're big boys," he said.
"There'll be fire in 'em for a couple days. Hell on saw blades. Keeps
things interesting though. Six sawyers. I'll send them up to cut anything looks
like it'll bind." For Stanton's benefit he explained that downed trees,
piled like these were, created strange tensions. When cut there was always a
danger of one of those tensions being released too suddenly and part of a tree
snapping loose and killing or injuring the sawyer. "That'll
get us started but we need heavy metal. With that D-8 Cat we'll push this mess
aside," Treadwell said. "How
long?" Frederick asked. "A D-8'll
push a lot of weight," Lester said, flicking a spent cigarette and pausing
to light another. "It's a hell of a machine. We can clear a mile a day
easy." Burwell had
estimated four to six miles of the road fell within the black. Frederick rubbed
his forehead, knocking the borrowed hard hat askew. He hadn't asked Anna if she
was hurt. She hadn't reported any injuries to herself but then she might not.
He found himself thinking how small she was. Though she carried herself like
John Wayne, she was only five-four. No fat to keep her warm. Unless the
weather broke, it would be four to six days until help could be gotten to the
stranded firefighters, to Anna. Cloud cover kept temperatures from dropping
much below the mid-twenties, but without food and shelter it would be a rugged
few days. Perhaps deadly. Especially for a crew harboring a scorpion in its
bosom. "Up higher
the fuel load's not so thick," Burwell said kindly. "It'll go faster
the higher we get." Frederick noted
the man's concern and knew he wore his heart on his sleeve. Stanton was being
obvious and he didn't like being obvious. "We'll get
cracking," Treadwell said. Frederick had
never handled a chainsaw in his life and Tread-well wasn't going to let him
start now. Stanton knew Occupational Safety and Health Administration
regulations as well as anyone; still he chafed at the enforced inaction till
Treadwell took pity and signed him on as a swamper. For two hours
he dragged and rolled chunks of burned timber bucked up small enough it could
be muscled clear of the road. Stanton's office-softened hands blistered. His
back and shoulders ached. Time and again he had to leave a log for the other swamper
because he hadn't the strength to shift it without help. It had been
years since he had felt like a ninety-eight-pound weakling. As he'd moved up in
the organization, his mind and what amounted to a passion for detail had
brought him honors. Brain over brawn, the pen over the sword. He couldn't even
bench press his I.Q. Shortly after
nine a.m. Stanton's impatience,
though still alive and well, had been tempered by hard physical labor. Nearly
three hours of it had cleared less than fifty yards of road. Exhaustion brought
with it some clarity of thought and he knew he would prove more useful in the
less manly pursuits and wondered at himself for waxing so hormonal over a woman
he'd known only a short while and kissed only twice. Making his
excuses, he borrowed an all-terrain vehicle from the incident commander and
followed the logging road down to Base. The Command tent, Communications and
Time Keeping kept the home fires burning. Portable space heaters powered by a
generator in the back of a semi-truck trailer held winter at bay. Frederick was
doubly glad of the warmth and fresh coffee. Glad for his chilled and tired body
and glad, in a moment of pure unreflective selfishness, that it was not he who
huddled hungry in a wash. While he drank
his coffee, thick with Cremora and three spoons of sugar, he allowed himself a
small pleasant fantasy:
warming Anna's square capable hands between his own,
massaging feeling gently back into her little feet. Residual hormones kicked
in, heating the dream too rapidly, and he shelved it. The time would come, he
promised himself, when he could afford the luxury of distraction. Four phones
were hooked up in the Communications tent. Frederick took over one line to
begin a series of calls. A spark of envy burned him as he thought of the
wide-shouldered men with leathered faces running chainsaws and bulldozers and
he quashed a sophomoric image of himself, newly Paul Bunyan—like, scooping a
grateful Anna from the jaws of death. Think,
Frederick, he told himself. Think. It's what you're good at. Nine-forty
California time. Ten-forty in New Mexico; he would start with the Bureau of
Land Management in Farming-ton. One
receptionist and one bum steer later he was talking with Henry Valdez, the head
of the gas and oil leasing program for the three million acres of federal gas
and oil reserves in New Mexico and southern Colorado. Stanton was
winging it. Without visiting the murder scene, viewing the corpse, interviewing
the suspects or examining the physical evidence, he was at a distinct
disadvantage. Anna would have to find out how it was done, who had means and
opportunity. Motive was the only angle he could pursue. Until something that
smelled like a lead turned up, he decided on the simple expedient of gathering
information. As much as he could get. Valdez sounded
genuinely sorry to hear of Nims's death. Whether he personally liked the man or
whether because the wheels of the Office of Personnel Management ground so
painstakingly slow Nims's position would go unfilled for six months, Frederick
couldn't tell. Henry Valdez
was disappointing, at least in terms of giving up personal information on his
employees. Clearly the man disliked gossip and had little imagination where his
fellow mortals were concerned. Nims was a good worker, well liked by most of
the Bureau's oil and gas lessees. He was an avid hunter and fisherman and on
good terms both professionally and personally with his clients. Valdez was more
forthcoming about the nuts-and-bolts aspects of Nims's job. Nims did the
Environmental Impact Statements for proposed wells or the extension of leases
on already existing wells. His background was in forestry but he'd acquired a
solid understanding of geology. Whether Nims
was liked by his co-workers, Valdez didn't feel he was in a position to say. He
was also not in a position to say why Nims had left the BLM in Susanville,
California, to accept a position three years later at a lower pay grade. He did
volunteer that, though it wasn't common practice, neither was it rare. Often
government employees left to try their hand in the private sector or
transferred because of personality conflicts. What
personality conflicts? Valdez wasn't
in a position to say. Frederick
scribbled down a few notes and moved on to John LeFleur. Valdez seemed
more than happy to gossip about the crew boss and Stanton guessed either his
earlier reticence sprang from a sincere attachment to Nims or his sudden
forthcoming attitude bespoke a pointed dislike of LeFleur. According to
Henry Valdez, John LeFleur was a dog in the manger. Always discontent with his
lot and jealous of those around him. A dinosaur, Valdez called him, a man still
crying because the college boys got promoted faster, because a man could no
longer start in the mail room and become CEO. LeFleur had the firebug, he told
Stanton. With some it's like an addiction. All John wanted to do was fight
fire. He was getting too old to work the line but lacked the organizational and
people skills to move up into overhead and hated anybody who did. That smelled like
the lead Stanton had been sniffing around for. "What about Nims?" he
asked. "Did LeFleur hate him?" "Hate
might be laying it on a bit thick," Valdez said. "But they don't get
along. John thinks Len gets all the breaks—that old song and dance. John just can't
face up to the fact he's not manager material and never will be." "Were he
and Nims in competition for the same jobs, promotions, any of that kind of
thing?" "John may
have thought they were for the fire management officer position we've got
opening up, but John never had a snowball's chance in hell of getting it." "Does he
have a snowball's chance with Nims dead?" Frederick asked bluntly. A moment's
silence deadened the line. "A snowball's chance," Valdez said
carefully. "But only just." Frederick thanked
the man and hung up. On a yellow notebook he'd begged from Time Keeping he
wrote MOTIVES. LeFleur's was weak at best but perhaps the man didn't know that.
If he believed Nims was all that stood between him and professional advancement
it would suffice. Especially if a golden opportunity was dropped in his lap. Under MOTIVES
Stanton scribbled "JL firebug bites Nims" in a galloping hand. Howard Black
Elk's supervisor was out sick. No one answered the phone at the number either
Paula Boggins or Neil Page left and neither had filled in the box under
"Previous Employer." The head of dispatch at Forest Service
headquarters in Reno, Nevada, Stephen Lindstrom's boss, wouldn't be in the
office until after lunch. The Washoe County sheriff's Office couldn't tell Frederick
any more about Lawrence Gonzales than Spinks had already uncovered but promised
to do some digging and call him back. No one answered the phone at all at Aztec
National Monument where Hugh Pepperdine was purported to work. Estelle Parker,
the superintendent at El Malpais National Monument in New Mexico, was only too
happy to talk. She didn't even pretend she had more pressing matters to attend
to. She had been instrumental in hiring Joseph Hayhurst, she said, and was
proud to have him on her staff. Words ticked out with the smooth assuredness of
a paid political announcement. Superintendent Parker mentioned Hayhurst's
Apache heritage three times and Frederick began to wonder if she thought he had
something to do with the Equal Opportunity Hiring Program. "What does
he do?" he interrupted. The woman didn't reply right away and Frederick
fancied she didn't have that answer quite so carefully scripted. "He runs
our cultural resources program." Frederick
waited. "Better fill me in," he said after a moment. Again Parker
hesitated. Stanton wished he was sitting in her office where he could watch her
face. Over the phone he had no idea whether there was something fishy about Mr.
Hayhurst or the superintendent simply didn't have the foggiest notion of what her
employees did with their days. "Well, I
know he does evening programs," Parker said. "I hear they're
excellent. And he is the curator for our museum—does the cataloging and so
forth. He's in charge of preserving the cultural resources inside the monument's
boundaries." It's a small,
small world, Frederick whistled under his breath. Leonard Nims wrote
Environmental Impact Statements, the documents that, in essence, granted or
denied commercial interests permission to dig, drill, ditch or otherwise
disturb culturally sensitive areas in northern New Mexico. Joseph Hayhurst
preserved Native American cultural resources. The two men probably knew each
other. "Does Mr.
Hayhurst do any work for the BLM in resource management?" he asked. "No ...
no. Why?" The superintendent
sounded confused and Frederick was reminded how little communication, much less
cooperation, there was between government agencies. Fighting wildland fire
seemed one of the few places they worked and played together nicely. Sort of
like law enforcement agencies and the War on Drugs, Stanton thought. A
politically safe and extremely well-funded bandwagon to jump on. "Is he
active in any preservation groups or movements outside the confines of his
job?" "I
shouldn't think so. No. I wouldn't know." Either Superintendent Parker was
a past master at stonewalling or she had no idea what went on in her park.
Stanton suspected the latter. Unless she and Hayhurst were running drugs, such
an elaborate show of ignorance was overkill. Having made
sufficiently polite and grateful good-byes, Frederick set down the phone
receiver and stared blankly in front of him. What was missing? A hollow
unsettled feeling swelled behind his breastbone, psychological heartburn. It
was the feeling he got the night he forgot and left Candice standing in a tutu
outside a ballet school in a bad part of town for three hours, and once when
he'd refigured his taxes and discovered he owed fifty-two hundred dollars more
than he thought. Closing his
eyes, he tried to clear his mind. One of the phones rang and someone answered
it. For a second he listened to see if it was for him. It wasn't. That was it. He checked his
watch: twenty past ten. The radios had been silent but for the low-grade
chatter of the dozer operator. Every three
hours, they'd agreed. That would have been around nine-forty-five. Anna hadn't
called in. Chapter Fourteen ANNA REALIZED SHE'D stopped breathing and consciously drew
air deep into her lungs. The others were paralyzed as well. Screams, so
viciously aborted, had rooted them in the sand. Paula's whimpering whetted the
edge of the silence. Lindstrom put a protective arm around the girl's
shoulders. From the look on his face, he was almost as frightened as she. Black Elk
gulped air only to expel it in a wet-sounding cough. Howard was in trouble:
bronchitis and third-degree burns. For the first time it occurred to Anna that
he might die. Injuries like his wouldn't prove fatal in the sterile and
supportive confines of a modern medical facility. In the snow, in the Cascades,
the outlook wasn't so bright. Not if they didn't get rescued soon. "It's too
fucking much," LeFleur whispered. Absently he pawed at his shirt pocket.
When his fingers didn't find the expected smokes he spat into the snow.
Pepperdine had squeezed in under the shelter, his back pressed against the
boulder. "Really ups the old pucker factor, doesn't it?" LeFleur
needled him. The crew boss's
smile was shaky but it was a start. Anna broke out of her state of suspended
animation and stood up. Her legs trembled but she told herself it was due to
fatigue and too little food. "I guess
somebody ought to check it out," she said, but she didn't move. "I
guess," LeFleur agreed. He didn't move either. "I'll go
if somebody'll go with me," Joseph Hayhurst offered. He got to his feet
and carefully brushed the sand from the seat of his pants—as if anybody would
care where he was going. This accomplished he looked at Anna with his strange
little smile and gestured to the ruin of the forest. "Ladies first." LeFleur had collected
himself and, to everyone's relief, took control. "Joseph, you and Anna
follow Gonzales's tracks out if you can. Me and Stephen'll try and pick up
Neil's. See what we come up with. You've got a radio?" Anna did. Numbers seemed
to reassure Pepperdine. He stepped forward importantly. "I'd better go
after Gonzales." "Stay
here," Anna said curtly. Hugh would be of little use in a fight but that
wasn't why she snapped at him. He got on her nerves and they'd been stretched a
little thin lately. "Jennifer
can stay," Hugh said. "Jennifer
hasn't been to FLETC." Anna meant it unkindly but Hugh took it as a
compliment. "Roger.
I'll be monitoring if you need backup." As Pepperdine
settled close to the warming embers, Anna looked past him at Jennifer Short.
Her fist was still pushed against her teeth as if her brain had failed to shift
gears when the alarm wound down. Not good. Short
was not a coward. In fact, her tombstone courage had nearly gotten both of them
killed in an incident at Mesa Verde. To see her so diminished scared Anna. As
soon as she got back, she promised herself, she would do something. What eluded
her. "Um,
excuse me, but the trail grows cold," Joseph said, and Anna realized she'd
been woolgathering. Snow around the
bivouac was heavily trampled but on the far side of the boulder Joseph found a
fresh set of tracks. With more faith than certainty he and Anna began to follow
them up out of the creek to the north. Once clear of
the wash the confusion of footprints thinned out to be replaced by a confusion
of snow and felled snags. White humps gave way to blackened holes. What
appeared to be solid ground would suddenly collapse, a pit of smoldering wood
beneath. The going was slow but not impossible and Anna preferred it to sitting
with too much to think about and too little to do. Joseph, despite
his earlier invitation, led the way. He was ten years younger than Anna and his
eyesight that much better. In this landscape of sharp contrasts and
directionless light, he was better able to pick a trail between hazards. Anna was glad
to leave him to it. Free from having to watch where she put her feet, she
scanned the area. Snow draping over crosshatched piles of trees, unexpected
open places, hummocks higher—or lower—than they seemed; she combed the broken landscape
for any scrap of color or movement that would indicate life. On such a
surreal stage, monsters didn't seem impossible or even terribly unlikely. She
and Joseph moved through a world that looked much like Anna imagined the inside
of Dean Koontz's or Stephen King's mind might. Surreptitiously,
she crossed herself. She wasn't Catholic—or even necessarily Christian—but it
seemed like a good idea. Occupied as he
was by navigation, Joseph failed to see the flash of yellow when Anna did. He
was a couple of yards ahead of her, pushing against a forty-foot snag that had
weathered the windstorm. If it was going to fall it was healthier for him to
choose when and where than wait for a capricious Mother Nature to drop it on
the unwary. Anna slipped up
behind him and touched his shoulder. With a startled gasp, he swung at her. Had
she been taller and slower, his fist would have taken out several of her teeth.
As it happened, a pratfall, functional if not stylish, saved her bridgework.
For an art historian he was fast with his fists. "Sorry,"
she whispered as Joseph, his face arranged in apologetic lines, helped her to
her feet. "Likewise,
I'm sure. Why are we whispering?" Anna was on her
feet, Joseph sweeping her backside free of snow like a concerned valet.
"Fire shirt," Anna said, and pointed. "Somebody's over
there." "Want me
to go first?" Anna did hut
since he'd asked she couldn't say so. "At least you didn't scream,"
she muttered out of spite. "Our
mothers covered our mouths when we were babies so the yellow legs wouldn't find
us," Joseph whispered at her shoulder. "Didn't your parents let you
watch Wagon Train?" "Shhh." All she could
see of their quarry was a piece of NoMex maybe six inches square—a shoulder or
elbow—showing from behind a tumble of deadfall. Torn between
the urge to hurry to a man very possibly injured and the need to go slowly lest
danger still lurked, Anna repeated her early EMT training: First make sure the
scene is safe. That was always a good answer on a multiple-choice test. Skirting a fallen
snag, Anna got far enough around the piled debris so that she could see most of
the man. He was seated on a downed piece of timber, his back to them. One green
leg and hip, yellow arms and shoulder and the back of a head covered with a
blue bandanna tied pirate-style low over the forehead were visible. "Neil,"
Joseph whispered as Anna called: "Neil!" Page squeaked
and turned. When he recognized them he bent over at the waist, his head and
shoulders disappearing behind the burnt wood. To Anna it looked as if he were
picking up a small article and hiding it. Maybe in the snow or the logs. Maybe
in his pocket. In a few
seconds it was done and Neil Page was trotting toward them, a mixture of relief
and alarm on his face. "Holy shit. Did you hear that ... that whatever?
What was it? Somebody else killed? Fuck. A murderer's on the loose. That's all
I need. It sounded like
a girl—a kid maybe." Incongruous as it was in this torched wilderness,
Page was pumping Joseph's hand with a grip a used-car salesman would have been
proud of. Whatever he was
up to by himself on that log, the man had definitely had a scare. If not the
strange cry, then something else. He was babbling and his hands trembled. Sweat
mixed with soot glistened like fine bugle beads at his temples. "Are those
your tracks?" Anna pointed to a set of prints leading across the small
clearing at a right angle to the trail she and Joseph had followed, but from
the opposite direction. Page looked
around as if the question taxed his cognitive powers, then nodded. Yes, they
were his. "We'd
better keep going," Anna said to Joseph. "Since nobody has doubled
back on the trail we were following, there's a good chance it's Gonzales." "You can't
leave me here by myself." Page was dangerously close to whining. "Come on
then," Anna said. He liked that
only a little better but fell in step behind Anna as Joseph led the way up the
track they'd recently abandoned. Neil Page was a careful man. He hung back far
enough he wouldn't lose them but too far to be of much assistance should the
need arise. The short burst
of strength lent by fright had worn away and Anna was running on empty. Without
food to restore strength and proper rest to restore sanity, she could feel
muscle and nerve being drained with each log they climbed over, each stump hole
they avoided. Vision narrowed
and concentration wavered. Soon she was just putting one foot in front of the
other, seeing only the prints Joseph Hayhurst left in the snow. When he came to
a stop, she almost tread on his heels before she realized it. "Listen,"
he said. Anna could hear
her own breathing and his, the faint crunch of boots in the snow from where
Page walked behind them. "There,"
Joseph said. A thump,
something pounding into the snow, the dirt, a body—something soft enough to
absorb most of the sound of the blow. Then a shout, a whoop, joyous,
victorious. "Wherever
we're going, I think we just got there," the Apache said softly. Ahead was a
clutter of downed trees blanketed with snow. Beyond, as best as Anna could tell
with the fog and the vague light, was a ditch or ravine backed by a steep hill.
In places trees had blown down, pulling root systems out of the hillside. Great
gouts of brown, living dirt spilled down over the apron of white. The track they
followed circled the piled timber and vanished down into the ravine. The scene
was picture-perfect for a trap. All that was missing was a nice little bit of
cheese set in the trail. Anna looked
behind her. Page had stopped twenty yards back. Waiting to see which way to
run, she guessed. "Let's do
it," she said. Chapter Fifteen A SECOND SHOUT galvanized Anna. She moved
past Joseph and down the trail. Mobility restored courage and she was surprised
that she'd let the heebie-jeebies soak so deeply into her soul. Still, when yet
another cry came she flinched and her step faltered. Lest Joseph notice, she
walked faster. A minute
brought her to the end of the pile screening the ravine. She looked over her
shoulder. Hayhurst was right behind her. She nodded and he raised his hand,
slowing and falling back slightly. There were those with whom communication was
effortless, even without words. Maybe especially without words. And then there
were the Pages, the Pepperdines, the Bogginses who seemed impervious to all the
words in the world. Like lovers, Anna thought. Some understood the merest
touch, others even Dr. Ruth couldn't get through to. Careful to step
only in existing tracks so the noise of her footsteps wouldn't broadcast their
approach, Anna moved into the crook where the trail hooked around the timber:
the place the cheese would be were this indeed a better mousetrap. From that
vantage point she could see into the wash, a shallow creek, five or six feet
wide and half that deep, carved by spring runoff. Black snags had fallen across,
creating fragile bridges dusted with snow. Beneath were the tracks they'd been
following. Crabbing down
the steep bank Anna lost her footing and slid the last few feet. So much for
the element of surprise. "Are you
okay?" Joseph whispered from the top of the bank. Anna made the
"okay" symbol with thumb and forefinger. "Can you
see anything?" Crouching, she
looked under the burnt timber spanning the creek bed. For several yards the
snow was crushed and trampled. Drops of red, startling in a landscape devoid of
color, were spattered in a wedge-shaped pattern. "Blood." "No
kidding?" Joseph slid down the bank, squatted in the snow beside her and
shouted: "Hey, Lawrence! Are you in there?" Maybe it was a tactical
error but Anna was glad to have the tension broken. Footfalls
crunched toward them, slow and labored as somebody frog-walked under the downed
pines. "Lawrence?"
Anna echoed because she needed to do something. Another whoop
and Lawrence Gonzales crawled from beneath the tree trunks on hands and knees.
Blood stained the cuff of his NoMex shirt and he pushed a shovel ahead of him.
The blade left a red trail on the snow where it passed. Lawrence
grinned up at them, his teeth white and perfect, then reached back and Anna
tensed. "Breakfast,"
he said, presenting them with a badger dead of severe head trauma. Joseph started
to giggle, high and sweet like a young girl. Anna became infected and laughter
bubbled out. Gonzales looked
from one to the other, a tentative smile on his face as if he was willing to join
in if only someone would share the joke with him. "What? What's so
funny?" This innocuous phrase tickled Anna and Joseph all out of
proportion. Anna could hear
the hysteria, feel it hard in her rib cage. It was out of control but it felt
good. GONZALES WAS HAILED the conquering hero by everyone
but Hugh Pepperdine. He made a sullen remark about the Great White Hunter that
brought the blood into Lawrence's cheeks but Anna thought she saw it for what
it was, good old-fashioned envy. Lawrence and
John cleaned and skinned the badger with Black Elk's Buck knife. The San Juans,
it seemed, went for the most part unarmed. Just for
something to do, Anna watched for a while, but the steaming entrails and the
casual gore of men used to dressing game got to her and she retreated back to
the relative civility of camp. Howard and
Joseph were talking quietly. Paula appeared to be asleep. Jennifer hadn't moved
from where she sat back from the fire pit. Anna settled close to her, closer
than she normally would, hoping to share some of her warmth with the other
woman. Jennifer's bare
hands rested on her knees. Anna pulled off her glove and touched the back of
Short's fingers. They were ice cold. "Jen,"
she said softly. A second or two elapsed before Short responded to the sound of
her voice. Jennifer's eyes were unfocused, her cheek muscles sagging like those
of a much older woman. "After we
eat, we've got to talk," Anna said. "I thought
you were a vegetarian." Short spoke in a monotone. "Under
duress I've been known to eat my little friends. Jen, you've got to snap out of
it," Anna said. Jennifer's eyes
were glazing over. Clearly, she just didn't give a damn. Anna changed
tack. Softness left her voice. "A man's been murdered. The only person I
really know is you. I can't afford to trust anybody else. You've got to help
me." A flicker, the
merest gleam of interest, enlivened Jennifer's blue eyes. From the distant
past, Anna remembered her sister telling her one of the few things other than
drugs and exercise that could help pull someone out of a clinical depression
was helping others, virtue its own reward, medically speaking. "After we
eat," Anna said just as if Jennifer had agreed, and scrambled to her feet
before Short had time to reject the idea. Anna wasn't
sure she wanted to know who'd knifed Leonard Nims. Even less did she wish the
perpetrator to know she knew. But perhaps the puzzle would pull Jennifer out of
herself, give her something healthier—if that was the right word given the
circumstances—to focus on. If they turned anything up, they could hand it over
to Frederick Stanton when they got off the ridge. Stanton. The
idea of rescue, of a savior, of warm caring arms, made Anna weak and weepy.
With an unconscious twitch she shrugged the thought off. BADGER WAS AS aggressive
and feisty inside Anna's belly as the animal was purported to be when defending
its position in the food chain. Having given up her carnivorous ways for nearly
a decade, her stomach found the gamey meat a challenge to digest. Seeing the look
on her face as she carefully chewed each bite Stephen said: "It's fat-free
and organically grown." Anna shot him a
dirty look and doggedly chewed on. Stephen's chunk seemed to be putting up a
fight of its own. Cursing, he yanked his left glove off with his teeth and
tackled the meat bare-handed. "I'll eat
yours, Anna," Pepperdine offered. Anna scowled
and swallowed. Nauseating, politically incorrect, stringy—it didn't matter.
Strength was legal tender when the niceties of society were stripped away, and
she had no intention of going bankrupt before she had to. Failing with
Anna, Hugh began eyeing Jennifer's meat. Short held the badger without
interest. "Eat
that," Anna ordered. Mechanically,
Jennifer bit off a chunk, chewed and swallowed. "Eat all
your badger or there'll be no rat pudding for dessert," Lindstrom said
firmly, and was rewarded by a ghost of a smile. Everyone's
spirits were up. Not only because of the food— they'd not been without long
enough to suffer more than discomfort—but because they had taken back the
reins. Lawrence was a San Juan. He'd brought home the bacon. No longer were
they helpless children cowering and waiting for someone to rescue them. They
were, as in Brando's famous line, "contenders." Men facing the
wilderness. Even the women. Macho was a state of mind. Though Anna
didn't so much as fish—she hadn't the heart to stop that silvery flash of
life—and the meat curdled in her belly, she felt it. All for one and one for
all: the Musketeer credo permeated the group around the fire. Except for Hugh
Pepperdine. He'd not forgiven Lawrence for being the day's hero and tried to
build himself up and tear Gonzales down with a series of inane remarks. They were so
close in age some competition was inevitable, and Pepperdine's attributes,
assuming he had any, Anna thought uncharitably, didn't translate well outside
the city limits. Pepperdine lost on all counts: looks, courage and endurance.
Probably the most damaging thing was that Hugh tried desperately to be liked
and failed. Lawrence never had to try. When Anna had
forced down all the badger she could and Jennifer had eaten all she was going
to, Anna announced: "I'm going to the bathroom," and fixed Short with
a pointed stare. As they walked
away, Lindstrom called after them: "Firefighters don't go to the bathroom
in groups." Laughter followed them out of sight around the boulder. Seated on rocks
a hundred yards up the creek, an icy fog isolating them from sight as well as
sound, Anna told Jennifer everything she'd seen, thought or been told. She recounted
the criminal histories Stanton had gathered, how the body was found, the knife,
the blood on the glove where Nims had evidently tried to pull it out, the
depression in the sand from the weight of the second body. She told Jennifer
that the corpse had been searched by someone and of Neil Page's furtive hiding
motions. Though Jennifer had been there when LeFleur came in with a split lip,
Anna went over that. Jennifer sat
like a lump and Anna couldn't tell if she was listening or not. When she finished
the recital, she waited. After a full minute, the younger woman stirred.
Pushing her matted hair back off her face, she stared down the creek bed. "Josh and
I were close," she said, the words made visible as her breath steamed in
the air. "He was just a year older than me and it was like we were the
same age. He got mono when we were kids and got held back a year so in high
school we were even in the same grade." She was
talking. Anna didn't much care about what. Cold seeped through the seat of her
britches from the rock, stealing what little warmth Lawrence's badger had
brought her, but she sat stock-still for fear of interrupting. "We went
to college together in computer science. Josh was smarter than me but I worked
harder so we made the same grades. We'd go to parties together and wait for Mr.
Right." Jennifer laughed. There was
nothing Anna could say. She thought of her sister and tried to think of the
words that would comfort her if Molly died. There weren't any. "What was
he doing in this part of the country?" she asked to keep Jennifer talking. Tears tracked
the grime on Short's face and her nose was running. "Josh got a job
programming a new security system for Harrah's in Reno—Reno's where he met
Stephen. They were both into computers and hit it off right away. Anyway, the
money was good and Josh said he needed to get out of Memphis for a while so he
went. "He fell
in love with the mountains. I'm a river girl. I got to be by a big muddy river
at least a few months out of the year or I just don't feel right. But Josh said
he'd found his spiritual home. He got all excited about trying to save it—you
know, stopping logging or saving those speckled owls—whatever. It wasn't just a
social thing with Josh. He really cared. That's part of what got me interested
in being a park ranger, though I thought I'd mostly just like playing at it for
a while. New places, new people, something different to do. Josh was doing some
kind of environmental thing down where the burn started. I guess that place
where he was camped was going to be logged off or something." Instead Joshua
Short lost control of his campfire, lost his life and destroyed the forest he
was hoping to save. Anna kept her cynicism to herself. Now wasn't the time.
There would never be a time. "I'm sure
gonna miss him," Jennifer said simply. "Yeah." They sat
without talking. Anna tried to massage some heat into her hands. Jennifer
fished a bandanna, more black than red, from the pocket of her brush jacket and
smeared the mess on her face. Where she managed to wipe it clean she left
streaks of white. "What do
you want me to do about Len's murder?" Short asked. It was working.
Jennifer was looking and sounding alive again. Anna rubbed the corners of her
mouth with a thumb and forefinger to pull out the smile she felt building
there. "I'm
pretty sure Nims was carrying food instead of a fire shelter like he was
required to. We know he was knifed during the firestorm, probably by someone
who'd meant originally to save the guy's life. We know he was stabbed by his
own knife and something was stolen from the corpse. Start with Neil Page. Go
out and see if you can find whatever he was hiding out in the woods. Talk to
him. We need to find out exactly where everybody deployed. The only person I
actually saw crawl out of his shake 'n' bake was Howard." "He could
have killed Len, then got back into his own shelter," Jennifer said. "I
counted. Eight shelters. Nine people. There's no way of knowing whose is whose.
By the time I figured it out all the shelters had been gathered and reused to
make the bivouac." "Okay.
Howard's out," Jennifer conceded. "His hands are bad. I doubt he
could've held a knife well enough anyway. He can't even close them." "You do
Page," Anna said. "I'll take John and see what I can find out. Be
discreet. The last thing we want to do is stir up a hornet's nest." "Might
beat hunting badgers for breakfast." Anna let the
smile claim her mouth. Jennifer Short was coming around. Chapter Sixteen LINDSTROM MET ANNA and Jennifer halfway back to the bivouac.
"Sorry to break up the party," he said with no trace of his usual
humor. "It's Howard. He's taken a turn for the worse." Helplessness
and fatigue bore down on Anna. The bad news brought back some of the dead look
to Jennifer's eyes. Morale had grown so fragile. "Jen, follow up on that
stuff we were talking about," Anna said sharply. If the comment aroused
Lindstrom's curiosity, he didn't have the energy to pursue it. Black Elk was
lying near the boulder, his breath rattling ominously in his chest. Under the
soot his flesh was chalky and dry, the rims of his eyes red. Joseph and
Lawrence stood nearby talking in the hushed tones people use around a deathbed.
Neil had disappeared again. Hugh and John were gone as well. Paula huddled as
far from the sick man as she could get and still remain within the enclosure.
The atmosphere of optimism brought on by their unexpected meal had evaporated. "Where's
LeFleur?" Anna demanded as she stooped and pushed under the jury-rigged
shelters. There was nothing the crew boss could do but it annoyed her that he'd
jumped ship. "He and
Hugh went up on the ridge to radio Base," Joseph said. Anna glanced at
her watch. The badger incident had chased the call from her mind. Aggravation
grew along with the absurd notion that calling Base, calling Frederick Stanton,
was her exclusive domain. "Makes
sense," she said, and knelt near Black Elk. "Hey, Howard, how're you
doing?" Picking up his wrist, she held her fingers over his radial pulse
and watched the seconds flit by on her digital watch: one hundred and twenty
beats per minute and thready. "I'm
good," Howard said. "I breathe better when I sit up some." Lindstrom knelt
at the man's other side. "I laid him down after he lost his lunch,"
he told Anna. "Don't
like badger?" Anna laid the back of her hand against Howard's neck. "Guess
not." Black Elk's
breathing was shallow and rapid, his skin cool to the touch. "Joseph,
get me the yellow packs," Anna said. He brought them from where they'd
been cached at the far end of the boulder and Anna and Stephen stuffed them
beneath the injured man till they'd made a pad that propped him in a
semi-sitting position. No longer able to hide his pain, Howard moaned when they
moved him. The bandages on
his arms and hands were damp. Anna pinched up the skin on the back of his arm
where the flesh was intact. It remained tented for several seconds after she
released pressure. He was losing too much fluid. "Better,
big fella?" Stephen asked when they'd settled him. Howard nodded. "I've
always wanted somebody to call me that," Anna said. Howard smiled for her
but it cost him. "Where's
my radio?" he asked. "If I had my radio I could listen for you guys.
There might be something." His mind was
wandering and Anna felt a clammy tickle of fear. "It's right here, Howard."
She took the radio off her belt and put it on his chest. He cradled it with his
ruined arms and seemed comforted. "I can
listen," he said. "You never know." Anna rocked
back on her heels and looked around. Their helmets were of plastic.
"Somebody had those old-fashioned metal hard hats," she said aloud.
"Where are they?" "John
wears one," Jennifer volunteered, and: "Here it is." The other
belonged to Black Elk. They found it half buried in the sand next to him.
"Get me some embers," Anna told Joseph. "Fill both these hard
hats. I want one at his feet and one close up. We need to keep him warm. "Paula?" Paula Boggins
looked up through a tangle of filthy hair. Anna had paid little attention to
the girl once her superficial burns had been dressed and warm clothes found for
her. When a whimper or a word did catch Anna's attention, she had written Boggins
off as weak but in no danger. Seeing the dark blue eyes through the haze of
hair, Anna noticed something else. Much as she hated the overused term
"survivor," she knew one when she saw one. She'd seen eyes like
Paula's in old photographs from World War II, and on the six o'clock news.
She'd seen them when she'd pulled injured climbers off rock faces. The eyes of
the people who made it. They crawled, fought, ate their fellows; they did
whatever they had to and they lived. "Paula,
could you do me a favor?" Anna asked with sudden respect. The girl
responded to the unaccustomed tone with a slight straightening of her
shoulders. "What?" she asked warily. "Howard's
burns are weeping. He's losing heat and fluid. I'm going to get some snow
melted and keep it warm. Could you help him drink a little every few minutes or
so?" Paula looked
behind her as if there might be someone else Anna was addressing.
"Sure," she said. By the time
Joseph came back with the coals, the water was warmed and Paula had curled up
next to the big firefighter with something resembling concern registered on her
dirty face. "Ember
mines are getting few and far between," Joseph said as Anna placed the
hard hats close enough to warm Howard but not so close they'd burn and banked
sand around them to hold them steady. "Where'd
Lawrence take off to?" Lindstrom asked. "He went
to get Anna's radio back from Barney," Joseph said neutrally. "Jesus,"
Anna growled. "I'd better go run interference." She followed
the now well-beaten trail up toward the ridge. Fog lay over everything, damp
and disheartening. Raw air sawed at her throat as her breath came faster. The
temperature hung around thirty degrees, not fluctuating with day or night.
White rime was beginning to form on the black carcasses of the trees. Cold
soaked through the sweat to chill Anna's skin and she found herself lost in a
fantasy of a hot bath and a glass of hearty burgundy. For a long
moment she wished she hadn't sworn off alcohol. It didn't seem fair to feel
guilt simply for wanting something when there was no chance in hell of getting
it. And she did want it: the bath, the booze. Every cell in her body set up a
vibration of yearning that brought saliva to her mouth. Needing a
distraction, she took the same medicine she'd prescribed for Jennifer: murder. With the
exception of Black Elk, any one of them could have killed Len. To push a sharp
blade between the ribs of an unsuspecting man didn't require a great deal of
strength. The firestorm
had descended in fury and left in a pall of suffocating smoke. Anna remembered
seeing several people when she first stumbled into the wash but with everyone
dressed alike, masked with bandannas and seen through veils of blowing smoke
and ash, she couldn't say who was who. Or where. Or when. The number of
suspects could be significantly reduced by the simple expedient of finding out who
was actually seen getting into or out of their shelter. It was possible lies would
be told but Anna doubted it. The San Juans got along well enough for the most
part, but they weren't close-knit—not enough to lie for one another. Disparate
ages, jobs, agencies, backgrounds kept them from forming the esprit de corps
often found in hot shots, the elite initial attack crews who trained and worked
together for the entire season. Howard, Joseph
and Lawrence seemed to have formed the fastest friendship but even that struck
Anna as more a friendship of convenience than a real kinship of like souls. She
doubted it would lead to an exchange of Christmas cards. Neil Page and
Paula Boggins had something going but Anna had no idea what. Page treated
Boggins with a contempt that smacked more of familiarity than dislike. Paula
didn't show an overabundance of respect on her part either but she put up with
Page as if she was used to him. Since he'd hired her, Anna assumed they knew
each other from before, their affiliation mutually gratifying on some level. They might lie
for each other, Anna thought, and wondered why. Just a gut reaction, she
decided. Page oozed sleaze and back in spike camp, Paula had come across as ...
Anna stopped walking and tried to find the right words while she caught her
breath. They came to her in the cutting voice of Patience Bittner, a
sophisticated hosteler she'd known on Isle Royale. Paula had come across as
"low rent, blue collar, waitressy." Never mind that Anna had
delivered her share of hamburgers and worked with her hands. The description
fit if taken in the truly mean-spirited sense it was meant. Who would
Lindstrom lie for? Maybe Jennifer; they had the dead Joshua in common. Sounds of a
struggle brought Anna out of her reverie and she broke into a run. Just below
the ridge she blundered into a shoving match. Lawrence Gonzales had the
Motorola radio in his hand and was fending off an enraged Hugh Pepperdine with
it. "Give it
up, Barney," he was shouting. Pepperdine, his
face engorged with blood, flecks of spittle at the corners of his mouth, was
grabbing at the smaller man in weighty but so far ineffectual lunges. His
breath came in steaming gasps and he wasn't wasting any on words. "Break it
up!" John LeFleur ran down from the ridge. "Break it up!" he
yelled again. Gonzales heard
and in the moment of his distraction, Hugh Pepperdine plowed into him. Both men
went down. Anna and John
reached them at the same time and began pulling. Pepperdine's unpracticed fists
were pummeling Gonzales's face and upper body. Lawrence wasn't fighting back
but trying to protect himself from the blows with his forearms. "Get the
son of a bitch off me," he yelled. "Come on,
Hugh. Let it go. Come on." Anna caught hold of one of Pepperdine's arms
and tried to lever him off Gonzales. Hugh was out of shape and an inexperienced
fighter but he was a big boy and she couldn't budge him. "Break it
up," LeFleur hollered a third time, grabbing Pepperdine by the collar and
attempting to drag him backward. A loose elbow
clipped Anna on the chin. Her teeth cracked shut and light sparked behind her
eyes. Letting go of Pepper-dine, she retreated a few yards, deciding the better
part of valor was to let the two idiots kill each other if they were so
inclined. Lawrence
continued in a defensive posture but Anna got the feeling of a coiled snake.
Barney'd better not push his luck, she thought, as she rubbed the ache from her
jaw and checked to see if any teeth had been loosened. "I'm gonna
kill him, John," Gonzales grunted. "Get him off me." LeFleur
jerked on Pepperdine's shoulder but Hugh was beyond reason. Anna doubted he
could even hear them. He'd gone into one of those berserker rages seldom seen
off the playground. Had he been any good at dealing destruction, Lawrence,
forty pounds lighter and several inches shorter, would have been a bloody pulp.
This was probably the first fight Hugh had been in since third grade; hence the
schoolyard tactics. Recovered, Anna
pulled herself together to give LeFleur a hand. Hugh, astride Gonzales now,
pulled back a fist. Just as she caught it in both hers, Anna saw Lawrence's face
change. Grimacing stopped, talk stopped, a cold professional look calmed even
his dark eyes. In a move as quick and precise as a snake striking, two fingers
shot out, hitting Pepperdine in the throat. Hugh's eyes
bulged, horror locked his lips back. Breath stopped with a wet choking sob. His
hand jerked free of Anna's fists not to strike at Lawrence but to claw at his
own throat as if he could pull out the dent in his pharynx. Fumbling at his
collar, Pepperdine collapsed sideways. Gonzales
scrambled to his feet. "Holy Mary Mother of God," he muttered.
"Is he going to be okay?" "You tell
me," LeFleur growled. "Anna?" She crawled
over next to Hugh. "Take it easy," she told him in a voice
intentionally laden with calm. "You're okay." She wondered if he was
or if the blow had broken the cricoid cartilage. "Just lay back, breathe
through your nose. Atta boy." Pain and
surprise had done more damage than Gonzales. As Pepperdine stopped
hyperventilating he found he could breathe. Bit by bit his chest stopped heaving
and some of the blood left his cheeks. "Sorry,"
Gonzales apologized. "He got me mad." Pepperdine
began to sputter, trying to sit up. "Lawrence,
go on up to the ridge," LeFleur ordered. "When I heard you two
locking horns, I dropped my pulaski. Get it for me, would you?" Hovering behind
the crew boss's shoulder, Lawrence stayed where he was. The sight of him
looking so concerned and unscathed was having a deleterious effect on Anna's
patient. "Is he going to be okay?" Lawrence asked solicitously, and
Anna felt Hugh twitch under her hands. "He'll be
okay," she said. "Go get John's pulaski." Lawrence backed
away half a dozen steps then turned and jogged up the slope, clods of
soot-blackened snow flying off the lug soles of his boots. "He
assaulted me" were Hugh's first intelligible words. "You saw. He
assaulted me." "Looks
like you were doing a lion's share of the assaulting," LeFleur said.
"Everybody's on edge. Nobody got hurt. But if you two go at it again
somebody's damn well going to get hurt. I'll see to it myself. Got that?" "He
assaulted me." Hugh pushed himself up into a sitting position and faced
Anna. "You saw. I'm a federal law enforcement officer in the line of duty
and he assaulted me." Anna took a
breath, counted to ten in English, then again in Spanish. "Hugh, you have
no jurisdiction. You're not in the line of duty. Period. We're all strung a
little tight right now. Let it go at that. No harm done." Pepperdine's
face closed down, his eyes hooded. "Fine. If that's the way it's going to
be. I'll take care of it myself." "Drop it,
Hugh," Anna said more sharply than she'd intended. Hugh snorted,
contempt sprayed out in a fine mist of spittle. Lumbering to his feet, he
started down the hill. Anna thought to
call after him but didn't. Better to get some ground between him and Gonzales
for the present. "God damn
it," LeFleur said. "Why the hell did the worm have to turn on my
watch? Shit. We're going to have to do something about that boy before he talks
somebody into killing him." He sat back against a charred stump and closed
his eyes. "Wish I had a smoke." "Wish I
had a drink." "Scotch." "Red
wine." "Lightweight." "I
quit," Anna said righteously. "Bully for
you." Conversation
languished. Anna curled her knees up and hugged them trying to retain what body
heat she could. "Tell me
about Len," she said after a while. "He's
dead." LeFleur didn't even open his eyes. Anna waited. "What do
you want to know?" he asked finally. "Why did
he take a job in Farmington at less pay than he'd had in Susanville?" "He got in
bad odor around these parts is my guess. He's got an ex and kids in Susanville.
Maybe she ran him off." "Was he
fired?" "Nobody's
ever fired. They just sort of move on. Usually they get promoted. Bumping some
bastard upstairs is the easiest way to get him out of your hair." A
lifetime of losing embittered his voice. "What did
he do?" Anna asked. "Lumber
leases, I think." "I mean to
get 'moved on.' " "Beats
me." "What does
he do in Farmington?" Anna tried another tack. "As little
as he can get away with." This was like
pulling teeth. Anna waited. "Oil and
gas leases. He's supposed to do the Environmental Impact Statements. As far as
I can see he just rubber-stamps them NSI—no significant impact." "Do you
know any reason somebody might want him dead?" "Do you
want 'em in alphabetical order or just how they come to mind?" "Did you
see anybody getting out of their shelters after the fire?" Anna asked
abruptly. "Just you
and Howard, why?" "Did
anybody see you?" LeFleur opened
his eyes. "Oh, I get it. I've gotten a little slow on the uptake in my old
age. You think I killed him?" Anna said
nothing. "Fuck you,
Pigeon." LeFleur closed his eyes again. After a minute had ticked by he
said: "But I would have if I'd gotten the chance. He was a slimy
S.O.B." Anna had gotten
all she was going to. She changed the subject to one closer to her heart.
"What did Incident Base have to say?" "They've
got a helicopter standing by and nearly three-quarters of a mile of road
cleared. If the weather lifts, we'll be home in time for supper. If
not..." "Did you
tell them about Howard?" "I told
'em." Both of them
knew it was meaningless. What could be done was being done. They couldn't clear
deadfall any faster because Black Elk was losing ground. "I almost
forgot," LeFleur said. "You're supposed to radio that FBI agent.
Secret squirrel stuff. He wouldn't talk to me." Frederick
Stanton wanted her to call. Anna felt an excitement all out of proportion to
the event. What was she hoping for? Some clue to the secrets of the people she
was marooned with? A key to unlock the murder? Or sweet words broadcast over
high band radio for the world to eavesdrop on? That was it and
she mocked herself. People fell in love during disasters. It was provable if
one considered statistics as fact. Plane crashes, boat wrecks, plagues,
wars—all hotbeds of romance. Something to do with keeping the species going or
reaffirming life. It's the
firestorm, the murder, she told herself. Anybody with a clean warm bed was
bound to look good. "Give me
your radio," she demanded of LeFleur. Anna was damned if she was going to
forswear all her addictions. Chapter Seventeen FREDERICK SAT INSIDE the Communications tent, his feet
planted in front of the space heater. Four long metal folding tables were
pushed against the canvas walls. Another had been placed directly under the one
light bulb, bisecting the fifteen-by-twenty-foot space. Radio equipment and
packing cases obscured the tabletops. More, along with manuals, clipboards and
myriad forms, were jammed beneath. Idly, Frederick wondered how many acres of
trees a crew had to save to make up for those cut down to provide the forms
that fed the government's firefighting machine. Between his
hands, Stanton held a chunk of pine—white pine, Burwell had told him. It was lumpy
and knotted where the branch had grown up against an unforgiving surface and
been forced to make a ninety-degree turn. Bark still clung to it in places and
it smelled pleasantly of pitch. Frederick turned it round and round, feeling
for the monkeys within. The carving was clear in his mind: two monkeys tied
together by a telephone line trying desperately to move in opposite directions.
He just needed to find the picture in the wood grain. Whittling
helped to pass the time while he waited for the phone to ring, the radio to
come to life. Investigation
was a waiting game: waiting for calls, reports, evidence; waiting in offices,
parked cars, restaurants. Waiting in the brush and in alleyways. Frederick was
good at it. Waiting was when he unfettered his mind, let the known and unknown
tumble around without any imposed order. Intuition, that moment where the whole
exceeded the sum of the parts, only came when he let go of his lists and his
plans. Whatever Anna
Pigeon's virtues were, he suspected patience—waiting—wasn't one of them. As far
as he knew she'd only worked three homicides in her career. Over the course of
twenty-four years with the Federal Bureau of Investigation, he had been
involved with so many cases he couldn't readily put a number to them. In the
early years he assisted, in the middle he ran them. More and more lately he
found himself assigning cases. Experience had given him a strong mistrust of
people. Coming to view
the world as divided into two groups, Us and The Assholes, was an occupational
hazard in law enforcement. Frederick wasn't quite that far gone, but he knew
murder led to more murder. Maybe the killers discovered how easy it was. Or how
little life really mattered. Some of them liked the power. Some got
scared. But somewhere along the line every single one of them had come to the
conclusion that the taking of another's life was the solution to their
problems. If it worked—and in the short run it usually did—the next time they
ran into difficulties they were apt to apply the same remedy. Anna was first
and foremost a park ranger. Stanton had nothing against park rangers. As a
group he rather liked them. But they'd never struck him as the cutting edge of
law enforcement. Most were too ready to believe the best of people. Not about
the little stuff—they knew everybody littered and fed the animals—but they
didn't seem to grasp the concept of true malice. Rangers worked on the premise
that evil stemmed from ignorance; that John Q. Public could be educated out of
his wicked ways. Anna wouldn't
be careful enough. She wouldn't watch her back. Unless she knew who the killer
was. Most killers were opportunistic. If Anna knew who it was she could see to
it no opportunity presented itself. Frederick set
aside his unborn monkeys and picked up the notepad beside the telephone. His
morning had not been wasted and he was forming a colorful police sketch of the
personalities Anna contended with. The eclectic nature of fire camp had brought
together strange bedfellows. Because of the small-world nature of fire fighting
and the regionalism for both local hires and interagency crews, there was a
good deal of cross-pollination. As a young
agent Frederick remembered being surprised at how often and successfully the
"do you know . . ." game was played. Professional circles were tight.
Digging down a layer or two invariably somebody knew somebody who knew you. The
same had held true when he'd pursued his investigation of the fire camp
personnel. Gonzales,
Lawrence. The Washoe County Sheriff had returned Frederick's call shortly
before eleven a.m. The case was
before his time but the charges weren't being pursued. There was little
interest in hauling Gonzales back to Nevada to stand trial. Gonzales was known
to have a quick and violent temper, the sheriff said—he knew the boy's
family—but there was no real harm in him. Reading between the lines, Stanton
guessed the sheriff believed Gonzales could knife somebody but hoped it wasn't
true. The Bureau of
Land Management in Susanville had supplied the tidbit of information Frederick
had underlined in his notes. When Gonzales was in high school in Susanville,
California, six years previously, Nims had been in charge of the lumber leasing
for BLM forest lands. Gonzales, along with a dozen other high school kids, had
worked for Leonard Nims marking timber. For reasons nobody knew, Gonzales had
dropped out or been asked to leave the project halfway through the summer. Frederick had
pressed the woman in charge of personnel to tell him why Nims had left the
Bureau for three years. She dug out Nims's file. It said only that he'd
resigned for "Personal Reasons" but she'd been a clerk then and
remembered a good deal of tension at the time of his resignation. When Nims
worked in Susanville, Duncan Foley had been the BLM forester. He'd since
retired. Stanton had the man's phone number scribbled on his pad. It was one of
the return calls he waited for. Frederick had
gleaned a little additional information on the Boggins woman. She lived in
Westwood, a logging town in the mountains between Chester and Susanville. She
had a two-year-old daughter and, though she didn't hold down a job, with the
exception of occasional work during fire season, she appeared to live fairly
comfortably without welfare or food stamps. Frederick had
tracked down Paula's two juvenile offenses to Chico, California, a valley town
about two hours' drive from Westwood. The Chico county officials couldn't
release information from sealed records over the phone but they could tell him
who bailed her out after both arrests: Neil Page. There was no
background on Page and no connection Stan-ton could find between Page, Boggins
and the murdered man prior to their work on the Jackknife fire. Two more calls
to New Mexico had uncovered some promising information on Joseph Hayhurst.
Tandy Oil and Gas was trying to get leasing rights to fifty-seven hundred acres
of BLM land near the Bisti Wilderness. Hayhurst was working with the Navajo to
get the lease stopped. The Navaho held that the drilling would desecrate an
important buffer area as well as sections of the Great North Road left by the
Anasazi. The BLM had put the project on hold pending an Environmental Impact
Statement. Leonard Nims had been on vacation, then dispatched on the Jackknife,
but he was scheduled to write that EIS as soon as he returned. Stephen
Lindstrom's supervisor returned Frederick's earlier call. He had nothing but
praise for Lindstrom's work but it was couched in such careful terms Frederick
knew there was an undercurrent of personal distaste. Lindstrom was from the Bay
Area and some of his co-workers didn't care for his big-city ways, was all
Frederick could gather from the mixture of fulsome praise and oblique snipes. Lindstrom's
supervisor had mentioned that Stephen knew Joshua Short, the man credited with starting
the Jackknife. He seemed to be implicating Lindstrom in the arson but when
pressed he reluctantly admitted that Stephen Lindstrom had been in the middle
of a five-day training seminar in Las Vegas when the fire had started and
couldn't have had any "hands on" involvement with the incident. Stanton would
pass it on to Anna for what it was worth. Lindstrom was big and strong and he
was an EMT. He'd have no trouble finding the heart in one sure stab. Hugh Pepperdine
and Neil Page were still just headings in Frederick's notebook and he waited
for the calls that would help him fill in the blanks. "Base,
this is Spike Camp Medical Unit Leader." Anna's voice
emanated from the hand-held radio Stanton had set near the phone and he jumped.
His nerves sang like stretched piano wire. Before he could grab up the
Motorola, Burwell answered. Anna asked for him and Stanton thumbed the mike
down. He held the radio tightly as if by the force of his fingers he could hold
onto Anna. The timbre of her voice was deep for a woman, strong, but she
sounded so tired and he wished he had words to buoy her up. "I've got
some information," he said into the transmitter, and was dismayed that his
words sounded so cold. "Are you ready to copy?" A pause
followed, scratching through the dead air, and he wondered what was going
through her mind. Somehow he felt he had let her down. "Clear to
copy. At least as near as I can tell. I've got John's radio, Lawrence has mine
but they should be out of range by now . . . it's a long story," she
finished wearily. Frederick
smiled. Rambling, tired, human, it warmed him to hear her lose her professional
tone. On one level he knew circumstances had undermined the formality of radio
etiquette. On another he chose to take it as a sign of friendship. Clutching at
straws, he chided himself. "How are
you doing, Anna?" He pressed his lips close to the transmitter as if that
afforded any privacy. A couple of
clicks clouded the air. "Good. I'm good" came back a little too
strong and Frederick wondered what he had done to offend. "Black Elk's in
trouble," she added. "And morale's a little strained but otherwise
we're hanging in there." Acutely aware
of the distance between them and the public nature of this broadcast, Frederick
paced the Communications tent. Even his pacing was frustrated. Tables and
equipment curbed his steps and the sloping canvas of the roof brushed his hair
if he veered from the ridgeline. "Stand
by," he said abruptly. He sounded aggravated and wished he could explain.
Forcing himself to sit down he picked up his notes. Chapter Eighteen BACK AGAINST THE body
of Paula's truck, elbows on knees, Anna rested her head in her hands. She felt
like whining and wouldn't have hesitated to do so if there'd been anyone around
to commiserate with her. Constant cold was the worst of it, more debilitating
than hunger or fear. Her time in the Trans-Pecos had brought out her exothermic
tendencies. If she let self-pity take hold, she believed she would never be
warm again. Scritching at
her scalp, rubbing off—or in—the crud that lodged there, she thought about
Frederick. She'd managed to forgive him for being comfortable and for doing his
job. By the end of the conversation she'd even said thank you with a modicum of
heartfelt warmth. When all this was behind her, she would sit with him and
talk, tell him all the details of this chapter of her life and he would
understand, understand even the things left unsaid. At least that was the
fantasy. That was always the fantasy. Cynicism stole
the fun from the dream and, forcing herself to concentrate, Anna worked through
the information Stanton had unloaded. Though he was a
good worker, Lindstrom's supervisor disliked him and suspected him of
unprovable crimes. The sheriff of Washoe County liked Lawrence though he was a
wanted felon. Not much to go on. Physical evidence was more reliable and Anna
returned to the puzzle of the shelters. First task was to see who'd been seen
leaving theirs. That would significantly narrow the playing field. Already it
was down by three: herself, Black Elk and, by necessity, Jennifer Short. Anna
hoped she hadn't made a grave error in character judgment. Her "you're the
only one I can trust" speech had been pure theater. She couldn't trust
anyone and the thought depressed her. Maybe she'd get lucky, maybe somebody saw
Short crawl out of her shake 'n' bake. Whoever was
left would have to be questioned. The safest way would be for her and Jennifer
to do the interviews together, but given the inherent anarchy of the situation
Anna doubted they would get any cooperation. Subtlety and
luck were all they had going for them. They'd have to make the best of it. Heavy breathing
caught her attention. Jennifer was puffing up from the heli-spot. "Over
here," Anna called, and Jen waved as if there could be any mistake about
who was talking to whom on the desolate ridge. She trotted over and plopped
down beside Anna. "Least
ways I'm warm." Short fanned her face with her hand. "Wait till
the sweat starts to cool," Anna said pessimistically. "You sure
know how to cheer a girl up." "Sorry.
What have you found out?" "The big
news is Barney. What happened up here anyway? He's got Howard's big ol' Buck
knife strapped to his belt and has been swaggering around like Rambo saying
he's got to defend himself." Anna groaned. "Just
telling you," Short said without rancor. "Okay."
Anna thought for a minute. "Here's what we've got. I talked with
Frederick. Washoe County doesn't seem too interested in dragging Lawrence back
for prosecution on the assault and grand theft auto. It was five years ago and
nobody cares much anymore. But Lawrence may not know that. He worked for Nims
about six years ago. He quit or got fired. There might be something in that or
Nims might have known there was a warrant out for his arrest." It crossed
Anna's mind that Jennifer was younger and prettier than she was and might be
able to get more out of Gonzales than she could but she dismissed it. There was
a chance Lawrence was dangerous. "I'll check it out. "Stephen's
supervisor has something against him. He seems to think he might have been
involved with your brother in his environmental protests." Jennifer
thought it through a minute, then shook her head. "I don't think so. Josh
was very left wing, I guess you could say. Stephen's conservative. Josh bitched
about it once or twice." "Do you
know if Stephen had something against Len?" For an instant
Jennifer looked startled, then professionalism took over. This was an
investigation, not a birthday party. Everybody was invited. "Not so's
I'd know. I hadn't met him but once till this fire. He doesn't seem to." "Okay,"
Anna said. "Joseph had a beef with Len over some land he was considering
for oil leases—Joseph's been working with the Navajo in northern New Mexico to
get it stopped. If he's passionate enough about it, it may mean something. At
the moment it's the strongest motive we've got. John's hating Nims seems a
little weak to me. And John's such a firebug I can't imagine him sullying a
natural disaster with something as mundane as murder. But he's not ruled out.
Nobody saw him getting out of his shelter. "Frederick
found out Neil Page bailed Paula out of jail a couple of times. I don't know if
it has anything to do with anything but you should talk to her." "I got
something," Jennifer burst out. Anna could see the pride and excitement on
her face and was glad somebody was having a good time. For the moment at least,
Short had forgotten about the death of her brother. "I went out to that
place you guys saw Neil and there wasn't nothing there. At least nothing I
could find. I think he was just hiding out smoking cigarettes so he wouldn't
have to share. But I met him coming back and started needling him, pretending I
knew he'd killed Len—" Anna shuddered.
"Jesus, Jen, you've got to watch it. You'll get us both killed." "No, no. I
was real discreet." Anna doubted it
but she wasn't going to waste words. "Anyway,
Neil got huffy and said I should talk to Paula. Remember those scratches on
Len's face? Well, according to Neil, Paula put 'em there. He swears he doesn't
know why." "Worth
following up on," Anna said. "See what you can get out of Paula. See
if anybody saw her getting out of her shelter." "Neil
didn't. He said she was already out when he got up. I guess that means she saw
him though." "Check it
out." Anna shoved herself to her feet. "We'd better get a move on
before we freeze to death." HOME SWEET HOME, Anna
thought sourly as they returned to the bivouac. Buck knife displayed
ostentatiously on his hip, Hugh Pepperdine paced back and forth, deepening a
blackened patch in the snow. "Nice
knife," Anna said. Hugh shot her a
filthy look. " 'Scuse
me, Barney." Jennifer started to duck past him into the shelter. Pepperdine
grabbed her upper arm. "No more Barney," he said. Short just
glared at him. After a moment Hugh let go of her. "Thank you," she
said coldly. Hugh had backed
down but Anna noticed his free hand had gone to the hilt of the knife. Pressure
was ungluing the New Jersey boy. At a guess she would have figured as much, but
she thought the stress would manifest itself a little differently. Pepperdine
was turning into a bully. He had the height and weight to make it stick and it
was as if he'd waited all his life for the opportunity. He reminded Anna of one
of the wretched little boys in Lord of the Flies. Mow many more times
would he back down, she wondered. Forcing all
contempt from her voice, she said: "I sure appreciate you giving up the
radio. Black Elk's mind is wandering some. The radio kind of ties him to
reality, I think." Pepperdine was
stone-faced. Anna couldn't tell if he was mollified or not and she didn't have
the energy to lay it on any thicker. She poked her head into the shelter. Lindstrom and
Paula flanked Black Elk. Boggins had tied her hair back with somebody's
bandanna and fed Howard tepid sips of water. Jennifer settled in the darkened
enclave with a sense of purpose. Anna left her
to worm what information she could from Paula. "Where is everybody?"
she asked Pepperdine, who was continuing his self-imposed sentry duty. He
looked at her and the hatred in his eyes hit her like a bucket of ice water. "Why?"
he said after a good fifteen seconds of silence. "You want to go crawl in
bed with your precious little Lawrence?" Shock stilled
Anna's tongue as well as her brain. It passed and was replaced by a deep sense
of unease. "You're slipping a few cogs, Hugh," she said carefully.
"The weather's bound to clear and we'll be out of here. Just hold it
together awhile. Everything's going to be all right." She laid her hand on
his arm in what she hoped was a reassuring gesture. Pepperdine
pushed it off. "That stuff won't work on me." He was so superior, so smug,
Anna's good intentions went west. "Did you
happen to see anybody getting out of their shelter after the blowup?" she
asked abruptly. "No. I did
not. When I crawled out Sir Lawrencelot was already wandering around. He could
have been out awhile for all I know." "Anybody
see you?" "Lawrence
did." Hugh looked both complacent and mean. He knew exactly why she was
asking and Anna reminded herself not to underestimate his intelligence just
because she'd taken a dislike to him. A memory of the first minutes after the
burn came to mind. When John asked where Len was, Hugh said, "He didn't
make it." John pressed him and he'd insisted it was just a guess, but
there had been no uncertainty in his voice, no speculation. He'd stated it as
fact. Pepperdine had
known Len was dead before they'd discovered the body. Despite this apparent
alibi, Anna was keeping him on her active list until she found out how he'd
come by that knowledge. "Where is
everybody?" she asked again. "Looking
for coals. John and Neil went downstream. Joseph up." "Lawrence?" Pepperdine
smirked and pointed to the north side of the creek. "Have fun," he
called after her as she climbed the bank. She didn't look back. She allowed
herself a small fantasy of shooting him. Not only would it be personally
satisfying but it might be the only way to keep him from tearing their fragile
society apart. Events had
piled on top of one another with such stunning rapidity no one had yet ventured
very far from camp. Close in the tracks and trails were a mishmash. Less than
twenty yards from the creek they sorted themselves out distinctly. The constant
temperatures preserved footprints in pristine condition. Pepperdine had
pointed north; Lawrence had found his badger north. Pursuing a hunch, Anna
followed the old trail. Thoughts blinding her, she walked without really seeing
until she reached the clearing where Neil had been sitting earlier in the day.
It seemed more like weeks. Time was definitely doing its petty pace thing. Anna considered
rechecking the scene. Hiding out and smoking was believable but there was
something about it that rang a sour note. It'll come to me, she promised
herself. Lawrence was in
search of embers. She schooled her mind. Steam, smoke, heavy fuel loads, melted
snow: those were the things he would be looking for. Squinting against the
glare, gray faded into gray, white jarred against black, and she wished she had
the eyesight of a twenty-three-year-old. The constant
fog was wearing on Anna. She suspected it was partly to blame for the creeping
insanity that darkened their minds: Black Elk's wandering, Jennifer's
depression, Paula's sullenness, Pepperdine emerging as a closet bully. Anna had spent
a year of graduate school at the University of California in Davis. She
remembered the weeks of heavy tule fog that smothered the campus for twenty-two
days in January of that year. Students were jumping from the clock tower.
Professors were beating their wives. Dense
unremitting fog filled the brain, chilled and clouded human thought processes. A hallucination
disturbed Anna's field of vision. Past the dry creek where Lawrence had bagged
breakfast, over a low ridge, the texture of the world's walls looked slightly
different. Asked to describe it, Anna would have been hard pressed to find
words. The difference was minute, a mere disturbance of the air, like the first
wavering of heat mirage rising off the desert in late morning. If she stared too
long or thought too hard she couldn't see it anymore. A set of boot
tracks branched off in that general direction and she followed them. At the
badger creek the trail veered again, the new track leading up the ridge,
zigzagging around fallen trees. Snow over ash: each print was as clear as the
painted footsteps in an Arthur Murray dance studio. At the top of
the ridge Anna could see what had drawn Lawrence so far from camp. Beyond a
shallow valley and over another hill, slightly lower than the one on which she
stood, the imperfection in the air was pronounced. Steam billowed up in clouds.
A faint smell of rotten eggs tainted the air. The view from
the second ridge was considerably more startling. In the valley below a
horseshoe-shaped depression cut into the side of the mountain. Steam poured up
in veils, sinuous, live, sentient to a tired mind. Snow had melted in a wide
irregular circle exposing gray earth and rivulets of smoking water of
improbable aquas and oranges and lavenders. The sound of bubbling—bubbles
primeval in size—percolated through the steam. Seated on a stone, his back to her,
was Lawrence Gonzales, mother naked. From her work
in the northern midwest Anna knew it wasn't uncommon to find people frozen to
death, their clothes torn off and strewn around. No one knew for sure, but the
theory was that in the late stages of hypothermia, when the body's thermostat
was going haywire, the victims felt suddenly hot and so divested themselves of
garments. Almost
instantaneous with that thought, the pieces came together. Lassen Volcanic
National Park. The entire mountain range from Canada on down was formed by
volcanic activity. Lassen Volcano had erupted in the early 1900s, Helens in
1980. Thermal activity was a common feature in the park. Mud pots, fumaroles
and boiling springs. Lawrence had found a thermal outlet. One thought
crowded all others from Anna's mind. She forgot she'd come to interrogate the
man, she forgot all the dangers, she forgot Gonzales was naked. It would be warm. "Lawrence!"
she hollered lest her sudden appearance startle him and he injure himself in
the boiling stream. "I'm
naked," he called as in warning. "That's
okay." Anna hopped the last few feet, unlacing a fire boot as she came.
Dumping herself on the rock next to him she finished unlacing and pulled her
boots off with a grunt. Lawrence had
dragged his shirt modestly over his lap but Anna was beyond noticing. Thrusting
her feet in the thermal pool next to his she threw her head back and laughed.
"Who'd've thunk it? Heaven's a fire pit stinking of sulphur. We've got to
call the Pope and let him know they've got it all wrong." To their left a
small lake, thirty or forty feet across, hissed and spat. The water backed up
against a wall of dirty-white porous soil pocked with holes, some the size of
pinpricks, some several yards across. Above the mud bluff were old growth
trees, the bark blackened and the needles scorched but the tops still green.
The Jackknife had gone around them. They would probably survive another hundred
years if no one cut them down. Steam poured
from vents and Anna could hear the dull wet plop of mud pots. For twenty yards
around the lake nothing lived, at least nothing larger than the rainbow-hued
algae that lined the runoff beds. The ground was as barren and white as an
alkali flat. The thermal
lake looked as if it came from one of the seven levels of hell. Colors were
bright and unnatural, painted by algae that lived in the differing temperate
zones. Water was opaque: milky green, then blue, then white. To the center and
rear, where the mud pots boiled, the surface simmered, heat roiling, sending up
belches of sulphur-scented steam. Lawrence's
perch was sensibly downstream from the burning lake where the water had been
cooled by springs and melting snow. Anna stripped
down to her underpants and shirt. But for Lawrence's delicate sensibilities she
would have chucked those aside as well. Sulphur water, stinking and warm, ran
from her arms and face in black rivulets. Hot air billowed around her. The rock
beneath her bare thighs was pleasantly warm. "God, this
is great," she said for the tenth time. "Be
careful," Lawrence cautioned. "There's a place like this over in the
park called Bumpass Hell because the first white guy that found it fell through
and got a leg burnt off. These places are weird. The ground is hollow
like." Gonzales had spread his trousers around so they covered his crotch
and most of his butt. He sat rigid as if afraid any movement would endanger
this careful arrangement. Anna realized
she held him captive as effectively as if he were locked in an interrogation
room and dragged her mind back to the reason she had tracked him down.
Gratitude was getting in her way. A badger and a bath: Gonzales was proving an
excellent friend. Anna shelved her generous impulses. "You know
this area pretty well?" she said for openers. "I grew up
sixty miles south of here," he replied. Anna pondered
what to say next. She was acutely aware that she was unarmed and semi-naked
within throwing distance of a lake she'd not only never swim out of but from
which her body would probably never be recovered. "Susanville?"
she asked, remembering a small red dot on the California road map. "You're
a hunter, camper, hiker—that sort of thing?" Gonzales shook
his head. "A city boy without a city. I worked around here. Not up this
far—down on the Plumas National Forest south of Westwood." "For the
Forest Service?" Anna asked. She was pushing close to potentially
sensitive areas. Reluctantly, she pulled her feet out of the warm water and stepped
into her pants. Maybe naked, Lawrence would be too shy to chase her if she had
to make a run for it. "The
BLM," he said. A note of caution crept into his voice and he was looking
uncomfortable. Unless a suspect was drunk or retarded, and even then about half
the time, there came a moment when the conversation got too close to some core
truth. Defenses went up. Anna watched for that moment with both anticipation
and dread. If it came it meant she was on to something. It also meant they were
on to her and getting what she was after became more difficult. The summer job,
the BLM was a raw nerve. She filed that away and backed off for the moment.
"Reno's fairly near here, isn't it?" she asked. Lawrence
relaxed. The change in geography soothed him. Anna was interested. Susanville
had the history of a lost summer job, Reno of assault and grand theft auto. "Eighty
miles southeast of my hometown," Lawrence said. "Get over
there much? Gamble? Take in a show?" "I used
to. I used to date a girl from Sparks. It bumps right up against Reno."
Lawrence laughed. "What?"
Anna prodded. She was just curious. If it was funny to him it was probably of
no use to her. "Nothing."
He poked his toes into the flame-colored slime at the bottom of the stream. "Come
on," Anna said. "I'm bored." "Promise
you won't tell anybody?" He looked so
charming and boyish that Anna promised. She could always break it. "This
girl's father was a jerk. A real jerk. I tossed him in the Truckee River. He
was spitting water like a whale and he got out this badge he was always
flashing to get out of traffic tickets and yelling 'I'm a federal officer, I'm
a federal officer.' " Lawrence laughed again. "The guy was a meat
inspector." Anna laughed
with him. So much for assault on a federal officer. No wonder the Washoe County
sheriff's Department had no intention of extraditing the perpetrator. "Did
he drown?" Anna asked to keep the story going. "Nah. It
wasn't that deep. It was August. He didn't even catch a cold. Me and Justine
jumped in his old Thunderbird and left him there dripping and waving his meat
badge." That must have
been the grand theft auto. Anna was relieved. There were still a lot of
questions about his summer working for Nims but this wasn't the healthiest
place to ask them. Anna pulled on her boots and began lacing them up. For the
first time in what seemed eons her feet were warm. "Too bad we can't
bottle this and take it back to camp," she said. By the time they'd
traversed the three-quarters of a mile to the creek bed any water they took with
them in their plastic canteens would be cold. "Could you
turn around?" Lawrence asked. "I'm going to put my pants on." Anna turned her
back on the boy. He'd never know what an act of faith it was. "We could
bring Howard up here," Lawrence suggested. "It's warmer. Maybe he'd
feel better." The thought had
crossed Anna's mind but she'd discarded it. "I don't think we'd better
move Howard until we have to." "It's bad
then?" Lawrence asked, and Anna respected the concern in his voice. "It's
bad." When they were
within earshot of the bivouac, Anna returned to the subject of Leonard Nims.
"When you worked with the Bureau of Land Management, what did you
do?" "Marked
timber." Gonzales was walking in front of her and Anna noted the slight
hitch in his stride. "You
worked for Leonard Nims?" Anna gave up pussyfooting. There wasn't time and
Lawrence was already on his guard. He stopped and
turned to face her. Anna stopped as well, keeping ten feet of trail between
them. "Checking up on me?" Anna made no
reply. The answer was obvious. Behind
Lawrence's dark eyes decisions were being made. Anna could see them working
across his even features. None of the early warning signs of impending
violence—tensing, changing the center of gravity, fist clenching, eyes
skittering— manifested itself, so Anna stood her ground. "There was
a wildfire," Lawrence said finally. "Somebody lit it on purpose. Len
said he was going to say I did it." "Did
you?" "No. Len
told me to but I didn't. He must've got somebody else to do it for him." "Len told
you to light it?" Anna was just confirming what she'd heard. The
information was too new to process. "Yeah. It
was a bad summer. Everybody was out of work. Fire fighting's good money. It
happens all the time." "Len
wasn't out of work." Lawrence shrugged.
"You think I'm making it up. Len said everybody would. So I lit out." "I don't
think you're making it up," Anna said slowly. She didn't know if he had
all the facts straight, but she didn't doubt that he believed his own version.
"That must have been hard to take." "You're
going to pin his murder on me, aren't you." Gonzales wasn't asking. His
eyes narrowed, weight shifted, fists balled. Fear tuned up Anna's muscles,
readying to fight or run. "I'm not
pinning anything on anybody," she said evenly. "I'm just asking
questions. Did you see Hugh getting out of his shelter?" More than an
answer, Anna needed to change the subject. "He was
already out. He helped peel the damn thing off me." Gonzales didn't
strike Anna as a thinker. He was a doer. She doubted he'd wasted much time
figuring out the importance of fire shelters: how many, who was where, who
could prove they had one. Pepperdine, on the other hand, was a thinking man, an
educated man. He would have figured it out. Somebody was
lying. Given the choice of who, Anna tended to lean toward the man clever
enough to come up with a reason he thought he needed to. Chapter Nineteen ANNA COULDN'T REMEMBER ever having been so tired. Her
wristwatch told her it was close to one in the afternoon. Her stomach reminded
her it was way past lunchtime. The gray skies told her nothing. It could be
dawn or dusk or anywhere in between. The brief respite from the cold the hot
springs had afforded was just a memory. The chill had returned, sunk back into
her bones. It would have been worth the walk back up the hill to be warm again
but Jennifer and Stephen had gone and Anna stayed to watch Howard. Soon after
she'd relieved Stephen, Howard had fallen into an uneasy sleep. Paula Boggins,
faithful to the job Anna had given her, took the opportunity to slip off to the
"ladies' room." Anna smiled, the superfluous trappings of
civilization suddenly striking her as dear, precious; humankind touching and
admirable in its usually futile attempts to rise above a less than divine nature. John, with Hugh
trailing officiously after, had gone to make the call to Base. Anna was just as
glad. She needed time to think. Then she needed to talk with Frederick in
private. Or what passed for private over the airwaves. Leaning against
the boulder in the semidarkness of the makeshift tent, she closed her eyes and
hoped for rest if not sleep. Both eluded her. Fragments of conversations,
images, ideas, drifted through her mind. Gonzales,
boyish and earnest, chucking a meat inspector into the Truckee. Gonzales
leaving the summer job because he was suspected, accused of, or framed for
arson. Either Len had
falsely accused Lawrence or he had known of the arson. Six years ago: it seemed
a little late in the game for revenge but grudges had been held longer and with
less provocation. Nims might have
been blackmailing Lawrence, threatening to report the arson. No. Anna
shuffled that card to the bottom of her mental deck. Nims would be in just as
much hot water for not reporting it when it happened. Besides, Lawrence didn't
have anything but youth and good looks. Sex? Could Nims have been blackmailing
Lawrence for sexual favors? Anna could easily see Lawrence killing a man for
that. But not six years later in a firestorm. He'd have beat him to death with
his fists the first time the subject came up. Lawrence said
Nims ordered the fire set. Could he have been blackmailing Len? That made as
little sense as the other way around. Nims was right: nobody would have
believed the kid then and even less so now. Unless Lawrence had found proof. Still, it was
Nims who'd wound up dead. Blackmailers didn't tend to kill their victims. No
profit in it. Then there were
the lies. Either Lawrence had lied about Hugh seeing him exit his shelter or
Pepperdine had lied. Since Anna put her money on Pepperdine, she decided to
grant Lawrence Gonzales at least temporary amnesty and moved on. Hugh Pepperdine
had known Nims was dead before he should have. Hugh had, Anna was convinced,
lied about Lawrence seeing him get out of his fire shelter. Pepperdine was a
veritable casserole of modern-day neuroses. Anna wished she could turn him
loose in Molly's Park Avenue clinic for an hour or two and get a psychiatric
profile on him. Insecurity teamed up with conceit, braggadocio with cowardice, selfishness
with a need to be admired. Pepperdine was dysfunctional—to put it politely—and
he was lying, but Anna couldn't figure out why. So far she'd heard nothing that
connected him in any way with Leonard Nims. He didn't appear to have done
anything sufficiently interesting in his short life to make him a candidate for
blackmail. And Anna doubted he had the muscle memory to shove a knife into
another man's ribs. Violence is
learned. She remembered practicing kicking till her back ached, swinging a
baton until she could no longer lift her arms. Practicing technique was part of
it but just as important was teaching the body to respond without having to
wait for orders from a mind that might be otherwise engaged. Women—and
momma's boys like Hugh Pepperdine—had a harder time of it. Movies, books,
television, myths and wives' tales taught little girls to shriek and throw up
their hands in despair. Mind and body had to be taught to overcome programmed
helplessness. Lawrence
Gonzales had the muscle memory. So did Joseph, Anna realized. When she'd
startled him, he'd swung on her with a movement so ingrained it was not
precipitated by conscious thought. He'd not learned that in art history class. Stanton said
Joseph Hayhurst was working to block an oil lease on what he believed to be a
culturally significant site. Surely that wouldn't be grounds for murder. Not
that one Leonard Nims more or less was equal in value to an irreplaceable
historical artifact, but because Nims was a bureaucrat, a cog in a very large
machine. He'd be replaced. There was no way one could kill them all, though
Anna suspected activists often fantasized about it. Removing Len
would be, at best, a temporary solution. Unless it was a foregone conclusion
that Len would okay the lease where another would not. What had LeFleur said?
Nims rubber-stamped oil lease applications "NSI," No Significant
Impact. The oil drillers must have been grateful. How grateful? What would it
be worth to them in cold, hard cash? Lawrence said
Nims ordered him to light a wildfire, people needed the work. How much? In
Susanville Nims had been in a position to hire local firefighters. What would
it be worth to a man out of work, trying to feed a family? Anna opened her
eyes. She had a couple of homework assignments for Frederick Stanton next time
they made contact. If Nims was in the business of taking kickbacks for favors
rendered, Joseph might want him dead. Who else?
LeFleur would be better off professionally exposing Nims than killing him. Neither Stephen
nor Jennifer had motive as far as Anna knew but they didn't have alibis either.
Out of necessity Anna had granted Jennifer temporary amnesty. Much as she would
like it to, that couldn't include Stephen. Stephen had the knowledge to pierce
Len's heart at one go. Anna believed he had the strength of character to share
his fire shelter when the chips were down. Odd that in this murder she must
first find the person kind enough to save the victim's life—unless the murderer
recognized the situation as a dream-come-true from the beginning. Unlikely,
Anna thought. Too much going on for detailed plotting. Black Elk
moaned and jerked in his sleep. Anna laid her hand on his chest hoping to
comfort him. He opened his eyes and looked into hers but she doubted he was
seeing her. "How're you
doing, Howard? Can I get you anything?" The big man
didn't answer. Anna moved and his eyes didn't follow. Whatever he saw, it was
not of this world. "Len shouldn't have done it," he said clearly.
"Paula wasn't hurting anybody." Howard was
dreaming or delirious and Anna felt a stab of alarm. Curiosity overcame it.
Feeling like a heel even as she did it, she pressed him: "What shouldn't
Len have done?" Black Elk
hadn't heard her. He closed his eyes and his body relaxed. Whatever alarm had
gone off in his fevered brain had been answered and he fell into a doze. Leaning back
again, Anna closed her eyes as well. Unless Howard was totally lost in dreams,
Len had done something to Paula Boggins. Perhaps the something over which Paula
had clawed his face. Jennifer had been questioning Paula; probably some of the
conversation had soaked into Howard's consciousness, hence the outburst. According to
Stanton, Paula had been arrested twice. Page had bailed her out twice. She
lived fairly comfortably with no visible means of support. Boggins might be
living off an inheritance or alimony but if not she was getting paid for
something that went unrecorded. Odds were it was illegal. That being the case,
it was possible Len had been blackmailing her and/or Neil if he was in partnership
with her. She and Neil had a relationship that spoke of familiarity and
tolerance without affection. That smacked of a business relationship based on
mutual need or profit. It made more
sense to Anna than the Gonzales/Nims scenario. Boggins could knife someone if
she had to, Anna would lay money on it. Paula would do whatever she had to to
get by. Page didn't seem an unlikely source of violence either. Anna had a
hunch Paula's means of support might be illuminating. She added to her list of
things a suggestion she needed Frederick to track down. More out of
habit than because there was anything she could do for him, Anna checked
Howard's pulse and breathing, then settled down to ponder Neil Page. Page acted
suspicious, if that counted for anything. He was always creeping off by
himself, anxious to cast any particles of blame, however small, on someone
else. He'd been quick to deflect interest from himself by telling Jennifer
Paula and Nims had quarreled and Paula had scratched Len. Page also insisted
Paula had seen him getting out of his shake 'n' bake. Should that turn out to
be true, it effectively let him off the hook. Too bad, Anna thought. So far it
was a tossup between him and Pepperdine as to who she'd most like to pin a
homicide on. Scooting as
close to Howard as she could, Anna laid her arm across his chest to share her
warmth with him. As soon as Jennifer returned they could compare notes. Till
then she would try and get some rest. Chapter Twenty SLEEP HAD FINALLY overtaken Anna and in her dreams she was warm and
fed and unafraid. When the sound of fabric rubbing against itself intruded, her
mind, loath to desert the comfort it had found, attributed it first to window
curtains floating in a gentle breeze, then to the swish of starched petticoats,
a sound dredged from so deep in her subconscious all she could come up with to
account for it were the ruffled squaw dresses she and Molly had been given for
Sunday school when they were children. The picture was so alien it woke her and
she found herself slumped under the fire shelters. The arm she'd draped across
Black Elk's chest tingled from being too long in one position and her lungs
hurt from trying to soak up oxygen around the smoke-borne debris lodged in the
tissues. Jennifer Short
had returned. She stunk of sulphur and the top layer of grime on her face had
been sluiced to a translucent gray. "What time is
it?" Anna asked, as if it mattered. Short looked at
her wristwatch. "Coming on two." Anna had slept
less than an hour but she felt better for it. Carefully, so she wouldn't wake
Howard, she pinched up the sleeve of her shirt and hauled her arm off his
chest. He didn't stir but the sleep that claimed him was more akin to
trauma-induced unconsciousness than true rest. At least he was still breathing,
though ragged gurgling sounds attested to the effort. Anna laid the back of her
hand against his neck. He was hot to the touch. Fever boded ill but the
over-warm skin felt good and she left her hand there in hopes an exchange would
benefit both of them. Jennifer
settled down in the gloom near Black Elk's knees and stretched her hands toward
one of the metal hard hats Joseph had filled with coals. Her fingers trembled. "What did
you think of that weird lake?" Anna asked. Jennifer didn't
reply. She didn't even raise her eyes. The yoke of depression Anna had thought
thrown off was back, pressing down on her shoulders, bowing them till it looked
as if it must be causing physical pain. "Jen!"
Anna said more loudly. Finally the
younger woman looked up. Her eyes were as dull and opaque as the waters of the
thermal spring. "You look
like shit," Anna said kindly. "You've caved in somehow. What were you
guys doing up there?" "Nothing.
Washing. Like that." Jennifer lowered her eyes again and pushed her shaking
hands nearer the makeshift brazier. "Coals are near dead." "We'll
find more," Anna said, though she was far from certain they would. The
Jackknife had consumed all the fuel for miles. All they had left were her
leavings. "What did
you get out of Paula?" she asked, hoping to engage Jennifer's mind. Short just
shook her head. "She saw Neil get out of his shelter. That's about
it." That minimal exchange seemed to exhaust her and she hung her head,
staring sightlessly at dead embers. Anna sat up
straight and looked Jennifer hard in the face. "Something happened up at
the lake. You've folded up on me like a cheap umbrella." Jennifer sighed
so deeply the air caught in her damaged lungs and came out on a dry whispering
cough. "Josh . . . Stephen said . . ." She ran out of air and sat for
a moment without speaking. With an effort she sucked in a lungful and began
again, the words coming quickly. "Stephen said everybody thinks Josh lit
the fire—this fire—on purpose." She looked up at Anna, waiting for her to
say it wasn't true. Anna floundered
around for a serviceable lie but she was tired and didn't come up with one
quickly enough. Jennifer
crumpled, resembling a rag doll whose stuffing has all leaked away. "Being
he's gone they can say anything. Pin it on him. Like it doesn't matter. Like he
won't care that what he'll be remembered for won't be any of the good things he
did but for burning down California." No tears stood in her eyes, they
were dry and rimmed with red, but her voice was choked with them and for a
minute she was unable to go on. Anna cast about
for something comforting to say. "Not everybody says arson," she
tried. "Some figure he just let the campfire get away from him—" "That's
crap!" Jennifer snapped, and Anna was silenced. "Josh wasn't stupid and
he knew all that Woodsy Owl shit. Jesus! People think a gay man can't rub two
sticks together and make a fire. Give me a break." Anger gusted and was
gone, leaving Jennifer once again empty. "Josh didn't let his fire get
away. That's crap," she finished softly. To Anna it
seemed a little thing, but in grief people latched onto minutia. At least it
was graspable and, with luck or hard work, sometimes even reparable. Time and
again she'd seen people who'd lost a child or spouse to accident or disease
dedicate the remainder of their lives to a crusade against whatever had taken
them. It was
something to do, Anna supposed. It provided direction and a reason to get out
of bed mornings. Maybe it made them feel closer to those they'd lost. "If he
didn't do it, maybe somebody else did," Anna suggested. "When we get
out of here, I'll talk to the Forest Service; see if we can go over the arson
investigation reports." "Don't.
It's crap." For the moment
Anna let it go. Her bag of tricks was empty. "So." She leaned back
against the boulder and pounded her heels gently in the sand to work some blood
back into her posterior. "Paula said she saw Neil get out of his shelter
after the fire?" Jennifer
nodded. "Neil said
the same thing so I guess we'll call it true. What the hell, I'm feeling
magnanimous." Jennifer didn't
so much as smile. "I saw
Howard, so did John. That's two down." "Three,"
Jennifer said. "I was there when Stephen unwrapped himself." Anna felt a
mild sense of relief. "Good. Neil, Howard, Stephen. Anybody see you?"
she asked hopefully. "Nobody."
Though she had to know why Anna was asking, Jennifer didn't seem to care. Conversation
stopped as Paula Boggins pulled aside the shelter serving as a partial doorway
and crept in. Her movements were stiff and careful. The second-degree burns
would be hurting her. Probably worse than Howard's were hurting him. Ignoring the
other women, she crawled over by Black Elk and felt of his brow and cheeks.
"He's hot," she said accusingly, and Anna felt she'd failed in her
duties. "Maybe I should put some wet cloths on him, cool him down like you
do little kids?" Anna wished she
knew more of medicine. Conserving heat was important but the man was feverish.
Either way Black Elk's energies were being spent and he needed all the strength
he could get. "Not cold," Anna suggested. "Dip a cloth in
warmish water and wring it out good before you wipe his face. Watch him close.
See if it seems to be helping any." Paula turned to
the task with the grace of a natural-born nurse. "You're
good at that," Anna said. "What do you do for a living?" "I got a
kid," Paula said as if that was an answer. Maybe it was. "No
job?" Paula gave Anna
a dirty look and for a minute Anna thought she wasn't going to get any more out
of her hut Boggins wasn't the type to suffer in silence. "You think
everybody's got to get all got up in some kind of uniform and march around like
a man or they ain't working? You got your head up your ass, lady." Anna whistled
to prove it wasn't so and it amused Paula. Anger dissipated. Grudgingly, she
said: "I work out of my home." The phrase
sounded rehearsed, the words not those Paula would have strung together
herself. "What do
you do?" Anna pressed. "Different
things." Paula wrung black water from a black neckerchief then tenderly wiped
it across Black Elk's face. "Mostly I sell my pictures. I'm an artist, you
know." She tossed her matted hair and Anna knew she was lying but it was a
lie she was in love with and Anna knew better than to challenge it. "Cool,"
she said, and busied herself stirring the dying coals in the fire pit.
"Paula, why did you scratch Leonard Nims's face?" she demanded
suddenly. Paula twitched
as if Anna had struck her and for a moment it looked as if she would bolt, but
she held her ground. Sullen-ness settled over her features, robbing her of
years till she looked no more than sixteen. "He was messing with me,"
she said. "Not that it's any of your business." Anna'd figured
that but she wanted Paula to say it in so many words. "Did he get
fresh?" Paula smirked
and Anna realized how naive and old-fashioned "fresh" must sound to
the young woman. "Fresh as
milk straight from the cow," Paula said, the smirk still in place. "There was
more to it than that," Anna said. "You can talk to me about it now or
the incident commander when we get out of here." For an instant it looked
as if the threat was going to bear fruit, then Paula's sense of
self-preservation kicked in. "I don't gotta
talk to nobody," she said. "I know my rights." She dipped
the filthy rag again and bathed Howard's temples. She was right.
Anna had no leverage, nothing to barter with or hold over her. "I've got
to go up to the ridge to call Base," she said. "Coming, Jen?" Jennifer shook
her head. "Come
on," Anna urged. "I need you there." "No. You
don't." Anna had lost
her. The tentative hold she'd had on Jennifer's attention had been broken and
Short was slipping away again. "The
weather will break soon," Anna said. "It's got to." Neither of the
women replied. Steeped as it
was in pain and hopelessness, the interior of the tent suddenly became
intolerable. The gestalt of suffering threatened to topple Anna's carefully
maintained defenses and she had to escape. Pushing herself to her feet, she
stumbled out with what she knew was unseemly haste. Once in the open, she
gulped down air like a woman nearly suffocated. Jennifer's
relapse had shaken her more than she could have predicted. Until then she'd not
known how lonely this ridge was, how isolated she was from her fellows. In
times of disaster people bonded, took comfort from one another, drew strength.
Len's murderer had robbed them of that. Warranted or not, Anna had put her
trust in Jennifer and in return she'd found courage. Without trust very little
that was good in humans could survive. People were
bizarre, she thought, remembering how when monsters rustled in the closet she
and Molly would find each other and so the courage to face any imagined
villains. As if two little girls were significantly more daunting to your
average axe murderer than one. Safety in
numbers was imprinted on the genetic code. With adulthood and its attendant
disillusionment, Anna thought she'd eschewed that particular maxim. Evidently
not. "Jen, come
with me," she hollered back toward the boulder. Silence was her answer and
she turned away. Shapes were
shifting. Blackened snags were being eaten away by encroaching hoarfrost. Snow
was patterned by booted feet. Only the sky remained unchanged and unchanging:
still, breathless, dead gray-white—the color of fish bellies. Anna stood in
the ice-fog trying to remember what it was she was doing, where she'd been
going when she'd exited the tent so precipitously. Frederick Stanton, she
thought, and was immoderately cheered. In all of Len's
horrid little life Anna'd yet to find one worthwhile thing he'd accomplished.
In his sordid little death she'd been given a reason to call Stanton every
three hours. For that she was grateful to the deceased. "Moderately Useful
Dead"; picturing that on Nims's tombstone cheered her further and she attacked
the climb to the ridge with something approximating enthusiasm. Just below the
heli-spot she met with John and Hugh. Pepperdine was doing the talking. About
what, Anna couldn't hear, but he moved his lips earnestly and shook a finger in
the air just often enough one wanted to snap it off. LeFleur had the look of a
man not listening but to whom the effort did not come cheap. "They
haven't done anything," Hugh called down before Anna had a chance to ask
what the news was from Base. LeFleur tried
to silence him with a look but Pepperdine was immune to subtlety. "Not a
mother-frigging thing." Apparently
after the "dude" episode Hugh'd lost his nerve for colorful language.
Anna looked to John. He pawed his pocket. Still no smokes. "They're
working on it," he said wearily. "Six sawyers and a D-8 Cat. It's a
bitch of a job. Treadwell says they've cleared over three-quarters of a mile.
Given they've only been at it six hours, that's damn good." The speech was
to educate Pepperdine. If it registered, he didn't show it. "We could be
here a couple more days," he said. "That's bullshit. This is the
1990s." "The
weather'll break," John and Anna said almost in unison. Even in stereo it
sounded hollow. "They
won't risk a chopper after dark," John said. "Unless this stuff lifts
in the next hour or so, we'll be here at least one more night." To Anna, to all
of them, that seemed a long time. Black Elk very possibly would not survive it.
Jennifer would have to be watched, made to drink, to stay warm, to eat if any
more food presented itself. Paula, surprisingly, was doing well. Maybe she
could pull Howard through. There was enough fight in her to withstand nearly
anything, Anna guessed. At heart
Jennifer Short had that kind of strength. Anna had seen it. Joshua was her
Achilles' heel. Everybody had one. It was just bad luck Jennifer's had been hit
at this point in time. "Where are
you headed?" John asked. "Up to the ridge for secret squirrel
stuff?" "Calling
Stanton." Anna felt self-conscious admitting it on two counts: the
investigation with its surrounding secrecy that further alienated her from the
group and each from the other, and because she was afraid her personal agenda
stuck out like a sore thumb. "He the
boyfriend?" John asked. Trust your
paranoia, Anna thought. A quick denial leapt to the tip of her tongue but she
shook it off. "More or less," she said shyly. Better they think her a
fool than a threat. "Sir
Lawrencelot's going to be jealous," Hugh said. Anna stared,
started to count, then gave it up as a lost cause. "If you get a minute
later, John, could you kill Hugh for me?" "Sure
thing. Give the Feds my best." LeFleur started down the hill. Anna didn't
envy him the news he carried. Though the others knew what to expect, hope—and
so disappointment— springeth eternal. She took half a
dozen steps up the trail. Hugh followed. She stopped and turned. "I'm going
with you to make the call," he said before she'd had time to challenge
him. "I'm law enforcement. You're working without backup. That's against
policy." Anna eyed him.
Hugh's arms were folded across his chest, his jaw set in what, on his peevish
countenance, passed for determination. She'd never been adept at reading body
language but Pepperdine's was loud and clear. If he'd had four legs he would
have been a mule. Rational argument
was jettisoned. "I'm calling my boyfriend. Don't bother me." "That's a
crock." "Either
I'm a murder investigator or a prick tease," Anna growled. "You can't
have it both ways." "Females
can though?" Anna gave up.
"Go away." She took two steps more. He took two. She stopped. He
stopped. This could easily degenerate into a "did-too-did-not,
your-mother-wears-army-boots," childish squabble. Anna'd never been good
with children. Except for Alison and Bella, the daughters of women at Isle Royale
and Mesa Verde, she didn't even know any. And Ally and Bella were more close
personal friends than children. Going back to
basics, Anna decided telling Mom was the best course. "If you don't quit
I'm going to call John and have him drag you kicking and screaming back down
the hill." Pepperdine took
a belligerent stance, his hand on the stolen knife. Seconds ticked by. Anna was
betting he didn't have the nerve to face John LeFleur. She won. "I
wouldn't dream of interfering with your love life," Pepperdine sneered, and
turned toward camp. Anna watched until he was out of sight below the brow of
the hill. "FREDERICK," ANNA SAID. His voice mellowed her and she
snuggled back against the truck with a feeling akin to comfort. "How are
you doing, Anna?" He sounded so
genuinely concerned she felt that weak and weepy sensation building up.
"Howard's going downhill," she said to get the subject on neutral
ground. "But the rest of us are holding up fairly well. I don't suppose
you've got any good news for me?" "These
guys are moving mountains down here but they've got more to move. No good news.
The front is moving slowly. It'll probably clear before we get the road open if
that makes you feel any better." It didn't, but
to keep her credit good, Anna said she was glad to hear it. Crunching
caught her ear and she stopped breathing. "Stand by," she whispered
into the mike, her attention on listening. Snow falling
off a branch. Except there were few branches left and the snow had been
cemented on by the lingering frost. Silence reassured her. "I've got
some homework for you if you're ready to copy," she said. "Go
ahead." Anna could
picture Frederick surrounded by lists, pen in hand, his dark head bent, the
stick-straight hair falling over his forehead. The picture brought a smile to
her lips. She told him of Lawrence Gonzales's accusation. "Check out Len's
reputation in Susanville," she said. "And Paula Boggins's run-in with
Nims as well as her invisible income." Anna outlined her suspicions
briefly. Then she told
him of Jennifer Short's tumble back into depression. "If you could dig up
something that cleared Josh of the arson charge, it might help. Even if it only
seemed to," Anna added, giving him tacit permission to, if not lie, then
put the most favorable twist on the facts. Frederick
responded to this last assignment with a warmth that at first pleased Anna,
then became irksome. Had an inquisitor put her in thumbscrews she would have
been forced to admit that Stanton's obvious concern for Jennifer was making her
a wee bit jealous. Since there wasn't a thumbscrew for a thousand miles, she
shrugged it off. "Can I get
anything else for you?" Stanton asked when she'd finished. "A large
pepperoni, extra cheese, extra onions." Behind her,
hidden from view by the truck, Anna heard the same sound that had alarmed her
earlier. It was closer. Quietly she
pushed herself to her knees and looked over the hood. Black-and-white landscape
camouflaged hummocks, piled snags, hollows. Hiding would be easy. A rustling so
tiny it seemed only a tickle in her inner ear held her attention. "John?"
she tried her radio. No answer. LeFleur had his radio off, conserving the
battery. Base was helpless to interfere, still she needed to let someone know
what was going on. "Frederick?" "I'm
here." "I've got
company, please monitor." "Anna?"
Stanton sounded worried and it pleased her. "Stand
by," she said, and switched the Motorola off. Chapter Twenty-One SENSES HONED TO an uncomfortable edge by the furtive sounds, Anna
listened. From her stomach she heard the badger growl for company; breath
rasped in her ears—the body clamoring for the necessities of life. Consciously
she slowed her breathing, forced air deep into her lungs. With oxygen
came a semblance of calm. The ridge was bathed in a silence so deep as to be
unnatural. From her years in the backcountry, Anna knew she could settle into
that silence, wait it out. Few people could, and it put time on her side.
Leaning against the remaining fender, she made herself comfortable and focused
on seeing, hearing, breathing, staying alert and in the moment. The wait wasn't
prolonged. Humanity hates a silence the way nature abhors a vacuum. To her left
she heard movement. Ice had made the snow as brittle as ground glass. Every
footstep reverberated. On impulse,
Anna shouted: "Hugh!" The only
response was a crunching rearrangement of body parts on snow. Noise pinpointed
location: a pile of downed snags twenty feet from where she stood. Since it had
neither color nor shadow, she'd not realized it was big enough to hide anyone.
"Come out from behind that deadfall," she called. "You've got to
be getting cold hunkered down like that. Don't be such an ass." The insult
gouged Pepperdine out of hiding. A yellow hunchback materialized above the
snags—Hugh's back with its yellow pack strapped firmly in place—then his face
as he pushed himself up. They stared at
each other across a field of white. Anna was at a loss for words. Those that
came to mind were of the four-letter variety and inherently unproductive. What
was passing through Pepperdine's mind, she could only guess at. Embarrassment
had flitted across his face, anger chasing it quickly away. His brain was in
overdrive, she suspected, spinning desperately in an attempt to turn the
situation around to where he wasn't the idiot. "I need
your radio," Hugh said, as if that was what he'd come for. "Why? You
seem fairly adept at sneaking and eavesdropping. No sense in carrying the extra
weight." "I suppose
you were planning on keeping the fact that Sir Lawrencelot is an arsonist under
wraps." Hugh changed tactics. "Did it
ever cross your so-called mind that he killed Len to keep him from telling? Or
is the mama lion protecting her mate?" Words were to
Pepperdine what whiskey was to some men. Anna could see him getting drunk on
his own verbiage. With it, he found the courage to step out from behind the
screen of burned logs. His eyes locked on hers in an unwinking stare and she
recalled one of her instructors saying when you saw that look, get ready to
fight or make love. Casually, she rebalanced
herself, got her fanny off the fender, moved her weight to the balls of her
feet. "We only protect our young," she said. "I don't know where
you're getting all this stuff from but it's growing a bit thin." Hugh snorted.
"You've been sniffing around Lawrence since day one. If you'd seen him
facedown in the dirt whimpering like a girl, maybe you'd lose your taste for
Mexican." More words,
more courage. Anna didn't like it. Pepperdine had a screw loose somewhere and
she felt inadequate to handle him. "What put a burr under your saddle
about me and Lawrence? I hardly know the guy. I'm old enough to be his
mother," she threw in for good measure. "I saw you
and sonny boy at that hot springs lake ... Mom." The coupe de grace
delivered, Hugh took several steps toward her. "I'll be taking that radio
from now on." "I'll tell
you what," Anna said. "Howard's feeling so bad I doubt he'd miss his.
When we get back down the hill, let's ask him." "The
battery's dead in Howard's." Anna had
switched hers out with Howard. He needed the comfort; she needed the
communication. Evidently Pepperdine had already taken the liberty of
"confiscating" Black Elk's radio a second time. Hugh advanced a
couple more steps. "I'll be taking that radio." "You and
whose army?" Anna meant it as a joke, a way of lightening the mood and
underlining the absurdity of the situation. Pepperdine took it as a challenge.
He pushed his brush jacket back like a TV gunslinger and began fingering the
hilt of Black Elk's Buck knife. "Stop
playing with that damn knife," Anna snapped. "You're making me
crazy." "This
knife?" Hugh said innocently, and pulled the thing from its sheath. He
turned the blade this way and that as if catching the light. "This knife
scares you, doesn't it?" Anna said
nothing. She was racking her brain for any kernels of information her sister
might have let fall when discussing her psychiatric practice on the handling of
dangerous lunatics. Pepperdine made
a feint toward her and when she flinched, he laughed. "Give me
the knife," she said evenly. "Give me
the radio." Anna could see
no harm in that. Back in camp, when she had help, she could always get it back.
Hugh could do less damage with a Motorola than with a weapon. "Sure."
She pulled it from its leather holster. Hugh's face took
on a crafty look, taking her easy capitulation as a sign of his power. "No
deal," he said. Anna raised the
radio to her lips and thumbed down the mike button. "Frederick, are you
still standing by?" Hugh rushed
her. Instinct told
her to run. Her legs quivered with the need to comply. But something warned her
flight would further excite Pepperdine. She'd seen small dogs in hot pursuit;
the moment the cat stopped the little beasts invariably backed off. Hugh wasn't
grasping the knife like he knew how to use it. The hilt was in his palm and his
index finger extended along the blade, the way children are taught to hold a
knife when cutting their food. His arms were in front of him, close together as
if he intended to tackle rather than slash her. These things
were noted in the seconds it took him to close the distance between them. The
observations were mildly reassuring but the look on Pepperdine's face was not.
Committed to an insane act, he was intent on carrying it through. At Anna's back
was the truck. She'd effectively limited her escape routes. Dodging left or
right was likely to result in some portion of her person getting pinned between
the iron and Hugh's bulk. Reflexes
superseded thought; she threw herself up and back, her butt landing on the
hood. Crablike, she scrabbled across the ice-slicked surface. Hugh dove
after. The knife collided with Anna's left ankle, cutting into her boot
leather. Black Elk kept his equipment honed and in good condition. Anna didn't
thank him for it. Kicking out,
she connected with Hugh's shoulder. Recoil sent her off the far side of the
hood. Breath was knocked out on impact but there was no time to give in to the
shock. Overcoming the panic of airlessness, she pushed herself to her feet. Hugh was
stretched across the hood like a stag brought home from the hunt. He'd be on
top of her in a heartbeat. With the knife clutched now more in the fashion of a
weapon than a butter knife, he clawed at the hood, trying for purchase. The Motorola
was still in Anna's grasp. With all the strength she could muster, she brought
it down on Pepperdine's wrist. He screamed and his fingers flew open, the knife
skittering down the hood and into the snow. Anna dropped
the radio and grabbed Pepperdine by the hair and the back of his collar. Using her
weight she pulled. Ice helped and Hugh's two hundred pounds slid across the
hood, shot out and fell; a belly flop into the frozen snow. Before he could
recover, Anna jumped on his back, one knee in his sacrum, the other on the
small vertebrae of his neck. With both hands, she grabbed one of his and
twisted it up behind his back. Writhing, Hugh
tried to buck her off. Anna cranked
down on his arm. "Lay still or I'll bust it. Swear to God, I will." Pain did what
logic could not and Hugh stopped struggling. Both of them
were breathing hard. Seconds ticked by. Anna was trying to figure out what to
do next. He was too big to control, too crazy to let go. "Okay,"
he panted. "Let me up. Come on, Anna, don't be a bitch." A laugh barked
out of Anna's lungs. Hugh was whining, apparently totally oblivious to what had
just transpired. "You've got to be kidding. You just attacked me with an
eight-inch Buck knife. I'm never going to let you up. If you move, I'll break
your arm." She tweaked it to prove she could. "If you move twice I'll
break your neck." She shifted to the knee on his vertebrae to lend weight
to her threat. "It might not kill you but as a quadraplegic, maybe you
won't be such a pain in the ass." "The snow
is burning me. I'm getting frostbitten. You can't leave me here with my face on
the ground." Face on the
ground. The phrase jogged something in Anna's mind and she stared into the
nothing that was the sky trying to lure the memory out. "If you'd
seen him facedown in the dirt whimpering like a girl..." Hugh had said
that of Gonzales. Anna could only think of one circumstance where Pepperdine
might have witnessed a scene like that. After the blowup they'd all been
facedown in the sand and, she was willing to bet, even the bravest among them
had let a whimper or two escape. "You saw
Lawrence get out of his shelter," she said with certainty. "Admit it
or I'll break your arm." "Duress.
Won't hold up in court," Hugh gasped through the pain. "I don't
care. I just want to hurt you." To prove it, she did. Hugh shrieked. "It wasn't
that bad," she said, annoyed. "I hardly even twisted it. As Mom used
to say, 'Quit crying or I'll give you something to cry about.' Lawrence. The
shelter," she prompted, putting enough pressure on Pepperdine's arm to
make a fracture seem like a distinct possibility. "Okay! I
saw!" he yelped. "You're going to break my frigging arm!" "Fucking
arm, Hugh. I'm going to break your fucking arm. So you helped Lawrence out of
his shelter. Good. Now, you knew Nims was dead. None of us did. How come? Did
you kill him, Barney?" At the sound of the hated nickname, Anna realized
what she was doing was cruel. Later she would probably feel guilty. At the
moment she just didn't give a damn. "No. I
just guessed. We'd been through a frigging fire!" "Fucking
fire," Anna corrected, and tweaked his arm. "You knew. You killed
him." "He wanted
to get in my shelter," Hugh blurted out. Meanness went
out of Anna, taking her strength with it. The firestorm roaring down the
mountain, Nims without a shelter, begging to be let in, begging for his life.
Pepperdine, a bigger man, stronger, pushing him away, condemning him to be
burned alive. Hugh was guilty, not of sticking a knife in a man's ribs, but of
craven cowardice. In many ways it was worse and Anna's contempt was tempered
with pity. She still knelt
on Hugh and he lay compliant, afraid she'd carry out her bone-crushing threats,
but the time had passed. "If I let
you up, what are you going to do?" she asked wearily. "Nothing,
I promise. Just let me up. My face is frozen." "Don't get
up till I say, okay?" "Okay.
Just get off me." "Stay,"
Anna ordered. She backed away from him, retrieved the radio and the knife, then
moved around to the far side of the truck. "You can get up now." Hugh pushed
himself to his knees, then struggled to his feet and brushed the snow from his
jacket and trousers. "I suppose you're going to rush back and blab
everything," he said bitterly. "Not
unless you annoy me in some small way." He stood,
shifting his weight from foot to foot, his eyes not meeting hers, and Anna
wondered what he was up to. "Can I have my knife back?" he said
finally. "Nope." "Anna, do
you read? Anna, come in please." It was Frederick on her radio. Hugh sneered as
best he could and walked toward the trail leading back to camp. Ten yards from
her he stopped and turned. "You can
tell your boyfriend he doesn't need to track down how Paula makes her living.
She's a whore. A hooker. She's been working the camp. Everybody knew it.
Everybody but you. A trained observer—you should get into another line of
work." Anna had
guessed but she'd been so slow on the uptake she didn't feel like defending
herself. "You're
Mr. FLETC, why didn't you report it?" Anna returned, but she knew the
answer. He wanted to be one of the guys. Hugh turned his
back on her and she keyed the mike. "Anna
here." "Jeeminie!
Don't you ever do that to me again," Frederick exploded over the airwaves.
"What's going on up there?" "It was
nothing. Snow falling or something." Anna's back ached from wrestling with
Pepperdine and she was in a foul mood. "Forget about Boggins. Just follow
up on the Joshua Short thing for me." "I will.
And you call me at eight. You. Call me. Got that?" "No
problem." "We're
going to get you down off that ridge." "I know
you are. I'm turning my radio off now." "Ten-four.
Eight o'clock, Anna. Don't leave me standing at the altar." Anna laughed.
"Eight o'clock." She turned off the radio and leaned her elbows on
the truck in an attempt to ease her back. Black Elk,
Lindstrom, Gonzales, Page and Pepperdine were off the hook. That left only
LeFleur, who hated Nims and wanted him out of the way professionally; Joseph
Hayhurst, removing Nims to stop the oil lease; and Boggins. Paula was hooking.
Black Elk's words now made sense: Nims should have paid like everybody else.
Len had "messed" with Paula. Since injured virtue wasn't an issue,
attempted rape or blackmail very possibly was. Getting thrown out of camp would
cost Paula a bundle in unearned revenues. And she would be blackballed from any
fire camp in the future. LeFleur,
Hayhurst, Boggins. And Short. The
time for trusting her fellow men—if there ever had been a time—was gone. No one
had seen Jennifer leave her shelter. Blood stained her left glove. Anna knew of
no motive, no previous connection between Short and Nims, but it was turning
out there were a whole hell of a lot of things she didn't know. Chapter Twenty-Two STANTON HELD THE portable radio between his knees. Anna hadn't told
him the truth, he knew it. While he'd been helplessly "standing by"
something had happened. He was worried and hurt, he admitted. Getting to know
Anna Pigeon wasn't going to be easy. She'd been alone too many years; come to
rely on herself too much. Life was a team sport. Aloneness,
loneliness, had knocked on Frederick's door like the proverbial wolf more than
once in the dozen years since his last divorce, but his children—Candice
mostly—had kept the wolf at bay. She needed him and, therefore, he needed her.
The littles of his life could make her laugh, understand; they could comfort
and sometimes even educate. So he told them. Candice, as
yet, had no fear of intimacy and she shared her stories with him: boyfriends,
classes, concerts. In turn he was amused, comforted, educated. Anna had had a
husband, Frederick knew. He'd died. Dead was not good. Dead was a tough act to
follow. Women got addicted to widow's weeds. Anna guarded her loneliness like a
treasure she hoarded as a gift for dead what's-his-name. Frederick doubted he
could compete and he was wondering if he wanted to. He looked at
the knot of white pine he'd found and the pattern came clear. The monkeys were
not tied together by telephone line. They weren't tied together by anything.
They were seated back to back, each oblivious to his companion, anxiously
scanning the horizon for some sign of the other. Frederick fixed the image in
his mind though he knew he needn't bother. Every time he looked at the wood he
would see it in the grain. He put the
radio back in its charger and pulled the notebook with his lists close enough
he could read it. "Boggins/Livelihood"
was crossed out, "Josh/Arson" underlined. Duncan Foley, the retired
BLM timber coordinator from Susanville, had returned his call regarding Nims.
Foley hadn't been too specific. It sounded as if senility rather than reticence
slowed his tongue, but Frederick had been left with the impression Anna's
suspicions were correct: Nims had some shady deal with the lumber barons that
couldn't be proven and it had been deemed in everyone's best interests that he
move on quietly. Frederick had
yet to reach anyone at Aztec, Pepperdine's home park. Putting his
hands over his eyes, he began constructing a mental chart that would be the
basis of his investigation into the arson and the subsequent death of Joshua
Short. The known: The
Jackknife fire had been started near Pinson Lake in the immediate vicinity of
Mr. Short's camp. Mr. Short and his dog had perished in the blaze. Mr. Short
was camping at Pinson Lake preparatory to staging some kind of protest against
a local lumber company to stop cutting in what was believed by some to be an
environmentally sensitive area. Mr. Short was an experienced outdoorsman and an
environmental activist. Frederick had
seen no official paperwork on the incident but the accepted explanation seemed
to be that Short had either set the fire intentionally or had inadvertently let
his campfire burn out of control. Other than
that, Stanton hadn't a clue. He needed to see the coroner's report, review the
records in the case, talk with the Forest Service's arson investigator and
visit the scene of the deaths. This last might prove of little value. Fire,
snow and other investigators would have destroyed what physical evidence there
was. Working as a
private citizen Frederick had already pushed the limits of not only ethics but
legality. His first phone call was to his boss's home on the outskirts of
Chicago. "Jack's laying
down," Mrs. McGinnis said disapprovingly. Frederick had met Jack
McGinnis's wife several times on social occasions and knew her to be a
friendly, charming woman. The disapproval stemmed from thirty years of having
her husband's leisure time co-opted by the Bureau. "I'm awful
sorry, Mrs. McGinnis, but this is important." "It's
always important," she said tardy. The phone receiver clattered against
wood and Frederick knew she was going to wake Jack. "Yeah.
Stanton. What's up?" Jack McGinnis had the gravel voice of a man who has
abused whiskey and cigarettes most of his life and the jowly face to match but
as far as Frederick knew he was a teetotaler with no vices except working too
hard and drinking too much coffee. Frederick
explained the situation on the Jackknife with the murder and the suspected
arson. "Both crimes were committed on federal lands," he said.
"We've got jurisdiction." "I don't
recall the Forest Service clamoring for our invaluable assistance," Jack
said dryly. Frederick kept
quiet. Jack McGinnis was seldom talked into anything. He was a crusty,
dissipated-looking computer. Facts were fed in. He processed them and produced
a result. Ninety-nine times out of a hundred he was right. Or closer to right
than anyone else. "I got
somebody I can call and lean on. I'll see if they'll invite you to the party.
You're on the clock but no overtime. Don't even put in for it. And no travel.
Where are you at?" Frederick gave
him the number and listened as he read it back. "Hang on," McGinnis
said. "I'll get back to you." Less than ten
minutes later the phone rang. "You're official," Jack said. "The
forest supervisor said to call Chris Landis. He's the law enforcement officer
for the Forest Service in Chester. He'll bring you up to speed." Jack hung
up without saying goodbye but Frederick was unoffended. Over his years in the
Bureau he'd come to value time saved above just about anything but life saved.
Both were irreplaceable. Frederick
dialed the number he'd been given and within twenty minutes he was on
the road to Chester in a borrowed government pickup truck. The Jackknife was
news and, as he threaded his way through the press vans and camera setups on
his way out of camp, he blessed Burwell for placing the Communications tent out
of bounds. CHRIS LANDIS WAS in
his early fifties, a square-headed block of a man with thinning hair combed and
sprayed till a moderately believable hair hat had been constructed over his
bald pate. A pipe, evidently a permanent fixture, smoked in his right hand. "The case
isn't closed," he said, and Frederick noticed traces of a Maine accent.
"You're welcome to what we've got." He pushed a file folder across
the blotter of his battered wooden desk. Frederick picked it up but didn't open
it. "Find yourself a comfortable spot and give it a read," Landis
said. "Then, if you like, we'll take a wander up to Pinson Lake. Snow'll
cover up most of it but you can get the lay of the land." "Thanks a
heap." Frederick smiled engagingly in hopes of dissipating any sting FBI
interference may have caused. The folder clamped under his arm, he left Landis
to his pipe and sought out a quiet corner. Happily
ensconced in a storage closet pressed into service as an employee break room,
Frederick sipped instant cocoa and perused the official history of Joshua Paul
Short's life and death. Thirty-three
years old, Short was employed part-time as a computer programmer for Harrah's
Club in Reno, Nevada. He'd moved to the west from Memphis, Tennessee, four years
prior to his death. Short had been arrested three times, all misdemeanor
charges, 1991 and 1993 for trespassing and interfering with agency functions in
Plumas and Lassen counties in northern California, and in 1989 in San
Francisco. The charges boiled down to civil disobedience. The Plumas and Lassen
arrests occurred in protest activities to save the spotted owl. The San
Francisco arrest was during a gay rights march. Short had never served jail
time. According to
the information in the file, for two weeks prior to his death, Short had been
camped at Pinson Lake in an ongoing wrestling match with the Timberlake Lumber
Company. The Forest Service had leased them that tract of timber for harvest
and the company intended to log the area. An
Environmental Impact Statement from the Forest Service was included, either in
the interest of justice or in a CYA—cover your ass—capacity, stating that there
was no hard evidence of spotted owl activity in that tract of forest land. On September
eighteenth, four days after the Jackknife had been midwifed, the corpses were
discovered in the ashes of the burn. On September twenty-eighth the bodies were
identified as Joshua Short and dog. As Short had not died under a doctor's
care, an autopsy had been performed. The immediate
area of the camp was covered in flash fuels. From past conversations with
Burwell, Frederick knew flash fuels were light, dry, tindery materials such as
twigs and grasses that burned fast and hot. Due to the nature of the fuels,
Short's body had not been completely consumed but his face, hands, chest, belly
and the front of both legs were badly burned. Although much of the remaining
flesh had been eaten away by scavengers, enough of the internal organs remained
intact to reveal in the autopsy that Short had not died of smoke inhalation, as
was common in fires, hut had burned to death. The only other indication of
injury was a hairline basal fracture behind his right ear. Frederick
thumbed through the Environmental Impact Statement with little interest and
moved on to the report written by the first ranger on the scene. The burn had
originated from the fire ring in Joshua Short's camp. Best guess, working
backward from the time the fire was spotted by the lookout, was that it had
been ignited between one and five p.m. on
September fourteenth. A mangled Peak I camping stove was found near the fire
ring and there were traces of kerosene on the stones surrounding the shallow
pit as well as on an unburned portion of Short's left hiking boot. Stringing
together the evidence, the ranger had drawn up a possible sequence of events: While in use,
the camping stove had either fallen into the campfire or malfunctioned. The
resultant explosion splattered kerosene on nearby grass and needles. Burned or
blinded by the explosion, Joshua Short had fallen, struck his head and lost
consciousness. Dry fuels ignited quickly and burned at high temperatures.
Before Short regained consciousness, the flames killed him. Never having
been camping, Frederick had no experience with portable stoves, but the sketch
seemed plausible enough. He removed an
envelope of photographs taken at the scene. Fire had left the site clean. Ash,
swept smooth by the wind, coated the earth, the fire pit, the remnants of the
stove, Joshua's pack and the tent he'd been staying in. A few feet from the
fire pit a four-legged corpse marked the last moments of the dog's life. About
thirty feet away, in the direction the fire had taken, was the body of Joshua
Short. Animals had tracked up the ground around the carcasses and, judging from
the photos, dined rather well. Other than that, there were no marks in the ash.
A refreshingly untainted scene. Whoever had found them was to be commended for
resisting the urge to charge in and flail about. Frederick laid
the photographs out in a cross that resembled the pattern used by readers of
tarot cards. The table in the tiny break room was round and less than three
feet across. Photos used up all available space. Knees pinched together in a
maidenly manner, Stanton held the folder in his lap while he stared down at the
grisly collection. Smooth gray
ash, polished by the wind, two corpses, pack, tent and twisted chunks of the
stove. The trackless space between the disparate pieces in this tragic puzzle
niggled at Frederick's mind. Maybe it was just that he was unused to viewing
scenes of wildland fire. But it felt like more than that. , Slurping his
cocoa, he kept staring. To find out what was missing, he began piecing together
what was there, hoping then he would see the holes. The fire had been started
between one and five p.m. by a
stove accident. Perhaps Joshua had been making himself lunch or a cup of coffee
and either the stove malfunctioned and exploded or fell in the fire and
exploded. Smooth polished
gray. "No
utensils," Frederick murmured into his cocoa. "You cook with
utensils." In the unbroken field of ash there was no sign of pans or cups
or plates; no spoons—nothing. Joshua Short
was not cooking, not even boiling water. And he wouldn't use the stove for
heat; he had a fire. Frederick
adjusted his storyline. Short takes out his stove to prepare something and
discovers it's broken. While he's attempting to fix it, the stove explodes or
tumbles into the fire and explodes. Stanton scribbled a note on the fire folder
to ask if any tools had been found at the scene. Something small—a wrench or a
file—could be completely concealed by the covering ash. Field repairs
ending in a tragic accident. That made sense. The stove blows up, Short is
knocked on his keister—or in this case the back of his head—and loses
consciousness. Better,
Frederick thought, but not yet complete. There were still holes in the plot.
The dog for one. Also knocked senseless by the explosion? Not terribly likely
but explosions were unpredictable. Shrapnel from the body of the Peak I or
shards of stone blasted from the rocks surrounding the fire pit could have
taken out the dog, killed him outright or stunned him enough the fire got him.
Too bad no one had thought to autopsy the pooch. Frederick
returned his attention to the ex-Mr. Short. Thirty feet from the fire ring, the
report read. That looked about right. The body was facedown, feet toward the
fire pit. Stanton wrote a
second note on Landis's file folder. "Ballistics: how far could two cups
of kerosene under pressure throw a grown man?" Frederick doubted it would
be thirty feet, not leaving all of his body parts still attached. Facing away
from the fire ring, almost as if he were fleeing. That might account for both
the distance and the positioning. The stove falls in the fire, Joshua figures
it's going to explode and begins to run. Boom. Down he goes, cracks his head. Frederick liked
that scenario. It was both tidy and rational. Only with
reluctance did he abandon it. The basal fracture was at the back of Short's
skull. Being knocked face forward wouldn't account for it. Shrapnel got
both the dog and his master. Unlikely,
Stanton thought, but dutifully added "Cuts to the back of skull?" to
his list. No chunk large enough to strike a man senseless was visible in the
photos. Anything smaller, delivered with body-stopping force, would have broken
the skin. Again Frederick
rewrote Short's story. During repairs the stove falls in the fire. Short flees.
In haste he trips and cracks his head. Disoriented, he staggers a ways and
collapses facedown. Fire overtakes him. Do-able,
Frederick conceded. Not graceful or poetic, but definitely possible. Smooth ash,
polished. "Hit his
head on what?" Frederick mumbled. The campsite was flat, no stones, no
logs. "Look under ash" he added to the end of his list. A flat rock
could be concealed, one large enough a man could fracture his skull against it
were he so inclined. THE SAME FOG that held Anna and the San Juans
captive on the ridge smothered Pinson Lake. The water was as flat as glass and
the color of lead. Frederick was used to the cold. He liked it. It helped his
mind work. Snuggling his hands into the pockets of his down jacket, he whistled
"California Dreaming" under his breath while his eyes roamed the
unbroken expanse of white. An inch of snow
had taken the place of ash and the scene was amazingly unchanged from what
Stanton had seen in the pictures. Joshua was gone as was the dog, the tent and
the pack, but the fire ring remained. Chris Landis,
shivering in Forest Service green, stood beside him, bareheaded, his coiffure
too fragile to support a hat, his pipe clamped in his teeth. Between the fog
and the snow his smoke was invisible but Frederick could smell the pleasant
aroma of tobacco. "This
investigation drew the short straw, I'm afraid. The Jack-knife's been taking up
our time and attention for the last little while." Landis puffed on his
pipe as it threatened to go out. When he'd produced a good head of steam, he
said: "Day's not getting any younger. We may as well get to it." They unloaded
two rakes from the back of his Land Rover. Frederick started several yards
above where Short had fallen. Landis began at the fire pit. In less than an
hour they'd raked the area. No stones. No tools. Landis puffed.
Frederick leaned on his rake handle and thought. "He
could've hit his head on one of the rocks in the fire ring," Landis
suggested. They looked at the small, charred stones. Neither was sold on the
idea. The physics of the scene didn't fit. The rocks were too small, the
location wrong, the injury wrong. Whatever struck
down Joshua Short had come from behind and been removed from the scene before
the area burned. Short may have started the fire but someone else made sure he
stayed to enjoy it. "Looks
like we've come across a bit of a snarl," Landis said. Chapter Twenty-Three NO GOOD NEWS; call at eight. They were
going to spend another night on the mountain. Tears of self-pity wormed their
way through the muck on Anna's face. Lest they leave evidence of weakness the
others might read, she smeared them away. Mountain fogs never lasted, she lied
to herself with feeling, not like valley fogs. She'd look at it like Christmas
Eve. A long night waiting for a morning that would produce treats hitherto only
dreamed of. Come morning Santa would have brought clear skies and helicopters
and food. You're just
tired, she excused herself. And hungry. Hungry enough to eat a badger. Again.
She smiled at the rustic image of the nine of them chowing down on charred
rodent. LeFleur had saved the pelt. Somewhere along the line he'd picked up the
art of tanning and was going to tan the hide for Lawrence. How to Win
Friends and Influence People; badger breakfasts deserved a chapter in any
new editions. Using the
bumper for leverage, she pulled herself to her feet. Joints cracked in protest.
Muscles strained while frolicking with Mr. Pepperdine had stiffened from
sitting so long. Movement pried them apart and aches were renewed with a
vengeance. Viewed from the vantage of a warm house and civilized pursuits,
forty wasn't old. On a mountain in the snow every year gone by made itself
felt. Gonzales and even the lumpy Pepperdine still possessed reserves of
energy. On principle,
Anna cursed everyone under thirty. Walking back to
camp, she went over what she needed to do. She missed Stanton and his
ubiquitous lists. Her brain kept short-circuiting and it was hard to keep her
metaphorical ducks in a row. Whatever had
been removed from Nims's corpse troubled her, though she had little hope of
solving that particular mystery. Since she'd not seen fit to search the body
when they'd first discovered it, whoever had taken the missing item could be
wearing it around their neck for all she knew. With Page and
Pepperdine off the suspect list some of the fun had gone from the
investigation. Personally, Anna rather liked all of her remaining suspects.
Even Paula Boggins had begun to grow on her. The girl was a bit on the obvious
side, a tad snippy, but Anna admired her fighting spirit and the gentle way in
which she nursed Howard Black Elk. Still, Paula
Boggins needed talking to. At present she was a promising candidate for the
position of murderer. She had the means—as they all did—a functional left arm
and Len's knife ready at hand. The opportunity: she'd been through the
firestorm in a shelter no one had seen her get out of. And, now, a motive:
attempted rape or blackmail. Joseph Hayhurst
was next with all of the above. His motive was more highbrow but sufficient—the
saving of an historic site. LeFleur was
still in the running but Anna wasn't putting her money on him. His motive was
weak. John had knocked around government service long enough to know how the
system worked. The line of promotion was indistinct. The Office of Personnel
Management was an unpredictable beast with a heavy political agenda that, in
the present social climate, did not include white males. Jennifer Short
had means and opportunity but, as far as Anna could see, no motive. By the time she
reached the wash, daylight was fading from the sky as if the sun was on a
slowly dimming rheostat. She had more of a sense of going blind than of coming
night. Everybody but
Neil and Joseph were crowded into the shelter. Howard was propped up on the
packs, his breathing shallow and wet. His eyes were open but he didn't look as
if he saw. Paula sat near him singing a lullaby in a voice just above a
whisper. Anna recognized the tune, a song from childhood: "The Bear Went Over
the Mountain." Paula sang it in Spanish, the way Anna remembered learning
it in Mrs. White's first-grade class. Jennifer was
curled up in the fetal position, her head resting on John LeFleur's thigh. Both
had their eyes closed. Anna hoped Jen was sleeping. Lawrence and Stephen sat
side by side, their backs against the rock, their feet stretched toward the
fire pit, newly heaped with coals. Lawrence pretended to be absorbed in
cleaning his fingernails with a pocketknife. Pepperdine was
squashed in a corner with only the thin shelter at his back instead of stone.
Tension clogged the air, Lawrence's face was crimped in irritation and Anna
suspected LeFleur's sleep was feigned. On close examination she saw a faint tic
high on his cheek under his left eye. Hugh had been
sniping, she guessed. Indulging himself in words in an attempt to shore up a
damaged ego. She'd rather thought his recent comeuppance would have left him
subdued. But a man of Hugh's habits must get brought up short at fairly regular
intervals. Clearly his response hadn't been deep introspection followed by the
turning over of new leaves. With each failure he dug in deeper, till he'd
entrenched himself behind a wall of self-justification years thick. For an
educated man, Pepperdine was apparently not a quick learner. Anna was glad they
worked in different parks. He struck her as the type who would find ways—small
miserable ways—of getting back at those who crossed him. Hugh's pack was
tucked under his arm like a security blanket. With a flash of anger so vicious
it scared her, Anna wondered if he still had food. "I gotta
pee," Paula announced suddenly. "Thank you
for sharing," Lindstrom said. Paula laughed
and cuffed him on the head as, stoop-shouldered, she threaded her way through
the tangle of legs. "I'll go
with you." Anna creaked to her feet. "What is
it with women?" she heard Lindstrom asking the general public as she
followed Paula out. "Urinating is not a spectator sport." A smear of gray
silhouetted the blackened horizon to the west but the rest of the world was
cloaked in lightless, heatless, featureless night. Headlamp in
hand, Boggins stumped up the creek bed. Since she hadn't made any rude
comments, Anna guessed she was welcome to tag along. Muffled, fog-shrouded, the
gully was creepy during the day; at night it was enough to give a vampire bat
the heebie-jeebies. Watching
Paula's dim outline and the yellowing light that led the way, Anna wondered how
to broach the subject of blackmail and murder while they relieved themselves. Cold had soaked
so deep into Anna's bones, she felt it more as an abiding fatigue than a
physical sensation. Both mind and body were benumbed. Even the aches and
bruises from her flight from the Jackknife and her fight with Hugh had melded
into a general feeling of ennui. She could easily understand the temptation to
lie down in the snow and let the last vestiges of heat peacefully leave the
body in the fashion that purportedly seduced victims of hypothermia. It would
be so good simply to rest for all eternity. To sleep. Perchance to dream... Always, there
was the rub. Boggins
stopped. "You hold the light," she said, handing Anna the headlamp.
"I'm going to squat over there. Hang my fanny over a cold rock. Yippee, skippy.
This may take a while. It feels like I got a baby bear sticking its nose out my
ass." "Sheer
poetry," Anna commented as she took the light. "Yeah.
Well. I dropped out of finishing school early on." Paula retreated to her
chosen spot. Anna fiddled with the light listening to the sound of a buckle
being unbuckled, a zipper unzipped. Now was as good
a time as any. Anna still had Howard's Buck knife and Boggins's trousers were
down around her ankles. Danger was at a low ebb. "Nims knew
you were working the camp, hooking, didn't he?" Anna asked. She tried to
make it sound as if she'd known about the prostitution all along in hopes it
would be less threatening that way. "I'm busy
over here," Paula said irritably. "Can't you shut the fuck up for one
cotton pickin' minute?" "You said
he was messing with you. What did he do, threaten you with exposure?" No answer. Anna upped the
stakes. "The way I figure it, Nims tried to get a piece of the action,
said he'd report you if you didn't cut him in and you clawed his face. Am I
close?" Paula grunted.
"He wanted a piece of something all right. A piece of my ass." Anna played the
light over the snow. All vestiges of beauty had been crushed by blackened fire
boots and her own rotten attitude. "Was that the deal; you give him sex
and he keeps his mouth shut?" "There's
one in every camp," Paula said. Boggins sounded more like a jaded
businesswoman than a murderess. Still, Anna pressed on. It was something to do.
At times she felt more like an addict than an investigator. The reasons had
grown muddled with the cold, the dark, the general weirdness of the world in
which they'd found themselves. Now she just had to know because she had to
know. "How much
money did you get?" she asked. "Jesus,
girl, can't you even let me take a dump in peace?" Anna shined the
light in Paula's face. Boggins didn't look guilty or scared, just annoyed. "Move the
light, Ms. Gestapo, unless that's how you get your kicks. Kinky shit's extra.
You can't afford me." "How
much?" Anna repeated, but she moved the light. "Eighty
bucks a trick," Paula said, and there was pride in her voice. "Why?
You thinking of going into business for yourself? Forget it. You're too old.
You couldn't get forty." Paula laughed while Anna did mental arithmetic. Five to eight
hundred dollars a night for twenty nights. "Not a bad piece of
change," she said aloud. "There's a lot of people who would kill for
that kind of money." "I'd kill
for some toilet paper," Boggins said. "I got a world-class case of
flaming asshole." Anna forbore
comment. "Did you kill Nims to keep him from reporting you?" "Like I didn't
know that's what you were getting at? Big surprise. Duh. If I stuck a knife in
everybody put the squeeze on me half the cops in northern California'd be dead.
Nims pissed me off so I scratched him. If n he'd of kept at it, I'd've screwed
him. Shoot, he's only got a twenty-one-day dispatch, eight of it gone. The old
fart probably couldn't get it up often enough to cut into a day's take. Now
will you shut up and let me do my business?" "Sure.
Page pimping for you?" "Yeah.
Neil pimps. Shut up." "I'm shut."
Anna made designs in the still-white snow of the creek bank with her light. The
beam was turning a dirty brown. "I'm turning off the light to save the
battery," she warned Paula as she flicked it off. "Fine." In the frigid
dark, Anna tried to think. Paula could be lying but she doubted it. Two arrests
as a juvenile; Boggins had probably been hooking most of her short life.
Prostitution was vulnerable to bribes, blackmail, payoffs. The price of doing
business. Murder tended to scare off the clientele. "What did
you take off Leonard's body?" Anna demanded just to see what kind of a
reaction she'd get. "You're
out of your fucking mind, you know that?" Paula said. The obscenity
had the ring of innocence to it. With Boggins out of the picture, if not with
an iron-clad alibi, at least as far as Anna was concerned, that left LeFleur,
Hayhurst and Short. LeFleur was a long shot. Hayhurst and Short then. Anna
sighed. She was not having fun. "You know
what I'd like?" she said. "What?"
Boggins sounded wary and Anna smiled. Paula was probably used to bizarre
requests from all manner of folk. "I'd like
to watch TV. Hours of mindless TV with a loud obnoxious soundtrack. I'd sit in
a warm room and guzzle hot tea and just watch." Wine would have
been her first choice but it seemed better not even to think about that. "Why don't
you wish for a million dollars while you're at it?" There was a sound of
movement and zipping. "And a roll of toilet paper." Boggins emerged
from the greater darkness of her wilderness privy. "You gotta go? I'll
stay if you want. Keep you company." Anna took her
up on her kind offer. Chapter Twenty-Four PINSON LAKE LAY dead at their backs, the raked snow ripped away
from their feet to beyond where Short's body had been found. Frederick leaned
on his rake handle and stared at the empty clearing. "Who'd want Short
dead?" he asked. "Nobody I
know of," Chris Landis puffed out on a cloud of aromatic smoke. "How about
the lumber company? They'd want him out of the way, wouldn't they?" "Sure they
would. But killing him would be more trouble than it's worth. Short was a pest,
a gadfly. California's got more protesters and bleeding hearts than we've got
med flies. We don't kill 'em, we shoo 'em away." "Murder's
not as handy as it looks," Frederick agreed. "Anyway,
Timberlake wouldn't want the trees burned," Landis added. "It's money
out of their pocket." "Insurance?" He shook his
head. "Public land. Uncle Sam absorbs the losses." "Mind if I
talk to them anyway?" Frederick asked only as a courtesy. Chris Landis
knew the game and appreciated the consideration. "I'll drive you
down." Landis radioed
ahead and his secretary set up the appointment. By the time they arrived at the
Timberlake Lumber Company on the edge of Chester it was quarter past five.
Quittin' time and then some. The foreman, Pete Hollis, was not in a receptive
mood. He had his coat on and sat with one haunch on the desk and one eye on the
clock. Hollis was in his mid-thirties, big-boned, with the look of a man who
keeps a little woman at home and expects dinner on the table when he gets
there. Frederick took
a chair just as if he'd been offered one and ostentatiously made himself
comfortable, settling in for a good long chat. Hollis sighed,
fidgeted, looked at his watch. Frederick hoped he'd want to get the interview
over with badly enough he'd tell the truth right up front just to save time. "Are you
familiar with the name Joshua Short?" he asked. Hollis shook
his head. "No. But this is a big operation. I don't know the names of a
lot of the guys that work for us." "Were you
involved with the planned harvest of that forest land to the northwest of
Pinson Lake?" Landis asked. Landis had pulled the pipe from his jaws and
scraped the bowl with a little silver tool made for that purpose. His hands
were busy, and his eyes had someplace neutral to go when he chose not to look
at the interview subject. A pipe might be a good prop, Frederick thought. It
gave off such an air of homey trustworthiness. "Yeah,"
Pete replied. "That tract was on hold..." The sentence dribbled to an
end. "Short. That was the guy died up there in the fire, wasn't it? Burnt
himself and half of California in the bargain?" "Joshua
Short," Frederick said. "He was also the one who had the logging on
hold." Hollis had a
pained look on his face but Frederick wasn't at all sure it was because he had
something to hide. Stanton was FBI, he'd flashed his badge, now he was asking
questions about a dead man. He would have been put on his guard by anybody who
didn't squirm a little. "I'm just
the foreman here," Pete said carefully. "I think you'd better ask the
boss. Things in that area are pretty sensitive. We've got loggers burning
spotted owls in effigy and we've got do-gooders from far away as New York City
out here getting lost and mosquito bit and thinking they're striking a blow for
the Amazon rain forest. All I'll get stirring in this mess is a thick
finger." Frederick
laughed. "You're a wise man, Mr. Hollis. Thanks for your time." He
leapt up and pumped the foreman's hand. "Chris and I won't keep you from
your supper any longer." Landis had
repacked his pipe and puffed it back to life as he followed Stanton out. "Who was
handling the Short/spotted owl situation?" Frederick asked while Hollis
locked the office door behind them. "Martha
Pitt, our bookkeeper. She handles the newspapers when it's got to be done.
James Beldon owns the company. He hires jobs out. Anybody works here is too hot
under the collar when it comes to owls so he leaves us out of it." Hollis
clipped his keys back on his belt and led the way through a lighted yard
stacked with lumber already resembling the buildings it was destined for. "Who did
he hire this time?" Frederick asked when they'd stopped so Hollis could
lock the gates to the yard. There'd been
too many questions and the foreman was done talking. "I think you'd better
ask Mr. Beldon," he said. LANDIS DROVE. FREDERICK
slumped down in the passenger seat. Joshua Short had been murdered. The
Jackknife fire had been set either for the usual reasons—fun or profit—or to cover
up the tracks of the murderer. Arson, homicide, happened all the time. A look
at the statistics or the six o'clock news attested to that. It was not
inconceivable that, but for an accident of geography, Joshua Short, Len Nims
and Newt Hamlin's deaths were unrelated. Ruling out
Hamlin's death as strictly a casualty of the fire, Frederick tried to think who
might have had reason to murder two such different men: a gay environmentalist
and a redneck bureaucrat. He drew a blank. Joshua Short and Nims apparently
didn't know one another. Several of the San Juans knew both Joshua and
Nims—Jennifer, Stephen Lindstrom and possibly Lawrence Gonzales simply because
he'd once lived in northern California. Jennifer and Stephen might have had
reason to kill Nims but surely not Joshua. Gonzales might have wanted Short
dead for some obscure reason but Anna'd said he was alibied for the death of
Nims. Detecting
piecemeal and by remote control—if anyone could be said to control Anna
Pigeon—was an exercise in frustration. Frederick felt as he had as a kid when
the carnies lured him into fishing for surprise packages using a mirror and a
pair of awkward mechanical pincers in the place of hands. Landis muscled
the Rover onto the main street cutting through Chester. Pine trees and
one-story buildings lined the road. Night had crept down through the fog. A
lighted digital clock on the dash read seven-forty-nine. Frederick wouldn't be
there when Anna radioed in. "Is there
a phone anywhere handy?" he asked. "I've got a call to make." Landis pointed
ahead and Frederick recognized the long low roof of the Forest Service
headquarters. "Take your
pick," Chris said as he switched on the office lights. By the time he
got through to Gene Burwell it was three minutes of eight. Frederick had the
breathless sense of skidding in just under the wire though he wasn't sure if
the information he had would prove of any value to Anna. Mostly he wanted
contact, even vicarious contact, with the elusive Ms. Pigeon. It even crossed
his mind to ask Burwell if there was some way, any way, to patch his
call through. Common sense and a healthy dislike of looking the fool saved him
from putting voice to his thoughts. Burwell took
down his information and Frederick stifled an urge to ask the incident commander
to read the message back so he could check it for accuracy. When the
conversation reached its logical conclusion Frederick found himself loath to
hang up the phone. He wanted to be there, even second hand, when Anna called
in. Puppy love was unbecoming in a man of his middling years, he thought. With bulldozers
and media hounds roaring, lives and careers at stake, Burwell did not take the
time to tell him what Anna had said in her radio transmission, not even the
gist of it, and Stan-ton was hungry for every detail. "Have you
got a place to stay tonight?" Landis dragged Frederick out of his brown
study. "We've got two spare rooms—the boys are away at college—and Mrs.
Landis orders a mean pizza." "I'm
fine," Frederick said. He was tired and slightly depressed. "But
thanks." The offer of a bed and hot food hadn't tempted him for even a
second. His first thought had been of Anna. He enjoyed a moment of feeling
noble. It was short-lived. He could do no more for her from a sleeping bag on
the cold ground than from a soft warm bed. It was for himself he needed to be
close, if not to her, then to the radio. Chapter Twenty-Five OUT OF HABIT, Anna sat by the wreck of Paula Boggins's truck. On
the desolate ridge its junked chassis was perversely comforting, garbage ever a
reminder of civilization. Night had mixed
with fog and settled ink-black around her. Anna experimented with palms and
fingers. Truly, she could not see her hand in front of her face. She pulled off
her glove with her teeth, grimacing to keep lips and tongue off the filthy
leather. Squeezing the tiny silver buttons on her watch, she squinted at the
numbers. Eight-oh-two. That was fashionably late enough. Thumbing down the mike
button, she called Stanton. The incident commander responded and only twenty
years of consuming Emily Post with her breakfast cereal kept Anna from
demanding Frederick. When Gene Burwell told her Stanton was in Chester, Anna
found her mind echoing the childish refrain "but he promised..." Pride mixed
with exhaustion in Burwell's voice as he told her two and a half miles of road
had been cleared of deadfall. Anna was impressed. She'd cut and swamped enough
timber to know in their efforts to reach the San Juans they had managed
something close to a miracle. Girding up the loins, she culled every bit of
weariness and disappointment from her voice and heaped on the well-deserved
praise. "God
willing and the river don't rise, we'll get to you sometime late
tomorrow," Burwell promised. "We'll be
here with bells on." Anna's radio was indulging in the staccato static of
a dying battery. John's was in no better shape and the one Howard used for a
security blanket was dead as the proverbial doornail. "My radio's
going," she said. "Anything else?" She knew she sounded abrupt
and she knew Bur-well wouldn't hold it against her. "Yes. I'll
make it quick. You've got a message from Frederick Stanton." Anna's heart
lurched like a girl with her first valentine. "Shoot," she said
evenly. Burwell related
the findings of the arson investigation. When he'd finished, Anna said:
"I'm going to save what juice I can. I won't call unless something comes
up. Are you okay with that?" "I guess
I'll have to be," Burwell said, and: "Hang in there." In its wake,
the conversation left a silence so deep Anna's ears rang with it. Seldom in
wilderness did one experience dead quiet. Life in all its
minute rustlings, pipings and exhalations created a cushion of sound as
comforting as the murmuring of a brook. Dead quiet was reserved for abandoned
buildings, alleys, vacant lots. Without light, total absence of sound was
disorienting. Time and space became as relative as the physicists always
insisted they were. For a second
Anna felt as if she were falling and her finger twitched near the headlamp's
power switch. Then the soaking cold and a nagging ache in the small of her back
reassured her she was still in the world. Rescued by life's ubiquitous slings
and arrows, she left the headlamp dark. This
suffocating night lacked the comforting touches of many backcounty nights she'd
enjoyed but Anna knew there was safety in its squid-ink cloaking. No one could
find her, not without giving their own location away. After being spied on by
Pepperdine, her natural wariness had blossomed into healthy paranoia. Hugh was
a tenderfoot, an oaf, yet she'd not heard him tracking her to the hot-springs
lake. Somebody with more guts and experience could have killed her at any time. If Burwell was
correct in his estimate, within twenty-four hours rescue would reach them;
rescue with all its modern technology and color of law. Anna'd been nosing
around, asking questions. No one knew how much or how little she knew, how much
or how little she'd shared with Frederick Stanton. She couldn't avoid the
possibility that whoever had killed Nims and possibly Jennifer's brother
wouldn't want her to be among those carried off the mountain. Joshua Short
murdered. Anna thought about that awhile. The news had come as a shock. Usually
she was quick to suspect accidental deaths but the Jackknife had proved such an
indiscriminate adversary she'd accepted that first life taken as had everyone
else. Nature was a killer that had always been with mankind. Her choices went
unquestioned, acts of God. Josh's murder
cast a new light on Nims's death without illuminating anything. The murders
could be unrelated. Of those with no alibi for the time of Nims's death—John,
Jennifer and Joseph—Anna could think of no one who would want Joshua Short
dead. Clearly not Jennifer. She'd loved her brother. Besides, she and Anna
worked together at Mesa Verde; Anna knew Jen had been nowhere near California
at the time Joshua had died. Joseph and John she couldn't vouch for but she had
no reason to believe either one of them had even been acquainted with Josh. Joseph Hayhurst
was an activist, if not for the environment, then for the rights of Native
Americans to preserve their cultural heritage. It was not inconceivable Josh
and Joseph's paths had crossed before. The information Frederick had unearthed
about Hayhurst fighting the oil leases provided a motive for Nims's murder.
Much as she didn't like it, so far Joseph was the only one who filled all three
requirements for a self-respecting murderer: means, motive and opportunity. Light marred
the soupy darkness on the far side of the ridge and Anna tensed. The yellowing
beam of a headlamp moved across the snow. "Anna!" The shout came
in Joseph Hayhurst's voice. Speak of the devil, Anna thought, considering
whether or not to answer. The loneliness of the place was suddenly threatening. "Anna, where
are you?" The beam poked here and there, a dirty finger trying to scrape
her from hiding. "By the
truck," she said, and flashed her light once. Joseph might be a murderer
but at least, this way, Anna would know where he was during the long walk back
to camp. Footsteps
crunched over the snow as she got to her feet, reassured herself she still
carried Howard's Buck knife and could get to it easily if she had to. "Got your
radio off?" Joseph asked as his headlamp picked a path to her. "Battery,"
Anna said. "John's is
almost dead." He was beside her now and Anna rocked on the balls of her
feet, waiting to see what came next. "The
crowds got to me. All of us packed in like sardines, that shelter's beginning
to smell like a locker room. John sent me up the hill to see what Base had to
say." Anna couldn't
see his face but his voice was relaxed, conversational. Her defenses dropped a
notch, the clutch in her belly loosened. "Good
news. Tomorrow—late but still tomorrow—they should get to us. They cleared over
two miles of road today." "It could
be better," Joseph said. "We could be sitting in front of a fireplace
somewhere entertaining our friends with tales of our harrowing adventure, but
I'll take it. This has been a long couple of days." For a minute
neither of them spoke. Fatigue was pooling in Anna's joints, filling her lungs
like poison. Joseph laughed
suddenly and it scared her. "What?" she demanded. "Everybody
is flipping out," he said. "Neil's reliving his glory days in high
school football, Lawrence is waxing erotic over his mother's enchiladas, and
John's ready to kill for a cigarette." And Paula was
ready to kill for a roll of toilet paper. A hot bath might motivate Anna to
murder, if not today then tomorrow. People said they'd kill for one thing or
another all the time. Mostly it was just a figure of speech but now and then a
child was beaten to death for his sneakers, a baby smothered because it cried,
a man killed for an empty wallet. Society
maintained the illusion that human life was of great value but more often than
not it was taken cheap; a matter of convenience or whim. Len or Josh could have
been killed for toilet paper or cigarettes. Digging for deeper reasons and
complex motives was a sign of respect for one's fellow man, elevating even a
murderer to a plane where life was too precious to snuff out casually. Suddenly it
took all of Anna's strength just to keep on standing. She must have sighed or,
worse, whimpered, because Joseph said: "Worn out?" "Plumb
tuckered. You?" she asked, to return the favor. If he said anything but
yes she wouldn't believe him. "Fresh as
a daisy. Shall we head down?" Anna slipped
the elastic band of her headlamp around her forehead where it was designed to
be worn so her hands would be free. "You go first. My lamp's burned
out," she lied. She didn't relish the idea of him walking behind her. He
led off and she followed at a discreet distance. She was so tired she was
stumbling. Christmas Eve, she thought. They only had to hold things together
one more day then Santa was coming with the cavalry. When they'd
passed the heli-spot, gotten close enough to camp Anna calculated if she
screamed she'd be heard, she brought up the subject of murder. Or of oil
leases. In her mind and possibly Joseph's the two were linked. Under better
circumstances, with plenty of food and rest shoring her up, Anna might have
found the energy to employ a little tact. As it was she chose the Bigger Hammer
method of investigation. "The FBI
agent down at Incident Base ran a background check on you," she said
bluntly. "You were working with the Navajo nation to stop the BLM from
granting an oil lease near the Bisti. There're just a handful of us up here.
Pretty nearly everybody's got an alibi but you. Once Forensics gets up here it
won't take long to sort out who killed Nims." That was not precisely true
but Anna thought it sounded convincing. "If you did it to stop that lease,
tell me now. I can't promise anything but I'll tell the district attorney what
a swell guy you are. It might make the difference between life without parole
and life with at least a shot at an early out." She'd said her piece in
one breath and found herself faint and shaken at the end of it. She needed
food. Joseph stopped
and turned, shining the light in her eyes. Anna sidestepped the beam but she'd
already been blinded. "Get the light off me," she barked. "Sorry."
He moved the lamp to the ground at her feet. "All the
way off," Anna said. He clicked it off. The darkness was so absolute even
without being night-blind Joseph had thrown away his advantage. The Buck knife
was in Anna's pocket. She eased it from its sheath and let her arm fall to her
side. "You're
asking if I killed Mr. Nims?" Disembodied,
Joseph's voice had a sinister ring though there was nothing in his tone to
warrant it. That was the problem: there was nothing in his tone, not
incredulity, outrage, curiosity, malice, shock, amusement. He spoke almost in a
monotone. Because it gave nothing away, it made Anna nervous. Her hand
strayed toward her headlamp but she didn't switch it on. Light would be of
little value and it would pinpoint her whereabouts. One step at a time, she
eased carefully back up the trail. On the packed snow her boots made little
noise. "Leonard Nims was the one who would say yea or nay to the lease
application," she said to cover any sound she made. "No,"
Joseph replied. "Nims was the one who would say yes to the
lease." Color returned to his voice, bitterness from the sound of it. "It was a
done deal?" Anna asked. Frederick had assured her it was pending. She was
fishing for a lie. Lies, when one knew they were lies, could reveal more than
the truth. "In a
sense," he replied. "Len was taking bribes from the oil and gas
companies. In return he marked the Environmental Impact Statements 'No
Significant Impact,' letting them drill wherever they wanted to." Anna waited for
the rest of the story but Joseph had done talking. Silence stretched,
thickened. Anna's nerves stretched, grew thin. Finally she could stand it no
longer. She reached up and turned on her headlamp and screamed. Joseph Hayhurst
had moved soundlessly up the trail and stood less than two feet from her. "Old
Indian trick," he said. "I learned it in Boy Scouts." Anna stepped
back and pulled the radio from her belt. "John, come up toward the heli-spot.
Now." "John's
radio's off. Saving batteries, remember?" Anna
remembered. She was hoping he hadn't. "Okay," she said reasonably.
"We're alone, no radio contact, I'm accusing you of murder and you're
sneaking around scaring the pants off me. Before I start screaming my head off
just to get some company up here, do you want to level with me?" "Isn't
this where they say 'I'm not talking without my lawyer'?" "No. They
say that in warm comfortable interrogation rooms." Anna began walking
backward, careful not to trip. "I'm putting distance between us. It's all
I've got—" "Besides
Howard's knife." "—besides
Howard's knife. Respect it please. I'm too tired and this is all too creepy for
you to play any more games with me." "No more
games," Joseph said. "Someone could get hurt. Maybe even me." He
smiled his Mona Lisa smile. Anna didn't
smile back. She was remembering his quickness and his strength. She kept her
light trained on his face. He stood perfectly still and made no attempt to
dodge the glare. Apparently he'd grasped the fact that her fear made her
dangerous despite the fact that he was younger and stronger than she. "If Len
was taking kickbacks, why didn't you report him?" Joseph laughed
without humor. "You don't think the BLM had figured it out? Why do you
think Nims got bumped out of his last job? Kickbacks for timber leases. The
government had no proof and, if you ask me, no white-hot desire to find any.
Scandal, don't you know. A lot of career bureaucrats might look the fool, land
on the wrong side of the party line. Our guess was they intended to handle the
oil lease problem in the tried and true method. John might wonder why they were
so anxious to promote Len into that fire management slot but I don't. They want
him out of temptation's way." "You knifed
him to stop the lease," Anna said. "Au
contraire. I wish Len was alive and well. True, the lease will be on hold
briefly, but then a new cog will be put in the machinery and we'll have to
start all over. Find out if he can be bought and by whom, if he's ambitious, if
he has any sense of responsibility toward the land. By the time that's
untangled some antsy supervisor will have knuckled under to the considerable
public pressure to okay the lease and the drills will roll in. "We had
nearly enough to hang Mr. Nims. In court, in public, in the media. Nims dead is
a bad thing. We needed Nims." Anna studied
him. It sounded plausible and it would be easy to check. For tonight she'd let
it go. As if she had much choice. "Why did
you sneak up and scare me half to death?" she growled. "Why do
children play with scorpions?" FOR ONCE EVERYONE was present and accounted
for, and the shelter was crammed with bodies. The fire pit was gone, raked over
to make more space. Morale was low. When Anna and Joseph squeezed themselves in
nobody even bothered to speak. "Tomorrow,
Base said," Anna told the others. "We've only got to get through
tonight." "Everybody
cuddle up," LeFleur told his crew. "I don't want anybody freezing to
death." Anna squashed
herself between Stephen and Lawrence as the lesser of the bundling evils and
felt some small warmth from their closeness. Headlamp on and
pushed down in the sand so it shined upward casting a faint and shadow-filled
light over the group, Hugh Pepperdine was wasting batteries. No one remarked on
it. They only had to survive one more night and they were all glad of the
light. By its feeble glow Anna studied her companions. Lindstrom had
his gloves off and was sucking on the little finger of his left hand where
rough leather had worn it raw. Lawrence had his hands and arms pulled inside
his brush jacket and the sleeves tucked behind his back in the classic style of
a straight jacket. Jennifer had set herself slightly apart. Knees hugged
tightly against her chest and her face buried in her folded arms, she sat near
the shelter's opening. "Jen, it's
too cold where you are. Move in." Anna sounded harsh but there wasn't
anything she could do about it. "I'm
fine," Jennifer mumbled against the fabric of her sleeve. "John?"
Anna pleaded. LeFleur was
seated between Joseph Hayhurst and Neil Page, his legs stretched over the cold
fire pit. "Shove over," he said to Joseph. Half crouching, he reached
out, grabbed Jennifer by the upper arm and pulled her across the Apache's lap,
stuffing her into the space between them. "They want
your body," Lindstrom said. Jennifer made
no reply but allowed herself to be arranged in the relative warmth between the
two men. To Anna's left was
Stephen, then an open space, then Howard Black Elk propped against the yellow
packs. On his far side, against the thin fabric of one of the fire shelters
that made up the tent, was Paula Boggins. Shivering in an oversized NoMex
shirt, she squeezed her hands between her thighs for warmth. Pepperdine sat
apart, like a leper. Boggins was
somehow changed and it took Anna's tired mind a moment to figure out what was
out of place. The brush jacket: Paula had taken it off and spread it over
Howard's legs. "Put your
coat back on," Anna ordered sharply. "And move over here between
Stephen and Howard." "Howard'll
get the draft," Paula protested as she struggled into the jacket. "No he
won't," Anna said. "Hugh, move up beside Howard, between him and the
shelter wall." "Why can't
Paula stay where she's at?" Pepperdine asked sullenly. "Because she's
little and hurt and you're big and fat," Anna snapped. "You'll block
more draft." Hugh opened his
mouth, noted the eyes on him from the others, closed it and moved. As if for
spite, he turned out his lamp. "Snug as
bugs in rugs," Stephen said when they'd all done stirring. His words were
light but the fun had gone out of him. It had gone out of all of them, Anna
guessed. Tucking her
hands in her armpits for warmth, she leaned her head back against the boulder
and closed her eyes. Bodies were piled together like puppies in a basket. One
would have thought that would engender a sense of safety. Not in Anna. The dark
was absolute, fatigue clouded everyone's mind. No one was farther than an arm's
reach away. Black Elk was unconscious, Jennifer half comatose with grief. A
knife, sudden and well placed, a heart stopped, who would be witness to it?
Likely not even the victim. Someone began
to snore. Not the rip-snorting variety that destroys marriages and sets
dormitories to warring, but the soft purring snore of a contented child. Out of
deference to her sex, Anna guessed it was Paula or Jennifer but it could have
been anyone. The purr was
soporific and Anna could feel a welcome sea of sleep lapping at the shores of
her mind. Lest she give in to it, she marshaled her thoughts, laid out what
facts she had. Nims had been
killed during the burnover. Eight shelters, nine survivors; the man or woman
who didn't have one at the firestorm's end had shared with Nims. Paula had seen
Page with his, Pepperdine had seen Lawrence, she and John could vouch for
Howard, Jennifer saw Stephen. That left John, Joseph, Paula, Hugh and Jennifer. Hugh's
cowardice cleared him in Anna's mind. He'd turned Len out to die. The only
motive Paula had, viewed from the perspective of business economics, ceased to
make much sense. Joseph needed Nims alive so he could hang him later. That left only
John LeFleur and Jennifer Short and neither one of them had a motive that
amounted to anything. Threads of
thought began unraveling. Anna let her mind drift. Dimly she was aware of the
rock, unrelenting against the back of her head, the earth icy beneath her rear
end, the faint warmth of the men at thigh and shoulder. Nims: why had
he needed killing? He blackmailed a young woman for sex and tried to blackmail
a high-school boy into committing arson. He took kickbacks for oil and lumber
leases, abandoned Hamlin to the Jackknife. The warden in Anna's mind was quick
to remind her they had all abandoned Newt and she amended the thought; Nims had
been quick to abandon the boy. The rest of them had dithered humanely for a
moment or two. Nims was
divorced. He'd left a wife and half a dozen kids in Susanville. Single mom to
six? Maybe the ex-Mrs. had a reason to do in Leonard. Without Mrs.
Nims at hand, Anna was inexorably brought back to Short and LeFleur. LeFleur
and Short. Short and LeFleur. Despite her best efforts, sleep crept up, not in
a slow drift but in a sudden fall, as if she had been pushed off a cliff. Chapter Twenty-Six ANNA WASN'T SURE what woke her. In the impossible dark beneath the
shelters, down in the wash, under the fog, it was difficult to be sure that she
wasn't still sleeping or, better yet, dead. Cramping in her legs penetrated the
swamp of dreams. She was awake and alive. However short her nap, her body was
somewhat revived. Her brain remained a questionable resource. Too long without
light or food, dreams tangled unpleasantly with reality and she doubted the
reliability of its workings. Butt and heels
were numb with cold and her knees ached from being too long straight.
Sandwiched as she was between Lawrence and Stephen, movement was almost
impossible. Breathing enveloped her, the deep even breaths of Gonzales's young
healthy lungs, the uneven exhalations from Stephen's uneasy slumber, rasping
from Black Elk. The purring
snore had stopped. In its place was a faint whispering, gentle and
all-encompassing, the sound of feathers sweeping powdered snow. Wind, she
realized with a rush of gratitude, high distant wind. The weather was breaking.
Fog would be blown from the canyons and they could go home. Better than
reindeer stamping on the roof. Furtive sounds,
then something nudged her boot. Feet and legs were so numb it felt as if
someone had kicked a block of wood on which she stood. It was touch that had
pulled her from her dreams. Not because it was violent or unexpected, but
because a woman waiting to be knifed is sensitive to these things. The bump
triggered the uneasy musings that had preceded sleep and a spurt of adrenaline
was loosed in Anna's bowels. Resuming her rest became out of the question. Were
she not called upon to defend her life, she would still have to crawl outside
to go to the bathroom—euphemistically speaking: no room, no bath. To prepare for
either event, she began wiggling her toes in an attempt to wake them.
Excruciating tickles from toe to hip rewarded her as nerves practiced their
signals. Another
stealthy sound; Anna stopped the toe action the better to listen. She thought
to unsheathe Howard's Buck knife but in the dark and crowded confines of their
bivouac an accident was practically guaranteed. Finding herself to be the
dreaded night slasher would not be a good joke. The creepings
and sneakings leaked from the darkness to her right. Closing her eyes—as if it
made a shred of difference— Anna tried to remember where everyone had been when
the lights went out. Right: Lawrence, then John, Jennifer, Joseph and Neil.
Anna opened her eyes again and listened till her head swelled with the effort.
Or so it felt in the dark. Neil was on the end, nearest the foil tent wall.
Unless he moved in instead of out, the noise wouldn't fit. Joseph, like Page,
was close to the outside. Anna's foot was
bumped again and someone grumbled, "What the hey..." John's voice.
Not John then. "Got to
pee." Jennifer Short. Anna had a
strong need to avail herself of the facilities as well and began inching from
between Lindstrom and Gonzales, squirming forward one heel at a time till she'd
cleared their legs. Lindstrom never stirred and she was saved any commentary on
the sociology behind yet another group ladies' room event. This joint
venture was half necessity and half concern. Jennifer was not in any shape to
be left alone. Exposure, grief and, Anna had to admit, possibly guilt, had
robbed her of much rational thought. The knowledge they were going home might
have poured the nearly inexhaustible strength of hope into the veins of the
others but that wasn't necessarily true for Jennifer. There was the possibility
she had no intention of leaving this spectral forest. Slithering like
something unpleasant from under a rock, Anna left the shelter and pushed
herself to hands and knees, allowing the nether parts of her anatomy to come
back to life before she attempted to stand. An icy breeze cut across the back
of her neck. Miserable as it was, the fog had kept the temperature constant.
Clearing skies and wind chill would drop it into the teens or lower. On a night like
this, one little woman could very easily shake off the mortal coil if she so
chose. A simple nap in the snow would do the trick. An hour or two and Jennifer
would wake up dead. The more prosaic explanation of having to pee was probably
the truth but Anna didn't feel lucky enough to gamble on it. By the sound of
her steps Jennifer was headed downstream. The accepted ladies' room was
upstream of the boulder. Perhaps Jen required virgin territory. A luxury that
could be indulged now that rescue was close at hand. Having shaken
some function back into her lower limbs, Anna limped down the creek bed,
following Jennifer's crunching progress. With a little care, she was able to
time her footfalls with the other woman's and mask the sound of her own
passage. Though nature
and altruism were the vaunted reasons for tailing Jen, Anna didn't use her
light. Short was one of two people left on the prime suspect list and it wasn't
beyond the realm of possibility that this nocturnal adventure was inspired by
ulterior motives. Jennifer
reached the pile of rocks downstream of the bivouac where the creek divided into
the north and south forks. She hesitated and Anna stopped as well, wondering
what went through her mind: self-destruction? Urination? Humans were a complex
jumble of the divine and the ridiculous. Jennifer began
to sway, her light to swing. Sweat pricked in Anna's armpits, trickling down in
icy rivulets; the sweat of fear. Jennifer was an
inch or so taller than Anna and perhaps ten pounds heavier—but Anna believed,
if she had to, she could overpower her. Age had robbed Anna of some physical
strength but it had toughened her. Women were taught not to hurt, not to let
themselves be hurt. They were taught to give up. Anna wouldn't quit and that
sometimes gave her an edge when size and strength failed. She remembered a
self-defense instructor saying that maybe in opera it ain't over till the fat
lady sings, but in defensive tactics it ain't over till the fat lady's dead. Insanity was
what frightened Anna. Were Jennifer crazy then all bets were off. Actions,
reactions, couldn't be anticipated. Jen could give up or bolt or attack. If she
attacked she'd fight like a crazy woman. Anna'd seen that once when she was
putting in her requisite sixteen hours in the psych ward to get her emergency
medical technician's certification. A smallish woman had taken it into her head
that the orderlies were IRA out to kill her. She fought like a cat with its
tail on fire. Anna didn't relish walking into another buzz saw like that. Jennifer came
to a decision. From the light reflecting back off the snow, Anna could see the
silhouette of her head and shoulders as she turned left and started down the
south fork, the part of the creek quarantined because of Nims's body. A path had been
trampled to Leonard's temporary resting place but it hadn't had the foot
traffic of the other areas and it was difficult to walk without making noise.
Anna stayed where she was till Jennifer had gone ahead twenty or thirty feet, then
matched the other woman step for step. The corpse
could be her only destination and Anna felt curiosity overcoming fear. Nims had
lain in his foil shroud for a day and a half. Only once before had the body
been disturbed. Was Jennifer
the desecrator of his impromptu grave? Did she go now to take something else,
something important that Anna had missed? Or did she go to put something back,
either returning what had been stolen or planting an item intended to
incriminate? Or was the
visit unrelated to the murder? Images of the Donner
party and of the soccer players stranded in the Andes floated up in Anna's mind
and she suppressed a shudder. Not that she didn't believe in munching up one's
fellows given they were dead and you were starving. What are friends for? Anna
just didn't want to watch. And fourteen or fifteen hours without food hardly
constituted starving. Unless you were
crazy. As a citizen
Anna had nothing against crazy. It made for an interesting world and kept her
sister in a thriving practice. As a law enforcement officer, she hated it.
Winning was hard when your opponent was playing on a different game board. Absorbed in
thought, she took a step out of cadence and the racket of the ice crystals
crunching beneath her lug sole cracked so loudly she was surprised it didn't
set off colored lights like a Fourth of July sparkler. She froze, waiting for
Jennifer to stop and turn the headlamp on her. Jennifer didn't
even break stride. Her trudging steps kept falling with the regularity of a
metronome. Either Jen knew she was being followed and intended to lead her
shadow farther from the bivouac before she dealt with it, or she was so caught
up in whatever mental machinations had dragged her out in freezing temperatures
that she was deafened to all else. Neither
explanation soothed Anna's raw nerves. For a second she considered going back
to the shelter and rousting Lawrence or Stephen but decided against it. In the
time it took her to get help she could easily lose Jennifer. From now on,
Anna decided, she was going to the bathroom all by herself. The erratic
trail Jennifer's headlamp was blazing came to rest on the foil shelter shrouding
Len's remains. A circle of gold light eight inches in diameter—the battery
could produce no more— crawled slowly down the length of the shroud as if
looking for a way in. The aluminum fabric had settled close, frozen in wrinkles
and folds. Frost cloaked the shelter where earlier depredations had shaken it
free of snow. For the most
part, the corpse had ceased to bother Anna. Not because she'd had the ill luck
to see so many she'd become inured to death but because, as an EMT, she had
often seen the last of life struggling out of a crushed body that had been its
home. Life was precious if it was yours or someone you loved, death
awe-inspiring regardless of who died. But the husk that remained behind after
these miracles had transpired fit into two categories: revered garbage and
evidence. Anna's interest in both quickly became academic. Jennifer had
not yet come to terms with human detritus and, by the wavering of the lamp,
Anna guessed her hands shook. With a suddenness that startled, Jennifer dropped
the headlamp into the snow and collapsed to her knees. Using both hands as a
dog would use its paws to dig out a gopher, Jennifer began worrying at the edge
of the cloth covering the body. Bile rose in
Anna's throat and she wanted to look away but the action had her mesmerized.
Yellow lamplight caught the side of Jen's face. Strings of soot-blackened hair
fell over her jawline. Her lips were parted slightly, her tongue ghoulish and
pink against the coal-colored skin. Short's blue eyes were open wide, white
showing on three sides of the irises. So macabre was the scene—an image gleaned
from late-night horror movies—that Anna found herself more fascinated than
frightened. If at some point Short began gnawing hunks of raw meat from the
carcass Anna would step in if, indeed, what she was witnessing was a full-blown
psychotic episode. Fabric made a
ripping sound as it tore free of the frozen earth, exposing Nims's left side
and his face. Even the dirty amber of the dying lamp couldn't invest the dead
flesh with color. Crescents of white showed where Nims's eyelids had failed to
close completely under Anna's ministrations. Tiny
heartbreaking noises, the kind puppies make when they dream, percolated out of
Jennifer. Anna doubted she was even aware she made them. Juxtaposed with the
frantic pawing at the dead man, the noises made Anna's scalp crawl. Above the
ridge the high whine of wind through the snags sawed at the night and she was
put in mind of the Windigo, the flesh-eating spirit that haunted the north
woods. With clutching
motions, Short worked her hands up Leonard Nims's body, up the arm stretched
above his head then tried to drag it back toward her. Rigor mortis would have
passed off but Anna doubted he'd become any more flexible. Temperatures had
stayed in the mid-twenties and were dropping. Nims would be frozen stiff. The sleeve of
his yellow brush jacket was stuck hard to the ground. Jennifer swung over,
straddling the corpse. With both hands closed around its wrist, she pulled. The
puppylike whimpering increased in intensity, the cries closer to human. The fallen
headlamp illuminated Short's belly and chest as she tugged, each effort drawing
forth a small cry. Nims's arm came
loose with a sickening crack, either ice releasing the sleeve or the ball joint
in his shoulder snapping under the strain. Short fell back, her butt landing on
the back of the dead man's knees, the rigid arm thrust up between her thighs.
Struggling up to a crouch, one knee on either side of the body, Jennifer
wrestled with the arm. Awful sounds of dry retching underscored the ghastly
chore. She pulled the arm down behind her body where Anna could no longer see
it and the fight continued; the quick and the dead in bizarre combat. With a grunt of
triumph more awful in its glee than the previous sounds of suffering, Jennifer
achieved her goal. Snatching up the headlamp, she tottered to her feet and
stumbled away, farther down the creek bed into the darkness. Seconds ticked
by. Anna fought to control her stomach. Breath, cold and odorless, was sipped
in through pinched nostrils as if it carried the stench of the charnel house. Jen's light
winked out. Maybe she'd disappeared behind an outcrop. Maybe she just waited in
the dark. Anna stepped over to Nims. Shielding her light with her body, she trained
it on the corpse. His hand, the color of ash, two fingers broken during the
encounter, lay palm up on the snow, a dead white spider. Jennifer had taken
Leonard's glove. Confusion swirled through Anna's brain in a numbing wind. Why
on earth steal the glove? Nims's right
hand had lain palm up at rest in front of his face. With his body twisted up it
floated there as if warding off a blow. Anna studied it: a plain leather glove
with a small "s" in ink stenciled on the wrist. Nothing out of the
ordinary. Evidently only the left glove had any value. Anna turned off
her lamp and rocked back on her heels. She needed light, heat, food. She needed
a vacation. Vacation. Motive. LeFleur
mentioned Len had returned from vacation shortly before they'd been dispatched
on the Jackknife. Nims had been visiting his kids from a prior marriage.
Leonard had lived and worked in Susanville, California, for twelve years. Where
better to have left a family? Susanville was not more than an hour— two at
most—from the south end of Pinson Lake where the fire had started, where Joshua
Short had been killed. Nims took
kickbacks from oil and gas lessees; when in California, from lumber lessees. It
wasn't a great stretch of the imagination to picture him taking money for other
less than legal chores. Like scaring off pesky protesters. If Len had killed
Joshua—or if Jennifer believed he had—she had one of the best motives in the
world for sticking a knife between his ribs. "Damn,"
Anna whispered. Footsteps
retreating brought her back to the present. Jennifer was running now, Anna
could hear it. Logically, she should go back to the bivouac and get help, but
she couldn't shake the idea that Jennifer was a greater danger to herself than
to anyone else. Len's murder had been a crime of passion. Short meant to cover
it up but Anna doubted she'd be willing to kill again to do so. "Want to
bet your life on it?" Anna muttered aloud. Then she turned on her lamp and
started down the creek in the direction Jennifer had taken. Sharp pains
shooting through ankles stiffened by cold and immobility slowed her to a lumber
and she cursed her frailty. Each step made enough noise she could no longer
hear Jennifer. Several times
Anna started to call her name but thought better of it, afraid it would only
increase the woman's panic. Glimpses of Jennifer's light were all Anna had to
guide her and it appeared and disappeared out of the unnatural night like swamp
gas. Suddenly that
winking golden eye turned and stared back. "Jennifer," Anna called.
"It's me. Wait up." The words were so pedestrian they rang in her
ears, but her other choices, "Stop, police! Drop that glove!," struck
her as absurd. "Stay
back," Jennifer screamed, her voice guttural edges and cutting highs.
"I got to pee!" She turned and began scrabbling up the frozen
embankment on the northern side of the wash. Anna plunged
after, reaching the bank just as Jennifer's boots disappeared over the edge.
Clawing her way up in darkness, her headlamp slung by its elastic band over her
wrist, Anna wished she'd had sense enough to wear a hard hat. "Talk to me,
Jen," she yelled as she tried to find a grip on the frozen earth. Crusted
snow broke off and fell down into her gloves. Her knee banged against something
hard. "Talk to me." Anna reached
the top and hauled herself over the lip of the ravine. As soon as
she'd found her feet, she shined the light in a half circle. Jennifer was gone,
her tracks leading up the hillside toward the ridge. For an instant Anna
listened. Crashing sounds of flight reassured her and she started up the hill
following Jen's trail. Every few feet she stopped, listened, heard the
footfalls and pushed on. The way was not
particularly steep but it was mined with pits where the Jackknife had burned
well below ground level in pursuit of living roots. Snow and frost had
conspired to camouflage the holes and the ground was treacherous. Anna had the relative
security of following in Jen's footsteps and so made better time. With each
stop she could hear the distance between them had shortened. The last time
she paused to listen the rushing retreat was checked by a crash and a cry. "Jen!"
Anna hollered. There was no answer, not even the sound of running. Anna slowed
her pursuit, trained the faltering light as far ahead as she could, sweeping it
in short arcs, looking for any indication Jen's trail was interrupted or had
doubled back. Black post-hole steps led cleanly through the humps of white and
spikes of charcoal that gave teeth to the landscape. After fifteen yards or
less Anna's vigilance was rewarded by a splash of color, the lemon yellow of a
jacket designed to be easily spotted in a search. Collapsed in a
heap, Jennifer Short craned her neck and looked up at Anna's light. A wild and
staring look was in her eyes. Straggling hair half hid her face. Muscles along
her jaw bunched as she clenched and unclenched her teeth. Any illusion that
humans have somehow shed their animal natures was shattered. Anna stopped
where she was and sat on her heels, letting her lamp split the distance between
them. "Are you okay, Jen?" she asked conversationally. Jennifer
didn't respond. "I heard you leave the bivouac and got scared you'd hurt
yourself so I came after." In the
half-light Anna could see the rigid cast of Jennifer's features soften
slightly. "And, too, I had to pee," Anna added, and laughed. Short
didn't smile but the softening process didn't stop either. "To paraphrase
the Queen of England, I expect this is not a time you will look back on with
undiluted pleasure." Anna went on talking just to talk, to build a fragile
bridge between them. "You've had a rough couple of days. That's why you're
feeling nuts. Bad as it is, it'll get better. Cross my heart and hope to
die." Jennifer's face
grew slack, her eyes hooded. The transformation from stretched muscle and taut
skin was so marked it was alarming. The other at least mimicked life in its
energy and violence. This was the face of the comfortably comatose. "What
happened, Jen?" Anna asked gently, and duck-walked a couple steps closer.
"Did you step in a stump hole and twist your ankle?" Short nodded
and pointed like a very young child. "You
landed on your right foot?" Anna waddled closer. "Does it hurt?" A childlike
nod. "Can I
look?" Anna didn't get a "no" or a shake so she slipped
carefully down the side of the hummock that had tripped Jennifer. A depression
several feet deep and five or six feet in diameter held them both like mice in
a teacup. Short's left leg was curled under her, her right thrust out. Beneath
her left thigh Anna could see the fingers of Len's glove peeking out. The glove
was dark brown and stiff as if it had been dipped in chocolate and allowed to
harden. Anna was careful not to notice it. With both
headlamps on, shining not on them but on the reflective surface of the snow,
Jennifer looked like the heroine in a sepia-toned tragedy. "When you
fell did you hear anything?" Anna asked. "A crack or a snap?" At first Anna
didn't think she was going to reply, then she said, "A snap, I
think." Her voice was little, as childish as her movements had been. "Not
good," Anna said. "You may have busted it. I'll go get some of the
guys and we'll carry you back to camp and cut the boot off there. May as well
leave it on for now. It'll keep your foot warmer and act as a kind of a
splint." Huge tears
rolled down Jennifer's face. Their size and clarity transfixed Anna. These were
not shallow tears but flowed from a well of hurt so deep the pressures were
nigh unto intolerable. "Will you
be okay alone here for a minute? I'll be as quick as I can," Anna said. "Don't you
want to know what happened?" Jennifer's voice was drowned in tears. "If you
want to tell me." "Len
killed Josh," she said. "He was supposed to scare him off but he hit
him too hard and killed him. Then he set the fire. He killed Newt too, with the
fire." Tears filled her throat, choking off her words. Anna knew a better
woman would take Jen in her arms and hold her. Anna wanted to do it but she
didn't know how so she held the broken foot tenderly and waited. Jennifer must
have let Len into her shelter. When the firestorm was upon them he had told her
and she'd killed him. Anna set Jen's
foot down gently. Not wanting to focus on Short's grief-ravished face, her eyes
came to rest on the big chocolate fingers digging into the snow under
Jennifer's leg. Len's glove. It had fallen off his hand, Anna remembered. With
some misplaced idea of propriety, she'd threaded it back on the dead fingers. A
big glove for so small a hand. Abruptly Anna
clapped her hands close to Jennifer's face, startling her out of her tears. "Quick,"
she demanded. "Ten seconds or less: why did you take Leonard's left
glove?" Jennifer just
stared, her eyes panicked. Five seconds passed, ten, twenty. "I cut my
hand," she stammered at last. "My blood would be mixed with
his." Anna sighed and
shook her head. "That's what I thought." "DNA tests
would show that, wouldn't they?" Jen challenged. "Yes,"
Anna replied, and plucked the glove from beneath Jennifer by a finger.
"They will." Jennifer's eyes
flashed with sudden understanding. She grabbed at the glove but Anna whisked it
out of her reach. "Sorry. Nice try. I'm going for help." Anna heard
Jennifer beginning to sob as she walked away but she didn't look back. Chapter Twenty-Seven BACK TO A sturdy snag, Anna stopped just out
of sight of Jennifer's probing light. Before she moved again she needed time to
think. Wind was rising, slicing across her face like a razor. Her skin hurt
with it, her hands and feet ached with cold. Jennifer's cries found her but she
ignored them, her mind churning through the night's revelations. Len's left
glove—a large on his small hand. The right glove, the one not saturated with
blood, had an "s" in ink on the wrist, size small. Under the chassis
of the truck the first night, over badger, then again with the abrasion on his
little finger: Stephen fussing with his left glove. Because it didn't fit.
Gloves were so necessary to firefighters that an ill-fitting one would be
tolerated only briefly. The bloody left glove belonged to Stephen Lindstrom. It
had become soaked with Len's blood not during some awkward contortion of a man
with a knife in his heart, but by the blood pouring from the wound beneath the
murderer's hand. Stephen had switched gloves, taken the unbloodied glove, but
it was way too small. The rest of
Jennifer's story was probably true. Nims was Catholic—though there were cynics
who would say, faced with death, we are all Catholics. Searching for absolution
he'd chosen the wrong father confessor. Two things Anna hadn't recognized as
important at the time became clear. When she'd told Stephen Joshua Short had
been killed he said he was a friend. And when Stephen had been arrested in 1989
for obstructing traffic, Josh was arrested that same date in a gay rights
protest in San Francisco. Stephen either was or had been Joshua's lover. For the murder
Anna could forgive Lindstrom. Forgive wasn't the right word, the trespass had
not been against her. Understand then. The betrayal that she was having trouble
accepting was Stephen allowing Jennifer to cover for him. Landing Joshua's only
and beloved sister in the slammer for murder jerked the rug out from under any
sort of True Love Revenged defense he might be using to rationalize his act. Anna was
furious at Stephen for not being the man she'd come to like and admire and
furious at Jennifer for letting herself be used. The womanly virtue of
self-sacrifice didn't hold any allure for Anna. Teaching dogs to love their
leash. She glanced
over her shoulder in Short's direction and was surprised because she could see.
The jaws of night were being pried apart by the dawn. Fog had thinned. Scraping
her head back against the charred wood, Anna looked up. One, two... seven;
seven stars were visible through a rift in the ceiling that had held them down
for so long. Tears welled up
in her eyes. Stars. She'd not realized—or hadn't let herself think—how much she
had missed them. And the sun. If ever a girl had needed the sun it had been
over the last forty-eight hours. She filled her lungs as if it was the first
breath she'd drawn since they'd crawled out of their fire shelters. With oxygen
came clarity and Anna knew what she must do. Nothing. The glove was safe in her
pocket. It was Stephen's work glove; DNA testing should find plenty to tie him
to it and, since Jennifer lied about bleeding on it, nothing to tie her to the
murder. She'd get help, carry Jen back to camp and wait. Rescue would reach
them sooner than later if the clearing trend continued. Stanton could have the
glove. Stanton could have Lindstrom. Hunching her
shoulders, Anna pushed away from the snag. Jennifer had stopped crying or
pursued the pastime quietly. Anna thought to check on her but didn't want to
start the waterworks again. Mostly she didn't want to see Jennifer till she'd
cooled off. She was afraid she would say something unkind. Later, when she'd
rested and eaten, empathy might overcome anger. She'd call Molly. Molly would
explain away weakness in blame-free psychological jargon. Anna would believe
her. Post-traumatic stress disorder: Jennifer could certainly present a case
for it. Feeling kinder
already, Anna started back down the slope, following the light from her
headlamp and taking courage from the hints of gray brought by the coming day. Another light
joined hers at the same moment as a shout. "Jen! Is that you?" It was Stephen
Lindstrom. There was a murmured exchange then another shout: "Jen!" Since Lindstrom
wasn't alone, Anna shouted back. "It's Anna. Jen's sprained or busted an
ankle. Who've you got with you?" "Hugh"
came with the sound of footsteps on the snow. Anna's heart
dropped, still Hugh was better than nothing, if only marginally. Even with
Pepperdine's irritating but less than murderous bulk to ease the situation,
Anna was at a loss. If she sent Hugh for help, she and a crippled Jennifer would
be left alone with Stephen. Should she go herself, she'd be leaving a cripple
and an incompetent alone with him. If Stephen went, then he'd be out of her
sight. Anna was reminded of a story problem in third-grade math involving a
fox, a goose, a sack of corn and a rowboat. They'd all have
to go together. "Think the
two of you can carry Jennifer back without hurting her too much?" Anna
asked. "Sounds
like you're not planning on doing any of the grunt work," Stephen kidded
her, a light punch landing on her arm. Anna wanted to
punch him back hard for preying on Jennifer's grief and love of Joshua but she
managed only to flinch away from his touch. In the semidarkness it went
unnoticed. "There are
people for that," she said calmly. "Large people with muscles all the
way up between their ears." "What were
you guys doing way out here anyway?" Pepper-dine asked aggressively. Still
trying to make up for the incident with the Buck knife, Anna suspected. She
ignored him. "Jen's up
the trail a ways." She gestured up the hill and stepped aside to let them
pass. "Stephen?"
Jennifer called. She'd heard their voices. Anna held her
breath. "Don't, Jen, don't do it," she whispered to herself. "It be
me," Lindstrom called back cheerfully. "She
figured it out," Short cried. "Anna knows." Momentarily the
four of them froze in a tableau: Anna, Hugh and Stephen strung out along the
trail, Jennifer in her hollow of earth. Hugh broke it first, his head rocking
back and forth in a parody of the dolls used to decorate the rear windows of
cars. "What? Knows what? What's going on here?" he demanded of all,
and got explanations from none. Anna was
concentrating on Lindstrom. With the dawning light, she could just make out his
features. They had the closed desperate look of a cornered animal's. Either
he'd give up or he'd run. Should somebody try and stop him, he'd fight. Anna
had no intention of getting in his way. There wasn't a chance in hell she could
stop him without getting badly hurt and probably not even then. Running would
only buy him time and not much of that. Once onto his trail, helicopters would
track him down before the day's end. Stephen's face
set, his center of gravity dropped, he pivoted and sprang, lunging back down
the trail the way they'd come. Anna leaped aside. Hugh wasn't quick enough and
got knocked on his butt. Stephen would
head north and east, deeper into the Caribou Wilderness. Even with his strength
and wilderness survival experience the helicopter would pick him up. Anna
couldn't but admire his courage. Pepperdine
hauled himself to his feet. "Lindstrom killed Len?" "Looks
that way." "Are you
just going to let him go?" Hugh was trembling with relief or excitement.
Anna couldn't tell which. "Give me the knife, I'm going after him." Anna looked at
Hugh as if he'd lost his mind. She wasn't altogether sure he hadn't.
"They'll catch him later," she said. "He won't be able to get
far in the snow without leaving a trail a blind man could follow." "You'll
attack me but won't chase down one of your little pals, is that it?" Hugh
said. Anna let that
pass. She wasn't in a mood for setting any records straight. "Leave it
alone, Hugh. Let's go get John and the others and get Jennifer back to the
shelter." "Screw
that." Hugh wasn't exactly frothing at the mouth but specks of saliva had
formed at the meeting of his lips and he sprayed out spittle with his words.
"You'll go after him with John or Joseph but not with me. You don't think
I have the balls, do you?" "I have no
interest in your balls or lack thereof," Anna said. That was the
wrong answer. Hugh exploded, one meaty fist slamming into the other. Barging
down on her like an enraged rhino, he shot past, in hot pursuit of
self-respect. And Stephen Lindstrom. "Damn it,
Hugh, come back here," Anna shouted. Either he didn't hear or he didn't
care. Were Hugh unlucky enough to catch up with Lindstrom he was bound to get
hurt. In the heat of the moment he might even get killed. Nims, a jury might
excuse. Nims and Pepperdine, never. "Doggone
it," Anna growled. "I'll be back," she shouted to Jennifer. Lindstrom had
cut back down to the wash, crossed it and headed off at an angle up the far
slope. Above the bivouac the new trail pursuer and pursued blazed joined up
with the path to the hot springs and the going got easier. Individual tracks
became indecipherable and Anna tracked by what was not there; no fresh prints
leading off the beaten trail. Around the
thermal area much of the snow had melted and the rest would melt quickly.
Stephen was hoping to lose his trail. He was a clever man, but Anna already
knew that. At the top of
the low ridge above where Lawrence had killed his badger in what seemed like
the good old days, Anna heard yelling. Male and angry, it wafted over the rise
separating her from the thermal lake. Evidently Hugh had cornered his quarry.
What an idiot. Anna had been
alternately walking and jogging, nursing a stitch in her side. Now she quelled
the desire to sprint the last hundred yards. Exhausted, she'd be little use to
anyone and a danger to herself. Forcing herself to relax and breathe, she
walked through the vale and up onto the next ridge. Clear light was
touching the last of the fog and each particle of moisture caught it. Steam
roiling up from the lake, the mud pots, the fumaroles, glowed in opalescent
plumes. Bright and shadowless and surreal, the lake muttered and fussed, eerie
streams of color moving as if they had plans of their own. The yelling had
stopped. No one was at the lower end of the lake where Lawrence and Anna had
enjoyed their public bath. Quickly she scanned the periphery trying to
penetrate the moving curtains of mist. Grunting aided her search. Eyes followed
sound as a finger of wind plucked at the steam and exposed Hugh and Stephen on
the top of the crumbling bluff that rose out of the boiling lake. For twenty
feet beneath them gray-white earth, ridged and pitted, steam pouring from
hidden vents and runnels of mud hardened over the years, fell in a ragged
curtain down to the superheated water. Like two moose
in rutting season, they were locked together, a headless beast that danced two
steps forward and two steps back. Suddenly Anna felt desperately tired. She
wished she had a cattle prod or a can of pepper spray. Supposedly the stuff
worked on animals. This would be a good opportunity to test it out, she
thought. Dropping into
an easy jog, she took the long way around, following the ridge to where it
joined with the bluff above the lake. Footing in thermal areas was too
hazardous to risk unless one had to. Along the high ground trees were sparse so
deadfall and stump holes weren't much of a problem and Anna made good time. The shoving
match was still in progress when she got there. From the look of the ground
beneath the combatants' feet, it had been going on for several minutes, a
phenomenally long time to sustain a fight. The men's breath came in gasps and
grunts. Both were too engrossed to take note of her arrival. Standing back a
relatively safe distance, Anna shouted. Neither looked up. Energy could not be
spared. Locked in their grunting samba, they were working closer to the edge of
the unstable bank. Annoyance
turned to alarm and Anna eased closer. "Give it up, Hugh," she
shouted. "You're too close to the edge." Reason was a
thing of the past. Stephen was probably the better fighter but Pepperdine had
weight on his side and a score to settle, not with Stephen but with a world
that called him Barney and wrote him off. Huffing like a
steamroller, his boots digging up the soft soil, Pepperdine began dozing
Lindstrom toward the drop. "Stop
it!" Anna yelled. Pepperdine
started to roar, a low rasping sound that built as he pushed. Stephen was
losing ground. His boots scrabbled on the edge. Chunks of bank, riddled with
holes from eons of steam percolating through, began to fall away. "No!"
Anna shouted, running across the small clearing. "No, Hugh." Grabbing
his arm for leverage, she stomped down hard on the arch of his foot. Most of
the blow was absorbed by his heavy boot but she got his attention. Pepperdine's
heavy face swung toward her. There was no lessening of hostility when his eyes
met hers. Indeed, it was as if he'd been waiting for just such an opportunity.
As his fist drew back Anna threw up an arm to protect herself, afraid to dodge
lest she lose her footing. His knuckles glanced off her cheekbone. Falling
back, hands groping for something to hold onto, she wished she'd been a little
nicer to Hugh. Or killed him outright. Somebody
shouted her name. Her right shoulder slammed down with such force the air was
knocked from her lungs. Paralyzed, Anna slid downward headfirst. Sulphur fumes
burned her eyes and penetrated her skin until she could taste the stuff. Breath
returned in a rush and she sucked the stench of this local hell deep into her
lungs. Slowly the
sickening slide stopped. She didn't dare move for fear of starting the process
over again. Carefully, Anna opened her eyes. Head down, she was mired in mud. A
dam of whitish slime had been pushed up by her shoulder and kept her from
slipping down farther. Feet and legs were strung out above her. Without moving
her head, she could see the tip of her knee. Their weight was trying to push
her farther down; she could feel it press on her diaphragm and stomach. One arm
was pinned beneath her. The mumble and pop of the lake was nearby, just below
where she lay. Ooze, not hot enough to burn but hot enough to remind her what
waited below, soaked through the leg of her trouser. She shifted her
arm free, hoping to drive it into the muck to stabilize her position. Even that
small movement upset the equilibrium and she slid several more inches before
again coming to a stop. "Anna?" It was Stephen. "I'm kind
of busy right now. Where's Hugh?" "He's
resting." "Get me
out of here." For a moment she didn't hear anything and a terrible fear
that he'd simply walked away welled up in her. "Stephen!" "I'm
here." Anna couldn't
move to look up. "Get me out of here." "You've
got to listen, Anna." "No
kidding." "Len
killed Josh." "So
Jennifer said." "Not like
that. I didn't tell her all of it. Josh wasn't dead. Len knew it but he lit the
fire anyway. He was afraid Josh would press charges. Anna, he heard him
screaming but didn't go back. That's what he confessed." "Yeah.
Well. Whatever. We've all got our problems. Get a branch. Please. The blood's
going to my head. I'm going to pass out, Stephen." Anna heard the note of
pleading in her voice and changed the subject. "You set Jen up, Stephen.
Josh's little sister. That cancels out your defense." Anna'd not meant to
antagonize, she'd just needed to get the taste of begging out of her mouth.
Triumph, if there was any, evaporated in the silence that followed. Fear took
its place. "Stephen!"
Anna shouted. "I never
set Jen up," Stephen said. Anna felt such a rush of gratitude that he was
still there she could have cried had not every sphincter in her body been
squeezed tight. "When we came up here to bathe yesterday I told her Len
had killed Josh. I thought she had a right to know. Len being dead—I thought it
would make her feel better somehow. If I'd known it was going to push her back
into a funk I would've kept my mouth shut. I didn't know she was going to try
and get me off the hook or I'd've stopped her. I guess she needed to do
something for Josh. I wouldn't have let her, Anna, believe me." "Fine,"
Anna said sourly, but she believed him. "You're a swell guy. So get me the
hell out of here." "I can't
go to jail." "There
were extenuating circumstances," Anna managed. Sulphurous mud crawled in
her mouth with every word. "They'll go easy on you." "Sure.
Crazed faggot revenges homo lover. Juries love that. I can't go to jail, Anna.
It'd kill me. I can't be locked up. I'm sorry." From the corner
of her eye, Anna noticed the little dam of gray mud that kept her from falling
into the lake was cracking, beginning to fall apart. Chapter Twenty-Eight AS ANNA PRIED up an eyelid, Hugh
Pepperdine flinched away then squawked at the pain the movement caused.
"Don't sit up yet," Anna cautioned. He blinked up at her. His eyes
had a vague unfocused look. "What's your name?" Anna asked. "What
happened?" "Do you
know what day it is?" Anna asked, then realized she didn't know what day
it was. "Tuesday."
Hugh's eyes were clearing. They roved slowly over Anna's face. "Who are
you?" "You've
had a blow to the head," Anna explained. "You're probably concussed.
Do you know your name?" she pressed. "Shit.
It's you, Anna." Pepperdine closed his eyes. "What happened to your
face?" Anna reached up
and felt of her nose and cheeks. Hair, ears, skin, all were filled with gummy
whitish mud. Maybe Hugh wasn't as bad off as she'd feared. She'd scarcely
recognize herself. "Don't you
remember?" she asked. "I
remember coming up here after what's-his-name," Hugh said, eyes still
closed. "What hit me? My head feels like it's broken." Anna ran her
hands over his skull, touching lightly, looking for any abnormalities. She
worked her fingers down the back of his neck feeling for displaced or deformed
cervical vertebrae, checked his ears for fluid and behind them for the bruised
look of battle signs that sometimes accompanied severe head trauma.
"You've got a knot the size of an ostrich egg on the back of your head but
I don't think anything's fractured. You'll have a headache for a few
days." Running her
hands down his arms and legs, Anna pinched and poked and asked questions till
she'd satisfied herself there was no central nervous system damage. Hugh lay
still, letting her conduct her secondary survey. "Looks like everything
still works," she said when she'd finished, and: "You honestly don't
remember a thing after coming up here?" "I said
that," Hugh replied testily. "Is my head injury making you
deaf?" Then his tone changed to one of fear. "Why? Does that mean
anything?" "No.
No," Anna reassured him hastily. "It's fairly common. You get a hard
enough knock on the head, you forget the events immediately prior to the
injury. It's not like you forget all your past lives. It's usually just a
matter of minutes that get erased." Hugh seemed
determined to sit up at this point so Anna helped him. Groaning, he held his
head between his hands in the necessary clichй of a man with head pain.
"It feels like my head's the size of a beach ball and made of lead,"
he complained. "It'll get
better," Anna promised. "Can you walk?" He started to
shake his head then thought better of it. "Not yet." Carefully, so as
not to jar his brain, Hugh lifted his face and looked around. Streaks of blue
showed through the fog. The sun was not yet up but the light was strong enough
to paint the steam in pale shades of peach. "Where's
Lindstrom? I was chasing Lindstrom. I remember that much." "You
really don't remember?" Anna asked for the third time. He just glared at
her. She took it for a "no." "I got
knocked down the bank, almost to the lake. You pulled me out. Lindstrom hit you
and you fought. Stephen fell back, into the thermal area. You got knocked down
and hit your head." "Lindstrom?" "By the
time you'd got me up the bank he was gone." "He sank
in that stuff?" Pepperdine had the decency to look appalled. Anna didn't
reply. Pepperdine
worked his head gingerly from side to side testing its limitations. "Hey,
I saved your life," he said with sudden realization. "Yeah,"
Anna said. "I owe you a beer. Can you walk?" With help, Hugh
got to his feet. Half a dozen times on their slow walk back to the wash he
asked her again what happened, reminded her again that he'd saved her life.
Anna restricted her responses to grunts and nods as much as she could. It was
not beyond the realm of possibility that one day Hugh's memory of those minutes
would return. She was gambling that by then he'd be so in love with the story
she'd told him that he'd cling to it for the rest of his days. ENCLOSED IN THE artificial
night of the shelter, the others were just beginning to stir as Anna and
Pepperdine limped into camp. Outside the tent, John and Joseph Hayhurst were
muttering in low voices and stamping life back into their feet. "What the
hell happened to you two?" LeFleur asked. The last vestige of heat was
gone from Anna's mud pack. Not only did she look like the living dead but her
wet clothes had chilled her to the point she spoke like a zombie, through
clenched jaws. "Long story," she managed. "Jen's busted an
ankle. You'll need a couple of guys to carry her out. Let me dump Hugh and I'll
show you where she is." Anna pulled
aside the shelter flap. Paula, dutifully wearing her jacket, had nonetheless
curled herself around Black Elk, sleeping cold to keep him warm. "Everybody
make it?" Anna asked as Paula woke. She laid a hand on Howard's neck.
Pulse and breathing reassured her. "Not much longer now," she said,
and ducked outside. WITH THE FIRST rays
of the sun came the welcome sound of a helicopter thumping through the still
air. Common miracles but Anna felt blessed. Joseph and John
were carrying Jennifer, Anna trailing behind. They didn't even stop at the
bivouac, but turned south up the trail to the heli-spot. Two men met
them. Two clean, warm, well-fed men with a stretcher and medical gear. Neither
was Frederick Stanton, but Anna forgave them. "We've got a man with bad burns
down in the wash. Take him and the guy with the head injury first," she
said. "This woman's ankle's broken. She'll keep." John and Joseph
stepped to one side as the medics jogged down the incline. Young and strong and
handsome in their gray jumpsuits, they reminded Anna of Stephen. That life was
over and it saddened her. Up on the
heli-spot the pilot was unloading coolers from a shiny Bell JetRanger. Not
since Anna'd watched Cinderella's pumpkin metamorphose into a glittering
carriage had she seen such a lovely equipage. The pilot, a balding overweight
man in his fifties, helped Joseph and the crew boss to park Jennifer on one of
the coolers. Lawrence and Neil joined the group and the pilot set about serving
them with such good cheer they became heady with it. The adventure was over,
they were saved. Glory hallelujah. Everybody but Jennifer drank hot cocoa and
laughed too much. Jen remained shut in her own dark world. It would take more
than a hot bath and a good meal to cure what ailed her. The medics brought
Hugh and Howard up to the heli-spot. Paula walked beside the stretcher, her
hand resting lightly on the frame near Howard's arm. More helicopters began
chopping up the segment of sky above them. "Press," the pilot said.
"They've been buzzing around like flies for two days." The medics
loaded Hugh into the helicopter then slid the stretcher bearing Howard into its
slot. "Paula," he said clearly. It was the first word he'd spoken in
Anna couldn't remember how many hours. "Can I
go?" Paula asked simply. Gone were the sexual overtones that had once
accompanied all requests. "What do
you weigh?" Helicopter pilots were the only people on earth who got an
honest answer to that question. Few were willing to die for their vanity. "A hundred
and thirty-one." "Get on
board." As Paula was
buckled in, John nudged Hayhurst. "Maybe she can hang up her spurs, make
an honest man of him." "It'd save
him a fortune, that's for sure," Joseph replied. Pepperdine had
been right; everyone had known but Anna. The helicopter
departed in a frenzy of wind and noise. Left again to themselves, quiet
descended on the group, hilarity of relief evaporating as their losses began to
sink in. "That was
some story Hugh was telling," Neil Page said. "How much of it's
true?" Anna pressed her
cocoa into Jennifer's hands and poured another for herself before squeezing
onto the cooler close to the other woman. Jen would need any comfort that could
be offered in the next couple of minutes. Short couldn't but have noticed
Stephen had not come back. Anna guessed she was afraid to ask why. "It's true
more or less," Anna answered Page. Lawrence shook
himself as if a goose walked over his grave. "They'll never find his body
in that soup," he said. Anna made no
comment. "I doubt
they'll even try." LeFleur swirled the cocoa in his Styrofoam cup.
"That area is too unstable, too unpredictable. I'd be damned if I'd go out
there in a little rowboat and try to drag that lake. It probably goes clear
down to the center of the world." Jennifer's head
was sunk between her shoulders, her injured foot propped up in front of her.
"Stephen?" she asked quietly. "Hugh said
he lost the fight and fell in that thermal lake," Page said bluntly. Anna
shot him a dirty look. "My
fault," Jennifer said in a whisper so low only Anna could hear. "I
should have left well enough alone." "It
wouldn't have made any difference," Anna said firmly and wondered if she
was lying. She liked to think she would have figured it out anyway but there
was no way of knowing. To block
everyone's pain including her own, Anna thought of home and heat and Frederick
Stanton. Unconsciously, her hand went to her mud-caked hair. "How do I
look?" she asked Jennifer. "I look like shit, don't I?" Jen
didn't even hear. "Drink your cocoa," Anna ordered, and Short put the
cup mechanically to her lips. Neil Page
rummaged through the pockets of his brush jacket and produced a rumpled pack of
Harley Davidson cigarettes. Shaking one partway out of the foil, he offered it
to John. LeFleur looked dumbfounded, a man seeing the Holy Grail. "You had
these all along? You son of a bitch," he said, but he took the cigarette,
snapped off the filter and fumbled for a light. "There
weren't enough," Neil said, unperturbed. Anna stared at
the men lighting up. All those times Neil had been sneaking off to smoke so he
wouldn't have to share. "You
bummed John's last cigarette," she said, suddenly remembering. Neil's hand,
cupped around his lighter, froze for a second, then he flicked the lever and
sucked in a lungful of smoke. "Forgot I had my own," he said. Harley Davidsons.
Len Nims had been smoking Harley Davidsons the morning he'd come to the medical
unit tent. Page had robbed Len's corpse for smokes. Anna looked away. The helicopter
returned for a second load. Anna, Jennifer, Neil and Lawrence were loaded into
the back of the Bell Jet. One of the medics stayed behind with Joseph and John
to wait for the last trip. The shriek of
the engine blotted out all else and the machine lifted into the air. To the
east the sun burned through in a blinding flood of life and Anna felt
resurrected. Joy permeated her bones, dissolved aches, tempered cold. It was
grand to be alive. Short, crumpled
in the seat next to her, her foot bare and splinted with pillows, propped on
the bench opposite, experienced no such lifting of the spirits and Anna felt an
overwhelming rush of pity. Grief over the death of her brother would be
softened by time. Guilt over the horrible demise of Stephen Lindstrom would
not. Jennifer had been to the thermal lake. There would be nightmares. As
Garrison Keillor said: "Guilt is the gift that keeps on giving." Anna looked
away from the young woman's despair, stared out the window. The sky was touched
with a thousand shades of peach and silver. Below, in the shadow of a distant
ridge, the rising tide of light picked out a glowing spot of color. "Want to
see something pretty?" Anna shouted impulsively in Jennifer's ear. Jennifer barely
shook her head. "Come
on," Anna insisted. "It's beautiful." "No."
Jennifer mouthed the word soundlessly. "Look,
damn it." Putting a hand on the back of Jennifer's neck, Anna dragged the
woman halfway across her lap, directing her eyes out the window. For a moment
Jen stared without seeing. "Look down, the far ridge," Anna yelled. Then Jennifer
saw it, a tiny speck of bright NoMex yellow working its way purposefully toward
the rising sun. She shot Anna a questioning look and Anna nodded. Jennifer
laughed. "God, but that's gorgeous." She looked a moment longer then
straightened up, smiling. "I told
you," Anna shouted. A moment later she leaned over and yelled:
"Frederick's meeting me. How do I look?" "Like
shit." "You're a
pain in the ass, you know that?" "I
know," Jennifer shouted back. She took Anna's hand and held it till they'd
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